#bunny3diary

[bunny48294]

⭐️ morning weigh in ⭐️

10.2.2025 - 68,8 kg

= -0,4 kg

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YAY!!

i forgot to post my diary last night, i ate a protein bar and drank some wine. i did go see a movie c:

today i have classes and id like to tidy up a little.

[bunny48294]

⭐️ morning weigh in ⭐️

9.2.2025 - 69,2 kg

= - 0,5 kg

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okay okay good finally losing again!! i really want to be at like 68,5 kg for next thursday and i think i could do it if i just don’t slip up.

still unsure if i’ll go to the movies today, i should do some stuff at home so going there would be wasting my time but idk i’d like to go

[bunny48294]

⭐️ diary ⭐️

8.2.2025

what i ate:

coffee with oatmilk -> 18

3 cans of pepsi max -> 3

ready made salad with pasta and mozzarella (200 g) -> 284

nachos (like three of them lol) -> 5

tortilla with salad (42 g) low fat feta (19 g) and low fat salad dressing (17 g) -> 191

total: 501

what i burned off:

work (5 hour shift, counting 3) -> 435

steps 6,9k -> 201

total: 636

total: 501-636=-135

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i feel like i ate sooo much today but i’m still craving another tortilla 😭 maybe i’ll just take a melatonin and go to sleep

i might go to the movies tomorrow if i have any energy!! would be a nice way to get some steps and just have a good time

[bunny48294]

⭐️ morning weigh in ⭐️

8.2.2025 - 69,7 kg

= +0,5 kg

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binged a little last night… ughh i feel so disgusting!!! today i’ll try my best to do better, i’m so disappointed in myself :( i was so close to getting under 69 kg.

also i’m not posting a detailed diary from yesterday, my intake was almost exactly 1k and my steps were a little over 7k. i got home super late and then just… ate.

locking back in today i can’t keep doing this!!

[bunny48294]

i want to say fuck this and just eat a ton of fast food so bad but i know the guilt would be a million times worse than whatever this is

it’s still so hard though 😭

[bunny48294]

⭐️ diary ⭐️

1.1.2025

what i ate today:

(technically the first two are from yesterday but i did drink them after the midnight so i’m counting them for today)

hard seltzer (660 ml) -> 165

low alc sparkling wine (300 ml) -> 165

4 cups of coffee -> 24

ready made salad with cheese and pasta -> 374

fried cauliflower (120 g) and mayonnaise (20 g) -> 128

total: 856

what i burned off:

work (6h) -> 956

short walk (25 min) -> 166

total: 1122

total: 856-1122=-266

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i’ve been SO HUNGRY all day 😭😭 alcohol really makes me want to binge so bad. ate the cauliflower and mayo only because of that :/ could’ve skipped them so ugh bad job me.

i’m so stressed to weigh myself tomorrow. today’s morning weight was so good, i got so happy, but i have a hunch my disgusting body will just get the weight back overnight somehow.

all i want is to be beautiful and lovable, to look good in the clothes that i want to wear, to look in the mirror and not hate everything i see. :(

[bunny48294]

⭐️ diary and other thoughts⭐️

4.2.2025

what i ate:

two cups of coffee with oatmilk -> 36

two cans of pepsi max -> 2

salad (185 g) with guacamole (65 g) and low fat feta (44 g) -> 178

two rice cakes with low fat cheese (20 g/ each) -> 120

total: 334

what i burned off:

steps 1,2k -> 30

total: 30

total: 334-30=304

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today was so rough mentally. i opened up a little about my situation and idk the person was sweet and understanding but i still feel like shit and like i shouldn’t have done it at all. i feel so stupid and disgusting and so unlovable. i don’t know why i have such an urge to tell people that i’m struggling. i just need to feel like i’m succeeding in something and feel like i’m worthy of love. idk if anyone has any tips please feel free to share!!!

this whole thing feels so selfish. there are people who care about me out there but i can’t stop. i need to keep going so i’ll like myself. i feel like the person got mad at me (note that i also have an anxiety disorder lol so take this with a grain of salt) for not changing my ways instantly. i don’t want to be a disappointment but i know i already am.

i feel like there’s something very deeply wrong with me and that makes me such a horrible and selfish person. i never wanted to be a burden or that anyone would be worried about me. i don’t want to be me.

all my dreams are about food, all i do is look at photos of food and food is the only thing i really even think about. all this but i can’t eat. i need to weigh my salad and log the c4ls instantly. i need to see the scale show me a lower number.

i think i’m just mad at myself for letting this become like this again. i’m so frustrated with myself, i keep digging my grave and i can’t stop. i’m pathetic, i know.

idk i just need to vent to someone so the void it is. i just need a hug and some love. i’ll probably even delete this tomorrow even though it doesn’t even matter, no one who sees this knows who i am.

any sort of comments or asks are very welcome <3 i don’t want to feel so alone right now

[bunny48294]

⭐️ diary ⭐️

6.1.2025

what i ate today:

coffee -> 6

vitamin water (1L oops) -> 80

pepsi max -> 2

2 wheat tortillas with salad (90 g), cheese (30 g) and the other tortilla had light mayo (10 g) and the other had guacamole (30 g) -> 377

the grams for salad and cheese are for both tortillas, condiments for each

total: 465

what i burned off:

one trip to the store, 1,2k steps -> 34

total: 34

total: 465-34=431

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had a pretty bad mental health day and my last day on vacation before uni starts again so i allowed myself to just play stardew valley and watch a movie at home. i should’ve done at least a home work out but i’m trying to be kind to myself!!

i absolutely won’t be tomorrow if my weight goes up at all

still feeling a bit down and disappointed. yesterday was sooo rough mentally that today has been just recovering from that. i had a 28h fast, it went pretty okay, nothing to say there really.

i should replace my vitamin water with just plain water, it has a lot of calories 😭 i just love it too much

[bunny48294]

⭐️ morning weigh in ⭐️

27.1.2025 - 71,2 kg

= -0,2 kg

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to be honest it might be 71,4 still, my scale was weird this morning but it did show me 71,2 multiple times as well. might need to change the batteries!

i’m so close to 70 kg <333 kind of sad i couldn’t lose 10 kg in a month still but i think my progress is fine anyway.

i got an email saying i have a psychiatrist’s appointment pretty soon. i was told that the waiting time for that is months but i got this in under a month?? but i might get the final diagnosis then. so scared. also having my l4bs taken tomorrow for the first time and i have to fast for it (oh noooo…..) but i’m very scared of n33dles!!!

[bunny48294]

⭐️ morning weigh in ⭐️

2.1.2025 - 69,6 kg

= -0,5 kg

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thank you 4n4!!!! omg i can’t believe this, i haven’t weighed this little in like a decade? still a lot to go but i feel so much better in my body right now than when i r3lapsed.

i got my scale on december 19th and weighed 79,8 kg then. the weight loss hasn’t been as rapid as it was when i was younger but i still think my progress has been decent.

[bunny48294]

⭐️ morning weigh in ⭐️

20.1.2025 - 72,9 kg

= +0,8 kg

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i saw this coming and realistically i know it was going to happen and it’s normal that your weight fluctuates BUT i’m still on the verge of tears wtf i hate this i hate my body i feel so ugly and disgusting 😭

trying to keep my c4ls for today somewhere around 100-150. i have some classes today and i have to do some cleaning but tomorrow i have a big day and i’m already so stressed about it…

any sort of messages, asks and comments are very welcome today, i need motivation and some kind words (even though i feel really weird asking for them but yea pls)

[bunny48294]

⭐️ morning weigh in ⭐️

8.1.2025 - 74,8 kg

= - 0,7 kg

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omg under 75 kg!!!! 😭🩷 i can’t believe this

i won’t update that i’ve hit my gw1 just yet, i want to be sure that it doesn’t jump mysteriously again.

feeling a bit better today. today i’ll try to fix my uni stuff too.

[bunny48294]

⭐️ diary ⭐️

29.1.2025

what i ate today:

two cups of coffee with oatmilk -> 36

pepsi max -> 3

salad (104 g) with light mayo (17 g) and low fat feta (35 g) -> 148

fried vegetables with chickpeas and light mayo (6 g) and low fat feta (26 g) -> 216

total: 403

what i burned off:

walking (2,5 k steps) -> 82

total: 82

total: 403-82=321

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i thought i was doing super well until i remembered that i was supposed to keep my intake at 300 today, not 400…. TOMORROW i’ll keep it at 300!!!

been kind of unmotivated today if im honest. i’ve been able to do some stuff yes but i could’ve done more :( tomorrow grinding more too!!

[bunny48294]

⭐️ morning weigh in ⭐️

28.1.2025 - 70,8 kg

= -0,4 kg

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nervous as hell!!! i hate bl00d tests 😭 f4st went okay, i’m still super thirsty though so the second it’s done i’ll drink so much water!!

but also getting a tattoo today!!!! so excited hehe c: it’s going to be super small but i love getting tattoos they’re so fun

[bunny48294]

⭐️ morning weigh in ⭐️

18.1.2025 - 73,0 kg

= +0,4 kg

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ugh i KNEW i had too many good weigh ins in a row 😭 i feel so anxious i was doing so well…

i have a friend’s birthday party today so i’ll have to eat a little before it since i’ll be having some drinks.. please pray for me that i won’t gain any more!!!

[bunny48294]

⭐️ morning weigh in ⭐️

17.1.2025 - 72,6 kg

= -0,2 kg

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kind of surprised i didn’t lose more but that’s fine! still closer to my gw and that’s all that matters <3

i have to eat something today and i’m already so anxious about it 😭 i have some pasta salad left in my fridge and i hate throwing food away so i guess i’ll eat that in the evening