#because at 27 years old I’m finally trying to learn how to do my makeup

[sluttyten]

It was slow at work today right around the time that this round of DoJaeJung teaser photos were released so I caved and preordered

[forever-rogue]

15 and 27 from prompts list 1 with baby boy Din! -🦋

15. “Shouldn’t you be with him/her?” & 27. “Kiss me.”

Jealous Din? Jealous Din. Enjoy! Mild bits of smut, you’ve been warned.

Mandalorian Masterlist

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Your relationship with your Mandalorian cohort was…complicated to say the least. He’d saved you out of a precarious situation, one in which you were sure you would die, and he’d nursed you back to health. You’d just never left; he never asked and you never offered to. Instead you became partners of sorts. More like he did the bounty hunting, and you cleaned up the messes left in his wake. And watched your little green friend of course; you were almost ninety percent sure that you were kept around to help with him, but you didn’t argue. You liked your unspoken arrangement.

But Mando, as you and everything called him, was different altogether. Hell, you didn’t even know his real name. He never offered it up, and you never pried. Over time he became more and more open with you, learning to trust you as you provided yourself a useful companion. You did the same to him. That often happened with broken people; trust was hard earned and once it was broken it was never the same. So you took it slow, just like the best things in life should have been.

But there was something about your relationship that was left hanging in the air…something that wasn’t quite palatable. Something that left the tension in the room so thick you could easily have sliced with your trusty vibroblade. You couldn’t quite put a finger on it, but Mando knew; he knew but he’d never say it. That was the thing about having be running solo for so long, you learned to keep things within yourself, not to open up to others.

But you wished he would because there were times when you could tell he was ready to say something, but instead he clammed up. You didn’t need to see underneath the helmet to know that he was opening and closing his mouth like a fish out of water. Although it was undeniable that you wanted to see what was underneath the armor. What did he look like? Was he handsome? Was he the really dark featured man with a strong nose and day old stubble that you always pictured? Maybe one day you’d find out, but you weren’t pressing your luck. It would all come in time.

The nice thing about living with such a stoic man was that he didn’t often question you or what you were doing. Your old life had consisted of glamour, fun, and never anything too serious; simply leisure and levity. But one run in with the wrong crowd had left you on the lamb, which was where Mando had entered your life. What you were doing now was a far cry from the life you had grown accustomed to, and mostly you didn’t mind it, but there were times when you felt the itch so strong that you indulged yourself.

This particular evening you’d decided to do just that. Mando had a bounty on some random planet, and you had already been there for several days, which usually meant you’d be staying a while. In your copious amounts of down time you wandered into the nearby city, much more expansive and lively than the places you normally visited, and explored every inch of it. You usually brought the child with you, showing him everything, your heart melting at all of little coos and sounds.

One particularly sunny afternoon you’d spotted a sign for a party at one of the city’s nicest clubs. And who were you to say no? It had been so long since you’d gotten to go and enjoy yourself, so you figured you would allow yourself to go. Besides, what else were you going to be doing on a Friday night?

Studying yourself in the mirror, you determined that you were finally satisfied with your outfit, a sparkling minidress which left just enough to the imagine. You had done your hair and makeup, which had put you at ease, taking time to do it all provided you with a small sense of solace. Smoothing down the dress, you decided it was time to head, poking your head into the small living room to find Mando there, with the Child talking to him in a soft voice.

“Hey,” you said quietly, trying not to interrupt them too much, “I’m heading out. See you later.”

“Out?” the modulator crackled as his head snapped in your direction and you nodded, surprised by the sudden reaction. The Child looked between the two of you with wide eyes, shocked by the sudden change in the room, as were you, “out where?”

“Out to the city?” your eyebrows were raised as you felt his eyes raking over your body, taking in your ensemble. Oh. You were warm under his intense scrutiny, but you couldn’t deny the fire you were feeling in your belly, “there’s a party at one of the clubs and I’m going? I mentioned it to you a few days ago. You didn’t want to come.”

“Club?” he searched his brain and tried to remember the conversation, coming up with a blank. He had no doubt you were being honest, but he had a lot on his mind the past few days and didn’t recall, “looking like that?”

“Looking like what?” your voice climbed an octave at the apparent accusation. It wasn’t like him to ever question you, especially not when it comes to your personal life. There was something about it, that while infuriating, was also a bit of a turn on, “looking good? Because yeah, I look good as hell.”

“Looking like…” he trailed off, unsure of exactly how to finish the statement without exposing himself too much. He knew you looked good, you always did, the ever present stirring in his pants whenever you were around was evidence enough of that. At that particular moment he was glad for the dark cloth and armor, “looking like that.”

“Really, Mando?” you crossed your arms over your chest, inadvertently exposing more of your breasts, immediately noticed by Mando. He swallowed the rising lump in his throat, “what’s up with you? Well, whatever, I’m heading out. I’ll be back eventually.”

“Wait,” just as you turned on your heel he was up and quickly approaching you, the gap closed in no time with his long strides. He grabbed for your wrist and you turned around and found him facing you, “aren’t you worried about…”

“About what?” you scoffed, trying to keep it together. If it wasn’t for the situation, this would have been hot. If you didn’t know any better, you would think he was…jealous.

“All the people out there? It’s not a safe place…”

“I can handle myself,” you insisted and pulled out of his grasp, “I managed for years before you, and I can do it again. Thanks for the concern, Mando.”

“Isn’t that what got you in trouble in the first place?” it was weak, but he knew he had hit a nerve. It was true; you wouldn’t been there with him in that moment if it hadn’t been for your indiscretions in the first place.

“Look, I’m going either way,” you insisted, poking at the armor covering his chest, “you’re not my boyfriend, or my keeper, or whatever.”

He huffed but said nothing further, and you headed for the exit of the Crest. A little smirk made its way onto your face as you left him behind, feeling invigorated by your little argument. Normally you stayed away from confrontation, preferring to take a more passive role, but this had left you feeling some type of way.

You didn’t even know he was possible of being jealous, and yet here you were, already wanting to do it again and again. You liked the feeling that it sent through your bones, and your entire body. Who knew that your Mandalorian was possible of such emotion? Maybe you could crack through his tough exterior after all.

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The club, while over the top and opulent, was crowded, warm, and overpriced. Not exactly what you had originally imagined, but a welcome change of pace from all the quiet Friday nights you had experienced back on the Crest. Besides that, there was a man you had met, nothing spectacular but he would do for the night, that had bought you several drinks. It almost made up for the way he had his hands all over you on the dance floor. Normally, you’d fight him off or something, but the tension that had flared up within you earlier had left you worked up, welcoming the sensation of another pair hands on your body.

As you felt the hands on your waist as the man ground up against you, you found yourself scouring the club. Your jaw almost dropped when you spotted Mando on the other side, watching you intently. Your felt your mouth drying up, and a shiver run down your spine.

“I’ll be right back,” you shouted over the music as you pulled away from your companion, determined to go and find out what Mando was doing there. You made it a point to lean up and kiss him feverishly, just to get a rise out of the Mandalorian that was watching your every move.

It didn’t take long to make your way through the crowd, and you stood in front of him, searching the visor for some sort of response. When he remained silent, you huffed and shoved his shoulder slightly, “what the hell are you doing here?!”

“Heard there was a big thing going on here,” he replied and you just knew that there was a smirk under the helmet. Your eyes widened as you realized he was just playing along with your little game, “had to come and check it out.”

“Well you stick out like a sore thumb,” you stick out your tongue at him, knowing it was childish, but it felt like it was necessary, “this isn’t exactly your crowd.”

“Hmm,” was all he commented as he leaned against the bar, clutching a perfunctory drink in his hand, “shouldn’t you be with him? Your little friend? He seems…eager.”

“Shut up,” rolling your eyes at him, you grabbed the drink from his hand and downed the rest of it in one go. If he was going to act like such a dick you might as well give him a reason to do so, “just go back to the Crest. You don’t belong here! Why are you even really here?”

He remained annoyingly silent as he watched you closely. You had expected him to react with him something, anything, more than silence. He knew how to get to you, he really did. You groaned at him, as you turned and walked away, making it a point to sway your hips back and forth. You could feel his eyes glued to your backside.

Quickly finding your companion again, you were more riled up than ever and put your arms around his neck, before whispering, “kiss me.”

And so he did. It wasn’t that you really wanted to kiss him, or feel his hands on you, but it was just enough to take your mind off of Mando. If you were being honest, it was him you wanted to kiss you, his large hands you wanted to feel all over your body. It was him you wanted to take to bed that night; not this random man whose name you didn’t know or care to learn. But that undeniable itch wasn’t going to take care of itself, so he would have to.

But as soon as you had felt his hands firmly on your ass, they were ripped away, and he was pushed to the side, replaced  by an irate Mandalorian. Maybe you would be getting what you wanted after all.

“What in the heavens, Mando?” you played along, as if you weren’t getting exactly what you wanted, “what’s your problem?”

“You’re coming with me, you little brat,” he grabbed your arm roughly, but still with enough care to make sure he didn’t actually hurt you. You silently obliged as he pulled you with him towards the back of the crowded space, towards the bathroom. You bit your lip as you realized what this meant.

He opened the door to singular bathroom, pushing you inside, and slamming the door shut, making sure it was locked. You leaned against the counter as you gave him a coy smile, “what’s wrong, Mando?”

He stood in front of you, chest rising and falling rapidly as he stared at you. It was a moment before he grabbed your jaw, turning your face up towards his, “you know exactly what you’re doing, don’t you? Think you’re real sly, going out and looking like that, knowing what it does to me.”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” you lied, a little sound of surprise leaving your lips as his free hand toyed with the hem of your dress, starting to push it up. You knew what it did to him, you’d been aware of some time.

“Don’t lie to me,” he almost growled, “letting that disgusting bastard put his filthy hands all over you. You just wanted my attention, didn’t you? You wanted me to do this, huh?”

You gasped slightly as he yanked your dress up, his hand hovering near the waistband of your soaked panties. Yes. This was exactly what you had wanted, you just never thought you’d be getting it. You grabbed his wrist and pulled his fingers into your mouth and sucking on them slowly, tasting the salty leather of his gloves. You made sure to look him directly in the eyes, at least where they should be under the visor, the whole time, aching for him to touch you.

He let you carry on for a moment before he pulled back flipped you around so your backside was against him. You could already feel how hard he was, straining against his pants. You looked up in the mirror and gave him a little smirk as you heard him unzip his pants, a loud clanging echoing in the small bathroom as they fell to the floor. He pulled his gloves off before pushing your dress up and your panties down, taking a moment to slap your ass, before running his large hands over it. You practically mewled in delight.

“You want this?” he asked, somehow still searching for permission, as if your eagerness wasn’t enough, “need to hear you say it.”

“Yes,” you insisted, biting your lip at the delicious feeling of his hands all over your body. They felt better than you had ever imagined; even better than when you touched yourself and imagined it was him touching you, “Mando, please-”

“Who do you belong to?” he rasped out, so many sensations hitting him all at once. This was like delicious sensory overload for him, and he probably wasn’t going to last long, but neither were you.

“You,” you purred, just as he finally entered you, “I belong to you Mando.”

[ruby-dear]

all of them except 77, 78, 81, 92 and 96

Ember, I know this was you. I’m doing it, but that’s 93 questions you’re asking for so they’re going under a cut. 

1. Talk about your first love. There have been a lot of those, so let me talk about the first one I really remember. I was in eighth grade, at the time, and she wasn’t exactly a great person looking back but she was cool and confident and she liked me, and she called me her best friend, and probably the best school-related memory I’ve ever had was her tackle-hugging me from across a classroom. I didn’t even realize I liked girls until she’d pretty much left my life completely. Maybe I’m looking at it through rose-tinted glasses now, but I think that’s okay, sometimes.  2. What’s the most beautiful songs you’ve ever heard in your opinion? Most of my favorite songs are Owl City, especially the older stuff. It has a soft, dreamlike vibe to it that I find really pretty even when it’s depressing. 3. How’s your heart feeling right now? Pretty good, I think? 4. What kind of self care is your favorite to do? The fun stuff. Bath bombs, makeup, fancy shampoo. Retail therapy actually works pretty well for me, even if a lot of the time I don’t even buy anything. 5. What’s your skincare routine? Um... Shower? 6. How did you get to be so beautiful? Natural talent and carefully learned confidence. 7. Do you have any stuffed animals? Oh, do I. I have like, seventy Webkinz, and that’s without getting into anything else. You could say I collect plushes, even if I don’t do it as actively now. I have a couple of Eevee plushes, too - I’d say I want to own all of them one day, but I’m like, 95% sure that’s not possible. 8. Best trip you’ve ever been on? Once, we went to Prince Edward Island for a week, and my mom surprised me by meeting up with my best friend’s family, who happened to have gotten a room at our hotel for one night. I think that probably wins. 9. Favorite thing about your room? That it’s starting to look like it belongs to me, even if I want to move somewhere else. 10. Opinion on love? It takes work, but it’s worth it.

11. Are you affectionate? Around people I’m comfortable with, definitely. 12. Who do you look up to? The people who have enough confidence to be unapologetically be themselves.

13. Favorite poet? Robert Frost. When I was eleven, I found a book of his poems, and I loved that book so much I didn’t pay any attention in English class at all.

14. Song that makes you happy? How about one that calms you down when you’re in a bad place? There’s a lot of songs that make me happy. Hard to go wrong with the Pokemon theme, though. As for things that calm me down... It’s Alright by Mother Mother and Misguided Ghosts by Paramore have both got me through a lot.

15. Do you play an instrument? No. I was supposed to learn piano in seventh grade, but I couldn’t read the sheet music so they never let me play, and I tried to learn guitar multiple times but it never stuck for the same reason.

16. Do you do art? Using what (pencil, watercolor, etc)? I paint, though not as often as I’d like to! Using acrylics, usually, but watercolors sometimes.

17. Do you dance? What style of dance? I took ballet as a child, til they kicked me out of class, and I still enjoy dancing but I don’t remember any of what I learned.

18. What’s your zodiac sign? Do you believe in astrology? Gemini. I think it might have some kind of truth behind it, but I’m not really one of those all-or-nothing people. It’s just for fun, you know?

19. Favorite old film? I don’t watch a lot of them. Does The Aristocats count?

20. What’s your hairstyle? It’s long and wavy. I’m getting blue highlights soon.

21. What weather is the most beautiful, in your opinion? Light rain. The kind that dries off before you get inside, when the sky is perfectly clear, but it starts falling anyway and it stops just as quickly.

22. What upsets you most about the world? That however hard we try to fix it, we’re unlikely to get very far.

23. Are you in love right now? Yes. At least, I think so.

24. Do you have a crush? If so, talk about them! I have a girlfriend. Is that the same thing? She’s cute and funny and she thinks the same things about me for some reason, and she knows exactly how much of a disaster I can be and hasn’t run away yet.

25. Do you have pets? Talk about something sweet about them! I have a cat, Little Prince. His sister died about a month ago, and she was the one who usually kept me company (total lap-cat), but ever since he’s usually either close to where I am or comes when I call him over.

26. Do you have a lucky number? Any multiple of seven, but especially fourteen. They’re my favorite numbers for the same reason.

27. Have you ever wished on a star? What about on a fallen eyelash? I try to wish on stars, when I see them. Eyelashes I’m usually more annoyed about than anything.

28. Do you believe emoji spells to work? I think anything has the potential to work, given the right amount of effort and intent. That said, I don’t think you’re going to accomplish anything drastic.

29. Do you believe in magic in general? Oh, definitely. Just look at the world we live in. How can you not believe in magic when it’s all around you? The night sky without air pollution, the sunlight dancing on the water, candy cane white hot chocolate - it’s everywhere, in everything.

30. What’s the most beautiful thing in life, In your opinion? Everything. There’s something beautiful in everything, if you look for it. Today, let’s say the feeling of sliding around on a hardwood floor in fluffy socks, dancing along to one of your favorite songs.

31. Opinion on the color pink? What about baby blue? As a kid, I hated pink. I like it now, though. Blue is my color, light blue especially (particularly with star patterns), so I’ve always liked it.

32. What instrumental sound is your favorite? Am I alloawed to say wind chimes? I’ve always thought they sounded super pretty.

33. Do you like the sound of wind? What about the sound of rain? I love them both.

34.Who makes you happy? My friends. All of them, in different ways, the people who are still in my life for various reasons. I love them.

35. What makes you happy? Light rain, strong wind, good music. My cat’s soft meow when I wake him up by accident. White peppermint hot chocolate. Fall colors, string lights, Halloween and winter holidays. Ice and snow and skating, dressing up for no apparent reason. The trick to it all is finding new things every day.

36. Imagine your ideal life, the life you wish to make, what will that look like? A house big enough for a family. A degree of some kind hanging on the wall. A life where I’m making things because that’s what I love, and I can try new things just for fun, where I don’t have to worry about money so much. The chance to get married someday, maybe.

37. Do you wear makeup? If so what’s your favorite type of makeup or specific makeup product? Favorite store to buy makeup? I do! Unless someone else is doing it for me, I generally keep to lipstick and eyeshadow. I’ve never been especially picky about what brands I use, but I usually go to Nyx because it’s on my usual route when I go on shopping trips, and I’m kind of attached now. Plus, nowhere else I’ve been in person has as many bold colours.

38. Do you wear dresses? If so what’s your favorite dress you own? I like wearing dresses. My favorite that I still have is a longer black dress, and it’s in serious need of either repair of retirement, but I got it for $20 as a cosplay outfit last year and it served its purpose. I wear it around still, sometimes, because it’s generally an easy fix.

39. Ever been heartbroken? How do you deal with it? Yeah, a few times. I vent to my friends, usually, and then I eat ice cream and listen to gnash for a while and eventually I start to feel better.

40. Who’s your closest friend? What do you love about them?

41. Introvert or extrovert? Kinda both? It’s complicated.

42. Do you like MBTI? What’s your MBTI? Is that... Fuck, is that the one with the letters? I think I got ENFP last time, and when I was younger it was INFP.

43. Would you be a fairy, a mermaid, a vampire, a siren, a or an angel? I’ve had people tell me I have ‘fae vibes’ before, so let’s go with that and hope it’s not offensive.

44. What’s the best song a friend has ever introduced to you? I don’t remember enough of them to feel good about picking one. I basically only listen to music I’m recommended now.

45. Parlez-vous français? A little, by virtue of being Canadian and having driven through Quebec. Not enough to carry on a conversation.

46. Most beautiful place you’ve been to? Prince Edward Island, hands down. It’s gorgeous.

47. Where/when do you truly feel at home? When there’s a light breeze, and the perfect song is playing, and the people I love are there. When we’re laughing with each other.

48. Does smiling put you in a better mood? Try it right now, you’re smile is gorgeous! I don’t think it does, honestly? But it does tend to happen when I’m happy.

49. Favorite shoe you own? These ankle boots I got secondhand that have little metal stars on them. I’m gonna be so upset when they finally wear out and I need new ones.

50. Can you walk in stilettos? Do you like them? God, no, I’ve tried. Any heel that’s too sharp or pointy or tall is a major problem for me. It’s part of what makes finding shoes such a pain.

51. Do you feel loved? Not always, but yeah. When I remember, or when I ask, or when I’m reminded.

52. How do you express love to those you care about? I try to tell them, but I’m also the type to engage in constant teasing. I’m the friend that punches you in the arm as a show of affection.

53. Favorite term(s) of endearment? The more creative ones. The basics don’t do much for me, honestly, but it’s more about the person saying them anyway.

54. Most romantic thing someone’s ever done for you? Make me feel like I don’t have to try so hard to feel like myself.

55. When is the happiest you’ve ever been? Walking the downtown city streets in winter. It was cold, sure, but it was gorgeous and I finally felt independent for a while.

56. Are you happy right now? Yeah, I’d say so.

57. What makes you smile? Bad jokes, among other things.

58. Do you laugh a lot? Yeah. A lot more than I used to.

59. What’s your favorite kind of aesthetic? Punk/scenecore. They’ve really influenced my more recent style choices.

60. Do you want to marry for love or for some other reason (like money)? Love, definitely.

61. What would your dream wedding look like? Do you want to get married? With someone I love, and the other people I love there too. Somewhere beautiful. I think I do, someday, but it’s not something I’m so worried about.

62. Favorite flower? Roses. Blue Moon Hybrid Tea Roses, in particular, are especially pretty.

63. Favorite artist? I don’t really have one. I do enjoy looking at art, though.

64. Favorite music artist? Owl City.

65. How kind do you think you are? Is kindness important to you? I don’t know. People seem to think I’m kinder than I believe I am. It’s important to me, yeah, to try and help people and to do nice things.

66. Ever made a playlist for someone? A few times. They were never anything special, as far as I’m concerned.

67. Do you have anything you do to physically comfort you when your sad? Such as a favorite blanket? Or a relaxing bath? Long, warm baths and cuddling with my cat. Warm blankets and stories with happy endings.

68. Early bird or night owl? Night owl. I’m a night person.

69. Morning routine? Wake up, do nothing for a while, actually get out of bed and figure out breakfast. While that’s going on, try and figure out if anything important is happening today.

70. Night routine? Get comfortable, then write or daydream til I fall asleep.

71. What is the most lovely quality a person could have in your opinion? Self-confidence and a willingness to help others.

72. Do you cry often? Does crying help you get the emotions out? Do you feel better after? I tend to hold back my feelings til they all fall out. So I end up crying at least twice a month, usually. It helps, yeah.

73. Do you like hugs? From people I feel comfortable with.

74. When was the last time you kissed someone? On the lips? Never.

75. Are you small or tall? Small. I’m 5′0.

76. Do you like wholesome memes? Yes. They’re cute.

79. Have you ever lived in a different country than you currently live in? Nope. I’ve never lived outside this city, only been on trips.

80. Do you like plane flights? Airports? I’ve only flown once, and I was two, so I don’t remember it very well.

82. The beach or a forest? Sand or bugs? Depends on the day. Today, though, forest.

83. What time of day do you tend to be in the best mood? Evening, usually.

84. Do you push yourself to act together and in a good mood even when you aren’t? Yeah, when I’m stressed.

85. Favorite kind of tree? Either maple or pine. I’m Canadian, what can I say?

86. Do you care about the health of the Earth? Yes, but there’s only so much one person can do.

87. What did you like most about your childhood, if anything? Field trips. Adulthood is sorely lacking in field trips.

88. Do you read a lot? What’s your favorite book? I used to. These days I still read, but it’s mostly fanfiction. My favorite books, though, are Tamora Pierce’s Emelan series and the first two books of Kenneth Oppel’s Silverwing trilogy.

89. What are you most nostalgic for at the moment? Trick-or-treating.

90. What’s your favorite personality trait you have? I try to let the people I love know that I love them.

91. List at least ONE thing you love about your appearance. I have pretty great hair.

93. Do you worry a lot? Constantly.

94. The dazzling lights of the city or the relaxing countryside? The city. The countryside’s nice, but the streetlights and the city skyline are what make me feel at home.

95. Ever changed the shoelaces on one of your shoes? For what reason? I actually don’t know how to tie laces, so no. I’ve never been able to pick it up. I might get someone sense to, if I could find cool enough laces.

97. Do you like doing little acts of kindness? Yeah. It feels good to make people happy, you know?

98. How’s your day/night going? Pretty good! I did just spend over an hour on this, but I finished it, so that’s an accomplishment of its own.

[lovemesomesurveys]

1. Have you ever had someone pick you up off the ground & carried you? Yeah, many times. 2. Are you a flirty person? I’m not a flirtatious person who is just flirty and overly friendly with everyone. I’m flirty if I’m interested in you and we actually talk and know each other.  3. Do you like coffee? How about tea? I love coffee, I drink it everyday. Tea is okay, but I don’t drink it regularly. I have it every now and then. 4. Where exactly was your first kiss? At my high school behind the drama department. 5. The last store you went to was…? Walmart.

6. A name you hate with a passion? There isn’t a name I hate with a passion.  7. Do you have a friend named Alex? No. 8. The last person you held hands with? It was my doggo, Princess Leia. (: She loves to hold hands. She’ll put her paw up for you to grab it. And when you do, you can actually feel her paw tighten like she’s really holding your hand. If you stop and try to leave, she’ll put her paw up or on your arm. 9. How about the last movie you saw? My mom and I watched A Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood, the Mister Rogers movie, the other day and it was cute but I wish it had been a movie about his life and the show. 10. Did you like it? ^^^ 11. What is your favorite type of water (ex. arrowhead)? I’m really not picky about it. 12. Have you ever been to Warped Tour? No. 13. Do you know anyone who wears fur? No. 14. When was the last time you were on myspace.com? Uhhh. Over 10 years ago. 15. How often do you cuss? Not very often. 16. Have you ever cussed out a teacher? Nooo. 17. Do you know how many kids are at your school? I’m done with school. 18. What did you think of the movie Juno? I like it. 19. When was the last time you had butterflies? I have the nervous, anxious kind a lot. It’s been a long time since I’ve had the good kind. 20. How often do you eat meat? Everyday. Either in the form of a bologna or turkey and salami sandwich, boneless wings, or pizza that has crumbled meatballs. Somedays I have 2 of the 3.  21. What grade did you meet your best friend in? We didn’t meet at school, we met in the womb ha. 22. Would rather be loved or love someone? Being loved and loving. 23. Last time you cleaned your room? I straightened up not too long ago. I still need to go through things and get rid of some stuff. I also still need to put my Christmas decorations away... 24. Have you ever gotten clothes from the kids section of Target when you were over the age of 10? Not Target specifically, but from other places like JCP lol. I don’t do that now, but I did when I was younger. I still could fit the shirts, but that’d just be weird as a soon to be 31 year old. 25. Are you more of a science/math person or english/history person? Or how about science/history or something like that? English and history person. Mainly just english. I do think history is interesting and I like learning about certain things at my own pace. I didn’t enjoy it much in school, though. The pressure of having to memorize dates, names, and events was stressful. 26. What is your biggest fear? Losing my loved ones and dying, never getting better/getting worse, never doing anything with my life and just wasting away. 27. Have you ever been cheated om in a relationship? No. 28. Your favorite children’s book you ever read? I had a lot of favorites. I’ve loved books from a very young age. 29. When you were little, would you have rather watched Cartoon Network or Disney Channel? Disney Channel. 30. Do you shave your arms? No. 31. Since using the internet regularly, have you started to read less than you used to? No. I haven’t read much this past year, but that had nothing to do with my internet use. I’ve started back up again, though. 32. Are you a big fan of the Harry Potter series? I enjoyed the movies, but I never read the books. 33. How often would say you pulled all-nighters, if you ever do? I’ve been going to bed around 5AM everyday for the past year. My last full all nighter was last month on the day we left for the airport at 430AM to travel to Disneyland. I didn’t sleep until that night. That was after a day of travel and hours spent at Disneyland. I don’t know how the hell I did it. I don’t have the energy like I did when I was a kid/teenager. 34. Do you wear make-up on a daily basis? No. I haven’t worn any makeup in over a year. 35. Has a friend’s boyfriend/girlfriend ever had a problem with you for any reason? No. I had an issue with some friends’ significant others, though. For good reason. 36. How old were you when you learned to drive? I still haven’t. 37. How many times a day do you find yourself cracking your joints, if at all? I stretch out my arms a lot. I also feel the need to crack my neck a lot, too. My posture is shit. 38. Do you find yourself feeling lazier when the weather is warm? I already have low energy, but yeah it’s in the negative during the summer. Summer just makes me miserable. 39. Is there a particular sport you follow on a regular basis? Nope. I don’t like sports. 40. Are you a fan of the TV show Friends? I never got into it, actually. Seems like everyone else has in recent years. 41. How old do you think is too old to sleep with a stuffed animal? I don’t care what you do. I have 3 that sit on my bed. I don’t cuddle with them, but if I did so what. 42. If AC wasn’t an option, would you rather sleep with a fan on or with the windows open? We very rarely use the AC because it’s expensive and our AC sucks anyway. Poor ventilation. Our summers are absolutely miserable. D: It’ll be just as hot in my house, if not hotter. I have to use 3 fans in my room alone. Four fans actually because I have a window fan. During the day it doesn’t help much, but it’s really nice at night. Ughhh, I swear it gets worse every year. I don’t how I’ll get through it. 43. Do you find it hard to fall asleep when you know you have to be up earlier than normal? Yes. 44. Do you style your hair in the same way every day, or do you prefer to switch it up? It’s mostly just up in a pony tail, but sometimes a braid or a bun.  45. Are you 100% over the last person you kissed? Yes. 46. Are you currently looking forward to anything? When we finally start to see the coronavirus calm down. When it’s contained and there’s a vaccine. When the panic and hysteria goes away. When we’re not bombarded with it everyday. 47. Ever receive a really long apology? Yes. 48. What were you doing at 7:45AM this morning? I plan to be asleep. 49. Do you put ketchup on top of your french fries or on the side? Ew, neither. It’s all about ranch. 50. Who was the last person you talked to in person? My brother. 51. How many tattoos would you like to have? I’d like to get one at least, but I don’t see it happening. 52. Have you ever hung out with someone just to hang out? ...Yes? I’m not getting the question.  53. Would you be mad if your best friend dated your crush? My mom would never do that. 54. Do you wish you were somewhere else right now? No.  55. What was the last thing you drank? Starbucks Doubleshot energy drink. 56. Do you laugh a lot? Uhhh. I wouldn’t say a lot. 57. Do you have a dog? Yesss, my little Princess Leia<3 58. Do you like orange juice? Ew, no. 59. Would you rather have big or small dogs? Medium size dogs. 60. Have you ever slept in someone else’s bed? Yes. 61. When was the last time you cried? Recently. 62.Are you over the age of 25? Yeah. I’m going to be 31 soon. :/ 63. Do you like your first name? It's fine. I can't really picture me having any other name. <<< Yeah, I’ve had it for almost 31 years now so hey. I’ll keep it. 64. Do you wear glasses? Yes. 65. Do you think you’re wasting your time on the person you like? I don’t like anyone in that way currently. 66. Do you/have you ever liked/been in love with someone older than you? Yes. 67. Did you enjoy your summer? It’s not summer yet, thank goodness. I’m dreading it. 68. How’s your heart lately? It’s beating.  68. Do you want your life to stay the way it is right now forever? Noooooo. 69. Are you a jealous person? I can be. I haven’t felt that in a long time. I feel envy more often. 70. Are you ready to get out of this town? I’ve been ready for years. 71. Have you had alcohol in the last 48 hours? No. I don’t drink anymore. 72. Do you currently have a hickey? No. 73. Would you rather live without music or without the t.v? Without TV. I could still watch stuff online. ha. 74. Are you one of those people who obsesses over Hollister? I had a brief period in my early 20s where I was into it, but I got over it. It was way overpriced. I do love the signature cologne, though.

[jharvas]

Character Questionnaire: Jharvas Suvorsath

BASICS -

1. Height?

5′10″. One of the tallest boys back home.

2. Eye colour?

Dark blue, I think? (He’s correct.)

3. Do they need glasses?

Nope. I can see just fine. It’s the communicating thing that I need help with.

4. Scars and birthmark?

None. I’ve been in a few...fights, but I’ve never gotten a scar. Maybe this year? 

5. Tattoos and piercings?

I have a lot. Should I take off my shirt? (He has a lot of tribal tattoos over his shoulders and back and torso. He doesn’t have piercings, though.)

6. Right or left handed?

Right-handed. 

7. Any disabilities? Physical or mental.

I can’t ...communicate without the aid of my familiar, my companion, Kiora. (Kiora’s the black mare that’s always with him. Back in the depths, she took on the form of a giant gray seahorse. On land, she’s a giant landhorse. Get it? Ugh. They were magically bonded by his own tribe when he was still a child after they realized he was never going to develop his voice.)

8. Do they have any allergies?

Nope. I’m allergy-free.

9. Favourite colour?

Blue. Any shade of blue related to the seas or oceans or water. It’s my whole thing.

10. Typical outfits?

Anything comfortable, anything I can run and swim in, really. If it’s easy to take off, I’ll wear it. I do a lot of things on the surface now, but I still end up wanting to be in the oceans, which is probably just a triton thing, so I lean towards clothes I can quickly take off or won’t be a hassle to me underwater. Of course, protection is still paramount, so I have few armor lying around for the exact same use.

11. Do they wear any makeup?

Nope. I don’t need to. (He also doesn’t know how.)

12. What weapon do they use, if any?

I like my spear, though I also have daggers on me as well as a light crossbow I rarely get to use. I mean, why waste crossbow bolts when I can just blast monsters from far away?

PERSONALITY -

13. Are they more optimistic or pessimistic?

Optimistic, definitely. I’ve been through a lot as a kid, before and after my tribe magically bonded me with Kiora, and kids can be cruel at times, so because of all my bad experiences, I’ve pretty much learned to look at the brighter side of things, especially these days.

14. Are they introverted or extroverted?

What’s the difference? Oh. Yeah, I’m an extrovert. Definitely an extrovert.

15. What are their pet peeves?

Hmm. That’s a tough question. I guess...if I have to name one...I’d go with...lines? I hate lines. 

16. What bad habits do they have?

I guess I can be graceless at times? I was never taught how to dance, so, yeah...

17. Do they have any phobias?

I don’t have one, I think? Though I can’t be too sure. Maybe I just haven’t found that out yet.

18. How do they display affection?

Passionately. I am a passionate lover. I like to tell someone I love them, show them how much, and celebrate with them and stuff.

19. How competitive are they?

I can be very competitive. I’m a triton, so I was brought up to believe we’re far superior to other races just because we spent all our time protecting the rest of them from the horrors of our plane, but I’ve seen some stuff and other races can surprise you...which is why I have to prove I’m still better than them. I’m just kidding. I just love the feeling of winning but if I lose, then I lose. No harm, no foul. It won’t be the end of my world. I’m not perfect.

20. If they could change one thing about themselves, what would it be?

Hmm. I honestly can’t think of a single thing to change about me. Maybe my weapon of choice? Spears are nice but three pointed ends would be nicer than one.

21. Do they have any obscure hobbies or routines?

Nope. I’m just a simple guy who likes simple things like beautiful women, protecting them, swimming, maybe a bit of fighting, and...oysters. I do love my oysters. 

BACKSTORY -

22. What are the names and ages of their close family members? Parents, siblings, etc.

My dad’s name is Jenres, and my mother’s name is Loryn. I have a brother and a sister, Jolos and Dhorimyn.

23. Is their family alive and are they still in contact with them?

Still alive, yeah. They’re still back home. Jolos and Dhorimyn have even stepped up to protect our tribe. They’re much better warriors than me, that’s for sure.

24. Where are they from? City, nation?

Our tribe’s settlement is east of Hegaehend, far east, deep within the oceans there. I doubt you’ve heard of it, but it’s called the City of Sh'lafijn. Some call it Marai.  

25. Did they have a childhood best friend?

Yeah, I had childhood friends but I don’t think I actually had a best friend. Wait, no, Kiora... Kiora is definitely my childhood best friend. She was always there for me. She’s the bestest friend.

26. Have they had any pets?

Nope. Kiora’s more of a friend than a pet.

27. Did they grow up rich or poor? What were their living conditions like?

We were smack dab in the middle. My dad was a great fisherman and warrior, and my mom was a witty merchant, so we got by really well. Growing up with two siblings and Kiora was pretty fun, though there were bad times. Still, the good outweighed the bad, so I can’t complain.

28. What is their educational background?

I was trained by the best, taught by the best. I wasn’t the best student but my mentors didn’t have a hard time with me. I learned fast and learned better through experience over books.

29. As a child, what did they want to be when they grew up?

A warrior. A guardian of the depths. A protector. Much like our people of old. I like to think I’m on my way.

30. What advice would they give to their younger self?

It gets better. It always does. Trust in your tribe, in your friends. They’ll keep you swimming.

31. Growing up, were they ever bullied or were they the bully?

I was bullied. On account of needing Kiora to communicate with others. Before her, I was bullied for not being able to communicate. It’s a bad situation either way. But I had my fair share of friends, protectors, people I can trust who helped me out. I’d do anything for them. Everything I’ve done is for them, because of them.

32. Who do they look up to/who is their role model?

My dad, definitely. He’s a great warrior and provider. My mom, too. She’s worked hard all her life. That perseverance is admirable.

PRESENT -

33. Do they currently have a place of residence?

I go where the current takes me. I rent rooms wherever, though I like taverns close by the sea. Arx is a good place for me. I go there a lot, even for just a swim.

34. What is their most treasured possession?

Oh, man. I don’t think I have one, really. My memories?

35. What is their drink of choice?

Bilgewater. Hands down. Best drink ever. (Bilgewater is the bluish-brown, sometimes jet black, concoction that's made by soaking the inner organs of various sea creatures soaking in a fermented brine and then running them through a sieve to remove the bones and viscera. It's on most tavern's menu for around 5 copper pieces a glass. Your friendly neighborhood fisher can also brew it for you for the same price. The only side effect of this drink is that the lingering taste of rotten, brackish seafood remains on the palette for a few hours.)

36. Which king/queen are they loyal to, if any?

I’m still checking the waters. So far, I haven’t really gotten the incentive to choose a side. Maybe when it comes to it, I’ll finally get to decide. But for now? Wherever the current takes me.

37. Have they ever killed anyone?

Yep. Part of the job. Protecting our tribe, people I like... I try my best not to kill but if I don’t have a choice, then I don’t have a choice.

38. What was their last promise and did they keep it?

To never stop growing. I think I’m keeping it.

LOVE -

39. What was their first kiss like, if they’ve had one?

Oh, wow, well, uhh, if I remember correctly, it was...fine, I guess. She was better than me, I think, though it was very straight to the point, just lips smacking and that was it. I don’t recall any hint of passion there, but it was fair for a first kiss.

40. Are they in a relationship/have a love interest?

Nope. Not really looking for one, but if push comes to shove, then I’ll happily shove back.

41. Have they ever been in love?

Once or twice. I was in love with a librarian before but she was too focused on her work. I don’t think she even knew I existed.

42. Have they ever had their heart broken?

Sure. It’s a normal thing, just life. That librarian thing, I guess. Losing a friend in a battle. Stuff happens in life. That’s how you know you’re alive.

SPIRITUALITY -

43. Do they follow a god, if so who?

For a time, I followed Melora. Just because everyone else back home was doing it. But then, Kiora happened, and I never really heard from Melora, so over time, that gradually slowed down. Also, I left for the surface, so it was like forgetting how to talk to tuna, their slang and lingo.

44. What do they think happens to them after death?

Uhh, I guess my body just...decays? Maybe I turn into seafoam or something. I don’t know. I don’t really care. I’d be dead by then, so there’s no use thinking on that.

45. What is their spirit animal?

Kraken. 100% kraken. Absolutely.

[surveyyyys]

It’s 2020.

1. What did you do in 2019 that you’d never done before? I got really into fitness! I started lifting weights multiple times a week, and really taking care of my body. I put on a lot more muscle over the past year, and I finally actually like my body a lot! On a related note, I also went to a professional east coast bodybuilding competition. I didn't go for myself obviously, but I went to support my boyfriend.

2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year? Actually I did! I was one of those cheesy people who wanted to get in shape and start working out in the new year. I actually stuck to it, and working out became a really big part of my life.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Nope I don't think so!

4. Did anyone close to you die? Thankfully, no.

5. What countries did you visit? I stayed in the US the whole year... but I think that's gonna change in 2020!

6. What would you like to have in 2020 that you lacked in 2019? Complete personal and financial independence, and a fresh start. And it's going to happen! I'm starting my first real job in June, and I'm moving into NYC. I'm graduating college too. It's gonna be a big year for me.

7. What date from 2019 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? September 24, the day I got into a relationship with my current boyfriend.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Getting a solid full-time Equity Research analyst position in NYC for after graduation.

9. What was your biggest failure? I tried to stay single. I really did. I wasn't necessarily happier when I was single, but my head was clearer and I was always on top of my shit. But I couldn't stay truly single in 2019 for more than a month or more without being dragged into some stupid situationship with a guy that ended up expiring after 2 months. At the end of 2019, I ended up getting into a real relationship. I feel like I've spent a lot more of my young adult life in relationships or situationships rather than by myself.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? I didn't actually!

11. What was the best thing you bought? This personal barbell pad. It makes hip thrusts and squats so much easier. I also got a couple hip circles for glute activation exercises. They changed my glute training because I finally started feeling exercises in my glutes... they're the reason I have a butt now!

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? This is gonna sound conceited but... mine? My world-famous Career Anxiety got me a full-time job in the first month of my senior year. Plus I absolutely killed it at my last internship and I learned a ton.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? My sister's on-again-off-again boyfriend... he's awful. The administration of the student organization I had to quit. The boy I dated during the entirety of Summer 2019 -- he sucked.

14. Where did most of your money go? Starbucks and Amazon hehe

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? A couple things: Finally making progress at the gym and seeing my body change Doing a good job on my final presentation during my internship That one time I went out with my intern friends and got shitfaced and had probably the most fun I had in all of 2019 Getting into a relationship with my current boyfriend; I didn't think it would end up being a real relationship. Getting my full-time job offer in NYC (by far the most exciting)

16. What song will always remind you of 2019? Evelyn by Kim Tillman! It's my theme song and I discovered it in 2019.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you: i. happier or sadder? Happier. ii. thinner or fatter? I would say bulkier. I look bigger, but I turned a lot of the "skinny fat" I had on me into muscle. iii. richer or poorer? Much richer for sure!

18. What do you wish you’d done more of? LOL towards the end of 2019, I kinda let my grades fall by the wayside because I thought I had it all figured out. I wish I studied more at the end because I could've preserved my GPA and saved myself a lot of needless studying. This is out of my control but -- I wish I had a chance to drink and party more. 2019 was an almost entirely sober year... I only got really drunk once in the entire year. I think that actually contributed to how dry and sad I was for most of the year!

19. What do you wish you’d done less of? Listening to Ariana Grande LOL. This one is also out of my control -- I wish I spent less time alone. I spent the majority of last year sitting in my apartments at school and talking to my voice diary and trying to make sense of my personality and the reasons why I was alone. I did eventually become content with my alone time, but I wasn't really happy. I wish I had a more active social life. I also wish I spent less time with that boy over the summer. He was a waste of time.

20. How did you spend Christmas? I was at home for winter break on Christmas. I don't think I really did anything!

21. Did you fall in love in 2019? Yes! I fell in love with my current boyfriend. I also thought I loved the summer guy, but I really didn't.

22. What was the best holiday this year? Halloween! I think I had the most fun that day out of all the other holidays.

23. How many one-night stands? I don't think I had any one night stands this year! That was all 2018 me.

24. What was your favorite TV program? I don't know actually. I don't think I watched that much TV in 2019. I just binged the Good Place though, but idt that was my favorite.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? My apartment-mate (not my roommate, she's great). I also hate her ex boyfriend. I also hate this toxic horrible friend I used to have. I cut her out in 2019.

26. What was the best book you read? LOL the only book I read was Tina Fey's autobiography. It was pretty good!

27. What was your greatest musical discovery? Again, Evelyn by Kim Tillman.

28. What did you want and get? A job. And Gymshark clothes from my parents!

29. What did you want and not get? Honestly, fun memories and a social life. Also this one first-year teaching position at my university.

30. What was your favorite film of this year? Joker! (Unpopular opinion, but it's the truth!)

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? At midnight on my birthday, I was having really good sex. Then I went into work and had a pretty productive day! Then at night, I had sushi with my sister.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably satisfying? If my boyfriend had gotten into nursing school. It would've been perfect. But now he has a new career and new aspirations to work towards. Maybe it's for the best and maybe he'll be happier! We'll see.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2019? I mean, I spent most of the year in sweatpants. I moved away from the bold makeup and the fashion choices I made in the past. But I did start buying a lot of athletic gym leggings and sports bras! My favorite Look TM of this year is my staple matching sports bra and leggings set that I wear to the gym.

34. What kept you sane? The gym, definitely. And my mom.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Ariana Grande apparently LOL. Also Hanna Oberg!

36. What political issue stirred you the most? Trump's impeachment. But I think that stirred everyone. (I mean it in a good way, I'm glad Trump was impeached.)

37. Who did you miss? My ex boyfriend for a brief time. I still wasn't over him in the beginning of last year. I also missed all the friends I lost. I hated them and they sucked, but at least they kept me company.

38. Who was the best new person you met? My boyfriend!

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2019: I'll tell you a couple: - Anyone can be anything. Barriers to entry are minimal, and you can end up doing something you never thought you would. - You can tell yourself you're going to go out and chase your dreams, and you can tell yourself you're running away from a stable and boring life. But you have to truly want it and believe in it for it to happen. If you don't dedicate yourself 100% to that crazy dream inside and out, you will end up opting for the backup plan. - You are your best when you're making first impressions. - Just because you're not strong enough to follow your dreams doesn't mean you should discourage other people from doing what they want to do with their life (as long as it's within reason). If someone you love is willing to put in the effort to chase a dream they believe is worth it, you should support them, even if it seems risky. Try to minimize the risk, but don't knock down the plan altogether.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year. Every blue moon I get convinced that I can't ever make it happen by myself. I've been awake to see the day devour the night. I've seen decay give way to growth and make the most of nearly nothing, Till human voices break us and we drown, we drown, Seductive and impeccable abuse. You do it to yourself, I bet you know you do. I love you 'cause I do it to you too.

[butwhyduh]

Not Now

Part 1 of 2

College Tom Holland x reader

Warning: fluff in first chapter, angst in next.

Summary: reader is 27 and Tom is still 22. (Don’t freak out. It’ll make sense later.) She’s a teachers assistant and he’s a student. She also has a secret.

You worked in the science department. Student assistant for the anatomy and physiology department. You were working towards your masters in nursing. Being a student assistant was hard work but helped pay for your own classes. Anyone who wanted to go into any form of medical field had to pass A&P and it was known as the hardest medical class outside of medical school. Your job was to help people pass in anyway you could.

The students liked you. You were smart and kind but you had the sneaking suspicion that part of it was because you looked 19 even though you were almost a decade older. A few brave young men had even tried to hit on you.

There was no way that you were going to date some 19 year old. They were generally sweet smart kids but you had a kid. There was no way that they were ready for that.

Then you met Tom. And he wasn’t 19. He was 22. His brown eyes wide with wonder and his lips easily curled into smiles. He understood concepts and would ask smart questions in class. You ignored your little crush. Maybe you were just a bit lonely. But you knew that a 22 year wasn’t ready for kids. Not that you were wanting a replacement father. Your daughters father was a good dad but bad partner. But when Tom asked you out, you had a hard time saying no.

“So do you- you wanna get coffee?” He asked as he helped you put away the models. He was the last student. You looked at him quickly. Luckily he was looking away.

“Yeah, are you going to ask Steve,” you asked him testing the water.

“Mr Harrington? I wasn’t, er... I was hoping to ask you on a date,” he said blushing. His ears were bright and he busied himself with a skeletal model part.

“Oh, uh... yeah that would be great. Did you mean after we clean up?” You asked trying to reach a shelf with a heavy piece. Tom took it from you and placed it on the shelf.

“Yeah if that’s cool,” he said brightly. You mentally thought of child care. You had planned to come back a few hours later because you planned to buy groceries before coming home but you could take her with you instead.

“Sure,” you smiled back. You both began wiping the tables down with disinfectant wipes. He zipped across the lab counters with his wipes.

“Done. Are you ready?” Tom asked. You nodded and grabbed your coat.

“Are you ready for your final?” You asked him as you walked down the sidewalk. His fingers brushed you palm as you walked around a mail box but he was a gentleman and didn’t grab your hand.

“I am. I think I’ve had really great study help from a certain teaching assistant,” he said. You smiled.

“You’re the one learning. I only helped. But I can say that you are possibly, maybe, definitely the best in class,” you said. He grinned brightly.

“Can you even tell me that? Seriously, is that legal?” He asked opening the door to the coffee shop.

“I confirmed nothing and I will lie if asked,” you answered.

“You should have been a lawyer.”

An hour later your coffee was long gone and you both still talked. The conversation was easy and he seemed really nice. But you had to get your daughter.

“I hate to cut things short but I have to go. Life calls,” you told him.

“Oh, okay,” he said. His voice betrayed disappointment. “Can I call you sometime?”

“You already call me.”

“Not for school. Just to talk to you?”

“Sure,” you said. You gave him a quick hug and left to get your daughter. Telling someone that you had a kid on a first date was never a good idea. But waiting a long time wasn’t either. When do you tell someone you had a 6 year old?

“Mom,” Cara said before barreling into your arms. “I did a cartwheel today. Molley-Molley said I couldn’t but I did. And then- then she said a bad word!” She yelped. She twirled around you.

“What did she say?” You asked feigning excitement.

“I’m not saying! It’s a bad word mom,” she said back.

“She was great. Did her homework right away,” Tiffany, the babysitter, said. She was 19 and you were tutoring her in her freshman biology to help pay for her watching Cara after school.

“Good. Thanks. We’ll see you tomorrow okay?” You said grabbing Cara’s coat and giving it to her. Cara slipped it on and grabbed her backpack.

“Of course, bye Cara. I’m going to beat you at tag tomorrow,” Tiffany said smiling.

“Nope, I always win.”

“We’ll see.”

You walked down the hall to your own apartment. Cara helped you make dinner and it wasn’t long until she was asleep in bed. You watched the news and your eyes felt heavy. You phone rang. You looked down at it.

Tom: hey, what’s up?

Tom: I just looked at the time. Sorry. I hope it’s not too late.

Y/n: no. I’m awake. Just watching the news. You?

Tom: playing poker with my roommate. He’s losing badly😂

Y/n: yikes. Go easy on him.

Tom: he’s rich. He’ll be fine.

Tom: how are your classes going?

Y/n: good. Hard. 🙃

Why did I send that emoji? You thought. What does that even mean?

Tom: I feel you. Micro bio is killing me

Y/n: I can help you with that.

Y/n: if you want

Tom: that would be awesome. I can’t really pay you.

Y/n: we can do it during you anatomy tutoring.

Tom: thanks. I didn’t text you for that though.

Y/n: oh?

Tom: no. I like you. You’re super cool.

Tom: and pretty

Did he just- you flushed. Guys weren’t this forward.

Y/n: thanks☺️ you’re not bad looking yourself

Tom: 😎

Tom: so what are you doing tomorrow? Like evening?

Staying home with my daughter- you thought. Let me text Tiffany. You asked her to watch your daughter once again and she quickly responding that it was great.

Y/n: nothing. Do you want to do something?

Tom: Yeah, can I pick you up and get something to eat?

You gave him your address. You both texted for a few minutes before you told him you needed to go to bed. You lay in bed thinking about him. He was attractive and sweet and smart. But something seemed off. Not with him. You felt guilty for talking to him. Maybe it was because you hadn’t told him about your daughter yet? You decided that you would tell him on the date. No need to wait if he hates kids or something.

Your day seemed to go by slowly as you thought about your date. Tom hadn’t given a clear idea of where you were going but you assumed that it would be nice casual with him being a broke college kid. You hurried home and changed into something kinda nice and fixed your hair and makeup.

Soon you heard a soft knock on the door. You hurried to open it to Tom. He stood smiling in nice jeans and a grey polo. His shoes the only color with red sections around the white. You slipped on flats over heels. He might want to walk somewhere.

“So where to?” You asked.

“The dollar theatre,” he smiled. “They are having a twilight zone marathon on tonight. I hope that’s okay,” he said shyly.

“I love that,” you said.

“I thought some hot dogs on the way? I’m kinda broke,” he laughed nervously.

“Same. That sounds fine. I get them sometimes when I’m running late. Do you live on campus?”

“No. It’s a flat near campus. My roommate pays for it. He came over to college with me,” Tom said as you walked.

“The rich roommate?”

“Haha Yeah. He’s pretty wealthy. I was coming to the states for school and he tagged along. He’s taking acting classes so I guess he’s doing something? Probably will just inherit his family’s company,” Tom said paying for the hot dogs.

“So where exactly are you from?”

“London. I just wanted to get away. Travel. New York looked fun. Are you from the city?” He asked.

“Don’t tell anyone, but Jersey,” you said smiling. He laughed. His hand brushed your back as he lightly pulled you out of the way of someone jogging by. “Thanks.”

“No problem,” he said before buying tickets. You both sat in the top right corner with a bucket of popcorn. The theatre was pretty empty. Not surprising for a Thursday night twilight zone marathon. The show started and the familiar music played. This was one you hadn’t seen before and it wasn’t long before you had scooted closer to your date. Tom subtly shifted in his seat for you to lean into him better. You could smell his soft cologne. Halfway through the second episode Tom had gently placed his arm around your shoulder and by the fourth episode, you had buried your head in his chest at a scary part. He softly laughed and patted your back.

“It’s okay,” he said softly as it moved to the next scene. You sat close to him as the show played. You yawned at the 7th episode. “Are you ready to go? It’ll be all night.”

“Yeah, if you don’t mind.”

“Not at all,” he said. You both stood and quietly left. His hand softly wrapped around yours as you walked. He smiled softly when you didn’t pull away. You both slowly walked back to your apartment. You stood in front of the door with your keys in hand, not quite ready for the date to end. You bit your lip and he looked at you softly. He stepped closer and you could see a small scar on his cheek. His nose was slightly crooked.

“Can I kiss you?” He asked quietly, barely above a whisper.

“Yeah.”

His lips barely pressed against yours. The kiss was soft and gentle, questioning for permission. He broke the kiss faster than you would have liked.

“I’ll see you in class,” he said clearing his throat. “I had a good time.”

“See you,” you whispered.

Okay, so you chickened out of telling him about your daughter. But admittedly it was a quiet date. And to be honest you were scared to run him off. You’d tell him next time.

[dreamingbrownie]

Tagging games #5

I’ve been tagged by @fandom-glazed and wanted to do this anyway, so here we go! Tagging anyone who wants to do this ^__^ 1. what’s your favorite way to dress? Black all the way. I’m a fancy goth on the inside and trying (but most likely failing) on the outside. 2. If you could change anything about yourself, what would it be? Not to be so voulnerable to the people that mean a lot to me would be nice. Not getting attached so fucking fast. 3. What movie/game/etc. helps you calm down? I tend to love movies reducing me to a sobbing mess, so that doesn’t count as calming me down, does it? As for a series, I’m all for Merlin BBC at the moment which I watch unfrequently with @fandom-glazed on Netflix and usually laugh my ass off at Arthur and Merlin’s antics. :D 4. What does your room smell like? Dust, nailpolish, some tea and the slightly burnt smell of my old heaters. 5. Do you like to organize? Hell fucking no. I’m an ADD person, nope, I don’t. 6. What kind of music would you listen to if you could only choose one? German rock / gothic rock. Unheilig, Staubkind, Blutengel, Lord of the Lost, Letzte Instanz, that kind of thing. Not that either of those bands would ring a bell with most of tumblr users, I assume. 7. What song is your aesthetic? Oh man, making me choose there is mean. Ghost Love Score by Nightwish, Stand my ground by Within Temptation, Morgana by Lord of the Lost. Hard and heavy. 8. What color do you think goes best with your personality? Crimson like my hair right now, probably. 9. Do you believe in auras? Nope. 10. What do you wish you hated, but actually like? Ballet. To wish for having been introduced to how to ruin your body in the most beautiful way as a child is kind of unhealthy. 11. Vague about your crush(es) Valentin Winter / van Porcelain. That man. Go to his tumblr @valentinvanporcelaine and dare ask me again why I’m addicted to his aesthetics. 12. Is there someone you have mixed feelings towards? Yep. Not talking about specific people in my personal life here tho.  13. Talk about an AU or story you came up with Oh boy, here we go. If you get me started on my vampire novels, we’ll be here all day and I won’t even be half way finished. I adore my own characters to a decree that might be weird, I ship some of them and the main gay pair Count Louis and his life long best friend and personal vassal Chris, later Knight of Alderton, to death and writing anything with those two idiots in love soothes me so much. The main trilogy (A shimmer of Red, Black and Silver respectively) is huge (as in 200k for the first, 140k for the second and 110k as of yet for the unfinished third) but not finished yet, I’m almost there and would have been a year ago if I’d just get my arse out of the Fantastic Beasts Fandom and saunter off to writing my own stuff again. Unfortunately, Albus and Gellert own my ass at the moment and I’m overflowing with plotbunnies that won’t go away on their own. I know my mind. I need to write them all down before I get any peace at all. Lol. 14. Do you like makeup? No, not really, I like sharp-winged-eyeliner though. 15. Do you prefer space or the ocean? Ocean all the way. Space is fascinating and I’m a massive nerd for SpaceX because their projects are so promising for the future of mankind, but standing at the shore, being able to breathe properly again (asthma kid here, hi) and cry from sheer relief of hearing the waves crash against the cliff or roll onto the beach again is my life blood. I’ll have that next week again. Fucking finally. The sea soothes me so, so much and I suffer from constant longing for distance. We have a very fitting word for the feeling in German. Fernweh. Roughly translated to “I want to get far away from here so much it hurts.” Yeah, that’s the German language right there for you. 16. If you could pick any planet besides earth, where would you live? Pandora, probably. You know, three meters tall blue humanoids, a captivating nature, trees large enough to be a bother for the planet’s rotation, probably? Yeah. I’d like that very much. 17. What form of government do you like the most? (capitalism, socialism, etc.) I’m quite content with the German system of Social economy. Pure capitalism, socialism and communism are shit, don’t work in the long run and should just be abolished altogether. 18. What animal would you keep as a pet, if you could? Give me a black cat, please 19. What do you think our purpose is in the universe? To find our place between the stars, become a multi planetary species and to develop a way that’s not as destructive to the planet we inhabit. There’s a beautiful sentence that sums it all up in Interstellar from Cooper: “We might have been born on earth, but we don’t have to die here.” 20. Do you believe in god(s)? Nope. Atheist all the way. Before anyone misunderstands me, though: believe whatever you want to, I don’t judge people for their religion, it’s just so not my tea. 21. Is there a song you can’t handle listening to, even though you like it? Yep. Chasing cars by Snow Patrol. 22. What ex do you miss the most, if you have one? Mean question. I only have an ex-girlfriend and sometimes I miss her gentleness and how instantly she saw right through me, but she replaced me, we’ve been done for a bit more than five years now and I’m over her. :) 23. Do you like soft, fluffy blankets or rough/smooth blankets? Soft, fluffy blankets all the way. 24. What is your favorite thing to learn about? History. What do you think I’d study that for? :D 25. What country’s history do you find the most interesting? Man, that’s a mean one again. I’m pretty solid on English history, but I don’t know the first thing about Asian history altogether because german schools don’t teach that and we’ve got a different subject for Asian culture in university so it’s not included in my must-do-schedule too, but I’d like to learn more about it soon. 26. What do you think about genderbent ____ (insert someone here) Nope, noping right out, nopedinopenope, not my tea. At all. 27. What breakup was the hardest, if you had one? The one I had was... bad. Not talking about that here any further tho. 28. Do you have someone where you can’t decide if you like them romantically or just as a friend? A couple of weeks ago, my answer would have been yes, but I’ve got that all sorted out now. Not dwelling on it, though. It doesn’t matter. 29. What do you think about tumblr discourse? Ughhh. Exhausting most of the time. I loved the metas in the Sherlock fandom before it all fell apart and I like Fantastic Beasts metas, but people get so emotional so fast that normal discussions are all but impossible here. 30. What instrument do you wish you could master? Piano. Still salty that I’ve been forced to stop that as a child. 31. How easy is it for you to be honest? Very. I’m a very honest person and I’m shite at lying. 32. Do you have any strange interests? Fandoms, probably? xD I find fossils infinetely fascinating, anything conserning dragons (that sounds strange in context, I’m well aware that they don’t exist) and the way stars are born in large nebulas is something poetic to me. 33. Do you have any strange fears? Strange? I dunno, I’ve just about ran out of the kitched screaming at the top of my lungs when a fucking spider dropped ON MY HEAD yesterday evening, you tell me if that’s strange. Drowning would suck a lot, I guess. Anything that makes you suffocate. Nope. 34. What food do you binge on when you’re lazy? Toast with something on it. I did that in exam week last week, not because I’m lazy but because I just did not have the time or the nerves for cooking. 35. When you get angry, how do you show it? I go all quiet and drill my posture to absolute perfection until it hurts. You’ll notice when I’m mad. Seldom happens, though, I’m hard to offend. 36. Do you have any impulsive movements? (twitches, ticks, flapping, etc.) Picking fingers. Bad habit that I’m trying to get rid of. 37. What do you listen to music on? YouTube and Spotify on the PC, used my phone a massive lot for that during the summer too but now with all the layers of jackets and coats and such it’s a bit hard to stuff my large phone anywhere. 38. Are you left brained or right brained? Uhhhh what? I’m right handed, but I don’t think I have any tendencies otherwise. 39. Earbuds or headphones? Earbuds. 40. Do you like light blankets or heavy blankets? Light blankets for around the flat, heavy in bed. I’d like to be able to breathe.

[anxiously-unsatisfied-world]

Patton Adoption AU

So, I finally have enough prepared to talk about the AU I’ve been working on! It features Patton being adopted by Logan and Roman (as I haven’t seen anything with him being the child being adopted). If everything goes right (meaning I have three chapters done by my birthday/July 1st (I have around two finished now)), I’ll start posting the actual story Sunday.

But for now, have some headcanons (canons?)/ facts! ^^

Patton Love:

10-years-old

4′5″

Has sandy blonde hair, bright blue eyes, freckles, and is a little chubby.

Loves to learn - is curious about everything

His favorite outfit is the traditional light blue polo, khakis, and a grey cardigan draped around his shoulders.

The cardigan reminds him of a cape and he loves that.

He isn’t super picky about what he wears - unless he’s nervous about some occasion. Then he has to wear his favorite outfit. (Or at least he’ll try to)

Is usually super bubbly and energetic; though he certainly has his moments of being quiet and withdrawn - especially if he’s focused or upset.

He took care of the younger, also bullied kids at the orphanage, taking on their bullying if he could to prevent them from getting hurt.

And thus, is seen as an older brother figure to these kids.

Was bullied for being so optimistic about finding a home despite being at the orphanage for three years - but it doesn’t really affect him all that much.

His best friend is Valerie. She’s the daughter of the orphanage’s owners and thus, he has a good support system with her and her parents.

Her mother would sneak him extra cookies since he’s so close to Valerie.

Is pansexual but hasn’t quite figured that out yet/doesn’t care to figure it out at this point.

Has been in the orphanage since he was seven - when his parents died in a car accident.

Logan Prince:

27-years-old

5′10″

Has dark brown hair, cold blue eyes, a thin and wiry frame.

100% an introvert

Wears his usual black polo and tie - however, it’s not just blue ties. He’ll wear neutral colors most of the time unless it’s a special occasion or Roman wants him to wear a certain one. (this is when he’s out of the house)

At home, he’s a lot less formal - wearing t-shirts and jeans and sometimes onesies (but shh don’t tell anyone ^.~)

Is slightly insecure due to being the ‘gifted’ child when he was growing up. Sure, he managed to keep learning new things and being smarter than his peers but the pressure was too much sometimes.

Majored in chemistry and had to take a year to get his teaching certificate - minored in creative writing/poetry (which surprised quite a few people)

Thus, doesn’t have 100% the best social skills but Roman helps make up for that and is teaching him to better recognize social cues.

Is a high school chemistry teacher - can be seen as strict due to the dangerous nature of the course but altogether tries to make the subject interesting and relevant to the kids.

Plays the piano to relax from a hard day at work - it’s nice to just have no expectations on him for a while as there's never been a day where he wasn’t expected to be perfect.

Will usually accompany Roman when he sings - they don’t usually perform like this but for important enough events, Roman can convince him to.

Is demisexual.

Roman Prince:

28-years-old

5′6″

Dirty blond hair, green eyes, tanned, has freckles, is pretty muscular from dancing/running around at work.

Very outgoing - like so much.

Very stylish clothes most of the time - usually a touch of makeup to accentuate the outfit - not because he’s insecure.

At home, he wears a lot of Disney/theater merchandise - also whenever he’s particularly busy - like the weeks of a production at the theater (which he owns)

Loves to perform whenever he can but will take days off and go sing to kids in hospitals/do performances depending on the day & location. It warms his heart to see them enjoying something that he can so easily do for them.

He is a bit insecure in his skills due to years of being bullied for being a theater geek. Sure, it didn’t affect him much at the time but it has left lasting effects on how he treats his own skill, but Logan’s always there to reassure him.

Is very skilled when it comes to music. He can play several instruments in addition to being skilled at singing and dance.

Majored in theater (as expected by like everyone he knew) and minored in creative writing, which is where he met Logan.

Roman took a gap year - during that time, performing in a few different plays.

They met the second semester of their freshman year.

They started dating in the middle of their junior year.

It was actually Logan to propose - he did so on Roman’s birthday after planning the most romantic day together. (after they graduated)

They got married around six months later and have been together ever since.

Roman is pansexual.

Virgil Sanders:

11-years-old

4′8” but slouches to about 4′6″

Has jet black hair, emo style (duh), pale skin, and ice blue eyes.

Is both bullied at school and abused at home. At school it’s because of his style and at home, it’s because he’s gay (that and his parents are not good people.)

Is very introverted & is anxious around people and in general.

Very thin - almost worryingly so - clothes hang off of him even if they’re supposed to be his size.

Has his signature hoodie. He learned how to sew when his parents wouldn’t buy him a new one and sewed the patches on to protect it from falling apart. Added the white thread for aesthetic.

Has an older sister who managed to escape from their parents. She has promised to come back for him but she’s having a bit of trouble financially right now so she can’t just take on the care of her younger brother. She hates it. She doesn’t want him anywhere near their parents but it’ll have to wait until she’s a bit more stable.

Virgil adores his big sister - she’s where he gets most of his aesthetic from and he trusts that she’ll fulfill her promise. It’s why he puts up with the abuse so much.

Is interested in learning a musical instrument and performing for others - despite his horrible anxiety - but that’ll have to wait. He’s also fairly proficient at dance and is best with fast, intricate movements which he executes gracefully.

Is gay but doesn’t quite feel like that fits 100% (might be asexual or demi but he’s not certain)

So there! I have Remy, Deceit, and Virgil’s sister planned out and I know I want Thomas in this story but he hasn’t been planned just how yet. (this will have sympathetic Deceit in it as a fair warning)

But I’m super excited about this story and will answer any questions you have about it! I’ll try to have the post with the information about the aforementioned characters up on like Thursday or Friday ^^

[acsversace-news]

It’s one of those events that happened if you’re old enough to know where you were when Gianni Versace was murdered on the steps of his South Beach villa in Miami. Ryan Murphy takes us back to 1990’s Miami and explores what drove Andrew Cunanan to murder one of fashion’s most iconic designers in his latest series, American Crime Story: Versace. We explored his childhood, but the road that led to the murder. Along the way, we meet David Madison, a young architect, his whole life ahead of him, but then fate leads him to Cunanan who eventually murders the young man.

Actor Cody Fern talks about getting the phone call for the role, how Madison was perceived at the time and working on a Ryan Murphy production in a role that’s shining a much-warranted spotlight on the Australian actor. If you haven’t seen the series, the show aired on FX and can be streamed for all to see. Fern shines brightly in the series, pay attention because you might not know the name now, but you will very soon.

What was it like walking on to the Versace set for the first time?

It’s a little bit mindblowing, even still. I idolized Ryan and his work for such a long time, especially how he conducts himself as a human being and giving back to community stories that need to be told.

I got the phone call that I was going to be on the show and started screaming because it’s beyond your wildest comprehension. It’s this dream you hope of as an actor, but to get the phone call and to hear you’re going to work with Ryan is overwhelming. Arriving on set, the entire production was so precise and was so well researched by Maureen and then Tom and the team around it. Ryan picks the very best people to work with and they’re so meticulous and so knowledgeable.

I got to play David, he’s such an interesting human being, not just because of his tragic death, but the life he had been living before. I think that’s what the series deals with. He’s a very successful architect and this intelligent guy who is so compassionate. The police actually found presents in his house that were for Christmas. He had bought these gifts months in advance for his nephews, that’s the kind of guy he was. So, I felt a real sense of responsibility to that. I think with this series in particular because it threw people for a six because it’s not just about the Versace family, but the real purpose was to jump into this world that we didn’t know about these four men who were not as famous as Gianni Versace but were equally as important, who had value and their lives were cut short by this man, Andrew Cunanan.

It started with excitement and then it moved into the heavyweight. Arriving on set and knowing that everyone was at the top of their game and knowing that everyone was going to trust me to do what I was going to be doing which was so dark and so complex and complicated. It was a real work out as an actor. To also have Darren Criss who is so dynamic and such a surprising actor. I’d seen him in Glee but what he did in Versace was so layered and complex.

Your character was an interesting character, but also complex. How do you craft David when there’s not so much on him?

The first thing that is important to know, Tom Rob Smith is such a phenomenal writer. If I ever felt lost, I’d go back into the script and you don’t have far to fall if you’re being propped up by Tom. Obviously, there’s Maureen’s book, but really the jumping off point for David was, “Why didn’t he run? Why didn’t he stop the murder of Jeff?”  It was really more about the former and that’s where I started to construct everything from.

At the time and with the homophobia of the time and how the police were investigating it, they saw David as a perpetrator. It’s very interesting about what happens when your best friend is murdered right in front of you and stabbed 27 times with a hammer in your apartment by your ex-lover and someone who has been a friend for many years. At this point in time, their friendship had been worn down. Friends and family say he was very compassionate and had a religious background, so these things began to fill in for me as a character who comes from compassion first and foremost. What we were exploring in the series is the shame that gay men carry around and how that shame manifests itself, particularly in this period fo time. That’s a dangerous cocktail because what I learned in playing David was that his compassion knew no bound and he really believed that Andrew was redeemable, even after that horrific act. He believed if they got to the authorities then everything would be alright. Of course, your personality goes out the window when something like that happens. The horror of the media was that they were painting him as someone who was involved in the crime and when you see something like that, your body shuts down. There’s this gay shame he’s carrying around and he doesn’t fit into society and society views him very differently. He must somehow be involved and there’s something sick about him.

One of the police officers in the media stated it was far more likely and it makes far more sense that Andrew and David conspired to commit the crime because gay men have had to hide in the closet for so long. They’re all inclined to dark and psychopathic actions and how that must have affected him growing up.

He was a fascinating character to watch and his arc. Was he fascinating to explore?

Endlessly fascinating. It’s hard to say I had a great time playing him because what happened was so dark. It was a very difficult time but it was very rich. We knew that this show was going to skew towards the victims and that was really important to see and that we were going to see their lives and who they were. To see how Andrew and David fell in love, to see how he had hopes and dreams. In episode four, the death for David, what was most interesting in playing that was how you build a character as an actor and what happens when everything changes in one moment. Jeff is murdered and everything that David has ever known is different. Whoever he thinks he is goes out the window and it becomes about survival. He’s been dogged by gay shame and he’s been hiding his whole life. He has one act and one final act of courage, he grabs the steering wheel and he’s going to stand up. There’s only one way that can go. What it must have been like to mediate Andrew at every step of the way and to know that at any moment he could be killed or anyone else could be killed. To be in public and you’re hiding. In the diner, they’re in there’s this fear. What’s interesting is that it’s not far off from what he would have been feeling as a gay man in that period of time.

I want to see you back on another Ryan show.

So would I

What did you learn from being on a Ryan Murphy set?

First and foremost, so much is said about Ryan as a genius and the word genius is really thrown around these days for anyone who has a hit of any kind. It should be reserved for Ryan. It incorporates something other than stereotypical interpretations. Not enough is said about how kind, how generous and how loyal he is. What I learned the most was not about acting, but it’s about family. The people he has picked and the relationships that he has cultivated. It inspires everybody to dig deeper and to push harder and to be better. There’s this real sense of trust from hair and makeup to the gaffers. Everyone is really together and you’re all ware you’ve been chosen by Ryan to be a part of his family. That means you all band together and you give everything and every moment your all. I think that show.

It’s the director, the crew and everyone is there to do the very best they can for this story. That was really inspiring to come away from. Ryan oversees it all and that’s really touching.

As a viewer, it was dark and sticks with you. Was it easy to shed David?

This was not easy to shed, there was a lot of residue. It depends on how you work as an actor. I try to make a clear distinction as to what my work and my home are. For me, my work is my life. IT’s where I’m most engaged in. With David, the mind knows one thing. The mind knows I’m playing this, this is what’s happening. The body doesn’t., there was a lot of fear, guilt, shame and anxiety. For the most part, there were terrible feelings and it took me a good couple of months to shed that. Also leaving that family behind. I just caught up with everyone at the Pose premiere in New York, to see everyone and to see us all band together was such a special feeling. I will say it shouldn’t be easy to shed the residue of what I went through. Getting`to know David was one of the greatest gifts of my life. To bring him back to life and to say he was here and had value and he mattered, that felt great.

Next we’ll see you in House of Cards. Going from Ryan Murphy into Claire Underwood’s dark world. How is that experience?

It’s been playing longer than I’ve been an actor. I started watching it and knew I had to be on that show. That and Ryan Murphy. I feel like I’m in a weird science fiction world, but again, it was incredibly different. The pace and rhythm have been different. The energy was always uplifting. Everyone is so excited to get behind Robin. It was great. The writers on that show are some of the best on TV. Stepping into the world of Claire Underwood was a real treat.

[set-wingedwarrior]

I DARE YOU TO ANSWER ALL QUESTION FROM THAT ASK MEME THINGY (or just answer (63) bc, honestly? That's the only important one)

This is really really REALLY old, BUT I did accept the challenge and so I'm finally here ready to share answers! I had a whole document with all the questions and answers, I just gave it a quick read, added finished answering the general ones I missed, but that aside IT'S COMPLETED! (okay, there are some I had to skip actually, BUT STILL.) Some specific stuff may apply to months ago, but in general it's all still accurate.

If you're still here Anon, enjoy. To everybody else, sorry for the long post lol

(1) Do You Sleep With Your Closet Doors Open Or Closed?

Normally they’re closed, but I don’t really mind if I forget them open.

(2) Do You Have Freckles?

Nope.

(3) Can You Whistle?

I tried to learn, but it didn’t go really well. Sometimes I actually make it, but I think it’s more luck than anything else xD

(4) Last Song You Listened To.

Miz Cracker – She’s a Woman

(5) What Is Your Favourite Colour?

I’m not really sure, because it kinda changed through the years? I think red/orange

(6) Relationship Status.

Single as fuck

(7) What Is The Temperature Right Now?

My phone says 10°, but who knows?

(8) Did You Wake Up Cranky?

Depends on how I slept I guess?

(9) How Many Followers?

981 apparently. Mostly bots probably lol

(10) Zodiac Sign.

Aquarius

(11) What Is Your Eye Colour?

Light brown, but apparently they can get even lighter during summer and reach aquamarine? I don’t even know anymore.

(12) Take A Vitamin Daily?

I actually am right now! It’s temporary to help me with some health things, but really tiny ones really.

(13) Do You Sing In The Shower?

I love to sing! And I do it all the time, so that includes in the shower!

(14) What Books Are You Reading?

My psychology textbooks xD As for fiction, I’m mostly reading fanfictions lately, the last book I’ve been reading has been such a disappointment that I didn’t bother getting back to it.

(15) Grab The Book Nearest To You, Turn To Page 64, Give Me Line 14.

(16) Favourite Anime?

Madoka Magica! I’m just in love with the story, characters, music, the themes, everything! If you haven’t whatched it yet, do it!

(17) Last Person You Cried In Front Of?

Probably my mom? It’s not like there’s a lot of people I can see with the pandemy going on.

(18) Do You Collect Anything?

Yes and no? I mean, I like to collect things I enjoy, like figures from series and shows I like, or videogames, and I’ weak for collector’s stuff! But it’s not like I go out of my way to get everything from one category, I just look for the items related to what I love. Example: The Last of Us statue! Because I love that game, but that doesn’t mean I’m gonna find a collector’s edition for EVERY game, just the few ones I really love.

(19) What Did You Have For Lunch?

Pasta with tomato sauce + sweet peppers, and some caprese.

(20) Do You Dance In The Car?

Nah, I’m just a singer

(21) Favourite Animal?

Cats dogs and dragons. No, you can’t make me choose, and YES, DRAGONS COUNT.

(22) Do You Watch The Olympics?

Nah, I don’t care

(23) What Time Do You Usually Go To Bed?

My sleeping schedule is… creative? I try to keep a good one, when I have to get up early for class I try to be in bed by 11.30pm and wake up at 8, but weekends have the tendency to destroy the habit (let’s thank my best friend for that xD)

(24) Are You Wearing Makeup Right Now?

Not now or EVER! It feels weird and uncomfortable to me, I don’t like it.

(25) Do You Prefer To Swim In A Pool Or The Ocean?

Probably pool. As Italian I am surrounded by sea and it’s cool, but it’s also the place where I got hurt really badly by a colony of sea anemone. I couldn’t walk for 3 weeks, in a pool I don’t risk that xD

(26) Favourite Tumblr Blog?

I don’t think I have one? But all the people I follow are cool <3

(27) Bottled Water Or Tap Water?

I don’t really care..?

(28) What Makes You Happy?

Writing, reading, music, my friends and, when I actually manage to do so, taking care of myself. Like, really care; it’s nice.

(29) Post A Gif Of What You’re Currently Feeling Right Now.

(30) Do You Study Better With Or Without Music?

Depends on the subject and what I’m doing. If I do have music tho, it needs to be instrumentals or I’d want to sing along.

(31) Dogs Or Cats?

STOP ASKING ME TO CHOOSE, THEY’RE ALL BABIES

(32) If You Were A Crayon What Colour Would You Be?

Black like my soul. Or red. It depends if I got my hair dyed or not actually lol

(33) PlayStation Or Xbox.

Playstation

(34) Would You Swim In The Lake Or Ocean?

Ocean, I read somewhere that lakes’ algae can drag you down and make you drown and even if it’s a lie I can’t get this picture out of my mind.

(35) Do You Believe In Magic?

It can be fun to believe in it sometimes.

(36) What Colour Shirt Are You Wearing?

Cream white

(37) Can You Curl Your Tongue?

Yep!

(38) Do You Save Money Or Spend It?

I save it, sometimes specifically to get one precise thing

(39) Is There Anything Pink Within 10 Feet Of You?

The potato peelinger

(40) Do You Have Any Obsessions Right Now?

Understanding the fucking R Studio program to pass my Psychometry exam.

(41) Have You Ever Caught A Butterfly?

I don’t think so? Maybe when I was little.

(42) Are You Easily Influenced By Other People?

I’m pretty stubborn so no, I don’t think so. But it is easier if it’s someone I trust

(43) Do You Have Strange Dreams?

Hell yeah I do! I’m not gonna tell one now, but my most infamous weird dream is the one I like to call “the snake’s vomit dream” (I swear the title makes sense. The dream, on the other hand…)

(44) Do You Like Going On Airplanes?

I’ve never been on one! So I don’t know, but the thought scares me a bit if I have to be honest.

(45) Name One Movie That Made You Cry.

Marley and Me

(46) Peanuts Or Sunflower Seeds?

Not really a fan of either of these, but if I had to choose probably sunflower seeds

(47) If I Handed You A Concert Ticket Right Now, Who Would You Want The Performer To Be?

Caleb Hyles

(48) Are You A Picky Eater?

Yes and no. There are some things that are a huge NO from me, but I’m good with most things so… idk.

(49) Are You A Heavy Sleeper?

Pretty much, yeah

(50) Do You Fear Thunder / Lightning?

Not really. I got a bit of a scare once when a lighting landed close to my home, but that aside, I find them really cool!

(51) Do You Like To Read / Write?

*raises a brow* what do you think? xD

(52) Do You Like Your Music Loud?

Loud enough to leave out the rest of the world without making my ears bleed tho

(53) Would You Rather Carve Pumpkins Or Wrap Presents?

I never carved a pumpkin (I’d like to try someday), so I don’t know

(54) Put Your Music On Shuffle, What Is The First Song That Came Up?

We All Lift Together from Warframe

(55) What Season Are You In Right Now? (Weather)

Spring. It’s a nice day, I wish I could freely go out

(56) What Are You Craving Right Now?

Junk food

(57) Post A Screenshot Of Your Tumblr Feed.

(58) What Is Your Gender?

Female

(59) Coffee Or Tea?

I like both!

(60) Do You Have Any Homework Right Now? If So, What Is It About?

I got some psychometry exercises? We gotta solve them using RStudio, getting into this stuff is a nightmare.

(61) What Is Your Sexuality?

Lesbian demisexual. Currently debating if I’m also demiromantic. Idk, I just want a gf and share a bond :(

(62) Do You Make Your Bed In The Morning?

Nope ^^”

(63) Favourite Pokemon?

The most important one, huh? As usual, I’m not 100% sure. Probably Charizard, because of childhood and DRAGONS! (I really really like Lucario and Litten too)

(64) Favourite Social Media?

As weird as it is, probably Tumblr. Facebook is annoying, I got no Instagram, and twitter is hell. Tumblr is more versatile

(65) What’s Your Opinion On Instagram Stories?

As I said, I don’t have Instagram, but I’m seeing this “stories” trend all around socials and I find it really annoying and useless.

(66) Do You Get Homesick?

Normally when I’m in the city where I’m studying? Sometimes. Right now after the last year of quarantene? Not really.

(67) Are You A Virgin?

Yep.

(68) What Shampoo And Conditioner Are You Using Right Now?

Right now one I’m getting at the pharmacy, the stress damaged my hair and I’m trying to fix that!

(69) If You Were Far From Home And Needed To Sleep For The Night, Would You Choose To Rent A Crappy Motel Room For $60 Or Sleep In Your Car For Free?

That’s such a specific question lol. I guess it would depend on where I am, and if I’m alone or with friends (me and BestBro want to roadtrip through all Sardegna someday!), and even how much tired I am. I’d lean on the rent because it’d feel safer and more comfortable. I don’t know if we got motels here in Italy tho, mmmm…..

(70) Are Both Of Your Blood Parents Still In Your Life?

Yes. Me and dad got a complicated relationship and see each other less, but that actually improved the quality of it if I have to be honest. I love him, but… it’s complicated.

(71) Whats The Next Movie You Want To See In Theaters?

I have no idea when we’ll even be able to go in theaters, so…

(72) Do You Miss Your Ex?

In a way, sometimes. When we just started dating she was in a particular moment of her life and with time she rediscovered herself and who she was, and that was great! But the person she became wasn’t one I could be on a romantic relationship with. So, sometimes I miss the person she was, the one I started dating so long ago, but that’s about it. We are still good friends, our whole friends group is kind of like a family and we’re comfortable. I’m glad we are still friends :)

(73) What Is Your Favourite Quote Right Now?

“Always, somewhere, someone is fighting for you. As long as you remember her, you are not alone.”

(74) What Eye Colour Do You Find Sexiest?

*confused asexual noises* …eh?

(75) Did You Like Swinging As A Child? Do You Still Get Excited When You See A Swing Set?

I liked it a lot! I never found “exciting” to see a set, but I’d probably enjoy to swing if I had the chance right now.

(76) What Was The Last Thing You Ate?

Pasta with spinach and tuna (I know it seems weird, but it’s really good!)

(77) What Games Do You Have On Your Phone?

Why must you remind me there’s no RWBY Amity Arena anymore? :’( I got just Empires and Puzzles out of despair, Fire Emblem Heroes and Pokemon GO (feel free to ask for friend code ;) )

(78) Would You Give A Homeless Person CPR If They Were Dying? Why Or Why Not?

I wouldn’t simply because I have no training to do so (I want to learn tho), and I wouldn’t feel comfortable performing something I am not prepared to do. Maybe I’d try if I was literally the only person there, but if not I’d probably leave it to someone better than me. (that answer is based on normal times tho, considering covid and all, I don’t think I’d take the risk to get sick if I have to be honest. But who knows, what I think I’d do and what I’d actually do in the situation are two different things after all)

(79) Been On The Computer For 5 Hours Straight?

Maybe?

(80) Stalked Someone On A Social Network?

Never. I might have looked into some information if needed (like, when I was looking for a new place and check the profile of the person offering a room to get an idea of what kind of person they were), but actual stalking? Absolutely not, it’s creepy!

(81) Do You Like Meeting New People?

Depending on the context. If I’m beside people I’m already friends with, I feel comfortable meeting new people and I’m actally eager to interact and know them! But when I’m alone I feel uncomfortable, too busy wondering about how I should act instead of just be myself. Overthinking sucks.

(82) Do You Wear Rings? If You Do, Take A Picture Of Them.

I’m not a jewelry kind of person, I got a few rings I wear from time to time, but not always. The one I wear the most tho is my beloved black ace ring! <3

(83) Do You Sleep With Your Bedroom Door Open Or Closed?

Usually closed, but I open them if it’s too hot, or for other reasons. I don’t really mind.

(84) What Are Three Things You Did Today?

Studied, cooked lunch, cleaned up the kitchen

(85) What Do You Wear To Bed?

Pajamas? I mean, I got multiple of them. Occasionally I wear just comfy big shirts and sweatpants.

(86) List All Of Your Different Beauty Products You Have Right Now.

……

(87) Are You A Day Or Night Person?

That’s up to debate. I have that tendency to go to bed late, and write in the middle of the night, and sleep all morning. BUT. I do feel better in the times I have a good sleeping schedule and wake up early.

(88) List All Of Your Video Games On Your Phone, Console Etc.

Oh boy, that’s a long one.

Mass Effect Trilogy, The Last of Us, The Last of Us Part II, Skyrim, Uncharted (the whole series), Warframe, Hellblade, Metal Slug Anthology, Zero Escape Virtue’s Last Reward, Zero Escape: Zero Time Dilemma, GTA IV, Life is Strange, Life is Strange Before the Storm, Hatoful Boyfriend, Detroit Become Human, Beyond; Two Souls, The Last Guardian, Days Gone, Tomb Raider (the whole new games trilogy), Wolf Among Us, Telltale’s The Walking Dead, Pokemon Ruby, Pokemon Sun, some Professor Layton’s games… I lost the count.

I also got the whole Bundle for Ratial Equality from Itch.io, dammitt.

I can’t keep going, sorry!

(89) Tell Me About A Dream That You Had And When It Happened.

Probably in middle school, or first years of high school, I dreamed I was pregnant, and about to give birth, and I was just panicking and running around my hometown terrified. I always knew I didn’t want children and that I am terrified of the idea of giving birth (that’s just one reason I don’t want children, I got plenty), and that was the most terrifying nightmare I have ever had.

(90) Favourite Soda Drink?

Lemon Flavored beer. I just refuse to consider that thing a real beer, it’s basically alcoholic soda, and I really like it xD

(91) What Sounds Are Your Favourite?

Outside of music? I don’t know. I like the sound of rain. I like when I hear footsteps of my parents, or roomates, outside of the apartment when they’re about to get in. I like in general the soft sounds of other people living with you. I miss my ex roomate’s singing (we’d often end up just singing together), or just his weird fanboying noises about shows and stuff. We had a great time together.

(92) Do You Wear Jeans Or Sweats More?

Since covid, sweats, because I have no motivation to dress properly lol. Normally I go more for jeans and wear other stuff if I had nothing else, or if I just had to go grocery shopping or simple stuff like that.

(93) How Do You Look Right Now?

Pissed at my professor probably. More literally tho, I’ve got some blue pants from an old heavy pajama that use at home, and a black thank top because I was hot (I’m weird, I know)

(94) Name Something That Relaxes You.

Music, and reading fanfics.

(95) What Tattoo Do You Want?

I always wanted the Yin and Yang tatoo with the tiger and the dragon. I’d love to get it as a reward the day I’ll become black belt

(96) Favourite YouTuber?

I don’t think I have one

[yoiotdfics]

Fic Recs for March 2017

birthday surprise by  suga

Summary:

other than his grandpa, there was only one other person yuri wanted to hear from on his birthday.

Fall Where They May by  flammablehat

Summary:

Viktor has a special talent for magically normalizing every strange thing he does.

all of rome by basilique

Summary:

Right after their wedding, Yuuri and Viktor go on Honeymoon to Rome. They decided to splurge on a visit to an all-male bath house, because why not? And when it turns out to be something of a venue for sexual exhibitionism, why not join the fun? When in Rome…

Kings in Couture by slightlied

Summary:

a devil wears prada au in which victor is the editor-in-chief of a fashion magazine, yuuri’s his new secretary, and instead of talking about his feelings, victor just sends him on a bunch of errands

The Calm Before A Storm by  iamthefacebehindthemask

Summary:

Early mornings had become Victor’s least favorite time of the day.

Emordnilap by  Dawn on ICE (Dawn_Blossom)

Summary:

27-year old, five-time consecutive gold medalist Yuuri Katsuki is planning on retiring after his disgraceful performance at the Sochi Grand Prix FInal.

Victor Nikiforov is a better skater than him (the skating community says otherwise, but what do they know?) and therefore it does NOT make sense for him to show up in the onsen and declare that he’s going to be Yuuri’s student.

Imagery by  Cesare

Summary:

Because Yuuri is never, ever lucky, of course Victor finds his poster stash.

This Tastes Fishy by  otapocalypse

Summary:

Yuuri is comforted by his best friend

Making History by Moonlight: Bishounen Senshi Skater Moon!!! by  virdant

Summary:

Yuuri moves to St. Petersburg, ugly tie in hand, prepared to make history and fight evil.

Do your research by  classicpleistocene

Summary:

After World Championship, Michele and Emil take a week off together to be cuddly boyfriends and discover each others’ secrets.

i’m just going to the store by  bosbie

Summary:

Accidental masked vigilante Victor Nikiforov.

Or: how Victor’s impulsiveness backfires and creates one of the greatest living internet memes to ever come out of Russia.

see myself through someone else by  maydei

Summary:

Victor is a mermaid that washes up on the Atlantic Coast amidst a strong tide. When taking refuge up a small sound, he meets an artist under a bridge.

trust me, he’ll say yes by  JkWriter

Summary:

phichit was used to getting calls all hours of the day from the other skaters. he wanted to get those calls because he loved meddling in the love lives of his friends.

Getting the Words Right by Lazchan

Summary:

Viktor is out of town and Yuuri is left alone with Team Russia

between every breath that makes you whole and mine by incode

Summary:

Yuuri wakes up feeling… not so hot.

Victor will help. Victor really, really wants to help.

(Victor hums thoughtfully, and then he disappears into the closet for a moment. When he returns, he thrusts a bundle of fabric into Yuuri’s chest.

Yuuri’s eyes go wide as he looks it over - his Team Japan jacket.)

crust and sugar over by  ShanaStoryteller

Summary:

Katsuki sits cross-legged, clearly in no hurry to go anywhere. “What’s your name? I’m –”

“I know who you are,” he cuts him off, then blushes, then hates himself for both those things. Katsuki looks surprised, and Yuri can’t think as to why. He’s a nationally ranked figure skater. He’s Yuri’s favorite figure skater.

~

Yuuri and Yuri become friends and Viktor develops a crush.

a pinprick of light by Crollalanza

Summary:

‘It’s as if all the flamboyance and fun has been used up on the ice. And now we become the grey people,’ Victor had warned Mila before her first Grand Prix banquet.

He’d not exaggerated, and the only social skills Mila was learning was how to stifle yawns before she could make a getaway.

Then Katsuki Yuuri drank a vat of champagne, and colour exploded into all their lives.

But it’s up to Mila and Sara to salvage his reputation when the events of the banquet threaten to go viral.

open up your eyes (breathe easy) by ashleypender

Summary:

Viktor loves to touch his Yuuri.

Sweet Spots by  Crazy_Gaze

Summary:

“But don’t get too comfortable. ‘Cause he’ll make you wait for it.” Phichit grumbles. “And if you don’t, next thing you know, you’re tied up, can’t move, and then he’ll laugh at you, Victor.”

Victor looks far from opposed to the idea though. “Oh…” He says, a little starstruck. “I might not be too opposed to that.”

(In which Victor and Phichit don’t really talk about Detroit but about Yuuri instead.)

To what should i compare thee with fine ass?by wepreachelectric

Summary:

a simple, Shakespearien Sonnet about chris giacometti and his fine fine ass

resting pulse by cafecliche

For something all in his head, it can be brutally physical when it wants to be. But he’s an athlete - he knows how to listen to his body, categorize and interpret its signals. It doesn’t really follow that the smallest twinge in his knee could mean a very bad season at the same time full-blown palpitations mean it’s a day that ends in Y. But bodies are weird.

Victor, though. Victor is a stress test brought to life.

(Or: a story in heartbeats.)

Silver, Skype, Seduction by  Laikin394

Summary:

Victor gives a great show. Especially, if Yuuri is the only viewer. or That one time where Victor and Yuuri are separated by different competitions and they make up for the lost time. AKA I wanted Victuuri Skype sex, let’s not pretend there’s plot in this.

a love that refuses to be silenced by wartransmission

Summary:

A year into being officially (and he doesn’t count what happened in Barcelona, because really, Viktor?) engaged and capable of sleeping with Viktor on the same bed without combusting into embarrassed flames, Yuuri learns something about his favorite skater and now-fiancé.

The Five Languages of Viktor Nikiforovby  athoroughlybakedpotato (acommontater)

Summary:

Language is not only how you understand other people, but how you learn to understand yourself.

a new day by  aquamarine_nebula

Summary:

There were three lies Viktor’s mind tried to convince him regarding his relationship with Yuuri.

First: Yuuri understood each and every one of his actions, so he had nothing to explain. Second: Yuuri was too good for him. Third: he loved Yuuri much more than Yuuri loved him.

(He was wrong about this.)

Flip, Sip, or Strip! bycutthroatpixie

Five times Yuuri totally owned at a college drinking game

(the plus one time he didn’t own at something is implied)

Figure Skators vs. Watermelon by Redawilo

Summary:

Two Russians, a Kazakhstani, and a Japanese man decide to spend a hot afternoon on a beach trying to hit a watermelon with a stick. Pure silliness ensues.

Skating Out Your Emotions by Lazchan

Summary:

Yuri is starting to wonder if he’s reading too much into Yuuri when he’s notskating, but the longer he stays in Russia, the more he notices the differences off and on the ice.

Have we got contact? by  Crollalanza

Summary:

Seung-gil hadn’t been at all sure he’d watch the competition. What he’d do instead was practise and look after his dog, catching up on the highlights later because they were the only thing that could possible be useful. But then Sara Crispino texts him, and instead of ignoring her, he finds himself drawn into the excitement of the Grand Prix Final.

And it’s not long before everyone else starts messaging.

Champagne, Vodka, and Other Spirits by  Dawn on ICE (Dawn_Blossom)

Summary:

Victor Nikiforov wouldn’t mind being dead if only the real estate agency would stop trying to sell his house.

the fall of this empire will be loud by  elesssar

Summary:

In 1991, the Soviet Union collapses. In 1989, the Berlin wall falls. In 1987, Viktor Nikiforov, iconic figure skater and darling of the USSR, defects to the United States. In 1986, Yuuri Katsuki falls in love.

Even My Feet Smile For You by ineptshieldmaid

It’s because of this - this tendency of Viktor’s to be all limbs, always moving, even when he’s relaxed - that the thing with the feet happens. Not the thing with Yuri’s feet: that happens a lot, because Viktor is not subtle in his interests and Yuri is not the kind of man to pass up on leverage like that. No, this is the thing with Viktor’s feet. The one that leads to Yuri’s most widely-screencapped and circulated instagram post ever, and also Viktor’s most infamous profile picture.

Maybe He’s Born With It (Maybe It’s Phichit) by  mousapelli

Summary:

Phichit altruistically saves Yuri from the melodramatic makeup tendencies of his fellow Russians.

Yuuri Enchanted by  the__magpie

Summary:

At birth, Yuuri Katsuki was given the gift of obedience, although he quickly learns as he grows up that it is a curse. He has to obey any command given to him, even if it puts him or others in danger. Too afraid to face the terrifying outside world, Yuuri stays in his home town of Hasetsu, until a chance encounter with Prince Victor urges him to venture outside of his safe bubble. Determined to break his curse, Yuuri begins on an adventure involving fairies, ogres, true love, and courage he never knew he had.

The Year of King JJ by  WithBroomBefore

Summary:

Yuri acknowledged, at some point, that JJ wasn’t objectively the worst person who had ever existed.

Friends First by  EternalWhiteRose

Summary:

Otabek tells his coach that he wants to retire, but of course, news travels fast. Specifically, to the other side of the country. More specifically, to America and Canada.

OR; JJ and Leo visit Otabek unannounced.

[fuckyeahbelleandrumpelstiltskin]

Emilie de Ravin returned to Once Upon a Time Friday for an emotional gut-punch hour comparable to the heartbreaking opening montage of the Pixar animated film Up — and that’s no coincidence.

After Rumple (Robert Carlyle) gave Belle (Emilie de Ravin) her very own travel book in Storybrooke, the duo set out with their young son, Gideon, to travel the world. But Rumple also confesses to searching for a way to be free of the Dark One dagger so he could live as a mortal and grow old with Belle.

After Belle discovers a fairy prophecy that sends them to the edge of realms, where time moves differently, she grows old in an Up-style montage that will absolutely break you. (If you haven’t watched it yet, prepare yourself.) On Belle’s deathbed, she reveals she purposefully misinterpreted the prophecy — it’s her death that will show Rumple the path that will lead him back to her. And thus, Belle dies. EW caught up with De Ravin to get her thoughts on the end to Belle’s tale:

ENTERTAINMENT WEEKLY: Wow, this episode is so emotional. EMILIE DE RAVIN: Yeah, it’s so nice to hear that. That’s the best word for it, right? If you want to sum it up in one word: emotional.

What was your first reaction when you learned Belle’s fate? With everything with this show, and for that matter with Lost, I never take anything as finality, because there’s always this revolving door of things. I was so excited to be able to bring their story to the fans and to bring their later years in love, and to be able to play that was really beautiful. They’ve had quite a tumultuous relationship, so for them to be able to get to a place of such acceptance with each other and themselves, and with life, and this inner peace that has washed over them. They’ve been able to now show everyone maybe you can come to a point — whether it’s with someone else or with yourself, or with both — of just having that, having life be life, an acceptance of what it is, an acceptance of living, an acceptance of dying. Her acceptance of mortality is shining a lot brighter than his acceptance or non-acceptance of immortality, which you’d expect to be the reverse in a way. That’s quite beautiful and was lovely to play. I’m going on and on, but just because able to bring full-circle their story was a blessing and I was really happy when they said they were going to do this.

What was your reaction to reading the script, or at least hearing about thisUp-esque montage? I had been briefed slightly on what the story was going to be. I’ve been reading these scripts for nearly seven years. I love reading them and always enjoy them, some more than others, but never had a reaction like this. I couldn’t stop crying. I challenged myself, like, “Okay, the second time I read it, [it’ll be easier], maybe I was just having an emotional day.” The second time I read it, I was supposed to go out to lunch afterwards. Nope, can’t do it. I called Bobby and said, “I can’t read this without crying,” he said, “I know, I’m the same way.” We’ve both had instances where our significant others were like, “Are you okay?” [Feigns crying] “Yup, just reading the script.”

What were some of those conversations like with Bobby knowing that this, in certain ways, is the end for them? The initial one was just about how beautiful this was written. Reading this script was both of our — if I can speak for him as well — favorite reads of really hitting the nail on the head with the emotion and the sensibility of these two characters, where they’ve been, where they’re going, and more to the point, the present-ness is played so [well]. It’s written such in the moment. A lot of this show is, “What’s going to happen? What has happened?” Our pasts and our futures and we’re all living in 10 different moments instead of just, “What is in front of you right now?” That really stood out to me as being so special and so lovely. As I was saying before, it’s really a big shift for them to be able to get to a place of, “We’re just going to live our life and,” in essence, “screw everything else. Let’s just be.”

What was it like filming that final scene between them as Belle comes clean about purposefully misinterpreting the prophecy before dying? Especially with that makeup and prosthetics. Oh no, I just laid out in the sun for a few days. It was all me. [Laughs] From now on, I will only be playing grandmas. Just putting that out there. [Laughs] That was the hardest day of work, that scene. It was really emotional. The feeling and vibe on set was so special and so respectful and loving and warm. It brought out a lot of feelings for a lot of the crew and cast. I suppose it was really just me and Bobby and the crew that day, but we were so lucky to have Mick Garris as our director, who is a lovely guy and such a sensitive man. He did a beautiful job with the episode. It’s such a safe — safe is probably the best word. I felt very safe and respected that whole day. But it was sad, we were crying. It was very hard to stop crying between takes. It was hard for me as I was trying to, as Emilie, not cry watching Bobby — not as the characters. I really wanted Belle to be, in essence, the strong one of accepting her moving on to whatever she believes is the next chapter after mortal existence, and being the strong one for him as well as for herself, and not breaking down. You can’t have her breaking down and crying all over her prosthetics. [Laughs] That was probably the biggest challenge because Bobby’s performance was so beautiful to watch. Yeah, definitely a difficult night to go to sleep after that as well, when you’re so enveloped in doing something that’s that intense, and that you’re dying, so it brings up a lot of personal feelings and emotions.

There is obviously a prophecy of how Rumple can find his way back to Belle, so is there any chance you’ll come back to the show for whenever that does happen? If the prophecy figures itself out, I’m sure Belle will be there. I would think. You know, as she says so beautifully, they’ve come back to each other many, many times. I love that she keeps her sarcasm until the end too, it’s pretty cute. From the get-go of their relationship, it’s been a coming and going, a push and pull of “Are they together or are they not?” Are they going to figure things out? They always do. There’s always been that incredibly strong bond and connection that they have, so I don’t think a realm is going to get in the way of that. But who knows?

With all those exits at the end of last season, we didn’t get to hear too much from you about how it feels to leave the show. Is there anything else you wish you had gotten to do with Belle on Once Upon a Time? I still wish I got to ride a horse. [Laughs] I do! It was the one thing I remember saying in season 1 or season 2 to the question, “What would you like to do?” “I’m such an animal lover, I had animals growing up, I’d love to ride a horse. Everyone else is riding horses!” Cut to season 5, they write me in that Gaston episode, “Her Handsome Hero,” riding on a horse, but by that episode I was seven months pregnant. They wrote most of the horse riding out and then used a double. But as far as character-wise, I do wish we would’ve been able to delve more into Belle’s past as a child, as a teenager, or even as a younger woman and learn a little bit more about her family dynamic and her early life, and what shaped her into the young woman that we met in “Skin Deep.”

What’s been your favorite moment on the show? I’m kind of torn now, because I really love this episode [“Beauty”]. I’ve always said my favorite episode is “Skin Deep.” I love that episode and it’s a perfect depiction of these characters. We learn so much in one episode. I have two favorite actual moments now, and one is from that episode that’s repeated in this episode. It’s not even a scene, it’s literally a moment when she falls from the curtains in “Skin Deep” and he catches her, because it’s such a pivotal moment, it’s such a turning point for their relationship. It’s not just a pretty shot or a cool visual, which I think it is, but it just changes everything. That’s mimicked in “Beauty,” which is just heartbreaking, but another pivotal moment for them.

As an actress, what do you think is your biggest takeaway from your time on Once Upon a Time? Is there anything you learned about yourself over the last six years or so? I always like to learn. I always think there’s no cap on learning. That just goes on and on. Everything I do, I try to take something from. I’ve learned so much. I’ve been blessed 1,000 times being able to work with Bobby. I’ve been a fan of his work for so long, he’s an incredibly talented man. Being able to do probably 90 percent of my work with him has just been a dream. As an actor, I’ve learned so much from him. In regards to playing Belle, it’s given me insights. I think I have a little more of a questioning attitude with myself like, “Am I being honest with myself? Am I doing this for myself or for someone else?” I think that’s something Belle has asked herself many times and has had to work through herself as well. “Am I in this relationship? Am I doing this for me?” Not that everything has to be self-centered, but, “Is this good for me? Or is this actually really toxic to me and I’m doing it because I feel obligated?” Finding that balance that she’s had to find is something I’ve taken away personally as well.

What’s next for you? There are things in the works right now, but I’ve taken the last few months off to be a mom, because I’ve been working since I had my daughter a year and a half ago, so I was just very excited to be able to do that. That’s what’s happening right now. And at this second, I’m on the way to the airport to meet some awesome Once Upon a Time fans in Atlanta for a convention. It’s been pretty cool and really nice. A lot of us have been doing these conventions and it’s been so nice to be able to hear from people firsthand of how much they like the show or how it has affected him. The coolest thing is how people are being brought together by this truly lovely family that watches together. It’s very heartwarming.

What do you want to say to the OUAT fans on the night of your exit? First, I hope you enjoy it. I love all you guys, and the fans are why we do this show, and why it’s still on. The episode tonight is really, really special and close to my heart. Bring a box of tissues or two, not just for sad tears, for happy tears. It’s really beautiful. And let me know what you think! Write me on Twitter or Instagram. I’d love to hear what everyone thinks. Snuggle up and enjoy, and I love you.

[hesyungblud]

Wide Eyed

A/N: i hope everyone enjoys this one as much as Dusk Till Dawn and keep your eyes peeled at the end for a surprise ;) aesthetic is made by me as always so if you’re gonna steal it, at least credit ya girl please. thanks to @sensualshawn for always helping me write. i try my best to get rid of all typo’s but there are probably some still hiding in there. please bare in mind that i am british and some spellings may be different to american spelling. enjoy!

- word count: 1,887 - warnings: none, kinda smutty - blurb: shawn frustrates his new housemate with his annoying habits but end up getting a little too close during a house party

You slammed the toilet seat down for what felt like the millionth time this week. Sighing and adjusting the towel at your chest, feeling somewhat frustrated and even a little angry. You marched your way from the bathroom along the short corridor into the open plan lounge and kitchen where you set your eyes on your new housemate.

“Shawn,” You began, running a hand through your wet hair, sighing as though you wondered why you were bothering telling him off again. “For the umpteenth time, when you use the toilet - would it kill you to put the seat back down?”

He looked at you sheepishly as he scoffed a piece of toast, a mug of coffee in his hand as he brought it to his lips, sipping it quickly. The smirk behind the small ceramic piece of crockery was clearly evident.

“Sorry,” He chuckled, shrugging his shoulders with a smile as he dried his damp hair with a towel and he gave you one of those looks you’d become accustomed to over the last week.

Gross, you thought. Boys are gross.

you were also lying to yourself, you wanted to think he was gross but quite frankly - seeing him stood in the kitchen wearing nothing but a pair of grey sweats, his skin still damp from the shower, smirking at your the way he did, he was definitely not gross. Anything but gross.

“And next time, could you warn me if you’re going to have a shower at the same time as me? I had to cut mine short and the water went freezing cold,” You shivered, throwing Shawn an unimpressed look as you made your way back to your bedroom, feeling his eyes burning through you.

You usually wouldn’t have made a fuss, but after everything else he’d done that had pissed you off this week, you had to say something. Even if you were looking like something out of a horror movie with panda eyes because you couldn’t be bothered to take your makeup off last night.

You barely knew the guy, a week if that but he made you want to scream every time he did even the slightest thing to annoy yours. (And he also made you want to scream by how damn good looking he was). This wasn’t what you signed up for. To have the potential to start to fall for a guy who was clearly out of reach. He spent most of his life on the road, performing to his adoring fans. you weren't even looking for anything, you were happy being single and when a relationship was to arise in the future, you doubted it would be with your pop sensation housemate and his 27 thousand annoying habits.

First, he stole your favourite mug and left it in his bedroom for 3 days. Then he continued to let his crockery pile up in the sink without giving a thought to wash them. The late nights, staying up until 2, sometimes even 3 in the morning in his studio playing his guitar, piano, singing, trying to get the right words out for his new album. You wondered if he was ever going to learn, or at least spare a thought for his neighbours (and yourself) and buy a pair of headphones.

You didn’t quite grasp what you’d gotten yourself into, until yesterday when you stepped out of the new complex you were living in, to be greeted by a group of fans. They were asking after Shawn, to which you gave them a bemused look and excused yourself as you carried on with your day. You knew he was somewhat famous, but you were unaware just how famous. You’d been speaking to Shawn’s manager, Andrew since the day you saw the advert for a room to rent in a beautiful condo overlooking Toronto (not to mention, smack bang in the view of the CN Tower).

You thought this place would be perfect for you, knowing your housemate was away on tour etc throughout most of the year. You’d get the entire place to yourself the majority of your time so if you could just get through this whilst Shawn was around, you could get through anything.

You could appreciate how and why people got infatuated by him. His voice and talent improved more and more with every time that you heard him sing or heard him play the piano, the guitar. He was attractive, traditionally good looking and you could see why he had so many fans all over the globe. You should count yourself lucky, getting to live with him but in all honesty, you didn’t really understand it and you paid no mind to it, pop star or not. We’re all the same on the inside. Maybe you were too old and had outgrown those types of phases.

And if you were really being honest, if he continued to look at you the way he’d been looking at your for the past week, you knew it wasn’t going to end well.

*

“I can tell this is turning you on, you know,” You froze, the breath hitching in your throat as Shawn’s lips made their way to that damn weak spot on your neck again. Your legs were about to give way, your insides were quaking. You were turned on, there was no lie about that - but you didn’t want to give in to him this easily. It was just a house party, the two of you weren’t the only people who may have had a few too many drinks and ended up making out.

“What are you talking about?” You breathed out, barely a whisper as his lips pressed into your skin, again and again, making you arch your back. With your mouth slightly parted, you wanted to moan as loud as you could but also desperately not wanting to give in to this feeling just yet, so you sucked a breath in silently.

“Your pulse is racing, I can feel it,” He licked, sucked and grazed his teeth over the space on your skin as the blood pumped through the vein in your neck. At the same time, he ran his thumb gently across your wrist, pushing against the vein as he sort of pinned you to the window. Your mind was running away with you, wondering what else he could do with that seemingly very skilled mouth of his from what you’d experienced so far.

“I’m just cold, we are outside on the balcony in case you’d forgotten, it is night time,” You laughed, trying to make up some lame excuse to cover up the fact that yes, your pulse was racing so fast that you weren't sure if it was the alcohol that was making your dizzy or the adrenaline running through your veins.

“It’s like, 21 degrees out. How can you be cold?” Shawn muttered into your skin as his lips moved expertly to the column of your throat. If you were going to moan, now wouldn’t be the time because he could feel even the slightest little sound from vibrations as his lips grazed over your voice box. You were still trying to act coy for some unknown other reason, it almost felt like a challenge for you trying to keep quiet and you kind of liked it.  It made Shawn more determined to keep trying to get you to react to his actions and you weren’t complaining.

“You’ve got me pressed up against a window pane at night, this dress is backless, I think I have a right to be cold,” You grabbed at his chest, fisting the bunched up material of his shirt in your palm as you pulled his body closer to you, even though there was no more space between your bodies, it wasn’t enough.

“I mean, I can stop if you w-”

“No, no, don’t fucking stop,” You half moaned, half pleaded in the heat of the moment. As soon as you heard him say the word stop, your body went into overdrive not wanting to lose the contact you already had with him. He chuckled, his breath tickling your neck and you swear he’s already wrecked you. Completely ruined you.

“Alright, no need to beg me,” He teased, one of his hands threading through your hair at the back of your neck as he kissed you on the mouth hard, catching you off guard as he swallowed a moan. Finally, you thought. You’d given into him and there was no going back now.

“You’re such an asshole,” You muttered against his lips as he took your bottom lip between his lips, biting it softly as his fingers danced up your thighs to your lips, where they rested firmly.

“You love it though,” Shawn cooed, his eyes pouring into yours as he subconsciously ran his tongue over his bottom lip. It drove you crazy, it made you ache to wonder what else that tongue could do to you as you got distracted by it.

“Is it that obvious?” You almost slurred, unable to string a sentence together with the feeling of having Shawn this close to you. He threw his head back and laughed. Like an actual full-blown, throaty, cheeky giggle. You wanted to pounce on him more than anything right now but you didn’t want to seem like that kind of girl, you were probably already reeking of desperation and that was the last thing you wanted but you couldn’t help the way your new housemate made you feel.

“No, not really honey, don’t worry,” He laughed deep into his throat which made your stomach flip. “But I’m pretty sure this will tell me if you love it though,”

And with those words, all in the space of a few seconds - his fingers dragged over your dress from your hip, down to the skin on your inner thigh and further. You bit your lip, looking up at Shawn and he pretty much asked for your permission with the look in his eyes, which could talk a thousand words with how expressive he was. You nodded, wanting him to touch you and he did, he dragged his thumb over your underwear and you bit your lip hard, a little too hard as you tasted blood. You tried to hold your moan in but it didn’t work as well as you hoped.

“It’s hot when you do that, you should do it more,” Shawn cooed as he moved his thumb over you again, now knowing how completely and utterly soaked you were for him and you couldn’t play it coy anymore. He’d broken down those walls you’d built up in no time at all and you didn’t even mind.

“How did we end up here?” You mumbled against his lips as his thumb moved away from where you craved his touch the most and you almost felt a little deflated, sighing heavily as you broke off the kiss.

“I don’t know, but I need to get rid of everyone inside. I need to take you to bed, I want you,” Shawn’s voice was now somewhat hungry as he kissed you one last time before heading back inside, leaving you alone with your thoughts, wondering what the rest of the night with him would bring.

SURPRISE! THERE MAY (PROBABLY) BE A PART 2 COMING SOON WHERE THE SMUTTINESS ENSUES...

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I was tagged by @hummingbirdcas (yay does this mean we can be friends)

rules: answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people (lol I don’t know 20 people on here to even tag so it’ll probably be like 1)

1. Last drink: Diet Coke

2. Last phone call: my friend Sumner

3. Last text message: a video of a really cute dog to my mom and uncle

4. Last song you listened to: the final song from pitch perfect 1 (I’m working on learning the dance to it)

5. Last time you cried: surprisingly I don’t remember, it’s been a little while

6. Dated someone twice: nope no thank you

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: well not like right after but now I just generally regret having dated 2 of my exes so I guess yeah

8. Been cheated on: nope

9. Lost someone special: by death, no; by end of a friendship, yeah

10. Been depressed: I mean not like medically so no I guess? Not sure exactly what this is asking

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: twice. It’s not pleasant. The mere thought of redds apple ale makes me nauseous now

Fav colors

12. Emerald green

13. Dark teal

14. Dark purple

(basically I just love jewel tones ‘kay)

In the last year have you...

15. Made new friends?: yes, tons, because I came to college

16. Fallen out of love?: nope

17. Laughed until you cried?: this basically happens every time I laugh so yes

18. Found out someone was talking about you?: nope

19. Met someone who changed you?: I mean I became a partier when I came to school and met my friends here and I didn’t think I would so I guess kinda

20. Found out who your friends are?: yep definitely

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook friends list?: nope

General

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life?: all of them

23. Do you have any pets?: a dog named Bob Wiley

24. Do you want to change your name?: nah

25. What did you do for your last birthday?: went to the beach with most of my best friends, saw dolphins, ate cake, it was by far the best birthday I’ve ever had

26. What time did you wake up today?: 7 am

27. What were you doing at midnight last night?: getting back to my dorm from my weekly trivia night

28. What’s something you can’t wait for?: being in a stable job that I enjoy

29. What are you listening to right now?: nothing but I’m watching the office

30. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom?: yes

31. Something that’s getting on your nerves?: when my roommate watches Netflix out loud while I’m trying to do homework (it doesn’t happen often but when it does it drives me nuts)

32. Most visited website: tumblr or Twitter

33. Hair color: dark brown

34. Hair length: it’s pretty long rn

35. Do you have a crush on someone: yes

36. What do you like about yourself: uhhhh I like my acting talents, I like my hair usually, I like my makeup skills, I like my baking and cookie decorating abilities

37. Want any piercing: well I passed out just getting my ears pierced so it’s a no from me

38. Blood type: O-

39. Nicknames: well maggie is a nickname for Margaret, mags, magg-o, tiny mags, pagegoat, marijuana maggie (that’s just from 2 of my friends and it’s a long story)

40. Relationship status: it’s complicated

41. Zodiac: Gemini (I know everyone hates us)

42. Pronouns: she/her

43. Fav tv shows: supernatural, Sherlock, the office, friends, psych, monk, Smallville, lost, probably something else I’m forgetting

44. Tattoos: none yet but I’m getting one sometime soon hopefully

45. Right or left handed: right

46. Ever had surgery: I had a cyst removed from my neck when I was 8, and I had scoliosis corrective surgery when I was 16 so I have a pretty rad scar all the way down my spine

47. Piercings: just regular old earlobes

48. Sport: uh....... choreography for musicals??

49. Vacation: basically anywhere in Italy, NYC, Germany, Austria

50. Trainers: no clue what that means

More general

51. Eating: just had some chick fil a and a donut

52. Drinking: still my Diet Coke

53. I’m about to watch: well I’m currently watching the office so

54. Waiting for: this is very vague but I’m gonna go with Thursday for the next supernatural episode

55. Want: for every store and restaurant and website to accept PayPal to make my life easier

56. Get married: I mean not anytime soon but someday

57. Career: work in NYC for either a publishing company or a magazine in editing

Which is better (I’m assuming these are in relation to a potential SO)

58. Hugs or kisses: depends on the person I guess?

59. Lips or eyes: eyes

60. Shorter or taller: enough taller that I can wear heels

61. Older or younger: within a year younger or 2 years older

62. Nice arms or stomach: both please?

63. Hookup or relationship: def relationship

64. Troublemaker or hesitant: little of both depending on situation

Have you ever

65. Kissed a stranger: nope

66. Drank hard liquor: yep

67. Lost glasses: maybe when I was little but not recently

68. Turned someone down: yep

69. Sex on first date: nope

70. Broken someone’s heart: yep

71. Had your heart broken: yep

72. Been arrested: nope

73. Cried when someone died: not that I recall

74. Fallen for a friend: yep, several times

Do you believe in

75. Yourself: yes? Most of the time?

76. Miracles: depends on definition of that but tentatively yes

77. Love at first sight: nope

78. Santa clause: sadly no

79. Kiss on first date: I didn’t realize that was a belief but yeah

80. Angels: yes

Other

81. Best friend’s name: tim

82. Eye color: technically hazel but they’re really green with just a little ring of brown around my pupil

83. Fav movie: uhhh all the back to the futures, o brother whereart thou, beauty and the beast new and old, Chicago, Groundhog Day, what about bob?, HP and the half blood prince

84. Fav actor: misha collins, cole sprouse, Alan rickman, Martin freeman (and not just cuz of Sherlock I swear), bill Murray, Christopher Lloyd, Tim curry, I know there are others I’m forgetting

hey @southerntinkerbelle if you wanna do this knock yourself out it literally took me like a week to actually get all of this typed out cuz I kept not having time to finish it

[littledonkeyburrito]

It’s tequila and beer so I shouldn’t be surprised

1. Do you prefer boys to shave down there? I prefer trimmed. I don’t want to feel like I’m fucking a well-endowed 12 year old but I also don’t want to be yanking all his hair out when I’m giving a handjob. Tbh it’s not a strong preference though. He can do what he wants.

2. Do you prefer liquid, mousse or powder foundation? Why? Powder because it feels less gross. I don’t generally wear any makeup though

3. How much does your mother know about your sex life (or lack thereof)? Mum knows a very small amount, but more than Dad knows. She knows I’ve dated two guys, at least.

4. Do you enjoy watching cooking shows? Not my scene

5. Do you worry about gaining weight? I don’t.

6. Have you ever used fake tan? No. In fact, I get a little weirded out when I have a real tan because my hands don’t look like my hands

7. How do you organize your make-up? There isn’t much. Doesn’t really need organising

8. Do you ever look at someone cute, and automatically make a move? No. Except maybe if I’m extremely drunk...

9. Do you live in a house, apartment, or another type of arrangement? Apartment

10. What’s one event your town has that you don’t like to participate in? I don’t know all of Barcelona’s festivities. Brisbane has the Ekka which is fun. Things I don’t like to participate in would probably be sporting events like marathons and such.

11. Are any of your siblings married? What are their spouses’ names? No.

12. Does your father have any creepy or scary friends you don’t like? A couple of Dad’s friends are slightly seedy but just in a regular old white dude way, not in a legit creepy way. They’re all fairly nice.

13. Do you watch any shows that you know your parents wouldn’t approve of? Yeah, Dad hates almost everything American.

14. What venue was the last real concert you went to at? Some showground in Madrid for a music festival.

15. Does your best friend and their mom have the same last name? Yes. Well, half. She has both parents’ last names.

16. What color is your cellphone? Black

17. Are you currently waiting for a phone call? From whom? Yes, I was supposed to get a call back from my health insurance company today. I’ll have to call them again tomorrow. At least I have a number to the english customer service line now.

18. Do you have any drugs in your bedroom? No

19. Is there a feature on your face that people compliment you on? Occasionally eyes I guess

20. What are your plans for the rest of the week? Figuring out how to get my luggage to weigh less than when I came to this country so I don’t have to pay extra baggage fees.

21. How many studded belts do you own? None.

22. Has your boyfriend/girlfriend ever had braces? Don’t have a partner.

23. What have you eaten today?

 Spicy rice soup, tabooleh, a mandarin, some chocolate

24. What’s your favorite thing to do? The thing that comes to mind is having dinner or drinks with my friends, possibly because I haven’t been able to do that for a year.

25. Did you wear a jacket today? Yes, I wore my coat when I went out

26. Have you kissed more than two people of the same sex? Yeah.

27. How many times have you had sex in one day? Twice 

28. Did you exercise at all today? Not on purpose

29. Would you ever move far away for a job opportunity? That’s the plan. Once I’m back in Australia I’m going to be applying for jobs in Spain and Central America in my field and if I get offered something with a liveable salary then I’ll move.

30. Are you too shy/embarrassed to tell people your middle name? No

31. If not, what is it? No bc internet

32. What day of the week is garbage day on your street? Three times every day.

33. What is something new you learned today? That my grocery store sells pigs ears, and that the drink “desperados” does not taste good (it’s tequila and beer so I shouldn’t be surprised)

34. Do you need a haircut? Yes

35. Can you say the alphabet backwards? If I try

36. When was the last time you ate popcorn? It’s been a while. I finally learned that popcorn is not worth the dry cracked lips and the kernel shells stuck in my teeth and gums for all eternity

37. Do you like eating out at restaurants? Cheap restaurants. The more expensive they get, the less I enjoy the atmosphere.

38. Is your name common? In Australia it is, but not in Spain.

39. Do you look older or younger than your actual age? Younger. I got asked ID the other day for the first time in like 6 months. And also a cab driver thought I was 16.

40. Were you ever a Pokemon fan? Yes

41. If you could get rid of one season, which one would you choose? Six

42. Have you ever performed in front of a large group? Yes

43. Are you hungry right now? No, I’ve eaten so much today

44. Have you ever had the chicken pox? My brother got the chicken pox during the school holidays with the whole fever, mild hallucinations, etc. So mum went and got me the vaccine (the last needle I was ever scared of bc in the end it wasn’t so bad). Then I got the spots start to show up and school had just started again so I got 4 days off school. We later found out that because of the needle I wasn’t contagious at all. I never had a fever or illness at all, just the itchy spots. My brother was pissed. 44. How often do you do laundry? About once a week.

45. Do you know anyone who snores? Both my parents, the last guy I slept with, this one guy I was friends with in school. Nobody else immediately comes to mind. 46. Would you make a good movie critic? No, I’m too nice. 47. What goal are you aiming for this year? Pay off debt and start saving again so I get the fuck out of Brisbane again within a year or two. 48. What’s the farthest you’ve walked? In one day? I think about 25-30km 49. What does your favorite shirt look like? I think my current fave would be my dark red tshirt with little white birds on it. I also like my denim button-up and my netflix tshirt 50. What made you feel most accomplished in you’re life so far? Being able to earn enough money in a job that I love to be able to move to Europe for a year after learning a whole new language. 51. What can’t you afford but wish you could? I can’t afford to stay in Spain :(

Last 10 people in your Facebook messages inbox: (I’m excluding group chats)

1.       Joh

2.       Me (had to write a number while on the phone and didn’t have a pen)

3.       Kym

4.       Emily

5.       Bronwyn

6.       Dad

7.       Aman

8.       Pegler

9.       Leisa

10.     Brenda

1. How long have you known 1? 4 years

2. When did you meet 2? At birth

3. When was the last time you saw 3? Yesterday

4. Have you and 4 ever gotten into trouble together before? No

5. How old is 5? 47

6. Have you ever taken a shower at 6’s house? Many, because I grew up in that house

7. Have you ever taken a dump at 7’s house? Lol, no.

8. Have you ever thought about going out with 8? No

9. What about 9? She’s my auntie

10. Would you ever go out with 10 or ask 10 out? No, she’s my dad’s friend

11. What’s the best memory you have had with 1? Too many to choose just one

12. What’s 2′s lastname? yeah nah

13. Would you ever take a bullet for 3? Probs not, soz

14. What would you do if 4 died? I'd be sad

15. What would you do if you found out 5 killed someone that you were related to? That would be horrible since we’re related to the same people

16. Would you take care of 6 if they were sick? Yes

17. Would you kill 7 if it was the only way for your other friends to survive? Yeah... if it was the only way then I would

18. Has 8 ever cooked for you? We lived together for 3 years but I don’t think so..? Maybe we occasionally offered each other leftovers but we never specifically cooked for each other

19. How many times have you and 9 fought? Never in my memory

20. Have you and 10 ever cried together? No

21. Have you and 1 ever kissed? Lol yes every time we get drunk together

22. Do you ever dream of 2? Almost always

23. Is 3 a boy? No.

24. Does 4 have any kids? No

25. Do you want to marry 5? I do not want to marry my aunt 26. How did you meet 1? At an event we were both at and then we ran in the same circles 

27. What was your first impression of 2? I do not remember when I became self-aware 28. Would you ever date 3? No. She is my dad’s married friend with 3 kids 29. Are 4 and 5 friends? They have never met

30. Who is 6 going out with? Sharon, who he lives with 31. Is 7 a boy or girl? I feel weird calling him a “boy” because I used to sleep with him. He is a man. Aman, a man. A man called Aman. 32. What would you think if 8 became your stepbrother/sister? I don’t think either of his parents are a suitable match for my parents but he’d be a kickass brother 33. Is #9 a dork? No, not really

34. What is a random fact about #10? She’s Irish 35. Who does #1 have a crush on? Probably his boyfriend 36. Does #2 have any stalkers? No, I don’t 37. If #3 said they were in love with you, what would you say? It would be very inappropriate and I would say that it makes me uncomfortable.

38. Is #4 hott? I’m sure her husband thinks so. She is pretty though. 39. Who is #5 best friends with? idk 40. Does #6 have good fashion sense? Not especially, but if he tried to dress young he’d look worse. What he wears works for him. 41. Is #7 single? I think so. If he’s not then I’d wonder why he’s messaging me and saying he wants to meet up when I’m back. 42. Would #8 and #9 make a cute couple? God no