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#i sent a message to an old friend i haven't spoken in like 8 years#a friend i decided to step away from our friendship bc i felt i was being hurt by some attitudes that had been piling up for some time#but by distancing myself i never really got closure on what i felt for this friend#and this constantly ate me up all these years we've been apart#to the point that i constantly dream about her and our other friend#and every time it happens all i want is for it not to happen anymore#but i knew there was only one way for me to make it happen#and it was for me to open up to her and tell her how i feel#so i could finally let go of whatever feeling my brain still nourished for her#but i was never really sure how to do it#or how she would take it#i remember by therapist telling me that i should seek her to find this closure if this would appease my mind#and for a couple of years now i had been rehearsing how to do it#and today i finally decided to pull the trigger bc i came upon some letters she wrote me when we were in school#and it was a long trip down memory lane#a painful one#and i said to myself: if i don't do it now whatever the outcome of this talk is i will lose the courage forever#and so i did#and obviously this whole time it was my anxious brain preventing me from reaching out#bc she was glad i did it too#and even said so herself that it feels like a weight has been lifted from her shoulders#and that's how it feels to me#and i know that one of the things that eat me up the most is not getting closure on any level#that's why i rather reach out and make peace with myself than let something drag unresolved#i hope this helps me move on#and teaches me how to be the bigger person instead of the petty one#personal x
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i love you royal trio (minus akechi)
#i was listening to the world we knew by frank sinatra while drawing this to inflict maximum emotional damage 😔#royal actually shot me fifty times in the chest and slaughtered my entire family#i’m actually inconsolable over the ending what the fuck do you mean akechi chooses to die of his own volition rather than be manipulated#god it’s just. his character actually makes me violent and insane. they’re going to drag me kicking and screaming to the psych ward#he never had an ounce of control over his life. not even once. he was CONSTANTLY being yanked around like a marionette#until he was disposed of as another pawn in shido’s plan#and then out of some cruel irony he was resurrected even though he did not want to be alive#for once in death he would have found peace—only for that to be taken from him too.#and bc he thinks he’s worthless and his life is so easily gambled away he doesn’t view it as a major dealbreaker when maruki brings it up#“do you really think something as trivial as my life should stand in the way of your decision?” yes you fucking asshole#what do you mean he’s literally fated to die in every timeline? definition of doomed by the narrative#there’s not a single version of his story that doesn’t end with him being slaughtered#GODDDDD he makes me violently ill i hate goro akechi so much he’s so fucking selfish HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE THAT THIS DEAL IS TEARING ME APART#i was so tempted to get the bad ending just so that he was alive ☹️#he looked so happy. he was surrounded by people who loved and treasured him.no shido. control over his life. the ability to choose his futu#TEARS IN MY EYES MARUKI WAS THE ONLY VILLAIN WHO WAS LOWKEY MAKING SENSE 😭😭😭😭😭#my toxic trait is that i think maruki was right all along 😔#ALSO SUMIRE AAUUGGHHHH 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#the survivors guilt literally eating her alive until the point where she gaslighted herself into thinking she was her sister. insane.#royal was so good bro i’m so glad i endured 200 hours of hell just to play it#terrible terrible ending with everyone going their separate ways and ren ending up in juvie for months#akechi actually being dead in the good ending is so fucked up 😭😭 i thought there was some way maruki could bring him back regardless#not ren hallucinating him in the last cutscene too 😭😭😭😭 “i still see your shadows in my room” ahh ending#persona 5 royal#persona 5#ren amamiya#akira kurusu#sumire yoshizawa#goro akechi#lotus draws
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After we've acted out starlight... what do I do?
#ok so i thought about rutile and papardscha hnk too hard and it somehow turned into this#it was originally gonna be hikaren bc of that but i felt hikari didnt really fit it well so now. karen^2#also the flower she's holding is meant to be the flower in claire's hair#i couldve done better trying to show karens unwillingness to use the letter probably but#by time i processed that i was far enough in i didn't want to redo her#thank god for csp custom brushes glad to not have drawn all that. still did have to shade them though :/#anyways! aijo karen you are the girl ever#aijo karen#karen aijo#revue starlight#revstar#starira#shoujo kageki revue starlight#my art
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“I’ll be honest—when Bobby first brought you on board, I told him he should just get a Dalmatian instead.”
#ive had the weirdest day. and my situationship from last summer just got engaged#after ending things w me the day after my dog died bc grief was ‘too serious too fast’ and now she’s engaged !#am happy for her we’re friends glad she found the right amount of seriousness even if it was in under a year but 😭 ow a little#and then my therapist cancelled our session tonight so#instead of committing to hysterics i did this 🥰 and u know what. better than therapy#sorry for that extreme oversharing. it’s been a Day#911#buddie#evan buckley#i love you like a dog#mine
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#wof#wings of fire#wof art#wof redesign#wings of fire redesign#wof tsunami#wings of fire tsunami#art#artist#my art#weevilemantis art#pink tsunami letss goooo!!!!!!#i tried to make her muscly idk if my style conveyed that though#she gets her stupidass hair from her dad#(something her dumbass brother has too)#i make her pink because#1; anemone and coral pink and shes their family#2; it looks cool#3; tnarsgener#transfem tsunami#wof transfem tsunami#wings of fire is transdgenedered#to me#>.<#“then why did coral care about losing her?” IDK. maybe she cares a lot more abt her sons in this au#royal family memebrs being trans kinda affects the way it works#and idk how each familywould handle it#like.. maybe coral is glad she has another daughter bc she needs heirs or something#which isnt the right reason to be happy about it#maybe tsunami has more issues w her mom bc of it
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people who think clem surviving makes no sense are so funny. "they were literally foreshadowing her death the entire season" let me introduce you to the concept of a red herring. she tells lilly she isnt lee and shes right. the narrative was forcing her down that path, a path she saw as an inevitable fate waiting to take her too, but its a narrative broken by aj, who is also his own person and not S1 clem
"it happened to lee, and itll happen to you" lilly tells clem she'll die protecting aj from some mistake he makes, when in reality his defiance of her will is what saves her life after she had already accepted her fate. he breaks clem free from the lee cycle and they get their relatively happy ending. good for them
#anyway in the commentary they talk about how they Were going to have a death ending but didnt like the idea of the good/bad ending#and how people would moreso try to avoid the 'bad end' which i understand and appreciate bc thats usually what happens#so instead they gave us both :) idk why some people seem to have such a huge problem with that#they broke the cycle :) the ericson kids broke the cycle by being a loving community :) they all break the cycle by refusing the delta#lilly and minnie were both lost to the cycle. lilly with her dad and minnie with lilly#minnie couldnt let go. clem almost did the same and it would have killed her too. but aj makes a Choice and it saves her#god even tho clem is noticeably happier in s4 shes still so gd depressed and Tired. she accepted it so fast im so glad he saved her#like idk you saw her come back on screen after that massive fake out and you got Mad?? i was crying twice as hard#i know ive made this similar post before but like i still see this criticism in 2024 and i just have to laugh now#it speaks#twdg#i just love the narrative threads of S4 bro.... seasons 1 and 4 are two sides of the same coin and i love that. its satisfying
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Bump in the Night & Nevertober Day 23: Restless Spirits & Devil/Angel
#6#Bump in the Night#Bump in the Night 2024#Nevertober24#Nevermore#Nevermore Webtoon#Webtoon#The Book of Life#HIIIIII#wow I did good today not posting like 0.5 seconds before the day ends#And I made some cool pieces!!#For BITN I drew Manolo from Book of Life! First time drawing him and he came out cool#Whole movie is his spirit being restless#I love the music in that movie too#Si Puedes Perdonar mi amor#Y Te Amo y Más es muy bueno#The animation is cool and story is interesting#Xibalba y La Muerte dios mio I love them so much. La Muerte especially love her design and her voice hhggn#And then for Nevertober I drew them dressed uppppp#The song lyrics are from Angel by River Styx#Very top tier song.. I imagine Lenore and Annabel sing it like near the end of 42#Like Annabel tells her she’s leaving and then Lenore’s like “… can we sing one more song together?”#And it also helps bc the song’s like all on piano so Lenore plays it and hhhgnggn lesbians#The song’s in my Nevermore playlist on Spotify if you wanna find it and also see my giant collection of songs for this webtoon#But yeah this came out cute!! I love both their faces like cutie patooties#So glad the angel wings covered Annabel’s hair bc I didn’t feel like drawing that today#Uh yeah fun arts!! See you here tomorrow for all 3 art challenges
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nansu truly is mona irl…
#nansuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu#to think that she had another event the immediate day after the mona live… nansu truly is a hard worker… man.#gives a whole new meaning to ‘hima janai jinsei ikiyou’ huh…#and. like!!!!! she apparently did the :p during beautiful and!!!!!! aaaaaaa#her costumes are so pretty aaaaaaaaaaaaaa#im so glad she posted that pic of her fukutsu no idol outfit bc!!!!! aaaaa the faithful replication is f a i t h f u l#c. can hw do foreigner packages for their concerts (like ll does)… i wanna see nansu live…#pls hw p l s let the rest of the world watch your concerts too~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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there are just certain sentences that are completely true and mean exactly what it seems like they mean but like give very incorrect implications, like:
one of my mom's best friends who visited all the time when i was growing up was her former lesbian roommate who she still deadnames to this day, but at least she feels bad about it when i call her out on it now, and i wonder if that had anything to do with why my mom likes melissa etheridge so much.
#at any rate i was glad to have a literary lesbian role model in my life lol#i also really want to talk to her about gender stuff at some point bc i didn't really understand anything about that last time i saw her#and was deeply in denial about being trans and definitely wasn't about to bring that up with my mom's friend lol#but i'm so curious what gender labels she applies to herself since she did change to a gender neutral name#and maybe now we could start a club of people my mom claims to support and yet deadnames constantly‚ lol and my sister can join now too#lesbian#trans lesbian#trans#transgender#queer#transbian
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— Deleted Scene from SMALLVILLE, “Talisman” (3.20)
#don't get me wrong I love the 'I did it for you' scene that actually made it into the ep but this one makes me feel absolutely feral#from 'somebody special?' to 'I didn't realize this was that important to you'......'[she] is' like these are straight up romance tropes???#and the way he never takes his eyes off lana during the whole conversation with lionel... oh I am UNWELLLLL#tbh I'm assuming this scene was cut bc (aside from time reasons) it made lex's feelings for lana way too obvious too early#which like... I understand if so. but I'm glad it still exists as a deleted scene at least#smallville#smallvilleedit#svedit#lex luthor#lana lang#lexana#sv 3x20#dcmultiverse#my gifs#I downloaded specific software and rented the s3 dvd from the library just so I could get my hands on this scene in higher quality lol#(now I have all the special features from that season saved btw... if anyone happens to be interested in that stuff 👀)
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what if i EXPLODE
#the most basic and classic kpop queerbait pose but i still love it youre right#the lyrics during these scenes too this is a song for women and sapphics#they did this for the gay closeted church girls#i literally had a hand over my mouth gasping shocked shaken the entire mv GAOWD im giving the japan division a big kiss rn#momos wolfcut too IM GONNA GJRKDUWP38RBJ#the bridge was so good mina always serves she has given and she has never disappointed!#i LOVE the way sana sang the mmm humming part in the beginning it reminds me of her lines in wallflower and YEAH SHES STILL THE BEST AT IT!#and momos rapping OHHHHHH she has truly never not killed a rap her deep raspy voice is so perfect omg#them turning into paintings in the end YEAH POETIC CINEMA#so glad they made this a littke gay bc all art is inherently gay no im not elaborating#yes obv i saw minas back they had no business putting it there not even 30 secs into the song what if i actually combusted#having this AND oec air force one in one week if god hates the gays why do we always win 👩❤️💋👩
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genuinely believe laslow and nyx’s support conversation, regardless if you get their S or stop at A, is among both of their most important conversations they have because it allows them a rare moment of vulnerability. while they have a lot of good conversations, a lot of them have both laslow and nyx taking the part of either comic relief or as the listener/observer which is very fitting for both of them! but then they never get to delve into their perspectives and thoughts on some of their more vulnerable traits the way that they do with eachother.
with laslow he never really talks about awakening he references it but its never the topic. his words and actions are obviously influenced by it but you very rarely get to him be this introspective. hes very observant with his support partners but this and his odin support are the only time where hes forced to confont himself. sometimes he'll be sad and melancholy but he never discusses WHY. if youre lucky, he might mention he had a mom at some point and thats about it!! knowing inigo, we as players know why hes like that. he was pigeonholed into the role of keeping morale up, he lost one of the gemstones needed to perform the awakening in the bad timeline, ditched that world (which. his feelings on really only get discussed with nyx!!! which is insane?!?!), then had to start killing real people in order to survive until he met up with the shepherds again! but he never talks about it! i can count one hand the amount of times in both awakening and fates he does and i still have fingers left!!
and then with nyx its similar because while she does discuss her past its mostly just for explanation and not to delve deeper into it. which, makes sense as shes probably not too into trauma dumping on a bunch of strangers but then shes never forced to see that part of herself in someone else and do some reflecting on her own. heroes obviously came out way after fates but they kinda confirm that nyx's curse in part due to herself: its a self punishment that shes not conscious of but its driven by her not being able to forgive herself WHICH IS SO COOL but. you know. fates dropping the ball with writing. used to it. but while yes, that curse did come as kind of like some magical divine karma, she has already attoned for it: she’s grown up, matured, and taken the time to change that selfish part of herself that only valued power and nothing else. the only thing holding her back from moving on is herself.
so, laslow and nyx to having that moment in their supports where they both admit their guilt and let themselves be judged by eachother kinda breaks them out of this cycle of self hate theyre on and it gets them both on the path to forgiving themselves which they never really accomplish anywhere else. some supports teeter on it, but they brush it off pretty quickly. in a weird way they kind of mirror eachother, but they’re not used to looking at a reflection thats not so distorted by their own beliefs. they admit to eachother that no matter what happened in the past, they’ll never see eachother as anything less than a trusted ally and friend, and if they can do it for eachother, maybe one day they can do it for themselves.
and if they hit the s support, you can already see the change. laslow spouts the absolute banger of a line:
Laslow: Well, much as I might want to, I can't bear your burden. Nor could I expect you to bear mine. But with burdens so heavy...don't you think we could lean on each other a bit?
and its just such a fitting conclusion to the story of two people learning how to love themselves and walking that path of forgiveness together. anyways so im really normal about them
#ann plays fates#laslow and nyx fire emblem you will always be famous#had to shove it all under a readmore i dont really like when my textposts get too long#but theyre just sooo important to me#and it is a shame most people never read their conversation#i totally get why like dont get me wrong#theyre both on the lower side of unit viability in fates to put it nicely#in conquest theyre decently viable but theyre fighting with more efficient units for deployment slots#and on the off chance you field BOTH of them you probably wouldnt waste their pairup bonuses on eachother#given they have completely oppposite statlines#and then in rev theyre both just bad. like theres no other way i can say it they just are terrible 😭#the only reason i ever read their support was bc i had to for a challenge run#glad i did tho bc. WOW. wrecked me actually#whatever. comfort rarepair forever#i also think it is both really funny and really sweet if two of the saddest units in the army get the happiest daughter in the world#literally named her after the sun bc she is the brightest spot in their lives yes?? you see????#ugh anyways
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#so my mom's wake thing was today and that was a lot. not in an emotional sense but in a im standing here talking for 3hrs#to ppl i dont kno or barely kno. ya kno? but it was good bc so many ppl showed up to talk abt her#so many people. my mom made a huge impact on the school system. so many ppl relied on her. she encouraged at least 2 ppl to get their#master. for one person to specilize in helping the dyslexic after her experience advocating for 3 dyslexic daughters. she wrote and was#awarded a 10000 dollar grant for special needs and intervention curriculum. which will affect so many lives.#everyone loved her. she's gonna get a track meet named after her and a scholarship created in her honor.#she was an amazing person and she affected a lot of lives and im glad she was my mom. and she raised at least one jem in my littlest#sister who is so sweet and is a great teacher. god but there was some weird stuff too. were pretty sure her old boss was in love with her.#and there were some weird comments abt her being a strong woman or this woman doing so much and its like hm y do i detect a note of sexism#y not say she was an amazing person? y the surprise? weird comments about how pretty i looked. which yes i looked great lol. my funeral fit#was cute. we did bright colors bc it was a celebration not a dower event. and im sure it was ment well but it was a lil weird. and then#everyone was telling my grandma what a great job she did raising my mom and like god fuck off she didn't do jack. my mom was great despite#her terrible mother. ugh. but altogether it was good that everyone was able to express their love for her. it was def a day that was for#them mostly. i mean partly for us but mostly for them. none of us even cried. ay but we have 2 more parties in her honor#bc everyone loved her so much we have to do one in her hometown too. plus a personal friends get together. ugh. im so tired#i wish i wasnt the most awkward. eye contact avoidant person in the room but like ya kno. what can ya do?#unrelated
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does brady ever feel guilty for bringing anna to typhon. does it keep him awake at night
#did he know he was going to make her spend the rest of her lifetime on typhon?? surely he did#unless he thought she was going to stay on a temporary basis bc of her nonstandard profile#only for hr to be like no no. no one leaves typhon are you fucking insane#i want to believe anna's life on earth was going downhill when speaker approached her with a job offer#still! the loss of bodily autonomy. the shared blame for the failure of a project that got hundreds killed.#the fall from grace and winding up in argos.#and knowing all along that back in halcyon the 'child' she was tasked with rearing is all alone#still lashing out and in pain and it's too late to save it now. it was always too late#did anna ever resent brady for bringing her to typhon or was leaving her own personal hell on earth worth it#everything went to shit in the worst possible way but at least we still have each other. i'm so glad i got to meet you. i love you#.txt#kam drawing anna's ass got me Pondering
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ATFC s1e8 Jerry has me fucking sick to my stomach about Simon's, "Wha- No, no! Why would I??"
I kinda am wondering if his lack of reaching Chaos Betty is maybe bc she now doesn't want him to reach her. If she's still kinda Betty, anyway.
Edit: I just finished my second rewatch and I do wonder where Golbetty is portalling him. 👀
#i mean. if i became half chaos deity & i could see the beginning & end of all & then realized the love of my life never really saw me......#i might block and fuck up his attempts to reach me too#did he ever give a damn about her career?? like in their 'normal' human lives??#she became useful for his work. would they have even bonded over her work??? did they at all in the original AT? bc i dont think so. :(#also he tried to not listen to her until she just said her thoughts on the vase or ran over the snake rocks. like she wasn't potentially#intelligent to him until she proved she was actually intelligent to him. like he just assumed he new better until she just did what she had#to do to prove herself. it was actually annoying to me the whole time. :(#i was glad that he wanted her to take credit for the expedition with him... but he also didnt fight for her there???#im kinda mad at Betty at that moment too. Betty. darling. you did work too lol#ugh. i hate that Simon is just “why would i go with her??” simon is a dumbass. hes all girldad but im wondering if he was a onesided bf :(#adventure time: fionna & cake#adventure time: fionna and cake#atfc#atfc s1e8#simon petrikov#betty grof#chaos betty#golbetty#aunt posting
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i finished it!!!! 🪞✨
#dragon age the veilguard they can NEVER make me hate you!!!#what a journey!!! 🥹#i absolutely loved it!!!#at this moment (and bare with me i literally just finished it ok) the only things that i think were lacking were:#1) the romance (or at least lucanis' romance) the few scenes we had were SO GOOD but i other than that i didn't feel much interaction...#...between the two idk if it was a general thing for all romances or just lucanis' buuut... i wish we got a little more out of their dynamic#bc that first flirt scene was so so so goooooood and the final scene of them together too!!! like we seriously could've had it all!!!#and 2) the inquisitor's outfit lmao 💀💀💀 like guys why would you put her in THAT™#i had a curvy/chubby inquisitor and that outfit looked so weird on her 🙃🙃🙃 i didn't like it at all lmao#like she's a hero of thedas and that's all she gets... the disrespect™ 👁️👄👁️#and what did i say??? lavellan saved him with the power of the 🥺🥺🥺#the ending was beautiful!!! i'm so glad we FINALLY got that closure (10 years later!!!)#anyway can't wait to do a second playthrough hehehe#i hope all my dragon age girlies also had fun playing the game 💕🫂 i loved sharing this excitement with you all my loves#dragon age#veilguard spoilers
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