#bit of a vent post I apologize

[vicariousresearcher]

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Loser!Reader who can’t quite get socializing down. Can’t quite figure out how to make a joke land, doesn’t know what qualifies as small talk or what is too much detail. Who fidgets in your seat because you doesn’t know what to do with your hands and always looks a little panicked because you don’t know what the right amount of laughter is or now much eye contact is supposed to be used 

Toxic!Kyle is the complete opposite. He loves bringing you out. Being a social butterfly he is, why wouldn’t he bring out his sweet little thing? Like a prized horse you stand there and smile as he drags you around. Only to end up on someone's couch sitting there kind of looking like you’re a part of the conversation that’s happening next to you when you haven’t said a word yet.

He knows how others look at the pair of you. So different. You’re something to be met with pinched brows and polite smiles, darting eyes and never quite sitting alone with. Its like everyone can tell theres something just a little bit off about you. Setting off their radars as something odd. Something he is so kind to put up with. 

Its like they’re all in on some form of secret language that you aren’t privy to. You say something and you see how Kyle looks over the rim of his glass to one of his buddies. Inside jokes clipping you enough that you know there's something you don’t understand but it’s never enough to actually understand.

You’re his pet project. Someone he’s improved, upped in quality by simply daing you. Yes he loves you, god he does, he loves your niche little references and the way you move your hands when you’re passionate. He loves how you ramble till you’re out of breath and how embarrassed you get when he has to redirect you in a conversation. He loves bringing you out to see you flounder and get so worked up, coming to him with desperate eyes and too shallow of breaths.

You’re tugging at his sleeve trying to prompt him into leaving, trying to whisper about feeling overwhelmed, head on a swivel for every noise, feeling eyes burnt into your skin.. He just brushes you off if you’re lucky. Other times saying “You can’t handle one night out for me? We do everything on your terms, can’t you just do this for me?” 

It’s only when you’re holding back tears, panting into your hands outside that he finally joins you. Ushering you into the car, cooing bout how “you should’ve just told him that you were feeling this bad.” 

Gets you home and into bed. Cradling your face in his hands while peppering nicotine stained kisses into your skin. “You did so good tonight.” “Wasn’t it fun?” “I’m so glad you came with me.” Stuffed knuckle deep with his fingers as he coaxes an orgasm out of you as a reward.

He doesn’t let you sleep until you’re agreeing with him, nodding your head that you enjoyed yourself. Nerves tugged raw yet he just keeps playing till he gets what he wants. You all mushy and sensitive from the rollercoaster of emotions of the last few hours. Like a puppet with its joints unhinged but still jerking to its strings. Doing anything for his reassurance after you embarrassed him in front of his buddies.

[inkly-heart]

please don’t be sad little sprout, you are loved 🌱 🖤

🌱

[dkettchen]

[cathalbravecog]

veep dad comfort art

[phantom-peachie]

im ok

tw: death/loss

[ohsweetflips]

today has been so emotionally weird it’s like 6pm struck and pandora’s box 2 opened

[wanderingmind867]

Today felt way more relaxing than yesterday. I still didn't enjoy dealing with company today, but at least I didn't have my schedule ruined. I didn't love dealing with everything, but I mean...after tomorrow, they'll be almost gone. And as much as I love my grandfather, I can't say i'm not looking to having the home just become me and my dad again. I wanted to make a post about this a while ago, but I didn't. So i'm sorry about all of that, and i'm going to partially blame it on being distracted by company. Plus, i head up to bed soon. But either way, i'm sorry if i didn't make many posts. I don't know if i'll rectify that tomorrow, but i'll try to just relax and get through dealing with company.

[solitaireships]

Realizing now that I think the reason I don’t like to be in group chats is bcs a while back I was already not big on large servers, but I got invited to a small rp server by two friends. I didn’t know everyone there tho, and I felt from the start like one of the people I didn’t know didn’t like me bcs I felt like she’d ignore me and after I mentioned me and my OC are Korean, she made a comment about how much her character would be destroyed if someone else at Korean food when that came up in a rp (this was the first time she acknowledged me or anything I said). Anyway later she admitted that she did ignore me on purpose bcs she didn’t want me there so now whenever I don’t hear anything from people in discord servers I take that as people not wanting me there bcs that has actually happened

[cowboyhorsegirl]

ANON FJSAOFJDKFJLAKJFDAF

i don't even dislike bucky as a character i'm just! so very uninterested in the romantic dynamic ppl paint between him & steve it truly inspires nothing within me.

(and! if you're looking to scratch that friends-to-lovers itch 616!stevetony is right! there! or if you're looking to scratch the friends-to-unwilling enemies-to-tentative allies-to-friends-to-lovers itch, again!!! 616!stevetony is serving it at the all-you-can-eat ship dynamic buffet!)

the thing that really soured me on the ship was the fans and i hate to say that bc everyone should get to enjoy what they enjoy! but yeah there's nothing groundbreaking or progressive about a story with two men sharing a meaningful friendship that can be read as having homoerotic subtext.

[official-bunbun]

i am So Tired

[penultimate-step]

the reason so many bad takes are resulting from that ship wars poll, in my opinion, is the same reason a good deal of tumblr discourse just goes bad immediately - because people just cannot let go of their idea what shows they watch or books they read make them somehow morally or intellectually superior to others

people can't just say they want destiel to win because they watched supernatural as a kid and it was really important to them, or they want sulemio to win because the characters really resonated with them, they have to say their vote is a sign that they, as people, are better in some way

No, liking G-Witch does not make you more socially progressive, and no, liking supernatural doesn't make you more intelligent. I don't understand why this is even a premise people are considering?

some people are really eager to find a way to claim superiority or feel like they are improving without actually like. doing anything. I don't think it's a very healthy attitude to have. there isn't any TV show so good that watching it counts as praxis

[erythristicbones]

i know ive been super quiet here since my seizure bc life is Difficult. but uh, probs gonna even more quiet bc work is hell rn AND our ball python Atlas passed away two nights ago so my mental is Pretty Fucking Low

[thegrunkiest]

Hey hey so, just a friendly plea that when you're a guest at hotels/resorts - please give the workers providing you service due consideration, if nothing else.

Yes, we understand you pay a lot to stay at our resort for your vacation. Yes, we get paid to make your stay as comfortable as we can. But also understand that we're humans as well? We aren't the roombas in your house you can turn on at your command. You aren't the only guest we service; some days are busier than others and often times we're required to prioritize certain rooms over others.

It's frustrating for us too when we can't get to everything as fast as we like! - but we're required by brand standards to smile and be polite no matter how stressed or overwhelmed we are. We're trained on how important it is to conduct ourselves properly to appear friendly and accommodating. It'd be nice to receive the same decency in return sometime.

Also, I'm not sure if this is common across most hotels, but for the one I work at, if you call the front desk and request housekeeping service for your room, they will put a ticket in, and the housekeeper it's assigned to will make it their priority to complete at their earliest opportunity. If it was really that much of an issue that you get service, that you have to get entitled and passive-aggressive to the housekeeper - there were ways for you to communicate that to us beforehand! Hell, you could have even just approached me in the hall earlier and asked outright, instead of waiting to make an excuse to get pissed off! I had 15+ turnovers that take priority over the stayover I didn't know you so desperately fucking needed, thank you very much.

[the-becom1ng]

they should make a world where you dont have to talk when it takes too much energy

[chocolatespyro]

me knowing i shouldnt post vent art publicly but also going "but what if it looks REALLY good????"

[sanyu-thewitch05]

I said I’m sorry, you said it’s ok. But you’re staying away from me and now nobody wants to be near me and everyone can sense the tension that something is up. Hit me, scream at me, ignore me whatever makes you feel better, just please just don’t be mad at me anymore and act like I’m a ghost in the wind. You know what screw you, I don’t need you anymore. I’m going to enjoy my trip to Europe. I hate you. I feel disgusted looking at you and everyone else’s faces. I wish you were gone and left me alone.

3:30 British time zone: I know you probably been talking about me behind my back. I can feel the tension in the atmosphere. Everyone can.

-how I’m feeling right now.