#blacklightburns

[faith-armor]

💛 ʀᴇᴛᴜʀɴɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ᴛᴜᴍʙʟʀ | ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴍᴇ!

This post will include some information about me and a short testimony of my life as a depressed addict before Christ. Thanks for checking out my blog!

💛 ᴀʀᴛɪsᴛ & ᴡʀɪᴛᴇʀ

Howdy! I'm a Christian artist from the southern US who enjoys creating stories & characters that glorify God and share the gospel! 🔥⚔️ ✝️ I like anime and various comic styles. I'm currently working on my own style.

sᴏᴄɪᴀʟ ᴍᴇᴅɪᴀ: compiled on my carrd

💛 ʀᴏʟᴇᴘʟᴀʏᴇʀ sᴀᴠᴇᴅ ʙʏ ɢʀᴀᴄᴇ

It's surreal to be here after taking a long hiatus around 2021. I'm used to having "missing e", a dozen extensions, and all of my pretty post formatting. It seems tumblr has tidied things up to make formatting easier. Back then, I used to copy/paste blank spaces, pretty symbols, and emojis, indent all of my paragraphs, and then use a bunch of key commands to select and make my font size small and neat! Haha! I don't have any problem with people who do that, it was a style choice for writers and roleplayers.

“The wrath of God is being revealed from heaven against all the godlessness and wickedness of people, who suppress the truth by their wickedness.” Romans 1:18

jaegerbombed | warpathpanther | blacklightburns | rubmyrosary

(CONTENT WARNING: above blog archives have explicit and/or adult content and are TESTIMONIES of what I used to write, portray, and how i lived my life.)

I was part of the tumblr roleplay community and many other rp communities across the internet, including Gaiaonline, jcink, and proboards. I did this hobby for about 16 years before I started to take my faith seriously in 2020-2021. To clarify faith, I was never really a believer or follower of Christ until I was BORN AGAIN in January 2023! Hallelujah! Note: I am not saying Christians cannot role play or enjoy writing as a way to develop characters, stories, etc. As long as it's not used to write content that would make you sin and it's not becoming an obsession.

Before that, I was depressed and detached from reality. I chased short-lived satisfaction in p**nography and alcoholism. I hyperfixated on the horror genre, supernatural & horror anime, tv series, video games, movies, and more. I felt empty all the time, had deep loneliness & despair, a void within me, & I filled it with those addictions.

I had insomnia from late nights living my double life. I was hateful, rude, condescending, competitive, swore all the time, & angry. I had a history of identifying as a bisexual, dated other girls online, and frequently played male roles during role play. I had gender dysphoria, went by 'khan', or 'khanivore'. I internalized a lot of it and would act out by doing drag king and drag cosplay IRL and roleplaying hypermasculine male characters. I began identifying as bi or pansexual, and was uncomfortable being a woman IRL and roleplaying females, even with the few I attempted to portray.

I attended many conventions to portray my comfort characters that I also roleplayed. When the convention was over, I felt like my heart was being burned alive & there was nothing to fill that void. I was never satisfied and sought after dozens of rp communities to take up my time so I could idolize playing hypermasculine male characters in the roleplay communities I was a part of.

Wrote hundreds of thousands of words portraying s*xual fantasies with males & females (which was part of my p***ography addiction). I obsessed over becoming male characters; thinking their thoughts, living their lives, not my own. I was hateful & manipulative in the relationships I sought to portray, breathing threats and vicious gossip against others. I became oppressed by demons while playing sinful music that glorified death, sex, and destruction, created vision boards that made me think of these characters, obsessively memorized their dialogues, and did some crazy forms of method acting. These characters had their own birthdays & astrology signs that I celebrated.

I saw many friendships made, torn apart, and savagely destroyed due to the toxicity of the community. Without Christ, people unhealthily hyperfixate on their idols and become jealous of other people writing better, portraying a certain character better, and seeking all types of 'shipping' relationships that don't go well. I know because that's what I did. I was so competitive that I plagiarized a lot of my ideas and writings from other roleplayers. I hid it for a long time.

But JESUS set me free! He had been knocking on the door of my heart. I did not seek Him, I wanted to live in my filth, I loved my sin. But HE sought after me & my heart slowly softened. And I also had to RESPOND to Him, I chose to finally give my life to him. My eyes began to open. I love being a woman, a daughter of God, enjoying feminine things; such as wild flowers, cottagecore, and dresses. I don’t share this testimony to glorify myself; don’t want the wrong attention or things my old self would have gloated over. I share this testimony of where I WAS, to show where JESUS SET ME FREE!

Seek Jesus - He isn’t religion, He’s a real person, the son of God, who was sent to die for our sins. Someone who wants a relationship with you. He wants to set you free from pain. He can give you answers & true identity; not the CULTure.

If the Bible says we are all sinners (Romans 3:23), (1 John 1:10), that our sins have separated us from God (Romans 5:10, 2 Corinthians 5:18) then you see why I urge you to repent (turn away) from your sins, believe on the Lord Jesus Christ and be saved. (Acts 16:30-31)

“Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you free from the law of sin and death.” Romans 8:1-2

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[laguerradearte]

@thewesborland #wesborland #guitar #limpbizkit #bigdumbface #blacklightburns #sketch #music https://www.instagram.com/p/CWbmHdCvgJy/?utm_medium=tumblr

[serpentineandblack]

#tbt 06.08.2007 The very first #BlackLightBurns show at the @elreytheatre. Here's hoping Wes decides to bring this project back around. If not, I know I had a helluva time. 🖤 (at El Rey)

[joeletz]

LETZ TALK SHIT featuring @thewesborland will air LIVE tomorrow! There is still time to sign up if you wanna be in attendance to ask questions and leave comments while we are hanging. Once you register you will get instant access to my latest post which includes the link to the podcast, where you can also submit questions in advance! If you need help signing up let me know! See you guys tomorrow! #joeletz #wesborland #letztalkshit #limpbizkit #bigdumbface #crystalmachete #blacklightburns #rammstein #emigrate https://www.instagram.com/p/CLxSrLmAq9j/?igshid=1y0asje8r8vwi

[secretasagrado]

#blacklightburns #owl #hyenas #blackcat #whiteeyes #w #censo #red #lamer #alchemy (at Córdoba, Argentina) https://www.instagram.com/p/CHozIj3g2ei/?igshid=ipz0g94vk37c

[eversonpoe]

#novvinylchallenge day 12 - yellow • black light burns • the moment you realize you’re going to fall isis • celestial rosetta • the anaesthete coil • astral disaster (prescription edition) adrian younge & ali shaheed muhammad • luke cage season 1 & luke cage season 2 drei affen • s/t † † † (crosses) • ep † † † (3) grails • challice hymnal • i have a lot of gold records but not as many yellow. also didn’t include yob’s clearing the path to ascend because i have it framed, but the vinyl is “yellow beer” colored. pretty sure i have a couple other beer-colored records, which is funny because i don’t drink beer. • #vinyl #blacklightburns #coilband #dreiaffen #isistheband #lukecage #crossesband #rosettaband #grailsband https://www.instagram.com/p/B4yKJznlzKT/?igshid=h9oyq6yitbr3

[robertojuva-blog]

Now i burning alive, just like you!!! #blacklightburns #lie #me #selfie #eu #mymedicine #doidao #kkk

[thecrankysheriff]

@blacklightburned

Everything felt...different. Fatigue wasn’t the same this way, it was more mental than the physical burn out that he would feel at the end of the day. He was tired, but he wasn’t tired from walking, or running. He was just tired mentally, emotionally, hands shoved into the hoodie he paid for because his shirt and the jacket--god, his fucking jacket--had been so waterlogged, there was no hope. 

He supposes he should be thankful, considering all he lost was his clothes, the integrity of his wallet, and a working cell phone. His life was on that list until a few days ago.

It was scary, this was all just. Scary. A shaky hand rises in front of him, an easing breath as he wills this odd energy forward. Reggie watching in mute horror as a clear stream of water manifests from his hand, gathering into it’s own self supporting...thing, wrapping around his wrist and moving.

He’s about to touch it when there’s a sound, movement in his peripheral that sets off alarms in his head, has him acting on frazzled reflexes. Reggie flails, water careening out of his hand high speed and splashing against the opposite wall of where he’s pressed himself.

“Wha-who’s there!”

[madmonarch]

❝ How did you get over there? Who are they? ❞

❛♛  PRIVATE FILES : something or other

                   ❝ -—- No need to try anything rash. I’m not the government or the police, Mr. Mercer.❞

 `BUT BY ALL ACCOUNTS, THAT MEANT NOTHING. ‘AFTER ALL, THE MONARCH ONLY SPOKE TO THOSE HE WAS INTRIGUED BY. Collected the info, marked the steps, A MAN OF PLANS. So easily did he slip a name off lips, holding about him an air like that of a BUSINESS LEADER preparing a meeting. (BUT THAT AIDED NONE FOR SOME OF THE MEN HE HAD WITH HIM, A FEW GUNS IN HAND, IF LAYING LAX AND NOT POINTED AT THE OTHER.)

  `THE MAD KING HAD NO PLANS FOR VIOLENCE.‘WHAT LAY AS A SHOW OF DEFENSE WAS MEANT AS NOTHING MORE THEN IN THE INSTANCE NEEDED. Though, with a man of research, not the devil in the details but rather the one CLAIMING them, he knew that there was a pointlessness, thick, with the very fact of having others with him / TOTING AROUND FIREARMS / with the information he had found about the other.

    ❝ -—- Unless you are opposed to just a conversation.❞       The Mad King was not a KIND MAN, he didn’t answer questions he saw no need to answer / ONLY SAW USE IN SAYING WHAT HE NEEDED TO AND WANTED TO.

[x-heesy]

#uǝɯɐʎpoolq

“𝙸 ����𝚖 𝚒𝚗𝚌𝚘𝚛𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚒𝚋𝚕𝚢 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚍; 𝙸 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚜𝚕𝚒𝚙 𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚊𝚗𝚢 𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚍.”

— 𝙼𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚊 𝚃𝚜𝚟𝚎𝚝𝚊𝚢𝚎𝚟𝚊, 𝚒𝚗 𝚊 𝚕𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚘 𝙱𝚘𝚛𝚒𝚜 𝙿𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚗𝚊𝚔, 𝙻𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚜, 𝚂𝚞𝚖𝚖𝚎𝚛 1926: 𝙿𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚗𝚊𝚔, 𝚃𝚜𝚟𝚎𝚝𝚊𝚢𝚎𝚟𝚊, 𝚁𝚒𝚕𝚔𝚎

#xheesy #qotd #artsyfartsy #sundayfunday #spruchdestages #artfuckery #iosart #artfulquotes #wild #staywildatheart #rebels #veto

#incorrigibly #wild #slip #out of #hand #MarinaTsvetayeva, #letter #BorisPasternak #Summer #1926 #Pasternak #Tsvetayeva #Rilke

Soundtrack: #soalive by #blacklightburns

[phukheadz]

Happy birthday Wes Borland! L.O.O.P. 0430 @thewesborland #wesborland #gutarist #artist #painter #sculptor #vocalist #singer #songwriter #bigdumbface #queenkwong #blacklightburns #limpbizkit #musician #music #birthday #loyalorderofphukheadz #artmovement #art #polymerart #polymerclay #sculpey #sculpture

[wingriot]

STAMPEDEOFTHEDISCOELEPHANTS V Black Light Burns @limpbizkit @freddurst @devilbizkit @wesborland_ @queenkwong #AUCKLAND #AUCKLANDCITY #NEWZEALAND #NZ #nzonair #BLACKLIGHTBURNS #2DOLLABILLYALL #SIGNIFICANTOTHER #CHOCOLATESTARFISHANDTHEHOTDOGFLAVOUREDWATER #RESULTSMAYVARY #GOLDCOBRA #STAMPEDEOFTHEDISCOELEPHANTS 🎪 (at Auckland City)

[mischape]

I am where it takes me . . . . #chicago #chi #chicity #chitown #chicagogram #chicagoshots #night #reflection #insta_chicago #chicagopulse #moodygrams #uncalculated #urbanandstreet #washingtonstreet #theglobalmoment #artofchi #visualsoflife #exploreeverything #exploretocreate #composition #blacklightburns #sweetness (at Chicago, Illinois)

[joeletz]

Wanna hang with me and @thewesborland this Sunday?! I’ll be picking a handful of people to join our MEMBERS ONLY live podcast, just Comment your fav emoji below and like this pic and share it in your story. Maybe even share this image on your page and tag us. The more wild you go the more likely you are to get a personal invite from me 🤗 or if you wanna cut to the chase you can just sign up to become a member, it only takes a couple minutes and you will have instant access to the link and tons of other ridiculous content I’ve created over the past year. SO WHO WANTS TO HANG?! #joeletz #wesborland #aestheticperfection #limpbizkit #blacklightburns #crystalmachete #letztalkshit #spacezebra https://www.instagram.com/p/CLsBeExAETU/?igshid=1c11e39wo25d8

[limpbizkitsoldiers]

#Repost @deandelray ・・・ A brand new #lettherebetalkpodcast is up. My guest is @thewesborland Guitarist Songwriter Painter and all-around great human. Do not miss this episode it's one of my favorites. #rockers #limpbizkit #bigdumbface #blacklightburns #wesborland #detroit #paulreedsmith #biltguitars #oilpaintings

[realprojectalice]

/ body language

DEFENSIVENESS:

arms crossed on chest / crossing legs / fist-like gestures / pointing index finger / karate chops / stiffening of shoulders / tense posture / curling of lip / baring of teeth

REFLECTIVE:

hand-to-face gestures / head tilted / stroking chin / peering over glasses / taking glasses off — cleaning / putting earpiece of glasses in mouth / pipe smoker gestures / putting hand to the bridge of the nose / pursed lips / knitted brows

SUSPICION:

arms crossed / sideways glance / touching or rubbing nose / rubbing eyes / hands resting on weapon / brows raising / lips pressing into a thin line / strict, unwavering eye contact / wrinkling of nose

OPENNESS & COOPERATION:

open hands / upper body in sprinters position / sitting on the edge of a chair / hand-to-face gestures / unbuttoned coat / tilted head / slacked shoulders / droopy posture / feet pointed outward / palms flat and facing outward

CONFIDENCE:

hands behind back / hands on lapels of coat / steepled hands / baring teeth in a grin / rolling shoulders / tipping head back but maintaining eye contact / chest puffed up / shoulders back / arms folded just above navel

INSECURITY & ANXIETY:

chewing pen or pencil / rubbing thumb over opposite thumb / biting fingernails tips of digits / hands in pockets / elbow bent / closed gestures / clearing throat / “whew” sound / picking or pinching flesh / fidgeting in chair / hand covering mouth whilst speaking / poor eye contact / tugging at pants whilst seated / jingling money in pockets / tugging at ear / perspiring hands / playing with hair / swaying / playing with pointer/marker / smacking lips / sighing / rocking on balls of feet / flexing fingers sporadically

FRUSTRATION:

short breaths vents / “tsk” sounds / tightly-clenched hands / fist-like gestures / pointing index finger / running hand through hair / rubbing back of neck / snarling / revealing teeth / grimacing / sharp-eyed glowers with notable tension in the brows / shoulders back, head up - defensive posturing / clenching of jaw/grinding teeth / nostrils flaring / heavy exhale

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