#be so fuckin forreal rn

[starlooove]

DETEST WFA for calling Jason “an edgelord since day one” literally die 😭

[t33sims]

If i see anyone that i follow doing this:

BLOCKED

the animal face challenge bringing out the causal racism in simmers 😭😭😭😭

[laylawatermelon]

I'm thinking about it and I wonder if the reason Buddie is so compelling (aside from the parallels) is the fact that they're one of the few couples on the show that has storylines getting together within the show.

Madney is a popular one (what the hell they all are🤷🏾‍♀️), but that developed over the seasons giving fans an (adorable) anchor to rest on.

So did Buddie.

For Bathena, it was a speed run but it made so much sense. They were both older and had established lives before meeting each other and when they decided they were it for each other they were it. (I'm gonna make myself cry 😭)

And HenRen, oh my beautiful henren, their relationship was told backwards and forwards if that makes sense.

They were already established as a complete family who worked together. The storyline who shall not be named was wild and I don't even wanna say it asked commitment to each other after “challenges “ (made of ones volition but i digress) is one that they're dedicated to.

that's so ironic

(I'm low-key heated but I'll talk about that in another post)

But as I was saying about the Buddie of it all, it logistically and thematically it makes sense.

Two friends whose bond grows over time eventually start to see each other in a new light as they go through life and death together.

Sounds great right? A perfect love story?

BAM, they're men!

Ooooh how about bromance and call or a day.

Yes we know they're coparents but *whispers* we may have accidentally given ammo to the lughtuhbuh squad

Ignore me i be joking to much 😔🤣

But truly once you remove gender and focus only on the emotional beats they share, they mirror any and all romantic paintings from this show and various others. (I'm looking at the rookie fans who i now my head in mourning with you through this tough time rn *I've not seen a minute of the show*)

It's not a crime to see it as romantic when evidently it's written as one.

I've seen many fan edits paralleling their emotional hits (hell the cell block gunshot episode and bathena's final arc about the missing girl is a recycled mini plot/scene *very effective*)

But honestly if you look at it as a love story it will become apparent.

And as the show goes on the more they begin to parallel and blur into something of a blatant pairing.

Now less objective more emotional personal, as a panromantic (taking love is love to a next level amirite?) I literally don't see the problem with a lot of same sex ships and this is a really great example.

If it walks like a duck, talks like a duck it's a fuckin duck to me. (Excuse my French teehee🤗 just had to get the point across)

But forreal though.... Who was messing with my ship?! We gotta talk!

Open up Fox! I gotta talk to you! 🤗🗣️🔊🔊📢

I've had them less than a few months but Imma protect them until the day i die! (Unless of course morals and all that)

But I hope you like this, this was unplanned.

[moodywyrm]

"I wanna kiss him" GET IN LINE!!!!!

forreal tho jesse's so 😍loverboy😍 if dina don't want him i'll fuckin have him

he is so loverboy!!! Jesse is so good oldfashioned loverboy by queen <3 literally grinning like a fool rn he's so cute :( can you imagine seeing him off before patrol, especially if you do a lot of work at the tipsy bison? literally buzzing at the thought of baking breakfast for the people of Jackson and making a lil something special for Jesse :( give that boy freshly baked muffins :(

oh oh oh!! and I know we always talk about Ellie and Abby bringing their girl little gifts from patrol, and I think Jesse does the same thing!! if you like to cook he once found a book on foraging to give you and now he uses it to bring you new ingredients to cook with :( and he'll bring you whatever clothes he finds that he thinks you'll like :( and trinkets!! so many trinkets!! your walls are covered in knickknacks he found you on shelves he built (with Joel's help) :( the first one he ever gave you was this tiny red guitar figurine from the music store he found with Ellie :(

also, because this wouldn't be a piece of my writing without it: Jesse Loves Fat Women <3 look at that man and tell me his brain doesn't rattle around in his head the Second he sees a tummy. or some jiggly thighs. mf sees back rolls and starts Drooling. <3

[analogwriting]

OUGHHH ITS DONE OHHGBMY IM SERIOSLY GONNA CRY AMBROSE..

)&$$&@first off, the rollercoaster of emotions i went thru during this entire series.. it made me so sad and happy at the same time and now that its done o hi jjgjm i cant even express myself rn..

BUT!! I am glad we got our happy ending, “hold the transponder snail” got me giggling fr. Still seriously. my heart hurts from this entire thing ending 😔 I’ll definitely miss waking up to new chapters

the confession scene was done so beautifully oh my goodness… had me kicking my feet I couldnt even read for 2 sentences straight cuz I would get too giddy and end up switching apps midway 💀💀

AND FUCKING EUSTASS??? bros gotta start minding his own business, theres no way he heard all of that 😭 rlly cant have any privacy when u have siblings

but when killer kissed us after taking the medicine I CALLED IT!!! In my mind before the chapter was released i was like “first kiss is gonna be after he takes the cure ik it”

but god seriously that entire series was beautiful, i’ll read it over and over until I turn blind 🥹 i will be missing killer, but i will stick around for mafia cora too!! Cora grew onto me a while back but theres like no content for him shhddhhd I LOVE HIM FOR THE ANGST THO (and also band killer after mafia cora?? CANT WAIT)

anyways sleep with both pillows cold and ur blankets warm, i’ll give u all the kisses in the world for ur wonderful writing

-long rant anon

VKSKFSORKFK ITS OKAY ILL CRY RIGHT THERE WITH YOU FRFR 😭😭

i almost put hold the phone but I was like nah fam gotta make it historically accurate n shii 💀💀 jkjk I just thought it was funnier

I rewrote the confession eight times and I was still unsure about it so I'm glad you liked it 😭😭🥰🥰 i just overthink frfr. you're just like me fr long rant anon. I get too giddy n I gotta switch the apps to calm down 💀

SIBLINGS NEVER GIVE YOU ANY PRIVACY AND THEY ALWAYS BE INTERRUPTING AT THE WORST TIMES so ofc i had to make eustass do that multiple times cause he's a shithead (love you tho kid I swear)

EHEEHHEHE the kiss after the cure is actually one of the first scenes I came up with actually. circumstances around it and some other things changed but cure then hot kiss was always the plan eheheh i can be predictable sometimes 🤷 I'm a sucker for clichés frfr

it means a lot that y'all enjoyed it so much. I went into this thinking that not many people were gonna be into it but I just HAD to get it out. there wasn't a lot of killer content in general but he seems to be having a boom lately and I am HERE for it 😤😤 but I'm glad I ended up doing this bc seeing y'all's kind words really motivate me forreal 🥰

YOURE SO FUCKIN SWEET AND I HOPE YOU ALWAYS HAVE GOOD TIMES FRFR

(might just do a killer au in between all the other ones. I got plenty of em 💀)

[makkie-is-screaming]

i hope u know i genuinely care about u so much im being so fuckin forreal rn im being so serious u matter 2 me n im glad we r mutuals

that’s so sweet dude i care about u too n I’m so happy we’re mutuals <3333

[vibinsane]

BE SO FUCKIN FORREAL RN PLS

[starlooove]

So ur telling me white ppl started buying up our hair oil just to keep it in for 2 hours, wash it out, and call it a treatment? Every time they use it?

[colesterstrudel]

Literally why are men skdkskdkdkd why would they say “is it tight” like what do you expect me to say? “No, it’s like throwing a Vienna sausage down a hallway” “no you can wear me like a hand puppet”????????? Like. Be so fuckin forreal with me rn 😭😭😭

[hausofmamadas]

Yeah, no I feel real healthy and sane after reading this life wrecker. I’m so good rn not at all wiping the snot from my nose with my sleeve like im a 4 year old who’s sandcastle got kicked over

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✷ Steve saw through it, the moment he got back to the DEA HQ and assignments were debriefed he knew there was something else Javi was up to. 

Sksksksks bc what are work hubbies for if not to roast you and call you out on your shit

✷ ... Steve pointed his finger and bounced his hand up in down with a nod, “we could all stay in the same hotel, grab dinners, explore the city, think that’d be fun.”

Javi began to trip on his words, not sure how he wanted to respond. 

“I’m fuckin’ with you, Jav.”

NOSJSJSJ BC WHAT DID I JUST SAY. But also I’m cracking up at the fact that my reaction would be the exact same as Javi’s largely bc I’m allergic to children like I don’t believe it’s possible to truly go on a vacation until your child is old enough to drive tbh

✷ He knew you were Javi’s last serious girlfriend, and assumed probably his first as well.

NOOO INSJSN THE IMPLIED SHADE HERE in screaminfskkssn bc this is literally like 3 layers of shade, like it’s writer’s commentary on Javi filtered through Reader’s interpretation of Steve’s perception of Javi, A LITERAL ONION OF SHADE OKAYSK

✷ ... with how Javi swooned his way around women, it was hard to imagine him heartbroken but eventually he realized that was probably why he swooned his way around so many women.

And the brilliantly hilarious onion of shade continues

✷ “Well, whatever happens, don’t do anything I wouldn’t do.” Steve’s grin grew. 

“So come back married with a kid?”

PFFFTTTJDJDJD okay fair point Javi like Steve did effectively acquire a stray child that he did not have or intend on having prior to going to Colombia

✷ Although he counted his blessings for that, time passed a lot slower when you had to listen to people talk about boring shit all day.

Godddd the truth of this though like this counts even when you’re not anxiously awaiting seeing the love of your life/person who emotionally maimed you for life for the first time in god knows how long

✷ You were head in the game, moving from one side of the bar to the other in seconds, shaking drinks, stirring others, filling up drafts of beer all while keying in orders to the computer. 

First off, I love nothing more than when someone uses like a part of speech as a different part of speech that like otherwise would seem incorrect, except I’m not an idiot, so I am fucking liiiiivviiiiinngtgg for “You we’re head in the game,” like marveling at the way this idiom is the indirect object of this sentence, fucking LIIIIIVING for that shit and taking notes. Secondly, as someone who has had a number of jobs in the service industry, I know THIS EXACT flow described right here, like it brought me back to my serving days forreal

✷ It was one of your favorite things about being a bartender here, there was no room to think, to let your mind take over, you were focused on one task and jumping to the next in seconds.

Once again, as someone who’s worked in the service industry, like there are very few things I miss about those jobs but by god, if this isn’t one of them. Like when you’re doing an office job, it’s so much harder to just like forget that your life may be falling apart the usual anxieties of daily life

✷ Every thought you had pushed away, left no room for over the last few years rushed to your brain.

GOODSKJDISHSBSBWBWI JESUS CHRIST THE WAY RHIS SLAPT ME THO BC LIKE SEEING IT DESCRIBED THIS WAY like we all know what that’s like, you’ve been successfully compartmentalizing shit, distracting yourself but no matter what, that shit comes to collect usually with interest and you’re just like so not prepared for it. Like the just pure shock of the strength of that emotion. Fuck dude that shit is REAL

✷ “Hey.” His voice was deep and raspy. 

“I’m taking my 15!” You called out immediately ...

PFFFTTJDJDJRJEN THE WAY I AUDIBLY HOWLED AT THIS

✷ You let out a laugh, you didn’t mean to but it just came out. Of course it was only a week of him not smoking. Putting your cigarette back in the box, you leaned back against the wall ... “I’m not gonna be a nicotine tease.”

Oh I love this so much bc just the way it so smacks of like when you see your ex after a long time, and it’s like the post-breakup competition of like who’s doing better sksks like who’s more functional and healthy in the wake of the breakup

✷ “... I can set you up at a table, send over food, give you a kids menu so you can do the mazes and crossword puzzles to pass the time.”

uh sorry, you mean to tell me that Reader is like SUCH the homie for coming through with this idea no wonder why javi has had it so bad all these years

✷ “Crayons too.” Javi said only seconds after you finished speaking. “I want the menu and crayons.” 

OHHHHHHSJSKSJSBS S SNS AND THEN YOY GOTTA COME BACK AND SLAP ME WITH THIS MOST CHARMING OF BANTER BC YOURE CONTRACTUALLY OBLIGATED BY WHUMPRIL TO RUIN LIVES

✷ It was small talk but it stuck with you. The fact that he had clearly done this before, it made you realize he was lonely.

GODLDDSKDJDJDB OKAY so I’ve said this so many times in other reblogs but there’s always a moment in every fic I read where like someone will just touch on some character note that either, I’d never thought of before or articulate something I’ve thought but never had the words to describe about a character and LET👏🏽ME👏🏽DO👏🏽TELL👏🏽YOU👏🏽 this is one of those times bc like the idea that Javi’s *good* at small talk means like he’s had so much practice with the most shallow of interactions bc that’s only how far it ever gets with anyone else LIKE THST IS JUSTDJDISJWUWHEBWJBSBE a) SO javi and b) fucking heartbreaking to think about to the point I’m like a peeling my face off

✷ The Javi you knew was soft, he was in love, he was sweet. The Javi in front of you still had some of those traits, selfishly you hoped he saved them for you ....

SELFISHLY YOU HOPED HE SAVED THEM FOR YOU, OKAY WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK,YOU ARE LEGITIMATELY TRYING TO COMMIT MURDER HERE, YOU ARE DOING DEEP AND LASTING DAMAGE TO MY PSYCHE WITH THIS SHIFSJSUWHHW

✷ “You seem lonely.” Again, you weren’t trying to be mean or pour salt in a wound, it was just the truth. 

Pfdftttjdjdj I’m like simultaneously laughing and crying at the same time bc like despite Reader’s desire not to rub salt in the wound, telling someone who’s unequivocally, desperately lonely that they seem lonely is like not even rubbing salt in the wound ? It’s like beyond sksjs more like rubbing the wound with sandpaper or steel wool ?

✷ How this conversation years ago, with the same words would have been pointed and petty and now they were sad and caring. 

GODDDDDDDDJDJDB but isn’t this such like the kind of grownup loneliness when you’re old enough to know what true loss looks like

✷ As you entered into your apartment, walking into the space you picked up some laundry that was tossed along the floor and threw it into your hamper. “Sorry for the mess, I don’t usually have company.”

entire side note to talk about me bc I can find a way to make anything and everything about me but the phrase “Sorry for the mess, I don’t usually have company” should be engraved on my headstone like I have never felt so seen and represented in a fic

✷ You threw your head over your shoulder to look at him, “I’m pretty lonely.”

NOOOOSBSJDJSB BUT THEN YOU HAVE TO FOLLOW THAT SHIT UP WITH THIS AND IM sksksns CHOKINSJSJSJSBS NOW BC “I’m pretty lonely” IS AN EQUALLY APPROPRIATE HEADSTONE ADORNING PHRASE DJSJSIWJSNSN

✷ There was a set of blankets and pillows on the couch, likely where you’d fall asleep every night by the looks of the indent in the couch and the multiple empty wine glasses on the coffee table. 

And now I’m like actually looking over my shoulder, checking the corners of my room trying to make sure you don’t have hidden cameras in my apartment bc tbis is so startlingly me sksksns the one assurance that I have is that I don’t drink wine, so if you did have surveillance footage of me, it’d be empty glasses of cold brew and chocolate milk instead of wine glasses

✷ “I know it looks like a sad and pathetic life, and sometimes it is,” your eyebrows raised as you joked, “but it’s also pretty cool, lots to do in the city, I hang with my friends from the bar a lot, but I like my little space too.” 

WHEREIN IM NOW JUST COPY/PASTING LINE BY LINE BJT LIKE I CANNOT ACTUALLT FUCKINFSJSJSN EXPRESS THE PURE CONCENTRATION OF ME THAT IS REPRESENTED BY ALL OF THIS LIKE IF WE GO SOWN THE LIST:

1) sometimes lonely and pathetic ✅

2) also pretty cool ✅

3) lots to do in my city ✅

4) I hang with my friends not from the bar bc don’t got time fordat but I do have a little crew of homies

5) but I like my little space too ✅

LIKE ALL THE FOOD GROUPS EQUALLY REPRESENTED IN TBIS SHIT RIGHT HERE, I COULD KISS YOU, I FEEL SO SEEN

✷ “I didn’t have whiskey.” Your voice interrupted his staring at your bookcase.

“You know I’ll drink anything.” He smiled and took one glass from your grip. 

What does it say about me that I reas this and was like “YEAAAA THATS MAH BOI” don’t answer that, let’s not think about it too hard

✷ Javi shook his head, “and please don’t just repeat what you told me then, I’ve heard those words on repeat for years.” 

Fuck. That hurt you. 

FUCK THAT HURT MEEEEEEEEEEE JYEEEEEEEESUS FUCKING CHRIST SSKSWIWOSIXJSJJWBW&./&/!!€\

✷ It’s stupid now thinking about it but I felt like saying yes to you, meant saying no to myself.

Look, this could be read as like Reader being #problematicallynoncommittal HOWMEVER, given that it’s a fem Reader, MY FODDDDDD there’s so much that this says just in terms of gender roles, a desire for independence and self-sufficiency whether that be emotional or financial or both and also just feeling stifled in a relationship despite still loving the other person and as someone who just got out of a 6 year relationship where I felt stifled but still loved the other person, I feel both seen and attacked AND IM DOING FUCKINGKSJD LAPS IN MY LIVING ROOM RN BC THIS JUST CLOBBERED ME IN FHE FACE LIKE A CRICKET PADDLE WITH THE FEELS OKAY ????AND IM NOT OKAY, OKAY???????

✷ The room filled with heaviness, these weren’t easy topics to talk about and you two were discussing them like they were nothing. 

Look this is probably such tmi but I legit just had a conversation with aforementioned ex of 6 years that I still love that was so much this vibe like I think it might actually be the universe’s sick cosmic joke that I chose this fic to read today bc like it’s dhshwhwjwhwnebehbwbwbw just wlalaiwisksks makinfsjsbe me feel a lotta sjsjsjs fuckinsnsbsbsbw w THIIIIINGS

✷ ... you started to tear up and before you knew it a sob left your mouth.

OHHHH SUREEEEEEEEEWW BC I WOKE UP THIS MORNINF AND SAID TI MYSELF, I WANNA GET WRECKT TODAY ~~IM NOT SOBBING, YOURE SOBBINF. NO ONE LOOK AT ME, AVERT THINE EYES

✷ “God, what the fuck happened to us.”

“A lot of fuckin’ shit.”

BOOOOOOSSJJWWJJWEB ENDJDNS DNDNAJ S NO BC YOU ARE ON A REAL-LIFE ACTUAL WARPATH COMING FIR ME WITH THIS ????????????? AAAAAAAAAAND IM FULL CHERNOBYL NUCLEAR MELTDOWN, JUST COLLAPSING IN ON MYSELF LIKE A DYING STAR

✷ You turned and lightly jogged over to the coffee table to grab the engagement ring box off the table and bring it back to the door ... “Returning what I borrowed ... Keep it. I have a feeling one day you’ll want it again.” 

AHHHHHHHHHHHJ W AND NOW IM JUMPING UP AND DOWN, DOING THE CAN-CAN, POPPING OPEN A BOTTLE OF CHAMPAGNE WITH A KNIFE IN THAT COOL BUT RIDICULOUS WAY THEY DO IN THE MOVIES WITHOUT ACCIDENTALLY CUTTING MYSELF IN THE PROCESS BC IN THIS SCENARIO, I HAVE THE HAND-EYE COORDINATION OF AN OLYMPIC ATHLETE BC I WAS SO NOT EXPECTINF THIS AVTUAL HAPPY ENDING ??????? LIKE WHAT A GIFT YOUVE GIVEN ME

Something Borrowed

Javier Peña x F!Reader

Day 10 from these April Prompts: “Returning something borrowed long ago”

Summary: A familiar face surprises you along with all the emotions that come with seeing him. 

Warnings: Angst. All my fics are 18+ regardless of content. 

Word Count: 4.7k words

Narcos Taglist: @drabbles-mc  @justreblogginfics @narcolini​

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[peachrunes]

i feel like nobody Sees me anymore but i’ve got some Walls around me. they have only gotten higher

[hoodieimp]

Hgh

[bangchanswolfpelt]

hello, hi, i’m back and i’m alive (mostly).

a quick explanation: immediately after my last post, life happened, as it does. i won’t go into the details because, frankly, they’re boring—work got insane and still is, my immune system flared up like the mild trashfire it’s always been, and on top of all of that, the roomie and i scheduled a truly stupid amount of traveling for the very end of the year. as a result, a lot of stuff fell by the wayside and this blog was one of them.

then i wrote two thousand words about Yoon Jeonghan in a mad, sleep-deprived frenzy on the way to LA today and remembered that i actually enjoy writing. wild, right?

so i’m back now! i’m not gonna try say how active i’m gonna be, because life is still crazy enough that i genuinely have no idea. but i’m here and i’m writing again, and also reading your messages, and holy shit y’all sent A LOT of them. like seriously, i was not expecting my inbox to look the way it does rn and i’m saying that in the most bewildered and grateful way possible.

im gonna start responding to individual messages this week probably, but i just wanna throw out a blanket ‘thank you, and i love you’ to anyone who’s around to read this because i really did pop my inbox open to nothing but concern and affection and unrelenting thirst and i don’t have the words to express what that means to me. ❤️‍🩹

some housekeeping:

kinktober requests will start going up again at some point in the near-ish future, interspersed with the regular requests that have been chugging along on the back burner and my usual unrequested nonsense. requests will stay closed while i work on what’s already queued up and figure out how i want them to actually work moving forward. my inbox is still open, tho, and will be unless Something Drastic happens; i’ll be plugging away at clearing that out as well💕

my day6🧟 tag is changing to eaj🧑🏼‍🚀 because the writing on the wall has become painfully clear, and as much as i enjoy day6’s music, i was only ever interested in Jae as a person and the odds of me starting to care about the rest of these boys now is lookin real unlikely. 👀

also, i mainlined all of Kingdom in a feverish haze and i’m a motherfukin Melody forreals now, i guess!?!? so talk to me about daddy Eunkwang and slutty mommy Minhyuk to save my roommate 😂

everything i have up on AO3 is now cross-posted to dreamwidth—if you’re there, come say hello! i know absolutely no one there! (also, if you’re reading this and you’re also writing here on tumblr—this is your lovingly aggressive reminder to back! up! your! stuff!! do not trust or rely on tumblr!! AO3 is pretty fuckin great, but dreamwidth is solid too! i love everyone at this party, but we are dancing in a condemned, crumbling building!! do yourself and the people who love your writing a favor and make sure it sticks around!!!!)

i’m in LA literally RIGHT NOW for ptd, so if anyone’s at so-fi on the thirtieth (today) or the first and you see a shortstack with dark blue hair wearing a Yellow Peril/0X1=LOVESONG tee or a Big Tiddy Gang hoodie cut too short to adequately cover tiddies of any size, come yell at me to get back to writing in person💞

[companionship]

okay one big post to get the finale out of my system! it's been lovely reading all of your analyses and reactions, and looking at all your amazing gifs and edits :')

fair warning: this is going to be so stinking long omfg

the things i enjoyed:

vincenzo remaining an anti-hero through and through, especially the fact that he didn't hold back at all when it came to myunghee and hanseok's death. he gave them a taste of their own medicine and then some forreal, their deaths were brutal but oddly satisfying, and i'm saying this as someone who usually hates violence/gore. throughout the show, they've always hinted at what he was Truly Capable Of and boy did we get to see it

vincenzo fumbling in hanseok's house and not being his usual self – a lot of people thought it was ooc, which i understand! i felt like that was the Point, to show that for once, he's not the invincible mafia consigliere that everyone thinks he is. what he did to the man who killed his mother and the army of security guards was a reaction, but this is the first time he's flustered, caught at a disadvantage, and faced with the very real possibility that he might lose somebody incredibly important to him. idk it made him more human to me

vincenzo literally not hesitating for even 0.1 seconds to fold his entire body around hers when he thought hanseok was going to shoot again – yeah that whole bit made my heart clench i feel like a crazy person i won't get over it

the chayenzo hospital scene... my god it was so tender my heart broke. the laugh they both shared, out of sheer relief that she's okay. the little joke about paying for the private room. the way not much was being said, but everything was being said at once. the way they looked at each other, as if it wouldnt ever be enough :( the quiet acceptance that this is their last night together, and that he's going to have to kill a bunch of people after this, but for now they have this. for however brief.

chayoung being chayoung – her big ass personality at the courtroom at the end after winning ms oh's case. her hopping around in those heels, looking elegant and sleek, mocking the hell out of rich conglomorates. she's in her element again and it made me so, so happy to see. i absolutely adore her, she's everything really. after all that loss and the whole ordeal, i'm glad she's able to return to what she does best: putting capitalists back in their place

mr lee being Very Much Not Dead – idk how i wouldve been able to handle it after witnessing hanseo's death like im glad he got the chance to be a dad

the kiss – my god....

the things i didn't like:

hanseo's death – lmao is it even a surprise... say what you will about his death being foreshadowed, but i really just hated hated it. i hate that hanseok won this one. i hate that hanseo worked so hard to redeem himself, only to lose it all. i hate that he was given a taste of what a real family was like, and then having it taken away so cruelly. even though i said above that i didn't mind that vincenzo was ooc at the mansion, i was still screaming at the screen because there were plenty of opportunities for the situation to be reversed. i don't necessarily blame vincenzo for hanseo's death, but i do wish that they had a funeral scene for him. i wish they acknowledged his sacrifice, and how pivotal he was in turning the tables. if not for hanseo, vincenzo really couldn't have pulled any of this off, from the interpol tipoff to the tracking device in the watch. idc idc hanseo is in malta rn, enjoying the sun and the beach, going to therapy, and teaching the local kids how to play hockey even though there's no ice :(

chayoung being bedridden the whole finale – like... NAH lmao this aint it chief... if things went my way, she wouldve gotten out of the hospital depite her injury and dealt with myunghee before handing her off to vincenzo. i loved their animosity for each other, and i wanted chayoung to be the one at myunghee's apartment waiting for her, rubbing it into her face. i wanted chayoung to verbally finish myunghee with that sharp ass tongue of hers and really dump a load of salt on her wounds. then vincenzo could do whatever the hell he wanted. you could argue that the show is called Vincenzo but i really dont care lmao it started with chayoung avenging her dad and she should've been able to strike the final blow. also what was her big second party? are we really just going to ignore her capacity for evil? after all that moral work done, after that time she spent coming to terms with using evil to combat evil, we're just going to... keep her bedridden? park jaebum u will pay for this

vincenzo losing his family – besides hanseo's death, i think this was what i hated the most from the ending. the start of the show showed us vincenzo's departure from the mafia with the very clear intention of Not Returning. the capo died, his loyalties lie with no one, paolo can suck it. throughout the show, we see him repeat over and over that he wants to get the gold and skip off to malta to enjoy a peaceful life there, while reflecting/repenting for the things he's done. vincenzo was gearing up for a lifetime of solitude. the whole point of the show was for him to find a real family and have a real chance at happiness. park jaebum really said FUCK THAT! we're gonna have him ditch the family that he built from scratch with the love of his life and then make him return to the family that tried to kill him AND make him the capo... pjb said we're gonna separate vincenzo from the family that accepts his past and sees it as a strength and not a weakness. the family that was formed out of solidarity, the family that he fought for and fought alongside with blood, sweat and tears. not to mention the goddaughter of his? sorry i would laugh if it didn't actually rile me up so bad

vincenzo not being able to come back to korea – i've said this in another post of mine, but given that he is The Vincenzo Cassano with all those resources at his disposal (guillotine file, mr ahn/mr cho/the chief etc.), the fact that he isnt even able to stay in korea for 30 fuckin minutes after finishing hanseok was ridiculous. the whole police chase was dumb as hell considering that the show has managed to stop politicians and mf presidential candidates from going after him like ? huh LMAO park jaebum had an on-demand pigeon army in this show and Yet he can't stop like 10 suddenly-righteous policemen. another big ass HUH

chayenzo (here we go...):

NOPE! i've reflected on the ending and decided that i'm going to be petty and salty for a while more before coming to terms with it

i can rationalise and try to be positive and tell myself that their love is enduring can transcend space and time and that in due time, they will find their way back to each other, and i have no doubt that they will because they're one soul in two bodies. it's quite literally canon that they're soulmates.

but let me wallow for a second

here we have two people who have done questionable and terrible things in their past coming together, growing together, grieving together, fighting together... you get the gist of it. you have two people who have found a home in each other. two people who, for all intents and purposes, were about to live in a whole lot of bitterness and solitude if not for each other and the life they built together (chayoung didn't have friends like that, and her family is gone too). to separate them like that at the very end is cruel. i know chayoung and vincenzo are mature and incredible and will be able to function without the other next to them. i know that they will still excel as lawyers and will defeat evil with their underhand methods the way they do so well but my god are they going to feel the absence and miss each other

my point is that they shouldn't have to. from what i could tell, they can't even communicate on a regular basis bc he'll be tracked and whatnot, hence the postcards. a postcard every month is a poor substitute for all those nights they stayed up drinking makgeolli and celebrating their wins. its a shitty replacement for coffee dates and fist bumps and all the moments in between. after everything they've been through, after literally fighting to death for their family, they don't deserve this. they don't deserve to meet up once a year for a couple of hours. they don't deserve pockets of time in malta or korea, their life in a perpetual countdown to when they're going to see each other next

they both deserve love and some semblance of peace (finally finally). they both deserve to have someone to come home to after a hard day of work, because doing what they do cannot be easy. they both deserve a family, deserve to have someone next to them that accepts their past and would embrace their future. they both deserve a hand to hold and a shoulder to lean on. i know they will still be It for each other despite the distance, i just wish the distance didn't even exist in the first place bc its stupid and cruel and their love shouldnt have to be proven or tested with time and space. let them stay together. let them grow together. let them be.

side note: song joongki and jeon yeobeen need another project together idc take it up with god

tl;dr: park jaebum u will be paying for my therapy bills

[saintobio]

i really was wishing for haru to make an appearance and he did 😭 i don't know what that entails now but it's high time rin be jealous for once, if he is. i hope he his. haru seems like a great guy.

and sophia is something huh. she kinda deserves a slap or two. and rin what is up with you showing you care for yn now? ugh i just hate him rn. but osamu supremacy!! 💚 and kita, atsumu and aran this chapter.

i feel so bad for yn. like the heartbreak. it must be tough. but girl haru is there now, and asher, find asher! ugh it's so good. thank you for that chapter!! looking forward to the next one! i hope you're doing well. 💕

thanks sm!! i’m very glad you liked it and thank you for sending this through <3

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Anonymous said

All thought process left my mind as SOON as I read "Haru..."

Yes... the king is HERE, eat shit Suna!

But forreal.... Sophia... what a bitch omfg.

And Suna... literally what the fuck is going on with him... this hot and cold bullshit is seriously giving me whiplash 😭

And Osamu.... he is best boi always the better twin, and i am glad Atsumu apologized but i need more than one pack of m&ms 😤

Great chapter, as always!!! It made me kinda sad but I was getting more frustrated than anything 😭 NOW WHERE IS ASHER

Anonymous said

hold up... wait... it's time FOR A FUCKIN CELEBRATION.

HARU. MISTER DPR IAN. MISTER CHRISTIAN YU. MISTER FUCKIN HARU. IS HERE EYYYYYYY

Also wtf... Sophia acts so high and mighty until the mention of the letters. Why wont y/n take the opportunity to taunt her like bitch u stole my man and doesnt living a lie of a relationship hurt more than when the truth is finally revealed? I guess not, makes me wanna tell him even if he wont believe me... I'd fuckin help them become more off than on cuz ya rlly hurt my girl y/n 🤷🏻‍♀️ ya dug yer own grave missy and were just helpin ya lower ur fuckin casket down 💀 also... tell me y/n ain't infected... um.

Also can they just leave me girl alone like... wtf Suna. Leave her the fuck alone, like you've hurt her enough... I'm so fuckin tired of this guy's mood swings like choose ur fuckin only option rather than the one that was never an option in the first place. 😤

Sorry for the lil rant but anyway amazing chapter as always ☺️

sorry i’ve compiled this, i hope i don’t mind as they sound similar :’D thank you nonnies!! your rants were very enjoyable to read

[jeju-tangerine]

so fuckin sad rn forreal. where is justice when you need it. MY BOY PHANBIN WORKED HIS ASS OFF AND THIS IS WHAT HE GETS????? NOTHING??????

final bepler or ZEROBASEONE lineup is such a fucking flop