#build will always be in my heart

[gummi-ships]

Kingdom Hearts 3 - San Fransokyo

[ganondoodle]

carefully attempted to draw (still sick); wanted to give Shargon another redesign, this is an older version of him but the basics should also go for his younger self (idk yet about his lung replacement design; arms are posed weird to make anatomy clearer)

(wip, oc art, Shargon, he/they)

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Once I was scrolling thru naruto fics and saw the tag "buisnessman!Kakashi" and all I could think about was Kakashi being a child businessman, owning all the konoha adults at doing business while wearing an oversized suit and tie. That idea is so fucking funny to me.

[hellohellowelcome]

Feeling very optimistic about the final chapter because I am dying for Izuku to finally be able to unpack his feelings about everything he's experienced on his hero journey, and with regards to Katsuki (and All Might, respectfully everybody else get back). We've only gotten very small bits of introspection on his end, and with one chapter left, I hope that it's all given the space it deserves. Shipping aside, bkdk's relationship is core to the series and it would be extremely confusing for hori not to give them some semblance of proper closure or signal as to what their bond is going to evolve into after the events of the story.

(But on the other hand, slightly worried about the pacing based on the last few epilogue chapters...just pictured me sitting, reading, waiting for a bkdk handhold and the here comes cementoss and company for multiple pages 😭)

[quirkle2]

ritsu!

[teru] [mob] [reigen]

[beautiful-rebellious-sunflower]

welcome home

[cherry-vennom]

I’m the love of my own life

Even tho it gets lonely

I’m the one I can always count on

I’m my own homie

[guzhufuren]

pondering about how The Untamed was the healthiest hyperfixation i've ever had, and it lasted the longest of one and half years. the dudes i usually fall for are evil and fucked up, while Lan Zhan was the rarer occurrence of the kindest man ever. also The Untamed was such a cool thing to affect my mind, because wangxian are all about kids and marriage, and made me have good realistic dreams that align with my own desires and values. on other hand all those evil insane men i imprint on should be kept a kilometre away from babies so that's another thing

[introspectivememories]

I FORGOT I EVEN SENT THAT ASK AND YOUR RESPONSE HIT ME LIKE A TRUCK OHMSYGODDFJDJ

I seriously love your writing so much you always put a heap of emotion into it 😭😭

also adore the idea of TIM being the one who's obsessed with bear and going to such lengths just to keep seeing him, I tend to prefer happy endings so I like to think they work it out after a while but like also the angst is amazing

god the amount of yearning in this au makes me so mmmpfhhhf

god im just so sorry that it took me soo long to reply!!! you sent just as i was taking my break from tumblr and other social media :(((

i remember reading it and thinking to myself "god if i had the timbern brainworms, i could write smth for this" but then recently they've been coming back and i was a church bored out of my mind when i was like "hmmm maybe i should respond?"

and ohhh my god, when i first got it, i immediately thought about how toxic it could get and like, personally, i feel like i can't write complicated characters? if that makes sense? to me, im not very good at writing multi-dimensional characters. which to be fair, i never set out to become like a pulitzer prize winning author. i just do this for fun haha.

and like i knew that my answer to your ask was always gonna be toxic timbern but i didn't know if i could write it? ig??? bc like tim is a good person. he is!!! he just wants bear so badly. and it's past the initial physical attraction now.

he and bear are all grown up. he likes bear's wit and humor, well the wit and humor he gets to hear when bear doesn't know he's around. but bear wont let him in!!!! bear wont open himself up and tim's apologized!!!! he did!!! he doesn't even know what he did and he still apologized!!!!! and it changed nothing. bear doesn't talk to him or look at him or anything. nothing but polite professionalism.

and then one day, he sees bear on his balcony as he's swinging through the streets of gotham. and bear isn't doing anything special, he's just sitting there in sweats and no shirt and the moonlight hits his pecs just right and his shoulders are so broad and-

well he cant be blamed for stopping to take a peek, right? and maybe when he has has time he swings by more and more. just watching for longer and longer, until one day bear catches him. and as they stare at each other from opposite sides of the street, tim thinks this is it. the cold glances and frosty words are going to come back. bear's never gonna just sit on his balcony again. he's lost this too. but then-

oh.

bear sends him a hesitant wave and tim raises a trembling hand to wave back. and bear- well bear's mouth splits into a smile brilliant enough to rival the sun. beautiful like the sunrise. the promise of a new beginning. if he closes his eyes, tim thinks he can feel the sunlight's warm rays on him.

hes' hooked after that. he comes around again and again. one day bear lets him on the balcony. weeks later, bear's hugging him. weeks after that, tim's in bear's lap. and he knows it's not right. that bear thinks he's someone else. that bear doesnt want anything to do with him but how is he supposed to let this go? how is he supposed disentangle himself from bear's arms?

so he lies and he lies and he prays to any and every god he can think of, that he'll get to keep this. plus he's not really lying to bear, he's just... not talking about it! if bear asks, he'll tell him point blank. he swears it. but that's a problem for another day. things are looking up! bear said more than 5 sentences to him the other day and yesterday? he even got a small smile. it'll all work out. he'll be fine.

[manawari]

Min Byung-gyu who watched his best friend die in front of him. Min Byung-gyu who had retired from hunting as he could not handle the pain anymore. Min Byung-gyu who dreamed of pursuing a normal life even though he had been awfully damaged. Min Byung-gyu who wanted to become a history teacher. Min Byung-gyu who wanted to travel to other countries to learn about their history. Min Byung-gyu who still smiled and be funny despite how broken he was. Min Byung-gyu who was criticized by other people for retiring. Min Byung-gyu who remained kind and gentle. Min Byung-gyu who considered himself selfish for feeling "relieved" because he wasn't the one who died in his last raid. Min Byung-gyu whose hands shook whenever he was having an anxiety attack. Min Byung-gyu who found joy in history and period dramas. Min Byung-gyu who never stopped facing his demons. Min Byung-gyu who thought he was a 'monster'. Min Byung-gyu who loved his mom so much he couldn't wait to pass his exam and become a teacher so he could spoil her with gifts. Min Byung-gyu who was the backbone of his team and did his best to keep them alive. Min Byung-gyu who couldn't resist turning away from the calls of duty as he didn't want to see anyone around him get hurt and even though he was retired, he was still a hunter in his heart. Min Byung-gyu who adored his best friends deeply that he considered them as his brothers — his family. Min Byung-gyu never saw Baek Yoon-ho as a monster that people feared him to be, rather he chose to see the best in him. Min Byung-gyu who was not afraid to admit that he was 'weird'. Min Byung-gyu who could not forgive himself and was haunted by his trauma. Min Byung-gyu who chased happiness even though part of him believed he was undeserving. Min Byung-gyu who no longer wished to join the Jeju raid anymore, but he still did because everyone needed him. Min Byung-gyu who was strong and courageous. Min Byung-gyu who always wanted to be a kind person. Min Byung-gyu who protected everyone until the very end—

Min Byung-gyu!!!!!

[astralhope]

Rank 55: Yuma Jets!!

[t8oo]

there is some symbolism iv never considered in that one episod of pt5 where zenigata rescues fujiko before she kills lupin

[longagoitwastuesday]

I have learnt things about Geto that I wish I could unlearn

[charcubed]

THERE'S NOTHING LIKE YOU & I a Good Omens season 2 playlist

Quiet, gentle, romantic, and a little bit devastating – roughly in story order. For being lonely together across 6,000 years and aching for the freedom to love.

On Spotify Here

(Previous editions: Soft To Be Strong – Good Omens season 1 | Crowley/Aziraphale upbeat song dump)

[novadreii]

rewatched arrival for the hundredth time. this movie never fails to gut punch me with its approach to determinism. louise embracing her future that she knows every moment of, despite the tremendous loss and pain it contains, with open arms. she doesn't hesitate, or ruminate on how she can try and change it. she accepts it all, the good and the bad, because what she gains is worth it, so many times over for her. she steels herself against a certain future and runs forward to meet it all, to love, learn, and lose, and trusts and leans on herself to live through it all. because that's what life is; it's the joy and the suffering. to try and isolate the joy alone is madness, futility in its purest definition.

comparing her line of thinking to a palindrome (how she named her daughter, hannah), the movie kept emphasizing, "it's the same backwards as it is forwards." it doesn't matter if you can see the end; life is the same whether you live it "forwards" (without knowledge of the future) or "backwards" (with foresight). it doesn't change the significance of your life experiences; to try and avoid certain future pain just because you have the knowledge of it is a zero sum game. you think you win because you avoided pain, but you also avoided the joy that preceded it. the metamorphosis. so you still lose if you try to win, and vice-versa.

all you can do is rush forward and take it all head-on. see this whole beautiful mess as your one most precious gift; this one life, this one chance, a laughably miniature blip on the colossus that is linear time, to experience all there is to feel before you return back to an eternity without perception. it's all worth it, because only in living a full-fledged life open to everything it has to offer does the experience of living turn out to be greater than the sum of its parts; it's in trying to beat the system (avoid pain) that we actually lose.

"if you could see your whole life from start to finish, would you change things?"

"maybe i'd say what i feel more often. i...i don't know."

[rubenesque-as-fuck]

Your post. About being at a different place in your life than your friends. Particularly a place where you don't think you're doing anything meaningful. I feel that shit so hard.

I could ramble at length about how and why exactly. It's irrelevant. I just wanted to let you know I see you.

And also to point out that have you seen the economy lately? Having the ability to actually settle down, get married, buy a house, have any kids at all, whatever. These aren't the result of just one privilege or helpful circumstance. They're a pileup of many. These things are available to a rapidly dwindling minority, and if you should already not be ashamed of being in a different place in life, which you shouldn't, then imagine how much less shameful it is when so much of it is due to systems specifically designed to exclude the many.

Write "capitalism" on the next pumpkin you crush. It won't help, but it'll be funny and poetic.

Hey, I appreciate this a lot. Thank you. I know I'm not the only one who feels frustrated and left behind. It all sucks. It's just harder to ignore when I'm spending multiple days listening to my friends map out all of their great life plans, usually I can just retreat into weed oblivion when I don't want to think about something that hurts 😂 instead I have to be a good friend joke around and tell them how great it all is, because I don't want to be a dick.

Unfortunately I already filmed a new pumpkin crush video (I'll probably post it next week after it drops on my OF) but maybe I'll try to do a bonus one too for the capitalism idea 🎃