#before realizing i wasted my time

[sad-leon]

I'm curious why you had the TMNT tag blocked back then! Was it to avoid spoilers, or because you just weren't into it yet?

I don't quite remember, but it definately wasn't to avoid spoilers

from what I remember about that time I was huge into sanders sides and some anime fandoms, so when people started reblogging TMNT stuff and it was trending I didn't wanna see it, so I just blocked it

I think i might have hated it at the time? I'm glad I gave it another shot though

[trashquisitor-shirozora]

Been a while since my last shrimpkeeping post but I need to share these pics of a berried (aka egged up) carbon rili (black with clear/white midsection) neocaridina shrimp. One of my 1st gen tank-breds and it took a moment for me to realize the eggs are tinted blue because those are probably blue carbon rili shrimplets incubating in there.

How cool is that shit?

Anyway 90% of my brain is preoccupied with slowly putting together a 9-gal betta/shrimp cull tank. A tiny 10% is quietly and furiously simmering on the backburner over fic things and waiting for that 90% to drop so that I can start writing the next chapters of the 3quelfic.

[vynnyal]

Turns out Sunlit Trail isn't quite done just yet, so after all that they just send you to a dead end 😂

[spaciebabie]

at first getting diagnosed with cptsd was like, "yay my trauma has been validated (it always was valid)!" and i really thought that was going to be it, but then i started to do research as i do whenever i realize i have something and learned that!! the way i experience socialization is!! quite horrid actually!!

[shokupanda]

me when time moves forward at a steady pace: how the fuck is it more than halfway through july already. this fuckers rapidly sprinting when im not looking huh

[melancholic-pigeon]

Okay this is the *actual* last comment, for real, but I just found out Spider is now smearing me as a convert and accusing me of being involved with drama I was not involved with because he mistakenly attributed my apologies for his public temper tantrum as being about something unrelated.

THIS IS A FALSE ACCUSATION and I do not appreciate having yet another bit of fake malicious intent falsely ascribed to my actions and* attributing a completely unrelated attack to me.

Also, it's very sad and disappointing whenever a Jew gets mad at a convert because something else is going on in the Jew's life and the convert happens to be in the splash zone and the Jew falls over backwards to smear the convert and invalidate her faith.

Just....the childish aggression is making me so, so sad and disappointed, from someone I used to think very highly of, who is now lying about me and publicly smearing me with false accusations based on a conflict he started because he misinterpreted something I said and I went out of my way to give him the benefit of the doubt when trying to clear up the mistake HE MADE that led him to decide bullying and attacking me for three fucking days was appropriate and okay and that I'm the bad guy for saying it's wildly unprofessional to behave like this in public to a former customer face.

Sorry, but facts, reality, linear time and the truth of what I actually said and did are on my side here, and I will not stand for being smeared and attacked and shat all over because I had the gall to try to kindly resolve his uncalled for, unjustified temper tantrum.

I am also not sorry that I left a side note in the tags that it was also unacceptable for HIM to drag his daughter into a stupid internet slapfight based on his own reading comprehension failure. Because it was and is unacceptable, and she needs to hear that message from someone.

End of story. Keep digging that hole as long as you like, Spider. It's not helping your case and is continuing to make you look progressively worse and more unreasonable, and the only person you have to blame is yourself.

*revised for clarity

[runawayballista]

contemplating cassette beasts madness (hunting for bootleg djinn entonic and then just resetting its first level up until i get rare moonshine sticker with “critical hit on type advantage”)

[medicinemane]

Should make a pain killer that actually kills (or even touches) pain

[ducktollers]

got a sortof interview for a research assistant job tomorrow and sooooooooo scareds :D

[journeyman-tier-fibercraft]

I spent two full days swatching for knitting my own lace curtains and now I don’t think I like it :/ I was so happy to find a Niebling lace edging that matches the main pattern I picked out too, I spent wayyyy too long looking for one that fit and for what. This isn’t like, a big deal or anything. I’m glad I realized I didn’t like it while swatching with scrap yarn instead of after starting. It’s just very frustrating to be so excited for a project that I would not enjoy making or the final product.

[quibbs126]

It is so goddamn difficult to catch a Phanpy in Crystal I swear to god

[sleepii-moth]

man if i had the engergy to write fics. the things id do to fiddleford.. oh man the things id do..

[abyssembraced]

Where did Ghost really go before returning to Hallownest ?

Frankly, the question that was asked of them was one that Ghost wouldn't mind knowing the answer to themself.

Their memories... Even their early ones from when they first returned to Hallownest were hazy and fragmented. The more challenging fights they'd faced in the Crossroads and their first encounters with the bugs they'd come to call their friends still existed in their mind, yet lay scattered and untethered from each other with unknowable gaps in between, with no certainties as to even the order in which any of the events occurred.

Before that? They knew hardly anything of their past.

What did they do in the vast, endless wasteland outside Hallownest? What caused them to return to the fallen kingdom? Why did they even leave it in the first place?

They didn't know.

They typically didn't care to think on those questions much, either—it made more sense to focus on the present, and the things they knew now, rather than dwell on an unrecoverable past. Yet, here they were, being asked to recount those lost memories.

They... Could at least make an attempt?

Grasping at those memories was hard. Though they knew for a fact that they had spent much of their life outside the kingdom's bounds, it was as though the memories of that time had never existed in the first place.

But... They could fight. Even before coming back to Hallownest, they already knew how to wield a nail. So, then... They must have met someone out there. Travellers, perhaps. Someone who taught them how to fight—or at least the basics of it, anyway. Perhaps they were even the one to gift them the nail that had since carried them through many battles, or maybe that was a different Someone.

But who? Ghost couldn't picture them. They didn't even know for sure that such a person had even existed, but it only made sense, right?

...

There was only one time that they had ever managed to recover a long thought lost memory, and that was with the Dream Nail. If they were to enter their own dream once more, unlock the hidden secrets within their own mind... Would that give them answers? Would it do anything at all?

Although... Did it even matter? The stranger's curiosities aside, they... Didn't particularly care about discovering their past. It wasn't as though whatever it was that had happened back then could be changed. Nor did they think that learning anything new about it would affect their present life. They were happy where they were right now, with their family and friends in the recovering Hallownest.

Yes.

They didn't remember what they did before their return to Hallownest, but that was okay.

[ivan-fyodorovich-k]

What do we call the moment where you realize that yes, It is happening to you? You are not immune. Whatever It is. Your career won’t work out. Your wife doesn’t love you. Your children aren’t going to call. You got sick and will not get better. Whatever It is. Is this failure? Growing up? Growing old?

[unofficialbabayaga]

sure your ornate sculptural pie is cool. except it looks GROSS. look at that overworked dough. you don’t want flakey delicious crisp crust? you want a top that’s so inconsistently thick that there’s no way that pretty skull you spent 20 minutes sculpting while the butter in there melts isn’t stodgy and disgusting inside? look what you’re done, you’ve developed the gluten. disgraceful. get some sculpty clay or something.

[flatoatchi]

sometimes i feel like the very expensive intensive therapy program i went to in 2019 actually did anything or if it was just a good time and waste of my insurance's money, then i remember how many times ive reminded myself to acknowledge and feel my unpleasant emotions and not just let them absorb me, and to sit with the discomfort feeling them causes instead of trying to drown it out with distractions, and how to catch myself when im on the verge of a meltdown and want to lash out at people who don't deserve it, and how just because i had some fun in the process doesn't mean there wasn't anything meaningful going on