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Hope the CaitVi sex starts with anger and a loud track behind it, two jaded women so far from who they used to be and fed up with the world. It could be cut with clips of fights, of sweaty gun maintenance and wailing on punching bags as hands dive and grip and beg, as spit flies from mouths. But as it goes, they start to focus on each other again, Caitlyn grabs Vi’s face and whispers so quietly we don’t hear it. They hear it, though. The cuts slow down, the music starts to mellow. You better believe that Vi starts crying as she finishes. She forgot how contact like this felt. Careful, gentle moves, Caitlyn’s eyes reassuring her. They lie together quietly as Vi’s makeup runs.
Caitlyn pulls the butch to her chest, holding her as the camera moves up, as we leave them in their quiet moment. They deserve that much.
#ramble#caitvi#caitlyn kiramman#vi arcane#arcane#vi x caitlyn#i want this so bad#I’ll probably write this at some point#because I have a great track record#of keeping up with my arcane fics
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#need to be held#everyone holds you differently....#so craving the kind of holding that you'll likely never get again because you got broken up with by that person is... hard. really hard.#17 days is not enough time to be better from a breakup.#i can act like im doing fine around others#i can fill my days with all sorts of things to do.#but in the slow parts#the parts filled only by my thoughts and my longing?#the hurt leaks out. drips and drops.#its not a thing where the hurt will ever truly go away. it meant too much to me for that. but i'll do my best to grow around it.#extra challenging part is that i'm trying to be friends with her still while my emotions are probly not processed enough.#i don't have a great track record of staying in touch with exes. i hope things with her turn out differently than my past times.#to those who have been reading these vent tag posts#sorry if i keep repeating the same things.#my sadness has a cyclical nature to it#or so it would seem.
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happy four years to their very first appearance ever lol 🥳🥳🥳
#this is vee speaking#it’s not the most celebrated bat anniversary since we literally got a live for the 3rd anniversary of batfs but i could care less LOL#i have never once been normal about anything they’ve worn like look at them!!!!!! look at them!!!!!!!#goddamn what a trio lmao!!!!!!!!#i wound up watching the 4th live day two for Reasons lol and man!!!!!!!#i don’t ever forget it but there’s a reason they let hayama-san be the hype guy nowadays he’s been doing it since day one lol!!!!!!!#all three absolutely understood the assignment!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 🙏🙏🙏#takeuchi-san once said they all met for the first time in may that year iirc for the drama track recording#and i think about that so much lol because they were insanely at ease with each other by the time of that live lol#like it’s great the bonus features for that live aren’t available illegally but it’s also a shame they aren’t lol#because their brief behind the scenes moment was really cute lol 🥺🥺🥺#but anyway happy four years to the bat seiyuu’s first appearance!!!!!!! since it wasn’t a streamed live this wasn’t my first intro to them#but the live tweeting from the hypmic eng twitter at the time still stands out in my head lol 🥳💜🥳💜🥳💜🥳💜
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breakups are so fucking weird. three years and just like that it's gone. huh
#helix.txt#gross i ended up spilling my guts in tags. look at them fucking writhing on the floor all bloody#dont rb please#vent#to quote fall out boy i knew it was over i just didn't know the date#yeah that's it. fall out boy can fix this.#i will feel better if i go listen to bang the doldrums#and infinity on high in general#and folie a deux. folie a fucking deux how i love that album#my chem will make me better. gerard way save me#god what a weird feeling. you used to know me better than any other person but then you moved hundreds of miles away and it worked#for a while. then two years later you said it wasnt working and that this was best for both of us. guess i never got the memo for that one#hope we treat other people better because i wasn't as kind as i should have been towards the end and you were never as thoughtful or con-#-siderate as i needed towards the end. we grew apart because you're bad at keeping contact over messaging#and in some ways the cracks in the foundation that grew from that were my fault too i guess. our conversations always felt one sided#maybe i was smothering you#you could never seem to keep more than a passing recollection of the things i liked or even pay much attention to them#but i wasn't great about that either#we just became different people. you weren't what i wanted or needed and you couldn't do long distance. whatever#i know it was the right thing i just wish it hadn't made me feel so damn awful#will we still talk after this? who knows. we didn't end on bad terms but things are definitely weird#and considering your track record with people you can only talk to online i'm not optimistic#you tried to break things off initially by saying you'd said you would improve in the past with nothing to show for it#something i didn't disagree with but i said it didn't bother me much. and it didn't#but it's complicated now. i did deserve better. but you made it clear i'm not getting it from you#you weren't as present or thoughtful as i needed#i wasn't there in person the way you needed and certainly not as considerate as i should have been. and for that second part i'm truly sorr#anyways. sorry. i'd been thinking about it for a long time anyway. i didn't want to admit it because i didn't like to think#about what it might bring. maybe i should have been braver#right. that's enough
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So I'm really into genealogy and have been for a few years now and I'm blessed with being really good with names and dates etc. So in conversation I can remember like a ridiculous amount of:
Jane Doe Smith Johnson
b. 1805 Tennessee d. 1879 Missouri
Married 1828 to John Patrick Johnson. Had five children. Died of TB
Etc etc
And that's cool enough apparently but I've mostly been using it for
A. Making up bullshit but real sounding names for stuff (i.e my name is Emily Stewart, Grace Kolár, etc). The point is that they're normal sounding and varied.
B. Having a bizarre frame of reference for historical events. Like "oh [small town],[state] 1942 had [random] event happen? My 1st cousin 4x removed got married there that year, small world!"
It's so dumb, like I'll read about some historical event from my area (where I've had family in the vicinity of since the 1840s) and I'll link up the time frame in my head and be like hmm... I wonder what 3rd great aunt Helen thought about that happening next door to her church.
#anyways im haunted by my ansesters and their lives#and driven actually crazy when i hit a dead end until ive solved it#like if i dont figure out credibly who my 3rd great grandfather's parents are soon im genuinely going to lose touch I'm serious.#i realized the other day that id been 'investigateing' it since Jan 2021 DO YOU KNOW HOW DIFFERENT MY LIFE IS COMPARED TO THEN?!#and I'm not like casual.. I am multiple times a week searching the LoC as well as physical genealogical libraries for records#it lives in my brain like a tumor#he was born in 1857 in 'western' America this isn't fog of shit#its goddanm out there!#part of the obsession is because this particular ancestor is where my surname came from#he's my paternal paternal paternal grandfather.. yea... I'm just like curious as to specifically where my surname originated#sometimes especially on my mom's side I can track this shit down to a specific small european towns and I can find neat historical stuff#but this guy is just a fucking mystery#he appears in Oklahoma in the 1870s has like 15 children and then offs himself after losing money gambling#oh my god im actually ranting#and I guess it bugs me more than others because he has a very prominent newspaper trail#there are tons and tons of mentions of this guy#he has a long ass obituary but nobody ever fucking mentions where he came from other than like vague ass statements#his obituaries literally contradict each other too#I have searched everywhere for any misspelling of this guy's name#but his name is very easy to spell it's freaking William and the last name is very easy as well its a third person singular verb#ugh#anyways#ive cooled off#geneology#is interesting as fuck honestly
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my birthday is in less than a week i literally feel like im gonna barf. what the hell and also fuck in addition to that as well.
#my birthdays make me feel so lonely and weird! and existentially freaked out!#i spend my whole birthday feeling like i'm supposed to have fun and then i don't have fun because i want to be having fun too badly#im having dinner with my mom and grandma the night before but god i like. really kind of don't want to.#because they're both gonna make me anxious and get on my nerves and then i'm gonna feel bad for getting annoyed with my family when they're#simply just trying to do something sweet for me! aaaaaaaack. ack! i haven't like really looked forward to my birthday since i was like...12#comin up on 24? not a great track record tbh. im no statistician but god freakin dang that's not a great one!
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Had DnD on the mind recently after a couple posts about it popped up on my dash, so I figured I'd share the ref sheet for a character I hoped to play soon (enlarge to banish the blur)
His name is Cariton Corbett and he's like if Jekyll and Hyde were a really wretched little priest
Never known peace in his life tbh. He's a grave cleric for a Bloodborne inspired campaign one of my DnD friends was cooking up (hopefully that's still in the cards lol.) It took forever to get a solid design idea, but then I picked MHR back up and uh
"What if I combined a tailcoat with a cassock > you're a pain in my ass but you and your upgraded armor are so cool > hey what if I added inverted cathedral window shapes and cobweb tassels"
#he is soooooo prematurely grey#also yes his name is cariton corbett (car-iton corvette) because i think its funny#hes only supposed to have one gauntlet. i forgot and added a second aosjosns but thats his shield arm he doesnt need it#anyway hopefully the campaign is still on but our track record hasnt been great lately lmao fingers crossed#(i am not hiding the idea for a revivication campaign in my pocket what)#(ive co dmed two campaigns and multiple one shots i have that down at least#anyway not putting this in the tag i dont feel like it lmao#i will put it in#the jackdaw treasury#now theres a tag i havent used in a while#anyway i should probably level out the front of his coat the v shape was an accidental design stage carryover#forgot i was supposed to change it#hes sopping wet and pathetic but hell also hit you with 'mercy is my lords job mine is to send you to him'#absolutely wretched little half starved feral guy#also i should note NO he doesnt have lil flames on his boots#that is grave dirt but everything was already black and i needed a different color#otherwise id forget hes fucking dirty
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Somehow my “For You” tab is full of Astarion
…when I spend all my time bitching about how every -other- character tag is full of Astarion
#way to go algorithms or ai or whatever the hell#a guru in my field once said “I am not afraid of artificial intelligence because human intelligence doesn’t have a great track record”#concur#bg3#tumblr
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Mallowmelt cupcakes, anyone? (Recipe can be found on Shannon’s website)
I personally prefer them to actual mallowmelt, but they’re not exemplary by any means. It’s a cupcake (so part of it depends on the cake you use. I used boxed yellow mix like the recipe said). They’re more manageable as a dessert, but actual mallowmelt will give you more of a feel for the treat. These are more reminiscent, more inspired than accurate—which makes sense.
The frosting is actually quite nice, though it is on the sweeter side. And this may be user error, but it doesn’t appear to hold shape very well, so don’t expect intricate designs. I assume that’s the marshmallow fluff in it, but I don’t mind.
Again, may be user error, but I’m not sure why Shannon instructs you to layer all the chocolate and butterscotch chips on the top. They sink to the bottom (except for a ring around the outside that stayed at the top, not pictured), so you’re left with a layer of unmelted (because these are chips) material at the bottom that isn’t overly pleasant. A layer of solid sugar. I think it would be easier to just mix the chips into the batter like in a chocolate chip muffin—and I also only used 2/3c each, not a full cup.
Overall, not bad but not good in my personal opinion. I would rank them above actual mallowmelt, but below the ripplefluffs. Someone who likes cake more would probably enjoy these more, but it’s a fun treat :).
#kotlc#kotlc recipes#damn those photos really can ever so slightly blurry#thoughts are below the cut#dad said ‘Oo that’s good’ when he tried one#mom said it was very sweet#I’m one recipe away from having tried all of them I think!#I have higher expectations for the mallowmelt hot chocolate#because there’s been a good track record with drinks#but not a great track record with mallowmelt (in my opinion) so will that ruin the streak…#anyway. now I’ve got a lot of cupcakes#…my family doesn’t really like cupcakes#hmm#I may have erred
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15 questions for 15 mutuals ~ ✨
I was tagged by the lovely @killerspinal <3 Thank you very much <3
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1. Are you named after anyone?
Nope! Doubly so now that I’m changing my legal name, rip.
2. When was the last time you cried?
Last night :) Worry not! I simply like to day dream before I go to bed and it got angsty, is all.
3. Do you have kids?
I have a cat that I refer to as my son and that’s as close as I’ll ever willingly get to motherhood.
4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
Yes. Yes I do.
5. What sports do you play/have you played?
Played volleyball in middle school and hated every second of it! Never touched A Sport since <3
6. What's the first thing you notice about other people?
In person? Their voice cause I’m usually too scared to look them in the eye right off the bat. Online? honestly, no idea. Don’t talk to enough new people-
7. Eye colour?
Blue~
8. Scary movies or happy endings?
Why can’t be both?
9. Any special talents?
My ability to make a story out of Literally Anything that is put in front of me. Mobile games with the simplest gameplay/graphics/features? I’ll build a world from it. A plant? I’ll give it a backstory. Keep anything in the public domain AWAY from me otherwise I’ll worldbuild for 8 hours then never look at it again.
10. Where were you born?
US of A, baybeeee
11. What are your hobbies?
Writing, Video Gaming, watching youtube, and DnD!
12. Do you have any pets?
My sweet, darling son Jinxx (aforementioned cat), who bit me about four minutes ago <3
13. How tall are you?
5′3 and willing to bite you if you comment about it.
14. Fave subject in school?
Gods, I feckin hated school with a deep burning passion- Anything that let me write. One of my teachers let me turn in a Skyrim fanfic as an essay onetime but I don’t remember what class that was.
15. Dream job?
The dream is to actually finish a book for once in my life and make it big, wonder off into the woods with my cat and live at the base of a mountain, destined to one day vanish without a trace and never to be seen again.
Thank you again, bestie <3 I hope you have a lovely day!
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ACTUALLY TAGGING PEOPLE??? ME???
I never thought I’d seen the day~
I only have two people, though, who I think would actually want to/enjoy doing this. No pressure though.
@captains-price and @charrhylis
<3
#Tag game#Sal speaks#Love long ass questoin lists like thsi tbh#my bread and BUTTER baybeeeeee#also if you are wondering WHY jinxx bit me it was because i was making a sound he doesn't like#but it was for a dnd thing that i'm recording#and he just REFUSED to let me do it in peace#had to restart that track 4 times no joke#anyway LITERALLY no pressure to answer the questions#i love you all#and hope you have a great day#also sorry for the dpressing tags on shit lately#the mental illness has been acting up but I am Forcing it to Fuck Off
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What I am hearing here is that we should beat up IDF servicemen to keep them out of our country.
Pointing and laughing
#i also want an excuse to beat the shit out of something#so this sounds great#make them feel what the palestinians feel#for the record i say the same about white people in the us because they have a track record
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tjoc lookin kinda cool…
#the wolfs howl#demos out andbthis game just moves so satisfyingly#been hesitant to enjoy it because as it stands the fnaf fanverse creators have been like. not great#looks at the flumpty guy being a p!do. looks at the other guy who like. suibated a minor#or smth like that#not a great track record#it IS fnaf week tho#so maybe. i give things a chance
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So I’ve posted on here at least in tags about how much I don’t like my job… and today I messaged back two recruiters on LinkedIn (shudder) that had reached out to me about different opportunities and it is scarrrryyyy. I haven’t even updated my resume yet. but I want out of public accounting and I have to start somewhere… so here’s to somewhere… and to getting brave enough to go after it for real.
#i dont know why this happens but as soon as i have the safety net of a job i already have and am good at#it’s nigh impossible to get myself to actually make a change even if the job i. have is making me miserable.#sure i’m good at it but they’re bleeding me dry and i just … i want to find a way to make it work like some of my coworkers seem to have don#but i’m so scared to talk to them about personal stuff like their feelings on working so much. like wtf. that’s so scary#am i even allowed to do that???#i get the sneaking suspicion i am actually supposed to do that#but god it’s one of my worst fears… asking a question only to find out that not knowing the answer already is a point of ridicule#or overstepping my bounds and earning scorn#which makes actually finding my place in this industry incredibly difficult because job descriptions and interviews can go well and all#but what companies actually want seem to be completely different past the year mark.#or is it just that i don’t know how to ask the right questions v#?^#i feel so timid and scared and weak about this stuff and it kills me#because i want to be fearless and unshakeable but i cannot fucking do this#simple thing… finding a different job… you’ll hear from everyone in the industry that accountants are needed#there’s jobs aplenty and you barely even have to look#and on top of that i’m competent and a quick learner and i have a great track record academically and professionally#and it’s all right on paper but i’m petrified of actually doing it and it’s the stupidest thing. why am i scared?#there’s a downside to achieving all the goals the ��past you’ set. your gumption is spent and you’re afraid you might lose what you have#if you shoot for something different. something hopefully better.#age old tale right? i don’t know if it’ll really be better. i don’t know if i can do it.#courage… courage to try. that’s my next step. find the courage to try.
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Jewish crisis prompted by thoughts of moving and being on a 3 hours bus ride lol. But also, even if I didn't limit myself to places with synagogues, would I even want to move in a place without a synagogue? Even when my only observance is keeping kosher, it rules to meet Jewish leftists and live somewhere with a queer leftist community. Seattle has tons of queer leftists and I still manage to not want to be friends with most of them, so I need a large pool to pull from lmao
#humanity is great however my social anxiety has returned with a vengeance and I am recently annoyed by people with my own bad habits 😭#like 'dang I must be REALLY annoying to most people when I do this. because i do it and it's annoying me'#I am not a misanthropist I simply have unrealistic expectations and standards and have a bad track record w friendships
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Finishing off my ranking of this Saturday's finals, here's what I make of the songs competing in Etapa Națională:
Cătălina Solomac – Fever
Reghina Alexandrina – Contrasens
Natalia Barbu – In the Middle
Y-Limit – Revolution
OL – No Time No Space
Nicoleta Sava – Bravo
Valeria Pasha – Anti-Princess
Sasha Letty – DNA
Victor Gulick – Fever
Iulia Teleucă – Runaway
Viola Julea – Light Up!
I decided against listening to all the songs that auditioned, maybe I’ll go back and check them out when I’ve got some spare time in the future, but looking at what did make it through I don’t have the highest expectations for what didn’t. This wasn’t the most fun ranking to make, I found myself looking more at what I didn’t dislike rather than what I actively liked for the bulk of it.
However, there are a couple of songs that I do very much enjoy. Fever (the one by Cătălina Solomac, not the other one!) is a lot of fun, with a bit of a throwback synth sound to it, and Cătălina’s audition performance stood out to me. She’s got a good voice, and I love the attitude she puts into it, especially in the second verse. I also found myself vibing with Contrasens – it’s a decent upbeat dance pop track, and the accordion adds a bit of interest, it’s a sound you don’t usually hear in music like this but it really works.
I’m not really sure what Moldova’s best option here is. I can’t see any song here being more than a borderline qualifier at Eurovision itself right now, but Moldova have shown a knack for staging entries well in the past. I’d be excited to see if they can do it again, transforming what might be a more middle of the road song into a competitive entry, but right now I’m not feeling optimistic about their chances this year.
#eurovision#esc2024#nf ranking#Moldova#felt a bit bad writing this one up because I'm being so down on this selection#but that's honestly how I feel#however I'm just one person#and just because a song doesn't click with me doesn't mean it won't do well or have its audience#I also do not have a great track record with predicting results at Eurovision#but I do it anyway (at least in vague terms) because it's fun
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i forgot about angel hayes entirely because my computer's store of saved artwork starts in 2015 and the entirety of angel's "original run" is contained within a like. 1 month period of 2014. theres art of them later when i *checks notes* had a dangan ronpa episode, but otherwise theyre just not saved on this computer at all.
#i lost a bunch of stuff from before 2016 or so in a harddrive crash and so on#i have actually gone back to check old comps too. i did fully lose some stuff. alas!#but yeah s/o to angel hayes - the first trans oc i have on record. love them for that.#angels whole thing is that they were almost supernaturally difficult to keep track of. for reasons? kind of unclear#their original story didnt do that justice at all and then in the dr thing they were a thief?#which is all very funny because theyve got purple hair and a metal arm. cyberpunk ass. supernaturally easy to ignore. great stuff
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