#bellamy is alright.... omg

[hauntingblue]

Wtf is sabo flying with those birds

[fanfics4all]

Because of you

Request: Yes / No Omg Imagine if instead of Murphy it was the reader that was hanged and they used to be friends with the group but after they banished her. Later she comes back but she is a cold and rude to everyone besides Murphy and they want to apologize to her. Fem reader please💕 I just want something SUPER ANGSTY lol. Thank you 💛 Anon

Requests are open <3 Have a nice day/night

John Murphy x Fem!Reader

Word count: 2372

Warnings: Pretty much everything that happens to John but with a happy end! 

Y/N: Your Name 

Y/N/N: Your Nick Name

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I was so happy to be on Earth with the 100, my best friend John being among them. I had also made friends with some of the others and it was really great. We were finally free, besides being hunted. I was helping John with supervising the wall being built. He was being kind of a dick like always, but deep down he’s really just a sweetie. 

“No water till this section is up!” John shouted, knocking a cup out of someone’s hands.

“Really John? That’s a waste of water.” I said and he shook his head at me with a smirk. 

“We can always get more, we need this wall built.” He said. 

“Yeah but-” I was cut off by Clarke pushing me. 

“You bitch!” She shouted.  

“What the hell, Clarke?” I asked confused. 

“Recognize this?” She asked, holding up the knife I made with John. 

“Yeah, that’s my knife, where did you-”

“Where you dropped it after you killed Wells.” She said cutting me off and pulling the knife out of my reach. 

“What? The Grounders killed Wells.” I said, even more lost than before. 

“I know what you did, and you’re gonna pay for it.” She said. 

“Back off Princess, Y/N wouldn’t kill Wells.” John said, defending me. 

“She hated Wells!” She said. 

“A lot of people did, and of course I should, his Father killed my parents!” I said. 

“You did it. I know you did.” She said. 

“This is crazy.” I said rolling my eyes and went to walk away. 

“Where are you going?” Bellamy asked and my eyes widened slightly. 

“Bellamy, you don’t honestly believe I killed him, do you?” I asked, shocked. 

“They found his fingers on the ground with your knife.” He said. 

“I lost it a few days ago!” I said. 

“Is this the kind of society that we want? You say there should be no rules. Does that mean that we can kill each other without- without punishment?” Clarke said. 

“I already told you I didn’t kill him! I lost my knife!” I said, still shocked that this was happening. 

“I say we float her!” A guy that John fucked with spoke up. People around us agreed and I felt my heart rate pick up. 

“That’s not what I’m saying.” Clarke said. 

“Why not? She deserves to float. She’s alway taking his side.” The guy said nodding towards John. 

“Hey your problems are with me, not her.” John growled. 

“It’s justice.” The guy said, again people agreed. 

“Revenge isn’t justice.” Clarke said. 

“It’s justice. Float her!” He said and the crowd started cheering. John grabbed me and tried to get me out of there, but someone tripped me and I fell to the ground and slipped out of John’s hand. A bunch of people started attacking me and John was trying to get to me, along with Clarke. They tied my hands behind my back and put a gag in my house. They wrapped a rope around my neck and strung me up, having me just barely stand on a box. 

“You can stop this! They’ll listen to you!” Clarke shouted at Bellamy. 

“Bellamy! You should do it.” The guy that called for my head shouted and they started cheering his name. 

“Bellamy please.” I tried to beg, but it came out muffled. 

“She didn’t kill him! You know that!” John begged. Clarke was trying to get him to stop, but he kicked the box from under my feet. The air started leaving my lungs and I struggled, hanging from that tree branch. It was hard to hear what was going on as I clung to life, but when everyone stopped screaming I heard one person’s voice. 

“Y/N didn’t kill Wells, I did!” She shouted and then I was falling to the ground. John rushed over to me and started pulling the rope from my neck and took the gag out. John helped me up and he was pissed. 

“Bring out the girl Bellamy!” He shouted. Amongst all the chaos him, Clarke, and Finn took the real killer into a tent. 

“Bring the girl out now!” He shouted. 

“You want to build a society Princess, let’s build a society! Bring her out!” He shouted again. 

“Well, well, well, look who decided to join us.” John said when Bellamy walked out. 

“Dial it down and back off.” Bellamy said. 

“Or what? What are you gonna do Bellamy? Hang me too?” He asked. 

“I was just giving the people what they wanted.” He said and looked at me, but had some sorrow in his eyes. 

“Good idea. Why don’t we do that now? So, who here wants to see the real killer delt with?” I asked and raised my hand. John also put his up and a few others, but everyone else didn’t.

“So it’s okay for me to get strung up for nothing, but you want the real one to walk?” I asked, shocked. I understand she was a little girl, but still. 

“Cowards! All of you are cowards!” John shouted. 

“Hey! Murphy! Murphy!” Bellamy shouted walking over to us. 

“It’s over.” He said to us. 

“Whatever you say boss.” He said and as soon as Bellamy turned around he picked up a large stick and smacked him in the head. Jasper went to try and stop him, but John punched him. 

“Come one, let’s get the girl.” John said and grabbed my hand. He led me into the tent and no one was in there. 

“Charlotte!” He shouted. 

“Charlotte, I know you can hear me!” He shouted. 

“When we find you, you’re gonna pay!” I shouted. John and I led the small group that was with us. We went roaming through the woods, looking for the girl that almost got me killed for no reason. 

“Clarke and Finn can’t save you now!” John shouted. 

“Don’t worry Y/N/N, we’ll get her.” He said. 

Hours have gone back and it was dark now. I was a little nervous running around the woods in the dark, but I wanted justice. 

“Don’t worry! We won’t hurt you!” I shouted. That was true, as much as I wanted to. 

“I’m over here!” She shouted and we followed her screaming. Finally we found her at the edge of a cliff with Bellamy. 

“Bellamy! You can’t fight all of us, give her up.” John said. 

“Maybe not, but I guarantee I’ll take a few of you with me.” He said. 

“Bellamy! Stop!” Clarke shouted and we turned to see her and Finn running up next to us. 

“This has gone too far. Just calm down, we’ll talk about this.” Clarke said to us. I was about to agree, but John grabbed Clarke and held a knife to her throat.

“This went too far when you let a rope get wrapped around Y/N’s neck.” John growled. 

“John…” I said and He glanced at me. I knew he wasn’t going to actually hurt her, but I was still worried. 

“Please. Please don’t hurt her.” Charlotte begged. 

“He won’t, if you just come over here I promise he’ll let her go.” I said before John could say a word. 

“Don’t do it Charlotte.” Clarke said. 

“We’re not gonna hurt you. I promise.” I said to her. I meant it. I didn’t want to hurt her, just make sure she got what she deserved. She went to come to us, but Bellamy stopped her. 

“Don’t do it, Charlotte!” Clarke said again. 

“No! I have to!” She cried. 

“Y/N, Murphy, this is not happening.” Bellamy said. 

“We’re not gonna hurt her Bellamy.” I said once again, but it was clear the only one that actually trusted me anymore was John. 

“I can’t let any of you get hurt anymore. Not because of me. Not after what I did.” Charlotte said and turned around. She jumped off the clift and John let Clarke go in shock. 

“Bellamy looked at us and he tackled John to the ground and started beating him. 

“You’ll kill him!” I shouted and they helped me get him off John. Clarke and Bellamy started talking about shit I didn’t care about right now. I was worried about John. 

“We banish them.” Clarke said and I looked up at them with wide eyes. 

“No.” I said standing up. 

“Y/N-” 

“You can banish me but you leave John out of this. He was just trying to protect me from the mistake you made.” I said and they looked at each other. 

“No way, I’m not letting you-” 

“Alright.” Clarke agreed. 

“No, I’m not leaving you out here alone.” John said. 

“You go back to camp with them now, please John.” I begged. 

“But-”

“Please Johnny.” I begged with tears in my eyes and he sighed. 

“You take him back to camp and I will stay out here.” I said. They nodded and John looked at me one last time. 

“Go.” I whispered. 

“May we meet again.” He said and I gave him a small smile. 

“May we meet again.” I said. 

Weeks went by, maybe a month? I honestly wasn’t sure. Once I was banished and left in the woods it wasn’t long until the Grounders found me. They tortured me for what felt like every second of every day. They wanted to know about everyone. I held out for as long as I could, but eventually I broke. However one night they forgot to lock my cage and I ran. I somehow made it back to the camp without meaning to and they started shooting at me. I was grazed by a bullet and fell to the ground, hoping that if I waited enough both my people and the Grounders would forget about me and I could run off in peace. Someone touched my shoulder and I freaked out. 

“Y/N?” Octavia asked and I stared up at everyone in fear. 

“Please…” I begged. 

They ended up taking me inside and onto the Drop Ship. I was huddled on the floor hugging my knees scared that tonight was the night I finally died. 

“Where is she?” Bellamy asked walking inside. Him, Clarke, Finn, and John stood in front of me and stared at me in shock. 

“Y/N!” John said and rushed to my side. I flinched away from him and looked at the floor. Bellamy cleared everyone out, but Derek and Connor. 

“She claims she was with the Grounders.” Derek said. 

“We caught her trying to sneak back into camp.” Connor said. 

“I wasn’t sneaking. I was running from the grounders.” I said in a small voice. 

“Anyone see Grounders?” Bellamy asked. 

“Uh-uh.” Connor shook his head. 

“Well in that case.” Bellamy said and went to aim his gun at me. I don’t remember us having those before. John kneeled in front of me while I shut my eyes, preparing to die. 

“We were clear about what would happen if she came back.” Bellamy growled. 

“No! If she was with the Grounders then she knows things that can help us.” Finn said. 

“Finn’s right.” Clarke said and walked over to me. 

“She’s not lying. They tortured her.” She said. 

“What did you tell them?” Bellamy asked. 

“Everything…” I answered weakly. 

“Once she’s better we’ll find out what she knows.” Clarke said and went to leave. 

“Everything’s alright.” John whispered. 

Everytime Clarke tried to heal me I would shy away. They did this to me. They made this happen. John is the only one that stood up for me. John stayed with me the whole time. The next day I started getting sick and throwing up blood. 

“Y/N, hey, look at me. I need you to tell me how you escaped. 

“They forgot to lock my cage and I just took off.” I answered, out of breath. 

“What the hell is this?” John asked as Bellamy walked inside. 

“Biological warfare. You were waiting for the Grounders to retaliate for the bridge? This is it. Y/N’s the weapon.” Clarke said. 

Some ended up dead because of whatever the Grounders gave me, but I was alive and they were letting me stay. John almost never left my side and everyone else kept trying to apologize to me, but I refused. 

“An apology does nothing for the shit you all put me through. John was the only one that believed me and stood up for me.” I growled. I walked away and to John’s tent. He was laying on his bed and sat up when he saw me walk in. 

“You okay?” He asked worried. 

“Fine.” I sighed. He patted the bed next to him and I gladly took a seat. He wrapped his arm around my shoulder. 

“Hey, you’re safe now and I’m not gonna let anything happen to you.” He said. 

“I know.” I said with another sigh. 

“So what is it?” He asked. 

“They think an apology will make me magically forget everything I went through.” I said and he sighed. 

“Just ignore them.” He said and I nodded. 

“I wish I could take that all away from you…” He whispered and moved some hair behind my ear. 

“I should have been out there with you.” He said and I looked at him. 

“No way! We would have both been caught by the Grounders and then one of us might not be here.” I said and tears sprung to my eyes at the thought of not having John in my life. 

“Hey, I’m right here.” He said, cupping my face and wiping away a stray tear. 

“I’m never gonna let anything happen to you again.” He said and rested his forehead on mine. I let my heart take over for once and placed my lips on his. He reacted immediately and kissed me back with a bit of desperation. He gently pushed me back on the bed, his lips not leaving mine. After a few minutes awe pulled away for air and just stared in each other’s eyes. 

“I love you.” He whispered. 

“I love you too.” I whispered back and he smiled. 

“You’ll always be safe with me.” He whispered and kissed me again. I knew in that moment that I had nothing to fear as long as I was with John. 

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[probably-voldemort]

i’m just curious, because we all know that darling is the NUMBER 1 clurphy fic, but whilst we’re waiting, do you have any fic recs for us clurphy fans waiting to get our fix? like maybe ur friends have written some one shots n u wanna promote them i just MISS CLURPHY I NEEEEEED SEROTONIN love u hope you’re doing well i’m so sorry your semester is so bad :(

To be entirely fair to my semester, it has mostly been decent, but I’ve officially reached the point of the semester where I’m just really done with everything and don’t want to do anything anymore and also half the assignments I have left don’t make any sense which is fun.  But thank you!

And on the note of Clurphy fic recs...

So to be entirely honest, I really haven’t read much that wasn’t a textbook in a while, so for this I’ll mostly just be going through the list on AO3 and seeing what’s happening there and probably won’t have actually read most of these recs yet.

ALSO

Shout out to Clurphy for officially hitting 200 fics on AO3 apparently!!

You go Clurphy!

200 fics is way too many for a single fic rec obviously, so we’ll mostly be going with the most recent fics in order of when they’ve been posted.

Throwing the rec list under a read more so it doesn’t clog up anyone’s dash

Cold Blooded - Rated T - A Twilight fic that I am obsessed with.  Technically I’m like 99% sure it’ll be Bellarke endgame but Murphy is Edward and I love it

In the Daylight - Rated T - Haven’t read it yet but Clarke wants a baby and Murphy volunteers to provide the rest of the supplies needed to make that baby

We Carry With The Friends We Made - Not Rated - A zombie/post apocalyptic fic.  I read the first chapter when it was posted and it was really good.  Didn’t realize it’d been updated so I’ll have to check it out at some point!

beautiful flowers - Rated G - Season 1 post-Murphy’s-banishment AU.  Haven’t read it yet but just based on that description I dig it.

and left the secret at the grave - Rated T - Shameless self promotion lol.  I wrote this one for troped and it features being snowed in at an inn where a murder (and other crimes??) have been committed so if that’s your jam check it out.  Also check out my moodboard and reblog it if you want

Say You’ll Remember Me - Rated M - Titanic AU which looks fantastic

The Rise of Weird Holidays Series - Rated E - Clarke and Murphy are friends with benefits but only on holidays so they start celebrating weird holidays so they can hook up more often

Of Parenting and Accidental TikTok Fame - Rated G - Murphy and Clarke have a baby and Murphy gets accidentally TikTok famous while being a stay at home dad

Comeback Kids - Rated M - Absolutely HEARTBREAKING fic where Clarke and Bellamy were in love but then Bellamy dies and Murphy was Bellamy’s BFF who Clarke didn’t really like but then they fall in love.  Only one chapter so far but it made me cry so much omg

Yuletide Carols and Chaos - Not Rated - Looks like a modern exes to lovers with a Christmas theme which sounds high key fantastic

put your faith in the devil and the deep blue sea - Rated M - More shameless self promotion.  Clarke goes back in time to save the world from ending and Murphy accidentally also goes back in time.  They also hate each other, get super powers, and get stuck in a time loop.  Also check out my moodboard and reblog it if you want

It’s Alright, It’s Okay - Rated M - Another time loop but this time it’s canonverse and Clarke made it to the Ark post season 4

Start The New Year Off Right - Rated T - New Years Kiss fic

toxic like you (lively like me) - Rated G - Clarke and Murphy were in isolation together in the Sky Box and fell in love

Two Is Better Than One - Not Rated - Clarke and Murphy have surprise twins

Remember That Night - Rated M - Clarke and Murphy hook up on Valentine’s Day and catch feelings

to anchor within you, sealed in waves - Rated T - Pirates of the Caribbean AU which like YES

Piece Me Back Together - Rated T - Definitely Maybe AU also featuring Murven and Memori (it’s been a bit since I watched the movie so idk who’s endgame but even if endgame isn’t Clurphy it’s still a great plot and so is the part of this fic I read a while back)

Titles Are Over-Rated - Rated T - Modern high school AU, looks like hurt comfort

And that is my fic rec!!  Please don’t be discouraged if a fic has less of a personal comment than another.  I’ve been in zoom classes all day and I just don’t have the brain power to put any more effort into this than I already did.

Also go check out the Clurphy tag on AO3 because there are a heck ton that aren’t on this rec that are probably also definitely good.

I’ve also posted some non-Clurphy fics on my blog for troped if you want to check those out

And now I’ve probably taken a long enough break from homework and should probably get back at it

[slytherinbarnes]

Sub Rosa [40]

xi. nevermore

Pairing: Bellamy Blake x reader

Word Count: 6.8k

Warnings: bleeding, violence, mentions of past assault, Alie!Raven (i.e. she says v mean things to everyone). 

Summary: you are introduced to Alie!Raven as you all race against the clock to save Raven from Alie before she finds you.

a/n: SHOW DAY IS BACK OMG HOW ARE WE ALL FEELING?! we’re so closo to the end of the show and I have a lot of feelings about that but whatever, that’s okay! the taglist for this series is open! I hope you enjoy, please let me know what you think!!!

previous chapter // season masterlist // series masterlist

Chaos erupts in the cave as soon as your group returns. 

You’re the first to step inside, and Sinclair heads straight for you, asking about Kane and what happened with Pike. You quickly fill him in, noting his lack of excitement about being the new unofficial leader of your miniature rebellion. You make a joke about him leading a rebel group made up entirely of delinquents, and he seems even less excited after that. 

Things seem calm for a while, small discussions on what to do now that Pike is gone, how best to return and bring Arkadia back to order, all while the sun slowly sets in the sky. The moon rises, bringing darkness with her, and the radio crackles to life with a voice no one is expecting. 

“Sinclair, do you copy? Kane? Griffin? Monty? Anyone?”

You pick up the radio, staring down at it in shock, looking over at the others. They look just as surprised as you, and Miller asks, “Is that?”

Monty grabs the radio from your hand, stating, “Jasper.”

He lifts the radio and asks, “Jasper, is that you? What’s going on?”

“Arkadia isn’t safe. Alie has taken over and chipped everyone, and they’ve gone crazy. I have Raven and Clarke with me, but Raven’s chipped. She said she knew how to fry it, before Alie took full control.”

You ignore everything else he says, focusing only on one thing: Clarke. You grab the radio back from Monty, frantic. “Clarke’s with you? How? Is she okay?”

“The Commander of Death is fine.” You wince, knowing how much she hates the nickname. “But if you don’t tell me where you are, we won’t be fine for long.”

You pass the radio to Sinclair. “Tell them where we are, give them landmarks they can use in the dark.”

He nods and complies, lifting the radio to give them detailed instructions on how to get here. You turn to the others, “We don’t know what we’re dealing with here, but we need to be ready. Miller, you handle security, take Bryan and Harper with you. Coordinate with each other, find the best spots to keep watch from.”

He nods, already grabbing a gun and passing it to the others. Yo look at Monty and Sinclair, who is now off the radio. “We’re gonna need both of you to figure out how to get Raven back. We can’t go anywhere or do anything until we know what she knows.”

When they nod, you glance at Octavia, who sits near the fire, sharpening her sword, silent this entire time. Bellamy lingers nearby, eyes on her, just as silent. You debate giving them a task to do, something to keep them apart and prevent them from fighting, but you never get the chance because Octavia abruptly stands up and walks to her bag. She quickly shoves things inside of it, pulling on her jacket, while Bellamy runs after her, protesting, “O, wait! You can't just leave.”

“Watch me.”

You step closer to her, reaching out for her. “You heard what Jasper said on the radio, Arkadia isn’t safe.”

She glances at you, shaking her head. “What Jasper said sounds insane.”

She grabs her bag, tuning to glare at her brother. “Pike's gone, and Grounders burn their dead.”

Your mind flashes to Lincoln, on his knees, Pike’s gun lifting slowly. The echo of the shot ringing out, his body falling, and Octavia’s broken cries. You feel tears prick at your eyes, and you blink them away, shaking your head to dislodge the thoughts. 

“I know that. And then what? Where are you gonna go?”

Her voice rises, growing angrier. “You don't get to ask me that!”

“O, what do I have to do to prove I am on your side?”

“Bring Lincoln back,” she deadpans. “Turning Pike in doesn’t make you one of the good guys, Bellamy! You did that to save us, not because you thought what Pike was doing to the Grounders was wrong.”

She steps towards the entrance, ready to leave, before spinning around and adding, “You were hurting and you lashed out, because that's what you do. There are consequences, Bell. People get hurt. People die. Your people. Monroe. Lincoln.”

They stand staring at each other, both looking equally as hurt and distraught as the other. But Bellamy doesn’t get a chance to explain himself further, because you see headlights bounce off the rock at the entrance of the cave. “They’re here!”

You jog to the entrance of the cave and out into the cool night air, heading straight for the rover. You hear the others right behind you, jogging to catch up. Clarke steps out of the rover first, and as soon as she sees you she comes barreling towards you. She collides with you, nearly knocking you both backwards as she wraps her arms around you in a hug. 

You hug her back, relieved to be together again. You pull away first, getting a good look at her as Jasper yells at the others to come help him. As you lock eyes with your twin, you see the heavy weight pressing down on her shoulders, and the small tremble of her lip that would go unnoticed by anyone else. You pull her in for a hug again, and she lets out a quiet sob, her voice cracking on her words, “I loved her.”

You whisper, “I know.”

She goes quiet, and you know she’s tucking her emotions away before she pulls away and gives you a sad smile. You nod towards the entrance of the cave, where the others are walking in. “We have work to do.”

As soon as Clarke steps into the cave, she steps back into leadership mode. She spots Raven on the ground, surrounded by everyone, and she says, “Clear some space.”

Everyone steps back a little, letting her through, and she drops down to her knees to inspect her. Sinclair looks over at Jasper, confused. “What the hell happened to her?”

“I told you on the radio, Raven is not Raven anymore. None of them are. Jaha's been chipping everyone.”

Clarke finishes looking her over, and then turns to look at you. “Jasper's right. I've seen it with my own eyes.”

Jasper yells, “I don't need your help, alright!”

Bellamy steps towards him, putting a comforting hand on his arm. “Just take it easy, and explain.”

“Jaha is using the chips to control everyone. You swallow it and it changes you. You forget who you are, and then you see this thing, Alie. Only, she's not really there. She made Raven slit her own wrists.” You look at Jasper in horror, gaze dropping down to Raven to eye the bandages on her arm. “She was trying to get it out of her head. I was trying to help her but-”

He cuts himself off, looking down at Raven, helpless. You give him a sympathetic look. “Okay then, let's help her now. Did she say how?”

“She was working on building something. She needed one of our old wristbands, but Jaha destroyed all of them.”

“Wait a second.” You all turn to look at Clarke, who pulls a small container from her jacket. She slides the lid open, and holds up a small silicone chip. “Does it look like this?”

“Not exactly.”

You turn to get a closer look at it, eyeing the small clear rectangle, when Raven jumps up suddenly and bolts from the cave. She punches Jasper on her way out the door, knocking him out of her way, as Clarke yells, “Don't let her get away!”

You all run after her, watching as Miller and Harper reach her first, holding her back as she spins around, trying to figure out where she is. “It's just woods. I can't see anything!”

You and Bellamy reach her, both of you helping to restrain her, and she punches Harper, knocking her away. She fights and yells the entire time you try to hold her back, and Jasper comes over to help. “If Raven finds out where we are, so will Alie. She'll come for her.”

He holds up a Reaper stick, just like the one Bellamy used on you, and Lincoln used on Octavia, and you glance at him from the corner of your eye as you both hold her still enough for Jasper to use it. You feel yourself wanting to protest, knowing how much you hated it being used on you, but you know that you can’t let Alie find you. You and Bellamy hold Raven up, keeping her from falling over, when Clarke suddenly mutters, “We have to go.”

Bellamy looks at her in confusion. “Why? Alie doesn't know where we are.”

“Because I know where we can get a wristband.”

And that’s all it takes to send you all into action.

-

As soon as Clarke mentions Niylah’s trading post, Monty offers to drive. 

You all pack up quickly, and squeeze into the back, minus Miller, Harper, and Bryan, who stay behind to guard the cave. The ride to the trading post is silent, no one quite knowing what to say, the awkward energy palpable in the small space. You sit in between Octavia and Bellamy, keeping them separated, but they glance at each other every few minutes, looking angry or annoyed. When Monty finally pulls the rover up to Niylah’s, you feel a rush of relief, ready to move from the middle of the fighting siblings. 

The lights from the rover hit the front of the trading post, and there Niylah stands, sword out, looking pissed. You all stare out the front, unmoving, wondering who’s going to be the unlucky peacemaker. Unsurprisingly, Clarke's the first to volunteer. “I'll talk to her.”

You nod, resigning yourself to backup. “I’ll go with you.”

Bellamy nods from beside you. “Me too.”

As soon as you’re close enough to hear her, she yells, “Skaikru is not welcome here, Wanheda.”

“Niylah, what's wrong?”

You hear Sinclair yell from the rover, “She's waking up, hurry! We have to get her inside!”

You all turn and look towards the rover, watching as Sinclair pulls Raven from the back. Clarke turns back to Niylah and quickly asks, “Is your father here?”

“My father’s dead. Part of an army, killed by your people while trying to protect you.”

You glance at Bellamy from the corner of your eye, watching as he deflates a little, a look of regret on his face. 

“Niylah, please.”

“I said no.”

Bellamy’s demeanor instantly changes, and his voice grows hard as he lifts his gun to her. “We don't have time for this. Move!”

Niylah looks at Clarke in shock, before Bellamy yells again, “Move!”

She steps back, making way for Sinclair to carry Raven in. Clarke takes the lead, pointing them to a bedroom in the back of the trading post, and you stand with Bellamy, who keeps his gun trained on Niylah. Once everyone is inside, and hidden behind the curtain, you push Bellamy’s gun down, away from Niylah. He opens his mouth to protest, and you shake your head. “She’s complying, Bellamy.”

He nods and lowers his weapon, and you all stand there watching each other, listening to the chaos in the other room. Raven is now fully awake, screaming and yelling in a possessed voice, trying to figure out where she is and how she can escape. You can hear the others yelling commands to each other, trying to tie her down, and after a minute of struggling, they seem to have success, because Clarke, Monty, and Sinclair step from the room and into the trading post with you. 

Monty and Sinclair stand in the corner, discussing how to save Raven, and Clarke comes over to you, glancing between you and Niylah. “I’ve got this.”

You nod and start to step away, Bellamy right behind you. You move far enough away to give them space, but Bellamy pulls you to a stop close by, in case anything happens. You stand in front of him, eyes scanning his face, noting the tension in his jaw, and you whisper, “Are you okay?”

“Fine.”

His arms are crossed, pulled tight across his chest, and you can tell he’s anything but fine. His gaze is locked on a spot on the wall above your head, unmoving. “I don’t like what Pike did to you, Bellamy. Before he showed up, we used to talk about everything. I could always tell what you were feeling, because you wear your heart on your sleeve. But ever since Pike came into the picture, you’ve been so closed off from me. I can’t read you anymore.”

His eyes drop down to meet yours, and you see him soften slightly. “I should have never let Pike lock you up. I shouldn’t have stood by and done nothing while he sentenced you to death.”

“But you did do something. You went to Octavia, and she got us out.”

“Not everyone.”

You feel the sadness settle over you again, Lincoln’s death easily forgotten in the chaos of the night. “You’re right. But Lincoln chose to stay to save his people. Octavia tried to stop him, Kane tried to stop him, I tried to stop him, but we couldn't. It’s something he needed to do, and you being there wouldn't have changed that.”

His gaze drops to his feet. “But maybe if I turned away from Pike sooner, I could have saved him.”

“Maybe. Or maybe Pike still would have found a reason to lock Lincoln up and kill all the Grounders in camp. It’s not like he was their biggest fan.” You reach out and tip his chin up, urging him to look at you. “Point is, the blame isn’t yours alone. Pike knew what he was doing, and he manipulated you when you were hurt and upset. This is his guilt to carry, his burden. Not yours.”

“But I still did it.”

“And you’ll have to live with it. But don’t drown yourself in the decisions he made, Bellamy. Don't give him that power over you. Do better than before, and try to make up for your mistakes. Just don't let yourself drown in them.”

He nods, but says nothing because Clarke walks up, effectively ending any further conversation. When you both turn towards her, she holds up the wristband. “Let’s go talk to Sinclair and Monty. You both follow her to a small room off the main trading post, hidden in an alcove, complete with a small table for you to use. Sinclair and Monty are already inside, along with Octavia, while Jasper stays in the other room with Raven. Clarke sets the wristband onto the table and asks, “So, how do we do this?”

Sinclair watches Monty pick up the wrsitand and look it over. “We think Raven wanted to use this wristband to generate an EMP. Which is freakishly brilliant.”

Your brows furrow in confusion, and you glance at Bellamy, finding him equally as lost. You turn to Sinclair. “Okay, and that means...?”

“A targeted electromagnetic pulse could destroy the chip's circuitry. We could use this to send an EMP along Raven's own nervous system. We just need to reverse the polarity, wire for external input, and attach a battery.”

Clarke shakes her head, “But what would that do to her?”

“Well, EMPs don't affect our bodies. But, I don't know the mechanics of how this chip integrates with her brain.”

The words weigh on you all heavily, knowing how much Raven values her brain. Knowing how many times her brilliant mind has saved your lives. Bellamy glances between Monty and Sinclair, and then looks over to you and Clarke. “This was Raven's plan. She wouldn't do it if it would destroy her brain.”

Octavia breaks her silence, “Depends how bad she wanted it out.”

Sinclair ignores her, and shakes his head. “Regardless, without an electromagnet, this is just talk.”

You nod, “Okay, where do we get one?”

“The Ark. Every station had a pulse inductive thruster for maneuvering.”

Bellamy shakes his head, instantly disagreeing. “Arkadia's out of the question. It's too dangerous, you heard them.”

“We use the dropship.” You all turn to Monty, surprised at the suggestion. “It has PI thrusters just like the Ark.”

“That's good. Okay. I'll go salvage the magnet.”

Monty stops Sinclair in his place, “Uh, no. You should stay with Raven and figure out how this thing works. I'll take the rover and be back by the time you finish the device.”

Octavia steps up. “I'll go with you.”

They leave quickly, aware there is no time to waste when Alie is just waiting for one of you to slip up so she can find out where you are and what you’re up to. Before any of you can even say goodbye to the pair, Jasper yells from the other room, panicked, “Guys! Guys!”

You all run inside the room, and your eyes fall on Raven, who has dislocated her shoulder just to reach the knots around her wrists with her teeth. Her struggles have reopened the wounds on her wrists, and blood drips down her arms as she struggles to chew through the rope. “We have to stop her!”

You and Jasper run to the arms she’s trying to free, and pin it in place, preventing her from moving. Bellamy runs behind the bed to pin her other arm from the back, while Clarke searches for better restraints. You eye the blood running down her arms, only getting worse as she struggles against all of you, and you yell to Clarke. “Hurry up, she’s gonna bleed to death!”

Jasper gets closer to Raven’s face, trying to get her attention. “Alie, look at me!”

Raven turns his way, still struggling, as Clarke arrives again with bandages and restraints. Jasper continues, “Why are you doing this to her? Let her go!”

Her face goes blank, her anger at being restrained temporarily forgotten as she answers Jasper in a voice devoid of any emotion or warmth. “I'll let her go when you give me what I want. The technology that Clarke carries, it belongs to me.”

Raven turns to look at Clarke, who sneers. “If you let Raven die, you'll never get it.”

Raven’s head abruptly turns to gaze at the end of the bed, and you follow her gaze, but see nothing there. She stares steadily at the spot, listening, before her body drops, and she goes slack, the fight now gone from her body. Clarke uses the stillness to tell Bellamy, “Untie her wrist. Hold her steady.”

You and Jasper keep Raven restrained on your side as Bellamy frees her arm, allowing Clarke to pop her shoulder back in place. She hands you and Bellamy each a second set of ropes, which you both use to restrain her tighter than before. Bellamy glances over at you, and then to Clarke. “She's never gonna stop trying to get away. We can't let her hurt herself again. Someone has to stay with her.”

Clarke nods, glancing at all of you. “I'll be the first watch. We'll take turns.”

Jasper explodes with anger, “You don't give the orders, Clarke!”

Raven turns to Clarke with a smirk. “Guess he doesn't forgive you for murdering his girlfriend.”

You and Bellamy exchange a look, and you nod to Jasper. He catches your hint and steps away from Raven, nodding to the door. “Jasper, let’s take a break.”

The two men leave the room, and you and Clarke exchange a look before she takes a shaky breath, and nods at you to join her on the other side of the bed. You work in tandem, removing Raven’s old bandages, checking the stitches, and rebandaging her wounds. As you’re finishing up the second wrist, Clarke hands you the old wrappings and asks, “Can you ask Niylah if she has something for Raven to eat? We need to keep her strength up.”

“Yeah, be right back.”

You discard the bandages as you leave the room, before heading for Niylah who is sitting behind the bar, drinking alone. “Hey.”

She looks up at you, brows lifting in acknowledgment. “Do you have something we can give Raven to eat? She’s weak from blood loss.”

She sits staring at you, and for a second you think she’s going to ignore you or tell you to go float yourself, but then she stands from her chair and heads over to a row of shelves. You hear footsteps behind you, and you turn to see Bellamy approaching, who stops to stand beside you. “Food for Raven?”

“Yeah.”

“Good call.”

You wait as Niylah gathers a few things, dried meat, some in season berries, nuts, and she passes them to you without saying a word. “Thank you.”

She nods once, resuming her place at the bar, and Bellamy turns and motions for you to go first. You start walking back to the room, Raven’s voice growing louder as you reach the back. “You always want to save everyone, but what you don't realize is you're the one we need saving from. Wells is dead because you couldn't see Charlotte was a basket case. Finn is dead because you broke his heart and then slid a knife into it. Hell, I bet you got Lexa killed, too.”

You turn and glance at Bellamy, both of you exchanging a worried look as you quicken your pace and hear Clarke yell, “I said shut up!”

“You can hide behind the selfless martyr act, but we see you for who you really are. Poison to anyone who gets close.”

You hear a struggle and then Clarke’s cry of pain, and you and Bellamy burst through the curtain and into the room to see Clarke standing in front of Raven, blood dripping down her arm. Raven gives Clarke a sinister smile, blood all around her mouth from biting Clarke. You turn and practically throw the food onto a nearby table, closing the space between you and your twin as Clarke yells, “You're done Alie, you hear me? We're gonna fry you!”

You start to pull her back but she resists, and Bellamy steps in to help you drag her from the room and into the next room, away from Raven. You and Bellamy release her when she stops struggling, and you lift her arm to check the wound on it. Luckily, it’s not deep, and you grab Clarke’s med kit and start cleaning the wound silently, saying nothing about what you heard. Bellamy stands nearby, making sure she’s not going to run back into the room. 

As you wrap the bandage around her arm, she mutters, “I let her get to me.”

You look up at her, holding back a snort. “You don't say.”

Bellamy steps up to you, nodding towards the bar. “Take a break. I'll let her beat me up for a while.”

“I’ll go with you.” He nods and starts towards the room, but you give your twin a hard look. “Are you okay?”

“No. But I’ll deal with it.”

“Clarke-”

She cuts you off, reaching out to squeeze your arm. “Don’t leave Bellamy alone in there for too long. I’m fine.”

You sigh, looking between her and the door, before finally deciding to follow Bellamy into the room. When you step inside, he’s already sitting at a small table, and you plop down into the chair across from him. 

Raven is silent for a while, alternating between sitting in silence and dozing, and she even allows you to feed her some of the food at one point. Jasper eventually joins you and Bellamy, and you all sit in silence for an hour or so before something changes. Raven pulls herself up straighter, and the movement pulls your eyes over to her, surprised to find her already staring at the three of you.

“Look at your united front.” She turns to look at Jasper, ignoring you and Bellamy. “Tell me, why do you give Bellamy and the forgotten twin a pass for murdering your girlfriend? What was her name?”

Jasper glares at her, shaking his head. “Don't talk about Maya.”

Bellamy glances at him. “You don't have to listen to this.”

Raven pushes on, using Bellamy’s comment to her advantage. “Let's protect Jasper. Jasper is so sensitive, Jasper's lost someone. Everyone cater to his feelings. We've all lost someone, you don't see us falling apart. You don't see us getting wasted, being useless.”

He smirks at her. “You took a pill to take your pain away. You gave up your memories.”

She ignores the jab. “But then, why should we expect anything more? You used to get high off people's medicine. Being a selfish loser was your only move.”

“Stop.”

“That's all we see when we look at you. A coward, a waste of breath. Why do you even bother living? You're weak, pathetic. You can't save me, you can't even save yourself. And you couldn't even save what's her name.”

He stands from his chair, walking towards her, bellowing, “You know her name!”

You and Bellamy stand from your seats, and Bellamy reaches him first, holding him back. “Jasper, think. It's not Raven talking, and you're giving her what she wants. Go.”

Jasper pulls himself from Bellamy’s grip and glares at Raven the entire time he walks from the room. You and Bellamy exchange a look before settling back into your seats, both of you a little more tense than before. 

“And then there were two.” She looks between the two of you, trying to decide who to target next, before her gaze lands on Bellamy. “Bellamy. We've had our fun together, haven't we?”

You and Bellamy both tense, remembering when they slept together, before either of you had admitted your feelings for each other. “It's okay, we don't have to talk about it. But I do have one question: does it bother you that you don't get any credit for the genocide at Mount Weather? Clarke gets to be the Commander of Death, but you murdered all those people, too. Then again...you didn't get any credit for the Culling on the Ark, either. How many people suffocated when you threw away my radio? At least Clarke was saving her own people, you were just saving your own ass. Of course, that's nothing...compared to killing your own mom.”

You see him tense further, and you reach across the table for his hand, whispering, “Don’t listen to her.”

Raven pushes on, “You just had to take little sister to her first dance. You might as well have just shoved Aurora out the airlock yourself. Do you think she'd be proud of you now? Of the kind of leader you've become? Or would she see the truth, like the rest of us do? That you're a follower. Always desperate to follow orders, so willing to follow Pike down his Grounder Killing path.”

“You don't know what you're talking about.”

“I mean, you picked up a gun and slaughtered an army that was sent to protect us. That had nothing to do with almost losing this one to the mountain, did it?” She smirks, tipping her head in your direction. “Because a Grounder's a Grounder, right?”

You keep your eyes on him, and the muscle in his jaw that keeps clenching and unclenching. Despite the fact that he’s struggling with her words, he stands strong, and doesn’t rise to her bait. Unfortunately, Raven’s taunts have brought Niylah into the room, the confession of Bellamy’s role in the massacre now public. 

“My father.”

You and Bellamy stand, and he lifts his hands in surrender, “Niylah.”

“You killed him!” She slaps him across the face, hard, his head snapping to the side. Clarke runs up to her, grabbing her. “Niylah, you can’t be in here.”

You shake your head, and turn to Clarke. “Get her out of here!”

Clarke pulls Niylah from the room, and Bellamy turns and grabs his jacket, pulling it on. You reach out, grabbing his arm to stop him. “Bellamy-”

He snatches his arm free, pulling away from you. “I’m fine.”

You watch as he storms from the room, leaving you and Raven alone. Knowing she can’t be left unsupervised, you plop down into your chair and let out a heavy sigh. Time to be the punching bag. 

“Just you and me now, huh?” You ignore her, averting your gaze as she continues, “How does it feel to no longer be the invisible twin? Of course, that’s just because you’re the forgotten twin now. They didn't know about you before, but now they do, and you’re still second best. Clarke is everyone’s favorite: your friends, your parents, hell, even your own boyfriend follows her orders without a second guess. No one follows you like that.”

You set your jaw, trying to block out her words, hating that she’s bringing out your deepest fears. “Your mom's in here with me. She told me you were stupid and got caught, and your dad had to sacrifice himself to save you. His blood is on your hands.”

“That was his choice, it’s not my fault.”

She doesn't acknowledge your words. “Of course, you have a lot of blood on your hands too, just like your shining star of a sister. You helped Bellamy discard the radio, you pulled the lever in Mount Weather. You left Gina to burn in the Mountain.”

You close your eyes, take in a shaky breath and let it out again, knowing that Gina wouldn't blame you for her death. Still, it’s hard to keep the guilt at bay. “Then you let all those people die in Mount Weather because you didn't get the codes in time. The one job Gina asked you to do. You slit Shumway’s throat. You played the part of the spy to save Bellamy, but how many people got to die in his place? The army he slaughtered? Monroe? Lincoln? You could have saved them, if you were better. Clarke could have saved them.”

You feel a heavy weight press down on your chest, tears pricking your eyes as you think of those lost while you spied for Pike. Deaths you could have prevented, because you had the information to do it. “You know, Clarke may be poison, but you’re the curse.”

Your eyes snap up to meet hers, surprised to hear the words from her. She laughs, coming to a realization. “Twin angels of Death and Destruction: Azazel and Azrael. You, Azazel, bring the destruction and corruption with your curse, and Clarke, our very own Azrael, brings the death to end them all. You make them weak, she wipes them out. What a pair.”

You shift in your chair, uncomfortable, and she smirks at the movement, realizing that she’s getting to you. “Although, it’s interesting that your curse backfired onto yourself, and brought Shumway into the picture.”

You stand from your chair, so fast that it tips over and hits the ground, not wanting to hear his name or relive a single second of the trauma he brought you. You make a beeline for the curtain, pushing it open and coming face to face with Jasper, who actually gives you a look of pity. You realize that he must have been listening the entire time, and you feel annoyance that he was privy to your mental torture. “You’re up.”

You push him into the room, and then head for the door, walking past Clarke, who watches you with concern. Suddenly everyone’s pity and soft looks makes you angrier than it should, and you storm out into the night air. You stalk right past Bellamy, who is still calming himself down from his confrontation with Niylah, and you head straight for a break in the trees, seeking out the moon. 

You feel relief as soon as your eyes land on it, some of your worries already melting away, but you can’t stop repeating Raven’s comparison in your head. Azrael and Azazel, Azrael and Azazel, Azrael and Azazel. 

You hear someone approach from behind, but you don’t move, you just keep your eyes on the moon and your mind on Raven’s words. Bellamy comes to a stop beside you, his gaze lifting to the stars. You whisper, “Still wanna get lost in the stars?”

“Sometimes.”

“Me too.”

You stand in silence for a few more minutes until you hear the rover pull up, and you and Bellamy turn and watch Monty and Octavia step out of the vehicle. Monty storms straight inside, and Octavia lags behind, walking slower. Something about Monty’s demeanor has you and Bellamy jogging to his sister, looking at the door in concern. “What happened?”

“His mom was chipped, showed up at the dropship.” You see the mud and blood on her face, and you get a sinking feeling in your stomach before she even voices the rest. “He killed her to save my life.”

She follows the path Monty took back inside, leaving you and Bellamy to look at each other in shock before following her. Everyone is already in the back and gathered around Raven, ready to shock her, when you arrive. You and Bellamy stand at the end of the bed as Sinclair turns to Clarke. “All we have to do is connect her and activate the electromagnet.”

Monty goes to her arm and works on freeing her wrist so they can attach the bracelet to it, but something in her demeanor changes. She struggles for a second, then freezes, looking at something no one else can see, before she starts banging her head onto the frame of the bed, so hard it shakes. “She's trying to kill herself. Raven stop!”

You, Belllamy, and Octavia all run towards her, trying to hold her head in place and preventing her from causing any more damage, but she still struggles against you. Behind you, Clarke yells, “Stop and I'll give you this.”

You all turn and look at Clarke, who’s holding up the same small chip from before, the second version of Alie’s program. You haven't had the chance to ask Clarke how she got it, but none of that matters now, because Raven freezes in place. As soon as you realize she’s distracted, you reach out and grab the bracelet from Sinclair’s hand and snap it around the wrist that Bellamy's holding in place. She gets angry as soon as she hears it click. “No, you lied! You lied!”

But when she sees Sinclair ready the EMP, she switches to begging. “No, please, don't. The EMP will give me brain damage! You know it will. Please, don't do this!”

Sinclair freezes and Octavia looks over at him. “Don't listen to her.”

“Please! You know it will! Sinclair, stop!”

He wraps the wires around her arm and then glances at you. “We've only got one shot at this. The EMP will fry the wristband too.”

Raven starts to struggle again, realizing this is her last chance, and you, Bellamy, and Octavia struggle to hold her still. You yell, “Do it! Do it!”

“Got it, go!”

Monty throws the switch, and you all hear a small spark and fizzle, but nothing else happens. Octavia looks between Monty and Sinclair. “What's happening?”

“Nothing. We need more power. The battery's not strong enough.”

Clarke snaps, “Well, then get one that is!”

Monty yells, “The rover!”

You yell to Jasper, who is standing nearby. “Jasper, grab her!”

Bellamy yells at Sinclair to do the same, taking his place, and you and Bellamy follow Monty through the trading post and out to the rover. You grab a flashlight on the way out the door, and turn it on as Monty and Bellamy pry open the hood of the vehicle. You hold the light so they can see, and as they’re working to disconnect the battery, you hear a strange sound. You look up in the sky, trying to find the source, and your heart skips a beat when you see a red light blinking in the sky above your heads. “Drone!”

“She’s here.”

You turn and push the flashlight into Bellamy’s hand, pulling his pistol from his thigh holster as you do, aiming at the flying machine. You take a breath, and as you let it out slowly, you squeeze the trigger. The bullet hits with a satisfying ping, and the drone spins out of control until it lands on the ground. 

“I got it!” 

Monty pulls out the battery and runs back inside, with you and Bellamy right behind him. They quickly set up the machine, and you and Bellamy take over for Sinclair and hold your struggling friend in place. This time when they throw the switch, Raven lets out a cry of pain, before going quiet and falling limp. Clarke presses a finger to her neck, checking for a pulse, and she sighs when she finds one. “She’s alive.”

She gets closer to her face, calling her name. “Raven? Come on Raven, hey. Come on Raven, wake up. Wake up!”

You shake her shoulder, hoping it will help, but no matter how much you call her name and move her, she doesn’t move. Clarke freezes, and you think she’s about to give up, when she whispers, “Both AIs were made by the same person, and I've seen an AI get removed before.”

She turns to you, “Help me get her on her side!”

You do as she says as she grabs her medkit and pulls out a scalpel. She lifts it, hovering over Raven’s neck, but Sinclair grabs her arms to stop her. “Woah, woah, woah.”

She puts a comforting hand on top of his. “It's okay.”

She pushes all of Raven’s hair off her neck, before making an incision along the base of her skull. And then she grabs a cloth and holds it beneath the incision and waits. Nothing happens for five agonizingly long seconds, until a thick silver goo starts to run out of the cut, along with Raven’s blood. You look at it in disgust. “What is that?”

Sinclair eyes in in curiosity. “It must be whatever's left of the chip.”

As soon as the last bit slides out of her neck, Raven shifts and starts to cough. She lifts a hand to her head, clutching it and muttering, “Ow.”

You all laugh in relief and Octavia jokes, “Never thought I'd be so happy to see someone in pain.”

You all stand looking down at your friend, relieved that she made it, but Bellamy reminds you all of the pressing reality of your situation. “Alie knows we're here, we gotta move.”

The words send you all into action, stitching up Raven and getting her new clothes from Niylah, putting the battery back in the rover, packing up all your things. Everyone is a flurry of movement, moving as fast as they can to get packed up and away from danger. 

As you and Bellamy are piling up the gear outside, waiting for Monty to back the rover in closer, he passes you a bag, and you notice the blood dripping down his arm from his knuckles. You drop the bag and grab his hand, pulling it to you to inspect it in the light of the torch nearby. You think of the sag in his shoulder when you walked past him earlier, something that didn't register then because you were too wrapped up in your own reaction to Raven. You reach into your pocket and pull out one of the extra bandages you have, and wrap his hand, giving him a small smile. “I’m gonna need the people I love to stop getting hurt tonight. I’m running out of bandages.”

He looks up at you in surprise, before his face settles into a look of regret. “What do you do when you realize...you might not be the good guy?”

You think of Lincoln and Monroe. The attack on the army that you didn't stop. Gina, the people in Mount Weather, both times. Acceptable losses in the war to keep yourselves alive. “Maybe there are no good guys. We’re all doing what we have to, to survive. Maybe for now, that has to be enough.”

He nods, and you look up as the rover backs up to a stop nearby. You both load everything in the back, and then help Sinclair get Raven into the rover. As you're getting her situated, Clarke comes over to her, musing, “There's one thing I don't understand. Why did Alie want you to kill yourself?”

“Because I know why she wants the second AI.”

You all look towards her in surprise. “Why?”

“It's the only thing that can stop her.”

“Then let's stop her.” Octavia turns to look at Monty, giving him a knowing look. “We survive together.”

You smile at her. “Ogeda.”

Everyone nods, agreeing, before piling into the back of the rover, while Monty moves to the front. He turns, looking back at Clarke. “Where to?”

She looks around at everyone, thinking, before locking eyes with him. “Home.”

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next chapter

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Azrael, the Angel of Death; Azazel, a fallen angel who corrupted humanity

[burninghoneyatdusk]

7x05 Thoughts & Ramblings

S2!Octavia vibes and I am HERE for it

Oh wow that Aboretum major hunger games arena vibes, they were clearly THG inspired this season

I’m so confused by time. Like was that the first time Octavia was taken or after Hope stabbed her?

Oh damn the self-immolation disturbing af

Literally so bored by the sheidheda plot, next please

Soft Murphy when he’s concerned about Emori 🥰🥰

Ah okay so it’s clearly the first time Octavia was taken and they have info about everyone else because of her memories. Got it (maybe)

Ayyy the first “go float yourself.” Scratches it off bingo card

Is it sad that my heart jumped just at the sound of Bellamy’s voice in Octavia’s memories? Miss our boy

Wait are we not seeing Clarke and them this ep? I’m so bored by this Sanctum plot

Really wish Murphy went with Clarke and them instead of Niylah so we could get full delinquent vibes

Oh damn they made Daddy Murphy angry

Omg I’m LIVING for this Murphy. “The rest of the children come with me.” I’m so attracted to him rn I can’t

BET YOU’RE WONDERING WHY I NEVER CALLED dhhfksjs I’m cackling

Sanctum plot is shit but at least Murphy is entertaining

Switching right to the shot of cockroach murphy saying “I’ll survive.” *chef’s kiss* cinematic masterpiece

“Tell me about this John Murphy” LMAO this should be good

Oh there’s a *good* Bardo man alright. They’ll probably kill him lol

Aw her saving Hope with the deal

Lol this guy is going to have loads of trauma just from watching Octavia’s memories

This guy CHEERING for her memory WTF. Like okay now he’s just creepy, he’s like obsessed

I mean I wouldn’t say her heart is PURE lmao.

“Wait until you meet bloodreina” lol at least she’s self aware now

Aw the Octavia and Hope reunion. That’s got to be fucking wild for Octavia to see her that old when she’s been there for like 2 weeks

Wait now I’m even more confused if this is stabbed!Octavia

Oh okay this is pre-stab Octavia, and this is why she forgot after she came out of the anomaly?

How did I become too stupid for a CW show. Tbh thank god I decided to watch with a glass of wine 🍷

Alright, code on back. Pre-stab Octavia

My head is spinning 👋🏻👋🏻👋🏻

Lmao the Bardo guy is so smitten with her. “May we meet again,” he says with a smile after she beat him, face bloodied

Oh they came in all stabby

HOPE came in all stabby

This is probably the creepiest cult we’ve had on the show and yes 110% because they keep saying shepherd

This leader dude with the white hair is always a villain

THEY WEREN’T ELIGIUS THERE WAS A STONE ON EARTH EXCUSE ME WHAT

It’s called love you son of a bitch

Clarke is the key to everything huh okay interesting. Him saying that to Hope makes me wonder what Hope knows about Clarke from Octavia and Diyoza. Like what stories did they tell her? Is she thinking, why’s this bitch so important?

Random note not the 100 related: Stop with these fucking Amazon propaganda ads, it aint fooling anyone

Honestly disappointed but mostly bc I thought we were getting Clarke + crew this ep even if we weren’t getting Bellamy yet. This is why you keep your expectations low kids

Why do they think Kaylee is real and not Daniel?

Lmao sheidheda is like, I did not sign up for this shit

“Had to find the right dress.” / “You did.” Wow these last two eps are really bringing out the memori fan in me

Trying to be understanding bc these Sanctum people are brainwashed but like...ya’ll. Open your eyes.

Indra has heard that before OH SHIT she called him

Pls pls pls don’t die Indra

Trigedasleng always coming in handy to root out the liars

Okay still don’t like the sheidheda plot but I like learning grounder history tbh. Interesting about the whole battle that conquered Trikru. We saw just the smallest snapshot of grounder culture/history in S1-4.

Let him feel it. For Abby. SHIT Indra. Although tbh not surprised

Obsessed Bardo guy to Octavia. “They think I’ve gotten too close.” YA THINK. I mean, we appreciate it, but it’s still weird

Her brother is here. Omg omg omg

Oh god they broke Octavia

I SHOULD NOT BE LAUGHING BUT OMG BELLAMY HOW DID YOU LIKE KILL ALL THESE MEN YOU WERE UNCONSCIOUS LIKE - WHAT

“No way, not without you.” 😭😭😭

Aiighhhtt Echo continues to lose it

Okay. We know obviously Bellamy isn’t dead but we can definitely see where this is going with the b/echo development, or more accurately unraveling. Besides the fact she just reverted to murdering someone out of pure rage/revenge, now we get to see Echo without Bellamy, as a person without a “king” and see how she handles it. Honestly 50/50 whether she gets a redemption, growth arc or if we’re just going to watch her spiral further into darkness.

Haaaaa omg Hope & Gabriel @ Echo at the end. [insert VEEP nervous laughter meme]

Anyhow this was so long I’m sorry. These posts are getting longer w every ep bc I get more confused with every ep.

Will be praying for a bellarke reunion in 7x06, here we go 🙏🏻🙏🏻

[bellamymfblake]

Okay I’m finally watching 714:

- Clarke crying looks fake and forced do you think Eliza did shitty acting to spite the shitty plot lmao

-Octavia would’ve punched Clarke in the throat but okay. I love that Clarke kind of flinched when Octavia stepped closer to her.

-why does Echo say “we lost him a long time ago” when it was like 3 days ago?

-oh but that Bellamy’s favorite girls hug just made me cry

-I can’t believe everyones just like “yeah alright”

-I looked down to eat my food and missed Bob’s name being ripped off the credits lmao

-uhh Clarke destroying the helmet is out of character.

-IM ANNOYED. CLARKE HAS BEEN DEVOLVING FOR A WHOLE SEASON AND THERES ONLY 2 EPISODES AFTER THIS TO FINISH THE STORY IN A GOOD/RESOLVING LIGHT

-why the FUCK is sheidheda on my screen right now.

-cadogan can just go

-there’s literally 2 episodes left and we’re...we’re like still at the beginning of the story line lmao

-cardigan and shady had steamy gay sex before this scene I don’t care for your opinions.

-aww fuck I forgot I was doing this lmao I’m on the scene with madi and clarke

-love madi scolding clarke but also their relationship isn’t been highlighted in like 2 seasons sooo I didn’t feel much

-I love that now Bellamy’s dead they’re saying his name every 3 seconds but for the entire first half of the season they forgot he exists

-a Lincoln mention?? I live for a Lincoln mention

-I just drank some NyQuil so idk about watching 715 tonight

-ugh I love Indra and Octavia. Always have loved their relationship. Their connection is amazing.

-I live for Octavia facing her demons but I thought facing demons was last season.

-you’re my seda 🥺😍😍😍 love me some Gaia and Indra scenes

-not a speck of dust in this bunker they left for 300 years or whatever

-have Gabriel and madi ever even interacted

-okay the Jordan and hope scene was cute I guess. Kinda forced but okay.

-how can they not tell sheidheda is 4 inches away from their faces

-omg I forgot to even talk about the Miller and Jackson scene lmaooo FINALLLYYYYYY some mackson lovinnnn I’ve been waiting all season for my fave gays to see each other again. And talking about daddy Miller, brooo stoppp my fucking heart

-I can’t believe she told Niylah about her real name lol

-honestly I love Niylah but I’m wondering what they’re trying to make me feel for her?

-aww I really do love Murphy and who he has become ❤️

-I don’t know what the writers thought I would feel hit they couldn’t have thought I would feel good watching this season lol

-my best friend hasn’t watched this season at all yet and I just keep telling her she’s gonna hate it

-uhh literally what is this Hope and Jordan scene lmao

-Gabriel playing the piano is just what I needed—oh wow he got stabbed in the same second I was writing this point.

-Again—I don’t really know what the writers were trying to convey to me in that scene.

-JR Bourne is an AMAZING actor. He played Russel soooooo well, but idk about him playing sheidheda.

-cadogan: takes a pill to dip out.

Sheidheda: can I have one of those pills?

Cadogan: ahh actually you’re gonna have to Stab yourself :/

-Gabriel dying is like...so poetic. The whole team having a pow wow while he’s dying? Not so cute.

-can’t believe the character that gave me life died alone without his own greeting and Gabriel got it lol I love me some Gabriel tho. Just another moc down.

-it’s been such a short amount of time that Raven is still chillin with the same black eye she got in episode 703

-EMORI NOOOOOOOOOOOOO

[prince-liest]

Aw no fair, I already established that I liked your energy geez now you gotta drag me in even more xD so much to respond to wow, alright but Hawks being Prometheus? Very interesting and fresh perspective from the every so common Icarus title people gave him. I'm interested! *shakes you back and forth because my agreement and understanding of your words have rendered me silent how do I respond?* ohh musicals, nice! That takes me back. Haha sometimes you gotta go feral. Hope you had fun :)

Omg, haha - I’ll drag anyone I can down into the enthusiastic meta pit! 

I talked about my opinions on the Icarus metaphor over here, and the tl;dr is that I think it’s not fitting at all and probably is just a go-to because Hawks has wings and it’s relevant imagery. I have no formal background in Greek mythology and haven’t studied the myth of Prometheus properly aside from the usual middle school Greek mythology phase kids get that prompts them to enthusiastically pick up Percy Jackson, and I can see aspects of it that don’t quite fit as a parallel (especially regarding Prometheus disobeying authority and Hawks obeying it to a fault), but I also don’t have enough knowledge to pick a better Greco-Roman stand-in, haha!

I feel like, overall, Hawks is meant to be a character who is sacrificing himself and his beliefs in a number of different ways for what he sees and is told is the greater good. Both in the main manga and the internship side mission spinoff, Hawks regularly talks back to the decisions the Commission makes, but also immediately proceeds to adhere to those decisions completely. He is also in many ways punished for his decision to do this work, in his lack of relationships and social life, his sacrifice of his beliefs and morals and friendship in killing Twice, and his physical well-being as a hero with, uh, judicious application of fire.

(2/4) I say that but it’s literally just my 9th grade musical phase I’m blaming the group of kids constantly singing in the hallway in the early mornings of my first period class for. But to be fair, musicals + nearly dark sky + nice wind/clouds + standing at the edge of the school empty area listening to the sounds drifting around contemplating life sure is something. I’d just sing in my head. And yeah! See that’s the thing, they aren’t resolved so I’m :(

I am unashamedly obsessed with musicals, haha, I’m not gonna lie! Especially the ones that are very high-energy. I love Heathers a great deal in particular, and the singers for the West End version go hard. So I had a lot of fun, haha, thank you! I ended up writing a whole DabiHawks Heathers spinoff outline I’m never gonna write after listening to Meant To Be Yours and Dead Girl Walking (Reprise) too many times during a quarantine walk…

(¾) I’m gonna sob. I’m desperately clutching onto Horikoshi’s comments on having a lot of expectations for Hawks’ character for moving the story forward and cool places for him to go. So I’m like woah what??? Well okay, I’ll keep my hopes up that the writing is good for him! Another cryptic comment was how ‘he’s outstanding compared to the other heroes, but what exactly is he looking at over the horizon?’ And I’m so lost haha mysterious. Well Hawks always did throw everyone for a loop.

Lack of resolution kills the man! qAq I’m actually really excited to know that Horikoshi has made comments like that - knowing the way the story is going, I’m sure it’ll take a while to take us there, but he came through in featuring Shinsou more in a way I enjoyed greatly, so I have high hopes for Hawks! Especially considering how well he’s set up to be a really polarizing character in-universe.

With regards to that comment, though, I think he may have been referring to the fact that Hawks is a prodigy that excels at being a hero, but is looking forward to a time when he doesn’t have to actually do his job because the world is safe and sound!

(4/4) Guess whose salty and angry my phone crashed and deleted two asks before I could send them to you. NOW MY RESPONSE IS LACKING AND I HAVE NO CLUE WHAT I HAVE TO RETYPE AND IT WON’T BE THE SAMEEE!!!! Ahhhh darn it. 

OML, anon, that’s really frustrating and I’ve been there, you have all my sympathies! Feel free to send more asks or hit me up on Discord (Bellamy#7777) if you feel okay with un-anonymizing yourself, though, whether you remember your thoughts or have more! :D

[starrynightshade]

The 100 Season 3 thoughts

Back at it again!

Jaha has gone full cult but at least he’s not skipping arm day.

Ooh, heck of a time jump!

Bellamy got a new girl, huh?

Jasper x iPod is the only valid ship.

Miller and his space boyfriend said gay rights.

Omg Jaha has lost it. Murphy is the only rational person on this island.

Octavia is a horse girl: confirmed

Jasper, baby, you need help.

Ooooh, Clarke’s got a new look! That red looks super...natural?

Pike... is gonna get so many people killed. Dude, I know you think you know what’s going on here but you only know about 10% of the situation.

Wow look at all those people Pike killed.

I swear to god every space cadet with a Y chromosome shares a single brain cell, which they take five minute turns with.

So this is gonna be the AIDA storyline from agents of SHIELD?

Raven, bby, don’t do it! Don’t take the manic pill...

Somebody is gonna kill Lincoln and push Octavia over the edge.

Sooooo... they just kill all the nightbloods that don’t become Commander?

Let Miller and his boyfriend kiss you cowards!

Oh look! Bellamy got the braincell back!

Oh shit, I forgot about Ontari...

I’m high-key happy that Indra’s back.

Octavia, I respect your strong independent woman thing, but this is just reckless.

Gay tears for Miller and his boyfriend.

Alright, I’m gonna say it... Kane is hot and that’s the tea.

LINCOLN NOOOOOO!!!!!!

Murphy stop checking out Ontari, she just murdered a bunch of kids.

LINCOLN NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

I know Bellamy is everyone’s bae or whatever, but he fucking deserved that beat down.

“[Raven’s] so much stronger than the rest of you.” HELL YEAH SHE IS.

Oh my gosh Lindsey Morgan is fantastic! Alie!Raven is spot on!

Okay, I know my feelings towards Murphy have shifted a lot, but I have to admit he’s freaking fun to watch no matter what side he’s on.

Bellamy you better fucking be leading Pike into a trap...

Damn! Ontari hit him with that Game of Thrones shit...

I was gonna make a bondage joke about Murphy and that chain but things just got reaaaaaaal squicky again...

Okay, this is getting long so I’m just gonna skip to my thoughts on the finale.

Thoughts on the finale: OH SHIT

[hauntingblue]

Riku saying they won't lose the opportunity to chose death after mingo says the weak don't get to choose....

[flamingjets]

Alright all you gif making heroes I need gif sets of all the bellarke scenes asap!!! Especially the scene with "I'm not leaving you"

Bellarke fan dead over here omg they were awesome love them and how does everyone know bellarke love each other but bellarke and Clarke still won't tell each other seriously guys do it. And next week omg Josephine and Clarkes mind space is going nuclear! Bellamy will be freaking out

[easilydistractedbyfanfic]

Countdown to Season 6 Raven/Murphy #3 - Raven is an elephant

Hi again! I’m continuing my totally random countdown to Season 6! We’re only 12 days away now! If you missed post #1 or #2, there you go!

Basically this series of posts is my self-indulgent way of talking about why I love these characters, but maybe there’s a piece or two of insight I’m hitting on while I’m at it. Buckle up because this one is LONG! Today I’m gonna talk about why I think Raven is an elephant. I can hear you all saying it now - What the heck does that even mean, Jenn? I mean just that, fellow Murven fans. Raven is the elephant in the room and let me show you why I think that. Here’s your first clue, but I’ll get to this one in a minute! Ignore my crappy pictures and just go with the point I’m making, mmkay?

Alright, but to the beginning! In 4x04, Raven/Murphy/Em0ri are in their first scene together. The first time all three of them are in the same camera frame, this happens, below - 

Raven’s in the middle. Not really a big deal on the surface - any time you have 3 characters in the frame together, SOMEONE is going to be in the middle, and I do get that. In 4x05, Murphy is not present. In 4x06, Em0ri is not present (lots of Murven though). In 4x07, no Raven, not much Murphy. 

In 4x08, Raven/Murphy/Em0ri are all positioned pretty close together on one side of Baylis’ radiation pod while everyone else is set farther apart and mostly on the other side. Why are these 3 put together? Em0ri is in the middle but Raven is set up front, closest to the pod and when the camera shows all 3 of them in the frame, Em0ri is often hard to see or actually blocked by Jackson, the frame of the cryopod or is tucked behind Murphy or Raven. They are not on the same plane/do not have the same prominence. The scenes with Baylis go by fast, but again - look at when all 3 are in the same frame. 

Obscured, and the middle. Remember, this is only when all 3 of them are in the frame together. 

This takes us to 4x09, where we get the first coupla scenes with someone in the middle again. 

And then we see Murphy & Em0ri in a scene right after they have sex, but it is debatable on how sexy this is when they aren’t in bed together and are mostly dressed and focusing their eyes elsewhere. What are they looking at? Who are they talking about? Who is present both physically (in view) and metaphorically? Oh - are we talking about an ELEPHANT in the room?

The whole scene here they go back and forth from them to Raven. This feels way less intimate than it could have been with just the two of them. No knock to other ship fans, honestly - we all have our preferences, yes, and I’m not here to debate which ship is better. My point here is what is the purpose of a scene where a third party is literally in the MIDDLE of a kiss? Again, excuse my crappy phone photos of my tv, y’all, but how the frick am I not supposed to read into this when it’s like a threesome is happening in my bedroom?!

That kiss is the last scene of the 3 of them together until the end of 4x12, but I would like to note that in 4x09, Murphy “looks back” at Raven three times. Once when he leaves her alone in the room when he’s worried she’ll have a seizure, and then twice when he leaves her behind to float herself. Dang I love tropes! In addition, they leave the bunker to go after Raven as well as perhaps ensuring their survival, making her part of the focus/reason of their own scenes. 

In 4x12, Murphy is the third person to come down the steps to Raven, after only Bellamy and Clarke. I find that interesting, FYI, but I’ll spare you my details. When he talks to her, she follows him and doesn’t talk to anyone else who has arrived at that point. They all move around a lot after that but there are more frames with Murphy & Raven in them and I wouldn’t say there was a frame with all 3 of them since it just goes so fast and they’re all moving. 

In 4x13, the first (very brief, yes) frame with all 3 where they’re finally still literally has Raven’s hand blocking Em0ri. 

They’re not all 3 in the frame again until the end. There’s a super brief shot of Raven & Murphy standing next to each other at 23:04 with Bellamy and Em0ri opposite them while they refill oxygen tanks, then Murphy is over Raven’s shoulder in the rocket but Em0ri is behind her and not seen. However if you wanna get technical about it, it does form a triangle with the way they are sitting, especially when you consider they could’ve put Monty & Harper there instead. There is a moment when Raven unbuckles her seatbelt and starts to float where we see Raven/Murphy/Em0ri in the same frame but the focus is on Raven floating in zero-g and again - metaphorical elephant in the sense that she’s where the attention is. Then who helps drag Raven into the Ring when her air is the lowest - and where is she positioned? The middle. 

That whole scene with the air is another elephant encounter. They start sharing because of her/they keep sharing because of her. When they pull her to the air vent, Raven is in the middle. I thought there was a frame where all 3 were shown at the air vent when it starts to work, but there is not. The frame is Raven & Murphy together and then Em0ri separate. 

OMG this post is getting long and I need some chocolate. Are you all sick of this post yet? Because we’re about to go into S5. Holy crap I really am that weird obsessive fan, aren’t I? Lemme finally put a cut in here. 

First scene with all 3 in S5 frame - I can’t be the only person who has noticed a pattern yet, right?!

They move to the window, Raven’s in the middle, but they only frame Raven & Murphy in the next shot. Raven & Em0ri go back to the radio and then we get this. Yep, I put a heart around her, I’m a dork. -

Annnndddd then we get this - 

In 5x03, there is a scene where all 7 of Spacekru is in a shot in the rocket while they head to the Gagarin for the first time. Monty, Harper & Murphy’s backs are to the camera, but the order is Em0ri/Raven/Murphy with Raven in the middle of the two. Then we get the last image of all 3 of them for a while - and hey, look - the perspective has changed a bit. Murphy is framed in the middle here. I could go into another whole post about why I think this happened based on what’s happening on screen, but if there’s anybody still reading this at this point, you’re probably all groaning and thinking “No, dear god, please don’t” and I hear you, I really do. Plus I’m tired, so there’s that. 

After this scene, they don’t all 3 come together again for a while, but Raven is still that metaphorical elephant when Murphy & Em0ri share scenes. First, when he says he’s staying behind for Raven in 5x03, then in 5x05 when Murphy & Em0ri reunite, her first words to him are asking where Raven is. Elephant. 5x06 in the cave Murphy brings Raven up a couple of times as Em0ri tries to remove the collar. Same ep when they are in the rocket talking about their breakup, he mentions Raven again and she asks if he was jealous. This is where he has the idea to blow up the rocket fuel like Raven did in S1. Metaphorical elephant. They kiss, but Em0ri makes a point of saying it doesn’t mean they’re getting back together. They get a hostage. 

5x08 (Murphy/Em0ri not in 5x07) - they are negotiating a hostage exchange to give McCreary for Raven. Then they slightly argue over Murphy making a deal with McCreary to get Raven back, among other things, but again, the elephant exists here even though they do not all 3 share a scene. 

5x09 - Hey, the trio is finally back together! But from here on out things get murkier. They share a scene, along with Echo, but all 3 of them are not in the same frame. Em0ri is shown with Echo and Murphy and Raven are shown together as the camera pans back and forth. Back in the church in Shallow Valley, they are not all 3 in the frame again either, although I’m gonna take just a wee second to point out that Murphy is often in between Raven & Sh4w when it comes to sight lines. Super brief shot of removing the shock collars and it transitions from Raven & Murphy being on one side of the church on beds to Sh4w and Em0ri across an aisle. They are not all 3 in the frame in any part of this episode. 

They’re all 3 not in 5x10, but in 5x11 we get a frame of Murphy in the middle of Raven & Sh4w as he hands her some wire and there’s a scene of those three. Then that transitions to a scene where Em0ri and Echo come in and Raven and Murphy are on the ends with everyone else in the middle. Then they go into the snow and all 3 ARE in the frame with Raven & Murphy on the ends and Echo and Em0ri in the middle. Anybody who has heard me rant about this show knows I hate this entire snow scene (except for the lighting), but for the most part, Raven & Em0ri are in the shot together more than anything else. In the cave planning scene when the camera pulls back, Echo & Em0ri are in the middle of Raven and Murphy again. 

5x12 - another snow scene, not all 3 in the same frame. Cave scene with radio call to Monty has a sort of circle with Echo, Raven & Em0ri on one side and Sh4w on the other with Murphy pacing between. Super, super brief glimpse here where Murphy stands, Echo right in front of him confronting him, Em0ri all the way to the right and Raven in the middle but it’s so quick I don’t really count it and all the shots here are mostly individual faces. 

5x13 - the frame with a bunch of them looking at burning Earth has Em0ri so far towards the back she’s hard to see, though Raven is sort of in the middle of Sh4w and Murphy. 

And that’s it. I would say the last true shot of JUST Raven/Murphy/Em0ri happened in 5x03, otherwise they are only in the frame together along with Echo and/or Sh4w too. 

But I’m one of those people who watch shows with this kind of framing in mind, and while I have combed through the trailers and some of S6 leaks already with that in mind, I’m not going to spoil anything here. Just watch it for yourself with an eye towards who is standing where, what are they focusing on, who are they talking about and whether it adds or detracts, and see what you come away with. And anyway, no one wants me doing another long-ass post like this, do you?! 

What does this all mean, you might ask, now that we’re finally at the end? Well, not that the show needed to convince me, since I decided these two stubborn hard-heads would be fun to push together way back in S1, but I’d say there’s evidence that the show is telling us something. From 4x04 until the end of S5, there is a pattern when these three characters are in the same frame ANDYou can decide for yourself what that is, but like I said in the beginning - Raven’s an elephant and there’s no changing my mind. And I know how I see this but this isn’t an anti post and I hope no one tries to turn it into one. 

If you stuck with me til the end, then I give you major props, peeps! You can join the ranks of the obsessive along with me! LMAO!

[storywool]

i just love your writing SO MUCH I SWEAR TO GOD i might request some stuff alright i love you and i love your bellamy stuff 🥺🥺

Omg thank you so much bb! Please please please request because I have no inspiration right now to write! Thank you for reading

[johnmurphysreddit]

 From Kim Shumway’s Twitter post about Adjustment Protocol on July 30, 2019. 

Text of the tweet:  My latest ep of #The100 airs tonight! This one was an exercise in "how many season-long character arcs can I land?" I stopped counting at 6 because omg, so many characters. I'll livetweet the ep from @The100writers' account, ET. Get ready for some epically crappy phone pics! (bolding mine)

Alright let’s get into this.  First, it’s season long character arcs. If it feels disconnected from prior seasons it could be because that wasn’t one of their primary concerns.  She was writing season long arcs. Also, she considers them landed.  The emotional part of these season long journey ended in this episode.  Emotionally the finale was intended as denouement (if anyone thought about emotions when writing the finale at all. Jason?)

I assume when she says character arc she means that and not relationship arc.  There’s a difference and it matters.  In a character arc the character starts emotionally at point A, goes through the events in B, and comes out emotionally at C.  Since this is the “face your demons” season the vast majority of character arcs should have them facing their demons to cause change. 

Now to squint at the episode and see if I can spot six (or more!) characters who finish or have finished facing their demons in Adjustment Protocol. Here’s a link to Toni Watches if you only vaguely remember which episode it was. 

Abby: From denial of her own responsibility to acceptance.  Faced her demons (ie owned her past failings) and got wiped

Madi: present but mostly just getting bone marrowed and more and more possessed. 

Clarke: pretending to be josie. Lots of action.  Not seeing a ton of character growth settling on her. 

Russell:  Journey from conflicted immortal to mustache twirling villain and enthusiastic murder cult leader. Ordered the killing of a preteen to bring back all his people so he could rule sanctum. Also smirked at Gabriel while they managed to make an important conversation boring.  

Octavia: her arc occurred off-screen and now she’s just different.  I award her no points and may she find growth in the green. 

Bellamy: from resentful brother to loving brother. Faced the demon of abandoning Octavia and accepted her changing in ways he didn’t like. They had their ha-ha moment and smiles

Jackson: He and Abby made peace.  He knows he’s not a war criminal.  I could give them points for a relationship journey but we don’t know enough about how he felt before to say he’s changed after.  No character arc. 

Raven: from judgmental to accepting that people you love are imperfect.  They didn’t stick this story or this landing, imo, but knowing that they were trying to write a character arc makes it all make a little more sense. 

Gabriel: from inaction to action.  He had been hiding in the woods for years (a  mystery to his own people) and in this episode he ran through the fence, poisoned the water and confronted Russell.  It was a weak plan and he ditched his best shot of success (Napkru) to do it, but you can call it a character arc if you want. 

Echo, Gaia, and Miller: Reunited with Clarke and Clecho hugged it out.  Echo had previously been pro-Clarke, so this isn’t a character growth marker. 

Murphy and Emori: were around looking fabulous.  noped out on the primes.  From self-interested to group focused. I really only want to give partial credit on this one.  It just wasn’t a satisfying story.  If they were ever all in on the primes that didn’t really come through. Also, a season long arc should span at least most of a season.  If Murphy had gone from fearing death to embracing life that would be a real arc, but it just felt like they finally wised up and realized their odds were better if they stuck with the ones they came with.  

Priya: From self-made goddess to ordinary human.  Brought down the shield.  Publicly disclosed her body snatching. Was this a fall from grace or a character arc?  TBH, I don’t feel like she grew into this moment so much as she was shoved into it. 

Jackson: Saw Miller taken away to the ship and protested.  That’s just a thing he does, not a change, not an arc. 

Simone: From dead to alive is not emotional growth.

[she-who-the-river-could-not-hold]

The 100 Ask Game

Thanks for tagging me @thelittlefanpire!!! This looks like so much fun omg and what a great way to kick off show day! Answers and tags below the cut!

1. What Station on the Ark would you be from?

Either farm station because I’m from a rural state, or whichever one Clarke’s in (I’m completely blanking) since my dad also works in the medical industry.

2. What would you get arrested for on the Ark?

Either fighting back against the system or stealing art supplies, or maybe rations for those in need.

3. Would you take off your wristband when you landed on the ground?

Absolutely! Especially since Bellamy asked.

4. What would the necklace Finn would make for you look like? (Clarke: deer/Raven: a raven duh..)

An owl!! Or maybe a cat.

5. If you could resurrect any MINOR character who would it be?

Ooohhhh. Probably everyone’s answer, but Wells.

6. Create a squad of 5 characters to go on missions with. Who are they?

Bellamy, Clarke, Lincoln, Miller, and Monty.

7. What Grounder Clan would you belong to you?

Trishanakru!

8. What would your name be in Trigedasleng? (example: Octavia=Okteivia…just make it up!)

Oh god... uh kinda drawing a blank how to change Kathryn up. Open to suggestions. 

9. Thoughts on Finn? Some people hate him, and others love him, so I’m curious

HE MAKES ME SO UNCOMFORTABLE I really can’t stand him and I think he’s a lot more terrifying than he’s talked about. Rewatching the early seasons he was so scary to watch as he evolved. I mean he murdered a bunch of people and then when Clarke shows up he’s so far gone he’s decided he’s the one who found her. He literally only felt remorse because Clarke was upset? Horrible.

10. Be honest. How willing would you have been to take the chip without knowing all the horrible things it does?

I think I would have eventually caved but definitely could hold out for a while.

11. What character do you relate to most?

Easily Clarke!

12. What character do you like the least?

Eeeeeehhhh Finn and Cage I think would be the top two.

13. Describe your delinquent outfit. (Would you wear something like Murphy’s jacket with the spikey red shoulder patch or have a trademark like Jasper’s goggles? Be creative, yet practical)

Combat boots, fingerless gloves because I’m a badass, black leather jacket. Kind of a cross style of Clarke and Raven. 

14. Favorite type of mutant animal?

THE TWO FACED DEER BABY

15. What would your job be on the Ark?

Well they probably don’t have use for artists up there? So maybe teach or if they needed someone to transcribe history or current stuff. I also enjoy politics/work in it so I could be a representative.

16. Would you have willingly pumped Ontari’s heart if Abby asked?

aldksjfklsdjfjsd I GUESS

17. If Lexa wasn’t Heda, but she was still alive then who would have made the best commander?

mmmmmmmm. Of Night Bloods I’m going to go with Luna when we first meet her. In a “normal” world I could see Madi becoming a good one, though I’m not sure that’s where the season will take her since the commander stuff seems up in the air.

18. How would you act if you ate the hallucinogenic nuts like Jasper and Monty?

Oh god probably not well?? I can just imagine my personal anxieties about myself finding ways to manifest it would be a nightmare.

19. How would you have dealt with Charlotte’s crime? A more John Murphy approach or Bellamy Blake approach?

Definitely Bellamy’s. 

20. Who should have been the Chancellor, if anyone?

Mmmmm Kane wasn’t good on the Ark, but he really transformed on the ground. Clarke as well since she’s willing to make the hard decisions.

21. Would you have been on Pike’s side like Bellamy or on Kane’s side? Or Clarke in Polis?

Kane’s! Would have absolutely helped rebel.

22. Mount Weather had a lot of modern commodities. (example: Maya’s iPod) What is the one thing you would snatch while there?

iPod would be cool but tbh having normal meals??? the life! I do love drawing though so honestly that would be amazing to have all of that art there.

23. What would your Grounder tattoos look like? Hairstyle? War paint?

Would love some badass upper sleeves and thigh pieces! Maybe related to whatever clan I’m in. Hairstyle would definitely be similar to Octavia’s braids or even Echo’s when she’s in space in that first episode. I love braids. And uhh maybe not technically war paint, but I love smudgy dark eyeshadow. So a lot.

24. Favorite quote?

Not very deep haha, but I love “The dead are gone. The living are hungry.” and “For all its faults, Earth is really beautiful.”

25. If all of the characters were in the Hunger Games, who would have the best shot at winning?

Definitely Octavia, I feel like season four with the conclave really set that story idea up haha! Clarke would be great at alliances. Okay really just another chance for me to shout out @pawprinterfanfic’s Hunger Games AU read it if you love angst and amazing writing. She knows this question better than I do.

26. Least favorite ship? Favorite canon ship? Favorite non canon ship? NOT INCLUDING CL OR BC OR BE

Least favorite: Anyone/Finn, does Bellarke count as both canon and not? Jk um Canon: Monty/Harper, Non-Canon (officially): Bellarke, Luna/Raven

27. A song that should be included in the next season? If there had to be another guest star like Shawn Mendes on the show, who would you want to make a cameo?

Ohhhh man that’s so hard! Would love some Florence Welch up in here! As to guest star uhhhhhh let’s just say same. Or tbh Lady Gaga as a weird cult leader would be pretty sick.

28. What would you do if you were stuck in the bunker with Murphy for all that time?

I think I’d be able to hold off going completely crazy but maybe not. I think I might be alright though, but I can’t remember if he had enough food? Definitely not if that’s the case haha.

29. Your an extra that gets killed off. How do you die?

Probably charging into battle like an idiot 

30. A character you’d like to learn more about and get flashbacks of?

I would enjoy learning more about Echo’s time as a spy in Azgeda tbh. I want more development on her end (like just her, not in relation to anyone else) so that would be cool to see how she’s become the way she was. Unpopular take but I’m actually pretty okay with not seeing all of the flashbacks. Oh! Would love some good Eligius stuff or pre-all of that featuring those people.

31. A character you’d bang?

Bellamy fucking Blake. Though Roan and Beard!Kane are close seconds.

32. Would you stay in the Bunker? Go up to Space? Or live on your own in Eden?

Ideally go to space!! Though Eden seems great haha, though if I didn’t have a Bellamy to talk to that would suck.

33. In the Bunker, would you follow Octavia? What would you do to pass the time underground?

Well self-preservation would say yes once she got the gun out. I like to think I’d be like Gaia though and keep my head on pretty straight while getting through it with faith that it would be over eventually.

34. What crime would you commit in the Bunker that lands you in the fighting pits?

Mmmm probably fighting back against the tyranny, or just even speaking out against it. Or stealing rations for others who need it.

35. Up in Space, who would you bond with first? Who would be the most difficult for you to get along with?

I think I would get along really well with Clarke or Raven! They remind me of myself a lot. However a lot of my friends in real life are very much Monty and Jasper hahaha so definitely them.

36. How long do you think you would last on Earth by yourself?

By myself?? Barely haha. Though I suppose a part of this show is showing what people do when survival instinct kicks in so maybe I’d be better off than I think!

37. When the Eligius ship lands what do you do?

100000% hide out at first. Try and figure out a way to present myself as useful to them if I can to make sure that they don’t think I’m a threat.

38. Favorite Eligius character? Least favorite?

Favorite: tie between Shaw and Diyoza. Least is McCreary.

39. Would you Spacewalk?

Oh yeah I think I’d be really tempted to haha.

40. Would you prefer to eat Windshield Bugs, Space Algae, or Bunker Meat?

asdklfjsdfjs algae maybe?? I mean I guess if I hungry enough I’d eat bugs...

41. Would you start a war for the last spot of green on earth? What would your solution be to avoid it?

Yeah I’d definitely fight for it if it came down to it. But peaceful negotiations would be a priority to make sure the land is protected.

42. Would you rather dig out flesh-eating worms or stick thumb drives into bullet holes?

Absolutely stick thumb drives into bullet holes! No question.

43. Are you willing to poison your sister for the Traitor Who You Love? What would you do to stop Octavia?

Man if I had a sister and she was pulling stuff like that, I’d say yes. Not fighting fire with fire only works when you’re not going up against a dictator with zero regard for the lives of her people and the only survivable spot of land.

44. Would you go to sleep in cryo or stay awake like Marper?

Oh man. Probably go to sleep. I think I’d want to see what’s out there, even with running the risk of the dangers out there. That ending was perfect for them though, as heart-breaking as it was. But I don’t know if it’s for me.

45. Who are you waking up first to explore the new planet?

Ah! Well in a dream world MONTY would be perfect. But I think Bellamy and Clarke are great choices. 

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Not One Of You Anymore: Part 3

Request: Yes / No

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John Murphy x Griffin!Reader

Word count: 2649

Warnings: Acid fog I guess?

Y/N: Your Name

Summary: You weren’t meant to be born but you were so when you were ten your mom and the Chancellor sent you to the ground as a test for the 100

A/N: omg it’s 1:30 am but I really wanted to write another part of this!

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It was dark and I was watching them from afar. My sister was talking to a little girl, she was about my age when I was sent to the ground… Looks like the Ark is still the same. I was joining them in the morning, even though Lexa told me to watch them for a few more days I thought it was best if I joined them quickly. I wore long sleeves to cover up my tattoos and battle scars, I couldn’t let them know I was a grounder.

“Grounder!” one of them shouted and they grabbed their makeshift weapons. They pointed them at me and I just held my hands up.

“No, please. I’m from the Ark!” I said making myself sound scared, I couldn’t act like a grounder.

“Bellamy!” The cute boy named Murphy shouted. They boy named Bellamy walked over and saw me and gave me a hard look.

“She’s says she’s from the Ark.” Murphy said.

“Bull, you weren’t on the ship.” Bellamy said.

“No, I wasn’t. I was sent down here seven years before you guy, look.” I said and pulled out my bracelet. Bellamy grabbed it and looked at it.

“This is like the one we were wearing.” He said and I nodded.

“My mom and the Chancellor sent me down here when I was ten…” I said.

“What’s going on?” My sister asked walking up to us.

“Y/N?” She asked shocked.

“Clarke!” I said acting excited and hugged her.

“You know her?” Bellamy asked.

“Yeah…She’s my sister…” Clarke said in shock.

“Your sister?” He asked shocked.

“Yeah…mom told us you were floated…” Clarke said with tears in her eyes.

“I guess I was, her and Jaha sent me down here to see if it was survivable. I guess they thought I died because the bracelet broke in the landing.” I said and she nodded.

“How’d you survive?” She asked confused. Crap…I didn’t think of that…

“The people that lived on the ground here, they took me in but they’re scary. I escaped them when I saw the ship come down.” I said making up the best lie I could.

“You were with the grounders?” Bellamy asked and I nodded.

“I don’t really know where they are because they moved around a lot. I got lost when I tried to run at first when I was younger.” I said.

“Let’s get you in the ship, I want to check you over.” Clarke said.

“No, no way. What if the grounders are looking for her? They’ll find us.” Bellamy said.

“I’m not letting my sister go back out there! Would you let yours?” She asked and he kept his mouth shut. Clarke lead me into the ship and she checked me over.

“Well, you look alright. I don’t want you going outside the walls.” She said.

“I know my way around here Clarke! I’ve been living here for seven years!” I pointed out and she shook her head.

“No Y/N, I don’t want to lose you again.” She said and I stared at her shocked.

“Okay…” I sighed giving in.

The whole night the boy my people were groaning until he fell asleep. Then when he woke up he was right back at it. I couldn’t take it, they weren’t going to heal him without the right medicine but I wasn’t allowed outside the walls so I couldn’t help. Even though it would help my credit with the rest of the camp. I was walking when I heard Bellamy was leaving and how they were worried about grounders. Murphy was to stay here and protect the camp. He was annoyed that he had to stay but did as he was told. He threw his knife into the tree and it didn’t stick.

“Ya know, if you want it to actually hit the tree you’ll want to learn how to throw.” I said with a smirk.

“Whatever, the only reason your here and alive is because your the princess’s sister! If it was up to me you’d be dead and strung up on a tree as a message to the other grounders.” He said.

“I heard around camp you guys are having people take off their wristbands to make the Ark think you’re dead.” I said and he narrowed his eyes at me.

“So what?” He asked.

“I’d like to help, I don’t want them coming down. They sent me down here to die. My mother sent me down here to die. I want to make her suffer and the way to do that is to get Clarke to take off her wristband.” I said anger clear in my voice.

“I like your style but she’s not gonna take it off.” He said and I nodded.

“I’ll get it off her.” I promised.

“If you can do that then you’d be on my good side.” He said with a sarcastic smirk. He walked off and I smirked. Oh I like him a lot. The kid the grounders took screamed and I rushed back to my sister.

“Clarke!” I said rushing in and I saw she was cutting away the infected flesh.

“Stop it! You’re killing him!” The girl names Octavia said rushing to the boys side.

“She’s trying to save his life.” The long haired boy said.

“She can’t.” Bellamy said walking in.

“Back off.” Wells said trying to act tough.

“We didn’t drag him through miles of woods just to let him die.” Clarke said.

“Kid’s a goner. If you can’t see that, you’re deluded. He’s making people crazy.” Bellamy said.

“Sorry if Jasper’s an inconvenience to you, but this isn’t the Ark. Down here, every life matters.” Both of them were right in a sense. Jasper was a goner if he didn’t get medicine soon, but every life does matter.

“Take a look at him. He’s a lost cause.” He said.

“Octavia, I’ve spent my whole life watching my mother heal people. If I say there’s hope, there’s hope.” My sister said.

“This isn’t about hope, it’s about guts. You don’t have the guts to make the hard choices. I do. He’s been like this for 3 days. If he’s not better by tomorrow, I’ll kill him myself.” Bellamy said.

“Octavia, let’s go.”

“I’m staying here.” She said and Bellamy climbed down the ladder.

“Power-hungry, self-serving jackass. He doesn’t care about anyone but himself. No offense.” The asian kid said.

“He’s right though.” I said and everyone looked at me.

“If he doesn’t get medication, he’s not going to make it the next few days.” I said and Clarke sighed. She got up and left brining a cloth with her. Everyone else but Octavia and the asian kid left the room as well. After a few minutes I followed them out too.

“Whatever this stuff is, it has to have had antibiotic properties.” I heard Clarke say and looked to where I heard her voice. She was holding the small cloth she took with her and on it was red leaves.

“Let me take a look.” Wells said walking over to her and the long haired boy.

“And before you refuse my help, remember who aced botany in earth skills.” He said taking the cloth.

“The grounders used it as a poultice. I’m thinking a tea might be even more effective if we can figure out what is is.”

“I know what it is. Seaweed. Look, no root structure.” Wells said.

“Right. Well, then there must be a water source nearby.”

“Yeah, it would have to have a slow current, lots of rocks. The water would probably be more red than green.” Wells said.

“I know just the place.” The long haired boy said.

“Alright. Let’s go.” Clarke said.

“Hey! I know what this stuff looks like. Do you?” Wells asked.

“I do.” I said.

“You’re not going.” My sister said.

“Clarke come on!” I said annoyed.

“No.” She said and said Wells could go with them. The three of them left and I glared at the entry. Murphy walked up to with a smirk.

“So, how’s it going to with princess?” He asked.

“Shut it.” I groaned and walked away. He decided to follow me.

“For someone that doesn’t like me, you sure are talking to me a lot.” I said when he walked up next to me.

“I like chaos, and you look like your full of it.” He smirked. Before I could respond a horn went off. The fog…

“Everyone get inside now!” I shouted and I saw the yellow smoke make it way towards us. I grabbed Murphy and pulled him into the ship. Everyone else followed and they shut the opening once everyone was in. I climbed the ladder to check on Jasper, octavia and the asian guy.

“What’s going on?” The asian guy asked.

“The air got thick, everybody’s skin started burning.” A girl answered.

“Monty, my brother’s out there!” Octavia said scared.

“He’ll be fine. We’ll all be fine.” The kid named Monty said.

“My sister is out there too.” I said to Octavia.

“You’ve lived here for seven years, what is this?” Monty asked.

“It’s fog. Acid fog.” I answered.

“What?” Octavia asked.

“It’ll kill you if you get caught in it. It makes the air this and yellow then if it comes close it’ll start burning your skin. Then if you get stuck in it, your skin will burn off. It’s painful. I’ve heard the people that took me scream when one of them got stuck in it…” I said and everyone stared at me.

“I need to go get my brother!” Octavia said and I stopped her.

“No! There’s caves around this area, he’ll be safe if he finds one.” I said and she nodded. Everyone was stuck in the ship for the night. I had gone back down to the first floor and saw Murphy, he motioned for me to come over to him and I did.

“How’d you know about that?” He asked.

“I have lived here for seven years, the fog happens and the grounders sound a horn to signal for everyone to get to safety.” I said and he nodded.

“So you saved my life, I guess.” He said and I nodded.

“Why?” He asked and I smirked.

“I like chaos too.” I said with a wink. He smirked and gave a small chuckle.

It was night and Jasper was getting worse. His groans filled the ship and everyone was getting irritated by it. I was sitting near Murphy who was laying in a makeshift hanging bed.

“That’s it. I’m ending this.” He said getting up.

“I heard Bellamy gave him till tomorrow.” Some girl said.

“Yeah, well, Bellamy isn’t here, is he? The kid’s dying anyway. I’m just getting it over with” Murphy said and made his way to the ladder. Monty rush up before he could and shut the hatch.

“I’m gonna kill that kid! Let me in!” Murphy yelled trying to get in.

“Let me in, Monty!” He shouted again.

“You better open this hatch right now!” He screamed and pounded on the hatch.

“Alright, chill out.” I said pulling Murphy off the ladder. He grabbed me by the neck and pushed me up against a wall. I just smirked at him and grabbed his arm. I pulled him off me and twisted it then shoved him to the ground.

“I survived here for seven years, you think you can hurt me?” I asked with a growl. I let him up and he got up ready to hit me.

“Do that and I promise your hand will be crushed.” I threatened and he put his hand down again.

“Just go to bed.” I said annoyed and took my place again.

Once morning came the fog had cleared and everyone was free to leave the ship. They did and Jasper was groaning once again. I went up to the second level to make sure the boy was alive by the time Clarke got back. The plant she was getting would save him if she made it back by tonight. He didn’t have much time left…

It was dark when they got back they had a dead body with them. He must have gotten stuck in the fog. Clarke, Octavia and I returned back to the second floor and She was boiling the plant into water to make a tea. It was a good way to heal a dying man. We did it when our warriors were on the brink of death.

“Use about two stems. Grind up a few leaves too and it’ll work.” I said and they all looked at me.

“How do you know this?” The long haired boy asked me.

“Mom had sent me down with books, it was the only things I had to read so I read them a lot. I know them all by memory.” I said. They nodded.

“But how do you know how much of this stuff to use?” The long haired boy asked me.

“The grounders figured out I could heal people. I was always reading medical books on the Ark since I was stuck in our room everyday all day. They made me heal some of their people…” I said acting like it was against my will. They nodded and did as I told them to do. Within a few minutes the tea was ready and they gave it to Jasper to drink. After a while Clarke went outside to talk to well while the four of us stayed inside. We moved to sit a bit away from Jasper and The long haired boy pulled out a bottle of alcohol.

“I never got your name.” I said to him and he looked at me.

“Finn.” He said and I nodded.

“Smooth.” Monty said after he took a sip from the bottle. He coughed not able to handle the hard liquor. He handed the bottle to Octavia and she took it.

“Disgusting. Love it.” She said handing the bottle to me. I took a sip then handed it to Finn.

“Can I, uh, get a hit of that?” Jasper asked before Finn could take a sip.

“Jasper!” Monty said happily and we all walked over to him.

“Let’s start with the soft stuff.” Finn said handing giving him some water.

“Welcome back, buddy.” He said with a smile. I went a checked his temperature and it was dropping.

“You’ll be alright, just will take a few days and maybe some more tea.” I said and he looked at me confused.

“Who are you?” He asked with a cough.

“That’s Clarke’s sister…” Monty said.

“What?” He asked confused.

“We’ll explain later. Get some rest.” Finn said.

“I’m gonna go find Clarke and tell her.” I said and left the room. I found my sister and told her. She went back to the ship and I spotted Murphy sitting near a fire. I walked over to him and sat down next to him.

“Ya know, being angry all the time must get pretty boring.” I said and he glared at me.

“Come on, lighten up. You’re free down here.” I said bumping his shoulder with mine.

“Whatever.” He grumbled and got up.

“Hey, maybe we can talk and find some ways to cause a little chaos.” I said grabbing his arm. He looked at me and smirked a little.

“Or I could always kick your ass again.” I said with a smirk of my own.

“I let you beat me.” He said and I laughed.

“Whatever helps you sleep at night.” I said going to walk away but he grabbed me a pulled me into a tent.

“I think I’d like to keep an eye on you.” He said and pulled me into bed with him. We didn’t do anything but talk the night away and fall asleep together. Too bad they’re all gonna die, he’s kinda interesting.

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Colourway - Part 2

a/n: part 2 is finally here! follow the series masterlist here to see whenever I update parts! omg I went out of control with the bellamy and Y/N scenes in this one LOL (I can’t help it I’m crazy for Bell)

pairing/fandom: Bellamy Blake x Reader 

based off: The 100 TV Series (1x03)

description: Y/N doesn’t know how to respond when Bellamy asks her for help with something. Bellamy, Y/N, and a group of guys go out on a hunt as the delinquents grow more hungry, but are faced with challenges along the way. 

word count: 3.2k

COLOURWAY SERIES MASTERLIST

“So what’s up Bellamy?” I ask as I follow him into his tent. Once we were safely inside he stares directly at me.

“I need your help getting Clarke’s wristband off,” He replies.

“What?” I ask in shock. “You know Clarke is totally against everyone taking their wristbands off. There’s no way that she’ll agree.”

“That’s why I need your help Y/N,” Bellamy replies.

“If she won’t listen to you, why on earth would she listen to me?” I question.

“Please,” he replies. I nod.

“Okay just tell me what I can do,” I reply. These words put a smile on his face. “Wow look at that you know how to smile I thought all you did was scowl all the time.”

He rolls his eyes at me, “I’ll see you tomorrow Y/N.” I smile at him and step out of his tent. I notice Murphy standing outside with a smirk on his face.

“Wow you and Bellamy, huh?” Murphy remarks with a laugh. I blush at his words.

“There’s nothing going on with me and Bellamy,” I reply walking away from him. I step into my tent and go to sleep. I knew there would be a long day ahead.

The Next Morning

The sound of birds and commotion within the landing site wakes me up. I quickly get dressed and step outside of my tent. I see Octavia and Calum eating breakfast near the drop ship and they wave me over.

“Someone got to sleep in today,” Octavia replied. “Bellamy was literally dragging everyone out of their tents to start working on things this morning. I swear I love my brother, but he is such a pain.”

“Oh I must have not heard him knock at my tent,” I reply grabbing a handful of berries. The sweet juice quenches my thirst.

“I don’t think I even saw him stop by your tent,” Calum replies laughing. Octavia nods in agreement. I shrug my shoulders. A bloodcurdling scream echoes within the landing site. Octavia winces at this sound.

“Poor Jasper,” I reply. Octavia begins to shift uncomfortably.

“I’m gonna go do things before Bellamy yells at me,” Octavia says as she gets up quickly. Calum scoots over to sit closer to me.

“What did the king want to talk to you about last night?” Calum asks taking another bite out of his breakfast.

“Who are you talking about?” I asked laughing.

“Bellamy duh,” Calum replies. “Everyone basically worships him like a king.”

“Someone sounds jealous,” I tease. He rolls his eyes at me and laughs. “He just wanted to ask if these berries were edible.” I lie through my teeth. I knew Calum didn't believe me, but he let it go.

“The king put me on wall-building duty,” Calum states. “I should go start before I get yelled at.” I laugh.

“See you later Calum,” I reply. “Be safe.” He nods and heads off to join the others who were collecting scraps of metal and plastic to build a wall. Another one of Jasper’s wails echoes through the area as I get up to find Bellamy. I approach a clearing where I see Bellamy and Murphy throwing knives at a tree.

“Well look who it is,” Murphy states as he sees me approaching. He attempts to throw a knife at the tree in front of him but fails miserably. I laugh a little at this and Bellamy smirks.

“Nice try Murphy,” I say teasingly.

“It’s that damn kid alright he’s messing with my head,” Murphy says referring to Jasper.

“He’s not gonna last much longer,” Bellamy says.“You better think of a new excuse.” Bellamy throws an axe and it lands dead center in the tree trunk. “Did you need something Y/N?” He asks rudely. Why was he acting like this?

A couple of guys I didn’t recognize approach Bellamy before I can respond.

“We looked all over the area no sign of them,” one of the guys states. Murphy mumbles something to the guy which I couldn't hear.

“Atom already got his punishment Murphy let it go,” Bellamy responds. Murphy rolls his eyes.

“Look Bellamy people are scared,” Atom tells Bellamy. “and that dying kid isn’t helping the morale around here.”

“Morale will go up when I find more food,” Bellamy tells him firmly. “A group of us will go hunting later.”

“Let’s go kill something,” Murphy responds. Bellamy stops him in his path. “No I need you to stay here. With grounders around we need someone to watch the camp. Y/L/N follow me.” I roll my eyes at him calling me by my last name. I catch up with him.

“I have a name you know,” I reply slightly annoyed. Before Bellamy has a chance to respond to my comment Octavia stops him shoving him slightly.

“Why do you have to ruin everything?” She asks her brother angrily.

“What are you talking about Octavia?” He asks.

“Atom. He’s barely even talking to me now what did you do?” Octavia asks on the verge of tears. Bellamy keeps quiet. “Next time you decide to go on a power trip leave me out of it.” Octavia remarks. When Octavia hears Jasper’s screams intensify, she quickly runs towards the noise. Bellamy and I follow Octavia into the drop ship.

“Stop it you’re killing him,” Octavia yells at Clarke.

“She’s trying to save his life,” Finn responds protectively.

“Clarke he’s been sick for days. It sounds like he’s getting worse by the hour,” I state worriedly. “Are you sure we can save him?”

“What do you know? We’re going to find an antidote later,” Clarke states angrily. I was taken aback by her words and keep quiet.

“She can’t save him,” Bellamy responds looking between me and Clarke. “He’s been like this for three days if he’s not better by tomorrow I’ll kill him myself. Octavia let’s go.”

“I’m staying here,” Octavia responds not looking at her brother. Hearing these words, Bellamy storms out of the drop ship.

“Power hungry self-serving jackass,” Monty states. I frown at his words and follow Bellamy. “How does she hang out with him,” I hear Finn say as I leave the drop ship. I run to catch up to Bellamy. I grab his arm to stop him.

“Hey what’s the matter with you,” I say angrily.

“Nothing,” he replies before continuing to walk to his tent. I follow him inside and watch as he grabs supplies for hunting. He slings a bag over his shoulder. “You coming or not?” I nod. “Meet me in front in 5.” He states. I go to my tent to grab my hunting gear. The names Monty called Bellamy echo in my head. Maybe he was a jackass. He sure seemed like one at the moment. I go out front to see Bellamy, a couple of guys I didn’t recognize, and Calum with their hunting gear.

“Are you going hunting?” I ask Calum surprisedly. He frowns at my tone.

“Why are you so surprised?” He asks.

“Look I hate to break up this reunion, but we have people to feed,” Bellamy says. Calum rolls his eyes at Bellamy.

We walked for what seemed like hours and for the most part Bellamy was ignoring me.

“Why aren’t you walking with Bellamy? Aren’t you guys best friends?” Calum whispers angrily.

“No,” I whisper. I walk a little faster past Calum. I really didn’t want to deal with that right now. I tried to focus on hunting, yet for some reason I felt like someone was following us. Without realizing, I caught up to Bellamy. He had a frown on his face.

“Sorry about Octavia,” I say. He shrugs.

“She’s my little sister,” Bellamy responds. “It’s her job to be a pain.” I laugh at his words and he smiles a bit.

“Bellamy over here,” Calum says. We follow his voice and see a huge pig in the middle of a clearing.

“This one’s mine,” Bellamy whispers. Before he can throw his axe at the pig, a loud rustle from behind causes Bellamy to throw his axe in the opposite direction. We all gasp when we see a small girl stare at the axe that landed in the tree right next to her. Suddenly a loud horn echoes throughout the forest.

“What the hell is that?” I ask worriedly.

“Definitely not something good,” Calum says pointing off into the distance. The sun and clouds begin to disappear from our view as a thick fog begins to make its way towards us.  

“Run!” Bellamy yells. “There has to be caves around here.” The little girl clings onto Bellamy and I rush after him. I look behind me and see one of the guys become engulfed in the fog. His wails pierce my ear. I keep running for my life and we eventually make our way into a sort of cave, but I frown when I realize Calum and the others are nowhere to be found.

“Bellamy the others,” I state trying to head back outside. He quickly pulls me back.

“No Y/N you saw what the fog did to Atom,” He responds. The little girl is shaken by what just happened and is on the verge of tears.

“What’s your name?” I ask her crouching down to her level.

“Charlotte,” she replies timidly.

“Look we’ll protect you okay,” I state. “You should get some rest.” Charlotte nods and I give her my jacket to use as a makeshift blanket. She falls asleep quickly and I sit down with Bellamy on the other side of the room. I shiver a bit at the coldness without my jacket and Bellamy notices. He quickly takes off his and offers it to me.

“No Bellamy it’s fine,” I say. He rolls his eyes and throws it over my shoulders for me. His jacket smelled like a mixture of pine and grass. “Thanks.”

“No problem,” He whispers looking over at Charlotte sleeping.

“Poor thing,” I say trying to keep quiet. “She must be scared to death.”

“You’re good with kids,” He responds. I blush a bit at his words.

“I used to help the elementary classes on the Ark,” I say. “Calum’s mom is a teacher.”  

Bellamy nods staring at me quietly. His stares always made my breath quicken, so I quickly look down at my shoes and play with the laces. The silence between us wasn't awkward. It was nice.

“No!” Charlotte screams waking up from her sleep. Bellamy quickly rushes over to her.

“Does that happen often?” Bellamy asks her. She nods. “What are you scared of?” He responds. She keeps quiet. “Look that doesn't matter what matters is what you do about it.”

“But I’m asleep,” Charlotte says looking between me and Bellamy.

“Fears are fears,” Bellamy responds. “Slay your demons while you’re awake they won’t be there to get you when you sleep.”

“But how?” Charlotte asks.

“You can’t afford to be weak,” Bellamy responds. “Down here weakness is death. Let me see that knife I gave you.” Charlotte hands the small knife over to Bellamy. “When you feel afraid hold tight onto that knife and say ‘screw you’.”

“Screw you I’m not afraid,” Charlotte says repeatedly. She lays back down and falls asleep. Bellamy smiles at this and heads back over to the other side of the room.

“You’re good with kids,” I tell Bellamy before taking a seat next to him. He laughs.

“I have years of experience with Octavia,” He says. “Painful experience.” I laugh at his comment.

“Do you think the others are okay?” I ask quietly.

“Let’s hope so,” he responds. I see a look of worry wash over his face.

“Hey, are you okay? You’ve been acting weird today,” I ask him. He sighs and runs his hand through his hair.

“It’s a lot of work,” Bellamy replies.

“What is?” I ask curiously.

“Bossing everyone around, everyone expecting me to know what to do, you know…leading,” Bellamy responds. I reach out for his hand. He looks down and shifts his hand away from mine quickly. I frown a bit, but brush it off.

“You’re naturally good at it though,” I say in attempts to comfort him. He doesn’t respond and lays down on the ground.

“I’m going to bed,” Bellamy states rolling over to face the wall. “The fog should clear up by tomorrow.” Why was Bellamy being so difficult today? I lay down next to him and face the opposite direction quickly falling asleep…

I wake up to find my head resting on Bellamy’s chest and this causes me to jump away from him quickly. I feel my face getting hot. I shouldn’t feel like this around him. I barely know him. My quick movement wakes Bellamy up.

“What’s wrong?” He asks groggily.

“N-nothing,” I stutter. He looks at me confusedly. We both look over to where Charlotte was sleeping the other night and she’s nowhere to be found. Suddenly a loud scream fills our ears: Charlotte. We both quickly head outside and follow the screams. Bellamy reaches her first and is in shock when he sees what she’s screaming at. I follow their gazes and see Atom on the ground. He was heavily injured from the fog, but still breathing. Bellamy rushes over to his side. A rustle in the bushes catches my attention and I look up to see Clarke, Wells, Calum, and Finn. They all stare at the situation not sure what to say. Bellamy holds a knife in his hands knowing that killing Atom would be best. I sit on the other side of Atom and grab the knife from Bellamy.

“I’ll do it,” I whisper to Bellamy. He nods.

“We’re going to help you,” I state before putting the knife up against his neck. I make a small slit and Bellamy winces at the sight. We all head back to the landing site in silence. Bellamy catches up with me.

“Thanks for helping back there,” Bellamy says. “It was…brave.”

“You’re welcome,” I respond with a sad smile. The rest of the trip back was silent. When we reach the landing site I quickly head to my tent without acknowledging the others. I sit on my bed taking off Bellamy’s jacket. I throw it in the corner of the room. I feel tears begin to fall down my face and I fall asleep.

Bellamy’s POV

As we make our way back to the landing site, Y/N quickly rushes to her tent. I frown at the sight of her upset. I knew I should've done it. I shouldn't have let her do it. Why couldn't I do it? Some leader I was. I head to my tent and empty out all of my pockets. Where was my gun? I panicked for a second before remembering that it was in my jacket that I had let Y/N borrow. I head out of my tent and head towards hers. I knock on the tent. There was a slight rustle and I see her open the tent flap. Her eyes were bloodshot red. She yawns a bit and smiles at the sight of me. Shit. I must’ve woke her up.

“S-sorry did I wake you up,” I stutter for no reason. What was wrong with me?

“Don’t worry about it,” She replies in a raspy voice. “What’s up Bellamy?”

“I came to grab my jacket,” I reply.

“Oh yeah I completely forgot to give it back,” She laughs nervously. “I was really hoping you’d forget so I can keep it.” I laugh at her comment and feel my face turn hot. “You can come inside let me grab it.” Y/N says opening the tent flap a little wider for me to step in. She had lots of photos in her tent: some of her and Calum, and others with what I assume to be her and her parents. She searches the tent for my jacket.

“Are these your parents?” I ask hoping I didn’t sound too nosy.

“Yeah, but I’m adopted,” she responds handing me my jacket. What happened to her real parents?

“Thanks,” I say. I begin to head towards the exit, but turn around to face her again. “Thanks for everything.” She smiles at my words.

“Get out Bellamy,” She replies jokingly. “A girl needs her beauty rest.”

I laugh and head out of her tent. As I’m heading over to my tent Calum stops me.

“Hey Kale,” I joke. He frowns.

“Is Y/N okay?” asks Calum.

“Why don’t you ask her yourself?” I ask.

“She’s been ignoring me,” Calum responds.

“Oh,” I say trying to hide my excitement. As messed up as it was, something about him being around her made my stomach churn. “She’s fine just resting and she’ll come around you guys have been friends for years.” I respond in attempts to reassure him.

“Thanks Bellamy,” Calum says. “Despite what everyone says you’re not that much of an ass. I can see why Y/N is like in love you.” He laughs a bit.

I ignore his words and head inside my tent. I attempt to go to sleep, but the events from today keep replaying in my head. I hear rustling outside my tent and roll my eyes. Was Kale still there? I grab my gun and open the tent door to see Y/N getting water. She jumps when she sees me spilling her water. I laugh at her.

“Not funny Bellamy,” she whispers. “You should be resting.”

“So should you,” I respond. She laughs.

“I couldn’t fall asleep,” Y/N says shyly. She pours herself another cup of water.

“Me either,” I respond. “Did you want to talk about it?” I ask her nervously. She nods. She follows me to my tent and sits down next to me on my bed. “Calum was asking about you,” I tell her as she sips her water. “He feels bad for whatever he did.”

“He’s just been very very protective ever since we got to Earth,” She tells me. “Like I love him to death, but he’s driving me insane.”

“You sound like Octavia talking about me,” I joke. She laughs at this and nods her head.

“Yeah he’s basically like an older brother to me,” Y/N says. I smile at her words. “Why are you smiling weirdo,” she says jokingly. I feel myself turn red. “You never smile around the others.”

“I have a persona to keep up Y/N,” I tell her. “I’m the leader.”

“You’re their leader,” Y/N says. “Not their dictator…” I nod. She had a point, but without instilling fear in these people they won’t do anything. She offers me some of her water and I take a sip.

“Sorry for being so rude earlier,” I say. She looks me in the eyes and my breath quickens. Her eyes looked especially Y/E/C in the dimly lit tent.

“Don’t apologize to me, I’m a strong girl, apologize to the others,” she replies with a laugh. “You basically threatened to kill Jasper.” I laugh nervously.

“Yeah not my best moment,” I reply. She shakes her head at me with a smile plastered on her face.

“You’re not as bad and scary as you make yourself out to be Blake,” she says. I smile as we continue to talk throughout the night. I felt myself falling for Y/N. I needed to stop it fast.

Part 3