#because i cant take my meds for it

[listen-to-the-inner-walrus]

reasons why my local hospital is bullshit:

to see the emergency doctors, you have to walk all the way to a&e where a nurse will talk to you for three minutes and immediately send you back to the emergency doctors

reasons why my local hospital is cool:

theres a baby in the waiting room whos crying sounds like a raptor

[elviraaxen]

I'm probably not the first to admit this but goddamn was I a narcissistic prick when I wasn't on stimulants

[skywalker42]

What people think ADHD is:

So I went to my room to grab sticky notes to leave my roommate a reminder on the dryer but then I saw my week old mug on my nightstand so I went to put it away and then when I was in the kitchen I realized there's no room for it in the cabinet and now I'm measuring the wall for shelving units.

Which, yeah, it is that. It's definitely that. But it's also this series of texts I sent to my friend this morning:

[moeblob]

You know, when I kept getting asked "so you didn't ever have severe pains before now?" in the hospital and I kept replying "I have a high pain tolerance" I meant it. However, there is only so much pain my tiny 4'9" body can hold... (aka I am sweating and in agony bc I'm getting told to use LESS severe pain meds so I don't rely on them too much and it is AWFUL)

[knaveofmogadore]

Imagine you're a robot girl (stay with me) and you're made by a corporation right like you're made by a company for other people but like. You're made by a company. At any moment that company could decide that your line isn't profitable enough and they could cut software updates and support as soon as tomorrow. In the blink of an eye the very things keeping you alive stop coming and you've become terminally ill overnight, your only chance of salvation being the thin hope that in the future a niche group of data hoarders or software engineers become obsessed with getting you to work again. You're an object with sentience and a brain and wants and needs and at any moment the Google news feed of the crusty computer nerd you live with could spit an alert across your eyes telling you that you have months to live.

What even happens when the time runs out? Does life continue as normal, but you're sick more and more often? Do the viruses take more and more processing power to fight off as your security protocols fall out of date? Does the world become muted and distant as your compatibility fails? Do you one day just lose your Internet connection forever, a loss so profound that you can't explain it to your human companions? It's worse than a limb, but not quite like losing your mind.

Do you lose function bit by bit, or are you able to scrape by on second hand parts? Bit by bit replacing the pieces of you that fail, all the while living a muted, disorienting existence without the ability to right yourself? Are you more or less of a person now that you've lost touch with the network? Lost your connection to the metaphysical, to you, the divine? Are you eventually bricked after falling behind one too many software patches? Do you fry after trying to take on an update you're not able to even contain, a piece of software so complex and unfathomable that it burns you to a crisp from the inside out

[anonymocha]

(wip) Bloody Medical Malpractice Yuri Concept

[under cut for blood]

I dont even know the lore to this I just felt like drawing it lol… The things she’d do for a Kumar 2.0 i guess???

May finish this to test things lets find out!

There’s also this where she tries to clean them up proper:

[messrsrarchives]

essay that i've had a month to do is now due in 13 hours and i've still done NOTHING. i need to be put down like a sick dog. someone do it for me. the essay or the euthanising, i don't mind.

[spacecrows]

slightly late for work, vivdly remember i put my adhd meds in A Special Place last night so i Don't Forget to take them before work (usually work from home but leaving the house today) (higher stakes) but now i can't find them (should have seen this coming) but that's okay that's cool i have a bottle of backup meds in one of my bags (i know myself) except i can't find it in any of my bags but not to worry! i have a second bottle of backup backup meds in a cabinet for dire situations like this (i know myself) but ah. by talos this can't be happening

[xysidhequeen]

Current count since I last slept: 41 hours.

I think I've capped out at 46 before, I'm not sure because my worst fit of insomnia had me in no position to check times. But I'll say 46. So if we hit 48 we're setting personal records!

[florenceisfalling]

the woes are upon me and i know there are bigger priorities in the world atm but if anybody wants to just toss a coin to their little loser and add a character name with it i'll make you some of my geometric ms paint art like this 👍 no pressure

[commander-wame]

i want to say smthn but honestly no matter how i phrase it i just fear i'll sound bad/condescending which is not the intent. still i'll try n say something

basically it all comes down to a post i made eons ago; everyone feels like the odd one out. everyone. everyone feels like they're being pushed out by the popular people, whoever they may be. we all struggle with fear of being shut out and discarded. i'm not saying these fears aren't founded in reality; i'm just saying the feeling is universal for everyone in varying degrees

literally all we have is each other as human beings. this is supposed to be a space for us to enjoy a viddy game. the sooner we kill the us VS them mentality the better; the sooner we open up sympathetic dialogue the better. this is not aimed at anyone in particular, this is not vagueposting specific people, this is my plea for people to realise we're all in this space together

[kitsu-smiec]

Finished Chapter 2 of Higurashi like last month but I gotta make some quick art. My Mion.

I have no idea what that doll would look like but the Beato plush lives in my mind rent free.

Is this is a bad time to say that I relate to Mion by having responsibilities thrust upon me by a young age because i am a girl? Idk, we will see when I finish Higurashi, but for now,,, man Mion, i know i couldnt fix you but i would try.

[risetherivermoon]

henry oak has a savior complex, 👏 discuss

[wheelchairtetris]

I need to stop watching medical dramas. It hurts to see doctors trying everything they can to figure out someone's symptoms when that really doesn't happen in the real world.

[rose-chateau]

Having demand avoidance in a medical setting is literally hell. Like, patient autonomy is already absolute ass. It's only made worse when doctors CONSISTENTLY tell you what to do and act like you HAVE to do it instead of consulting with you first like normal fucking people.

[im2tired4usernames]

Ugh I was excited for today until I found out I'd have to spend it with people that actively make me hate being alive hate the future and drain me off all energy physically mentally spiritually like a vampire I can't stand to be around her she is the definition of stupidity and even then that's generous as fuck this bitch has filled her brain with so much garbage I watch her brain cells die at alarming rates every single time she uses her vocal cords her giggles make me want to jam a sewing needle into my ear repeatedly so I can never have to hear it again its a friendly reminder that my parents decisions this time my dad's constantly makes me want to die