#bi sam winchester

[headcanonforthought]

SPN headcanon thing

Sam is actually the bi-sexual one. Dean flirts with guys and says bi/gay ass shit, but he's straight as an arrow. Has a little bromance with Cas, but that's nothing. Sam is actually the bisexual one. But like a regular bi guy, is intimidated by talking to men. Also, because John Winchester was lowkey homophobic growing up, and Sam already let down John and Dean enough, he can't come out. So Sam F's woman, and doesn't let a word slip about being bi. All while Dean carries on 15 different bromances with humans and monsters while being straight. Eventually, one night when Dean and Sam are drinking, Sam gets fed up with Dean's constant flirting with men. Pulling a, 'It's not fair you flirt with all those guys, you're not even gay, I'm bi and I can't get them to talk to me, it's not fair' and Sam is horrified because OMFG he just outed himself. And Deans like... 'It's because I'm a hot twink, and you're a stuck-up nerd' And that's the end of the conversation. They never talk about Sam being Bi again, but when he makes out with a chill werewolf, Dean like, 'Nice'.

[passocaandshortcake]

Me and the sweet tooth archangel i pulled by being the devil's true vessel

[fr3sh-c0rn]

Something that will be forever funny to me is John's inability to create children that aren't queer

[supernaturalkickparty]

So anyway i was thinking pilot au, Dean breaks in and instead of SamJess, Dean finds SamBrady.

Dean's of course all "right on, Sammy's got a boyfriend...but my brother is still a dork why are you with him?" Because y'know, sibling behavior.

Anyway Sam leaves with Dean blah blah blah lady in white, Sam's been kinda antsy being away from Brady and he isn't sure why.

Sam goes back to apartment and Brady is pinned to the ceiling and goes up in flames. The next few days are extremely rough, Sam doesn't eat/drink/sleep and he's been a wreck and both brothers just chalk it up to mourning.

Dean does his best, baby brother lost the love of his life and he's really hurting.

After about a week or two Sam's somewhat ok, he doesn't feel as shaky or like he's full on dying.

Dean tells him they'll get their revenge for mom and Brady.

Sam just thinks he'll never fall in love like that again.

Jump to season 4 with Ruby, when she kisses him, when that first taste of demon blood hits his tongue.

He's almost too caught up in the moment but his mind is still running wild, it hits him.

Brady.

This is exactly how it felt being with Brady.

He doesn't know what to make of it and he's too afraid to ask.

[jackklinemybeloved]

god it just clicked that ty olsson played that vampire in s2 who hits on sam (“sure it’s hard to be lonely”) as a queer man. during an episode written by someone who wanted sam to be bisexual but was shot down so could only sneak stuff like that in. idk what my point really is it’s just. in retrospect. even though supernatural was supposed to be a macho show about guns and monsters. there was queerness there all along because queerness is just. around.

I think that might be beautiful.

[lukesfrag]

Destihellers be like: "Sam is homophobic! 😡🤬"

Meanwhile Sam and Paul in 99 Problems:

[cam-ulu29]

y’know, we could have had a gay supernatural ship if you guys hadn’t hivemind hyperfixated on Destiel. Jensen? never gonna let his straight character get thrown to the rabid fans. Jared? Would have marched straight (haha) onto set and demanded to establish his bi character’s little bi-ness. Sam with his ‘I just want to be normal’ storyline. Sam ‘I experimented in college’ Winchester. Sam with his ‘even that young, I knew’ and JARED, the fucking lgbt ACTIVIST, would have been thrilled to do it. But noooo, you saw the straightest white boy ever and had to go after him.

What chemistry do they even have? All they do is stare into each other’s eyes, and that’s because Castiel doesn’t know how to people and Dean don’t back down from a good staring contest. Give me Sam and Cas, when Cas almost killed Sam and then told him his life was too precious and he was worth more. Sam who fell in love at first sight and constantly sought Castiel’s approval for seasons after. Sam and Cas, with their shared Lucifer trauma. Cas, who came looking for righteousness among men and found it in the man he didn’t expect. Sam who smiled at his little dorky moments and encouraged him when he tried something new, who trusted him about Jack, cried when he died, and never took him for granted.

[mlekom3]

God bless spooky-angel-eddie

sastiel nation... where are you sastiel nation..

[reverseteehee]

meme

[targaryenchester]

god gives the hardest battles to his strongest soldiers. (to Dean Winchester)

[mickeys-been-staying-at-ians]

So Dean is fucked up after Cas is taken into the Empty obviously, all melancholy, no sleep, drinking too much, you know his gist. Sam probably tries to get him to talk about it, but he would never tell him everything Cas said, you know. So Dean is miserable, and Sam is miserable, but THEY DON'T STOP trying to get Cas back.

And they do, somehow. So Cas appears somewhere in the library or wherever they were Doing What Brought Him Back and there's a second of confused, vulnerable silence because this can't be real don't believe it's real he's gonna disappear and it's gonna suck all over again but he stays, and looks at Dean, and then Dean is hugging him, clutching him like... well, like everything that happened, happened, and they're breathing each other in. Cas hasn't had the chance to think about what it all means, yet, so he's not overthinking it. Then they break apart, and Dean has tears in his eyes and his lower lip is shaking, and while Sam hugs Cas, too, Dean's body is like, shutting down, months of exhaustion (physical and emotional) catching up to him, and he feels it coming, so when Sam gets Cas to sit down, making him drink some water, Dean's like "I'm just gonna-" and he's running into his room and he doesn't even make it inside before he starts sobbing. He's sitting against his bed, his face in his hands, all wet now, when Sam comes in. Maybe he knocked, maybe not, Dean couldn't hear him. And he tries to cover himself a little, but Sam sees anyway, and he's so tired, so he just. Doesn't care.

And Sam says, "Dean, don't hide from him" and Dean isn't sobbing anymore but he's still crying into his palms, saying "I'm so tired, Sammy" and Sam knows. He doesn't know what happened between Dean and Cas but Cas said he did something and now Dean wouldn't feel comfortable around him. So, you know. Sam can guess, a little.

So he says, "He thinks you don't want anything to do with him anymore" and "you should go talk to him" and Dean is like "I can't" and he doesn't know why, maybe because he's exhausted, or because he doesn't know what to say to him , or because Cas sacrifised himself for him again, or because he told him he loved him and turned Dean's world upside down and disappeared, or maybe because he's scared.

And Sam knows this is all happening in Dean's head and he knows some of it is whispered to him in their dad's voice, so he says, "you know nothing in the world would ever change how I think of you," and Dean's head snaps towards him, wet with bloodshot eyes, confused and terrified, but he doesn't say anything, so Sam asks, "what really happened down there?" and Dean knows Sam knows. There's a hand squeezing his heart and lungs and he can't breathe, and Sam knows, and Dean wishes he could go back to when it wasn't even an option.

"He's your best friend," Sam says, and he is, he is, he's Dean's best friend, above all else, it's not just sacrifises and battles and blood and desperate confessions, it's also movies and music and inside jokes, so Dean asks Sam to get Cas. He does, and leaves them in Dean's room alone. And Dean says "don't ever die for me again" and "you think you saved me but i was barely alive" and "next time we die together" which is maybe a little fucked up, but he's feeling so raw. He says, "you're my best friend" and looks at Cas, hoping Cas hears everything he isn't saying, how Cas is the most important person in all the universes to Dean. He's family, but he doesn't say that, doesn't want Cas to think he's family like anyone else, because Cas is more. To Dean, Cas is- something Dean won't say yet, but he is.

And they have a quiet dinner with Sam because they're all tired, and Cas showers while they turn on the TV and bring out a couple of beers, and they act like it's a normal day in their life. Dean's head keeps falling and his eyes keep closing, his temples aching, but he stays, and at some point Sam goes to sleep, and when they're alone Cas tries to get Dean to go, too, but he keeps coming up with lame excuses to stay and Cas doesn't know what to make of it until he thinks maybe Dean doesn't want to be alone, or even - maybe Dean doesn't want to leave Cas alone, maybe he's scared something will happen to him again, or maybe he wants to just - be with Cas longer. And Cas is completely out of his element, because why would Dean- But it doesn't matter. His priority has always been Dean's well-being, so if there's any chance Dean is pushing himself because of - some of that, Cas will step up.

So he asks Dean if he can sleep in Dean's room tonight because he doesn't want to be alone. And there's a blaring red light going off in Dean head, screaming he knows he knows he knows Dean wants him to... what? Dean doesn't even know. Cas is asking as if for himself, for Dean's benefit, and Dean. God. Dean loves him, doesn't he? He's always loved him, but he loves him like... like... but he doesn't think it, still. He feels too open, now, and he wants to lock himself in his room and sleep it off and drink and stop feeling so vulnerable, he thinks he must be an open book to everyone, to Cas especially, and god, could people always tell? Can Cas tell, now? But why does it matter? Cas told him- he told him-

But none of it matters, because Cas is here, and he's offereing Dean an easy way out, and Dean is a weak, weak man, and he's exhausted and all he wants is to breathe Cas' air and know he's here, and not going anywhere.

So Dean puts on an old T-shirt and gets out of his jeans like he always does before realizing Cas is here. He flushes all over, sits down on his bed because he didn't think about how this was gonna go. Cas glances at the desk as if he was gonna sit in his chair the whole night, and Dean doesn't actually know if Cas sleeps now or doesn't, which he maybe should've thought of before, but before he can say anything, Cas says, "Dean, I don't want to make you uncomfortable" and Dean, completely lost, says the first thing that comes to his mind, which is, "can you lie down with me?" which is not exactly how he was gonna tell Cas he's the opposite of uncomfortable with him, but it does the trick. He makes Cas get out of his dress pants and gives him a T-shirt to sleep in, too, and flushes even more when he realizes what Cas is wearing. Dean lies down when Cas steps towards the bed, faces the wall because he doesn't know what to do with himself. They lie in silence for an awkward moment before Cas says, "are we okay?" and Dean says, "of course we are" and Dean knows Cas is still overthinking it, and he is, too, but... Cas took the leap, and he must feel so uncertain about them, and Dean thinks he owes him something, at least. Cas told him he loved him. Nothing felt right since then, because Cas died and because Cas thought he could never have what he wanted and because Cas thought he wasn't the most important person in Dean's life with Sammy, whatever that meant, and because Dean had to come to terms with that reality, a reality where Cas loves him, has loved him, him, Dean, broken and all. A man. A man Cas thought beautiful, and loving, and- and Dean has many issues, but Cas was never one of them, and Cas deserves to feel certain about his place in Dean's life.

So Dean asks Cas to come closer, and there's a still moment before Cas does, still too far away from Dean, and Dean can't see him, can't make himself turn because his heart is beating so loud he thinks if he looks at Cas, it's gonna beat out of his chest. So he reaches behind himself, finds Cas' hand and brings it forward, keeps it between his hands and brings them to his face. Breathes Cas in. "Please don't leave again" he says, in that tone he used when he prayed to Cas. He feels Cas shift, finally, as if he lost some of the tension from his body, feels the bed dip behind him, and he doesn't know how Cas moves but then Dean's back is pressed against Cas' front, and despite his beating heart, Dean is feeling the exhaustion start to take him. "Cas, I..." he tries, but he can't think anymore, can't make sense of anything.

"You can fall asleep, Dean," Cas says, his words warm in Dean's hair and the last thing he hears before sleep takes him is "I will be here when you wake up."

So when Dean wakes up, it's to a heavy arm around his chest and slow breaths against the back of his head. There's no moment of confusion about who he's with, or why. He doesn't even get a second to consider if it was real before Cas says "good morning, Dean" and Dean wonders if Cas slept at all. If he needs to sleep, now. There's so much they need to talk about, all three of them.

"Cas," he tries again, remembereing his attempt from last night. He needs Cas to know, for sure. "Cas, I - what you said. You know I. I've never..." and Cas is like "I know, Dean" but he sounds a little confused, so Dean doensn't know what Cas thinks he knows. So he turns, takes a second to notice how close they are now, and he thinks about Cas' eyes, his lips. Thinks, soon.

"You have to know," he says, as if Cas didn't say anything. "You have to know how I - what I" and he can't get the words out, not sure if it would be easier if there were no words to get out or if there were no voices in his head screaming over them. So he breathes in, Cas' scent overtaking his senses, brings his palm to Cas' face. Closes his eyes. Thinks, soon. Thinks, now, and meets Cas halfway.

[cuntiel]

He would

[strawlessandbraless]

Dean, babe I fear the call is coming from inside the house

[deancasforcutie]

Dean complimenting fellow queer people on their game

Bonus inverse, trying to out-game someone to vicariously flirt for/with your presumed-but-not-at-all-straight friend who has no game whatsoever:

[ilostmyshoe28]

Dean: I’m bike selectional

Dean: I’m bisectional

Sam: take your time

Dean: men

[flowersintheimpala69]

So insane that deans siren isn’t just Sam but the person the siren makes Dean kill, who for all the other victims has been their wives/gfs, is also sam. Sam is deans greatest desire and his gf according to Sex and Violence. Insane.