#but ANA...I loved her

[porque-nolos-dos]

eddie diaz gets shot in broad daylight in downtown LA. he watches his blood splatter against his best friend's face. he reaches out for him three times. he vaguely has the realization that he's in love with his best friend, but there's a lot happening so that's just like background. he loses consciousness after he learns buck isn't hurt. he thinks this is it. this is the end.

and then he wakes up in the hospital and it's ANA FUCKING FLORES at his bedside LOLLLLL

im so sorry. im so so sorry but it's endlessly funny to me that he gets shot, he wakes up, and ana is there??

and then he finally sees buck who is like "btw it would've been better if i was the one who got shot" and eddie's high on drugs and just has to be like ?? wtf?? in the moment

and then later drops the bomb HAVE MY SON (who is my heart) IN CASE OF MY UNTIMELY DEMISE

eddie then goes home, buck is driving him, he gets to see his son again and yay hang out with his 2 favorite people. he's alive, what a great time- oh a surprise welcome party- TAYLOR FUCKING KELLY IS IN MY HOUSE IM KILLING MYSELF EFFECTIVE IMMEDIATELY

literally the funniest fucking sequences ever seen in television history. man shot. man gay and in love. man remembers he has girlfriend he halfheartedly likes. man's crush suicidal. man go home with crush. man's WORST ENEMY IS IN HIS HOUSE AND HOME.

eddie's terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day where he gets shot, wakes up to his gf, and goes home where taylor kelly is there. and he would probably say that the worst part of it all was taylor kelly. i love you eddie diaz. so sorry that this all happened to you.

[gatoburr0]

character development or something

[kindalikerackham]

Tommy calling him, "Evan," Ana calling him, "Edmundo,"

They weren't expressions of intimacy, not really. They were intimacy shortcuts.

Your friends call you this fun goofy name, and you're kinda strict about that? Well what if I call you something reserved for family? Something that ties you to a life I don't actually know about... This way, I can slot into being your family....

So they do. With these shortcuts, they gave themselves access to a raw part of Buck and Eddie.

Which, don't get me wrong, they were romantic partners. These doors were allowed open by the named parties. Although I think there's pretty clear evidence that both Buck and Eddie weren't necessarily understanding their own emotional investment in these relationships, but I digress...

All this is to say:

When Eddie calls him "Evan," telling him that he's not expendable? It's not a shortcut to intimacy. It's a deliberate expression of existing intimacy. It's a bid to recognize what they already are to each other.

Eddie is saying I know you. I see you, your childhood, your fears. I am speaking to the part of you that feels unloved, unwanted, like spare parts. I am speaking to the part of you that thought it was good to get hurt sometimes, that extended that feeling into a career of service and self-sacrifice. And I am saying, you are enough. That the part of you that felt unloved is enough. And that I want you here, that you dying is unthinkable, and that you should also consider it unthinkable.

[borealnyx]

Brilliand minds is a strange show, because it's basically a speedrun of every single trope in procedurals, (messy divorces, ill advised love triangles, secret children, straight laced girl needing to loosen up, a will they wont they enemies to lovers...)but instead of creating a toxic enviroment everyone likes each other and has gone to therapy (and you can tell).

theres emphasis on treating patients with empathy, care, and above all dignity, looking more at paliative care and long term quality of live improvements than a one and done solution, which is very rare for this kind of show.

And Zachary Quinto gets to be gay in it

[mjalti]

you ever think about how, after a certain point, you will never live with your siblings again? you will never bust in their door, watch movies, make cookies, share space, argue about the bathroom, steal a charger, paint each others nails, without having to make an appointment first? and how, after that point onward, you will steal opportunities from the universe in order to have the privilege to sit beside them for a few days at a time?

[hyakunana]

I don't know how to explain about the Braytech lore in a LoP AU setting — so instead I made concepts.

[lizzibennet]

my opinion on taylor swift is contentious at best it is def conflicting but whenever i see people talking about her tour in brazil and the girl who DIED at her concert and the way she reacted to it i think i actually hate her and her fans lol

[ifkinghateweezer17]

my SHAYLA, I acc felt so awful for Violet, she deserved sm better

[girlrandomstuff]

you see me very chill but inside i'm still thinking about who killed Jack Thompson? is he really dead? what happened to Doty Underwood? how where the first years after S.H.I.E.L.D was founded? how did Peggy reacted to Daniel's death?

I really need a third Agent Carter season and I wouldn't mind to be a few years late, even after "Daniel's death", actually I think Peggy running S.H.I.E.L.D and learning about Daniel being killed would be a really start to a new season after pretty almost a decade.

Maybe even getting the idea of someone hauting them they could get a clue to the Winter Soldier, be it Bucky or Michael Carter (which was a theory back then when season 2 ended) and from there develop a third season.

We could get Peggy Carter of course, and Jarvis, Stark, even Colonel Philips and Dum Dum Dugan if I may be so bold, and introduce new characters would be cool too, and personaly I would really like the idea of Thompson living and being in this season but his death and Daniel's could be a really good detonant and build up

[garmydon]

i am my own target audience 4ever and always

[letmetellyouaboutmyfeels]

"He doesn't need to provide, take care of, or play a heteronormative role for Buck, and that's how Buck snuck in there." This take is sooo big brain and sexy of you, an interesting part of their dynamic is that Eddie CAN'T seriously think "oh if buck was a woman that would be great" because you are so right, they would have never ended up where they are if that was the case. Instead he has to think "if I was gay, we could be in a relationship" Which Adds A Tasty Tasty Element To That Catholic Guilt And Repression Baybee.

And we LOOOOOOVE the Catholic Guilt and Repression in this household!!!

[gallopinggallifreyans]

My boomer hot take is that before you criticize anyone for saying (what you think is*) a slur, you should first understand what the word means, who said it, and in what context they said it. And perhaps you’ll stop trying to get your relation from an older generation to quit saying words you don’t agree with to deliver the same information.

(*including queer, fag, dyke, tranny, all words that are still used as self descriptors but also to abuse. Context matters)

[sticksthesecond]

"expand his social circle"

give me buck being so obsessed with connecting with Ravi bc he's his new partner!! give me taylor kelly back so she and buck can gossip!! give me buck running into ana flores at the grocery store and just catching up (shh no i don't just want her back bc i love her, who said that)!! give me buck being insane and mentioning eddie constantly!! give me the innocent bystanders being genuinely so concerned by him!! OH AND GIVE BUCK FRIENDS WHO AREN'T FROM THE 118!!??

[seasnailfish]

old doodle of ana snowman.... i love her a lot

[murdleandmarot]

The hound of the sun, the hare of the moon

[deliriousbluebird]

How to achieve my goals of becoming interesting, smart, and hot as FUCK this year because I want my life to be something I’m proud of:

Working out

As good as feeling neutral about my body is, I want to look at it and think of all the genuine effort I put in to make it look that way. Sure, I used to cry when I broke my fast with an apple and I could be proud of that, but come on. I recovered because I was scared. I feel like by making my body look good without starving both satisfies my relapse urges and general logic.

Studying

Academic validation and the craving of someone saying they’re proud of me is EXTREMELY STRONG, so you know damn well I want to get better at school. I’ve started to dedicate a lot more of my time after school to studying, and want to continue doing so. I’m also doing all honors at the moment, and trying to find/join clubs to join that may help me academically.

Self Care

If I’m being completely honest, I’m absolute shit at this. I forget to brush my teeth more than half the time most nights, get around 5-4 hours of sleep each night, struggle with having any type of skin care, eat either really low calorie foods or straight up junk, forget to take breaks from physical activity (shitty legs, probably gonna start using my cane in public soon) and think about my state of being too much for it to be good for me. Hallucinations from those suck, so this year I’m going to try to improve ALL of that as well as a complete other list of things. I’m not gonna rush it because that would just be worsening myself while trying to do the opposite, but not be lazy about it too because I also struggle with procrastination.

Hoping this goes well :P