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Black women will go through an entire lifetime's worth of trauma and still do our best to stay good people despite everything meanwhile nonblack men will face one inconvience and turn into chauvinists who think misandry is real
#ex-best boyfriend vagueposting.he @'d me on my birthday then butted into a post by my friend to make me out to be his crazy ex-girlfriend#all because he thinks i was 'spreading lies' over a joke tag on an rb nobody even interacted with because he checked my blog after blocking#i don't even talk about him to anyone including posting😭it's not that serious bruh you broke up with ME and we stayed friends afterwards#intersectional feminism#transandrodorks#black femme#misogynoir#demigirl#bigender#genderfluid#💌#summerposting
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the thing they don't tell you about most mlm romance books is that they fucking suck ass
#thinking about like. rw&rb. anything by that author that wrote boyfriend material. most anything on kdp. only one i fw was ari and dante but#even then the random transphobia at the end gave a real bad taste in my mouth#im just in a hater mood rn ignore this unless youre also a hater#but anyways that boyfriend material and the sequel husband material books fucking suck so bad#couldnt even finish the second one#felt like it was trying to make a comment on the queer community but in the most lame and het conformist way possible#literally having a boring lawyer character being like ' i dont feel represented by this#when hes talking about a rainbow decorated gay bar#like ok whatever man but why do we care? why is the author trying to moralize this? why does teh prose suck and why is so much casual#bigotry against welsh people in these books#like fr they call out british bigotry against the irish and then turn around#and every welsh character is bumbling idiot with no personality besides being an idiot and talking about being welsh#like. hello???#also i keep adding to these tags but anyways the author also tried to like#make the main character out to be the bad guy?? when his ex boyfriend exposed all his secrets to the press??#and the author like. portrayed the mc as the bad guy for being upset?? like that is what the second book is about???#its so stupid and victim blamely and utterly lame like these books are so uninspired and feel like the author was just. idk???#also dont get me started on how much i hated rw&rb and finished it#i think i have a post somwhere on this blog abtout it
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#might be one of my favorite memes I’ve ever made 💀💀💀#like. you have to laugh#you guys ever heard ‘this feels like it isn’t about me 🎵🎶🎶🎵#from crazy ex gf#that’s what living w them is like 💀💀💀#surviving abuse#child abuse#abuse cw#abuse tw#gaslighting#narcissistic abuse#parental abuse#parental trauma#posting it here instead of the trauma blog bc I love it too bad and it’s that funny to me hfjwjwnqnjfjfd#bbge.text#ijbol
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karaoke?!?! what is bill singing,,, what is that funky little guy's music taste,,, the internet wants to know.
Omg, we're absolutely VIBING to Prom dress, Charlie's inferno, Miss Miseryguts, some meme shenanigans, and other stuff (story of undertale cuz it's a banger)
Turns out our tastes in music is hella similar ^^
#[blog with bill]#he may or may not have rambled about his ex while drinking#poor dude needs comfort#dw. i'm making sure he doesn't have too much#he's bundled up in a blanket rn sipping on pineapple juice#((#unreality#bill cipher#gravity falls#book of bill#the book of bill#gravity falls au#billford#< mentioned#))
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I really enjoy whenever someone reblogs an old polygon post and it gains 100 new notes despite the fact that there is no polygon fandom presence on tumblr anymore cause we all still follow each other and pass it around the circle going “remember this? Remember this top Pat Gill moment?”
#I’ve done this a few times and I just saw it happen with Carson’s gng post#I love reblogging an old polygon post and then seeing that all of the ex-polygon blogs or inactive sideblogs and passing it about#love you guys#polygon#Sophia is speaking
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Welcome
Hello! You found me (maybe it was fated).
My gods asked me to create this blog, so I'm excited to see what they have in store. I plan on using this space to talk about my experience with the gods, my practice, and deconstructing fundamentalism.
A Little About Me
I've been on my spiritual path since I deconstructed from my fundamentalist Christian Church of Christ roots in 2013. In 2020, I officially claimed the label "pagan" and it's been quite a wild ride of self-discovery. My high school sweetheart and I married when we were 21 years old and celebrated 11 years of marriage this year (can you tell I'm a hopeless romantic?). I love nature walks, writing, and all things art.
My Current Practice
I'm a hellenistic polytheist which means I honor and work with the gods of the Greek pantheon. I incorporate features of reconstructionism and neopagan ideas to create a practice best for me. I'm a devotee of Aphrodite and Hekate. Apollo is my patron. I practice hedge witchcraft in the mountains of Colorado.
Don't Be Shy
I'm happy to answer any and all questions relating to witchcraft, deity work, and pagan practice! I love connecting with others in this community.
#aphrodite devotion#aphrodite devotee#greek gods#greek pantheon#hellenic polytheism#pagan#deity work#hellenic deities#hellenic pagan#hellenic polythiest#aphrodite#about my blog#deconstructing christianity#deconstruction#ex fundamentalist#ex fundie#hellenic gods#hellenic community#hellenism#goddess aphrodite#hellenic worship#witchy blog#helpol#hellenic paganism#hellenic polytheistic#polytheist#paganblr#paganism#deity worship#hedge witch
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it’s 5:20am i cannot sleep i am consumed with thoughts and yearning for keigo takami i need to be euthanized
#literally these days all i do is Lay Awake and Wither Away#the nightmares have been exponentially worse lately#fun fact ur local fanfic author has Problems.#idk man there’s just something haunting about having reoccurring nightmares about your ex and every time u close ur eyes it’s throwing u#right back into the pit of hell that was that relationship#it’s fine it’s fine it’s fine i just no Longer Trust People#anyways this is a vent post and it is so cringe and lame#i just have never Hated an ex before so there’s a lot i’m coming to terms with especially considering how Fake he is#idek man IDEK!!!!!1!!1!1!#i rlly sacrificed so much to love and live with him and he said ‘mmmmmm now i have u in my grip’#whatever it’s fine he’s stinky and honestly the fact honey (the blog intern and my cat) doesn’t miss him AT ALL says so much#seriously she is so nonplussed by his absence it’s wild#eating fine sleeping fine shitting fine#SAYS A LOT. SAAAAYS A LOT. whatever whatever whatever#i would hit that emotionally immature man with my car if given the chance and yknow what. nick if ur reading this you’re one of the#most.#emotionally immature people ive ever had the misfortune of knowing.#what a shame you lost me#the best thing and healthiest thing that ever happened to you#because of your own actions and your own inability to take accountability for your mental health and actions#tell your mom i say hi#and tell your exes im sorry i ever doubted any of them x_x#WEEEEE what a vent#listen to big sister birbs when she says don’t date men who have something horrific to say about each of their exes
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A goodbye (but not a sad one!!!!)
I've been on antidepressants for almost a year now. This is the first year of my life in many, many years where I've been, genuinely, enjoying life. And, even in the moments where things are Not Great, I still feel great because I'm not constantly trying to off myself.
And it's not just the meds. I've been more in contact with my friends, I'm going out, meeting people. I'm getting the opportunity to be a young woman in my early twenties, to drink and wake up in the morning kind of regretting staying out late, but still having so. much. fun.
I still go to church, sometimes. Because it doesn't bother me anymore, because I can sit there, finally comfortable in my own skin, knowing that I know who I am and what I believe and that's enough.
And all of that has got me thinking: this is truly the only life that I have. There's no way of knowing what comes after this.
And I finally feel safe enough to feel really fucking great to affirm that there is no way that I'm going to spend the only life that I know I have denying myself of all the joys that exist in being a human being. I don't want to spend my days thinking of all the ways I was made wrong. Of all my shortcomings. Days of Making myself little, so He can be Great.
Which is why I think I'm ready to let go of this blog.
I created this space when I was feeling so much rage, so much sadness, and I needed community. And I got that, I truly did! I never really interacted much, but it was so great to know that I wasn't alone in my feelings.
This space means so much to me, because not only it helped me heal, but it's also proof that, yeah, I didn't think I would, but I survived.
I've been thinking of this for a while, and this post was supposed to be just this: a rant. But I feel like, in order to continue, I need to put some things behind, which includes my lovely blog.
I don't know if anyone cares, but I felt like I needed to say goodbye. I've been here for a while, and I've seen people come, and go, and I know I remember people and still check their blogs even when they disappear, so to anyone that might remember me and come across this blog:
I was here. I stayed, and it hurt so much, and I thought this kind of suffering would be never ending. And it wasn't. So I left.
#this wasn't how I planned for this post to go :(#Ive been feeling the need to BOLT for a while now#I just don't have the kind of rage or sadness or will to keep being here#I need to let Go#but I didn't just want to stop posting#even though I don't own anything to anyone because this is a personal blog#I still wanted to say Bye#you guys aren't my friends but you kind of are#you know things about me I haven't dared to utter to a single person in my life#it just didn't Feel right to just. go#so this is a see you later#a goodbye#it was good#it was real#thank u all so much#for the space#for the comments on my posts#for sharing your grief with me#and for allowing me share mine with you too#ex christian#ex religious#ex fundamentalist#personal post
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Thinkin about how when I was a kid and learning masturbation I thought there was something severely mentally wrong with me and everyone was gonna find out how much of a mentally ill pervert I was.
But yeah, the worst part of being a Jehovah Witness was no holidays.
#now I blog about leather daddies and getting tied up#oh how the times change#ex jw#ex cult#jehovah witness#kieran posts
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i finally started watching heartstopper bc a cute girl talked about it (i know, i'm late to the party AND a simp)
but oh my GOD
i am simultaneously living my best life and in hell
it is so high school in both the best and worst ways
i'm towards the end of s1e3 and i want to take a baseball bat to my old high school's gymnasium to get the feelings out of my body
#i don't even know why i didn't watch it until now it is so up my alley#also i'm only blogging about it bc cute girl went to sleep i was live texting to her about it before now#she is for sure too cool for me but oh my GOD#also my ex who was my first ever gay crush also told me about it so. gayness overload#it took me too long to watch this clearly but i am having a grand time#heartstopper#heartstopper season 1#no spoilers ig
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please make me forget about everyone else i only want to think of you
#aka im thinking about my ex again and i wanna forget about him so bad#irl yandere#irl yan#actually yandere#obsessive yandere#yandere thoughts#yandere blog#yandere#yancore#yan blog#yanblr#actually obsessive#obslove#obsessive love#obsessive thinking#obsessivecore#obsession#obsessive thoughts#actually bpd#bpd blog#bpd vent#bpd thoughts#bpd#fp bpd#bpd fp
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LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
#THIS ex best friend i told y'all about who traumatized me by bullying me over stuff she knows i'm insecure about and gaslight me afterwards#and the 'harrasment' is a convo we had that was a long ass argument where i called out her white woman fragility and trans.phobia#she stalked my blog after blocking me so i asked my big sister mutual to send her an ask calling her a pig and to leave me alone#i gave her a million opportunities to improve and directly tried to explain things to her so she could and she never EVER listened#so finding this when i went to this blog to see if she was vagueing me since she wasn't above stalking was a gift VINDICATION!!!!!!!!#ex-best friend tag#summerposting
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#i went to sleep at 3am and its 6am now bc i criedmyself to sleep 👍👍#sorry to ventdump my annoying insecurities again#i cant bring myself to do something i really want anymore#been having these thoughts since last year but this year its a lot more apparent#ideas are not scarce but the motivation/time to execute them are#i wish i could take an indefinite break on taking commissions bc by the time im finished with all of them im too burnt out/1#to draw for my blog and by the time it passes my motivation for these ideas also vanishes/2#I cant actually stop now bc im still an unpaid internee working for experience+portfolio so I need the money#I feel like shit whenever i can't get art done at the appropriate timing (ex: thematic holiday/character bday/event etc)#everything passes too fast and its already too late and the hype dies#its so hard to stay relevant and charismatic enough#Looking back I can't say im 100% satisfied with ANY art i posted this year#“was it worthy? is it still relevant? did I waste my time doing this?”#im too overly emotional over this (unfortunately) popular fictional lion beastman#“I want to yume/draw him more often/talk more about him!”#why? hes already popular enough. He has louder and more popular users who do that for him. nobody would care if it's you.#you'd get a swarm of hate. nobody would send you nice asks about it.#you don't get nearly half of the asks you used to receive back then. people just aren't interested in you anymore.#maybe you should delete your blog and start drawing trendy doodles of whatever is being hyped up at the moment.#.#if I can't execute original ideas what's the point of it?#I hate HATE having to do trendy art of whatever unfunny meme is being hyped up at the moment#but sometimes its necessary for the algorithm to boost you and to get some actual crumbs of engagement and new followers#what else can I do? being interesting on your own or having an interesting oc is no easy feat. I envy those who manage.
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Can someone ask q!bbh if his ex-wife q!Hecate is single? Asking for a friend…
#qsmp#qsmp badboyhalo#im so normal about hot evil women guys#I WILL be known as the blog who is down bad for q!Bad’s ex wife
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us culture is so heavily influenced by protestant beliefs, especially re: work, that as an ex-fundie it's so easy to assume everybody else was raised some less extreme sort of christian and just doesn't talk about it. right? they're all still saved and i'm not. even as an adult i feel like a struggling kid looking around the auditorium at all the adults with their heads bowed and eyes closed, effortlessly sharing something ive never been able to make myself feel.
i was really really surprised when my roommate told me she wasn't raised religious and didn't know anything about the bible. and when my friends who were raised vaguely catholic didn't know what the rapture is. and every time i have to explain why the evangelical right is so into zionism.
when i'm on the bus and i find some the-end-is-nigh-get-right-with-jesus bullshit i pick it up and take it with me to let it die on my bookshelf, because part of my brain still thinks it's blasphemous to just throw it away. it feels like seeing an old friend. i've never met any else who could even point to my hometown on a map, like, the 10 square miles where i spent the first 20 years of my life is less than insignificant even to the rest of the world, and when i see pamphlets that talk about the end of days i feel seen. when i hear people endorse an ideology that would like to kill me and everyone i love, i feel at home. flat and barren fields and dead, decaying trees, and the smell of mildew; suggestions to REPENT NOW, and the strangers who won't see me as anything but a tranny and a sinner and an abomination, and the fog that hovers on the surface of the river in the morning.
the culture i'm from wants to kill all of us. how do i scrub the fascism from all the places I want to take my friends - before it becomes illegal for us to visit them?
#op#orz thinking about home#i don't care if it's selfish and if there are bigger issues in the world. it's my blog. the home i want to go back to won't have me.#ex fundamentalist#exvan
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𝓭𝓮𝓪𝓻, 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮 𝓸𝓯 𝓶𝔂 𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮
Should I even call you that, I mean you aren't even in my life right now and you might never be again. When I see someone that does something you would've done like balance a pencil on their mouth I feel my eyes start to water but I blink them away because I shouldn't be feeling like this when I broke up with you. Your eyes that were always filled with love and happiness would look at me with anger and hurt but I would do anything to even see your face. I still love you and I get flashbacks when anything reminds me of you, it feels like we are back to that exact moment and talking about anything. When in reality, we don't even speak and you aren't even in my life. I want more than anything to just see you even from a distance a glimpse anything to even know that you are okay that this didn't break you. I'm telling myself that if it's meant to be we will see each other again and we will have a second chance that it means we truly are meant to be but realistically, it won't happen. We live in different states and live completely different lives there's no way for us to bump into each other. I want to pick up the phone call you and just hear your voice, if you sound mad, nervous, or even sad I just want to hear your voice. You mean everything to me but, I might mean nothing. This sounds harsh but I want you to hate me because that means there is no going back that you truly hate me that we truly are done. In some messed up way, I have no way to heal because you aren't here but it's like you never even existed. I miss you more than I need oxygen. I love you more than my body needs water. But I don't have you and I feel like I might be dirt on the floor for you. I love you but we aren't anything. I'm sorry for breaking this off but it was the only option for you to move on and be happy and have someone to be there for you. There's one song that reminds me of you called "De ti me enamore?", I love you. I wish I could send everything that reminds me of you instead of making it into a folder on my phone that just says love these instead of just sending them to you. I love you so much. I'm sorry.
𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻𝓼 𝓽𝓻𝓾𝓵𝔂,
𝓷𝓸𝓽 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓰𝓲𝓻𝓵 𝓪𝓷𝔂𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓮 :(
#blog#talk#about my life#i miss her#my girl#tips#i love her#long distance relationship#long distance romance#love#learning#love of my life#lit#life#literature#life quotes#spotify#music#musica#exes#situationships#breakup#trust issues#i'm sorry#i love you#i miss you#love letters#letters#beautiful words#words
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