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larspinfieldlover · 3 days ago

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hope someone who has never seen taskmaster reads this and their brain explodes

i'm currently on s10 of taskmaster so i'm in that weird space between the early vibes where alex heavily implied that he was being kept in a cupboard in gregs house and fed only bugs and now when they're gay lovers or whatever the fuck is happening

#bc wtf is even happening anymore #taskmaster #alex horne #greg davies

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imthursdaysyme · 1 year ago

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I feel like the kids in st would have simple small answers for “what do you want to do in the future” bc subconsciously or not they don’t think they’ll survive, I think Lucas would answer and say oh I want to be a camp counselor one summer and his dad is like….I meant a job son

#lucas sinclair #i love him #and i think they would all do this more unconsciously like oh id like to learn how to drive #and thier parents are like what? drive? we meant like goals you have #and they are like yeah #driving is a goal maybe even getting a job or you know i was really hoping i could one day have a party with my friends at the lake #and slowly all the parents are realizing they don't think theyll live past 16/18 and are like wtf happened #i think the parents slowly picking up that their kids have massive amounts of trauma in small ways is so important #bc listen some of them have good parents and parents will pick up on that shift in them #i want ms henderson to be so concerned why her son is suddenly freaking out if he hasn't talked to all his friends that day #or confused why he suddenly doesn't eat certain foods anymore (they were the last thing he ate before upside down adventures)#like all that #very important okay

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ableedingpromise · 4 months ago

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God I'm so fucking annoyed how come she gets to treat me however she likes and then gets to say she didn't mean it?????

#have u considered not constantly comparing me to ur abusive husband who hit u??????#since i was like 8 its really fucking weird #like who in their right mind tells their child theyre naturally destructive just like their father and then says ohhhhh but i didnt mean it #are u fucking insane #doesnt help that i look like him too everyone tells me that #and now she acts like me raising my voice once means she needs to walk on eggshells around me wtf #what about how u treated me from ages 13-16 #freak #i cant believe this shes treating me like im some scary stranger as if shes not the one with full financial control and that im this horribl #person go kill yourself omgjdjsjsjwjwwhwhhw #fuck u #last year was the worst year of my life and that was wholy bc of u you showed me what place i really have in this family and that it was not #hing. how is sveryrone so ready to throw me away??#yet everyone else gets to say shes sooo proetctive and loving fuck off you wouldnt even tell them youre treating me badly diedie diediediedi #i want to cut so bad bro #but i promised myself i wont so #i mean i dont even have any way of gettibg blades so whatver #just remembered her reaction to me cutting #nothing. yeah absolutely no reaction. i thought the worat thing that could happen was her gettjbg mad at me again but no #i realised there was somwthing worse. she just straight up doesnt care #useless mother #im fine w u treating me like shit ive accepeted it that i have no place in anyone's life unlesss i hive into this but at least #at least stop trying to confront me like this #just let me rot in peace #i really dont want to do this anymore #any time now she'll ask me if i was pretending to cry so i wpuldnt have to go out w her now #as if that isnt insulting #and then she'll say i wasnt trying to be rude!!! as if she hasnt always treated me like none of my feelings r real. i only ever overeact. ok

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sundial-bee-scribbles · 20 days ago

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In case it's hard to read/understand: "If I had a nickel for every time I had a story with a blonde girl named after a plant, who has a German father and a French mother but absolutely hates said mom, I'd have two nickels. Which isn't a lot, but it's weird that it happened twice."

weird, extremely-specific tropes in my stories: pt 1

#oc liveblogging #ughhhhhhh i really CANNOT afford to be procrastinating rn but i know this happens when im extremelyyyyyy fucking stressed.#creative/art related classes always get me for this reason bc ill use 'wait but i need to find inspiration!' as an excuse to procrastinate.#fuckkkkkkkkkk. UGH IM NOT EVEN WRITING SOMETHING FROM SCRATCH ITS JUST A FINAL REVISION BUT IM CONVINCED IT SUCKS #the worst part is hkjhkjGHKJ I HAVE TO PRESENT SOME OF THIS SHIT AT AN. INTERNATIONAL FUCKING CONFERENCE GUYS. GUYSYSSSS #anyways this post is sadly not related to that. nothing im presenting is related to my ocs [un]fortunately lmao #ive just been thinking rotating various oc stories around in my head again ourgghhhh.#and i realized this LMAO. i mean maybe technically not 2 separate stories anymore because im recycling a lot from one for the other?#one of these was already established lowkey and the other was something i made for an assignment for a class like 2 years ago #i actually don't know if petunie will be blonde in her final incarnation?? ive always imagined her as silvery blonde ig but idk #if ill keep that. she doesnt have proper colors like colin but at least colin has his design set more straight somewhat.#and all the recent petunie development is lowkey really fucking funny to think abt. i girlbossed with her character development so #hard that she really replaced lucian as a protagonist HAHAJSDHKGJ. ok well not 100% kamille's story is a shoot-off #of lucian's technically? i guess? it started becoming that and now its solidified as that lowkey bc same town same place time period people #but man if im not careful i might accidentally make kamille/petunie's arc THE default one and lucian's main one the offshoot instead #a lot remains to be seen. but also yeah the other one who's story is mostly getting recycled (myrtille) actually ALSO HAD HER MOM #COME FROM THIS SAME FUCKING PLACE BASICALLY. a few decades later but still bruh given developments for lucian's story too its just like #at this point im noticing a pattern man wtf is wrong w/ women who come from this town specifically lol. 😔🥴#this town in general is just fucking cursed though i think ahkjshkg. i mean that jokingly and literally lolololl i gotta. work on it. but y #I HATE IT HERE WHY ARE WEIRD LITTLE FUCKING TOWNS WHERE BAD SHIT HAPPENS ALWAYS A CONSISTENT TROPE IN MY STORIES /silly #I DONT EVEN COME FROM A WEIRD LITTLE TOWN MY HOMETOWN IS LIKE. AVERAGE NORMALISH NOT SUPER LARGE??? IDFK?????#haaaaaaa fuck i need to finish this by the end of TODAY I S2G!!! SO I CAN MOVE ON TO ALL THE OTHER SHIT I OWE FUCKKKK

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trlvsn · 1 year ago

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studying psychology literally does nothing for your understanding of yourself btw. you just end up with better knowledge of excel

#going to rant in the tags a little because maybe someone has the same experience #like. i am aromatic. and probably asexual. sometimes i feel like i might be in love with a person because i start craving company with them #but when i think about any romantic or intimate touch i start dissasotiating and get really weirdly sad and unenthusiastic about the idea #apathetic even. it's like i want something i can't describe or even get realistically #and my own relationship with touch is also really weird #i remember when i was an early teen i would deprive myself of touch in times of stress #if i was crying or something i would sit and spread my limbs so that they weren't touching each other bc i didn't feel deserving #of the comfort #and like!!! wtf!!!! nothing ever happened to me to cause that. did it #i'm literally just a normal girl #why am i like this and what is wrong with me. why can't i love normal why is it always an obsession and a game #why do i get interested and then when i finally understand the person i'm not anymore. people aren't rubix cubes but my heart thinks them so #sigh. please can i have one normal relationship with a person. one good friend #anyways LOL bye

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breadtheend · 5 months ago

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what they dont tell you about therapy is that sometimes It takes more than It should

#I remenber going in bcs of my anger issues and now instead of screaming I cry #I feel no anger #And sometimes It makes me feel like something's missing #I cant even defend myself anymore wtf happened #Sometimes anger is good and I miss It #Calm but not in peace #Idk Just something Ive been thinking about for like over a year now lmao #Anyways #Delete later

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bangcakes · 4 months ago

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#kicking screaming throwing up. 1 week JSJZJJZJZJZJDJD #ive been so busy with work ive barely had time for other thoughts JDJDJJDJDJDKDKJ #BUT GOD LMAO........ 1 week now wtf.....................#scared if it doesnt work out. scared if it does. just.. scared... LMAO.....#maybe scared isnt the right word... but anxious???? idk JDJDDJDJKJZM #i think im not as like. lovesick???????? is that the word idk. as before #but maybe its bc i havent been thinking about him like. you know. constantly JDJDJDJNDNXNXN #god idk what to think anymore #kinda scared that something will come up and he wont be able to meet but also scared that nothing will come up #and i'll have to meet him like. alone JDJJDKDKXKKXKXMXM #weve been alone before but always ALWAYS someone interrupts or we get to our cars. so like JDJDJJDJD ya idk what to think.........#probably obvious but im in disbelief its even happening........ lmao like what do you mean you still wanna hang out but its just gonna be #the 2 of us JDJDJJDJDKDKKDKDKD GOD.#hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh god..... trying not to become a mess DJJDSJJSJSJS #might be losing...#personal

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honeysunchild · 7 months ago

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It really hurts when it feels like a friend you considered family gives up on you and the relationship

Like, we could have talked about it, we could have found a solution together, we were each others family remember?! But instead you chose to just give up and cut me out

#and in like #about five messages too!#that were pretty accusatory #like apologizing peofusely bc youre afraid that karma wikl fuck u up for hurting le #doesnt really make up for accusing me of what you did #there are so many more compassionate ways you could have said that!#I'm so so sorry but you suck and i can't take it anymore goodbye #WTF #is this the goodbye seven years of friendship is worth??#we went through thick and thin #and yeah i have not been too well lately and i was pretty depressed two years ago #you asked me to share my problems with you and when i do i am too much and you drop me like hot metal instead of talking about it?#and that goodbye was so rushed it felt like i was chasing her just to get a little closure #you said you would always be there #even with our lives being so different I still believed it was possible #and you kept ignoring me!#i shared good stuff too and you didn't even respond! you said you were too busy and didn't make time for me #so when I stop sharing that good things happen to me too bc I'm frustrated with being ignored all the time you say I'm toxic for only #and drop me? instead of having a talk about it or taking a break?#like #i thought we were each others family but it seems like I was the more loyal one who cared the most and got burned yet again #is it so hard to talk and try to adjust?#i thought we were the real ones for each other yanno but clearly thing were different for you with all your toxic ass family and all your #jobs and friends #she's always had more than me #doesn't mean I'm alone tho #i have friend who can talk to me and try to adjust and fix the relationship and is a true loyal friend #it's not the end of my world that you're gone #even if you were a big part of it #how can I loose when I was so loyal and true and honest

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crystal-lillies · 6 months ago

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so after a couple weeks of busy schedule, finally allowing myself to catch up on Doctor Who with "73 Yards" and "Dot and Bubble"

haven't gotten 3 minutes into "73 Yards" and I'm so stupidly upset at the lack of opening for the episode. Just Ncuti Gatwa and Millie Gibson's names blandly inserted at the bottom of the screen??? No TARDIS whizzing about in technicolor space imagery??? Excuse me???? I don't care if this is a more serious episode, *EVERY* episode of Doctor Who has an opening!

RTD man the fuck is this

(and back to the episode, just had to say something)

#flowerspeak #doctor who #ncuti honey im so sorry rtd is doing your season dirty like this #73 yards #in the grand scheme of things I know I'm being ridiculous but it really is the small stuff that gets you #it's the OPENING THEME man WTF nothing has good opening themes anymore bc ~people don't have the attention spans for them~#but ive never skipped the doctor who theme once #anyhoo. back to the doctor lite serious episode.#imagine having doctor lite episodes with 8 episodes. oh yeah gonna have words on that. RTD brought back murray gold and moffat #but he couldn't even give ncuti more than EIGHT episodes. jfc what the fuck is happening

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steviescrystals · 4 months ago

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i’m fr gonna lose my mind :)

#been a minute since i’ve ranted in the tags on here hi hello #so i have this friend who is driving me absolutely insane #we’ve been friends for about a year or so and when we first met we clicked right away and got super close and hung out all the time #we met at work but neither of us works there anymore and it feels like our whole friendship is falling apart now that we don’t #i literally have not seen her in person once since the last time we worked together (march)#and even before that we didn’t hang out outside of work since december of last year #and i have grown very used to having friends that just do not put the same amount of effort as me into our friendships and it’s sucks #so i was starting to make my peace with the fact that we just weren’t really friends anymore #but then a few months ago she started texting me asking me to hang out all the time and she seemed way more like her old self #and immediately i got sucked back in and was all excited to see her again and have her back in my life fully #but she completely flaked on me three times in a row (not even cancelling our plans but waiting until the next day to give me an excuse)#which like i said i’m unfortunately used to but she literally was the one who invited ME to hang out every time #like why are you initiating plans with me and then ignoring my calls and texts when it comes time to actually hang out #then a few weeks ago she texted me again saying we should go to a concert together bc we hadn’t in a long time #and there happens to be a concert i’ve been wanting to go to on the 31st but had no one to go with #she said she was totally in and really excited and i bought the tickets a couple days later and texted her to tell her i had #got zero response for almost a week and then she texted me yesterday saying we should hang out this week #so i said yeah let’s do it but also this concert is literally in 2 days are you still coming with me #and no response! again! so now i have 2 days to try and find someone else who can go last minute bc it seems unlikely that she will #and i’m just so fucking confused bc why do YOU keep reaching out to ME just to flake out at the last minute every single time #like at this point it feels like she’s doing it on purpose just to see if i’ll keep tolerating her bullshit #and part of me wants to just cut her off bc she’s been a terrible friend to me for months at this point #but i can’t bring myself to do it bc i miss her so much anyway and when our friendship was good it was really fucking good #like i considered this girl one of my best friends and now it feels like she’s just playing games with me bc she’s bored #which sucks extra bc last year she was there for me when literally none of my long time friends were #like it’s bad enough that it seems like our friendship was conditional on us being coworkers #but it hurts more and more every time she reappears in my life just to ghost me again like genuinely why would you do that #so i’m really upset and pissed off rn and i have no idea wtf to do about the concert bc idk anyone else who likes the artist enough to go #vent #lj.txt

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boyapologist · 11 months ago

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also I can't believe I didn't mention this on my previous post but our instructor was giving us some tips on our makeup and how we're wearing our uniform and stuff (this part is normal at my job don't worry) and she said I have an EXOTIC BEAUTY. exotic. I think this is the worst thing anyone has ever said to my face lol

#she basically called me ugly in front of the entire class #when I mentioned to my closer coworkers afterwards they were all like #no!!! that was a compliment!!!#no the fuck it isn't?#you won't go to someone who's actually pretty and go omg you're SO exotic #wtf does that even mean also #there's nothing exotic about my face. I'm just black! these are black features!#I know I'm ugly like. I am FULLY aware of that. but it was just so shocking to get an actual back handed compliment like this to my face #all I was used to was uncomfortable silence when I said that about myself #you know. when u say ''I'm ugly'' and no one has the heart to disagree bc they don't wanna lie to you but also don't wanna hurt ur feelings #so they're just like 😶#that shit I'm used to! happened more times than I can count in high school and scared me deeply #but having someone actually say I look ''exotic'' never happened before and it was humiliating lmao #I guess I didn't mention it in my previous post bc I was so distraught about fucking up and saying the wrong things throughout the day #that I didn't even remember someone insulted me anymore #but now I remembered and ooooh boy I will not forget it lol #and right on the day I was feeling my most average. I even took a selfie. my first selfie in like a year #and now we're back to square zero because I'm EXOTIC! killing myself rn #rambles*

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zoekrystall · 11 months ago

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Huh

#a wild lux appears #It happened so easily! What #Esp after multiple attempts and being so close each time #This time I didn't even try 😭 I'm just here farming mochis I didn't even care anymore #Ig the secret is just staying relaxed and not starting to panic. relaxo didn't even appear??? I had two at the same time once #I only cared abt the fairy feather idc abt the hard rewards keep your shiny #Not as suprised I beat it bc I without fail always got to at least lv 5 but still I am so tired I'm just wh? what?#Jsksjsks I just realized I used the german name. Snorlax. Snorlax didn't even appear once.#I love all pkmn and am against hating on any but fuck did those munchlax and greedent made me get a bit violent the last days #I tried beating it when the dlc dropped and now I only do it bc I don't want to get my ass beaten at blueberry academy #I heard it is hard from ppl that already played it I will not risk losing against a npc #I am not a competitive trainer and never will be idc if I had a say I would purely focus on pretty contests #So safe to say my pkmn are not trained in the slightest minus level 100. Idc wtf ub or whatever is #Anyways apropo dlc I am a kieran defender be mean to him or his sis and you will catch these hands

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yourstrullyme · 2 years ago

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they cancelled it? during the ides of march?

#willow 2022 #omfg im in shock i honestly didnt think it would happen #with the fucking documentary and everything??#wtf disney #youre back on my black list fuck u shitty ass mouse #im so done like #im not watching anything anymore bc the stories dont get to fucking end right anymore #its like they expwct every show to become the new game of thrones or the new stranger things or the new the last of us #like thats what a successful show is to them #anything else is not worth more than a season #and yes worse even if its got gay or even worse lesbian rep #fuck this

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ozlices · 1 year ago

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we can't get our meds until tomorrow now. literally just wanna jump out our window at this point like we have constant shit weighing on us as it is already & STILL get MORE shit constantly piled on literally what the fuck is it gonna take for us to be granted a goddamn break. we are stretched so fucking thin we have meltdowns & instant spirals over the tiniest, most insignificant thing. we are NOT okay in the slightest & the most unstable we've probably ever been & STILL keep getting pushed like. we're trying so hard not to become bitter but it's rly fucking hard not to. this year has been so fucking absurdly ruthless & merciless we have been ripped to shreds so many times this year alone we've lost count. when the fuck is this endless fucked up loop going to give & let us fucking GO.

#mine #we're getting to a point we don't even know how to describe or navigate bc of how far gone we are. how strained & burnt out we are #how fucking brutally stressed we are sincerely non fucking stop. nothing helps bc we are still in the thick of all of it. with no reprieve.#genuinely wtf are we sposed to do anymore. if shit really does get better if life rly is balanced then it HAS to happen SOON #& that good shit has to be worth it like we literally are so fucking unwell we can't put it into words anymore #our body is breaking down. genuinely. our health is bad all around bc of the stress.#& it keeps hurting more bc we had shit to hold onto but they were ripped away from us #& its very fucking hard to not let that get in our heads & believe the whole 'we're not worth it so ofc it didn't work out' spiel #we genuinely feel so fucking trapped & suffocated like it's actually sincerely insufferably bad #please for fuck's sake we've endured enough cruelty this year just let us BREATHE & move on we can't take it anymore #nobody fucking could!!!!!!!!!! just!!!! FUCK #literally not a single one of us even has it in us to front anymore like none of us can deal anymore. at all.#we have no idea what to do anymore bc we're all so goddamn unstable. none of us can endure Anything anymore #not even the ones who were made to bc this year has just been so fucking brutal.#we literally need shit to fucking work out it is sincerely not optional #we are not even surviving w how bad off we are. just. fucking give us good reapings & let us breathe & heal #we can't fucking take anything anymore we truly fucking can't

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stuck-in-the-ghost-zone · 1 year ago

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what the hell is happening rn

#i feel sooooooo. disconnected all of a sudden #like i just missed a week of existence and everyone else is proceeding as usual while i am just.. trying 2 figure out how to catch up #did i fucking miss something???? d #did everyone just like. blip forward a couple of days or am i just going insane bc i feel. way too stupid to actually ask anyone about it #nobody is explaining anything 2 me anymore i am just being given information as if i should know it already. what is HAPPENING #its not like an unreality thing i dont think bc. that stuff doesnt bother me #its just like. a weird combination of things happening.#i like i am being purposefully left out of a conversation but like. a conversation everyone else in the world is attuned to somehow #and now i have tuned in to listen and everyone is like. yeah you missed something. no we're not going to explain <3 good luck #does this make. ANY sense #like what the fuck is happening rn #like ppl are saying things to me and when i dont understand them its like “oh haha you just had to be there”#and that. Keeps Happening. like in at least 4 different conversations TODAY. and a couple yesterday and just like. the internet collectivel #wtf happened??????????#what fucking day is it. what time is it. whats everyone doing today. whats happening #why does everyone else in the world have an inside joke and nobody is telling me what it is. am i even real rn

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eissaphir · 2 years ago

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Okay, I know I'm super late to the party but I just found out Blizzard shut down all Overwatch 1 servers to force all players to move to the second game. I want my fucking money back.

#I'm so pissed #Overwatch was the reason I got a PS4 and PS+#I barely play it nowadays (which is the reason I didn't notice the servers being shut down) but it's still important to me #This is just a punch in the face #And from what I've seen and read Overwatch 2 is apparently super bad #Especially if you know the first one #I've read you keep your skins but this is a fucking joke #Wtf did I pay 60€ for?? Just to have a game I can't play anymore??#This is the reason I never buy online games (well to be fair they're usually f2p these days but still)#Blizzard is so greedy and they don't even try to hide it #Not tagging this bc it's just a quick rant but I needed to get this out somehow #I'm so angry jfc #Blizzard can go fuck themselves #I know Overwatch is only like 6 years old but I still feel incredibly nostalgic for everything that happened #What a fucking waste #My posts #Swearing #Uhh okay Tumblr ate a tag #It's really important to me for other reasons too #But especially bc I met one of my best friends through it

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