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I think Andrew's desperation to live is a little overlooked in the fandom. It's not explicitly stated in the books, other than his SH scars, but I honestly think it is so important to understanding him and his motivations.
Did Andrew ever plan to live past graduation? Before Kevin came along and promised his life would have worth? Did he plan on disappearing when Aaron eventually walked away from him? Believing nobody would notice if he was gone?
He clung on purely for Aaron, to make sure Aaron had a bright future ahead and could go live without him. To make sure that Nicky could go back to Erik without worry.
Before Neil, Andrew didn't believe he had anything to live for. He made a very one sided deal with Kevin to find something, anything, to build his life around after graduation, believing his brother would leave him alone once again.
Because at the heart of it all, Andrew doesn't want to die. Not really.
Andrew has chronic depression and he is suicidal. He sits on the edges of roof tops to feel. He puts his life on the line again and again with little regard for his own safety. He makes promises that put him at a severe disadvantage.
His promises are what keeps him alive, what forces him to live. Dying would break his promise, and Andrew has suffered enough from broken promises.
He doesn't want to die. He wants to survive those who beat him down. He wants to move on. He wants to get better. He wants to live.
He just doesn't know how.
#i wonder if andrew saw himself in neil#death as the end but wanting to live#trying to live#because andrew tries so hard to live#i love him your honor#aftg#all for the game#andrew minyard#the foxhole court#kevin day#aaron minyard#twinyards#aftg andrew
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listening to the hackney diamonds live âalbumâ [those like 7 songs that they recorded live] and itâs honestly so jarring how much better the new material is without the horrific production, like truly just astounded the production of the album was so horrible that a group of 80 year old men just fucking around on stage sounds so much better ? youâd think itâd be the other way around but alas andrew watt seems to be in a competition with himself to see how horrendous he can make an album sound via production
#i like the album and all but i had to train my ears to not hear the production which is⊠not good#the first listen i tried not to let it effect my thoughts on the actual music but it was very hard to ignore#like my heart dropped when the first line of keithâs song came on and he sounded SO autotuned#i think itâs a fine album#good turn your brain off stones music#not like as good or as bad as other albums#but that production is so horrific#it sounds really good live which i guess is what matters since thatâs what you really really pay to see#but like andrew watt really fucked it up in the studio#which sucks ! because this is proof that you really do not need to be doing all that#and iâve said a few times but it should not have been *that* obvious keith wasnât behind the boards at all#like him and mick produce in a way you barely notice and so having so much production made it so bad đ#tired of andrew watt is a savior narrative because he really dropped the ball and im terrified for him to do new music with other artists#tbh#itâs really reallyâŠ. mmmm#also if the stones release another album with the hackney outtakes they better not go with watt again#he deserves to be locked in a closet#stones
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Ok let's talk about this line (because I'm slightly obsessed with the complexities of Kevin, Riko, and the portrayal of trauma and abuse in AFTG).
"...precarious line between beloved brother and punching bag."
A thing AFTG does well is the way it consistently presents abusive relationships as relationships. Sometimes in media, an abusive relationship is seen as a situation where one party is the controlling abuser and one is the fearful victim. Sometimes a victim feels that last straw break, becomes disillusioned and leaves for good. It leaves the audience with a morally righteous sense of, "GOOD. GOOD FOR THEM. They deserve so much better." And it's so tempting to see the situation as something black and white. That's the narrative Neil and Andrew see in Kevin's situation. They think he's too scared of Riko even though Riko can't do anything to him anymore, that he should have considered all emotional and material ties to Riko severed the moment Riko broke his hand. In a way, they're absolutely right.
But it's not that simple. Kevin tells them it's not that simple. Jean knows from experience it's not that simple. Kevin and Riko weren't just two sides of a violent situation, perpetrator and victim. They had a real, substantive relationship as brothers and allies. Whatever toxic and twisted form it took, it was still built upon all the same things as a normal relationship: shared history, shared goal, shared emotions, an understanding of each other, and some form of mutual give and take.
Perhaps you can walk away easily from someone whom you've never had a relationship with, who has done nothing but hurt you, like Neil and his father or Jean and Grayson. But it's harder when the abuse comes from someone you've formed a relationship with.
Jean can't stop missing Riko, Zane, and the Ravens even though he hates them and can't be more relieved to be free of them. Neil has meltdowns when he's reminded of his mother (who was still abusive despite how much she loved him and how she tried to protect him with her life) even though he's also glad to be free of her so that he can finally live his life.
"It didn't matter how much Riko hurt him; they'd spent too many years completely wrapped up in each other"
Good people can do bad things and bad people can do good things. That's what makes it so hard to get out of abuse situations sometimes. You can be forever altered by the trauma they caused you but it doesn't erase the memory of the good moments that meant something to both of you and probably will still always mean something to you.
And ok, perhaps Riko had never been actually good to Kevin. But if you've spent your entire life where "manageable" is as good as it gets, guess what, "manageable" is your definition of "good". Good or not, Riko and Kevin still grew up together, trained together, travelled together, won together. They made each other better at the one thing their lives revolved around. They shared in each others' secrets. They were praised together when they won and shared each other's pain when they failed at something. Besides exy, each other was all they had. And none of that stops being true even when Riko beats the shit out of Kevin or punishes him for stepping out of line or even when he breaks his hand.
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In an au where milo has siblings that aren't Maya and Ollie, what would they be like and how would it affect the canon lore in miloverse?
Finally, I can answer this askâš
Sorry for the long wait, I ended up pretty busy with my job and was backed up with loads of asks (I donât like mixing my doodles unless itâs just one or two but I had HUNDREDS of asks about All for the fish and decided to just pick through and answer as many as I dared)
Anyways! For Other Kids AU (aka separate âwhat ifâ AUs where the Foxes have other or more kids)
Ofc I thought of more andreil kids. What do you take me for? The aftg brainrot is my diseaseâđ
â ïž this is not canon to Weâll Both Be Fine or Miloâs main story in general. This is a what if situation â ïž
Admittedly, they could have been canon but andreil didnât care about having more children. Milo was enough for them.
The first kid is Connie (Conner David) born 2011. Andrew and Neil decide not to deletus the fetus and so Connie is born. It is actually Nicky who gets to name him :)
Milo is very happy and emotional about having a little brother and tries to involve himself in every second of his life. They grow up very close, Connie looking up to Milo a bit.
Connie likes writing, cookies with jam, and spring
Dislikes conflict, chewing gum, and his freckled eyes (has eye nevus)
Second are the twins, Honey (Miela Marie) and Niko (Nicholas Nolan) both born 2014. Very simple decision from andreil that since Connie went well, why not test fate? And then they had twins who tried to make their lives hell. Andreil let the Foxes brainstorm names and send their best picks for andreil to choose through before narrowing it down to six (three if itâs a girl and three if itâs a boy) (they didnât know itâd be twins) and let the foxes make a unanimous decision. The foxes decided on Nolan for a boy and Miela for a girl. Andrew and Neil ended up naming the boy Nicholas (Nicky cried about it for days) and gave Miela the middle name Marie after Abby.
Although Milo loves his new siblings, the twins are very hard to deal with and whine to him about every thing instead of andreil. The kids are also a bit air headed and tend to be hurtful without meaning to. When Milo goes to college, he finds out that they replace him with Connie who takes care of them as if they were his kids. (Admittedly, they love Connie more and it hurts Miloâs feelings)
Honey likes apiculture, traveling, food
Dislikes sitting still, sharing her things, being told what to do
Niko likes sports, napping, living life to the fullest
Dislikes being active (when itâs not sports), alcohol, explaining himself (he canât)
Old concept designs when I was first making them
Some facts:
- Honey and Niko donât consider Milo their brother but not in a malicious way. In their weird minds, heâs too old and different (however, they consider him family the same way Nicky, Aaron, Kevin, and Robin are)
- Honey lives with Nicky and Erik in Germany. She goes to school there
- Connie briefly lived with Stuart in the UK for two years, studying literature and journalism
- Niko doesnât like playing exy but he goes pro as a hockey player since itâs similar
- they all call Milo something different. Connie calls him Brother or Milo, Honey calls him Mywo (Me - Woah), Niko calls him Lio or Em
- Milo used to take the kids to school (either walking or driving) since the twins were in daycare
- each kid is represented by one of the many animals that represent Milo. The rabbit (Connie), the bird (Honey) and the cat (Niko). With them, Milo is the dog. (Each animal makes up a part of Miloâs personality)
-âŹïž specific animals: White bunny (Connie) summer tanager (Honey) orange tabby (Niko) Wolf or Fox (Milo). However if they were Milo; New Zealand rabbit, Crow, and Red Siberian cat
- Maya would not be born in this au because at that point, theyâd have their hands full with the twins and thereâs no reason to have another. Ollie would have not been adopted either
#all for the other kids#aftg#all for the game#art#doodles#oc#oc art#milo josten#miloverse#andreil#andreil kid au#Connie Minyard-Josten#Honey Minyard-Josten#Niko Minyard-Josten
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the merits of the twinyards learning to show their love for each other in slow stilted actions r a lot. for me. to me. little things. aaron buying andrew his favorite sweets because he remembers his picky eating tendencies; andrew throwing a blanket over aaron passed out in the living room after pulling an all-nighter. opening up more during their sessions w bee, angry accusations n cold statements melting into talking abt hurts n what shaped them growing up which becomes even conversation n learning abt each other more ( to beeâs not so small delight.)
the glares n perpetual scowls aaron once wore in andrew presence turn into smth more knowing n relaxed. he thinks one day heâll be able to forgive andrew for tildaâs death; knowing the reasons behind it now, how andrew did it for his sake. (when he tells andrew that he thought he was going to die, during the days he was locked in that bathroom, his voice is raw. andrewâs face shutters. then, he says in what is possibly the closest thing to regret aaron has ever heard from andrew, âIf I could make what you experienced during that time less painful, I would.â n really whatâs done is done n thereâs no going back, but aaron needed some sort of closure, smth, anything ! so he turns away n tries not to shake from all the emotions of what heâs feeling. andrew sits there n waits for him to return to normal.) andrew begins to make eye contact w aaron, he stops looking thru himâchoosing to acknowledge his existence, instead. he sees how aaron is making an effort, clumsily attempting to prove that he isnât letting andrew go, in spite of everything. (â Iâm not going anywhere. I hate you, but Iâm still not going anywhere.â aaron says defiantly during one session where andrew said smth abt aaron going on his merry way after graduation. it shocks andrew. he stills suddenly n itâs v hard for him to look away from aaronâs blazing eyes. âDo what you like.â andrew replies stiffly. itâs acceptance n permission wrapped up in one.)
they learn how to mend the fragments of their broken past so they can both move forward. aaron releasing his resentment of andrew slowly but surely. andrew allowing himself to think of aaron as more than someone who will disappear one day, someone permanent in his life. they talk to each other !!! they meet up to do thingsâin complete silence sometimes, with small comments here n there in other times. after graduation, andrew goes to play on the east coast while aaron does med school elsewhere. itâs a big change. itâs difficult, often times. aaron will look next to himself with words on the tip of his tongue, then realize andrew is not around. andrew will look behind him as he traverses the streets of nyc, hand outstretched as tho to hold onto smth, a shirt perhaps, forgetting that aaron is not there.
But!!!
the two of them call each other once a year,month, weekâ the occurrences gradually becoming more n more frequent. 3 years pass by. andrew is in town for a game. afterwards, he meets up w aaron for a drink. itâs quiet. not uncomfortable. they take each other in n note how separation n time away has made the other different. aaron is in a good mood , hair shaved close down, face full, n nothing like the raggedy n hollowed boy andrew met years ago. aaron in turn observes how andrewâs eyes r half-lidded w smth one would call happiness if it were anyone else, but itâs js content for andrew; his arms tattooed beneath his armbands, n a looseness to his shoulders that aaron could not have ever believed andrew to posses once upon a time. after some small talk n a small congratulations from aaron for andrewâs team win, andrew slips a piece of paper out of his jacket pocket n shoves it at aaron, face blank. itâs a new team contract. itâs in the same city as aaronâs med school :) aaron decidedly does not smile, but sources say his lips quirked up a bit. they order cheesecake. everything is fine. they r brothers. they walk out together.
#is it obvious how mentally ill they make me âŠâŠ..#the twinyards reconciling properly is smth so special n dear to me#i love them ur honor đ«¶#andrew will deny taking the offer bcs it happened to be close to aaron but neil knows better lol.#katelyn cheering on aaron from the side n sheâll eventually have her own confrontation w andrew abt aaron n stuff n they make it work n#andrew gets used to her !!!!#he doesnât apologize bcs that isnât smth he would do but they move forward !#on aaronâs part neil becomes less annoying haha#twinyards#andrew minyard#aaron minyard#aftg#they keep contact w nicky too đ«¶#musing
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Birthday Surprise
Pairing: Drew Starkey x Reader
Warnings: N/A
Pronouns: She/Her
Word Count: 1.1K
Summary: With Drew's birthday on the horizon, Drew's daughter and wife wanted to do something special for him.
A/N: Happy Birthday to someone who absolutely makes butterflies in my stomach! Hope this day is amazing!
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November 4th. The day Josepth Andrew Starkey entered the world thirty years ago. Drew doesnât like to do anything big for his birthdays. He prefers to spend the day with his family rather than partying in a crowded club with annoying drunks, but for this milestone birthday, his family had other ideas. His daughter wants to make a big deal out of her fatherâs birthday and has helped her pregnant mother plan a surprise party for him. This has been kept from the man up until the morning of his birthday. Y/N is up earlier than expected because of the tiny kicks the human growing in her uterus is giving her. Her rolling back into bed in a struggle pulls Drew from his dreams of his wife and daughter. âIs mini-me giving you a hard time again?â he whispers, bringing her back into his hold. She nods against his chest, âYes, the little bugger seems to think my bladder is a kickstand.â Drew gives a small chuckle, pressing a kiss to her forehead and then her stomach. âIâm sorry, Sweetheart. You only have three more months,â he reassures, rubbing her belly to help soothe her. Her hand finds his, âItâs okay. It will all be worth it in the end. Happy Birthday, my love.âÂ
She leans over her stomach and kisses him on the lips. He smiles in the kiss, âThank you. Ugh, I canât believe Iâm thirty. Iâm so old.â âNo, you arenât! You are young at heart, love. Just yesterday you were eating an Uncrustable and colouring in a book,â she giggles. The image of yesterday comes to his mind, âI was only doing that because Millie wanted me to do those things with her. Speaking of Millie, what time did you guys go to bed? I swear I felt like I heard you guys up pretty late last night.â In her tiredness and pregnancy fog, Y/N lets the secret slip out of her mouth. âShe went to bed at twelve and I was in bed by four I think. I was going over everything for your surprise party so it took me some time because I kept getting hungry and needing to pee.â Her eyes rival the size of the moon when she realizes what she has done, her hand finding way over her mouth.Â
Drew chuckles as he processes the words and tries to end her endless apologies, âItâs okay, Sweetheart. You didnât mean to. You were up late and have a lot on your mind.â âRight. Well, you have to act surprised at the party. Millie is so excited to surprise you; it would crush her if she knew I spoiled it,â Y/N warns, looking him directly in the eye to make sure her point is getting across. Drew gives her a nod, âGot it. Iâll be so surprised that itâs almost like I act for a living.â Y/N giggles at his joke and her smile grows at the pitter-patter of their three-year-oldâs footsteps.Â
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Millie shooed her father out of the house right after lunch, sending him with a laundry list of things he needed to do before he got home. As he drove around doing the chores, his heart would warm every time he looked at the non-sensical scribbles that were his daughter's âwritingâ, which had a translation written by Y/N beside each scribble. Even if he didnât know about the party, he knew he would gladly do these errands for his girls on his birthday because all he could ever want was to take care of them.Â
His hand meets his front door and he takes a second to get into character, almost like he is on set. The handle is pushed down to reveal a dark room, which is suddenly set alight with the screams of âsurpriseâ by his family and friends. He lets his shock show on his face, both hands covering the o-shape of his mouth. âWow, this is amazing. Thank you guys so much,â he thanks the crowd, looking around for his girls. It isnât long before Millie is running into her fatherâs arms. âHappy Birthday, Daddy,â she greets him, letting herself be picked up into the air by the older man. He gives her a massive grin, assaulting her cheek with multiple kisses and thanks. âDaddy, your moustache is tickling me,â she complains with joy in her voice. He pulls away, letting the hand not holding up his daughter adjust the dad hat on his head, âIâm sorry, Baby. Maybe Daddy should get rid of his moustache.âÂ
âNo! Mommy likes it. But Daddy⊠Were you surprised by my party?â
âYes, I was, Baby. I was so surprised. I love it so much.â
She looks at him in disbelief, âYou are lying! You werenât surprised.â Drew doesnât know how his acting doesnât seem to fool his daughter. âNo, Iâm not. Daddy really was surprised by the party,â he promises, starting to bounce the girl, who is about to cry. âOkay, maybe Mommy accidentally told Daddy, but itâs okay. Daddy still doesnât know what you have planned for me.â This causes the girl to pause her cries, âCan we have cake now? I want you to see the cake.â Wanting her smile to return to her face, he nods his head, booming to his party guest that it is time for cake. Nobody objects that the cake is being served before dinner or other party activities. Instead, they all gather around the kitchen table and begin to sing the famous song. âHappy Birthday dear Daddy! Happy Birthday to you.â Millieâs loud singing is the one mainly invading his senses. Maybe because of her proximity to him with her being on his lap or maybe because his focus is mainly on her. âMake a wish, Daddy,â she orders. He obeys, blowing on the candles in the form of a thirty.
âWhat did you wish for?â she questions. Her eyes bore into his with curiosity. He is about to tell her when Y/N speaks up, âIf Daddy tells you, Millie, it wonât come true.â Drew shakes his head, smiling down at his daughter. âItâs okay, my wish is already coming true so it canât hurt to tell. I wished for more happy days with you and Mommy and everyone else that I love.â The crowd awes at how adorable his words are. âAnd the baby?â Millie clarifies with concern that her father forgot her baby brother or sister. He nods, âAnd you baby sibling.â He gives her a kiss on the forehead, allowing her to help him with cutting the cake.Â
Taglist: @winterrrnight @loves0phelia
#drew starkey#drew starkey x reader#drew starkey x you#drew starkey x y/n#drew starkey x female reader#drew starkey one shot#drew starkey fanfiction#drew starkey imagine
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this is a surprise to no one but iâm thinking of the twins again. cause i donât know whether weâre told when tilda developed her drug addiction but considering her erratic behaviour surrounding the twins birth im assuming she was already using prior to the twins arrival. and if she was using before, during, and after giving birth, that introduces so many heartbreaking possibilities for the twins.
this one ran away from me (they say, as tho they donât always)
i see people saying they just couldnât take andrew or aaron seriously because theyâre five foot even cause thatâs a funny height apparently and i just think: did u know a long term impact of prenatal drug use is impaired growth? add that to potential malnutrition and yeah suddenly itâs not that funny anymore. besides andrew being short probably made him seem like an easy target to his abusers which is what made it necessary for him to learn to defend himself in the first place sooo
other impacts of prenatal drug use: altered brain development, cognitive and behavioural issues, damaged communication/language development, newborns can be born addicted and subsequently go through withdrawals (called neonatal abstinence syndrome, which has a long list of symptoms and can cause newborns to be hospitalised or worse). in any context, this is a horribly traumatic thing for a baby to go through but then consider this:
andrewâs brain is already struggling to develop properly thanks to his motherâs drug abuse. and then you add on frequent repetitive abuse including but not limited to several occurrences of child sa. already a 7 year old brain is not wired to be able to cope with that. tie that in with his significant abandonment issues stemming from first his mother and then every subsequent family he stays with giving him up. his own narrative tries so hard to doom him, and he responds to that the only way he can: through anger. violence. how else was he supposed to respond? yes this is more andrew defence bc it seems thereâs been a sudden influx of andrew hate and it boils my piss
that brings me to a new point: andrew as a newborn. and his foster family does not want to give him the extra attention he needs as a baby born through prenatal drug use. so they give him up. again and again. so
but to talk about aaron for a sec - not only could he have been born addicted, but being breastfed by a drug user (itâs up in arms whether tilda would breast feed) also has its symptoms - can make the baby sick, can ruin its sleep, cause later behavioural issues and even transfer the drug to the baby. aaron, living with tilda, was also doomed to follow the narrative.
#please heed i am not a doctor#in any sense of the word#but i do remember learning some of this in school#which was years ago so if i got something wrong pls correct me#iâm also on my third all nighter in a rowwww letâs go babyyyy#so if none of this makes sense ignore it thanks#aftg#andrew minyard#aaron minyard#all for the game#me: what if i made the twins being five foot really sad
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please can you explain what kevins part of the deal wth andrew is because ive never really understood it and i feel like you probably get it
Okay. So. (tw; brief sh/suicide mention)
My understanding of Kevin and Andrewâs deal in the best way i can possibly explain it and HOPEFULLY i saw what i mean and it makes sense:
TLDR: Kevin promised to give him purpose, and Andrewâs waiting to see if thatâs even possible.
Thereâs this part in TRK where Kevin tells Neil about their deal -
Iâve seen a few posts about Andrewâs mental health recently - about how Andrew wanted to recover, how he wanted to survive.
I think itâs hard to imagine Kevin and Andrewâs relationship sometimes because we see so little of it aside from Kevin keeping his pills, but thereâs this;
I think it was Andrew who told him this. Andrew told Kevin that without his drugs he was destructive and joyless, in whatever context it was mentioned in. He told Kevin he had no ambition for life. (or because Neil says he tried to âremember her exact wordsâ he talked to her? Read the files? But what are the chances of that?) I like to think that early on before theyâd made their deal, Kevin asked him about his meds and Andrew told him. I think heâs quoting Andrew, who quoted his counsellor.
We know Andrew was struggling with self-harm. I know when Neil described Andrewâs scars as âup and downâ his arm, it most likely means in a literal sense - from the top to the bottom of his forearm, but coupled with this;
I wonder if Andrewâs depression led him to have a closer relationship with suicide than we think. He had 12 psychiatrists before Bee. What are the chances that all of them are from after Cass? (ie Andrewâs mental health journey started before her)
STICK WITH ME HERE.
Regardless of who told him what, I think a part of Kevin saw that Andrew having no purpose was dangerous. I think Andrew himself worried that without his meds heâd fall back into this rabbit hole of having nothing to live for, having no purpose, having no point to continue living. And Andrew wanted to survive. Any excuse to live was worth it. Even if he didnât believe in it himself, even if he saw it was pointless - leaving us with:
Going back to that first quote âheâs waiting to see if I can keep it.â If itâs even possible. Itâs like finding tiny reasons to stay alive when youâre suicidal - I canât kill myself because my favourite band might release new music. I canât kill myself because my favourite tv show was cancelled, but thereâs a chance it might come back. Iâll never hear my favourite person laugh again, Iâll never see the sunset again, there a chance that Iâll miss being an uncle, or I might miss my brothers wedding, or I might miss the invention of something life changing. My favourite band that broke up might get back together again - itâs unlikely, but I have to stay alive just in case.
Exy might be my purpose, and even if I donât believe it, I still need something to live for.
So Kevin gave him something to live for. He believes in him.
Kevin was the first person to see any worth in Andrew - maybe since Cass, maybe ever - and Andrew knew that.
So Andrew gave Kevin his game; even if he wonât play with Kevin because he thinks itâs funny or whatever.
When Kevin came to PSU, he needed a reason to stay, something that would make transferring to the team worth it. And he knew Andrew was worth it. He knew how Andrew could play, how he should be court. Sure, David was there, but Kevin stayed because of Andrew. Andrew offered him protection, and then gave Kevin a reason to believe in the foxes. Every other player mightâve been dog shit and not worth a second of Kevinâs time, not worth his talent, not worth investing in.
But Andrew was.
Andrew could be court.
If Andrew promised Kevin he would allow him to give him purpose in Exy, then that gave Kevin reason to stay. Does that make sense? Kevin wouldnât have stayed infthe Foxes were actually the worst team in the league. But with Andrew there, they werenât, and that was reason enough to stay.
Kevin sees Andrewâs worth - he sees what he can do to keep Andrew going, so when Kevin says âheâs waiting to see if I can keep it,â I think itâs Andrew waiting to see if heâs right. Can he actually give me a career out of this? A life out of this? Maybe itâs a lack of self worth on Andrewâs part. He clearly doesnât care about how good he is. But does he know? Does he even believe it?
So heâs waiting for Kevin to keep his promise. To prove that heâs good enough. To prove that Exy can realistically actually be his purpose.
But Andrew both believes and doesnât believe that thatâll ever happen. Heâs a walking contradiction. On the one hand he says out loud, âim waiting for Kevin to give up,â but I donât think he means: im fucking with him and donât believe him. I think he means: im waiting for him to finally see in me what I see in me, which is somebody who isnât worth it. It comes from a place of self doubt/lack of self worth. It comes from a place of not believing he actually has anything to live for. It comes from that self destructive instinct that he has.
Andrew wants to survive, but he doesnât believe that he can.
Andrewâs deal with Kevin: Iâll keep you safe and give you a reason to stay*
Kevinâs deal with Andrew: Iâll give you purpose and something to live for*
*but neither of these things can exist without the other. Kevin wonât stay if Andrew doesnât see that heâs good enough for Exy to be his purpose, if he doesnât let Kevin prove he was right by believing in him. If he doesnât, then Kevin canât give him something to live for.
Kevin promised to give him purpose, and Andrewâs waiting to see if thatâs even possible.
Does uh. That make sense?
#I donât know how well Iâve explained this so please feel free to ask me to expand on any of the points#because this makes sense in my head but im so bad at putting it into words#long post#mine#kevin day#Andrew minyard#aftg#all for the game#ask
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When it comes to love you're just as blinded.
Part Seven
Eminem x Musician
Summary: It starts with a drunk embarrassing video, it spirals into something a whole lot more.
Note: Seven!! Sorry it's taken a while, I've been busy with life and went away with some friends, but it's finally here! It's a long one too, so hoping it makes up for the wait. Also, I write music but fuckkk is it hard trying to actually rap, so this is just a forewarning to everyone seeing as there's a scene in this part that involves exactly that! Hope you enjoy it anyway:) Thank you for all the love on this series!
| Set in 2014, just after the release of LP 2
taglist: @thelastemzy
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âWhatâs your favourite chocolate?â I wondered around the Twizzler Iâd gone ahead and stolen from the bag heâd gotten at the 7-Eleven. Weâd been driving for a little while now, just under a half hour if I had to guess, and between us we had already succumbed to three short-lived encounters with brain freeze, all down to the Slurpee we continued to keep sharing.Â
âLike brand?â Marshall questioned me, face wrinkling in confusion as he made another left hand turn, fingers loosening around the steering wheel when it righted itself.
âNo,â I shook my head in answer, chewing on the red stick before I held out its end to Em when he tipped his chin in an asking gesture, âI don't know. Like, type?â
He had to think about it for a second, jaw working against the chewy sweet whilst his eyes continued to trail the length of road ahead. âFuck, I donâ know. Like a Hersheyâs maybe?â
I pulled a face at the reply, âBoring. Figured you might say M&Mâs or something. Bring a little irony to the table, you know?â
Marshallâs head tilted sideways to level me with a snide look before he stole the next Twizzler right from out of my hand, âHilarious.â He deadpanned as he took a big bite, âCome on then, Judge Judy. Tell me yours.â
Even whilst wrinkling my nose at his reference to the Tv Judge, I was quick with my retort, âEasy. Canât go wrong with a Flake or a KitKat.â
âHeard of that first one.â Marshall mentioned, face dropping its previous snark as he pondered on my answer, âAinât ever tried it though.â
My eyes widened as I simultaneously turned to face him, ignoring the way my knee knocked against the centre console in my haste. âOh, youâve got to! Itâs honest to God like Heaven melting in your mouth.â
With an unconvinced brow, Marshall just blew out a breath and shook his head at me. âBut a KitKat?â He added after a second passed, âI donât know. I mean, a chunky I could prolly get behind.â
My upper lip curled, âA chunky, really? What are you, twelve?â
Marshall returned the quip with a stupid look and then stole the rest of the Twizzler pack as a form of retaliation.
I rolled my eyes and it wasnât long before he waved the topic away, claiming it was stupid anyway because Oreos were supposedly where it was at. An opinion which was strong enough steered us onto a whole new debate: biscuits vs cookies.Â
I was still fighting for my life by the time Em eventually pulled the car off to the side, rolling up onto a curb outside a strip of buildings that appeared to get a whole lot of use. âAll Iâm saying is that a cookie is a kind of biscuit, right? So what the fuck sense does it make to claim that theyâre all cookies?â
Weâd since come to a slow stop, so confused I pivoted in my seat to look around us with a slight frown, catching sight of a bar on the very corner, a stretch of offices sat on the opposing side, and a huge block building that had long been dubbed âSaint Andrewâsâ.
âThis some sort of convent?â I wondered out loud whilst Marshall simply switched off the engine and unbuckled his seatbelt. When I glanced over at him again I found him already wearing an amused smirk, one which seemed to brighten at my words, though he just shook his head at my question. It was then that he chose to jump out. âMarsh?â
I was left with the low sound of his chuckle just as the door clicked shut behind him, leaving me in sudden silence whilst I watched the man round the front of the car. Blinking, I could only move to follow him, undoing my belt and finishing the last of the Slurpee before my door was opening all on its own. I raised a brow at Emâs gentlemanly act when I climbed out to join him on the pavement, but kept quiet about it as he shut the door behind me and locked up.
âThanks.â I breathed out before peering around us once more, taking in the noisy street and the rowdy crowd that was gathered inside the bar a couple car lengths away. âWill you tell me where we are now though?â
âAnd spoil all the fun?â Marshall smirked, eyes glistening now as he backed away from the curb to start up the set of stairs leading into the big block building that had caught my eye a minute earlier.Â
My face flattened, âYouâre the only one having fun here.â
The grin he flashed me was cheeky and only lasted that of a split second before he was gesturing me to follow him up, tucking his hands away in his pockets when we finally reached the top step and came to a stop in front of a pair of heavy wooden doors that gave off such a retro feel.Â
Staying quiet, Marshall was quick to push through them, as though heâd done it a thousand times before, slipping inside and holding the bottom plank open with just a foot so that I could join him. I wrapped my arms around myself slightly as the door stilted shut behind us, the sound echoing out.Â
As I walked a little further inside, my gaze caught on the buildingâs lofty interior, a total contrast from both its outer disguise and what Iâd first expected. It was a large lobby of sorts; four long tables were stationed in the very centre, a short stretch away from a snazzy looking bar detailed with ebony wood and warm lighting in the back, and adjacent to a set of stairs which led upwards.
I glanced back over at Em, who appeared to be watching me rather than taking in the room. I felt myself flush lightly under his gaze but quick to cover it up as I took another glance around, noting a different set of double doors sat on the other side of the room and a couple of sofas dotted around by the surrounding walls. I swallowed lightly before turning back to him, âBit early to be drinking, no?â
It was a joke, a silly one seeing as heâd been sober for years, but one which seemed to loosen the atmosphere around us further as his mouth quirked upwards slightly and he moved to walk once more, nodding his head at me to follow.Â
Follow I did, eyes catching on all sorts of details the building had to offer as he led me across the room and through the mentioned pair of doors, turning away from what appeared to be the âmain eventâ (a rather large hall decked out with a stage and a plethora of seating rows) so that he could instead jog down a hall full of metal stairs.Â
The heavy door at the very bottom opened with a long squeak and although there had been people dotting the building here and there as weâd walked through, I took quick note of the small group which resided down here. There were only about six of them, from what I could first tell, the majority messing about with wires and other equipment by a platform stage whilst another two stood behind what looked to be a bar.Â
My attention was ultimately caught though by the two men bickering back and forth by the side of the stage, just in front of a DJ booth.
âFuck you, man. Iâma do what I like!â The first one spat, nose wrinkled as he swiped a microphone right from out of the other manâs hand. He was a few inches shorter than the latter but didnât seem to mind, nor care, about that fact as he practically tiptoed to better get in the guyâs face.Â
âAwh Jesus man, Soup! Why you always clowninâ around?â The second blew out, tossing the rest of the micâs lead his way as he swatted at the air, âI mean, come on. You always tryna switch shit up when shit donâ need to be switched up!â
Soup? If that really was his name, didnât seem to much care about his mateâs lack of excitement for whatever plans he had brewing as he fumbled with the jack lead and jumped back at him to defend himself. âI ainât clowninâ, dawg! Just trust me here on this one, this is gone bring a whole loadâa new people in, D! I just know they gone be lininâ up out the door to get their hands on this stuff.â
âWe ainât sellinâ fuckinâ club merch, Soup. How many times I gotta say it?â âDâ retorted and shook his head as he turned his back on the other man to grab the rest of the equipment theyâd obviously been unboxing.
âYo, when have I ever been wrong âbout shit like this?â Soup followed up, unrelenting as he dragged the mic along with him, creating enough of a trip hazard that I worried when a young guy in a yellow cap swerved on past him. But it appeared that everyone here was far too used to the duoâs antics because the man in the cap skipped over the lead with an ease that looked utterly effortless, making it to the bar in one piece whilst the other two continued on none the wiser.
âHow âbout every damn time?â D huffed with a look thrown over his shoulder, before he then sighed, âWe stick to what we know, man. Stop houndinâ me with all this other crap.â
It was just as Soup opened his mouth to argue his case yet again that Marshall laughed from beside me, making me jump ever so as the noise rang out across the room. Heads spun in our direction then, most eyes widening at the sight of the infamous newcomer but mine were caught on the matching set of grins that Em was immediately met with when kicked off the wall heâd been leaning against, content with having watched the argument play out.
âMickey, my man!â D hollered, dropping what he held back into the box to meet Marshall halfway.Â
âThought I told you to stop callinâ me that.â But even with the snippy retort, Em was smiling as the two of them clapped hands, sharing a short embrace before Soup wormed his way between them.Â
D shook his head as he took a large step back, although the man was still grinning, eyes captured on the two friends, âShit, man. Itâs good to see you.â
Marshall just smiled before he turned to the shorter man and clapped him on the back, âHow you doinâ, Soup?â He let his hood fall back as he stood before the small group around us, seeming to become more alive in their presence, âStill mouthinâ off, I see.â
My own lips quirked up at that, watching the three of them from the sidelines. It was obvious to anyone with eyes that they had history, all of them sharing an easy comradery that I hadnât much seen yet with Em since Iâd first arrived, and already I was hooked on watching it all play out.
âI ainât mouthinâ off, man. This ideaâs the real deal!â Soup countered and he was smiling so wide that I could see the silver tooth that was embedded where his front left should have been over from where I stood. âGenius even! Could see it settinâ us up âtil The Jam finally passes.â
I had no idea what the fuck âThe Jamâ was but I had a calculating thought as to what the underground level of Saint Andrewâs supposedly was now. It was a little surreal once Iâd latched onto the idea, in truth, never having figured Iâd be standing in The Shelter of all places. The building was notorious on its own, having hosted a plethora of artists up in the main hall, people like Nirvana, R.E.M., The Beastie Boys, Iggy Pop, Blur, and Bob Dylan. And so I kicked myself for not having realised it sooner, the venue truly was one of the best in the city! Then again, Iâd only ever really heard it iconically dubbed as The Shelter.
Marshall appeared to look back over at me then as he shook his head at Soupâs justification, grin softening ever so. I smiled back at him, gaze flickering over the expanse of his face, taking in what I could.
âYo, come on over.â He said, voice travelling over to me without him even having to yell. The two men seemed to recognise my presence then as they turned to get a good glance at just who Em seemed to be speaking to. So, accompanied by only a little trepidation, I walked over to meet them, D eyes calculating whilst Soupâs lips pursed in an act of surprise, his eyes raking over me.
âWoo, Slim. And they claim you gotta type!â Soup all but whistled at my approach, earning a raised brow from me and a hearty backhand from his promoter friend.Â
Marshall just rolled his eyes, seemingly used to it, arm stretching out to welcome me into the odd triangle theyâd created, an action I allowed even as his hand came to rest on the small of my back. âIgnore Soup, he ainât never been near a lady.âÂ
Blowing out an unexpected chuckle, I pressed my lips together before they eventually settled into akin to a smirk, eyes flitting over the two men. âMost would beg to differ with those pretty eyes.â I quipped, ignoring the manâs previous remark but filing it away for later.
Soup blinked at the obvious complement, seemingly dazed for a split second before he bounced back with a kilowatt grin. He looked between Marshall and D smugly, batting his eyelashes. âYâall see?â He said, before he turned to me, âI been tellinâ âem, baby. But do they listen? No.â
D rolled his eyes at his friendâs antics, apparently done with him as he shoved Soup hard enough for the man to stumble slightly to the side, ignoring the scowl he got in turn whilst Marshall just snorted, the hand on my back unmoving. âYou really gone dropped yourself in it now.â D chuckled to him, peering over at me with a sweet smile that warmed his face whilst Soup tried to right himself, âWhat, Mickey didnât warn you?â
âMickey?â I wondered, eyes flitting between the two. I grinned when Em groaned lowly, tossing his head back a tad.
D laughed at my ask, the sound bright in the shrouded shadows of which lower levels of the building offered, âAs a kid he had these giant fuckinâ ears, his momma called him it the first time she picked him up from school and well, it sorta stuck.â
âActually?â I looked back over at Marshall with an almost adoring face, peering past the brim of his cap to get a better look at his ears, âOh my god, I can actually see it now!â
I joined D in his snickering after, muffling my amusement slightly when Emâs eyes narrowed a tad in a playful way, his hand dropping from my lower back to pinch my furthest hip. I raised my own in a silent surrender, but his settled there.Â
âYeah, yeah. Eat it up.â The man scoffed whilst he shook his head at us, pointing an accusing finger over at D, whoâd since settled a hand on his stomach to keep from bowling over, âYou know Iâma have to get you back for that one.â
D merely waved the warning away, just as Soup slid on over to pipe up once more, âAyo, you gone introduce us to yo girl then, Slim, or you just waitinâ on me to work my magic?â He asked around a smug smile, shucking the collar of his heavy jacket before he flashed me a flirty look, âHomegirlâs got a real pretty voice, too. Where you from, baby?â
Never had I ever had someone be so blatant, I was honestly unsure if he was just messing around in hopes to annoy Em or if he was actually trying his luck with me. A little wide eyed, I looked back at Marshall stumped. The manâs face had flattened a tad at Soupâs remarks but his smirk was still ever present.
âLay off it, man.â D sighed before Marshall could say anything at all, cheek dimpling as he shook his head once more at the shorter man.Â
âIâm just sayinâ!â Soup proclaimed before he spun back around to face Em, âA girl that fine is gone get snatched up real quick, man.â
âKeep talkinâ and you might not keep your tongue.â Marshall responded calmly enough, though it shocked me enough to have me keeping quiet as the man stared back at Soup unblinkingly, lifting an eyebrow at him whilst his hand continued to reside at my hip.
âOo and the claws have come out!â D cut in with a whoop, obviously humoured by it all, but his response was enough to have Marshall rolling his eyes and for another small smirk to toy at the corner of his lips.
Soup grinned as well, hands held up in a placating gesture, âYou know I mean no harm, Slim.â
âYeah, you ainât never mean it.â Marshall shot back around a low chuckle, clucking his tongue when Soup immediately tried to argue his case, rapidly mentioning a house fire, some sort of robbery that had gone wrong and then an accidental shooting far too quickly for me to really ask anymore about it, because Em chose then to speak over him, ultimately cutting him off. âYou done?â
With a huff, Soup let up. âI was just sayinâ.â
D snorted, âWhen the hell are you not just sayinâ, my man."
Marshall shook his head at the duo and wet his lower lip before he finally moved to introduce us, although it was also in that moment that his hand finally slipped away. The lack of it had me blinking.Â
âBoys, this is Elia. El, this here is Soup and Drew.â Drew shot me a smile alongside a slight tilt of his chin, whilst Soup just wiggled his brow. Marshall continued on with a swift jab to the latterâs abdomen, ignoring the slight squark given, âKnown these guys since middle school.â
I tried to add up the age in my head, forever baffled by the difference in education here to that back home. Em must have realised it too, because his next smile was wry and knowing.
ââBout ten, if I had to guess.â He mentioned just to settle the matter for me, before he looked back at D and Soup to explain, âGirlâs from London, they do shit different over there.â
I rolled my eyes, though my smile gave away to the fact that heâd amused me with his explanation. Drew nodded in understanding whilst Soupâ well, he was Soup, âOh shit! I thought all them talked real classy.â
My brow rose all on its own, âThis your way of saying Iâm not classy?â
His eyes grew huge as he realised his mistake, stuttering to correct himself and stumbling ever so to be sure of it, âNah, no! What? I jusââ I meant it likeââ He spluttered before he finally landed on, âI said you had a real pretty voice!â
Snorting, I let myself smile which appeared to ease the manâs evident worry over having offended me and had the remaining two snickering between themselves. He shot the pair of them a scathing look and elbowed Drew, who in return just laughed that little bit harder.
âShut it.â
I almost felt bad. Peering back over at Soup, I eventually spoke, âYouâre all good. I was just teasing.â
âTeasinâ.â Soup seemed to linger on the word, twirling it over his tongue and around his mouth as he muttered the word over again, lower lip turning itself out in thought. âDope.â
Marshall shook his head with a huff before his eyes eventually landed on me once more, I widened my own in jest, but the wordless moment was cut short by D. âAye, you ainât the same Elia that sung Sinnerman are you?â
My head jolted back ever so slightly in surprise. Sinnerman had been an early days cover, one from when Iâd been busking in pubs way back when and of the few that had been filmed on a shaky camcorder and uploaded to the internet by some random patron. I hadnât thought of the video in well over a decade, but remembered it had managed to gather a large enough viewing at some point that it had dragged more people into the pub to see me.
Fishmouthing slightly, I nodded just the once. âYeah. God, yeah. Wow, you saw that?â
Marshallâs brow had since furrowed, watching the conversation play out between us just as Drewâs face brightened considerably. âHell yeah I saw that! That shit was cold, girl. Remembered hearinâ your voice and thinkinâ 'sheâs gone make it someday.â He told me, making me flush a tad at the praise, âân I was right.â He continued on, nudging his chin over in my direction with a thoughtful smile, âKnew I recognised you from somewhere. Saw one of your shows when I was last in LA, couple years back now though.â
I actually giggled at that, fingers jumping up to cover my mouth whilst I shook my head slightly, âThatâs insane.â
âHold up,â Soup interrupted, a bemused look marring his face, âSo you famous too? You âmember how I just said you was fine, yeah?â
âSoup, man.â Marshall warned around a put upon sigh.
âIâm jusââ
âJust sayinâ. Yeah, we know.â Drew finished for him, smirking as he rolled his brown eyes.
Chuckling, I went a little easy on the former, âIâll make sure to remember.â
Soup perked up at that, tossing the other two a prideful look, whilst Emâs gaze turned Heavenwards.Â
It was then that Drew turned to pick up the equipment heâd since dropped, the three of us following him as he spoke, âSo what you doinâ down in these parts anyway? Figured youâd be workinâ or some shit âcause last we saw you was way back in December.â He threw a couple of cables Soupâs way, huffing out a soft chuckle when the man fumbled to catch them, earning himself a glare he didnât respond to. âMade a fuckton of sales then though. Got me thinkinâ maybe you should show your face âround here more often. We all know those magazines donât want it no more.â
Marshall flipped him off but came to a stand beside him, reaching inside the box to help out. âStill as unfunny as ever, D.â He replied, handing me a couple of packs to hold onto whilst he grabbed a few more, âWas showinâ Ms. London over there the neighbourhood, so I thought Iâd stop in to see how you two knuckleheads were doinâ without me.â
âHey we survived this long!â Soup exclaimed to him around a laugh, struggling with a mic stand heâd since dragged up onto the stage.
âDonât I know it.â Drew murmured in a funny sort of self-suffering way that made me grin, âYou take her to Cowâs head?â
The question had Marshall rolling his eyes as the man sorted through the packs heâd gathered, me aiding with the process whilst I listened. âShitholeâs gone be there longer than I ever will be, figured Iâd have time.â
D blew out a chuckle, âAinât that the truth.â
âRed.â I mentioned, handing back the pack Marshall had attempted to give me, fingers brushing over the back of his as he dipped his chin in a show of acknowledgement. âWhatâs the Cowâs head anyway?â
âOld ice-cream stand on Mack. Used to use it during drivebys or to just deal. You remember Jimmy? He still works that corner.â Drew explained, aiming that last bit over at Em, which ended up making the man chuckle around a small tutting sound. D continued on though, for my supposed benefit, âBut mostly it was just a place people got caught hookinâ up behind.â
Feeling bold, I was quick to quip, âAnd I paint you as that type of girl, do I, D?â
Widening my stare up at the man when his head darted backwards with a shuttered expression, Marshall could only snicker beside me. âAwh, come on, be nice.â He said, though his smile was jeering, âI tell you, Drewâs a real feminist.â
Sharing a smile with him, I was quick to look back at the man in question, who in turn merely tossed another pack at Em, who narrowly avoided it hitting him upside the head. âAsshole.â Drew sniped, âA guy dates one vegan chick and a brother never lets him live it down.â
âIt werenât âcause she didnât like meat, man!â Soup added his two cents in, smile smug as he propped himself up on the mic stand, âIt was âcause she didnât - like - meat!â
Marshallâs loud laugh had me looking up, instantly invested in watching the way his eyes closed with the action and how his cheeks then appled. He caught me watching him when he lowered his head and rolled his eyes fondly at his friend, figuring Iâd only been staring because I hadnât caught onto Soupâs joke, âNext person she dated was this vampy chick who worked at Chilly's.â
My mouth formed into an âoâ shape before I was tittering away too, much to Drewâs obvious displeasure, the man waved the three of us away with a lazy hand before he carried on hooking up a couple mics.
It continued on that way for a short while, me listening to the trios odd stories and funny tales from their youth whilst Drew and Soup grew comfortable enough to ask me a little more about myself. Though both of them were wholly invested in the story of how Marshall and I met, Soup latching onto it before I could think about where the explanation might lead.
âCome on then, woman.â The man was quick to start, jerking his head at me in a sudden rush of enthusiasm as he jumped past the DJ booth, âLetâs see what youâre made of.â
My forehead pinched in confusion as I pushed myself up from where Iâd been crouching down by an amp. It was an older model and the fuse at the back really needed to be resoldered, but it would work for a while longer. I looked over at the man and his newfound excitement, brows furrowing further, âWhat?â
Soup just waved me over though to where he was now centred midstage. âYou heard me, get yo ass up here!â
I could only look to Em then and when he didnât offer me anything other than an amused shrug, cheek twitching, I turned to Drew.
The tall man simply raised his hands before he shrugged too, smiling ever so sweetly. âNeed to mic check anyway,â He mentioned, jutting his chin over to where Soup continued to stand, âI propose a battle.â
âHell yeah, man!â Soup hollered loudly, already moving to grab a set of mics from the front panel, sending an audible squeak through the room that had most of its occupants wincing.Â
âNot happening.â I quickly shot down, shaking my head as I moved away from the ampâ and therefore the stage.Â
âWhy, you scared?â Soup prodded mockingly, earning a low âoohâ from both Marshall and Drew.Â
âTerrified.â Came my deadened retort, before I chewed at the inside of my cheek, gaze flitting back and forth between Soup and the duo perched by the side of the deck. âThereâs no way Iâm doing it.â I added, furthering my previous answer.
âDonât have to be long. A minute max.â Drew assured me, already moving to work the amp that the mics were connected to. My eyes widened at the move, flicking back to Em in one final plea.
âDonât look at me.â The older man laughed, his blue eyes shining. âI already done did my time here.â
Way to rub it in, I thought to myself before looking towards the stage with a pinched expression.Â
One final glance between the three men and I knew I couldnât say no, not without a fight at the very least, so I let go of the heavy breath I was holding and took a big step up onto the stageâs panelling, holding out a hand to Soup for the remaining microphone. âDonât say I never did nothing.â I heard myself say, earning a round of chuckles just as D finished setting up and Soup started to stretch theatrically. âI hate you all.â
âEl-i-a.â Marshall started up and immediately my head snapped over to find him stood by the front of the stage, hands circling his mouth. âEl-i-a!â He chanted again right as a steady beat came through the overhead speakers. I felt my stomach flip and was quick to shoot the man a scathing glare, not that Em minded it, continuing to grin up at me. Smug as could be.
It was that, I supposed, which had me forcing back the bile that was now building, enough to try and shake the nerves away too. I could do it, I breathed in deeply, it was just a little fun. Nothing unlike what Danny and I used to do as kids, making breakfast whilst mum was dead asleep in the next room or off getting high someplace else.
âYou ready, Limey?â Soup snarked, but it only proved to further stoke that fire that had started.Â
âYou first.âÂ
Soup dipped his head before he started bouncing it to the rhythm, torso soon following it. I tensed as I waited for his first line, sole focus on the man stood across from me and wondering how the fuck people did this in front of such a huge crowd. All I could do was pray that I didnât embarrass myself too much.
âSee, this here is a little white girl,Â
Whoâs momma told her she could have the whole wide-world,
But just âcause she got Slim wrapped âround her fin-ger,
Donât mean that my boyâs ever gonna ring her,
Heâs a wraith, yeah, which means he never ling-ers,
Have her sleepinâ in his bed âfore he finds another singer.
And thatâs not on me clowninâ girl, Iâve seen it,
Heâll wrap and tap, and then heâll jusâ go ân leave it,
You cute and all but you ainât nothinâ spec-ial,
We all know white girls ainât on a brotherâs lev-el,
So while you thinkinâ you out here makinâ it big,
Jusâ remember whoâs runninâ this motherfuckinâ gig.â
Pursing my lips to keep from grinning too broadlyâ an act to keep up the facade that this was a very real battle and that his words had actually stung meâ I then booed the performance whilst the rest of the room applauded, a few laughs and cheers echoing out around us. âAlright, I see. Thatâs how itâs gonna be.â
Soup shrugged cooly, though his smile was wide and teasing. âI went easy on you, girl.â
I hummed disbelievingly, then looked over my shoulder at Drew, who nodded in understanding, moving to continue the beat. I sucked in a small breath and attempted to feel the rhythm, the way it pulsed beneath my feet and how it seemed to jump between my ribs.Â
It was a split second decision I made to glance over at Marshall in the next moment which came and although he stood surly, arms crossed over his chest whilst he waited for me to start, his eyes were watching, anticipating. Between us weâd yet to work on any real music and so I figured this could be my shot to show him what I was really made of.
I inhaled.
âMan, you know for a rapper I think youâre missing one restriction,
The same type they tell kids is in the terms ân conditions,Â
When they try and ride the big boy rides at the theme park,Â
Only to find out that they went and fucking missed the mark.
I mean, I guess youâre kinda cute for aâ short guy,
But kings are made, baby, so I wonât spin you a lie,
âBout how itâs okay to only miss a couple inches,
âCause it's one thing height wise, but your dick looks like the Grinches.
And I know I should probably stop before I hurt your ego,
But with a name like Soup that ships since sailed, amigo,
Like I canât help but wonder whoâd your mother hate more?
You, or that motherfucking grocery store.â
A loud chorus of applause went up as soon as the beat dropped, leaving me looking back at Soupâs slack jaw in the stooped light. It was only when Drew whooped right by my ear that I realised heâd jumped past the booth to drag both Soup and I into his hold, shaking our shoulders hard enough to rattle the pair of us.Â
I let the mic slip slightly in my hold, arm dropping to my side as I casted a slow glance out at the audience, finding that a few more people had slipped into the room since weâd started the stupid battle. My chest tightened a little at the realisation but it was easy to let go of the anxiety when Drew was all but bouncing beside me.
âDamn, girl! That was cold, honestly thought Soup would have you there.â D grinned, looking down at me whilst Soup managed to release himself from the taller manâs hold. âYou did anything like this before?â He asked and I had to shake my head.
âHang on. You just butchered and served me up on a plate, ân now you gone deny not ever battlinâ before?â Soup spluttered, eyes wide as dinner plates, enough though to match his growing grin, âWoman, you donât expect me to really believe you.â
Laughing, I tried to rally, but it was then that another body joined the masses, sliding in beside me. It was their appearance that had Drewâs arm loosening its hold on me.Â
âShe ainât lyinâ. Iâve heard her spit a little before, I wonât deny it, but that was some next level shit.â Marshall commented, absorbing all of my attention. âYou went in hard.â He laughed incredulously, eyes roaming over me as though he was taking me in again in a whole other way. I felt my cheeks heat but couldn't decide whether or not it was down to the sudden attention weâd garnered or just him.Â
âHard?â Drew cut in, âGirl killed him!â
Soup shoved him as payback but it wasnât enough to really trip the man. âI said I went easy!â
D hummed sarcastically, dragging it out long enough to earn himself another hearty shove before he then chuckled, âFace it, Soup. You got yo short ass handed to you.â
âSorry, man.â Marshall stepped in before it could escalate and it was then he draped his arm over my shoulders, drawing me in enough to have me leaning against his side. âD ainât wrong. Best hope no one breathes a word, otherwise you gone be fighting for your life in the next battle.â
I rolled my eyes at the sudden dramatics, and again when Soupâs expression troubled slightly, I shook my head. âIâm gonna say it again, I hate all of you.â
The words earned me a few laughs and the feel of Emâs chin coming to rest atop my head.
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The drive back was made up of a dull buzzing tension, most of which emanated from me, seeing as I was still riding out the waves of anxiety Iâd experienced throughout the battle and then after. Iâd gotten a few nods of approval once Iâd stepped off the stage under Emâs arm, Soup still echoing his previous sentiment of having gone easy on the new girl, and then a couple people's praises when Marshall had finally decided to head on out, claiming that we had places to be.Â
So heâd said his goodbyes to his longtime friends, with both Soup and Drew managing to worm their way into my followers list on Twitter and having put their numbers in my phone. Theyâd claimed it was so I always knew that I had a place to come visit if I ever found myself back in Detroit and so I echoed the notion, saying that they could have tickets to any show they liked and a tour of London if they ever made the trip. Something which had seemed to please Marshall, seeing as his smile stuck all the way back up to the car.Â
âI still canât believe I did that.â I breathed once we were a little way away, The Shelter less than a dot behind us in the rearview mirror.Â
Marshall blew out a small chuckle, âWhy not?â
Shrugging, I found that I didnât really have an obvious answer to his question. âI donât know, just not my thing, you know? Like I never pictured myself doing anything like that.â
He made a short hum in retort, âI get that. Still, it was a sight to see.â He snickered after, mouth lifting into what Iâd label a sarky smile, âDoubt Soup will live it down for a while.â
I winced before eventually laughing too, thinking back on the entire experience. âTheyâre good guys, real nice. Itâs been a while since I really had fun like that.â
Marshallâs head turned to look over at me, eyes lingering on mine. âMe too.â
The smile that took over my face truly was unavoidable and so I looked towards the passenger window in hopes to shield him from it. âYou do that often then?â I asked once a half a dozen shop fronts had passed us by, âDrag people down there in hopes theyâll destroy whatâs left of Soupâs reputation.â I added teasingly when all heâd done was gift me a look of vague confusion.Â
The skin between his brows slackened in understanding before he then shook his head, âNah, reckon youâre the first.â
I blinked slowly at that revelation. âBut you saidââ
Marshall glanced over at me but was quick to hone his focus back on the road. âKnow what I said. Also mentioned that it never worked out, remember?â
I did, remember that is. And immediately thought back to the earlier conversation weâd shared on the car ride over to his old home and how the people heâd let in never seemed to get why all this mattered so much. âWas that what Soup was on about then? When he claimed people thought you had a type.â
Em had to think back on that one and was quiet for a second or two before he worked his jaw. I wondered if he was reminded of the fact that once again heâd failed to mention that I wasn't in fact his girl. I didnât ask about it.
âNah, I guess thatâs down to them havinâ met a couple of the women Iâve dated.â Marshall evaded slightly, confusing me enough to prod.
âWhat do you mean?â
He was silent for a long moment, but I allowed him it, figuring that whether he answered or not would be down to him. I wasnât the type to force shit out of a person.Â
âAfter Kim,â He started slowly, already assuming that I knew most of it, which wasnât incorrect, if you listened to the guyâs music then you probably knew more than needed. âLot of the girls I was seeing were fling type shit. Superficial, you know? A couple models, other famous people wantinâ to hop on the wagon. Tried to date a few women who werenât immersed in that lifestyle after rehab and my divorce, but it didnât work out the way Iâd hoped.â
I chewed on my inner cheek, pondering over the string of women who had been welcomed into Marshallâs life. Still stuck on the thought that Soup reckoned I was different to them just from looking at me. âCause see, I knew I was probably overthinking this but I wasnât horrible looking, had to be at least a little attractive to sell albums with my face on, but I was far from being that of a model. That much I knew. In truth, I didnât even know why I was so hung up on the thought, me and Em were just friends, that was all.
âStill, I figured that maybe Kim just fucked all that up for me. Hard to trust, to let people in. âSposed it was easier just havinâ people leave before they could fuck me up any further.â Marshall explained, none the wiser to my thoughts as he drummed his thumbs on the steering wheel, âDrew and Soup, theyâve been âround for a long while, before Dre, âfore I ever even thought too hard about rappinâ. They saw me through it all. I guess when you came over they kind of figured that shit had to be different, I ainât never brought no one âround here to them, let alone a girl theyâd never met.â
I ran my tongue over my lower lip as I listened, it wasnât a complete answer to my questionâ why Soup had figured Marshall had a type and me being far from itâ but it was him opening up and I wasnât about to spit in his face and get all prickly over it.
âShould I feel a sense of privilege then?â I found myself poking fun at him instead, an effort to get away from the handful of ideas that had started to plague my mind. ââCause I feel like I should.â
Em laughed, the gesture light, easy. It felt like the visit to Saint Andrewâs had done us both some good. âFuckinâ right. Shelter alone is somethinâ I donât visit all that often. D and Soup are just an added nuisance, I guess.â
âShut up.â I chuckled in return, shaking my head at his words, knowing just how much bullshit they held after having witnessed the relationship the three of them shared. âYou love âem.â
With a grunt, Marshall then shrugged around a quiet smirk. âCome on, todayâs been all about me, Iâm sick of it. Donât tell me you ainât got no mad stories about a couple crappy exes.â
It was an invite as well as a dip into a pool of unasked questions, a topic where Em didnât seem too keen on overstepping. But he was right, heâd given me a lot today and that meant something.
âI donât know what to say really.â I answered him with a subtle shrug, âNever really had an ex.â
Marshall almost came to a full stop with the way his foot stuttered over the brake. The action would have earned us a lot of loud beeps, maybe even a small collision if we hadnât been the only ones driving down this particular side road.
âShit, Marshall! What the fuck?â I exclaimed in one fluid breath, releasing my hold on the car door Iâd gone and grabbed onto in my haste to stop my body from propelling forward into the dash. I fixed him with a wide eyed stare, âWhy the hell would you do that?â
âWhyâd I do that? Whyâd you say that?â He countered, as if he was making any sense at all.Â
âSay what!â I asked him, voice shrill and still a decibel too high after the sudden scare, but Marshall appeared mostly unphased by it, having started driving again despite everything.Â
He scoffed, âThat someone as pretty as you donât have no exes.âÂ
I paused, noting that the way my heart stuttered was very similar to the way the car had, suddenly and then all at once. But although I was surprised by the compliment, I forced myself to relax a tad, ignoring how my pulse jumped rapidly in my throatâ down to the scare or his words I wouldnât ever know.Â
âI donât.â I told him point blank, hoping that the heat I felt in my face was just that and not me blushing. âI mean, I've had little flings and the odd date, but nothing likeâ I donât know, nothing too real or long lasting.â Describing that fact was more than a little embarrassing, I wouldnât lie, it always made me feel less than in a strange way.Â
âThere ainât no way.â Marshall continued on, unknowingly driving that particular wedge in further I supposed. âThereâs gotta be somebody.â
I sighed. âNo. But if you want a story, the last person I was seeing was this singer, we worked together on my last album, flirted, fucked and then went on a couple dates. He stayed with me in London for a while but ended up sleeping with one of my close friends on my sofa, so, you know.â
I let go of the rest of breath Iâd been holding onto then, shoulders slumping a little with it, before I suddenly remembered the next part to that particular tale.Â
âOh! And he also decided to dedicate the whole B side of his next album to it. Can you believe that? The B side, Marshall. I mean fair enough, write about an experience and what fucking not, but the B side? Thatâs just kicking a person whilst theyâre already down, no?â I added, shaking my head in hopes to get rid of the memory, but no such luck. âHe was the one who did that film too, umâ I canât for the life of me remember the name of it, but when they won that Academy award last year he mentioned me as the âone who got awayâ and then thanked me for being the reason he was able to channel so much of his ability into the character.â
I actually had to laugh at the reminder, having been utterly fuming when the whole thing had gone down. But I guessed that enough time had passed since then that I only questioned the very decision Iâd made to have let that arsehole and his tiny dick anywhere near me whenever his name was mentioned.Â
âShitâs messed up.â Em blew out, eyes alert and flitting back and forth between me and the road.
Snorting in reply to that, I couldnât help but shoot him a wry grin. âNo shit. But yeah, I donât know. Iâve never really let anyone get too close, I âspose. Just easier to keep people at arm's length than give them the chance to hurt me.â
âDamn,â Marshall said, âtalk about daddy issues.â
Surprised by his words, a laugh bubbled up out of me, âLike youâre one to talk.â
Emâs lips pursed in an attempt to dim his amusement to that, turning the wheel with a single motion and letting it drag back over his palm when we turned onto the next street. âStill. Itâs hard to believe.â
I gave a soft chuckle in reply, letting my head loll against the headrest so that I could bat my lashes in his direction, âWhy, âcause Iâm so pretty?â I teased him, recalling his earlier statement.
Marshallâs head shake was slight but visible, as was the tiny curve his mouth made.
I reached out to poke his shoulder, smirking now. âCome on, say it again.â
He swatted my hand away before I could continue on with my fun, âAnyone ever tell you youâre also annoyinâ as fuck?â
âYes.â I replied easily enough, âNo oneâs ever called me pretty though.â
âLiar.â
I laughed, the bright sound filling up the car. âYeah, but at least Iâm pretty too.â He went to open his mouth after I said that but I beat him to the jump, âCanât take it back now youâve already said it!â
Tutting, Marshall had to shake his head again, eyes flitting over to my wide smile, trailing the length of it. âSuch a shithead.â
âTakes one to know one.â
âWhat are you, two?â
âMaybe.â I shot back, pointing over at him. âWhatâs that make you then, if Iâm two and you think Iâm pretty?â
Marshall caught my finger with his free hand in retaliation and clung to it as he resettled his arm back in his lap, âFuckinâ weirdo.â
âLeast Iâm not a creep.â
âAsshole.âÂ
âDickhead.â
âBitch.â He quipped, eyes gleaming as they darted over to meet mine.
I shook my head in hopes to hide my growing grin, but it was then that I instantly perked up, gaze catching on the large allotment sat up ahead. âOh, letâs go there!â
âWhat, to Trader Joe's?â Marshall voiced his confusion at the sudden switch in topic, though his expression was much softer than I had expected in the face of my excitement when I peered back around to look over at him.
âYeah, can we?â I pushed, an idea now blossoming. âI wanna get some ingredients, bake something nice before Rosie gets home.â
Lifting a single brow, Marshallâs eyes flickered rapidly between my own for a split second. He was quiet before he eventually flipped his indicator to switch lanes, âYou gone bake me a cake just âcause I called you pretty?â
A full blown grin broke out on my face at that and it was too hard to hide this one from Marshall, seeing as Iâd been looking right at him. âNo, âcause youâre gonna help me.â
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Sakuverse men phone headcanons!
Silly headcanons about men and their phones! ft. Kayson Mayer, Andrew Marston, Isaac Rhoades, Xanthus Claiborne, Elias, and Dontis
Kayson Mayer
Will have those clear case where he puts a picture of listener or his family on the back of his phone.
Merged his calendar with listener's so he'd be able to plan dates and breaks with them.
Has an album dedicated for his family and listener, I also believe that he curated a playlist for them.
Plays those volleyball mobile games.
Kayson is the type of guy that will see two cats or any silly picture and send it to listener with a caption 'us'.
Probably did a tiktok.
Andrew Marston
I'd say that he'll have those fuckass flip cases that grandparents have but that'll be harsh đ
He'd have those quotes from classic literature as his lockscreen and of course he'll have his darling as his wallpaper.
Deleted his social media after what happened, but I'd like to think that he had Facebook where he used to connect with his family (even uses it to search for his twin).
Has candy crush, believe me he does.
His note app are filled with poems and ongoing literary works, some of them are dedicated to his darling.
Isaac Rhoades
Plain black case.
Black lockscreen and wallpaper before the listener came into his life.
He probably has a stolen picture of pickle as his wallpaper or lockscreen. And he sometimes stare at it when he's having a bad or hard day.
Not gonna lie, I kinda believe that when he takes pictures they taken in such angle in a way that makes it look like something you'll see in a true crime documentary. He's literally a private investigator, so those angles are not a surprise.
Probably has no apps except the default ones just like Xanthus, but in a way that he's paranoid that a small info can immediately track him down because of his line of work.
Xanthus Claiborne
Okay, Xanthus probably does not care for phone cases. He probably believes that he's so fast and he'd be able to catch his phone before it falls on the floor or if it does and it breaks, he'd just buy one again.
Everything is default, he probably doesn't use it that much except for communication and information.
If he has a social media, he'd probably lurk on those forums where they discuss historical events or artifacts. He'd sometimes comment if he's so invested.
He probably tried to take a stolen picture of love, but he can't get his angles right. So he'd make a stupid excuse to take a picture of them and put it on his wallpaper.
He gets sentimental when it comes to pictures, since the people that he knew or loved never had the privilege of having one.
Dontis
His phone cases are personalized, fit for his aesthetic.
Instagram feed so good people thinks that he's a model (he should be).
He's the type of person that you'll see in comment section hyping up people or cheering them on.
His phone is so lively, like you'd discover apps that you never knew before and you'd be shocked on how good it was.
He'd send you pictures of himself, what he was doing, or his location just to update his hunter.
He loveeess video calls so he could see his hunter.
Elias
He sticks to dark colors so his phone case is probably plain black or has simple design.
His wallpapers are stars, galaxy, or the nightsky (probably taken by him)
Of course, he has games on his phone!
He follows NASA on his social media, best believe he's updated on space facts.
He has a playlist for when he's gaming or stargazing.
I'm sure that he has Discord, but he only uses it for gaming.
Unironically had an emo phase where he shares lyrics from mcr, ptv, fob, and 21 pilots.
Elias probably played roblox and convinced his listener to download one so they can play with him.
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[Simmerianne93]Groupal_poses_04
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Hello everyone!! How are you today??
This is going to be a long post... I'm warning you haha but I will try to make it as simple as I can:
These poses are a comission for one of my best friends in the community. When she asked me to do them, I was really happy with the idea and I made these poses really fast and with all my heart haha. I loved the results, but then there was the time to test them... and it was quite more complicated than i anticipated it.... I had to test these poses like 40 times, but I'm finally able to say that they are the best they can be.
We didn't know it was going to be that hard to make them work ingame, but unfortunately, they were... and they still are a little tricky to use, but I tried to make them the less difficult to be used as I could.
Making poses to be use with sims in Sulani waters is a real nightmare...
Anyway, this pose pack consist of 2 similar sequences, and are made so that you can combine one sequence with the other.
- Sequence #1 is done with 2 adults, 1 toddler and 1 infant (Poses #1 to #7).
- Sequence #2 is done with 2 adults, 1 child and 1 toddler (Poses #8 to #14).
- Poses #15 and #16 are bonus poses of the child in the boat inside the water.
so for example: you can have 2 toddlers instead of 1 toddler and 1 child/infant, using the toddler from the 2nd sequence in the 1st sequence and not using the infant poses but the poses with the female alone; or you can also make 2 toddlers and 1 child, adding the toddler from the 1st sequence into the 2nd one; or 2 toddlers and 1 infant; or you can use just the child poses in "Moana" style... xD
However, there are some exceptions where two poses cannot be used at the same time. But in general I tried to make them quite versatile... at least with the children sims.
And God bless Twisted Mexi for the search mod, cause it makes testing poses 100% fast and easier....
Anyway, even if the pack is a little bit tricky, I encourage you to try it. It's a good pack, and I'm no saying it 'cause I'm the maker... or ' cause it was a lot of work xD but because I think it so.
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What is on it?
2 Trio Poses (1 adult, 1 toddler and 1 child or infant)
2 Solo Poses for 1 adult.
10 Group Poses (5 poses with 2 adults, 1 toddler and 1 infant; and 5 poses with 2 adults, 1 child and 1 toddler)
 2 Solo Poses for 1 child. (With the boat inside the water)
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What do you need?
Andrew's poseplayer
Teleport any sim by Scumbumbo.
 [Simmerianne93]Canoe_sculptobject. (For poses OUT OF THE WATER)
Canoe from in Island Living EP (Poses INSIDE THE WATER)
 OPTIONAL: TOOL mod by twisted mexi (highly recommended)
OPTIONAL: Invisible infant mat replacement  by mcrudd
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Sweet Pea x Fem OC
Pt. 2
archie andrews twin sister, delilah, is fed up with him being overprotective. so when a cute serpent offers her an opportunity, she can't turn it down
Delilah hung onto him for dear life, terrified as they raced through the streets of riverdale. when they finally arrived at pops, delilah didn't think she had it in her to step off the bike. he pried her hands off him and helped her off. with her whole body trembling in fear she couldn't get the helmet strap undone. he once again helped her and took it off her head.
"i'm never doing that again," she said, flattening out her hair. he fixed a piece of her hair and gestured for her to follow him.
they walked through the doors and delilah surveyed the room for archie. he wasn't there.
"i'm gonna go wash my hands," she said excused herself. when she came back out, she came face to face with archie, veronica, jughead, and betty.
"hey girl," veronica said. "we were just about to sit down, do you wanna join us?"
"oh, no thanks V. i'm here with someone," delilah explained. "thank you for the offer though."
"o la la, does delilah andrews finally have a boy?" veronica asked.
"no," archie shot in. "no she does not."
"just between us girls," she whispered to veronica and betty. "kinda."
the girls all squealed at her admission.
"i don't wanna move to fast, and put labels on it, but i really like him," she lied through her teeth.
"well we won't keep you any longer," betty winked at her and started walking toward a booth.
"who?" archie demanded.
"none of your business," she walked away from him and towards sweet pea who was seated at the counter. when she took the seat next to him, archie sprinted across the room to them.
he ripped sweet pea out of his seat and they started yelling.
"what the fuck are you doing?" archie said.
"i'm here on a date," sweet pea responded.
"get away from my sister," archie shoved him and sweet pea shoved him back.
"you're being ridiculous," delilah said, stepping in front of sweet pea right as archie tried to push him again. she lost her balance and fell back into sweet pea hard. he caught her and rested his hand on her hip.
"don't touch her," archie said.
"i think i'll do what i want."
archie lunged at sweet pea but jughead held him back.
"sit down," veronica demanded. "leave her alone, archie."
"this isn't over," archie threatened before walking back to a booth.
sweet pea turned her around and leaned her back against the counter.
"not so bad, right?" he whispered. she shrugged lightly and he pulled her in for a hug. "is he watching?"
"mhm," delilah hummed into his chest. after a few seconds he pulled away slightly, their hips still pressed together. he looked at her carefully before raising his hand to her chin and gently kissing her.
"why him?" archie sat at his booth, fuming as he watched his sister.
"he's not without charm, archiekins," veronica said. "why are you so opposed to her dating anyway?"
"every boy in this town is an asshole," archie said.
"you live in this town," betty pointed out.
"i know."
"you're mainly upset because he's a serpent," jughead scoffed.
"yeah, jug. and he tried to hurt me. he showed up at my house and tried to fight me," archie complained. "why does he like her anyway? he hates northsiders."
"well, for starters, delilah is drop dead gorgeous. like even i've had thoughts about her," veronica admitted, resulting in a disgusted look from archie. "but, also, she's kind. she doesn't judge the southsiders, at least not outwardly."
"i think it's sweet," betty said.
"how? how is that sweet?" archie asked, slamming his fork down.
"he's willing to fight for her. he must know she doesn't date because you don't let her. just be happy for her, arch," betty explained.
"it just doesn't feel right," archie shook his head. "i can't shake the feeling he's using her to get back at me."
"not all serpents are the horrible people you make them out to be," jughead chimed in.
"can you blame me for thinking that?" archie practically yelled.
"i guess not. i'll talk to him," jughead told him.
"thanks jug."
archie watched as they left the diner and the only thing stopping him from following them was veronica sitting on the outside. but when he saw sweet pea hand the helmet to her he practically shoved her out and raced outside, his friends not far behind.
"absolutely not," he yelled. "she is not getting on that."
"calm down," veronica said.
"no, ronnie. a date is one thing but she can't get on that. she'll get hurt," he said. "i bet that's what you want though."
"excuse me," sweet pea stepped close to him.
"you heard me. i bet you're just itching to hurt her to get back at me."
"there's something wrong with you," sweet pea bit back.
"come on," she pulled sweet pea back. "he's not worth it."
"let's go," he mounted his bike and delilah followed him.
archie watched in anger as they rode away. he stormed back into pops, slammed money down on the table, and started running back home. when he got home, he went straight to delilah's room, but she wasn't there. he ran back down the stairs and found his dad in the kitchen.
"has 'lilah come back home?"
"no, i don't remember seeing her come in," fred responded. archie went back upstairs and called delilah. she didn't respond.
"god, he's annoying," delilah whined, putting her phone back in her pocket.
"i know," sweet pea said. they were sat on the edge of sweet water river, completely alone. "why doesn't he let you date?"
"i'm not really sure," delilah admitted. "something about all the boys being awful, i think. but i don't believe that."
"that's weird."
"i think he's trying to protect me, i mean he wouldn't ever leave my side growing up. but ever since he started dating veronica, he's been leaving me alone more, thank god."
"it still doesn't make sense though. you'd think he'd want you to have a boyfriend so he could protect you," sweet pea pointed out.
"i gave up on trying to understand my brothers mind a long time ago," she put a hand on his shoulder and sighed.
they sat there in silence, watching the river flow, for what felt like eternity before delilah spoke.
"it's getting late," she whispered. "it's dark and i'm cold."
"take my jacket," he took off his serpent jacket and handed it to her. "i'm sure your brother would love that."
"take me home," she said, snatching the jacket from him and pulling it over herself. she was practically drowning in it.
hé drove her back home and walked her up to her door. it wasn't that late but delilah didn't want to risk waking anyone up. she slowly crept up the stairs and entered her room. she found archie sitting on her bed.
"why him?"
"he asked me out," delilah said, crossing her arms.
"and you thought i would be okay with this?"
"archie, i have had enough with you thinking you can control my life. he likes me, and i like him. i'm not gonna let you ruin yet another relationship for me, i just won't," she was trying to be stern with him, but not be too loud. "now get out of my room," she pointed to the door.
"im not done with this," he said, heading for the door.
"yes, you are, archie. seriously leave me alone, you've done enough to hurt this family, dont add this to the list of things you'll be apologizing for for the rest of your life."
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TPN Brainrots part 1:
Another TPN manga panel redraw, but this time everyone goes down with me (because it's sad).
Also part one of my 'wonderful' tpn theories and head canons. It'll be longđ
. There will be manga spoilers so please, read at your own riskđ.
First character I go through is... Ray.
He is one of the most complicated characters I ever saw (all tpn characters are, tbh). I always thought that people who have photographic memory are so lucky. Ray showed me that it's both a blessing and the curse.
Like in the picture above. You can clearly see that the first 2 kid waving at his direction. It's strange to know that there was a time when the Trio were one of the young kids and not the older ones. My first head canon is that Ray tried to save more kids, not just Emma and Norman when he was younger. When the blond haired boy leaves (first panel) he looks like he is about to cry (also the Trio is around 4 or 6) but when the other kids get 'adopted' Ray keeps his head low most of the frames (I'm convinced that when the second kid left he was already working as Isabella's spy.)
Ray coloration explained:
Purple eyes are self explanatory to me. I started draw him with purple eyes as soon as I found out he is Isabella's son. Purple in the hair and freckles? Well... I'm still very, very convinced that Leslie didn't die (at least not when he left the House). I always think about his situation, like what Norman got into with Lambda. The Ratri-clan is big but they need outsiders, to be soldiers, scientists, etc. And since girls from the Houses can only become Sisters and Moms... maybe some boys can become scientists and soldiers. (I can't believe I'm writing this but think about Andrewđ€ą... he was 100% not Ratri yet he could become an adult). So by this logic I believe Leslie could grow up too and (because I'm a sucker for happiness) he met Isabella again at some point.
Ray turning away:
On the second frame he is not looking at the girl who is leaving, but to the opposite direction. Why? Notice something else? Yes, Norman is missing too. Gilda has her winter jumper on so I figure Norman got sick again. Ray priorities his friends safety over everything else.
Also notice how Emma and Norman slowly get into the middle of the frame while Mom/Isabella get out of it? Pretty strong metaphor. It's the perfect example of 'Blood related family â real family'. And while I'm a RayEmma shipper (obviously aged up version) I would never forget about Norman. He is as important to Ray as Emma. This Trio sticks together no matter what.
(older manga colouring âŹïž)
Now onto the hearth breaking stuff:
Ray's relationship with Isabella:
This deleted scene with Ray and Ayshe lives rent free in my head. Like there are two people with similar family situations and the one who lived int the middle of nowhere with a demon parent thinks positively about their parent, while the other, who grew up in a comfortable home like space with a human parent, thinks the opposite.
"But to me, she was always a monster"â Ray.
Like ufff... This sentence hits real hard. And it's low-key true from Ray perspective. He studied and read all the books in the House, not because he was interested, but because he had to. Norman is a genius, Emma learns real fast, Ray does everything he can to always get max points on his tests. But he also secretly planning his friends excape. Collects scraps of technology to build the device which makes them able to excape, plans his own đ carefully, so no one else will get hurt and on a top of that he is 'spying' for Isabella. Sacrifices people he wanted to protect. I can't imagine that inside panic when he didn't get max scores to that one test. I'm sure he was happy because Norman and Emma got their regular scores, but deep down he felt like he failed.
My head canon here is that Ray always gets nightmares if he is alone or in an unsafe place. And 'thanks' to his perfect memory his nightmares build up from actual memories (like we see that in the Seven Wall Arc). Also he doesn't get sick often but when he does... it's like a memory fuelled fever dream, with hallucinations and etc.
Ray's healing journey starts after the Jailbreak Arc. As soon as Mom is not around anymore, he ever so slowly starts to let down his guard and starts to show more and more emotions. His relationship with Yuugo/Mister is like a greatest archivment in his case. The playful, sarcastic 'arguments' and the way he openly said his opinion on things in front of Yuugo and Lucas. Shows how much he changed and opened up.
Isabella on the other hand... her change of heart and feelings were a mistery almost to the very end. To be honest I hated her most of the time, until the Back to Grace Field Arc. (Older manga colouring againâŹïžđ
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Two things in this page which are very important.
1: Ray's guard is up again in no time, when he sees Isabella, while her emotionless mask is cracking. This is the first time we get a little inside of how she really feels about Ray.
2: Flashback of the two most important things that connects them. The song and the way they were forced to sacrifice others to stay alive.
The lullaby is very important, because it's calming and feels very intimate (like a normal parent-child relationship should be).
You also can't convince me otherwise that Ray didn't hummed this lullaby at least once in the B06-32 shelter to help the youngest kids fall asleep.
And now... onto the last picture. Their goodbye.
Saddest part ever! Never forgiving for this decision.
Ray and Isabella were never allowed to talk even two short sentences with each other without any consequences. In the House they had to play their assigned roles. Then they didn't see each other for almost 2 years. Finally they had to save half of the team from getting unalived... And they moment they would have time the last twist happens... leaving us with a sad ending.
Epilogue and Human World Arc...does little to compensate. Although I can't get over the fact that Yuugo's, Conny's and Isabella's 'ghosts' helped Ray found Emma in the Human World.
Speaking of finding Emma. My last head canon for Ray is the following;
When they found out that Emma lost all of her memories from the Demon World. Ray couldn't help himself but whisper a "I wish this happened to me". And everyone looks at him with an understanding smile thinking he blames himself for this... But in reality he really just selfishly thought (only for seconds) that he could forget everything happened on the other side.
Okay. That's all. Sorry for the supper long post and I'm forever thankful if you read through my brainrots đ„°đ. Also let me know if I should cover more characters like this. I'll obviously do Emma and Norman but if there any other characters you want to see please let me knowđ„°đ€©đ.
#the promised neverland#tpn#tpn ray#yakusoku no neverland#tpn theories#tpn head canons#fan theories#the brainrot is real#head canon#a really really long post#long post#tpn manga#manga coloring#tpn isabella
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Propaganda
Eleanor Parker (Scaramouche, The Sound of Music)â Eulogized as a ravishing beauty who's looks were merely ornamental to her craft, feast your eyes on Eleanor Parker. Listen! I know you're thinking of the Baroness in Sound of Music and saying NO I won't protect the woman who tried to steal him from Maria but forget about that (like you personally wouldn't shoot your shot with Plummer)! The trailer for Scaramouche describes her character Lenore as "The glamourous queen of the nightlife of Paris. A flame-haired wildcat" and this is a woman who was able to pull off that role, and you get the vibe she was like that irl too. There's a story about her changing hair colors that never fails to make me laugh. Take note of her stunning eyes! Her amazing legs! And to see her in motion is to make note of the aura about her, she has an amazing presence. Fall in love with Eleanor Parker today, and make your vote count!
VĂ©ra Clouzot (Diabolique)âat the end of Diabolique sheâs running around in just a nightgown and my roommate had to slutshame me because I kept getting distracted from the plot by a hint of nipple or her backlit legs also her hair looks great in that movie
This is round 1 of the tournament. All other polls in this bracket can be found here. Please reblog with further support of your beloved hot sexy vintage woman.
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Eleanor Parker:
âWhen Iâm spotted somewhere, it means that my characterizations havenât covered up Eleanor Parker the person. I prefer it the other way around.â So shy she was actively nervous about winning awards in person, her personal life remains mostly behind the scenes. But on screen? she was a force majeure. It's a shame the role most people remember her in is the Baroness in The Sound of Music, but then again, it did make Christopher Plummer reminisce upon her passing âI was sure she was enchanted and would live forever.â
Listen we all know Christopher Plummer and Julie Andrews had insane chemistry but the Baroness deserves some love too! She has such a glamorous presence but not in a hard way
She will be known as the fabulous baroness in TSOM, but she was so much more than that. Just as comfortable in westerns or melodrama, the scheming other woman, and the beauty that wins the heart of every man in town.
VĂ©ra Clouzot
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STELLAR IM ON MY KNEES PLS TELL US ABOUT THE ANDREW SERIES IDEAS
I apologize in advance for my ramblings, because I know damn well I'm going to rant. These ideas are not yet complete and could change over time as I try to work out plots and ideas, FEEDBACK IS APPRECIATED AND WANTED!
First thing's first, thank you to my Secret Spy (name is unknown for privacy reasons/to have a cool nickname) who gives me ideas and honest feedback about my work so I can improve. Much love to you. She suffers through A LOT of my obsessive rambles, and she also helps a great deal in ideas for my stories, so I appreciate her help and patience.
First idea: Andrew Graves x Stalker! Cultist! Reader
This was a suggestion brought up by my Secret Spy. It's a huge work in process considering how I'd have to try and write plot purposes with that, but hey, we'll see how it goes, so allow me to explain the (supposed) plot so far.
(Y/N) is a member of the phony cult group "Asinus infirma daemonium clava" (look it up in Latin using this translator, trust me). Due to a contract forged between her parents' and the Fire Demon before her birth. After the death of her parents from supernatural causes, (Y/N) finds herself born with demonic connections to the Fire Demon and grows up inside the cult. Surrounded by phony cultists and the same people her entire life, she finds herself utterly obsessed in love upon meeting Andrew Graves, a seemingly normal guy who just happens to accidentally infiltrate the cult.
(Y/N)'s personality is currently up in the air, but I think I'm leaning towards a confident, morally-grey reader who has a knack for causing destruction and problems.
This is currently a oneshot/fic idea due to many plot holes and a worry that this fic's original plot will be too similar to another idea I have (don't worry, that idea will be written here in this post). FEEDBACK AND SUGGESTIONS FOR THIS IDEA IS HIGHLY ENCOURAGED, let me know what you want to read, and any ideas you have to help expand this into a potential series, or we can keep it a nice and short fic!
Second Idea: Andrew Graves x Greek Goddess! Reader
Due to the nature of this idea, there will be religious themes mentioned, and there will also be tons of inaccuracies and my own takes on Greek Mythology (because Greek Mythology is EVERYWHERE that it would be hard to try and make this accurate). Sorry to my Percy Jackson fans, I've never watched or read the books so the Gods' personalities will be nothing like the PJ series. This was actually an idea I introduced a few months ago, it was actually in a poll against Star Patient! This idea has been recreated with a different plot, but I believe this plot is more enjoyable than the OG's plot.
(Y/N) is the Greek Goddess of Sleep and Visions. For years, she's had her eyes on Andrew Graves, finding his dreams and subconscious desires intriguing to stand out upon the billions of other dreams she's seen throughout her millenniums. She finds herself in the mortal's overworld now, entering a world of advanced technology and terrifying beasts (cars) roaming the streets. While Andrew tries to shield (Y/N) from humanities dangerous flaws (including himself), Ashley finds (Y/N)'s powers more useful than you would expect... finding herself in a world constantly on the run as she evades the police and discovers what living is with the Graves Siblings.
So, the whole road-trip evading the police thing was an idea I had for the Cultist idea, but I decided to ditch it in the Cultist idea because it was far too similar. I figured the idea would fit here more, having an outdated and naive Goddess trying to navigate this new scary world just sounds so adorable!
(Y/N)'s personality is curious, timid, with an almost child-like fascination as she learns to understand the meaning of life, and to cherish it while it lasts. She has a serious need for validation and feeling needed, and all she wants to do is be helpful to the Graves siblings, no matter what she has to do.
This is going to be a fluffy and bittersweet series. I wanted something more wholesome and sweet for Andrew and Ashley because they deserve it after all they've gone through (in the game and in my Star Patient series, ahaha). (Y/N) and Andrew are the only love interests, and Ashley has a pretty healthy and wholesome sister-like relationship with (Y/N).
Third Idea: Andrew Graves x Two-faced! Serial Killer! Reader
As you've probably noticed now, I like making (Y/N) the more... interesting characters. I feel like each (Y/N) helps branch out and creates inclusivity for my readers, because not everyone has the same personality or thought-process, so I wanted all my (Y/N)'s to be unique too!
(Y/N) is Andrew's lovable neighbor next door. She's always willing to lend a hand and has a stellar social image and a great connection with the community. In the day, she works as a waitress in a popular diner and volunteers at pet shelters. At night, she's a ruthless killer stalking the alleyways of the city, with nothing on her mind but how many stabs she can stab a face into disfiguration. She's never cared for romance or love until now, meeting Andrew Graves after he discovers her horrific secret. Now that he knows, she'll have to keep a constant eye on him. Sure, she could kill him, but what's the point of killing such a cute guy without at least playing with him some? Maybe this isn't so much romance, but more so manipulation and power-play, however Andrew slowly seems to let those red flags go and enter a world filled with obsessive love, jealousy, and Stockholm syndrome.
This Andrew doesn't have Ashley as a sibling, making him an introverted, socially-constipated, wallflower with a need of validation.
This (Y/N) is two-faced. To your face, she's bubbly, empathetic, and is the perfect definition of a saint, but if you turn your back for just a second, you might find a knife in it. She has a serious thirst for blood and hearing bones snap (she could potentially be a cannibal, I'm deciding if I want that as a motive or not...)
This going to be a slowburn series.
FEEDBACK AND IDEAS ARE HIGHLY APPRECIATED FOR THIS IDEA!
Fourth Idea: Potential serial killer! Andrew Graves x Journalist! Reader
This idea is the most unstable and wonky one. This idea is under extreme development as I try to figure out what I want to do with this reader and her personality. A poll will eventually be released for this reader's personality and motives.
(Y/N) is a plain and boring woman. You wouldn't notice her in a crowd, much less recognize her face. She's a journalist who specializes in covering true crime cases, and the her hottest case happens to be the quarantined apartment in her city. A thump on her balcony and a door opening leads her to meeting Andrew Graves, who may just be the worst (or best) thing to ever happen in her life. I mean, it's not everyday your hottest crime case drops right into your apartment and begs for a place to stay! Who knew hitmen, cops, and a whole damn demon is following withâokay, what the hell is going on and how does she get her normal life back?!
(Y/N)'s personality is currently unknown. I'm unsure if I want to make her depressed with a thirst of death (hence why she lets Andrew stay, in hopes he'll kill her), or if I want (Y/N) to be a normal girl with an obsessive hobby of true crime and a conspiracy theorist (who wants to keep Andrew around in hopes he'll expose all the case's secrets for her to report). FEEDBACK IS APPRECIATED FOR THIS!
I'm also unsure if I want Andrew to be a paranoid guy trying to hide from the police after killing his sister (yes, he killed his sister), or if I want Andrew to be a cocky, arrogant, serial killer. FEEDBACK IS APPRECIATED FOR THIS!
This is going to be a series. What direction I want it to take is up in the air, but I want action and drama.
These are currently the ideas I have going on. These ideas are excluding current fluffy fics I'm working on, so be on the lookout for those new fics coming out soon! These series will all be in a poll after I finish the Star Patient series, so I won't be holding off Star Patient for these!
SERIOUSLY, Y'ALL. FEEDBACK IS HIGHLY WANTED ON THESE IDEAS. DON'T BE AFRAID TO LEAVE ANONYMOUS COMMENTS IN MY INBOX, OR MESSAGE ME! I WANT TO KNOW WHAT YOU GUYS WANNA READ (and as always, if you have your own ideas for fics, please send them in and I'll see what I can do).
#stellar constellations#andrew graves#tcoaal andrew#andrew tcoaal#andrew graves x reader#andy graves#andy graves x reader#the coffin of andy and leyley#andy and leyley#tcoaal#x y/n#x you#x reader#fem reader#x yn#x fem!reader#x female reader#x female y/n#yandere x yandere#female yandere#yandere girl#yandere x reader#yandere#yandere x willing reader#yandere x darling
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joining @aftgtandn 's Adopt-a Work with a moodboard for one of the fics that has been living rent free in my mind ever since it has been revealed. i just can't stop thinking about how beautifully it was written, have no idea how many times i've went back to reread it again and again. TT
Are You Real? || Neil Josten/Andrew Minyard || 6052 words
Donât , Andrew said. It didnât resonate as a â donât run away â, but it rang as a â donât hide â. Donât hide because Iâm seeing you, donât hide because everyone is seeing you . Neilâs horror and panic would have clobbered his bones if it werenât for Andrewâs implications. The reiteration of his promise; Donât hide because I promised to protect you.Â
(i tried so hard to find a picture of someone sitting down with their knees to the chest but the first photo was the best that i could find)
#Adopt-a-Work#aftg fic#aftg fanfic#aftg then and never event#aftg then and never event 2024#t&n event 2024#canon divergence#all for the game#aftg#neil josten#andrew minyard#fanfic#the foxhole court#moodboard#fic moodboard#fanfic moodboard#david wymack#the kings men
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