#buliimia

[support]

Everything okay?

If you or someone you know is struggling with an eating disorder, you are not alone.  

If you are in the United States, please try:

National Eating Disorders Association (support, resources, treatment options)

If you are outside the United States, visit IASP to find help lines related to eating disorders for your country. 

For self-help courses on body image and general peer support, please try Koko. 

For more resources, please visit our Counseling & Prevention Resources page for a list of services that may be able to help.

[empticals]

day 3

cw: 67.1 kg (was technically .3 kg / .6 lbs lighter earlier but then I binged and purged and gained a bit but ik by tmr it'll be gone as long as I don't eat again tn)

total kg lost so far: 1.7 kg

very happy abt my progress so far and I hope to lose one more lb or so in the next two days :)

-- im also trying not to binge and purge but its rlly addicting fr and hard to stop but hopefully ill get out of this cycle soon

[livvixo1]

“what is being feminine to you” you ask me. i sit smile and think for a while. being feminine is wearing pretty dresses, it’s my make up and hair being done every day. it’s staring in the mirror and not recognising myself, it’s being followed and touched by men and then blaming myself or saying “at least he thought i was pretty enough”. it’s changing my appearance whenever something goes wrong in my life, it’s smiling when i get betrayed, it’s making my voice softer to seem smaller and more vulnerable, it’s grasping at any interaction i have that in any way could suggest he was interested in me and finally someone could love me for me, but is this the real me? i lay in bed every night and cry at the thought of how all of this is another way of self harm, how ill sleep with any man who gives me a complement, how i will let a man walk all over me just because he said the word love, it’s how ill shape shift into whatever he wants me to be, i’ll cut off friend, heck i’ll even cut my hair, as long as he stays and tells me he loves me.. being feminine is giving into men, for the validation of i am enough. but deep down i want to be independent, i want to feel as if i’m enough without having to be taken to bed by a man. i want to not count my calories and track my weight and cry at every gained pound, i want to do everything my pretty little head comes up with, without the fear that men will find it ugly or see me as less. “it’s everything” i answer.

[c0kewh0re62]

Who the actually fuck gave men to act the way they do? Like where on earth did you get the absolute balls to say that? I was going to dinner in jeans and a crop top and this dickhead goes “that shirt is so small I can almost see your tits but ig that’s what you were going for slut” like WHAT. man now has a broken nose and needs stitches but it shouldn’t of gotten that far

[wintergirl238]

I wish I could put into words exactly how it feels to live everyday with an eating disorder - how it feels to live everyday with depression, and anxiety, and such a strong hatred of myself and everything I am.

I think maybe the words just don’t exist.

[a-crazy-fucking-bitch]

my stomach: *growls*

me:

[ryuxmin]

interact w this if ur active in feb 2021 i want to follow more ppl

[unhappilyinlovewithmia]

[ihavenoideawhatsoeverrrr]

considering how sick i am,

i do a pretty good job of fooling everyone.

[skeletonfaerie]

im going to try and do this :’) i feel really motivated lately, i’ve noticed my cheekbones becoming more prominent and i want them to look ✨sickly✨ ahaha

[just-deseased-person]

after all day of eating unfortunately

[livvixo1]

eating is easy.. it’s the guilt that’s hard

[c0kewh0re62]

I don’t think people who powerlift know they have a eating disorder. Like buddy you bulk (force feed) and then cut (starve) so you can get your ideal physique. And the same with wrestling. It’s an encouraged anorexic sport. And then they have the absolute balls to say “oh I just do it for fun”. Like once you are done with that sport, you’re not gonna know what to do next.

[wintergirl238]

I’ve got this feeling that my life is going to end in tragedy

[fxck-themirror]

@/bilgeyenigul on instagram is such a thinspiration

[ryuxmin]

these r killing me