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pinksweatergettingbetter · 7 years ago

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warning, the following has mainly snarky (and possibly furious) opinions on Spirit of Justice. Reader discretion is advised.

Alright, on to part three, where Phoenix’s big fat mouth gets Apollo and Athena into deep doodoo.

QUICK CHILDREN, INTO THE MANHOLE!

SDUFGDGSF YOU CAN ‘MOVE’ WHILE YOURE BEING CHASED

way to ruin the moooooood XD

well athena if its any consolation, smelling like a rotten egg will probably delight sadmad.

y’know. cause youre a putrid egg yolk.

“Once a rebel, always a rebel!”

apollo was never a rebel

you sent him back to America before he could do any rebelling.

>OH MY SNARK IS CONFIRMED BY APOLLO

oh everyone’s met up now

“It was like watching a pair of ostriches bury their heads in the sand”

the FUCK does that mean, Phoenix?!???

“dubious hovel”

whats wrong with athena? i thought she was huddling up in the corner because she saw something unnerving, then maybe because of all the sudden people there–– but it’s implying she’s disgusted by the shitty state of the place?

what, is Athena a germaphobe now??

“He said he hopes you’ll come back and take over this office someday.”

“M-me?”

“Those were his words! He might have been half-joking though.”

I’m not sure which I’m more offended by; the fact that Dhurke still assumed Apollo would make a shit lawyer, or the fact that Apollo does indeed take over. Spoilers. Haha.

“must’ve been because of you, dhurke!”

no it was because of Phoenix Wright because he was a cool guy, once upon a time. also because, unlike every other lawyer in the gotdamn series, Apollo just really friggin loves the law. He thinks lawyers are legit cool and he wanted to be one because he just happened to have a passion for litigating. He’s not a prop in your stupid story, he’s his own interesting person.

“Dhurke was never a hands-on kinda dad...”

you can motherfucking say that again, vore machine.

“...but not a day went by that he wasn’t thinking of ya. That much I’m sure of.”

yeah he sure was

thinking of the favours he could one day ask of him.

“Doesn’t get more paternal than that!”

Athena, you don't even have a dad. Your opinion on the subject is completely worthless.

“(Dhurke... And to think, I really did spend my days trying to forget you...)”

god apollo you don’t deserve this. you deserve trucy and klavier and thalassa (being an actual mom for once) HELL you deserve your ACTUAL, REAL DAD.

“The victim’s passport and any pictures of him were burned up in the fire. Without knowing his real name, no divination seance could be performed.”

So you’re telling me Jove brought every single glossy of himself into that blaze? And after the fire, nobody bothered checking the dental records on the corpse/asking where that neato musician from the other night went?

Once again, DDSOJ police, at their best. If there wasn’t a coverup involved, I’m gonna be pissed.

( My real dad... I was never really interested in learning about him. )

While this is a totally understandable and natural reaction... I really wish–– Actually, no; it’s best Apollo never learned that he once had a father who actually gave a fuck about him. That’d probably break his heart.

“As the son of the terrorist Dhurke, Nahyuta was expelled from the royal family.”

i.... why did Dhurke keep him in Koooraheen, anyway? He really couldn’t have sent him to a happier life in America with his half brother?

huh i think that face-palm is a new expression for Vore Machine. he almost looks reasonable.

“As his son, Yuty no doubt got the cold shoulder at every turn.”

amazing. not only was Apollo abandoned in America in some shit orphanage with zero contact from anything he knew as family, but Sadmad was forced to stay behind in a country that hated his guts. The perfect situation for both boys!!! No wonder they’re both so fucking grouchy all the time! Dhurke, you parental genius!

“Dhurke’s the kinda guy who can become fast friends with just about anyone!”

guess that explains the fandom popularity

“Lol come over n play some jams bro”

“Ok dawg is it chill if i bring my kid my wifes uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

“Yeah its cool I'm great with kids”

“tight”

“It’s like Dhurke’s done nothing but save me all my life” yeah... from messes he made.

“Jangly Justice”

god. i want to root for Jove but like. He looks like a tool, he sounds like a tool, his stage name is the tooliest thing ive ever heard...

originally this section was me ranting about how Thalassa would never have just ‘stopped looking for Apollo’ when she heard that Jove perished in the flames, since Apollo’s corpse was never found and the rebels were out looking for her to give him to her– but instead I’m just gonna leave you with ‘that excuse is mad weak and the writers need to try harder.’

“You should try on the jacket, Apollo!”

“Yeah, yeah!”

Look, I can excuse Athena, because she doesn’t know. But Datz knows its mold infested and disgusting. And he just finished talking about APollo’s tragic past. What the everloving fuck is up with this sicko?!

Also Athena, you can’t laugh at him wearing an eyepatch when he just got done wearing one all last year.

“I’d recognize those horns anywhere!”

“Is that really the only way anyone recognizes me?”

cue Phoenix harrumphing from the corner and brushing his spikes

yknow maybe ive mentioned this before but why /hasn’t/ the queen found the safe house? It’s Dhurke’s old law office; that’d be like, the first place I’d check. Its like wondering if Dumbledore’s Army is based in Hogwarts.

I mean I guess you could say the Queen assumes theyre not stupid enough to hide in their old main haunt but... they’re stupid. they’re really, really stupid. it’s been proven like 800 times.

so we just had a ladder convo about lizards?

also what do you mean geckos like to live in houses? i thought they just climbed around outside them. aLSO WHY ARE THEY EATING THEM

... I appreciate that it ended in a Bugs Bunny Switcharoo though.

...And Phoenix ends it with “theyre just a plain old lizard”

I guess Phoenix doesn’t know flowers or lizards.

i really don’t know why none of the revolutionaries think sadmad’s playing the long con. they’ve all just completely given up on him. what if he was pulling a snape??? they talk about trust and shit and yet none of them trust their own leader’s son? shameful.

“It seems like Gar’an has some serious leverage over him”

okay, they suspect he’s being controlled with some kind of blackmail... and yet do nothing to help him? they’re dumb enough to risk their lives doing something like that, but not compassionate or caring enough?? to their leader’s son???? what the fuck??????

aww i missed Beh’leeb. I hope she and her (born/ unborn? cannot tell if she’s pregnant or not) kid are doing ok.

“So she’s trying to help the revolution along... in her own special way!”

that sounds enormously patronizing phoenix, shut up. she’s pregnant and she has to deal with fucks like Datz running around blowing off firecrackers at government officials.

...youre giving the orb to datz.

ill eat my hat if nothing happens to it.

“We’ll attract undue attention if we go in too large a group”

oh also because youre dressed like baby’s first paint set but

“AAAH!!”

“Do you know something about this?” “Nope! Just felt like shouting is all.”

yes, this is definitely the guy who should hold onto the orb for you. also i presented the attorneys badge. guess he has nothing to say about apollo’s proof of profession, eh?

“Yeah... You’d think Nahyuta might’ve cut his old man some slack, but no.” Dhurke you thick son of a bitch

wow. one single flashback occurrence where Dhurke wasn’t a dick. Well, 1/1000 ain’t too shabby...

“What? You came to visit me and you didn’t even bring me a present?”

What, like your plate of ‘my son is NOT a failure” sushi, Dhurke ?

“But I’m not a rebel.”

“Don’t be ridiculous– You’re a member of the defiant dragons simply by being my son.”

HE’S NOT YOUR SON YOU FUCK

If you present him your attorneys badge he jokes about dying happy and apollo makes it explicit that he means via execution

dhurke. that means apollo would die too. stop fucking joking about him dying you prickwad.

Apollo: Hey Dhurke know anything about this necklace

Dhurke: OOOAAHHH!!! OHHH!! AHHH!!!!

Apollo: So thats a...

Dhurke: Hahahahah its a no son give it here

Apollo: Yeah ok i see nothing suspicious about that at all and i sure hope the secret behind it wasn’t important to this case or anything..........

me: jeez i hope that stupid necklace was the last thing we had to present

phoenix, appearance from god knows where: hey maybe ask about the hostage

me: bless you baby. also i forgot you were here

Phoenix: Sounds like the minister has someone you really care about, cause you totally obeyed everything he did.

i know what youre trying to excuse here SOJ staff but no, straight up lifting right out of JFA will never be ok.

“Is there a new lady in your life?” “WHAT?! DONT BE RIDICULOUS SON!”

I’m gay now! Hahaha. But seriously. Nobody wants to date Dhurke.

“Amara was the love of my life, but she’s gone now, and there will never be another.”

cue Dhurtz shippers furiously jamming their fingers in their ears and whistling

what the

fuck is happening

to his aRM

“You tensed up” HIS BROKEN ARM STARTED VEINING SO HARD THAT IT SHOWED RIGHT THROUGH LIKE 2 LAYERS OF CLOTH

THATS SOME KRISTOPH DEVIL HAND SHIT RIGHT THERE

JESUS CHRI

oh there’s something hidden in there THANK GOD THAT SCAREDTHE FUCK OUTTA ME

“Oh I see– so youre hiding a woman’s photo up your sleeve”

oh yeah, a 3D photo. that has bumpy bits. absolutely apollo.

“You don’t need to keep secrets like that from me– You’re an eligible bachelor now. But you’ll... introduce her to me at some point, right?”

this has that creepy ‘parent insists you have a crush on that one kid’ conversation vibe to it, especially since it’s not like Apollo ever had an attachment to Amara to make him see her as a mother; she was ‘dead’ before he could even walk.

“Mon dieu! Are you into younger women, Dhurke?!”

Athena,,,,,,,, athena,,,, Apollo,,,,, he’s

it’s

oh never mind.

“Heh heh. Dhurke, you old dog, you. You got yourself a younger lover.”

ACTUALLY, YOU KNOW WHAT, NO, NOT NEVER MIND. YOU HAVE A PHOTO OF AMARA. YOU KNOW WHAT AMARA LOOKS LIKE. YOU KNOW HOW TO TELL THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN PAST AND PRESENT DHURKE BECAUSE THERES NO WAY HE COULD JUST RANDOMLY CUT HIS HAIR AND THEN HAVE IT GROW BACK THAT FAST.

I KNOW YOU THINK SHE’S DEAD BUT AT LEAST FUCKING SAY YOU THINK IT’S HER TWIN SISTER YOU UTTER UTTER NUMBSKULLS

“This is Amara before she died. If you look closer, you’ll see that I was younger, too.”

“Hey. You’re right.”

“Aww, that’s no fun.”

MY ULCERS ARE NO FUN BUT GUESS WHAT NEITHER IS LIFE

“Wait a second... Haven’t we seen this woman before?”

DAAAUUUUUUUGGGGHHHHHHH

GOOD FUCKING BALLS PLEASE PLEASE LET THEM BE TROLLING DEAR GOD AAHGGDFKAFAGF

i really love that photo though. everything about it is generally just really nice.

wait hang on. they. they just. they kept her around? after her fake assassination? they just–– WHERE YOU COULD GET A PHOTO OF HER?!

EXPLAIN–– THERE’D BETTER BE A GOOD EXPLAIN

“She was confined within the grounds, but she was fit as a fiddle.”

Ga’ran. Ga’ran. Ga’ran. You stupid, stupid, stupid bitch.

“She was being held under virtual house arrest, so I freed her, and we made a run for it.”

“Of course, we didn’t just proclaim it to the people so that they’d realize Ga’ran was a dirty bitch; that would have been way too easy hahaha.”

Ohhh I see. They didn’t know Ga’ran was the one who did it. Except Ga’ran was the one who kept her under house arrest and faked her death so... It’s pretty obviously her? Amara would know that by putting 2 and 2 together? But no... Apparently Amara was suspicious enough to suspect Dhurke of being the arsonist like Ga’ran said, but brave enough to ‘accompany him so she could ascertain the truth for herself.’

hey remember when i said brave. i meant stupid. she was stupid enough to go with someone she thought might have tried to kill her, completely unsupervised. though i guess you'd have to be that dumb to actually fall in love with Dhurke in the first place.

AH, and she was immediately recaptured. Because Dhurke sucks.

Waaaaait wait wait. How long and when did he ‘rescue’ her? The incident was 23 years ago, but Rayfa is 14– and Amara would need the usual 9 months to gestate– plus, the room she’s holding Rayfa in has the Defiant Dragons handbook in there, so it’s probably someplace of Dhurke’s––

Meaning there was a nine year gap but they still didn’t show her to the general public to depose gar– AGHHH. ITS ALL TERRIBLE!!!

“Apollo. We need to grill the queen about Amara when we have the chance.”

Hobo Nick’s ghost: Hey uhh me, that might get you uhhhhh murdered i thought we got over that after von karma tasered the shit out of u––

SOJ Nick: DOOOOHHOOOHOO I LIKE SOLVING MYSTERIESSS

Apollo: hey maybe the baby Amara’s holding is me.

Athena: Nah it’s too cute to be you.

Apollo: ....i just want to have proof that I’ve known the loving touch of a mother at least ONCE ATHENA OKAY???

“Hm? Oh... well, either way, it’s not you, son.”

yeah fuck you apollo the Sadmahdis only love their REAL children

also its Rayfa. it was in the safe next to Rafya’s letter; Rayfa basically identified it as herself when she saw it, it’s Rayfa.

Apollo: wow youre sure acting vague and suspicious about this; guess i’ll just accept it for what it is.

Dhurke: [tells apollo’s he's going to die and leave him fatherless again]

Apollo: [immediately assumes its another of Dhurke’s jokes because Dhurke’s jokes are horrible and always at Apollo’s expense]

phoenix: ...are you sick?

NICK

OH MY GOD

i shriek laughed

Apollo: [clearly emotionally distraught]

Dhurke: [continues to dance around the issue, thus prolonging Apollo’s suffering]

(Why is this happening now? Just when I was finally starting to feel like you really are my...)

HE DOESN’T DESERVE YOU, APOLLO

GET OUTTA THERE

So far Apollo hasn't said “i’m gonna do x and x and x, or die trying!” and honestly i know it’s a bit on the nose but it’s more true for this situation than any other ones it’s usually said in.

Dhurke: I’ve got a big secret

Apollo: You’ve been hiding something *ELSE* from me?

Dhurke: I’m afraid I can’t tell you what it is. I’d be betraying a certain someone if I did.

WHY DID HE EVEN BRING IT UP THEN!? WHY IS DHURKE JUST THE FUCKING WORST?!!!

“You’ll discover a truth that is hard to accept. But I know you. And I know you can handle the truth, no matter what it turns out to be.”

After all, you’re super great at accepting all the misfortune my existence has heaped upon you! Hahaha!!!

“Apollo... Are you okay?”

“...I’m fine.”

they ask you how you are, and you just have to say that you’re fine, when you’re not really fine, but you just can’t get into it b

h e r e c o m e t h e r e b e l s

and once again you have to manually move there.

action bomb over here from Vore Machine

also beh’leeb sweety youre doing amazing

“Dhurke belongs to the people!! Give him back!!!”

he what now

(sigh)

..............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................hi.....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................sadmad...............................................................................................................................................................................

“They’ll be arrested? Just for protesting?!”

Apollo... you live in the real world, r–– oh well technically he doesn't hm

that point’s moot

“They are aiding and abetting a criminal by seeking his release”

uh pretty sure that’s BS yut

“Her Eminence, Queen Ga’ran, has ordered they be arrested and judged en-masse”

ok im fucking

I'm wheezing so bad not ONLY do we have to save a revolution and Dhurke the rebel leader, but we are now about to defend most of the population of an entire country at once. Stakes RAISED bro

good fucking lord apollo stop being all “weren’t you a defiant dragon once?!wehh!!”

even Phoenix, with his Edgeworth obsession, didn’t really question it when Edgeworth was being his shithead prosecutor self.

Nahyuta: Sigh. Guess I can’t escape you. I mean I could use my magic beads to tie you up and then prance off but i have a plot to advance.

“Enough with the zen monk act, Nahyuta– Tell me how you really feel!”

Damnit, Sadmad, it’s not like we have someone who can read emotions by listening to-– oh yeah.

“She’s being held in secret where nobody is allowed to see her.”

second time’s the charm!

Apollo, simply bringing up the reason he’s doing what he’s doing won’t get him to stop. Remember the Phoenix and Maya situation? Until you can guarantee her safety, Sadmad’s just going to keep steam rolling along.

OH FINALLY

ok athena dish the dirt

alright, here we go, folks. time for Nick to get all their asses killed. i mean just listen to that ominous music :/

i love her laugh sprite.

“a lawyer AND a comedian, HOW DROLL”

the royal guards weird me out a bit though. its those masks. I'm getting high lady gaga gives

lady gagaran

Apollo: better give her evidence to burn–– i mean, jog her memory with some evidence.

Ghost of hobo nick: future me!! stop this!! don’t you remember what always used to happen?!

SOJ Phoenix: DOOOHOOOHOOO WE GOT HER NOW, APOLLO!

...........that worked

....no it didn’t. just spring you damn trap already, gagaran.

Apollo: Hm better not tell the people, that could stir up the revolution and actually make it happen. Especially since there might be REAL terrorists hiding out there, just waiting until someone goes, “Hey, that dead queen isn’t really dead!!”

lol

something went wrong?? no way

“Eeeek! Apollo! Don’t strip here!!!”

why is athena such a ditz in this case???

I HEARD A BELT

wow. apollo’s ass canonically bared in AA6

klavier gavin cries a million miles away

“HE WASN’T HIDING THE BULKY ASS ORB IN HIS CLOTHING, YOUR EMINENCE”

“damn i really thought he was hiding it in his skintight pants and vest. also ignore the other two, they couldn’t possibly have it.”

oh lord pls don’t hurt rayfa

“Your mind has been poisoned by the barbed one.”

“It was an honour and pleasure, your eminence”

phoenix i know that was highly badass and all but youre literally sitting pretty to be executed

“”””discipline””””

“Well, Apollo, let’s head back to the safe house for now.”

yes, just in case any spies follow us! so that the queen can get her hands on the orb that much fast!!

oh hi edgeworht, youre in this game

WOO YOU TELL’EM EDGEY

DOWN WITH PLUMED PUNISHER!! DOWN WITH PLUMED PUNISHER!! DOWN WITH PLUMED PUNISHER!!

“Moving along to things that actually matter...”

it’s true, but he shouldn’t say it

“Yeah, it’s like the more we learn about this case, the less we understand.”

just like me and this game’s writing process

“A trial without evidence...”

there’s evidence, you wankers, what do you think that photo of amara, the old case files and the necklace are????

“Athena, you’re too young and extra to die. Sit this trial out so we can save on sprite space.”

“Gotcha, chief.”

“Plus, there’s prosecutor Blackquill to think of. he said he’d use me for sword practice if he put you in harms way.”

Yeah, if Athena dies, who’ll his new punching bag be??? don’t think i haven’t forgotten story teller. i will not forget. i will not forgive.

“Remember; the worst of times are when lawyers have to force their biggest smiles.”

ugh, finally it’s used semi right.

And so, we come to the end of another frustrating chapter. It’s finally time to move on to the final trial. I’m actually kind of curious to find out how everything went down– though something tells me my suffering won’t end when i do.

Welp, friends – till next time. The final hurdle is at hand. Or at least, part one of it.

#sulking over SOJ #ooc #we're almost done... just the final trial still to go...]#spirit of justice spoilers #soj spoilers

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s-nnyd · 7 years ago

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hey. all of the qs from the ask meme that apply to you. have fun

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

oh boy well with my dad most certainly not theres a lot situations where its been made obvious that im not the son he wanted but he’ll still use me as an example to show to my lil bro and also like theres a lot of cockiness too and with my mom i love her and i know she loves and supports me but a lot of that is because im her daughter and id say id have a decent relationship with my mom and i do love her

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to?

lmao it was you

03: Do you regret anything?

oooooooooooooooooo boi man i been thinking and like ive thought about if ive regretted ever being friends with angie and id like to say that i dont cause shes done a lot and shes given a lot to me whether it be good or bad and ive grown a lot from it and i think that if i completely erased that then i wouldnt be able to work through the things i have and like in other aspects i regret not saying “i think youre cute” to movie girl and knott’s info boy like my goodness they were both so damn cute and i really shoulda said something

04: Are you insecure?

hell yeah i am

05: What is your relationship status?

single right now and i do want to eventually date someone and have that sort of closeness and that sort of relationship where i can feel at peace and rely on someone but i honest to goodness don’t think there’s anyone for me just yet and i don’t think im in a place really to be dating anyone cause i need to resolve things before i try to start something new

06: How do you want to die?

oh man duuude okay so when we read granny weatherall i legit like had a breakdown and i started panicking cause i started thinking about death all of a sudden and like there are situations where ive considered suicide and all but like there are also the times where it feels like its looming over me so much and like i get so so scared like im scared to walk down the pier at the beach at night because it so dark and the point where you look out onto the horizon and the horizon no longer exists and and its just a void and its so dark and like i think thats how i wanna die just im walking out on the pier at midnight and just im swallowed up because i think in the last moments i think i should just confront it

07: What did you last eat?

i had these hawaiian shortbread cookies that are so dang good like mmmmmmmmmmmm

08: Played any sports?

man i used to do tennis and swimming and i would love to go back to it

09: Do you bite your nails?

nah

10: When was your last physical fight?

like one where someone was genuinely hurt? like an hour ago and it was with the ground cause i got flung off my skateboard but for real i think my last physical fight was like kinder

11: Do you like someone?

skdjashjdkashd i doooo and i should noottttt and theres a lot of things i already know that its kinda like the crush is coming from the fact that there was a lot of support and general niceness and a whooollle lot of other reasons why i should not and im looking forward to the day when this goes away

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?

my goodness i have and i died

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?

hmm i do but i forgot who it was

14: Do you miss someone?

yeah i kinda miss my old self but for real i really miss my cousin lynnette like i havent seen her for like two years and i really needa hang out with her eventually

15: Have any pets?

dang i wish

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

at the moment? p distressed and very in my own head like i really need a break from a lot of other things but i also need a break from myself oh! ill show you my art project that were doing later when i finish it cause like we ended up havign to do an extreme emotion self portrait of how we feel at this point in time and like its hilarious cause ppl pass by it and theyre like “dude are you okay like just looking at that makes me feel bad”

17: Ever made out in the bathroom?

dkjasdh i have not but i lowkey wanna just cause

18: Are you scared of spiders?

uH YEAh

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

i would i would and if it was to relive a memory definitely if it was to redo something over differently most definitely if it was to reexperience something wihtout changing something then uh no

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?

hhhhhhh oh my goodness lowkey embarrassed to say it cause weve talked about places to snog a while ago and like the last time i did was like in the bushes in the sculpture garden

21: What are your plans for this weekend?

maybe working on the death of a salesman project maybe just getting some rest im really not sure im literally living day to day at this point

22: Do you want to have kids? How many?

pfft man i do not wanna have any kids like at all

23: Do you have piercings? How many?

i got two but theyve closed up already since i dont use em

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?

art, a bit of dabbling in math, and then also psych like i lvoed the fuck outta that class

25: Do you miss anyone from your past?

oh yeah definitely and i think about her a lot i definitely miss meleana and sometimes ill go out and theres a souvenir shop and ill look at the best friend necklaces cause she always got one for us and like i have a box just full of all the halved best friend necklaces and i wonder a lot what would have happened had we still kept contact she was a big gateway to a lot of things in my life

26: What are you craving right now?

mmm some damn relief but for real tho i want someone to run their hands through my hair and pet it and all like any of the daydreams i have are usually centered around my new haircut

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

i? dont? think? so? theres like only one of two people i know of who like ever liked me and that was jolin (the other one is this sophomore from my art class last year)

28: Have you ever been cheated on?

lol no

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

wish i could even get a date

30: What’s irritating you right now?

well i brought up the other ones in our chat and those are the main ones currently so

31: Does somebody love you?

yeah and i think in a lot of situations whether theyre friends or fam im being put on the weird pedestal

32: What is your favourite color?

OH OH OH ITS CERULEAN BLUE LIKE I KNOW ITS REAL SPECIFIC BUT LIKE THAT THAT BLUE IS SO GOOD LIKE EVERY TIME I SEE IT IN PUBLIC MY CHEST SWELLS UP AND MY LUNGS FEEL SO COLD AND THE AIR FEELS REALLY NICE AND LIKE MAN I LOVE THAT BLUE

33: Do you have trust issues?

lol yeah and in the process ive lied a lot and ive gotten so good at lying that sometimes i forget i am lying and the lines between whats truth or not get all blurry (i legit did not mean for that to come off as tumblr-esque as it did)

34: Who/what was your last dream about?

it was me just kinda floating in random space and then i was in a white room with no walls no doors no windows and i just walked around in this open blank space

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?

hhhh mrs quiggle

36: Do you give out second chances too easily?

sometimes i think i do

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?

forgive

38: Is this year the best year of your life?

haH hAH HAH haaa.......no

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?

uh i believe 13 oh wait no scratch that i was like 8

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked?

i needed to get the laundry so...

51: Favourite food?

prolly ramen oh or loco moco cause its so good

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

mmm i think id say i do

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

i was working on my entry for the lawyer firm art contest

54: Is cheating ever okay?

hell no

55: Are you mean?

i think so cruel even just cause i know so much and i think people who know and understand and think so much are in general dangerous cause they calculate their actions and sometimes that scares me cause i cant tell if im doing it on purpose or not but just in general yeah im mean like too many shits are just not given

56: How many people have you fist fought?

like? uh? i think maybe two and both times were when i was like 8 or 9

57: Do you believe in true love?

mmm i do i do and i think a lot of that true love stems from a relationship based on communication, honesty, trust, and a really good friendship as a foundation

58: Favourite weather?

oooOOOOOO okay so do you remember that one time it was raining hard as fuck like sophomore year like i know its real vague but it was legit pouring and like it was actually so bad that everyone adn i mean everyone went into the library to get some form of shelter and there were people who were soaked to the bone and peoples umbrellas were getting broken cause it was so cold rainy and windy like that that kinda weather is my fave

59: Do you like the snow?

uh i think i do?

60: Do you wanna get married?

hell yeah

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

mmmm i get a lil weird on that but i think some of my favorite ones are like being called “love” like “whats going on love” or “you look good today love” like mmm i eat that shit up

62: What makes you happy?

man legend of zelda is makign me so damn happy rn like it legit means so damn much to me adn like theres so much i lvoe about it and i just lvoe talking about it and anything about it in general and like also skateboarding has been making me real happy lately like ive never loved getting hurt more and like that sounds really bad and like my left knee’s nerves are totally shot cause i fell straight on it and messed it up cause i was skating but like theres just soemthing about feeling more within my own body because im gettin some form of physical activity adn im getting hurt adn its like its a reality in its own way and like i really love it and i super love when i get to cruise like it feels so damn esp with my hair now and also what makes me happy is the ppl i find cute every now and then like its genuinely such a nice experience and oh oh i just wanted to talk about it jsut cause but like whenever i get a crush i get real excited and real happy cause like i love getting them gifts and seeing the surprise and the happiness on their faces cause its like oh you thought of me and oh its somehting i really love and like it makes them happy for that glimpse of a moment and like i love talking to them and like when they tell me about things they like or their passionate about its so nice to hear cause its like yes yes yes i support you and i love you i love seeing you happy and like just seeing your brightens my day and like even if i do confess and i do get rejected ive been mroe than lucky cause its like the people i have confessed to have been so gentle with the rejection and so kind with it and its like oh no!! like yes im sad that we couldnt be more but like thank you!!! thank you so much for letting me love you adn letting me give you so much thank you for brightening my days up and lettign me see your smiles and hear your laughs like thank you so much im so glad i could crush on you and like thats another thing that makes me happy and like theres probably a lot more that i could talk about but i think ill leave at that for now

63: Would you change your name?

i been actually thinking about it for a while adn in the times that i have considered it i usually use a game with the customizable name to try it out and like at some point i used Elle and then i tried Lynn and like i dunno im really not too sure and maybe if other names come in the future ill test those out cause truly it doesnt feel like my name is my own

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

mm yeah id think so cause theres stuff we were supposed to talk about that we didnt and uhh yeah

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

say “thanks im really flattered but i really dont think im in a place right now where i should get into a relationship”

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

lmao no

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

uhh the guy at the receptionist desk when i went in to submit my entry for the art contest

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

lol if what we talked about wasnt deep and it wasnt you then itd be mrs quiggle

69: Do you believe in soulmates?

fuck yeah

70: Is there anyone you would die for?

i dont think so like i wouldnt even die for myself

#thanks jae #this really was a good breather and it made a lot of things feel better #sickinthesoul

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proudcatgirl · 7 years ago

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tag thingi

Tagged by the best person ever and my favorite son @shealezz

THE LAST: 1. drink: iced peppermint soy latte :p 2. phone call: doctor 3. text message: “Distasteful” 4. song you listened to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3cXjcKTRWcg&list=PL-WLCXyC_cLw4uz-Y84y6bQSerFNk7XlJ&index=4 5. time you cried: idk I dont cry a lot kek 6. dated someone twice: nah 7. kissed someone and regretted it: dont think so :p 8. been cheated on: nope 9. lost someone special: i dont think so?? Are we talking about death or just cutting someone off. cause theres people I love that I dont talk to very often anymore but I didnt lose them or anything 10. been depressed: bro 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: ,,,, ,, ,yes

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS: 12-14. Green, pink, dark blue

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. made new friends: Yeah! 16. fallen out of love: a lot of times lul 17. laughed until you cried: at leasst once 18. found out someone was talking about you: I dont remember :p 19. met someone who changed you: Yes 20. found out who your friends are: yes <3 21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: Ya

GENERAL: 22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: oh man, like. 75-80% I think 23. do you have any pets: I have 2 cats (Cal and Caesar) and 3 rats (Posey, Bella, Maizy) that live in my apartment with me. My mom has 2 cats and a dog that I still consider mine tho 24. do you want to change your name: no i like my name 25. what did you do for your last birthday: I went and saw wonder woman with my friends and then we all got drunk, it was LIT 26. what time did you wake up: haha I got up early today like 1:30 pm 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: I was awake watching twitch streams 28. name something you can’t wait for: I wanna see my overwatch friends in cali!!! 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: 2 days ago 30. what is one thing you wish you could change in your life: wish I had more energy and could be more productive 31. what are you listening to right now: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RQmEERvqq70&list=PL-WLCXyC_cLw4uz-Y84y6bQSerFNk7XlJ&index=6 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: ????? no i dont think so 33. something that is getting on your nerves: people that never learned how to respect others and r rude for no goddamn reason 34. most visited website: twitch, youtube, tumblr, facebook are all equal probably 35. mole/s: a few 36. mark/s: i dont think i got any of those 37. childhood dream: I think I wanted to be an environmental scientist but I dont remember

38. hair colour: its black rn

39. long or short hair: long 40. do you have a crush on someone: nahh 41. what do you like about yourself: like. nothin lol 42. piercings: I have gauges but thats it 43. blood type: no clue lmfao 44. nickname: tilly 45. relationship status: single 46. zodiac: gemini 47. pronouns: she 48. favourite tv show: idk i dont watch a whole lotta tv 49. tattoos: none 50. right or left handed: right 52. piercing: none unless u count gauges 53. sport: fuck sports 55. vacation: I just wanna go to California and chill there at the beach and see family n friends 56. pair of trainers: is this talking about shoes bc literally nobody calls shoes “trainers” and this is pissing me off

MORE GENERAL

57. eating: I havent eaten today lol oops 58. drinking: water 59. i’m about to: I’m legit doing nothing and I’m probably not gonna be doing anything 61. waiting for: my computer to be fixed so I can play overwatch 62. want: a job and money 63. get married: no 64. career: man idk 65. hugs or kisses: kisses 66. lips or eyes: thighs 67. shorter or taller: i dont care as long as yr cute 68. older or younger: Older for guys, younger for girls but u still gotta be over 18 70. nice arms or nice stomach: thighs (stomach tho probably) 71. sensitive or loud: loud 72. hook up or relationship: hook up 73. troublemaker or hesitant: idk

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. kissed a stranger: no :( 75. drank hard liquor: haha ye 76. lost glasses/contact lenses: ONE TIME AT SAKURACON ONE OF MY CONTACTS FELL OUT AND I DIDNT BRING MY GLASSES AND I WAS WALKING AROUND HALF BLIND IT WAS AWFUL always bring an extra pair of contacts or ur glasses kids 77. turned someone down: a lot of times :( 78. sex on the first date: Ive never done it but sure 79. broken someone’s heart: yes :(((( 80. had your heart broken: yes :(((((((((((((((( 81. been arrested: no 82. cried when someone died: no 83. fallen for a friend: :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. yourself: no lmfao 85. miracles: yes 86. love at first sight: sure 87. santa claus: no 88. kiss on the first date: yes 89. angels: idk

OTHER: 90. current best friend’s name: I have too many. like 20 best friends 91. eye colour: brown 92. favourite movie: Idk i like scary movies

I tag @patorikkuuu :^)

#messy messy #i need a new text post tag

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soupwillsaveyou · 8 years ago

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That get to know me ask thing- just fuckin do all of them that'll keep you busy for a while. Gotta keep u kids off the streets

u have no chill and u probs dont even care lmao bye

1) What images do you have set for your desktop/cell phone wallpapers?here’s a beautifully cropped out compilation of my desktop, phone and laptop wallpapers

2) Have you ever had a crush on a teacher? i convinced myself i did in primary school but?

3) What was your last text message? I sent my mom a text asking to pick me up

4) What do you see yourself doing in 10 years? Hopefully just drawing a lot and having my life slightly more together than rn

5) If you could be anywhere else right now, where would you be? with my gf and you damn well know it

6) What was your coolest Halloween costume? we dont rly do halloween over here,,,,

7) What was your favorite 90s show? either rugrats or (if that one counts) rocket power

8) Who was your last kiss? my gf bro

9) Have you ever been stood up? ??

10) Favorite ice cream flavor? cinnamon! Definitely, it’s so good!!!

11) Have you been to Las Vegas? my dude i have been no where near america

12) Your favorite pair of shoes? are u rly making me choose fuck.

13) Honestly, have you ever cheated on your significant other? ,,,dude

14) What is your favorite fruit? idk i like a lot

15) Have you talked to anyone on tumblr that you could see yourself dating/having sex with? If possible? I am dating someone currently that I’m talking to on tumblr

16) Are you into hookups? Short or long term relationships? long definitely

17) Do you smoke? If so, what? no

18) What do you do to get over your anger? rant lmao also like let it out on someone who doesnt deserve it hahaHA FUCK

19) Do you believe in God? idk

20) Does the person you’re in love with know it? uhm…

21) Favorite position? go away

22) What’s your horoscope sign? cancer

23) Your fears? spiders, rejection from loved ones, failing doing what i love

24) How many pets do you have? What kind? currently one bunny!

25) What never fails to turn you on? justice

26) Your idea of a perfect first date? bro tbh i dont rly care we can just chill at home watching cartoons that’d be amazing. also going out for a movie or food or whatever its all cool

27) What is something most people don’t know about you? everything regarding gender and sexuality really

28) What makes you feel the happiest? chilling with friends, also hugs, god damn, hugs.

29) What store do you shop at most often? if we’re talking about where I legit buy something the most and not like, clothes stuff or whatever. Well. Uhh. Either AH or Hema because I have no self control whatsoever and I will damn well buy food all the time

30) How do you feel about oral? Giving and/or receiving? no

31) Do you believe in karma? kinda? Depends on the situation I guess

32) Are you single? no

33) Do you think flowers or candy are a better way to apologize? consider an actual apology

34) Are you a good swimmer? I mean? Yes? Maybe? I’ve got my first three diplomas and its not like im super good but im a decent swimmer?

35) Coffee or Tea? I only sometimes like coffee (and mostly like, cappuccino and stuff like that) so tea. Tea is Good.

36) Online shopping or shopping in person? that rly depends but i spent a fortune either way

37) Would you rather be older or younger than your current age? I’m. Chill with my current age actually. Maybe older but only like a year so YOU can shut the fuck up for once about how im so young

38) Cats or Dogs? both are gr8

39) Are you a competitive person? kinda yeah :’)

40) Do you believe in aliens? yes

41) Do you like dancing? my dude i cant dance for shit but i like goofing around sometimes if that counts

42) What kind of music to you listen to? everything and nothing. im a mess

43) What is your favorite cartoon character? dont make me choose you know i cant do shit like this

44) Where are you from? the netherlands

45) Eat at home or eat out? depends

46) How much more social are you when you’re drunk? ive never been drunk

47) What was the last thing you bought for yourself? like the very last thing was a tube of pringles lmao

48) Why do you think your followers follow you? dude i have no idea im a mess

49) How many hours do you sleep at night? that really depends but usually not enough hah

50) What worries you most about the future? having to take care of myself wtf i cant do that

51) If you had a friend that spoke to you the same way you speak to yourself, how long would you be friends? I have a hard time cutting people off so longer than would be healthy

52) Are you happy with yourself? not really no

53) What do you wish you didn’t know? idk man

54) What big lesson could people learn from your life? do your damn homework kids

55) If you could live in any home on a television series, what would it be? do you know how many awesome tv series houses there are wtf dude

56) What’s your favorite Website? this hellhole sadly

57) What’s the habit you’re proudest of breaking? i dont recall breaking any tbh lmao bye

58) What was your most recent trip of more than 50 miles? visiting my brother for his graduation presentation that was a little over 50 miles

59) What’s the best bargain you’ve ever found at a garage sale or thrift store? dont think ive ever had a particularly good buy there

60) What do you order when you eat Chinese food? lots of different stuff but i always ask to include egg foo young cuz im a sucker for that shit

61) If you had to be named after one of the 50 states, which would it be? wyoming simply cuz ive never heard of it before and it sounds ridiculous

62) If you had to teach a subject to a class, what would it be? art or history or english probably. Those have always been the subjects i’d choose when i was thinking of maybe becoming a teacher

63) Favorite kind of chips? either regular or paprika probably so basically the basic ones.

64) Favorite kind of sandwich? talking special stuff i love salmon yo

65) Which do you use more often, the dictionary or the thesaurus? i didnt even know the thesaurus was a thing

66) Have you ever been stung by a bee? i mean i stepped on one once

67) What’s your favorite form of exercise? none

68) Are you afraid of heights? kinda? someitmes i am sometimes not idk man

69) What’s the most memorable class you’ve ever taken? boy ive had quite some memorable classes,,,

70) What’s your favorite breakfast? light crackers with cheese or smthng

71) Do you like guacamole? not rly

72) Have you ever been in a physical fight? im not sure

73) What/who are you thinking about right now? im still trying to remember if ive ever been in an actual fight

74) Do you like cuddling? yes its so good

75) Are you holding onto something you need to let go of? Other than my cluttered ass room and secrets?

76) Have you ever experienced one of your biggest fears? where do u think that fear of spiders came from my dude. also im half experiencing the rejection rn? idk

77) Favorite city you’ve been to? I love Prague!

78) Would you break the law to save a family member? that depends what kind of rule breaking and everyhting we’re talking about,, but probably

79) Talk about an embarrassing moment? my life

80) Are there any causes you strongly believe in? does feminism coount as a cause?

81) What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had? okay so i mightve broken my nose once but im not sure. Also i almost cut of a toe once.

82) Favorite day of the week? currently wednesday cuz no school

83) Do you consider yourself sexually open minded? i do but yeah

84) How do you feel about porn? theyre sure having a lot of The Sex

85) Which living celebrity would you like to know? Do Not Make Me Choose

86) Who was your hottest ex? i only have one kind-of ex so uhhh

87) Do you want/have kids? i most definitely do not have any and im not sure if i woudl want any. I dont think so but??

88) Has anyone ever told you that they wanted to marry you? yes

89) Do you get easily distracted? FUNNY THAT YOU ASK THAT

90) Ass or titties? im just letting you know that the first time i read this i read it as ash or titties and im still not over it

91) What is your favorite word? snoekduik and i blame @bleubudgie

92) How do you feel about tattoos? they can be rly cool

93) Do you have any pets? this is p much the same as question 24

94) How tall are you? 173 cm

95) How old are you? 19

96) 3 physical features you get complimented on a lot? nothing lol

97) Is there anything you’re really passionate about? hah yeah Squadbase and atla/lok and voltron and if we’re gonna go a little serious feminism *whispers* fckng hyperfixations

98) Do you have trust issues? not rly i think

99) Do you believe in love at first sight? im not sure but id like to

100) What are some words that you live by? Why? I don’t thikn there’s something i actively thin kabout and live up to all the time but ‘’do no harm but take no shit’’ is one of my favs (and i have a lot of favs lmao oops)

THERE YOU GO ARE YOU HAPPY NOW

#ask #johnbboyega #about me #long post

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myvelouri · 5 years ago

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So like, a lot happened. I just got home tonight.

I snuck into her room and it was nice.

I don't know where to begin to be honest and I'm forgetting a lot.

She loves root beer and so I got this special alcoholic root beer. She tried to like it but she didn't like it. Unfortunately. Also specs totally ripped me off cause I used credit instead of cash or debit which charges you an extra amount of money which is BULLSHIT

So we started cuddling and listening to music. This is gonna be out of order cause I can't remember all of it..we talked a lot and a lot happened.

So she wanted to know me more. And I wanted to know more about her. Oh also the guyfriend from earlier today! Well, I finally got her to tell me. I basically told her she doesn't tell me all the lil details of her day. I'm used to that and I actually prefer it. She said she does too. But anyway, yeah, I didn't tell her I was butthurt about that guy. But it was a guy. And she was at campus and she hung out with him. They talked actually A LOT. she's the one who reached out to him on campus. Um... She said he's a college friend and the only one. She said they took classes together and then they got so fuckin close that she had arranged for him to take the next semester with HER. She told him what classes and everything... Dude I've never had a girl like me as a friend that would try to demand me take classes with her. She said he's chill. She said he's a pharmacist. She said he told her some funny shit about working at a psychiatric ward. Um. She told me so much. It seemed a lot and I wanted to ask her "did you all have a thing as well?... Was it platonic or nah?" But I absolutely didn't as that seems so insecure. She probably had a crush too. But anyway yeah I'm like surprised she didn't tell me about this whole ass hang out with another guy and I had to ASK about it cause I only could guess it even happened at all from a post on her story. Like, really? Where's the open and honesty shit. Damn

She said she could get a crush on a guy even though she's in a relationship, I said that's really messed up to me..she said it's only happened once..she said she wouldn't act on it. I said, nah that's not the point? The point is you were in a relationship and you actually were capable of having a crush on another guy as well as that's not just physical attraction, that's a whole ass higher level, a CRUSH, bro, you like this other dude when you're in a relationship. She said it's not the same but, to me this is a huge issue.

Oh so I found out the thing she was not telling me she'd do earlier. It was that she was going to text her recent ex and ask if he's doing okay. LIKE DUDE WTF. She's said nothing but negative things about him.and how she doesn't want to hear his voice or see him and she makes cringe faces as well as serious disgust at the thought of seeing him ever again. She told me many times she wants him out of his life and not be friends either. She said this a lot and it's also why I was okay with going out with her. Also he invited her to a thing and she really REALLY didn't want to go, she was so grossed out by him....in fact she didn't go and we went out that night instead. So why the fuck is she getting drunk and thinking about him to the point she wants to drunk text him how he's doing. That goes against every single thing she told me... Wow.

You still have feelings for the dude. I figured. But I didn't since she shat on him a lot..I thought damn she really hates him

Also I think I'm balding, or it's stress related, or the dandruff shampoo I been using. Idk what's happening.. I'm devastated

Anyway also she asked how much do I like her. She said she wanted to be honest. She said right now she likes me at a 6/10 but changed it to a 7/10... I was confused cause I thought she liked me so much, I thought it'd be a 10/10. Boy was I wrong. She said it started at a 3/10....I was like wow that hurts ha. But okay. Np.

So I asked more about it and she said, the first time she saw me, she was physically attracted to me at a 8/10 but it's at a 10/10 now, but she started liking me, which is different, it's harder for her to like someone SO SHE SAYS and it was at a 3/10 for a second and that day we worked together with another co-worker and we joked around she liked me at a 5/10. I was like damn that was fast actually

She asked me what I don't like about her. I asked her instead first. And she said "physically? Or personality wise? And my heart slightly jolted in a horrible way, I thought, wow there's something she doesn't like about me physically?... And she straight up said she doesn't like the hair on my butt. But to be honest I detest it too and I actually trim it every month, I guess she saw it when it was longer..yikes. embarrassing

I told her I like everything about her physically. Seriously, there's nothing bad? Like, I legit like it all. She has a nice body.

I said I don't like the parts of her personality where she's confusing and contradictory or just like what she did tonight with not telling me what she'd do when she was acting crazy and drunk and saying she was gonna hit up someone... The people she talks to.. which turned out to be ex's. Yep. And I said there's just a few things. I was only able to tell her this because she said what she doesn't like about my personality is whenever I get anxiety (because of her) that I shut down and stop talking and won't talk. And I realize that. But I can't change it.

Okay so she also told me about her day finally cause I asked. And she said she had a group project and they had to sing a thing. Make your own beat to a Shakespeare thing. She said there was this guy in her class who's super country and he started singing in a deep deep voice, singing country as fuck and she looked all turned on and said "oh, boy, oh, mmmmm, don't do that"... I was like wtf you're checking out dudes in your class and shit like that? (I didn't say that out loud, I just thought it) it made me feel really insecure and like, I asked her if that was a good thing, country guys, and she said yeah, that'sa huge thing, she loves country boys and we joked about it for a second. I was half joking. I said I'm not even your type... I'm only a few things. And she said she likes guys in all black, emoish, like alternative music but like country as well, are country but alternative, deep voice, and then I added "yeah and have blue eyes, are white and have a big dick" and she moaned to each one of those saying "mmm yeah" like she's fantasizing about this guy in her head already. I'm like yeah.... Okay..

And she said something fucked up. I said I'm not good at pleasing you sexually, I can't get fully hard and (my dick ain't big) and she said she doesn't care anymore about that because her ex fucked it all up for her (cause he was fucking rapey as shit and always constantly fucked her and tried even tho she said no) and I said to her "so you would have dumped me already had you never been with your ex..." And she said "I don't think so cause I'm not like that..."

But... Dude... She's saying I'd basically not be good enough sexually had her ex not fucked her up. That makes me feel so bad about myself. Like I'm a reject she's just settling for. A piece of shit that has a small dick and can't fuck her right.

We had sex. I ate her out. She really tastes so good I'm like wow. I couldn't get fully hard and I fucked her standing up, she looked so good sucking my dick on her knees. The first condom immediately made me lose my erection so I couldn't fuck her. She sucked me off more and I got the second condom after taking the other one off of course, and we started fucking. It felt good but I hated that I wasn't fully hard. I fucked her hard, rough, choking, everything almost. But we had to be quiet. I was getting too loud in every way. She said she was so close to cumming. But she didn't. She told.me to cum. I wasn't about to. But I made myself cum. And I was upset about it all. I also did intially have to fuck her raw for a few moments before I could get a condom on. It felt so good, she felt so tight around my cock, I was surprised. My dick is so useless and tiny, like I could legit tell how good it's feel if it was bigger and thicker, longer, everything, I could feel every nook and cranny, like seriously, what a FUCKING shame to have my genetics.

Okay so we were watching music videos, they just played and I told her one of my man crushes is the darker haired dude from the band Boys Like Girls, and so their music video was playing and she was just talking to me and he popped up on the screen and she stopped and moaned "ohh...mmm" cause she thought he was hot as fuck. And she told me. I'm so bothered dude, she gets so jealous if I do this with other girls but she continues to check out other guys and she justified it saying he's a celeb she can't ever have. I was like nah, you could get him, plus I'm as hot as the celebs so... Derp. Anyway what I said was YEAH THAT DUDE IS HOT AS FUCK, HES THE MANCRUSH IVE HAD SINCE FOREVER, I TOLD YOU HE WAS HOT. and in fact she's already told me that I look like him and am the same type as him before. He's hotter than me. Also another thing, I was telling her I know her type, blue eyed white guys with dark hair and alternative style etc, and she said nah, she doesn't like blue eyes. But this music video came up and the singer has blue eyes, same video, and she goes "mmm okay you were right, those blue eyes got me though mmm" and I was so bothered, especially cause she tried to argue that she doesn't like blue eyes that much earlier. And she said if the other darker haired guy had blue eyes instead, and she said "oh mmm" I said nah he'd still be the same hot. She said "no, hotter." And she continues to make me feel jealous or whatever..like no wonder I'm fucking balding. And she doesn't tell me she hung out with a guyfriend alone before class. Like wtf, she said she'd never do that. She just is so untrustworthy to me

I overall feel like... Shit.

She said she thinks it'll be hard for her to get herself to like me more, for her to get there. And that came out of left field honestly, cause she's been hyping me up and saying how much she REALLY REALLY likes me everyday

She opened up her notes and I saw a message to herself that said "I feel like" and it kept going and it was about half a paragraph but she quickly hid her phone. And shes aware that I write to myself, like here, but of course I don't let her see this, it's private. But I do tell her I do this. And she wants to know what I write about. I feel like she's hiding things from me as well tbh

I'm gonna get drunk now.

#people #relationships

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Character headcanons: the whole mighty nein?

oh damn aight babe lets get started

Jester

1: sexuality headcanon

my girl is bisexual, no question.

2: otp

beaujes ftw, of course. i just... i feel like Jester can lean on Beau a lot, and that’s important.

3: brotp

honestly Jester has such a good relationship with the whole entire team, i cant believe how much she is the heart of the entire team. i would say my favorite dynamic is... jester and fjord. they just have some real cute moments, and they really try and support each other.

4: notp

i dont really have any notps? i mean... i cant really see her with caleb, i guess, which is a thing some people like? but im very much a chill person.

5: first headcanon that pops into my head

Jester used to make little gifts for her mom, but she kind of had to make do with the things she had access to, so it was a lot of drawings and playing pranks she thinks will make her mom smile.

Also, Marion still has every single one of the drawings Jester ever gave her.

6: one way in which I relate to this character

Dick jokes.

7: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character

hmmm... i dont get much from Jes, honestly. i would say... oh wait gods i just remembered that conversation with Beau about relationships and how theyre not like the books they read oh my poor baby Jester ishfgufkd.lg8: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

cinnamon roll

Caleb

1: sexuality headcanon

i am personally real into asexual and panromantic Caleb.

2: otp

i dont particularly ship Caleb with anyone? but if i had to say... maybe with Essek? or Caduceus? but Caleb is v much the kind of person who needs solid family relationships more than romantic ones.

3: brotp

Caleb and Nott are the og, obvi.

4: notp

Caleb and Beau, for sure my dudes. they are Empire Siblings, platonic forever.

5: first headcanon that pops into my head

i dont remember if its said where he got the name from but ive decided just now he got the name Caleb Widogast from a porn book. it was a minor character and he’s mostly just praying that Jester will never run into the book he took it from.

6: one way in which I relate to this character

depression and trauma, babey

7: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character

when he was having that conversation with Beau and they were just literally talking circles around each other and not getting anywhere with it. also any time where he starts talking about how he’s a shitty person.8: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

problematic fave, for suresies

Caduceus

1: sexuality headcanon

he is a big and soft and gentle gay man.

2: otp

Caduceus x peace, Caduceus x support, Caduceus x not dying ever again please

also i like Caduceus and Fjord

3: brotp

i really want Cads to connect more with the others, yknow? i feel like hes doing a lot of supporting them and not getting a lot of support. i liked that moment he had with the Gentleman, i would love if that got more time but i doubt it.

i would say... Cads and Jester? i feel like they both do that thing where they don’t lean on others as much as they could and so they should lean on each other.

4: notp

i dont think i honestly have one for Cads. i mean, him and anyone who would hurt him. dont let anyone hurt the boy. he needs protection.

5: first headcanon that pops into my head

i think part of why he hasnt scried on his family is partially worry about just not being able to see them, but also partially worry that theyre fine out there. theyre fine and doing good work and they just havent come back, havent checked in on him or the Grove, and he’s just as scared to see that as he is to see that theyre not okay at all.

6: one way in which I relate to this character

low int, has trouble paying attention, big mood.

7: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character

i... honestly cant really think of a moment? he has always done his best and i love him.8: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

cinnamon roll

Nott

1: sexuality headcanon

i... i feel like. she has straight woman energy? but i dont like that so as far as im concerned she’s bisexual.

2: otp

Nott and Yeza. rhino sex potions, learning how to change and grow together, and that entire moment when they’re reunited and Yeza is just happy she’s alive no matter what she looks like.

3: brotp

listen Nott and Caleb are the og, but Nott and Jester are the detective duo and as far as im concerned, thats what matters most.

4: notp

mmmmmmmmmm idk does anyone ship nott and caduceus? thats a notp for me, i just decided that just now.

5: first headcanon that pops into my head

Nott hasn’t spoken to her brothers in a very long time, and in fact actively avoids it when given the chance.

6: one way in which I relate to this character

“they turned me into everything i thought was”. always thinking of yourself as Less. and also being a gross goblin.

7: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character

knowing she had a crush on caleb lmao not gonna lie8: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

problematic fave

Beau

1: sexuality headcanon

lesbian

2: otp

BeauJes, my dudes. “i could be her beacon” was a powerful phrase. and also beauyasha is still very very good content.

3: brotp

Beau and Fjord. captain and first mate. teacher and student. i honestly think Fjord was one of the first people to really give Beau a chance to grow as a person and she grabbed it with both hands and worked so hard at it, and Fjord was there for it.

4: notp

beau and any guy. she’s a lesbian, ya’ll. come on.

5: first headcanon that pops into my head

beau doesnt like yellow because one time she had to wear a yellow dress to a party and she spilled something on it and got yelled at for the stain and she’s a bitter one who doesnt let things go so now she just doesnt wear yellow, and prefers dark colors.

cant get yelled at for stains if no one can see them!

6: one way in which I relate to this character

socially awkward! yes.

7: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character

mmmm socially awkward, again8: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

i feel. like. she cant be a cinnamon roll but shes also. not entirely a problematic fave? more problematic fave than cinnamon roll, but not really either.

Yasha

1: sexuality headcanon

she is a Lesbian who was very much in love with her wife, as most lesbians are.

2: otp

Yasha x forgiveness, Yasha x happiness, Yasha x freedom

also beauyasha is always good. and so is yasha and jester? get yasha a blue girlfriend who will reassure her that things are okay.

3: brotp

Yasha and Molly were, obvi, amazing together. maybe its bc of them that i also want to see more of Cads and Yasha.

i just feel like the low int bros could be fun.

4: notp

ummmm i guess. i cant see molly and yasha in a romantic way at all?

5: first headcanon that pops into my head

on yasha and zuala’s wedding day, they had to do it in secret, so they couldnt really decorate or celebrate much. but what they did do was pick flowers and put them everywhere. so that even if they couldnt show their love to their tribe, they could still be surrounded by colors and life and beauty.

6: one way in which I relate to this character

Says Dumb Things, Loves Girls So Much, Needs A Break

7: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character

listen i am anticipating a lot of awkward apologizing and guilt and idk if this counts as second hand embarrassment but im deffo gonna be crying so8: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

cinnamon roll and i will fight anyone who says otherwise

Fjord

1: sexuality headcanon

thinking about it... im real into demi Fjord.

2: otp

Fjord x Eldritch Blaaaast

forreal tho i dont heavily ship him with anything. him and Cads are cute, tho.

3: brotp

i know i already said this for beau but really the captain first mate dynamic is so so good.

i also like him and nott. green drowning victims! bickering! also actually being ride or die for each other but like you would never tell them that!

4: notp

mmmmm him and avantika i guess

5: first headcanon that pops into my head

a lot of the reason Fjord is so good at accents is bc, as a kid, he would try and mimic other people’s voices. he thought it would get them to stop looking at him like a half-orc. it didnt work, but now he can p much copy anyone’s voice so that’s handy!

6: one way in which I relate to this character

just doesnt know whats going on, assumes someone who says wise words must be the smartest person ever, feels like deadweight if they dont have something special they can do

7: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character

this is legit the hardest question for every character my dudes uhhhhh oh gods the whole thing with avantika was killer so i guess when he has to fake it but also doesnt know what the hells going on at the same time.8: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

cinnamon... roll? i mean... he did also almost unleash a many eyed eldritch snake tho......... so....

send me a character or anything really

#critical role new campaign #Universe Answers #anon my dear little star this was So Much #and i didnt even do mOLLY! like!#but it was also real fun so thank you darling #Anonymous

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dailydoseofme5 · 8 years ago

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LETS TALK ABOUT MY TEACHER

I really wanna write this down just for the sake of remembering this.

dude......Reece Theriot though...

I have the biggest crush ever on my teacher. Like I get butterflies when I talk to him or see him. I haven't felt like that about a boy since I was a freshman in high school. Even though obviously nothing will happen, I still think its nice that he allowed me to have such a massive crush because I honestly did not know that I could feel like that about someone anymore. Its so fun to have a crush and it makes me know that this feeling still exists....in the beginning of a relationship anyway lol---I feel like you shouldnt date someone unless you feel like that about them

ANYWAY after being in his class for 2 semesters, being on the UL sales Team, and going to Bayou we have spent a lot of time together and he's become pretty fond of me as well.

We have a lot of banter and he just picks on me all the time to mess with me because I'm one of his favorites.

So last week we were talking and I ended up telling him how he's made a big impact on my life. I really am totally different than who I was before I took his courses and have learned so much about sales. So I was thanking him and just telling him that he really has impacted me and Im sure other students as well. And he was saying thank you and talking about how end of the semester student evaluations are tough when he gets bad ones. He was saying one said, “doesn't know how to respect women..” and he was like, “that one got to me for a long time. Because you just think to yourself what could I have possibly done to make someone feel like that?!” and I was like omg that is so untrue though blah blah blah But anyway I just wanted to tell him because (((( I just feel like its important to tell people things like that while you can. People should know the impact they have on your life)))))) So, when I went home, he sent me this.

“Ms. Hughes,

I just wanted to say thank you for making my day. Telling me that I am making an impact in student's lives meant a lot to me. None of us are exempt from the uneasiness of wondering if we are on the right path. Thank you for giving me a little bit of affirmation, that I am at the very least, close to the path meant for me. You have been such a wonderful student, and have taught me a great deal. Keep up the good work!

Take care and know that I am here if and when you need,

Reece P. Theriot”

And I responded with

“Mr. Theriot,

Aww that made me smile...thank you for sending that! I am very glad that you took it to heart because I'm sure that other students, whether from this semester or previous semesters, feel the same but just might not have verbalized it. I was going to make sure that I told you at the end of the semester but it came out today. But no worries, I'll be sure to put it in my student evaluation :)

Thanks for making an impact!

Hanna Hughes”

And lemme just say I was very cautious of sending that email back. I feel like its friendly and I didn't know if it was crossing the line because I put the smiley face---because it was kind of flirtatious---BUT THATS ALL PERCEPTION. If Jacey would have sent that no one would even think twice about it. But anyway I was nervous about it.

Fast forward a week to today. Today we had sales practice and I hadn't seen or talked to him since I sent him that email. I felt like he was being a little stand offish to me in the beginning (AND I WAS ALREADY PARANOID FROM THIS EMAIL I SENT) So then we are in the role play and he was just really hard on me. He hit me with a objection I’ve never had and didn't know how to handle. I was flustered and humiliated. So after, when he's giving me feedback he was like, “I feel like you need to be more formal with me...I feel like you talk more formally when you role play with Dr. Baker” and I was like “really?! I do NOT notice that I do that..” and they were critiquing me on being too informal like saying AWESOME.....is that a joke? Why am I being critiqued for saying awesome????? I just started getting really upset like I was about to cry. I couldn't stop tearing up, make eye contact, or speak because I was about to lose it. Later in the practice after I did ANOTHER role play and did GREAT I was like, “well I'm really glad that y'all liked that one because you made me cry earlier so I'm glad I ended on a good note.” And he was kind of shocked and was like, “I did?!” and was apologizing and stuff and he kept coming up to me after putting his hand on my shoulder and being like, “look I really didn't mean to upset you, Im so sorry.” and I was STILL about to cry (I hadn't let it all out yet) so I was just like its fine its fine and was trying to brush it off. When I tried to leave he stood in front of me and held out his hand and just kept trying to lighten the mood I guess but I think he knew that I was still upset and distant.

And then I left and CRIED AND CRIED. I cried like all afternoon I felt like lol ---there was just a lot of shitty things happening today”

THEN his class comes. And we had a speaker today and I wanted him to talk to me after class so I could tell him how I felt (because now I could actually talk about it since I cried it out) but I didn't think he would because we had a guest speaker that day. And I was honestly pissed off at him. He embarrassed me and made me feel like shit about myself.

SO after class when I was walking out he was like, “Ms. Hughes?” and I went up to him and he was like, “you still mad at me?”

Me: I wasn't mad at you....

and he said something like, “Well it really bothered me that I hurt your feelings this morning...like I thought about it all day long...”

Me: Me too..I’m just frustrated

Reece: about what?

Me: I feel like I shouldnt even tell you how I feel about it....

Reece: Well I mean I’m not ganna make you tell me but if you want to tell me then I would love to know how you feel about it. If you are worried about how IM gonna feel then don't. Because I wanna know

Me: Im honestly just annoyed because I feel like Im getting critiqued for saying words like awesome and in the real world that would be fine. Like Im sorry that Im not a robot but...

Reece: ...but you have a personality

Me: Yeah! And I feel like in the real world, thats what people like about me. and about anyone

Reece: I completely agree. You have a GREAT personality and Im not trying to train robots and hanna don't EVER lose your personality because in the real world thats whats gonna make you successful. Its just that for the sake of this competition, thats something that they look for but I completely agree with what your saying.

And then we continued talking about that for a while. And then I said something like

Me: And I think what mainly upset me was that you told me that I needed to be more formal around you and I feel like you made me think I crossed a boundary when I know that I didn't....

Reece: omg no that is not what I meant when I said that! You are one of the most professional students I’ve ever had and I think you always carry yourself professionally. I just meant I think you are more lax around me because you are comfortable around me

Me: I just feel like I treat you the same as I do every other teacher

and he just like smiled........

Me: I DO!

Reece: Okay! I wouldn't know because Im not around you with all your teachers. I just meant I know that we are close. I had you last semester and this semester and we went to Bayou together so we are obviously closer than other students so I just meant that you seemed more lax around me-that all I meant by that....

and then he said something like

Reece: I love that we are close. Like I am gonna be checking up on you for years to come...

And I know that I give you a hard time about things. But I do that for 2 reasons....1 because I know you can take it ...or I thought you could take it....*smiles*

me: thats mean!!!

Reece: Im just kidding. and 2. your fun to mess with. I always mess with my favorite students but it really did bother me when you were upset because remember how I told you that that girl said that I didn't know how to respect women? Well I never wanna make anyone feel like that and I definitely didn't wanna make you feel like that.

Me: No I wouldn't ever think that.

Reece: Well sometimes I don't realize how I come off...so thats why I wanna know when/if I hurt your feelings because if not then Im just walking around not even realizing....

And you know what? Every girl that I have ever coached I have made cry....

Me: really???

Reece: yeah and its just because I don't realize it.

and then he went into detail about those situations.

*****This guy Mike in our class is legit in Reeces office everyday about something lol---so he passes by and is like “Hey you wanna be in your office later?” and Reece is like “yeah ill be there” and we started laughing

Me: He is literally in your office every single day

Reece: Every. single. day. Im like his bro haha

Me: See..I feel like its a gender thing too....

Reece: what is?

Me: Like I couldn't be like him and be in your office every single day...

Reece: ...yeah because people would start to talk

Me: Exactly! So because Im a girl and you said that to me earlier I was like “crap he's making me feel like I did something wrong..” but If I was a guy then we wouldn't even be talking about this...

Reece: your absolutely right. Its sad but there is that double standard. Ive probably had 15 males students that Ive had close relationships with and I've maybe had 3 females that have been as close as me and you...

and then I forgot what happend but I ended up saying

Me: well I was probably just emotional today and was being a girl...lol

Reece: Well it doesn't matter.I hurt your feelings and your feelings are always valid so if I made you feel like that then I want to apologize.

Anyway we kind of went back and forth for a long time almost repeating a lot of what we had talked about and I was eventually like “okay well its fine. Now that I know that you didn't mean that, I'm good.” and I left

and then he emailed me and said

“Ms. Hughes,

I forgot to mention that I bought you a copy of Dale Carnegie's How to Win Friends and Influence People - last week. Remind me to give it to you...

best,

Reece P. Theriot”

How sweet. He was gonna let me borrow his book but I guess he bought me a copy.

***Cries****

Poor thing. I think he feels guilty and is probably scared I'm gonna get him in trouble or something.

Anyway, that was just a LITTLE of the convo but I described it as a hott mess and out of order but I obviously cant remember everything exactly because contrary to what this post may say....im not a pysco. lol

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