#bht im also tired
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#bunny or zombie...#both?#nah...#maybe?#i dunno if i like the style this is coming out in#but i have an idea#bht im also tired#idk#elliot rambles#wip art#zombiesona
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i'm well aware there are single parents out there working full time but i think working full time and living alone with my dog is about to put me in a psychward
#why cant i handle what other people seem to handle effortlessly lmao#im so fucking exhausted and burnt-out i need demonic possession to save me or smth#like please @ random demon you will do a better job for sure#idk its like. my dog is now spending so much time alone when im at home that i feel really guilty#if i wanna go out or do anything that doesnt involve her#i have no damn time and energy#i might spend half a free day cleaning but its all a mess anyway#and then i will come back home like today just exhausted after 5 days of work in a row#and i just wanna take her for a walk and get myself smth to eat and chill a little#and i find! is poop all over the damn floor i finally managed to wash like a day ago#and it stinks so fucking bad i nearly throw up cleaning up#and then have a breakdown in the bathroom. as you do.#HOW DO PEOPLE LIVE LIKE THIS I AM SO FUCKING EXHAUSTED#its also not fair to my dog idk this sucks so much#i doubt anyone read all this bht if you did hi and sorry#needed to vent unfortunately#wah im TIRED
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I am so tired of being tired all the time. But im too tired to do anything abt it. Surely one more nap will fix me
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i have like two physical stims and ten thousand vocal stims and my girlfriend is sick of this really. hates to see autistic boys winning
#kidding she loves meee 🤍we just call late at night and i am either at level 100 or level 2#mostly 100 💀. so much energy in me i’m like an overexcited dog i imagine#sometimes i do just get up and move (dance) around my room and then i’m sooo out of breath and im still..woosh <They get the zoomies guys#now these things can all be true bht it can also be true i am like a soggy piece of paper most days. so tired Always. but also-
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doing art really is the only thing that can cure me actually HHGGGGG
#will delete this later i jus. auagh#smth smth issall i have that makes me feel sane <3#i might get myself a screen tablet bc its getting really hard to work with mt current one and its breaking down maybe thats why ive been in#such a bad art block lately bc its not cooperating me at all but also its so…expensive HAHAH👍 IT MAKES ME CRY#bht also i jus do not feel good about how i draw in general rn#and i want to achieve so much more but. <\3#im also. so ridiculously tired from working god i do not kno how long i can keep this up honestly and ik its only downhill from here HHGGG#CHEERS.#im passing out for real now actually
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Sooo! Nn DIALTOWN HEADCANONS!! (Tw there are brief mentions of suicide-) [ill get to dsaf headvanons in a different post]
(Also there's a LOT.)
Gingi:
• phonegingi and typegingi are separate beings.
• biology is determined on whats funniest in context.
• can change their sex at will,, like a frog,
• sometimes sleeps at the foot of norms bed like some fatass dog /lovingly /inspiredby that one nrom blog
• they have an immense dislike of beans.
• when asked about any sort of beans they get defensive.
• red-green colour blind
• purrs,,
• has adhd ,,, because,, they,, akt like me,, *
• thinks the narrator and it are homoerotic, the narrator just wants to go home.
• has a hang in there cat poster in its tent.,, stole it from Billy's alternary school when smuggling him out to ask for help summoning satan.
• likes liquorice.
• every 1-3 years gingi has to get a rabies shot. WILL NOT go alone. Has to get someone to take her or else he IS biting a veterinarian.
• Gingi has broken a limb before, they tried gnawing it off but got distracted by an un-watched construction site (gravel yummy yummy)
Karen
• were married. /JOKR.. /perchance?!
• is not only protective of romantic companions (me rn: 🤓👆),, just anyone she likes.
• she doesn't stim often (repressing it n whatnot), but when she does its usually something simple like bouncing onto her heels. *
• HATTTEEESSS blueberries. Oh my god unless they're ripe in the right way she physically cannot make herself eat them. Likes the taste but GOD she cant deal with them. *
• sometimes when she has a painting she didn't like the outcome of, she lets gingi gnaw on it. (She uses non-toxic paints when painting near gingi)
• smart, but she can make dumb decisions out of impulse.
• goth phase, but eventually got out of it because she just.. Didn't like it anymore.
• girlboss, i love her! !!
• her boss HATED her!
• sometimes she gets art block and stares at the canvas, contemplating if shes actually an artist.
• found a leaf that looked strangely like Charlie Chaplin, showed it to gingi and gingi devoured it instantly.
Randal.
• Randy finds it very hard to sleep naturally!! He will curl up around the airvent in the ticket booth.
• shares a braincell with Oliver n Karen.
• as pathetic as he is, can be pretty damn assertive at times.
• not sexually, bro would be shook if he held your HAND.
• he daydreams about some disney ass "getting pushed onto the dance floor and #ROCKING IT!!!!! " (If he got pushed onto a dance floor hed cry.)
• HAS drempt (dreampt? ) about invader zim and rainbow dash frim mlp beating the shit out of him. Has cried to Oliver about it, and Oliver asked if he did or did not deserve their beating,, in the dream.
• honestly kinda in love with Oliver.
• has honestly known Karen a BIT longer than hes known Oliver,, probably met her after leaving his dads house at 16.
• anytime he passes by the swan pond while walking back to the funfair, he starts shaking
• religious trauma, but meeting god kinda eased his fears a bit
• maybe it was the whole "god is really just an alcoholic hobo.. Hm... Maybe im nOT going to hell! He just like me fr! ",, still scared of him tho since if his life got that bad god aint in control.
• ASS EYESIGHT!! cant afford repairs.
• Randy will scarf down ANY food given. Hes usually nervous about being given stuff, but food? No questions asked, already consumed
Oliver
• has some crazy ass habits
• OLIVER IS SMART. IM TIRED OF PRETENDING HES NOT. HE CAN ACT ON IMPULSE, YES, HE CAN MAKE BAD DECISIONS, YEAH, HELL HE CAN SAY DUMB/IMMATURE SHJT BHT HE UD SMAR HE ISS SMA
• actually a pretty good welder, just sometimes uses it for... Evil.
• he welded a dick then him and gingi giggled about it for 38 minutes. He hides it around the scareshack sometimes and when mr dickens finds it, he sighs and places it somewhere new to continue this GOD AWFUL game.
• jokes about committing crimes, but wouldn't,, chaotic good type shiz.
• romance is boring ahh self.*
• likes randy,, but subtly, since hes greyromantic
• once listened to "kiss me son of god" by they might be giants so long he felt physical withdrawal when he WASN'T listening to it. Would pay money to listen to it for the first time again. ****
• used to overbind just because hed forget hes wearing a binder. Average conversation would be like "god randy i feel sick as FUCKK... " "maybe get that checked out..? " "like my chest hurts n shit,, iunno if its actually serious but it does hurt" ".. Oliver are you wearing the binder thingy... If thats what its called-? "*
• Oliver speaks in stage directions, instead of right, he says "stage left"
Bigfoot
• it takes a lot to coax Bigfoot into the city, usually more responsive when karen does it.
• no longer allowed near a car. *
• actually knows several languages, just doesn't speak.
• dude its Bigfoot what can i say, he like 'naners.
Norm
• INTRUSIVE thoughts. Bro is tweaking. *
• whenever he gets intrusive thoughts he feels PHYSICALLY SICK. Like one he gets is doing what he was going to do in the bad ending. One bullet for mingus, one for himself. He wouldn't, definitely not. Giving up his happy ending would be stupid and he knows that. He cant control it though. Thats what intrusive thoughts are. He has yet to tell anybody about them. (Yes im starting his hcs with these two)
• bisexual, had the awakening during his isolation.. Fill in the blanks.
• the hat he wears is,, thank god,, not the infamous erotica hat. Though he has yet to get RID of the erotica hat.
• used to play bloody knuckles. I SWEAR ITS FUN*
• bickers with Mingus a lot, but sometimes they're calm (prolly after some hijinks.)
• was a fucking hOMO for Callum, it was not mutual, and he knew that.*
(tHIS IS NOT ME VILLAIN-IZING ANYONE HERE ITA OKAY TO NOT LIKE SOMEONE BACK I JUST NEED TO ADD TJIS DISCLAIMER BECAUSE SOEM PEOPLE FUCKING SUCK)
• God gets him to make omelettes sometimes. Norm is somewhat freaked out by it, but does it nonetheless because its fucking god.
• sometimes sees bad edits of spaceships going into space on Facebook reels... And he HAS gotten nostalgic over it. *
• isn't ready to date anybody, no siree, but he is able to form close bonds. And thats okay!!!
• sleeps with a rifle under his pillow*
• after little to no contact with fellow humans for YEARS, he is DOGSHIT at several social cues. I dont know if its the autism or the isolation anymore.... Vro also doesn't know about several important events!
• ended up giving gingi a turnip so theyd DHUT UP.
• asked my dad for ideas, he just "double cheeseburger". I dont know what this means.
• The ink spots fan at heart 💖
Mayor Mingus
• The mingling has a specific pin to show they're in it, but nobody knows what it means so they just look fruity. Mingus didn't accept the pin idea, but they did it any ways. She REFUSES to acknowledge the fact she put it on a board in her office.
• Has cat like behaviors,, obviously,, but sometimes shit like purring shows and she HATES it.
• post chapter 3, shes less frantic about fixing callum, but wont put him down,, never.
• head overheats easily become cats cant sweat (a lot)
• tries to get people to shut up as soon as possible, but will negotiate if she deems it necessary. *
• strangely knows "McDonald's lore". Doesn't elaborate.
• Mingus and the rest of the mingling are back as a group, gods no longer in it and bunnys there!!
• has a list of citizen's she dislikes immensely!! If this got leaked, she'd be in big trouble. *
• catnip works. Well. Too well.
• tango will find her high off her ass on catnip,,, just staring at a lamp like a fucking moth.
• The mingling isnt ENTIRELY incompetent now that bunnys back, theyre kinda together as a crime force. Shooty and stabby have yet to be given real weapons but they're still there so the REST of the mafia can say "Honey... We can call the MAYOR for this disrespect. "
• Passively aggressively says "Im fine. " if shes pissed off. [Needs al-kee-hol.. Aka milk]*
• walks her paw-paw around the nursing home just to keep him a little fit. Callum does NOT know who thos strange cat lady is but hes okay with that.
• tired mom-core
• AROACSE!!!! ACE!!! ARO!!!*
[The next characters wont have as many headcanons.]
Abel
• his complaining taught everyone his legal name was "Unabel". Everyone calls him that now.
• Drinks on the job.
• going through a messy divorce. He started it.
• Abelvynny??!!!
• hes alergic to peppermint and coconut.
• strange deja vu when he sees certain phones,, like... Whoever the hell Joe and Harry are, and Tango too for some reason. It confuses him and he does NOT like it.
Bunny
• ABEL DIVORCED HIS ASS WHILE BUNNY WAS IN THE HOSPITAL.
• Disabled because of getting slammed with a fucking machine.
• has prosthetic legs,, because,,, getting slammed with madame mediocre,, AND a call back to callum crown.
• ALSO drinks on the job
• doesn't actually like rabbits, changed his name for marketing.
• eats lemons. *
God / Local Hobo
• RARELY gets seriously mad, and when they do, its not that bad
• Churches weird him out,, but doesn't really care. *
• everyone in town knows them in some way.
• hes the one who pissed on the bank floor
• doesn't actually like eating waffles. He'll eat anything but waffles just are for decorative purposes in his mind.
• genderfluid,, but hes usually too drunk to use anything other than he/they.. Used to use everything though. Maybe when sober they'll use she/her,, but again, rarely sober.
• also has a feminine voice,,, just for sillies. *
Shooty n Stabby
• team rocket type shit
• they datin. They queer.
• their head was done by some dude in an alleyway between an applebees and a hospital.
• Originally he knife headed one is stabby, the gun headed one is shooty. They don't know that,, because they only call eachother "bro".
• dialtown mob isn't even that bad.. They're just incompetent. Like zim compared to the rest of the irken empire. Im sorry invader zim brainrots getting to me.
• HAD good weapons before, because mingus didn't know how shitty they were. Never again. Mingus learnt her lesson.
Theoraur Rustlebelt (famed adventurer and explorer)
• chronic back pain from wrangling large animals. Pain
• Put traps outside of gingis tent, gingi ate them
• sleeps holding a gun.
• says bully so much because its FUCKUNG A FUN WORD OKAY I UNDERSTAND THE HYPWY,, BULLY IS A FUN FUCKJNV WKRD*
• likes the colour green a little.. Too much, just doesn't ever wear it.
Little Billy
• Drinks pure ketchup and its scary. *
• Neurodivergent ,, *
• weed. Lots. [[[Most people thinks it's just kid shit, hes high. who gave him weed. ]]]
• Likes breakcore music (like atari teenage riot and machine girl ) *
• hates everyone equally ♡*
• peanut allergy,, but he mainly eats macaroni so does it matter????
• has one of those silly ass spinny chairs to keep him focused in mingling meetings,, but still easily diverges topic [SPINNY CHAOR IDEA WAS TAKEN FROM SOMEONE ELSS BHT I FORGOT FROM WHOM]
• knows a little too much about knives.*
• favourite knife is a bowie knife, since he finds the history neat. Thinks Jim Bowie did some SICK stuff... But like,, jim bowies still a terrible person and he knows it. Stoll that standoff was epic. This is self projecting im sorry***
• lies a lot, even when not needed. *
• picks up spiders and gives them to people he dislikes. *
• aroace,, but hes 7 so he doesn't know yet.. Nor care.
END!!!!! the amount of aroace headcanons is for a spECIFIC REASON!! (im aroace.)
#dialtown#dialtown phone dating sim#dialtown typegingi#dialtown little billy#dialtown norm#dialtown gingi#dialtown karen#dialtown oliver#dialtown randy#dialtown mingus#mayor mingus#the mingling#dialtown theoroar#dialtown bunny#abelbunny#dialtown abel#dialtown phonegingi#dialtown bigfoot#bigfoot#dialtown narrator#dialtown headcanons#headcanons
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god really must fucking hate me because what the fuck i dont ever have that dream. ever. not anymore. or well at least it has not happenwd in months or maybe a yearish
jts just ljke okay worst possible time. but i wasnt able tk see the person this time??? no it wasnt even a random person it was just him. it qas him again bht jts not like i was suddenly 6 again i was still the same age. just bothers me because it will always play out the same way though and what do i do?(? sit through it. i dont ever fight back. when it happened in real life i did but in my dreams i never havw the strength to and idk why. i truly just let it happen to me and i take it. was just amused even slightly that he was there. because why did i crash out in my dream it was weird just because him comforting me did help a bit and i just think abt it irl. truly i have gotten to a. better point abt it now i think. i am so much more comfortable in that aspect and really he is the only one who can help me in that sort of way. in fact i WANT him to touch me in those sorts of situations to prove to me that i am not evil but it jusr sucked waking up and realizing he was not there fully. so idk. laying there feeling ljke what jusr happened was real again and kept trying to fight rhat stupid ass tingling i get . like nobody is touching me but i feel disgusting and jt wont leave me alone . its nust like eeuuguggguugg bad timing also the dream w mrs kefalas??? that is so? embarrassing??? and why was i in mr sibleys class wirh mr jensen??? and why did he lash me so bad and why was i publicly ridiculed truly i am so scared. i dont want to go back go sleep if either if these happen again. maybe the first one a little nore but the second one still bad. er. ish.
idk i jusr i am a little too tired to really fully crash out abt it im more of hust pushing it out my mind. like that old jd dream. i just misss my husband i think bur i keep getting that guilty feeling everytime i do and idk why. makes it worse when he tells me he misses me too becausw why is it double sided why am i not just. pining for you. then i could justify my own self hatred but i cant do that if toy feel the same way 🙂↕️ but its whatever i need to stop ive crashed out tio mhch within the past few hours ill see tryly if i can hust sleep it off
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9/24
a lot happened…
also im still tired because am dehydrated i didnt eat much becuz i was too busy studying
cody wont stop swearing, his whole vocabulary is now just swear words and he’s getting ruder☹️i should remind him to stop because i dont want him to hurt my friends
some escalations happened today but it was kinda like a kindergarten fight.. lately conflict was happening a lot at lunch i kinda just got used to it bht i still worry
might have another story tomorrow😭i sound dry sorry i should sleep
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You know Labyrinth by Miracle Musical?
HEAR ME OUT OKAY?? IT'LL BE A BIT JAMBKED CAUSE IM JAMBLED ALSO EXCUSE MY GRAMMAR I JUS WANAN SAY MY THOUGHTS RQ
Okay so yk how big mama trapped all of new york in that ball? and the boys had to play a lil game with someone they've fought? Well I was thinking, what if big mama didn't trap new york but the hamato fam (invluding April cause SHES FAMILY) EXCEPTT for Leo. The timeline is def when they first met Big mama because Leo was the ONLYY one who was actually skeptical and regarding Splinter and April getting trapped with the boys, Big mama's 'assistant (im actually not sure if thats what they are but that silly lil masked person) follows April to the layer and attacks them eventually succeeding! Now onto Leo's role in this silly lil game. Big mama basically puts Leo in a maze (like the one at Hueso') and tells him that if he doesn't continue forward and fights every person that gets in his path, then she will murder his family. Leo, although hesitant at first, agrees to big mama's terms.. I would also like to add that he CANNOTT use his portals unless its to go back to a location he already passed, if he is spotted by one of the many foes in the maze then he can't portal either and has to use his swords to fight. These enemies in there WILL try and kill him, no matter if Leo surrenders or not, the only way for Leo to actually pass through is through murder or defeat.
As Leo is slowly getting sick and tired of the fear he has when he has to check around every corner carefully to make sure there's no one there, terrified and traumatized from the blood he has spilled at the hands of his odachi's (PLEASEE CORRECT ME IF THIS ISNT THE CORRECT NAME FOR EM) though.. through all the blood-spill, the tears, the fear, and determination! His family has been watching. Leo doesn't know that they are, though Leo has been getting this haunting feeling that his every movement is being recorded or watched.
RAHHH I CANT THINK ANY STORY BHT LIKE BASICALLY NEAR THE END LEO MAKES A DEAL WITH BIG MAMA TO BECOME A NEXUS CHAMP FOR HER IF SHE LETS HIS FAMILY GO, AND SHE DOESS :D!! BUT LEO WILL NEVER EVER SEE THEM AGAIN DUE TO BEING LOCKED UP AND HIS ONLY CONTACT BEING FIGHTING IN THE BATTLE NEXUS !! (Probably not tho I don't rlly like that ending ngl but then again not sure :D!!)
#Rottmnt #Rottmntau #imtired #:D!!
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I fucking love these massagers-
So I just finished giving them a good test run and holy hell 😳 it was amazing- it was just a chefs kiss all together
Thought I was practically dying both before and after I absolutely loved every minute of those damn massgers but
JESUS ANTICIPATION MUCH-
Jesus like ok. So right now it's like 2 42 jn the morning and here I am board (just finished drawing a oc still need to do the background) and I'm like Jesus I'm board but also tired bjt not tired to go to sleep qnd I just fuckin had no mood at all
Like for people who know me. Who think that as soon as I got the massgers I'd give them a test run right away (cause of how lee I can get and how practically everyday in like please God someone send me the tks)
But no I was like. When I opened them and just gave them a mini run just a quick touch on the foot you'd think I'd be flustered enough to actually give them a run. No no I didn't. Not even yesterday did I give them a thought.
Bht then all of a fucking sudden I decide to read a fic cause I'm board. And then I got flustered thinking about those damn massgers and how I wanted to do a dream tk thing and I was like pfft I ain't gonna ve that flustered
Yeah I was flust3red thinking about it but I wasn't full blown flustered as I usually thinking of stuff like that.
So me being the God damn smart ass I was. Laughing thinking oh nooo I'm soo flusyered in a sarcastic fucking tone. Until I start getting the tools ready and then it hit me.
Let me fuckint tell you how fast and hard did the flusterness hit me-
Felt like I was fucking meting a ler face to face for the first time qnd they judt asked me to sit next to them. But I'm just so flustered too thw point my face was probably a fucking tomato from how hard I was blushing. Slowly walking up and just being as slow as possible.
To say the least the progress was slow- very very very very very very very very slow-
And right qhen I thought I was ready then I got anothor fucking idea. Baby oil- Back back in the day. Like im talkin 6th grade- Before I even fuckin had tumbler(yeah yeah i know hkw the hell did i know baby oil and shit. Its called i looked up tk videos on youtube when i was sad in the 4th grade and didnt know any god damn better and shit. And basically i saw all these fuckin tools and shit. Lookin up wvery tk tool in the book and well here i am. A fucking tk nerd) I bought baby oil and to this day I still have it. Crazy but I still have it. Damn I'm getting too old- lmao.
So any way I slowly get up from NY bad and slowly very very- *ya yall get the point with the very slowly shit) grab it and set down on my bed
Ag this point I'm just thinking to myself what have I gotten myself into- I am absolutely terrified and flustered and just dying- (so much for oh I'm not gonna get flustered hahaha attuide-)
So here I am trying to figure out how exactly I'm gonna do this. Cause for people who know me or have been reading my blog know that I 👏 can't 👏 keep 👏 a 👏 tool 👏 on👏myself 👏 by👏 myself since this message rotates and had bristles ya know damn well I can't just hold on to it and leave their no I needed extra support.
And no that support isn't a irl ler. That would be nice but ya boi is very very anti social and has social anxiety (jazz hands)
So I used my second best thing tape!
It worked like a charm (I love ya type thank you for helping me stick it when ever I need) yes I just tried to say a pun-
SO FINIALLY AFTER GETTING THEM TAPPED ALL I HAVE TO DO IS TURN THEM ON-
easier said then done-
It took a long amount of courage, curses whines and "oh my fucking gods" to doni5 but I did it
And I fucking died
I was in heaven and hell and holy crapndid it fucking tk-
Practically holding my laughter which had never happened when I'm self tk cause I can hold in my laughter pretty good (unless a ler is wrecking my ass)
BUT JESUS- I HAD TO GRAB MY PLUSH AND HIDE MY FACE. BSNG MY HANDS ON THE GOD DAMN BLANKET AND GRAB AT MY FACE AND HIDE LIKE- AHHHH
AND IN MY HEAD I WAS FLIPPEN THE HELL OUT
MY THOUGHTS WERE LIKE
FUCK FUCK FUCK IT TKS IT TKS TKSSS
NONONOO FUCK NOT THWIR ANYWHERR BUT THEIR
NOHOHOHO THIS ISNT FAIRRR NOT THEEEREEEE
Ohmygodittksitkssomuchiloveitilove
Ohmygodidontwantthistoend
and all that was from one being turned on.
But once I turned the second on on Jesus christ-
IT TKED MUCH MORE THEN THE FUCKING FIRST ONE AND I HSD BOTH ON NOW
AND RIGHT NEAE THE FUCKING END I COULDNT FUND THE DAMN SWITCH TO TURN OFF ONE OF THEM. SND THAT ONE WAS GOING AT IT.
I TURNED THE OTHER ONE OFF BUTBTHE TOHER ONE TOO FOREVER TO FIND THE BUTTON TO TURN OFF
(notsayimgthatiwasntenjoyingitcauseitwasthesecondonetobeturnedonanditwasmuchworsethenthefirstonebuthavingbothonwasimcredible-)
(BasicallyIhadthebesttimeever-)
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see. my problem is that I am a trans autistic asexual immunocompromised motherfucker living in the rural midwest. i.e. I don't date. and yet I'm t4t/q4q and just want to be loved. might as well live on the fricking moon
#me#anyone wanna start a whirlwind long distance romance where we write letters to each other dracula style#actually my real problem is that someone i love also loves me but hes an idiot disaster gay#and hes got too much internalized BS still to realize / admit how he feels for me#weve been tiptoeing around this since we were 12 years old and im so tired#ive dated 4 ppl ever and no one has ever actually chosen me any of those times. you know what i mean?#i dont even mean long term. i mean like my most recent ex who didnt even LIKE ME.#idk i just see the situation differently than i did when i was younger and i feel like shit about it.#it makes me feel like shit.#its some real toxic star crossed lovers BS and i kinda wish it would just end.#as long as im deathly starved for affection i am going to be extra susceptible to thoughts of What If In Another Life.#gotta Move On ykw i mean.#bht like. i do not date. so. how.#hence. dracula letters. old school style.
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Hiii, sorry if this is a bother, but what is seventeen's schedule for 31st? Are they gonna be at mbc or anywhere else? (And if they do a vlive together I'm gonna c r y)
the thing is we don't know what svts schedule is on the 31st. presumably they have some kind of important schedule that prevented them from joining the bighit labels concert, but cheol said not to wait for them today, so the schedule either isnt a public appearance or it got cancelled. plus when I'm answering this there's less than 2 hours left of the 31st in korea so it seems unlikely that they'll be making any big appearances at this point. maybe they'll do a vlive closer to midnight but who knows? 😔
#ask#anon#i woke up to check notifs and decided to answer this since its somewhat time sensitive#but im going to sleep in a bit more bc im tired dhfjfj ill post proper updates later when i wake up properly#alsonim still half asleep so hopefully tbis answer makes sense#also mbc might have already happened idk bht theyre almost definitely not attending#bc mbc and bighit have beef
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i feel very sad and noodley after finishing all of tid
#it is so early 2010s#but i just ska *pulls out saxaphone* idk i got that from watcher puppet history but pretty much im sad and das not fun#and das also not good because i have two math assignments due in one two days and a form to fill out#its where i sign up for another 'hoighrr leavel oaf edaucaation' thing because my previous one was shut down#and it has a bunch of questions like 'why would teachers b glad ur in their class???' i dont bother them and get most of my work done ontime#wow ill just do it here then lol im so bored though nd tired bht just in the way that i dont love quarantine its getting annoying now#i would really like to just be a specter for life ghost time sounds fun i was raised on youtube videos and das not healthy#haha im bored still and prob should stretch im still not fully over my box even after one ish months on pointe yikes#vut im very sad fine fellows a brummagen sort of sad idk dictionary. com gives terrible words of rhe days#pun time pun time to distract from the hole of sadness id hate to hamper you but could you point me to the nearest laundromat? haha funne?#or i got another better one: did you hear about the haunted house? they say its the gHoul est place around :)#my greatest enemy is a skeleton. ive still got a bone to pick withem >:(#i really wish we could just say puns irl just like talking about sweaters and someone gets mad whoah dont get a knit in your stitch darling#im really channeling my inner western cowboy today because I heard abt this nevada town that basically acted out those cowboy cool scenes#every time travelers came around#anyways wild west woot its so romanticized but really its just ...west#ok i have responsibilities i dont want now so instead of frolicking in a medow with my dog (<3)#i am going to do some boring math and kiss my school faculties a88 :) UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN
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phew its been fun witnessing the wreck that's been the 4-part series called the us election including the 2012 tumblr special filler episode time to feel bad
#haha me#meant to do schoolwork today but instead had a burst of motivation to do duo lessons#then meant to do schoolwork but insert span of time i literally dont remember doing anything noteworthy#then meant to do schoolwork but scrolls through pinterest for 1-2hr through those old blurry screenshots of old tumblr posts ranging from#writing tips and prompts to adhd to anxiety to posts abt people talking about the gifted and general education system being fucked up and#looking at shit going wondering if i have an issue or if im once again just lazy or looking for something to pin blame on or#being dramatic and etc#and then meaning to do schooowork bht feeling too tired since its almost midnight and itd be better for me to do it tomorrow when im rested#and then reblog spree#bonus for the shitty self esteem creeping up thinking im the disposable friend in my group which has been really quiet lately#which could easily be explained by them getting jobs and having college classes but i could also just be doing something wrong and#becoming more disliked and having no clue why#on top of this i want to write things and if i go to do it its Not Good#poggers !
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still haven’t cried yet but today broke my whole entire heart
#said goodbye 2 five of my davorite ppl in thr WORLD for the nezt 4 months like. how do we cope. how do we fucking COPE#ueah theres facetime and social media and all that but. nothing beats an in person conversation u know? nothing beats being in ur company :(#and it was my last time in the office and on campjs too and like. hm. i am reduced to a 3rd of myself i think. but also it doesnt feel real#ive been very numb today and i know its a protective measure so i wont be in pain bht like. what inconvenient timing... i wuld like to feel#something. and i mean i did feel something which was Quite A Lot Of Sadness but i still dont think its actually hit me that like... thats it#and i really am not gonna see them again for so long. my stomach is in literal knots rn i....... 😔#how do we cope hw do we fucking cope...#also im just like. so tired. more tired than sad j think. that took so much out of me emotionally and yet my emotions havent... caught up#quite yet. but i already feel empty... like a huge part of my head and heart are missing. and i havent eben taken off yet but this is hard.#purrs#like these are my People! the people i Love! how can i Be without them u know? how can i. how can i leave like this when i love tbem so much#agh. its so hard. i hurt so much but i do but i dont but i do but i dont and im empty but full but empty but full. i hurt and i dont hurt.#also i know im coming back so this is kust a see you later but... it really is more permanent than that in a way. cuz its like goodbye to th#me i am and the you you are right now in this moment... and we arent gonna get to see wach other growing and when i get back we’ll all be#different even thi we’re still the same. and well its just a lot!
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what a beautiful day to remember that sometimes things are Nuanced and are not, inherently, all good or all evil. sometimes the value of something is.... dependent on outside factors
#i really am just going to delete this later bht im so tired of absolutism#this is a personal life thing not a Tungle dot Hell thing#but its also the platfirm where my family doesnt know i exist so#hhhhh#dl
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