#ayaka haneyama

[gladosluver]

udg if it was good (slash jay)

aka udg cast crafting the most INCOMPREHENSIBLE stuff but it gets worse as it goes on. these are so ooc and they're just for fun so please dont flame me for mischaracterization

i get the idea with a lot of these but what the actual FUCK are some of them on. raw chicken chestplate and enchanted egg had me grinning ear to ear WHAT WAS THE VISION. bread boat goes crazy tho

ik i didnt get everyone they literally would not fit

[danggirlronpa]

Was looking through the ol' THH artbook scans, and I don't know that I've seen this particular concept art before. So if anyone ever wanted to see the concepts for Sayaka's bandmates, here they are!

[livingdeadhorse]

millions must know of the two named idol group members

Most of the pulled characterization/text is from DR:S, UDG, and DR:Togami. Satomi Aoba is by far the most developed one, she is sooo interesting.

This is for me and the other 3 fans of them...hi guys.

Also "It's Gotta Take Some Skill to be an Idol" is often attributed to Sayaka. Though the lyrics can definitely apply to her, it was Satomi who performed it, not Sayaka. She had nothing to do with the song.

[s0va-idalin]

Some sketches of "Sova, why?"

...Maybe I'll end them too.

[wayzztogo]

What's a bday without an udg captives (+Daiya) post?

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(Reblog not just like♡)

[fruit-punch-clown]

I think UDG could have worked better with a School/Island mode type of side content. I get that it got Ultra Despair Girls Hagakure, but I think a piece of content call Motive Mode would have been good. It would be just like the other modes but would follow the Motives making the different types of Monokumas from UDG.

[magioftheseas]

Shades Of A Perfect Blue

Written for the @sayakazine Please check out the fundraiser!!! Summary: Sayaka just wanted to shine as an idol alongside her friends. She didn't want to be singled out. She definitely didn't want to be targeted. Warnings: Violence, Stalking, Murder, the dark side of idol culture Notes: This is one of my two fics posted for the Sayaka Zine! It's definitely more psychological thriller and horror-focused. As you can tell from the title, it's based off Perfect Blue! Fantastic movie. The fic's not quite as dark, but I hope it's still a suitably chilling read. There's focus on the Sayaka/Ayaka relationship and some minor references to Naezono too. But this is one of my favorite pieces written for a zine! Currently, the Sayaka Zine is running a fundraiser, so please show them support! Special thanks also to @softausterity for the illustrations, which are included in both the zine and the Ao3 version. Go check them out, too! Their illustration of the crane is soooooo good! ***Alternative Ao3 Link*** Commission? Donate?

It’s well into the night and once again, the only company she has are the gaggle of girls on the screen. But Sayaka wasn’t lonely at all.

Not when the girls sang so sweetly and in such perfect unison like a picturesque family. The kind that Sayaka always wanted to have. They followed one another’s lead, their smiles even brighter when regarding each other.

In that small, dark room, those girls were twinkling stars in Sayaka’s eyes.

Guiding stars down a path she very much wanted to follow.

Not even the otherwise encompassing darkness would deter her, not when she had that light to reach for and steal away between her fingers.

As long as she had that light, nothing else would drag her down.

–

The stage lights were much more blinding when you were under them, much to her delight.

From the cheering crowd to the manic grins on the other girls’ faces, that first performance was no doubt a roaring success.

“CHARM! CHARM!”

“Thank you, thank you!” Sayaka shouted. “Thank you so much, everyone! Give all your heart to CHARM!”

Just her waving her arms eagerly had the crowd shrieking in delight. Cries of her name, confessions of love and adulation, the promises of support—nothing at all like her father’s miserable drunken nights.

“CHARM! WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH, CHARM!”

Her heart swelled, and for once, it wasn’t with guilt.

She was still so giddy once they retreated backstage. She traded high fives and fist-bumps with the other girl and happily accepted a hug from Satomi. They were all bursting with energy and excitement, fingers so entwined and interlocked to the point of happily ignored pain.

“That went so great!”

“We killed it!”

“Everyone loves CHARM! They love us!”

Just like the crowd, there were squeals of delight from CHARM! All except for one member. A lone girl downing a bottle of water where the light strained to reach. Sayaka slipped away with surprising ease, and she practically skidded into the loner’s back.

Ayaka doesn’t even stumble, just chuckling lowly as she does. Without missing a beat, she took another water bottle and handed it over like a baton at the sports festival.

“We did good,” she said, and the light danced in her eyes even if her wry smile remained firm. “But it’s going to be much rougher down the road.”

“It’s fine,” Sayaka said, and the cap scraped against her palm as she cracked the bottle open. “We can do anything.”

Ayaka’s smile didn’t even twitch. Her head cocked to the side, casting part of her warm expression in shadow.

“Just don’t lose sight of yourself, Saya.” Ayaka took another sip. “That’s really easy to do in this line of business.” She finished off the rest. “Idols are expected to give all of themselves–but only the parts that people like. As for the rest…”

She tossed the bottle without looking, and it landed perfectly in the trash.

“Hold onto yourself like a lifeline,” she said with such seriousness. “No matter what happens, never lose yourself.”

Sayaka could only frown.

“What do you mean?”

Before Ayaka could answer, their manager’s booming voice cut through like lightning splitting the earth. Ayaka had quickly composed herself and dragged Sayaka to that booming voice, to that overbearing presence that Sayaka still somewhat feared.

Even though the manager was smiling, Sayaka still felt that way. It took everything to not flinch when those fingers branded themselves on each of the girls’ shoulders.

But Ayaka had held her hand like a lifeline, and that alone was enough to keep them afloat.

–

“Hey, everyone! How’s your heartbeat? Is it going crazy~?”

“Ayaka-chan! You should know better than to tease!”

Ayaka stuck out her tongue, making sure that it came with a cute sound so that the audience was aware. Even with the stuffiness of the sound booth, she acted natural and sweet.

(Seriously, it was almost suffocating.)

“Anyway!” Satomi exclaimed. “It’s that wonderful, heart-throbbing time! Kyaaa! You get what I mean, right?!”

“My heart won’t stop racing,” Sayaka murmured, and the other girls cheered.

“It’s time for Love Letters to CHARM!”

It was supposed to improve morale. The producers said that nothing touched a young idol’s heart more than the pure, earnest love of her fans.

(She knew a pure and earnest boy once. She wonders if he sent anything in. And she shouldn’t. She shouldn’t wonder about anything. To pick one out would be a betrayal to everyone else.)

Still, she wonders what types of letters she’ll receive. They’re already sorting the letters between the girls, and the girls are trading smirks and nods to signify who goes first.

“Satomi-chan, your smiling face gives me strength.” Satomi was beaming brighter than the sun. “Thank you so much!”

“Aya-chan, your strong eyes get me through the day.” Ayaka just laughed at that. “Oh, so just my eyes and not the rest of my face, hmm?”

“Ayaka-chan, you know what they mean! Don’t tease, haha!”

“Nyeh!”

The others were having fun. Ayaka especially was in a good mood. It all seemed light-hearted. Sincere, even.

But Sayaka still felt a twinge of…uncertainty.

Will everything really be okay?

Will we be fine?

How do the fans even see me? What do they see when they look at me?

“Saya,” Ayaka sing-songs, elbowing her. “Come on! Your turn! Don’t keep us in suspense!”

The audience thankfully is unable to see the slight tremor in Sayaka’s hands as she tears open the first letter. Her groupmates are quiet to drill up anticipation.

(And as a show of understanding. Ayaka is even comfortingly squeezing her thigh under the table.)

“Sayaka-san,” she finally reads. “Looking at you makes me feel like I have an older sister. You’re my guiding star and I never feel like I’m alone. I will support you always.”

She releases her breath. Joy bubbles in her heart. Just like that.

“Thank you so much! I won’t let you down!”

Everything will be fine.

(What a foolish thought that had been.)

–

“Sayaka-chan, you’re truly like a star. Shining and out of reach, and yet that makes it all the more special that you grace us with your light. You truly are the heart of CHARM!”

“Oh, but!” Sayaka hurriedly exclaims. “I wouldn’t be anything without anyone else!”

“Flatterer!” Ayaka exclaims right back. But when the show’s finally over, Sayaka crumbles the letter.

“I really don’t like it when they demean the others to compliment me.”

“Some fans are like that,” Satomi sighed. “I’m not taking it seriously and you shouldn’t either, Sayaka-chan.”

The others were already nodding along firmly as Ayaka nuzzled her cheek.

“We still appreciate it, and we know you care about us. In fact, we know you best, right?”

Ayaka really was warm and comforting.

“R-Right.”

“So, don’t worry!”

“I won’t.”

She had meant it. At the time.

(But things can never be so simple, can they?)

–

She first heard about the fan blog from a fan’s shouting as passed by after another successful concert.

“I’ll always follow Sayaka’s Room!”

The producers had explained it to her.

Just think of it like an online shrine, they said.

How flattering, Satomi said.

Don’t look at it, Ayaka said.

She found herself googling it in the dead of night. The latest entry, of course, is about the recent concert. Paragraphs gush about the stage, the music, Sayaka herself, and the words…

Like a guiding star, I can’t help but look away! I’ll never stop being a Sayaker!

It’s harmless, her producers said. It’s a symbol of love, they said.

There were countless other entries. Each and every event from meet-ups to even guest appearances were oh-so lovingly documented. Every stitch and crease in her outfits was remarked upon. Even the smallest twitch did not go unnoticed.

“Sayaka’s crooked smile chips away my heart! Is she sleeping well?”

That was from an event where she nearly collapsed backstage. Ayaka had given her such an earful.

“Oh, Sayaka! How I wish I could chase away the darkness that threatens your light!”

“It’s harmless,” she repeats to herself as she scrolls. “It’s a symbol of love.”

–

A couple of days later, a picture of her is posted.

It’s not of any event.

It’s her in her school uniform.

She’s laughing with her classmates. There are a couple of male classmates close by.

The comments are livid.

“It might be best,” her producers said with apologetic smiles. “If you were homeschooled from now on, Sayaka-chan.”

There are pictures posted of her heading to the station she takes home.

“As expected of Sayaka-chan! She always so dutifully gets on the train with her left foot!”

She can’t imagine what her father might think. She doesn’t tell him anything.

“It’s just love,” the producers had said. “It’s just an intense, different kind of love.”

“How about you room with me for a bit?” Ayaka asked after a long day. It’s a casual question. Ayaka doesn’t even bat an eyelash differently and Sayaka finds herself trembling as she forces out an answer.

She can’t imagine what her father might think, but she also isn’t sure he would even notice if she just…didn’t return home for a while.

–

“It’s time for Love Letters to CHARM!”

Another cheerful session. Joking and laughing. And then Sayaka goes to open up her letter and slices her fingers from the blade taped inside. Everyone goes silent. They stare at her with wide eyes, all save for one.

“Gawd, Sayaka,” Ayaka just laughs, but her stare is hard and cold. “Don’t you get enough letters?”

Without missing a beat, she snatches up one and tears it open without a preamble.

“You’re my guiding light!” she gushes in a fake, high-pitched voice. “So pure and shining! Don’t let anyone overshadow you! Oi, oi, what are the rest of us, chopped liver?”

“A… Ayaka!” Satomi gasped. “It’s rude to look at other people’s letters!”

Sayaka joins in the laughter as her blood stains the envelope red, red, red. Someone outside the recording booth is already screaming to get the first aid team.

“I’m sure they didn’t mean it like that! I certainly don’t feel that way!”

Someone is rushing with the first aid kit.

“After all, you girls are everything to me!”

One of them just bursts into tears. Ayaka teases her for being soft. Satomi’s gaze flickers nervously. And Sayaka is pulled into a tight embrace.

“I’m sorry,” is whispered oh so pitifully into her ear, away from the microphone. “I’m so, so, sorry.��

Sayaka’s fingers are bandaged up but they finish the session. The staff is the one that opens the letters now, all of them tentative and with utensils to make sure none of the others are dangerous. When done, they set the opened letters in front of each girl that the letter is for.

“I’m glad you don’t go to public school anymore,” one letter says. “Those pigs would’ve dirtied you.”

“You’re too pure for us normies,” another says.

“I’ll always forgive you, Sayaka-chan,” is written in a crude scrawl.

Are these letters really for her?

–

Sayaka’s Room is going strong. And now she can feel the blogger’s eyes where she goes. She’s painfully aware of someone following her as she’s shopping for groceries to prepare dinner with Ayaka. They’re unremarkable in every way and always on their phone. They would slip under the radar of any other person.

Sayaka glances at them. They flinch. She smiles. They look so dazzled.

They’re not even shy about snapping her picture.

It doesn’t show up on the blog. They must’ve thought that smile was for them alone.

In a way, it was. Treat someone like they’re special and they’re all the more likely to follow you even if it’s to the ends of the earth.

–

The Crane Wife was one of her favorite stories growing up if only because it was one of the precious few that her father read to her at night.

There really had been something sweet and melancholy about it, namely about the woman who plucked her own feathers for her lover’s sake.

Plucking herself thin so that she could support him. Essentially destroying herself for his financial gain. It was a romantic sacrifice and how she justified her father’s absence as time went on.

But sometimes, her mind wandered within the story.

If the crane wife had never fled, what would happen?

Surely, her lover would make her promise not to hurt herself anymore, right? Surely, he’d work harder to support them without needing to sacrifice her, right?

Except… Life could be hard, sometimes. Money still needed to be made if you were to survive.

What were another few feathers when you’re looking to preserve your livelihood?

If that man never let the crane wife escape, then what would’ve happened? Would she be plucked until all that remained was a naked corpse to cook and consume?

Or would she have snapped and stabbed her once lover through the heart with her sharp beak?

The human chest was surprisingly durable despite the heart being such a fragile thing, but if the crane wife could slip her beak between those ribs like so…

(Sayaka twisted the knife, digging it in deep. The red bloomed under her gloved hand like a rose.)

The heart really was such a fragile thing, she thought.

–

She returned to her place with Ayaka soon after that to strip away the blood-soaked clothes and gloves. It was Ayaka who ran the bath afterward at just the temperature she liked.

“It’s no problem, Saya,” Ayaka said like it was nothing. “I have a couple of favors I needed to pull anyway. No one will ever know.”

Ayaka squeezed her shoulder, and Sayaka very nearly sank deeper into the water. It took everything in her to not curl up and scream.

“So,” Ayaka began, speaking slowly like she was approaching a cornered animal. “How are you feeling?”

Sayaka breathed in. She breathed out.

“The funny thing is that once I decided to kill them… It wasn’t as difficult as I thought it’d be to actually…do it. I think that swimsuit photoshoot was harder.”

“I can believe that,” Ayaka sighed. “Well, I already called some guys to get rid of the body. And the detective said that the guy was just some loser shut-in, so no one’s gonna be looking for them. Not even their family. They were disowned years ago.”

Sayaka clenched her hand into a fist against her thigh.

“That makes things way easier.” Ayaka patted her head like she was a child. “Next time, don’t worry about getting your hands dirty. I’m always here to help, Saya. I promise.”

Sayaka leaned into her embrace, not saying another word as she soaked.

–

There was a boy she liked in middle school. She started liking him after she saw him carry a crane across the campus no matter how much the crane protested and flapped. He held onto that crane securely even as he struggled.

What a pure and earnest boy.

She wondered what he would think of someone like her if he knew the truth.

Would he still…?

[artz16]

Valentine Duos!

Happy Valentine’s Day!

[danganronpa-shipping-galore]

[shsl-analyzer-guy]

There's no way I finish this piece before the day ends but I'll share the draft ANYWAYS HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAYAKAAAAAAA

[gladosluver]

i made these based on the original few-month-old drafts i had for danganronpa: mitarai and it made me realize how fucking insane it was.

it is still very much insane (this IS danganronpa after all) but the original story was so so so much more crazy. dont worry i didnt water it down too much, i just made it make more sense

not trying to spoil anything... but some characters featured did change, and theres a lot i plan to include that arent pictured here ;)

[vksims]

"Stay Strong, Dream On!"

Daydream ☼ Project as pictured during their most recent performance. The group has just finished their latest tour to great success and plans to take a break to work on new music before hitting the road again.

Sources say the group will be living together with their manager and other staff to focus on their songs. The location of this group house is undisclosed until further notice.

[painedpen]

An unexpected win for the HnK fandom!

For those of you who don’t know, Houseki no Kuni is a manga/anime about sentient gemstones that fight against moon people who want to break them apart and use them as jewelry. Think Steven Universe if it was 73x more fucked up.

Im going to show y’all a list of all of the characters, their gemstones, and where they rank on the mohs hardness scale:

Makoto: Verdelite, Hardness of 7

Kyoko: Purple Spinel, Hardness of 8

Byakuya: Blue Alexandrite, Harness of 8.5

Aoi: Aquamarine, Hardness of 8

Yuta: Blue Zircon, Hardness of 7.5

Yasuhiro: Citrine, Hardness of 7

Hiroko: Heliodor, Hardness of 7.5

Toko: Grey Garnet, Hardness of 6.5

Sayaka: Larimar, Hardness of 5

Ayaka: Pink Kunzite, Hardness of 6.5

Junko: Sapphire, Hardness of 9

Mukuro: Sapphire, Hardness of 9

Leon: Blue Topaz, Hardness of 8

Chihiro: Variscite, Hardness of 4

Taichi: Prehnite, Hardness of 6

Mondo: Purple Diamond, Hardness of 10

Daiya: Purple Padparadscha, Hardness of 9.5

Takemichi: Golden Beryl, Hardness of 8

Kiyotaka: Ruby, Hardness of 9

Takaaki: Almondine, Hardness of 8.5

Celestia: Cinnabar, Hardness of 2

Sakura: White Diamond, Hardness of 10

Kenshiro: Antarcticite, Hardness of 3

The story begins with Makoto forming, and being found by Mondo. Mondo takes him back home, and allows Hiroko and Kyoko to fix him up. Once Makoto is all dressed and ready, Mondo becomes responsible for teaching him about everything, including how to fight.

Makoto goes on his first patrol with Mondo, and his partner Takemichi. A sunspot appears, and Mondo makes quick work of it. However, they begin to shoot arrows tipped with purple gemstones.

Mondo and Takemichi immediately recognize these gems as Purple Padparadscha, also known as Daiya. Mondo falls into a rage, and eventually gets back all of Daiya’s pieces. However, he gets broken in several places as a result.

Kyoko and Hiroko, the doctors, appear, and begin piecing the two of them back together. Makoto stays in the infirmary out of worry. Kiyotaka enters almost immediately, and he begins talking with Makoto, sharing stories about Mondo.

Daiya and Mondo are put back together, and emotional scenes ensue. However, it’s now time for winter, and Makoto’s first hibernation.

Makoto doesn’t seem to be all that tired, though, and asks Kongo if he can stay up. By doing this, he meets Kenshiro, a kind gem who’s in charge of the Winter Watch.

The two of them bond over the course of winter, and Kenshiro teaches Makoto things about fighting that Makoto couldn’t have gotten anywhere else. He realizes quickly that Kenshiro was Sakura’s mentor, as Sakura formed during winter as well.

They have fun together, but Makoto slips, and ends up losing his arms to the ice floes. Desperate to help, Kenshiro brings him to a puddle of golden alloy. As the alloy fights with Makoto’s inclusions, a rare winter sunspot appears.

Kenshiro fends them off despite his fragile nature. During this, the gold alloy forms into a solid metal box around Makoto, trapping him inside. Kenshiro comes out on top in his battle, although he sustains many serious breaks. He begins trying to free Makoto from the gold box.

Suddenly, something strikes Kenshiro from behind, breaking him completely. Makoto is helpless as he watches the Lunarians take him away. At the very last moment, the alloy begins to agree with Makoto, and take form as his arms, releasing him from the box.

Makoto chases after the retreating Lunarians in hopes of rescuing Kenshiro, but they’re too far up in the sky. Despite his greatest efforts, Kenshiro is taken. Makoto has to take care of the rest of the Winter Watch by himself, and meets the others when they wake up consumed with shame and guilt.

The others want to know about Makoto’s new golden arms, but Makoto can’t bring himself to recount the events of winter to them. They continue to bother Makoto about it, until Mondo and Kiyotaka intercept and take him somewhere private.

There’s going to be more, but that’s all I have worked out for now.

Tadaa!

[problamticsideanna]

[despair-to-future-arcs]

I get that there will probably be some fighting but maybe some people should stay outside on standby rather than going in the shelter, too many people could cause suspicions

...I...I think you might be right, it's too many people...

Too many people going inside? You think so?

Counting the numbers, that's about 9 in total and if we all go in together that be too suspicious, don't you think?

Plus wouldn't he recognize Hiroko and Miyuki? Given Hiroko was at the adult shelter given he would think you sided with Haiji Towa and Miyuki was with Masashi. I think it would be odd if she were to come back alone, right?

Oh shit... your right, I didn't even think about that.

Sorry Koko, I don't think I could get inside there if he sees me, so better safe then sorry...

Wow, I...I didn't think of it like that; I wanted to join in to kick his sorry butt and to reunite with some friends.

Then... maybe we should cut down the numbers? I think that be the safest option...

Yeah, honestly I think I rather stick to being outside and not being alone with that asshole.

I've already been molested by that Kotoko bitch, no way in hell I'm gonna let that happen again!

Sa-Same here, I already had nearly been sexually assualted as an Idol too so I'll pass...

Aww, yeah I...I guess I didn't consider that, thanks Hitaru...

Well... who else wants to join then? I mean, I still feel we should have more people inside the shelter.

I'll join, after all what this fucker is doing pisses me off so yeah, leave it to me!

Ye-Yeah same here, I wanna help save those girls and get them outta there, I'll even bring Cheri with me as a weapon!

Mee-?!

Okay so that Takemichi, Fujiko, Cheri and Hitaru...? Does anyone else want to join...?

...I want to join as well, since this is about Jataro and his mom, I want to make sure we take that guy down.

I know given that I am a head of Future Foundation but he doesn't know the leader has been change so meaning he might still think it's Mr. Osono.

Plus if Jataro is there, I...I do think he would need as much emotional support as he can.

Yeah I...I agree that Jataro is likely going to join since this is his father, we might need to ask about that.

Alright so that be myself, Otoha, Hitaru, Takemichi, Fujiko and Cheri; everyone else should wait outside.

[fruit-punch-clown]

Ayaka: This is BULLSHIT!! Hiroko: This is an outrage! Fujiko: I'm into fat Bitchs Yuta: DOWN WITH THE QUEEN!!! Taichi: WAIT!!!!!!!!! Taichi: Does the queen have that gyatt?????? MM. Takemichi: Man shut you bitch ass-