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Hlvrai but itās marine creatures I think theyād be with an unnecessary amount of explanation
Basically an autistic dude rambles about what fish these guys would be with very specific reasonings. Iām a lot more certain on some more than others, some are just āyeah heād be this lolā and others are a paragraph of explanation based on very specific behavior(s) of the creature.
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Gordon
Clownfish
Now I donāt really know how to explain this one besides color lol, I suppose the common aggression they exhibit can be compared to him in a way, besides that just look at him that man is a clownfish
Benrey
Broadclub Cuttlefish
Okay for Benrey I had quite a few creatures in mind but I ultimately settled on the broadclub cuttlefish. Their mischievous nature for one can automatically be seen in Benreys character, but that is not the main reason I chose them. The main reason I settled on cuttlefish(and more specifically the broadclub cuttlefish) for Benrey is because of a specific behavior seen in the gif above. Broadclub cuttlefish will āhypnotizeā their prey into calming down and staying still. I mean if I didnāt compare this to Sweet Voice no one was going to. Also Benrey could be pretty much any fucked up deep sea creature, or if you wanna be really basic, a shark lmao.
Dr. Coomer
Mantis Shrimp
This one speaks for itself, Iām not even the first one to say this thatās how obvious it is. On top of being the sea creature he would be, I think mantis shrimp would also be Coomers favorite animal(at least when it comes to marine life). Once again I am definitely not the first one to say this.
Bubby
Blue Ribbon Eel
Honestly this is the one I have the least explanation for, theyāre opportunistic hunters I guess. I really wish I had more to say for Bubby because heās one of the most overlooked characters in the fandom in my opinion. But alas, he is eel coded to me, and he is blue, thus, blue ribbon eel.
Tommy
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Yellow Stingray
Couldnāt find a gif for this one :(
Not only are these silly guys yellow, they are known for their kind, curious, and playful temperament, but they will not hesitate to sting when they feel threatened. Very Tommy. I also picked a ray specifically for reasons youāll see in a moment, just keep reading. ;3
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Porbeagle Shark
Couldnāt find a gif or even a good picture for this one so fuck it, porbeagle side eye
I have the stupidest explanation for this one. Forzen is shark and dog coded, porbeagles are known for their playfulness and dog-like hunting style. Porbeagle Forzen.
Darnold
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Parrot Fish
Iāll have a gif for the last one I promise
I know all of these have brought up behaviors of the animal for reasons why I associate them with that specific character, but this one is specifically for aesthetic reasons. I associate Darnold with colorful stuff because potions and parrotfish are underrated just like him leave me alone.
Gman
Manta Ray
I told you Tommy was a ray for a reason. Anyways, I mainly associate hlvrai Gman with manta rays because of his menacing aura despite him being much less of a threat and practically harmless by the end of the series(so far). Yes I know he threatened Gordon but literally everyone has so shut up, he mainly just told Gordon ātake care of my son lolā and brought everyone to Chucky Cheese at the end. But basically yeah manta rays are menacing but harmless, they also just generally have Gmans shadowy vibe.
Idk how to end this bye
#Iāve been rewatching hlvrai can you tell#I used purple for benreys text color because itās closer to his dark blue than the blue tumblr has#and bubbys blue is closer to that blue anyway#I also used orange for tommy because it doesnāt have yellow#at least for me#Iām on mobile so idk if itās different for desktopš#I really wanna do this but with tf2 mercs so look out for that#hlvrai#half live vr but the ai is self aware#gordon freeman#gordon feetman#hlvrai gordon#benrey#hlvrai benrey#dr coomer#doctor coomer#hlvrai dr coomer#bubby#dr bubby#doctor bubby#hlvrai bubby#hlvrai tommy#tommy hlvrai#hlvrai forzen#forzen hlvrai#hlvrai darnold#gman#hlvrai gman#pyropostingz
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Socraās Naruto Liveblog, Ep. 111-120:
Also known as āSocra grows progressively distressed as everyone gets the shit beaten out of themā
Ep 111:
-noooo Sasuke donāt take the unknown drugs these cult-y strangers are offering you-
-I liked that Orochimaruās theme came in when Sasuke took the pill
-so like if the squad didnāt happen to include Kiba and Akamaru, how would they have tracked Sasuke? I guess Neji can track to a certain extent, but his tracking is more limited by rangeā¦ in conclusion Akamaru is the squad MVP
-Shikamaru hanging onto Chojiās scarf for balance when he stopped Naruto from triggering the tripwire was funny
-I canāt believe Orochimaruās goons are just lugging Sasuke around in a barrel
-I donāt believe Shikamaru would let himself get thwarted so easily so I feel like getting caught was part of his plan somehow?
Ep 112:
-so I get that Kibaās attack doesnāt break the domeās wall and shows that the dome regenerates, but couldnāt Naruto just try smacking it with a rasengan (aka the single strongest jutsu any of them have)? I feel like that could do some insane damage at least
-this is so random but istg if anything happens to Akamaru on this mission Iām gonna riot
-oh now Naruto doesnāt have enough energy for the rasengan. Almost like he shouldāve tried it earlierā¦
-honestly these last couple episodes have made me like Choji a lot more. Heās chill, even though I think his human boulder attack looks stupid
-also I like Shikamaru and Chojiās relationship a lot
-Shikamaru and Neji are really holding all the braincells in this group lol
Ep 113:
-Naruto and Kiba highkey share a braincell (aka theyāre both dumbasses)
-a lot of this fight animation is really wonky so far. Iām guessing theyāre saving the better quality stuff for the more important fights
-oh shit Chojiās getting serious
-I actually quite like Chojiās dub voice when heās speaking more softly
-Choji really pulled a Popeye by taking a spinach pill and getting stronger
-Iām sorry Choji I was unfamiliar with your game
-lmao I spotted an animation error where Kibaās face markings disappeared for one scene
-as much as Choji has grown on me recently I will never think his ball attack looks good
-aw Shikamaru is a good friend
Ep 114:
-bruh why does this episode title make it seem like Chojiās gonna die
-Jirobo is so mean for no reason. Like yeah I know youāre gonna kill the kid but you donāt have to be such an ASSHOLE about it
-man between Choji, Sakura, and Narutoās backstories, why do Konoha kids suck so much
-awwwwwww poor Choji he just wanted to be included :((((
-the scene of little Choji helping a butterfly caught in a web was such a good little character moment
-given how intertwined their clans are, I wouldnāt think that Shikamaru and Choji only met when they were like 5 (they donāt necessarily have to be close just because their dads and clans are, but youād think theyād at least KNOW OF each other). Iād personally headcanon they were introduced basically as babies
-aw little Choji and Shikamaru are so cute, my hearttttt š
-skinny Choji is kinda uncanny-looking
-I love how defensive Choji is over Shikamaru and how seriously he takes someone insulting Shikamaru
-GOOD JOB CHOJI but also omg pls rest
-(also, assuming that Jirobo is dead, Iām pretty sure this makes Choji the first of the Konoha kids to kill someone onscreen)
-the voice acting of Chojiās pained gasping as he tries to follow the others and then as he starts crying and reads the messages the others left for him was so good, I literally almost cried
-god this arc has done wonders for Chojiās character and we stan
-NOOOO CHOJI (I know he doesnāt die obviously but still, goddamn)
-god the whole last part of that episode was really good. Honestly this episode in general is one of my favorites so far
Ep 115:
-whyyyy does spider guy (Spiderman, if you will) have six arms????? Like I still need to know what his and two-headed guyās deal is
-the sticky spiderweb sounds are kinda uncomfy, itās like gross ASMR
-ayyyy Neji to the rescue!
-Neji acknowledging Naruto and saying āsometimes your eyes are even better than mineā was nice and a good subtle nod to how their fight in the chunin exams helped Neji
-anyways I still donāt know spider dudeās name so Iām just gonna refer to him as Spiderman
Ep 116:
-GET HIS ASS NEJI
-damn Spiderman copied Gaaraās sand shield defense
-idk why but itās interesting to me that one of Nejiās biggest moves is a defensive one
-āwhat kind of a freak is this guy?ā says the dude with six arms and metal-emitting sweat glands
-EW OMG THEREāS SO MANY SPIDERS
-yeah no if I were Neji I would have run away from this fight screaming
-I like how shook Spiderman is by Nejiās abilities. Compared to Chojiās fight, this fight holds far less emotional weight, but it does a good job of showing off Nejiās strength as a prodigy
-this is so stupid but the pose Neji fell over in reminded me of the Family Guy death pose š
-damn Nejiās hair slays
-oh Spidermanās name is Kidomaru. Iām still gonna call him Spiderman tho.
-okay Spidermanās second stage form is pretty cool
Ep 117:
-jesus Neji is going through it
-I wonder if the squadās headbands getting knocked off is gonna be a recurring thing in these battles
-damn I gotta give it to Spiderman, he does have incredible aim
-oh my godddddd Neji got fucking impaled. Istg these fights are doing horrible things to my poor heart
-welp rip Spiderman
-itās heartbreaking seeing Naruto and Kiba still think Choji is coming while Shikamaru knows heās probably dead
-POP OFF NEJI
-hm this fight was nice and all but it definitely didnāt hit the same emotional beats Chojiās fight did
-literally every fight Nejiās in makes me sad tho because of what I know happens to him. Ahhhhhhhhh I hate it here.
-also I just thought about how Neji took a BEATING from Spiderman but somehow got taken out by one punch from Naruto in the chunin exams lmao
-this is a much less convincing fake-out death than Chojiās but also awww poor Neji I wanna give him a hug (actually I think I wanna give all of the squad a hug after this tbh)
-I bet people were losing their shit over these fights back when the show was airing on TV and the squadās fates were left unresolved
Ep 118:
-I like the way Akamaruās ears flap when Kiba runs
-I hate Tayuyaās weird headpiece thing
-jesus Orochimaru is going through it
-also I donāt think Iāve said this before but Orochimaruās dub voice is great
-every time I see Kabuto I instinctively start feeling annoyed, even when he hasnāt even started talking. So yeah fuck Kabuto all my homies hate Kabuto
-hearing Kimimaro refer to Kabuto as āKabuto-Senseiā was so weird
-wow Kimimaro has only had like a minute of screentime and heās already contemplating his purpose in life
-OOH Orochimaruās theme abruptly starting when he revealed his face to his new vessel was so good, it jumpscared me a little tbh
-Iām getting the feeling that Kabuto WANTS Orochimaru to use him as a vessel and Iām not sure why heād want that. Idk maybe Iām reading into things too much
-Kiba doing his drill attack straight through Narutoās shadow clone was cool. Hooray for teamwork lol
-also Shikamaru using shadow possession to make Tayuya get in Sakonās way was clever, I hadnāt thought about that kind of application of his powers before
-my horrible confession is that half the time when I hear āSakonā I immediately think āSakon deez nutsā. I hate this for myself :/
Ep 119:
- Akamaru setting off bombs was unintentionally kinda hilarious (he looked so smug about it too)
-NOOOO DONāT YOU DARE HURT AKAMARU
-welp Kiba, Akamaru, and Sakon are dead I guess (I know they arenāt but how the fuck do they survive that giant fall)
-I know it was supposed to be badass but Kimimaro dropping down behind Naruto and Shikamaru was kinda funny to me
-I like Kimimaroās hair beads and makeup. Heās creepy tho
-I kinda hate her design but I do have to give Tayuya props for being more of a loud/brash character. This show could use more rowdy girls
-oh shit Narutoās looking pretty feral
-I love how Tayuya summons a bunch of giant demonic-looking dudes and Shikamaru is just nonchalantly like āoh well thatās not good.ā
Ep 120:
-since Orochimaruās goons are from the SOUND village, I wish more of them had sound motifs and powers. The only people with sound-based fighting styles are Tayuya and that girl from the chunin exams
-okay Sakonās powers are really fucking disturbing
-aw Akamaru jumped in front of Kiba to protect him despite being tiny, heās such a good boy<3
-ah hell yeah dog piss jutsu
-BIG DOGGO
-wow okay so Kiba and Akamaru just RIPPED A DUDE IN HALF
-dog piss jutsu strikes again. Ngl if a dog peed directly in my eyes Iād be pretty upset about it too
-STOP HURTING AKAMARU HEāS JUST A LIL GUY
-okay so I said that the twinsā powers were disturbing before but OH MY GOD THEY FUCKING TAKE OVER PEOPLEāS BODIES WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCKKKKKKKKKK (it reminds me of that one fungus that slowly takes over the bodies of insects, which Iāve always found super disturbing and scary)
-so yeah I know Kiba isnāt going to die, but if he did, that would be an absolutely horrifying way to go out
-Neji and Chojiās ādeathsā both had flashback sequences, but they actually made sense and were (mostly) short enough to not distract from the moment. On the other hand, the flashback sequence of Kiba and Akamaru was sooooooooooooooooooo unnecessarily long and annoying. Like we really didnāt need to see the whole fucking Kiba vs Naruto fight again
-congrats to Kiba for somehow having the most hardcore moment in this whole arc so far. Like bro STABBED himself in the stomach and was like ātime for you to dieā while fucking GRINNING? Kind of iconic I fear
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I am such a sucker for any story involving mystery. Or ghosts. Or the supernatural. Or anything vaguely spooky. I obsessively read Nancy Drew books and hyperfixated on FNAF for a solid 3 years when I was younger. Whenever we got to write stories in class I would always write stories about monsters and kids hunting for ghosts. Iām also pretty sure if you scrolled back far enough in my dadās notes app on his phone you would find my shitty DDLC fanfiction from 5 years ago. And I think one time I played a BATIM song on my grandmaās TV for 2 hours straight and I am still very sorry about that.
I was the weird kid lol
#This was an excuse to rant about my interests#because I honestly still like a lot of that stuff lol#just less obsessively#should i tag the fandoms#i think Iām gonna tag the fandoms#nancy drew#doki doki literature club#five nights at freddy's#bendy and the ink machine
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The whole "humans are inherently awful and bad!" spiel is so tiring to me as a survivor of abuse because it comes off as abuse apologia. If humans are inherently awful, then why should it matter if you're abused - that's what humans do best! Like, genuinely, I think this mindset can harm abuse victims/survivors because they're being inundated with this idea that, well, how bad can their abuser be? All humans are horrific, why complain, why escape, and why try to resist it?
I really wish people would critically analyze where these ideas come from and where these lines of thinking can lead. Maybe it's a matter that I'm looking too deep into, but this very bleak ideology is not going to help in the long run, I think, and some of the first people who are going to be crushed by it are the people who are vulnerable or who are put in vulnerable positions in society.
#politics#abuse tw#abuse mention tw#i think a lot of these beliefs can influence your politics and how you view other people#honestly if i kept the mindset that humans are inherently abusive i would have just stayed with people who abused me. lol.#i think a lot of people who posit these things are genuinely in pain and i really really feel for them...#...a lot of these people may be in the earliest stages of healing where the world DOES feel scary...#...but i don't want that to be normalized in the sense that it *can be* harmful to dwell in...#...when the world feels like a hammer you're going to think you're a nail. and that's such a scary thing to be stuck in#i think it's different when people use this stuff to imply that abuse isn't real/isn't a big deal because abuse is the Nature of Humanity#i'm just frustrated that this is seen as... expected? necessary? fine? it's hard to describe#i've probably talked about this before but i don't care because this is important to me still even if i did
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I got these shoes from someone recently but thought they were way too plain looking, so I set out on a quest to customize them with some sharpies and charms and miscellaneous ribbon I had in my craft drawers. Mostly sky themed (clouds, rainbows, rain, stars, etc.) because that's my favorite aesthetic, but I had to include some cat imagery as well, of course lol.
#also honestly had NO IDEA that real converse have that star logo on the INSIDE not the outer part??? why the hell would you want it on the#inner portion where nobody can see it?? my entire life I always would have sworn it was on the outer facing portion..#I think these would be perfect IF they were just slightly taller (top part higher above ankles instead of just weird hard material digging#right into your ankle whenever you walk) and if they were actual good platforms. they're so short. It's good that 'chunky' shoes are gettin#more popular as they've always been my favorite Look ever since I had these shoes with roller skates that pop out of thebottom (not heelys.#but like. before those. it was two whole entire roller skate wheels like a normal pair of roller skates) and the bottoms were so tall and#clunky and it made my feet look giant (because it had.. entire wheels in the bottom pockets lol). so#I've alwatys been into the aesthetic but . still I find a lot of the 'brands jumping on trend' are too short of platforms#OR they're plafrorms with a raised back/heel/wedge which to me is not aesthetically good and also makes them exceptionally uncomfortable to#wear compared to just plain completely flat chunky platform bottoms. ANYWAY.. if these shoes had a 3 or 4 inch platform I think they'd be#cooler. however for what they are it's still fine! and I like them more now that they actually have some sort of anything to them and#aren't just plain white. The weird thing is that the material it's made out of (maybe some sort of leather or something) absorbs sharpie?#the color changes over time. You draw a mark and then leave it for a few days and it either fades into being barely there or has changed#colors. so I had to go back in and redo parts. ALSO the shoe chains are so funny because I did NOT have the right tools for them#I don't have the stuff to make bracelets or open and close the little rings. they're held onto the shoe with just safety pins and the actua#little rung things that hold the charms on half of them are like broken or the metal is just jam smushed together bent and warped hhbjhjhb#I actually like the back a lot where there's the irridecent star thing hot glued on there. it's cool and shiny. and the clouds#are sparkly on the main parts of the shoe though I'm not sure how well it shows up in pictures#ANYWAY... shoegs..... If I were rich this is one of the things I would definitely custom order from craftsman#why would I spend like thousands of dollars on plain ass shoes that are just expensive because they're a Luxury Brand when I could literall#like pay people to create me custom shoes to my exact specifications?? I could have like 5 inch flat platform boots with fur andclouds#and cat shaped holes in the bottom with LEDs in them with pom pom and charms and etc. etc. etc. Like as gaudy and excessively over#decorated as I want lol.. AND they could have skates in the bottom somehow!! ghjgbhjb#this on top of all the custom wizard costumes and period clothing I would order.. Like i LOVE customizing things. I love everything in my l#life being as particualr as possible and cultivating every experience I have to meticulously meet my own specific criteria as much#as is possible. If I had the money to I would never buy something from a store again. EVERYTHING I owned from furniture to clothing#would be either made by me - or mostly - comissioned from craftsmen. custom tiles for my floors. custom bed. custom table.#even like. custom toilet. custom sinks. etc. etc. ouGGH... but yeah.. anyway... shoes..
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anyone else feeling fundamentally incapable of adjusting to society. also just discovered there's a 30 tag limit which i can't believe i've never hit before
#like it was one thing when i was in high school and college like wasn't socialized as a child due to not receiving schooling and growing up#sda blah blah whatever but like i'm almost 27 and i am barely functioning lol like i feel like i'm struggling to have a normal conversation#even more than i used to and i think my speech cadence is noticably off which i don't think it always has been#some of it is definitely from chronic exhaustion from having to get up too early and the stress of having a frequently panic inducing boss#but like. come on now. i can't even drive despite finally having a license because i'm too scared/distractible/poor reaction time#over a dozen antidepressants have not worked. adderall is not working great either#i'm SO much dumber than i used to be and it's driving me quite literally insane#i don't even think it's from getting covid in july because i was noticing it before although it definitely became way more noticeable after#i got this job. i've never been this bad at a job in my life and it's something anyone who knows me would assume i'd be good at#it's embarrassing. i cannot fucking remember anything i struggle to do the most basic of arithmetic to fill prescriptions i make the same#silly mistakes multiple times i am constantly asking stupid questions and still somehow fucking up all the time#it's not as bad as it was a couple months ago and frankly i'm shocked i haven't gotten fired i keep thinking that's going to happen#of course i wanted to quit this job four months ago but now i'm at like a sunk cost fallacy point unfortunately#this is obviously not like any kind of career position for many reasons but i don't know what else to do unless i move across the country#again. i'm not even qualified for anything besides animal related things and summer camp which are fine obviously but not great if you want#things like benefits or paid leave or not to get burned out as hell lmao#i don't even feel like i could do any customer service jobs because i literally struggle to put a coherent sentence together on the spot#everything is so slow. soooo slow i'm literally losing my mind which is catastrophic because my mind is all i've ever had going for me#and i'm having kind of a horrible existence lately which is exacerbating all my problems except the problems make it mostly impossible to d#anything to fix it. ok going out and doing some fun stuff for a day makes me feel better that's great. except then i need a day after that#to recover from doing things the previous day. so the only feasible day for doing things would be saturday. except on saturdays i'm#recovering from working. i literally only work 4 days and barely over 30 hours it's Not that crazy. i mean the boss is crazy and the job ca#also be crazy obviously but 30 hours a week is minimal compared to other work schedules i've maintained before#anyway but the most i can do after work is go to the store if i need to but i almost never have energy for anything fun#and the fucking bus doesn't run on sundays and walking miles to get literally anywhere takes a lot of energy i don't have#i'm about to move next weekend and i'm dreading it because it's going to be so much work and i'm so fucking tired#and i don't have any friends to help me with cleaning i might be able to get help moving my stuff but i'm not even confident about that#i might have to rent a uhaul but i would honestly rather pay somebody to help because i'm that scared of driving even for one 30 min trip#whatever....sorry i had to feel bad for myself in the tumblr dot edu tags again i'm not in therapy rn#(<- guy who should be in therapy)
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guys i cannot wait to move
#itās my new goal and like usually those switch but my psychiatrist said it best the other day: Iāve outgrown this town#and honestly? it makes sense because Iāve been doing a lot of growing over the past year or so#and with all the work trauma why would i want to stay here?#but hereās the real kicker is that it will take time to get where i want to go#so like. whatever ya know? but also. mhmm. i cannot wait to get there#itās kind of wild cause I thought Iād always be in this town and maybe this is just a spur of the moment impulsive thought#but like. it genuinely makes me so happy thinking about moving#thereās nothing for me in this town anymore especially since the job i wanted fucking fired me and the guy i like definitely friend zoned me#so like. idk! im justā¦its time to move on. literally thereās one thing Iād miss from here and itās my friend just cause yeah okay#we wonāt get together but i still like him as a friend and care deeply about him#but like yeah idk. i just. thereās nothing for me here now so fucking a i might as well!#but moving where i want is gonna take some money so i gotta stay here and save up#anyway. sorry. itās galentines weekend and like it is really chill and stuff but my friends who I havenāt seen in a while#were all catching up and then they got to me and were like oh and what about you? and I was like yāall just talked about how you wanna move#closer to each other but uhhhhhhh I am not doing that lol#anyway. just thinking thoughts. canāt wait to move. gotta just be patient now#i'm rambling again aren't i
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Sometimes I just look at Isabeau and just know that if isat came out and I got into it when I was like 16 he would be my favorite character and I would've gone absolutely buck wild over this man and feel like he was laser targeting me. But alas Odile has a grip of steel on me rn due to her virtue of being a middle aged woman
#rat rambles#stars posting#I feel like the biggest change in my taste in characters as the years have gone by is Im now far more biased towards old ppl lol#although tbf I was also the one person in 2016 who actually liked asgore so maybe Ive always liked parhetic old ppl#but yeah the reason isa is past me bait is because hes an exploration and subversion of the sort of tropes I Hated as a kid#and I still dont like them so isa still appeals to me its just not as much as he would have to a younger me#I do genuinely love all the party very dearly tho theyre all soooo good#I think my favorite part of isabeau is how like. of everyone we get to see the least facets of him but like in a very good way#this is a man who hides and bottles shit hes so fun to rotate#his self image is so carefully controlled compared to everyone else which makes him an incredibly interesting character to analyze#and I love that despite him seeming like the most emotionally stable person here on the surface he still clearly has like. hashtag issues.#like he's in that beautiful zone where its so so fun imagining what it would look like to truly break him#<- normal things that normal ppl say. like me.#I may have my very light beef with alt looping aus as a concept but hes probably the most interesting alternate looper to me#also my light beef exclusively relates to king quest stuff which is why Im a big fan of duo looper aus with sif#but honestly. isa might be the only one that I genuinely think works better as a solo looper even with taking king quest into account#although bonnie comes close. I <3 looper bonnie I <3 seeing fictional children go through the horrors#I think theres a lot of fun to be had with any alt looper au tho I just am a huge king quest fan so I like it when my favorite elements of#it dont have to be handwaved#but yeah the real question is how would younger me feel about mirabelle#because on the one hand: acearo character#but on the other hand: I have always been a little hater abt romance so idk if younger me would rly be able to follow her character well#I wasnt exactly good at character analysis back then lol#except for the instances in which I was but I dont have that sort of faith in my younger self#yknow Im thinking abt my history of favorite characters now and I think me being one of few 2016 alphys enjoyers might have been a prophecy#she was my quote unquote third favorite but in reality she was second#I think she chara and peridot su teamed up to define my taste in fictional characters for the next several years#and somehow that lead to olivia becoming one of my favorite fictional characters of all time#I say somehow as if that isnt a very natural conclusion
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not necessarily my typical "art," per se, but my friend @cookieg122 and I have been building a lot in Minecraft lately and I wanted to share one of the builds we made!
this here is a hidden Spirit Tree located deep within the world; one that houses the spirits of the ancient Royal Family that used to inhabit the area above. it's considered to be a pretty sacred place, so in order to protect the tree, the knowledge of its existence and location is only shared with the direct descendants of the royal bloodline.
tbh, we thought this was way outside of our skill level when we went into it, so it was kind of a challenge to try and figure everything out (especially the tree itself - as neither of us have built a custom tree before). but at one point in the building process, we just hit this "flow" state and somehow made it work? I've never had that happen to me before, because normally I hate building in general, so it was definitely an Experience.
so yeah! I hope y'all like it, we're both really proud of how it turned out so I had to share! :'D
#minecraft#mineblr#screenshots#cookieg122#antony papadopoulos#aya#oc#primordial smp#yeah we work in creative when we build stuff#our 'smp' is like. real loose on the 'survival' side of things lol#always has been because we just wanna have Fun and not have too many Rules#we play the game mostly for chill time and coming up with story stuff honestly haha#but yeah i've been having. a lot of fun building in this world so far#we have a whole desert palace as our base that we're still working on but hopefully i can share that with y'all too when its done
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Not going the best (Patreon)
#Doodles#Just Desserts#Villainsona#Cure#Vent#The start of it anyhow#Draw to take the mind off things - or to approach the hurt without touching it directly#Gift-giving season 2024 was just - bad lol#Birthday was sad and Christmas was sad just toss it plsthx#I mean there were good things! I got a couple plushies for Christmas which I like - I got a Bulbasaur ā„#But there were also a lot of bad things......hghh....#If I turn to Bar it's only fair Charm turns to [Coffee] for comfort#He really needs a name maybe this year will finally be the year I buckle down and make a naming convention#Bit of Cure as well - we're both chibi'd the heck out but ehhh approximate size maybe#She's probably a little big here actually but I dunno maybe she kept her proportions lol - maybe I'm just super chibi'd#Normally I wouldn't turn to her but I needed some cutes and she is definitely that#I watched an anime recently that kinda reminded me of her too hmmm - she won't get any signifiers from it I don't think but maybe new toys#She does enjoy things to play with lol (read: mess with other people with)#Napping without glasses is something that pops up a surprising amount for me huh - I mean yeah that's how I sleep but as an art subject hm#Graphite version of TVAU Charm from the silhouette/ink set! With a better grasp on the expression I was going for#I don't think I Quite got it - it's harder with simple dot eyes to imply directionality#Tiny aside into a brief bit of levity - before things broke bad again lol - I tried a little sample size of moonshine eggnog#Shit's lit honestly it was really tasty and decently high proof so even for such a small amount I got a bit dizzy! Nice#I was gifted the same brand's coffee moonshine and it was neither as tasty or effective but I appreciate the gesture all the same#First night my PC was out - obviously I was worried for her :( I'd only backed up a handful of files not including my Ghostkinz stuff#So I was very worried they'd be affected.... They weren't but boy was that a gamble!#The other stuff... I mean first of all thank goodness I /had/ backed up that handful because a few corrupted while she was out#That last scribble in particular was after the confirmation that my diary was lost And she had bluescreened#We were out and about seeing if we could pass the time until her permissions got transferred over and had just called it that No we couldn't#So we called it and went home and I got to start trying to parse those feelings while still trying to Secret Santa hahaa... Hgh just toss it
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i feel like iāve been WAITING for the other shoe to drop wrt peopleās opinions about watcher for this very reason. not that i think the reaction is completely not understandable but the greater the parasocial relationship, the greater the fallout as soon as public opinion shifts. you donāt have a relationship with these people theyāre just content creators, chill
#ready to see all the people coming out of the woodwork to say how theyāve never liked watcher/unsolved/etc#and act like itās ācringeā now that their fanbase feels ābetrayedā#itās great to have a fanbase but parasocial relationships will bite you in the ass every single time#itās interesting too though because iāve seen watcher have a LOT of support as theyāve tried to build something separate from buzzfeed#so this is the first time theyāre getting real pushback about a decision theyāve made wrt shifting their platform/expanding their brand#so ig weāll have to see how they react moving forward#but itās soooo interesting to see how enthusiastically people dump on buzzfeed#AND how many people dump on youtube and how over the years so much of its functionality has been stripped away#how many ads you have to sit through. how much sponsored content there is now. etc#but when they try to do the same thing with youtube that they did with buzzfeed itās like how dare you not lick their boots#because if you lick their boots and we lick their boots we can watch stuff for free#anyway.#even if you donāt any to say itās a bad business decision. itās not like thereās not precedent for it#1) the move away from buzzfeed was successful and 2) what about the dnd shows or whatever#donāt you guys watch those dnd shows that are ābehind a paywallā#donāt you guys have netflix hulu disney hbo amazon etc ad nauseum that are actually owned by billion dollar corporations#donāt you guys get on your high horses about supporting independent artists all the time#itās interesting that people will profess to be such big fans!!! and feel like theyāre friends!!!!#but how dare they think their work might be worth paying for#idk. idk. itās entitlement though#sorry for the rant iām ALSO not trying to blindly defend a bunch of people i donāt know#but you guys are being soooo fucking annoying about it lol#anyway iām still waiting to see what their response is going to be from here before jumping to conclusions#also to be fair i am biased to be lenient about decisions made by independent filmmakers vs big studios etc#like everybody freaking out about the ai art used in late night with the devil. who cares honestly#āthey shouldāve paid a real artist!!ā idk maybe their budget didnāt cover that#i donāt want it to become the industry norm but at the end of the day i would rather see indie shit getting made then only seeing#the big studios (who donāt have equitable practices anyway!!) making shit#but thatās another conversation. just to be transparent about my viewpoint on this kind of thing#maybe controversial but also canāt we have nuance. for once.
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I fucking HATE how the fandom treats m.ine. it's so bad š
#ash rambles š#so many shitty takes... too much time on twitter ruins a man#i hear one more person call him a crazy obsessive yandere and i think I'm actually gonna lose it#he's either portrayed like that or as one half of a ship#his actual character is lost on so many people because oOoOOoOOooOoO mInE wAs GaY#i dont doubt that he likes men. it's just that I've seen so many people be weird about it-#also. it's not fucking sexy to wanna kill your partner. a bullet between the eyes isn't an act of love.#I saw a tweet today about how m.ine actually wanted to kill k.iryu because he thought d.aigo liked k.iryu romantically#and m.ine only wants d.aigo to himself. and THAT'S why m.ine wanted to kill k.iryu.#let that sink in. š.#i hate how the fandom treats him SO MUCH#i will sit in my corner here. and i will kiss m#m.ine. and we will kiss a lot. and things are good. we are happy. we are far away from all of that.#I'm not saying every fan of his is horrible. I've seen a lot of great stuff and content! but holy shit I've seen some horrible stuff too#and it's hard to not feel like I'm doing something wrong by shipping with him. by loving a guy who the world has always hated.#and ofc I'm not! but still! even whenever i rb content of him here I'm always so afraid ajdhajsj#like ah yes this is the day i finally get cancelled on tumblr dot com for (checks notes) ... shipping with y.oshitaka m.ine??#I'm honestly afraid to take him up to being an official f/o ajdhajsb i think he'll stay in crush jail a little while longer..#i hate how the fandom perceives him so much!!!!!!! i also just hate the y.akuza fandom in general lmao#i do also like k.iryu so.. I've seen shit š#I'll delete this later but oh boy i am in a mood#and i know this isnt the first time I've blogged about this#and for that i do apologize. but i really do love this guy and despite wanting to look for content of him i always end up finding the most#infuriating shit!#i know he's done fucked up things. he's not a great guy. but! our relationship is built on mutual trust and i will NEVER write any of that#creepy obsessive shit that the stupid fandom always portrays him as doing! he's not going to kill someone for getting too close to me-#I'm just... upset- get behind me honey! I'll shield you!#and by kissing him I'm not brushing over any of the shit he does in the game. yes he beheaded that guy. yeah he slapped that orphan.#but i adore him and omg i hit tag limit... oopsie daisy lol sorry guys š I'm really sorry for always talking abt this#you were beautiful šø
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Just FYI for those in the US: Barnes & Noble has their 10% OFF K-Pop Comeback sale running this weekend, May 31 - June 2
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That's 10% off ALL kpop CDs and LPs
#kpop#this is my way of saying we got a ton of the new ateez album#and we still have lots of older releases you maybe haven't seen around for a while#i'd say come in and get RPWP but honestly there's only like 2 left although we did get back in a few copies of indigo lol#some stores have giveaways but it really varies - major markets will have better stuff sadly#our store got little bts stickers (i got a jimin!) and like 4 skz photocards and a couple nct keychains#but the box they came in was much bigger and mostly crushed by the time it got to us#so i think once again it got searched and snatched before it even made it to us#be sure to ask if you visit a store though! (the sale is still works for online orders) because you never know#our selection just keeps growing and growing but some things they send us SO much of#i put these out tonight so i KNOW what's available - we only got like 4 of the lp though and the jongho cd cover
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honestly i love making up shit about my f/o and the people and world around them. yeah i do have a bit of a crush on Pl.umeria so yes I will say that she and Guz have a mutual understanding and are lowkey friends with benefits in a healthy fun way. so i get to have my cake and eat it too. the world is my erster and i can make up whatever da hell i want HFSDGJKL
#SHE'S JUST SOOO.... sighs dreamily....#Guz is my Guy but she's like. i get nervous and flustered around her in the beginning !!!!!!!!#and i think both she and Guz would have a FIELD DAY teasing me when they realize it HFSDGJKL#i play around with the idea of a poly relationship w them both sometimes but i honestly think she wouldn't rly Want smth so serious w us#because we are like. both kind of a lot honestly LOL. i do not blame her for not getting more involved fdsjkl#i think eventually she finds a partner probably and then we'd all still be close friends but without some of the extra stuff dsfjkl#also i might change my mind one day... dont be surprised if she ends up on my f/o list one day LMAO#dandy.cmd
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Maybe I'll come here for a lil bit, wanna play? š
#{mako stripped - ooc}#I now my activity is super all over the place here atm#Honestly I struggle a bit with it#because I have so much other stuff going on that I feel like I never have time for it#Aaaaaaaand I guess my faith in FFVII after Rebirth has been a bit... battered and bruised#But I still adore Cloud a whole lot#even if mine is going to be hella canon divergent from now on probably#But I wanna do something with my time today#and with this storm raging I don't want to risk FFXIV right now lol#come play with me maybe?
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Idk about yāall but I think Deadpool & Wolverine is putting my faith back into Marvel a little because it was honestly one of the best Marvel movies Iāve seen in a hot minute
Spoilers/rant in tags!!! š·ļø
#spoilers in tags fair warning!!!#rant in tags fair warning!!!#relatable#lol#a day in starās wacky life#deadpool & wolverine#Deadpool 3#okay so my opinion lately on Marvel stuff is that everythingās been going downhill since Endgame (a very basic opinion but idc)#like I did not like Endgame; Eternals was visually beautiful but not good in other aspects;#and I feel like Marvel movies now are made to be a āwatch once and never againā thing where you canāt rewatch movies or else itāll worsen#over each watch which sucks because movies shouldnāt be made like that#and that now itās obviously becoming a ploy to make money over quality stuff#but idk Deadpool & Wolverine was so good that I know that I can watch again and still enjoy it#like yeah there were some typical Marvel stuff in the movie (like Vanessa and Wade being broken up??? why does every Marvel couple now-#up in between movies??? they did it with so many characters to āgive them developmentā but honestly itās stupid and instead ruins a lot of-#the character development the character made in the movie before and is now just a way to make the character be like āim brokenhearted so-#I canāt be serious anymore and need to laugh through my pain teeheeā like no thatās dumb and Iām tired of it Marvel)#but anyways even with the few typical Marvel āsense of humorā it felt more like making fun of it since itās ya know Deadpool#and it seemed like it was something people had fun making so it made it more fun#idk I might just be falling back into the whole Marvel thing but I thought it was great and I loved seeing Channing Tatum as Gambit#like he was amazing as Gambit istg I would kill to see him be Gambit in another movie and be exactly like how he was here
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