Flying Into St. Louis // Hayden Carruth
It is socked in. Can’t see a thing. Nor have I ever
seen it before except once, driving east,
when I passed through at night
over the great river
and saw lights and the tremulous arch like a phantasm
through my off window. I was fighting
sleep, alone and desperate, as Americans so often are.
Yet my grandfather lived here.
I never saw him either
and my mother saw him only once after
she was two years old, which was when
he and my grandmother divorced
in 1898 in New York City --
a rarity then.
Years later my mother said, “He was a
seedy businessman in St. Louis.” That’s all.
A manufacturer of brandied cherries or souvenir ash trays?
I don’t even know his name.
But seedy enough he was to beget my mother,
and thus one-quarter of my blood flowed from his veins,
one-quarter of my genes came from his testicles.
Is that where the madness came from then, the pain,
the desperation? For sixty-five years
I’ve blamed my mother and father,
I’ve climbed their trees and lopped off
their branches, I’ve held
their words in my mind like cudgels.
And it all may have been done
by the stranger from St. Louis
whose name I do not know.
I walked through the thronged corridor of the fog-bound terminal
alone and desperate
and boarded the plane to San Francisco.
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Cuisine - Brandied Cherry Clafouti Recipe
Clafouti is a traditional French dessert with brandied cherries baked with a custard topping creating a warm and sweet dessert that goes well with a cup of tea.
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Brandied Cherry Clafouti
Clafouti is a traditional French dessert with brandied cherries baked with a custard topping creating a warm and sweet dessert that goes well with a cup of tea.
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Hibiscus x 'Cherry Brandy' / 'Cherry Brandy' Hybrid Hardy Hibiscus at the Sarah P. Duke Gardens at Duke University in Durham, NC
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6 Bluey characters meme! The designs in this show are so cute. I hadn't drawn any of these characters before besides Busker.
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Ice cream vans here! what's everyone getting
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