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chicana miku đ€
#you have no idea how fast I was drawing tryna finish it before the trend dies#thats why the backround is like half collage#I was not gonna try to draw a 64 impala from memory in <3 hours lol#it looks rushed because it is haha#anyways#miku#international miku#yes I'm aware chicana miku is american but at least theres a mexican cultural aspect happening#I didnt see anyone else doing this one so if peole can draw 'boston' miku I'm doing what I want#hatsune miku#digital art
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im not particularly religious but i think itâs very cute that Trans Day of Visibility and Easter are on the same day this year :)
its no question that something like this could be triggering or upsetting to a number of queer ppl given the current sociopolitical climate, so i want everyone to remember that u are loved! Regardless of what u or others believe, there are ppl who will love and support you always. Give yourself patience and treat yourself with care!!!
happy and peaceful TDOV everyone!! And Easter to those who celebrate :D
#sorry for treating Jesus like an anime character#trans day of visibility#tdov#easter#Jesus is actually very fun to draw#I have no idea how to tag this because what do I even say#lgbtqia#religion#Jesus#christianity#christian imagery#sorry for all the tags I just wanna make sure ppl can filter this if they donât wanna see it lol#i drawd this
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The true meaning behind FNAF princess quest
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#fnaf fanart#fnaf vanny#fnaf vanessa#fnaf gregory#princess quest#security breach#I actually really like princess quest#especially its main theme is so good#I havenât done any comics on it just yet because I didnât know exactly what to do#people still have pretty intense theory fights about PQ#which I never wanna step on toes Iâm an artist not a theorist#BUT I GOT this idea#I never really considered how Gregory and Vanessa feel about the game?#I feel like Vanessa in some way knows itâs about her#BUT GREGORY? doesnât see it#to him sheâs nothing like princess BAHAH#TO BE fair she has tired killing him before#kid canât help but be a lil blunt đ©”
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#the poll i just saw on parents being over 60 having like 40% no has blown my mind slightly#because i thought this was the over 20s website these days so like how young were your parents when they had you????#my mum was almost 39 so i have a somewhat skewed idea of what's typical#like what do you mean your mum didn't live a whole entire life before she had kids#polls
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his guardian angel
#im sure that none of the vampires are after Daniel for writing a book and actively outing them on television#because Armand is always lurking somewhere around#another oil pastels on a cardboard piece!! i think im starting to understand it a little bit better (but honestly just a little bit lmao)#specifically love how Armand's hands turned out#i think i put the most effort in them lmao#everything else was just yaaay i don't have any idea what im doing#iwtv#interview with the vampire#amc iwtv#iwtv daniel#iwtv armand#iwtv fanart#daniel molloy#armand#armandaniel#vampire chronicles#amc interview with the vampire#devil's minion#my fanart
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Hello ! I positively adore the running joke of Idia unknowingly finding Lilia to be the coolest guy ever whenever he doesn't know it's him, like when Silver described his father, or obviously with muscle red. I can't say what'd be funnier, Idia finding out his online best friend is actually Lilia, resident spooky hyper fairy; or them both never finding out, and it'd become even more ridiculous as time goes on. How do you think it'll play out ? You're always so on point
(Also, though it makes sense, I'm still devastated bat boy didn't get a ticket for the Halloween skeleton train : ( does anyone mentions him at some point ? Like how he'd have fit right in with all those Halloween town little freaks, and how he'd have impressed them with his spooks and scared techniques; after all he's been every Briar Valley's children worst fear on Halloween for centuries. I'm on the eng server and I didn't wanna spoil myself by watching the whole thing on youtube)
Have a nice day !
you and me both, Idia and Lilia being oblivious online BFFs (+ Idia being incredibly intimidated any time Silver brings up his jock gamer dad) is my favorite running joke/subplot. đ€ it's SO good, to the point where I also am unsure if I actually want it to ever be resolved or not...maybe, like, as a post-canon stinger or something? everyone's standing around covered in overblot ink, and Idia and Lilia's phones go off at the same time...
(legit I do think this is part of why Idia couldn't be present for Lilia's dream, because for some reason Lilia decided he was going to just. embody his past self online. he probably quotes his own battle strategies or whatever in the middle of boss fights. Idia didn't pick up on the whole "oh how weird that we both live on a super remote island" thing, but he would spend thirty seconds listening to General Lilia describing siege warfare and be like "w-wait")
all that aside, however it does end up happening, I do see Lilia being very blasé and all "oh! cool!" about it. y'know, taking it very much in stride! and Idia...very much not.
(can't tell if tumblr is going to chew this into illegibility or not, this will be a fun surprise á( á )á)
as for Lilia sadly missing out on Halloweentown shenanigans...he does get one little mention as part of an offhand reference to the light music club, but so far no one has brought up how this basically is just Lost In the Book of Liliatown (Sebek's been too busy yelling about not getting to be in the same group as Malleus). đ honestly though, it's probably for the best that he got left out, because he would just settle right in and refuse to ever leave. canon would shatter. we would miss out on all the delightful angst of episode 7 because Lilia is too busy eating poisonous shrubbery inbetween practicing his very best screams, and no one can pull him away from it.
(I can hope for a sequel next year though...)
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#gentle spoilers but y'know. just in case#lost in the book with nightmare before christmas#hajimari no halloween#most of the kitchen scene was jade messing with the firsties and that was so delightful that i didn't think til after#that you'd think sebek would have made some kind of reference to lilia 'i lost my tastebuds in the war' vanrouge's quote-unquote cooking#ah well. jade being mean is more than entertaining enough#looking forward to more of it tomorrow!#god. lilia and idia though.#lilia is like. genuinely idia's best friend and neither of them have any idea#and idia keeps doing that 'ha ha what if we were friends out of game too? what if we met offline? jk jk jk uNLESS...đđ'#and then he immediately chickens out because he's so convinced that crimson will hate him if they ever met irl#(meanwhile lilia is just like 'my online bestie is so cool :) la la la')#they are both so stupid and i love them so much#i've just realized that i actually do want them to find out each other's identities#because idia doesn't just go to school with his online bff#he ALSO goes to school with his online bff's extremely supportive and extremely socially-inept kids#idia is going to get invited to dinner at diasomnia and it's going to be SO awkward#silver is going to give a long formal speech thanking him for being a stalwart comrade and trusted warrior brother to his father#as sebek stews in jealousy that idia got to fight by lilia-sama's side >:(#while idia sits there like 'all i did was link him a video about lane control for his character class'#malleus will make such an effort to learn literally anything about online gaming and he won't understand a word of it#it will be SUCH a disaster and i very much do want it now
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Whoâs Your Daddy?
Pairing: Stepdad!Joel x Reader
Summary: You get stuck in the washing machine. Thankfully, your stepdad is around to help you out.
Warnings: 18+. Unprotected piv. Deadbeat-Perv-Peepaw LOVES corny porn tropes and women over half his age. Stepcest & dubcon technically bc Readerâs locked inside an appliance, but sheâs into it (getting fucked, not stuck). One (1) kick in the dick. Spanking. Brat-taming. Choking. Daddy issues. Size kink. Praise kink. Infidelity. Creampie.
Note: Saw this post by @ovaryacted and started BARKING. For my Old Man lovers/daddy issues crew, this oneâs for you.
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It was the closest thing to porn youâd ever done before.
Still, you werenât quite ready to call it that.
And why should you? Financial straits were no anomaly to a girl your age, especially in this economy, and almost everyone you knew had a side gig of some kind. It just so happened that your job required slightly skimpier attire. And a webcam. And some very specialâŠaccessories that would likely send your grandmother into cardiac arrest if she ever took a peek inside your bottom dresser drawer.
Okay, it was definitely porn.
But you never showed your face, so it didnât really count as the same kind of stuff that your family condemned.
You scampered out of your room the second you heard the front door to the house slam closed all the same. Arms laden with G-strings, stockings, satin bralettes, lace and tulle bodysuits of almost every style imaginable, you ran a quick, perilous path to the living room window and made sure to keep your head ducked low as you did. You peered out through the gap in the curtains and had to squint hard to see anything in the midafternoon sun.
Then you saw it and felt instant reliefâthey were leaving.
Your grandma for one, your mother for second, and wherever the latter was headed, you knew her shadow would be soon to follow. You saw a thick plume of smoke outside and surmised that Joel was somewhere around the other side of the SUV, smoking and droning on about how he was perfectly fi-i-i-ne to drive, donât be like that.
By âlike thatâ he meant sensible. And by âperfectly fineâ he meant two Miller Lites shy of completely shitfaced. You could already imagine the wry smile on your motherâs lips as she tried prying the keys from his hands. Your stepdad would probably plant a wet, sloppy kiss on her cheek to win a âyesâ in returnâand when she shyly reminded him that he couldnât afford to get another DUI, heâd get pissed and yank them out of her fist anyway.
Fucking loser.
Fucking triple-the-legal-limit dumbass motherfucker.
It didnât bother you as much today because you knew they were only driving a couple blocks away to get to the farmerâs market, but youâd be lying if you said you didnât hope heâd get caught. Again. Maybe blow a 0.25 this time and land his old, ungrateful, law-breaking ass in Travis County Jail, where his little brother Tommy was likely keeping a cell bench warm for him, per usual.
At any rate, you didnât have time to be fantasizing now. It was your turn to embody some guyâs grossest wet dreams for the next two to three hours. Stripping away layer after layer of your latest, tightest âcostumeâ while catering to whatever requests happened to float in your inbox, you knew youâd be up to your eyeballs in work. Though almost routine by now, you had to hurry up.
If you could just get the rest of this ridiculous gunk out of your clothing, youâd be all good to go for the job.
TRMAN22: Pour honey on your tits in the next vid???
TRMAN22: Milk too. All over you.
Looking back, you probably shouldnât have obliged that request. Now you were facing the consequencesâforced to throw all your clothes in the washing machine because the milk and honey youâd dumped on yourself for that video had gotten everywhere, and then swiftly congealed while wasting away in a pile of laundry for over a week.
The whole heap smelled rancid. Still felt sticky, too. Presently, you chucked each one inside the washing machine while holding your breath, and as soon as the last was discarded, you sniffed the shirt you had on.
Tolerable. With the rest of your stuff in the wash, you hoped to get at least one request off the checklist:
TRMAN22: Bet youâd look sexy in a schoolgirl outfit!!
TRMAN22: Why donât you try one on for me?
It was gag-worthy and gross. Slightly alarming for a man who was more than likely twice your age and old enough to remember Watergate, but you agreed to play along. Your old school uniform was, after all, the only clean clothes you had left, and âTRMAN22â was, unfortunately, your top subscriber. Heâd paid $300 for this video alone.
TRMAN22: Wear some NEON pink panties for me too ;)
You squatted in front of the washing machine and stuck a hand inside. You sifted around, furrowing your brows.
The brightest undies you owned were in there, soiled, but you figured you could get away with one gross article of clothing, all things considered. You reached a little further and continued to dig. When you couldnât find it by feel alone, you peered inside the circular, metallic cavern of the washing machine and craned your neck.
Not hereâŠnot hereâŠnotâ
You tilted forward, venturing a closer look with your head, then shoulders, pushing into the machine.
âhere, not here, notâ
âEW!â you shrieked.
In your search, youâd inadvertently brushed up against a mildewed piece of clothing that had gotten wedged between the grooves of the washing machineâs interior.
A pair of boxers, it seemed.
You recoiled as soon as your fingers grazed the wet and smelly thing. Your skull went crack against the low-sloped ceiling of the appliance, and a jolt of pain was quick to course through you at the contact. You groaned.
Of course Joel had forgotten some old, cum-stained scrap of fabric out of his last load. Always leaving his shit around for you or your mom to pick up like he owned the place. And here you went, again, angrily plugging your nose and pulling as hard as you could on the shorts to get them free from the washing machine. You hardly thought twice, just made a face and then yanked on it.
The boxers wouldnât budge.
You tugged even harder. The fabric stayed put.
Something akin to a grunt and a whimper, only far more pathetic, slipped out of your mouth, and you slapped the half-hollow steel wall in frustration. Surrounded as you wereâfully encased in metalâthe sound just echoed.
âFuckingâŠCUNT.â
You werenât sure if you were talking to the shorts, the machine, or Joel Miller in the abstract. Or maybe all three. You just hated the thought of washing your lingerie with your stepdadâs skivvies, and no amount of rational thought or practical reasoning could hold you back now.
The tip of your index finger sank deep beneath the same ridge of the wall where the boxers had gotten stuck. You curled it inward, trying to loosen the material up a little. You wriggled your knuckle even further. And just when you managed to get a hold of the cusp of the tangled fabricâjust when it seemed the green plaid cluster was about to give wayâyou heard a low pop. You felt it, too.
Shortly, your finger was pinched inside the deep, blunt valley of steel that had similarly snagged Joelâs boxers. It seemed youâd pushed the tip of your finger so far that you were caught straight down to the second knuckleâtrapped between two grooves of unforgiving alloy inside the washing machine tub with no clear means of escape.
You jerked your arm back, panicked. When the metal sank its teeth even deeper, you didnât stop. Completely heedless of the pain, you operated on impulse and by the feeling of needing to get the fuck out of that little space, quickly, and instead yanked your hand back even harder.
To your horror, your finger was stuck.
âFUCK!â
You stared down at the poor digit, only half-visible inside the wall at this point, then glanced down at the heap of sweaty, sticky, slutty pieces of clothing that were presently strewn about you, and felt an even deeper stab of dread. Stuck inside your familyâs washing machine with every bit of damning evidence one could hope to haveâand wearing your old school uniform to bootâyou realized at once you were fucked if you didnât get out.
You slammed your palm against the nearest wall once more, shaking your other wrist like an unruly child.
âFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK!â
You werenât good at solving problems. In point of fact, you sucked at all things prudent resolution-related and regularly made it a habit to capitulate whenever you sensed loss inevitable. You were a little like your mother in that way, quick to give in to lifeâs uglier challenges. The only way you could conceivably claim to be stronger, the only place you always had the strength to say ânoâ wasâ
âAw, shit.â
âJoel.
Your throat tightened as soon as you heard the voice. Your eyes went wide, and the rest of you went numb.
Bent at the waist and kneeling with half your body inside the washing machine, you remained there, motionless. Back arched and ass out. Thanks to the way youâd rolled your old plaid skirt, the fabric covered almost zero cheek.
Someone behind you cleared their throat. Then coughed.
And coughed again, again, and again. Evidently trying to clear the smoke out of his lungs and the surprise from his eyes as he drank in your sight from the doorway.
âWhat in theâwhâthââ You could hear Joel wheeze, beating his chest with his fist, âWhatâ inâ the hell?!â
âHelp me,â you hissed.
You werenât sure why you chose that as your go-to. It just sounded like the right thing to say, and frankly, you werenât sure how else to distract from the fact Joel was probably gawking at your ass as he coughed up a lung.
âThe fuck do you mean âhelpâ?! What are you doing?â
The coughing subsided, if only momentarily. You tried pulling back on your finger again to get out, but couldnât.
âI-IâmâŠI was justâŠâ you stammered, heart racing.
You heard the tread of heavy footfalls. You felt them.
âJustâtryingâŠâ you ventured again, suddenly at a loss for words and breath alike as you felt a presence draw in.
You could smell him.
That realization alone made you want to stop taking in air altogether. It happened out of instinct, reallyâfeeling the shift of two huge boots settle behind your feet and then flinching inward, further inside the metal tub forâŠsafety? A pang of abject humiliation? You were far past the point of civility with the man, caring what he thought, or fearing for your modesty in a position like this, but something about the proximity now just made you itch.
You wished your finger wasnât jammed inside this appliance so you could give that feeling relief, somehow.
At length, Joelâs voice dragged you back:
âWhatâs stuck?â
Too calm. A second passed. Then he added, more stern,
âThis some fuckinâ jokeâa yours or somethinâ?â
âNo!â
âThen whatââ
âMy finger. My fingerâs stuck.â
You tried to crane your neck to see behind you, but all your eyes had to feast upon was denim. Bluish-grey stonewashed denim, faded with years of use. Joel stood back for a second, as if considering what to do, and then you saw two hands descend to brace themselves against his knees. He bent at the waist to get a better look below.
When his eyes locked with yours, you got the same twist in your gut as youâd felt before, only sharper. Shameful.
The look on Joelâs face was abnormally bright.
âAnd how on earth did that happen, dumbass?â
Your shame morphed into chagrin in a blink, seeing the ghost of a smile bleed into your stepdadâs features.
ââCause of you, leaving your shit in here!â you snapped. Your chin jerked toward the green fabric, âI was just trying to get your boxers unstuckâand my fingerâŠâ
Your finger was kind of fucked.
Joel cast a look inside at the source of your frustration. He extended his left arm and reached over your torso, and as he did, you felt the slightest, albeit solid, sort of warmth press in. The man let out a low groan of exertionâlikely at the strain the movements placed on his joints.
The warmth got worse. You werenât sure where it started.
Vaguely, you were aware of Joelâs thumb pressing into your hand. Gliding down your finger, stroking across the spot where your knuckle had gotten caught, he circled over it, slowly, and made another sound in his throat.
âWell that ainâtâŠgood.â Not one to mince words.
By now, your whole body was on fire. You barely had the strength to keep kneeling, much less speak to the man thumbing your hand and pressing his heat so closeâ
âJust get me out!â you shrieked.
You heard your motherâs voice in that. A shrill, impatient lilt in her speech that came out, invariably, around Joel. Normally, he would have done something to deserve it. But today, with his hand splayed over yours and his breaths as calm and even-keeled as he could hope to have them while he tried to help, he was blameless.
Evidently, he heard a trace of your mother too, because you heard him laugh. You felt the reverberations of his amusement travel up from his belly all the way to his lips.
âCool your pits, kid.â
For that, you wouldâve loved nothing more than to reach back with your free hand and hit him in the balls. But, as it was, this man was your only hope for escape, and he was being tolerably polite, anyway. He pinched your finger between the tips of two of his and gave it a tug.
âOkay, lemme justââ Joel started.
âWhy are you home, anyway?â
The question came out more clipped than you meant it.
âWhy are you dressed like that?â Joel countered evenly.
âI asked you first.â
âI asked you second.â
You reckoned he could probably feel you roll your eyes, even if he wasnât able to see you do it right now. He waited another moment, then leaned back on his haunches and withdrew his arm from the tub.
âMama donât like me drinkinâ and drivinâ, you know that.â
With that, the warmth was gone. Joel retreated.
âLike thatâs ever stopped you before.â
You heard him exhale a little harder through his nose. When heâd steadied himself against the washing machine, gave his knees another second to prepare for getting up again, you could feel his eyes back on you. Maybe he lingered longer than his legs really needed.
Maybe if he hadnât stayed crouched like that, he wouldnât have gotten the chance to give your surroundings a second look. He wouldnât have stopped to watch the rate of your breaths pick up or the way your skin startle to bristle with some strange, unknown sensation. He certainly wouldnât have felt for himself the fever leaking out from the base of your spine right then.
Today just wasnât the day for keeping secrets, it seemed.
âAnd whatâs this?â You could feel Joel lean back in.
He was looking again. Peering inside. Steadying his weight with the edge of the washing machine gripped in one hand, while the other snaked its way back inside.
Youâd already squeezed your eyes shut by the time Joel got a hold of something. You didnât know what it was.
But it became painfully clear that it wasnât just one âthingâ that had grabbed his attention at all, but rather a series of items that his hands were just now getting to explore. You didnât have to see his broad and tan, callus-streaked fingers to feel them roaming over your clothes.
Gross.
Gross.
âGross,â Joel agreed, as if heâd read your mind. Grinning.
If you thought the embarrassment was bad before, you really only knew a fraction of what humiliation could be. Your finger throbbed along with the pulse in your skull.
Your motherâs husband whistled and lifted something.
âDarlinâ, this is justâŠdisgusting.â
You winced. You tried not to pry an eye open, to steal a covert look through the frame of your lashes in that dim and crowded spot, but the inducement was too greatâJoel was dangling one of your lime green G-strings like it was a fish heâd just caught out on the lake. Boasting it.
Doting, almost.
âWell Iâll beââ
âWill you quit?!â you snapped.
You grabbed the thing out of his hand and threw it aside.
âCan you be serious? For one fucking seconââ
âOh, Iâm beinâ serious, sweetie,â Joel cut in. Cool as ever, âSerious as the business end of a .45, I swear.â
He paused. Then he reached for a white nylon bustier, drenched in a layer of honey that was as hard as a rock.
âDo you always keep your littleâŠskank tanks so filthy?â
That was it. You kicked your heel backâand upâand made a pass to hit your stepdad square in the balls.
Your aim wasnât the best itâs ever been, seeing that half your body was trapped inside a home appliance at the moment, but what your jab lacked in accuracy, it made up for in force: your foot plunged into the seam of Joelâs jeans full throttle. From the way the back of your heel plowed into his crotch, and the sound that clawed out of his throat the same instant, you reckoned you did okay.
What you werenât expecting was a smack in return.
An answer in kindâdelivered by the palm of Joelâs hand.
A taut, thoughtless THWACK on the swell of your ass.
Your mouth fell open. Your body barely had the chance to recoil when, shortly, another blow landed on your cheek.
Joel spanked you.
Spanked you.
âFuckinâ brat,â he spat. His palm had slid up with the weight of his last slap, and now his fingers were clenched in a fist in the back of your skirt. You couldnât see it, but you could feel him gripping fabric. It was firm.
He was firmâunrelenting in his hold.
Kneeling behind you, yanking back a handful of tartan skirt like it was nothing, then sidling up behind you.
And just when your attention was drawn to some other firm thing, it was shortly diverted by another sensation.
âJOEL!â you shrieked as he gave you another spanking.
The bare skin of your cheeks was on fire. Joel hit hard. Just when you feared you might legitimately whimper with the sting of that last blow, and while the imprint of his palm was still fresh, you felt it move again. Lower.
âJoel.â
That came out more like a whine than a cry of protest. And how could you, now, when he was soothing the raw bite of his hand with a touch that was kneading the skin?
Working the soft, supple flesh of your ass in his hand like heâd never dream of being anything else but gentle to it.
âGood?â Joel said.
Your head flinched to nod, but your brain thought better.
It did feel good. So good, in fact, that your eyelids were starting to droop just a bit and your back was subtly arching into the touch, but those were only instincts. Stupid, useless, brain-rotted reflexes born of years of paternal neglect and replete indifference, the likes of which could bring a grown man to his knees, beggingâ
âPlease.â
But the entreaty was your own, and the voice that spoke it was hoarse. Your belly sank into the circular aperture of the washing machine, and you could feel your ribs scraping close to metal. Nevertheless, you didnât mind. That ditzy lizard brain of yours was starved for physical touch, and who were you to deny her at a time like this?
No, not when Joel was squeezing like that.
Groping was the more appropriate word for it, really. Notwithstanding the decades of sexual experience that no doubt preceded the man that was standing before youâbehind youâtoday, Joel was unduly coarse. His broad, weathered hand made as if to cool its former sting, but the motions themselves were jerky. Desperate.
He needed this worse than you, the fucking pervert.
Just when the realization had begun to settle over your mind and your legs were getting to feel a little less like jelly, knowing you werenât the only weak one here, Joelâs palm slowed down. He pressed the heel of it into your flesh as if to force himself to stop, then he took a breath.
âNow use your words.â
âButââ you sputtered.
âI said,â Joel resumed, and you could sense it was through gritted teeth. His movements came to a halt.
âWe use our words when we want somethinâ, hear?â
It was the first youâd heard Joel attempt to enforce anything close to discipline with you in your life.
That had to warrant a little defiance, no doubt.
Under your breath, quiet: âSo âweâ includes âyou,â too?â
Beneath that one, seemingly innocuous question was lurking another, and both of you knew it: Remember that time you put a fist through the kitchen wall? Was that a good example of what it means to âuse words,â Joel? Whether it was adequate provocation or not, you could sense what was coming next before youâd even finished. When the spank landed on your right cheek so loud that it echoed, you didnât flinch. You did snag your lip between your teeth to keep a sound from spilling out.
âA dad makes rules. Ainât his to follow,â Joel growled.
You blinked and bit down harder. Watched the broad, amorphous shape of the manâs reflection shift along the back metallic wall in hues of grey and blue and wished you had the strength to turn around and face him then.
âYou arenât my dad.â
âSaid âaâ dad, didnât I?â
âYouâre not that either.â
Heat was rising to your cheeks again, this time for different reasons. For a cause you were far better acquainted with to dateâannoyance at Joel.
âSo that means Iâmââ
âNothing. Youâre nothing to me,â you finished, tone wry.
Nothing to anyone, you wanted to add. Not with a shiny gold band latched onto your left hand to tell the world that youâre married to my mother, a pack of smokes tucked away in the jeans she washes every week, or a couple years spent under the same roof as me. Nothing.
Your teeth clamped back downâand almost sank clean through your lower lip this timeâwhen next you felt a touch at the plush, covered mound that was normally shielded between your legs. The spot that was hardly ever tilted up in a position like this, exposed to the air and a manâs hungry gaze, now invaded by the press of a single thing: a warm and soft middle finger at your core.
Joel brushed the tip of it against your entrance, through your panties, and sucked a breath through his teeth when both of you felt a tiny squelch at the pressure.
He pressed harder, and the wetness only spread.
You didnât have to be in Joelâs position to know what he was seeing, but the feeling from his finger overpowered any better sense to speakâor tell him to stop. He traced his slow, cruel circles against your warmth and moved it up to where he knew heâd find your bud, and when you whimpered, he simply added his index to the mix. There wasnât a doubt in your mind you were leaking heat at that point. You could feel it seeping beneath his touch.
âNothinâ, huh?â Joel breathed, voice low. Your arousal made a sickening hiss beneath his fingers as he rubbed you even harder, âThis feel like nothinâ to you, honey?â
You couldnât speak. He knew you werenât capable of it.
ââCause this sure donât feel like nothinâ to me.â
Wet and tacky beneath his touch, your warmth supplied the answer that your mouth couldnât form. It came out in more of a tap, tap, tap, punctuated by breaths that were toiling in earnest not to turn into moans too soon. But, as hulking and clumsy as his hands had once shown themselves to be, the old man knew where to put them, at least. He made circles on your clit with practiced ease.
âYou can try lyinâ to me, but she canât.â
He was right. âSheâ was a traitor.
You could deny it all you wanted, but the proof was there.
Indeed, she was crying. Aching. Bleeding with desire. Throbbing beneath the pads of Joelâs fingertips and growing only more desperate as he increased the speed of his touch. When he notched the drenched cotton to the side, you had to grit your teeth to keep in a whimper.
Joel whistled.
âSee? Seems like she likes me just fine right here.â
Your jaw stayed wired shut with the weight of your own humiliation. Instead of answering aloud, you hummed. Made a sound low and soft in your throat like, âUh-hmmâ and tilted your hips, as if you didnât know how else to ask. Joel couldnât see inside the washing machine, but he mustâve felt the gesture, because he greeted it with a motion of his own: he chuckled, and he puckered his lips.
And when you felt the warmth of his spit hit you between your folds, your shame shouldâve tripled. Shouldâve made you flinch away from his touch and tell him that was so fucking gross, Joel, stop, but then he smeared it up your slit. He pressed in and mixed it with the rest of your arousal; any reproach died on your tongue in an instant.
A part of him was on you now. Trickling in, sticking to the most sensitive part of you, and settling into your skin like a glaze. With his other hand, he found your skirt again.
âWhoâre ya wearinâ this for, sweet pea?â Joel murmured.
âNo one.â
Another glob of spit landed between your cheeks. Now, the man used the lubrication to sink two fingers inside youâpushing them in until the rim of your cunt met his knuckles. You whined at the stretch, felt him coax your walls open with a consciousness and a carefulness that felt almost mean, but then he stroked down the base of your spine with the hand that still held onto your skirt. He soothed your startled cry with a curl of his fingers.
And he found the soft, spongy patch of flesh inside that made your eyes roll straight to the back of your skull, quickly. Working his fingers in and out, flattening the base of his free hand over the skin exposed by your flipped-up skirt, and watching your body give way to the force of his fingers, he was uncharacteristically patient. Exacting in the way he worked your body open to him.
âWhat do you care?â you groaned. You winced when you felt a squelch signal that heâd stretched you even wider.
ââCause,â Joel started, slow. Pumping his fingers through your folds and likely wondering when heâd add a third, âYou got your hand stuck in a fuckinâ washing machine, a treasure trove of this slut stuff piled in a heapâŠI meanâŠâ
âTheyâre just clothes!â
âJust clothes?â
In the wake of those terse, incredulous words, you tried your best to match his toneâcall his bluffâbut the only sound that came out of your mouth was punctured by a pitiful whine. He tried another finger but couldnât fit it in. As wet as you were, and as strong as he was, your cunt wasnât quite ready to accept all three of Joelâs thick, probing digits inside. Youâd fit more than a thing or two with a girth even greater than that in the past, but you figured your nerves might have something to do with the way you were tightening around the manâs fingers now.
Why you couldnât take more of him in, as much as you wanted him there, felt, at present, like something of a shortcoming, and a pathetic one at that. You let out a breath, and a second later, Joel slowed his motions.
You didnât expect him to stop. Didnât hold out a hope he might curtail his pace and talk you through a quiet, gentle arrangement for fitting a third finger inside youâthat just wasnât him. You didnât have to share a paper-thin bedroom wall with your mother and her husband for the last however many years to know that Joel Miller was not a tender lover. It simply wasnât in his nature to care.
So when you heard the clink of a belt coming undone a moment later, your senses strangely flooded with relief. He wouldnât care, wouldnât inquire, wouldnât coddle with false, romantic ideals of how a woman should be treated.
In that way, Joel shared something in common with your father after all: he set standards as low as they could go.
âJust clothes?â he repeated, snapping your underwear against your ass and jerking the fabric further aside.
Then somehow send those expectations even lower.
There was a hand splayed out across the small of your back. Another fiddling with the front of his pants, wrestling the button and zip of his jeans in little more than one, two, three careless seconds, before he drew in closer to your rear. Your slit was messy, wet, and exposed to his eyes once again. For a second, you almost took comfort in the fact that your hand was still wedged inside a groove of steel and you couldnât meet his gaze.
That was, until Joel slid his bare length along the seam of your cunt. When the inability to see him made it so you had no other choice but to be surprised when he finally touched you was unnerving, to say the least.
And when the head of his cock blended seamlessly between your folds, was drenched in less than a blink and nearly notched straight into the place you needed him mostâwell, that had an effect on him, too. Joel moved his flat and sweaty palm up your back, found purchase in the hem of your blouse, and gripped it. Tugged it down a little more and let a low groan billow out of his throat while he rocked his hips back and forth.
Desperate, clumsy, pussydrunk Joel was back before youâd even realized heâd left. Only now he was keen to put the disquiet and hesitations to rest; he needed to fuck you before either one of you wisened up just then.
Your parts and his commingled again. First, with the lethally warm trail of precum leaking out from his tip. Then the intrusion that followed, inevitably, glossed with self-indulgence and desperationâsoiling any semblance of platonic affection or parental attentionâas he fed you the first inch of him. Barely half the head got fitted inside and your grip on that was like a vice. Joelâs was bruising.
Suddenly firm on your hips, carving crescents in the skin:
âWhenâs the last time you got fucked, baby?â
You reckoned Joel had a guessâand it wasnât correct.
âLastâŠweek,â you whimpered, words punctuated with a sigh as his cock tried to make room for more of him.
Joel sucked in a breath that almost sounded like a laugh. Heâd barely gotten an inch past his tip, facing more resistance than heâd felt in a long, long time, and you were wet, but so tight. He was big but not so massive as that. He couldnât fathom what you were saying was true.
âThatâŠfratboy fuckstick you went out on a date with?â
âDidnât think you even saw me leave.â
Joel withdrew, gripped your hips even tighter, then drove his cock to nestle three solid inches inside your cunt. It was extra snug, but he made sure to try to loosen you up with a couple short, shallow thrusts and a hand gradually drifting down between your legs. Of course he saw you.
The circles on your clit and slow-growing movements may as well have been kerosene in your veins. With what limited range of motion you had in that grey, compact space, you let out a sigh and dug the fingers of your free hand into the closest scrap of fabric beside you. Joelâs own touch gradually moved from your hip to drag your hand behind your back, clasping his. He fucked in deeper
âSo thatâs who this is for?â Thumbing your skirt.
âY-Yeah,â you lied.
âWanted to send naughty pics in the schoolgirl getup?â
âYes,â you lied again. You closed your eyes when Joel sank his cock even deeper and made you stretch inside.
ââAtta girl,â he praised.
It mightâve been the first heâd validated you in your life.
âGrippinâ this cock extra tight, ainât ya, sweet girl?â
Never in a million years would you have imagined itâd come this lateâor leave Joelâs mouth in a way like that.
âElasticâ wasnât a word youâd ever used to describe your body, either. Frankly, there was no need for it to be; every one of your partners before had been average-sized, and every other object that went inside you, too, had almost always been a comfortable squeeze between your walls. Outside of maybe your first time and a once-off awkward hookup now and again, you were never forced to feel a stretch to this degree. Joel felt huge moving inside you.
He was nearing your cervix and still nowhere close to the base of his cock. Meanwhile, you were stuffed to the brim, saturated with arousal and his spit, and practically keening at every stab of his hips. You couldnât reach back because Joelâs fingers were still enmeshed with yours, gripping them hard behind your back. As wore down, fucked out, and desperate as you already were, you were less than only a second away from asking him to ease up.
And then he stopped.
Joel pulled out, let go, and pressed onto the old washing machine, where you heard his touch echo through metal.
He was leaning against it. You were about to turn around. Before you could, though, you felt his form mold into yoursâthis time not in it, but on it, as he drew closer and once more reached into the space where you were stuck.
âCan you be brave for me, baby?â Joel murmured.
âWhââ you started, soft, only to feel the words plucked straight from your lungs as Joel leaned his body inside. Carefully, and with concerted effort, it seemed, he was trying to squeeze his way into the O-shaped hole of the washing machine, snaking his arm around your torso.
Pinching your finger again. Breathing just gently enough for his exhales to tickle at your shoulders and your neck.
âCan you be brave?â he repeated, and you werenât sure youâd ever heard him so soft-spoken, or felt him so close.
You nodded, not knowing why.
Without another word, your stepdad pinched the digit even tighter and yanked it out from where it was stuck.
It all happened so fast. Joel freeing your finger, squeezing it tight, helping you out of that hot and crowded space while your legs gave way like mush beneath your weightâand your hand throbbing in pain. Youâd never thought a single finger could cause a feeling as strong as that, but it stung like hell. You almost raked your nails through the manâs arm when he tried to hold you back, holding you up just as well as you stood.
âJoel!â you screeched, like the whole thing was his fault.
You flexed your hand and wanted to sob. You could feel the streaks of pain start to claw up your wrist, were just about to shove Joel aside and wallow in agony, when at length, he did something strange and unexpected again.
This time, he lifted your index to his mouth and kissed it.
It wasnât a sensual kiss. Coming from Joel, it hardly even seemed affectionate. His lips were so warm and firm and decidedly unacquainted with anything approaching a threat of tenderness that his act read almost aggressive. He let your finger rest loosely against his mouth, and he kissed it again, while his eyes burned holes into yours.
âYouâre okayâ came out muffled against your hand.
âYouâre okayâheyâbaby, youâre good. Donât cry.â
You hadnât even noticed the tears had started to form. You blinked and felt one trickle down your cheek. With the hand that wasnât holding your wrist, Joel brushed his thumb against that lone trail of moisture. He didnât cup your face, hold you close, or stroke your cheek in the seconds that followed, though he did keep kissing you.
Or, rather, itâyour finger.
Joel didnât have to care for you at all. He just feared he mightâve pulled on your hand too hard in getting you out.
âYouâre okayâ was being mumbled away like a fractured refrain, touch descending gently to your hip, and his eyes grew softer by the second, surely he had to be thinking it.
Sinking inside you, again. He was standing; your hips were tilted to his, and your ass was pressing flat against the front of the washing machine. All it took was an inch or two off the ground and your limbs hanging limply around his hips for Joel to fuck back into you. He sucked on your finger so hard you feared the skin might actually bruiseâa hand hickey, of all fucking thingsâand when his grip tightened on your side, you knew he felt it too.
His teeth succeeded his lips in an instant, and he was biting, gnawing pathetically as a groan shuddered through his chest. If you didnât know better, you mightâve said the sound was veering perilously close to a whimper.
Fully sheathed inside you, Joel Miller didnât seem to care. His lids fell like lead across the upper half of his brown, glossy eyes, and the expression behind them was blank.
Safe.
ââSâalright, baby,â he grunted. Maybe heâd just seen you wince, as he cradled your hand and withdrew another inch, âKeep squeezinâ me, it feels real good. Right here.â
Out of instinct, your gaze drifted down to the spot where his body joined with yours. The sight was hardly a shock, but the feelings it evoked were notâhe had you split along two-thirds of his dick, a pretty shelf of belly protruding beneath and gleaming with the arousal heâd drawn out from your body. Tufts of silver and grey littered his skin in every direction, aged muscles tensed with the weight of each thrust, and the warm weathered hand that hadnât dared touch you once before today was now cupping your chin. Tilting your head closer to him.
âRight here, baby. Look at daddy.â
Wild, unbridled heat flooded your brain in a second. The thing seared the insides of your skull with all the force of a fire and stole the air from your lungs just the sameâstill, you couldnât refrain from making a face in disgust.
âWhat the fuck, Joel?â You shouldnât have liked it.
His hand ascended your throat in a blink.
âAinât that what you want, sweet pea?â
âIââ
Just as you started to answer, though, his cock took a dizzying plunge, hitting exactly the right spot inside you. Like clockwork, your mouth fell open, a whine tumbled out, and Joel took that as his chance to grip your neck even tighter and push your hips against the washing machine, where his height afforded him an easy hold.
âWhat you wantââ
He squeezed harder.
ââwhat you needââ
You gasped, starved for air. It wasnât every day a man took your breath away. Not like Joel could, anyway.
ââis me, ainât it?â
The gaze fixed on your face was alight with desire.
âBet you miss him somethinâ awful, huh? Been needinâ a man to fill that spot ever since he left, havenât ya, baby?â
âHeâ required no further clarification. The words stung. You communicated as much by wriggling your hips back and pressing your hand against Joelâs chest, just quit it.
Keep fucking me, but shut the fuck up about my father.
âI donât miss shit,â you sniffed. Felt the head of Joelâs cock carve a shape somewhere deep inside your body and couldnât pretend it wasnât filling a metaphorical void someplace else. You hadnât got this much attention from a man as many years your senior sinceâŠwell, ever, really.
You preened beneath his touch. Wanting to feel. Wanting to please. Wanting, more than anything, to be needed.
Joel sated each craving with a simple hand smoothed over your face. His palm moved from your throat to your chin to the hinge of your jaw before coming to rest at the nape of your neck. This time squeezing lightly, bringing your face in close while he fucked you. He pressed a kiss to your forehead, and your stomach tightened inside you.
âThatâs alright,â he said, words hardly above a whisper, âNo need to miss that man at all, âcause Iâm right here.â
For once the assurance came as somewhat of a comfort. You suspected it had something to do with the fact he was balls deep inside you and pushing you closer and closer to the brink of release with each painstaking stab of his cock. You fisted his flannel, holding him there. Spreading your legs, accepting his thrusts, taking each movement with ragged, shallow breaths and moans that blended with his own, you felt your body grow warmer.
Almost febrile beneath him as he tilted your head again.
âWhoâs your daddy now?â
You winced, shaking your head. You hated that word.
âWhoâs your daddy?â
Joel lowered his hand and began to thumb at your clit. Hot pleasure coursed through you, made you whine at the contact and dig your heels even deeper in his back.
âWhoâs your daddy, baby? It ainât that hard to say.â
But it was. Joel stroking your clit, stuffing you full, ghosting his lips against yours without ever furnishing a kiss, just goading you on with: âI know you wanna say it.â Tough grey stubble teased your mouth with each word.
âI know she needs to cum, sweet girl. Know that poor little pussyâs taken a beatingâand sheâs done so good for meâbut she needs to let it out now. All over me.â
His gaze held yours. You couldnât turn away.
An unmistakable tenderness pervaded that look, and it didnât seem keen to depart. No matter how tightly you pursed your lips, made fists in his shirt, or choked his cock between your walls in fluttering, desperate pleas, the man remained calm. Attentive. The eyes didnât stray.
âItâs okay to say it.â
âC-Canâtââ
âSure can. Be the easiest thing you ever doâD-A-D-Dââ
âPlease. Please.â
You hardly even knew what you were asking for at this point, only beholden to that big, swollen something in your tummy starting to give way beneath the push of Joelâs cock. Tightening up, leaking out, practically drooling down the length of this man who seemed relentless in his current pursuit. Two more circles on your clit and you were keening, whimpering pathetic as ever:
âPleasepleasepleaseplease.â
âSay it now. Whoâs it for?â
Above you, Joelâs teeth gleamed in a smileâor a snarl, you couldnât tell. All you knew was the pleasure, the concomitant pain of having to contain this desperation while his thrusts sped up. You were bouncing on him, getting fucked against the washing machine in the raw and terrible central Texas heat wearing a sheen of sweat and a set of clothes that no longer fit your body, but that was just fine. You were okay. Joel was here, and he was holding your head, lips hovering less than an inch away.
âWhoâs. Your. Daddy?â His words were slow. Coarse. Spilling into your mouth with every short puff of breath.
You couldnât take it. You felt a band of pressure come to a head in your belly and the brush of Joelâs cock making its rounds in and out of your swollen cunt, pushing hard, and you knew that youâd had enough. He knew it, too.
âY-You.â
âWho?â
âJoel.â
âWho?â
Your wet, pearly slick rang a deafening pitch. Enough.
âYou, daddy! Daddyâplease, fuckâI-I-Iâm gonna cum.â
âGonna cum for me? Make a mess of your old man?â
âMake a m-messâ yes, daddy, yesââ you slurred.
Joel drove his cock, fully coated in you, down to the hilt. He captured your lips in a kiss and didnât even mind your mouth was whining, hissing, whimpering its filthy pleas for him to fuck a nice, big orgasm out from your body.
ââwant yours inside,â you added, without realizing it.
âSweet girlâŠâ Joel groaned.
You didnât know what you were asking him for. How badly he wanted it, too. His cock dragged in and out of your precious cunt and was barely more safe from the threat of its grip when you spasmed, at the last. Joel shouldâve expected no less, after all the time heâd spent teasing and edging, then begging you gently, in grunts, âCum for daddy, baby. Let me have it, thatâs it, good girl.â Still, somehow, he wasnât prepared in the slightest.
When you squeezed your eyes shut and kissed him backâthat was all it took. When you clenched on his cock, gave the front of his shirt a tug, locked your ankles about his hips so you could more properly increase that friction by fucking him back, grinding in place, he feared he might fairly make an irreparable, unforgivable mistake.
And when the whites of your eyes appeared againâeyelids fluttering open while your lips were glossed with his spit and a lazy smileâand said what you said next, he sensed that his fate was sealed. The old man was fucked.
âCum inside me, daddy. Please.â
Joel couldnât have stopped himself if he tried. He shuddered, then flooded your insides with rope after rope after rope of his spend, burying his face in your neck and taking your hips in his hands like a looser grip might lose you to him forever. He fucked his cum deep, deeper, darlinâ donât move, canât lose a drop, baby, please, he let out a whimper that made your walls pulse again. You felt him fill you to the brim and keep rutting his hips. Your body and his were shaking by the last of it.
And when he was finished, Joel dropped a kiss along your limp, glistening lips. He slid you back on the metal. By the expression on his face, it was plain to see he was loath to withdraw, but he had to. That tender little hiss and the sounds of your shared fluids trickling out were all the impetus he needed to act quick. As soon as heâd pulled out, Joel was back leaning against the washing machineâtilting your hips back a little, then lowering his sweaty, handsome head to the spot between your legs.
The wrinkles to the sides of his eyes grew more pronounced when he smiled. A happy grin, plastered across his lips, would have struck you as almost smug, were it not for the look of sheer adulation that followed it.
Joel was enthralled, watching his cum leak out of you. He kissed your thighs, flickered his gaze to your own, briefly, then damn near sank his nose inside the place he was watching before your fingers stopped him cold.
It was your body, after all. He had already had his fill.
Hardly knowing what came over you in that moment, you sank two fingers inside your wet, drooling hole and watched the eyes of the man beneath you go wide. He soaked in that sight completely: you pushing his cum back in, drawing it out, using the viscous white liquid as a lubricant of sorts before releasing a pleased little sigh.
Joel closed his mouth reluctantly. It took him more than a second to tear his eyes from that place, but when he did, the motions were quick to grow assured, by turns.
As if remembering something.
In a second, the innocent smile youâd seen before was being infiltrated, slowly, by a look you couldnât place. Joelâs grin morphed from gentle to contented to plainly enthused and beaming ear-to-ear with a conceited glint. With his finger, he tugged your panties back into place.
âBabyââ he started, only to be cut off lightning-quick.
âWhat? What is it?â
His smile stretched even wider. By that act alone, you were half-tempted to forget the events of the last hour and set your jaw in a scowl. You looked down, unamused.
âWhat?â
âItâs justâŠâ The man trailed off, and as he did, his gaze descended with itâstraight down to your bare pantyline.
You cast a look there tooââWhat the fuck is it, Joel?!â
At that, two brown eyes flitted back up to you.
âI thought I asked for neon pink underwear, baby.â
Your breaths slowed. His gaze didnât waver. Your heart came to a standstill in your chest, and you were amazed you had even half your present willpower then to speak.
âWait, Joel, whââ
âShame you couldnât get around to filminâ today. Had me hard as a fuckinâ rock with all that milk and honey stuff.â
You nearly choked on your spit. Joel kept grinning.
âYouâreââ
The guy. That fucking subscriber. The one whoâd paid almost $500 in commissions in the last month alone.
You stared at Joel with eyes as wide as saucers, and were about to press on, when you heard the front door to the house shriek back on its hinges. Two sets of footsteps followed it, and their entry inside was loud.
Immediately, Joel rose to his feet. It seemed that grin wasnât meant to stay long on his lips, because the next thing you knew, he was dropping a kiss somewhere soft and sweaty on your face and flipping your skirt back into place, holding his index up to his lips and stepping away. Your mouth twisted into a frown but stayed zipped out of sheer necessity. Seeing this, and likely unable to help himself, your gross, depraved, grinning old man leaned back in and planted his hands on either side of your hips on the washing machine. His nose nudged into your own.
âBetween usââ he began, slowly.
âGet fucked,â you finished for him.
Joel nodded his assent, smirk faint. He cast a look over his shoulder, and, hearing what sounded like your motherâs footsteps drawing closer, lowered his voice.
Rubbing his thumb under your chin, making you tip your head back to meet his for one final lookâthen a kiss:
âYou keep my secret, I keep yours, alright?â
â
Note: Iâve never done a real writing challenge before, but hopefully this fic will work for #hotdilfsummerchallenge !!! @hellishjoel this is such a fun ass idea & i hope you enjoyâŁïž
#âWHAT ARE YOU DOING STEP BRO????â#BUT ITâS JOEL#AND HEâS VERY CONFUSED BUT ALSO VISIBLY ER*CT#donât ask me to elaborate because i have no idea what i just wrote#joel miller smut#joel miller x reader#joel miller x you#joel miller imagine#joel miller one shot#joel miller#joel miller tlou#joel miller fic#joel miller fanfiction#joel tlou#the last of us fic#the last of us#tlou#stepdad joel#hotdilfsummerchallenge
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Fire (part 3)
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(Spade Pirate Sabo AU Masterpost)
#spade pirate sabo au#sabo#portgas d ace#one piece au#asl au#idk what came over me yesterday to finish 15 pages in 2 days but i hope you enjoy#putting the blorbo through the washing and drying machine so he can come out happier and healthier for it hopefully#the amount of side views this chapter made me do is ungodly i probably should have switched it up a bit more#after this major arc is done i might run a poll to see what to draw next because i have Ideas#you know tage is in the trenches when somehow ace is the well-adjusted one between them
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On autonomy, and what it means to be Obliged to Help.
Bonus:
#a homestuck walks into an antechamber and asks#hey is anybody going to make this dynamic wholly deterministic and thus dubiously consensual by its very nature#ANYWAY bigger ramble below. scroll down like usual#isat spoilers#isat#isat fanart#isat siffrin#isat loop#sifloop#THATS RIGHT WE'RE STILL SHIP TAGGING IT BABYYYY#in stars and time#in stars and time fanart#lucabyteart#RAMBLE START: anyway i think loop is wrong here. they have it backwards. as-- in my opinion--#the main reason they could be called back into existence postcanon is because *their* wish for help is still not complete#they still need help. siffrin still needs help. neither of them will ever stop needing help.#they will thus uphold the wish until the end of siffrin's natural lifespan.#that said. what does it mean that loop can be so wholly forced to abide by siffrin's wants?#(assuming the dagger cutscene posession is them being forced to uphold the 'help siffrin' wish via harsh universe logic)#[as opposed to something capricious and cruel the change god did. which feels out of character for the change god to me?]#much like how the island wish and duplicate objects are neutered by simply sliding off people's brains...#is loop subtly ushered toward their wish? obviously it's not a full override (see: the bossfight). but is there any interference?#and if so. so what? does it matter? if they don't notice? is it even real if they don't notice?#and even if they do notice. the universe leads we follow. how much do either of them value their free will in a belief system like that?#the whole game is dedicated to siffrin habitually NOT excersizing his free will. doing things the same Every Time.#Loop ESPECIALLY does this. predetermined predetermined predetermined even in the FACE OF CHANGE. REFUSING. ANY CHOICE.#Maybe they'd even be comforted by having a universe-ordained purpose even if it is subservient. even if its to Him.#(though. i can't see siffrin enjoying the idea that someone is subservient TO them... then all their suffering is his fault...)#loop got into this mess via WANTING too much. no more free will. can't be trusted with it. take it away from them.#but yeah. gets my greasy detective pony hands all over this. and everyone please do remember i like to make characters Outright Wrong A Lot
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oh my fucking god i don't have any clothesssss
#what moving to another country does to a mf...#it's like. i gotta shop for winter clothes ASAP#because i have like 2 sweaters and 1 sweatshirt like that's it LMAO#and a jacket i bought HERE#why did i not pack winter clothes when coming to fucking sweden you ask. good question#my baggage was already 30 kilos#im only one weak person#i already died that day due to my 30 kilo baggage many times#i had to ask random people to help me lmaoooooo the way i'd rather die than doing that in a normal day đ#it was THAT bad..#and now i dont have anything proper to wear. fml#and i am so bad when it comes to clothes shopping like u have noooo idea#im terrible at shopping in general. :/#ughhhh i will try to do that this friday :////// hope i don't freeze in the meantime :////#đ
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pin-up
b&w originals
#my art#basslinegrave art#venture bros#dr. girlfriend#dr. mrs. the monarch#the monarch#henchman 21#ok so. pin up and pinned butterflies. tell me thats not the best idea ever#did i manage to pull it off how i wanted? maaybe? i do like these but i wish i had used the same color settings for all#when using the howsitcalled. gradient map things. because they dont look as uniform#but i was lazy to redo dr mrs especially plus i like how she looks i just couldnt get monarch and 21 the same#also somehow these look better and more colorful on my pc?? usually its on my phone i dont know what happened#also i ended up adding one colored thing to each because i first colored in dr. mrs' eyes#then realized the other two dont have colored eyes but 21 has the red lenses. but monarch??#i only went over the logo on his chest a bit with a more reddish color but its not too visible so well#imagine its better and they all match properly...#hope i got the butterfly names right#those were last minute additions after i learned about the viceroy butterfly yesterday#dr mrs is a queen butterfly#ask to tag#suggestive#wanted to put that as one of the top tags but i wrote it with a typo so i hope tumblr picks it up this low#also forgor to say i put my crunch handle on these cause they were meant to go on that blog ignore that#i think i forgot to add one to monarch or i hid it that well lmao#my 2 braincells rubbed the wrong way
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i'm sure this joke has been done before but i'm new here so now it's my turn -- the bing-ge vs bing-mei extra sure is something huh
#the luo binghes having a normal one#svsss#luo binghe#luo bingge#luo bingmei#shen qingqiu#bingqiu#my art#not actually done the extra yet i had to stop to do this because it was making me laugh#WHO IS THAT OTHER DOG#bingge sure has no idea what's going on but he is prepared to roll with it (derogatory)#meanwhile for bingmei it is On Fucking Sight he is going to KILL HIS DOUBLE and get his shizun back asap#excited to see how this one is going to end#(also election results are coming in and i cannot concentrate on my book i will have a stroke so art and music instead)
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on principle opposed to describing art i dislike as 'masturbatory' because even though it's an alluringly contemptuous word to sneer it's impossible to reconcile with my pro-masturbation stance
#it's such an ugly word but like. self-pleasure is goodâ actually#it's good to know yourself and what you like and lovingly treat yourself to it!#like similarly 'meretricious' is extremely tempting if you ignore the underlying metaphor#but. hard to.#language#and quite frankly i think people who whip out 'masturbatory' in this sneering sort of way#are leveragingâ if we're honest with ourselvesâ a particular framing of it as a gross thing that boys do#because like. when have you ever heard a *woman's* self-indulgent art described as masturbatory#like don't get me wrong we absolutely still dismiss it! but we dismiss it in other ways#that are usually about how embarrassing her *yearning* is#and so even our sneering is reinforcing an idea that men Act whereas women Feel#anyway this was prompted by some things but i shoved it in the queue so now i forget what lol#so here you are getting some contextless thoughts on the use of 'masturbatory' as sneering dismissive assessment!#just what you were hoping for i'm sure :)
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Day 1: Soulmates
#sasunaru#narusasu#naruto#sasuke#my art#round fox baby#narutoâs boyfriend#the????#i havent drawn in more than a month#THE???#and THEN MY BRAINS LIKE#YEA BITCH COLOR THAT WHOLE THANG#like it might not be much BUT IT TOOK ME#HOURS!!!!#BECAUSE I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I WAS FOING HHHHSHDJDJD#like how do ppl draw again??? HAHAHA FUCK#im like deadass wtf is this#im so tired#i aint coloring for a whole week aagin#i cant do this hhdjfhdjd
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Sukea stuff
Extra: realization
Itâs been a while
Panel 1: smile
Comic 2: Caught red handed
youâre his son
Extra: conversation
he just picking on him
Comic 3: Youâre grounded.
#naruto#naruto fanart#kakashi hatake#obito uchiha#sakumo hatake#sasuke uchiha#sakura haruno#naruto uzumaki#naruto sukea#fanart#art#my art#sketch#drawing#digital art#I like the idea of sakumo no matter what will always recognized his son#even if kakashi hides everything and it just reaches to a comical point#like he could change his WHOLE appearance and scent and whatever and sakumo takes one glance and goes âthatâs my son :Dâ#where obito doesnât realize it until WAY later on (itâs like a nagging feeling but he ignores it)#I like to think both gai and obito would share the mindset of âIâve seen this man somewhere but where???â#Sukea (Kakashi) immediately gets self conscious when near Sakumo#because some people will put it together if they stare long enough at their faces next to each other#team 7 would absolutely go to sakumo to spill the tea on what his son is doing to them#and somewhere in the village Kakashi is feeling impending doom#sakumo ends up just messing with both kakashi and his genin team (though heâll just lightly reprimand his son)#btw kakashi is not sorry (next training lesson he'll have his petty revenge)
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Caitvi Scenes: 28/? âł Vi checks out Caitlyn her favorite cupcake đ
#OK my favorite one has to be the second one because she doesnt do it once but TWICE vi what u doin LMAO but cait is indeed very distracting#and then the last one is so funny bc this is such a serious council meeting but shes like mmm đ and vis like oops i have to pay attention#caitvi#arcane#arcaneedit#wlwedit#animationedit#vi arcane#arcane vi#caitlyn kiramman#caitlyn arcane#arcane caitlyn#vi#vi x caitlyn#caitlyn x vi#piltover's finest#media: arcane#type: gif#arcane league of legends#league of legends arcane#caitlyn#this is for user visbluehairedcupcake because their post gave me an idea tysm#anyways i dont blame vi one bit but all i ask is for cait to check vi out in s2 hehe
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