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luxmoogle · 4 months ago

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. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁ 𝐵𝓇𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉𝒸𝓇𝑒𝓈𝓉 . ݁₊ ⊹˚₊‧ ‧₊˚ . ݁˖ . ݁

#kingdom hearts #kh #aqua #kh aqua #bbs #birth by sleep #bbs aqua #my art #for once #I tried being proper and kept it clean #instead of my messy messy scribbles #it's just so time consuming

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trans-axolotl · 2 months ago

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my gendered experience growing up as an intersex person was overwhelmingly defined by my responses and resistance to everything that got me labeled as a failure: failure to quickly get a gender assigned at birth, failure to go through a normal puberty and grow up into a woman, failure at meeting the standards for "complete womanhood" because of my intersex sex traits, and yet simultaneously failing to ever be acknowledged as a "real man" and being treated as a threat when I expressed I wanted to transition.

before i realized i was a man and came out as trans, the ways that girlhood was denied to me was very often humiliating and painful. locker rooms filled with other girls were a frequent source of shame. there were many big and small ways that i was told that my intersex body made me insufficient, incomplete, broken. i was forced onto estrogen, forced into shaving my body hair, and was constantly being told to change myself to better fit this mystical idea of a "normal woman." and even though I ultimately ended up becoming a man, the denial of girlhood was painful.

but i think that these things would have been even more difficult to navigate as an intersex girl if on top of everything I already said, i was having to cope with the denial of my girlhood while i was forced into boys locker rooms. if my doctors were forcing me onto testosterone hrt and refusing to even discuss estrogen, if all my legal paperwork had "M" on it and was a logistical nightmare to change, if every support group for my intersex variation labeled it as a "men's support group," if the LGBTQ community spaces i tried to join were misogynistic towards me often to the point of exile, if my self determination as an intersex girl was denied in most spaces of my life, and on and on and on. while listing all these things out i also don't want to make it seem like it's all about suffering and pain--so much of transition for me has been about joy in my self determination and how much it feels like a reclamation of autonomy to decide what I want my body and self to be like--i know this is an experience i share with so many of my trans intersex friends.

as an person who was AFAB, although there were many ways that trying to grow up as an intersex girl were a painful, logistical nightmare, many times and places that i was excluded from woman's spaces, etc. however, there was a simultaneous affirmation that i was right to strive for that in the first place. which is logic rooted in some fucked up compulsory dyadism, but also which would have made some things slightly easier or even possible at all if i had wanted to embrace being an intersex girl within this fucked up system.

pretty much every time i've seen people on tumblr talking about "afab transfems" in an intersex context, people seem happy to collapse these experiences and act like there's no meaningful distinction or point in distinguishing between different types of intersex embodiment. it seems incredibly extractive, to be perfectly honest with you--taking terms already used by a community to make meaning of their experiences and to expand and dilute that term enough that it means something pretty different than the original.

it's making me think about the concept of epistemic injustice, which is a term coined by Miranda Fricker to describe oppression related to knowledge, communication, and making meaning of the world. There's two subtypes of epistemic injustice: testimonial injustice and hermeneutical injustice. Testimonial injustice refers to the dynamic where marginalized people are labeled as not credible, excluded from conversations, and their testimony and knowledge is labeled as unreliable, even when they're the ones who are experts and have first hand experience of what people are talking about. (this is why i probably won't make this post rebloggable--i've noticed this pattern on tumblr many times where trans men speaking about transmisogyny get lots of notes and are given a lot of grace, where trans women are silenced, attacked for not having perfect wording, and otherwise delegitimized.)

the second type is called hermeneutical injustice. it describes how marginalized people are denied the right to make sense of the experiences in their own lives. this can look like preventing people from building community, terminology, a political understanding of themselves, and the interpretive resources needed to process how you live in the world.

this is a form of injustice that I think almost all intersex people are very familiar with--we are denied community and interpretive resources to the point that we're told we don't even exist, that intersex isn't a real word, and so many more examples that leave us isolated and with very few options for understanding what we're collectively experiencing. as an intersex person i really intimately understand how frustrating, confusing, and painful it is to not have words for your experiences, your identity, your life.

so it makes me really sad and pissed off when it seems like intersex people seem to be replicating this exact same type of epistemic injustice towards transfems and specifically towards intersex transfems. pretty much every time recently i see people talking about "afab transfems" they're doing so in a way that seems to deny that trans women even have the right to make sense of their own experiences in the world. there seems to be this mindset that these political frameworks, these interpretive resources that transfems have built up are just up for grabs for anyone. and then on top of that has come with it a lot of cruel, hateful language and direct attacks towards many intersex transfems who are facing so much harassment right now.

an important value to me is this idea of reciprocity as a foundation for solidarity. to me reciprocity means that we're prioritizing the ways we care for each other, we're thinking about how we can uplift each other, and we're watching out for extractive or exploitative patterns where one group is constantly expected to be in "solidarity" with another group without getting the same respect and care back toward them. i think that there could be so many ways that intersex people of all genders could share our overlapping experiences and actually be in true, meaningful solidarity with each other, but i barely ever actually see that happen on tumblr. and that pisses me off, because i do think that there's so much we have in common that we could celebrate and support each other with. i feel so much kinship with so, so many of my trans intersex friends, and ways where i see our lives converge. but i don't think that can happen in an environment where there's no acknowledgment of the ways that our experiences will sometimes (often) differ from each other, and the ways that we have unique needs.

another frustration i've had based on this most recent couple months of transmisogynistic intersex posting on tumblr is how intersex people have been mostly ignoring intersex community resources and devaluing the existing intersex terminology that people created to try to meet our needs. so much of what i've seen people describing on tumblr seems to really line up with the term ipsogender. Ipsogender is a term coined by an intersex sociologist Cary Gabriel Costello, and is used to describe intersex people whose gender matches the gender they were medically assigned at birth, but who might not feel like cis or trans fits them, might experience dysphoria, and who might feel like they've ended up transitioning medically or socially in some ways. this is a word that exists that an intersex person put time into coining because they wanted other intersex people to feel seen, embraced, and have ways of understanding themselves and communicating to others, and that's something that's super meaningful to me! and yet, i've rarely seen anyone reference it, and also seen multiple people making fun of it in other spaces online.

there's also intergender, which is another intersex specific gender term used to describe when your gender is inseparable from your intersex traits, and that your intersex identity is intertwined with your gender identity in some way. some people just identify as intergender, others use it as an adjective and exist as an intergender man or woman. intersex terminology like this is really important to me, especially because we're so often denied the right to make sense of our own experiences.

i think ultimately what i wanted to say with this post is just that when i think about intersex community, some of the most important values of intersex community for me are solidarity, care for each other, and affirming our right to define our own existence. and i don't think that can happen in a community where people are acting in extractive ways, harassing and attacking their fellow community members, and being dismissive of the realities of other intersex people's lives.

#personal #actuallyintersex #intersex #actually intersex #transmisogyny tw #this post is not going to be rebloggable for now but if any intersex mutuals want to reblog it i might turn reblogs on #this just feels like an intersex conversation in a way i would prefer not to do with an audience of spectators.#also a tangent: i do understand that agab is not a body descriptor. i think that agabs are a form of curative violence perpetuated onto us #this is something i've been consistent about expressing for years. if you go back to old posts you'll see that there's many times i've said #over the years that agab is messy. that i know people who were assigned one gender at birth and another gender as a toddler #who identify as cis and trans and a million other things. i understand that and im not interested in denying their existence #so. don't take this as a universal statement from me about every single instance of ��amab transman” or “afab transfem.” but rather in the #context of the current dynamic i'm seeing on tumblr of widespread transmisogynistic harassment #that i think much of the way people are talking about this is exploitative and harmful #also i've made many posts before talking about how like. many things would change and become intelligble in a less compulsorly dyadic world #but we aren't there yet. and so there are many terms that are still meaningful and relevant for us right now #and as always: i am one intersex person with one perspective i like to hear from other intersex people including intersex people #who think differently from me

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psqqa · 1 year ago

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yes, yes i know edgeworth’s big wet eyes and loser boy personality have captivated us all, but listen. listen.

phoenix wright

phoenix “genuinely unable to reconcile the girl on the stand with the girl he dated for eight months, a cognitive dissonance so profound it’s ultimately explained by them being literally two different people, but which he first sits with for five years and does not talk about at any point to anyone” wright

phoenix “don’t mention that name to me. i don’t want to talk about it. i don’t want to think about it. i am just going to keep myself in this state of perpetual crisis mode focus on other people’s problems until eventually i die and get to hang out with mia on the astral plane and never have to deal with any of these emotions ever again” wright

phoenix “overnight loses his career and reputation and sense of identity while gaining an adopted, probably pretty traumatized eight-year-old daughter, and rather than leaning on his friends for help, or getting therapy, or taking any time to process any of this, he *checks notes* spends seven years dedicating all his free time and energy to investigating the weird fucking circumstances around it and maintains a friendship with the guy he suspects was behind it all” wright

phoenix "runs across a burning bridge and falls through it, half a day after the game establishes that he is terrified of heights, because his friend is on the other side of that bridge" wright

phoenix “i sure felt surprised. maybe i had my poker face on” wright

phoenix “looking back on it that was actually a pretty dark period in my life” wright

phoenix “don’t ask me how i got started. i don’t remember” wright

phoenix “only you stood still, your eyes calmly watching” wright

phoenix “sometimes, life just sucks” wright

just

phoenix wright

crunchiest man in the world

and all i wanna do is chew and chew and chew on him

#ace attorney #where are all the people gnawing on phoenix's bones so white??#i need to find the phoenix bone-gnawing corner of this fandom PLEASE #this is me asking for the Phoenix Fic btw #where is the fic meditating on phoenix's whole mental state in general?#where is the fic about how it's phoenix's cageyness and poker face and flat affect under stress that is the hurdle?#the relationship ramifications of being actually really fucking hard to read when it comes down to it?#where is the fic about the week of his disbarment?#the one detailing the panicked blow by blow of it rippling through his social circle while he stands in the eye of the storm?#the one that ends messy and anxious and unresolved because it's week 1 of 7 years?#where is the birth of phoenix wright: poker legend fic?#where is the art school/theatre major phoenix fic?#no not the able to art/act phoenix fic but the kind of person who chooses to go to art school/study theatre phoenix fic #where is the supremely disinterested in pop culture phoenix fic?#where is the actually incredibly meticulous and competent phoenix fic?#capcom can tell me all they want that he's essentially an adhd disaster flying by the seat of his pants making it all up as he goes #but that's not what they're actually showing me #they're the ones who created an in-fiction legal system that functionally necessitates that #and the nature of the game is that phoenix is almost always proven right so rather than him coming off as hare-brained #his opponents rather just come off as short-sighted. either negligently or maliciously so #and the choices the writing makes in service of retaining mystery and audience suspense in fact function to make phoenix a person #who is astute and puts the pieces together but is cautious in his conclusions #i will grant them that phoenix does tend to lose sight of his overarching goal in getting drawn into proving or disproving minor points #the fact that edgeworth on the other hand never loses sight of this or where the various arguments stand in relation to it #is his sexiest trait as a character by far #but those minor points are actually functionally critical to the ultimate argument phoenix makes #so even though i do read that trait through the game mechanics i do also judge the other characters for being dicks about it #my point is phoenix wright does in fact have the character of a lawyer and is conventionally good at his job fucking fight me #my point is that you all have had 20 goddamn years to Rotate this man #my POINT is that there should be Intricate Fucked Up Meditations On Phoenix that rewire my fucking brain and i NEED to know where they are!

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kyokod · 6 months ago

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꒰͡ ៓ ͡꒱ fake it heart fake it all ⁺｡˙ ♰

ㅤ᳹𔒌 ۰◦ 🦷 ��

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spielzeugkaiser · 1 year ago

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Ciri feels a bit like she's been in the way, once Geralt and Milek become closer - like she held him back somehow.

The thing I think is crucial about this - things went wrong and Geralt missed out on seeing Milek growing up - but Geralt is a dad. The parallels are there.

#geraskier #jaskier #geralt of rivia #geraskier lovechild #the witcher #what I want to get at is that Geralt had Ciri pretty much from Mileks birth on #and the thing is #the THING IS if you look at the timelines #with Cintra burning down happening and Sodden and Geralt searching for Ciri - even if he had known #even if Jaskier had told him and he had been happy about it #he probably wouldn't have been there for Mileks birth #because he would have been trying to get to Cintra #and he absolutely wouldn't have taken Jaskier #he even might have not taken them later to KM either (to protect them)#so either way it would have been messy because Geralt would have gotten two kids at nearly the same time #this why that feels a lot like the parent trap in my mind sometimes even if I can't describe how #pfppfpf #OF COURSE it would have been sooooo much different for Jaskier #but I do think all of that is something he learns from Yennefer later #and it stings but he is also glad that Geralt took care of his child surprise #so for Jaskier there is always the thought too of. Geralt is already doing it all #trying to handle things #and they would be... additional

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grif-hawaiian-rolls · 4 days ago

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sometimes u just get so filled w thoughts about a pair of characters u gotta just go bonkers ya know

#rvb #red vs blue #my art #batsy art #rvb tucker #rvb doc #rvb junior #docker #this file is called docker_and_son on my pc so ya know #tuckers hair being a mess post quest and post birth is v important to me #man got home took out his dreads and promptly fuckin immediately fell asleep face down on the floor and hasnt had a moment to retwist em #he very much meant to finish his hair first but his body had other plans #the picture has everyone in stolen clothes and that amuses me #Doc is wearing Caboose's shirt tucker is wearing one of tex's shirts and junior is wrapped up in one of church's shirts #not pictured is jr introducing doc and tucker to mason wu with 'hi mr wu this is my dad and mom-doc' 'dad doc this is mr wu :D'#and doc needs to compose himself from being called mom meanwhile junior doesnt even notice he slipped up he just auto corrected and moved o #tucker also missed it bc he was trying to figure out what mason's vibes are by force of eyebrows alone #mason wu is the only parent there who doesnt think doc and tucker are mid-messy divorce bc he looks at them and recognizes them #from pfl articles and chorus ones #so he Knows theyre soldiers and the shit they get up to and his previous frustration with juniors apparently absent family is nuked #theyre not absent theyre just keeping him Safely away from Fuckery

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obrigados · 7 months ago

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ㅤㅤㅤ♬ ♥️ㅤㅤAㅤDreamyㅤNightㅤㅤᓭི༏ᓯྀ

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kyoukoswife · 2 years ago

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Go Loud

#tlt #tlt spoilers #camilla hect #palamedes sextus #paul #nona the ninth #ntn #ntn spoilers #tlt art #i just threw this together on the train today #so its p messy #but i feel like pauls birth was a lil messy too #in a nice way #anyways #have paul

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kisrui · 8 months ago

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▒᳜᳝᳝᳜᳝᳜᳝᳜᳝⃛ ♪ ⛪️ ᭄ ⠞⡷ @aeraras

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flordoipe · 8 months ago

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i could gather ex-boyfriends 𒀱 Searching for you with that handout flyer

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harmoonix · 2 years ago

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✨Astrology Notes✨

Messy Notes because i have 39393994 ideas for posts and is hard to process them all in one place🤣😭

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Mercury in the 3rd house: These people are so sassy in talking 😭 they can combine sweet and sassy words together and made it to sound pretty they are like "Hey B**** you look so pretty today".🫂

Venus in Earth Signs (Taurus, Capricorn, Virgo) usually takes long time to be in love relationships because they wanna make sure everything is worth it and well planned.

Cancer in the 7th house can give you a very sensbile but caring husband/spouse/partner. They can be very needy of you and you can get very attached to eachother 🌟

Scorpio Risings can have a very misterious and mesmerizing eyes, for real these people have such alluring looks omg🦝

Pluto in the 6th house can mean that you can get very good at your job, you can also have powerful people around you and some people can get jealous about it

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Mars in the 3rd house can make you to talk very loud, very loud and raspy, also with a lot of energy and you might scream a lot😭😭

Sagittarius in the 8th house can make you a very curios person about your sexuality, you can be very curious about 18+ things and about taboo things, you can also be very curious in practicing/studying about witchcraft 👁️‍🗨️

Libra in the 9th house can make you a very harmonious person searching for education or traveling, you might have a very good and high education and you might have ideas to travel in very beautiful places, for example i see these natives relaxing in Japan under a cherry blossom tree (Sakura) 🌸

Venus harshly aspecting the ascendant (Square, Opposition, Conjunction) can make you to have more fashion styles or not to have a favorite style to wear, you can wear a lot of clothes from different styles and combine them 💇‍♀️

Jupiter harsh aspecting the ascendant (Square, Opposition, Conjunction) can have something unique about their faces, they have can pretty unique pretty face features and look like angels 😇

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Neptune in the 9th house might have dreams about them being in other places far from their home, they can also dream they are out in nature or traveling. These people can also be very spiritual so they might also dream spirits or entities. 👻

Neptune in the 4th house might dream about their family members, or past family members. These people can also dream about animals which might be their spirit guides who can guide them and send some messages through their dreams. These people can also dream about their childhood pets if they had.🐶

Mars at Taurus Degrees: (2°,14°,26°) can look very intimidating to others, their appearance can attract a lot of people eyes on them 👀

Mars in Pisces Degrees (12°,24°) can be very gentle around other people, these natives pay attention so many details and they have such a comfortable energy to be around 🫂🌟

Mars in Capricorn Degrees (10°,22°) can be very misterious, they don't like to share secrets or important things about them and they always keep people very interested in them. A lot of people can have a curiosity about them 🔥

I saw people saying Mars feels very good and powerful in Cardinal Signs: Aries, Libra, Cancer, Capricorn.

Capricorn Moon are very productive and intelligent people

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luxmoogle · 7 months ago

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･˙｡°･ˇᵉᵃʳᵗʰ ᵃⁿᵈ ˢᵉᵃ ⋆⁺₊ ⋆

#kingdom hearts #kh #aqua #terra #terraqua #bbs #birth by sleep #kh aqua #kh terra #my art #messy messy sketching

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aericita · 8 months ago

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┄ ❒ 🦢𖨂 ✎ ⁺

┄ ❒ @aeraras 𖨂 ✎ ⁺

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jangmi-latte · 2 years ago

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1:56 𝐀𝐌 — 「 𝐁𝐎𝐃𝐘𝐆𝐔𝐀𝐑𝐃!𝐑𝐨𝐨𝐤 」

flexible au. you can think if you're royalty, an influencer, a famous artist, etc. mostly...thirsts...

bodyguard!rook whose reflexes are fast enough to immediately shield you from any perpetrators or push/grab any person who'd dare come near you no matter how fast they approach you. a confident man when it comes to his physique and abilities to protect.

bodyguard!rook who'd easily and swiftly hide you from unwanted attention using his body and coat. pulling you close to him while he fast walks speedily enough for you to be able to follow him while he protectively keeps an eye out on all corners.

bodyguard!rook who's your close friend behind closed doors. someone who'd hold his palm out under some papers you're writing on when there's no table to flat platform closeby for you to write on. someone who'd hold the edge of a table, cabinet door, vehicle ceiling, etc. when you climb or stand up so you won't hit your head.

bodyguard!rook who removes his coat when you're feeling uncomfortable with your outfit or when it's too cold and wraps it around your body.

bodyguard!rook who's all smiles and warmth but immediately grows serious and focused when it comes to your sake. especially when he knows your safety is his number one priority at the moment.

bodyguard!rook who knows how to reroute areas where there's less people so you can easily walk and look around while he holds your stuff. he'd immediately take your shopping bags once the staff bags your items without you having to even touch the handle and hand it to him.

bodyguard!rook who always has either a gun to his body or his bow and arrow nearby just in case of emergencies. if you're afraid of the sound of guns or the sight of a fight, he'd make sure you're safely hidden away where you won't hear or see what's going on. coming back to you perfectly fine just like he always promised.

bodyguard!rook who's there to catch you during your clumsiest moments. whether you nearly run into a pole/wall, trip on the stairs or your own two feet, nearly drop something you're holding, etc. he's immediately there to avoid any more accidents and makes sure to double check everything. and would probably make sure you're paying double attention to what you're doing.