#but I am 85% sure so that's ok 8)

[tokidokitokyo]

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2024年8月31日

To be honest, August was really just an exercise in staying afloat. I was able to continue my little habits since I've been doing them so long that they are just something I do in my spare time. But anything else was really hit or miss! I also realized I had forgotten to set goals for August so I guess it worked out since I didn't miss any goals! Sometimes life just happens, so I try not to worry too much about it. Now with September and a new Japanese preschool year beginning (yes they follow the American system at this school), I want to try to focus on making significant improvement again.

実は8月が忙し過ぎて勉強じゃなくて他のところに集中しました。毎日の小さな勉強習慣をいつも通り続きましたが、他の目的は少し雑でした。後、7月に8月の目標を書いてなくて、実は目標を達成しなくても大丈夫でしたね。たまにそういうこともあるから、何とかなるのであんまり気にしないように頑張ります。そして9月になって、息子の幼稚園の新しい学年（そうです、日本風の幼稚園だけどアメリカの学年なんだ）が始まったので、これからまた上達するためにまた動力しようと思います。

August Progress

I spent most of my time in August on Listening and Speaking, and the least time on Vocabulary and Kanji. Listening was primarily listening to (children's) TV shows, podcasts, and conversations, and the Speaking study time I recorded was primarily conversations (with ママ友s and this time I recorded in-depth conversations with my son and husband because my son can participate in actual conversations when did that happen).

I feel like I did a lot of Reading in August but less Grammar and Writing, because I had so much going on and I was just trying to keep on top of all my responsibilities and also trying to get enough sleep.

In July I didn't do a study habit check-in, but let's see how I did in August:

Study Habit Check-In:

〇 = Great, △ = Decent, ✖ = Not Great

Read daily - read something almost every day 〇

Write sentences 4 times a week - definitely not, but that's ok, I was busy! ✖

Review kanji and vocabulary flash cards daily - nope, no, not at all ^^; ✖

Review 1-2 N3 grammar points weekly - I did review grammar points but it wasn't as often as once a week △

Learn 1-2 N2 grammar points weekly - I reviewed a couple of N2 grammar points but did not learn any new ones △

Listen to 1 podcast a week - yes! 〇

Continue to work on hiragana with my son - not sure where we are at this point, we are reading books and I am trying to pinpoint which characters he knows and which ones he doesn't know; characters like ちゃ and じ (I learned today these are called 拗音・ようおん) are understandably difficult for him; since we practice every day I call this a win 〇

September Goals

I'm super motivated for September, let's gooo!

I want to get back into my study materials such as:

新にほんご500問 (Kanji, Vocabulary, Grammar drills)

日本語総まとめN2 (Kanji, Vocabulary, Grammar, Listening, Reading workbook)

外国人のための日本語敬語の使い方 (85 Basic Expressions of Japanese honorifics for Quick and Easy use, aka Keigo)

日本の歴史366 (daily history lesson)

I also got really excited and checked out way too many textbooks on the Japan Foundation (Libby) so I'd like to go through those as well.

And finally, I'd like to take a tip from some of the ママ友s (those are mom friends) and start taking time on weekends to work on hiragana recognition with my son (very mindful). Making it fun helps keep his interest, and we are fortunate to have collected a lot of Japanese children's books in a range of levels to practice with.

How is your studying going? Any new study tips or new classes? Feel free to comment or DM me! Happy studying!

皆さんの勉強はどう？新しい勉強方法や授業を始めたの？コメントやDMをどうぞ！上達できますように！

[ongreenergrasses]

hiii friend, keeping you in my thoughts today. 💙

lmk if you'd rather i split these up into multiple asks since this is uhhh a lot of questions! i wasn't sure which would be Less Annoying

1. what's your favorite kind of weather?

2. let's pretend you have unlimited funds, space, land, etc. how many pets/animals would you own and what kind?

3. most embarrassing song on ur spotify/apple music/equivalent playlists. if u answer this one i'll comment with mine for fairness

4. what's your third favorite beverage?

5. share a line from a fic you've written and are never going to post

6. thoughts on spiders?

7. what's something stupid you're a little scared of? not talking like phobia-level i mean like something benign that you wouldn't run out of the room screaming about but don't go out of your way to encounter. mine is moths

8. thg ship you enjoy reading about but probably wouldn't ever write fic for?

9. favorite minor/background character in thg?

10. do you collect anything? if so, what and how many of them do you own?

lord. i started this and it deleted. anyway thank you for the good wishes!! and i love asks you will never annoy me with the asks, the worst that can happen is I’ll slap a long post warning on it

1. either 85 degrees, sunny, and not soul crushing humidity, or 15 below with snow and that very specific winter light. i currently live in an excellent place for these conditions

2. maybe a dog? sometimes the gf wants a dog. definitely chickens, i’ve always wanted them. we have 2 cats and they’re bonded so strongly and have such a good dynamic that we probably would only introduce one more. (nearly ended up with another cat this summer. barely restrained ourselves). also i’ve always wanted a hedgehog but I’m worried the cats would get pricked

3. HAHAHA ok there’s so many cringe songs. the most embarrassing is Not Strong Enough by boygenius. the reason that this is the most embarrassing is because i legitimately cannot stand boygenius

4. kombucha

5. this does Not indicate the context going on but here you go, from the notes app archive

It’s looming, it’s the year Luis will learn about it in history class, and they can’t put it off any longer.

6. they’re fine? one time i saw a pretty massive one on the shower ceiling at midnight and i heaved the most world weary sigh and was like you know what. this might as well happen. but usually i leave them alone or take them outside

7. barnacles

8. to be very honest…there isn’t a single thg thing that i enjoy reading that i wouldn’t try my hand at writing. i’m a massive multishipper (although you wouldn’t know it looking at my ao3) and at this point i’m so particular with what i read that yes i’ll poke around on ao3 a little bit, but i’ve learned especially in thg spaces i’m way better off just writing what I want to read. something that i’ve been turning around and around in my head is Finnick/Gale, because that absolutely fascinates me on so many levels and the people writing for that are incredible.

9. Annie!

10. i collect many many things! i am a Stuff and Things enjoyer. the one that pops into my head (because i am looking at it) is matryoshki. i have four, two of which were my mother’s. i’ve wanted to get a tattoo of one but unfortunately then it would remind me of my mother. i also collect vintage erotica, teapots, a very specific flavor of small wall hanging tchotchke things, and glass animals. i’m sure i’m forgetting some things

AMA day

[howlsofbloodhounds]

Enneagram wings/types next? OK BET YOU GOT IT I LOVE THIS SHIT

I'm putting in wings now and doing the types tomorrow bc it's 12am and I have to be up by 7 💀 I am tired.

But anyways HERE WE GOOO

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Delta + Beta (took seperate tests for both of them but got the same answer): Type 8, the challenger

Description:

Eights are natural leaders. Will and power sparkle at their hands. You want to rule the world and stand out, and you do so because you are the most outstanding type.

Core desire: To be independent

Core fear: Being controlled or harmed

Overview:

Ready to set your kingdom up, you step up into life with strength. Self-assertive and always showing a half-smile, you want the world to know you are here. Not scared at all. It showed you how harsh and dangerous things could be, so now it’s your time to show it how fearless and outstanding you are. Your finger tickles for power. You will never settle for something small, as you know you have the ability to go up and up. If you know how to play your cards and learn to control your over controlling obsession, surely you’ll thrive and inspire others as the star you are. Just learn to pick your battles and to connect.

What motivates you?

I can see you walking through long halls in slow motion while [insert your soundtrack here] plays in the background. Eight, you are the lion of the Enneagram. You love to be in charge, doing things your way as you think that’s the best for everyone. We appreciate that, 8 (shaking). 

Your life is based on protecting yourself from everything and everyone, but with an aggressive response. You don’t wait for the world to attack, you go first. You impact and establish what you want. Nothing more, nothing less… ok, maybe more is better.

How do you think?

Being soft? That’s for marshmallows. As they see you, they treat you. That’s why you worked really hard to build your powerful and respectable persona. You think the world is tough – and you are not wrong – but it makes you always be on guard. Nobody challenges you easily, and if they dare to do so, you fight back even harder. Enforcing your self-confidence and your self-assertive attitude. They see you as huge and unbreakable, and this image you project also reinforces your own beliefs. It’s easy for you to go around with your heart bursting with pride. You think your value relies on always being in control. Otherwise, you feel helpless and scared to death of being hurt.

90% independent: You’ll do whatever it takes to set your way

30% relaxed: You need to be in control,

so you can’t relax

85% confidence: You love empowering others

How do you love?

Love can be another fighting zone for Type 8s. You keep on restlessly demanding what you want from your lovers. You feel good when dominating the relationship and you try to fit them into your expectations or to mold them often. That could cause some tension or hurt the bond. But, there is a natural fighting instinct in you, if there is no tension and challenges to the relationship you’ll sooner rather than later get bored. 

Anyone would think that once you are in a safe place, like an intimate bond, you could lower your guard. But no, quite the opposite. The more vulnerable you feel, the more aggressive you can get. So it’s common for you to be competitive in love. If you open your heart, your lover should know that’s a huge deal. 

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Epic: Type 7, the enthusiast

Description:

The restless explorer. You are the one who’s always going after whatever makes you feel alive. You are like a Pandora box, nobody knows what’s coming next. Spontaneous, versatile and highly stimulated you’re up to new intense things.

Core desire: To be satisfied

Core fear: Being deprived

Overview:

Imagine one of those typical quiet Sundays where nothing happens and everything seems as deserted as ghost towns in western movies. Well, your life is the complete opposite. Even in a desert you can find something to do or goals to achieve. But sometimes the emotion involved in finding the oasis can make other water sources go unnoticed. Anyway, you know it’s worth it. Like a butterfly, you flutter around chasing beauty and joy. Life is a plethora of experiences and you want them all. You’ve got a thirst for life, but unbalanced as you are, you end up never getting satisfied. Life’s short, butterfly, focus on the flowers.

What motivates you?

Satisfaction and joy. Life is beautiful, mysterious and infinite. In some way you can’t stand the idea of leaving this world without seeing everything around and finding what’s out there for you. Every single moment of pain is even more painful if you think it’s a waste of time. As you fight against those feelings, anxiety cheerfully escalates in your mind just like king kong escalated  the Empire State building. Actions are slower than thoughts, which in your case seem to travel in a bullet train. Very used to that rhythm, your thoughts can lose track since you don’t really know what to pay attention to first. Everything seems so amazing and valuable!

Always dancing to Celia Cruz’s song, you feel like life is a carnival and pain goes away just by singing or thinking about newer and challenging ideas. It’s such a pity that you need to sleep, uh?  C’mon evolution!

How do you think?

Let’s go back to the King Kong’s scene. You may be wondering why on earth that’s useful? And you’re right it’s not. At all. I just wanted to show you how obsessed you are with doing only useful things. Relax and keep reading. Ok, back to the scene again. There is something we can highlight: the Empire State of mind. With this highly stimulated, resourceful and out-of-hand mind of yours, every seed seems to grow on your soil. But they can also perish while you go for another crazy idea that very same seed brought to your mind. Experiences are the wind that blows your mind, you feel easily amazed by worldly things. Your eyes, like the ones of a scientist, observe everything around you honestly thirst for knowledge. “Welcome to the circus of life!” Said the doctor who brought you to this world. Well, it was “circle”, but you heard what you heard!

90% curious: You’re energetic and always generate new ideas

30% focused: You have a hard time

trying to focus

85% risk taker: You can be impulsive

How do you love?

Love can be the most attractive thing for 7s. Remember when you first fell in love with someone and how your story became a movie you watched before your eyes as if you were in the front row seat? All those incredible sensations while “Fireworks” by Katy Perry was playing.  Do you often get lost in love fields? Does everything run fast and intense like the trilogy of Before Sunrise? Or do you want to live a love story like that one? Sights! You are such a 7!

And you should be glad. You are a huge fan of love since it represents the plenitude of life and it gives you unbelievable shots of energy to face life as it should be faced. But as soon as your idealization approaches reality, you can feel really disappointed and alone. It’s hard to compromise and stand by something that ‘s not exactly as you imagined. 

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Color: Type 2, the helper

Description:

The one who loves to help and take care of other people. You, the one who puts other people at the top of the list and delivers unconditionally.

Core desire: To be loved and needed

Core fear: Being unwanted

Overview:

All you need is love is your mantra. But sometimes you see love as an investment more than an energy that circulates side to side. You are the lover, kindest, the servicial one. Let’s see how this love engine works.

What motivates you?

Love is the most important thing to you, or better said “being loved”. As Bob Marley sings: Could you be loved and be loved?  you are always deeply expecting if the other loves you as much as you would like, and even more. Sometimes there is a subtle fear, will they stay if you are not making an effort to feel loved too? You feel called to help, to be generous, to hold up other people. That makes you feel good with yourself and worthy of love. You see the needs of people around you and feel the duty of fulfilling them.

How do you think?

You think you’re ok if you are being loved by the rest of the people. Of course, we all want and need love and be loved, but we can’t expect that only other people and their reactions, their decisions define our value; you think that the more you sacrifice for other people the more worthy of their love you are. Love is sacrifice, abnegation. For you, thinking and taking care of your needs is unfair, selfish and you can’t accept that. Being selfish is the worst thing to do, nobody loves who is like that. Everything in your life is measured by a bar that defines two poles: being good and helpful (+) or being selfish and thinking only about yourself (-). You feel that to be loved is required to renounce yourself but at the bottom is not a disinterested resignation but the price is in the whole action itself.

90% empathetic: You're a safe space for vulnerability

30% self-confident: You struggle with saying 'no'

85% needs approval: You always want to help and never get tired

How do you love?

Have you ever heard that song of The Cardigans: love me, love me, say that you love me ?. Well, I’ll take the risk to say that song was written by a Two, just for this part: Just say that you need me, I can’t care ’bout anything but you. In the love field, you are passionate and give everything to your beloved. You like the long and deep conversations that open the way to what is intimate and treasured by the other, that’s the most certain way to connect and win the trust and the love of the other person. That’s the best way to ensure there is a solid relationship. So, you usually seduce by paying special attention to the other.

If you feel you are losing your beloved person you can turn really possessive and intense by doing whatever to hold him/her back. To feel the right to ask something back, you do more valuable things, finally it seems the other person it’s in debt with you. These attitudes can be born from an unconscious plane which supports old beliefs that sustain dependent relationships.

Enjoy <3

(Also thank you for all the love lmao, I'm so glad yall like this stuff so much!!)

YIPPE THERES MOREEEE!! Guys look look. Here’s part one for anyone curious.

And also songs!! There was songs made for the enneagrams (mostly for types I think but can fit for wings.) Here’s Color’s called Two, here’s Delta and Beta’s called Eight, and here’s Seven for Epic.

I love this they feel very fitting for one of my favorite trios + beta. I can’t wait for the types next!

[jstarr86]

SORRY SO SHORT

CHAPTER3

NAT POV

2 MONTHS LATER

Oh god oh my god. I sat crying looking around my dorm, what the fuck was I supposed to do. I just had the worst news ever. College was done with me and my scholarship was being retracted effective immediately. Least what they said and what coach and some staff wanted. I had 60 days to figure out school. I walked down the hall to my best friends room. We had managed and pleaded every year to be in the coed dorms and as close as possible and this year got placed in a apartment and somehow together. He was sitting in his room Galina in his arms as they kissed and I felt bad for interrupting.

“Sorry, um I’ll just come back later.”

“Snickers, what’s wrong.”

“Nothing just ignore me have fun.”

“Natasha.” Joe said as I stopped, he got up coming to me and gently lifting my head. “You don’t cry, you broke your arm when we were 8 jumping out of trees and didn’t cry.”

“Um I have to leave, my I lost my scholarship.”

“How your on the deans list, what! Snickers what happened they can’t just-“

“I’m pregnant.” He shut up but his eyes widened and then his jaw slacked back open as he looked down at my stomach.

“You- what?”

“I’m pregnant Joe, I can’t play so they want to pull it.”

“That’s illegal they can’t pull it.”

“I can’t play-“

“So there’s a rule they can’t do that and besides you have amazing grades they can’t just drop you.”

“What do I do?”

“How, we ain’t been home since break-“

“Asshole I’m almost 8 weeks. Josh knocked me up on break.”

“When the hell did you guys even find-“

“Don’t worry we did, a lot.”

“Does he know?”

“No not yet hell I just found out.”

“So I know first?”

“Well duh I don’t know who else to talk to your my best friend and I can’t tell Josh.”

“Why not, wait your keeping it right?”

“Yes Joe you know I am. But I can’t just call him and be like oh yeah I’m pregnant.”

“Why not.”

“Oh my god.” Galina said as she hit him in the arm. “That’s not something to say over the phone. How would you feel if that was me and I said it over a phone call?”

“I mean what else can she really do.”

“You guys said he’s not far right? Drive there.”

“Actually that is a good idea beautiful. Snickers?”

“What do I say, I - we didn’t plan on this Joe we’re still kids, hell we are at different schools in different states, he, he wants to be in the NFL I- I’m gonna ruin his life.” I said starting to cry again at the thought of hurting him in any way

“Snickers uce loves you. You’re not ruining his life or yours and yeah we are young and this wasn’t planned but we got this, our families got us ok.” Joe got me calmed down holding my hair as I puked from nerves and being worked up as Galina went and got crackers and sprite from the cafeteria in our building. We then got in the car as Joe drove us four hours to Livingston. Getting there we found out Josh was in practice so we went and waited. I easily spotted him and smiled watching him. As practice ended he ended up seeing us and jogged up dabbing up his cousin before hugging me and pressing a kiss to my lips ignoring his teammates.

“Damn she thick.”

“Yeah and she’s mine.” Josh growled as I rubbed his arm. He was definitely a hot head and wore his heart on his sleeve. He didn’t compartmentalize his emotions like Joe or Jon. “What’s up Ma everything ok? Everything good back home uce?”

“Yeah but you and Snickers need to talk uce.”

“What’s up?” He asked looking at me.

“Go change baby.”

“You sure.” I nodded as he kissed me jogging off. I sat bouncing my leg nervously. Only stopping when my best friend placed a gentle hand on my knee.

“Calm down before you get sick again.”

“I’m scared Joe. I’m scared teddy bear.” He sighed hugging me

“It’s gonna be ok, I promise.”

“Aye what’s up.” Josh walked up quickly getting worried “what’s wrong baby why you upset.”

“We’ll let y’all talk.” Joe took Linas hand as they walked off the bleachers and started walking.

“Baby girl what’s up?”

“We gotta talk.”

“You breakin up with me? Find someone else?”

“No, no nothing like that, it’s worse.”

“You cheat?”

“No did you?”

“No.” He saw me nervous as he looked at me “Snickers talk to me.”

“I’m pregnant Josh”

“What? You for real?” I looked at him like he was crazy, like for real I ain’t drive hours for a joke “how? When you due?”

“Yes I’m for real I ain’t drive here for some bullshit I’m almost 8 weeks and it happened while we was on break and you couldn’t put your dick up.”

“Aye you wasn’t complaining when you was calling me daddy and telling me not to stop.”

“Joshua!” I couldn’t help but laugh as I pushed his shoulder. Grateful he’d made me laugh always making me feel better. I sat next to him as he put an arm around me “I’m sorry I’m ruining everything, you’re life.”

“You not ruining anything, timing may suck but not like I ain’t thought about kids wit you you know ima marry you one day.”

“You really mean that?”

“Hell yeah I mean it the fuck. So we havin a baby.”

“Yeah.”

“What about school? Your parents kno?”

“Well I obviously can’t play anymore but I wanna finish and no just Joe and Galina and us.”

“Ok so we need tell our parents but we got this, I don’t know what we fixin to do about school we in different states and Jon just bounced he wasn’t doing good and dropped. How we raise a baby apart, I don’t wanna miss nothin.”

“We got one more year we can do it. It won’t be but a few months between when I have the baby and us graduating.”

“You right but shit I’m still missin a lot what about appointments and all that and labor what happens when you have this kid?”

“Josh it’s four hours we I’m already freaking enough we gotta stay positive.”

“You right, you right.”

After spending the night in Alabama we headed back to Georgia and Josh very reluctantly letting me go but kissing my stomach. He’d spend the whole night his hand on my stomach. After I got back to school I doubled down so I could graduate early. Josh and I would tell our parents next weekend we were taking a few days and driving home. Joe of course came with me. We told Josh’s parents first and they both were shocked but excited. Jon excited and hugging us happy he was gonna be an uncle and Uncle Eki was happy everyone hugging us. We then drove to my parents house where it definitely wasn’t received the same, my parents weren’t happy and thought I was ruining my life and Josh’s and my father was especially upset about it. He looked at me and set Josh off with his words when he said I should have an abortion that we didn’t need children and essentially said if I decided to keep this child I was out of the family I would be disowned and cut off, My mom didn’t fully agree and thought that was a bit too far but didn’t say anything so I stood up went to my room packing what I could of clothes personal items and pictures I cherished and my favorite stuffed animal I’d had since I was a baby and with Josh’s help put it in his car since my dad said I couldn’t take my car since he’d paid for it and it was in his name. Josh went to his mom and dad house and put my stuff in his room and when his parents asked he said I got kicked out my family said get rid of it or don’t come home or call because I was making a mistake so my stuff was gonna be in his and Jon’s old room til we got a place after school. He then the next day drove me back to school. I was only there 3 months before I left getting my credits all early and went back to Florida using some saved money for a crappy apartment and getting a job at a furniture company that Joes older sister Vanessa owned.

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#5

Idk if anyone even cares but here's my thoughts on the Gen 9 starters!

First off: they’re all really lovely designs, yes even Quaxly. Kudos to the artists! I’m in love with these beans!

Fuecoco: I’m a huge fan of 'mons that are creatures disguised as objects. Applin definitely comes to mind with this guy, and that’s my only complaint- why is the Fire-type 'mon based off an apple?

...actually hold on. hear me out here- doesn’t he look kinda like a chili pepper? That makes a lot more sense, I’d have to look up kinds of peppers but that might be the basis! Ok going off of that, he’s a Very Good Lad and I can’t wait to see the fiery alligator he evolves into :D

Sprigatito: Words do not express how much I adore this cat. Yes yes yes I know we have like 2 dozen cat 'mons already and i do not care

I am mostly indifferent to the quadripedal/bipedal debate, vaguely hoping the final evo will be quadripedal but I’m 90% sure they're gonna be bipedal. Not getting my hopes up.

Anyways I mostly just want 'em to have a flower theme going on, hopefully the national flower of either Spain or Portugal since that's where people think the region is based! I just think that the nice green of Sprigatito would mesh amazingly with either red carnations or with lavender ok

Quaxly: Ohohohoho. I am aware a few people don’t like how this guy looks so much like Ducklett but I for one love this little dude. He is *vibing*. Also I have *thoughts* about the final evo possibilities so strap in folks

ok so he’s a sailor duck right? And I'm thinking and thinking about what he could evolve into, maybe a swan of some kind? what’s a sailor thing that meshes with that for a name? Wait hold on what about boatswains

So I'd absolutely adore this guy to become something along the lines of Boatswan. A swan-like 'mon, with a sailor hat and probably coat, complete with a boatswain's call. I just think that would be SO neat! ....i may draw that when I’m off work

ok enough rambling byeeee

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#4

I’m really out here drawing in this pose rn i

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#3

SPIDWR IN MY BED

SPIDER

ON M YFACE

I AM NOT OK

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#2

I think this sums up my life choices atm pretty well

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My #1 post of 2022

Listen even if it’s the end of the day, it’s a valid sentiment. Happy Single's Awareness Day to all us aros

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[askshivanulegacy]

All for blakk

O M G :’D

I’m not even putting this behind a cut SCREW YOUR DASHBOARD :P

A: Aptitude1. what are your oc’s natural abilities, things they’ve been doing since young?

Hiding.

2. what activities have they participated in?

HACKING, to include some questionably legal manipulation of the Intel mainframes for the purposes of playing a competitive game.

Swoop racing (actually just a dream, he hasn’t raced anything YET, but he’s working on building a racer)

Model building, he has a complete set of working model ships and vehicles

Built his own mouse bot

3. what abilities do they have that they’ve worked for?

All of his skills he’s worked very hard to develop and become proficient at.  He started out at a disadvantage, not being able to concentrate in class and having difficulty remembering things.  He worked very hard to overcome this.

4. what things are they bad at?

Anything involving emotions. :’D

5. what is their most impressive talent?

Knife fighting.  Also dancing, he’s capable of some very impressive dance moves.

B: Basics1. what is their hair color?

Black

2. what is their eye color?

Dark blue

3. how tall are they?

5 ft, 4 in / 162.5 cm

4. how old are they?

Depends, but he starts SWTOR at 17 years old.

5. how much do they weigh?

Somewhat under an ideal healthy weight for his height and age.

C: Comfort1. how do they sit in a chair?

Properly.  Although, left to himself on something comfy, he likes to pull up his legs and snuggle under a blanket.

2. in what position do they sleep?

Usually curled up on one side.

3. what is their ideal comfort day?

Before meeting certain people, it’s holed up in his room either working on his models or studying tech manuals.  After meeting certain people, it’s snuggled on a sofa with something sweet and hot to drink, wearing thick sweater and socks, and either watching the fireplace or a movie (with a fire in the fireplace).

4. what is their major comfort food? why?

Some kind of hot, creamy soup.  Certain people made something like this for him on cold days or to help him feel better.

5. who is the best at comforting them when down?

A feeeew people: Seran-vin ( @askcarminelegacy​), Ziminder ( @kaosstar​), Ahuska ( @dingoat​), possibly a couple others. ♥

D: Decoration1. how would they decorate a house if they had one under their name?

Blakk’s DK stronghold is typically done in cool colors with sleek, industrial lines and clean, minimalistic styles, although he does favor green, so that’s probably here and there.  Left to his own devices though (and maybe some interior decoration hints), his ideal house would probably be decorated warmly, with a more natural, welcoming style of furniture.

2. how would they decorate their child’s room?

Blakk would not have a child. XD

3. how do they decorate their own room?

Same as above, except littered with pieces of tech and various flying vehicle models.

4. what type of clothes and accessories do they wear?

The best in Imperial fashion - clean, sharp lines, asymmetrical styling, appropriate use of contrasting colors and accents, usually a darker color spectrum (unless white or silver).  No flowers.

Accessories include knives everywhere, a stealth unit, comms, Intel-tech grappling hook.  Less practical accessories include possible hat, white or black gloves (or dark green if he’s wearing green), earring (just one, asymmetry FTW), or choker. 

5. do they like makeup/nail/beauty trends?

No.  Except when disguised as a woman, then of course whatever is tasteful and stylish and matching his clothes.  Possibly sparkles and/or tattoos in interesting places if left up to Watcher Two. ;)

E: External Personality1. does the way they do things portray their internal personality?

Yes, very much.

2. do they do things that conform to the norm?

To the classic “Imperial norm,” yes.

3. do they follow trends or do their own thing?

Tasteful trends in fashion.  Other trends, generally not; Blakk is something of a lone wolf and finds it hard to group along with others.

4. are they up-to-date on the internet fads?

Not in the least.

5. do they portray their personality intentionally or let people figure it out on their own?

Blakk unintentionally does not portray his full personality.

F: Fun1. what do they do for fun?

See A for activities. Also, reading technical manuals.

2. what is their ideal party?

Not having one.

3. who would they have the most fun with?

Proooobably a certain Alderaanian noble or a certain Bothan. Or even a certain thief. 

4. can they have fun while conforming to rules?

Blakk certainly thinks he can. 8)  Imperial rules, anyway, no one mentioned anything about Republic rules

5. do they go out a lot?

Nope.

G: Gorgeous1. what is their most attractive external feature?

His eyes.

2. what is the most attractive part of their personality?

Probably his shy kindness or awkwardness.

3. what benefits come with being their friend?

Generally, he’s very loyal to his friends and honestly thinks the world of them.

4. what parts of them do they like and dislike?

Blakk likes his appearance; he’s not shy at all about being seen and being fashionable.  He hates the rest of himself. XD

5. what parts of others do they envy?

The ability of people to make friends or speak or hang out or have fun so easily.

H: Heat1. do they rather a hot or cold room?

Hot!  The hotter the better.

2. do they prefer summer or winter?

Summer!

3. do they like the snow?

No!  Except the indoor part with cozy clothes and hot drinks and cuddling.

4. do they have a favorite summer activity?

Nothing Blakk particularly identifies with the summer.

5. do they have a favorite winter activity?

Avoiding everything about the winter.

I: In-the-closet1. what is their sexuality?

A very in-the-closet Bi.

2. have they ever questioned their sexuality?

Not consciously.

3. have they ever questioned their gender?

Nope.

4. would/was their family be okay with them being LGBT?

What family? 8)

5. how long would/did it take for them to come out?

Still waiting, in denial 5ever, even after having a couple boyfriend AUs. :’D

J: Joy1. what makes them happy?

Sharing time with the people they care about.

2. who makes them happy?

Certain special individuals. ♥

3. are there any songs that bring them joy?

Probably, especially when certain people sing them.

4. are they happy often?

No.

5. what brings them the most joy in the world?

Someone telling him, “I love you.” It’s never happened.

K: Kill1. have they ever thought about suicide?

Yes.

2. have they ever thought about homicide?

”Thought” implies something deeper than a daily occurance. XD

3. if they could kill anyone without punishment, would they? who?

Blakk already does, but he has no one specific in mind.

4. who would miss them if they died?

Blakk thinks no one would.

5. who would be happy they died, anyone?

DERRICK @kaosstar​

L: Lemons1. what is their favorite fruit?

He doesn’t know enough to have one.  Raspberry might be a good contender.

2. what is their least favorite fruit?

Still doesn’t know enough to have one, but possibly lemons. XD

3. are there any foods they hate?

FLOWERS.

4. do they have any food intolerances?

Possibly. Blakk just needs to be careful he doesn’t overdo it with foods he’s not used to (his regular diet is exclusively nutrient bars).

5. what is their favorite food?

Nutrient bars.

M: Maternal1. would they want a daughter or a son?

No.

2. how many children do they want?

Zero.

3. would they be a good parent?

Blakk would be a terrible parent.  He’s not in a position or a mindset to care for a child, he might never be in one.

4. what would they name a son? what would they name a daughter?

Nothing.

5. would they adopt?

Nope.

N: Never Have I Ever1. what would they never do?

Blakk would never want to hurt the people he cares about ... but it’s happened anyway.

2. what have they never done that they want to do?

Race a swoop.

3. is there anything they absolutely can’t believe people do?

Probably not.

4. what is the most embarrassing thing they’ve done?

That one time he was swindled into going undercover at a strip club.

5. have they done anything they thought they’d never do?

Defect from Imperial Intelligence.

O: Optimism1. are they optimistic or pessimistic?

Very pessimistic.

2. are they openly optimistic, throwing it on others?

No.

3. are they good at giving advice?

Terrible at giving advice, but that doesn’t stop him. :’D

4. is there anyone in their life that throws optimism on them?

A good handful of people, haha.

5. were they always optimistic?

Blakk was ... once, in a part of his life he no longer remembers.

P: Personality1. what is their best personality trait?

Kindness.

2. what is their worst personality trait?

Negativity.

3. what of their personality do others love?

Probably the kindness and stubbornness.

4. what of their personality do others envy?

... Possibly his loyalty?

5. do they hate anything about their personality/about other’s personalities?

Blakk hates his lack of confidence and his introvertedness. There’s not much he actually hates about other people’s personalities, except cruelty. 

Q: Questions1. do they ask for help?

Never, if he can help it.

2. do they ask questions in class?

Rarely.

3. do they answer questions that make them a little uncomfortable?

Not usually, although there’s not much that would make Blakk uncomfortable in a classroom setting.

4. do they ask weird questions?

No.

5. are they curious?

Reasonably curious, moreso about things of a technical nature.

R: Rules1. do they follow rules?

Imperial rules, yes.

2. would they be a strict or laid-back parent?

Neither.

3. have they ever been consequenced for breaking a rule?

People have tried, in Republic space. 8)

4. have they broken any rules they now regret breaking?

Does blowing up hundreds of thousands of people across several planets count?

5. do they find any rules they/others follow absolutely ridiculous?

Mandalorian rules.

S: Streets - already answered!

T: Truth

1. are they honest?

Generally, but there are a lot of things Blakk lies like a rug about.

2. can they tell if someone is lying?

Usually; it’s part of his Intelligence training.

3. is it obvious when they’re lying?

No, unless it’s about his own feelings. 8)

4. have they lied about anything they regret lying about?

Oh yes. Or half-truths, or not confessing his feelings before it’s too late.

5. have they told truths that have been spread against their will?

No, but certain people have discovered truths Blakk would rather have been left alone.

U: Underdog1. have they been bullied?

Yes, even beat up a few times at Intelligence.

2. have they bullied anyone?

No. 

3. have they been physically attacked by a bully?

Yes.

4. have they ever been doubted?

Blakk has never told anyone.  He thinks “allowing” himself to be beat up is a severe weakness, and he’s pretty demoralized that no one noticed or stepped in.

5. have they surprised people with being good at something?

When it comes to fighting, probably yes.  He’s extremely agile, tenacious, and downright vicious.

V: Vomit1. do they vomit often?

No?  This is a very bizarre set of questions.  Clearly someone had no ideas when it comes to ‘V’.

2. do they get lots of stomach aches?

Possibly, when eating too much unfamiliar food.

3. are they good at comforting someone ill?

Not very good, but Blakk will sit with them and provide company.

4. what do they like as far as comfort goes?

Warmth and physical contact.

5. do they burp, cough, or hiccup most when nauseous? when vomiting?

Not exactly a very relevant question. XD

W: Water - already answered!

X: Xylophone

1. what is their favorite genre of music?

Generally something smooth and instrumental, like Classical.

2. do they have a favorite song?

Probably a few, or anything sung by a certain Alderaanian.

3. do they have a favorite band/artist/singer?

Just one favorite singer. So far.

4. can they sing well?

Blakk can actually sing reasonably well, he’s a tenor.

5. can they rap?

If his life depended on it?  Probably. :’D

Y: You1. how old were you when you created them?

Uhhh I do a terrible job of tracking what I did when.  Just about the time I started SWTOR, I created Blakk.

2. what inspired you to create them?

Blakk is the what-if Imperial universe version of my Jedi Knight Zakku’an.  The “what-if” brainstorming determined how his personality changed, and his appearance is the result of what I liked when changing Zak’s appearance with the character creator. XD

3. were they different when they were first created?

As Zak, he was very different.  More optimistic, friendly, and light-hearted.

4. do you enjoy writing them more than other characters?

Yes!

5. what’s your favorite thing about them?

Everything, especially how he has a chronic, “dig himself into deeper and deeper holes” problem. XD

Z: Zebra1. what’s their favorite animal?

He hates animals. Wolves.

2. do they like animals?

Not generally.  Although one day he will end up with a varactyl named Featherhead, an akk dog he will be Force-bonded to, and a pack of miniature blurrgs named after his friends. 8)

3. cats or dogs?

Neither? Both?

4. what’s their dream pet?

Since he’s never wanted a pet, he doesn’t have one.

5. do they have any pets at the moment?

Not at this very moment, but see #2.

@kaosstar I HOPE YOU’RE HAPPY XDDD

[tessenpai]

Kono Oto Tomare! Chapter 109 Scans and Rough TL

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Scans

Page 1

Chapter Title: #109 Words of Dawn

Chika: After what happened yesterday... Was everything alright on your end?

Side text: Chika taking care of Natsu...

Natsu: Kudo-senpai, good morning

Chika: Ou

Natsu: I'm sorry for not calling

Chika: That's alright

Momoya: ...I talked to Sei for a bit before his parents arrived.

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Natsu: He said that he won't approach Kudo-Senpai or the club anymore

Chika: ...I see

Natsu: ...

Natsu: Um, Kudo-senpai

Chika: Hm?

Natsu: -----

Natsu: Are you ok with exams coming up? They are almost here

Chika: You idiot

Page 3

Chika: Why would you suddenly pop such a terrifying question?

Chika: I completely forgot!

Natsu: Glad I was able to remind you before it was too late

Chika: You brat...

Natsu[thoughts]: "Would you give Sei a chance to apologize?"

Natsu[thoughts]: This is not something I can say.

Natsu[thoughts]: He destroyed everything important to him. Then framed him for that crime and exposed him to the world...

Page 4

Natsu[thoughts]: Sei's issues have nothing to do with Kudo-senpai.

Natsu[thoughts]: I am sure the only one who would find comfort in an apology would be Sei

Natsu[thoughts]: For me to stay in the club in the first place...

Chika: Hey, Momoya-kun

Chika: You got work today?

Natsu: Not really...

Chika: Great, then you are coming with me

Natsu: --Eh?

Page 5

Sfx: Tan

Sfx: Ta Dan

Mittsu: Introducing ☆ Tecchan & Takezou-senpai's intensive exams studying session!!!

Kouta: Give a warm welcome to Momoyan on his first participation!!!!!

Page 6

Sane: My sources have told me, that Momoya happens to have really good grades.

Mittsu: I heard that just paying attention to class he has an average of 85 points.

Kota: He is at a teacher's level. He is Momo-chan-sensei!!

Chika: With that being said, we leave Yoshinaga in your care.

Natsu: Nononono, what?

Sane: I'm sorry, Momoya, but the situation is dire. You see, Yoshinaga...

Sane: He said his average in middle school was 40 points, but when I calculated properly, I realized his average was actually 33 points, and 40 points was his best score.

Natsu: ...Are you freaking serious right now...?

Tetsuki: Kurata-senpai and I already got our hands full with these guys

Takezou: It would be really helpful if you could handle Yoshinaga-kun...

Page 7

Yoshinaga: I will be in your care!!!

Natsu: ...

Hiro: --Right about now, the guys must be in the middle of their studying session in Takaoka-kun's house.

Satowa: Momoya-kun and Yoshinaga-kun also joined them

Hiro: It's something I wouldn't have thought of when I met them.

Hiro: But really, I'm just glad we are not falling apart. That was what scared me the most...

Page 8

Satowa: Me too

Hiro: Hey, Hozuki-chan. Why don't stay sleepover?

Satowa: Eh?

Hiro: I will lend you a change of clothes

Satowa: I don't want to be a bother...

Hiro: Not at all! Moreover, I would happy!

Natsu: So, for now on Math. This, this, and also this. Drill them into your head.

Page 9

Atsumu: Yes!!

Natsu: You can just discard all of this

Atsumu: Eh!?

Natsu: The test is designed in a way you can get a pretty decent grade if you hold down the basics.

Mittsu: It feels like watching the old us with Tetsuki.

Chika: There were times like that for us as well...

Tetsuki: Why are you talking like it's any different now?

Atsumu: But Momoya-kun, you are so good at studying! I had no idea.

Natsu: Not really...

Atsumu: Ah, but if you think about it your brother also goes to Meiryo--...

Page 10

Chika: That's right, he goes to Meiryo. So both brothers are smart, huh.

Kota: That!

Sane: Both my older sister and younger sister are good at studying tho--

Mittsu: By the way, didn't you have the option to enter Meiryo?

Natsu[thoughts]: They worrying about me again...

Sane: What are you talking about Mittsu. If he did that then Momoya wouldn't have met us, whom he loves so much--

Mittsu: Ah there's that too!

Natsu: Eh? Us, whom he loves so much?

Page 11

Sane: Hm? You love us, right?

Natsu: ---...

Sane: I mean, after all

Sane: Just looking at your face when we discovered you were Uzuki's little brother. You looked like an abandoned puppy.

Kota: That!!! He was totally a puppy!!

Sane: He looked so heartbroken. That was the moment I thought "This guy really love us"

Kota: I feel you!!

Mittsu: I should have taken a picture of that...

Page 12

Natsu: ----guh...

Sane: Momoyaa!! What is this, you are completely red!!! Bahahahaha

Sane: I am so sorry-- I was absolutely right in everything I said!!!

Kota: Momoyan is blushing---

Mittsu: Guys! Take a picture!!!

Natsu: Wai- Sto-

Sane: Hey, look over here Momoya.

Natsu: Stop it, damn it!!

Page 13

Sane: That's no way to talk to your seniors!

Natsu: Leave me be!!

Sane[flashback]: You too, if you need something, lemme know.

Sane[flashback]: Moreover, I'd like it if you showed a bit more of your lame side!

Page 14

Natsu[thoughts]: ...Ah- Dammit...

Sane[flashback]: We will make sure to laugh at you about it.

Hiro: EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEH

Page 15

Hiro: You told Chika-kun that you like him!!? That you LIKE him!!??

Satowa: Hi-Hi-Hiro-senpai shhh, shhh!!

Hiro: Aaaaah, so-so-sorry

Hiro: Something unimaginable suddenly just happened, my heart cannot take it.

Satowa: I am sorry.

Satowa: I didn't expect it would turn out that way either...

Satowa: Those guys just kept going on about how Kudo was lonely and not loved by anyone. And Kudo too was just accepting that...

Satowa: ...I got really angry

Page 16

Hiro: And what did Kudo-kun say?

Satowa: Just after that, you guys came to help us

Hiro: aaaah, I see...

Satowa: But today he acter suuuuper normal, too. He might have forgotten already.

Hiro: No, there's no way...

Satowa[thoughts]: That too might not have held any special meaning after all...

Satowa: Even so, I am ok with it.

Satowa: It's such an important time before the tournament. Kudo was able to regain his smile. If the club is at peace, then that is enough for me

Page 17

Satowa: Speaking of, Hiro-senpai do you plan on confessing to Takezou-senpai...?

Hiro: ...Eh? Di- Did I ever sa-sa-say that the person I like is Kurata?

Satowa: Ah, no... I kinda thought that must be the case... Since you said Takinami-sensei found you out...

Hiro: No way--!!! I am so easy to read!? Does everyone else know!!?

Satowa: Ah, no... I don't think the guys have realized...

Hiro: Isn't Momoya-kun really good at reading people?

Satowa: Geh... Bu- But Momoya would keep it to himself...

Page 18

Hiro: Aaaaaaah---- but I see... aaaaah---

Satowa: I- I am sorry?

Hiro: No...

Hiro: I am happy.

Hiro: The truth is, I have always wanted to have this kind of love talk with you, Hozuki-chan

Hiro: Eeeh--- That kind of thing happened!?

Mittsu: Tetsuki's curry is delicious, right--?

Page 19

Hiro: We got too caught up talking---

Natsu: Your are all wrong

???: Chika fell asleep---

Hiro: Is the size alright?

Kota: rock scissors paper to decide bath order!

Natsu: Wait, are we staying overnight?

Sane: Of course!

Kota: ---Huh?

Kota: Momoya fell asleep?

Sane: Yeah-- so it seems.

Page 20

Kota: Even though he kept saying that he never slept at other people's houses

Mittsu: Our voices must have been like a lullaby

Sane: Shold we paint on his face?

Takezou: He must have been really relieved

Takezou: What happened this time must have been tough on Momoya-kun.

Sane: That's right

Chika: But my plushy...

Tetsuki: It's not yours, to begin with

Chika: I cannot sleep without it

Tetsuki: Just hug a normal pillow

Page 21

*No text*

Page 22

San-baka: Yes!!! We all passed our tests!

Kota/Mittsu: We did it, we did it!!

Atsumu: Momoya-kun, I got 40 points in everything!!

Momoya: ...I see

Sane: Yoshinaga is a loyal follower of Chikaism

Hiro: That's a relief!

Takezou: Yeah. There's only the matter of whether we are allowed to go to the Nationals or not left

Sane: It's fine! There's also have that proof video that Hozuki-san took!

Kota: Speaking of--- I haven't seen that video yet. What kind of video is it?

Satowa: What kind, you say...

Page 23

Kota: I wanna see, I wanna see!

Satowa: Umm...

Natsu: It's fine by me

Chika: It's not like anything interesting happened...

Chika[flashback]: I want to be with them.

Kota: Eeeh this is really well taken!

Hiro: The Hozuki-chan that when first got her smartphone just knew how to take photos in burst mode has come so far...

Chika: Y-you guys I think that's about enough

San-baka: Oh?

Kota: What is this, Chika-kun? Is there something you don't want us to see?

Chika: No, is just...

Sane: For now, let's just kick up the volume

Chika: Stop messing with me

Chika: Give me that phone!!

Kota: Hey, Mittsu, pass!!

Mittsu: Hey, Kota!!

Chika: Give me that, Kota!

Kota: Say no to violence!

Page 24

Takinami: What is this fuss all about?

Kota: !

Kota: Suzu-chan!

Takinami: You guys are so energetic.

Takezou: Sensei! Wh- What happened with the Nationals!!

Chika: Are we going? We are going, right?

Takinami: Calm down.

Takinami: As planned---

Page 25

Takinami: Nationals are in half a month

Everyone: Let's goooo, we are going to Nationals dammit!!

Page 26

Kota: Uh? The video is still going The screen is dark tho...

Satowa[in video]: Because I love him

Page 27

Satowa: ---Eh?...

Satowa[in video]: Because I really love Kudo!!!

Page 28

Kota: -----... This... is... Hozuki-san...

Sane: Ummmm...

Sane[thoughts]: I think we just heard something we really had no business hearing

Satowa: !? !?

Hiro: AAAAAAH----!!? Th-th-that is.. You know... That... You know..

Hiro[thoughts]: Hiiiiiiiii!!!!!

Takezou: M- Me too!

Takezou: I love Kudo-kun!!

Chika: !

Hiro[thoughts]: Kurata----!!!

Takezou: In the way you love a cute kohai!

Sane: ... Ye-Yeah!

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Sane: I love you too, Chika!!

Mittsu: I love you as well!!

Kota: Yeah, Iove you!!!!!

Atsumu: Me too!

Sane: Momoya, you too right!?

Satowa: Eh...

Satowa[thoughts]: No way...

Satowa[thoughts]: I recorded even that!? I cannot believe this, I want to disappear.

Kota: Look at that, we all love Chika!

Sane: You are so popular!

Takinami[thoughts]: What in the world...

Satowa[thoughts]: I made everyone really uncomfortable.

Satowa[thoughs]: Just now that we are going to the Nationals...

Satowa[thoughts]: To bring this weird atmosphere...

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Satowa[thoughts]: What do I do... If I ruined everything...

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Chika: Hey, Hozuki

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*No text*

Page 33

Chika: I really love you too, Hozuki!

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Satowa: ---Heh...

Page 35

Natsu: pff

Everyone: EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEH???

Side text: No worries about going to the Nationals!!

-------Kono Oto Tomare! Continues in the next issue!!!-------------

[qqueenofhades]

Re: the post you reblogged about Bush. I'm 21 and tbh feel like I can only vote for Bernie, can you explain if/why I shouldn't? Thanks and sorry if this is dumb or anything.

Oh boy. Okay, I’ll do my best here. Note that a) this will get long, and b) I’m old, Tired, and I‘m pretty sure my brain tried to kill me last night. Since by nature I am sure I will say something Controversial ™, if anyone reads this and feels a deep urge to inform me that I am Wrong, just… mark it down as me being Wrong and move on with your life. But also, really, you should read this and hopefully think about it. Because while I’m glad you asked this question, it feels like there’s a lot in your cohort who won’t, and that worries me. A lot.

First, not to sound utterly old-woman-in-a-rocking-chair ancient, people who came of age/are only old enough to have Obama be the first president that they really remember have no idea how good they had it. The world was falling the fuck apart in 2008 (not coincidentally, after 8 years of Bush). We came within a flicker of the permanent collapse of the global economy. The War on Terror was in full roar, the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan were at their height, we had Dick Cheney as the cartoon supervillain before we had any of Trump’s cohort, and this was before Chelsea Manning or Edward Snowden had exposed the extent of NSA/CIA intelligence-gathering/American excesses or there was any kind of public debate around the fact that we were all surveilled all the time. And the fact that a brown guy named Barack Hussein Obama was elected in this climate seems, and still seems tbh, kind of amazing. And Obama was certainly not a Perfect President ™. He had to scale back a lot of planned initiatives, he is notorious for expanding the drone strike/extrajudicial assassination program, he still subscribed to the overall principles of neoliberalism and American exceptionalism, etc etc. There is valid criticism to be made as to how the hopey-changey optimistic rhetoric stacked up against the hard realities of political office. And yet…. at this point, given what we’re seeing from the White House on a daily basis, the depth of the parallel universe/double standards is absurd.

Because here’s the thing. Obama, his entire family, and his entire administration had to be personally/ethically flawless the whole time (and they managed that – not one scandal or arrest in eight years, against the legions of Trumpistas now being convicted) because of the absolute frothing depths of Republican hatred, racial conspiracy theories, and obstruction against him. (Remember Merrick Garland and how Mitch McConnell got away with that, and now we have Gorsuch and Kavanaugh on the Supreme Court? Because I remember that). If Obama had pulled one-tenth of the shit, one-twentieth of the shit that the Trump administration does every day, he would be gone. It also meant that people who only remember Obama think he was typical for an American president, and he wasn’t. Since about… Jimmy Carter, and definitely since Ronald Reagan, the American people have gone for the Trump model a lot more than the Obama model. Whatever your opinion on his politics or character, Obama was a constitutional law professor, a community activist, a neighborhood organizer and brilliant Ivy League intellectual who used to randomly lie awake at night thinking about income inequality. Americans don’t value intellectualism in their politicians; they just don’t. They don’t like thinking that “the elites” are smarter than them. They like the folksy populist who seems fun to have a beer with, and Reagan/Bush Senior/Clinton/Bush Junior sold this persona as hard as they possibly could. As noted in said post, Bush Junior (or Shrub as the late, great Molly Ivins memorably dubbed him) was Trump Lite but from a long-established political family who could operate like an outwardly civilized human.

The point is: when you think Obama was relatively normal (which, again, he wasn’t, for any number of reasons) and not the outlier in a much larger pattern of catastrophic damage that has been accelerated since, again, the 1980s (oh Ronnie Raygun, how you lastingly fucked us!), you miss the overall context in which this, and which Trump, happened. Like most left-wingers, I don’t agree with Obama’s recent and baffling decision to insert himself into the 2020 race and warn the Democratic candidates against being too progressive or whatever he was on about. I think he was giving into the same fear that appears to be motivating the remaining chunk of Joe Biden’s support: that middle/working-class white America won’t go for anything too wild or that might sniff of Socialism, and that Uncle Joe, recalled fondly as said folksy populist and the internet’s favorite meme grandfather from his time as VP, could pick up the votes that went to Trump last time. And that by nature, no one else can.

The underlying belief is that these white voters just can’t support anything too “un-American,” and that by pushing too hard left, Democratic candidates risk handing Trump a second term. Again: I don’t agree and I think he was mistaken in saying it. But I also can’t say that Obama of all people doesn’t know exactly the strength of the political machine operating against the Democratic Party and the progressive agenda as a whole, because he ran headfirst into it for eight years. The fact that he managed to pass any of his legislative agenda, usually before the Tea Party became a thing in 2010, is because Democrats controlled the House and Senate for the first two years of his first term. He was not perfect, but it was clear that he really did care (just look up the pictures of him with kids). He installed smart, efficient, and scandal-free people to do jobs they were qualified for. He gave us Elena Kagan and Sonia Sotomayor to join RBG on the Supreme Court. All of this seems… like a dream.

That said: here we are in a place where Biden, Bernie Sanders, and Elizabeth Warren are the front-runners for the Democratic nomination (and apparently Pete Buttigieg is getting some airplay as a dark horse candidate, which… whatever). The appeal of Biden is discussed above, and he sure as hell is not my favored candidate (frankly, I wish he’d just quit). But Sanders and Warren are 85% - 95% similar in their policy platforms. The fact that Michael “50 Billion Dollar Fortune” Bloomberg started rattling his chains about running for president is because either a Sanders or Warren presidency terrifies the outrageously exploitative billionaire capitalist oligarchy that runs this country and has been allowed to proceed essentially however the fuck they like since… you guessed it, the 1980s, the era of voodoo economics, deregulation, and the free market above all. Warren just happens to be ten years younger than Sanders and female, and Sanders’ age is not insignificant. He’s 80 years old and just had a heart attack, and there’s still a year to go to the election. It’s also more than a little eye-rolling to describe him as the only progressive candidate in the race, when he’s an old white man (however much we like and approve of his policy positions). And here’s the thing, which I think is a big part of the reason why this polarized ideological purity internet leftist culture mistrusts Warren:

She may have changed her mind on things in the past.

Scary, right? I sound like I’m being facetious, but I’m not. An argument I had to read with my own two eyes on this godforsaken hellsite was that since Warren became a Democrat around the time Clinton signed Don’t Ask Don’t Tell, she sekritly hated gay people and might still be a corporate sellout, so on and etcetera. (And don’t even get me STARTED on the fact that DADT, coming a few years after the height of the AIDS crisis which was considered God’s Judgment of the Icky Gays, was the best Clinton could realistically hope to achieve, but this smacks of White Gay Syndrome anyway and that is a whole other kettle of fish.) Bernie has always demonstrably been a democratic socialist, and: good for him. I’m serious. But because there’s the chance that Warren might not have thought exactly as she does now at any point in her life, the hysterical and paranoid left-wing elements don’t trust that she might not still secretly do so. (Zomgz!) It’s the same element that’s feeding cancel culture and “wokeness.” Nobody can be allowed to have shifted or grown in their opinions or, like a functional, thoughtful, non-insane adult, changed their beliefs when presented with compelling evidence to the contrary. To the ideological hordes, any hint of uncertainty or past failure to completely toe the line is tantamount to heresy. Any evidence of any other belief except The Correct One means that this person is functionally as bad as Trump. And frankly, it’s only the Sanders supporters who, just as in 2016, are threatening to withhold their vote in the general election if their preferred candidate doesn’t win the primary, and indeed seem weirdly proud about it.

OK, boomer Bernie or Buster.

Here’s the thing, the thing, the thing: there is never going to be an American president free of the deeply toxic elements of American ideology. There just won’t be. This country has been built how it has for 250 years, and it’s not gonna change. You are never going to have, at least not in the current system, some dream candidate who gets up there and parrots the left-wing talking points and attacks American imperialism, exceptionalism, ravaging global capitalism, military and oil addiction, etc. They want to be elected as leader of a country that has deeply internalized and taken these things to heart for its entire existence, and most of them believe it to some degree themselves. So this groupthink white liberal mentality where the only acceptable candidate is this Perfect Non-Problematic robot who has only ever had one belief their entire lives and has never ever wavered in their devotion to doctrine has really gotten bad. The Democratic Party would be considered… maybe center/mild left in most other developed countries. It’s not even really left-wing by general standards, and Sanders and Warren are the only two candidates for the nomination who are even willing to go there and explicitly put out policy proposals that challenge the systematic structure of power, oppression, and exploitation of the late-stage capitalist 21st century. Warren has the billionaires fussed, and instead of backing down, she’s doubling down. That’s part of why they’re so scared of her. (And also misogyny, because the world is depressing like that.) She is going head-on after picking a fight with some of the worst people on the planet, who are actively killing the rest of us, and I don’t know about you, but I like that.

Of course: none of this will mean squat if she (or the eventual Democratic winner, who I will vote for regardless of who it is, but as you can probably tell, she’s my ride or die) don’t a) win the White House and then do as they promised on the campaign trail, and b) don’t have a Democratic House and Senate willing to have a backbone and pass the laws. Even Nancy Pelosi, much as she’s otherwise a badass, held off on opening a formal impeachment inquiry into Trump for months out of fear it would benefit him, until the Ukraine thing fell into everyone’s laps. The Democrats are really horrible at sticking together and voting the party line the way Republicans do consistently, because Democrats are big-tent people who like to think of themselves as accepting and tolerant of other views and unwilling to force their members’ hands. The Republicans have no such qualms (and indeed, judging by their enabling of Trump, have no qualms at all). 

The modern American Republican party has become a vehicle for no-holds-barred power for rich white men at the expense of absolutely everything and everyone else, and if your rationale is that you can’t vote for the person opposing Donald Goddamn Trump is that you’re just not vibing with them on the language of that one policy proposal… well, I’m glad that you, White Middle Class Liberal, feel relatively safe that the consequences of that decision won’t affect you personally. Even if we’re due to be out of the Paris Climate Accords one day after the 2020 election, and the issue of climate change now has the most visibility it’s ever had after years of big-business, Republican-led efforts to deny and discredit the science, hey, Secret Corporate Shill, am I right? Can’t trust ‘er. Let’s go have a craft beer.

As has been said before: vote as far left as you want in the primary. Vote your ideology, vote whatever candidate you want, because the only way to make actual, real-world change is to do that. The huge, embedded, all-consuming and horrible system in which we operate is not just going to suddenly be run by fairy dust and happy thoughts overnight. Select candidates that reflect your values exactly, be as picky and ideologically militant as you want. That’s the time to do that! Then when it comes to the general election:

America is a two-party system. It sucks, but that’s the case. Third-party votes, or refraining from voting because “it doesn’t matter” are functionally useless at best and actively harmful at worst.

Either the Democratic candidate or Donald Trump will win the 2020 election.

There is absolutely no length that the Republican/GOP machine, and its malevolent allies elsewhere, will not go to in order to secure a Trump victory. None.

Any talk whatsoever about “progressive values” or any kind of liberal activism, coupled with a course of action that increases the possibility of a Trump victory, is hypocritical at best and actively malicious at worst.

This is why I found the Democratic response to Obama’s “don’t go too wild” comments interesting. Bernie doubled down on the fact that his plans have widespread public support, and he’s right. (Frankly, the fact that Sanders and Warren are polling at the top, and the fact that they’re politicians and would not be crafting these campaign messages if they didn’t know that they were being positively received, says plenty on its own). Warren cleverly highlighted and praised Obama’s accomplishments in office (i.e. the Affordable Care Act) and didn’t say squat about whether she agreed or disagreed with him, then went right back to campaigning about why billionaires suck. And some guy named Julian Castro basically blew Obama off and claimed that “any Democrat” could beat Trump in 2020, just by nature of existing and being non-insane.

This is very dangerous! Do not be Julian Castro!

As I said in my tags on the Bush post: everyone assumed that sensible people would vote for Kerry in 2004. Guess what happened? Yeah, he got Swift Boated. The race between Obama and McCain in 2008, even after those said nightmare years of Bush, was very close until the global crash broke it open in Obama’s favor, and Sarah Palin was an actual disqualifier for a politician being brazenly incompetent and unprepared. (Then again, she was a woman from a remote backwater state, not a billionaire businessman.) In 2012, we thought Corporate MormonBot Mitt Fuggin’ Romney was somehow the worst and most dangerous candidate the Republicans could offer. In 2016, up until Election Day itself, everyone assumed that HRC was a badly flawed candidate but would win anyway. And… we saw how that worked out. Complacency is literally deadly.

I was born when Reagan was still president. I’m just old enough to remember the efforts to impeach Clinton over forcing an intern to give him a BJ in the Oval Office (This led by the same Republicans making Donald Trump into a darling of the evangelical Christian right wing.) I’m definitely old enough to remember 9/11 and how America lost its mind after that, and I remember the Bush years. And, obviously, the contrast with Obama, the swing back toward Trump, and everything that has happened since. We can’t afford to do this again. We’re hanging by a thread as it is, and not just America, but the entire planet.

So yes. By all means, vote for Sanders in the primary. Then when November 3, 2020 rolls around, if you care about literally any of this at all, hold your nose if necessary and vote straight-ticket Democrat, from the president, to the House and Senate, to the state and local offices. I cannot put it more strongly than that.

[aangsglider]

my favorite aang edits

this is basically for you @aangs-love

1. he

2. one of my favorites

3. hottest being this says it

4. ONE OF THE BEST ONES

5. Imbalance Aang gift from god

6. my most precious boy

7. MY FANCY DANCER NOT YOURS

8. I’m sorry but-

9. No I am demanding

10. “I don’t see why I can’t do both.” I DIE EVERY TIME-

11. yeah he

12. he’s most powerful anti’s are mad about it

13. If he was animated I swear

14. I think not ozai

15. THE CAPTION LMAO

16. HE IS LOML GET AWAY

17. I watch this on a daily basis

18. this fits so well I love it I love him

19. THIS THIS ONE RIGHT HERE MY COMFORT EDIT FORVER

20. aang in the headband<3

21. how can one person love a fictional character sm

22. guyzyyussss guys

23. HE’S SO BEAUTIFUL

24. filled w so much love for him this early, might be dangerous-

25. KATARA KNEW KATARA KNEW KATARA KNEW THIS IS SO HOT I’M SORRY ZUKO COULD NEVER AND THE LITTLE ‘me’ ON KATARA NO THAT’S ME

26. ozai only ever had a beard so he could grab it

27. strongest inside and out

28. adult aang hi hello my name is-

29. the caption ahahahah but he owns my heart help

30. no no no this one. I can’t even explain the feelings I get from this. The amount of times I’ve soaked my pillow because of it-

31. he deserves the whole entire world :(

32. THE PAIN CAUSED.

33. I smile so hard because of him

34. badzazzz

35. is adorable always

36. the purest boy

37. overload of love

38. SOFT CUTE BB

39. just...yeah :(

40. BEST FANART FOR THE BESTEST BOY BUT REALLY THIS IS ONE OF MY FAVORITES

41. some more imbalance aang because I said so

42. AANG SHOW ME YOUR AIR MARBLE TRICK TY

43. believers in aang supremacy are the best kind of people

44. so anyways if you hate him I automatically hate you

45. what’s his ring size again?

46. I’m always gonna protect him ok

47. currently messed up I forgot to save so if I put an edit in here twice sorry but pretty sure I didn’t but anyways this>>

48. do you understand how much love-

49. HIS BEAUTIFUL LAUGH

50. I’m the sheep

51. this one kinda scares me but the au is cool

52. caption yet again I must agree

53. I’M GONNA CRY CUZ HE IS TOO ADORABLE

54. youngest air bending master ever ofc

55. enough sadness

56. RING?!€ SIZE?!/

57. yee

58. NO I LOVE THIS ONE THOUGH SO VERY MUCH

59. THIS ONE IS PERFECT AND THE ENDING PLS-

60. I JUST HAVE SO MANY GOOD EDITS OF HIM SAVED

61. he’s just goofy kid

62. HE IS HEATHER HEATHER IS WHAT HE IS

63. bye time to cry again

64. hello one and only boy who will will ever have my heart

65. where is this editor gone I miss them sm BUT YES ZUKO HAS NOTHING ON HIM- CAPTION AND ALL

66. gogogogogogogogogogogo

67. unfair that he’s not real it’s so unfair

68. JUST PROTECT HIM AT ALL COSTS

69. mwah

70. me: hold my hand, aang: I’m already holding your hear calm-

71. ALL THE PLOT TWISTS FOR THE BEST

72. twinkle toes vibes from this

73. THIS ONE IS SO GOOD ALL ATTENTION ON THIS AND ON AANG

74. literally everything he went through and still comes out the most strongest and happiest boy ever

75. the audio just fits soft imbalance aang very well

76. king shittt

77. major one and only comfort character crying yes crying

78. I WILL GO PENGUIN SLEDDING WITH YOU ANYDAY

79. Imagine thinking there are better than him...

80. guess what he’s the mc, he’s the title and shut up

81. DON’T TOUCH ME

82. THE YAWN KILLED ME

83. I’m soft I’m emo go away

84. the moving..aang...comic...moving comic aang :D

85. why

86. I offer you more imbalance aang

87. go tf off

88. babiest baby

89. nobody can ever take this edit away from me

90. I’m gonna cry I’m gonna cry I’m gonna cry I just unbelievable amount of overloading love everyday and it hurts IS THIS NOT AMAZING THOUGH?!

91. THIS THIS IT’S BRILLIANT. SOMEONE TEACH ME TO EDIT SO I CAN EDIT AANG LIKE THIS EVERYDAY.

[due4amiracle]

Day 410

Listo:

Laundry/cleaning, Reading, Dailies, #TTRPGThings, Watching.

Laundry/cleaning - Picked up some bits here and there. 2 pieces of Laundry sorted.✔

Reading things - - No holds no holds NO HOLDS!. 129 for the year, 1 for month! OK SO? REMEMBER WHEN i SAID INSTA-BORROW BOOKS? Yea there were 3 more today. Shit. So now i’ve got four books checked out. - The Merciless Ones (The Gilded Ones, #2) by Namina Forna 100%! 3🌟Well dang, that was good. i sure do love me a “gasp you were the bad guy all along?!” - Her Majesty's Royal Coven by Juno Dawson 5%! Ooo! Interesting so far~ - Manhwa: Survive as the Hero’s Wife 2 chapters of this read Nope🚫! UwU♡ ✔✔✔🚫

Dailies - - Waifu Did mah dailies! Also, level 7/50 BP now~! AND! Tree lvl 28/50! Also! 24/40 max friendship namecards acquired! New MONTH! new weeklies! Chasm gem thingy is level 7/10! ♡ω♡✔

- Cozy Grove - Doot doot continuing to scout along! Scout rank 17/17! 18/21 besties! More stuff more things! ♡ω♡ ✔ New Season! It’s now Early Summer~

Shells - 99/254 - 39% Fish - 95/180 - 52.8% Bugs - 109/199 - 54.8% Flowers - 263/372 - 70.7% Cooking - 64/71 - 90.1% Raw Ingredients - 38/54 - 70.4% Materials - 51/63 - 81% Recipes - 396/3619 - 10.94% ♡ω♡✔

- Pokémon Legends: Arceus - Star 8/10 get! 174 caught, 104 max level research pages~.

|Alpha||Catch||MaxR/Total - Area |   49  ||   72  ||   70/85 - ObsiField |   47  ||   66  ||   64/75 - CrimMire |   52  ||   79  ||   78/96 - CobCoast |   49  ||   77  ||   75/90 - CoroHigh |   35  ||   71  ||   68/91 - AlabIce ♡ω♡ 🚫

- Coromon - ♡ω♡ 🚫

- Ooblets - 42/131 little frands, because why not track something. ♡ω♡ 🚫

- SWtOR - Up to 1d3h38m played time. ♡ω♡✔ UwU♡ ✔✔🚫🚫🚫✔

#TTRPGThings - Doot doot keep on workin’.✔

Watching things - - Think i narrowed it down to SAO Alicization. TBF i ain’t gonna start shit until steroids are done, so that could totally change. - Misfits and Magic episode 2!

Other things - Daily Diarrhea Diary - Good enough on this front. No shower, migraine made things miserable, and also Neuro’s office made things fucking miserable. All throughout the last couple years because Reasons You Know Them, i've been able to do Telehealth easily with my Neuro who is in the next town over, it's about an hour round trip. And with the price of gas lately? That's been lovely. Checked in today (as required) to make sure my Friday appointment was going to be Telehealth, and got this lovely gem in response: “We no longer get a list of the insurances that are still paying for the telemed. It is now the patient's responsibility to check with their insurance and make sure it is covered.” i have Medicare part A&B, i am dual eligible for Medicaid as well. There is no longer in a state of emergency (because everything is all gone! disregarding the new cases daily... anyways) and i have no idea whether or not i'm going to be covered. i'm not quite sure how often i have to see him for refills (i think it's every 6 months? But this appointment was 2 months later for... some reason i can't remember?). But regardless. Sir and i are squinting at it, and shrugging and... well. If i get charged i get charged. i need the appointment, and i am definitely not driving out there to it. So. Shrug. Other than that? Didn’t really get much done today. Very exhausted, very migrainey, very bleh.

Oh yea i forgot to mention i passed out yesterday. Or was that the day before? idk time is a flat circle.

But yea, tomorrow has to be shower, because Friday is appointment and start of Acthar. my appointment for my CPAP is the 9th! Yay. Or maybe it’ll be Monday? Maybe gonna reschedule. Unsure? But regardless of it all, gotta get the shower done tomorrow. Got red bull for it and everything!

Food: A Liquid: A Pain: D Brain: D

Tomorrow: Laundry/cleaning, Reading, Dailies, #TTRPGThings, Watching.

Ever Onwards and Upwards!

[adminbryantsaki]

ASK EVENT Open until July 31st

Hello people. I am just throwing this event out there to help bring more activity to my blog. I will be giving a list of prompts that you can pick from. Here is the list of my rules and characters I will write for. this event will be open for a month. It will be closed after July 31st

Most of the prompts are NSFW. So minors don't interact. There can be multiples of the same prompt. That's ok. Combos of prompts are ok too.

Prompts:

1. "Don't make me take you home and punish you."

2. "I never wanted anyone to fuck me this badly."

3. "You're not going out in that outfit."

4. "Don't give me that look."

5. "You're more than a one-night stand."

6. "Would you just shut up and kiss me already?"

7. "You want me to give you your book/phone/ item back? Make me."

8. "Like what you see?"

9. "Try to stay quiet, understand?"

10. "We're in public, you know?"

11. "I didn't know you were so sensitive."

12. "Don't be so brought, there can't be any marks."

13. "I really don't care. You still look hot and I'm trying to kiss/fuck you senseless right now."

14. "Are you sure? Once we start, I might not be able to stop."

15. "No, I'm supposed to be making you feel good."

16. "Make me."

17. "Stop teasing me so much."

18. "You're in trouble now."

19. "Take off your clothes."

20. "I'm waiting."

21. "First one to make a noise loses."

22. "Mine."

23. "We can't do that here!"

24. "Behave."

25. "What did you just say?"

26. "Come here."

27. "Watch me."

28. "I don't want to hear your excuses anymore."

29. "If you can't sleep... then how about we have sex?"

30. "Put that thing away!"

31. "Don't kink shame me." (Add what kink you want the character to have please.)

32. "If you interrupt me one more time, so help me God."

33. "I'm going to put clothes on before you say anything else."

34. "Tell me what you want."

35. "Bite me."

36. "If you insist."

37. "Could he make you feel as good as I do?"

38. "You're n-not, um, w-wearing anything under that, are you..?"

39. "Are you trying to turn me on or are you just that oblivious?"

40. "You fucking taste like candy."

41. "The only way you're getting off is on my thigh."

42. "You make a sound and it's game over."

43. "Just let me finish this/ this level and I swear I will go down on you until you cum three times."

44. "If I have to stop what I'm doing, you won't be able to walk for the next week."

45. "I could just push your bikini bottoms to the side, no one will notice."

46. "I haven't even touched you and you're already this wet."

47. "Were you just masturbating?"

48. "U-uh...no, I was just..."

49. "Want some help?"

50. "Shut up."

51. "Why don't you come over here and make me."

52. "You're so fucking hot when you're mad."

53. "We're not just friends and you fucking know it."

54. "C'mere, you can sit on my lap until I'm done working."

55. "What? Does that feel good?"

56. "I'm not jealous! It's just... You're mine!"

57. "If we get caught, I'm blaming you."

58. "We have to be quiet."

59. " Tell me again."

60. "You have no idea how much I want you."

61. "Say it." ( This is another 'choose the kink' option)

62. "If you don't like my teasing, then why are you moaning?"

63. "Wow, I didn't realize you were that... flexible."

64. "I'm gonna fuck you so hard that you forget you even met that asshole."

65. "You better shut that pretty little mouth before I put it to work, love."

66. "I think that's the first time I've heard you moan... It was like a fucking melody."

67. "I really want to kiss you right now."

68. "Then do it."

69. "You're not taking me to bed, ever."

70. "Who said it had to be on the bed."

71. "She may seem like lollipops and rainbows but I bet behind closed doors, she's latex and whips."

72. "Ah, he's playing hard to get. That's cute."

73. "For the love of fuck."

74. "Yep, that's me. I love to fuck."

75. "How do I look?"

76. "Would you reconsider if I was sober?"

77. "I'm sure I can get some kind of sexual gratification just from staring at him if I try hard enough."

78. "Don't fucking touch what isn't yours."

79. "You don't need to cover up the bruises/hickeys."

80. "I'm not sure if it's a sexual thing or not."

81. "We're.......Just friends."

82. "Friends don't do this kind of shit!"

83. "How quickly can you cum?"

84. "There's people here."

85. "I know."

86. "I don't care what you do, just fuck me."

87. "Fuck you."

88. "I'm up for it if you are."

89. "Don't ruin the sofa."

90. "I'll just have to cum inside you then."

91. "Stop dancing like that of I'm going to cum my pants."

92. "I'm not going to touch you unless you beg."

93. "You can't tease me like that and expect not to be punished."

94. "I'm gonna strangle you."

95. "Is that a promise?"

96. "You look a bit tied you, want me to come back later?"

97. "Stop distracting me."

98. "Were you touching yourself?"

99. "I know their stuffed animals but doesn't it feel weird? It's like they're watching us."

100. "That's probably the faster I've ever done that."

101. "Please, remind me again why we're having sex behind a tree."

102. "I know for a fact that you can be a hell of a lot louder than that."

103. "We've been at it like rabbits, How are you still horny?" (ABO ish ask)

104. "It was so worth the injury though!?

105. "Saddle up, love."

106. "Did you just look me up and down and then bite your lip? 'Cause If you did, we're having sex. Right not."

107. "Your ass is going to be seven different shades of red after that little stunt."

108. "God dammit, now all i can think about is you licking my cock like that ice cream cone."

109. "If I have to pull over, you won't be able to walk for the next week."

110. "Do you think they can hear us through the tent?"

111. "Yes we can."

112. "WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN MY BED?"

Tagging: @i-panic-at-the-disco

[acotartogfan]

Send a ship and #!

New year, new prompt list!

Since I getting bored of the first one, I made an entirely new one with new prompts.

Some Things to Note: [Read]

pick a prompt(s) and a ship*and send it to my ask box and i will write a drabble for you!

PLEASE SPECIFY WHICH PROMPT LIST YOU ARE ASKING FROM***

*i specialize in Nessian (angst) from A Court of Thorns and Roses, but I write for Throne of Glass too)

Links in case you need them: Askbox | Prompt List #1 (fluffier prompts)

If you like my work, send me more prompts! It inspires and encourages me to keep writing, and it gets the creativity juices flowing as well :)

1. “Why didn’t you tell me?”

2. “We could have had a future together.”

3. “Absolutely not. That is way too dangerous.” - “Come on, it’ll be fun!”

4. “Calm down.” - “Don’t you dare tell me to calm down!”

5. "you're not broken"

6. “You’ve changed.”

7.  “I’m leaving.” “Of course you are, that’s all you know how to do.”

8.  “But it’s my fault right?”

9. “I don’t want to feel this. I want to be numb again.”

10. “You’re lying to me again. Why can’t you just tell me the truth for once?” 

11. “I can’t lose you.” - “You already did.”

12. “Did it mean anything to you? Did I mean anything to you?”

13. “Maybe they were right, you never did change.” 

14. “How was I such an idiot, to believe that you, out of all people, could ever love me?”

15. “What gives you the right to just waltz back into my life after all the pain you’ve caused.”

16. “Don’t you dare walk away from this!”

17. “Any other lies left to tell me?”

18. “Let me go.”

19. “I would’ve done anything for you.”

20. “I loved you. I loved you so so much but you hurt me.”

21. “Sorry doesn’t fix everything.”

22. “Leave.”

23. “I can’t keep playing pretend.”

24. “Give me one reason why I shouldn’t leave.”

25. “It’s pouring rain why are you here?”

26. “I love you.” “You shouldn’t.”

27. “Where were you when I needed you?”

28. “Take my hand. Just trust me.”

29. “You’re safe now, I’m here.”

30. “You made me a better person. Thank you.” 

31. “I’m pretty sure (you’re/she’s/he’s/they’re) my soulmate”

32. “You are my family.”

33. “Kiss me.”

34. “Can we take this home?”

35. “You look happy.” 

36. “I didn’t know where else to go.”

37. "What are you smiling about?"

38. "Do you even care anymore?"

39. “Are you ok? You sound like you’ve been gargling glass.”

40. “She/he/they was nothing to you, was she/he/they? Then prove it.”

41. “He’s the only person left! He’s the only thing I’ve got, the last good thing in my life!”

42. “I had it under control! I had a plan!”

43. “So none of it was real? You didn’t mean any of it?”

44. “I could kiss you right now!” - “You’re very welcome to do it.”

45. "Whoa. Easy, easy. I've got you."

46. “what about us?”

47. “And that makes it okay?”

48.  “How is this my fault?” 

49. “Let go of me.” 

50. “Your eyes are really pretty now that I’ve gotten a closer look.” 

51. “Can you just make a decision? Please?”

52. “Don’t look at me! I’m a mess!”

53. “If you want to leave, we can leave.”

54. “Stars pale in comparison to you.”

55. “I would give up everything for the chance to see your laugh again.”

56. “Everything about you is amazing to me.” 

57. “are you sure this is legal?”

58. “You're supposed to be washing my hair, but this feels more like a massage.”

59. "I trusted you."

60. "You're dead to me."

61. “Sleep is for the weak.”

62. “Need a ride?”

63. “You can have Manhattan. I’ll go somewhere else?”

64. “That’s a terrible book,” - “What are you talking about? It’s my favorite!”

65. “Running doesn’t matter. I’ll hunt you down if I have to.”

66. “Are you going to stop me?”

67. “Did the power just cut so?” - “I think so. Help me look for the candles?”

68. “Are you trying to get yourself killed?”

69. “Do you really need all that candy?”

70. “Why are you here?”

71. “I can’t keep doing this anymore.”

72. “We're falling apart and you don't even care!”

73. “Do not call your child a raisin!”

74. “I’ll choose her happiness over mine every time.” 

75. “Kind of a pretty boy, isn’t he?” 

76. “What is that?” - “A cake, obviously.” - “Does it taste like cake?” “...No.”

77. “Can we take it home?” - “It looks more like a rat than anything.” - “Please?”

78. “You and me against the world, remember?”

79. “I can braid your hair for you…if you’d like.”

80. “I will always choose you.”

81. “You can’t have her and it’s killing you inside.”

82. “Just a few…more…lines…” - “You’ve been at it all night. Take a break.”

83. “He is very dreamy, but he is not the sun. You are.”

84. “You have yourself wrapped in thorns, and then you hate everyone who tries to touch you.”

85. “You loved her…that’s not a weakness, that’s a virtue.”

86. “Being like this, it’s torture. Sometimes I wish I could just turn it off. Turn it all off.”

87. “You don’t have to carry the weight of the world all by yourself, you know?”

88. “(Name)?” - “Yeah?” - “I’m gonna kiss you now.” - “Okay.”

89. “We’re a mess, you and I.”

90. “Just stay. We can figure everything else out later. Right now, just stay.”

91. “I prefer the view from up there.”

92. “Away you three inch fool.”

93.  “Tell me a lie.” - “I love you.”

94. “Please, I am begging you. No more lies.”

95.  “You’ve suffered through enough.”

96. “You think you gave me some sort of gift? You took a messed up girl and turned her into a broken woman.”

97. “I’m eating because I’m very uncomfortable.”

98. “Here, let me hold that for you.”

99. “It’s over. They’re not going to hurt you again.”

100. “___, please come. I’m sick.” “You’re what? I can’t hear you.” - “I said I’m sick!”

Send these into my askbox and I’d be more than happy to answer them!

[ieatmypizzawithaforkandknife]

MAG 019 - Confession (part 1)

Summary: Jonathan reads the first half of the statement of Father Edwin Burroughs, regarding “his claimed demonic possession.”

Our first two-parter! Not that I realized that when I listened to the episode the first time, despite it being right there in the title, because I have the observational skills of a blind muskrat...but I’m excited because I know there will be more multi-parters in the future. I like the episodic format right now, but I know that as Things Begin To Happen, I’ll appreciate the increased breadth and depth of longer stories.

89 Bullingdon Rd is the third street address featured in the series so far, the other two being 93 Lancaster Rd in episode 5 and 105 Hill Top Rd in episode 8. Unlike the first two, however, this one actually exists - kind of. According to google maps, the house numbers on Lancaster Rd in Walthamstow run from about 1 to 85, and the numbers on Hill Top Rd in Cowley run from about 1 to 75. But 89 is right in the middle of the range of house numbers on Bullingdon Rd in Cowley, and while google maps says there’s an 89A but not an 89...it’s close enough. On one hand it’s super cool that these locations are relatively real (the towns are real, the streets are real, it’s just the exact buildings that aren’t). On the other hand 89A is a little too close to 89, and I wish Jonny had picked a number completely outside the range of addresses like he did with the first two, just to avoid crazy fans descending on real people’s houses.

It is definitely worth noting the proximity of 89 Bullingdon Rd to 105 Hill Top Rd. They’re only about half a mile (or about a kilometer, since this is in the UK after all) away from each other as the crow flies. And for both of them, the location itself seems to be tied to the paranormal happenings of the episode(s) they’re featured in. In episode 8, Ivo Lensik feels that unnatural burning start when he’s alone inside 105 Hill Top Rd, which stops as soon as Father Burroughs arrives. In this episode, Father Burroughs feels that same unnatural burning start when he’s alone inside 105 Hill Top Rd, and it only stops when Ivo uproots the tree. And in this episode, Bethany claims her problems are being caused by the Bullingdon Rd house itself, though she doesn’t explain what made her think that. But it’s very concerning that she can’t seem to see the only creepy thing about the house that we’re aware of: the old Latin word written in faded blue paint on the exposed wall.

The word “mentis” is Latin alright, but Father Burroughs translates it as “mind” which...isn’t quite right. “Mentis” doesn’t strictly mean “mind”, it means “of the mind”. The endings of Latin nouns change based on how they’re used in a sentence, so if you’re talking about the word “mind” as the subject of a sentence (or as the word in general) it is “mens”. “Mentis” is specifically the possessive form of the word. I don’t know whether this was deliberate or accidental on Jonny’s part, since if you look it up the dictionary entry shows “mens, mentis”. (It’s standard practice to include both the “subject” form and the “possessive” form in the dictionary since they’re different.) It makes me wonder if this word was part of a phrase and if there were other words hidden under the wallpaper. (Also, small shout-out to anyone reading this who is also a Latin geek, and I hope I explained it well enough that the non-Latin-geeks also understand that explanation.)

On the subject of language, this isn’t the first time Latin has appeared in connection with the paranormal. Ex Altiora, the Leitner found in episode 4, was written entirely in Latin (including the title), and the Lord’s Prayer was written in Latin on that long strip of singed paper found in the second trash bag in episode 5. It’s interesting that the same constellation of details from the trash bag incident are also in this episode: Latin, Christianity, and burning.

Latin isn’t even the only dead language to make an appearance this episode. When describing his experiences performing exorcisms at the beginning of the episode, Father Burroughs recounts: “I was once cursed at in Sumerian by a young man who was illiterate.” In episode 12, the phrase muttered by the hospitalized man that seemed to summon the “lightless flame” contained the word “Asag”, which is the name of a Sumerian demon that could boil fish alive in their rivers. Father Burroughs doesn’t appear in episode 12, but if he had been at that hospital, I think he would have pegged that guy as possessed and wanted to have an exorcism performed. So is there a connection between Sumerian and possession and burning? And how do all the different dead languages that have appeared so far (Latin, Sumerian, and Sanskrit) fit together?

I am also very interested in that nurse, Anna/Annie/Anne Kasuma/Willett. (Seriously, how many names does one person need?) For my purposes, I’m going to call her “Annie” because she seems to go by that. In this episode’s statement (made in 2011), Father Burroughs gives her surname as Willett, and in Jonathan’s wrap-up at the end of episode 8 (which he recorded in late 2015 or early 2016), Jonathan gives her surname as Kasuma. As an older, fairly conservative Catholic (she was a member of the congregation at Father Burroughs’ church, fully believed in demonic possession, etc.), it is highly unlikely that she changed her name for any reason other than marriage or divorce. Ivo Lensik described her as “Malaysian”, and Kasuma is an Indonesian name, whereas Willett is found overwhelmingly in predominantly white countries (the U.S., England, Australia, and Canada are at the top of the list of countries where the name is found). So it would make the most sense to me if Kasuma were her maiden name and Willett a married name. BUT when Jonathan mentions her in the wrap-up to episode 8, he calls her “Mrs. Kasuma”. Since everything else fits with the idea that Kasuma is her maiden name and Willett her married name, I’m thinking Jonathan just messed up the honorific, since he also referred to “Miss Popham” at the end of episode 15 when “Popham” was very clearly Laura’s married name. (This overly detailed surname analysis brought to you in part by my ongoing obsession with genealogy. If anyone reading this has anything resembling a passing interest in the subject, feel free to hit me up about it. I will gush.) All of that nitty-gritty was not without purpose: I think she’s important somehow. I could be reading too much into things, but why would Jonny give her a name change if it weren’t somehow important? Even I realized the nurse from episode 8 and the nurse from episode 19 were the same person on my first listen-through, when I missed or forgot 90% of the details in any given episode, so I don’t think he was trying to trip us up. And she has a direct connection to 105 Hill Top Rd: she grew up on that street, and had a lot of information on the property’s history dating back to before she was born, possibly indicating her family lived on that street even longer. But we haven’t met anyone else with either surname, so for now that’s where it stands: possibly a lead, muddled with a probable mistake.

I was so glad when Father Burroughs made the differentiation in this episode between perception and will: “Bethany told me that her will was still her own, but she could no longer trust her senses, and had found herself doing much that she did not understand.” She tried to eat a small slab of slate, and she apparently couldn’t perceive the word “Mentis” that was literally written on a wall. This might be the first time that the author of the statement calls attention to the recurring theme I’ve been calling “altered reality”. This “altered reality” is a heavy presence in the second part of this two-parter, but I’ll wait to talk about that in that episode’s post. Coupled with this “altered reality” is the “eating of something you really shouldn’t be eating”. In this episode, it’s Bethany trying to eat a slab of slate before being abruptly pulled back to reality by Father Burroughs, only then realizing what it was. Hinted at in this episode, and shown in more detail in the next one (minor spoiler, I guess?), is Father Burroughs eating human flesh and only realizing what it was when the police arrived. The only other time I remember these two themes working in tandem is in episode 3 when Graham Folger ate a notebook. No one stopped him or made him realize what he was doing, so we don’t know for sure that his reality was altered, but it makes the most sense to me that he, like Bethany and Father Burroughs, truly didn’t realize what he was doing. I’m not convinced that the events of this episode (and the next one) are actually related to the notebook incident in episode 3, but it’s an interesting parallel.

On a completely unrelated note, I’d like to talk a bit about Father Burroughs’ “possession” itself. First off, I get that Bethany saying “I’m so sorry...it wants your faith” was supposed to be an ominous line, but why is that the only thing she said throughout the entire attempted exorcism at the hospital? She couldn’t even say, “Hey, man, this isn’t working”? All she could do was look at him with pity and say that? I’d be OK with those being her only words if whatever was “possessing” her also affected her speech the way it did to Father Burroughs later...but she specifically established that she was free to speak and act as she wished, it was only at certain times that her perception of reality was altered. So I’m a little annoyed at her for not giving Father Burroughs (or us) any kind of useful warning or helpful information during the failed exorcism.

I was really confused by the apparent theft of the sacramental wine, too. What was the significance of that? Was it just an example of something weird Father Burroughs noticed that keyed him in to the fact that All Was Not Well, or was there something more to it? (This is only a semi-rhetorical question - if the answer to this was said outright or implied in this episode and it isn’t a post-S1 spoiler, please do fill me in. I sometimes miss stuff that’s super obvious to other people.)

I also find it interesting that he can say “God” towards the end of this episode. He stumbled over it, but by contrast he was completely unable to say “Lord” and “Jesus” at the very beginning. Not sure if this is significant, since there’s no real difference between the words “Lord” and “God” in my estimation. Jesus is specifically Christian, and while “Lord” tends to be associated with Christianity, it’s not exclusive. “God” is the most general of the three terms, yes, but in context he is very obviously referring to the Christian “God”, so his difficulty with getting certain words out isn’t based solely on their contextual meaning. Jonny could have written it without him getting out the word “God” at the end and I think most people listening would have understood that’s the word he was going for. It’s either some kind of clue, or Jonny just got sick of stuttering.

Father Burroughs’ call for protection is the point at which he knows something is Very, Very Wrong, as he feels his lips move even though he himself isn’t moving them. But, as with so many of these stories, Things Were Bad Long Before You Realized It. Bethany told him “it wants your faith” years before the Hill Top Rd incident. He himself admits that his pride led to his downfall, since he initiated an exorcism/blessing on Hill Top Rd when he wasn’t supposed to be doing them at all. But it wasn’t just his pride - it was something taking advantage of his pride. I think that, as much as any person can be, Father Burroughs was a victim of whatever possessed him. He made mistakes in his life - his sins, if you’re looking at it religiously, as he did - but he never wanted to be evil or commit crimes like cannibalism. Like the characters in so many of these stories, I don’t think he deserved what he got, and I mostly just feel bad for him.

His call for protection, he says, was answered by something that was not God, and when Jonathan reads the words that Father Burroughs’ lips were forming (“I am not for you. I am marked.”) we once again hear that creepy static or interference. And I still can’t decide if this is supposed to be some kind of clue or if it’s just to make things creepier. It feels like a clue, but I can’t figure out what exactly it’s supposed to mean. Most of the times I’ve noted it appearing (probably not a complete list - I’m working on it) it appears during a specific quoted phrase or instance of someone speaking: “Can I have a cigarette?” in episode 1. “Isn’t it funny, Amy, how you can live so near and never notice. I’ll need to return the visit someday” from not-Graham in episode 3. “Some hungers are too strong to be denied” from Angela in episode 14. Laura’s sister Elena asking her “how lost I was, in a low, grating voice” in episode 15. If the examples were limited to things like this, then I’d say that it occurs whenever some as-yet-undetermined otherworldly monster is given a human voice to speak through. But it also occurs the first time Ex Altiora is said in episode 4 and the first time The Boneturner’s Tale is said in episode 17, as well as two different moments during the recounting of the story inside TBT. So how is it connected to the Leitners? It didn’t occur when Jonathan read the title Key of Solomon in episode 4, which is implied to be a Leitner. And there’ve been a few other occurrences where something obviously supernatural is happening but that doesn’t involve speech or quoted words at all: When Laura describes the light changing from appearing like an approaching candle to sunlight (which it still wasn’t...) in episode 15, and when Jonathan reads the description of the bleeding books in episode 17 (”red dripped and pulsed from the cart”).

I don’t know what to make of the creepy static yet. But my specific concern with the most recent instance, when Father Burroughs “said” “I am not for you. I am marked” is: Who are the “I” and the “you” referring to? Is the “I” supposed to be Father Burroughs, or the thing “possessing” him? And who on earth is the “you”?

This post is part of a series where I write my thoughts about each episode and obsessively connect dots in an effort to figure out The Big Mysteries of the series. All posts in this series are tagged “is this liveblogging?” Comments and messages are welcome but I have only listened to season 1, so I ask that you not spoil me for anything beyond episode 40. In the words of Jonny Sims…thanks for listening!

[anepiphany]

okay wait everyone is doing these cute posts about their moots and so i’d like to write out what havoc a team of one of my mutuals and i would wreck if we were in the bau:

(this is me being dumb at 2 am and i’m definitely going to make some cute sort of post too but i felt like doing this)

((also this took me forever to do lmao so if there’s anyone i forgot i swear it is nothing against you i just did moots i felt like i knew well enough to explain this for))

@ellegreenawy : y’all celie and i would be an iconic team because we come up with so many good ideas but our best ideas are always in the middle of the night. so you best know if reid ain’t solving the case, celie and i crack it at 2 am. also, celie is definitely rossi’s favorite. she’s the only person he lets cook with him regularly, and i’m the one who definitely got distracted and forgot to put water in the pasta pot so i ended up setting the pasta on fire so i am banned from the kitchen most of the time (it’s not that i can’t cook, it’s that i got distracted that one time and rossi refuses to believe me). oh and her and i would definitely write a book together the way rossi did. and we’d guest lecture together too.

@babyblockcolorcat : fabs and i would def be in seasons 8-9 of cm together and we would get nothing done because this girl would not be able to function around alex blake. but also faby would rock a blazer. her and em definitely share a closet. faby around alex is like reid around practically any girl in the early seasons, and it’s kind of adorable but also the rest of us (me and the team) are standing around like “why the fuck is alex so oblivious” (of course this is an au where alex isn’t married). i mean the whole “good morning, faby!” from alex and then faby accidentally walks into a pole and spills her coffee

@reidsemily : bro bekah and i would be an elite partnership. we definitely spend our free time with penny and morgan because i feel like the four of us would be iconic together. also if we’re called in for a case in the middle of the night her and i are definitely the ones that show up and chug five cups of coffee before we can even say a word. and then someone (probably jj) is going to point out that my blazer is inside out and that bekah is wear two different shoes and we’re just going to drink another cup of coffee

@linguinereid : i would love to hear conversations between bee and reid because i’d probably learn more from them than my entire school life. bee is definitely a major part as to why we can solve all these cases, and i feel like her and i interrogating a suspect together would be interesting. i’d probably talk enough to bore the unsub to death, and then bee would just say things and psychoanalyze the suspect until they broke

@ssaemilyprentits : okay so i feel like steph and morgan have been in a prank war since she started working at the bau and somehow i got involved in it and now we’re just this chaotic mess of “ok ani wait you distract morgan and i’ll go mix salt into his coffee” and “steph keep derek busy so i can go and stick this sign that has his phone number and ‘call me for foot massages’ written on it on the back of his car”

@whiskey-fluent and @jenniferxprentiss : i wholeheartedly believe that h and ash would be the most sarcastic and upfront agents. like straight up would make the suspects tremble during interrogation. and they’d always be sent to do stuff together; they’d be the dream team. i know technically i don’t fit into this equation but like their energy together as fbi agents would be immaculate so i needed to talk about it. like that one episode where the unsub is morgan’s cousin’s husband who forced her to marry him and jj and emily walk into the interrogation room and are conversing about will and henry? yeah, that’s h and ash. i’d probably be penny in the trio.

@heat-waveee : ok i think lb and i would honestly be a very productive duo during work. like she’d def keep my procrastination in check on paperwork days and we’d be good at finding info together during cases. and lb would be great at talking to eyewitnesses and friends/family of the victim(s). but when the case is over? we’d be insane. like at dinner parties with the team, nights out at the bar- we’d be going crazy. oh also we’d be crushing on em so much

@apologetically-apologetic : so abbie and i would be great at coming up with theories because in the short amount of time i’ve talked to her we’ve had so many genius ideas. i think we’d observe crime scenes and just piggyback theories onto each other until we figure out a fairly solid one and then use evidence we find later and adjust or expand our theory and then we’d solve cases really well. also, i think if we ever got like trapped with an unsub or like taken together by an unsub we’d definitely come up with a good plan and there’s like an 85% chance that we’d be fine

@reidemandweep : roo and i would just be an organized mess tbh. our desks are for sure next to each other, and whoever comes in first makes coffee for themselves and the other person as well. we’d probably hold off on paperwork till the very last minute but turn it in right on time. i also think roo and i would make a great team when interrogating a suspect. like that one episode where jj and morgan pretend to be a couple and talk to that white supremacist guy? yeah roo and i would be the gay poc couple to annoy the unsub if they were bugged by that. also, we’d definitely be caught trash talking strauss. like “ugh she’s so annoying and messes stuff up for us a lot” and then everyone’s quiet and we’re like “she’s right behind us isn’t she”. we’d also tease rossi about dating her but in the end i don’t think we’d hate her completely because we’re nice enough to understand she’s doing her job but also we’d be like “no <3″ to most of the stuff she says

@eusuntgroot : hj and i would honestly be very nice people together i think. well, hj would be my better half. she’d be really good at talking to families of the victims, because she’s great at being empathetic and she’s so caring. the two of us would probably be sent to speak with victims and eyewitnesses because we’d be good together at calming them down and being there for them and trying to get information. also, hj and i would be great at talking an unsub down together if necessary 

@agenthotchner : honestly i feel like snow and i would be really badass undercover. like i get very “entropy” vibes from the two of us. like tara and morgan vibes in that episode. snow and i would most definitely find an unsub while undercover at a bar, lure him outside, and then threaten to hit him in the face with a pair of heels as we handcuff him and lead him to the cop car

@davidrossi-ismydad : sammy and i would have such chaotic energy during paperwork days- hanging out with penelope, locking jj and emily in a room until they got their sexual tension out of the way, sammy hanging out in hotch’s office doing god knows what. sammy and i would definitely make everyone laugh whenever they needed to but sammy would also come up with some of the most genius ideas that the others wouldn’t think of. he’d would definitely be the character that at the 30 minute mark of the episode is like “maybe we’re thinking this part of the profile wrong” and coming up with the correct profile and we’d be like “yes you’re onto something”

@cinnamon-rroll : okay jemma and i would be great at stakeouts. like we’d have the snacks ready and would have the most interesting conversations while watching our surroundings from the car with binoculars. i also think we’d be good undercover, too

@spideyspencer : listen avery would also be so good at interrogating suspects. like so amazing. she’d just be so good at intimidating them and not taking their shit whatsoever. and when we’d be chasing an unsub i’d definitely chase after them and she’d find an easier route and be standing there waiting for us. she’d be putting handcuffs on the unsub and i’d be wheezing and half out of breath like “how *wheeze* did you *wheeze* get here *wheeze* so *wheeze* fast?”

@prentiss-dinozzo : i feel like noelle and i would probably be like tara together: badass but also good critical thinkers and smart. and i think we’d do similar things to what reid did: go through case files, make geographic profiles, that sort of thing. and i also think we’d be good at guest lecturing together

(not me being dumb and forgetting caitlin because i did this at literally 2 am ugh!!)

@themetaphorgirl : okay caitlin gives me very much garcia vibes and i for sure think her and i in the bau would be best friends with penny. we’d be hosting parties/dinners and coming up with fun ways for all of us to hang out and we’d just have elite energy. we definitely convinced the bau to have a family bowling night and family game night and things like that. i think we’d also be good at talking unsubs down and definitely would be the ones talking to the friends/family of the victims. also, i have a feeling that caitlin would be good at making negotiations too! 

[shiishki]

okay wait, i changed my mind. you should answer all of these questions as well, if that's what you want from me >:)

oof there's a lot of it, that's what i get for wanting to be ✨aesthetic✨

1: 6 of the songs you listen to most?

vowels (and the importance of being me) - hunny

honeypie - jawny

pretty young thing - michael jackson

mirrors - justin timberlake

sunflower - red orange county

paradise - rude-a

2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

a therapist.

ok someone else.. uhh,, my grand grandma because i only have scratches of memories but i dunno if that counts since she passed away...

*rummages through ancient scripts* uhh ok someone who isn't dead.. uhm,, tommie? yeah I'd like to meet them if i could meet anyone on earth

3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.

ok, the closest german, english or polish book? nvm i have english

"suddenly was. So I just said thank you a few times too, and Mum" ironically this is one of the normal lines in this book

4: What do you think about most?

the fact that I'll have to do something after school. and I don't know if i want to go to college or get a job bc i have no legitimate idea on what to do with my life. it gets overwhelming, just the lack of knowledge about the actual experience.

5: What does your latest text message from someone else say?

Ok

6: Do you sleep with or without clothes on?

with, tho i sleep with just shorts in summer

7: What’s your strangest talent?

not sure if it's a talent, but i can fall asleep anywhere

8: Girls… (finish the sentence); Boys… (finish the sentence)

girls are pretty. boys are pretty

9: Ever had a poem or song written about you?

by me, yes. no one else has written a poem about me specifically. nvm, tommie wrote one and it shall rest on my wall, or desk, i need to find a place for it

10: When is the last time you played the air guitar?

uhh i think last month?

11: Do you have any strange phobias?

i don't think so, but i am hella afraid of the possibly gigantic, terrifying things in the ocean depths that humans haven't discovered yet

12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?

yep, beloved legos as a lil child

13: What’s your religion?

i can't ever remember the name, but i believe gods (from all religions) exist in some way or form. so i believe in different pantheons and etc.

14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?

walking my doggo, skateboarding, thinking about how to make the lives of my characters worse

15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

behind it.

16: Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?

uhmm the arctic monkeys? or the strokes

17: What was the last lie you told?

i know what i want

18: Do you believe in karma?

yes, the rule of three specifically

19: What does your URL mean?

i don't know. it's something me and my sis came up with and that's just my whole identity now.

20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?

uhh greatest weakness.. i can't finish things. strength is that I'm very stubborn so maybe I'll finish that thing out of spite

21: Who is your celebrity crush?

i grew up thinking crushes were like unicorns. my ex was odd enough to argue with that i didn't love her if i didn't have a crush on her. but I think if i had to guess.. selena gomez, especially in the role of alex russo in wizard of weverly street

22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping?

nope

23: How do you vent your anger?

i write angry letters. sometimes they're sad letters. i write a lot of letters. except i never send them out and no one made a movie about them :}

24: Do you have a collection of anything?

jars and witchy bottles, books? scented candles

25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

phone calls are stressful enough as is, i don't need you to see my reading off what i frantically wrote to not stumble over my words

26: Are you happy with the person you’ve become?

i think so, yes, but that won't stop me from becoming better

27: What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?

hate flies buzzing right by my ear, love cat purring

28: What’s your biggest “what if”?

what if I'd been born in a place where it was illegal for me (nonbinary) to live, in a time when others thought of me as a curse?

29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

they be chilling.

30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.

right arm, doggo, left arm, pillow

31: Smell the air. What do you smell?

fresh air and doggo, because doggo is with me and I can't live without open windows

32: What’s the worst place you have ever been to?

i dunno tbh

33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast?

which one is less homophobic?

34: Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?

every gender is my opposite gender. selena gomez and justin timberlake

35: To you, what is the meaning of life?

to make it easier for people down the line

36: Define Art.

make thing, thing goes woo

37: Do you believe in luck?

yis

38: What’s the weather like right now?

it's nice actually, very sunny, slight breeze

39: What time is it?

12.59 am

40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?

i don't, but i once crashed into a fire department vehicle with my bike. bike ded.

41: What was the last book you read?

Crooked Kingdom by Leigh Bardugo

42: Do you like the smell of gasoline?

i legit ass don't know what gasoline smells like.

43: Do you have any nicknames?

many variations of my name, aka. Luce

44: What was the last film you saw?

i think it was Robin Hood: King of Thieves, but it might have been that half of spider-man homecoming i managed to watch with my poor internet

45: What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?

oh man i dunno... it's not an injury, but i was very sickly as a lil kid and almost died :)

46: Have you ever caught a butterfly?

once, years ago

47: Do you have any obsessions right now?

hmmm horizon zero dawn i think

48: What’s your sexual orientation?

proud pansexual ^^

49: Ever had a rumour spread about you?

not really, i don't think they're big enough to be actual rumors,, meh

50: Do you believe in magic?

yis

51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?

meh. they suck, i know they suck, that's it.

52: What is your astrological sign?

cancer ♋

53: Do you save money or spend it?

i attempt saving. attempt

54: What’s the last thing you purchased?

for my own money, sweets. i bought lizards for my cats so they can brush their teeth from my dad's amazon acc

55: Love or lust?

luv

56: In a relationship?

nope, i buy my own cookies

57: How many relationships have you had?

1, kinda toxic toward the end, very stressful, don't recommend

58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue?

nu ><

59: Where were you yesterday?

on the fields walking my doggo

60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?

yep, a pastel pink hoodie in my closet uwu

61: Are you wearing socks right now?

yis, thicc warm socks

62: What’s your favourite animal?

cats

63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?

cuddles and food.

64: Where is your best friend?

bold of you to assume i have a best friend.

65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr.

tommie-hildebrandt, kageyuji, nekomas-kuroo, joyful-soul-collector

66: What is your heritage?

I'm a demon boi from Poland tho that's not a thing to be proud of, i mean, look at the economy. awful.

67: What were you doing last night at 12AM?

sleeping, trying to sleep.

68: What do you think is Satan’s last name?

Pinkton. or Satan.

69: Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?

this is such an odd combination of words i had to look it up. yea.

70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?

a friend who won't laugh at me when i ask them to order smth for me because I'm too anxious to.

71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?

excuse me? i am saving the doggo wtf. f u boss, I'm gonna sell my tragic story to the news.

72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?

a) i tell my parents. b) live the hell out of them uwu c) nope uwu.

73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love.

trust.

74: What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?

history maker - dean fujioka :]

75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?

3332

76: In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?

communication, trust, some more communication.

77: How can I win your heart?

let's not pretend to be something else to please each other, and bring some bitter chocolate.

78: Can insanity bring on more creativity?

maybe. it could. i don't have a say in it since my sanity is held by tape.

79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?

eat the pizza. stop caring about others not liking me/parts of me. just living for myself uwu.

80: What size shoes do you wear?

uh i dunno how the american sizes work and i don't wanna look it up so, 39, 40 fits too.

81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone?

demon boi

82: What is your favourite word?

socks.

83: Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.

the bloody organ that sits in your chest and pumps blood into your body so you don't die.

84: What is a saying you say a lot?

uhm im not sure if that counts as a saying, but fake it till you make it

85: What’s the last song you listened to?

blinding lights - the weeknd

86: Basic question; what’s your favourite colour/colours?

oh a normal question people use for ice breaking, sea blue and pastel variations of it.

87: What is your current desktop picture?

like my wallpaper? or the actual picture that sits on my desk? or how my desk looks like atm? it's ugly, a lot of papers and pens and schoolbooks.

88: If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?

donald trump. or the next asshole who'll try to take the rights of the lgbt and poc away

89: What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

this. this is the question.

90: One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?

yo there's a pizza somewhere in the refrigerator, want me to heat it up? we can have a sleep over and talk about our feelings :3

91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?

telekinesis! or shapeshifting! i could do such fun things with telekinesis ^^ yeah I'd totally eat some radioactive veggies

92: You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?

that time my "friends" got me into shoplifting, half-hour is more than enough to punch some sense into my brain and develop good music taste

93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

can i save this one? i don't think i have an experience horrible enough to be erased haha

94: You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?

sleep as in.. uh no thank u. but I'm down for a sleep over with sam smith ^^

95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?

just me? what about my pets? my fam? it's lowkey illegal for me to go just anywhere without them owO

uhhmm, greece. imma become part of the greek pantheon out of pure spite. and maybe toronto canada.

96: Do you have any relatives in jail?

not any that i know of o.o

97: Have you ever thrown up in the car?

i think i may have but i honestly don't remember

98: Ever been on a plane?

nope, i dunno if i like planes, but I'd probably sleep if i were on one.

99: If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?

yeet.

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100 Weird AU's? Yes.

So, I had these AU prompts on my phone for quite a while, and I was actually thinking about using them. And what better way to do it than using them with the Tracy's?

Reading and reading these prompts again (and under the gentle guidance of @willow-salix ) I thought that these prompts doesn't exactly match the brothers' everyday situation, but what if we push it past its limit? Yes, biting more that you can chew can be a little difficult, but I don't think it will be impossible. And that's where this challenge is born!

Get the Tracy's out of International Rescue's bubble and let them live an everyday situation as normal people! They can also be medieval nobles or even futuristic robots, the choice's up to you! You can choose from soo many things others don't even think about (and not even me, for a while)!

Many thanks to @tag2060 for the cover and @willow-salix for the support (both emotional and 'fic-ical'. I love both of you💚

NOTE: THESE PROMPTS AREN'T ALL MINE. I TOOK THEM FROM A GIRL I'M NOT IN CONTACT WITH ANYMORE, BUT I WAS TOLD I COULD USE THEM. ALL CREDITS FOR THESE AU'S GO TO HER, WHATEVER IS HER NAME (lmao). THE GOLD MARKED ONES (7, 11, 20, 23, 39, 47, 63, 64, 70, 83, 89, 91, 93, 96, 100) ARE ALL MINE, IN SUBSITUTION OF A FEW THAT WERE THERE, SO CREDIT FOR THE GOLDEN MARKED ONES GOES TO ME, BUT NOT EVERY ONE OF THEM.

NOTE²: SOME OF THE PROMPTS CONTAIN STRONG THEMES, LIKE DEPRESSION AND SEXUAL CONTENT. IF YOU'RE SENSIBLE TO THESE THEMES, DON'T DO THEM, NOBODY FORCES YOU IF YOU DON'T FEEL COMFORTABLE.

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To participate in this challenge, all you have to do is take one of the AU prompts from the list, one or more (or all) Tracy characters, and post your fic (can be a ficlet, or a series) under the tag #100weirdTracys and #100weirdAUs.

If you don't want to participate, please don't harass/bully me. I made this challenge just for fun, and I don't want for it to feel like something bad. In fact, I don't even regret doing this thing, even if it's strange.

Ah, I almost forgot: this challenge will be over in December, so you have 4 months to choose a prompt and make a fic about it. On December I'll review all the fics, but I'll always be reblogging and reading during these 4 months lol.

If you want to tell me something, hit me up on DM's! I hope you have fun with those prompts and those bois!

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TO RESUME:

• Swearing is allowed.

• You can write as many words as you want!

• Oc's and muses can pop in too!

• Make sure to tag your fic(s) under the '#100weirdTracys' and '#100weirdAUs' tags, so that I can find them easily.

• Always tag or contact me if you need help with anything! I'll be more than glad to help you!

• If you decide to do the mature prompts (19, 90, just to state an example) please refrain from using a too mature language and don't go further than making up. I don't like that kind of language, so it would be peachy to just avoid writing so they make wild sex behind a bush. Any kind of very mature fic or language won't be read by me, I'm sorry. You can still use those prompts, but don't work their bed life too much.

• Any dialect or first language apart from english is more than welcome in this yard! I would love even to read snippets of foreign language in fics, as long as there's a translation near it, but you're not forced to write in another language. If you don't feel comfortable doing it just don't do it, even if I'm telling you. (For the record, I love Irish so much I could listen to a person speaking this language for hours and you won't hear me complaining).

• I will accept this challenge in whatever form it takes, be it a fic, a drawing, a song, etc. I’m open to anything and I watch everything that comes before me!

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That said, you can find the prompts down here:⬇️

 #1 I saved you from drowning!AU

#2 I broke into your house at two in the morning because I was drunk and I thought it was my house!AU

#3 I am a door-to-door seller please buy something!AU

#4 I grabbed the wrong luggage at the airport!AU

#5 I know we hate each other, but a wedding would be more convenient for both of us!AU

#6 I accidentally poured you a love potion!AU

#7 I sent you 12 messages but you left me on read!AU

#8 I am your secret admirer and I leave you anonymous cards!AU

#9 Sorry, but I was first in line!AU

#10 We don’t know each other but let's pretend to be together because someone is bothering me!AU

#11 We pack up to do a funny trip but we end up in Bolivia without fuel!AU

#12 Locked in quarantine and we're bored! AU

#13 I do everything to find out the identity of this superhero and you try to mislead me because it’s really you!AU

#14 I got into a taxi just to find out it was already occupied!AU

#15 I called the wrong number!AU

#16 I got into the wrong car OMG I'm ashamed, but while you’re there why don’t you give me a ride!AU

#17 I found a wallet and my business is to find the owner and return it!AU

#18 I am a street artist and you complain that I play in front of your house at night!AU

#19 I caught you watching porn!AU

#20 We're two strangers that start chatting while waiting for the bus!AU

#21 Nosy and sloppy roommates!AU

#22 Old childhood friends who come back after years!AU

#23 I got shot to the arm/leg but you're there to save me and OMG ILY!AU

#24 We’re sitting next to each other on a plane and please don’t throw up on me!AU

#25 We accidentally switched phones!AU

#26 We are both contestants in a reality show and let's pretend to be together because the audience will ship us!AU

#27 I am a wedding planner and my ex’s wedding had to happen to me!AU

#28 I learned sign language to communicate with you!AU

#29 Professional model and novice photographer!AU

#30 Sorry I ran you over!AU

#31 We make out and then I find out that you are my roommate’s boyfriend!AU

#32 I’m quoting aloud the last book of a series and I’m spoiling you!AU

#33 It is a universally acknowledged truth that a bachelor with a large fortune must be looking for a wife!AU

#34 I am a Partisan and you are a fascist!AU(Italy during World War II!AU)

#35 I am the blood of the dragon!AU (Iron Throne!AU)

#36 Your dog is hitting on mine!AU

#37 I’m depressed and I decide to call a hotline!AU

#38 You are my soulmate but I am in love with someone else!AU

#39 Strange encounter at tattoo shop!AU

#40 On my mark, unleash hell!AU(Roman Empire!AU)

#41 I am an Elf, don’t look at me for ears I am ashamed of!AU(The Lord of the Rings!AU)

#42 Maybe my life should be more than just survival!AU(The 100!AU)

#43 I am an activist and I am trying to convert you to the cause!AU

#44 We are occupying the school but you are a spoilsport!AU

#45 All our friends are drunk and we're not!AU

#46 We’ve been together for three months and now you’re telling me you’re a werewolf!AU

#47 X has to go into a rocket to the moon and Y has to train X!

#48 Knight in shining armor and damsel in distress!AU

#49 We reluctantly team up against the zombie apocalypse!AU

#50 I’m a vampire and your smell is driving me nuts!AU(Twilight!AU)

#51 Monsters have attacked the Earth and the only way to save humanity is aboard giant robots piloted by two people who must maintain a mental union!AU(Pacific Rim!AU)

#52 My timer stopped as soon as I saw you!AU(Soulmate!AU)

#53 I need a lawyer and you are the best!AU

#54 I’m a Viking and I plundered your ship!AU

#55 I’m a classic dandy from the Regency Age and you’re just a silly girl from the lower middle class!AU

#56 I’m a policeman and you’re an intrusive journalist and I really shouldn’t give you any information about the new murder!AU

#57 You are a wannabe actress and I am a theatrical director who is losing patience and health!AU

#58 Due to a computer error, X and Y become college roommates!AU

#59 X wants to see the world of Y, how he lives and what he usually does, and ends up spending a night in prison!AU

#60 I attend the yoga course just to watch how flexible the instructor is!AU

#61 I am a bounty hunter and you are my prey!AU

#62 I am a secret spy and pretend to be your friend only to get information about your father!AU

#63 I discuss with you about a thing but you have in mind another!AU

#64 We are forced to be best friends just because our moms were best friends too but you're too bossy for me!AU

#65 We broke up but I never changed emergency contacts and now I’m in the hospital and they called you!AU

#66 I am an angel and you are a demon!AU

#67 I hit you on the balls during a game of paintball and oh my god I am so sorry!AU

#68 We live in a dystopian world where your partner is chosen by society!AU(Matched!AU)

#69 I’m a dragon trainer I’ll prove to you that they are peaceful creatures!AU(Dragon Trainer!AU)

#70 Date at japanese restaurant!AU

#71 You’re a cheerleader and I’m a punk and we live in two different worlds!AU

#72 I was a zombie and I was "re-animated" but you treat me like I’m still a monster!AU(In the Flesh!AU)

#73 I am your son’s teacher and I am calling to talk to you about his conduct, would he also come to dinner with me!AU

#74 I am an Achaean warrior and you Trojan and we are fighting the Trojan War!AU

#75 I met my asshole boss at the bar but I found out he’s pretty cool!AU

#76 It was not my intention to touch your ass, it’s just that the bus is crowded, it’s not my fault ok!AU

#77 I went fishing and accidentally fished a mermaid!AU

#78 I just committed a crime and I need to use you as a hostage!AU

#79 You’re the bastard who always parks in front of my door and in spite I’ll scratch your car!AU

#80 I accidentally went back in time and fell in love with you, too bad you’re a barbarian!AU

#81 I urgently need you to fix my computer but please don’t judge me for my chronology!AU

#82 I work on the cruise ship where you are spending your holidays!AU

#83 I'm out in the rainstorm without an umbrella because the weather forecast was sunny!AU

#84 I hugged the wrong person from behind!AU

#85 Celebrity on the run and ordinary citizen confused!AU

#86 Stuck in a ranch cleaning horse poop but it doesn’t matter because that cowboy is a badass!AU

#87 We got married in Vegas, but we’re total strangers!AU

#88 But, officer, I wasn’t doing anything wrong, I was just smoking a joint, want a hit!AU

#89 X is an astronaut and Y is a weird but funny alien that likes to scream, overreact and laugh!AU

#90 I slept with you for a bet but I loved it and I’d like to keep seeing you!AU

#91 I reveal to some friends that you wear boxers/underwear with green aliens on them but you're behind me and oh gosh total shame!AU

#92 Oops I accidentally entered a busy dressing room!AU

#93 You're a stranger but I keep crossing paths with you and I'm kinda confused right now!AU

#94 X is a medium and Y a ghost!AU

#95 X is a guardian angel and Y wants to die!AU

#96 X accidentally enters in a cat and Y has to rescue it from up a tree!AU

#97 X risks losing the house because Y’s company wants to buy the land!AU

#98 I’m an artist and I need a model do you want to pose for me!AU

#99 I’m not really sick but the new doctor is so beautiful that I found out I have a disease with an unpronounceable name!AU

#100 A strange job application!AU

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If you find them more practical, I also have some photos down here with all the prompts organized:⬇️

That said, enjoy! Hope it brings you joy and makes you happy while you do it!💙💚🧡💛❤💜💖🖤