#boys who want their abusers back

[oblitus-vulpes]

haha. (<- misses her again.)

[homielander]

You called me "Squirt," silly. Remember why? [No.] Oh, Marty— okay. But you do remember, though, that I used to be left in there for hours, days on end. Completely alone, right? Only — I was never really alone, was I? Big Brother was always watching. You were always watching, weren't you, Marty? Huh? But... growing boys have certain... needs, shall we say.

THE BOYS 4.04 | Wisdom of the Ages

[zappedbyzabka]

Sacrificial lamb and all that

[nexus-nebulae]

me as a kid: i have all these problems

every adult around me: you're not old enough to know what's wrong with you, you're fine

me as an adult: i still have all these problems

my doctors after i finally got the opportunity to choose them myself: oh my fucking god why have you never gotten help for all these problems. you should have seen me 10 years ago

[bellaaldamas]

@stupidrant this is the official, SMS approved (hopefully) gif everyone should use whenever they encounter a fandom troll.

[egberts]

girls wake up there's a new worm bike playlist in progress

alana said the new one is way more funky, I've noticed a lot of punk bands are piggy dippin in a funk/punk sound more than a pop/punk sound and honestly? I'm so obsessed.

[57sfinest]

actually i do want to make this a post. it’s so interesting to think about harry from other people’s perspectives, especially if they’re people who were around him before martinaise. because the thing about harry is: he’s a spectacle. there is not a single person left to him who genuinely *cares*. but there are people who take an interest for interest’s sake. harry is the car crash that people can’t look away from, and it’s such a rich lens to view him through.

let’s exclude jean, judit and trant because there’s already enough you can say about them as the sole remaining members of the major crimes unit. think of the other officers who worked at the 41st. whether they worked in c-wing with him or not, they were exposed to him. they had to be around him in some capacity. as a lieutenant, he was “responsible” (i use that term loosely) for overseeing a number of subordinates under the rank system. 

like put yourself in the shoes of a patrol officer at the 41st. you know harry as, in a word, unstable. a deeply unreliable man of extremes with alarmingly few personal attachments to keep him in check. he’s also practically untouchable as long as he keeps getting results, which he does, at a cost. so there’s never any point in formally complaining about him- he’s never going to be corrected or fired, so you just do one of the following: 1) keep your mouth shut (if you’re polite or playing it safe), 2) only bitch about him out of earshot (if you’ve got something to say but you’re nonconfrontational), 3) start shit with him but in a “playful” way that is secretly sincere (if you’re ballsy/have known him long enough), 4) or start shit with him for real (if you’re jean, or have a death wish). 

and the thing about the last two of those options- *especially the 3rd, which seems to be the favorite of his fellow C-wingers*- you have to know him VERY WELL to pull it off without ostensibly getting your nose broken (or worse). you have to know his moods and his triggers and what exact cocktail of bullshit he’s displaying that day so you know where the line is for this particular shift. whoever figures it out first passes it along to everyone else- hey, you can fuck with him about dating today, but don’t bring up the drinking or last week’s case or he’ll go ballistic. and it’s just like... he’s a specimen. you may not know him on a personal heart-to-heart level, but you know him the way a zookeeper knows their tigers, or the way the falconer knows their hawk. you know when to feed and when to back away with your arms up. it doesn’t make things better, but it stops them getting worse. (for you, anyway).

then martinaise happens and if he comes back- his instability is still there, but it’s not the same. you don’t recognize the way he’s acting. maybe some things are not as bad as before, but all of it is different and it’s impossible to get a read on it. you have no idea how to approach him now, or if you should approach him at all. there’s a new layer to his unreliability and it’s somehow even scarier than before. there’s a tiny tiny calm in his storm, finally, and you don’t know when it’s going to break or what’s going to break it. you hear he’s finally actually kicking the booze and maybe you just scoff and move on, or maybe you let yourself root for him. really it all depends on how long you’ve known him, how many times you’ve seen him *try*. how sympathetic you are to his conditions and how patient of a person you are. how many times he’s hurt you (because that number is rarely going to be zero). no matter what, you’re going to be left wondering. you don’t know how much of him is gone. you don’t know how much is going to come back. you’re not sure how much of each you *want*.

[fantasticgothicpeachsludge]

Once upon a time was addicting but god are there some things I hated even as a kid… like Peter Pan not being a real boy but in fact an old abusive man

[famewolf]

2019 was one of the hardest years of my life but woah I'm just remembering that I had a therapist who was insistent that I didn't transition and that I follow a one year program of proving to her that I was trans.

that wasn't even why I was going to see her in the first place, but the moment she found out she wanted me to stop hrt immediately so she could 'properly' diagnose me with gender dysphoria. she went on this long rant about how back in her day people had to spend years talking to doctors before they were allowed to transition and she has trans clients from the 80s and 90s who were made to prove to her that they were trans for a whole year before she would prescribe them anything.

[andromedasummer]

sudden flashbacks to childhood as i remember the first book series i ever loved, Roman Mysteries. which in retrospect. has a lot. a lot. a LOT of issues

[featherymainffins]

Sometimes I think I must be a weird author because everyone keeps making "haha writing the middle part of the story is so hard haha the start and the ending are so easy baba" jokes but I never know how a story will end.

I start and then I write the middle, and then a logical conclusion happens.

[finexbright]

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[loubaby52]

I find it interesting that we can see Kendall go through his crazy highs and extreme lows this season without it being spelled out for us like it was in S3. Like Living+ Kendall was obviously high off of his own grandiose but now we can see he’s coming down without his comedown being the main focus. He was honest with Shiv about wanting to be the singular head that wears the crown because he was starting to see the downside of that position especially in relation to Sophie, but further, he also had a moment of realizing that perhaps the poison that Logan injected in him is not positive and that passing the poison along to his kids is not the father or the person he wants to be. We all know that most of Kendall’s morality shifted to either be in line with, or against his father, and now he’s reacting the same to Shiv. He wants to make the world a better place for Sophie but Shiv screwed him over so he is endorsing Menken in reaction to that. Which is so similar to him following Logan around like a puppy until he screwed him over leading to Kendall denouncing his father as someone who endorsed sexual assault. Kendall’s entire existence (when he is not manic on his own self importance) is reacting to people who he thought would help him. It really solidifies that despite Kendall not being the main focus of this season, he is the main character and his arc is the most important.

[the-incorrect-quotes-show]

Lunar: Hey Sun, I'm going to Taco Bell. You want anything?

Sun: My mental health back

Lunar:

Lunar: I have twelve dollars

[vaugarde]

have no real desire to replay star allies’s main story mode but i do wanna rewatch some cutscenes to refresh myself on the mage sisters dynamic and hyness bc ive been thinking about my “magolor was also raised by hyness alongside the mage sisters” hc/au

[screamingay]

ok so is there actually a crazy sjw mra misandrist truther cult or have i just been seeing a lot of questionable strawman arguments on here lately abt feminism and how we need to remember Real Feminism because we're "reinventing the patriarchy" by like.. idk being nicer to people??

gender roles are like the oldest and most complex and nuanced topic in existence especially since the internet began and it feels to me like everyones opinions are wildly swinging from one extreme to another rn and while it's nice to discuss and exchange ideas and all that... at the end of the day it's still just about how u treat the people around u.

do u drive away anyone with any connection to masculinity? do u intentionally exclude them from public events and spaces? do u see trans women as a different species? do u see gnc and/or trans men as threats to the community? like, even subconsciously??

ive been trying to think on this for a few days and this still isnt exactly what im trying to say but every post i see isn't saying what im thinking so here we are