#bad sensory apparently
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whos otto
IM GLAD YOU ASKED.
okay so i’m gonna make an actual post introducing these guys in a lot more detail (since there is SOO much lore already) so i won’t explain much here but basically Ollie is a triplet and his two other siblings are named Otto and Oakley
this is Otto:
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it’s a lab rat mainly used to test out all sorts of drugs that fucked it up a bit. it’s very unhinged and deranged and WILL give you rabies and is also emitting deadly amounts of radiation at all hours and is kept alive by this other test subject named Aster who has healing powers. do not get in within 20 feet of this thing or you will DIE /j. otto is such a specimen. the creature.
it’s transfem but only figures that out after it escapes being a test subject (and become a mad scientist!!!!!). but it’s actually fine with any pronouns, but the main ones are it/she (i’m also working on figuring out a new name for Otto since she definitely changes it to something much sillier after she figures out her identity more)
#ask#otto oc#my art#lab whump#tiny whump#also no it does not wear pants.#bad sensory apparently#but it’s fine guys because the fur covers it they’re just anthro#like bugs bunny orrr squidward#it wouldn’t wear any clothes at all but the scientist won’t allow that#anyway i love otto sm#the specimen#the freak
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gathering necessities for my bedroom
you know. bed, computer, life size grim reaper animatronic, dresser, etc.
necessities.
#🦇 𝐅𝐑𝐄𝐄 𝐅𝐑𝐎𝐌 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐎𝐆. 🦇#I used to have p.ennywise in my room. that was fun.#this dude was fixing my window in my old room and saw Penny#yeah apparently he got spooked so bad he nearly screamed#can’t wait for my friends to come in to a motion sensory reaper ✨
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prescription for wheelchair achieved. tomorrow i make sure they sent it to the wheelchair vendor. i would really like to have it by my birthday (mid february) but ideally as long as i have it for spring break in march i’ll be happy
#lmao apparently my walk test proved my mobility is fucked#unsurprising but reassuring to the guy in my brain who yells about how maybe it’s not that bad and we aren’t disabled#they said it’s for my pots which isn’t fully true but after 5 years we still don’t have evidence of the nerve damage even though it’s there#well we do have evidence actually but only for a sensory nerve in one leg#not for my feet
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this is like, the worst take of the day for me. we have:
the use of psychological disabilities only for the sake of an argument
the weird idea that personal morals should trump evidence in labeling people as psychologically disabled
the extremely dangerous idea that anyone considered "disruptive" or "disrespectful" should suddenly be pathologized
the idea that the only people who are disruptive/disrespectful are marginalized people
the lack of distinction between being antisocial and narcissistic
all in one thread. i know that sanism and overmedicalization are normalized, but how do you type something this ignorant and not realize you're not making sense. and how did 24k people agree.
#sanism#can't stand twitter's for you section. i'm literally an anti-psych narcissist how is this for me 💀 take so bad it triggered my arrhythmia#apparently public music/video/phone-induced sensory overload is canceled out by my trauma-induced grandiosity. everyday i learn some more
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I don't want to get off my phone I don't want to stay on my phone I don't want to pump gas I don't want to do deliveries I don't want to get ready for bed I don't want to write anything of substance I don't want to create I don't want to not create I don't want to be here I don't want to go anywhere I don't want to move I don't want to stay still my brain and body seem to simply want to sit here and Yearn
#is this like a shutdown i think we're having a shutdown#cuz like#we're not experiencing the pain of the overwhelm#but that's because we're dissociating really bad#like am i blitz are we blurry have we been in this parking lot for hours#why can't i just do anything but type#we're just sitting here numb and unmotivated#vent#i guess#tagging in case as always#idk man#“get a hobby” we have several#“get a life” we have. one but we have to share#“get a job” 2 jobs going on possibly 3 next month ok im starting to understand#we are indeed having to face a future and have no solid Plans yet#i thought getting our biggest worry out of the way now that my cat is w a trusted friend would help#but everything else is at the Forefront of our mind now whoops!!#ironically it would be better if we just. cane up w a plan#but noooo sensory overload from our own fucking chatter#allllll dayyyyyy#fuckkkkk#we're probably gonna go to bed lol i can try again tomorrow#we're ok just. we “shouldn't be” if that makes sense lol#if we're going to be a wreck i wish i could at least provess it#like it's worse than emotional denial i straight-up don't have access to said emotions rn#“don't underestimate my capacity to not wanna” type shit sjfhhshsh#oh also we need to eat dude come on#dont want to do that either but alas we need nutrients to live#at least we like living!#usually lmao also i did it (apparently) i reached 30 tags. thank u tumblr i love yapping
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okay i’m getting to the point in Trying A New Hobby where i get angry
#i’m laughing to avoid getting impatient#but apparently the way i hold the yarn when crocheting is causing my chain to turn upside down#at least i think that’s what’s causing it#but wrapping the yarn around my fingers is a Bad Sensory input#therefore my skin won’t let me do that#so#jayy speaks#i’ll be fine i just have to have a meltdown first
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ohhh damn sensory overload is hitting hard today. why do people need to leave their house for fun on a sunday? if anyone has a go to trick to relieve this, i’d love to know
#yes this is because I am stressed about exams and get too little sleep and don’t eat as routinely as I should)#which makes me very sensitive to sensory input and also just people physically in general#and also apparently really bad at spelling. writing this is taking ages. even with autocorrect#own post
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giggling and twirling my hair and kicking my feet in the air while telling my therapist that I cried in the grocery store because they didn't have the matzah that I like
#did not realize how badly i needed someone who understands what arfid is to talk to until recently#still thinking abt the fact that someone who claims to have arfid accused me of having ana a few months ago on account of...#avoiding certain foods and having a restricted intake which is definitely not what avoidant restrictive food intake disorder is. apparently#damn it's so crazy that i have no body image issues and take medication to induce appetite that sure sounds like ana to me 😒#wow my problems with food stem from a fear of aversive consequences due to my allergies and some past medical trauma#as well as sensory issues and low appetite?#huh that sure sounds like im doing it on purpose and also want to give my loved ones food issues (was actually accused of this)#anyway i love you to people who either know what theyre talking about and/or are willing to listen to lived experiences#and i hope people who lie about having an illness just to make other people feel bad stub their toes repeatedly today!
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woman in my class playing her music out loud it is too loud AND she's singing along. that is at least one too many noises.
#having a bad sensory night apparently. on the way to class i was halfway down the street and had to go home and change#bc the texture of my socks was wrong#by god i am fucking buying myself a little treat on the way home
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its honestly terrifyign to think that im experiencing such hardcore malabsorption that my whole shit is being fucked. and i FORGOT to call the clinic to make an appointment today ಠ_ಠ
#realized last night that all my symptoms r probably related 2 malabsorption. i just dont know whats causing That.#ive been symptomatic since october but it rlly has only been so weird and bad and random since december#:[ realized all my sensory disturbances stuff might also be like. antidepressant withdrawal.#bc if malabsorption is bad enough apparently it affects ur fucking. neurotransmitters.#Jesus.
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hm
#ok time to bitch and whine bc i wanna :3c#first off i want to say that i know all the nuances and i dont have it the worst and i think my mom is fine but. im also allowed to be upse#and i dont want to backpedal on that so i will try my best to not excuse behaviours with 'but also's. if i do fucking hit me with hammers#sillyposting#ok. early-mid 2021's. starting to get into the bad stuff for me.#im just getting aware of the autism and. other circumstances.#fine sure yesyesyes. i want to sit with my knee above the table bc its more comfy and i dont see a problem. my parents apparently do#i persist bc. there isnt a fucking problem and their points are stupid. i still think so and luckily theyve gotten over it now but.#anyway. alongside the rebelious action offf: wanting to sit comfortably!! i also sometimes have issues with sensory overload. SHOCKER.#especially then as i was getting worse in every aspect and. having actual physical symptoms because of it. my ticcing was bad during it#anyway. apparently having headphones on during dinner is also bad. most of the times i didnt want to cause more trouble so took them off.#akaaaa i was just forced to dissociate during almost every dinner instead of. having the 'privilege' to be normal.#the worst day with this was during fall break when my grandparent were also there.#i think it was just before the dam broke for me or maybe it was during but....#during dinner in an unknown vacationhouse with more people than i was used to and chairs that scraped the floors: i wanted to keep my headp#i didnt have music on. i was actively participating in conversation! i just needed a little less noise.#but it was for some reason too much to handle. and my parents werent grown up enough to let this slide.#taking care of myself was less important than upholding their useless ideals. ok.#i was denied dinner. because i needed something different than what they personally wanted.#so i went to my room and cried. 17 y/o. aside from everything else that was already happening inside me this still hits me the hardest#its the fact that. they didnt consider me at all. i still dont know why they were so upset over me doing something slightly different#the fact that they couldnt even properly explain why (because there wasnt a real reason) didnt help my view of them during that time.#anyway. im doing better now. i dont think theyre abusive anymore or have ever really been. *gets hit with hammers* ow okayyy#but. it has stuck with me. very much so.#so now when my mother keeps her headphones on during dinner bc of overstimulation. it hurts. it hurts so much.#you couldnt give me this during the beginning of the worst part of my life. but youll take it for your own now?#i wont say things bc ill get hit by hammers so. i get to be upset about this.#i do. i should be.#i want things to have gone differently. i want them to have understood it earlier. if not that; i want her to not take what i was denied.#I... *get hit with hammers*.... =3=
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man i wonder if i’m ever going to get those birth control shots or not. oh wait nvm appointment is soon
#i was just about to say. it’s been three months since we’ve asked and haven’t heard anything#apparently something about our primary being hesitant to get us those or whatever??#eh it’s next week so YAY. but alas. the terrors are ALREADY on me#periods are the worst its a nightmare of extreme cramps. plus the pads just are so sensory bad to us#there is no glory to be had here etc etc. can i please get bc shots and testosterone forever now
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You know, with the amount of talking I've done with my sister today, you wouldn't think I was struggling to be verbal today
#Honestly I didn't talk nearly as much as usual though#I've been struggling with being fully verbal for a day or so#it doesn't happen often and normally it doesn't last that long but this time was a little intense#sensory problems + additional stress from someone else = bad time apparently#I couldn't even string things together to write before the additional stress so I guess it was already getting bad
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golly, y'all. I think i might have trauma surrounding family gatherings, and it manifests in extreme anxiety with regards to travel, and my adherence to strict dress codes according to Extremely High Standards (which tends to mean i Overdress constantly and that's more embarrassing than under-dressing imo)
#the anxiety and depression monsters have Got Me right now and it's not like. helping#i'm as packed as i can possibly be for tomorrow without packign things i still gotta use tonight#and i'm far more settled than i have been because i finally asked the Questions I Needed Answers To#but that weren't going to have answers organically because NO ONE ELSE'S FAMILY IS AS NEUROTIC ABOUT SHIT AS MINE APPARENTLY#that's not true i know mine was not as bad as it could be but like#having to get Every Single Thing you pack approved ahead of time for how formal/informal it's allowed to be#(plus all the purity culture/modesty nonsense i was raised with and the accompanying rules for Lady-types)#getting berated or teased if anything is forgotten - mercilessly and for Decades Afterwards also btw#the sensory nonsense of being uncomfortable because you're in super formal clothes for no fucking reason#like god of course we're all drunks at holidays this shit is a fucking nightmare#anyway...just...idk. i'm just... today has been Unreasonably Difficult For No Goddamn Purpose and i'm just like#so tired.
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sometimes i think i might have autism
#you see. i thought i was good at social cues and what not but apparently i am really bad at those and didn't realize so. ive just been think#ing about it#i don't think i have any sensory issues though ??#idk man but i don't wanna bring it up fo anyone that could get me properly diagnosed due to personal reasons#vent#<- not really it was just a thought but it is a thought i had for a few days now
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My son has been having some behavioral issues, so we've been doing arduous consultations and screeners and questionnaires to try to get some kind of guidance, which has been very frustrating. Everyone in the broad field of child psychology has said either "have you talked about autism" or "have you talked about ADHD", and sometimes both, because they're comorbid. But in order to get an actual diagnosis, you need to find the right people who are qualified to actually make a determination.
So a few days ago, this culminated in us finally talking to the guy who had the answers, at least according to modern child psychology, and he said that no, there's not really a basis for a clinical diagnosis of either autism or ADHD. There are still the behavioral issues, which are most of the reason we went for testing (along with some inattention, fidgetyness, sensory issues, and other things that are sometimes markers), but that's apparently something to work on with therapy and maybe will just go away as he gets older and matures.
But the other thing that the guy with the answers had to say was that maybe a lot of this can be explained by really high test scores in the cognitive stuff. We knew he was a smart kid, but the guy with the answers said that our son is three standard deviations above normal on all the cognitive tests, including an IQ test that I didn't know was a part of it, and that this is perhaps why he's so bored at school and difficult to keep engaged.
I think that's maybe part of the answer, but not the whole thing. I've been trying to prepare this child to not have gifted kid syndrome his whole life, trying to make sure he doesn't just breeze through everything and then crumble when he faces a challenge because he doesn't know what to do when something is actually tough. It doesn't matter how smart you are if you don't put in the work, if you can't overcome obstacles, if you coast through life. Those lessons do not seem to have sunk in at all, so I don't know.
But as we're getting ready to leave, my wife came in with her particular brand of humor.
Wife: So you're saying it's not too late to install some lead pipes in the house, right? That might be the solution to all our problems.
To his credit, the guy with the answers laughed, and then said, "yeah, or maybe asbestos".
Later, in the car:
Wife: Asbestos doesn't cause lower IQ. Me: Yeah, I know. Wife: I should have said something. Me: That would have been very awkward. Wife: Maybe he would have appreciated the correction. Me: I really don't think he would have. Wife: But you noticed too, right? My joke about lead was good, and his follow up about asbestos was bad. Me: My very first thought was "I hope she doesn't say something about this". Wife: You love me. Me: I do, but sometimes when we're talking to people together, I'm very aware of what you're going to say. Wife: It's not too late. I could message him. Me: I know you're joking, but please please don't. Wife: I wouldn't. Me: You wouldn't, unless it was funny. Wife: Yeah, and it would be hilarious, so ...
We at least know where the boy gets his tendency for pedantry from.
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