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how are people out here just forming genuine relationships with other people
#i actually don't understand how it happens#i don't think i'm the most intersting person in the world#and i know some people or even a lot of people would find me annoying#but i feel like there has to be some people out there who would like want to have a relationship with me the same way i do with them#it feels statistically extremely improbable that this wouldn't be true#i don't know what it is that i'm missing in this whole making connections thing#because i do try#i do#is none of it ever as real as it seems#maybe no one really is ever as close to another person as it seems from the outside#maybe i'm just idealizing and life just isn't like that#i don't know#but i so desperately want it to be#god i do#i think about it constantly#being close to people#because i'm just not#i don't know how people do it#but i'm kind of starting to feel as if it just... won't happen#for whatever reason#i'll just stay lonely forever#ach#i miss pearl#i wish i knew how people make friends#i just always feel so isolated
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some domestic shadowlachs <33
#bg3#baldur's gate 3#shadowlach#shadowheart#karlach#i just think they should do eachother’s hair and be cosy and also have a lot of rowdy gay sex#also if you watch jen and aliona's streams the 3rd one is based on when jennifer english LOCKS IN#they've def been there for like 8 hours. the pyjamas are there but the makeup is still on#yet another shadowlach print for the shop whoops#i'm going to try and get at least the shadowlach things done by mcm because i know some people wanted them signed by jen/sam#not to be dramatic but i would weep
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take your clothes off and get on the bed what no we aren’t having sex right now we’re cuddling and pressing every inch of skin together as close as possible for the next six hours
#wlw#wlw mood#sapphic#sapphism#lesbian#sometimes you just need to be CLOSE ya know#also i went to bed really early last night and slept So Well#and i just woek up and im still realllll sleepy#which is why i seized the chance to post this#because i get too shy and embarrassed to whenever i try to do it when im not half asleep#pointign and laughing at fully awake me rn🫵#lmao loser ass🫵🫵🫵#now it’s posted and there’s nothing you can do about it#im gay and i like sleeping
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"got your nose"
#atla#sokka#suki#sukka#honestly i am really fighting wtih myself here because no additonal drawing and its is just standing alone...#-internal screem because i can't do thiz-#anyway tryed something new#hope you like it#buon appetit#happy new years!
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more people gotta try this shit where bill has not improved and will not change but he's just chilling so its fine probably. its great
#gravity falls#billford#bill cipher#stanford pines#gf nevermind all that#is this really for that? no but if its post canon bill on earth then it may as well be. makes it nice and easy to find later too#reread tbob because we just got our own (nicely water damaged) copy and i was like. i dont draw him cute enough#i will continue trying to do better#anyways stanley you are a butch woman. stanley transition now you dont even have to do anything youre already perfect#its just about the intent#every time i drew him for the last one all i could think was oohhhhhh my god you are a dyke. to me. please#in other news are there any burned out pushing-30s out there who havent drawn in years? i gotta say. i really gotta say.#get mentally ill about something its great. preferably alongside a few other people that you can use to create a perpetual cycle of insanit#gets you drawing again in no time and it feels great
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Continuation of this
#trying to write bills cipher in character is harder than it looks#I HAD to finish this comic but I have so many other things to do so now I gotta go do that#it’s nearly 1am help#my art#gravity falls#twins in time au#Stan pines#Stanley pines#bill cipher#I think the idea of bill weaponising Stans fear of losing his brother is so interesting a concept#especially because he literally does lose him in the future#baby Stan having to atone for the actions of his future self when he just wants his cool brother to like him#:((((
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chicana miku 🤎
#you have no idea how fast I was drawing tryna finish it before the trend dies#thats why the backround is like half collage#I was not gonna try to draw a 64 impala from memory in <3 hours lol#it looks rushed because it is haha#anyways#miku#international miku#yes I'm aware chicana miku is american but at least theres a mexican cultural aspect happening#I didnt see anyone else doing this one so if peole can draw 'boston' miku I'm doing what I want#hatsune miku#digital art
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this is just my opinion but i think any good media needs obsession behind it. it needs passion, the kind of passion that's no longer "gentle scented candle" and is now "oh shit the house caught on fire". it needs a creator that's biting the floorboards and gnawing the story off their skin. creators are supposed to be wild animals. they are supposed to want to tell a story with the ferocity of eating a good stone fruit while standing over the sink. the same protective, strange instinct as being 7 and making mud potions in pink teacups: you gotta get weird with it.
good media needs unhinged, googling-at-midnight kind of energy. it needs "what kind of seams are invented on this planet" energy and "im just gonna trust the audience to roll with me about this" energy. it needs one person (at least) screaming into the void with so much drive and energy that it forces the story to be real.
sometimes people are baffled when fanfic has some stunning jaw-dropping tattoo-it-on-you lines. and i'm like - well, i don't go here, but that makes sense to me. of fucking course people who have this amount of passion are going to create something good. they moved from a place of genuine love and enjoyment.
so yeah, duh! saturday cartoons have banger lines. random street art is sometimes the most precious heart-wrenching shit you've ever seen. someone singing on tiktok ends up creating your next favorite song. youtubers are giving us 5 hours of carefully researched content. all of this is the impossible equation to latestage capitalism. like, you can't force something to be good. AI cannot make it good. no amount of focus-group testing or market research. what makes a story worth listening to is that someone cares so much about telling it - through dance, art, music, whatever it takes - that they are just a little unhinged about it.
one time my friend told me he stayed up all night researching how many ways there are to peel an orange. he wrote me a poem that made me cry on public transportation. the love came through it like pith, you know? the words all came apart in my hands. it tasted like breakfast.
#warm up#writeblr#actually this is because again i don't go here#i don't read/write fanfic but i have nothing but respect for my troops#but i also have never played minecraft. im sorry. please ask me any question about pokemon tho i love that shit#anyway#out of some banal and thoughtless curiosity i watched the minecraft movie trailer#and again i know nothing about minecraft. i am aware im in an endangered population#but im watching this going: this is so fucking.... BAD#there is NO LOVE in it!#like if someone who has NO history in minecraft watches that and is like - ohhh this is soulless#WHO IS THE AUDIENCE????#ppl who love minecraft are gonna hate it!!!#at some point it's the ''mean girls musical movie'' problem --#some people will always hate the premise of what you're doing and some people will love it#make it for the ppl who love it#and usually that somewhat convinces the haters to like. chill enough to TRY it . bc it IS good#but when you try to make it for the haters..... nobody likes it. it doesn't have passion. energy. footwork#which is a small way of saying a big thing: if you love something. fucking make it and assume someone will love it too.#i love u . be brave . be bold. be in boston and come to my reading#where i wrote a really weird fucked up little book.#love u love u love u etc
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I Saw the TV Glow is such a uniquely, devastatingly queer story. Two queer kids trapped in suburbia. Both of them sensing something isn’t quite right with their lives. Both of them knowing that wrongness could kill them. One of them getting out, trying on new names, new places, new ways of being. Trying to claw her way to fully understanding herself, trying to grasp the true reality of her existence. Succeeding. Going back to help the other, to try so desperately to rescue an old friend, to show the path forward. Being called crazy. Because, to someone who hasn’t gotten out, even trying seems crazy. Feels crazy. Looks, on the surface, like dying.
And to have that other queer kid be so terrified of the internal revolution that is accepting himself that he inadvertently stays buried. Stays in a situation that will suffocate him. Choke the life out of him. Choke the joy out of him. Have him so terrified of possibly being crazy that he, instead, lives with a repression so extreme, it quite literally is killing him. And still, still, he apologizes for it. Apologizes over and over and over, to people who don’t see him. Who never have. Who never will. Because it’s better than being crazy. Because it’s safer than digging his way out. Killing the image everyone sees to rise again as something free and true and authentic. My god. My god, this movie. It shattered me.
#i saw the tv glow#I saw the tv glow spoilers#it is SUCH a queer story#the disassociation. the hiding in fiction to feel alive.#the horror of watching time tick by and knowing you’re not who you’re meant to be#the unique paralysis of staying put in hell because it’s safer than what might be over the horizon#the tragedy of trying to help someone who isn’t ready to be helped#god it’s so much. god. rarely do I walk out of a film and just stare soundlessly into space#anyway. please see this movie. although I sort of hope if you’re reading this post it’s cuz you already have#eta: I used he because the main character never quite vocalizes another pronoun#but this is SUCH a trans story. suuuuch a trans story. it is not even a little subtle#it’s so good and so so painful
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Open your eyes...
#ive been trying to convince myself to do this series for months because i KNEW it would take FOR FUCKING EVERRR and i was right.#this is like 2 full seasons of bridgerton. i feel insane#anyway. hi#skribbles#botw#totk#loz#legend of zelda#breath of the wild#tears of the kingdom#zelink#everyone ignore the asymmetrical shrine of resurrection btw i swear i did my absolute best
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was anyone gonna tell me shadow saved rouge's life in sa2 or was I just supposed to find that out playing the game myself
(this worked out as a rather fitting closer for the Final Day in Year of Shadow haha, hope ya'll have a fun new year! 🎉🎉🎉)
#happy new year!#closing 2024 with an actual honest to god comic layout I know I'm shocked too#that scene wasn't in the fandub and that's all I'd ever seen so it was a Fun Surprise!#shadow the hedgehog#rouge the bat#sonic#sonic adventure 2#sa2#my art#doodles#comic#no words though! rare form#fun fact the white jungle route is the Only route I ever executed Flawlessly first try#just give me a good countdown and suddenly I know how to play video games#and a fun one too! love the Drama#fun fact originally his dash was green since i assumed he was teleporting around as usual#but my friend pointed out he actually didn't have an emerald on him at the time#which meant if he Didn't find rouge in time or if she Didn't have an emerald they were Both going to die#which is Excellent fun#I do have a shitposty bonus to this because of course I do but we'll see if I have time to make it tonight or not haha#if I was a Little better laying this out the final panel would've centered under panel 2 shadow's hand#tragically it was late enough in the game when I got to that point I didn't want to fuck with the layout anymore#maybe next time I make a comic layout in 4 years!
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it's never the last time.
I was trying to justify to myself having Leona know how to use a waffle maker, and. well. sometimes you just gotta go where the flow takes you.
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#tamashina mina#(just because of kifaji)#kifaji: it's four o' clock in the morning why on earth are you making waffles#leona: because i've lost control of my life#anyway i'm trying to be less lazy about my spot-blacking#(because obviously what leona making waffles for a toddler needs is that noir touch)#i know i can still be doing a lot more with it...but it's a start :')
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i've noticed just how often achilles' dragging of hector's corpse is framed mostly as an act of extreme disrespect, or only some brutal show of triumph. personally i think that's underselling both achilles' intention and what the trojans must be thinking as they watch it happen.
hector's corpse is divinely protected so it can't be damaged by the greeks after death; all that effectively happens in the iliad is that his body gets dirty. but under normal circumstances (and i'm not gonna impose realism on mythology, but the iliad is famously detailed when it comes to bodily trauma), the physical reality of dragging a corpse along stony ground for miles would be severe disfigurement and dismemberment. first the skin would wear off, then soft tissues, then extremities would start to detach. i think the iliad's original audience would be aware of that as an intended outcome.
achilles (who doesn't yet know that hector's body has been granted divine stasis) doesn't just want to parade his enemy's corpse around, he wants to tear it apart ("i only wish that this fury inside my heart would drive me to carve you to pieces and eat your flesh raw..."), he wants it to not resemble a human anymore. he wants hector's blood and flesh to circle the city of troy. he wants to make it impossible for hector's family to gather the pieces of him to cremate and that way hector's spirit won't find passage into the underworld. that's what the gods are preventing from happening, they're not just keeping the corpse pretty for priam to pick up later.
#it's so rarely acknowledged academically and NEVER in adaptations (not even the '''''realistic'''' ones)#like you can see a billion artistic depictions of hector's corpse tied behind the chariot#but i think it's easy to forget what achilles is TRYING to do (and why failing to do so frustrates him so much)#AND why the sight of it would be especially horrific to hector's loved ones#anyway sorry for being gross and gruesome my excuse is that i'm an iliad nerd with a medical degree#i love hector he is precious to me i swear#the iliad#tagamemnon#gore cw#edited the opening to this post because my original wording was very glib about 'our' perception of violence
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A different tomorrow
#not enough pilty siblings moments so I'm creating my own#caitlyn kiramman#jayce talis#arcane#jayvik#(sort of ??)#arcane fanart#league of legends#fanart#artist on tumblr#my art#tw blood#as a little sister with a great big brother myself I really love Jayce and Cait's few little moments... they're really spot on !#at first I only wanted to draw the first page but then I remembered that I was still in the jayvik prison (D:) so I added the second one#I've spend some time on their hands because hands speak A LOT actually#the lineart was done on paper so it's messy but I'm tired of trying to do clean art
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Love Undying
#my art#my oc#dragon age#dragon age the veilguard#emmrich volkarin#tea aldwir#emmrich x rook#honestly yall veilguard is the most wholesome part of their story#I head canon Emmrich gets obsessed w the thought of tea dying earlier than him because she’s a warden#he goes downhill trying to figure out how to cure the blight and she gets more taken by her calling#I do think he eventually figures it out though!#the man helped make a knife comparable to solas’s#so methinks he could absolutely put his mind to modifying if not curing the blight#and eventually I think his obsession with mortality does end up in him figuring out demi lichdom#which probably causes problems with the other mourn watchers and lich lords that he and rook have to face together#with their baby! because tea gets pregnant right after veilguard hehehehe
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I was practicing with clothes and got a little carried away~
Also a little contribution for the tailor!Astarion au, because my Tav is a bard with a noble background and usually has a need in fancy outfits.
#i also do think he would like to try to open the workshop after the game events#I’m trying to add something on the background lately because it’s my weakest spot#and I need to consider more on astarion's postgame attire cause in my head it worked better#but all in all i like what i’ve done#so excited for the upcoming patch cause larian finally added the college of glamour subclass which fits the best for morwie!!!#baldur's gate 3#bg3#astarion#astarion x tav#bg3 art#bg3 tav#bard tav#oc: morwyn#my art#artists on tumblr
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