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workinprogress14 · 5 months ago
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In 2023, I started seeing a therapist for the first time. It was all talk therapy, CBT kinda stuff. Did that for a year with relatively little improvement, but when she suggested I check into a mental hospital for evaluation, I switched to a new counselor.
So, 2024, I start seeing my new counselor. We did some EMDR work, but it did NOT go well. It brought up a level of anger in me that was scary and felt uncontrollable. Additionally I had a miscarriage, so there was that trauma to address too, and after a year going to her I just felt stuck.
So last week I tried out a new therapist, a guy this time. I just wanted a total change, really looking for the polar opposite of what I’d had before in a counselor. All of my long lasting or deep friendships tend to be with men, so a male therapist just kinda feels right for me, even though I’m working through miscarriages and sexual trauma. My new therapist’s specialty is brain-spotting. I just had my first session of it on Monday and wow. I SOBBED in this dude’s office, and I’ve never been able to cry with a therapist before. It’s really refreshing to feel optimistic about therapy. It’s good to feel like I’m finally making a little progress again
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kuntya · 13 days ago
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So, my executive dysfunction has recently, miraculously gotten a lot better.
And it's so funny, because my new normal is that my body just sometimes stands up and starts doing chores. I feel like I'm possessed.
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workscounselingcenter · 1 year ago
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Brainspotting
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In 2024, one thing we know for sure is that people are in need of effective trauma psychotherapy. One effective modality is known as Brainspotting. In this blog, I will briefly spend some time talking about what it is and how it is done.
What is Brainspotting? Brainspotting’s “catchphrase” is, “Where you look affects how you feel” (Grand, 2013). David Grand, PhD discovered Brainspotting in 2003 while conducting EMDR on a client of his. While moving his fingers back and forth in front of the client’s eyes (known in EMDR as bilateral stimulation), he noticed that this particular client’s eyes wobbled at one particular position on the x-axis of her visual field. Dr. Grand held his hand at that spot. Recalling this instance in his book on Brainspotting, Grand (2013) wrote, “For the next ten minutes, Karen’s eyes remained locked on my unmoving fingers. She watched and reported on a flood of images that seemed to come out of nowhere” (p. 13). He went on to describe how memories came through and were quickly processed. What was most striking to him is how deep the processing went. He wrote, “But what grabbed my attention most were the memories of Karen’s traumas, which I thought had fully resolved. Now they reopened and somehow processed through to a deeper resolution” (Grand 2003, p. 13). Grand went on to develop what he discovered into more of a formal modality, known as Brainspotting.
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What is it helpful for? Brainspotting has been successfully used to process trauma, process current stressors, alleviate performance anxiety, alleviate depressive symptoms, and more.
After 20 years of existence, what does a Brainspotting session look like? That’s a great question! There are multiple approaches to Brainspotting (Gazespotting, Rolling Brainspotting, Inside Window, Outside Window, etc.), but the one I have used most often is known as Inside Window Brainspotting. Inside Window Brainspotting is very client-led typically consists of the following:The therapist and client identify the current issue, whether it is a past trauma or an ongoing current stressor.The therapist and client review this stressor. While discussing it verbally, special attention is drawn to somatic sensations and how disturbing this memory or issue feels in the present.The therapist then utilizes a pointer to help the client identify a spot on the x axis of their visual field most strongly connected to the somatic symptoms and psychological disturbance.While holding the x-axis spot, the therapist and client determine if there are any changes if the y-axis is engaged (if the spot is shifted upwards or downwards). ○ Once the spot is determined, the therapist invites the client to focus on the spot, the issue at hand, the psychological disturbance, and what they feel in their body. ○ One of the main differences between Brainspotting and other forms of psychotherapy is that the therapist typically talks very little during this part of the process. This is because Brainspotting is a deep-brain process. If the therapist engages the client too much verbally, it risks pulling them out of processing. ○ This process is conducted, with the client focused on the Brainspot and processing, until the issue is fully processed (its disturbance reaching a 0 or as close to a 0 as possible).Sometimes, this takes multiple sessions. Other times, it happens in a single session.This is a very, very brief rundown of what Inside Window Brainspotting looks like!
I am currently trained in Brainspotting Phases 1, 2, and 4, and am attending Phase 3 (taught by David Grand) in March. My Brainspotting Phase 4 training was also taught by David Grand in December of 2023. Phase 3 focuses on utilizing Brainspotting for performance anxiety with athletes, singers, etc., and I greatly look forward to bringing what I’ve learned to my clients. Dr. Grand is a very kind, humble, and brilliant man. It’s an honor to learn from him.
For research articles about Brainspotting, please visit here.
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keepingthehopealive · 2 years ago
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Long post about therapy and brainspotting and my session today.
My therapist and I tried brainspotting today in our session for the first time.
Brainspotting is a somatic based therapy approach. It's kind of similar to EMDR, I think it was maybe even by the same person who came up with EMDR, but it's not specifically for trauma necessarily. My therapist described it as a "top down approach" where it allows your brain to heal itself. It's a little hard to describe but you look at a pointer at different spots in space while focusing on a feeling, thought, emotion, sensation, memory etc. You can do it to find a spot in space where it's more or less intense depending on what approach you're taking in the session. Then you just look at that spot and notice what's happening. You don't have to talk but can obviously process what's happening in the moment and the therapist can ask questions or guide it or just let it be. Im not sure if background sounds or quiet music is always a part of it, but I wore headphones today and listened to some calming stuff while we did it.
My therapist and I are integrating it into our therapy to see if it helps with some of my shame based blocks, barriers and struggles with verbalizing and talking about things and probably more too if it continues to evolves (like processing memories or emotions and stuff).
Today we focused on physical tension and anxiety in my body in the moment. I only did it for about 5 minutes because it was a lot. Mainly having to look in her general direction (my "spot" was to the side of her but still closer than I'm comfortable with as I usually keep my head down and color) was exhausting and very anxiety provoking. She was so compassionate about it and actually said I did it longer than she thought I would be able to. She understands me well and she knew it would be a lot so she checked in with me after a few minutes of it and I was able to communicate I wanted to stop. Plus, even though we planned to do it, we ended up talking for a bit before I finally asked if we could try it. She probably thought i didn't want to do it but I was just too anxious to start it. I'm happy I didn't chicken out when she went to hand me the headphones because I wasn't expecting that.
It led to a really interesting conversation about my anxiety, in particular my more physical based anxiety and tension in my body. She reflected that I have a strong mind-body connection and when I responded just saying "unfortunately", she said the goal can be to try to make that a positive thing instead of something that harms me so much.
Our plan going forward is to start sessions (maybe not all of them) with it and just do short sessions of it to increase my window of tolerance with the anxiety I feel. I think if I can work on tolerating the anxiety in the moment and using brainspotting for that, I can eventually use it in other ways to help in my therapy and with some of the things I want help with and have struggled with and been stuck with in therapy in specific for so long. I'm also a little afraid to have any hope or expectation for it. I appreciate the most that she isn't presenting it as a quick fix or cure all and has already said if it doesn't work for me that's OK too.
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tillingthematter · 5 months ago
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The film Little (2019), starring Issa Rae, Regina Hall, and Marsai Martin, presents a unique opportunity to explore the therapeutic technique of Brainspotting through the lens of childhood development and unresolved emotional experiences. The film follows Jordan Sanders (played by Regina Hall), a successful but ruthless tech mogul who, after a run-in with a young girl, is magically transformed back into her 13-year-old self (played by Marsai Martin). With the help of her assistant April (Issa Rae), Jordan must navigate childhood once again, confronting the very experiences that shaped her hardened adult persona.
Brainspotting & Revisiting Childhood Emotional Wounds
Brainspotting is a powerful therapeutic technique that allows individuals to access and process unresolved trauma by focusing on specific eye positions that correlate with stored emotional and somatic experiences. In the context of *Little*, Jordan's sudden transformation back into her childhood self can be seen as a metaphor for how Brainspotting enables clients to "relive" or re-experience emotionally charged moments from their past. Just as Jordan is forced to revisit the fears, insecurities, and social struggles she faced in middle school, clients in Brainspotting therapy may access implicit memories tied to moments of emotional distress or wounding.
Big Feelings from Childhood Showing Up in Adulthood
Jordan’s character embodies how unprocessed childhood emotions—such as feelings of rejection, fear of vulnerability, and the need to overcompensate with power and control—continue to manifest in adulthood. In Brainspotting, clients often uncover similar patterns: the fears and defenses they developed as children to protect themselves can still dictate their relationships, decision-making, and emotional regulation as adults. By identifying and processing these stuck emotional experiences, clients can break free from maladaptive patterns and cultivate a more integrated sense of self.
The Therapeutic Power of Reliving and Integrating
As Jordan relives her adolescence, she is given an opportunity to process her experiences differently. She is no longer just the scared, bullied child; instead, she has the wisdom of her adult self to guide her through healing. Similarly, Brainspotting allows clients to process past emotional wounds from a place of safety, offering them the chance to reframe and integrate these experiences rather than remain trapped in old survival responses.
Ultimately, Little serves as a playful yet profound representation of how revisiting formative emotional experiences can lead to healing and transformation. Through a Brainspotting lens, Jordan’s journey illustrates how accessing and processing unresolved emotional wounds can allow clients to move beyond their defenses, soften their rigid patterns, and embrace more authentic and connected ways of being.
Author: Dawn-Marie
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faerasphere · 1 year ago
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Brainspotting works for me!
So after a few years of talk therapy, I was referred to a brainspotting counselor. Now I'm about to enter the 7th month of online brainspotting therapy (1-2 times per month). I know, that sounds long, also, online? But trust me, that works really well. I feel significant improvement about my CPTSD. Each of the session feels cathartic... Cried so much, offloading my repressed emption, and doing part works. Phew. Indeed, sometimes my trauma flashbacks exploded. But I survived nevertheless.
The significant improvent that I feel currently is my fear and shame kinda melt away... Since back then I was really reluctant to open up about myself. But after several session, I become interested to join a support group (that I was loathed so much). Then I tried to reconnect with highschool friend (that was really triggering just because they remind me of my bad childhood), then joining several office after work activities (that I was adamantly avoid because I resented their "better" life). Yeah, I was pretty immature back then. But turns out, connecting with (the right) people in the support group and some mature friends and colleauges helps me to believe in myself. Because I get the attunement that I need, to feel understood, and validated. This helps me to express myself better without much fear of judgement. Recreating tumblr is also one of the result 🤪 haha. Telling my story feels relieving, you know?
But back then, the idea of telling my story really frightens me. I was very afraid that people will be turned off with my stories of difficult childhood and abusive parents. Because that's quite a sensitive topic... But then when some people, in the support group and people around me, said that they are understand, I feel so relieved. Whoa. Validated. I am glad to be able to tell my stories! I realized that turns out being authentic is not only about showing our skills and ability, but also include telling our story.
I also become less perfectionistic and start to embrace myself more, including accepting my chronic illness, narcolepsy. Also most importantly, I start to disattach myself from the shame-based productivity. I start to release the guilt of being "not good enough". Now, I feel more at ease... Even though if there is a work deadline. Haha. Sometimes I wonder... Is this feeling of ease is what people feel when they have a good enough childhood? This is so... Nice. (still, a bit sad that I just feel it now, but also grateful that I have the chance to experience ease 😇)
So, my mental health improves. But that either resulted from brainspotting or because I also take my narcolepsy medication. Because having a good night sleep really helps to improve our mental health! But wait, I indeed had taken medication before taking brainspotting therapy. That time, I'm still very closed off. So, I guess my improvement comes from both. Well, what matter is it works. Hopefully this condition can sustain in a long term 🍃
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lifestyle-healths-blog · 1 year ago
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kuntya · 24 days ago
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Update: Brainspotting is real.
I have no idea why or how, but today, I got my first ever glimpse of life without executive dysfunction.
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zeroar · 2 years ago
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So brainspotting is pretty flipping rough – Session 01
First session today. Afterwards, I felt like how they describe the marathon that is a karuta tournament in Chihayafuru. Need to plan to bring sugar or chocolate from now on for aftercare recovery. It was very similar to how the aftermath of a meltdown feels sometimes for me (I'm also autistic).
If you don't know what it is, brainspotting is a PTSD treatment that apparently developed from EMDR—Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing—that was described to me as a less-intense process than that. The tentative plan is to start with this and eventually move to full EMDR if needed.
It doesn't have the literature behind it yet that EMDR has, but I can verify that, anecdotally, it definitely does something. Can't say what that something is just yet and the overanalyzing, hypervigilant, raised on "mind over matter"–Me feels somewhat miffed that it is addressing the physiology of my trauma instead of just "figuring out the answer" ... though I suppose if an answer could have been figured out by now...
It was also slow and had a painful (for me) lack of stimulation ... presumably by design.
Anyway, I don't want to get hopeful, and I'm also scared that addressing my trauma this way (if it works) will set me up for more trauma ... though it's not like my current state of constant danger / runaway autonomic response is doing me much good, if any.
Oh, since this is my first post on the topic, I'll describe what my treatment was like from my POV and understanding. The basic idea seems to be that when recalling memories there is a connection between specific "spots" our eyes move to and spots in our brain. So the process starts with recalling trauma/uncomfortable memories, focus in on the tension and feeling in the body as a gauge, and then follow a pointer with my eyes, using the feeling in the body to find a location where the tension is strongest. Some purportedly calming meditative music track starts playing while staring at the spot/point where the tension is.
I was advised to let my mind wander while staring, but I don't know if the idea is to disassociate that "brain spot" from the trauma by having wandering thoughts or if it was some allistic (non-autistic) idea of "wandering" and it didn't matter what I thought of while staring or what. I had a very difficult time maintaining my sight on the spot, partially due to having a lazy eye and also because my thoughts were "wandering" to the memory of trauma. I kept having to close my eyes and refocus on the point and every time was like pushing into the tension. I stared at the spot for ten minutes in silence (well, music was playing), then my therapist moved the pointer to a different spot and I stared there for some additional amount of time.
The amount of relief I felt, both mentally and physically, from staring at a different spot was unexpected. It was so distinct from being in the tension spot. That was when I was like, oh, this is definitely something.
Then I went back to staring at the tension spot. I think for another ten minutes. Then coming out of that spot, finally, following the pointer down and closing my eyes and having my eyes closed while focusing on breathing for a few minutes. I thought I was going to fall straight asleep at that point and I honestly might have dozed off briefly.
Afterwards, I was unsteady, mentally exhausted, and physically drained. I probably shouldn't have driven as quickly as I did and in hindsight I feel like I should have done some sort of physical activity to reconnect my brain with my body (such as a walk around the block or something).
It seems like the idea is the brain silos those memories with those spots, but again, I dont know if the idea is to reinforce the silo or to break down the wall of it. I anticipate the ideal solution is probably different for different people and maybe even for different memories of trauma for the same person. There's so much people just don't know about the brain.
My layperson intuition is it seems like the idea is to trigger the trauma physiologically, then mentally go elsewhere while maintaining the physical connection to the trauma. From this, it seems like EMDR would be the reverse? I.e., mentally trigger the trauma while physically going elsewhere (at least via vision).
I need to clarify what having my thoughts wander means next time. Although, it's possible that the right answer isn't known because it's too nebulous/vague at this point in the research.
I know everytime I closed my eyes to refocus on that spot it brought me back though. If you want my mind to wander I need to look around. We weren't even doing any of what I consider my more major traumatic events, today.
My thoughts just kept going back to things like my childhood pair(?) of footie pajamas that child-Me could wear to be covered from neck to toe. I wondered why child-Me kept so still and quiet, being afraid to breathe while lying there. Remembered being scolded for having my eyes open and not going to sleep.
... it was a lot.
I've mostly been in bed since getting home. I'm still pretty drained. If it was colder I'd be under my weighted blanket. My therapist advised that I'd be drained and said to not feel like I have to push through it. But it was just staring and thinking.
I will add that it didn't feel like ruminating because I couldn't escape inside my head. It had a bit of that circularity or being penned in like ruminating sometimes feels like, but having to stare at the same point was like poking at a wound more than racing in a panic or working myself up.
So yeah, thanks for reading. I'll keep writing as I go but I think that's good for today. It's just the first week for me here.
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naturalhealtheducation · 2 years ago
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EMDR and Brainspotting are innovative methods used in mental health therapy. #EMDR was originally developed for use with #PTSD but has since been expanded for use with a wider range of traumatic issues. #Brainspotting is a more recent extension of EMDR techniques. In this article, we'll explore what these two approaches are, how they work, and their possible benefits.
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rethinktherapy · 3 months ago
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The Game Changing Benefits of Brainspotting Therapy
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In recent years, innovative methods in mental health treatment have gained traction, offering hope for those who haven't found relief through traditional approaches. 
One such breakthrough is brainspotting therapy—a powerful, focused technique that’s rapidly becoming a game changer in the world of trauma recovery and emotional healing.
What Is Brainspotting Therapy?
Developed by Dr. David Grand in 2003, brainspotting therapy is based on the idea that where you look affects how you feel. It involves identifying specific eye positions—or "brainspots"—that correlate with unprocessed trauma or emotional distress stored in the brain and body. 
When these brainspots are activated during a session, it allows clients to access, process, and ultimately release deep-seated emotional pain.
Unlike traditional talk therapy, brainspotting doesn’t rely on verbal processing. Instead, it taps into the brain’s innate self-healing ability, often working on a subconscious level. For many, this means fewer words and more transformational breakthroughs.
The Science Behind the Technique
Brainspotting works by targeting the subcortical brain—the part responsible for emotions, trauma responses, and memory. By holding the gaze on a particular spot and allowing the brain to "stay with it," the therapy engages the body’s natural healing process. 
It often brings relief to symptoms of anxiety, PTSD, depression, and chronic pain in ways that feel faster and more effective than other therapeutic methods.
Studies and anecdotal evidence show that brainspotting therapy can regulate the nervous system, reduce emotional reactivity, and enhance self-awareness, making it a uniquely effective tool for trauma-informed care.
Who Can Benefit from Brainspotting Therapy?
One of the game-changing aspects of brainspotting therapy is its wide applicability. It can be incredibly beneficial for individuals dealing with:
Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD)
Anxiety and panic attacks
Depression and mood disorders
Performance anxiety (in athletes, artists, and executives)
Chronic pain and physical trauma
Attachment wounds and childhood trauma
It’s also being used in creative fields to help break through blocks and unlock deeper levels of artistic or professional potential.
What to Expect During a Session
A brainspotting therapy session typically begins with the therapist helping the client locate a specific issue or feeling they want to address. Using a pointer or guiding the eyes naturally, the therapist finds the eye position that activates the emotional charge related to that issue. 
Clients may listen to bilateral sound (gentle tones alternating between ears) to enhance the brain’s processing capabilities.
The experience is often deeply introspective. Some clients report vivid memories, emotional releases, or physical sensations. Others may feel a sense of stillness or clarity. The beauty of brainspotting is that it allows the brain and body to do the heavy lifting—without needing to relive the trauma in words.
Why It's a Game Changer
In a mental health landscape dominated by cognitive approaches, brainspotting therapy offers a body-based, neurologically grounded alternative. Its ability to reach areas of the brain that talk therapy can’t makes it uniquely effective for healing trauma at its core.
Moreover, brainspotting is not only transformative but also empowering. Clients often report feeling more connected to their emotions, more in control of their healing, and more attuned to their inner world. For many, this modality is the missing piece in their therapeutic journey.
Conclusion
The availability of brainspotting therapy in USA has grown substantially, with more licensed therapists receiving specialized training in this method each year. 
From major cities to smaller communities, individuals are discovering how this innovative therapy can address deep emotional wounds and create meaningful, lasting change. 
Whether you're seeking trauma recovery, stress relief, or enhanced mental clarity, there are now countless qualified professionals offering brainspotting therapy across the country.
If you’ve been searching for a therapeutic approach that goes deeper than words, brainspotting therapy may be the breakthrough you’ve been waiting for. With its gentle yet powerful technique, it’s changing lives—and the way we think about mental health treatment.
As more therapists become trained in brainspotting and research continues to highlight its effectiveness, this therapy is poised to become a cornerstone of trauma recovery and personal growth in the years ahead.
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connectclinicalservices · 4 months ago
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Brainspotting Therapy in Houston: A Path to Healing
Connect Clinical Services offers specialized Brainspotting Therapy in Houston, providing a transformative approach for individuals seeking healing from trauma, anxiety, depression, and other emotional challenges. Brainspotting is a powerful therapeutic technique that helps clients access deep emotional experiences stored in the brain, enabling them to process and resolve trauma more effectively.
Our trained and compassionate therapists use this method to help you identify and release emotional blockages, facilitating emotional healing and personal growth. Whether you are struggling with past trauma, stress, or other mental health concerns, Brainspotting Therapy offers a unique and effective path to recovery.
At Connect Clinical Services, we are committed to supporting you on your journey to emotional well-being in a safe and welcoming environment. Our team works with individuals to tailor sessions that meet their unique needs, ensuring the best therapeutic outcomes. If you're looking for Brainspotting Therapy in Houston, we are here to help. For more information, please contact us at ‪(713) 564-5146 or email us at [email protected].
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radicaljade · 5 months ago
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Shopping
I’m in the car with my mom, on our way to Kohl’s. I don’t remember why we’re going there, but we’re on the way. It’s only a 10 minute drive from the house, and I’m in the passenger seat listening to my mom gossip about whatever coworker she didn’t like that week. I hate being in the car with her. She constantly would have a window rolled down, but only slightly, so she could flick the ashes from her cigarette out as she drove. It didn’t matter if you didn’t like the smell, or the debris of ashes coming back at you, it was her car, and she drove the way she wanted to. You weren’t allowed to talk, roll down windows, adjust your seat, anything really. It was all determined by her temperature. 
So I sit in the passenger seat, smelling like cigarettes, staring out the window at the rolling landscape before me. So many vast farms, all growing wheat. I notice that one of the farms has a massive pile of mixed wood, while another farm has a fresh vegetable sign, with the honor code in full play. I find myself daydreaming about meeting the family with the massive pile of wood, and going to their bonfire while drinking an apple cider. 
A subdivision passes by, and my mom flicks her cigarette out the window. I see a lawn full of lawnmowers, and my mom makes a bitter comment about how that old man took her lawnmower to fix it, and then never gave it back. I think about how he’s in his 70s, and probably said yes but is slowing down. Maybe he went to the hospital, or something else was going on, which prevented him from fixing hers in particular. I don’t dare to say any of this outloud. 
We keep driving, and we drive past a massive resort, which I’ve never been inside of, and neither has anyone else in my family, as far as I know. It’s an unspoken rule in our house that we don’t venture into places like that. Despite that, I always find myself trying to steal moments from the resort, as it passes by in the car window. I think about how they probably have a grand piano in there, and you can see the lake from right across the restaurant. I think about how good the food probably tastes there, and how it would be so fun to just splurge once and go there. To dress up, and pretend to be someone else for a night. 
We make it to Kohl’s, and my mom parks right at the front of the lot. Almost no one else is there, save for a few older women who are presumably using up some Kohl’s Cash. I don’t want to go into the store. I want to just sit in the car, and keep staring at everything around me. My mom asks if I’m coming or not. My body reacts by getting out of the car, and following her into the store. I never liked the way this store was. The lighting sucks, and everything is so expensive, and I don’t like the style of anything. Despite this, my mom always takes me school shopping here. Luckily, this isn’t one of those days. 
My mom runs over to the customer service counter, and I decided to take a look around. Although none of the clothing are particularly me, I still look around and see if maybe something will be. 
I spot a dress. It’s black, floral, and somewhat shorter than anything I’ve ever worn. I’ve never actually worn a dress like it. I look at it for a short time, and continue on. It’s just a dress, and we aren’t here to buy anything. I keep walking around, but I find myself going back to that dress again. I wanted it. But asking for something was not allowed in our house. 
Especially asking mom for something. 
My mom catches up to me, and we go back out to the car, as she was finished making her return, which was outside the return period by 30 days. She lets me know of her triumph as we walk. We get in our respective seats, and she doesn’t start the car, instead, she turns toward me. 
She’s never just talked directly to me, unless I was in trouble or something was wrong. 
I avoid her gaze, and focus on the horizon stretched over the dash as she starts talking. 
“I saw you looking at that dress in there.”
“Oh, yeah.”
“You can’t wear dresses like that. Not with how fat you are.”
I nod.
“If you want to wear beautiful dresses like that, you need to lose weight.”
I keep nodding.
“Fat people can’t wear dresses. They just look disgusting in them. Dresses aren’t meant for them. I mean, let’s be honest, no one wants to see that in a dress. We shouldn’t have to see it, especially in public.”
My neck continues to move in response to her.
We drove home.
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rethinktherapy123 · 5 months ago
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The Benefits of Working with a Certified Brainspotting Therapist in Dallas, USA One innovative approach gaining recognition is Brainspotting Therapy—a powerful treatment designed to help individuals process trauma, anxiety, and other emotional blockages. To ensure the most effective care, it’s essential to seek a Certified Brainspotting Therapist in usa.
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