#bc she's actually one of the most sane ppl ever

[neptuniadoesstuff]

Finally finished this alcoholic old guy named Beef (joke) whom I'm deff not gonna take in hostage-

(Small Warning for main pics: Does contain scars & burns but those are healed so nothing too serious)

(Danger Man McGhee on the Left, Normie Beef Man on the Right)

So I am kinda feeling better but still kinda meh atm. Anyways some art I wanted my time on & think it's not really good. (This is for a DT btw but I doubt the person I'm having the dt with will approve since kinda just... boring imo..) (Except one of my frends ON SCREb FRIKIN "SIMPS" FOR HIM BCS HE HAS A BEARD-)

(BUT UNFORTUNATELY I CANT CHNAGE THAT NOW BCS MY NECK WILL START HURTING & ILL FRIKIN H8 MYSELF AGAIN SO YAY!)

Anyways imma tell you some things about this moron:

He's a complete idiot who's a mechanic, but due to him being a idiot he often hurts himself on accident. (Which explains the burns)

He is divorced 6 TIMES! But only has one kid named Jasoer who is the child of his first spouse. (Which makes Jasper his estranged son)

He's a alcoholic & sometimes passes out from drinking a lot. (Btw kids don't drink you'll prob pass out or even die)

He's jealous of Sanchi (my Fallout OC) bcs well... Sanchi is smarter than him also bcs ANGUS IS LITERALLY JUST A STICK WHILE SANCHI CAN LITERALLY SNAP HIM IN HALF IF HE SO WANTS TO!

He gave himself the nickname "Danger Man McGhee" which is the most stupidest name to think of but hey a idiot giving himself a dum nickname is prob like "The floor is made of floor" or smtn.

Despite his stupidity & his very poor taste in men (srsly bro yur first lover literally SCRAPED YUR FRIKIN ARMS FOR SOME MALIOUS REASON), he's a good fighter, however ever since he stopped raiding, he kinda just works on machines & be lazy.

Thats really it tbh. I'm just not really to well mentally so I'm not really well motivated to actually do a thing like actually talk to ppl. (Plz don't ask why its... personal)

Some Extras:

(Warning: Does contain lots & lots of bl00d on one of the extras so beware)

01:

The Moron w/o his cloth things & GoObLeS (God just smite me down I don't wanna be here anymore).

02:

McGhee but w/o the goggles which aren't even canon to Fallout or FNV.

03:

MaN, drawing the bl00d on this one was as hard as me trying to keep my sanity & not try to frikin screech at my mom anytime she won't leave me the frik alone. (Dont... ask... Again personal stuff)

Anyways that's all for the bonuses/extras. I hope you enjoy this, or don't, just don't dictate what ppl like or not, I'm just a random ahh kid on the net who draws for a hobby/living & is very much not sane.

Credits

Character was created & designed by me.

Art is mine. (Do not take w/o permission or imma throw u off a cliff)

Program: IbisPaint.

Bubs' TOS: Plz don't repost/steal, trace, or recolor my art WITHOUT MY PERMISSION! If you do, I'll take yur femur and pelvis.. SO, DON'T THINK ABOUT IT! (The PNS on my blog's pinned post clearly means "Please No Steal" plz follow that rule.) If you do post my art on anything like yur blog or somewhere else (With my permission) PLEASE CREDIT ME!

[forgottentristan]

OOC | Tristan & Edmund

oh thank god another sane calainon!!!!!! i feel like tristan has felt verrrrrry alone in the world, being uhhhhh a bit different from his siblings alksdjfkljsdf and then when the family started to expand it was literally RODERICK he got for an in-law lkasjdafkljsdkfjjdsf

tristan, sean connery voice: our situation has not improved!

anyway!!!! tristan does have ~1 thing in common w the rest of his siblings at least bc he loved edmund from the word go!!!!!!! coolest little dude hands down from day one!!!!! <333333 and he's so proud of him too!!!!!! always here for edmund!!!!!

ok so i def think tristan is like...ur classic knight type!!!! he's honorable and protective and long-suffering and loyal to a fault and also mysterious bc he's utterly baffling when you start comparing him to his siblings ;DDDD

no but ANYWAY!! i feel like, just in terms of relationships, tristan is probs actually more like a big brother in some ways to edmund than an uncle bc he was only 9 when edmund was born, so he simply didn't have the experiences or anything to be your classic uncle bc he was a lil kid, himself, being raised by the same ppl that edmund was, though he was deffff a huge help w edmund and was like that lil kid you see toting around a baby and ur just like 'you go, champs!' bc he def takes responsibility super srsly and he wanted good things for edmund!!!! plus, tristan def saw some stuff himself but he was sheltered from it for the most part by his big siblings and he wanted to return the favor and protect edmund as much as he possibly could!!!!!

HOWEVER!! i also think that, initially, some of that sheltering kinda did tristan a bad turn bc i think he was so like !!!!!! damn we aren't starving anymore!!!!!! that he was gobbling up everything roderick was putting down bc like that's the dude who saved them and its his brother in law and he lost his gm but at least he has this growing family now!!!!! andddd yeahhhh

as tristan got older and saw more stuff, he started questioning things more but i think he was in a really weird place when he was offered the role of kingsguard, and in some ways he's ~still navigating around all of this frankly -- but then he 1) wanted to prove himself/make a difference/have a lil meaning in his life etc 2) wanted to look out edmund and amira 3) was still thinking that he must def be wrong abt these terrible doubts he was having!!!!!!

nowadays he's def questioning roderick more and more esp as he's seen worse and worse things, and if roderick ever tried to get him to burn witches or smth he'd flat out refuse, but honestly in some ways that only makes him more glad to be where he is bc he's there to look out for the other varmonts bc i def think, as hes watched roderick and amira push their various kids into competish w e/o he's like that's a big no from me!!!!!! but its also given him greater sympathy for ~all the ppl involved bc this just objectively sucks!!!!! and since he's kingsguard, he kinda views it as his duty to try and be objective tho lbr edmund ~is def his favorite!!!!!! and he's ~also started to get more and more uhhhhh well frankly distrusting of his own siblings esp amira bc she did jump into this out of desperation but she's def shown a darker side of herself etc!!!!

anyway!!!!! point is...this is all a lot and he's really really really sorry edmund has to go through it!!!!!! and kinda regrets being kingsguard now bc he wishes he could be more of a direct advocate for edmund!!!! but he's def a #dutyfirst kinda guy, and yeah its just a giant mess basically lkajdsfkjldsjkfd

[yuukei-yikes]

what do you think of ene :3 the kagepro fans ive seen tend to write her off as LOL silly virus miku and not much beyond that and while she is sillay i do wish shintaro/ene codependency was explored a little bit .... so when i saw you mention post str takane/shintaro codependency i was like FUCK YEAHHHHHH

lmao. dude. she is my favorite character COME ON like it pisses me off so bad how everyone treats ene as teehee comic relief and only treat takane as Takane bc like. THEYRE THE SAME FUCKING PERSON IDIOT!!! Hating ene is hating post str takane 😒😒😒

anyways i dont have a fave between haruka and takane but heh takane just has so much more depth imo. her story is a lil more complex to me and its just such a good arc ugh like shes rly one of the characters to go through the most drastic development like her arc is so😭😭😭 i love you enomoto takane and i hate ppl who disregard ene. if u do that u dont fucking understand takane at all and u should GET OUT OF HERE!!!!!!!!!!!

POST STR SHINTARO/TAKANE CODEPENDENCY REALNESS ITS LITERALLY MY FAVE SUBJECT EVER BC LIKE takane fucking DIED and so did everyone she loved and suddenly there is shintaro who she holds onto not only bc he looks awful and obviously needs help but bc hes the one proof she was ever real so she holds onto him as her form of keeping herself sane!??!?!!? like it goes both ways!?!?!?? for over a year (i think ene arrives in shintaros comp like a year into him being a shut in out of the 2 years, irc?) theyre all the other has, but for ene it also goes into him being her whole entire life and point of existence. not only to keep herself sane and have a purpose, but being with shintaro in memory of ayano, of haruka, and of herself... like. post str takane has ISSUES i think its rly hard for her to really let go of shintaro.

as for shintaro its like... im kinda split. would he wanna cut her off or hold onto her as well? ive seen cool stuff with the idea of shintaro being super angry at her but tbh i think he'd be mad for only a little but since he's got memories of past timelines its difficult to be Actually mad at her and cut her off. like, he killed her in one route LMAO i think shintaro would feel guilty abt that + treat the situation seriously not like he did in the novel where they get over it after just yelling at each other for a bit and its rather a funny scene than a serious one😒 (i hate how the novels treated takane getting her body back as sort of a joke, like she gets it back off screen bc its a Kano Novel and then its implied she like shoplifted some food LMAO and then the shintaro confrontation is just written off as a funny bit i just UGH it should be a bigger deal that one of the main characters got her body back after 2 years but WHATEVER)

anyways. shintaro would go easy on takane especially when seeing how pathetic she looks trying to fix things with him and i think they have this sick sick sick she can fix me/i can fix him relationship where shintaro while wary of her at first, does fall in how comfortable it is to just rely on takane for everything and treats takane as a therapist while takane rejoices in not only still being in his life but being needed by him. ayano would be jealous of takane and goes to haruka like arent YOU jealous and haruka's like am i the only one seeing this is super just fucked up for both their mental healths especially takanes. haruka is not jealous of shintaro as much as hes kind of annoyed bc in the dynamic Shintaro is really the one indulging takane bc its comfortable for him. haruka probably tries talking to takane but its also difficult for him to call it out bc she sees how broken and nervous she is without knowing whats of shintaros life so its like. a whole thing. yuukei quartet relationship drama 4ever

[veinsinneon]

[pollocamis]

Well. I love reading headcanons, and I don't think I saw anyone do this one yet, so I thought I'd do it myself. That being said, I present to you:

NXX AND SWEARING

or: when do they swear & how they react to swearing

Luke

he's very polite so he's not one to swear a lot

and most people think he doesn't bc of that

but he does occasionally in a casual way if among the right people

as in when he's telling Rosa about his day he might be like "my God I had a client today and you won't believe what this motherfucker did"

and yes it might sound surprising to hear he'd say anything remotely bad when Rosa's present but it's also worth mentioning they have a very intimate relationship even before they date

swearing can be a sign of intimacy right

anyway getting back on topic: he definitely swears under his breath whenever he gets hurt in a mission or when shit gets real

bc his job can be and will be stressing and what better way to unwind than dropping an f-bomb amirite

is not phased at all if Rosa swears (they lived together for so long, he's definitely heard her say some abominations)

Artem

you'd think he's at the "never swore before and refuses to do so" tier

but hear me out: he's actually done so before and will do it again

never publicly tho

he's very professional so none of his colleagues ever heard anything remotely resembling a swear coming from him (and they NEVER will.)

but when he's alone he'll probably gently do so if having a hard time in a case or feeling frustrated or in pain or whatever reason

and if his colleagues never heard him swear imagine Rosa

she'll NEVER. EVER. hear Artem swear

unless their dinamic changes a bit later on I'm not sure about this I play the global server :P

tho I don't think he'd feel very comfortable in doing so

now that I think about it, I guess he'd feel guilty or at least strange if anyone heard, especially considering they'd definitely be weird about it (WDYM **ARTEM WING** IS SAYING FU-)

if Rosa swore around him (which I don't think she'd do) he'd be confused and probably worried depending on the situation (the confusion stemming from the fact he's not used to hear ppl swearing unless it's someone blatantly trying to disrespect him)

(she isn't ofc)

Marius

regularly swears

I read "Gordon Ramsay's child" in a tier list and I'm laughing (unrelated)

he's very professional and polite when speaking to ppl in business bc let's be real who in their sane mind wouldn't be haha *sweats in Brazilian while looking at our current ruler*

but put him among close friends and this kid know no boundaries in language

in summary: it's situational and he knows exactly what situations he should and shouldn't do so

as a bonus his father probably also swears with him at home once he's reached a certain age, I don't get the strict language parent vibe from him

I believe he tones the swearing down to a minimum when he's talking with Rosa tho

yk gotta cause a good impression

but will swear if not directed at her like "Artem needs to stop licking Neil's balls lmao" (he'd DEFINITELY say stuff like this if not for censoring)

when she does it back tho he's shocked for a sec but is back on track right away

only for the first few times tho, after that he knows what to expect

Vyn

he either doesn't know swear words on whatever language Stellis speaks or simply refuses to swear

either way he doesn't

at least not that we know of...

nah he doesn't

he's at the tier "has not sworn before but can if so desired" except he still hasn't desired to do so

he's had a strict upbringing as a prince so that's probably why

and also his thing with flaws yk he probably considers bad language a flaw

oh if only he knew about famous Brazilian poet (/j) Cris Nocolotti and her song that goes "when you say 'get fucked' for the first time/ you will retake the reins of your life in your hands" (loose translation)

if Rosa swore around him (which I don't think she'd do especially since she's calls him Doctor Richter after they're dating like come ON) he'd be amused actually (again depending on the situation)

yes I did say he thinks bad laguage = flaw but he seems to like seeing Rosa's multiple sides so there's that

Rosa

she does.

let's be real have you read those stories she's in

she's almost dying every five seconds

if she's never swore in any of those moments she's the most polite girl in the entire world

or simply already dead inside

anyway I don't think she cares a lot if she's not in a professional setting

or trying to cause a good impression ofc

or around someone who doesn't swear, I feel like she'd respect the other person's wishes (hence my thoughts on her w/ Artem/Vyn)

just like Marius: it's situational and she knows the right places

she doesn't get mad at people swearing tho and will be ok with the nxx boys swearing with her

now I wonder when hearing Artem/Vyn swear would she be amused or worried

probably both

[b4bbrainrot]

🏡 for the cleaners tent rooms

omg thanks!!

evangelo: his side of the room is a lot cleaner than people think most ppl are, all his clothes are in dresser & to save other ppl's noses he puts his used clothes in a backpack until laundry day, has a deflated soccer ball he found one day, shares the room w holly since the both of them are like siblings to each other walker: has a whole tent to himself since he is a leader of the cleaners, still small cot tho, has a lil teddy bear a kid gave to him to "protect him from monsters", asked for a wooden desk with the trees surrounding fort hope so he looks over paperwork w it holly: def sleeps in a room with another cleaner (ahem her adopted brother evangelo), the thought of being left alone scares her, has a hammer & nails on the bottom cabinet of her dresser in case dottie needs touching up, tries to be clean as possible for her roomies sake mom: used to share her room with her son, they both kept the place clean and a safe place for others to join when wanted but after the death of her son, she isolated herself, slept in her son's bed instead of her own, doc had to move in to keep mom sane. has a lil basket full of markers that she uses to design tattoos if ever the world went back 2 normal doc: used to be in a tent of her own by the makeshift medical center they have at fort hope but moved in with mom. has a dresser full of long-shelf life candy she finds in case she wants a snack break, also has medical books she found in the library that are beyond her field to learn how to help more hoffman: ok those were sad lemme bullshit w hoffman my beloved, has a two cot bedroom but no one wants to sleep w him bc he will go on and on about conspiracy theories, uses the other side as personal holding spots for his clothes and his thousands of vests and his pride & joy pineapple hawaiian shirt, the top of his dresser is littered w action figures from his old house & others he found out in the world jim: big country man actually built his own lodge and a wooden bed bc of experience his father helped him w growing up, has hunting stuff & a fishing pole displayed since it's not really safe to hunt wild animals or fish, sometimes helps with the garden behind the ring cause his wife loved gardening karlee: really glad she has a tent of her own because sharing a place w others that she doesn’t know on a personal level is a big no no, has pins she found all over her room, a record player she found along with a crate of records. she doesn’t know any of the artists but she got tons of riot grrrl music & other male artists she finds acceptable. 

[janiedean]

I feel bad for all the nice J*nsa shippers who like their ship for whatever reasons (tropes, pretty art, aesthetic appeal, whatever) and know it's not canon but get associated with the misogynistic Dany hating crowd who act like Jon being attracted to Ygritte is J*nsa foreshadowing because red hair (I guess Jon should fuck Edmure Tully too? Omg give me Dark!Jon getting revenge on Catelyn by seducing her brother!) Tell me something. I'm new to the fandom but was J*nsa popular before the show? And I've heard something about the OG J*nsa shippers being alienated by the new shippers who insisted it had to be canon and acted like the series is called, "A song of J*nsa #danysux." I don't find that hard to believe because I know people who are now ashamed of calling themselves J*nsa shippers. Like, at this point, it's not only rival shippers who hate it. Even Gendrya/Braime/Jon stans/etc have started disliking that ship. You know your fandom is a problem when people who have nothing to do with Jnsa have a problem with it.

me: reads this ask

me: iwastheregandalf.gif which I can't find now but

okay anon buckle up because I am sadly well-equipped to answer this ask but before I do lemme tell you dark jon seducing edmure to take revenge on cat is LITERALLY THE BEST THING I'VE EVER HEARD but *clears throat* ALL RIGHT THEN.

disclaimer: as anon says I have no issue with like the shippers mentioned by anon in the beginning and ngl I agree, I have ABSOLUTELY ZERO FUCKING STAKES in the j*nsa vs j*nerys war and the only het jon ship I gaf about is jon/ygritte and we all know where that ended up I just... have been here since 2011/adwd was over and all the fic around was just for the books under secret lj communities and asoiaf qualified for yuletide and I have... seen... things.... and I actually have like uh had... beef... with some people in there and I know things bc ppl who hated those others told me stuff so anyway *sigh* buckle up anon I'mma tell you the story of jon shipwars through the years

in order, the old gods help me here, under the cut bc this is long as fuck

when I got into fandom also given what numbers were on ao3 one ship was popular and it was sansan. no like sansan was lit. the only asoiaf ship on ao3 with more than 200 fics. jb had twenty when i checked first. jc had like around 100-ish because of the show but sansan dwarfed anything. I posted the first jon/ygritte fic on the ao3 tag and the fourth throbb fic and like the others were all reposts from lj kinkmemes. nothing was popular before the show except for sansan when it comes to huge numbers bc grrm doesn't like fic and it was all hush hush until the show made it impossible to control and that ship was the one with a huge enough fanbase it actually had numbers, so like... j*nsa wasn't popular in the way nothing else was popular until it got screentime on the show

now, that stated, j*nsa had a... fair amount of fic for a rareship which was mostly book-based and from og shippers that were there from before the show and liked it for what it was but literally none of them thought it was gonna be canon, like it wasn't huge or anything but it had a small but dedicated fanbase who did their own thing and thought it was fun/liked the idea but that was it

that fandom had their own niche of hcs that they cultivated and shit except that like... at the end of S5/beginning of S6 there was a surge in shipping for... well obvious reasons bc it was obv sansa was getting to the wall and that would have been all nice and good but a) it was the time puritanical shipping was starting to take root and the 'shipping sansa with sandor or tyrion is hella problematic' rhetoric had started to circle coming from sans*ery shippers mostly but I'mma not open that fucking can of worms here, b) while the ending of S5 had more of a theon/sansa spike, the j*nsa stuff started getting big

now here we have to mention my villain origin story ie: j*nsa fandom had this one stan whose name I won't make because honestly it's been years and if she's still around I don't want her to remember I exist who was a bnf, wrote for... the website that created the whole larry/carol thing etc who was really fixed on this thing that j*nsa was actually canon and started writing extremely popular meta about it. now you're gonna ask how do you know, I know because this person once wrote a meta named 'why robb stark is a dick' and I told her that it was really fucking bad meta and she took it so badly she kept on trash talking me on her blog/her podcast (I was apparently the insane robb stark fangirl l m a o good lord) and like that was when some sane ppl who argued with her informed me in pvt that she was basically harping on the CANON thing when they'd have been okay with like... it being crackshipping and that she was basically cultivating a hoarde of followers who were harping on them/the ogs and basically ostracizing them;

I would like to add that this person - before her tumblr got 'accidentally deleted' and remade it therefore deleted most receipts for, er, her so-called meta which included stuff like ned and cat raised sansa as a sexual object and only wanted to sell her like cattle - had at some point started a round robin fic thing where... some of the characters mocked openly said stuff that some of the og fans had said specifically targeting them and people in that side basically went harassing anyone who didn't agree with that specific notion

now never mind that this person basically coined an entire term to describe ppl who liked white guys and excused all their wrongdoings out of my conversation re robb basically lying about everything I said as if I didn't have the receipts and tried to sell shirts with it and it didn't work and like then she got kicked out of her own website because she was telling her commenters disagreeing pretty shitty insults (considering I was called psychotic for disagreeing with her that time I don't doubt it) I think at some point she stepped back from fandom bc idk wtf she's up to these days and I don't want to, but basically at that point the dam was broken and there was a bunch of puritanical shippers harping on anyone who didn't agree with j*nsa is canon endgame stuff

this also includes an incident when those ppl were like... passing themselves as throbb shippers and ended up trying to tell t*hramsay shippers off the theon tag based on moral reasons and I ended up arguing with all of them (and they were all from that crowd) which in turn landed me in contact with other og j*nsa shippers who were like detached from that fandom bc those same people harassed them away as well ssooooo fun

anyway when S6 happened everyone was high on it and whatnot but I wasn't gonna begrudge them that I mean... you shipped it for years, canon is delivering you, good for you, but then j*nerys happened

god j*nerys happened

aaand basically...... I mean personally I was there like are y'all seriously arguing about the best incest jon ship out there but like basically the j*nsa endgame side was like AH JON IS PLAYING DANY SEE IF IT DOESN'T HAPPEN, the j*nerys obv got defensive af and both sides were sort of alternatively shitting on jon/ygritte anyway and depicting any other romantic rship jon could have as abusive™ and during S8 it just got worse and like I tried to stay out of it but basically from what I'm seeing now idk how the j*neryses are doing but on the j*nsa one it's ah jon's gonna play dany anyway and she's going to go insane like in the show so SHOW TRUTHING EVERY OTHER WAY and like again denying that sandor exists or that tyrion exists and like I barely touch my corner (sansan) but I ended up arguing with j*nsa/th*nsa people on twitter who were antis and is2g it was white-hair inducing and I know for sure the sansa/tyrion shippers were harassed to hell and back throughout so FUN

and even if the show didn't go there now since everyone there banked on the jnsa endgame thing and admitting you're wrong is like... not a thing, they still haven't let go of it and attach to that ship any shred of evidence which honestly is grasping at straws half of the time (like... the sansa/alysanne parallels like guys please no) and which is why every other ship is starting to get fed up, attaching canon proof of stuff from other ships onto theirs see that batb argument and jb is platonic but jonsa is not nvm taking all the sansan stuff and throwing it on j*nsa but then denying that sansan has canon evidence (like guys I had to read sansa touching his shoulder when saying gregor wasn't a true knight wasn't meaningful and we were seeing things please) and blah blah blah

this also goes hand in hand with the fixation on like... villanizing dany at all costs and like is2g I have zero investment in dany or her storyline I don't even remember it and I don't particularly care abt her either way and sure af I'm not for j*nerys endgame but like.... some stuff I read is completely excessive esp when fixing on how she's a completely mad tyrant who's gonna have to be put down and like... guys no

(also there's some srs stannis hate in that corner which I honestly don't get why they even care abt stannis but I had to read stuff like ppl don't recognize that dany and stannis are the real villains in this saga and like........ idek)

I think most of the og shippers are gone or don't ship it openly bc they don't want to be attached to the drama but like I also think they're pissing off everyone else bc like... I mean a bunch of them also were down with sansa being paired with other ppl as long as it meant a good ending for her except those ppl were... like everyone but the ppl she has actual contact with in canon which meant that at some point sansa/gendry was a thing and like.... you can imagine why arya/gendry shippers & arya stans were fed up, and there's also this tendency to behave like sansa is the center of the entire saga which like these books is named a song of jon snow basically can we pls make peace with it and personally I've had it with both j*nsa and j*nerys people since they started with that dumbass JON/YGRITTE WAS AN ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP rhetoric but I'm also fed up with the total ignoring that sandor exists/depicting us as delusional and honestly I also was by proxy fed up from the harassing of the sansa/tyrion shippers soooooooooooo

there were also instances of 'well theon is an acceptable choice other than jon bc he can't threaten her' which... i mean we all know what that meant and I'm not even commenting it bc it's one AM and I have no force to but I don't have to explain why it's not a progressive take now do I

there were also metas about how cousin incest being legal in half of the world means that jondany is a worse incest and j*nsa doesn't count as such and I was basically there like guys please just fucking own up to it but honestly I chose to forgot where I read that and I couldn't find the link if I tried

tldr: no one wants to admit that it's not gonna be endgame which considering the amount of fic they have on ao3 is imvho useless bc they have more content than like.. anything I ship that's not jb or that's actually like canon *cries in joncon/rhaegar but I mean renly/loras is canon and has less fic than them* so idk what's the problem with enjoying that instead of insisting it's gonna be canon when not even the show validated it while show truthing anyway when the only show truthing that can be truthed is the small council made of minorities and possibly jon eventually fucking off with the wildlings but not like that but like most people who thought it wasn't gonna be endgame had left/were made to leave by the time S7 rolled by and at this point since wow isn't out yet everyone is fandom-grasping at straws to find stuff to discourse on and we're here beating dead horses *shrug*

so that's... how it is but I would again like to point out that I don't judge ppl on their shipping, I don't particularly care about this entire feud bc I only ship jon with ppl he's not related to in whichever way and I try to stay out of this mess bc I don't really care to argue with ppl who have already decided to bend canon to whatever they want and will have to realize that it's not what grrm wrote at some point but like I have a very good memory and the above rant is as objective as possible also bc again I don't literally have a stake in that race I just think romantic/endgame j*nsa is not a thing and that ppl should stay in their lane and not harping on other ppl who ship whatever in general but especially when their ship is the most popular thing in fandom in the first place /two cents

[mack1s]

meet the admin! (basic info masterlist)

hi-hello! so~ i don’t know if people will actually look at this account but just to be sure, i’d better introduce myself don’t you think? well... here goes nothing!

first off, my name’s rye! my pronouns are she/her,, though if you find it more comfortable using they/them when mentioning me, i don’t mind at all! so as long as it’s not he/him /: hhh

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byf, byi; prone to swearing A LOT, sometimes texts in all caps, i’m a very private person... so i won’t use any tags to reach more ppl (if u come across my acc and wanna interact, don’t be afraid to tho!), no socials at all except discord !! (my insta and twt are private spams, i REFUSE to ever make a main ever again ... pls message me for my discord code if u wanna chat).

dni, dnf; basic dni-dnf criteria, sexualizing minors, hardcore nsfw acc, hardcore shipping.

p.s. if i use a strikethrough in phrases like this; i love jyuto iruma!!!! - it means im embarassed of what im saying but it needs to be said somehow hhh /srs

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some extra information about me !! (i might just ramble here so you can choose to read or not,,)

my mbti type switches between infj and isfp, though my impression comes off as type infj— i’m an october libra and my type is 5w4 !!

genshin info; na server, uid in blog page description, ar 55, childe main (he’s also my husbando!) ... don’t be afraid to ask for help or ask to play bc i’m a childe main — i’m one of sane ones— i hope.

interests; i’m into mostly anime and butai! atm... the more dominant franchises i’m into are tourabu, messiah project, HYPNOSIS MIC, jujutsu kaisen, the royal tutor, danganronpa, real-fake, gantz, and moriarty the patriot.

side note (butai-related): i just wanna say a HUGE thank you to the butai community on tumblr and on lj ... as i’m more of a freeloader who leeches off everything everyone shares — rest assured, i plan to buy my own stages and other merch soon and i will be more than happy to share with the community as a way of saying thank you! (since i don’t live in jp, it’s quite hard to pay for stuff on dmm ><) but the time will come soon!

— lomls;

highest rank; ICHIGO HITOFURI, JYUTO IRUMA, & SHUUSUKE SHIBA !!!! ♡

tag, takenbyrye; vyn richter, ibara saegusa, sakuma ritsu, luke pearce, ren kisaragi, yamanbagiri kunihiro, ichiro yamada, jyushi aimono, saburo yamada, sasara nurude, yuuri kaito, mamiya seiren, byakuya togami, tartaglia, ruki mukami, subaru sakamaki, reiji sakamaki, horikawa kunihiro, yagen toushirou, joichiro nishi, william james moriarty, rika honjo, teru minamoto, leonhard von grannzreich, toge inumaki, gundham tanaka, kiibo, ryouta mitarai, kurou yatogami, haruka nanase, licht jekylland todoroki, daisuke kambe, soujirou seta, heshikiri hasebe, ikuya kirishima, rod benedikt widdensov.

kins; yamanbagiri kunihiro (tkrb), itadori yuuji (jjk), doppo kannonzaka (hypmic), and bruno von grannzreich (ry).

fav actors, highest rank; ARAMAKI YOSHIHIKO + AKIRA TAKANO !! do hirose daisuke and kyousuke hamao still count ):

fav actors, sub rank; kenta mizue, kitamura ryo, masanari wada, kanata hongo, someya toshiyuki, matsuda ryo, kimura tatsunari, sakurai keito, keisuke higashi, konishi eito (pls don’t attack me jjj these r mostly from the tourabu butai).

seiyuu; nobunaga shimazaki, JUNYA ENOKI (aaa enojun!!).

games; tears of themis, helios rising, obey me, enstars, hypnosis mic, idolish7, a3, genshin impact, touken ranbu, cinderella phenomenon.

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theme and pfp credit!

pfp; @fufefefe (found on tourabu.blog.jp)

theme; @wordbite via theme-hunter.com

*the edit as the media above is made by me ,, it’s rlly poorly made (and masked LMAO) but i’ll make better ones next time <3 remake of insomnish’s edit on yt (using live action nishi!!)

[edwardsvirginity]

au where edward has aro’s powers and aro has his

read more bc this got looonnnggg

How Edward’s life would be different:

his power starts out just in his palms (like kate’s did, my hc for canon!aro too) and he makes no effort to expand it

actually he just straight up hates his power bc duh, he’s edward (”it’s a curse,” he says dramatically, whenever anyone asks him abt it)

he realizes he has it fairly quickly when right after waking up from being turned he touches carlisle and immediately knows everything

but since he touches carlisle pre-esme carlisle’s outlook is still pretty bleak

edward is 10,000x more emo and angsty

super nihilistic bc whenever he does read someone’s whole life it becomes clear to him that there’s no real order to anything or narrative guiding ppl’s lives so like... we all out here, suffering eternally

(tbh he’s deeply impacted by having touched carlisle first and absorbs carlisle’s pre-esme deep despair, loneliness, and nihilism, which colors his whole vampire life from the beginning)

he wears gloves all the time bc he hates touching ppl bc it’s an invasion of their privacy and mentally fucks him up

he tried to do the “kill bad ppl” thing like in canon in order to restore a personal sense of justice and order to the universe buuuuuuutttt it didn’t last long bc he had to touch ppl to eat them and it became abundantly clear that people are complex and not easily sorted into good/bad boxes, and it’s hard to condemn someone to die when you know their entire life

edward is deeeeeeeeppppllyy empathetic as a result of his gift. he’s also TERRIBLE at making decisions

he resisted going to HS with the others for a really long time bc he was afraid of accidentally touching someone

the only person he touches regularly is alice bc she worries abt him being touch-starved and lonely, and she insists. edward is ok with it bc alice is legit super optimistic and listening to her thoughts is really soothing/healing, and he has her consent. plus, it’s cool/useful to be able to see her visions. edward starts pushing his gift’s limits/expanding it in order to try and access alice’s memories from when she was human, as a gift to her

the rest of the vamps in the house fucking makes him even more emo than in canon bc he thinks he can never bang someone bc it would mean touching them all the time and he couldn’t condemn someone to an eternity without privacy, and no one would ever consent to that

edward hates himself bc he feels like his gift is unethical and he’s a monster for having it and invading ppl’s privacy the way he does

he does occasionally touch ppl for really important reasons... if the cullens are worried abt someone being a threat to their family, or carlisle is trying to save someone’s life but doesn’t know what’s wrong with them

edward’s gift is kinda a secret in the vampire world, only the cullens and denalis know

despite the fact that edward is emo abt being a vampire, he’s intensely grateful he was turned by carlisle, the original vegetarian vampire, bc edward would have HAD to become a vegetarian due to being unable to kill ppl bc of his gift and it would have sucked for him to be alone, the first vegetarian vampire

alice is always trying to encourage edward to touch ppl bc she thinks it will make him less emo. her theory is that he’s mostly only touched ppl with really sad lives and outlooks and that if he understood the fullness of most ppl’s lives he might be less nihilistic

another part of his gift edward works on with alice is turning his gift “off” even when ppl are touching his hands, and being able to root through ppl’s memories and only see what he’s looking for so it’s less invasive

alice encourages edward to wear his gloves less often to school so he can practice controlling his power, on teenagers, whose lives are shorter and less sad and therefore less mentally upsetting for edward

@ang3lba3 had this brilliant idea of edward touching bella while his gloves are off and being Shook af. i can’t stop thinking abt bella almost getting hit by the van on a day edward didn’t wear his gloves, edward bracing himself and rescuing her, then being overwhelmed when he can’t hear anything from her, thinking he’s finally “broken the curse” of his gift, going home and touching someone and Oh Shit It’s Not Gone It’s Just Her

edward is like. kind of obsessed with touching bella. he’s very tactile from the very beginning. holding hands with her is just incredibly blissful for him

throughout the series edward works on refining his gift to be more tolerable. it’s like his lil project. bella makes him want to try

edward is p reluctant to turn bella into a vampire bc he’s never met any vampires with happy lives or satisfying personal narratives/growth. he thinks all vampires just #suffer in the endless void for all eternity. humans have much clearer stages of life, growth, beginnings and endings that make them more fulfilled. (or so edward claims)

post bd edward would be able to pick specific thoughts out of someone’s head without seeing their whole life, and bella would work on her shield so she can deliberately send specific thoughts TO edward, and so with both of them concentrating really hard (at first), they could have mental conversations while touching, v similar to canon post-bd (except in this version bella has more control and edward is v specific to only find the thoughts she’s sending him)

tbh if edward ever manages to figure out his gift fully, he’d make a rlly good vampire therapist, bc he could isolate traumatizing memories (that ppl may not even consciously remember) and have a good perspective on how that’s affected their lives and how they can work towards recovery. since he himself would have to learn rigid mental compartmentalization in order to stay sane with that many lives in his head, he could teach ppl how to work thru a traumatic incident and then mentally shelve it once they’re done. also, some ppl define trauma as an inability to form a coherent personal narrative, which edward could also help with, bc he can identify patterns and similarities across a person’s entire life that the person themselves may have forgotten or overlooked

anyway, this version of edward is much more gloomy to begin with but would also undergo significantly more extensive character growth, which i think would be a really cool story

How Aro’s life would be different:

still volturi

still king of the vampire world

however killing other vamps/enforcing the law includes much more torture and interrogation bc aro can only hear what they’re thinking abt at the time

he has much less absolute power over other member’s of the volturi bc they can hide things from them by not thinking abt them around him, but at the same time, aro is more feared bc his gift is more omnipresent

aro is hella paranoid and keeps the most important members of the guard within his gift’s range at almost all times

as a result the volturi are much more mobile bc aro insists on going on most outings/executions

aro likes to keep his absolute range a secret to keep ppl on their toes and reinforce their fear of him

aro collects mental gifts in order to be omniscient and is constantly looking for power-amplifying vampires. so instead of focusing on recruiting vamps with physical gifts like strength or fighting, he looks for vamps like eleazar (&alice and jasper) who can sense things he can’t, as being able to read their thoughts allows him their gift by proxy

he’s constantly suspicious ppl are hiding things from him

i think this aro would just be a lot more vicious and violent in general

less useful in battle tho, bc he can’t know the opposition’s entire strategy, and while he can know if someone’s about to attack him, it doesn’t really help him keep anyone else from being attacked

i think this aro would be generally very twitchy and bizzaro, constantly responding to ppl’s thoughts instead of their words, lowkey always overwhelmed by what everyone’s thinking + his suspicions+ his own schemes, less of a shut-in and therefore more overwhelmed by a ton of thoughts. all the other vamps would think him slightly unhinged, talking to the air somewhat nonsensically all the time, visually emotionally reacting to other ppl’s thoughts (but just looking startled or angry at nothing), never having a predictable mood. 

as a result, there would be more of an underground resistance to the volturi, and his general hold on power is less absolute. (and he’s very aware of how unstable his position of power is, which makes him crazier)

he keeps trying to expand his mental range but the REAL problem is not distance but that he can only handle hearing a certain number of ppl’s thoughts at once. unlike edward, who was forced into hearing a ton of ppl’s thoughts all the time from the very start in order to pretend to be human, and who didn’t much care abt most ppl’s thoughts, aro is never forced to live in a city and get acclimated, and he cares deeply abt what ppl are thinking bc he’s a paranoid schemer, so each person’s mind requires a lot more concentration. 

sometimes aro gets reeallll mad when ppl talk out loud bc it interrupts his mindreading concentration. yet another reason why the rest of the volturi is both terrified of him but also think he’s insane

also more unhinged from hearing ppl die all. the. time. in canon he listens to ppl’s whole lives but obvs doesn’t listen while he kills them, why would he, whereas in this au he’s forced to listen everyone’s thoughts as he kills them (or eats them!) and it is one of the things that pushes him towards insanity. (canon edward doesn’t have this problem bc he kills significantly fewer ppl than aro and also obvs doesn’t feed on humans)

ALSO more unhinged bc canon!edward refines his gift so he can “turn down” other ppl’s thoughts or mute them/stop listening, whereas in this au aro is so obsessed with power he never even tries to develop that skill bc he wants to know what everyone is thinking always, so he has no regulation ability. he keeps trying to expand his power in stupid ways (like making the range bigger) without actually trying to regulate it in ways that improve his mental health or sanity

honestly in this au aro is just significantly more insane, but less powerful, both of which make him more dangerous bc he’s more desperate

how them having each other’s powers changes the larger plot:

honestly idk

i’ll think abt it

my brain isn’t working anymore u guys figure it out

[superbalien]

Abt ppl here, anyway

I once had 3 colleagues, all of them are "nongmin" growed up in villiage (disclaimer: I don't have predjuice to good-heart nongmin),

"A" is from my city's outskirt,

"B"was from my city's outskirt now live in city,

"C" is from other place's outskirt.

3 of them made my eye open. This is true, really. They are definitely not good-heart nongmin.

A got 2nd tire unviersity diploma, B is high shcool, C is 3 tire unvi. diploma. I don't take diploma that important as long as you can talk and think with your own brain. 3 of them shocking me are their talk and think.

After so many years working in "city". None of them has any "city folks" spirit, such as open-mind, try to be nice, curious to new stuffs ,etc. (I don't mean city folks are all good herewith).

For example, once chitchat I ask A if she ever went to xxx (another outskirt town, not far from her town), she said, no, never, don't wanna go....Her answer warned me, next time, don't ask question to poor ppl..(in fact none of them is that poor)....

A was hired by me for a small position, I thought her diploma is enough to handle it ( I was lied to, she was fired by last co. had been out of job 1 year, I wanted to fire her too bc of her stupidity), I still taught her many things, was harsh on her from time to time if she done stupid things. Later I heard from other colleague, she hated me so much. ...Geeze I gave her a job, she learnt things from me (enough for her to find a decent job)..in fact I treat her pretty nice most of the time(gave her pretty low salary a rise) ....ayyya...she doesn't smile much... If I blame her at work, you can always feel she is going to cry or kill herself (no bf 33yo) (this is one reason I'm nice to her often too)....She never knew what a life she got, with that nervous, shrinking shoulder, and dodging eyes.

B got the job through boss rlsp, her last job was in supermarket, she often said she is local, no need to work hard, husband not only make money but also do all household duties etc.....her husband is from another very small villiage, not local....she is fat, not good-looking, her skin got disease, it could do bad to her face and hand once in a while......Once, I can't bear with her bullshit, I said what makes you think a guy loves you and do all household for you, are you goddess good looking with a goddess heart and money, sth? （I was hinting husband married her to stay at her city)...By the time, their marriage is at risk actually, after hearing my advice, she understood(growp up) herself a little bit at 43yo....She said she had a AA rlsp with her husband, had been out of work for quit some years....(this is the first time in my life I knew this AA rlsp in the marriage)...She got a ok character, she often asked around in the office for jobs she doesn't know how to do, I helped her a lot. ..She took my help as a must, she did this "ask around"thing through her entire life, her "nongmin"parent always there for her....She also think if I ask her help, she would help too.......but I mofo DON'T need any of her help at all......She never understood how much help I did for her to make her keep the job, couldn't ever tell ppl treat her good or bad...

C works in the office longtime, no matter how often the boss scold her, humiliate her, once she fainted down the ground for boss scold her 6 hours, she didn't quit. I thought ppl like her must got a brain, knew the diffculty of life and how to handle her own life..She is such a weirdo and idoit in the office...Once, a girl helped her to send a file, she didn't say thanks but question the girl why didn't help the other file....She never learnt or practise contract terms, but phoned customer to explain a contract term (she wanted to trick the customer for their business)....later the customer phoned back to me and ask if your xxx is qualified for the job?..I laughed and found an excuse to cover her tricks...She was very pissed by my excuse...lol..She is the one I helped a lot too but she can't recognise it and doesn't wanna admit it.....She married at 34 with someone 15yo older than her (the husband doesn't have a fulltime job)....Her personal health is very bad, often got cold, need to ask for off...

3 of them really made my eyes open, for they can't get rid off that "nongmin" brain, can't have a normal and sane life, can't be any good use to this world. They of course have this inferiority complex and are often angry abt themselves "nongmin" roots...

One very obvious character in 3 of them are stubborn, all of them often think they are correct on things, the only supporting point is because many other nongmin are same like them.

I should add this, if you pick up any one of my ppl's life story, you could find every ridiculous sides you had imaged abt humans life........3 of them are typical examples ....

For ppl like them, I often have this dilemma...

Maybe, I should let them living in this ignorant and abusive world, this is what they deserved, after all they don't feel anything....won't learn anything, won't save anything in their own fxcking life....===aka, they are not savable at all.... (criminals sometime are more woke than those ppl)...

[polyamorous-mysme]

What's your opinion on Jimin and V? They both infuriate me because of the way they handled things in the routes. I think Jimin gets a little bit better at the end of his route, but V doesn't seem too. He doesn't tell Saeyoung about his brother, just shows up one day Saeran in tow and is just like 'I'm back'. Even if Saeran didn't want to go back yet, he could at least told Saeyoung what was going on.

tbh most of my opinions on every mm character is that you just have to completely disregard how Normal ppl would act given that the plots of mm are so wild and unbelievable. on the other had though i get why people have qualms w certain characters for how they handle the plot. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ eso si que es

But. as far as jumins route goes i think they just fucking did him dirty w it. with the second bad end/chats leading to it especially. I know it sounds weird to say given that it's his route but those few days are so fucking OOC for jumin. i mean I'll find my own ways to rationalize it bc it Can be rationalized if you care to, but not everyone will. because its fucking weird. not even the end itself but jumin leading up to it.

that being said i LIKE jumin and i like his route save for that. jumins hidden or has Had to hide his emotions and opinions his whole life. his father frequently brings new women in and out of his life, one of the only two people hes ever been able to trust has just committed suicide and he feels like he doesnt even Know either of them anymore, and then MC comes along getting him to open up making him Trust them again and hes worried something similar is going to happen. yeah yeah cat ran away whatever but to ignore what its ACTUALLY about is impossible. rika was one one of the only people and the only Woman he really trusted wholeheartedly as an equal and shes dead the cat she gave him is missing and being overprotective of MC is his one way of gaining control again. if I couldn't rationalize that though it absolutely would have skeeved me out from the get-go, though. so im not surprised Or affronted by the fact that ppl find it irredeemable ig.

now V. V is an even weirder story. he clings to rika from the moment they first met because dont ask me why. i dont know why. is she supposed to remind him of his mother? weird. is he genuinely just that nice of a person? probably. and rika is fucked. rika is traumatized and has been since young childhood. she suffers from what someone who doesnt experience delusions thinks delusions are or how they feel. whatever. and V loves her So Much that if she wont GET help he wont force her so hes going to do whatever He can to help her. until it goes really fucking wrong.

and let's all just be honest and say everything about seven and saeran and especially their backstory doesnt make sense. it ABSOLUTELY hinges on suspension of disbelief. but there are some aspects that do make sense. the stronger older brother in an abusive household is trying to keep himself And his sickly younger brother safe and sane. stumbles across v and rika and we already know mm doesnt Quite take place in our world as we know it and i know fuck all about typical korean life and families so I couldnt tell you why they didnt report their home life to the authorities from the get go. also this whole thing doesnt fucking make sense bc seven and saeran look like MAYBE 10 at this point and V is only 5 years older than them max but him and rika have obviously been together for a while and are Adults here. doesnt track. timeline dont make sense. angway.

but the way I see it is rika had Already started to plot mint eye yadda yadda here and knew that if the boys were separated she could control seven publicly as the stronger twin in a way that makes it seem like they're helping and protecting them both, they just have to be separated. seven can roll w the loneliness and grief of having to leave his brother behind as long as it means hes safe. and w saeran, she can use that same grief and loneliness to manipulate him a different way. behind the scenes. create her perfect believer who will do Anything she says because she saved him, why shouldnt she save everyone else? and j think by the time V realized just how bad rikas mental state was it was too late to Fix it. but he loved her he loved the RFA and the RFA loved rika. he didnt want to taint or tarnish her image w the reality of who she is what shes been doing etc.

after that it's a series of unfortunate events and fucking stupid decisions v thinks hes making for the good and sanity of everyone else. hes given himself a "I'm not a hero i just Have to bear all this by myself forever and fix it alone with no help and save Everyone in the end" complex that sure is with great intentions but leads down a rabbit hole of hurt and fuckery that he cant fix. ever. and I think he was worried about telling seven about saeran because if he had he KNOWS seven would have gone after him alone. and he would have been hurt or killed or worse. he would have been. and V was still trying to save whoever he could. save rika and Hope he could save saeran? save saeran and Hope he could save rika? who knows. I dont. I think V had the BEST intentions. i do. i think he was just a bit of a Rudely untrusting dumbass carrying them out.

but that's what mm is. MC is the character that is meant to push the characters into healing from their fatal flaw. yoosung is slipping from success because up to that point hes hinged his entire future on his older cousin. zen. i dont remember. has to find a happy balance between shooting for the stars but not hiding himself or who he is while doing it? something gay like that. jaehee pushes herself too hard to be successful. to not be a burden. to be financially and socially stable and safe above her own happiness. jumin is cold and untrusting and hides himself because the last time he wasnt/didnt, he got Hurt. seven is the same gay shit as jumin and zen with the added bonus of needing to learn that mc can make their own decisions wrt danger. v needs to stop carrying the world on his shoulders. saeran . . . needs to heal. learn that his life is not intrinsically tied to the lives of others and he can still love people but be his Own person, whole and healed. whether or not you the individual player believe that by the end of the route theyve gotten their first real step in the right direction is up to you.

anyway stream room 206 ep by elah hale on spotify.

[mmakehappy]

2017

1. What did you do in 2017 that you’d never done before? i’ll try to do this chronologically again: so at the beginning of january one of my best friends left to study abroad in rome which was sad and i missed her a lot. i saw rory scovel do stand up. i took an animation class which was fun for the first few weeks until i failed it lmao. actually my classes from jan to march did not go so well tbh but whatever i made it through. my sister came to visit me the weekend before st paddys day which was super fun and then we saw panic which was soooooooo fuckin rad i love them still wow! i went home for spring break and visited a local winery w my dad which was a lot of fun and then a week later uhhh me and @carrot-gallery became gfs!!! and my whole frickin life changed bc i love her so much wow!! but then a week after that i turned 22 and spent my birthday alone! which i tried to pretend didnt make me sad but by the end of the day i was very sad about it and thats when my sweet gf called me to sing happy birthday and i sobbed on my couch and ill never forget that!!! so okay then spring quarter classes started and i was a part of depaul’s visiting artist series which was super cool... i met a lot of new awesome people (both at depaul and the industry ppl that were our guests!) and made some great friends in that class! i was a house manager and camera op which was super fun. i went to a screening of my fave professor’s short film which was also rad. i saw a ghost story at the chicago critics film festival, which was amazing. i saw idiocracy in 35mm and then mike judge did a q&a! the very next day i was house manager for depaul’s student film festival at the music box! i saw chris gethard do a live recording of beautiful/anonymous and then also do some standup, that was awesome. i saw day wave live!!! amazing! i spent an entire dystopian day dealing with megabus. that was hell! i sat at an outdoor amphitheater and even tho i couldnt really see him i got to listen to seu jorge sing david bowie covers and life was magical for a few hours. my sisters came up to visit me and we saw aladdin the musical and had our minds blown, it was soooo fun! i went to the chicago pride parade for the very first time but i went by myself and at one point i was sitting on the curb just crying! not a high point but still memorable. i won a ticket to an advanced screening of the big sick where kumail & emily were there to do a q&a after the movie.... had a fuckin blast OBVIOUSLY and then saw the movie 9 other times in various theatres. i also made it into a commercial FOR the movie i just loved it that much lmao! i moved into a new (and my current) apartment! lorde released melodrama and fucking murdered me in my own home. otherwise i had a pretty uneventful but anxiety filled summer bc of financial aid stuff so that really sucked. i saw good time w taylor and the safdie brothers were there to do a q&a and they were such interesting guys i could listen to them talk for hours honestly. my mom and sisters came up to visit me and we took our mom to her very first cubs game which was sooo so much fun and they won that day too!! it was awesome and we had a great time :) watched the eclipse (or tried to anyway!!) fall quarter classes started and i honestly kicked ass at them, i got on the deans list (i almost typed honor roll lmao i mean its basically the same) i hung out with ari again which was cool!! we went to the aquarium! me and taylor saw beach fossils which was honestly the most buckwild concert ive ever been to i think, it was good shit. i got jobs at AMC (which i have since quit lmao) and starbucks and left my job at the paint place which was bittersweet! me and taylor saw mbmbam live!!! so fun!! and we watched trolls that night and goofed on it so hard!! i went home for thanksgiving and found out my big sister is gonna have a baby this year!! :D i saw mike birbiglia do stand up! which was soooo incredible of course (except i felt bad bc my mom was supposed to come w me but she couldnt go! so i brought taylor lol) UMMMMM MY DAM GIRLFRIEND CAME TO CHICAGO TO VISIT ME AND STAYED FOR A WHOLE DANG WEEK AND IT WAS THE BEST THING EVER SHE MAKES ME SO HAPPY WE HAD SO MUCH FUN AND I MISS HAVING HER RIGHT NEXT TO ME EVERY SINGLE GOSH DANG DAY <3 ;_____; and that was my year!!

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year? last year i said id like to read at least one book each month and watch at least 100 movies - i did neither! im keeping the movie resolution though bc cmon 100 movies should be EASY for a film major wtf am i doing!

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? no but it will happen in 2018! 

4. Did anyone close to you die? not a person but we had to put down my sweet doggo, flash :(

5. What countries did you visit? still none :/

6. What would you like to have in 2018 that you lacked in 2017? More confidence that I actually deserve to be in college and that I can do this shit and I’m awesome <– that was my answer from last year and the year before but yeah. same. also money.

7. What dates from 2017 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? ummm march 25 when me and gf became gfs and also dec 17 when she came to visit :)

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? putting myself out there by doing VAS/Premiere, getting on the deans list for the first time since freshman year and then also getting a new job

9. What was your biggest failure? this summer i didnt do shit besides wallow and cry and it sucked!

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? nope

11. What was the best thing you bought? every movie ticket and the bras i bought for natalie ;-)

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? natalie’s because she’s amazing and works so hard!!!! and she can always cheer me up and im so in love w her

13. Whose behavior made you appalled? mine bc i could never just get my shit together and do my homework when i was supposed to :) < thats from last year but lmfao same!

14. Where did most of your money go? RENT, movie/event tix, food, in that order

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? THE BIG SICK, the new season of sv, p much all of the events that i listed in the first question lol

16. What song will always remind you of 2017? umm honestly probably any song from melodrama

17. Compared to this time last year, are you: a) happier or sadder? b) thinner or fatter? c) richer or poorer? I’m a. happier, b. probably thinner? or maybe the same idk, and c. definitely DEFINITELY poorer

18. What do you wish you’d done more of? read and write and watch movies and write and read about movies

19. What do you wish you’d done less of? Spending money and also being bitter about everything for no reason <– last year and the year before that AGAIN and also same!

20. How did you spend Christmas? working at AMC which i hated every second of :)

21. Did you fall in love in 2016? yes with my amazing girlfriend @carrot-gallery

22. What was your favorite TV program? silicon valley, AMERICAN VANDAL, the good place, great british bake off

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? nah just politicians who like. actively want me to die lol

24. What was the best book you read? bitch,

25. What was your greatest musical discovery? mitski like why the fuck did i sleep on her..... tbh thats about it bc i still listen to the same music i did 10 years ago

26. What did you want and get? I wanted a steadier/better paying job and i have it!

27. What did you want and not get? idk i wanted to be financially stable on my own and i still dont have that

28. What was your favorite film of this year? ugh i hate this question! ok in no order: THE BIG SICK, GOOD TIME, A GHOST STORY, GET OUT, THE FLORIDA PROJECT

29. What one thing made your year immeasurably more satisfying? uhhh having my sweet girlfriend by my side each and every day 

30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2017? sometimes chic, always sweaty

31. What kept you sane? Sydney, my best friend in the entire world. (This was my answer from last year and the year before that and the year before that AND THE YEAR BEFORE THAT but it still holds true) also everyone in the sv discord chat still AND natalie of course of course

32. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? kumail nanjiani duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, taika waititi, and martin starr always and probably more but i legit cant think of anyone rn lol

33. What political issue stirred you the most? yikes all of it. all of the issues (this was from last year but same lmao)

34. Who did you miss? i miss my dogs and my family and my girlfriend 35. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2017. You can set goals for yourself and talk about it all you want but it’s nothing until you actually start working towards it and doing something about it. <– answer from last year and the year before that and the year before that, still true!! imma keep that. also idk just like, there are good days and super bad days and ive survived all of them so its just a reminder to myself that ill be okay.

36. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year. These days will all seem better in time Waiting on that hindsight

[rearima]

TG:re 126

Long post with all my thoughts/meta on this chapter. Talking about Yoriko, Mutsuki, Aura, Ui, Touka/Kaneki, Centipede-kun. Wrote part of this last week, finishing it super late now. But still counts as long as tgre 127 isn’t out yet :P

So Yoriko is fine and the hand was fake afterall. Touka’s “So that hand was fake all along” means that she actually didn’t know whether or not Yoriko really was in Mutsuki’s hand or how she was doing/alive. Makes me wonder what actions she would have taken if the wedding didn’t happen and also how much she actually talked to Kaneki about this matter, seeing that she was only thinking to herself about how the hand was fake and Kaneki didn’t make any impression that’d suggest that he knew about the severity of the situation. I mean, she could’ve just told him that she’s heard rumors that Yoriko was getting married to an investigator and asked Kaneki to bring her there so she could at least see her best friends wedding from afar. I’ve talked about this before, as I was wondering what actions she’d take to save Yoriko and how she didn’t open up about it to Kaneki so he had no idea what was going on. Now, the Yoriko situation seems to be solved surprisingly easy but I highly doubt (and hope) this isn’t the end of this conflict. Yoriko is a very important person in Touka’s life and her character development and it’s still an unsolved issue as Touka has been running away from it, to protect Yoriko but also fearing what Yoriko would think of her when she learns that she’s a ghoul (would she think that Touka’s a ‘monster’? - we know how it’s something that has been haunting Touka). (Btw, why hasn’t anyone brought out that Uta joke aka ‘What if Yoriko actually was Uta in disguise’ this time lol…)

that part about Mutsuki and Urie was something I was really pleased to see. I’ve been wondering for some time now about Mutsuki’s bond and feelings towards others (that are not Kaneki). Because of their past and then seeing how they went quite psycho, I began to wonder how much they actually cherish the other ppl around them. Also wondered about the nature of their special bond with Urie. AND the question that has been floating around lately: Is Mutsuki redeemable? And I kinda got my answers in this chapter? First things first: Urie got friendzoned really hard.

He is that one special person that is particularily close to Mutsuki: 1. both know each others ‘secrets’ (see auction raid, where they saw his vulnerable side and he discovered their biological gender) 2.Mutsuki was very open to him, talking about their wishes/feelings/thoughts and how they are tasked with the Oggai and even admitting to be in love with their former mentor and that they went to :re and 3. throughout the whole conversation I think it was very sincere and calm and sane on Mutsuki’s part. There was no acting, no facade. They’re still hiding things from Urie but…When was the last time I’ve seen this calm side of Mutsuki? 4. It shows the deep trust Mutsuki has for Urie. To actually trust others - this is really big deal for Mutsuki considering all the things they experienced and their current mental state. And we know they also care a lot about how Urie views them. Despite all, Mutsuki was worried about how to explain things to Urie when they attacked Akira on Rushima. It seems like Mutsurie is everything but just not romantic haha… (but my ship is still alive ok) Moving on to their bonds with others: Mutsuki expressed that they just wished that they all return to their former home (oh how I always get triggered by this word lol). And since I assume they’re not lying, I think it shows that they do cherish the others and holds dear the good old times they spend together. Kaneki is someone they clutch on, but he isn’t the only thing that matters and even if the priorities are very clear there, it still is interesting to see that there are other things that genuinely matter to Mutsuki, even after all that’s happened. - And that brings me to the question whether Mutsuki is redeemable. The things I’ve seen in this chapter from Mutsuki are shining a more positive light on this character. They didn’t actually hurt Yoriko (probably also because it’d cause lots of trouble) and mentioned that Bujin looked happy and she looked pretty and wondered if any of them would find such happiness. And I think I saw a genuine soft and good side of them shine through there. Also, it’d be easier for Ishida do redeem this character if they didn’t do anything to Yoriko because otherwise many would call bullshit and how this character is way too far gone to make any way of redemption tolerable. While it’s true that if we were completely honest and unbiased, then we’d pretty much have to judge this character just as strictly as we judge Torso, but we mostly don’t and that’s just how it is, as we (or at least I) feel more sympathetic towards Mutsuki as this character has grown on me more than Torso ever did.

And well, Urie still couldn’t bring up the real questions… What’s he gonna do next though? Will he concentrate on dealing with Mutsuki or will he start with Kaneki?

So the theory about Aura Kiyoko having lost her legs are officially confirmed now. That explains Shinsanpei’s actions (kinda). Still think it’s a bit extreme how he developed that bloodlust and psychotic attitude (he didn’t care about killing humans in the last arc and acted like he didn’t see anything when running into Mutsuki and Uta). This boy is way too deep into revenge imo. But it also depends on how close of a relationship he has with his auntie. If she is like a mother figure to him, then well, one could explain how he loses himself this much. There’s a post about how the way Aura Kiyoko acts is a bit suspicious. I agree. and to kinda add to it, I always found it weird that Aura and Mougan were even allowed to live when they have seen all their faces. And yet, after that incident, only Kaneki and Hirako were actively wanted. How come they don’t seem to be looking for Touka (remember how they were hunting for Hinami?), who left quite the impression on the two special classes? I thought they’d all go into hiding because the two who saw their faces where still alive but they actually didn’t have to change their life style at all. I dunno. Maybe it’s just a plothole? Afterall, Hirako and this kids where walking around publicly aswell, and dear Kaneki even rode on a train and had much fun… What I’m trying to say is, I actually like this theory that the oek and the special class came to some kind of mutual understanding back then (After Kaneki injured her legs).

I’ve got many questions regarding the Okihara thing. I wondered how the heck Kanou was able to control his zombie army and when they were first introduced, they totally gave off the near to mindless killer zombies vibe, altho Okihara did speak briefly and it let me believe that while he stilll had a concious mind, his body was somewhat under control by Kanou. Now, in this chapter, it seems like he could act on his own acord with some restrictions. The theory about how Kanou might be controlling them by bribing with the “medicine” but I still think it doesn’t hold too much ground bc is Kanou really that sure that all of his zombies hold on to their new life so much that they’d just do anything Kanou tells them? It’d be a rather unsafe way to ensure control (and it’s kinda dangerous if some of them turn against him while he thinks he’s absolutely got the upper hand). Let’s say for example if Shirazu is one of them. I don’t think he’d just listen to Kanou and do things against his own moral (especially if he’d face his old team). Now, the meeting itself with Ui seemed pretty secretive and it makes sense that Kanou/Furuta wouldn’t want them to work together or share info. So why was he even able to walk around freely in the first place? Or did he just sneak out of the lab? I wonder about his “The dead do not return.” It could mean that he wasn’t dead dead at the time Kanou got his hands on him (he didn’t directly answer Ui’s question on whether he definitely died afterall). But in context of the rest of the story and the setups so far (pretty sure Shirazu and Hairu definitely died), I don’t think that’s the meaning behind this. Rather, he’s probably talking about how they don’t really come back as living people. They depend on their medicine and are robbed of their freedom. They’re only living on borrowed time. And well, Ui. This guy has been holding his personal feelings in for so long that he’s now totally loosing it. He lost the most important ppl in his life and even lost his beloved justice when he discovered Furuta’s true face and that he was used as a stepping stone for his evil plans. There’s nothing he can hold on to, nothing he can fight for (or so he thinks) and to keep himself alive he holds on to his past (aka the ppl he’s lost), even if it means selling his soul to the devil. I don’t see a good ending for him tbh…

(Ui and Urie have now joined my list of “characters who are competing with Kaneki for ‘protagonist of a tragedy’“. Congratulations.)

So now, onto the last chunk: Touka and Kaneki. First of all, yes, I loved seeing Kaneki smile (also bc he rarely does) and I know everyone are happy about it and I don’t mean to be a spoilsport, but it kinda felt superficial? The fact that they have finally reached the next base in their relationship did Kaneki good, it did some healing but he’s still far from overcoming his depression. Why do I feel that his smile or even, the happiness was superficial (heck, I really don’t know if this is even the right word, pls excuse my limited english knowledge)? When Touka gave him the ring he gave that super happy smile like there are no worries in the world while putting the necklace on and very naively claims that he’ll always remember her whenever he see the ring. Naive, bc he doesn’t seem to really get the message, meaning and weight behind it at all (afterglow sticks strong with this dork xD). He doesn’t question anything, doesn’t seem to have any deep thoughts about it, he just takes it as it is and is just in his happy mood throughout all the panels there. Kaneki is happy and behaving naive/superficial/ignorant, seeing things through rose-tinted-glasses (its must have been a few days after that night and he’s still a happy pup I can’t xD) Being a little naive is Not necessarily a bad thing though for he’ll have to get serious very soon anyways. but it surely does emphasize that ‘ignoring the problems around them’ theme of last chapter. Well, actually, that’s exactly what unsettles me. I feel like all this happy go lucky will be robbed of him before he can get one of his feet back on the ground…

There’s also this visible contrast between Kaneki’s and Touka’s demeanor. While Kaneki was all smiles and stuff Touka was rather thoughtful. Kaneki is still a little high but Touka is already back to normal. It’s especially visible in that scene where Kaneki boldly said “Whenever I look at this I’ll think of you, Touka-chan.” Touka turned around and didn’t give any sort of answer/comment beside “…” <- This is a sign that she’s actually having many thoughts rn and doesn’t want to say them or doesn’t know how to say them: We know the ring holds great importance to Touka and symbolizes love, parents, past. It’s super interesting and important to mention that her giving this to Kaneki can also be interpreted as her letting go of something she was holding on to. Or well, also passing it on, so someone else (Kaneki) can hold on to it when something happens to her (or also to himself) and he needs strength and comfort. i mean, he literally said something around this line so I’d be surprised if he doesn’t look at this ring and (cries) gains new strength/hold on to it with his dear life when things gets really tragic at some point (aka soon).

What are the reason for Touka to give her parent’s ring to Kaneki? It’s a symbol of love, trust, hope and remembrance and maybe she hopes that in the situations where he can’t get hold of his own life, when he is that lost and desperate, he can still hold on to this and remember that it is one of the reasons still worth struggling for. I wonder, what are her thoughts, what is weighing on her mind rn? Is she already worrying about how he might just disappear again one day. Is she worried that something bad will happen to him. Or herself? They live a dangerous life after all and that has just been proven again when Mutsuki attacked them at :re.

some side notes: The parallels between Hikari/Arata/(Yomo) and Touka/Kaneki/(Ayato) have been present for a long time now and what if, only hypothetically, Touka dies? Will Kaneki be consumed by hatred just like Arata? Is Touka maybe already worried about something like this?

People are freaking out about the deathflags on Touka and I’m just sitting here thinking that there are lots of things that are worse than death and we have seen many examples throughout TG… So no, personally, I don’t see Touka dying. Those are flags, yes, but not exactly ‘death’-flags (I don’t want either for Touka and it’s really scary thinking about what might happen to her in the future… whatever it’ll be though, I’m convinced she won’t die. It’s… just gonna be something worse…)

And everyone’s favorite, the Centipede showed up. There are many possibliities for its interepretation. It’s associated with strength. It appeared when Kaneki was tortured. It has a direct connection to when Kaneki finally got stronger, when he started to seek out strength, when he witnessed losses and hated that feeling of not being able to protect and also when he loses control and when we first learned more about his past. So those are things/themes that we might see again soon enough as Ishida loves playing this parallelism game. So, to sum it up: Tragedy incoming.

[byul-bit-arae]

idk just moonbin ish

So high school 

Where cliché af stuff happen 

Exactly what’s happening here

So you see there is this girl 

Hajin is the name

She’s a little nerd 

Well not really she’s just this quiet girl who blends to the background 

And is like 24/7 spacing out 

Also there is soap

No don’t shoot really there is binu 

Like Eunwoo and Moonbin 

Get it get it binu is soap in Korean *wiggles eyebrows* ba dum tss

So they are best friends and tbh no one knows how and why and since when 

Bc Eunwoo is this little cute muffin 

Okay he’s not that little but you get me 

Anyway he’s an angel

Aka all girls’ dream manga guy 

Manjjitnam much

Meanwhile moonbin is this dude with the icy cold aura 

And looks like he’s about to kick some ass like 24/7

So you better make way you see 

That doesn’t cancel the fact that he’s hot af tho

But well everyone is scared of him to prolly notice 

And no one knows how come his best friend is Eun 

Our little girl over here has a tiny crush on Eunwoo 

Bc who doesn’t what the fuCK 

but really all the girls are all over him so she just sits down and admires him from afar bc no chance 

Valentine’s Day 

Hajin thinks it won’t hurt to address her crush 

Like everyone does that on Valentine’s wtf 

And it doesn’t rlly matter bc like half of the school would do the same too so 

On that day she brings her box and goes to school 

Nervous af wtf chill jin you ain’t proposing it’s just a fucking gift box 

she’s walking inside the school building and like she’s about to take a turn when she hears this girl confessing 

She peaks and holy Gruyere 

She’s confessing to freaking moonbin 

Give this girl a medal or idk just wow 

She gave him a box with chocolate apparently 

Like that’s what ppl gift in this day rite 

Idk bc I never did haaaaa lonely author someone love me pls 

Hajin’s heart is prolly pounding quicker than the girl’s 

Moonbin finally opens the box uninterestedly and laughs ironically 

He looks annoyed 

Not like he isn’t 24/7 like that BUT OH WELL COUGH

He suddenly throws it away and Hajin covers her mouth bc she almost yelped 

And if he hears her that would suck 

“chocolate is the thing I hate the most” he growls at the girl with his typical creepy voice 

I mean it’s not like especially high or low it’s just normal but it sounds frightening coming out of his mouth

His sexy mouth 

Okay drag this author out of here pls

Anyways

“and you said you liked me, heh, pathetic you” he says and leaves the poor girl heartbroken af 

Hajin feels like she just saw a horror movie in front of her own eyes 

She still wonders if the girl is actually still alive and sane 

Anyways she tries to chill and forget about what happened 

Also thanks god bc she’s confessing to an angel 

So it’s like lunch time or idk and she searches for him 

While trying to blend into the background 

She can’t find him anywhere wtf 

So she asks this girl 

The girl looks all pissed and looks down at the box in Hajin’s hands but tells her he’s in the rooftop anyway 

She prolly just got rejected 

But well 

Hajin goes to the rooftop 

Nervous as shit 

He’s there 

Holy fuck he is 

Just laying there with a blazer over his head 

Bc sun you see and he was prolly napping 

She approaches him and is about to take his blazer off 

Bc rude 

When he suddenly grabs her hand 

Like

So tight 

That she feels her veins bursting 

And she’s fucking sure it’s not Eun anymore 

He takes off the jacket off him and holy shit 

Holy fucking shit 

It’s Moon to the Bin 

BA DA DA DA DUMMMM

She just interrupted his nap 

And she’s dead meat 

“Who are you” he says in a sleepy voice 

But it still sounds scary af 

She stutters and doesn’t know what to say 

Bc fuck those will prolly be her last words 

“what are you doing here” he sits up and says

Still clenching her wrist stronger and stronger and she flinches bc ouch 

He finally lets go 

And she apologizes and fucking runs for her life 

Then prolly hide in the bathroom forever 

But then slaps herself 

Bc Oh shit did she just forget her box with Moonbin 

Meanwhile Moonbin back in the rooftop scowling at whoever just ruined his nap 

He glances and notices the opened pink box on the floor 

It had no not chocolate but bento

And god did he love that shit 

He just loved food in general 

Esp rice 

Anyways

He also finds this very awkward short letter 

And Hajin being a genius didn’t write anything that shows it was for Eunwoo 

So Bin thinks she actually was going to confess to him 

But she ran away bc too shy 

…. Oooorrr bc he freaked her out 

But he remembered her flustered face 

And thought she was cute 

Not mentioning that she actually knew his fave food 

So he thought she really likes him bc of that 

Either ways he needed to find her and talk to her so he picks up the box and leaves the rooftop 

Hajin goes to her classroom bc it’s almost class time

Bc if it wasn’t she’d be more than glad to stay in the bathroom really 

And Moonbin be searching everywhere for her including classes until he finds hers

And she’s there sitting in her place like a terrified ball then notices her noisy classmates went quiet 

She looks up and fuck bc is he actually standing at the door of her classroom skimming through the faces of the people inside 

And fuck again bc is the box actually in his hands

He finally finds her and marches towards her 

And she’s all fuck fuck fuck fuCK I’m deAD

“Come out for a sec” he says as he reaches her table with his usual expressionless face and gets out

And the whole class is whispering 

Like the whole hall too 

She has no other choice than to go with him 

Bc if she won’t she may die

I mean she’d die if she follows him too but 

You get me

Anyways she follows him 

Keeping a safety distance ofc

Just in case he turns around and CHICHATAH her face 

He takes her to this less used staircase of the building 

And now she’s sure he’s stabbing her twenty five times and leaving her to rot there

He stops and turns around and she stumbles before stopping bc she was in deep thoughts of her last words 

He opens his mouth and she gulps

Here goes nothing 

“about what happened earlier..” he starts

“I-I’m so sorry about that I shouldn’t have bothered you!!” she blurts bc really dying at the age of 18 sucks you know 

“well I can let that pass” he answers and she feels like the heavens blessed her soul 

“but the thing is,” he rubs his neck and she’s like tf is wrong with him tf is happening this isn’t how it works this isn’t how any of this works 

“I don’t really mind going out with you” he says

“huh?” she says, flabbergasted 

“but that doesn’t mean you can wake me up from my naps now” Moonbin adds quickly after 

He’s secretly embarrassed af 

Like he never dated before and never had a similar scenario 

But this author is cruel so yehet

“see you later” is all what he says before leaving 

Bc awkward af he doesn’t know what to say 

And he suddenly finds her cute now like fuck

Why didn’t he ever notice that before 

Meanwhile Hajin still can’t process what happened

She basically confessed to the wrong person by accident and that person happened to be the School’s most feared dude who is also magically Eunwoo’s friend 

Awesome scenario I wonder which amazing author wrote that 

Tomorrow comes 

Bc idk what to write more on this day orz bear with me 

She be peacefully walking through the gates of school 

When a wild Bin appears walking backwards in front of her 

“it’s not an attitude to ignore your boyfriend” he says and her heart jumps at the word boyfriend 

Bc she never had one 

And now she does 

And it’s Moonbin 

Anyways 

So from that day on he waits for her by the gates 

By her classroom at lunch time 

And they have lunch at the rooftop 

And like she starts bringing bento 

And Moonbin is more than freaking happy 

But they still awkward af 

Like she’s still scared of him a bit

Even tho she’s his gf now 

*author slightly chuckling at the pathetic girl*

Esp after this one time they ‘went out’

Lol in fact it was Eunwoo’s idea 

Bc Bin be begging him to give him advice bc he doesn’t know shit 

And Eun be like take her out for a walk or something and take the opportunity to hold her hand 

Bc it’s still cold these days 

And it’d be cute to warm her hands 

Aw 

High five Eun for having a good sense 

Anyways they be walking and he casually holds her hand like “you cold?”

And Hajin doesn’t know why the hell is she blushing

Maybe bc she never thought he could be sweet or anything like that

it’s all still awkward until some dude kinda hits on her 

Like cat call for idk 

And bin gets upset and kiNDA beat the crap out of him 

And that’s when things get real awkward 

Like he tries to hold her hand again to resume walking and she flinches 

Then prolly tells him she got a call from home and that she should be going

But no she didn’t she just wanted to escape 

Kim hAjin yoU liAR

From that day she becomes more quiet around him

Not like she isn’t usually quiet but she used to at least reply to him when he talks 

And one day they be in the rooftop and he confronts her

Like he’d be eating then pauses 

“Hajin-ah” he calls and she gulps but replies anyways 

With a usual “hmm?”

“are you… Scared of me?” he reluctantly asks and she stays quiet

And bruh it’s so obvious she is 

And like he feels horrible or idk 

Then he grabs her shoulders and looks straight into her eyes

And she feels like fainting 

“don’t be afraid of me… Please” he says softly and she’s so taken aback bc wow he can actually be soft 

Like she can see in his eyes that he’s sincere 

And that after all he isn’t a bad person 

And really she should just open up her heart to him and stop being a fucking ass 

Like true he’s got a short temper 

But not like he’s gonna kill his gf 

He’s actually nice

And she’d really fall for the real him 

So here goes the cheesy stuff 

The two start being more open comfortable with each other 

And wow Bin is sO CUTE HOW IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE 

Like he sometimes does aegyo to her 

When they are alone ofc 

Or like shower her with compliments bc the food she made is yummy 

And boy does he love food

Or when he lets her play with his hair while he naps on her lap hOW CUTE 

Like he’s basically a gigantic fluff ball 

And ofc he takes her to meet the boys 

Like she only knew Eunwoo and was like wow where did y'all come from 

They are all nice and kind wtf 

Like myungjun is the hyper dude he always tries to lighten up the mood but no one actually laughs at his jokes except for her 

Jin and Eun are the kind wise older brothers 

Minhyuk and Sanha ofc are the troublemakers 

Insert Bin getting jealous when she calls Minhyuk and Sanha cute 

And him exploding in aegyo and not shutting up till she says he’s the cutest and he gives her his cat smile 

Too much cuteness I’m choking 

What a happy cringe worthy couple 

Let’s end this here bc idk what else to write lol

[janiedean]

Idk if anyone already asked this but: what about ASOIAF/GOT characters and opera? Who are the experts, the casual fans, and the one who don't care but get dragged along anyway? Does anyone relate to a particular character? *cough* Is Tyrion the biggest Rigoletto fan? *cough* And/or, does any OTP relate to a particular opera pairing? :)

OKAY SORRY IT TOOK ME AGES BUT HERE I AM

(spoilers: you can find 80% of the following or will find it in my amazing opera singers au series)

lannisters & partners

tyrion is 100% an opera nerd and he identifies with rigoletto in frankly worrying ways - he’s like me with la traviata and cries at rigoletto’s first aria every single time and then at the ending PERIOD I DO NOT MAKE THE RULES but he also likes unconventional stuff ie russians/20th century germans (TYRION LOVES ALBAN BERG YOU CAN PRY THAT FROM MY DEAD HANDS)

bronn is the friends he drags with but the only character in any opera that he likes is sparafucile

cersei only listens to wagner because everything else is for the plebs and ofc her favorite is the valkyrie YES YOU KNOW THE ONE WITH THE TWINCEST she’s the biggest sieglinde stan

jaime likes it tho not as much as tyrion but he hates both dramas and wagner and tends to like comedies/stuff that ends well better and he and brienne meet bc tyrion set them up and sent them to see fidelio with his tickets and YOU KNOW THAT JAIME AND BRIENNE ARE 100% LEONORE AND FLORESTAN YOU DON’T CHANGE MY MIND ON THAT EVER IT’S THE MOST JB OPERA THAT EVER JB-ED

brienne also likes more the happy stuff than the sad stuff but yeah fidelio is Their Thing okay

tywin went because joanna liked it and then he stopped 

starks & partners

ned & cat are that couple of nerds who goes to the opera for their anniversary and likes just about most stuff except a few single things they find boring but not as much to argue about it. for themselves, cat tends to like those donizetti operas with sopranos who at some point 100% lose it, ned is more into verdi and probably would agree with tyrion on rigoletto because y’know, FATHERS RELATE

but they also wanted their kids to get into it so their family tradition is that all go to see the magic flute together bc it’s kid-friendly and it worked bc all the stark kids love it ;)

robb’s totally into the comedies and hates the dramas and not counting the magic flute which ofc he loves because IT WAS HIS FIRST his fave is 100% rossini’s cenerentola FOR REASONS

addendum to say that theon is the friend he dragged with and thought would be boring but instead loves it and ends up converting and theon’s favorite - bc he’s a nerd - is most likely le comte ory ie THE ROSSINI CRACK OPERA WITH THE THREESOME WHERE THE TENOR IS CROSSDRESSING AS A NUN AND THE MEZZOSOPRANO PLAYS THE GUY AND THE BASS SINGS AN ARIA ABOUT STEALING ALCOHOL

but their ship they see themselves into are carlo and rodrigo from don carlo because lmao IT’S THEM

(robb prob. also have a soft spot for la clemenza di tito bc he and tito are the same person but nvm)

jon’s like 100% into dramas ALL THE DRAMA ALL THE TIME his fave is 100% la forza del destino ie the most terribly dramatic telenovela in history of dramatic opera

(he introduced it to ygritte who ofc is instead into all the rossini comedies with the a++++++ main lead ie italiana in algeri, barbiere di siviglia and so on which is a cause of endless amusement on her side because then they have to compromise)

(sam doesn’t need to be introduced because he’s 100% a nerd who cried over la traviata too but he likes all kind of stuff and who’ll go to both sand and fun operas and HE ALSO LIKES CENERENTOLA BEST THO)

sansa ofc is into THE ROMANCE so her fave is totally la traviata but she and robb totally agreed on cenerentola as well basically she robb and sam are the cenerentola stans cinnamon roll brigade

arya isn’t that much into it but she’ll go to most fun stuff and admittedly she has a soft spot for la fille du regiment because she totally identifies with maria (and tonio’s... well tonio is gendry let’s be real lmao)

(gendry is the friend she brought with once bc she likes that one and he immediately noticed)

bran goes with the others and he’s fine with it but he’s more into symphonic and not opera but he does like the family magic flute xD

rickon at some point got dragged to see the firebird when he was like six and everyone thought he’d sleep through it and instead he comes out of it like ‘guys I want to play the drums when I grow up’

baratheons & partners

robert thinks it’s boring af and wouldn’t set foot inside an opera ever, he just went once with ned to see don giovanni as a compromise

renly thinks it’s boring af and never went, then turns out that loras is 100% into it especially ACTUAL older stuff ie gluck and he totally dragged renly to see iphigenie en tauride BECAUSE ORESTES AND PYLADES ARE THE TWO OF THEM and renly had to relent and actually liked it

stannis is The Opera Nerd. he has a subscription to the local theater, he knows everything there is to know, he has a knowledge of minor baroque authors that would scare music professors, he also always goes alone because robert and renly wouldn’t go with him IF they cared, and his favorite is 100% rossini’s guillaume tell but only in the original french version WITH THE BALLETS or it’s a travesty

and he realizes davos is His Guy For Real when he shows up for their anniversary with tickets and then realizes that maybe someone who never went won’t want to see SIX HOURS OF FRENCH GRAND OPERA but davos just blinks like ‘k sure I’m open to everything’ and actually likes it (spoilers: davos’s fave becomes rossini’s la gazza ladra after he gets into it bECAUSE HE TOTALLY RELATES TO THE GIRL’S FATHER WHO SHOULD GO TO JAIL BUT IS ACTUALLY A GOOD GUY but he also likes le nozze di figaro bc YOU FEEL THE LOVE FOR THE LOWER CLASS)

tyrells

all of them used to go with olenna so all four are into it

loras as stated is into early-mid 18th century stuff ie gluck/handel/the likes (he’s the only one who actually likes julius caesar)

willas totally is into romcoms he cried the first time he went to see l’elisir d’amore and he’s been mercilessly mocked since

garlan is a sane person and likes more or less everything except extradramatic stuff

margaery is into bellini don’t tell me norma isn’t her fave

tullys

lysa never was into it bc cat was and so she always refused to go

brynden totally introduced cat to it but he’s a man of not much taste for EXTRA DRAMA so while he likes his verdi he just wants to relax with his mozart gdi but his fave is something totally overlooked ie PROBABLY IDOMENEO BECAUSE WHY THE HELL NOT HE’D LIKE IT

edmure totally went with cat & brynden and also was more into comedies turns out that his favorite is eventually falstaff and he’s always grumbling that verdi shouldn’t have made just ONE comedy ffs

targs:

viserys prob is a nerd but just of his favorite stuff and he’s either into countertenor stuff OR obscure shit or french grand opera AT BEST, he’s probably the only person other than loras who likes julius caesar

dany’s into it but very casually, she probably likes il trovatore because fire imagery everywhere tho

rhaegar is 100% into verdi drama like jon took ONE thing from him and that’s it, he probably is the kinda person who likes othello best for the Sheer Drama Factor

greyjoys:

balon and victarion legit hate it

euron is the only person other than cersei who actually willingly would go to see the ring and loves wagner

asha only goes with theon but she doesn’t mind it also bc alannys is 100% crazy into it that said she hates drama

alannys loves it her fave is la traviata I don’t make the rules

martells:

oberyn’s the hugest don giovanni stan in existence I DON’T MAKE THE RULES HE IS HE IDENTIFIES TO A T

elia’s chiller but the martells have the best taste and so they’d all like mozart she’s prob. into le nozze di figaro best because she totally relates to the countess

arianne likes così fan tutte and would punch anyone who says it’s sexist

other ppl:

sandor was dragged by sansa and he had been like WHAT DO I EVEN DO IN A THEATER HELP but then she picked something like gounod’s faust which he would like, turns out that then he ends into the most obscure SAD stuff and likes boito’s mefistofele best lISTEN HE’D BE INTO FAUSTIAN DEALS OPERA

lf is the kind of person who says they love opera but then criticize every single thing in every single staging and keep on saying opera should have died with maria callas

pyp/grenn/edd/the nw crowd went with jon once to watch something REALLY fucking sad TBH IT’D BE ERNANI and they’re like ‘jon wtf this is the worst’, then when sam learns it he goes like GUYS NO LET’S RECTIFY THIS and he brings them to l’italiana in algeri or SOME rossini fun opera and they change their mind

... okay I think I got MOST OF THE RELEVANT ONES IF I FORGOT ANYONE/YOU WANT ANYONE ELSE PLS ASK ;)

[mikanrulz]

Firstly, sorry i’m replying to you in this format, since the usual ask format would be too long.

Second, I’m confused; I thought your initial inquiry was about me judging Tekkadan and McG in the same level (which I did), and so I replied as I did. But then here you’re kinda bringing in Gaelio and Iok. As far as I remember, I never actually compared Gaelio and Iok to Tekkadan members individually (unless talking about mecha fighting style). I did compare Sevenstars kids to each other (including mcg) often. I did somewhat compare eugene to takaki and shino. And I did compare Orga and Mcg since they had nearly similar origin but different output. But I never did compare the Sevenstars kids individually w/ Tekkadan.

You talked that I shouldn’t hold Tekkadan and Gjallarhorn soldiers in the same levels bcs Gjallarhorn soldiers chose to enlist by themselves, but isn’t Tekkadan the same? You said ‘tekkadan is *appealing* bcs it looks like family’, which stated that enlisting into tekkadan is still a choice. Also, Ein and Isurugi are proof that some ppl, despite knowing how prejudiced terran and Gjallarhorn are, despite knowing they’d face discrimination after they enlisted, still chose and actually stayed in Gjallarhorn till the end. I suspect there’re more ppl like them in Gjallarhorn. My point is, not all Gjallarhorn are Sevenstars, not all Gjallarhorn have had easy lives. They chose Gjallarhorn bcs they wanted to improve their lives, believing it’s worth the suffering. Is it worth it? Who knows.

Thirdly, forgive me, but it sounds to me like you were essentially blaming Orga for what happened to Tekkadan, and that the other kids were only being loyal to him by following his bad decisions and not bcs they agreed with him.

I feel like we have a misunderstanding, somewhat. You don’t need to convince me of Tekkadan’s close bond and the reason for it and how sympathetic their whole plight is; the show already did that at every opportunity – to the point Tekkadan appeared so self-involved and didn’t care about anything and anyone beyond their members.

My whole problem w/ Tekkadan is not bcs they’re orphaned children; it’s bcs they’re orphaned children who killed ppl and none ever faulted them for it. It’s not the characters so much as the show’s portrayal of them as the always right one. Kudelia says she wants justice for everybody, but she only really meant the martian – her own ppl. I’ve written a bit about her here, and my main problem with her is how she never acknowledged Tekkadan killing ppl and how these “children” are actually NOT innocent.

“The whole point of the show was demonstrating that thinking of these kids as soldiers, even on their own self-proclaimed terms, was WRONG (think Merribit @s1 finale) and that children shouldn't be forced to kill just to survive.”

You know, I actually disagree on this. I just finished watching s2 finale, and the show as well as julieta and kudelia did narrate how this is the whole point of tekkadan story, but I'm not sold bcs what they told us vs what they actually showed didn’t align imo. You’re using Merribit as an example, but I think she’s a poor choice for the point you’re trying to make. I have mentioned Merribit several times in my review, most recent is this. Merribit always got treated like an outsider in S1, and in S1 final, she and the point she was trying to make were defeated. I think that speaks aloud for the show’s attitude toward ppl who were trying to placate or advise Tekkadan.

u can't tell me they didn't face the consequences after that finale.

Yes, yes I can. Because I see them getting all the rewards with no long lasting effects, no emotional damage, no trauma no nothing. Well, except Mika’s half paralyzed body perhaps, but considering he was hailed hero, is that really a consequence? Considering when S2 started, they really have life figured out with, again, no lasting damage to show.

--perfectly logical/consistent w/their pasts. If u wanna live, kill - their world forces them to face death everyday, bc if not... well, hesitation is fatal

You talked of Mika and the kids' lack of emotional response bcs of how hard their lives were. For the other kids you could make the argument that this is their form of defense mechanism to keep themselves sane, but I truly think Mika is just apathetic to the point that he can't feel anything. He recognizes emotion, learned the proper responses, but he just doesn't seem to feel it. I called Mika a killing machine bcs of this, and also bcs he just never hesitates. AT ALL. Where's his moment of hesitation, of doubt over what he's doing? gdi but I think morality should still be a point in a gundam show, and tekkadan lacks this. Show me they’re actually human. Show me their conflicting emotions. Show me that after some time in Kudelia’s presence they finally learn to doubt their own way of life. But till the end... nothing.

TL;DR you told me it’s unfair to compare Tekkadan to Gjallarhorn. But I’m not the first one to do this. The show itself is already so unfair from the start. Consider this:

Mika killed a total of 33 people during the whole S1 (that can be seen anyway), and he got lauded a Hero, Barbatos got thought of a tool of justice, Tekkadan got their money and their new job and new status.

Ein killed a total of 2 people during the whole of S1 (both in ep25, out of self-defense since the tank shot at him first) and yet he got called mass murderer and the devil in the show.

You want a justice for Tekkadan. I want a justice for Ein.