#boy is really going thru it

[my-rose-tinted-glasses]

[transyourjester]

fantasy life for the 3DS is a game about gender roles, tense and complicated parental relationships, mourning, and being squirrels in god's attic

[magick-missile]

[elloras]

[b4kuch1n]

sunstroll

[dandeyrain]

i've been rotating the "this doesn't make any sense!" response to boy and the heron in my head and i wonder how much of it comes down to like...the kind of audience that engages with ghibli movies vs the kind of audience that mostly only engages with weird art movies vs the kind of audience that only really engages with blockbusters and marvel movies, and the overlap of those groups in the theater.

because, like, the boy and the heron is far and away more straightforward, from a plot perspective, than a lot of other Weird Extremely Personal Art Movies i've seen and love, but it IS a Weird Extremely Personal Art Movie even so. usually the only people seeing Weird Extremely Personal Art Movies, especially in theaters, are people who like that and expect that and have seen those types of films before and are therefore capable of engaging with them even when things aren't as clear as they'd be in an average blockbuster flick. like, nobody who only cares about Cinema to the extent of marvel movies and MAYBE john wick is going to see beau is afraid, and if they did they wouldn't have the tools to engage with such a dream-logicy movie. it would just be a weird thing that doesnt make sense to them, at least until they worked their media engagement muscles with other weird films. there's a lot of self-selection to the kind of person who usually sees these kind of movies.

while boy and the heron is weirder and more complex than a lot of other ghibli movies, as far as weird art films go it is incredibly, INCREDIBLY straightfoward. every weird plot point is explained very clearly to the audience, very little is up for interpretation from a strictly "what was the plot" point of view. boy loses mother. father remarries and moves the family. boy struggles to contend with grief. boy is pulled into a magical world by an old man who wants to use him. time is weird and fucked up in the magical world, but the movie is going to go out of it's way to highlight who's who and make it clear how the time travel works and the characters' relations to one another. the boy refuses to take over the magical world because he wants to live in the real world with the real people he loves. boy leaves the magical world having learned an important lesson about moving on. but the boy and the heron trusts its audience, doesn't handhold, and expects the audience to engage seriously and with focus to its plot and characters and stories.

a lot of people never watch movies like that! a lot of people are used to uncomplicated superhero movies and romcoms and that's it. the difference is that those people were never going to see beau is afraid, so the discussion about that movie instead comes from people who have the tools to engage with it. but because of the aesthetic-ification of ghibli, a lot of people who don't Do art films but are really into the aesthetics of cute little guys and girls in pretty dresses went to this art film and were confused that it was weird and dream-like and dark and strange and requires more of its audience than just passively watching.

anyway there's nothing wrong with not having the muscles to engage with weird art films, though i do think everyone should challenge themselves with the kind of stuff they watch. there's nothing wrong with preferring simple straightforward uncomplicated plotlines. but it is really interesting seeing people talk about the movie like it's insanely weird and doesnt make any sense meanwhile me and the friends i've chatted with about who DO have experience with this kind of film all feel insane because the movie is SO clear and SO straightforward by the standards we're used to. its just a neat crossover re: the kinds of movie fans that exist

[koszmarnybudyn]

So anyone want a rant about my thoughts about the teens looking diffrent now than they did at the start? Well top bad you're getting one anyway. (Or good, depanding on your reaction)

Heads up this will probablly be incohereant. So i like to imagine Scary looking more and more like she did as terry now, like her hair grew out so she pushes her bangs out of her face more, wears more sporty clothes, and wears a ponytail more aften, her bangs used to be pink/red at the start but now she dyed them purple/a blueish color, she fights a bit more soccer like etc. She also has a scar on her wrist from that time it was cut off, and her hook earring is gone, replaced with one that belonged to terry jr or something.

Taylor dyed the tips of his hair blue, he looks more ninja like now since becoming a rougue, he has a diffrent sword, and a scar at his neck. His cane also has new stickers on it (one from each of the teens, a sdh sticker from norm, a garfield from link, a band one from scary, and maybe a death note musical one or something from hermie. His hair is also slightly longer so sometimes he puts it half up, and his porkpie hat is a diffrent one.

Normal constantly loses his clothes thrugh out the season, so they end up always being borrowed, never quite fitting right, right now i feel like he's wearing Henrys clothes, hes always wearing his own shoes tho, the one last thing keeping him himself, he still has that love/san dimas blue/teal but now there are more red (for anger) purple (for balance) and green (oak color) elements. His hair is longer than when he started, and he has eyebags now.

Link looks older, he doesn't look worried anymore, just..indiffrent, he isnt a boy anymore, hes a man, his shoulders are broader, his hair isnt as short or neat anymore, he has eyebags, he has scars (on both his legs from the soccer game, a larger one like a starburst on his back, and a nick on his eyebrow), hes always wearing his shin guards now, ready for battle, and i feel like he wears a backpack now (easier for battle than a gym bag) and a hoodie more aften (givving us grant vibes), hes gained muscle and he has a completly diffrent posture.

[twinknote]

auughhhhh i feel rly anxious and i need to get this somewhat out of my head. cw breast cancer screening

ok so i have an appt scheduled at planned parenthood tomorrow bc i found a lump under my armpit and there is history of breast cancer in both sides of my family. and first of all i need to call them tomorrow bc i forgot that when i scheduled the appt online it said they didn't accept my insurance even though i've literally been to planned parenthood before and my insurance website says they're covered? so i have to fucking call them and idek if i'm going to end up having the appt. which is stressful on its own

but also there is the factor of being TransgenderedTM and not really knowing if whatever doctor i might see will be trans-competent or if it will be a deadnaming + "girl power!!!" situation. plus just. yk. having anyone see and feel my fucking titties who i'm not fucking is like. strange and unnerving. and there is Also the factor of having sexual trauma so having anyone see and feel my fucking titties who i'm not fucking (and sometimes even who i Am fucking!!!!) is EXTRA strange and unnerving!!!! also idk if i would just be having some kind of exam or if i would be having a mammogram or if they even Have the ability to do a mammogram or if they would just be like Yup that's a lump [insert thumbs up emoji bc i'm typing this in an anxiety-fueled rage on my computer] have fun!

idk man i'm justreally really anxious abt this and it's making it worse not actually knowing if it's happening or not or if i'll have to make one billion calls around to find somewhere else to go or if i'll have to wait like 2 months to see someone back home in which case the cancer will have spread to my entire body and killed me and i also won't have insurance. basically i should just die anyway bc this all seems like way too much stress and way too complicated and maybe i should just not see a doctor about it and just simply keel over and die [insert another thumbs up emoji for good measure]

[boxwinebaddie]

hi uncle nina! it's my birthday today and u don't have but will u pretty plz consider reposting that part of ch6 of rm where raven in on the phone with kenny b4 his hate with jers? i thought it was super cute and i really wanted to read it :3

awwww, happy birthday, darling! i hope it's as lovely as you are!

and i--sigh.

okay.

i hate complicated feelings surrounding chapter six ( aka the introduction to the iconique ravesey hate that i deleted from stress ) because i actually did love it...i just rushed the hell out of it, didn't plan it out very well and it was a mess. it could have been a lot better.

part of why i deleted it was actually because of that ravenstan/kenny phonecall because i felt worried that i revealed too much about how not cool and actually boy-failure-y stan was too early and could have kept the suspense going longer but aaaaaa i just wanted y'all to see how CUTE he was, like??? and how nervous! AAAA!!!

buuut considering the cat has been out of the bag, or rather, the raven has flown the nest for some time now...and it's the beauteous day you were born...i will humbly present you with this b-day present in the form of my incompetent idiot girl ramblings/writings, though, i fear it is not at all as grand the gift of your life is.

so, without further ado darlings, here is the endearing, embarrassing phone call ( it was over discord actually ) that ravenstan had with kenny prior to showing up to blondie's for his little hate-date with jerseykyle. it's a mess and unedited, but regardless, please know that from whatever hurts or harms you, i hope you heal, please rem(ember) to smile, pendejos,

and to now, as always, angels:

please enjoy the very, very...

worst part of your day. ;)

-uncle nina <333

[moongothic]

Crocodile having such an explosive debut in his early 20s and such deep trust issues could also point to him having an even EARLIER start a la Shanks as an apprentice or something to an older pirate and their crew as a child/teenager — doubling down on the humiliation factor from facing off whitebeard as also a failure to “come of age�� and broader sense of betrayal in watching eager encouragement fickly turn to “what did you THINK would happen”s like the kid who gets egged on by their peers into doing something dangerous and then immediately abandoned when they hurt themselves

Can't say if he did have like an early start for sure, since we really don't know anything about Crocodile's early childhood

But simply considdering how Oda typically layers backstories, I absolutely agree, I do think it's more than likely he has somekind of pre-Whitebeard trauma, be it either unrelated childhood trauma or early-pirating-life trauma (or something else)

Like the way Oda structures backstories, although we always remember like The Big Life-Changing Tragedy that happens at the end of the flashback, more often than not the flashback already begins with something horrible to indicate the character's already had a rough life

Robin was already alone, abused and rejected by most of Ohara even before the Buster Call Incident (followed by a life of running in fear for decades)

Franky had already been abandoned by his family before he lost Tom and got ran over by a train

Law had already lost his entire family before Doffy killed Rosi

Etc etc. Like not all the flashbacks are entirely like this, especially the East Blue-saga ones, but the backstories have been growing in complexity and structure, adding layers to the tragedies (like 🧅 onions 🧅) as the story has gone on

And with Kuma, his backstory doesn't end at two layers of tragedy. Like there's the early childhood tragedy of slavery, then there's the tragedy of losing his loved one in the most cruel, inhumane way possible, and we know there's at least one more gut-punch of a tragedy coming in the next two chapters to finish it all off

So with Crocodile especially I feel like... Like yes, possibly getting betrayed once in his life and having his dreams crushed by Whitebeard could break the man's psyche. But considdering just how seemingly broken his psyche might be, I do absolutely believe there's more layers here. Like his trust must've been broken more than once for him to end up the way he has.

Which alone gives Crocodad a bit more plausibility in my mind, because being rejected by the person you loved and trusted the most would most certainly break your heart (even if it was understandable why). And that really would make for a fine Final Nail on the Coffin for Crocodile's ability to have faith in others

But to really get that broken trust to be an on-going theme in his life that just happens again and again.... yeah it needs to start earlier

Personally, I think some kind of early childhood trauma would make the most sense, at least to me, not just because it could help Crocodile get started "on the wrong foot", but also because Rough Childhoods is just. A General Theme in One Piece lmao. Of course, it wouldn't be The Key Life-Changing Tragedy (I think Dragon would be that), just a "bad start"

[usertoxicyaoi]

“Because Sung Ho was the only one sitting on his left side ...” HIS MAN 2 (2023). Jun Sung + Sung Ho in Episode 5.

[couthbbg]

gonna be so serious….. I’ll be an am34 fan for life let’s get that out of the way but if the leafs tr*de mitchy…….. I’ll be a fan of whatever team he ends up on and like leafs who?? never heard of em

[fisheito]

HolyAdhhrShert IT'S ACTUALLY OLIVINE??@!!,,,,?@,@?@@?@,??

I ffidid not expect that either what is going on over at nuca HEAdquartees

[fluffs-n-stuffs]

EVEN MORE Pokemon Horizons Episode 25 spoilers under the cut! (I know these warnings may be redundant but I wanna be courteous to those who haven't gotten to watch it yet - I'd love to preserve the experience of a series as much as possible as someone who usually steers clear of spoilers myself hehe ✨)

Ceruledge Zirc & Onia 🤝 being worried for their angsty teen boss

[hirokiyuu]

i've been playing limbus corp a lot and like........ the amnt of diseases the girls have so far is unparalleled. every time don quixote opens her mouth and starts talking i am like. obsessed.

[caitlynmeow]

OMG, yes !!! More pregnant Cass and her family please.

lol yessss! okay here are some random tidbits because why not :D

(tw: vomit / needles)

Cass is always almost too oblivious when she gets pregnant. The first time it happened neither she nor her wife thought much of it. There were almost no symptoms (she thought it would be very obvious) but she was getting tired a lot and spending a lot of time sleeping which worried her wife greatly because something wasn't right.

A simple blood test revealed the culprit and indeed, she wasn't sick with anything major just a tiny embryo growing inside of her.

She thought nothing of it, realizing that it was not so bad. Cassandra has nothing to do and being housebound and getting a lot of sleep doesn't disrupt any of her non-existent responsibilities.

There were some very unpleasant things that Cass never got used to, or grew more tolerant of: the near-constant vomiting and the blood tests at every appointment.

She has a slight emetophobia and having to go through this was an absolute nightmare. She was prescribed pills that would prevent vomiting but did nothing for the nausea so it was just bad all over.

She lost a lot of weight at first because she was feeling awful and her appetite was almost non-existent, but by the end of the second-trimester things calmed down and that's when she was able to eat normally at last.

Now, all of Alcina's daughters hate needles and Cass is no exception (she has the worst aversion out of the three). It was actually more manageable in the past because getting poked was something that only happened once or twice a year so she could prepare and be safe for a long while. Getting blood tests every month has actually made things worse because she felt so out of control and it kept escalating from there.

She did go through a nesting stage. Lots of pillows and blankets for no reason but it gave her comfort.

She was glowing, despite the rough first few months. Every scan revealed a more developed fetus and she longed to meet the person she's always seeing on the monitor.

Despite going through it three times, hearing the fetus' heartbeat for the first time is always an emotionally charged experience.

Her emotions were out of control because of the raging hormones. Every time she just doesn't seem to handle things at all and she's always either very angry over nothing or crying for no reason and she hated it.

After having Aurelia, she decided to have her second daughter soon after. She didn't want her daughters to have a big age gap and she did get pregnant again when Aurelia was around 15-18 months.

She learned the hard way why having a baby with a toddler is a bad idea (her mother was smart to go for a bigger age gap) this is why she waited until Aurelia was six and Adelina was four to have her third daughter.

It was much more peaceful with the older two already in school.