#becca rants

[heckofabecca]

I feel like such shit today! Fun!!!

[wizardofpalmsprings]

Trying to be optimistic about job hunting. I’ve been out of work for a little over two months now and it’s exhausting to not even get past the first interview hurdle. I’m grateful I have a good support system, but by god I’m exhausted.

[super-hero-confessions]

Billy and Becca Butcher are a deliberate play on fridging in writing. The reason Butcher is the one who fridges his own wife instead of the writing is because he is consciously aware of what his wife's wishes would and wouldn't be, but still chooses to use what happened to her as a false motive and narrative behind his actions while disregarding her wishes.

The writing makes a point of understanding this distinction by making Hughie understand that using his own girlfriend's death as a motive for harming others isn't what she would have wanted for him, so it's not what he should be doing. They are both used as a lesson to make a point about fridging and how people tend to infantilize and ignore the will of the actual victims, because that's what fridging is.

[biscuitbakerbecca]

HELP I SPENT SO MUCH MONEY ON THE MERCH AHHHHHH

[sharonisthebettercarter]

I like to imagine Becca is just waiting in heaven to throw Billy into the deepest pits of hell personally, considering what he gaslighted Ryan and what he'll do in the future.

Also, she would feel brokenhearted for sure, if her son will likely end up in the same hell.

I can't even imagine what that would feel like as a mother watching her child become a monster and being helpless to stop it if it were to happen.

As much as I feel for Ryan, it's possible at some point he's going to make a choice just like his spermdonor and billy did

welp... honestly, i gotta say it's a good thing she's dead and not actually watchin' it cause gotdamn.

but yeah, i'd *like* to imagine she'd string billy up by the balls for not making ryan his priority and still being the nutjob who goes after homelander.

and can't not mention comics becca, she'da probably lost her mind knowing billy mashed her baby to death with a lamp. woman was a soul too caring and compassionate and too fucking good for billy honestly.

i do imagine that if she were watching her son break/become another homelander, know what billy'd done and chose to do *despite* what he'd fucking promised her (if not just for the fact that he was about to fucking beat ryan to death *right* after she died), that would def be enough to get her pissed enough to disavow billy for good and tell him to fuck off.

the boi has pretty much ignored every single thing becca has and would have wanted and was legit one of the worst things to ever happen to her. she absolutely loved him but billy was so obsessed with being his father that it was destroying her mental state even before homelander came along to drive the final nail in the coffin.

"i could never save you!"

she legit tells him she doesn't want his violence, she doesn't want him to bring that near her or her son, that she doesn't fucking want his revenge--she just wants to get her son out and get him safe.

she fucking chose *vought* instead of billy, because she felt so goddamn unsafe. *VOUGHT*, the company that *created* homelander. over her husband.

and billy doesn't give a shit. it doesn't get talked about as often how much billy disrespects and drags becca through the mud (cause we all know she's too good and would forgive him for his bullshit, fucking CHRIST--i actually think this may be *why* they're adding the whole 'cheating' reveal, to drive this point home)

but he was going to sell ryan back to vought and rip a mother away from her child. becca forgave him because of course she did, she loved him and she wants to believe in him and believe there's good in him, but even she knew.

the only reason he's doing what he does isn't to avenge her or get revenge for her, it is absolutely not and never was *for her* because she *LITERALLY* told him she didn't fucking want him to go on a revenge rampage *TO HIS FACE*. it's because of his own pride and--to honor his *father*. *not* becca.

if he actually gave an honest shit about her, he would respect what *she* wanted, and he deliberately does not and even *knows* that.

she was too good for him and i will always say that.

he was supposed to be the guy she could turn to during the most distressful moment of her life, not the guy she would *dread* telling what happened for *fear* of how he'd react--and then turns out she was fucking right about her fears!

i will forever lament that he made her feel so fucking unsafe about her situation, so unheard and unseen and like she wouldn't be listened to, that she, as a victim, could not come forward to her own fucking emotionally inept husband.

honestly, fuck him--

[becca4leafclover]

I hate being in between friend groups cause I'm SUCH a person that rambles about shared interests and tells people about their known interests but when all my current friend groups have been distant and/or aren't watching The Thing I Know They'll Like and won't for an unspecified amount of time but also get upset over spoilers... it sucks cause I feel very alone :( the shared interest thing is just one part of the equation but its certainly the quickest to notice. I'm never people's first and that's fine but it sucks when I feel like I don't have anyone yknow?

[beccas-gf]

Chris nation, is his route worth it? I played Chris' route like once but only for the first book. I see a lot of cute pots for his route tho

[bonkobarnes]

As we recontexualize Becca and Cam’s hookup in ep 3 it’s important to remember Cam still is not comfortable in her queerness. Yes “it’s okay to feel that” might be loaded with many meanings, but one of them is still blaringly ‘it’s okay to feel attracted to women’

[mattynmarns]

my coworker gave me a panera brownie today and i think it genuinely made my week

[bonesbuckleup]

You’re writing a book?! What the hell that’s so exciting!!

I was gonna ask you about it bc I’m 👀🍽️ but then I saw the ask game you were having and realized that nr 17 fits perfectly >:) (ofc you can be as specific as you want/are able to be) I’m also really curious about 23, more specifically if there’s a place you often go to where you generally feel more productive?

(and if these have already been asked you can just pick whichever question you feel like you want to answer lol ♥️)

Answering out of order!

23. Describe the physical environment in which you write. Be as detailed as possible. Tell me what’s around you as you work. Paint me a picture.

I have a standing desk in my bedroom with a walking pad. On that desk is a Bluetooth keyboard, a stand for my laptop, and a second monitor. There's also a lamp, some speakers, a copy of Save the Cat Writes a Novel, a bunch of notebooks, some scrap paper, a mug with pens, some thumb tacks, and a candle. I've got a white board to the left, cork boards, and a conspiracy wall of paper taped everywhere for easy-access notes. I'm talking full Pepe Silvia set up, to be honest. It is not elegant, but it gets the job done.

17. Talk to me about the minutiae of your current WIP. Tell me about the lore, the history, the detail, the things that won’t make it in the text.

Rambling vaguely about my original projects beneath the cut. There are two: the one I'm about to rewrite that I've been submitting to agents, and then the shiny new thing.

Project One! A YA contemporary fantasy novel called Initiate. To steal my twitter pitch/aesthetic.

The women of 16-year-old Cal Townsend's family have two traditions--witchcraft and secrets. When her father suddenly dies, and Cal is sent to live with her estranged maternal grandmother on a remote island in Lake Superior, Cal unknowingly enters into both. Initiate has:

Great Lakes gothic vibes

A Superior-based magic system

Queer kids trying their best

Sentient shadows

Hauntings of various kinds

Breaking generational curses

So! Much! Ice!

ANYWAY. I am about to rip that one apart at the seams, so that's all I have to say about it. However, I am also working on a new one that would probably appeal to Batfam fandom fans, so why not pop it in here as well.

It does not have a title yet, and is only the crime mage boys wip.

Set in a world that's exactly like ours except magic is an unquestioned part of it, the vibe of the crime mage boys wip is The Outsiders meets Rear Window but, like, also with magic and Chicago. Basically almost everyone has the capacity to do small magic (light a cigarette with a snap of the fingers, etc etc), but a small portion of the population can't do any (null) and another small portion can do big magic (mages).

The Grayson brothers (I know okay shut up) are hanging on by a thread. Leo (23, null, Tired™️) has been his brothers' legal guardian for the past 5 years and works multiple jobs with long hours to keep them afloat. JT (18/19, on week 52 of being in a bad mood) was a promising mage who had his magic permanently cut off by the police after being in the wrong place at the wrong time-- effectively torpedoing every future plan he'd ever had in a single night and leaving him floundering. Miles (14, protagonist, text book flight risk) just wants to keep his head down and not add to his brothers' many problems.

To bring in some extra money, Miles secretly works for a PI and helps her gather evidence (photos of cheaters caught in the act, checking to see if people really live at addresses--low risk recon jobs, basically). But add in a witnessed murder, a DIY-vigilante who keeps putting himself in Miles's way, and a growing mages' rights movement sweeping over the city, and Miles is getting a hell of a lot more than he bargained for.

ANYWAY that one is still very much in progress, but please enjoy these picrews of the three brothers: Miles, JT, and Leo, in that order.

[woodsy-hoe]

ya know, finding out i have MS and need extensive immunotherapy treatments to manage the damage, all while i made a huge career shift from nursing to teaching, is kinda too much for ya boi right about now lolol

[autumnsoldier13]

Why can’t anyone ever have fun? 🙃

[super-hero-confessions]

The Boys fandom really needs to get its shit together. I know full well the victim blaming of Becca Butcher is just plain old misogyny but holy fuck.

Seriously?

Woobifying Billy Butcher of all people cause you find him hawt and don't want to hold him responsible for HIS OWN ACTIONS AND OBSESSIVE HATE BONER?? Let alone Homelander who you fucking witnessed take down at least 2 planes in the first season alone?? Both with children on board!!

What. The. Fuck.

Oh yes, rape from a child murderer. Totes unbelievable. SARCASM. Never mind the fact that murder is the next step you puritan fucks!

I'm calm. I am... Calm.

I am so over this fucking shit. But since apparently it isn't through people's thick headed bullshit yet.

Billy Butcher is a sociopath with a violence boner as strong as if not stronger than Homelander's that predates Becca by a long shot because his dad was an abusive fuck. He is historically, unnecessarily violent and enjoys it.

No I don't care how adorable he is or that the actor has the biggest puppy eyes I have ever seen on a grown ass man.

Even IF Becca had cheated. BUTCHER'S ACTIONS ARE STILL HIS OWN. NO ONE IS RESPONSIBLE FOR THE SHIT HE DOES EXCEPT HIM. NOT EVEN HOMELANDER.

The only thing saying "bEcCa BuTcHeR cHeAtEd" accomplishes is absolving HOMELANDER of his crime, making Billy a goddamn cuck and SIMP who got played like a sucka, and puts BILLY even MORE in the wrong because he does all that shit to go after a guy who didn't actually do anything to his wife!!

AND WOULDN'T YA KNOW IT, THAT'S EXACTLY HOW THE COMICS PAN OUT!!

I AM CALM.

And let me be clear since this also doesn't seem to be registering for the misogyny melted head cases out there.

IF Becca had cheated and chose to leave Butcher. It would have meant she simply didn't want him anymore. Which would ALSO mean he is not entitled to ANYTHING from her. WHICH WOULD ALSO MAKE HIM AN INCEL FUCK.

For the love of Homelander. I am so fucking tired of this petty jealousy bullshit over FICTIONAL DICK you horrible people who do this.

Why. WHY?????

Please. PLEASE. GROW THE FUCK UP.

[gambitandrogues]

Jamie's parents prioritize her challenge (impossible)

[inthedarkestofplaces]

I don’t care if no one responds I just have to get something off of my chest:

Am I fucking stupid for being jealous that my best friend is out making other friends and not including me? Like I feel crazy and I feel ridiculous but it makes me feel so unwanted? There’s more too it. She currently lives in my basement which I spent the last year turning into an apartment for her so she could get out of a bad relationship. The deal was she pays half of my rent and half of the utility bills. She’s lived here since March and just now in November started paying her half. So in addition to feeling unwanted, I also feel super used and taken advantage of. She watched me go into massive amounts of debts to help her and then more debt trying to keep up with bills that doubled and we can’t even go record shopping? But she can go rock climbing, a thing she would NEVER do, with someone she met on fucking bumble? Cool. I get it. I feel like a fucking fool.

[becca4leafclover]

I miss telling stories I miss making the art I really enjoy it's not for lack of effort it's that every time I try to approach it from a different angle there's another brick wall in my face that I'm not strong enough to break through. But if I'm not telling stories what else am I supposed to do in life? That's the only thing that's ever kept me going