#bts kissing each other is a normal thing for them

[7ndipity]

Bts As Subs

Sub!Ot7 x Dom!Reader

Summary: Headcanons about how the members would be as Subs

Warnings: +18 mdni, smut. Swearing. Mentions of dom/sub dynamics, bdsm, oral(f. and m. receiving), handjobs, edging, overstimulation, degradation, thigh riding, pegging, petplay, dacryphilia, marking, slapping, scratching, aftercare. Not proofread.

A/N: Thanks to the lovely anon who requested this! Working on this actually helped a lot with my writers block and gave me waay too many ideas for fics👀 But I hope you like ‘em!

Masterlist

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Jin:

Is either the sweetest, best behaved baby boy or an absolute brat, depending on his mood.

Loves to run his mouth just to get a rise out of you, whining and complaining about your teasing, but turns into absolutely mush once you get him under you.

Likes when you tie him to the headboard and jerk him off while sitting on his lap, close enough to still kiss him but not letting him touch yet, letting him cry into your neck when he finally cums all over your hand.

He’s so loud and whiny, it almost sounds like he’s singing until his voice cracks.

Someone mentioned this on his nsfw list, and I had to mention it here, he has a slight oral fixation and needs access to your chest while you ride him, sucking and biting hard enough to leave marks(which he says he’s sorry for, but you know he isn’t really)

Lowkey masochistic and enjoys punishments, loving when you mark and scratch him up, or edge him till he cries.

But what he really loves when you just ride him soft and slow, moving just fast enough to make him needy, but not letting him cum, edging you both till he’s desperate and pleading to cum.

Yoongi:

Turns into the sweetest, vulnerable little kitten. You can always tell when he’s feeling subby from the way he buries his face in your chest or your neck, in both sexual and nonsexual situations. He's just so soft and just wants to be taken care of(pls protect him🥺)

So fucking whiny, but he tries to muffle them, biting his lip and scrunching his face up so hard, he almost looks in pain(until you bite/suck the sweet spot on his neck and he just starts wailing).

Prefers things to be half kinky, half vanilla(the vanilla stuff is always what makes him cum tho)

Like, he enjoys when you’re mean and tease him, but he really can’t handle much degradation, so it needs to be combined with a lot of sweet words and kisses.

Cries so prettily when you peg/breed him.

Is slightly embarrassed at how quickly he cums from thigh riding, hiding his face in your neck as his hips stutter against you.

Needs a fair bit of aftercare to ground him and help him come back down, mainly just sitting and holding each other.

Hobi:

Ooh the range of this boy😍, he's always so bright and eager, and tries so hard to be a good boy it’s almost painful, how could you not reward him?🥺

Loves it when you’re rough with him, wanting you to slap, scratch, mark, and degrade him, etc. He’ll take it all with a smile.

Tie him up and and tease him by making him watch while you touch yourself, his poor cock twitching and leaking with every noise you make(he may have broken a chair from pulling so hard on his restraints)

Absolutely melts tho when you’re soft with him, holding his hands while you ride him, caressing his arms and chest while leaving kisses all over his face.

Loves it when you edge and overstimulate him.

Needs lots of cuddles and praise afterwards, usually falls asleep on your chest.

He's just so cute and needy, literally everything you do turns him on. You’re cuddling? He’s hard. Dancing around the kitchen? Hard. Folding laundry? Hard.

Loves when you do extra little things to take care him or buy him lil gifts, it makes him feel special and appreciated!

Namjoon:

Honestly, it takes so much work for him to let go and fall into a sub headspace, but once he does, he turns into such a clingy baby.

Like normally he looks kinda intimidating, but deep down he’s just a giant teddy bear.

You’re gonna need the cuffs for this one, for multiple reasons.

He gets so impatient sometimes and almost involuntarily tries to take over, bucking up into you or gripping your hands/hips to guide your movements.

He literally has to have his hands on you at all times, whether that grasping at your waist hips, groping your chest, or just holding your hands(not letting him touch you in one the biggest punishments for him)

Will actually beg to taste you or for you to ride his face, like he needs to be between your thighs, however brief it may be, or he’ll sulk.

As vocal as he is when he doms, he goes almost non-verbal when he’s really in sub-space, only letting out little whimpers and whines of your name.

Actually prefers looking after you during aftercare to help him come down, needs a fair bit of reassurance afterwards. “Did I do good?”(of course you did, you djehfksjdkwjf)

Jimin:

The best behaved boy. Choke him, cuff him, blindfold him, he’ll take whatever you give him and say thank you🥺

Not exactly a brat, but he can’t resist making sassy little comments to rile you up sometimes when he wants to be punished.

On the flip side, he’s very much a people pleaser and has a massive praise kink, so he needs to hear that he’s doing good and making you happy.(could probably cum untouched from just you petting and praising him)

Lets out the prettiest whines and moans when you ride or peg him

Loves dressing up for you, whether in pretty little lingerie pieces, or a shirt/outfit in your favorite color for date night.

Lowkey sugarbaby vibes. He gets so blushy and smiley when you buy him lil gifts like jewelry or accessories and always makes sure to wear them for you cause he’s your pretty little baby.

Has a slight oral fixation and tends to fall asleep while sucking on your chest, fingers, or even your neck.

Taehyung:

Puppy. Just an absolute puppy, like actually call him that pls, he will dissolve.

He is slightly into petplay, but nothing too extreme, mainly just a pretty collar for you to pull him around by or to hold onto while he rides your strap-on.

Definitely has his bratty moments every now and then, but he really can’t handle a lot of punishment, so he’s always super apologetic.

Lowkey voyeuristic, loves the idea of someone seeing or overhearing the two of you together and just how much of a mess you make him.

Dresses up for you, whether that’s lingerie or just a sweater you really like on him(tho he will come to you wearing nothing but that, like a reverse of the ‘wearing their shirt’ thing)

He's surprisingly good at keeping edged and overstimulated, so he can handle and actually really likes long, drawn out handjobs.

Really likes non-sexual shows of dominance from you. Like when you treat him to meals/drinks, or hold onto him to guide him around, it makes him feel cared for.😊

Jungkook:

Right on the line between good boy and brat. He likes to run his mouth and challenge you, but once you start doling out punishments, he turns into the softest baby. “I’m sorry Jagi, I’ll be good, I promise. Please still let me cum!”🥺

Super unsubtle and touchy when he’s in a subby mood(tho, he’s not exactly subtle the rest of the time either, so), kneading your hips as he grinds against you, pleading softly for you to please come help take care of his ‘problem’.

So fucking squirmy, he can’t keep still even if he tried, hips bucking and twitching involuntarily with every little touch.

He’s just soo sensitive and cums super fast whenever he subs.

He’s very middle ground on kinks and everything. He likes a lot of the harder stuff like bondage and degradation, but he needs some softer treatment mixed in and a lot of aftercare to balance out or else he’ll feel bad.

He actually really loves it tho when you make him cry from teasing and overstimulation.

Lowkey loves when you look after him in non sexual ways, making sure he’s alright and letting your protective side show through.

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[dreamescapeswriting]

BTS Reaction || Sewing Into Their Clothes

⤜Copyright: © DreamEscapesWriting - January 2024

⤜MASTERLIST

A/N: Tried to get this as different from the skz one as possible <3

SEOKJIN:

It had started a few months ago, whenever you were bored you went to your best friend's wardrobe and started to sew little designs into his plain hoodies, just to give them a little flare but ever since Jin had been in the military you'd been doing it more and he knew all about it.

"You're the cutest," Jin whispered as he looked down at the collection of clothes that were spread out on his bed, a blush resting on his cheeks. He'd gotten back a few hours ago and now the two of you were finally alone together,

"I missed you, I had to." You mumbled shyly a little before Jin wrapped his arms around you and pulled you into a tight embrace, both of your hearts racing.

"I missed you too, I'm back now." He whispered before you pulled away, the two of you staring at one another as you felt your whole body heating up. The two of you leaned closer, your lips almost touching when the doorbell went off,

"I'll go get the food," You whispered, a little sad you didn't get to finish the kiss but as you turned to walk away you felt yourself being spun around until your lips collided with Jin's.

YOONGI:

Yoongi walked into your room with bags and dropped them onto the floor,

"What's that?" You laughed a little looking at your friend as he began to pull out different hoodies in different sizes and colours and drop them onto your bed. Ever since you'd started to sew into his clothes Yoongi began obsessed with the designs.

"We're going to have matching hoodies," He said as if it was the most normal thing in the world, your body heating up as you watched him.

"Matching? Like a couple." You teased softly, the two of you teased each other a lot but this time Yoongi chuckled and nodded coming closer to you.

"Yes...Like a couple," He whispered making your whole body tingle as you stared at him, blinking a little as you waited for him to make a joke but the time never came.

"Okay...What shall I do?"

"Two gooses, kissing." He smirked before kissing your cheek softly, your body felt like it was melting at his touch and you stuttered over your words a little.

HOSEOK:

"What are you two doing?" Namjoon asked as he walked into Hoseok's studio to see you sitting together, Hoseok's arm resting on your thigh as you stitched Mang into his sleeve and giggled a little to yourself.

"He wanted me to stitch for him," You smiled staring down at the design you were working on, it was Mang sitting down eating a sandwich and it was the cutest design you'd done yet for him.

"You should do hearts on one sleeve, Hoseok loves it when you do hearts for him."

"You do? Why?" You looked up at him as he blushed bright yet, stuttering a little as he tried to think of something he could say and Namjoon smirked.

"Because of his crush on you." Before either of you could process Namjoon walked away and Hoseok was whimpering a little as you smirked at him.

"I have a crush on you too Hobi, don't worry," You whispered, going back to your work, adding some hearts around Mang's head.

NAMJOON:

It was obvious that Namjoon was in love with you and had been for a while but he didn't want to make a move on you, he was trying to be respectful of you and to keep things friendly between you. But whenever you bought him something new you'd done for him he was instantly down bad for you, blushing and smiling like an idiot as you explained the design to him and he wore it EVERYWHERE. It didn't matter if he was going to the airport or to the shops, he wore it, he wanted to sport your designs everywhere and be able to say he was wearing something from someone he loved.

"You don't have to wear it, I can stop if it's annoying." You told Namjoon one night but he just stared at you in complete silence.

"But I love getting to wear them." He pouts a little before you smiled shyly,

"But if you ever hate them-" He pulled you closer to him,

"I could never hate them, because you made them and that's what makes them so special to me," He admitted before you whimpered, kissing him softly without thinking but you were sick of waiting for him to make the first move when you could have done it easily. Namjoon smiled, wrapping his arms around you and kissing you back softly.

JIMIN:

As soon as you started to sew things into Jimin's clothes he began to brag about it to anyone who would listen, telling everyone that he was the only one with the special designs and that they were all one of a kind.

"It's by a very small designer, I'm not sure they'd like me giving out their name," Jimin told one of the staff members, not noticing that you were standing behind him.

"Oh? Are you close with them?" The staff asked, staring at the little BT21 characters you'd sewn up and down the sleeve of Jimin's hoodie.

"Very, I love them." Jimin admitted smiling to himself as he stared at the hearts next to his BT21 character,

"As a designer?" The staff asked, turning to look at Jimin as you walked closer to him until you were right behind him.

"As a person, completely and utterly in love."

"Good, because she loves you too," You whispered before kissing his jawline softly, handing him the new hoodie you'd been working on him as he stuttered and stumbled over his words not meaning for you to have heard him.

TAEHYUNG:

Ever since you'd sewn little hearts onto the sleeve of one of Taehyung's hoodies he'd started wearing it to bed, it somehow made him feel close to you and he loved getting to see the work you'd done for him and only him.

"You sleep with it?" You whispered after one of the members had dropped Taehyung in it, a blush taking over his whole face as he turned to look down at the floor.

"Maybe." He mumbled under his breath before Jimin scoffed at him, there was no maybe about it and the boys were about to tell you why, they'd been sick of him dancing around the subject and it was about time the two of you admitted your feelings for one another.

"Of Course he does, he's been in love with you for almost six years, and he's going to sleep next to it." A pillow was launched at Jimin before he grunted and whined a little, but your eyes were on Taehyung as you waited for him to deny it. When he didn't you smirked to yourself and walked over to him, placing a gentle kiss on his cheek.

"I love you too," You whispered in his ear, the rest of the boys being drowned out as the two of you confessed to one another finally.

JUNGKOOK:

Jungkook knew someone had been sewing things onto his clothes but he had no idea who that someone was until right now, he walked into one of the studios to find you sitting on a chair watching a true crime show surrounded by threads and needles.

"I found the culprit." He chuckles walking toward you and staring down at the latest piece you were doing, a blush resting on his cheeks as he saw Cooky on one of the sleeves of his hoodie with hearts around his head.

"Do you hate them? I was only choosing plain hoodies, I'd never do it to your designers." You whispered, suddenly worrying that he hated it. It had started as something to keep you entertained while you waited for him to finish working but he shook his head and smiled.

"I love it. Will you teach me how so I can do it to yours?" Your whole body heated up and you nodded as your best friend pulled up a seat and began to watch you closely.

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[jeonscatalyst]

Am I the only Jikooker who's not excited for next episode ? I think antis got one thing right this time - the show is indeed so boring. CT was OK, jeju was typical run episode maknae line version while sapporo is just boring. Nothing intresting, no activities, no fun talks, nothing. Only boring talks between them because they have to do something for camera. I don't remember a single intresting moment happened in sapporo in the show itself let alone a 'jikook moment'. Jikook in memories were much intresting and interactive while this is literally them in show: 🧍🙂🧍🙂

I don't think they are bored of each other because they literally enlisted together but either they are very bad entertainers when it's just them without group or doesn't have anything intresting to talk or do among each other so they just go with the laid back energy and flow. I cant believe JK didnt even lifted Jimin one time which was like a usual moment in all contents they release. They might have enjoyed the trip but they didn't bothered to make it enjoyable for viewers. If they did it was just for them, then make a private trip instead of ruining it for everyone 🤷‍♀️

Ep 2 was even boring than already boring ep 1. I think ep3 will ultimate boredom as there was nothing intresting in trailer either. It's gonna be them just watching previous episodes and laughing.

“Am I the only Jikooker who's not excited for next episode ?”

Yes anon you are the only one.

Anon, you probably are not the only one who thinks the show is boring and that is why you should join the rest who don’t find the show interesting and stop watching. Do yourselves the favor.

When Jikook spoke about this show, they said we were going to see them being their truest and most authentic selves so they are not acting a script here. They took the trip for themselves and to leave something for fans to watch while they are away. They are not putting any pressure on themselves to do more than what they normally do because the show is intended to show us them in their most authentic selves which is what we see.

“I don't think they are bored of each other because they literally enlisted together but either they are very bad entertainers when it's just them without group or doesn't have anything intresting to talk or do among each other so they just go with the laid back energy and flow. I cant believe JK didnt even lifted Jimin one time which was like a usual moment in all contents they release.”

Expecting Jimin and Jungkook to talk about more than they already talk about on a show which millions of fans watch is kinda unrealistic in my opinion because they wouldn’t go on a show to start discussing their private matters now would they? Would you expect them to sit there talking about all the investments they make, or the family visits, or how many times they cuddle or other much private stuff? Did you want to hear Jungkook tell Jimin how much he wanted to kiss him or hug him on a show anon? Did you expect to hear Jimin and Jungkook gossiping about the stuff their friends tell them on a show anon? What exactly did you want to hear them talk about? If you want more thrill and fun then go watch run BTS where they just do activities that have been prepared for them to do. AYS is meant to be a healing show showing us how Jimin and Jungkook are on vacation.

I am not fond of shippers like you because people like you don’t know how to differentiate between a ship and real life individuals. You may ship jikook yes but you shouldn’t forget that they are real people who donot live robotic lives. Do you think Jungkook carries Jimin in his arms everyday in private? Do you think Jimin and Jungkook always do fun stuff in private? Do you think they must be talking about something interesting to like being in each other’s company? If that is how you view Jikook then why do you even ship them because you must believe their relationship is shallow as hell because if two people always need to fill the silence with noise or try thinking of interesting things to talk about before they can tolerate being around each other then that is kinda……sad.

“Jikook in memories were much intresting and interactive while this is literally them in show: 🧍🙂🧍🙂”

You’ve spent so many years watching Jikook in moments when they were playful and chaotic that you don’t know how to feel when you see them in those moments when they are calm and domestic. Are you and you significant other always playing around and carrying each other in your arms anon?

“They might have enjoyed the trip but they didn't bothered to make it enjoyable for viewers. If they did it was just for them, then make a private trip instead of ruining it for everyone 🤷‍♀️”

Who is the “everyone” in question anon? Please speak for yourself because I am having ball watching Jikook being domestic as hell and reaching peak happiness with each other and I am certain thousands if not millions of other fans are. While seeing fun and chaotic and playful jikook is fine, I don’t mind sitting for 4 hours watching Jikook just eat, sleep, giggle and bicker. That is cinema to me. And they clearly enjoyed the trip. They enjoyed it so much that they want to do it till they are 50 so maybe you should take that up with Jikook themselves or better yet, do yourself a favor and stop watching.

“Ep 2 was even boring than already boring ep 1. I think ep3 will ultimate boredom as there was nothing intresting in trailer either. It's gonna be them just watching previous episodes and laughing.”

One man’s yuck is another man yum anon so please do some of us who think AYS is Yum, a favor and not watch ok.

Please don’t take my response as me not respecting your opinion. I sincerely do and that is why I am giving you a very simple piece of advice by telling you to stop watching something you find boring, and not trying to convince you about how the show is interesting and how you must find it interesting. I don’t like your choice of words because they give me the impression that Jimin and Jungkook are some some prop to you but I guess we all have our freedom of speech. Ta ta anon💜

[tjwritesfanfics]

BTS MASTERLIST💜

Main Masterlist

MINORS DON'T INTERACT ON NSFW THINGS

🔥NSFW 🌻Fluff 💔Angst

OT7 💜

💜BTS spoiling you 🌻

💜BTS playfighting with you 🌻

💜BTS exposing your relationship on VLive *written by my friend 🌻

💜First kiss (Hyung line) *written by my friend 🌻

💜First kiss (Makane line) *written by my friend 🌻

💜 BTS seeing you at work 🌻

💜Rejecting fuckboy BTS over text 🔥

💜BTS meeting you for the first time 🌻

💜BTS sending snaps because they miss you on tour 🌻

💜BTS losing you to an abusive boyfriend 💔💔

💜BTS rap line's friend who stutters can rap 🌻

💜Kissing in the rain (Hyung line) 🌻

💜Kissing in the rain (Maknae line) 🌻

💜BTS not noticing that you were on the camera crew 🌻

💜BTS jealous of everyone (Bi reader) 🌻

💜BTS playing the Pocky Game with you 🌻

💜BTS seeing you with glasses for the first time *written by my friend 🌻

Kim Namjoon 🐨

One Shots

💜Order for 🌻

Not such a normal day at work for Namjoon

💜Trees 🌻

Your grandson starts asking about trees. So, you tell him where he can find a man who went by the name Koya, though you knew him as Kim Namjoon, a friend, but then he became the man who destroyed the trees.

💜Perfect warm up (ft Jin) 🔥

Namjoon and Jin need your help to warm up before a show

Kim Seokjin 🦙

One Shots

💜Perfect warm up (ft Namjoon) 🔥

Namjoon and Jin need your help to warm up before a show

Min Yoongi 🐈‍⬛

One shots

💜Miss Jackson 🔥

Yoongi and Jungkook knew what you did for fun. They just wish they weren’t the ones stuck cleaning up after you.

💜Not all bad 🌻

You were working at a hybrid shelter and in a desperate need for money, you take the position to take care of the rare panther hybrid. Turns out it would be a lot harder than you thought.

Series

💜Back in Time (Completed) 💔

While helping your boyfriend research his ancestry you find a very old looking book. Curiosity gets the best of you, and you open it, a flash of light sucks you into a world you’d never seen before. Now with a man who looks exactly like your boyfriend you have to find a way home. 1 2 3 4 5 6

Jung Hoseok 🐿️

One shots

💜You're mine (ft Lee Felix) 🌻

BTS has been super busy with their comeback, so Hoseok hasn’t seen his girlfriend in a few weeks. After he hears that you want to learn to dance, he takes it upon himself to teach you. Imagine his surprise when he finds you and Stray Kid’s, Lee Felix, in the middle of a dance lesson.

💜Remembering the days 💔💔

Hoseok remembers all the fun times you had together.

💜Hallmark Holidays 🌻

After a terrible break up, your best friend convinces you to go back to your hometown. Only problem was you hadn’t been back in seven years and your ex-boyfriend was still there and you kinda sort of still have feelings for him.

Park Jimin 💖

One shots

💜Miss Jackson 🔥

Park Jimin loves you. He loves you more than he can handle, and he isn’t about to let your latest plaything get in his way.

💜Apple bottom jeans 🔥

CEO Park Jimin decides he wants a night to relax and there was no better time than on his birthday and at his favorite strip joint. Luckily for him you were preforming and offering him a special birthday treat.

💜You look so pretty 🔥

After a long day at work, your boyfriend has a surprise for you.

Kim Taehyung 🐯

One Shots

💜Lesson Learned 🔥

You belonged to him. No matter what.

💜The Contract 💔

You love Taehyung and will do anything to be with him.

💜Growl 🔥

After watching Taehyung perform there was nothing you wanted more than to suck his dick.

💜Blood lust 🔥

With a killer clown on the loose, you worry about your boyfriend’s late-night job. A job you knew he had but didn’t know the details of what he did or where it was. Or you didn’t until the night you heard screaming from the basement.

💜Only her 🔥

Kim Taehyung and his twin brother V always shared everything with each other. Food, clothes, and the love of killing. No one ever understood them until they move to Seoul and meet y/n, the pretty barista at the coffee shop down the road. Now they had to have you in their lives, and no one could stand in their way.

Series

💜Helping hands 🔥

Your father hired Taehyung to lend a helping hand around the farm every summer, but what he didn’t know was that Taehyung also lent his ‘helping hands’ to his daughter too.

💜Mile high (part 2 of helping hands) 🔥

Halfway through the summer, your town was holding a county fair! You really wanted to go and take Taehyung with you. What you didn’t expect was to end up stuck on the top of the fairs wheel with your secret boyfriend and your best friend that just confessed his feeling for you.

Jeon Jungkook 🐰

One shots

💜Miss Jackson 🔥

Yoongi and Jungkook knew what you did for fun. They just wish they weren’t the ones stuck cleaning up after you.

💜International playboy 🔥

You meet BTS International Playboy, and he just rocks your world. 

💜Dirty translator 🔥

Jungkook needs Namjoon's help to translate for his girlfriend

💜Finally 🔥

Giving Jungkook a hand job at dinner leads to much more.

Series

💜Behind closed doors (on hold)

Everyone wants new kid, Jeon Jungkook’s, attention. You had it without even asking for it and if they knew the consequences that come with having his attention, they wouldn’t want it. 1

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Falling

Pairing- Jimin x Named Reader

Word count- 5k

Includes- Door sex, oral, pussy eating, cum eating, floor Sex, riding, from behind, cock riding, missionary, rough sex, soft sex, dirty talk, multiple orgasms, fluff

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Jimin POV

I’m trying not to get hard

But it’s impossible with Joanne near me.

Just looking at her makes me that way.

She’s in the dorm and me, her, Tae, Jungkook and Yoongi are watching a movie

She’s Jungkook’s best friend, since they were babies.

Her parents came to Korea for her dad’s job and the first people they met were Jungkook’s parents.

They were neighbors and the four of them instantly became friends

Both of their moms got pregnant at the same time.

Joanne was born first is January and Jungkook in September.

They’ve been inseparable since they were newborns.

They do everything together

They even got matching tattoos when Jungkook got his

She already had some but agreed when Jungkook asked her to get one with him.

It’s in the same spot on their bodies too.

Their ribs

I always thought she was fucking hot

She’s a mix of Spanish and Italian- and fuck that mix makes one sexy girl

Jungkook is next to me and she's on his other side, her head on his shoulder

I want her

Especially because I had her once already

Two months ago, we had sex

It just happened

I was alone in the dorm and she came to hang out with Jungkook and decided to wait for him

I stayed with her to keep her company and it just happened

It was seriously the best sex I ever had

Everything about her is perfect for me

I’ve had sex after her and it’s no where near as amazing as it was with her

I can’t stop thinking about her body and how good she felt

Honestly it’s just sex

I like her but only as a friend

And she feels the same

She asked if we can still be friends and not make it weird between us

I agreed and we haven’t spoken about it

Everything went back to normal

Except for my imagination and my need for her

I’m dying over here and she has no idea

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After the movie ends, she gets up and goes to Jungkook’s room with him to hang with him

“So Mortal Kombat?”, I hear him ask

“Yeah. I’m gonna kick your ass”

He laughs, “Oh Jo, you’re so cute”

“Shut up”, she giggles

I’m so jealous she spends time with him

I also wonder if she and Jungkook have ever been together

Or if they just see each other as best friends, like brother and sister

I get even more jealous just thinking that they might be going to be with each other

Fuck I need her

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“I’ll see you tomorrow Kookie”, I hear her say as she leaves his room

Here’s my chance

I fly off my bed and open the door to my room

She passes by and I pull her arm

“The fuck?”, she shouts, then turns to see me

I stare at her beautiful face and all words leave my brain

“Oh hey Jimin. You scared me. You ok?”

“Uh no”, I answer

God I sound like an idiot

“No? What’s wrong?”, she asks concerned

I pull her into my room and close the door

“Uh”, she says right before I kiss her

Fuck what am I doing?

I move my head back, pulling away to apologize but she pulls me back to her, kissing me

She lets me slide my tongue in her mouth and she moans

Fuck, yes

I pull away, “I need you. I need your pussy. I need to be inside you. I need to cum”

I’m honestly so shocked that I’m saying this

I’m just not thinking

She’s going to slap me

“Yeah Jimin?”

“Yeah”, I nod, “I can’t stop thinking about the last time. About you on me, how perfect I fit in you. I need you”

“So you just want to cum?”, she asks

“Yeah but I need it to be you.”

“Me?”

“Yeah. Sex with you has been the best I ever had and I need more”

“Ok Jimin.”

I’m shocked she’s agreeing

And not yelling at me

“Ok?”

“Yeah. Ok. Take what you want”, she smirks

Yes

Fuck yes

Pushing her against the door, my lips on hers, I start pulling her shorts and panties down

I feel her pulling mine and my boxers down too

Once both of us have them off, I grab her leg and wrap it around me, thrusting in hard.

Yes

Oh god yes

She’s just like I remember but better

“Fuck”, she yells

“Fuck Joanne, yes. God you’re so fucking tight. So good”, I moan

“Fuck me Jimin. Hard”, she asks

I start slamming in her hard, just going straight to rough sex

“Fuck yea!”, she yells

She gets so fucking wet and I feel it all over me.

She pulls at my shirt and lifts it off me, throwing it behind me

Her hands start running all over my back and in my hair

Her touches feel so fucking good

She’s wearing a flimsy tank top and I just grab the top and rip it down the middle, tearing it off her

“God Jimin. You’re so fucking hot”

I pull her off the door long enough to take her bra off then slam her back on it

“Yes baby. I love when you’re fucking rough”, she yells

Good because I love it too

We were rough all last time too

I slam in her and she tightens on me so tightly screaming my name and coming all over me

“Jimin! Fuck yes. God yes!”

“God baby you’re fucking amazing. You feel fucking amazing.”

I pull out and turn her around, pushing her against the door again

“Open”, I growl

She opens her stance wider and I thrust up in her again

Leaning over I kiss her back and her shoulders while slamming in her

“Fuck Jimin”, she moans loudly

“C'mon baby. You know you wanna cum again. Just do it”, I urge

“I..I…”

“Don’t I fuck you good enough to make you cum?”, I ask

“Yeah Jimin. Yes you do”

“Then cum baby”

I slide hard inside causing her loud scream and her pussy to throb on me when she orgasms again

God, so good

I move harder, turning so I’m leaning against the wall

I pull her against me, her back on my chest, her head on my shoulder

I lift one of her legs up, giving me better access to pound her pussy

“Jimin, oh god Jimin”

“Yea baby, scream my fucking name”, I growl kissing her neck and shoulder, thrusting so hard

“Cum baby”, I yell, “I need it. I fucking need it now”

“Jimin!”, she screams

Yes holy fuck yes

I love when she cums on me

I can’t get enough

Pulling out, I turn her back around again, against the door

Dropping to my knees, I open her legs more and lick her pussy

“Jimin”, she cries

“So good Jo. You taste so fucking good”, I moan, licking her

She does taste amazing

How I don’t know

I really don’t

But I love her taste and I want her in my mouth all the time

I think about it all the time

Sliding my tongue up, I flick her clit causing more screams

I love making her scream

“Joanne?”, I hear Jungkook come out of his room

I close my lips on her clit and suck

“Oh god Jimin”, she shouts

She shudders while I keep sucking on her and I love it

“Jo, where are you? I thought you were leaving?”, Jungkook calls

“Jimin, don’t stop. Jimin”, she whimpers

So I don’t, the next suck on her clit causes another orgasm

“Jimin fuck Jimin!”, she screams, her hands flying in my hair and holding my head to her pussy

I lick her and moan from how good she is

“Oh fuck baby. You taste so good”, I groan

“Jimin”, she moans

“What the hell?”, I hear Jungkook yell

“More Jo. I want more. Cum again. I want more in my mouth baby”, I moan, slurping on her clit, her cunt soaking my face in her sweet cream

“Shit Jimin”, she yells

“Please?”

“Yes, yes fuck yes”

I smirk and lick her, swirling my tongue all over her pussy

I hear the door knob turn and the door start to open

Without stopping, I reach out and slam the door closed

“Hey what the fuck?”, Jungkook yells

I let go of her for a second to shout, “Go away”, then move my tongue on her

“Jimin? What the hell? Is Jo with you? What are you doing to her?”

I ignore him and keep pleasuring her with my tongue, getting her closer to coming again

Fuck, I want it so much

I don’t know what’s wrong with me or why I want her this much

But I do

“Jimin!”, Jungkook yells

“I’m eating her out. Go away!”

“Jimin fuck that’s so hot”, she moans

“What! Oh gross, I don’t want to hear that!”, Jungkook yells

“Jimin, Jimin, Jimin!”, she screams, coming on my tongue, “Oh fuck Jimin”

Yes fuck yes

I swallow her sweet cum, then lick inside her to get more

Which causes her to explode again, screaming my name

“Oh fuck, I’m out”, Jungkook yells and I hear him walking away

“Jimin. Jimin!”, she calls breathing hard

“Yeah baby?”, I answer

“I need…I…..need”

“What baby girl? What do you need?”

“You Jimin. I need your hard cock inside. Now”

She pushes me back, making me lay on the floor

She climbs on me and I grab her hips and slide her on my cock

“Fuck” she moans

“Yes Jo. Fuck so tight. I love being inside you”

She starts bouncing on me and pleasure blasts in my body

I yell from how good it feels

“You like it baby?”, she smirks

I just nod rapidly

“You like the way I fuck your cock? The way my tight pussy holds you?”

“Yes fuck yes! Oh my god yes!”, I shout

“Good boy”

She tightens on me and I can’t fucking handle it

She moves harder and faster

“Jo, I’m….”

“Yeah Jimin”, she moans

“Can I cum inside Jo? Please can I? I don’t want to leave”, I beg

“Yes Jimin. Yes”, she whimpers

I thrust up hard into her, coming in her

“Joanne fuck!, Joanne!”, I scream, closing my eyes

“Jimin!”, she cries, starting to shake on me, coming too

God it feels out of this world

To have her clenching and cum on me while I cum at the same time- fucking heaven

She climbs off and sits next to me breathing hard

I’m still laying down, trying to breathe

I still want her

I just need a second

After I get my breathing under control, I get up, pulling her up too

Then I pick her up and throw her on my bed

“More Jimin?”, she smirks

“Yea. I’m horny for you. You’re cunt. Just yours”

“Yea Jimin? Well I’m here for you. Come and get it”, she teases

I don’t need to be told twice

Turning her over and pulling her on all fours, I pound back into her

“God Jimin. I love you fucking cock baby. You’re so fucking hard.”

I ram my cock in her hard and fast, feeling her get so wet

“Harder Jimin. I want it harder!”, she yells

Fuck she’s wild

I’m already going so hard and she wants more

Spreading her legs open more, I slam as hard as I can in her

“Yes, Oh god yes. It feels so good”, she cries

She starts moving slamming herself back on me when I thrust in

I hit so deep inside her, listening to her screaming for me not to stop

“Oh god Jimin!”, she shouts

Her pussy tightens on me as she climaxes

Watching her cum all over my cock, makes me so much more horny

Her pussy grabs my cock so tightly and doesn’t let go

“Oh fuck”, I yell as I keep going

After a few more thrusts, she comes again, moaning loudly

I’m getting closer but I need her to cum again

I need to feel it, feel her squeeze my cock

The best feeling in the world is when she cums on me

Pounding in deep, she yells as her orgasm runs through her, “Jimin, cum baby. I want you to cum in me.”

“Yes baby, yes, I want to”, I groan, moving more

Her tightness is driving me crazy and the next thrust has me coming, waves of pleasure passing over me

I pull out and watch as my cum leaks out of her and all over her legs

Jesus, that’s so fucking hot

She’s laying face down, so I lay next to her

“Damn Jimin. That was fun”

“Yyyy…yeah”

Fun?

It was fucking amazing

After a few minutes, she says, “I should go”

I guess she should

“Uh ok”

She gets up and I watch her get her panties, pants and bra on

“Uh Jimin, you kinda ripped my shirt”

“Oh yeah. Sorry. You can wear one of mine”, I offer

“Yeah ok. I’ll bring it back next time I come over”

“Don’t worry about it. It’s fine”

She shrugs, “Ok”

She puts the shirt on

It’s baggy on her but she looks good

And for some strange reason I like that she’s wearing my shirt

“I see you later Jimin”, she says

“Wait”, I say before she gets to my door

“Yeah?”, she asks turning around

“Can we keep doing this? Sleeping together I mean”

She raises her eyebrow, “With me? You can have any girl Jimin, why me?”

I honestly don’t know

It’s just something about her body that gets me off

“I…I can’t explain it. It’s just your body Jo. Your pussy is the best I’ve ever been in. You’re the best girl I ever tasted. Ever since we had sex two months ago, any girl I sleep with doesn’t compare to you at all. My body just reacts to yours, just wants yours.”

“Wow. Uh ok”

“C'mon Jo, you know your body reacts to mine too. I feel you, the way you’re pussy keeps me in you, the way you shake when you cum, the way you scream.”

“Yeah. You’re right Jimin. My body does want yours. But I’m not some fuck toy. I’m not some cunt you can just cum in when you want”

I’m not explaining things well

I don’t want her to think that's what I want

I mean I do want that but I want her to know that she can use me to cum too

“Look Jo, I’m not asking you to do that. I want things to be mutual. I wanna be able to have you when I need to cum but I want you to be able to have me when you need to cum too. You can call me when you want it and I’ll go to you. It’s not just me calling you”, I explain

She looks at me silently for a minute

Maybe this was a bad idea

But I know I’m not going to stop wanting her

“Fine, but no feelings. Just sex”, she says

“Yes, that’s what I want too. Just sex.”, I answer

“And you can’t fuck anyone else without a condom. I’m not catching any diseases. If you don’t want to wear a condom with me, then you wear it with anyone else”

“That’s fine. I don’t want to use a condom with you”

“Ok. I don’t like them anyway. And I’m on birth control so don’t worry about me getting pregnant. It won't happen”

“Ok good”

“Ok”, she nods

“Ok”

She turns and leaves my room

I just sit there amazed that I got what I want

🐥🐥🐥🐥🐥🐥🐥🐥🐥🐥

Six Months Later

Jimin POV

I look at the time in the practice room

Another hour and we’re done

She called me two hours ago, asking me to come to her apartment

I texted her that I’ll be there as soon as practice is over

She hasn’t texted me back

It’s been six months since she and I started sleeping with each other

Jungkook didn’t want to talk about me and her and what he heard

He said he doesn’t want to know a damn thing and to leave him out of anything we do together

Sex with her is fucking mind blowing

It was always rough, hard wild sex for the longest time

But in the last two months sex has changed with her

I find myself not just going with her to just cum anymore I’m going to be with her

I mean we still have our times when we rip each others clothes off or we’re having sex even before all our clothes are off

But lately, more often than not, we’re going slower

I find myself kissing her more, all over, not just her lips but her shoulders, her neck, her hands, everywhere

I play with her hair a lot more, I hold her hand when I’m on top of her, I cuddle with her after

I love having her in my arms I can feel everything so much more when we go slow

I feel every move she makes, every squeeze, every breath

And when she cums on me, Jesus, it’s fucking mind blowing

And I know why

I’m falling in love

Hell, scratch that

I am in love

And I feel so stupid

So terrified

Because there’s no way she’ll want me

She complains all the time about my schedule and me not being immediately available for sex like she is for me

She has to wait hours or days if we’re really busy

And I get it

She drops everything and comes to me when I want her, unless she’s working

I can text her and in 10 to 20 minutes she’s in my room with me or at her apartment waiting for me. And she stays with me for hours

Because she takes it when I have free time

A lot of the time, when she texts me, I can maybe get there within an hour and I can only stay for a little bit

She’s mostly understanding unless she’s really horny, then she angry fucks me

Or she’s not horny anymore when I get there

She also sometimes calls me to tell me to forget about coming over

I know it bothers her but she acts like it doesn’t

So if it’s this complicated and it’s just sex, how am I supposed to have a relationship?

And not just with her, but with any girl

My schedule is crazy

I’d have to leave her to go on tour

There’s no way she’d want to be with an idol

I don’t blame her

But I love her

And I don’t know what to do

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I get to her apartment three hours after she called me

I feel like such a dick

It’s 1 am

I use the key she gave me to let myself in

Her apartment is dark

Is she home?

Did she go out?

I make my way to her room, trying not to trip and kill myself in the dark

Opening her door, I see her in her bed

Asleep

She has the lamp on her nightstand on

Walking to her, I look at her

She’s so fucking beautiful

She looks like a fucking angel while sleeping

She’s on her side, cuddled into her pillow, blanket half on her

I notice she’s wearing one of my shirts

It’s the one I gave her last week

When we get wild, I rip a lot of her shirts, so I give her mine to wear

That’s all she’s wearing, my shirt

I’m not going to wake her up

I feel bad that she fell asleep waiting for me

It’s not fair to her that she has to wait for me all the time

I don’t want to leave though

I want to stay with her

So I get undressed, leaving my shirt and boxers on, then lay next to her

I just want her in my arms

Turning off the light, I cuddle into her back

“I’m sorry Jo”, I whisper, “I love you”

Kissing the back of her neck, I put my arm around her and close my eyes

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I feel her moving

Opening my eyes, I see that it’s still night I don’t know how long I’ve been asleep

She’s is turning in my arms, to face me

“What?”, she says, opening her eyes and looking at me sleepily

“Jimin?”, she asks

“Yeah Jo. I’m sorry”

“Huh? For what?”, she asks groggily

“For taking so long to come. You were asleep when I got here.”

“Oh. It doesn’t matter Jimin. You’re here now”, she answers

It doesn’t matter?

She only cares that I’m here right now

It feels good to hear her say that

“Oh uh..”

“I just want you Jimin”, she says cuddling into me

My mind is racing

And I’m shocked

She wants me?

Does she feel the same way I do?

I hope she does

“Jimin, you’re staying right?”, she asks

Uh, fuck yes. “Yeah Jo. I’ll stay”

“Ok. Can you hold me while we sleep? I just want to be in your arms”, she says tiredly

Oh my god

Yes yes, fuck yes

“Yes Jo. I want you in my arms all night. I won’t let go. I promise”

“Ok”, she replies, half asleep

Running my fingers in her hair, she starts to breathe evenly

“My Jimin”, she whispers, “I love you Jimin”

My breath catches

What?

Is it true?

Or did she say it because she’s almost asleep and doesn’t know what she’s saying?

I hope she means it

“I love you Joanne”, I say to her

She makes a little noise

I don’t know if she heard me

I look down at her and see she’s asleep

Kissing her head, I hold her to me, waiting to fall asleep

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I wake up to kisses all over my face

The best fucking way to wake up

Opening my eyes, her face comes into focus

She smiles then kisses my lips

“Hi Jimin”

“Hi Jo”, I answer

“You’re so cute when you sleep Jimin”

“Me? No Jo, you’re cuter. You’re adorable the way you cuddle in your blankets”

Her cheeks turn red when she blushes

“Aww baby don’t be embarrassed”, I laugh

She scowls but I see her holding back a smile

“Shut up and kiss me”, she demands

I want nothing more

Pulling her down to me, I kiss her soft lips gently

She kisses me back and slides her tongue in my mouth

Fuck I love it

I love kissing her

Her arms go around my neck pulling me on top of her

I run my hand up and down her body, making her hold onto me more tightly

She pulls on my shirt and I lift myself up so she can take it off

“I love your body Jimin. I can look at you all day”

I blush, “I uh….thanks. I’m sorry I uh don’t have abs right now”

“Are you being serious? Why are you apologizing for that?”

I don’t know

I’m known for my abs.

ARMYS always want me to have them and if I don’t I get criticized

But I’ve been slacking on working out

“Jimin do you think I really care about that?”, she exclaims

“Uh…”

“I don’t Jimin. I don’t give a fuck if you have abs or not. It doesn’t matter to me. I love your body with or without abs. You are perfect just the way you are”

I love when she tells me stuff like that

I know I don’t act like it on stage but I’m really insecure about a lot of stuff

My body is one of them

But she’s constantly telling me that I’m beautiful, sexy, hot

The best part is she’s being serious

She’s not just saying it

The way she looks at me, the way she touches me shows me she’s not lying, which blows my mind

Like how she’s looking at me now

“I…uh..I”, I stutter

“Don’t worry about things like that with me ok Jimin. I don’t care about things like that. I just want you”

“I just want you too Jo”

“Then kiss me Jimin and don’t stop”

I crash my lips to hers, kissing her hard

Kissing down her neck, she moans making me hard

I sit up, opening her legs and immediately start licking her

“Jimin”, she whimpers

I love eating her out

Laying my tongue flat on her, I lick up her pussy over and over

She gets so fucking wet, going all over my mouth

God she’s everything

I lay my tongue on her clit and lick the same spot again and again

I know her clit is where she wants it most, where it feels the best and I always give it to her

It’s my favorite place to lick and suck

It’s crazy how that little spot causes massive pleasure

“Oh god Jimin”, she shouts, her hands pulling my hair

It feels good. Taking her clit in my mouth I suck on her

“Jimin! Fuck Jimin!”, she screams, shaking and coming in my mouth

So fucking good

Kissing up her body, I pull her shirt off before I kiss her lips

She pulls down my boxers as far as she can and I kick them off

I just want her on me, on top of me

I love watching her move, watching the pleasure take over her face

“Please baby”, I whisper, hovering over her and kissing her softly

“Please what Jiminie?”, she answers

“Please Jo, ride me. I want you to ride me baby. I want it so bad”, I kiss her again

“Yeah Jimin”, she says, brushing hair from my face, “I will baby”

I roll over pulling her on top of me

She sits up on my lap, hovering over my cock

Slowly she lowers herself, instantly drenching my cock as she slides down

“Jimin, baby, Jimin”, she moans the more she moves down

Pleasure blasts in my body and it’s just from going in her

She leans back, her hands on my legs and she starts moving, sliding up and down my cock

I don't know where to watch, her or my cock going in her pussy

Every time she goes up, I can see her juice all over me and it turns me on so much

She moves faster and harder, making pleasure flow everywhere

“Ahhh god Jimin, you feel so good”, she moans, “so fucking hard”

Fuck I love how much she loves me in her

I reach out and touch her- her hips, her stomach, her sides

Her head is thrown back and her breasts are bouncing so fast and so hard from how hard she’s fucking me

She’s fucking gorgeous

“I love your cock in my pussy baby. You’re cock is the best I ever fucked”

“Fuck baby girl. You’re fucking tight cunt is the best I ever had. My cock loves being in you.”

Reaching out I touch her clit and she yells loudly

I start playing, rubbing and sliding my fingers there while she keeps fucking me

I feel myself getting close but I need her to cum first

“Show me baby”, I moan

"Hhhh..huh?”, she stutters

“Show me how much you love my cock baby. Cum on me”

“Jjjj…Jimin”

“I want it Jo. I want to feel you. You feel so good when you cum”

She slams hard which starts her orgasm

I keep rubbing her clit, urging her on, “Yes baby. God I fucking love it. Squeeze me baby. Don’t let go of my cock baby”

Her whole body shakes while screams rip from her

She keeps moving on me, wanting me to cum

She doesn’t have to say it

We’ve been together enough that I know what she wants

I’m right there, she just needs to move a few more times

Instead she tightens on me so fucking tightly and slides down

“Joanne, Joanne, Joanne!”, I scream, coming so hard, “Baby fuck, oh my God, Jo”

“Yes Jimin”, she moans

I roll over, getting her on her back

I slip back in, feeling her pussy filled with my cum and hers

I fucking love that feeling, both of us on me

I honestly don’t know why

Opening her legs more, I slowly thrust inside her

“Jimin”, she sighs

I lean over her, looking down at her

She smiles at me, reaching up and touching my cheek

The love I feel for this girl is so fucking intense

She moves her hands, running her fingers along my back, fire bursting on my skin wherever she touches

I can’t hold it back I don’t want to anymore

“I love you”, I tell her

Her gaze snaps back to mine

“I love you so much Joanne. Everything about you, I’m so in love with. Every single thing”

I’m scared of what she’s going to say but I’m tired of pretending I don’t love her

A huge smile bursts on her face

“I love you Jimin. More than anything”, she answers

Happiness burst in my body

Just pure euphoria

“Yeah?”, I ask

“Yeah Jimin. I’m in love with everything about you too.”

“So…are you mine now?”, I ask shyly

She nods immediately

“Yes Jimin, all yours”, she answers

Smiling so hard, I lean down kissing her lips

Her arms wrap around my neck, kissing me back

I start moving again, going slowly

“Jimin”, she moans, “You feel so good baby”

I lean my forehead against her, whimpering

“Don’t stop Jimin”, she asks

“I won’t”, I whisper

The room fills with just the sound of our soft moans

“Jimin”, she whimpers

She pulls me down for a kiss

I’m kissing her when she cums

Her hand grips my hair tightly, moaning in my mouth

Just the feeling of her coming causes pure pleasure to run through me, making me cum as well

Pulling away from her lips, I moan in her neck, her arms going around me

“I love you”, she whispers

“I love you” I answer her back

I just lay there, on top of her, loving the feeling of being in her arms

This is everything I ever wanted since I was younger

Just a girl who loves me as much as I love her

And I’m so happy I found her

She’s my everything

[not-goldy]

Fanservice. Every single one of them.

right.....

I wanna eat it. * Points camera at Jimin *

so why did jimin get embarrassed and jk changed the subject "i meant the cake"?? commit to the joke boys 😡

Arrest me.

god give bts some acting lessons.

bc why tf did they leave jk hanging like that??? that wasn't cute or funny, it was awkward as hell. someone, ANYONE, pls just laugh and save me and jungkook 😭😭

Do you want Rameyon?

yet it was portrayed as "jungkook is still hungry" and jimin's insane ass responded with "i'm sleepy"..... just to go spend more of the morning (bc they're STILL awake at 6 AM 😐) with jk and bam....

ok sure.

Rabbit spit is spicy.

a convo between hobi and jimin

said rabbit with spicy spit was in the way back of the room.....

at least make it front and center if you're going to "play gay" smh

I will give him a kiss.

pls explain why joon looks like he's going to have a panic attack and slap both of jikook and tae changes jimin's answer to "50 white shirts" instead of "playing along" 🎤

You liked being tied up, don't lie.

meanwhile hobi looks disgusted with them

Runs fingers through hair, breathes heavily, licks lips before wishing his bro a happy birthday.

so why add the bro?

and why didn't bts make fun of it the same way as jimin's message for tae??

and where is jimin's response? seems like a lot just to not have said birthday boy respond 😔

was jk's mom also in on the fanservice with the seaweed soup?

interesting 🤔

Hickeys/Neck Biting

was not aware there was footage of said hickeys being made? anon where did you get that 👀 ???

why was jin not allowed to touch said mark? but jimin could rub all over it? why are the best two actors (jin and tae) in the group horrible at playing along with said "fanservice" for jikook??

why did jin not know what was going on with the picture that made jimin stay and continue the jinjikook live?

ear sucking

special shout out to the goosebumps on jk's arms for playing along

the lil head kiss and screaming i love you was a nice touch

tiddy slapping, thigh pinching, hand licking

you mean normal things between friends?? 😭

crotch footsie

just giving your bestie boners for fanservice 🥰

hands all up on each other's asses at every opportunity.

yes bc jimin damn near fingering jk is normal

You like me that much?

another awkward moment jk inserted himself into lol

I'm shameless, so is that why you like me more?

will actually pay for bts to learn to act bc what tf 😭😭

Jk starring Jimin down when he tied his own hands up and was being walked around on a leash.

jk once again all the way in the back

it'd make more sense for tae to be the one doing fanservice as he was the one pulling jimin around, but ok let's go with bs that i have to zoom in on to notice.....

Both getting in each other's face & lip space inching closer and closer til one backs off

so why does jin and hobi freak tf out and wipe their mouths?

do they (hybe) not have any new material for jikook? bc it's going on 11 years with the same damn bit 😓

actually i think we jikookers deserve better than this

also where is my travel show hybe? i'm not being serviced 😔

It's the way they call it fan service but every one's uncomfortable with it for me😩😩😩

Some fan service 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

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Stay Alive (16)

BTS poly!ot7 x Reader

Magical Creatures AU

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Warnings: None

A/N NOT BETA READ (I did try the best to my ability) As normally! I love all your expressions over the whole chapter. Keep them coming! I love you guys!

You shuffled your feet along to Jungkook’s bedroom door. It has officially been four days since he’s been asleep and you spent that entire time worried about him. You weren’t exactly left with a great impression before he had been put to sleep. It wasn’t that you thought of him differently, but that he was having an episode right before and it left you with an ache in your heart.

As you entered the boy’s room, you found someone at Jungkook’s bed side, leaning over the boy.

“Hobi?” You called out when you noticed the older man hovering over Jungkook like he was about to smother the boy. 

Hoseok quickly pulled back, hands flying to his side like he had been caught. “Hello, (Y/N).” His shoulders relaxed when he noticed it was only you. “How are you today?” He asked with a small smile. 

“Could be better.” You hummed, walking closer to Jungkook’s bed. “How is he doing?” You asked, moving his blanket to make him more comfortable. 

Hobi had a smile on his face as he watched you fret over the younger boy. He knew you were worried about him–about all of them. They could all see your emotions as you always had them out in the open for anyone to see. It made their hearts ache to see you with such a frown on your face talking about Jungkook and how he hasn’t woken up yet. 

“Still the same.” Hobi sighed, taking a seat at Jungkook’s side. “I'm worried I'm not trying my best.”

You suddenly frowned, taking a seat as the bedside chair. “Why would you need to be? You're not a doctor.” You told him. 

“No I guess not.” Hobi sighed. “I care deeply for all of them. Seeing Jungkook like this makes me feel like I failed to protect him.”

You quickly got up when you noticed his lips tremble, moving to stand in front of him. Your hands were quick to place themselves on his cheeks, making him look up at you. You had a kind smile on his face. It made his heart race just looking at your eyes sparkled with kindness he had never seen in such a long time. 

“You don't have to protect him.” You told him softly. “It's not your job to. I'm sure he appreciates you so much. He spoke so highly of you. Of all of you really.”

Hobi gave you a smile, knowing you had no idea about how much it meant to all of them to protect each other. They all knew they didn’t need the protection, each of them had the capabilities of taking care of themselves. But just like you they still worried about one another. They were all meant to be there for each other when they needed it most. 

“Jungkook is the youngest, I can understand why he would think that.” Hoseok told you softly. 

“I'm sure whatever it is you're doing he loves you no matter what.” Your smile grew thinking about all of them. 

The way they all laughed and talked with each other made you cry. It was such a wonderful thing to watch their friendship in real time. They had spent so much time together they had learned how to be harmonious with each other to the point it looked like they were soulmates. Like the universe intended for all of them to be together no matter what. 

“Thanks, (Y/N).” Hobi slowly stood up, hands moving up to grip yours that were on his cheeks. 

He held them delicately, kissing your palms lightly before dropping them down. 

You blushed at his gesture. “Of course.” You giggled. 

“Hobi!” Someone walked into Jungkook’s room. “Can you help me with something real quick?” Namjoon stood at the doorway, giving you a quick smile in greeting. 

“Coming.” Hoseok spoke up. “I'll see you.” He allowed his fingers to graze your cheek before he moved to follow after the taller man. 

You sighed to yourself when the door clicked shut softly, turning back towards Jungkook. You took a seat next to him, allowing your fingers to move his hair from his forehead. “Why won't you wake up?” Your lips began to pout.

You shut them tightly, feeling them starting to tremble as your emotions flow. “Please, I want you to wake up.” You softly cried. “I can't stand to see you like this.” You sniffled as your eyes began to hurt from the tears forming. 

You quickly began to rub at your eyes, not wanting to cry more than you already do. As you moved to rub your cheeks, you caught sight of the book laying open on the nightstand. You first thought it belonged to Hobi, the boy probably spending his time in the room reading to Jungkook. It was a sweet thing to do for him. Maybe you would start doing the same thing. 

However as you got up to see what book it was, the page it had been open to caught your attention. “Sleeping spell?” You caught sight of the neat handwriting at the top of the page. 

Taking a closer look at it you noticed it was more of a leather bound journal. Whoever wrote inside of it was meticulous with their work and knew how to use stationery. You would’ve obsessed over it had it not been for the next couple of words you continued reading. 

-fragile state of mind can affect the way a sleeping spell takes a hold of a person. Jungkook has yet to wake up after I put him to sleep during the full moon. 

You suddenly took a seat on the bed again, mindful of not disturbing Jungkook. You brought the book down to your lap as you continued your reading. 

He had become rabid after seeing an ogre man-handle (Y/N). His wolf took full control which left me to deal with his altered personality. I tried to create a reverse binding but have yet to find something to break it. 

You frown to yourself as you become increasingly confused. This was for sure someone’s journal–there were dates for certain entries. However the things that called to your attention were the things the person mentioned. An ogre had apparently been the one to man-handle you and his wolf? What on earth was this person possibly on?

You glanced at Jungkook, frowning as you contemplated reading more. You gave into your curiosity and flipped a couple pages back in the journal. 

Namjoon's healing process seems to be slowing down. I think it has to do with how much scales he's been losing. I don't know much about his species but I'm sure someone would if I was back home. 

Scales? Were they talking about Namjoon’s skin lesions? But what did they mean by scales? They had mentioned something about his species. Was he not human? You flipped to another entry. 

They seem to be using the water stick to Jimin's skin in the medicine they are making. This causes him to dry out and not have a hold on his surroundings in the water like he normally does. 

Jimin was always in the water but is it normal to dry yourself after coming out of it? He couldn’t possibly be going around all wet. And medicine? Who’s making medicine out of something stuck to someone’s skin. 

Your shoulders dropped as you suddenly remembered where it was you worked. You quickly looked down at Jungkook, frowning at the thought of how they take his spit for testing. You didn’t want to stop reading.

Seokjin looks like he's aging sometimes. I'm scared they're taking too much of his DNA. His kind shouldn't be aging at this point in his life. 

His kind. He was as human as the next person you came across. Minus his pointed ears, but he told you he had gotten some surgery done for them. Was there a possibility of it being a lie?

Yoongi is often tired from how little they feed him weekly. One cup of blood a week is not enough with how much venom they take from him monthly. 

You felt vile rise up in your throat as you were brought back to yesterday when you had brought Yoongi his food. It was red in color and heavy enough to mean it was some thick liquid. He told you it was a cherry smoothie. Taehyung had burst into the room talking about wanting some of his blood before he cut himself off after seeing you. 

Did he feed Taehyung his blood?

I haven't heard much but I hear they are keeping Taehyung's wing-

The door clicked open which caused your eyes to go wide. You quickly shut the book and placed it back on the nightstand just as Jin looked up at the same time. 

“(Y/N)?” Jin frowned looking between you and the book. He was carrying a tray of something, the styrofoam plate a give away. 

“Jin?” You stood up, making your way over to him. “What's that?” You asked him, trying to show you hadn’t been snooping. 

“I brought Kookie some meat.” Jin gestured to the plate. “Maybe that will bring him out of his sleep. The boy can smell it a mile away.”

You laughed, nodding your head in agreement. “Yeah, I guess so.” You glanced up at Jin, eyes falling onto his ears hidden behind his fluffy hair. 

His dark hair covered up his ears completely but if you looked close enough you could see the pointed shell peeking from between his strands. You swallowed spit to clear your dry throat as you thought back to the entry in the journal about Jin’s aging process. 

“Everything okay?” The boy asked you when he saw your eye glass over in thought. 

You were brought out of your stupor, giving him a smile to assure him. “Yeah.” You nodded to yourself. “Everything’s perfect.”

Were they really not human?

IT WAS A STRUGGLE TO NOT TELL YOU ALL!! I will be giving out the mood boards now! I loved how you guys all thought about what each of the boys were. I want to feel that kind of things too but I knew who they were lmao. The anticipation! I loved your guesses. I would love to talk more about their creatures if you guys want. Don't be afraid to ask me! I feel this still didn't give out much to some of them But I'm positive you guys got it! TELL ME YOUR GUESSES NOW!

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[eleni-cherie]

a thief's origin✨ || bts • kth - epilogue

"you're afraid I won't wait."

"I'm afraid you will."

a criminal and a doctor should be as different as the sun and the moon - but unexpected things happened every day. like him finding his safe haven in her.

© 2024 | eleni_cherie

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— genre: thief au, gangster comedy, adventure, romcom, humour, angst, fluff, sexual tensiON, slowburn, mutual pining, strangers to friends to lovers s2f2l

ALTERNATIVE UNIVERSE. CHARACTERS NOT NECESSARILY LIKE THE REAL PERSONS. ALSO VERY UNREALISTIC PLOT LOL - JUST PRETEND READING A MANGA/COMIC OR WATCHING A FILM, REALLY.

SUGGESTIVE THEMES. MENTIONS OF VIOLENCE & BLOOD (BUT NOTHING TOO GRAPHIC, IT'S STILL A COMEDY!)

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age 30 // attending physician

6th June

Havana, Cuba

The day Taehyung walked away, Cassandra didn't only lose the only man she'd ever loved but also her best friend.

A lifetime without him seemed empty and pointless and she was still mad at him for putting her through this misery.

However, she couldn't hate him, even if she wanted to. He hadn't done anything wrong after all, neither one of them had. What he'd done, he'd done out of love, to keep her far away from the danger lurking around every corner he took.

No. She'd never be able hating him because in the end, he'd never broken her heart. He had just stolen and run away with it.

And it still hurt.

The first first days, weeks, months after the break-up were characterised by denial. She was used to extended periods between seeing him again after all. Even the fact texts and calls had stopped, couldn't change that. Only when postcards had stopped coming as well, it'd finally downed to her.

Of course, in reality she'd already known it long before that, from the very first moment he'd left. She could see it in his eyes. He'd meant it back then, every single word. He wouldn't come back.

And yet, denial kept her from accepting it earlier. Kept her from even admitting or acknowledging it. Denial had her bargaining, believing that, even if he'd meant it, he'd surely change his mind eventually. That he'd certainly regret it. Denial gave her false hope.

When months passed without any new postcard, however, that was when she'd finally let herself admit defeat. When the denial couldn't hold up anymore. When the bargaining ended up in vain.

And instead, a phase of upsetness and depression, in constant pendulation, entered. A permanent restlessness accompanying her from that day on, knowing she'd never be able finding what they'd shared with someone else.

Until she'd finally accepted it and got accustomed to never seeing him again.

The tiny hope she'd once held, long stored back in a box and buried by then. Only the necklaces remained as a remnant of the past, not ready to give them away. One day maybe, but not yet.

However, just because she had managed accepting it, it didn't mean everything was back to normal for her.

Passing by their old places, she couldn't help but always see the ghost of them together there, everything turning dull. Unable to pass by Casa Batlló anymore without aching at the memory of their sunsets, the beach without remembering New Year's Eve, without seeing the 'magic fountain' and remembering his birthday present or the art museum above it where he'd clumsily confessed to her later.

Not even being able staying too long in her own apartment, constantly getting reminded of their first kiss or the countless nights they had spent there laughing, crying, fooling around and loving each other.

Her once dream city had turned blue and gray.

She simply couldn't bear staying in Barcelona anymore after completing her medical training last year, deciding to realise her once silly idea of revisiting the place of her childhood memories for her specialisation training instead.

A place with no attachment to him. Far away from everything and everyone.

She was essentially running away - or at least tried to. Although she knew she'd never be able to fully run away from it all, carrying him with her anywhere she went.

Perhaps there was also an underlying irony in the fact she'd chosen emergency medicine as her specialisation out of all medical fields. Perhaps it was evidence for the residual hold the artful marksman with the cheeky grin and the warm eyes still had on her and probably always would.

Over a year had already passed by now ever since Taehyung had left and interpol showing up hours later, questioning her about the boatyard. Over a year and she still caught herself falling into her memories every once in a while. Still couldn't stop becoming sorrowful whenever she did and plunging into work or her films for distraction.

She felt like a fool, considering a year should've been enough time to get over someone, something she'd used to do in a day or two.

At least she had stopped looking for him in other men a long time ago. Unintentionally comparing anyone she'd crossed paths with him at first, a fatuous and unhealthy habit which thankfully had subdued by now. Not that she even wanted or tried to find anyone to replace him. It'd be impossible, but also the mere thought of any men made her shudder.

No, she didn't even feel like glancing at anyone, much less date anyone. Her busy work schedules and introverted personality were a true blessing after all, making avoiding them easier.

So there she was now in Havana, the capital of Cuba and place of one of her earliest childhood memories.

It was the beginning of summer, although high temperatures had been constant for weeks. But it was nothing she couldn't handle and otherwise she enjoyed her life there so far. She wouldn't have the right to complain anyway, Havana being her chosen getaway after all.

Cassandra opened the door to her apartment in the first floor, the coolness inside a much needed contrast to the warm afternoon outside. Her aparatment was a bit bigger than her old one, but still decorated in a similar fashion. She couldn't get rid of her beloved posters, plants or plushies after all.

Her backpack sliding from her arms to the floor with a thud as soon as she pressed the door shut behind her.

A five-hour-long seminar sounded more painful than it really was, but perhaps she'd simply got used to this, who knew. Numbness to certain things was one of the requirements for this kind of profession, which she had almost mastered by now - finally.

With a dragged sigh, she slipped out of her disgustingly warm sneakers, although she was accustomed to such temperatures, they still took a tall on her. First she poured herself a much needed glass of water. Gulping it down in one go before changing into more comfortable clothes and preparing something to eat.

When the food was ready, she settled in front of her tv to continue watching a crime comedy she'd started awhile ago.

Old habits died hard after all.

The second half of the episode was reached when Cassandra noticed her eyes growing heavy, the tiredness of the day and the food making her drowsy. Eventually fluttering shut, causing her to almost miss the anxious knocking on her front door.

First she dismissed it as a neighbour's hammering, but when she paused the episode to figure out which one it was, she realised the noise was coming from her door. And she tensed up, staring at it with wide eyes.

Wonder mixed with an odd feeling of déjà-vu crept up on her as she slowly went to answer it. Assuming it was just irritation causing her trembling hands as she grabbed the door handle, her knuckles turning white when pressing it down and opening the door.

It felt like a sick joke of the universe first. Then she feared her mind was only playing tricks on her, projecting a memory of him. But it couldn't be a memory. He looked different.

Not because of the beaten up posture and the torn clothes - she had seen him way worse. It wasn't even the shorter mop of waves, tousled and sticking out at some ends, or his broader frame.

No. It was the distress written all over his gentle features, a mild sunburn tainting them in a pinkish shade, that told her something had to be severely wrong for him to stand again in front of her door, more than one year later.

And her initial excitement sunk.

"Cas -" Taehyung tried catching his breath and propped a toned arm against the doorframe. It was evident that he had been running. "I know I have no right, but Jimin - he - he needs you."

At the mention of his friend's name and the way he choked it out, she sensed her initial fear being correct. Something was terribly wrong.

Any lingering feelings and unsolved regrets got swept aside in that moment. Her ego and tiredness long forgotten, instead instincts from years of medical training kicked in. And she immediatelly rushed to the bathroom.

Perplexed at her sudden move, he wanted to call after her when she returned seconds later with a familiar object in her hands. The blue medical kit. She held it firmly in one hand while slipping back into her sneakers with the help of the other.

"Take me to him."

Taehyung smiled softly, not even surprised by the determination in her voice. She hadn't changed at all, she was still the same.

He nodded then, wordlessly grasping her free hand in his and Cassandra let him pull her downstairs to his waiting car.

THE END

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Other Parts: Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.

You'd started dating V 2 years after he debuted. Your company Cube were not thrilled about it. They knew they couldn't stop you or any of your G(I)-dle members from dating but they hoped you'd atleast date someone from the big 3 so if it got leaked you'd get a ton of publicity (you'd also get a ton of hate but they didn't care about that). BTS hadn't blown up yet so they saw you dating V as pointless, but you didn't.

V first caught your eye because of how good-looking he was. Then you also saw how sweet and kind he was and you knew you had a thing for him. You admired him for a while before you started trying to express your interest in him. You started bowing more to him, smiling, saying small things like "good luck" before BTS went on stage. It worked and you became friendlier and friendlier until one night V came over to you at a party and asked you out. You of course said yes and got on instantly. You really weren't slumming it by dating someone like V and it was your company's fault if they couldn't see that.

The two of you were really happy for a while. You had 3 years of bliss but that all started to change when BTS' fame skyrocketed. At first, you were thrilled for V! You knew how hard he and the guys worked and how they'd been overlooked for 5 years but fame is weird and we all crave attention and praise so you didn't fully blame V for what happened.

Suddenly everyone wanted to know him. Guys who couldn't be bothered to respond to him when he bowed to them were inviting him to A-list parties. Girls who'd never even spoken to him were acting like they were best friends with him. Particularly the ones from big companies. You decided to let V do what he wanted with it and let him enjoy parties and events on his own. He deserved the praise, not you and you didn't want to be accused of riding his coattails. Plus you never liked all that party stuff so you just waited home for V but slowly things started to change.

You saw V less for one thing and when you did see him, things were different. His team were styling him weirdly and trying to change things about him to make him appeal to an even wider audience. They toyed with his appearance like he was doll and started changing more personal aspects of him. His interests began to change and even the way he spoke altered. It would take him a few minutes each time you were together for V to shed the idol V and just go back to normal V. You loved when your V was back but it took longer and longer reach time. Not to mention when you did see V on the idol circuit you didn't like what you saw. You hardly recognised the man and didn't like how flirty he was. Sure there were girls throwing themselves at him all over the place but that didn't mean he had to reciprocate. Didn't he care about how you felt watching it?

Apparently not because when you brought it up in the car on the way home V was not happy. He didn't get it and saw your reaction as a lack of trust, completely misreading everything. You argued the whole way home and opening the door to your apartment, V still could understand what was wrong with his behaviour. "V you were flirting with her don't even try and pretend you weren't!". "Okay sure but what's wrong with that? It wasn't really me flirting with her just my character". You blinked "V that makes no sense! We're not actresses and even if you chose to flirt with her because your company asked you to I'm not okay with that". "Why?" V asked "you know none of that is true". "It doesn't matter though the girls you flirt with don't know that and neither do the others watching. Plus why would you even do that? There are some lines you don't cross V and when does flirting turning into more?". "More like what?" V asked and you shrugged "I don't know? A sexy dance together, lingering hands, a kiss...It will only keep getting worse and the lines will keep thinning and people will think that you're up for it" you argued but V was just getting more frustrated.

"I don't get why you're so worried about what other people think. Who cares if they think I'm fucking everyone in the industry, it's not like I'm actually sleeping with these girls and you know that!" V said and you laughed "wow thank you so much for doing that major favour for me!" you said and V rolled his eyes "why are you being so difficult?". "Can you really not see why I'm upset?" You asked and V shook his head "it's not like I'd ever actually cheat on you, I wouldn't go that far" and your jaw actually dropped. "V I don't want you to go anywhere near! It's not good enough that you didn't go too far! I got at first it was exciting having pretty girls from big companies talking to you but how can you not see through it? It's been a year now and none of these people wanted you before you were big!". "But you did so I should be grateful to you?" V asked. "That's not what I'm saying I just...I can feel you pulling away V and if you want out just say so" you said.

That stuck with V and he immediately switched to comforting you, telling you there was no way he'd want that and he'd make you see that. You wanted to believe him but a few months later it started happening again. This time you didn't fight it. You let V break away from you and do his own thing and you ended it 3 months later. You think there was relief from both sides when you did.

It didn't take long for V to start using his newfound freedom and you mainly just tried not to watch but it was hard because now everyone was watching him and news travels fast. You heard how he was seeing a model and then an idol and then an actress and then two models at the same time and it continued. At the few after-parties you went to, V could usually be seen making out with some girl and then another one later in the night. You'd heard he'd jumped into booze, girls and drugs head first and honestly didn't know how much Big Hit was paying the newspapers to keep it quiet but it must be a lot.

Fast forward to 2 years later, BTS were the biggest band in the world and you were happy for V but didn't really think about him much. The V today was a different person from the one you knew who didn't exist anymore. So you didn't even think of them as the same person. It was almost as if V had retired or moved away and there was just this guy who looked and sounded like him but you knew it wasn't him. However there was one person in the world who was sure if anyone could get the old V back, it was you.

You woke up to hear your phone ringing at 4 am. You glared and then gasped as you saw who was ringing, it was V's mum. You'd always been close to V's family when you were dating, especially his mum and towards the end you talked to her more than V. When you told her you'd ended it she understood and said she knew he'd lose you if he wasn't careful. You hadn't spoken to her since apart from Christmas cards so immediately shot up worried this had to be some emergency.

"Y/n it's V! He's not answering his phone and he needs to be at the airport in 2 hours! The boys can't get through to him and they won't let them leave the airport. Y/n he's missed so much if he misses this trip he'll be disciplined or worse" she said near tears and you nodded letting her words sink into your sleepy brain. "Okay so V is late for a flight?" you asked "what time does he need to be there". You confirmed all the details with his mother and then nodded "okay Mrs Kim don't worry I'll go get to him" you said without really thinking. You quickly pulled some clothes on as his mum sang your praises and thanked you a million times. You couldn't believe how quickly you'd offered yourself but for V's distressed mum you'd do anything you could. You promised to text her with updates and then closed your car door. You hadn't been to V's place in years and you hadn't ever planned on going back but here you were

You weren't even sure why V still lived here. Sure it was convenient but he could afford somewhere 5 times the price of this with all the fancy amenities but he'd stayed here for some reason. Maybe he was never here long enough to care about moving.

You walked up the stairs to his place and wondered if he still kept the spare key in the same place. You were kind of counting on it. You searched in his flower pot (which now had a fair few cigarette buds in which was a lovely touch) for the fake rock he'd bought. You found it and pulled it apart to reveal the key. Well some things hadn't changed. You took small comfort in that and opened the door.

The first thing that hit you was the smell of alcohol. It stank and was stale, as if the smell had been there a while. The apartment had changed a lot since you'd been here. Pretty much all the furniture was different and you could see the jump in V's fortune. You didn't like it though. It looked like someone else had decorated as none of this was V's style and it was all too tacky and showy. Then you reminded yourself that the V you knew was gone and this was probably the new V's taste which made you scrunch your nose in distaste.

You made your way further into the living and saw the coffee table was covered in a mix of alcohol bottles and some substances. You tried not to look too closely at everything and hurried through the living room trying to get past the smell and called out for V. You still remembered where the bedroom was and knocked but got no response. So you threw open the door.

V was in bed but you couldn't see him clearly because of the other girls in his bed. Two, one on either side. They were all naked and you assumed V was the lump in the middle. "V get up!" you yelled and knocked loudly on the door. The people in the bed jumped and began to stir. They all made a noise as you yanked the blinds up. V sat up and you realised you'd missed another girl who had been entwined with him. 3 girls and counting you thought, expecting another one to pop out from under the bed.

"Y/n?" V asked confused and you nodded "get up, you're late". "No I'm not I've got until...shit" he said seeing the clock. You nodded "yeah so get up!". "But why did they send you?" V asked and you shook your head "that's not important. What is, is that you've got a plane you can't miss so get up and get dressed. Ladies please gather your things and leave. I will order you a taxi to take you home". The girls did as you said, clearly thinking you worked for V or something and filed out. "You've got 10 minutes to get in the car or I'm leaving without you" you said and walked from the room. You made sure the girls got in their taxi and then went to grab V's suitcase, which was by the door, to find it empty.

You groaned, so annoyed he hadn't even packed and shoved open his bedroom door again to see V had left his bed but hadn't found his clothes. He wasn't shy and turned to face you, without a care in the world and actually smiled. He leaned on his wardrobe slightly "Y/n if you wanted a go all you had to do was ask" he said. You rolled your eyes "been there done that, I'm here because you haven't packed anything" and you walked past him and put the suitcase down on the bed. You turned around to see V standing right behind you, still naked and jumped. You hesitated for a second before your resolve came back. "Why don't you go clean up while I pack, you smell like a nightclub. Where's your passport?". "They have it" he said and you nodded "go wash up" and turned away. "Whatever you say Y/n" V said passing very close to you and he left the room. His words were incredibly sexually charged and you figured he must still be drunk. You could feel his eyes on you as he left the room but refused to turn and look at him.

You grabbed a bunch of clothes, shoes and underwear and shoved them in the suitcase. Then you grabbed his chargers and added them. You knew he'd need his skincare but he was in the bathroom with it and you didn't want to give him any more misguided ideas. You sealed the case and knocked on the bathroom door "5 minutes V, I'll be in the car" and waited.

4 minutes later V appeared, hair still dripping, looking like he'd been in a hurricane but dressed and ready. When he got in you told him to text RM you were on your way and ask where he should go. "Done, so now are you going to tell me why they sent you?" V asked "was it the boys' great idea or management?". "Neither, your mum called me in floods of tears because she thought you were going to be fired". "My mum?" he asked and you nodded "I never deleted her number and I guess she never deleted mine". "Did you delete my number?" V asked and you chose not to reply, putting the radio on instead and V let it drop.

You reached the airport 20 minutes later and V undid his seatbelt. "Thank you Y/n for doing this for me". "I didn't do this for you I did it for your mum" you said but you knew that was only half true. "Well thanks for caring for her, I would like to say I kept the same links with your family but that was never possible huh?". You couldn't believe he was bringing this up now and actually laughed "really? Still not over that?". "I don't think I'm unreasonable for still being upset your parents don't know who I am". "You want them to know who you are? Are you sure about that?" you asked "do you really think they'd be your biggest fan after everything that happened?". V looked down because you got him there and he sighed "sorry I'm still hungover, forget I said anything. Thanks for coming out of your way, I'll call my mum before we take off". You nodded and pressed the button to open the boot "I obviously can't come in with you" and V nodded "thanks again" and stepped out of the car. You didn't wave or anything but when you got far enough away that he couldn't see it...you looked back and saw V disappear inside.

You checked the headlines the next day to make sure V made the flight but other than that you went back to your life, V fading out of it. You didn't even tell your members where you'd been. You didn't know if they'd be upset at you for helping V or get hopeful this could mean something more. Yuqi was firmly of the opinion he didn't deserve anything from you but you knew Shuhua and Seoyeon still held out hope for you two despite everything. They thought V would give up his new lifestyle to be back with you but he couldn't give it up to keep you when he first got it so why would years later be any different?

Then a few weeks later you got some flowers delivered to your building. It was a huge extravagant bouquet that must've been really expensive. You guessed who sent it but sure enough, there was a card with one letter on it. "V". "Who sent them?" Minnie asked and you crumpled the card behind your back "oh just that brand I did that photoshoot with". "Awww that's so sweet!" Soojin said "mine never do that" and you just shrugged but one thing stood out to you. V still remembered what flowers you liked and had the bouquet made custom because they were all there. You remembered just how good a boyfriend V could be when he tried but that was the thing...it was all dependent on him giving a crap.

Some small part of you thought there might be more to this. That V might reach out to you again or this would be a wake-up call to him but no. The girls were always honest with you with any rumours and so a week later Miyeon admitted V had been kicked out of a club for having sex with a woman in the toilets. He'd apparently laughed it off, talked his way back inside and then left with a different girl. You scolded yourself for ever thinking he could change.

So when your friend Kai's birthday rolled around you were feeling a little restless. You wanted to banish any thoughts of V from your head and when you explained the whole thing to Kai he got an idea. He was friends with Jimin who had asked if he could bring Junkook and V with him. Kai checked you were okay with it and then told him yes...but that was months ago and now Kai had his own agenda because he'd heard V had been seen with his ex. "Now I know this is petty but what would you say if I suggested we do something to show V and my ex they're not the only hot idols living their best life?". You smiled "what do you have planned?".

Kai's party was huge because he was Exo's Kai and everyone loved him. So many idols showed up and he rented a mansion which only just fit them in. His party had everything from huge ice sculptures, to trapeze artists and fire breathers (not near one another of course) and the most amazing food in the world. But Kai had purposefully set up a stage overlooking the dance floor outside and about 2 hours in he made his entrance...with you by side.

Kai was the king of dance and so to kick off his birthday he did a dance with you but not any dance, it was sexy even for Kai's standards and you loved it! You adored the sexy concepts and Kai was the dream partner. Kai had choreographed this himself and you were so proud of your best friend so threw yourself into the moves...literally! Kai caught you in his arms and ran his hands down your body as you clung onto him with your legs tight around his waist. Then the next second he flipped you over and you sprang onto your feet beside him. You'd both practised very hard for this (more than you'd care to admit) but this was so much fun! Kai had been through a lot lately and wasn't sure if his ex-girlfriend had cheated on him with V so to see him so happy warmed your heart. You did everything you could to make Kai seem as sexy and amazing as possible and it wasn't hard.

You and Kai had warned your members that you'd be doing this dance but they still cheered and acted like it was the first hearing about it and to be fair their surprise was genuine. The girls hadn't seen you be this carefree and sexy since you broke up with V and they loved it. The Exo members saw Kai was in his element and screamed for him as loud as any EXO-L.

The dance finished with you and Kai pressed together, faces inches apart and the room erupted. You were pretty sure you could hear each of your members individually screaming in the roar and Kai recognised Suho's scream anywhere. Kai was so excited and had a beautiful smile on his face as he pulled you towards him and looked at the crowd. "Fuck him Y/n you're gorgeous" he said and your eyes found V in the audience. You moved them off him immediately and back to Kai "and so are you, she doesn't know what she's missing" and Kai smiled "and this is why you're my best friend, let's get down there!" and you agreed and took his hand descending down the staircase together for the night of your lives.

The party went on until the early hours of the morning and Kai only finally went to bed at 7 am. You set him up in one of the bedrooms upstairs and decided to do a sweep of the house before also going to sleep. You were in the garden wondering if to leave Sehun asleep in the bushes when you felt someone behind you.

You turned to see Jimin who smiled awkwardly. V had left ages ago, not long after your dance actually, but Jimin and Jungkook had stayed late. "Hey" Jimin said "I left my phone here accidentally and was naively thinking it might still be here. Have you seen one?". "Grey/black swirl phone case?" and Jimin's eyes lit up "you've seen it?". You smiled "I found it last night and put it somewhere safe" you said directing him to the kitchen. You opened the oven and saw Jimin's jaw drop. "Hey this is a fake house and nobody was going to start cooking so it was safe I promise". Jimin clutched his phone tightly but nodded" thanks Y/n" and you nodded to him "no problem".

An awkward silence settled and you had no idea what to say to him. The elephant in the room was V but how could either of you bring that up naturally? "Congratulations on the Grammys" you said and Jimin looked back up from the floor "thank you, it was surreal but so fun". You smiled "you deserve it, we were all cheering you on". "Thanks Y/n" Jimin said "I'm glad you're happy" he said when you frowned he gestured upstairs "with Kai?" he half asked. You didn't want to tell him it had all been a ploy to make his friend jealous but also didn't want to lie and say it was true so you just looked down nodding. "Thanks...I should probably actually go see if he needs any help with anything" you said and Jimin nodded "of course thanks Y/n and with a bow, he left.

One thing was for sure, the party and your plan was a raging success. You were sure you'd never hear from V again...but you did.

This will be a four-part series and I will post the new parts at the top of this page when they are up!

I hope this goes without saying but this is all fictional!!!! I am not saying V does any of these things and took creative liberty. This is all made up and I am not trying to imply anything. So...if you want a fun fake kpop story with the very hot Taehyung then stick around.

[marblemoonstones]

🩵 catharsis ~ chapter nine

main masterlist

series masterlist 

pairing: bts ot7 x reader

genre: collegestudentreader!au 

warnings: ❗️any characters in the story have nothing to do with their real life counterparts❗️f reader, reader with glasses, curse words, too many italicized words *lmk if i missed any*

word count: ~4.4k

a/n: i really love this chapter sm so i hope you do too :) also sorry for the time skip, i am planning out the rest of the series and need to reach a certain point!  ……………………………………………………………………………………………………………

A couple weeks pass since that night, and I find myself happier than normal. I gave up on moving to the dorms because the boys immediately shot that idea down when I brought it up to them. 

Sure, the rumors are still happening, but I am doing my best to ignore them and they’ve died down a bit for now. Although, whenever the boys see Haneul they are icier than normal.

It’s the delicious time of the year where autumn is in full swing. Hot chocolate is coming into season and so is cider. I bust out the sweaters and jeans as well as my thick fluffy socks. 

The second week in October is also arts week at uni. The university brings in alumni and also has all students who are involved in art in some way participate. While all the boys (minus Jungkook) don’t attend uni anymore, they’re all alumni and annually participate (minus Namjoon). He tells me that he still enjoys arts week thoroughly though.

I also take part during this beautifully hectic week. I’m in choir and also am doing a dance showcase. Jimin reveals his contemporary dance idea for us two (I omit that I already knew about it) so we’re practicing hard for that. 

The boys made me a schedule. Well, “the boys” really means that Yoongi added all our events to one big shared calendar that is really all of our schedules. I color coded my events so I can keep them all straight.

Monday: art gallery with joon 

Tuesday: visit tae gallery 

Wednesday: watch jk film starring jin @6pm

Thursday: visit yoongi showcase/gallery

Friday: concert @7, arrive @6pm!!

Saturday: final rehearsal @10am. dance showcase @6pm, arrive @4!!

It’s currently Sunday evening and the boys and I are watching a movie (Mulan) before the chaos of the week starts. This past week has been hell as well, but we made a promise to each other to be available Sunday evening for a rest. 

I look around and see that Hobi and Taehyung have already conked out. Jimin is carding his fingers through Tae’s hair and sends me a soft smile when I glance at him. 

The mood is so cozy and I find myself dozing on Jin’s shoulder. Once in a while he’ll ghost a soft kiss on the top of my head. I’m too tired to wonder why. The last thing I remember is an avalanche before I’m out.

~

I am a queencard, you wanna be the queencard? Imma a queencard, imma queencard…

The voices of G-idle wake me up and I groan, regretting my alarm choices. I thought I was so smart to use a powerful pop song to wake up to, hoping that it would motivate me for the killer week ahead. Instead, I want to chuck my phone into outer space.

“Alright alright. I get it. I’m a queencard,” I mumble under my breath. Stretching, I turn off the alarm and relish in the silence. 

…

“Y/n! Y/N! Y/N!” 

My door bursts open. Well. That lasted about two seconds. It’s Taehyung and Jungkook. What a surprise.

“What?” I ask, annoyed that they’re barging in at the early time of 8:23am (which, hypothetically isn’t that early but I need an excuse to complain about). 

“You ready for this week? It’s gonna be killer Y/n!” Jungkook cheers, bouncing on my bed like a child would on Christmas morning.

I shove him off as Tae cackles.

“Fuck off. It’s too early for this. Why are you in here?” I ask, trying to herd them out, but failing because they have the core strength of gods. 

“Because breakfast is gonna be ready soon! And Jin-hyung wanted to give you time to get ready and stuff beforehand!” Tae almost shouts. 

I cringe, my eardrums practically exploding. 

“Okay, thanks. Now get out.” I point to the door and can sense their hesitation so I use their moment of weakness to shove them again.

“Get. Out!” 

They leave and I sigh as I lean against the door. How much caffeine have they had? I wonder as I go to shower.

~

I wrap my towel around me and shove on my glasses. The steam in the bathroom just fogs them up so I open the door. 

“AAH!” I scream, shutting it instantly. 

Yoongi’s standing in the middle of my room, looking bored amongst the pink and green hues.

“What do you want?!” I shout, placing one hand on my beating heart in the bathroom.

“Sorry, Y/n. I didn’t mean to startle you,” he starts, “It’s just that I was sent to give you this dress from Namjoon.” 

What? A dress? Couldn’t he have given me that without giving me a heart attack?

“Okay,” I grind out, already annoyed at the energetic wake up call from the maknaes, “Why can’t he give it to me himself?” 

“Because he was too afraid that he’d rip or stain it or something,” is the response.

That makes sense, but I’m still kind of pissed off at Yoongi just coming in my room.

“Great. Thanks for the dress, Yoongi, now can you get out? I need to get dressed in this apparently special outfit and you’re kinda barring me from that.” I say, sarcasm dripping from my tone. 

“Yeah, sorry about that. And sorry about the maknaes coming in to wake you up too. I’ll go,” says the ever respectful Yoongi. 

“Thank you,” I say gratefully through the bathroom door.

I hear my bedroom door shut and crack the bathroom door open. Peering out, there’s no one in my room and I open the door all the way. There’s a package on the bed which I can only assume is the dress Yoongi was talking about.

I put on my undergarments and carefully open the dress. I pull it out and it’s one of the most gorgeous things I’ve ever seen. 

The smooth fabric is a stunning shade of brown and has shimmers of gold sewn into it. The long sleeves add elegance and the tiered skirt makes it seem as if it’s a ball gown and not a normal day dress. I try it on and it magically fits perfectly. It reaches my ankles, but with shoes on I won’t step on it. I feel truly pretty, and wonder how the boys always know what looks best on me. 

I forego hair and makeup for after breakfast and make my way downstairs feeling way too overdressed, especially for a Monday.

I descend the stairs, holding up the dress like I’m Snow White or something. 

Just  my luck: they’re all gathered at the kitchen table.

Namjoon is the first to see me, eyes becoming bigger than saucers and I swear his mouth drops a little. 

The other boys soon follow suit. Jin chokes on his food and Hobi almost drops his mug. Yoongi is frozen like a statue and the maknaes full on “Woah.” 

“Um, good morning?” I say, stifling my laugh at their shell shocked expressions.

“You look so fucking good,” Jungkook blurts out.

Jin, having taken a sip of water, promptly spits it out.

I crack at that. This shatters the silence and soon everyone is laughing with me.

“H-hyung-” Jimin is in stitches and almost falls out of his chair. “-you spit water right on Yoongi-hyung!” 

I look, and sure enough, Yoongi’s sitting there like a wet cat. There’s not too much water, but it makes the situation much funnier. We all die, and Jimin actually does fall out of his chair.

“Oh boy, what a way to start the morning,” Hobi says, wiping his tears.

“Yeah. I guess the dress is pretty good,” I say, then thank Jungkook for his compliment. “Thanks Kook, by the way. I appreciate it.”

He just grins his bunny smile. 

“Jungkook is absolutely right, Y/n. You look stunning, sweetpea,” Namjoon says, casually throwing in that damn nickname again. 

I smooth out the skirt, avoiding his eyes. “Thanks, Joon. It means a lot.”

“Namjoon has such good taste!” Exclaims Hobi, then he pouts. “I wish I was taking you to a fancy schmany art gallery.” 

“It’s okay, Hobi,” I almost laugh at his exaggerated pouty face. “We have plenty of time to do things together after arts week!” 

“Why don’t you sit down Y/n, have some breakfast before you leave,” Jin says, gesturing to the table. 

“Wait, we don’t want you to spill anything on your dress,” says Taehyung. He quickly gets an apron and ties it around my waist. 

“Isn’t this Jin’s apron?” I ask, looking at the familiar lilac hue with the stain in the corner. 

“Yes, but of course you can wear it honey,” says Jin. I’m going to have to start counting how many times they use nicknames.

“Okay, thanks.” I dig into the delicious spread. We chat about our plans for today. Hobi and Jimin have their individual dance rehearsals, Jungkook has to go to the first day of the film festival, Yoongi has to attend his music gallery, and Taehyung is putting the finishing touches on his designs. Jin doesn’t have much to do today, but I know he’ll accompany someone to their respective event today.

After finishing a semi-peaceful breakfast, it’s time for all of us to face the realities of the day. 

Everyone scatters and I turn to Namjoon, asking him what time we need to be at the exhibit.

“It starts at eleven, so we have about an hour until we need to leave,” he replies. 

I nod and then decide to go help wash the dishes since there’s nothing better for me to do. 

“Nuh uh. You’re not washing the dishes in that dress. Go sit,” Jin commands. 

“But Jin,” I whine, “I’m booored. We don’t leave for another hour! And I can’t help anyone else. What am I supposed to do until then?” 

He chuckles at my misery.

“I know, honey, but maybe just read or something. Enjoy this bored feeling while it lasts.” He shoos me out of the kitchen so I decide to go upstairs because I realize that I forgot to do my hair and makeup.

I’m walking up the stairs as Jungkook comes rushing down. We collide with a small “Oof!” I feel…damp, so I look down and see that my dress is wet. 

“Oh my god! I’m so sorry, Y/n,” Jungkook says, panic written on his face, “Your dress! I’m such an idiot. Oh my god. I can’t believe I did that.” 

He seems to have spilled his coffee on my dress.

“It’s okay!” I try to reassure Jungkook, but Jin is already at the scene. 

“Kook! Watch where you’re going!” He scolds, but doesn’t berate the poor boy much longer because Jungkook looks about close to tears. 

All over a dress, I think. 

“I’m so sorry Y/n! I’ll pay for dry cleaning, whatever it needs!” 

Jin grabs some napkins to dab at the growing stain but it’s no use. I know that I won’t be wearing this today.

“It’s fine, Kook.” I try to give him a reassuring smile, but he doesn’t seem to buy it. 

“No, it’s not Y/n! Why aren’t you upset?” He asks me desperately.

I’m confused. 

“Is that…how you want me to react?” I ask him, befuddled at his reaction.

“No, it’s just that the average person would be mad at Kook,” Jin explains, finishing dabbing at the excess of coffee, “But it looks like you’re not an average person.” 

I grab Jungkook’s hands and look him in the eye. “Jungkook, I promise, I don’t care. I will find something else to wear. Now go.” I give him a look and he grudgingly goes to leave. 

“Thank you, Y/n,” Jin murmers quietly to me, “He’s been so stressed over the film festival that even a small thing upsets him more than it should.” 

“It’s all good,” I reply, “I understand.” 

We part ways and I go upstairs to tell Namjoon that I can’t wear his dress that he chose. 

“It’s okay, Y/n, I heard what happened,” he says, and I try not to ogle him in his button up and tie. 

“Okay, great. Let me go change and touch myself up,” I say, turning away so I can’t see his muscles underneath his shirt. 

“Y/n!” I run into Taehyung on the short distance from Namjoon’s room to my own.

“Yeah?” I ask, mentally running through my closet to find another dress to wear.

“I have a dress you can wear!” This snaps me out of my thoughts.

“You do?” I ask, although I shouldn’t be surprised because Taehyung is a goddamn fashion designer.

“Yes! Come to my room and I can give it to you!” Before I can say anything more he gently pulls me to his room.

I internally gag at the amount of stuff in his room, much like Jungkook’s but with more artsy elements thrown in like crystals on the desk or colored pencils strewn everywhere. 

“Tae-“

“Aha! Here it is. I knew buying it was a good choice!” Taehyung pulls out a bag on a hanger and thrusts it into my arms. 

“Go! Now! This dress will make you and Namjoonie-hyung’s date perfect!” 

I gape like a fish before sputtering “It’s not a date!” 

“Sure it isn’t. Now hurry up! I want to see the full look before you leave!” Taehyung winks then shuts the door on me. 

I’m left standing outside his door like a mom who got kicked out by their teenage son.

“You heard the boy! Go!” Shouts an enthusiastic Hobi from across the hall.

I chuckle and make my way two doors down.

I shut the door (and lock it for good measure) then gingerly unzip the bag. A gasp leaves me. There’s the dress that I found when I went shopping with Taehyung and Jungkook a while ago. The crimson color and gold flowers are still gorgeous, and I can’t wait to slip it on.

I do my hair and makeup first then put on the dress. The sweetheart neckline fits perfectly and I grab my low shimmery heels. I double check that my purse is ready and open my door.

I head downstairs and hear Yoongi whistle and Hobi shout “Looking good Y/n!” 

I scoff but feel myself smile. 

“There we go! Looking fabulous, if I do say so myself,” Taehyung says, taking a photo of me on his phone.

“Tae! Stop!” I say, covering my face. 

“But I have to remember this day!” He pouts, but lowers his phone. 

“He’s right you know,” Jin chimes in from his spot at the table. 

“Ugh Jin not you too!” I groan, lowering myself to put on my shoes.

“Let me.” Taehyung puts them on and it feels like a damn Cinderella moment. 

“Thanks, Tae.” He salutes then goes upstairs to get Namjoon.

“You really do look gorgeous, honey,” Jin says, walking over and fixing my hair before giving me quick kiss on the head.

I flush. 

“Thanks, Jin.” 

“C’mon hyung! Y/n is patiently waiting for you, so the least you can do is hurry up.” Taehyung’s voice is heard from upstairs and is followed by an annoyed Namjoon’s voice.

“I’m coming, Taehyung. You’re the one who made me change my tie!”

Boisterous laughter filters downstairs and Jin and I look at each other, bemused.

They finally come downstairs with Taehyung leading a blindfolded Namjoon.

“Are you sure this is a good idea?” Namjoon asks after stumbling on a step.

“Yes. We have to do a big reveal!” Taehyung insists.

After reaching the bottom of the stairs (safely) Taehyung gestures for me to come stand in front of Namjoon.

“Three, two, one!” He pulls off the blindfold with a flourish and Namjoon blinks to adjust to the light. 

I stand there awkwardly as Namjoon takes in my outfit. His eyes rove over me and I do the same to him. He always is handsome, but today he looks…hot. Taehyung must have helped him. His button up is now rolled up to his elbows, showing off his arms and his tie matches my dress. His tighter pants accentuate his godly thighs and I can see his arm muscles strain when he moves.

Fuck fuck fuck.

(a/n: namjoon is the reason i got into bts, btw)

“Wow. You look amazing, Y/n,” Namjoon breathes out. 

“So do you. How did you have a tie to match me?” I ask him, noting how the red shade is the exact color of my dress.

“Tae just so happened to have one for me to borrow,” Namjoon says, side eyeing said man. 

“Hey, leave me out of this. You two should get going on your date,” Taehyung says, arms up in fake surrender and backs out of the room, dragging Jin with him.

“It’s not a date!” I hiss at him as he leaves me with yet another wink. 

“I guess that’s our clue to leave?” Namjoon asks, pulling on his shoes, “Seriously, though, Y/n, you look stunning.”

“Aw, thanks Joon,” I say sincerely as we hop into his car. 

(a/n: in this au he can drive, please don’t kill me!!)

We arrive at the venue - a nice building on campus that’s already bustling with people. 

Stepping out, I feel overdressed as most people have on nicer casual clothing like a sundress. 

Namjoon must notice my distress because he says, “You look stunning, Y/n. These poorly dressed people won’t know what hit them.”

I laugh at that and we make our way in. 

They have a small finger food and drinks table to the side so we head over to get some things to munch on. 

“These mini sandwiches are heaven.” I almost moan, sad that there aren’t any left since we took the last ones.

“Here, have mine.” Namjoon offers me his plate and I shake my head. I can’t take his food. 

“No, really. I don’t think I’ll like them and I’d rather have cookies.” He insists so I take them but give him my cookies on my plate. 

“It’s a fair trade,” I say. 

We grab some punch and meander our way through the exhibit. There’s a great variety of paintings ranging from watercolor flowers to abstract Pollock-style art. The artists are all standing by their respective paintings and many are chatting with people. 

Some students also chose to want to sell their art. I can tell who they are because of the star sticker on their description. Their prices are expensive, so I stick to admiring it from afar. 

Namjoon and I are mostly quiet, looking at the different paintings and reading the descriptions. Occasionally we’ll chat with the artist before making our way to the next painting.

“Oh my gosh! I feel like Jin would really like this one,” I say, looking at the painting. It’s a gorgeous garden, and the smooth strokes still manage to have a slight texture to them. 

“Yeah you’re right…I think I’ll buy it for him,” Namjoon says, and I feel a sense of pride at being able to help.

Namjoon talks to the seller and organizes a price. After writing a check, he comes back to admire it with you. 

“Did I ever tell you how we came to all date each other?” Namjoon randomly says.

I turn to him.

“No, but you don’t have to tell me,” I say, wondering where this came from.

“It’s alright. I want to.” 

I look at him as he begins.

“I first met Jimin when I was a sophomore and he was a freshman here. Did you know Jimin’s first major was education?” Namjoon shakes his head, a fond smile on his face. “Yeah. He loved kids, but realized that he loved dance more. We grew close during that year though, and began dating that summer.” 

I’ve always suspected that Namjoon and Jimin have a special bond, and I can totally see Jimin being an amazing teacher. 

(a/n: sorry for another note but teacher!jimin is inspired by sgmb!jimin. i don’t make the rules 🤷🏻‍♀️)

“The next year Jimin began his dance major program and met Hobi-hyung. They bonded over their love of dance and somewhere along the way we became a trio. Jimin was the one who expressed interest in Hobi-hyung first, but I soon followed. We decided to give it a try, and it ended up working out.” 

I take a sip of punch as Namjoon continues.

“Hobi-hyung became interested in Jin-hyung next, and with Jin-hyung came Yoongi-hyung. I don’t remember the exact day, but we all were drunk one night and confused each others’ feelings. You know the saying: drunk words come to mean sober thoughts. We all realized that we liked each other as more than just friends.” 

We continue to stroll slowly down the exhibit.

“There were five of us now in our relationship. It was hard to manage at the beginning, but we fell into a comfortable groove.” 

Namjoon pauses, glancing at me and taking a drink. 

“So only Tae and Jungkook were left, right?” I ask, making sure I got the facts straight.

“Yep. They’re our babies, but it was actually Jimin who found them as well. I guess we should be thanking him for bringing a lot of us together.” Namjoon laughs at that.

“Anyways, Jimin was friends with Taehyung because of a class together and then they got paired up in a project. Jimin fell for Tae and then also Jungkook. The five of us were skeptical about adding more people to our already big relationship, but Jimin was adamant. We trusted him enough to give it a shot, and the rest is history.”

Namjoon finishes and looks at me, smiling as he thinks about his boyfriends.

“That’s such a cute story!” I say, thinking about how they all found each other.

“Thank you, Y/n. You know, at this point, I even think the boys wouldn’t mind if we brought another person into our relationship,” says Namjoon.

I furrow my brows. 

“Really? That would be a lot of people.” I wonder how one could manage that big of a relationship.

“Yeah but if they all like each other then it works, right?” Asks Namjoon.

“I guess so. I don’t really know but I don’t have much experience with a big relationship,” I say, darting my eyes to another painting, “Look at that one! It’s gorgeous, let’s go take a look.” 

I steer Namjoon over and also steer the conversation away from relationships. Why do I feel hot all over?

~

Near the end of the exhibit I see a familiar face.

“Seungmin!” I walk quickly over, Namjoon following me.

“Oh, hey Y/n!” He says, grinning as I come over to where he and a couple others are standing. 

Namjoon quietly clears his throat.

“Oh! Seungmin, this is Namjoon. Namjoon, this is Seungmin. He’s in my Foundations of Education class,” I explain. 

They nod at each other and I swear I see Namjoon’s jaw tick. But it’s just my imagination, right?

Seungmin smiles.

“So, Y/n, if you’re interested in art come take a look at my boyfriend Hyunjin-hyung’s!” 

I look at the painting in front of me and am in awe. It’s gorgeous, the strokes precise yet delicate and it’s walking a nice line between abstract and realistic. 

“Wow. He’s really talented,” I say, Namjoon humming in agreement. 

“Thank you. I appreciate it,” says a voice behind me. 

I turn and there’s who I assume to be Hyunjin. 

“Of course! I love this style,” I compliment. 

“Hyunjin-hyung is going to be famous someday,” Seungmin boasts, giving the latter a quick peck on the cheek.

“Oh, stop, Seungminnie,” Hyunjin says, but still accepts the kiss.

“No, no, it’s true,” another familiar voice chimes in. Sure enough, there’s Bangchan. 

“Hey Channie-hyung. This is Y/n and Namjoon, her boyfriend!” Seungmin pipes up.

I widen my eyes and go to tell them the truth but Namjoon just sticks his hand out and says, “Pleased to meet you.” 

Well. I guess we’re a couple now.

The five of us talk for a couple minutes and then Namjoon surprises me.

“Hey, Hyunjin, I’m interested in buying this piece of art. What’s your price?” He asks. 

They negotiate and eventually settle on one. Namjoon writes another check and I bid goodbye to Seungmin and his boyfriends.

“Bye Seungmin! See you in class later.” I wave as we walk away. He waves back then turns to his boyfriends.

“He’s seems nice,” Namjoon says, although there’s an underlying tone of something I can’t quite place. Boredom? Anger? Jealousy? 

No. That can’t be right.

“He is. I’m glad he has his boyfriends,” I say, snatching a cheese cube and promptly shoving it in my mouth. Ugh. So good.

“Me too. C’mon, Y/n, I know you’re craving food.” 

Namjoon laughs at my face and I glare at him, but he’s right. Those mini sandwiches can only fill a person up to a certain point.

“Alright fine.” 

I give in and we go to Sonic. Call me crazy but I really wanted a grilled cheese from there.

“What do you want Y/n?” Namjoon asks after he ordered himself.

“A grilled cheese with a large fries and a medium-“

“-cherry vanilla Dr. Pepper,” Namjoon finishes, popping his dimple out at me, “You got it!”

I wonder how he knows my order but guess it’s because I go here so often.

“Hey, let me pay!” I protest, trying to hand Namjoon my credit card.

“No, it’s okay! I took you out to the art exhibit so I need to pay for the whole thing.” He’s already sliding in his card so I sigh. 

“Fine, fine. One of these day you guys have to let me do something to pay you back,” I grumble. 

“Just you is a payment enough.” Namjoon smiles and I roll my eyes. Sure, they always say that but I still want to find someway to pay back their kindness. 

Our food arrives soon after and we munch in the car.

“Ohhhh I love Sonic so much,” I say, stuffed after Namjoon let me have some of his chili cheese fries. 

He laughs while he pulls out. I smack his arm (damn his bicep is huge).

“Okay, okay! Sorry.” 

We laugh together and I close my eyes on the drive back. 

Contentment fills my body and I fall asleep listening to Namjoon softly humming.

a/n: namtiddies for life, am i right? i wanted namjoon to have more time with the mc so i basically dedicated this entire chapter to him haha. hope you enjoyed reading 🫶🏼🫶🏼

[mrs-monaghan]

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ANON, thank you for this information literally NOBODY asked for. Do you honestly believe we think Jikook are together because of ass biting and cheek kissing? Well let me school you a lil bit. Taekook kissed each other’s cheeks very softy, yet I don’t think they are together, Jk kissed Jin’s foot very softly, yet i don’t think they are together, Jk cuddles Hobi and sniffs him all the damn time, yet I don’t think they are together, Hobi kisses on Jk, and cuddles him very softly, yet I don’t think they are together, Jk kissed Namjoon on the forehead, yet i don’t think they are together. I have seen Tae rub on Jk’s bare thigh so close to his crotch, yet I don’t think they are together, i have seen Suga hit Jimin in the gonads, yet I don’t think they are together, i have seen Jk cuddle hobi and had his knee on Hobi’s crotch area, yet I don’t think they are together, i have seen Jimin flirt so bad with Hobi that i almost got butterflies, yet I don’t think they are together.

Y’all self righteous non shippers have to understand that it’s not so much the things they do but more or less how they do them and if they do those things with others or not! Now tell me when u saw JK slipping his hands into another members shirt to caress bare skin? Now tell me when u saw any other members of bts sneaking into a hotel room together when they didn’t know there were hidden cameras? Now tell me when u’ve seen any other idols “hiding” in a dark corner at a party with heads so close together and hands touching cuz they were “shy”? Tell me when u’ve seen any other idols sneakily rubbing cheeks with each other while pretending to whisper to each other? Tell me when u’ve seen any other idols coming into work with bite marks on erogenous parts of their bodies, given to them by their bandmates? Tell me when u’ve seen other idols playing footsies, and even crotch footsies while trying to be sneaky about it? Tell me which other idols decided to make videos of their bandmates with love lyrics? Tell me which other idols made several videos choosing to highlight a particular bandmate in almost every single video by either giving them the most screentime, muting the volume of the song so we could hear their giggles or changing hues and tones of videos from cool to warm and adding their footage when the music goes upbeat? I’ll wait!

Listen, you lot may not understand this and try to reduce the stuff Jikook do to normal kpop culture but u need to understand that some pple actually pay more attention and catch more things some of y’all wouldn’t catch! We’ve paid close attention to Jikook from their rookie days, listened to the things they have said, seen their actions and the actions and words if those around them. This is not about some ass biting or cheek kissing or ass slapping and quite frankly, i feel really offended that pple think that is the reason we ship Jikook. Skinship actually has very little to do with why i personally believe they are together and it is something that if you don’t get, u just don’t get. There are certain things that all the boys do to and for each other, but the only duo in bts that u will see any form of exclusivity in their dynamic is Jikook. They do things to and for each other that they just don’t do with anyone else. The sexual tension u feel with Jikook, u just don’t feel with anyone else.

Next time, please give jikookers more credit b4 coming on Jikook blogs trying to tell us what we already know. You don’t have to believe that jikook are together but trying to use these examples to debunk jikook is just laughable! Please do better!

That's the stuff! That's the stuff! Louder!!!

[williamaltman]

Life is Strange 2 thoughts/feelings/review

So, Life is Strange 2. I finished the game yesterday and watched the other endings today. Things are not as fresh in my mind as if I had just finished and I talked a bit about it in other places so this feels a bit hard, but I'll try to lay down all my thoughts...

First of all... All my homies love LIS2, fuck you if you don't like LIS2! Seriously though, for years I've seen people say that the game wasn't good, that the characters weren't as good as the ones from the first one, that the Sean/Daniel relationship wasn't that interesting... I kinda did suspect it was just nostalgia goggles or whatever, but now I know for sure. I don't think there's anything wrong with connecting more with LIS1 and having a deeper relationship with it, but in this case I think you shouldn't even be comparing them and expecting the game to live up to that to you in the first place.

Now, onto the actual game. God, this was so fucking heartbreaking. I think I cried in every single episode. The very core premise of the story is just so sad, so unfair, and despite the powers so rooted in reality that it left me legit feeling uncomfortable with how fucked up their whole situation was. There are good moments, sure, but honestly every single thing that happens from the moment their dad is shot is just... Not how their life should've had to be.

Sure, LIS1 and BTS had dark themes too. But here, it's like, they lose everything from the beginning. Sean doesn't get to go to his party, to hang out with Lyla, to continue his normal life in any way. Daniel loses a part of his childhood. They're both forced to grow up so much faster than they should. There's a line Sean says in episode 3, and it's just a little idle VO, but it fucking crushed me, "Stop overthinking. You're not a teenager anymore". Even though he's fucking 16... He's 16 and he has to essentially become a parent. I knew what the game was about and lowkey followed it a bit when it was releasing, knew a few spoilers, but that didn't make anything any less heartbreaking.

I thought it was beautiful how the game took the opportunity to showcase and celebrate alternate lifestyles. The "family", Away, their freedom and how they interacted with society brings so much into perspective. I'm still a bit conflicted about Karen tbh, but I'm glad that at least they did show something beautiful through her story.

My biggest problem overall is probably how they handled the Finn romance route... I knew back when the game was releasing that despite adding a male LI, they pushed the female one more onto you and gave her more content, while locking the option to kiss him with a "bad choice" (I didn't know what exactly it was). And yeah, that is still true. I still think it was a mistake to lock the kiss with accepting the heist, and while I kinda understand the writer's explanation for that, I still think it could've been handled in another way, or they could've just let him kiss you and "betray" you by doing the heist anyway, since he still does that when you're friends lol.

I see people complaining that because they moved from place to place each episode, there wasn't enough time to connect with the characters... Idk if I'd say I disagree, but it just wasn't really the case for me. I was very invested in all the relationships, in Finn, Cassidy, Jacob, Chris, Karen. Everyone at the farm was cool and everyone in Away too. Lyla. You get so many tidbits about the characters even when they're not there on screen. The only thing I have to say which is kinda related to that, is that I think the time jumps were maybe a bit too big, and that the way they handled Mushroom was... weird.

I got the Parting Ways ending, and I'm satisfied with it. I kinda planned to get it, but only in the sense that I was spoiled that you get with Finn there. I didn't know that the whole morality thing had anything to do with it, and I played the first two episodes without even knowing that there was a points system about that and about brotherhood. I just made all the choices that were high morality (besides killing the cougar and the heist) because it was what I would do, and tried to be a good brother for Daniel. I figured that choosing to cross the border would most likely give me that one, but I just couldn't accept Sean having to go to prison for 15 years for something he didn't even do. If we were able to choose between Parting Ways and Blood Brothers, then I would actually be conflicted about which I wanted.

With the way the game's system works though, where you need to have low morality to get Blood Brothers, I couldn't really do it. I can't imagine myself teaching Daniel to be selfish and not care about killing people. I actually think it's super cool to watch Daniel use his power offensively and fuck shit up, but it just wouldn't be my version of the story. It's funny because, if we just played as Daniel, I wouldn't mind going that route. But since we play as Sean, with it being our job to raise Daniel, I feel a different kind of responsability towards leading him to become a good person. I also think it's beautiful that he gets to have the rest of his childhood, teenagehood, and live a "normal" healthy life with his grandparents. He does it in the redemption one too, but as I said, that just screws up Sean too much.

So, I'm a little disappointed that they're separated (and maybe can't ever see each other again? I'm a bit confused about Daniel's situation and whether he could visit), and that it's a bit shorter than the others (at least than the redemption one), but it IS the ending my playthrough led to and in that I'm satisfied.

I think this story is just incredible. It touched me so much, and the fact that some people can't see it genuinely frustrates me. The people complaining it's too political in particular can just go fuck themselves. It might not be perfect, but like with all things I appreciate, I'm just so glad it exists.

[austinslounge]

Why are some Austin fans insisting he cheated? They rather him be a cheater than them break up normally. It wasn't to last long but saying he cheated with Zoe is funny like are they even close like that?

I honestly don't even think those are Austin fans saying that. They're just mostly people from the general public making up wild speculations, and also Kaia stans saying stuff like that. 🙄 There's no true Austin fan that I know of who's going around thinking that he's a cheater, or has anything going on romantically with Zoe bts. Like I mentioned before, if there were evidence of such, that would be one thing, but there's not.

This is the plight when you're a good-looking actor (or person tbh). People just assume you're a cheater just because you are nice-looking. 😒 They also tend to assume that you have something romantic going on with your opposite sex costars -- especially if said costar is also quite attractive as well. It's really dumb. 🙄

Some people were even speculating on chemistry between Austin and Zoe before they even started filming "Caught Stealing" together, when Austin was pictured speaking with her at the after party for her film "Blink Twice", for which Channing was in attendance as well btw. There are even photos of Austin and Channing laughing together leaving the same event.

Then, of course, their kiss together bts on the shoot of their movie probably didn't help things any lol 🤭 (I mean, it was hot 🔥).

But I think the biggest issue here (aside from people online being crazies) is the fact that everyone else sees that Austin has zero chemistry with his own gf Kaia. When people see that both Austin and Kaia seem to have way more natural chemistry with other people than they do with each other, it's not surprising that people just make up rumors with Austin because he actually does look happier with other women than his own gf lol. 😅

So, I think there's a little bit of that going on also.

Lastly, people tend to pick on those who seem nice and who might not call them out on their nonsense. Austin is very out-of-sight/out-of-mind when it comes to social media and just online nonsense to begin with.

[sizzlingpatrolfox]

The jimin jungkook dynamic is still extra confusing to me. I don’t know how jimin can still me so cute and warm with those hugs and messages for him, but also be so obviously removed from his life. Jungkook can insist on doing a live together and jimin always declines, but jungkook is also too busy to see jimin on his birthday which they used to always spend together? It’s all so mixed up for me.

It's not so confusing once you realize that it's exactly the way every other BTS dynamic is like.

Like taekook spent thousand of hours together since the break (confirmed hours) and yet Taehyung is not there for Jungkook's birthday either.

Jin went to Jungkook's for his birthday in 2022, but Jungkook didn't go to Jin's.

Jungkook didn't even bother to know Jimin's schedules, or visit him at a set or music show, but then he was showing up to support wooga squad in their movies.

Even though Jungkook didn't bother showing up for Jimin anywhere, Jimin still went and filmed that thing with him in NYC.

Yoongi can be all Jimin this Jimin that but then he has no problem releasing his album five days after Jimin, even knowing that it would mess up Jimin's timing.

Jungkook was literally there when Taehyung recorded something and he's already listened to the whole album, but hasn't posted anything about it so far.

Jungkook would be ohh Jimin this Jimin that but for Yoongi's concert, he showed up and he left with Taehyung. And when Jimin arrived, Jungkook didn't even spare him a glance and only acknowledged each other for like 5 seconds.

Neither Yoongi nor Hoseok repeatedly invited Jimin to meet them anywhere, and yet they went and visited them at his schedules. Jungkook acted like he was eager to see Jimin, but didn't move a muscle to actually go and see him.

If you're really looking for it, all relationships in the group are lacking something somewhere, jikook only seem the extra toe because people are thinking too much about them and thinking that there must be hiding meanings or ulterior motives to everything they say or do. But there really isn't. And their "inconsistencies" are just as normal as they are in every other BTS friendship, because that's what they are: friends. If you're looking for the consistency of a couple, you won't find it simply because they're not.

I'd say probably the only two who seemed to "have everything" in recent times, it's been jihope. They've really been proper, real besties until Hoseok enlisted. Like they had the social media thing going on, but also physical support, the birthday greetings, the laughs when they were together, sharing their work with each other, even the kisses Jimin tried to give him on his birthday. I mean, Hoseok said he cried when he saw Jimin's #1. To my standards, Jimin and Hoseok have been the only two to show what looks like a real, unbreakable friendship since 2022.

[bteezxyewriter12]

Black and White

Pairing- Yoongi x Named Reader

Word count- 9k

Includes- One of my favorite fics I have ever written even though it's so sad, Heavy themes, death, shooting, angst, sadness, afterlife- kinda

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Ten years ago

J POV

I'm nervous

It's my first makeup gig and I don't want to fuck up if I wanna be hired

This company BigHit hired me as a stylist for their new boy band

If I do a good job, they'll hire me permanently

I need this job

Looking at the small paper I have, I call out, "Yoongi?"

One of the seven guys gets up and walks over to me

I turn to get his clothes

"You can put these on and when you're done, I'll fix them", I say as I turn around

"Yeah ok", he answers

When our eyes meet, something inside me shifts

Suddenly, my vision changes and I see what people call colors

Not the usual "black and white" that I normally see

His eyes change color, his hair, his skin, his clothes.

Vibrant colors and shades that I wish I knew the names of

I glance around me and I see the rest of the room is in color too

That means...

He's my soulmate

I look back at him and he's staring at me in shock

"I found you", he whispers

I nod, "You did"

I take the time to really look at him and my god he's beautiful

I reach out and touch his face, making sure he's real

He holds on to my wrist that's touching him

"You're real", he says

"Yeah. You're real too"

"You're eyes are beautiful. I wish I knew what color they are"

I feel my face heat, "Thank you"

He smiles at me and I can't breathe

It's gorgeous

"You're mine", I say, not knowing where this possessiveness is coming from

I just know that he's mine

He nods, "I am. Always. And you're mine"

"Always", I answer

Pulling me to him, he kisses me and I'm so happy

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Present

J POV

"Yoongi! You're all sweaty!", I laugh as he comes straight to me, pulling me into his arms

"Yeah but you love it jagi", he smiles

"Yeah yeah", I laugh, then kiss him

"How's baby boy?", he asks, touching my belly

"Kicking hard", I answer

I'm pregnant and just turned seven months

Yoongi is so happy and so excited

He was over the moon when he found out we're having a boy

He would of been just as happy with a girl but I know that a boy is always wanted at some point

And he can't wait to be a dad

"I have some time before I have to go back on stage. Tae's solo, Jin's solo and then the vocal line is doing "The truth untold""

"Wow that's almost fifteen minutes!", I tease

He laughs out loud, "Yeah"

I take his hand and lead him to the clothing rack

I hand him his clothes for the next part of the concert

"Change first baby"

He nods and takes the clothes

Once he's changed, I fix the clothes, then he leads me to a couch

He rubs his shoulder and I ask, "It hurts again baby?"

He nods, "Yeah. It always does during concerts"

I stand up and move to sit behind him

I start to massage his shoulder

"You don't have to jagi"

"Oh stop. If it helps you feel better then I'm going to do it. Plus I know you love it"

Laughing, he says, "Yeah I do. You know me so well"

I do

And he knows me so well

We spent every day of the last ten years together

We don't hide anything from each other

After that first kiss, we couldn't be separated

BigHit wasn't happy that he found his soulmate so quickly since it's better for idols to be single but there wasn't anything they could do

They allowed me to move into the dorm with him

He told the managers that either he moves in my apartment or I move into the dorm

Since BTS just debuted, he needed to stay at the dorm

So I moved in too

A year later, he asked me to marry him and we've been married for nine years

I love him with everything in me

I'd do anything for him

And he loves me just as much and would do anything for me

We've both proven it ten times over in the last seven years

BTS became huge, a worldwide sensation and I've supported him every step of the way, encouraging him and doing anything I can to help him

Yoongi bought an apartment and we've lived there for the last two years

And now we're having a baby

My life is perfect

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"C'mon Yoongi", Namjoon calls

"Already?", he sighs

"It's ok naekkeo. The concert is almost done and then we can go home and snuggle all night"

He smiles his beautiful smile at me, "That sounds perfect jagi"

I smile at him, then he pulls me to him in a soft kiss

His kisses are the best

"I love you Jo", he says, when he pulls away

"I love you Yoongi", I tell him

"See you in a little bit?"

I nod, "Can't wait"

He smiles, gives me a quick kiss and then he walks towards the stage

"God again?", I whine, "Baby boy you need to stop making mommy pee all the time."

I just went to the bathroom five minutes ago after Yoongi went on stage

I stand up from the couch and start walking to the bathroom

Right before I get there, I hear screaming

And to my horror, my vision changes, the colors fading away, black and white creeping in

No

No no no

That only happens when someones soulmate dies

"Yoongi!", I yell and turn around, running towards the stage

He can't be dead

He can't

He's ok

Everyone back stage is running around, not paying attention to me

I'm able to run up the stairs and on to the stage

I look around frantically, seeing fans being rushed out of the stadium

"Yoongi!", I yell

The guys are crowded around one area of the stage

I run towards them, screaming Yoongi's name

Hobi glances up at me, tears pouring down his eyes

He stands up and starts towards me

"Don't Jo", he says, stopping me from getting closer

"Let me go Hobi", I cry

"No Jo. Don't. You don't want to see him like this"

Pure fear hits my body and I start shaking

"Hobi...let me go. I...let me go!", I yell

"Jo"

I pull away from him and he lets me go

When I get to the guys, I can't believe the horror I'm seeing

Yoongi on the floor, blood all over his chest and his eyes closed

"NO! YOONGI!", I scream, dropping to the floor next to him

"Yoongi, wake up. Wake up!", I cry, shaking his shoulders

But he doesn't open his eyes

He doesn't smile at me, he doesn't answer

This can't be happening

"Yoongi please, wake up"

"Jo...he's gone", Namjoon chokes out

"No! No! Yoongi, naekkeo come back. Wake up! Don't do this baby. Please Yoongi", I sob hysterically

He can't be gone

I need him, he's my everything

We're going to have a baby

He's going to be a dad

He has to be here

"Yoongi!"

Putting my arms around him, I hold him up in my arms, leaning my forehead on his then gripping his hand tightly

I pray that he squeezes my hand back, but he doesn't

"Don't leave me Yoongi. Please baby. I need you. Your son needs you. Open your eyes. Please naekkeo come back", I cry

I can't- the pain I feel inside is killing me

Why did this happen?

Why was he taken from me?

We were so happy, our life was perfect

We're starting a family

Oh god, our son will never know him

He'll never see his father

Yoongi will never see his boy

He won't be there when he's born, he won't be there to raise him

This is a nightmare and I just want to wake up

"Please Yoongi, I love you. I love you so much. I need you Yoongi. Please come back", I beg him

But he doesn't move and my heart shatters

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After what seems like forever, Namjoon comes over to me and tells me, "Jo. The EMTs are here. They have to take Yoongi"

No

"No. They can't. He....he has to stay with me."

I can't let him go

If they take him, then it's all real

With him, I can pretend he's not gone

That's he's just sleeping

But if they take him....

My entire world ends

"Jo, they need to take him. They need to clean the blood away", he says gently

"No Joonie. No. If they take him....", I sob

"What Jo? What is it?"

"Then he's really gone. I can't....I can't..."

A person comes over and kneels next to me

"Hi", he says softly

I shake my head

"Is this your boyfriend?", he asks

"My husband. My soulmate", I choke out

"I see. I promise, we'll take good care of him"

"No. I need him. He has to stay with me. He can't go. He's...he's going to be a dad soon"

"I understand. But I'll take him just for awhile, to clean the blood off him. Then you'll be able to see him again ok?"

"I...I can't...I.."

"Jo, it's only for a little while", Jin say softly

No it's not

They're going to take him away and then he has to be buried in the ground

If they take him, it'll be forever

I'll never see him again

I don't know how to handle that

"Please", the EMT says, reaching out to Yoongi

I look back at Yoongi's beautiful face, memorizing every single about him

I gently run my fingers in his hair

"I love you Yoongi. So much naekkeo. Forever."

I lean down and kiss him softly, tears pouring down my face

I look up at the EMT and nod

He motions for his co-workers to come over

"I promise he's in good hands", he tells me

I just nod because there's nothing else I can do

He gently takes Yoongi from me and I watch them put him on the stretcher, wheeling him away

He's gone

My life is over

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I don't want to get up

Today is Yoongi's funeral

After he was taken from me, the guys brought me home

They wanted me to stay at the dorm but I didn't want to

I haven't cried so much as I have the last two days

I found out that Yoongi was being brought to Daegu to be buried

No one knows but me and the guys

Yoongi's mom called me and told me I can stay in her house

I just agreed

It's like I'm going through the motions- packing clothes, getting on a plane

And all the while I feel like I'm dying

I hate seeing in black and white

It just reminds me that Yoongi was taken from me

I miss him so much

I can't do anything but lay in bed, staring at a picture of him

I found out what happened the next day after his death

During Mic Drop, some crazy fan in the first row, pulled out a gun when Yoongi got close to him and shot him right in the chest five times

I actually saw what happened because some sick assholes put it on the internet

And it was sent to me by an unknown number

Whoever took the video was close to the shooter and in the front row

I'm guessing it was a fan, just videoing the concert

Yoongi is standing there, smiling and doing the choreography, when suddenly loud bangs are heard and his chest is covered in red blood

The complete look of pain and shock on his face kills me every time I remember

He falls backward, people screaming everywhere and the guys running to him

The video ends there

The piece of shit who killed my baby, was overpowered by security and is in prison

He was going to shoot the rest of the guys too because he hates BTS

He's sentenced to death

I'm glad but it doesn't bring Yoongi back

And that's the one thing in the world that I want but will never happen

I can't stop crying, looking down at Yoongi

The second I walked into the funeral home and saw him in the casket, I lost it

I collapsed on the floor, sobbing hysterically

I couldn't walk, couldn't get up, couldn't see

Yoongi's dad, along with Namjoon and Hobi, got me up and brought me to a chair

Right in front of his casket

I was able to calm down about twenty minutes later but the tears haven't stopped

I finally made it to his casket and I haven't left since then

I can't

I don't want to hear people saying I'm sorry

It means nothing

Not when my world is over

Holding his hand, I gently touch his face, wishing he'd open his eyes and smile at me

"I miss you naekkeo. I don't know how I'm supposed to live without you"

I really don't

How I'm supposed to wake up and him not being there?

How I'm supposed to go through my day without texting him?

How am I supposed to never to hear his voice again or hear him tell me he loves me?

Never feel his arms around me, his kiss, anything

How he'll never see his son, hear him talk, see him grow up

It breaks me every time

I run my fingers in his hair, just looking at him

We're going to the cemetery soon

Once the casket closes, I'll never see him in person again

Only through pictures and videos that I know will kill me to watch

I want to stay with him as long as I can

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"Ready Joanne?", Yoongi's mom asks as she comes over to me

"Never", I whisper

"I know. But we have to go to the cemetery now", she says softly

I look at her and nod

She's crying too and I remember she lost her son

I sit down, watching as everyone who came, go to his casket to say goodbye

When the guys each get there turn, they cry hysterically too

They're his family too and they love him

Then his mother and father go

His mother breaks down, his father holding her up

Then it's my turn

And I don't know how to do this

I slowly walk up to him

Holding his hand, stroking his hair for the last time, I talk to him

"I love you baby. More than anything. I'm going to miss you so much. I promise to take care of our boy. He'll know who you are, I'll make sure he does. I hope you're happy where you are naekkeo, in peace and no pain. You made my life so happy and you're the best thing that has ever happened to me. I love you Yoongi."

I lean down and kiss his forehead

I can't say goodbye

That word can't pass my lips

I just can't

I force myself to let go of him and I watch while the funeral home workers close his casket

Forever

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Moving hair from my face, I put the books in the box

I'm back in Seoul but I'm moving

To Daegu

At the cemetery, I lost it again when they lowered his casket

Jimin and Jungkook held me up while I cried

I had a panic attack after and Hobi and Tae took me away from Yoongi's grave until I calmed down

After the cemetery, I went back to Yoongi's parents house

They talked to me and asked me to move to Daegu

They want to be in their grandson's life

I was going to move there anyway when I found out Yoongi was going to be buried in Daegu

I can't live in Seoul while he's in Daegu

I stayed in Daegu for two extra days, looking for an apartment and going to Yoongi's grave

I found a two bedroom apartment close to his parents, then came back to Seoul

So I'm back in mine and Yoongi's apartment, packing everything

I'm not throwing out any of his things

They're coming with me

All of his studio equipment is coming with me too

Namjoon and Hobi agreed to pack everything there and ship it to my new apartment

The guys decided to disband BTS

They said it won't be the same without Yoongi and they don't want to continue without him

I sigh and walk back to my bookshelf, grabbing another stack of books

I've been packing for the last three days

I packed Yoongi's stuff first

It was so hard and I cried the whole time

But now, the packing is taking my mind off of things, for awhile anyway

I need to be finished by next week

I sold the apartment and the new owner wants to move in by next week

Since I was married to Yoongi, all his money, his assets went to me when he died

So I'm rich

Like I give a fuck

I'd rather be poor with Yoongi alive than being rich without him

If I could give up all the money to get him back I would in a heartbeat

Nothing can take his place

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After I finish packing for the day, I go to bed

But I can't sleep

All I think about is Yoongi

I sleep in one of his shirts every night

I used to do that anyway and even more when I got pregnant

He liked huge shirts and they fit over my belly

I turn to my nightstand and stare at the picture of Yoongi I keep there

He's smiling so wide and looks so happy

I took it the day I told him I was pregnant

His first reaction was to smile and I had to take the picture

"I miss you", I whisper, tears falling, "Why did you have to leave? I can't do this without you. I can't live without you."

The pain takes over again and I feel like I can't breathe

"Yoongi, why? I need you. Come back naekkeo. Please come back. I can't-", I sob

This is pure torture

The agony is there all day everyday

It's so intense all the time, even when my mind is occupied

I know that if it wasn't for the baby, I'd have taken my own life already

To be with him, wherever he is

"I love you Yoongi. I wish you were here"

I close my eyes, crying myself to sleep

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"Hi jagi", Yoongi says

I blink and look around

We're in our room at home

And he's here

"Yoongi? Is...is it really you?"

He nods, "Yeah jagi. It's me"

I'm so confused

"But...I saw you...in the casket...did you come back?", I ask hopefully

He shakes his head sadly, "No jagi, I can't come back"

The familiar pain I've been living with roars back to life

"Then how..."

"It's a dream jagi. And I can only come this once"

A dream?

I remember crying in bed at home

I guess I feel asleep

"Why did you leave Yoongi? I can't live without you", I cry

He comes closer and pulls me into a hug

"I didn't want to Jo. I never wanted to leave you or our baby. I wanted to stay with you forever, see our baby be born, raise him, have more babies and grow old with you. But for some reason it didn't work out that way", he whispers

I sob harder, clinging on to him

"How am I supposed to do everything without you? Have the baby without you, raise the baby without you. You're supposed to be there with me."

"I know baby but I know you can do everything. You can have our son and raise him. I know you're going to be an amazing mom. I always knew that."

I hear his words but I don't want to do this without him

I don't want to be in a world where he isn't

"I can't"

"Yes you can. You're my strong girl Jo. You always have been"

"Yoongi....I miss you so much. I need you"

I can't stop crying

He's right here, why can't he just come back with me?

Why can't he stay?

"I miss you too jagi. I'm sorry I'm not there with you."

He moves back a little, lifting my face to his

"But Jo, I'll always be with you. Even thought you can't see me I'm there. I was from the second I died. I was with you when you went to my funeral, when you went to look for an apartment, while you're packing. And I'll always be there with you and our baby. You can always talk to me and I'll hear you. I'll always watch over both of you. I promise"

I nod

I hate that I can't see him, touch him or talk to him but knowing he's going to be with me makes me feel a little bit better

"I love you Yoongi", I tell him

"I love you Joanne. I'll always love you. And I'll wait for you until it's time for you to come ok? Then we can really be together forever", he says

I want that so much

I want to be with him now and it's tearing me apart that I can't

That he's here and I have to be in the real world

"I don't want to wait", I sob

"I know jagi. I don't want to wait either but it's not your time yet. It's killing me to not be with you. I hate that I can see you but I can't touch you or talk to you. Seeing you cry and in so much pain rips me apart Jo. I want to make it better but I can't. I just have to wait for you. And I will. I swear I will jagi. I love you"

"I love you Yoongi. Always"

"Always", he promises

He leans down and kisses me softly

My eyes fly open and I sit up fast in bed

"Yoongi?", I call looking around

"Yoongi!"

He's not here

It was a dream

He's really not here

I burst into tears

I remember everything he said, how it felt to have him hold me again, felt his kiss again, how his voice sounded

And I want him back

I didn't get enough kisses, enough time in his arms, enough of him

He was torn away from me and I can't deal with this

He's not coming back

And he's not coming back in my dreams again

He said he could only come once

I lay back down and cry into my pillow, calling his name

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2 months later

"Push!", the doctor says

I yell as I push hard

The pain in my lower stomach is so intense

"I see his head, push again"

Fuck, I'm so tired, I'm so sweaty and I just want to rest

But I need to get my baby out

I breathe in and push hard, a scream coming out the more I push

I've been in labor for thirty hours and I want him to come out

"Again"

"C'mon baby", I whisper and push again

Shouting and crying I push more

God it hurts so much

"His head is almost out, keep pushing"

I breath in and push, then breath in again and push harder

"Aaaahhhhhhhhh", I scream

"His head is out. One more Joanne"

I gather my strength and push once more

"He's out!", the doctor says

I collapse against the chair, breathing hard

I hear crying and my son is put on my chest

I look down at him and I burst into tears

I love him so much already and he looks just like Yoongi

Everything about him is all Yoongi

"Hi Yoongi. I love you baby boy.", I say, stroking his cheek, "I promise to keep you safe, always"

"Ms. Min, we have to take the baby for his check up. We'll bring him to your room when he's ready ok?"

I don't want to let him go but I nod and they take him

"He looks just like Yoongi", Hobi says

I nod, looking down at my baby boy in my arms

He has Yoongi's face, his mouth, his cheeks, his eyes, his soft hair

I remember the pictures of Yoongi as a baby that his mom showed me once

My son looks almost identical to his father

"Did you pick a name?", Jimin asks

I nod, "Yoongi"

"You're naming him after Yoongi?", Jungkook asks

I nod

"That's amazing Jo. I know he'd love that", Jungkook replies

The guys were waiting outside of the delivery room with Yoongi's parents

I didn't want anyone with me while I gave birth

If Yoongi couldn't be there, I wanted to be alone

Yoongi's parents already came to see Yoongi and hold him

Now the guys are in the room

They each held my boy and now I have him back

He's wrapped in a blanket and he's asleep

I can't stop looking at him

I feel tears falling from my eyes

"Jo?", Namjoon asks

"He ssss...should be hhh..here", I choke out, "He should of been in the delivery room, seeing him be born. He should be here with me now, holding his son, picking his name, seeing him and being happy. He should be here to raise him."

I know Yoongi told me he's always with me

I know he was in the room when his son was born and I know he's here now

But I can't see him, he can't hold Yoongi, he can't talk to him

I'm so happy my baby is here but I'm so heartbroken at the same time

I can't help but cry

"I'm sorry Jo", Tae says softly while Jin comes to me and gives me a quick hug

They stay for another twenty minutes then they leave when Yoongi wakes up so I can feed him

After feeding him, he's still awake and he's looking around

"I love you.", I whisper to him, taking his little hand

His hand closes on my thumb and he holds on tightly

"You look just like your dad. He...he can't be here physically but he was there when you were born and he's here now."

I have to stop for a second before I start crying again

"Your dad loves you so much and he's going to watch over you your whole life. He's always going to be with you and you can talk to him whenever you want"

Yoongi closes his eyes, falling back asleep

I know I should put him in his crib but I can't

I'm terrified something will happen to him

Then I'll really be alone

"He's here baby. Your son is here", I whisper, talking to Yoongi, "I promise I'm going to protect him baby. I'm going to raise him to be a good man just like you. I swear he'll know who you are, how amazing his father was. He'll know how much you love him and me. He'll know you didn't want to leave."

I choke on the last words and start crying again

I don't know how I'm going to do this but I am going to raise my son just like Yoongi and I wanted to

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4 years later

"C'mon Yoonie, we're going", I call my son

He comes out of his room and over to me

"Where we go?", he asks

I kneel down to him, "We're going to see daddy"

A smile bursts on his face, "Yay daddy"

I smile and take his hand

"Ready?"

"Ready mommy"

We leave the apartment and start walking to the cemetery

It's been so hard raising Yoongi alone but I'm doing it along with the help of his grandparents

He's a good boy, he never gives me problems and he's very quiet and calm

And he loves to sleep

Just like his dad

The older he gets the more he looks like Yoongi

He's his spitting image

He knows who Yoongi is and that his dad is in "heaven"

I've shown him pictures and videos of Yoongi since he was a baby

I have pictures of Yoongi all over the apartment, some of him alone, some of him with me and some of him with BTS

When he was a year and a half he was able to identify the picture of Yoongi as daddy

He never asked me why his daddy wasn't with us until this year when he started school

He goes to Pre-K and they talk a lot about families

The only thing I told him was that his daddy lives in heaven and even though he can't see him, his daddy is always with him

I'm not telling him anything more until he's way older

He doesn't need to know his dad was murdered

I take Yoongi to the cemetery once a month

I go a few times a week while he's in school or at his grandparents house

I don't want to take him there all the time

It's not the place for a kid

We get to the gate and go inside

As we get closer to Yoongi's grave, Yoongi points and says, "There's daddy"

I nod, "Yeah Yoonie"

His parents picked a nice big headstone for the grave that includes a picture of him

His stone says, "Loving husband, father, brother and son. He shined brightly and brought so much happiness to the world"

Then there's a lyric he wrote for a song he made for me and Yoongi when he found out I was pregnant

"Hi daddy!", Yoongi exclaims as we get to his grave

Yoongi kisses his hand and puts it against the picture of Yoongi on the stone

I do the same, "Hi naekkeo"

I sit on the grass in front of the stone and Yoongi comes to sit in my lap

"I can talk mommy?"

"Yeah Yoonie, you can talk to daddy"

"Daddy, I draw a picture of you at school. Ms. Ara said to draw my family and I draw you, mommy and me"

I can't help it, tears start to fall while Yoongi talks to his dad

I cry silently, holding my son and looking at Yoongi's picture

I miss him more than anything

People lie

It doesn't get better as time goes on

It gets worse

I still hurt every single day and sometimes it still takes my breath away

Especially at night when I'm alone and he's all I think about

I talk to him all the time

Raising Yoongi without him is heartbreaking

Every time Yoongi does something big, I'm so proud and happy but also devastated that Yoongi wasn't there to see it

Things like when Yoongi started to roll over, sit up, smile, laugh, stand, walk, talk and everything now that he does in school

When I go to his school it hurts seeing the happy parents together

Aside from my son, my life sucks and I'm not happy

Spending time with my son makes me happy but when he's at school or at his grandparents or sleeping, I'm not happy

I still cry from missing Yoongi

All the time

I can't help it, the pain inside overwhelms me

I stayed home to raise Yoongi until this year

When he started school, I got a part time job at a makeup store stocking the products and working the cash register

I need something to do

I can't stay at home all day alone while he's in school

I don't need the money but I need to leave the apartment or I'll go crazy

The hours are flexible so I can drop Yoongi off at school and pick him up

Sometimes we go home, to the park, shopping, to Yoongi's parents house after school or on weekends

I'm so glad I have Yoongi's parents

They love me like their daughter and they'll do anything for me and of course Yoongi.

He's everything to them, just like he is to me

We still see the guys all the time too

They all have successful careers under BigHit

Namjoon is a popular solo rapper and producer

Hobi is also a popular solo rapper and dancer

Tae, Jimin and Jungkook started a vocal group called Maknaes and they're popular as well

Jin went back to acting and he's a famous actors, starring in an award winning kdrama as well as movies

Yoongi and I go to Seoul to see them or they come here to see us

He loves his uncle's and they love him too

Looking around I hate the way everything looks

One of the worst things that hurts me everyday is seeing in black and white

I had to ask Yoongi's parents to tell me what color my son's hair and eyes are

His hair is black, like Yoongi's natural hair color and his eyes are dark brown

My son's eyes are beautiful and sparkle

Just like Yoongi's

It kills me that I can't see the color

And it's a constant reminder that Yoongi is gone

"Sad mommy?", Yoongi asks

"Yeah Yoonie. I'm sad"

"You miss daddy?"

I nod, "Yeah, I miss daddy a lot"

He doesn't say anything, just turns in my lap and hugs me tightly

I hug my little boy tightly, happy that I at least have him and he's such a loving boy

"I love you mommy"

"I love you Yoonie. You're my best boy"

He lets go after a few minutes

I wipe my eyes, then smile at him, "Wanna get ice cream on the way home?"

"Yeah mommy. I want mint chip"

My smile gets wider, "That's my boy"

I can see Yoongi rolling his eyes at the fact that his son likes mint chocolate chip ice cream

But it's my favorite and he learned from me

I stand while Yoongi kisses his hand again and presses it to Yoongi's picture

"Bye daddy"

He waits for me while I do the same again and whisper, "Bye baby. I'll see you tomorrow. I love you"

I take Yoongi's hand again and we start walking

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13 years later

"Mom!", Yoongi yells running into the living room where I'm watching TV

"What's wrong?", I ask, looking to him, concerned

And a little bit scared

I can't help that

I'm always waiting for something bad to happen

Yoongi is seventeen and looks so much like his father did at that age

He even dresses like Yoongi did

"I got in", he says proudly

"You did?", I ask excitedly, "Because if you're joking that's a mean joke to play"

"No mom I'm not joking. I got into BigHit. I'm going to be a rapper and producer like dad was"

I jump up from the couch and crush him in a hug, "Oh my god, I'm so happy for you! This is so exciting!"

"I did it mom", he says hugging me tightly

"I'm so proud of you Yoongi", I say, pulling back, looking at him

I feel tears falling as I tell him, "You're father would be so proud of you"

"Yeah mom? He would?"

"Of course he would. He'd be proud of anything you'd do. He'd tell you that it will be hard and you may get discouraged but don't give up and keep working hard. You'll make it just like he did. You're so much like him"

Tears fall from his eyes as well, "Thanks mom. Thanks for telling me about dad, letting me watch videos of him and listening to his music. I wish I could of met him. And even though I didn't, I still love him"

My heart swells in happiness hearing Yoongi say that about his father

Yoongi grew up knowing all about his father and his career

He showed interest in music from when he was seven

As he got older, I gave him his father's equipment and he used that to make music

He told me he wanted to be a rapper and producer like Yoongi was

So I put him in an arts school that focuses on music

He was a natural at lyrics and composing like his father but the technical side of the equipment and putting a song together was harder for him

Namjoon and Hobi helped him with that until he could do it by himself

Jin, Jimin, Tae and Jungkook helped him learn to sing too

And he even learned how to play piano and guitar like Yoongi did

And when he turned seventeen a few months ago he told me he wanted to audition for BigHit

I brought him to a rap competition like Yoongi went too and he performed where he won first place

He proudly told them he's Min, Yoongi and his father was Min, Yoongi of BTS

Bang was shocked and he asked where I was

Yoongi called me over and I saw Bang again

He told us that Yoongi has talent just like his father did

He was impressed with Yoongi's rapping, his lyrics and producing skills and to expect a call

Apparently that call came today

"I'm so happy for you. You deserve all this with all the hard work you do"

"Thanks mom. I couldn't have done it without you. You're the best mom and I love you"

I smile at him, happy he's such an amazing person

"I love you too Yoongi. You're my baby. I'd do anything for you"

"I know mom. Thanks"

I wipe my eyes, "So when do you have to go to Seoul?"

"By next week. I'm training for a year or so, then I'll debut"

I nod

I'm happy he's achieving his dream but I'm also a little sad that he's leaving

I'm going to miss him but I would never stand in his way

I'll always support my son like I supported his father

"Then you need to start packing"

Yoongi nods then hesitates, "Mom, you can come with me. You can move to Seoul too"

I get why he's asking

It's been just us for his whole life and I know he's worried I'd be lonely

I smile sadly at him, "I can't Yoonie. You're dad is here and I can't leave him."

He nods, "Yeah I figured that"

"But don't worry, I'll come visit you often. And you'll be so busy training that you won't even notice the time fly by"

He laughs, "Yeah ok mom."

"You need to go get boxes for the stuff you're taking. And start packing. So go", I shoo him, smiling

"Alright, alright, I'm going", he laughs

He bends down and kisses my cheek

"See you later mom", he says as he leaves the room

"Be careful", I call

"Always mom!"

The door to the apartment closes and I sit back down on the couch

I look at the picture of Yoongi on the side table and take it in my hands

"He did it baby. He's following in your footsteps. He's going to be as amazing as you were naekkeo. Please watch over our boy while he's in Seoul. I love you Yoongi"

I bring the picture to my lips and kiss it, then place it back on the table

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45 years later

Laying in my hospital bed, I reflect on my life

I lived a long life and I had to do it without my soulmate

My life was hard without him and I never got over his death

I felt the pain of his loss every single day and I came to accept that pain as a part of my life

I never dated again, never wanted anyone except Yoongi

And I still only want him

I had my beautiful son and he grew up to be just like Yoongi

He debuted a year after he left for training and had a successful career

He became worldwide famous like his father and toured all over the world

He found his soulmate and he has a happy life

He gave me four adorable grandchildren that I spoiled and he made sure his kids knew all about Yoongi too

Two of them went into music as well

One is a famous rapper and one is a famous vocalist in a girl kpop group

His other son is a doctor and his last child, another daughter is a makeup artist for an idol group

I worked in the makeup store until I retired

And I went to visit Yoongi every day

I miss him so much

But I know I'll see him soon

I became sick two years ago

I fought for as long as I could for my family but the disease won

I feel myself dying

Some people would be scared

I'm not

I'm happy and excited

I get to be with Yoongi again

"Mom", Yoongi cries as he holds my hand tightly

He's been by my side for days ever since I went into the hospital

"I love you Yoongi. I'm so proud of you", I manage to get out

"I love you mom. Thank you for everything. I wouldn't be the way I am if it wasn't for you. I'm so grateful you're my mom"

I smile weakly

It's getting harder to breath and I cough to try to get air

"It's ok mom. Go to dad. I know you've been waiting to see him all your life. It's ok, I'll be ok. You can be with him again"

I manage a smile as I close my eyes, everything fading away

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Opening my eyes, I'm standing in a familiar park

And everything is in color

I notice my hands

They're smooth like they were when I was young

There's no wrinkles anywhere

And my engagement and wedding rings are still on

I never took them off during my life and I'm glad they're still with me

But....

Where the hell am I?

"Jagi"

I freeze

It's his voice

The voice I missed so much my entire life

I turn around and he's there smiling at me

"Yoongi?", I gasp

"Yeah jagi. It's me. I've been waiting for you"

I run to him, crashing into him and he picks me up holding me tightly

"I missed you so much naekkeo.", I cry, tears running down my face

"I missed you jagi."

"Is this real? Are you real? Or are you a dream?"

Please let him be real

"I'm real Jo. I'm here. You're here"

Moving back I look in his eyes

His gorgeous brown eyes

"Am I staying with you?"

"Yes baby. This time you're staying with me"

I smile and he pulls me back to him, his lips on mine in a kiss that I waited my whole life for

Happiness explodes in my heart and fireworks go off just like they used to

After the kiss, I look back in his eyes

"I love you Yoongi. I love you so much", I tell him, kissing him so much more

"I love you Joanne. More than anything", he whispers, kissing me again

I can't ever get enough of his kisses

I had to be without them for so long and I don't want him to stop

After, he puts me down and takes my hand

"Do you know where we are?", he asks

I look around recognizing the park

"It's where you proposed to me", I answer

He smiles and nods

"Yoongi....I'm dead aren't I?"

"Yeah jagi. I'm sorry"

"Don't be. I don't care. I've been waiting to be with you again", I say softly

Looking at our hands, I'm reminded that I have no wrinkles

"Yoongi.....am I young again? I died an old woman but I don't have wrinkles anywhere"

"Yeah jagi. Here you become the age you were when you were the most happy"

I was the most happy when I was with Yoongi so it makes sense I'm young again

"I'm 26?"

He nods

"Why are you the same? You look the same as when I saw you in my dream"

"Because Jo, the day I died was when I was the most happy. I had you and we were having a baby. That was the happiest time of my life"

I can't explain the elation I feel at his words

"I'm sorry jagi", he says

"For what?", I ask confused

"For not being there with you. For leaving you alone. I was there watching you your whole life and I know how much pain you've been in your entire life", he whispers

"It's not your fault naekkeo. You didn't want to leave. We were ripped apart from each other. And yes I was in pain every day but I also had our son. He made me happy"

"I know jagi. You did an amazing job raising him. You were the best mom to him. I knew you would be. Thank you for naming him after me and always talking about me to him"

He never has to thank me for that

I nod, "Of course Yoongi. I swore he'd know you and he does. He never met you but he loves you. He was inspired by you and wanted to become just like you. A rapper and a producer"

"He succeeded", he says, "I saw him working hard and achieving his dream. And I saw you encouraging and supporting him since he was seven"

"He wanted to make you proud"

He made me so proud

"He did Jo. And so did you. I'm so proud that you're my soulmate, my wife and the best mother my son could ever have."

I smile at him and squeeze his hand

"So uh, what's it like here?", I ask

"Just like the real world except it's peaceful and happy. And we don't age. It is what heaven is supposed to be. I don't know if it's called heaven but it is."

I can sense the peace around here and I feel happy but that's because I'm with Yoongi

"What do we do here?"

"Live jagi. Just like we did before. We still live in the apartment in Seoul and we live like the living do but with no pain, no sadness. And we get to be together"

"Forever?", I ask

He nods, "Yes Jo. Forever"

"I love you", I tell him

"I love you", he answers

He kisses me again, this time a passionate kiss, holding me tightly against him

My arms go around his neck and I hold on to him tightly

I'm so happy

I get to be with my Yoongi forever

Nothing can tear us apart anymore

We'll be together always, just like we wanted

😼😼😼😼😼😼😼😼😼😼

Bonus- Ending in Yoongi's POV

Yoongi POV

I anxiously wait in the park for Joanne to come

I've been waiting 62 years for her

I never expected to be away from her

To be away from my son

That was never a thought in my mind

I thought Joanne and I would have our son, raise him, have more children, get a house together and grow old together

I never thought I'd be murdered

And at a concert in front of thousands of people

I remember the pain and the absolute shock from the first bullet

I couldn't die, I had too much to live for

By the last shot, I knew I was dying and my last thoughts were about Joanne and the baby

Then I woke up here

The afterlife

It's just like living in the real world

Not much is different expect you don't die and bad things don't happen here

But I haven't been happy

I can't be happy without her

I'm still able to be around her even though she can't see me

I hear her talking to me and I talk back but again she can't hear me

I heard every time Yoongi talked to me too

I watched over her and him their whole lives wishing I could be there

I saw what a hard time she was having right after my death

It killed me when she ran on stage to my body

I had to watch her cry, begging me to come back when I was standing right there

I was right next to her but I couldn't comfort her, couldn't hold her and it destroyed me.

And seeing her at my funeral

I still can't think about it without breaking down

I was met here by someone who is apparently my great grandfather and he explained everything to me

How this place works, what's allowed, what's not

I'm allowed to be around her as much as I want, watching over her but I can't interfere in anything

And I could only go to her in a dream once

Apparently whoever is in charge of this place knows that the people we leave behind may have some difficulty with our death

Yeah no shit

So we're allowed to go to them one time and it has to be in a dream

I had to go immediately

I had to tell her how much I love her, had to tell her that I didn't want to leave and I wish I could come back

Being able to hold her and kiss her one last time was bittersweet

I got to do those things but I wasn't able to anymore after that

Until she came here

She had a hard life without me

I could see it, how much she missed me

But I was there

I was there when Yoongi was born, I was there watching him grow up and Joanne caring for him

It made me feel so lucky to have her with the way she always told Yoongi who I was

She never let him forget me, she let him listen to my music, watch videos of BTS and Agust D

She had pictures of me everywhere so he'd know what I looked like

And he looks just like me

He has some of her in him too but mostly me

I'm happy she never resented him for looking like me

She loves him unconditionally and supported his music career

She used the money we made well, buying a good sized apartment in Daegu near my parents and used the rest for Yoongi

She really fostered his musical abilities from the day he showed interest in them- piano lessons, guitar lessons, anything to do with music

She asked Namjoon and Hobi to help him learn to rap, write lyrics, compose music and put songs together

And they gladly helped

She also got Jin, Jimin, Tae and Kookie to teach him how to sing

She put him in art schools where music was a major part of the day

She supported him one hundred percent and it made me happy that he had her

I remember what it was like when my parents didn't support me

I'm so proud of her

She raised our son to become the best person he could be and he is

I'm proud of him and all his accomplishments

I know I have the best girl in the world

She never stopped loving me

She never dated anyone else either

I heard what she said every time someone said she should try to move on or try to find someone else

"Yoongi is my one. I don't want anyone else but him. Ever."

She never took off her engagement or wedding ring

Not once

That means so much to me

I still have mine

I guess because I was wearing it when I died

But I haven't taken it off and I never will

Joanne also spoke to me all the time, telling me how much she missed me and how much she loves me

I'm so fucking lucky she loved me her whole life

And now I'm waiting for her

She's been sick and I know she's coming soon

She knows it too

I just don't know exactly when she's coming

But it's soon

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I wait for another few hours

I have nothing to do so I have time

Walking around, I enjoy the park

I picked this place because it's the park where I asked her to marry me

When I turn back towards the trees, I see her there

My heart is pounding in my chest

Her back is to me and all I want is to see her beautiful face

I stop a few feet away from her

"Jagi", I call, smiling

I see her body stiffen and she turns around slowly

My god she's gorgeous

I missed her so fucking much

"Yoongi?", she gasps

I nod

"Yeah jagi. It's me. I've been waiting for you"

She run to me, crashing into me and I pick her up holding me tightly so fucking happy and relieved to have her in my arms again

"I missed you so much baby.", she cry, tears running down her face

"I missed you jagi. So much", I tell her

"Is this real? Are you real? Or are you a dream?"

I know what she's feeling

It's like she's a dream and I'm scared I'm going to wake up

But I can feel her, she's real

She's really here with me

I shake my head

"I'm real Jo. I'm here. You're here"

She moves back looking in my eyes

And I stare at her gorgeous brown eyes

"Am I staying with you?"

Hell yes

I'm never letting her go

"Yes baby. This time you're staying with me"

She smiles so widely and I pull her back to me, my lips on hers in a kiss that I waited my whole afterlife for

Stars burst in my vision just like they used to anytime I kissed her and love explodes in my body

Fuck I missed her kisses

They always left me breathless

And I'm over the moon I get to have her kisses again

After the kiss, she looks back in my eyes

"I love you Yoongi. I love you so much", she tell me, kissing me again

The feel of her soft lips on mine makes me insanely happy

"I love you Joanne. More than anything", I whisper, my lips on hers in a second

She's here and I feel finally feel complete

She's here and she's not leaving, I'm not leaving

We're going to spend the rest of forever together

I can't wait

[stormblessed95]

I know a lot of jikookers are absolutely certain about jikooks relationship but I just don’t see it. I don’t ship them but there are things that will always I guess reassure that they aren’t in a relationship for me personally. I wanted to state them to see your opinion on it.

I want to start with jimin calling jungkook his younger brother, I think this is very telling on why it causes me to believe they’re probs just friends. I don’t usually see jk saying he’s my brother and my older brother as much as jm and it seems as though jimin is trying to like push a point if that makes sense but it could just be me perceiving it as that. No one who’s dating someone is gonna call them their sibling unless they have some crazy incest kink lol and we see jm do that. Another thing was jungkook saying Jimins girlfriend would be lucky this was prob in relation to jimin being a giving and kind person and I was like would anyone in a relationship ever say that even if they’re trying to hide a relationship.

Another big thing for me was the physical affection the members still all show each other (especially tae and jk I’ll explain further) and that’s not a problem of course but I would’ve thought there’d be some boundaries set and enforced considering jikook are in a ‘relationship’. Like receiving the same level of physical affection from them kinda said a lot but also didn’t. Like for example in life goes on at ptd las vegas jungkook grabbed jimins butt and everyone went crazy as they should but namjoon did kinda did the same and cupped jungkooks butt so I was kinda like? But that maybe something they’re okay with within their relationship. But other moments of physical affection that stood out with me are all regarding tae and jk. For example when he sat on taes lap which could of course be platonic but why would you do that on a stage with thousands of people and your so called boyfriend right there? And another was in the soop when jk sat on taes legs/thighs while he was laying down and they were both wearing shorts (this is kinda important because I feel like presence of clothing changes the level of intimacy of this moment) it made me question a lot. And a really big one again was when tae rubbed jungkooks upper thigh while jimin was right there which was very intimate considering it was yk bare skin and it seemed kinda normal for them. There are probably more moments like this regarding them and probably even other members but these rlly stood out and said a lot. There was also a time where jk kissed Jin’s leg or I think jm kissed hobis neck in hobis bday live.

And once in a run bts episode where jk succeeded in a game and he was really happy and jm n tae were there watching and he wanted to celebrate by hugging tae and jm also tried to hug him but it was awkward bc he only hugged tae n jm was kinda just left out it could’ve been that he just didn’t see him/register it(that he left him out). Or when namjoon commented on his live that he wanted to go on a date with jungkook and jungkook was like how can u say that here n a giggly tone (I mentioned this because flirting with smn who’s in a relationship) or a time where v kept telling jm he liked him n flirted with him. Like all these moments of intimacy wouldn’t be a big deal with me and my friends but we are all straight so I kinda can’t see it from the point of view of someone who’s attracted to the same sex and has physically intimate relationships with the same sex while being in a relationship with someone of the same sex I hope that makes sense. And im not an incel if my confusion comes off as that please understand im a bit special (neurodivergent)😭 and I do flirt with my friends iknow those are jokes so it could be the same for them too and me and my friends do all the same as I’ve mentioned here.

I think I’ll stop there. And I am in no way saying that because of all this their relationship isn’t as cute and intimate and special as before but this is just in regards to them being in a romantic one which could still be true because those theories of their relationship are all plausible. But I think you can kinda understand my confusion with the topic. Please share your thoughts

(I’m watching jungkooks 30/6 live right now 😭 he’s singing and working out i love him)

You are free to think whatever you want to think. My opinion doesn't matter more than yours. Although perhaps some advice, as a straight person, don't make comments and assumptions about how queer people interact with each other 😅 I'm bi, I'm married, I went out with my best friend the other day and we called it a "date" and I'm touchy with my friends all the time. I've sat on my friends lap at the pool before too and I promise I didn't even want to sleep with her at all. Even though I am also attracted to women as well as men. Soooo.... where do we go from here? Lol not to mention how queer people often have way different kinds of boundaries than straight people do. And how PERFORMERS and people in that kinda industry as a Job or hobby ALSO have way different types of boundaries and generally are happy being touchier together.... like these are straight people and they are dancers and they are dancing together and both are married to other people and you even see the girls husband get *jokingly* upset but never actually really bothered

Also please don't send me giant essays like this where you say you want my opinion unless you've actually gone through my masterlist first. Because I've literally already made posts about everything you've brought up. And I label it all so nicely and make it so easily to find if you wanted to go find it. If you would like help finding specific posts for specific topics. DM me. I'm actually really nice, promise. I've held conversations about my posts with non shippers and even tkkrs (which you lowkey sound like btw, no one other than tkkrs are usually so focused on taekooks skinship, which isn't as high or even as "sus" as many other member duos) and those conversations have gone just fine. My DMs are open.

My masterlist. If you really want my opinions here they are. You'll find posts over your specific topics mentioned under the Important Posts topic and the Jikook Posts topic. Happy reading from one ARMY to another.

And come back if you do read it and don't want to DM me and rather be anon. I'd be interested to see if you took me seriously (I'd be nicer in my replies then) or were actually just here to troll. I have posts about "younger brother" I have posts about relationship boundaries, I have posts about skinship. I have posts for tkkrs. I have posts about taekook being cute, I have posts for why I think jikook are a couple, I have posts for lgbtqia education, I have posts for practically everything. You just need to go looking for it.