#billy uses his loved ones as trauma dumping crutches instead of working on his issues and i will never forgive him for that

[sharonisthebettercarter]

I like to imagine Becca is just waiting in heaven to throw Billy into the deepest pits of hell personally, considering what he gaslighted Ryan and what he'll do in the future.

Also, she would feel brokenhearted for sure, if her son will likely end up in the same hell.

I can't even imagine what that would feel like as a mother watching her child become a monster and being helpless to stop it if it were to happen.

As much as I feel for Ryan, it's possible at some point he's going to make a choice just like his spermdonor and billy did

welp... honestly, i gotta say it's a good thing she's dead and not actually watchin' it cause gotdamn.

but yeah, i'd *like* to imagine she'd string billy up by the balls for not making ryan his priority and still being the nutjob who goes after homelander.

and can't not mention comics becca, she'da probably lost her mind knowing billy mashed her baby to death with a lamp. woman was a soul too caring and compassionate and too fucking good for billy honestly.

i do imagine that if she were watching her son break/become another homelander, know what billy'd done and chose to do *despite* what he'd fucking promised her (if not just for the fact that he was about to fucking beat ryan to death *right* after she died), that would def be enough to get her pissed enough to disavow billy for good and tell him to fuck off.

the boi has pretty much ignored every single thing becca has and would have wanted and was legit one of the worst things to ever happen to her. she absolutely loved him but billy was so obsessed with being his father that it was destroying her mental state even before homelander came along to drive the final nail in the coffin.

"i could never save you!"

she legit tells him she doesn't want his violence, she doesn't want him to bring that near her or her son, that she doesn't fucking want his revenge--she just wants to get her son out and get him safe.

she fucking chose *vought* instead of billy, because she felt so goddamn unsafe. *VOUGHT*, the company that *created* homelander. over her husband.

and billy doesn't give a shit. it doesn't get talked about as often how much billy disrespects and drags becca through the mud (cause we all know she's too good and would forgive him for his bullshit, fucking CHRIST--i actually think this may be *why* they're adding the whole 'cheating' reveal, to drive this point home)

but he was going to sell ryan back to vought and rip a mother away from her child. becca forgave him because of course she did, she loved him and she wants to believe in him and believe there's good in him, but even she knew.

the only reason he's doing what he does isn't to avenge her or get revenge for her, it is absolutely not and never was *for her* because she *LITERALLY* told him she didn't fucking want him to go on a revenge rampage *TO HIS FACE*. it's because of his own pride and--to honor his *father*. *not* becca.

if he actually gave an honest shit about her, he would respect what *she* wanted, and he deliberately does not and even *knows* that.

she was too good for him and i will always say that.

he was supposed to be the guy she could turn to during the most distressful moment of her life, not the guy she would *dread* telling what happened for *fear* of how he'd react--and then turns out she was fucking right about her fears!

i will forever lament that he made her feel so fucking unsafe about her situation, so unheard and unseen and like she wouldn't be listened to, that she, as a victim, could not come forward to her own fucking emotionally inept husband.

honestly, fuck him--