#benji's asks

[drunken--raccoon]

New pinned post since my old one disappeared (😐)

Hi! My name is Benji, and I'm 25. I'm anorexic, and have been for 14 years. I'm supposed to be in recovery but uhhhhhh I'm not LOL. I'm also diagnosed with depression, anxiety, BPD, PTSD, and ADHD. I mainly use my blog for memes and venting

Stats below the cut lol

HW: 158.0 lbs

LW: 104.8 lbs

CW: 115.4 lbs (BMI 22.5)

GW1: 120.0 lbs

GW2: 115 lbs

GW3: 110 lbs

GW4: 105 lbs

GW5: 100 lbs

GW6: 104 lbs

UGW: 65 lbs (lol)

[benjinotes]

𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫 - 𝐛𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐢𝐜𝐨𝐭 𝐛𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐤𝐰𝐨𝐨𝐝

request: hi, can you do one shot of jealous, Benji? One of the Black's allies tries to flirt with her, maybe

pairings: benjicot blackwood x fem (bracken) reader

warnings: jealousy, little spicy, a little angst w//happy ending, mentions of violence and blood.

ask me for permission before translating

Benjicot Blackwood should hate you, despise you even.

Your homes fueled an animosity that went back generations, rooted in ancient disputes and rivalries, and the hatred he harbored for you was so intense and overwhelming that it infiltrated every thought, every action, and every cell in his body.

That burning resentment consumed his soul in such a way that he almost couldn't remember anything else when he was with you, as if his very existence had been eclipsed by your presence.

But despite this deep hatred, there was something inexplicable and profound that pulled him towards you-an irresistible force that he could not understand.

Each small encounter, no matter how full of hostility and provocation, revealed a complexity of emotions that went beyond the pure aversion felt by any of your ancestors toward each other.

And the fine line between love and hate began to blur; Benjicot found himself increasingly lost in this tangle of conflicting and bewildering feelings, now completely unable to ignore the disturbing fascination that you held over him.

Watching from afar as you spoke to Cregan Stark, he fixed his burning gaze in your direction. The expression on his face was a mixture of anger and a little sadness, which only increased as you approached Cregan or smiled in his direction. He was hating it; he wanted so badly to stop that interaction, and his veins burned for him to do so.

However, Benjicot was aware that he could not act hastily, especially in the presence of practically the entire court and Queen Rhaenyra Targaryen's loyal allies who occupied that room. Furthermore, the presence of your brother, positioned behind you, did not help at all; he watched him with an arched eyebrow and a wry smile, an expression that Benji felt an almost irresistible impulse to confront with a punch.

Yet, he contained himself, being aware of the consequences that his actions could have in that place, and turned his angry gaze from your direction to one of the nobles who were next to him while trying to hide the wave of jealousy that was boiling inside him. The feeling of you being so close to another man who wasn't his made him nervous and uncomfortable, and he could already start to feel the collar of your tunic tightening his neck.

But he wanted to beat Cregan Stark; damn it, he wanted to rub Lord Stark's face in the ground just for the simple fact that the man thought he was worthy enough to even talk to you.

No one was worthy enough of you, not even himself.

"Are you alright?" Benji heard his aunt's voice filled with concern, but he just nodded, ignoring the shards of glass embedded in his hands from his tight grip on the wine glass.

She simply nodded, he could notice her eyes showing distrust, as she turned her attention to the lords of House Royce in a conversation that Benji honestly made no attempt to hear.

He returned to observing you with a forced seriousness, trying to ignore the pain from the cuts on his hands caused by the broken glass.

However, the pain he felt physically was quickly replaced by another overwhelming feeling of jealousy and sadness as he realized that now you were not only talking like before with Lord Stark but also smiling in the other man's direction, with such a soft and gentle smile, and that made his heart stop for a moment.

That wasn't fair. You had ignored him for days and now here you were smiling at another man in a way you had never smiled at him, and in such a genuine and sweet way that he didn't know whether to knock Lord Stark for being the person you were heading, or thanked him for giving him the chance to see you smile like that.

But one thing was certain: Benji couldn't bear this any longer, and when he saw you get up from the table and walk through the wooden door, he stood up from the table abruptly and followed you without hesitation, ignoring the questioning look from his aunt and the curious looks of the other lords at the table. His heart pounded with every step closer to you.

He knew it was a rash attitude, but he couldn't control it, not when he was in battles or when it came to you.

Benjicot's footsteps echoed audibly as he approached you, and with that, you turned back, surprised to find Benji's brown eyes looking at you with something so different from the other times.

His eyes, unlike other times, seemed to carry a mixture of hurt and confusion as they looked towards yours, which showed a hint of regret.

However, you just straightened your back, ignoring the feeling that was now running through your veins, and looked at him with superiority—a superiority that would have made him laugh if it weren't for these circumstances. "What do you want, Blackwood?" You asked sourly, but despite that, he seemed to lean towards the sound of the voice he hadn't heard lately.

You were expecting a teasing response the moment Benji seemed to stretch your back; however, nothing prepared you for what he was about to say. "Why are you ignoring me?" He asked softly, but you could hear a sour tone in the middle of it. After all, Benjicot never managed to be sweet without a little bitterness.

"What?"

He moved closer to you, and every step Benjicot took towards you was another step you took back, but he didn't stop; he didn't stop until you were cradled between his arms and the cold marble of the halls of that palace.

"I asked." He began, his voice soft and rough at the same time as he tilted his face closer to yours. "Why are you ignoring me?" He repeated it again, and this time he seemed a little angry as he looked at you, who remained silent as you looked into his eyes.

‘Why are you ignoring me?’

You didn't know; maybe it was because you were fed up with his lame jokes; maybe it was because of how rich your houses were; or maybe it was the simple fact that you hated him so much that you could barely breathe properly when you looked at his direction. In either way, you didn't know.

"Hmm?" He asked in a low voice, tilting his head even more in your direction and making your breaths mix in the short space that separated you. He was close—too close.

And you wanted him, even more closer.

"You're not going to ans — ?" Benjicot started, but before he could finish the sentence, you smashed his lips, covering them with your own, and making him gasp in surprise but quickly returning the kiss with the same intensity and strength.

When you pulled him firmly by the neck, bringing him closer, you felt his smile against your mouth, accompanied by a squeeze on your waist that made you gasp in surprise, and Benji, taking advantage of your reaction, inserted his tongue into your mouth, intensifying the kiss even more. 

You knew you shouldn't be doing this; it was wrong; it was completely wrong; your homes were enemies and your families hated each other, but the kisses that Benji now left on your neck made you forget about that and focus on the good part of the hate, in the intense and pleasurable part of the hate you both had for each other.

"I don't want you to go near Lord Stark again, ok?" He murmured while placing small kisses on the part of your bust that was exposed; the blood he had on his hands now marked your clothed waist, and you breathed dizzily, too disconcerted to be able to form a concrete word.

That was good, so good.

"Excellent." Benji murmured, lifting his head again, giving a smile when he noticed your red cheeks and swollen lips, and leaving one last kiss on your lips.

He might not make you smile like that, but this sure felt a lot better.

— my first one-shot, honestly i still don’t know how to feel about this, but i hope you enjoy!!

— english is not my first language, so please be respectful.

— benjicot blackwood fic.

tag: @h-0-error

[avantroodles]

I don’t know if you’ve done yet but can you pretty please draw my beautiful boy Benjamin bear from uprooted he my favorite npc and there’s so little art of him!

Benji loves music, Booker just loves keeping his face attached to his... face.

[spider-stark]

WAKE UP KIERAN BURTON NATION

so glad we're all collectively agreeing to ignore last nights episode and keep Kieran Burton 🖤

[ask-the-agency]

dirk, do u want another jacket?

Dirk: YES!!

Todd: So kind of you to ask, but absolutely not

[freshlyslicedmilk]

if you're still taking requests, I'd love to see Ethan and Benji!! Whether platonically or romantically is up to you <3 love your art

Ahaaa thank you so much! I try my best :)

Here's your boys.

History will remember them as really close friends.

[probably-jam]

BENJI WEEK ⁉️⁉️⁉️ BENJI WEEK‼️‼️‼️‼️

Day 2: Growth Spurt <3

[kimkhimhant]

If you don't mind me asking, why would people be emotional from Jeff's twitter space? Did something happen?

hi! so jeff held a space to address the rumors and hate he has been receiving. he shared with us that he hasn't lied about being single, and his relationship with vivi has gone through phases and is complicated and private. he said that if his relationship status becomes certain, he will hold true to his promise of sharing that with satss, but he also knows that we respect his privacy. Vivi is an important person in his life and they have known each other for a very long time, and she's also an important member of SoS and it wouldn't be the same without her.

jeff got really emotional during this and cried, and thanked satss for loving him and said that he hopes we're always happy

it was just a very emotional space and everyone on twt is crying right now, but what matters is that he knows we love and respect him and want him to be happy!

[fallstaticexit]

okay i GOTTA know! disregard this is there was no ending or anything to it haha, but what happened with Benji and his rivals to lovers saga?! Did Willow end up getting grandbabies 🫣🫣

next

[mcyt-cats]

Quick question, am I allowed to ask for a tally of how many life series people own cats to your knowledge?

If so, what is the ratio of cat owners to non-cat owners?

Sure!

Grian: 2 cats, Maui and Pearl

Pearl: 2 cats, Olive and Nugget

Scar: 1 cat, Jellie

Impulse: 1 cat, Luna

Martyn: 2 cats, Kiki and Pascal

Jimmy: 2 cats, Norman and Flick

Cleo: At least 2 cats, Atlas and Glados

Skizz: At least 2 cats, Ginny and Ravenclaw

Scott: 1 cat, Elle

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Mumbo: Technically no cats, as Benji lives with his mom. 1 dog.

Lizzie and Joel: No cats. Sadly, Buddy passed away. 1 dog of course, Meri.

Bigb: To my knowledge, no cats.

Bdubs: To my knowledge, no cats. (Edit: 1 dog)

Tango: To my knowledge, no cats. (Edit: 2 dogs)

Ren: No cats, 1 dog though (edit: no dog cries)

Etho: To my knowledge, no cats

Gem: No cats. 1 dog, though.

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Final ratio: 9/18 have cats, so right at 50%!

[drunken--raccoon]

hey dear, are you okay?

I spent a few days in grippy jail but I'm okay now

[justtrashperson]

scrags and esther for the doodle rqs? :-3c

just finished watching the new htgcc and damn

[liverpool-enjoyer]

Would you mind ranking the mission impossible movies from best to worst?

OKOKOK FIRST OF ALL THANK YOU FOR ASKING I LOVE TO RANT ABT MISSION IMPOSSIBLE!!!

now ik you said best to worst but imma go from worst to best cause i think thats more dramatique

OK MY MISSION IMOPSSIBLE 1-7 RANKING:

7. mission: impossible 2 low hanging fruit i know. look i dont dislike this movie - im a diehard m:i fan, so i like all of them. this movie has its moments, n i rlly like john woo as a director, n i loved the rock climbing scene n knife stunt. the romance rlly brings it down for me tho, felt very shoehorned in there.

6. mission: impossible 3 here bc its better than 2 but not as good as 1. loved that it introduced my goats julia n benji, n i loved the building jump n the running scene. rlly solid movie, only this low bc i like the others more.

5. mission: impossible ik its pretty criminal to have the original at number FIVE, but the next four are just so goated. now obviously this movie is great, its the og. but tbh it doesnt stand out to me as much as the others do, doesnt have as much of a huge action setpiece that we've come to love. plus, modern day tom cruise wouldve done that helicopter in the tunnel bit for real.

now i call this next category the FOUR MOVIE PERFECTION RUN,,, bc thats what it is. every one of these next four are absolutely perfect in my eyes, n i could see any of them being someones number one

4. mission: impossible - ghost protocol perfect. down to the last minute detail. i,,, i mean where do i begin. THE burj khalifa stunt. adding benji to the team permanently. paula patton beating ass. the dude from lost dying like five minutes in. tying up the loose end that is ethan n julia. n ik this is niche but the lil outfit change ethan does when hes leaving the kremlin gets me every time. gosh theres just,,, SO much to love abt this movie idk what more i can say. this one was my mission impossible gateway drug.

3. mission: impossible - dead reckoning ok hear me out HEAR ME OUT. before you get mad. OBJECTIVELY SPEAKING, this is the best one. this is THE best one. but this is my personal ranking. the reason i put rogue nation n fallout over this MASTERPIECE is purely bc of,,, The Thing. yknow. the thing that happens to that one character. that one very beloved character. if youve seen the movie you know what i mean. but if youre not a mission fan, n youre not emotionally attached to these characters like i am, this is the best one. unfortunately, i am very emotionally attached to ethan n his pals.

2. mission: impossible - fallout now,,, what can i say abt fallout that hasnt already been said. its perfection. perfect, down to the last minute detail. the STUNTS. the continuity from rogue nation. introducing alanna n having her stab a man while wearing this GORGEOUS white two piece that i still think abt to this day. bringing back solomon lanes bitch ass. bringing back ILSA who is literally my number one my goat my everything. n tell me how every action setpiece n fight is imbedded with fucking CRACK. the club bathroom fight, the HALO jump, ilsa n benji duking it out w lane in that little shack, ethan n walker duking it out on a cliff, THE WHOLE ASS HELICOPTER SEQUENCE where tom cruise just casually flew a helicopter as one does. n OHMYGOSH THE RUNNING. im a simple man ok i could literally watch nine hours of simon pegg telling tom cruise where to run. oh also the fucking fake out in the beginning w the fucking hospital room n benji impersonating that cnn fellow is literally the most impressive thing in the series to me. i was FLABBERGASTED. ok i know im just rambling n listing things but this movie is just,,, so, so good

1 mission impossible - rogue nation see. im aware that fallout n dead reckoning are objectively better than rogue nation. however,,, nostalgias one HELLUVA drug. this movie came out when my family was moving n i was SUPER emo abt it. but i had been looking forward to this movie for like years at that point n even tho i was going through a tough time i was SO stoked to see rogue nation. n rlly i feel like its the perfect mission impossible movie. luthers back after being absent in ghost protocol. tom cruise holding his breath for six fucking minutes as one does. benji is the damsel in distress. n how could i forget the fact that this movie introduces THE BEST CHARACTER IN THE SERIES??? ilsa my GOAT. notice how the three movies shes in are the top three,,, yeah shes the best written character in the series not to mention shes uh just rlly cool n yeah. this blog proudly promotes ilsa faust supremacy.

[spider-stark]

Alright I know everyone wants Kieran back as Benji (and so do I!!!) but if we don’t get him, I think Harry Gilby is a great choice. He’s 22 but with a baby face, dark hair, plays warrior-king Athelstan in The Last Kingdom.

He knows Ewan Mitchell (actually auditioned for Aemond!!) and Phia Saban too!

ooooo, I like the way you think anon!

I had absolutely no clue who Harry Gilby was---but I just looked him up and, honestly, I have to agree with you! going just off looks, I could see him being an incredible Benji. plus him having connections with Ewan and Phia could make it all the more likely! (also saw he was in Tolkien, so I wonder if he has any connections with TGC as well!)

would love Kieran back, but given how difficult that may be for HBO to pull of, I agree that Harry Gilby could make an incredible Benjicot Blackwood!

as always, here's some photos I pulled from google for anyone who wants to see!

I see the vision and support it 🫡

[helyiios]

Benji choking on his own blood, but still managing to smile up at Ethan, because he's managed to save Ethan, and the price doesn't matter does it? He doesn't dully understand why Ethan looks this terrified and almost broken, looking at him...

[freshlyslicedmilk]

could i have benji dunn doing something cool? like jumping off a building or holding a gun or smth?? idk i just think he deserves to look awesome. thank you!!

Here ya go! I also think he deserves to go a bit feral after all the shit he's had to put up with B)