#bit personal

[neverquiteeden]

Waking up every day looking in the mirror and repeating "my friends will not abandon me for romantic relationships, my friends value me in their lives, I do not need to go through anticipatory grief like this, shutting myself out before they abandon me is not a valid strategy, it is better to have lived and loved and lost than to isolate myself out of this expectation".

[redguns]

i dont have any plans for next year. i think im fine as i am.

i could go on length about many personal issues and fears, but i'd really rather not. ive learned im pretty good at bottling things up

the day will come when im a memory. i can only hope to be a pleasant one

so i'll keep living. at the risk of sounding corny i'll keep living, and if that brings any joy to anyone, any ease of even the slightest degree, it'll be worth it

[a-thirst-for-dunmer]

being with my bf and playing skyrim is so fun because his special interest is weapons and battle tactics and his insights on the civil war quest and how stupid both sides are in terms of motive are SO GREAT

he helps me see facets of the game i never knew and i love him so much

[loullipopx]

My Pokémon ❤️💙

[manhattan-gamestop]

Me explaining why my grades were/are shit

[crowkip]

yeehaw, baby!

[uncanny-tranny]

I think so many people are so deeply alienated from themselves that they have no clue how to exercise their free will and autonomy. For some, this alienation runs so deep that they are afraid of their own autonomy and humanity. It is completely understandable why one would have those feelings, but it can be worrisome.

I want to help others who feel this way, so here are small things I have done to exercise my free will:

Add "guilty pleasure" songs to playlists and actually listen to them (I have a ton of late 1990s-early 2000s music I listen to now proudly that I never listened to in the past out of shame)

Getting the décor item, bath set, bed spread, ect. in the patterns you like, even if it's "childish" (I got a dinosaur-themed wastebasket from the kids' décor section and I adore it)

Taking a new route to get to a place you go to often

Eat dessert first

Celebrate well, and often

Collect things that are "odd" or don't seem like an "acceptable" thing to collect (somebody on my "for you" page collects dandelion crayola crayons and it was so cool!!!!!!)

Incorporate one new piece in an outfit you wear frequently (e.g., a new chain, a necklace, ribbons, bracelets, ect.). Challenge yourself to add onto the outfits if you feel up for it.

Sing along to songs without worrying that you sound "good" or your intonation is completely accurate

Read a book from a genre you weren't allowed to read as a kid (comics, thrillers, mysteries, anything!)

Walk without having a specific destination or goal

Pick up a new craft without expecting yourself to master it or to ever be "good" enough. Get your hands messy.

I don't want to shame anybody for not feeling as though they have free will or that they are exempt from exercising it. However, I wanted to give ideas so that you might read this list and find your own ways to express your intrinsic autonomy and will. You deserve to be a person, to feel alive, not just living. That is what our lives are for.

[sergle]

ALSO IMPORTANT TO NOTE, people dropping mad mad sums of money on gfms and charities and stuff are extremely impressive but that DOES NOT MEAN that putting like $5 towards someone's fund or any good cause is any less valuable, a lot of crowdfunding is about momentum and those single digits add up super fast, you do not need to be Rolling In The Dough to make someone's day!! moving the dial at all is extremely positive!!

[theshadowrealmitself]

I like to think that Vulcans who come to understand that Humans just can’t try to process emotions the same way as them, it’s just healthiest to let it out in harmless ways, decide that venting and stuff should be taken just as seriously as Vulcan’s meditation time, and will encourage the Humans around them to complain about what’s upsetting them

People who are used to aloof Vulcans who avoid Humans at all cost running into one comforting a Human

“-and then they said my cheesecake was subpar, and they didn’t even bring a dish!!!”

“The purpose of this event was that every participant brings a food item of sorts, correct?”

“Yeah!!”

“And they did not follow this rule while insulting dishes that were brought?”

“Mostly just my dish but yeah >:(“

“How illogical”

“That’s what I’m saying!!!”

[shay-creates]

Apparently, my decision to be silly and make fanart of someone's writing (because I genuinely enjoy the story the person is writing and I was struck with inspiration upon reading a particular scene) has benevolent and wildly unforeseen consequences.

I apparently gained a bit of control of the canon because said writer really loved the art and decided what I drew/draw is canon.

2. Writer put said artwork into the document of his story right below the scene, so now it's IN the story where people who read the story will see it (with a link to me)

3. He sent the artwork to all his friends and people he knows because he was so excited

Wholesome interaction and I watched him do all that in real time, good stuff. However...there are two more consequences I was notified of today...nearly a full week after I gave the artwork.

Seeing the artwork caused his friends to become interested in reading and hearing about his story, which means more people are reading what he's writing and giving him critique on the story (which he actively asks for).

Apparently, upon seeing the art, his writer friends got a sudden second wind to pick back up writing they'd abandoned for a few months. Because, I quote, "seeing that someone enjoyed {his} writing enough to take the time to make art of it gave them the motivation that maybe THEY can write something that will inspire someone to also create something." I have accidentally caused a writing frenzy among his writer friends and my silly idea to make art for someone has had a butterfly effect for people who I don't even know.

Uhh...I'm pretty sure there's a moral here but I am tired and have a great deal of emotions about this.

[cryptid-kay]

How I Write

Alright, it’s writing post time! Just a little summary of how I write, because I do get questions about it. Usually how I can write so fast, or in a short period of time. So aside from citing NaNoWriMo, this is a more in depth process on how I get from start to finish in about 3-6 months on a draft, all in part thanks to a bow tie wearing man at my college who taught advanced comp (ask me about that story sometimes). This will be quick, not super detailed, but if you have questions, feel free to ask! 1. Planning/Plotting So, I don’t plot. Except I do. This is a process I tend to use for "stuck" ideas or more fleshed out ones, but I also use this during rewriting and would like to use it more during my real writing and I find it eases some of the pitfalls of the more pantser method I had been using. In this method I begin with my stakes, my characters, and their motivations. This is best done after fleshing out my characters, but can be applied to characters I haven't fully explored as it grants a starting point. Once I've nailed down the stakes, I figure out first how my MC is going to react, then how this is going to get them into trouble. Basically creating for myself a method of raising the stakes through the story. This is where I start writing. 2. Drafting Alright, this is where the process gets funnn. I will take a day or two to plan out a chapter in my head. Then I put it on paper. Sometimes it comes out different, but usually as long as I adhere to the major beats of the story, everything is fine. This helps me break up my stories into chapters that flow into one another. I treat them like mini short stories of about 2-3K with something important happening in each. I write linearly, so start to finish, and I can usually complete a chapter in a writing session. (I plan to write about an hour on my writing days). I admit I do not write daily. I find it burns me out, but I do swap between planning days and writing, and if I get an idea, I'll write notes. This process is both the simplest, and takes the longest, usually around 30-60 days for about 50-100K. This is in part due to the speed of my writing (around 50-75 wpm), and the fact I plan so I have a clear vision of my chapters before I write them, making the writing process faster for me. 3. Revising - Round One I found after rewriting Half Crown last year a new method of revision, which requires some tedium, but ultimately I enjoyed it and am working it into my process. It begins with going through the whole book and making a spreadsheet. This spreadsheet is a chapter by chapter breakdown of scenes including: the summary of the scene, characters present, motives, and the major stakes. I also sometimes add notes for things I want to change. This scene breakdown for me was useful because I could see a cohesive breakdown, and as I was summarizing I found areas to improve. It also helped me keep the book consistent. Once I finish, my first round of revisions is quite simply going through and adding/deleting/altering scenes with the notes I or my readers have put in the scene breakdown. 4. Beta Reading This is the part that takes foreverrrr and it's not anyone's fault, I just can't work on the story very much while it's being read. This is in part so I'm not updating beta readers with new versions, but also so I can take a more objective look when it comes back from them. 5. We've had first revisions, but what about second revisions? Honestly, this is just like first revisions, I consult feedback and notes, and then I revise. After that, I would send to an editor. I will be having my first big editing experience this year, so I won’t detail that part yet, but I might add to this in another post! That’s it, the whole process. And as I stated before, this is just me. I think it works well for my brain, for my time constraints, and for my lifestyle, but your process might be different! 

[bisexualseraphim]

You know what, fuck it. Let’s show some love for the “unpleasant” autistics.

For the autistics who are always accused of being angry or moody when all they’re doing is sitting there.

For the autistics who take everything literally and respond sincerely.

For the autistics who come across as “blunt” or “rude” for being honest.

For the autistics who are called “control freaks” for needing a sense of order and routine.

For the autistics who get told to shut up for infodumping about uncomfortable topics.

For the autistics who find it too exhausting to mask and pretend to be sunny and friendly.

“Unpleasant” autistics, I love you.

[autumn-may]

Mostly spoiler free summary of my viewing experience

[kikipancakes]

August 16

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Last year's drawing (x)

[jazzyjesse]

i love you piglins. hollywood could never make me hate u

[spooksier]

me when the emotionally repressed character is revealed to have had something happen in their childhood that was completely out of their control but changed them in a way they can never come back from