#BUT GOD LMAO........ 1 week now wtf.....................
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what would you say (if i told you i love you)? — charles leclerc
PART: 1/?
summary. in which childhood best friends blur the lines between what they’ve always known, and something more
warnings. swearing, reader and charles are oblivious idiots but they’re cute so it’s ok, ending is annoyingly abrupt (sorry)
pairings. charles leclerc x artsy!reader
face claim. tara michelle
author’s note: so this is a multi-part social media fic inspired by this ask that i’ve been working on for a while. as always, all media and pictures used in this belongs to the original creators. hope you guys enjoy! ps, all i really know about art is what i learned in my gcse class (and my teacher was awful) so if i use any incorrect terminology at any point in this series i’m so sorry! i’m trying my best 🫶
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username girl your figure 😮
username she literally has my dream body 😭
charles_leclerc no photo credits? 😃
yourusername 🙄🙄 photo creds to char ig
arthur_leclerc looking a little windswept there
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arthur_leclerc no thanks u look very pretty !!!!
yourusername aww thank you arth 🥰
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username she’s his childhood best friend! they’ve known each other since they were five 🫶
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charles_leclerc opening day for y/n’s latest exhibition, ‘flow’! je suis très fière de toi, mon artiste. ne jamais cesser de rêver 🌊 / beyond proud of you, my artist. never stop dreaming
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username now if this isn’t obsessed boyfriend behaviour then i don’t know what is
yourusername aww charlie 🥹 merci de m'avoir soutenu, je vous en serai toujours reconnaissant / thank you for supporting me, i’m forever grateful
charles_leclerc toujours
username and they say they’re just friends?? THIS IS NOT FRIEND BEHAVIOUR
username omg these paintings are so beautiful! what’s the exhibition about?
charles_leclerc it’s a study of water and the ocean!
username they way he’s answering questions about y/n’s own exhibition for her 😭 babes ur not subtle x
username she’s so talented wtf
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yourusername merci, maman 🥰
username SHE CALLS PASCALE MAMAN OH MY GOD???
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yourusername summer break, week one ✅
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username everyone say ‘thank you y/n’ for feeding us the soft charles content 🥹
username thank you y/n 🙏
joris_trouche elvis is the star of this dump
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joris_trouche PLEASE DONT
charles_leclerc woah who’s that handsome guy in slide 2? 😏
yourusername you wouldn’t know him he’s kind of annoying x
charles_leclerc ouch
username charles featuring twice?? we’re losing her 😔
username three guesses who took the pictures of y/n
username hmm…joris? 🤔
username try again
username elvis 🤨
username close!! but not quite
username is it maybe…charles?!
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username trade lives with me please 😫
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joris_trouche everyone ignoring the fact that i’m also in this dump as well !!!
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Quick lil pick-a-pile (old, and yes i was denki obsessed and i still am. i love him)
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hello loves! I haven't done a pick a pile in so long and i LOVE making these, this time i decided to challenge myself and make it an intuition instead of tarot (plus i don't have my tarot cards stfu)
The questions that will be answered today are:
1. A message from someone in your dr. (summitted by Ayaya)
2. What is holding you back from shifting? (summitted by IceChips)
3. How is your s/o doing? (summitted by IceChips)
pick an emoji!
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Pile 1; starburst
1. A message from someone in your dr.
"Hey, hi! What are you up to? How has life been? You don't know? Well focus on it! You know, things may be hard, like hail falling on you, but you know what, I have a bulldozer to shelter you, so you know what. Keep pushing. Things may be hard, or something, but do the things you love, talk to the people you love, and you know what, while you're at it, draw someone from your dr or write something to them. I know they'll appreciate it!"
** Side notes: i felt some real best friend energy, maybe a sibling, or something? also getting in your family for some reason, somebody who would say weird ass shift like "a bulldozer from shelter" LAMOJSOIJTEJ **
2. What is holding you back from shifting?
First, I'm getting pretty much everyone picking this pile has not shifted. You're wondering why and overthinking it way too much. That's what's holding you back, overthinking everything you've done/are going to do. I heard "you dug your own grave; you have to make a way out now." You're not dead, you're alive and well. Get out of this hole by yourself. Play Minecraft, get a dog, and breed them (LMAO WTF AM I HEARING HELP) just have fun. Overthinking is just making this hole deeper. Also, while writing this, my cat kept going up and down the stairs, like she didn't know what to do. I think she felt stuck and doesn't know how to move forward OR backwards. I suggest some shadow work.
3. How is your s/o doing?
OMG IMMEDIETLY, I GOT SO MUCH HAPPIER OMG!! just joy came around me. I feel like they know you're gonna get past this hardship soon, and they're happy you even read this. I can tell they love you (feminine energy) so damn much, and they may be a bit clingy. "You got this, move forward, and you'll see the beautiful sunset."
Are sunsets important to you guys?
pile 2; peace
1. A message from someone in your dr.
"Do I have to do this? Oh my God." LITERAL BAKUGOU ENERGY OMG "Hi, I guess. Do something, don't just sit on your ass all day. That's all I got Arsyn, can I leave?" LMAO YES THEY ACTUALLY SAID THIS SHIT this person wants you to do something, like actually try to shift? I feel like you guys expect spirit to do everything. Nope. you have to put time and effort into this.
2. What is holding you back from shifting?
omg while typing the question i got a headache and now a toothache. Maybe you're beating yourself up for something that has no use, getting into fights, then being distracted from actually trying to shift. Avoid conflict, and things will get better. Also, I heard try to shift at least one time this week. Picking it back up will be really helpful : )
3. How is your s/o doing?
omg I'm getting so much mixed energy from this. for some your s/o is lowkey mad at you for not even trying to interact with you, but for others they're proud?? I'm gonna split this question up for each s/o energy I'm feeling.
S/o 2.1 is mad in general, again bakugou vibes, and just wants you to try and do something with your life. You know you can pick this shit up faster, you know you have enough energy to do it, but you're wasting that potential on shit that doesn't matter.
S/o 2.2 is proud that you've been resting but wants you to pick shifting back up because they want to see the REAL you, not your clone. I can tell they have a lot of love for you, and they always try to be positive when thinking about you, even when negative things happen. i also hear that you guys may be attracted to pile 3 for question 2? i haven't typed pile three atm so, ig see what's in store for you?
pile 3; explosion
1. A message from someone in your dr.
"HeyYYY whats up? how you doing? I know you've been waiting for someone to ask you that. Well, why don't you talk to people more about your interests if you think you have nobody to talk to? Talk to me about them!! Write your s/o a letter about them maybe? That's cool! Do that! Go! Shoo!"
2. What is holding you back from shifting?
Distractions. That's the only word I can use to describe me writing this last pile too. I've been distracted the whole time typing this. I've been so distracted. Mainly with gender identity shit (transgender memes mostly, I just sent IceChips a few) AND NOW IM LOOKIGN AT CUTE PUPPIES I MEAN LOOK AT THIS OMG
So some advice, focus on one thing. Use an ADHD method or something that won't make you fly away with funky thoughts. You got this. One step at a time, not five steps in a circle.
3. How is your s/o doing?
omg i can tell you guys are worried about them, thats so cute omg! i can tell you want to hug them, and i know the miss you too, they want hugs and kisses and they just want to make sure you're okay. I feel like they put you first and love physical touch. They miss you, but overall with academics, and live, they're good. They just miss you and want some hugs. Channel them and send them love, please.
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Crimson Rivers thoughts pt. 12
chapter 22:
1. 😟😟 all james wants is for sirius to be there for james the way james ALWAYS was for sirius
2. 😟 james wished hodge happy birthday even though hodge died yesterday. i- i am not okay
3. “Regulus never fails to look up. Evan would be proud of him for that, he thinks.” 😧 that was vile to put in there
4. james has resorted to BEGGING for medicine from sirius and can’t understand why sirius won’t send any. this hurts so bad
5. nope. i’m done. i can’t read any more. james started looking forward to death cause he would be out of this arena and out of pain. jfc i’m done
6. anyways. i’m back cause i couldn’t stop reading.
7. REGULUS AND JAMES ARE REUNITED!!! THANK GOD!!! 😊
8. 😧 wait nevermind. james just mistook regulus for sirius. “James has never, not once in his life under any circumstances, mistaken Regulus for Sirius”
9. james is delulu from medicine and reg just found out that the plan has always been to get reg home. this hits like a motherfucking truck
10. james is high as a fucking kite, can’t figure out why “sirius” is being mean to him, cause he’s never been mean to him. and is also wondering why “sirius” is oddly attractive for being mean
11. it takes james half a chapter, and reg cutting his shirt for james to realize it’s not sirius. cause sirius has different scars. i love james sm 😭😭
12. “What was Sirius thinking? Drugging James? In the middle of the fucking hunger games? That might be the most idiotic thing Regulus has ever known his brother to do, and this is Sirius he's talking about, so that's saying a lot. Sirius once flipped a cigarette in the air and tried to catch it with his mouth while it was lit, and kept doing it until he could actually consistently manage it, no matter how much it burned him. Though, in fairness, he can still do that trick to this day.”
LMAO WHAT??? that’s so random and i love it
13. 😧 legit sobbing. reg says that james lost the spark in his eyes. and he’s the one person he expected to never lose his spark
14. reg reveals that they both can go home. james’ spark is back. i’m sobbing harder now. they’re so in love
15. i eat, breathe, and dream those author end notes. bizzarestars writes their end notes the way my brain processes the fic. <33
chapter 23:
1. starting the chapter off with pain, i see. losing vanity changed james. like. horribly changed him.
2. “What Regulus hates more than James is his suffering.” jfc he’s so emotionally constipated
3. james is sad and all reg can think is hmmmm i want him to start flirting with me again, because it meant he was happy bitch wtf
4. awww they’re cuddling and just got a package! my babies are gonna make it out!
5. reg realizes he has to put on a show, so he offers to feed james. and wants to gouge his eyeballs out for offering that. 😭😭😭😭
6. i’m dying from embarrassment but this is also so fucking funny. reg is like. let’s talk about our feelings. for each other. and james is just like *head tilt* ???
7. “"You weren't my first crush, James," Regulus whispers. "You were my first love."”
james didn’t just make reg feel good, he made reg feel and i am NOT okay.
8. “This whole time, Regulus has been steady on the fact that he wouldn't kiss James to save his own life, but he's apparently willing to do it to save James'.”
JFC why is he so emotionally constipated???
9. THEY KISS????? james is gonna be heartbroken when he realizes it was all an act
10. oh thank god james realized. at least it broke his heart now and not in two weeks
11. *squints* now reg has never wanted anything more than this kiss. girl. please. realize.
12. god, i’ve never read a kiss more beautifully and emotionally desperate written.
13. 😏 reg called him baby again!
14. oh god, maybe i’m just as bad as everyone in the hallow. maybe i’m just as bad as them. cause i enjoy their romance. i enjoy it so much. maybe i’m just as bad as the hallow for that. i- i think this every time i read the hunger games.
15. “James wants to sink his teeth into Regulus and leave the deep imprints of his teeth from one jutting hip bone to the other.” sometimes i forget that jegulus is a little unhinged in ways like this. and every time i’m reminded, I LOVE IT
16. “"You treat me like I'm stupid for daring to see good in people, but if there's no good in anyone, then what's the fucking point?"”
this entire section. this. this is what james is all about
17. 😟 authors note just told me i’m no better than a hallow. for my excitement over jegulus. and- yeah. i guess so. i’m so sorry y’all
#marauders#regulus black#james potter#jegulus#fanfic#sirius black#sunseeker#starchaser#crimson rivers
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first watch was for me, now second watch for THOUGHTS
Act 1:
obsessed with the way they turn into each other when the cake is coming down slash how Henry slips into Alex when getting up
zahra is so hot my goD I want her to top me
Henry showing off in his fuck boy raybans and fancy vintage car YOU WANT HIM TO WANT YOU SO BAD ITS EMBARRASSING
Henry’s soul leaving his body at “Vicky 👊”
Henry being turnt by the way alex smells
Henry’s “I need to get out of here” upon first meeting alex and deeply understanding that this beautiful boy could ruin the charred remains of his heart if he let him
Henry IMPOSSIBLY AND HOPELESSLY CHARMED
straight up FUCK miguel
Henry using bitmojis is how you really textually understand he has like 1 friend
Henry is so bad at dancing oh baby you would’ve been laughed out of a middle school gym with those moves
why am I mad that everyone got low at the wrong part of the song
ALEX WANTS TO LOOK COOL IN THE RED ROOM SO BAD ITS EMBARASSING
THE LOOK WHEN HENRY LEAVES ALEXS ROOM FUUUUUUUUCKING HELL
Act 2:
the fucking polo scene. Alex so horned up, Henry so sweaty. chefs kiss
henry infinitely smoother than alex wow
only momentarily AND ALEX TOOK THAT AS A CHALLENGE
Henry playing with that fucking ring like it’s a noose around his neck
ALEX FFS ACT LIKE YOU'VE BEEN SOMEWHERE BEFORE
this sex scene actually just being a clean demonstration of two people who fill each other with so much comfort and peace engaging in a physical act of love wowwww they invented romance wtf
I do love this alex in texas side quest seeing as there wasn’t time for the book storyline
SHOULD I TELL YOU THAT WHEN WE’RE APART YOUR BODY COMES BACK TO ME IN MY DREAMS
giggling during sex is peak romance these nerds are IN LOVE
HE SAID NO SO FAST THESE NERDS ARE IN LOOOOOVE
“look at us now” and the way I yelled DIVORCED OSCAR?!
“it won’t even matter if anyone sees us” the way you could see henrys heart shatter in real time jesus
i felt myself getting too close and i didn't want to break his heart. henry, my love, baby girl, boo boo the fool.
Act 3:
BECAUSE IT COSTS YOU NOTHING. No Henry in fact this is costing me everything. Kwjakasnsnkanskamskkaksjmsbwkkss
I will not trade one prison for another SORRY THE ANGST GIRLIES ARE EATINGGGG
sorry but if the love of my life ever danced with me in a low lit museum and told me he would try to be brave for us I would simply cease to exist
low key lmao and well done @ Alex’s grip on Henry in bed cause the last time they slept together Henry snuck out in the middle of the night and ghosted him for a week straight
ngl I hate that they didn’t even get a phone call before the speech
ok so i didn't get america he is my choice but i did get i fell in love with a person who happens to be a man and that man happens to be a prince
baby he says like I haven’t been waiting like an hour and a half to hear it
Alex watching Henry play piano oh honey he is never beating the competency kink allegations
stephen fry Alex already admitted it what’s your endgame my dude
Henry leaning back to talk back to his gramps like he was going into sport mode was v sexy actually
THE FINGER TOUCHES
straight up Rachel Maddow with more lines that pez, she should’ve had her own promo
Henry with the hand hold/hand in the crook of alex’s arm combo was so baby girl of him I couldn’t be prouder
they traded the key and the ring back cause it was only til they could have all of each other again and now they can pls kill me this is the end
do you think anyone noticed? I hate him so much omfg
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First off all: they weighed gunner again and he’s either 11 pounds 4 ounces OR 11.4 pounds idk with Americans and their measuring systems but regardless that’s a big boy!!!!
How was this birth compared to the rest?
It was her favorite (“so far”). The first day was long, the second day was quick!
Do you like hospital births? (Given that birth #1 was supposed to be a home birth)
She loves it! Knowing there are professionals there and having an epidural (she made this 👌🏻 sign about it lmao)
Breastfeeding or formula feeding?
Joy is breastfeeding, even though she had planned to bottle feed (idk if she meant pumping and giving it in a bottle or formula in a bottle) since she hated breastfeeding Gideon and “didn’t love” breastfeeding evy. But she “and Austin” (which…. Wtf) decided to try for a couple weeks and it’s actually going really well!
Which labor was the hardest to recover from?
Gideon, the c section baby, followed by evy because she had to push for so long.
How is life with 3 kids?
Busy! They have a good support system but joy often feels like she never sees Austin, has downtime etc
How did Gideon’s c section affect the plans for the quiver?
They purposely didn’t try to get pregnant for a whole year after Gideon, at their doctors suggestion! (I’ve assumed they’ve been using some kind of family planning but it’s wild to see her outright admit it!)
How are you?
She struggled with ppd after Gideon, Annabel and evy (proud of her to openly talk about it!!), which was probably made worse by poor diet/sleep deprivation/not taking vitamins etc. this time she being more proactive (good for her!!) and right now she’s doing well.
Sleep training?
Nope, tried with Gideon but it didn’t work. Now she just takes it as it comes.
Finding time for god?
She hasn’t been making her Bible study a priority “like [she] should”, but she’s having Bible reading with the kids every day. She often sets high goals and when she doesn’t have the time she does none of it instead.
Postpartum vitamins?
B, c, iron, thyroid meds, she’s on a bunch more.
Favorite snacks?
Beef sticks, cheese sticks. Carnivore diet babey I guess
Losing baby weight?
She has a hard time loosing weight, but she’s just focusing on eating healthy. Lots of protein (hence the beef sticks I suppose!)
The big question! How many kids do y’all want?
Joy and Austin has said 4 or 5 (!!!!!!) but they’re not sure. Joy doesn’t feel “done” yet, and she loves the baby phase.
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Its time for the weekly horrors- I mean Trimax vol 3 >:3
The Thoughts:
chap 1:
-AH EVERYTHING IS FALLING
-bro you are about to get into a fight can you stop thinking about your bf for 5 minutes
-fr tho, vash's words making him hesitate/angry is so dcfgjhbkml
-why everyone wants my babygirl dead :c
-now now, comparing someone with their brother isnt a nice thing to do
-oh so now we're not even making an allegory, he actually called him jeesus
-also "your soul is forced to endure the sorrow by the hundreds, suffering by the thousands, and the rage by the hundreds of thousands" im gonna throw up cuz of how that GOOD and PAINFUL that shit is
-the polar opposite of being a human huh...i mean besides something i said weeks ago about how he's further away from humanity more than he would like that point is interesting cuz most of the time we call him someone who is more human than any other person. he carries more pain than any human could endure and definitely has more patience than anyone will ever have but...hm...i want to come back to this
-ww pls dont make me cry today pls honey
-oh im gonna cry
-"your ideals will join you in the grave" i fucking hate thats the reason why we all try to be better people, thanks to that fucking wet cat of a man i cannot deal actually
-MILLIE :D
chap 2:
-i dont have much to say about battles but let it be on the record that I'm enjoying ww's eyes sm
-oh page 38 is cool as hell
-OH SHIT IS THAT HIS FUCKING SPINE????
chap 3:
-ww stop having pretty eyes youre distracting
-meanwhile :3
-ah geesus the body horror (so good but creepy)
-EYES :D
-so many fucking details. nightow got down even the smallest scribbles, as 98 vash would say
-oh right that....thats still upsetting
-i fucking swear people need to leave my son alone
-also fucking hate that he had to SHOOT A BABY even if it was fake
-I FUCKING HATE THIS ACTUALLY
-i can feel his fucking mind breaking i cant do this
chap 4:
-"i cant do this" yet here i am lmao
-i think if vash held me like hes holding that girl a lot of my problems would be resolved ngl
-characters reciting names always get to me :c
-also HA EAT THE PTSD ASSHOLE
-"why are there so many" brad you may want to sit down for this one
-..................i deadass thought "oh the doctor is here" IVE READ THIS BEFORE AND I FELL FOR IT AGAIN
-vash with his hair down :3
-nah hes not gonna kill you BUT HE FUCKING SHOULD
-oh i will kill so many people (vash is bleeding)
-hm. this reminds me of something in houseki no kuni (i wont spoil but maybe ichikawa had trigun as inspo which would be cool af)
chap 5:
-oh im yeeting myself (ww thinks about the children) -ww gives in his anger and fear when punching those weirdass faces but I'm gonna say this once: that doesn't make him weaker or worst. i haven't seen anyone think that of ww, i just feel that when he compares himself to vash he feels that way and i cant stand it :)
-vash i fucking swear-
-oh god the fingers...the fucking fingers...
-oh you are NOT talking to my vash about pain and agony
-OH WAIT I FINALLY UNDERSTOOD THAT PANEL OH GOD NO I HATE REREADS WTF
-XD my girls
no wait i need to get back to that. i thought that was emilio's dad not fucking vash himself oh my god I'm sick so sick actually wtfffffffffffff
chap 6:
-is this the chapter with the gays eyes cuz I'm not ready for that-
-oh fuck you nightow. fuck you for putting knives in the title page and the title being "families"
-i want to punch so many things but I'm at work. fuck
-also i forgot about this stampede parallel GOD WHEN DOES MY SUFFERING END
-NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO THE GAY EYESSSSSSS
-yeah i agree this is literally the moment. like fuck. fuck actually. fuck what else is there to say.
-fuck
-like hes so fucking terrified that he was afraid for him, what his journey is causing ww, but even if he wanted ww to stay away and safe he knows ww would say fuck off, but also vash would not be able to take it
-THERES SO MUCH FEAR AND LOVE IN THOSE EYES IM GONNA BITE MY HAND
-OH I CANT ACTUALLY WHY DOES THIS HURT SO MUCH WTF
-im so fucking upset cuz the last 3 chapters were basically fights. they were full of energy and shit but now that is over and they are in a rare moment of peace, and everything fucking hits.
-im gonna go outside and step into oncoming traffic
-YES LUIDA MY QUEEN SHUT HIM UP
-WOLFWOOD :D pls never leave me
-i....*implodes*
-i am nothing. i just remembered that.
-OH CMONNNNNN
chap 7
-maybe i dont want to read trimax anymore. maybe a little person like me isn't strong enough for a 2nd round of the pain. with that in mind, lets keep reading :D
-WHERES THE NIGHTOW PUNCHING BAG WHEN YOU NEED IT
-wolfwood what he is it doesnt matter i swear pls cant you just love him?
-:c
-i dont like vash being emotionally attached to stuff cuz that means i have to yell HES LIKE ME FR FR
-oh that....that beautiful panel...amazing
-i think my mind blocked this out because of the previous sad things that happened, so now my brain is allowing me to process more sad things :3
-"i still have so much i must do" and i see i still have many tears to cry out huh?
-ofc wolfwood would ask about redemption
-cant my man show an important part of his past and show vulnerability in front of his friends in peace? damn
-im gonna start bitting my glasses
-GAY MOMENT PART 2 INCOMING
-luida pls i want to stop crying
-oh wolfwood honey....you just fell so hard for my man didnt ya
-i just realized the chapter is called "life as a" and I THINK the idea is to complete it with "life as a 'vash the stampede'" cuz he's not human
OK GREAT NOW I CAN RUN TO THE WASHROOM AND FUCKING CRY :D
#trigun#trimax#trigun maximum#trigunbookclub#nightow sir#i will meet you and i will end you#and then buy you coffee
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SIGH you got me good with this one I fear
Okay so the chap is still fresher in my mind this time since I read yesterday!! Itemized yap sheet incoming below based mostly on the order they happened
1) Yoooooo
That just cracked me up okay. Had to add. But also like. I love them. I love that Tony is so nervous to catch up with Richie bc it means talking abt mikey, but also relieved and excited ish to talk to richie bc it means talking abt mikey does that makes ykwim
2) AAAAAAA listen the way that Carmy thinks about Tony to calm down?? Like hes having a panic attack and he thinks about Tony and is calmed slightly by smelling her shampoo in his hair literally makes me ILL
2b) kinda related but also like not ?? But Anyway Like. Carmy like unsure whether or not he is actually scared/believes Richie when he says he could end his relationship with tony got me like on my knees in my workplace when I read that bc UGH he has absolutely zero confidence and i just want to kiss his face okay. Also him not really wanting to share tony with Richie is so real of him actually. Like he wants Tony to just be his and that's so sweet.
3) if we dont find out the chip storyline ill riot if only for Carmy's sake cause like Carm, im also now very intrigued that Richie didn't immediately blab when prompted but also go richie thats very cute
4)AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Scream break mb
5) last one but like the painting??? The way that it starts with the beef and has like pictures of before and stuff and the mid point is mikey and then it has pictures from like the building process and ends with the The Bear sign? IM DECEASED YOU KILLED ME THATS SO GOOD WHAT LITERALLY WHAT
6)okay im i liar whatever could i edit the post yes will i no. I digress. Last one fr. So the way both their lil povs end with them saying on friday they'll do right by each other??? Im so gone actually wtf
Anyways as always i adore you and your writing RAAAA
HEHEHEH GOTCHU!!! GOT YOUR ASS!!!
yoooooooo -- The next convos are really some of my favourite to write, i get to amp up the funny and math out what their texting styles would probably be, it's fun!!
Also yes, it's very much that part of grief where it's like a knife to talk about them, but it's also nice, it's weird when in the grief process, everyone around you acts like that person just simply Never Happened in fear of being triggering-- It's nice for Tony and Richie to get to talk raw!! Even if it's anxiety inducing to lead with it!!
2. Hehehhehe, he does it a LOT, When he called her before, trying and failing to get her voicemail, when he was having an episode in the diner and then Tony came back and he became Normal mostly. Grounding Tool but it's a Person
3. listen baby, I don't put a gun in the first act just to not fire it. I've had this backstory since chapter two. And honestly, I was extremely nervous that someone was gonna guess it and I was being too obvious. Thank God, no one has, yet-- But also no one's guessed, so like, feel free to throw in your guesses, love to hear em.
4. AHHHHHHHH!!!! Here let's see, during this scream break what can I give you...
This is what I'm screaming over, personally. This is Chapter 10 alone, LMAO. AND I'M NOT EVEN DONE LMAOOOO. The goal for me is to get it out this Friday, so it's like, timely and on theme. But we'll see how tired I am, this work week. Might've just gotten a commission (that I honestly don't want to take lmaoo) so we'll see. Fingers crossed. It's definitely gonna need me to take my eyes off it for a day and come back to, so keep your fingers crossed, for me.
5. OH GOOD! I was worried I described it poorly; there's always that fear, when you have to make the thing that's like the thing of the story, and if it's not good then what the FUCK WAS IT FOR!!!!!????
I'm vv happy to hear it killed you, is what I'm trying to say. I also thought the idea was very sweet. Hehhehe
6. You're always free to yap on end, never fear such a thing. Yes!! Their POVs start and end the same way, which is just like, a cute lil touch, yknow. Two anxious mfs. In the club tnnnnn, trying to do right by each other if it fuckin' KILLS them
thank you thank you thank u as always i love to hear this and i hope u enjoy Friday whenever the FUCK it comes out.
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Helloooo defend in place/mayday anon :) sad to report I did not finish my s4+s5 watch/rewatch this weekend (tall task in hindsight plus anirudh tweets dropped right before I was about to start jinx of all episodes lol) BUT I did finish up to 5x10 which means I got to defend in place yayyy! General s5 thoughts 1. Watched ghost stories for the first time and its not nearly as bad as I thought it would be (although 618 and 710 didnt exist when this seemed to be consensus worst ep. So). I get how this ep might be hard to watch on a weekly basis but its pretty fine while binging and also features crucial henren/karen lore like … also noooo way chim really said he was going to bring buck near death, revive him with his paramedic skills and then kill him. Did the writers know. Lmao. 2. Taylor kelly stuff is not nearly as bad as I remember it from what I had watched. Its just painfully obvious her and buck should be friends and not even because their physical chemistry is outright bad just their dynamic feels super friend-ish. And they put all that development time into taylor when they should have developed bucktaylor instead, like how karen was developed after henren, for example. Bucktaylor ily scene still hits like nails on a chalkboard though. God forbid we have to live through something like that again 3. Ravi deadass in every episode. When will my sweet prince return in this capacity 4. Forgot about athena hitting harry :( definitely one of the things that I had issues with from before and was just as shocked now as before like why did that need to happen :(
Okay okay NOW defend in place thoughts !!!!!! I really really liked it, definitely a top 3 s5 episode for me probably (the other 2 I really love are 5x11 and 5x12). Michael/grant family proposal montage… genuinely top (fun) montage in the show. Up there with jinx and stuck/chris and poker date montages imo it was so cute. And while I really loved the ep the whole time I was like damn we were robbed of david content so bad 😭😭😭 he was so good in this ep and the s4 michael bobby ep like I just want more I cant believe we’ll never see him again. Okay and the ravi lore. Im going to be honest I spent years thinking the ravi cancer child thing was fanon/ravi begins spec LMAO like I saw gifs of that ravi hen scene a few weeks ago and was like damn… that lore is canon😭 but yay I wish the show would just once expand on his lore beyond surface level. And the defend in place call was so good although I will say it was giving greys anatomy massively though. Before I kinda wished the show would have done more with david/hen dr stuff but honestly after this Im glad it didnt bc I swear Ive watched this exact stuff happen in greys before lol. But yeah overall what a great send off for michael like so good. On my first watch years ago I was always kind of like okay michael is fun but he doesnt really get to contribute to the main part of the show much outside of being a dad and in that sense I always found his character a bit weak/neglible. But now on this watch Im like why didnt they give us more of this michael!! Copaganda aside, The athena team up when theyre searching for harry was so good and it was probably when I started thinking damn this cast is really missing rockmund in recent seasons. But at least they went this direction with the send off, if theres one thing you can trust 911 for its an eventual happy ending. (And also side note. Amidst the summer of bpreg and domesticverse some of the scene in this episode had me really in my feels. Yay)
hiiiiii bestie!!!!!!! thank you for updating me!!! i also did not watch 5a live (started the show the january between 5a & 5b) so i'm in agreement with you on the fact that it's really not a bad half season when binged!! i can understand the frustration of watching it live though. also ravi being in every episode omg......we used to have it all....(totally forgot about that athena and harry shit too wtf...)
OK YAY DEFEND IN PLACE!!! idk if you saw but i ALSO rewatched it this week (partially in your honor and partially to fulfill the summer of buddie self-care prompt). I have SUCH a soft spot for david, we really don't get to see much of him but i loved their meet cute, loved him in there goes the neighborhood and he's just!!! ugh!!! super hot and so sweet and such a good partner to michael.
lol I've never seen grey's anatomy but i can def see that...anyway yay i'm glad you enjoyed the episode. on my rewatch it really hit home for me how much the episode was grant-nash focused (like you said, with the fun little proposal montage) and it made me realize how much i really do miss them. Looking back, part of what really drew me into the show in s2 was all the family stuff--Buck and Maddie first & foremost (also Eddie & Chris), but also definitely the Grants and how they navigated adding Bobby to their family. It was such a good storyline and they really continued to showcase how special their family is through the next couple seasons!!!
anyway thanks for updating me, let me know how the rest of s5 goes (esp May Day!) 🫡
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Obey me demon brothers with a Chav! Mc
Okay so this hc is gonna be comedy lol. Its the obey me brothers with an mc who is such a chav. A chav is basically a very popular British girl in British schools or anywhere it doesn't have be in school lol. If you're British you'll understand lmao. #chav
As you arrived in devildom you had a very salty look on your face. Your fake lashes falling off, your face looking disgusted and your orange foundation and dark contour stands out.
Lucifer: Lucifer will obviously be very annoyed and irritated. This human causes more chaos than mammon himself. She's too loud and petty. And not to forget, the litres of Victoria's secret perfume sprayed on herself and in her room. It killed his airways. Lucifer comes to her to scold her about spraying too much perfume in the house of lamentation until she replies "Oh my god bruv, it actually bare stinks in this room yeah, you lot need to know what hygiene is." With that, Lucifer got frustrated. "MC! DON'T YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENS IF YOU CONTINUE TO SPRAY PERFUME IN THE HOUSE??! IT WILL DAMAGE THE AIR!!" "Okay and, I don't care fam. It still smells like clapped pussios." Lucifer gets more confused now. More and more confused. He don't know a single thing about British slang. But as time went on, the MC and lucifer did have a love hate relationship. In fact, Lucifer even wanted to visit London with MC.
Mammon: Being the second born tsundere, Mammon is obviously gonna be like, "Oi, I don't like ya, MC!" and then he blushes. But when the MC is like, "Okay and? You keep staring at me like a bare madman still. You're clapped anyways." Mammon got more confused. What is clapped? As soon as he finds out what it actually means, Mammon starts sobbing into his pillows every day and night. Although Mammon was an idiot, he was never insulted by someone he loved. Since all of his brothers treated him like shit and insulted him badly. He had to cope with that trauma. A few weeks later, the MC realises how much she's hurt his feelings. "Look bruv. I'm sorry, okay? Look, I didn't mean to hurt your feelings still. It's just that I grew up having to be a salty skept. Forgive me still." With that, Mammon is a bit skeptical but forgives mc. The next time any roadman try to shank MC up, Mammon is here with her in his demon form. And if any girl tries to steal Mammon away from the MC, MC will smoke them still.
Leviathan: Now we all know that Levi is always in his room, watching some random h3nt@1 shit or playing video games. And he probably didn't shower for weeks. And because of that, MC does laugh at him. "Oi you man. What the fuck did you do with your hair, why does it look like some purple bowl? Are you Justin Bieber on crack mate? You're butters! Take a shower as well, fam." With that, Levi was just like "w-well you're obviously not gonna l-like a-an o-otaku like m-me." I swear, this guy gives pick me boy vibes. But the second that Levi takes off his shirt and his toned, outlined 6 pack and chest is showing, the MC is more confused now and also intrigued. "O-oi, MC, s-stop l-looking at me!" "Alai, you're actually so fit icl. You're leng. Since when did you have a chocolate bar shaped body when you're in that prison all day just busting shit?? You're tasty, bruv." And with that, the two of them have hate love relationships again. Levi swears to protect the MC from the opps. And MC swears to scrap anyone who even steals her bf away.
Satan: Well, Satan does has anger and daddy issues. So don't fuck with him or else you'll get smoked by him innit. "Oi, you! Yeah you, you yeah! You look like Cat Noir from poundland still." With that, Satan gets angry. "Well at least I'm smarter than you, kid." He's a bit angry. "You're calling big man a kid?? Nah. I'm a big man, pussio. I'll chef you and your dad up, wait you have daddy issues lololol" Satan has turned intona green flash and then into his demon form. "WTF DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME, B***!! ILL FUCKNG BREAK YOUR NECK!!" Satan was destroying everything around him now. "Okay okay fam, calm down fam. No need to act mental and that, get a grip mate. Sorry fam. Geez, you're so sensitive blud." Throughout time, they're still enemies. Yeah.
Asmodeus: Asmo is gonna be the one that the MC hates the most. MC thinks that he's too feminine as a man. As Asmo applies a heavy amount of foundation, concealer, contour, blusher, face powder, glittery pink, orange and yellow eyeshadow, thick eyeliner, long long false lashes, highlighter, bronzer and purple lipstick, MC just looks at him, weirdly. "What the fuck are you doing, bruv? You look bare zesty." Asmo does not know a single thing about British slang so instead he says this. "Oh, sorry for stating the facts that I'm beautiful hun. You're just jealous that I can blend my contour and concealer better than you, you just look more orange than Donald trump, your crusty musty looking concealer lips." MC gets angry. "Oi, what the fuck did you just say to me, bruv?? Do you wanna scrap?? I'll smoke you fam, don't fuck with me innit." Asmo isn't scared at all. "Well try and do that, love. You won't be able to walk the next day, hun~~~ 😏" of course he's gonna be some horny ass mf.
Beelzebub: Tbh, I think MC would kind of get along with Beel. Yes, she would find it irritating that beel eats the whole fridge but still. I have a feeling tha MC would actually have a crush on Beel. "Oi, Ed Sheeran looking man! Yeah you! You're leng still! You look fit! Man eats the whole fridge and still has bare tits and biceps." And yeah, MC and beel just have a nice friendship. As time went on, Beel smoked more oops and roadmen who touched MC and MC scrapped any chav that would lay a finger on her bodybuilder bf.
Sorry I didn't add belphie, I'll try to do that in the next part 😭
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hi rae how are uu!!!
i was reading about mulvey and the female gaze and i remembered you saying something about how it pushes bioessentialist agendas but i don't remember what u said exactly so do you mind sharing a piece of ur mind about this again
also!!!!! i've read captive prince with ur influence and then read ur laurent's pov rewrite and god!!!!! it was so so good it brought me to tears and made me laugh out loud and scream into my pillow at times... the first book didn't stick out to me that well but afterwards?? their dynamic is everything i was missing in life. also reading the first book in laurent's pov was an otherworldly experience, him getting surprised to see damien isn't the definition of all things evil like he thought ahhhh u captured him perfectly i think
also read all for the game series (saw a fanart of neil in ur blog and it kickstarted me getting into yet another fandom) and i was like wtf is this and then later i was like wtf is this but in a positive way. now the characters are all my babies (except kevin like yes i understand his struggles and all but i still see that guy as a little bitch which is a bit ironic when andreil are the biggest bitches to exist but still)
also binge-watched iwtv and goddddd gays with communication problems who happen to be vampires i love them all sm <333 do u have a fav character i wonder AND any thoughts on the last episode?
anyways i hope life is treating you kindly much kisses and good wishes <3
hi i'm good hope ur doing good as well!! such a fun message hang on let me take this piece by piece...
mulvey's male gaze the bane of my existence lmao...yeah the entire theory is rooted in bioessentialism. basically mulvey is basing her theory in freud who assumes that the categories 'father' 'mother' 'son' and 'daughter' are stable + static & therefore assumes that the categories 'male' and 'female' are stable + static biological categories which engender inherently different psychic/interior qualities. mulvey's entire argument hinges on the idea that men will be categorically unable to relate to/empathize with/see themselves as women onscreen--this argument begins to break down when you start asking questions like 'how is mulvey defining 'men' and 'women'? is she defining them, or is she assuming that they're static biological categories? are they static biological categories?' also i disagree with the idea that people are categorically unable to identify with characters across sex and/or gender & think it's kinda dumb tbh. to be fair, mulvey's theory was meant to apply to a pretty specific context and has largely been taken out of that context in ways that are very annoying but not necessarily her fault; still, when the original theory is so rooted in bioessentialism i don't really find any of it useful.
anyway. moving on to the fun stuff captive prince omg!! so glad u enjoyed the series & my own take on laurent...it was SO fun trying to get inside his head & imagine what would have been going on in there i love him so much <3 <3 tricky to write tho bc i was definitely trying 2 walk the line of like. not diminishing/excusing laurent's cruelty while simultaneously showing why he acts the way he does in the first book...abuse as cyclical etc...
and aftg lol such a trip...wtf is honestly an accurate response it's a wild ride but so much fun <3 & not liking kevin...valid honestly i like him but i also don't care abt him that much compared 2 the other characters...u should read 'the sunshine court' at some point it's abt jean & it will probably make u like kevin even less lmao
& finally. iwtv!!!!!!!! i've been obsessed w that show the past few weeks i just binge watched season 1 & have now been watching season 2...SO fucking good omg. personally my favorite character is. armand <3 idc what he does they could never make me hate him...last episode was soooo good claudia is my second-fave character just a smidge after armand i truly think her story is probably the most interesting + tragic out of all of them like. makes me feel a bit crazyinsane thinking abt it BUT her & madeleine. oh my goddddd that scene broke me. don't have many more coherent thoughts currently other than wailing + tearing my hair out etc but i am having a great time nonetheless...
anyway thank u 4 the message love catching up life has been busy but mostly treating me kindly hope it's doing the same for u!! <3
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in college when i had my first major ocd breakdown and had to go on meds i thought i had really bad GAD lol. that was my only diagnosis. but um i now recognize that it was absolutely full blown ocd lol
tw below for some OCD stuff i feel like sharing for some reason. may delete later bc i am going to get very ~vulnerable~
i was really scared to explain my thoughts to anyone bc 1) i knew logically they were bizarre and that embarrassed me and 2) i was scared talking about my intrusive thoughts would make them come true
basically i was obsessed with thoughts that my now ex was going to be in harms way or die, especially when it had been like. idk. more than 20 minutes from texting me
my intrusive thoughts were so strange..i would come up with really whacky ways that they could be fatally injured. like slipping in the shower or choking to death.
I knew these were unreasonable and weird and I did my absolute best to not pester my ex or make it weird. I didnt want to pressure her to do anything because of my out of control anxiety but it was getting super out of hand
I was getting so sick that I was having panic attacks if i hadnt heard from them in a couple hours, i threw up a few meals because of it
eventually i just stopped sleeping. Every time I started to fall asleep, my body jolted me awake. I had very little appetite and was holding back gags while eating.
The things I didn't really consider to be compulsions are pretty obvious to me now. on top of like intense magical thinking (believing my unusual thoughts were either going to cause something bad or that I had some sort of clairvoyance) i had begun publicly checking my pulse any time i was anxious. I thought i was being discreet but honestly my friends noticed it and asked me wtf i was doing ☠️ i was putting my two fingers on my jugular vein to see if i was panicking or anxious.
i also had a problem with compulsively reading the news in their area if i thought they had been hurt. in the attempt to get ahead of it. I was checking traffic data and friends blogs. It was honest to God a bit stalkerish and i knew that but i was terrified
I did tell them about it eventually and they were very gracious about it.
but this went on for a long time, probably months. Somehow i still coped with college classes and didn't fail anything but i was in a pass/fail school so no pressure to do substantially well
eventually i finally got my as to the doctor bc the therapy i was doing did Not work (it ws self guided CBT. I do not think the campus therapsit was equipped to handle the Brains issue i had)
i got put on a low dose of prozac, but when that didnt work (literally threw up a pill due to anxiety lmao) my doc increased the dose significantly and that helped quite a bit.
Anyway i stopped having so bad of OCD that i couldnt function, but of course i still have my moments
it took me like a couple weeks to figure out my fear was largely surrounding uncertainty and the inability to control things.
i think to be honest it is still present. and it seems to be triggered by major life events. Enzo is my new Subject but I'm better able to cope. It was hard when he was little leaving home, i was always scared I'd come back to a d*** puppy bc of something I did wrong. But! hes fine, we're fine. Him getting sick has been hard to deal with Because of this but im dealing. Im doing my best to just accept my obsrssions instead of fighting them or letting them spiral out of control
IDK what the point od this post is i just feel like i have to get it off my chest and i dont have a therapy appointment this week ❤️❤️❤️ my public tumblr is my diary:)
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i've been checking ur acc everyday since u said that misdial was getting released this week and like I WAS EXPECTING SOME ACTION BC U SAID THERE IS SOME BUT I DEFINITELY WASN'T EXPECTING 1. jeno liking her back all this time 2. him knowing that she liked him and 3. THEM REVEALING THEIR FEELINGS TO EACH OTHER LIKE WHAT JDJSKDKWKJDD i swear ur so good at pacing things out in a way that is not rushed but keeps each chap interesting as a writer myself i'm learning quite a bit. God I can't wait until the next chapter i have no clue what could happen in that one or in the future ones like is there can be a situation where jeno gets jealous bc of sungchan or jaemin which makes him go screw mark and act on his feelings??? (would love to see jealous jen honestly but also idk) WAIT I JUST REALIZED HOW BROKEN JENO MUST HAVE FELT AFTER FINDING OUT ABOUT HER AND JAEM W/ HIS FEELINGS AND HOW IS HE GOING TO FEEL NOW THAT HE KNOWS THAT SHE HAS LIKED HIM FOR SO LONG BUT HOOKED UP W/ JAEM AS A REBOUND OR HAS HE EVEN PIECED THAT TOGETHER YET?? how are the siblings gonna fix their relationship after all this too 💀 and now that they have closure of some sorts how do they end up together like??? does he know she STILL loves him and does he still like her too? and just to clarify jeno didn't act on his feelings bc he knew how protective mark is and was scared of him getting angry if he were to do anything and especially if he hurt her?? am i getting that right? my brain is exploding w/ so many questions pls update us on ur writing progress as much as u can so we can look forward to it hehe (I MEAN THIS IN A take ur time in writing it we'll always wait but when u do happen to work on it pls tell us to keep us on our toes WAY if u get what i mean. take all the time u need ❤️)
-covid anon 🤒
covid anon,,,,,,,,, my dear,,,,, my loaf of toasted bread,,,,,,, when i got this ask i was at work and if you could only see the stupid smile i had on my face the entire rest of the day when i thought about how i was going to respond to this,,,,,,
edit: my answer got crazy fucking long so i am putting this under a readmore goddamn
thank you for the writing compliment my beloved covid anon :'-) i always feel like i'm so shit with pacing so to hear that another writer thinks my pacing is good is just so 🤕 aaaaaaa
AND JEALOUS JENO BC OF SUNGCHAN AND JAEM??? WHAT A THOUGHT. because of the way i always end up characterizing jeno i dont see him as a jealous person, at least not the type to act on his jealousy if he Does feel it, like he's just going to stew on it and stew on it and stew on it instead of actually tell anybody that he's upset.... but that is a concept.... esp if he's jealous of jaem since they're such close friends, it would have good feeling-exposure capabilities.... hmmm.... winky face
to answer how jeno felt when he found out about 'mosquito boy', aka jaemin being mc's rebound in ch2, he was very... confused. by a lot of things. the first being that he didn't even know mc liked jaemin like that at one point (because in his head he doesn't quiiite realize that it was just a hookup, that there were no serious feelings involved- plus, he's always taken note of how much jaemin dotes on mc, so he's always had a suspicion that maybe, just maybe, jaemin might've had some kind of feelings for you too; and this rebound thing only confirms that for him) and he's kind of beating himself up about the fact that he never 'noticed' something going on between mc and jaem at the lake house. the second thing he's confused by is why he is so pissed at jaemin. he assumes he's mad at him for fucking around with mc in the first place when that's marks little sister (like cmon, brocode, wtf) (or maybe jeno is projecting? hmm) (or maybe he's just envious that jaemin had the balls to do something about how he felt regardless of how mark might react, hmmmmm) and he's also definitely mad at jaem for just... not telling him.
and about the siblings LMAO i only realized when i was rereading ch3 for the last time before posting that big brother mark is this huge, looming figure in the fic, mentioned every five seconds, and that basically all the conflict is because of him either directly or indirectly.... but he has literally not showed up in this fic at all 💀 he has not had one line of dialogue in misdial yet (that text in ch1 doesn't count 😭) but i promise you mark's time is coming
and yes, to clarify, you're pretty much exactly right about why jeno never said anything to anyone about how he felt,,,, like mark is his Best Friend, yknow? there are so many different reasons jeno felt it would be better to just keep his mouth shut about 1. knowing mc liked him, and 2. liking her back. the main one is that mark has made it clear how much he admires and cares about his little sister, and while he's never outright condemned any of mcs relationships or crushes or interests, it is so incredibly, painfully obvious that he does not think any human being on earth is good enough for her. (not to mention the fear of fucking up with mc somehow and the wrath mark would put rain upon him if so... with the added depressing edge that jeno knows mark would Hate having to play mediator between him, his best & closest friend, and mc, his literal baby sister)
and i think thats it omg i apologize for responding with such big walls of text, i just loved your message so much LOL all the questions and emotions you had were great and i enjoyed reading and thinking about my answer very much,,,, if you have any more questions i would 1000000% love to answer them 💪
i will try to keep you all updated better this time around, before ch4!! though. i have some interesting news. i will break it here, for you, and for all the other lovelies who have read this far: i have started an outline (and actually started writing)...... an interlude chapter about what happened between jaemin and mc at the lake house >:-D it's going to be written in a standalone oneshot style, so folks who haven't read misdial can still read it, and it's going to be quite... descriptive. about what exactly went down during this alleged rebound. so. if you're into that, jaemin stans rejoice.
anyway i hope this message wasn't a pain in the ass to read and answered most of your questions sufficiently 💪 farewell, covid anon!!!! i love u <3
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So I now live in a place where putting cream on my skin is not only normal but expected, because fuck desert climates, but sometimes i cannot STAND the texture. My skin is now telling me ''im itchy i need cream'' but i also know that as soon as I touch cream my entire skin entity will crawl right off my frame and escape into the night.
Thank you, texture issues. You make life interesting, if nothing else.
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We all know that Batman used to laugh during Jason's era as Robin, but I think that at least the first month or so that laughter was mostly a, "what the fuck is up with this kid" kind of laughter. Like Jason is so astonishingly different from Dick as Robin (Dick: *wants to kill someone so bad he's got a severe case of Stupid and Bruce just wants him to Sit and Stay* Jason: "Robin gives me magic!!!" 🤩) that Bruce just has like No coping mechanisms for Jason lmao. The first three weeks is Bruce just going, "what the fuck? Dick didn't do that. what do you mean I'm not going to have to nag him about homework. Oh my god this teenager thinks that--yuuuup, those are rocket propelled rollerskates. Oh look, the inevitable crash." I'd be wtf laughing too if i went from 2008 MCR emo child to ray of sunshine, introduced by way of incredible ballsiness followed immediately by half assed violence and stray-cat-esque coaxing from Bruce. I'd think I was in a fever dream ngl.
143 notes - Posted May 28, 2022
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Rewatching Phineas and Ferb has honestly just highlighted how much of a good guy Jeremy is. He adores Candace no matter how weird he clearly thinks she is, thinks her brothers are cool even while she's desperately trying to bust them, and, whenever she has spent the entire episode trying to be there with Jeremy until she can't STAND it any longer and goes haring off after the boys, he's just chilling in the dust and saying, "that's my girl."
172 notes - Posted March 13, 2022
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Phineas and Ferb astounds me with how funny it continues to be. We've estblished Linda Flynn-Fletcher as the old pop star Lindonna, and then she likes to play jazz with two other women in the neighborhood. Imagine if Nina Sky (one hit wonder of the 2000s: Move Ya Body) had a quiet jazz trio in the middle of the suburbs of this city and dropped an album and you're just like, ah, yes, soothing jazz by Nina Sky.
And track three is a hard rock song with the lead male singer ranting to Nina about how evil their siblings are and all the rest of the tracks are back to soothing jazz. You flip over the CD case to read the back.
3. E. V. I. L. B. O. Y. S. Sung by Nina Sky's daughter. Music by Nina Sky's jazz trio.
I think that I'd be simultaneously laughing myself sick and also extremely confused.
323 notes - Posted September 3, 2022
My #1 post of 2022
I think people need to tell more kids that they're proud of them for graduating high school. I'm absolutely dead serious, especially now. I can see the graduating high schoolers surrounding me right now are burned out and traumatized and depressed, and they've undoubtedly had a much, much harder time in high school than I ever had, and I had some pretty shitty high school experiences.
I graduated high school with no more acknowledgement than the standard "congrats on surviving another year of school!" And immediately followed by "have you finished all your scholarship applications?" That was fine for me. I knew i wanted to go to college, I was set and ready for it, eager to get out of high school into more challenging courses.
But if I just finished high school after two years of fighting through online courses and no one acknowledged the battles I went through? If I was as burnt out and traumatized as these kids are right now? I'd have never have gone to college.
So for everyone graduating high school, even if you barely scraped by passing: I see you. I'm proud of you. You did such a good job. I wish you success in what you try to do, fortune enough to keep you safe and happy, and health always.
46,794 notes - Posted May 13, 2022
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Hello, lovely Rid 💕💕
I'm still not over everything that happened yesterday. I've been trying to study for yet another exam that I have tomorrow and all that my head is full of is mr. Jeon Jungkook. My thoughts just keep drifting away and I can't focus lmao.
Also I have the talent of always falling asleep right before you answer my asks, so don't think that I've been withholding information about my "crush" from you on purpose. I'm very hesitant to even call it a crush because I barely know him, but I guess we'll go with that. Here's the barely there gossip about that lmao.
So this guy is someone from my course who I noticed in the first week of classes, because he's like one of the prettiest men I've seen irl. He has long hair and he wears nice soft sweaters and rings and he's just very pretty. (kind of looks like Ethan from the band Maneskin but with softer features 👀👀👀)
And I got to talk to him for the first time when I spent those 8 hours waiting to take the exam because a mutual friend was there too. The three of us also went out to celebrate after too. He's pretty cool and he laughed at my jokes, so it was a fun time. But I don't even know if he's single or if he likes women and now I might have a crush on him 🙃. I haven't had a crush on anyone for years lmaooo.
Anywayyy, I saw that you're going to be doing a master's degree and that's so cool, Rid! I hope it all goes very smoothly and with the least amount of stress possible.
Love you always 💞💞💞
yeahhh, no, tbh i've been avoiding all those little clips from yday, bc my heart truly cannot take it anymore. like, why does one (1) man have the power to make me tear up just by being his sweet, humble, comforting self? SEE THIS IS WHY I PUT THIS DAMN WORD IN CMI ALL THE TIMEFJKSAFJKJHDKS
k, moving on.
ivi, oh my god, i know i tend to answer really late sometimes, so i will never think you're withholding information, it's okay !! 🥺 but that crush... oohhhh, girl, he laughed about your jokes, that's a vvv good sign for now 👀 i hope you find out more about him, though, he seems really nice, so fingers crossed for you. you deserve (even more) happiness 🤞 keep me updated if you want 👀
and thank youuu! i do hope it's as cool as it sounds, but first and foremost, i'm excited to meet new people! hoping for the absolute best. and alsoooo !! i hope you're taking breaks between studying.. glad c&f could help some (just read your review and wtf i adore you to bits 😭)
sending love your way, all the time 🤍
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they were literally going to promote me LMAO that’s the crazy thing. Allegedly anyway. the thing is the communication problem there is just so sooooo bad. and the slot for FOS team lead(the position i would have gotten) is occupied by a guy they promoted to be a second closing lead because the first guy they promoted to be closing lead was struggling too much. and so i basically would have had to wait until one of those two guys got either promoted or transferred out of the store. And they were like oh we’ll use this time to develop you as a leader. And i was like ok. but here’s the thing. they put a different lead in charge of FOS for the time being on top of her other department which like. Bad idea because she honestly is not a great lead anyway but whatever who cares. And they were like, you’re gonna shadow her for two days and she’s gonna train you. and then they fucked up the schedule because the store director makes the leads’ schedules and hr makes everybody else’s and they moved her to a later time and NOBODY told the guy who made MY schedule. so i had to come in at 8am on 2 hours of sleep because i had closed the night before for NO reason. and then i had to text him on his day off when she wasn’t there because NONE of these other fools gave me their numbers. and then when she did come in she didn’t want me shadowing her at all & she was basically just like Here’s what everybody’s doing wrong and now you have to fix it. go get ‘em champ. and i was like wtf. And i kept asking her & the store director both, wtf is my role here exactly??? And they could not give me a good answer because they did not fucking know either. like they literally created this position specifically for me and yet the best they could tell me about it was “it will vary from day to day.” Like ok.
and then that monday when my favorite lead came back(he was hr) i literally had to get the 3 of them in a room and make them talk to each other like. Guys where was the miscommunication here. Wtf happened. and the store director got onto me for wanting to talk to hr instead of the lead i was supposed to be shadowing and i’m just thinking sir have you considered that maybe i got 99% of my information about this role from him and 1% from you and literally 0% of it from her. and it became pretty obvious pretty quickly that the store director & this other lead were having conversations about my role that they were not involving him in and they were not involving ME in any of it either. and he was so quick to take the blame for the scheduling mishap even though it literally was not his fault at all because nobody fucking told him! and they also got mad that he had given me one of the same days off as the lead i was supposed to be shadowing had off and i was like guys did you tell him at any point that you didn’t want my days off to overlap with hers? and they were like Well no. and i was like come on now. And then i agreed to work six days both of those weeks so my days off wouldn’t overlap with hers and i was getting like 2 hours of sleep a night and i couldn’t even drink caffeine due to the Great Stomach Ulcer Incident of 2022 so the whole time i felt like i was barely even alive.
And THEN i was like. trying so hard to communicate with this woman and voicing any concerns i had to her whenever i saw her. and despite her & the store director telling me 100 billion times i was not supposed to be coverage at the registers i wound up being coverage every. Single. Day. so i would come in and be at the registers every day and she’d get mad at me for like. making sure the team got their breaks on time instead of doing god only knows whatever the hell else that she wanted me to be doing. and then she eventually just pretty much stopped speaking to me completely and i was just like whatever. and then after 2 entire days of not hearing from her at all except for when she asked me to do something that both people in hr had already told me they would be doing that day she called me into the office and she was like. I am going to give you some feedback and this other lead is going to just sit here and watch. and then she’s like You have an attitude problem because you talk to me at the registers instead of pulling me aside. and you don’t check in with me. And you talk about confidential information in front of team members. And i’m like what confidential information did i talk about in front of team members? Because you’ve got to keep in mind that this woman does not tell me shit. and she’s like well you talked about [coworker] being in the hospital in front of [other coworker]. And i’m like well [other coworker] is the guy who told me about [coworker] being in the hospital in the first place. And i was asking you if you knew about that because you guys made him come in anyway yesterday when he tried to call out even though he had a 100+ degree fever. And she was like well you’re not supposed to talk about that because it’s disrespectful. And i was like girl what the hell. did not say that obviously but i pretty much went home and had a mental breakdown because EVERYTHING she said was like that
and then since i wasted my whole day off having a sleep-deprivation-induced mental breakdown i wanted to call off the next day but i didn’t because i realized they would have like zero coverage without me(the bitch that was not even supposed to be coverage!!!). and the next day i came in and had to have the dreaded “i did not want anybody to know either of these things but my bipolar ass is really struggling right now” conversation with my favorite lead & he encouraged me to take some time off & also said some shit that i think actually fixed me. But anyway i took like a week off and then came back to discover that the lead in charge of FOS was out with covid. Ok then. and so she was out for like my entire workweek and then when she came back i kept expecting her to say SOMETHING to me but she never did. and i had made a list of concerns i had wanted to go over with her and i gave them to my favorite lead because he was gonna see her again before i was and i honestly don’t know if he had a chance to talk to her about them or not because the next time i saw him was when he dropped the “my husband got promoted so we’re moving to florida” bombshell on me so i kind of stopped caring if she had her shit together or not. and so my focus for the next week was basically like Am i gonna be able to make this magnet i wanna make for him in time or not(the answer was yes btw & he loved it). but at one point he did ask me, do you want me to kind of nudge her in the direction of talking to you? and i was like no because i’m sad about you leaving so i’m not even thinking about that. But also the thing is she literally should have been able to take that initiative ON HER OWN!!! like he literally should not have had to do anything!!! world literally in shambles!!! hate and hell on planet earth!!!
and then like. on his last day i was like i don’t know what i’m gonna do now because you are literally the only lead that communicates with me. i guess i’m gonna try to talk to her tomorrow. and he was like don’t even talk to her just talk to the store director. And i was like you know what you’re literally right. so i wrote my name down to talk to him for the next available timeslot. and keep in mind i did this on the weekend and that timeslot was for tuesday. And i kept telling myself, MAYBE if she says something to me before then i will reconsider my “i gotta get outta here” plan. that woman was in the target at the same time as i was EVERY day and she did not say SHIT. and it’s like. i’m supposed to be your quote-unquote “team captain” …how are you gonna go a whole MONTH without speaking to me AT ALL? how the fuck am i supposed to run this department if you don’t fucking communicate with me and you tell me that me attempting to communicate with YOU is a “behavior problem” that i need to change? Like. i don’t have ANY access to any of the emails you get from corporate telling you how FOS is supposed to be. i don’t have any access to the guest surveys that tell you what the team might need to work on! girl i am relying on YOU for that shit and you aren’t giving it to me! and you’ve been back for TWO WEEKS at this point and have not taken ANY time to talk to me.
and so i told the store director, it literally feels like you guys gave up on me and just forgot to tell me. and he was like oh of course not we would never! but unfortunately the feeling is very much NOT mutual because i have 100% given up on them like. i have had the “leads have GOT to get better about communication” talk with him 3 times now and leads have NOT gotten better about communication. if anything they’ve gotten WORSE! and they just lost the ONE guy who was actually good at communication like. no chance in hell they will EVER get better about it now! and the thing is. i absolutely cannot take feedback from people who get paid more than me to be more incompetent than i could ever even hope to dream of being. Like. there was literally ONE lead who i could take feedback from and he just left forever. and this one who’s supposed to be my direct lead has given guests just blatantly wrong information more than once and i’ve had to jump in and correct her. which i guess she sees as disrespect but if you’re telling somebody we don’t sell this product and i know for a fact that we do do you really want me to just stand there? they are literally asking to give us their money and you’re telling them no. how does that help the store(i was right in every instance of this btw and we did have the product). and also this convo i had with the store director was nearly a week ago now and this woman still has not spoken a WORD to me!!! Like COME ON!!!
and anyway it’s just like. Honest to god SO ridiculous that they expect me to just be like. Yeah i’m ok with this whole situation. Yeah i’m fine watching you guys miscommunicate about me for 6 months before i MAYBE get promoted. and in the meantime i have to live off $17.25 an hour when everybody’s hours are getting cut and i live in a $1425-a-month shithole with no oven. Like literally NO!!!! this whole situation is bullshit!! and you guys know me very well as somebody who does not put up with bullshit! you are INSANE if you expect me to continue working here under these conditions!!! and i was like, “i feel like [favorite lead] was the only one who put any thought into this whole process at all.” and the store director was like Well we ALL thought about it and he was just the messenger. Ok but how come you didn’t give him half the messages then. how come the ideas about the position that he conveyed to me(good) did not match up with the ideas that you & this other lead apparently had for the position(bad). and see here’s the thing. i ask myself, who gave me 99% of the communication about this? And of course it was him. but then it’s like, even aside from this whole ordeal, who makes me feel valued as a team member? And i would have to say 95% of it was also him. and the other 5% was from other leads that don’t work here anymore. So like. there’s the answer right there. SAD!
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