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#i have no where else to vent im sorryyy#do you ever think so hard you feel like you'll destroy yourself#that's all i've done for years!#and i just want to move on but i'm stuck again#struggling so hard to become sober#and it literally wouldn't matter if i wasn't having this stupid medical problem#i'm starting to not be able to enjoy myself because my ears feel like shit all time!#and it's from my smoking but i'm too depressed to stop#i did it before but it was hell#my life feels so meaningless and i wish i could stop thinking about certain relationships#but i don't feel like i have any relationships anymore#i'm not close to anybody and i feel so much pressure when talking to people#to be someone i'm not and i wish i didn't#so it doesn't even feel worth it#and i wish i knew hat my problem was#i wish everything was easier#and i feel like i have to just laugh it off all the time#because no one truly cares#i'm all alone and i don't know how to fix anything i'm going through#because i don't think i can#i always knew i was doomed#and i keep thinking i'm probably going to die soon#because some people just die young.#i'm too broken and unlovable it feels like#and all my problems are going to get worse#and i feel embarassed of myself and all this shame that never goes away#vent
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Katniss is such an unreliable narrator. She says "Then something unexpected happens. At least, I don't expect it because I don't think of District 12 as a place that cares about me" girl you deliver strawberries to the Mayor, you hunt and trade for the district, when you fell at Prim being chosen someone caught you, when you went to Prim people parted for you, when you volunteered EVERYONE stopped. Idk how to tell you but I think you're a pillar of the community.
#katniss everdeen#the hunger games trilogy#the hunger games#primrose everdeen#hunger games#batcavescolony reads the hunger games#suzanne collins#'now it seems i have become someone precious' NOW? GIRL BFFR you're their hunter girl#and this isn't negative just bffr girl#your WHOLE DISTRICT did the three finger salute that you yourself says means admiration thanks and goodbye to someone you love and on top is#old a rarely used. your WHOLE DISTRICT decided in that moment that they needed to bring back this sign of respect for YOU#...................................................................#idk why some people are thinking i mean this as negative i don't she is unreliable but its not intentional. like when Peeta heart stoped in#CF she doesn't know what Finnick is doing at first cus she doesn't know off the top of her head what cpr is. she also thinks Peeta after the#reaping is acting for the cameras. he isnt we dind out later his mom basically told him Katniss was gonna win and he would die. obviously#shes not doing it on purpose shes just for lack of better words uneducated? as in she doesn't know everything shes not omnipotent#so when Plutarch (? second games guy) shows her his mokingjay hiden watch shes like *wtf that's weird?* then the people traveling to#district 13 show her the mockingjay cookie and explains it and she then goes on the difference between his watch and their cookie#and why does eveyone act as if district 12 is as bad as the capital? they CANT help Katniss and Prim in the way you want. they cant give#them food. none of them have any! and im not putting iton Katniss but they hid they needed food so they could stay together. it sounds like#some of you are in this our world mentally of what people do after a loved one dies (brings food constantly checks on them etc) district 12#cant do that. they dont have food and they're all suffering. you cant give someone food when you have none to give. then theirs the fact#that peeta DID help. Peeta buring the bread and tossing some to her then taking a beating from his mom is a HUGE thing in the books.#he used his resources to help her like you all said someone should.#district 12 DID (rip) care about Katniss before the hunger games. why do you think she was allowed to hunt? or how her trades were good#these are the little ways 12 can shows Katniss they love her. but again Katniss doesn't see this and YES its because she had ptsd before the#hunger games as well. i swear some of you make it seem like d12 was all living a life of luxury and glaring down at Katniss.#other things that show Katniss is in hight standing with at least her people of d12 is her dad was known enough through d12 for peeta dad to#comment on his singing along with his commenting on her mom. also her mom is a healer in the community. yeah her parents arnt the top but#of d12 but they are/were definitely high staning in the Seam.
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Once Clark tells Batkids that if they need a safe space or some comfort, then they can come and visit his farm — he'll do his best to provide some help or support.
And he means it.
However, he is pretty sure that they will rarely use this advice of his. They are Batkids, after all! Independent and uncommunicative at the most.
Well.
Turns out he was wrong.
Damian and Dick are frequent quests in his farm, anyway — Damian hangs out with Jon, always appearing out of nowhere, and Dick visits them here and there — so it takes Clark some time to notice that others are here, too.
Tim starts joining them on occasions first. Mostly with Kon by his side, but he still steals sweets from the countertop that they hide from Jon, and Clark just... smiles. Okay. It is cute. Kon is a part of the family, and he is clearly in a good relationship with Tim. It is not bad at all.
...Until, Cass randomly appears in his study room out of nowhere, scaring the shit out of him, telling that she needed a quiet place to read the book.
And then Lois almost gets a heart attack when she wakes up in the middle of the night to drink water and bumps on Duke and his magnificent glowing eyes, because... Because Duke munches their cereals in four am???
(He was nearby after some mission. Was lazy to go to the safehouse. Whatever.)
Clark finds Stephanie sleeping with his sheep, caged in her hug later that week. When he returns home to tell Lois about it, he finds out that... She stress-bakes with Red Hood himself, while they both loudly shit on the Batfamily for different reasons (but mostly it is about Bruce, of course).
Alfred calls him a few hours later, asking to send the kids home for dinner.
Clark thinks that maybe — just maybe — moving out is not a bad idea, after all!
#bruce pays for their new farm because he gotta keep these kids IN THE FAMILY /j#clark loves batkids but i genuinely don't think that anyone but bruce and extended batfamily members can handle their chaos...#jason todd#dcu comics#dc universe#dcu#batman#batfamily#bruce wayne#batfam#red hood#dick grayson#tim drake#clark kent#lois lane#damian wayne#cassandra cain#stephanie brown#duke thomas
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*steeples hands under my chin like i'm sherlock* so you see,
#user: gossippool 😝#gossippool metas#can this be considered meta if i don't say anything#not a day goes by where i do not think about wade's naked fight scene. i am just a girl#i was going to make this a video edit instead to me and the devil because that was the first thing i thought of#but i was lazy! and my editing skills are ass! so#deadpool and wolverine#deadpool & wolverine#deadpool#wade wilson#wolverine#logan howlett#poolverine
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I think so many people are so deeply alienated from themselves that they have no clue how to exercise their free will and autonomy. For some, this alienation runs so deep that they are afraid of their own autonomy and humanity. It is completely understandable why one would have those feelings, but it can be worrisome.
I want to help others who feel this way, so here are small things I have done to exercise my free will:
Add "guilty pleasure" songs to playlists and actually listen to them (I have a ton of late 1990s-early 2000s music I listen to now proudly that I never listened to in the past out of shame)
Getting the décor item, bath set, bed spread, ect. in the patterns you like, even if it's "childish" (I got a dinosaur-themed wastebasket from the kids' décor section and I adore it)
Taking a new route to get to a place you go to often
Eat dessert first
Celebrate well, and often
Collect things that are "odd" or don't seem like an "acceptable" thing to collect (somebody on my "for you" page collects dandelion crayola crayons and it was so cool!!!!!!)
Incorporate one new piece in an outfit you wear frequently (e.g., a new chain, a necklace, ribbons, bracelets, ect.). Challenge yourself to add onto the outfits if you feel up for it.
Sing along to songs without worrying that you sound "good" or your intonation is completely accurate
Read a book from a genre you weren't allowed to read as a kid (comics, thrillers, mysteries, anything!)
Walk without having a specific destination or goal
Pick up a new craft without expecting yourself to master it or to ever be "good" enough. Get your hands messy.
I don't want to shame anybody for not feeling as though they have free will or that they are exempt from exercising it. However, I wanted to give ideas so that you might read this list and find your own ways to express your intrinsic autonomy and will. You deserve to be a person, to feel alive, not just living. That is what our lives are for.
#mental health#mental health support#positivity#if anybody has ideas of their own definitely include them!#i just think being stuck with this feeling that you don't have autonomy and that you ultimately aren't an equal person or a person at all..#...in comparison to other people can be a really troubling and dangerous place to be in...#...and that isn't the person's fault for feeling that way. they didn't pluck those thoughts out of thin air...#...like i have felt that exact way all my LIFE because i have been abused for. probably 2/3s of my life...#...only within these past few years have i even FELT alive. frankly it's going to take a while to repair what i have been left with...#...so i know the feeling and i want to help others feel even a LITTLE bit alive. you deserve it...#...you deserve to take in a deep breath before slowly realizing 'oh my gd this is what it feels like to be alive' and SMILE about it#i want that for you even if it is brief. even if it is small. even if it is a whisper. i want you to feel alive#unironically getting rid of the idea of 'guilty pleasures' has made my life SO much better
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i dont wanna be a magical girl...
fanart for @kianamaiart! background image credit here
#i don't want to be a magical girl#idwtbamg fanart#one of these is not like the other#im sorry hoshi i just had to make you a lump lol#i dont think aika's magical girl persona actually has like#merch n shit in the real world#but i couldnt pass up the image of her being surrounded by it#and being very unhappy about that#so#here we are#also shes in nyc because i can
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headcanon that percy is historically hard to beat at monopoly. and it's intially the most mind-boggling thing ever watching him turn the tide of a game. because he's definitely losing at the beginning. but percy is not only an amazing strategist. he has a deep understanding of money and knows how and when to bet on the board. he knows when to test his luck. and he's amazing at getting into people's head.
#don't place your bets on percy's opponent#because what is his life if not turning the tide in his favor?#i honestly think annabeth can definitely challenge and win a handful of games against him#but he does not make it easy for her and she both hates and appreciates him for it#headcanon that he and estelle routinely team up against annabeth because she views percy as the king of the game#(plus he make funny voices when reading from the cards and it makes the girls laugh)#percy jackon and the olympians#pjo text post#pjo#pjo headcanon#percy jackson#annabeth chase#percabeth#estelle blofis#percabeth + estelle
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the easy grip on the knife. the leg over the seat. the hand over the other seat. the sassy "come get it" move. you know the bitch is smiling behind that mask even as he said the line.
#i can't believe i'm saying this#DEADPOOL CAN GET IT#Logan I'm sobbing I understand why you lunged at him#I would too bestie#it's the sass for me folks#paint that car white as much as they painted it red my god#a deadpool thirst post? from me? more likely than you'd think#this is a branch in realities i know it#i've never had Feelings for this motherfucker until this movie#all i'm left with is anger now because WHAT DOES HE WANT FROM ME#camera crew could have just made it landscape but noooooo they had to do a medium shot of this son of a bitch#i'm sending an especially affectionate fuck you in ryan reynolds' direction#i love how you love deadpool#deadpool#wolverine#deadpool and wolverine#wade wilson#logan howlett#poolverine#deadclaws#don't get me wrong i've always adored deadpool's personality. nobody's that hilarious and not have humongous balls i mean trauma.#but i've never went 'why he kinda' until this specific shot right here#@ camera crew why the fuck did you zoom in? WHY?#for me? well it's infuriating#do it again#gif is credit to the owner#30 tags aren't enough for me to dismantle how this shot made me feel. tumblr you gotta update#damn tumblr i'm tryna feed a village here#guys just find my other post
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Just your average male living space.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wen qing#lan wangji#A-Yuan#wei wuxian#(***Content warning for me talking about unhygienic living conditions in the tags today***).#The worst part of drawing this comic is that I've seen so much worse. This is a livable space.#I've helped out friends and family who were struggling and let me just say...I have seen some pretty dysfunctional living spaces.#Hell I've *lived* in some very dysfunctional living spaces.#Hording dishes under the bed was always something that grossed me out but it's unfortunately something I've seen people do way too often.#The horror everyone has upon walking into WWX's 'living' set up is so consistently 'Mate how are you living like this?'#It's honestly so integral to me that WWX's 'just left home for the first time' house/room be a depression/dysfunction pit.#You can learn a lot about someon's state of mind from how they keep their living space...and this guy is oozing 'deep depression'.#I don't think he's eaten anything but foods that classify as a struggle meal in a year.#Everyone is trying to stage an intervention but he just isn't in a good enough place to help himself.#By the way: I want to steer away from shaming people who have messy homes/rooms because life *does* hit hard sometimes.#My love language is coming into your home to do your dishes and do some housework. Don't apologize for the mess king.#Nothing could top some of the places I've had to help my older siblings out of.#I'd be okay with my flatmate having a severed limb and a blood pool at this point.#As long as he lets me take out the dishes from under the bed - We're good! My standards are so low at this point.
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the korean embassy in isnotreal is organizing kpop world festival there and is basically a competition people can participate with the support of kbs so yeah... this is quite bad
#i don't even think this is the first time it happens since it says it's an annual thing#but it's incredibily insane how they are doing this shit with the support of kbs#during a whole fucking genocide#i need people to be mad about this shit#bc idek if they will invite groups there one day that can happen#and it should BECAUSE PEOPLE NEED TO BE LOUD#artwashing genocide with kpop music is insane and nobody should be indifferent to this#kpop#kbs
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#organic home grown content#polls#don't know what to tag this because anything i can think of would bias the results#(like p*renting and ch*ldfree)#100 tier#1000 tier#10000 tier
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Do you guys notice how when Shawn Fain, president of the United Auto Workers union, started planning a general strike, he did it by a) targeting his messaging towards unions with the ability to safely and effectively strike in large numbers, b) laid out a clear, actionable plan for those unions to follow (setting contracts to all expire at the same time, since many unions cannot strike while under contract), c) is using union contracts to set clear, actionable demands that can be met in order to gauge success and provide an end goal, and d) started organizing FOUR YEARS before the proposed strike date to give people the chance to plan accordingly, because it takes a really freaking long time to get tens of millions of people organized?
You notice how he didn't do it by slapping a message on Twitter saying 'hey nobody go to work on Monday, that'll really show 'em'?
#those 'monday is a general strike stay home if you can!!!' posts are SO performative and they really annoy me#like. you MUST know you can't organize a general strike of tens of millions of people by sharing an infographic on twitter. Right?#don't even get me started on the most recent one that was like 'we understand the last strike only gave one day of notice'#'so this time we're giving you two! strike is on tuesday everyone don't forget!'#like GENUINELY was that supposed to be a joke#the linked article also touches on how difficult actual organizing a workplace is which is nice#because they mention previous failed attempts in which organizers basically just handed out leaflets#and assumed the benefits would be obvious. which i think is basically the equivalent of posting an infographic on twitter#which is to say - not effective at all. Organizing is a LOT of work! Running an effective union even more so!#labor rights
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When I had the idea of drawing toxic yuri and a warm comic about siblings for Christmas at the same time
I chose to draw both🙂
#hollow knight#hollow knight fanart#silksong#silksong fanart#hk the hollow knight#hk hornet#hollow knight comic#hk the knight#hk ghost#hk lace#lacenet#hk#I think vessels don't have body heat because they are corpses#and even if they can feel hot and cold#they were hatched from the Abyss- a place that looks very cold so they probably won't be afraid of the cold#but they still deserve to receive warm things
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ok but he was fully flirting here. I think it's so funny that Charles was like "idk if I'm in love with you but we have all eternity to figure it out" and then literally an episode later he was like "welp time to start thinking about this!" and immediately started openly flirting with Edwin. you go bisexual king
#dead boy detectives#painland#payneland#charles rowland#edwin payne#(show tagging. it's payne.)#anyway I think it's so funny that he was like 'we have all the time in the world!' and then immediately went on to#'well we don't have to wait that long tho :)'#i genuinely think. part of charles's confusion is that he's never really considered edwin as an option y'know.#because edwin is. like that.#and so charles has just never contemplated the possibility at all#but now that edwin is less emotionally constipated. and charles is also more willing to open up.#i think now he can start really thinking about it#and then who knows!
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Yeah, I know "not all aro/aces" and all, but please don't use "not all aro/aces" as an excuse to not explore anything exclusively aro/ace ever. Otherwise any trace of aro/aceness might end up effectively lost to fandom osmosis.
To sum up... If you wouldn't be homophobic that way, please don't be aphobic that way.
#no one can know i don't like sex#aspec#asexual#aromantic#tw aphobia#aspec erasure#my art#nonburger#am i gonna get bazooka'd for this#i think i'm making a good point others also have made before but i'm bracing to get bazooka'd for this#because... experience#anyway here goes nothing
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help a palestinian doctor evacuate his three family members in gaza
vetted by operation olive branch (line 85)
$25,830 raised of $50,000 as of november 5
since this fundraiser has started back in early 2024, we've only managed to help fund the escape of dr moath and his mother, basma. three family members remain in gaza including moath's father and his two younger brothers.
please help his family. this fundraiser has been stagnating badly and i'm incredibly worried for yusuf, ahmed, and their father. we need less than $5000 in order to evacuate one of them. if you have any money to spare please please please contribute to this campaign.
#i don't know how to appeal to you i dont know how to 'market' these peoples lives to make you care.#all i can think about is the family having to choose who gets to evacuate and who has to stay behind and hopefully survive because their#fundraiser isn't gaining enough funds to evacuate them all at once#i can't imagine the amount of pain that causes. i can't imagine how terrifying it must be#to lose contact like that with your family in these circumstances. especially when one of them is 56 (moath's father)
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