#blogging about the ex

[arcanegifs]

ARCANE LEAGUE OF LEGENDS: 2x09 - “The Dirt Under Your Nails.”

[vellichorom]

Leans against wall

Do you think after a meeting the narrators would excuse themself out into the bathroom and just gossip like highschool girls

the consequence of saying such things to me comes with you having to open your mind to what i respond back with

[anghraine]

I'm an only child and also the eldest grandchild of all my grandparents, but specifically grew up closest to my mother's family and was also the only grandchild on that side for 12 years. That means that my oldest cousin is, of course, 12 years younger than I am, and the others only get younger from there, and I held them all as babies.

I've returned to the spawning grounds (the area of rural Oregon where I was born and where a bunch of my maternal extended family live) for a family get-together, and tragedy has struck, beyond being trapped in rural Oregon.

My beloved youngest cousin (more like a nephew; his mother, my mother's much younger sister, is only 5 years older than me and he's 24 years my junior) came excitedly running up to see me. I went over to hug him ... and for the first time, he's noticeably taller than me, too. My middle cousins are super tall including my oldest cousin's sister (17 years younger than me and like, 5'10" to my 5'4") and my maternal aunts and uncles will never have more children. The circle is now complete :(

[writterings]

the thing they don't tell you about most mlm romance books is that they fucking suck ass

[abnormalpsychology]

[mxnster-soul]

karaoke?!?! what is bill singing,,, what is that funky little guy's music taste,,, the internet wants to know.

Omg, we're absolutely VIBING to Prom dress, Charlie's inferno, Miss Miseryguts, some meme shenanigans, and other stuff (story of undertale cuz it's a banger)

Turns out our tastes in music is hella similar ^^

[mushroominaforest]

I love you and your art sm,,, can I marry you

First you will have to defeat my 1 evil ex in combat

(Be careful, they bite)

[sofflepoffle]

I really enjoy whenever someone reblogs an old polygon post and it gains 100 new notes despite the fact that there is no polygon fandom presence on tumblr anymore cause we all still follow each other and pass it around the circle going “remember this? Remember this top Pat Gill moment?”

[angelicstarsight]

Welcome

Hello! You found me (maybe it was fated).

My gods asked me to create this blog, so I'm excited to see what they have in store. I plan on using this space to talk about my experience with the gods, my practice, and deconstructing fundamentalism.

A Little About Me

I've been on my spiritual path since I deconstructed from my fundamentalist Christian Church of Christ roots in 2013. In 2020, I officially claimed the label "pagan" and it's been quite a wild ride of self-discovery. My high school sweetheart and I married when we were 21 years old and celebrated 11 years of marriage this year (can you tell I'm a hopeless romantic?). I love nature walks, writing, and all things art.

My Current Practice

I'm a hellenistic polytheist which means I honor and work with the gods of the Greek pantheon. I incorporate features of reconstructionism and neopagan ideas to create a practice best for me. I'm a devotee of Aphrodite and Hekate. Apollo is my patron. I practice hedge witchcraft in the mountains of Colorado.

Don't Be Shy

I'm happy to answer any and all questions relating to witchcraft, deity work, and pagan practice! I love connecting with others in this community.

[whirlybirbs]

it’s 5:20am i cannot sleep i am consumed with thoughts and yearning for keigo takami i need to be euthanized

[softheartscribes]

Ever since I left Christianity about...oh, three years ago?

Christmas has been...

Strange.

A lingering, can't-quite-put-my-finger-on-it, unsureness.

Not welcome.

SURE:

I love the ~aesthetic~.

I love decorating.

And yeah; I knowww it's commercialized.

Buuut??

I was raised in a Christian home.

Sure: there was fun, family, presents, food!

But the core of it was Jesus.

How He "came into the world" as a humble babe to save us.

(Hark! The Herald Angel Sings™️!)

Nowww...

There's no.Jesus.

(Frankly: I'm sick of Jesus.)

Sure, you can divert your focus. (Love. Joy. Light.) That's fine! (You do you, booboo.)

But me...

I'm just...

Not in the mood??

And?

I don't know if I'll ever be in the "mood" again.

[hellishfig]

i finally started watching heartstopper bc a cute girl talked about it (i know, i'm late to the party AND a simp)

but oh my GOD

i am simultaneously living my best life and in hell

it is so high school in both the best and worst ways

i'm towards the end of s1e3 and i want to take a baseball bat to my old high school's gymnasium to get the feelings out of my body

[theprodigxl-daughter]

A goodbye (but not a sad one!!!!)

I've been on antidepressants for almost a year now. This is the first year of my life in many, many years where I've been, genuinely, enjoying life. And, even in the moments where things are Not Great, I still feel great because I'm not constantly trying to off myself.

And it's not just the meds. I've been more in contact with my friends, I'm going out, meeting people. I'm getting the opportunity to be a young woman in my early twenties, to drink and wake up in the morning kind of regretting staying out late, but still having so. much. fun.

I still go to church, sometimes. Because it doesn't bother me anymore, because I can sit there, finally comfortable in my own skin, knowing that I know who I am and what I believe and that's enough.

And all of that has got me thinking: this is truly the only life that I have. There's no way of knowing what comes after this.

And I finally feel safe enough to feel really fucking great to affirm that there is no way that I'm going to spend the only life that I know I have denying myself of all the joys that exist in being a human being. I don't want to spend my days thinking of all the ways I was made wrong. Of all my shortcomings. Days of Making myself little, so He can be Great.

Which is why I think I'm ready to let go of this blog.

I created this space when I was feeling so much rage, so much sadness, and I needed community. And I got that, I truly did! I never really interacted much, but it was so great to know that I wasn't alone in my feelings.

This space means so much to me, because not only it helped me heal, but it's also proof that, yeah, I didn't think I would, but I survived.

I've been thinking of this for a while, and this post was supposed to be just this: a rant. But I feel like, in order to continue, I need to put some things behind, which includes my lovely blog.

I don't know if anyone cares, but I felt like I needed to say goodbye. I've been here for a while, and I've seen people come, and go, and I know I remember people and still check their blogs even when they disappear, so to anyone that might remember me and come across this blog:

I was here. I stayed, and it hurt so much, and I thought this kind of suffering would be never ending. And it wasn't. So I left.

[faggotfungus]

Thinkin about how when I was a kid and learning masturbation I thought there was something severely mentally wrong with me and everyone was gonna find out how much of a mentally ill pervert I was.

But yeah, the worst part of being a Jehovah Witness was no holidays.

[zmbienoir]

please make me forget about everyone else i only want to think of you

[tinyfantasminha]

👍