#bellareg

[quillkiller]

seven scenes from a marriage

a bellareg marriage au & house of black study

— cw: incest, abuse, unhealthy relationships, 1.2k words.

i.

Sirius leaves, is disowned, and no one knows what to do with you. You hear your mother spouting curses and traitor, traitor, traitor, and she looks at you like you’re dead weight, now. And you understand her, you do. You’ve always pitied your mother, looked down on her for giving birth to three daughters and not a single son.

You’re not a son (that’s your curse), but at least you would’ve always been a Black; and now you’re dead weight.

You hate him, your favorite cousin, the one you taught how to hold his wand right. Your co-conspirator at miserable family functions, your own flesh and blood— a traitor.

ii.

Regulus is made heir, your soft spoken baby cousin. Sirius’ little brother, his constant shadow, always one step behind him unless you could manage to steal your older cousin away for a few hours.

It’s strange seeing Regulus without his brother in front of him, covering him like a shield, and you think it’s the first time you’ve properly seen your baby cousin. He looks wobbly on his knees, like a weak comparison to his older brother. It’s strange following his gaze and not finding Sirius at the end of it.

Your mother doesn’t want you to marry him and your father strikes her with an open fist to remind her of her place. He says, you’re not a Black, and then, you don’t decide who my daughter marries.

Regulus is heir, now, after all, and you’re just a girl despite having eight years on your baby cousin.

He’s malleable, though, like clay, and you’ve got strong hands and sharp teeth.

You give him the Black smirk and a wink. He flushes a pretty pink at that, lips parted and long eyelashes fluttering as he tries to hide behind an imaginary body.

You think, sweet little lamb, as you crowd him like the predatory wolf that always lived inside you.

iii.

He looks at you so sweetly, your baby cousin. As if you’re his guiding star, like he needs you; like he used to need his big brother— and you struggle a little not to see him as a blushing seventeen year old kid instead of the heir of house Black.

Regulus has always watched you, mostly whenever you interacted with Sirius, as if you were standing in his way or, sometimes, as if he wanted what belonged to his brother: you.

You let him touch you and he’s so gentle, like he doesn’t know what to do with his hands or where to put them. So you do it for him, your back against the wall in his childhood bedroom. He calls you pretty, so pretty, and it’s easy to believe him when his lips are trembling, his hands shaking.

You were never pretty, that was always for your younger sisters.

It’s Regulus’ birthday so he goes down on one knee and puts a ring on your finger. His gray eyes never leave your gray eyes. His lips taste like home, like solidity, and you bite down to taste some of your shared blood. Sealing the deal.

You tell Narcissa about it over tea, showing off your ring, and you’re both laughing. You tell her how sweet he was, as if he couldn’t quite believe he was allowed to touch you, stars in his eyes and bending to your every will. Narcissa can’t stop giggling, that’s our baby cousin! And you laugh, too, and say, he’s my fiancé, actually, and you give her a wink.

Regulus writes to you every week while he’s doing his last year at Hogwarts. He finishes the letters off with kisses every time. He complains about Sirius and you roll your eyes.

He writes, I can’t wait to be yours, and you forget, for a moment, that you’re the girl.

You write him back, you wanna be my wife, cousin? because you can’t help yourself. It’s going to your head.

He writes, please.

iv.

You’re a married woman and you can’t help but resent how well it suits you. It was your biggest nightmare growing up, the end of your delusions about autonomy that you never really had in the first place. You’re a girl, something to be handed over and dealt with. First you belong to your father, then you’re supposed to belong to your husband.

All girls grow up just to become their mothers. At the hands of husbands like their fathers.

Regulus isn’t like his father. Or your father. He’s not even like his brother. He’s heir, and you’re his wife— and people respect him more than they respect you. That’s to be expected.

It’s different behind closed doors, though. As if the roles are reversed. Regulus looks to you, as if asking you to take the reins. Like he’s a marionette and you’re holding the strings.

It’s a heady feeling, being man of the house.

v.

Regulus looks to you, so he takes the mark because you ask him to, because it’s what’s best for him. And you want what’s best for him.

He doesn’t ask questions, only gives you that look that goes to your head before he straddles your lap and says, you take such good care of us, and you pull him closer by the waist and say, I’ll always take care of you, darling.

Because you do, you take care of you and yours.

vi.

There are whispers of a cave, the sea, but they get smothered with ink and death. As if they’re whispers from another life, far from here.

Sometimes you wake up in the middle of the night, and it’s cold and dark, and you’ll panic for just a second, like you might never feel happiness again. Then you turn on the lights.

You rise to the top, hand in hand, Mr and Mrs. Black. The Dark Lord speaks directly to you, like you’re a person, like you’re worth listening to. Your husband stands at your back, you cover him like a shield— and he’s always one step behind you.

The Dark Lord takes a liking to you both. He lets you sit the closest to him, your husband to your right. The others give you strange looks whenever they forget themselves.

You don’t let them forget themselves.

vii.

It works— you’re happy and it works.

You’re enough like Sirius that Regulus can fall in love with you, and eventually he stops giving you that searching look of his. He stops trying to find his brother in your eyes— until all he sees is you.

It’s easy to dote on him. He’s soft and pliant, you lead and he follows. It’s almost love, for you. You love him because he’s your cousin and because he let you remain a Black. You love your marriage, the power, being man of the house.

You’re a good match and you remember cursing Sirius for abandoning you, and now you wouldn’t trade this for anything.

You take care of you and yours. He stays faithful and submissive like a wife, and he smiles so sweetly when he smells another woman’s perfume on your robes; like he’s just grateful you came home to him, because that’s what matters.

Your mistresses mean nothing to me, he says, you’re my wife, so you kiss him to let him know who you belong to.

He keeps you out of Azkaban, you make him a believer.

It works— you’re happy and it works.

[sugarsnappeases]

bellareg marriage. thoughts ?

don’t think i don’t see right through you…. but yes i (we) have many thoughts and i would love to talk about them xxxx

bellareg could have such a good marriage!!! like i genuinely believe they could work so smoothly together.... bella and reg who get married bc bella was supposed to marry sirius (the two first-borns of their respective branches... could do amazing things for the bloodline) but then sirius leaves and bella is fuming and reg is miserable and she basically gets foisted off on him instead alongside all the other Heir duties and no one is particularly happy about it but, in the end, both of them end up more or less getting what they want and need out of the marriage.

like bella absolutely refuses to play the role of the good little wife who follows her husband's lead and agrees w everything he says. she's got her own ambitions and plans and she's too much of a force to ever take anything lying down. but luckily reg doesn't want to lead anyone, or be the heir, or be a big strong husband figure and he's super malleable and easy to 'gently' persuade into things and it could all work out very nicely. like bella being the Man Of The House and the Husband behind closed doors while reg is her pampered little wife. also bella gets to be the kinda by-proxy heir/lord which is obvs v important to her. in a way, she's the head of the family ish and that's like. the power she's always wanted and was jealous of when it came to sirius. and now even if she doesn't properly have it (something that could potentially cause a bit of tension??? but also like. reg wants her to have that power too, he absolutely doesn't want it himself so it would be more of a shared woe ig?? like both of them would love it if they could just have a complete role reversal thing), she still has much more power than would have been possible in any other marriage

anyway bella also kinda guides reg (he goes willingly) into being more embroiled in the death eaters, doing what she thinks is best for him and for them (acting as his husband-wife) and making him better and lavishing him w luxury and basically just holding the reins of the marriage. and reg is happy bc he's safe and protected and bella is enough like sirius that he can ultimately fall in love w her and she's happy to dote on him and she does also love him even if she's maybe not in love w him. bc like you said. he's her cousin of course she loves him but also she loves how successful their marriage is. it's harmonious, easy, simple. it just works.

i think the only potential issue in their marriage is the lack of kids. bc bella to me never ever has or wants kids, but she's married to the heir of the black family and reg also defo wants kids. but i agree w you i think that w the level of influence bella has over reg she'd be able to convince him like 'let's wait until after the war' and there'd just be more and more excuses. like the two of them climb the ranks of the death eaters together (mostly bella but she uses reg and also takes him w her) and she couldn't possibly take the time off to be pregnant, reg, don't you believe in our lord's goals?? and reg of course does bc like. w bella acting as the Husband and the Heir/Lord, she would be the one who dealt w the whole kreacher scenario w voldemort and reg would've never found out about the horcrux or had to question his fanaticism, and also bc of bella he's even more fanatical than he normally would be and so this is a very short conversation and reg never brings it up again lol

but anyway yes i just think they could be so content and it's defo a much better marriage than the one that bella would've had if sirius had stayed bc she'd never be able to take on that Husband role w him and they would've probs ended up killing each other but w reg they can kinda complement each other and work well together and be more or less happy :))) yippeeeeee

anyway here are some more screenshots from our texts bc you’re hilarious and a genius and always completely correct and the other half of my soul and i’m obsessed with you <3

[sixlane]

pregnant regulus….. tell me more about your thoughts…

ok so as those who frequent my blog might be aware of i talk about pregulus often. usually in a fluffy jegulus context where he is healed of his trauma and therefore excited about and ready to be a parent. but i am so intrigued by this fucked up bellareg marriage au thing. where bella can’t/wont get pregnant and therefore the duty falls to regulus. who has decidedly not worked through his trauma at all and is instead still actively stuck in it. in this context i could never see regulus wanting to be pregnant or wanting children at all. and only pursuing it because of his duty as heir. i think he’d do it to spare bella the discomfort. and also in a fucked up way in his brain he gets that that would fall on him as her husband-wife. so he’s young and naive and accepts it as his fate but he hates every second of carrying their child. and probably proceeds to resent the child because of that. and i also think in the deep recesses of his mind he hates himself for bringing a child into this situation because he knows it’s fucked up even if he won’t acknowledge or admit it to himself. but he likes the way bella dotes on him when he’s all swollen and helpless because it’s an exaggeration of their usual dynamic. so there are up sides or things that maybe make it worth it to him. it’s a complicated internal battle for him. and there’s definitely potential for it to get very gross and horrific. still contemplating that. excited for your thoughts on this as well!!

[themostincorrecthouseofblack]

Regulus: You know who's looking fine tonight? Bellatrix.

Sirius: Okay, you did not just say that.

Regulus: What? She's a good kisser.

Sirius: She's our cousin.

Regulus: Yeah, but she's our first cousin.

Sirius: Right.

Regulus: So, you have your cousins, and then you have your first cousins, and then you have your second cousins...

Sirius: No, Reg, uh-uh.

Regulus: That's not right, is it?

Sirius: That is so not right.

[quillkiller]

not exactly a family potrait but sirius jr and his father when they were the same age😭😭

my live reaction……….

THIS IS SOOO FUCKING COOL

god im so so so obsessed with this. it’s so beautiful, my favorite miserable son and his fail father-mother. oh this is making insane. seeing them next to each other around the same age. GENERATIONAL TRAUMA CAUGHT IN ONE SINGLE DRAWING….

god you’re so talented, thank you so much genuinely for sharing these with me and im so happy you like sirius jr 😭😭😭 you’re like his third parent at this point… i grant you: custody…

[quillkiller]

do u think bellareg would have kids (im assuming yes, they Have to) and if so who would be more loving/affectionate with them

me and kara talked about this!!

because we agree that, yes, they would have to. it’s bella’s duty to produce an heir. so, atleast initially, pre first war, there would be a pressure on them to have children. + regulus wants children, bellatrix very decidedly does not. bella would work very hard to push it off. at first because regulus is so young when they get married, telling him they have time, there’s no rush, etc. + there’s the whole ordeal of their roles being reversed in their marriage where bella becomes man of the house behind closed doors, and regulus becomes the wife, so he listens to her and trusts that she knows what’s best for him and them. so he doesn’t push it, because it’s not his place.

then the first war happens, and they don’t have kids. bella is working the death eater ladder and making regulus a believer, and slowly but surely they become high ranking death eaters / bella becomes voldys right hand man. <- that also means she gains a lot of respect, and slowly it becomes known that bella is basically man of the house and reg is her husband-wife. it’s not like anyone’s going to question is when she’s voldy right hand man….

then the first war is over, and regulus keeps bella out of azkaban, and the primary focus is getting voldy back. which is obviously a lot more important than producing an heir. he’s the Dark Lord…. so like, it just keeps getting pushed off. there are more important things to deal with, and bellatrix makes the decisions, and regulus listens. and then !! voldy comes back, and the second war is upon us, so like obviously there’s no time now either !!! lots of other things to do !!!! so it just never happens…….

however… i think bella would think it’s very important to have an heir so that the black family name lives on. her and reg are the only ones representing the black name and if they don’t have an heir, the name dies with them. andy and sirius are disowned and narcissa is a malfoy. but i truly do believe that bella would refuse to be pregnant. it’s her worst nightmare and like, i can see so clearly how she would panic and feel all wrong being pregnant, useless and weak and submissive and gross, and start clawing at her belly to desperately make it go away, to claw it out. a whole horror scene type thing. which means that reg would have to be pregnant….. and surely there HAS to be a magical way to do it….. bella doting on her pathetic and sweet pregnant husband-wife… i am NOT immune to the idea……

however. bella would be a horrible mother-father lmao ahdjfjsj. regulus might be a little more loving and/or affectionate, especially since he would take on the role of housewife and stay-at-home-mom… but i don’t necessarily think he’d be a very good father-mother just because he’s more affectionate. it’s not like he’s ever had a healthy idea of love, or ever even had a healthy experience when it comes to love. his upbringing, his brother, his wife, etc. i think he’d take after his mother a lot, maybe less angry, but instead a lot of emotional manipulation, praising when their children succeed, punishing when not. bella would be the stereotypical deadbeat father-wife, man of the house, in her study, provider. and regulus would worship the grounds she walks on, oh she takes such good care of us, of me…

[quillkiller]

“she’s enough like sirius that he could fall in love with her” regulus’ unrequited love for his brother will always be famous. in every relationship he has, he can’t help but compare everyone to sirius and ultimately chose the ones more similar (barty. bella. walburga..!!) and it ends up in all these pseudo incestuos relationships. Imagine bellareg eventually sleeping together and regulus can’t help but say sirius’ name accidentally, im torn between bellatrix indulging his little fantasies or feelings utterly betrayed that someone is once again preferring sieius over her

YOU GET IT !!!!!

me and kara were just talking about how bella would probably have affairs in their marriage and reg would be completely fine with it. like, to me, wives to pureblood husbands are expected to live with their husbands affairs / and husbands are expected to have affairs. the marriage is arranged and therefor goes so much deeper than the superficiality of lust and/or feelings. like.. ’why would an affair matter to me? she’s my wife(-husband)’. that allyship and loyalty goes so much deeper than some floozy bella spends her time with. and reg would bat his pretty little eyelashes at the fact that bella always comes back to him because she will Never leave. their marriage and house is what matters. she will never leave me. and yeah, since their gender roles are reversed behind closed doors it would be bella who has affairs 🤍

and. that’s why i think there wouldn’t be a lot of jealousy between them. BUT i can see how bella would be fuming about the fact that someone she’s with would prefer for it to be sirius. but in this au, i think she would be up for letting regulus work through his sirius-issues with her. maybe she’d even encourage it. it’s not like she didn’t know… she’s not blind. but! she’s also not blind to how regulus would also watch her growing up. watch her and sirius interact, their rivalry and so on and so forth. regulus grew up perving on her too, even if his major issues were always his feelings for sirius. and i think eventually they find peace in their marriage… sort of growing out of the Sirius of It All. being able to give each other what they always sort of needed… <3

[quillkiller]

bellareg for the game!!

you are my best friend mwah

when i started shipping them

oct 27th at 12:40 on a sunday 🤍

what makes me happy about them

saving them both!!!! this is how we save them both!!! in the most fucked up unhealthy way possible with horrible outcomes !!!! how they’re sort of perfect for each other in a culture that hates them !!!!

what makes me sad about them

well… it’s an exploration of abusive power dynamics and the the cycle of abuse & generational trauma. so the entire thing..:( bellatrix is a lesbian, but she’ll never live as one, and her view of gender has been skewed and ruined by the men she grew up idolizing and resenting and worshipping and hating. marrying regulus feels like freedom to her because she gets everything she always wanted (becoming man of the house, role-playing husband & heir), but in reality she’s chained & caged, and always will be. like rhaenys told alicent in hotd: You desire not to be free, but to make a window in the wall of your prison

things done in fanfics that annoy me

there are like. barely any bellareg fics & im genuinely the only one in the bellareg tag on tumblr 😭 but i will recommend a fic that i absolutely loved instead!! here!!!

who i’d be comfortable with them ending up with if not each other

like. literally anyone else. but also.. i love them together. and they’re happy… 🤍 no one understands each other like the two of them. sorry

my happily ever after for them

as i said, this is how we save them both!!!! regulus never goes to the cave because bella makes him a believer. bella never goes to azkaban because reg allows her to remain a black rather than a lestrange or belonging to anyone else..

who’s the little spoon/big spoon

bella is big spoon, reg is little spoon <3

what is their favorite non-sexual activity

regulus love being doted on, and loves it when bella reads to him & strokes his hair. bella loves it when reg is being a good little wife, bringing her drinks or whatever she needs, kissing her on the cheek. i genuinely believe they like. have fun together. and that they talk a lot. like it’s not all proper and traditional behind closed doors. i think they’d love board games, very big on wizarding chess, etc…

[quillkiller]

do u think regulus truly loves sirius jr

sigh. yes, but no, but yes, but no… but yes..

that’s his blood, sirius jr came from him, and more importantly from bellatrix. he loves sirius jr because he’s a black, because he’s the heir, because bellatrix gave him to regulus, because they share blood. but like he also doesn’t really… know sirius jr. nor does he really care to know his son, his interests, hobbies, wants and such. he doesn’t really care about how sirius jr sees himself, but rather who reg (and bella) need him to be. as long as he’s a good son regulus can love him. as long as he does his duty as their heir of house black

he sort of loves sirius jr the way cersei loves her children… because they’re hers. and because they’re jaimes, lowkey. she’s aware that joffrey is horrible, but he’s her first born, and she comes from her, so she loves him in that narcissistic type of way. she would do anything for her children, no matter how horrible they are, because they’re extensions of herself, and that’s how she views her offspring. as extensions of herself. and that’s how i imagine regulus being with surius jr !! sirius jr is an extension of himself, something that he owns rather than considering sirius jr being a separate person. that’s his son, his property. and, again, more importantly, something that bella gave him to show reg how much she loves him

so like. yeah but no but yeah. but no… but yeah..

[quillkiller]

I can never see bella with a man but i feel like she would be fine with her marriage to regulus as the years go on i also think she would see barty perving on her husband and squint like “i know what you are.” (She’s been knowing)

see. like i can only ever see bella with a man, but i also only see her as a lesbian. but like, she will never betray her house and name so she just shoves that to the side. ’i’ll simply have to be a lesbian in my next life’ and she goes right on with her ambitions as a Black. she never hates herself for realising she’s a lesbian, is actually content with the revelation, but she simply doesn’t have time in this life 🤍

however!! that does not mean that she doesn’t have relationships with women!! which is why aristocratic arranged marriages fascinate me so much. they’re not born from romantic love or even free will. it’s something that she has to do, and will do, but it’s the affairs that are actually a reflection of what her inner deepest desires are. she marries for duty, but the affairs have nothing to do with duty. it’s the affairs that can be about love, lust, feelings, romance, etc. there’s no duty in her affairs, just her as no one else will ever see her except for the person she, in that moment, chooses.

and!!!! the barty thing is so real !!!! however, in this au, reg absolutely falls in love with bella and what she offers him. the love is still dependant on their house and name obviously, and it’s a warped version of what actual Love would be like but it’s not like reg would know the difference. he’s content and happy and protected. bella loves regulus too but her love is a lot more complicated because she is a lesbian and even if there’s is a whole roleplay aspect of it all with their gender roles reversed, he’s still not her actual wife. but she Loves being his wife-husband … 🤍

[quillkiller]

bellareg marriage au outtakes

because i can’t stop thinking about them…..

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[quillkiller]

My family i miss them

are you joking. the way i’m actually tearing up . jesus fucking christ oh my god

this is so beautiful and fucked up and crazy and so perfect oh my GODDDDDDDDD

[quillkiller]

I do have a question actually is bellatrix ONLY attracted to women and men related to her? Because that’s the vibe im getting from her and her weird psychosexual stuff going on

okay so bella’s sexuality is super complicated…..

she’s very decidedly a lesbian to me, but a lesbian in a way that she pushes it to the side. she knows she’s a lesbian, she’s fine with it, but there’s simply no room in her life to like come out obviously. she has other plans, ambitions. + she grows up with people looking down on women, looking down on her, so her attraction to women becomes skewed and messed up by the male gaze, turning ugly. she idolizes and envies and resents the men she grows up around, and she hates herself for being a girl. she wants more than anything to have been born a son, to become man of the house, and she thinks wives are pathetic. which is why she loses a lot of respect for walburga once she gets older and realises she’s actually not powerful at all

she does love regulus, but she’s not quite in love with him as he is with her. he may take on the role as her husband-wife, but he’s still not a woman. she loves him because he’s her cousin, loves him as the man of the house, loves him because he let her keep her family name, loves him because of the success of their marriage, loves doting on him, loves treating him like her obedient wife <- fucked up gender views.

this is why i think royal arranged marriages are sooo romantic… because your marriage doesn’t belong to you, it belongs to history and culture. true love and actual desire are found in affairs, secret affairs that are only between two people and no one else and doesn’t belong to anyone else. it’s not about image or reputation or history or culture, it belongs to you and you only. <- and this is where i see bellatrix only ever having affairs with women. it has nothing to do with her marriage, nothing to do with anyone else but her inner most secretive desires.

part two of why i think arranged marriages are so romantic is because they’re so deeply rooted in loyalty. regulus doesn’t care about bella’s affairs as long as she comes home to him. she belongs to him, he belongs to her. no affairs could ever come between the deep loyalty they have for their house and blood and name, their reputation. they’re a team, it’s more than a marriage, it’s a pact. she will never leave them or their marriage, she’ll do her duties as his wife-husband, and he’ll do his duties as her wife-husband. :~)

[quillkiller]

Can u yap about sirius jr..❤️

sirius jr is the beautiful lovechild of bellatrix and regulus black, and regulus carried him.. 🤍

he’s not actually called sirius jr, just sirius. it’s a good strong name for an heir, and the first sirius is dead to them anyway, so why not name their first born: sirius. <- nevermind that regulus was probably in love with his brother and thah sirius was bellatrix’s favorite cousin. it’s fine! it has nothing to do with him ..

he’s born during the first war, regulus getting pregnant almost immediately after the wedding. me and kara said that he starts having doubts about voldemort (and we all know what happens in canon… 🌊…) so bellatrix baby traps him instead. regulus always wanted children, so she tells him she’s ready, and to get the potion ready (we imagine there’s an mpreg potion🤍) so he’s busy with that instead of doubting, and then he’s busy for the rest of his life because he’s a father-mother and stay at home-wife.

sirius jr is one year older than harry, and he also goes to hogwarts, and is sorted into slytherin. he doesn’t know anything about his uncle or that he ever existed. if harry can get to his third year without anyone telling him about sirius black, being his godfather and all, we’re pretty sure we can avoid any spoilery drama between harry and sirius jr too until prisoner of azkaban. like why would harry care about sirius jr….

sirius sr has been in azkaban for 12 years, so people don’t talk about him anymore, he’s old news. but then he breaks out of azkaban….. and all hell breaks loose. SIRIUS BLACK HAS ESCAPED !!! <- it’s all over the daily prophet and everyones talking about it. and it’s not like sirius jr can escape this….. he’s a black.. and named sirius… <- rough year for my guy

anyway, i imagine his upbringing as rather difficult. adjacent to how sirius sr and regulus were brought up, and i think regulus’ parenting style is a lesser version of his mothers. i don’t think he has the heart to be physically abusive, but he’s emotionally abusive. love-bombing and punishing are his vices. and keeping sirius jr away from bellatrix as much as possible because he’s jealous of bellatrix potentially loving anyone else. so yeah…… he doesn’t want bella to love their child kinda….. and reg can only love their son as long as bella doesn’t/is indifferent <3 + also kreacher is like. the one to raise sirius jr mostly

so sirius sr takes after an uncle he never knew he had, rebelliuos and mischievous, pulling pranks, being a trouble maker, cool and popular. i mean he is the heir of house black after all….. ofc his peers worship the ground he walks on.. but sirius jr is unhappy and miserable and hates going home over the holidays and feels alone and isolated…. :(

SIRIUS BREAKS OUT !!! I HAVE AN UNCLE ???

the cycle repeats itself, sirius (jr) runs away and is disowned, and sirius (sr) takes him in during the lie low at lupin’s era and they raise him together. <- that’s when he becomes sirius jr, or just junior….

also. imagine harry with an older brother figure in his life………. give that boy as much family as he can get !!!!!!

[quillkiller]

sirius jr when he can’t be his fathers number one boy

ive been writing today…

[quillkiller]

barty to regulus in the bellareg au

“lets just run away together”

“I want to get married”

“but why?”

“because I love her”

“you will be bored of it all in two years and we will be interesting forever”

“just because my dreams are different than yours doesn’t mean they’re unimportant” :/

FINALLY SOMEONE GETS IT

unfortunately regulus is entirely and completely whipped and happy being bella’s from the moment she lets him touch her for the first time. seventeen and nervous and shivering and trying to be good for his hot older cousin who’ll be his wife, be his. he’s on cloud nine, drunk on her. barty, in canon, can never truly be his. neither can sirius. bella is his blood, soon bonded to him by marriage, something sirius can never offer him, and she’ll never be able to leave. she’s carving out space for him, giving him someone to belong to, and that’s all he’s ever wanted. to belong to someone. to have something of his own, the way sirius always did and could, but he was never privy to, being the spare, not breaking the cycle by being sorted into a different house, instead always being secondary, an afterthought. and now he’s heir, and everything that belonged to sirius, including bella, now belongs to him, which outweighs whatever romantic notions barty tries to feed him, or anyone else for that matter, even sirius potentially trying to ’save’ regulus from his engagement. all he wants is stability and tradition and success and his, now, birth-right. it’s a bit out of spite, but he’s also been lusting after his cousin since it was decided she would marry sirius, and now she’s his. and yeah, bella shapes and molds him into the shape she wants him in, he’s malleable, just seventeen years old, and she has ambitions, and he wants to be her very good boy, her obedient husband-wife, until he’s nothing but hers. romantic ideals and his boyhood crush on barty will never outweigh blood and family and a pureblood marriage rooted in unyielding loyalty and duty rather than romance. bella wont ever leave him because of duty, because of their blood, and he’ll always belong to her