#ayaka haneyama

[magioftheseas]

Honest Feelings

Summary: In the end, Sayaka thinks back to those she liked and those she didn't.

Rating: T

Warnings: References to canon violence and death.

Notes: I forgot to cross-post this... Similar to the Kaito fic from a while back, I wanted to write a short introspective piece with Sayaka. She’s still my best girl. Features also Ayaka who is criminally underrated even for a udg target. ;w;

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The first person she liked was Ayaka. Ayaka didn’t like her at first, or at least she said as much to her face shortly after they met.

“It must be nice to be born with the kind of face that everyone likes!” Ayaka had cackled. “That can make things a lot easier...but it can also make things a lot harder if you’re unlucky. I wish you luck, Mai-zo-no-san.”

Ayaka was sharp-tongued and often irritable. While everyone else was preppy and cheerful, Ayaka would always go on the offensive, tearing down any perceived flaws without missing a beat. It had been clear from the start that Ayaka was as perceptive as she was talented, and any nasty comments directed at her were brushed off with a sneer.

Sayaka couldn’t help but admire that. Ayaka continually being so unimpressed just motivated her to push forward. She liked Ayaka, but she wouldn’t be surprised if Ayaka despised her. For the longest time, she had even assumed as much.

And then, Ayaka got between her and a bottle of water that someone threw. It had just been water. Only water, but...

“Calm down, Maizono-san,” Ayaka had snapped as she towel-dried her hair. “You’re acting like that creep threw acid at me.”

She had liked Ayaka. She had really liked Ayaka.

When Ayaka gave her a cheeky smile; when Ayaka said she was fine and swung her arms around while joking about wiping that creep out...

It was then that Sayaka realized she might’ve been a little bit in love. Shortly after, she thought about how that love would cause more and more people to try and hurt her if it ever got out.

Be better, she thought to herself. You have to be someone who can protect everyone.

(Ayaka never stopped being the one who protected her and the others.)

--

“Is everything alright, Maizono-san? Are you suuuure?”

When Enoshima asked that with a pouting face, she had been...grateful? Irritated? Why? While Enoshima could play the part of overly familiar and vapid, it didn’t mean she was stupid. If anything, Enoshima should’ve reminded her of her groupmates. She does know that Megumi was a huge fan.

Megumi had even modeled herself after Enoshima on occasion.

“I heard!” Enoshima had exclaimed right into her ear. It wasn’t necessary. There wasn’t anyone in the garden except them. Sayaka had come in for some peace and quiet, but... “Have you really been getting harassed lately?!”

“It’s unfortunate,” Sayaka could only sigh. “But someone took a picture of the last sports festival.”

She was just trying to be a good friend. Cheering for Naegi. Congratulating him... And this was her ‘reward’ for it.

“I’m more worried about Naegi-kun. He says he’s fine, but...” She does worry her lower lip. “Kirigiri-san is looking into whoever did it... Everyone’s been so anxious. That’s the last thing I wanted.”

“Well, yeah! You got a stalker!” Enoshima huffed, waving her hand about. “That sorta thing MEGA sucks, y’know?! It’s sweet that you’re thinking about our class, but... What about you, huh? Are you okay?”

She’s annoyed to be asked, but Enoshima is just being considerate, right?

“It’s unfortunate.” She sighs again. “But it’s...normal for idols.”

“That doesn’t make it okay,” Enoshima said. “For the record, it’s bullshit that you can’t even date.”

...it...

“Naegi-kun and I aren’t like that.” She twitched. Just a little. “Your sister...likes him, and I think they’re a much better pair.”

Enoshima scowls. It’s just for a moment. So quick it could be misconstrued as a trick of the light, but Sayaka knew better.

“But what about you?” Enoshima’s pressing now. “Are you okay or what?”

It’s just cynicism, Sayaka had thought. Enoshima-san isn’t a bad person. She’s worried, not malicious. She’s different from Ayaka, but...

...if.

If she hadn’t turned her face back then... She wonders what would’ve happened.

Would it have made a difference?

If she hadn’t smiled so brightly.

If she hadn’t said, “I’m okay, Enoshima-san. Thank you for worrying about me.”

If she hadn’t said, “You’re a good person.”

If she had actually taken in how Enoshima’s face twitched—how Enoshima forced a smile right back...

“Well, we’re classmates, right? Mai-zo-no-saaaan?”

Enoshima cackled, like a flame. Right before it blazes. But as Sayaka hadn’t been burned, she overlooked it.

--

I didn’t like Enoshima-san.

It’s ridiculous that she can admit that to herself now. It doesn’t even matter anymore.

The people I like best—are honest ones. With earnest feelings. The kind of person I could never be.

Even when everything seemed so sublime, that had been the case. In all their time together, Sayaka was never able to open her heart to anyone. Not to her classmates who she acted so close to, not to Ayaka, and especially not to Naegi.

Oh, Naegi. He was so earnest and likable. Now that she remembers, she can’t stop the tears from flowing. It hurts. It hurts so much, and her vision is blurring, but she can still see the scarlet of her blood...flowing into the drain.

Naegi had earnestly sworn to protect her. Like Ayaka. To repay him, she plotted a betrayal. Had she always been so...cruel? Or was it an act of despair? Was Enoshima proud?

As she writes the letters, she breathes. It wouldn’t make a difference. She was dying.

I didn’t like Kuwata-kun, either. Please...don’t forgive either of us, Naegi-kun.

“...rry... Sorry... Everyone. I wish... I could sing with you all again...”

I really was too greedy. If Ayaka is out there, I bet she’ll curse me out. Like she did before.

Despite everything, that precious memory caused a smile to crack upon her face.

If the others see the message she left behind, then they won’t be fooled. There’s no coming back, but she hopes they can still find a way forward. Despite everything. She hopes that they can find a way to protect one another.

Maybe if anyone can find a way, it’s Naegi. He’s still so earnest, still so likable—Sayaka can entrust the class to him. She’s sure of it.

“I hope...you find happiness, too, Enoshima...san.”

And within her last words, there underlies a message she had no doubt that Enoshima would get.

Go to hell.

Ayaka would be proud of that if nothing else.

[nite-puff]

i thought this would be fun to ask!! because i know that these guys were originally supposed to be in the game but were later greatly reduced to their hit list cards being collectible items. still, i’ve seen discussions talking about how people want to know more about them/wish they were kept in the game.

i know there are some special cases in here (like kanon being one of the leads in ultra despair hagakure) but for consistency’s sake, i’ve decided to include them if they didn’t appear in the main game. (so that means komaru, yuta, taichi, and hiroko don’t count).

please reblog this for a bigger voting pool!!! because i know what my mutuals and followers are gonna answer, so it’d be nice to know other people’s thoughts as well. it’d also be nice to hear your thoughts as to why you picked your character. it doesn’t have to be deep or anything. could just be that you want to know more about that character!

lastly, here is the wiki page with all their hit list cards (as well as the conversations komaru, toko, and hiroko have about each character), if you want a reference to help you choose. there’s also another wiki page that outlines their characters in a more traditionally fandom wiki way.

thanks!!

[teddybearty]

Hey…ya like girls~?

[dealerlover]

udg if it was good (slash jay)

aka udg cast crafting the most INCOMPREHENSIBLE stuff but it gets worse as it goes on. these are so ooc and they're just for fun so please dont flame me for mischaracterization

i get the idea with a lot of these but what the actual FUCK are some of them on. raw chicken chestplate and enchanted egg had me grinning ear to ear WHAT WAS THE VISION. bread boat goes crazy tho

ik i didnt get everyone they literally would not fit

[takemichi-yukimaru]

[thebruno65]

Pretty sad there aren't that many in total, or at least ones that i can think of.

When it comes to design, most of the time a lot of people will complain how most girls in the franchise share a feature, whether that be body type, clothing, etc.

But something that I don’t see talked about as much is how almost every girl has the same facial placement. Like, eyes, nose and mouth are all placed in the same spot for most of the women, regardless of anything at all.

Which kinda sucks bc in contrast to them, the boy designs are super different from one another, like the obvious ones like Teru, Hifumi, and Ryoma with their different designs. But also, Kazuichi with his more squished in eyes, Dr2 Togami with more puffed-up cheeks, Nekomaru with his buff/JoJo esq face, Tengan with his showing his age, etc. they’re def more unique in that regard.

Ofc I’m not saying that ALL designs are the same, as seen in here these are some of the exceptions I found: Sakura with a more masculine/buff structure, Ayaka with a bigger nose, Fujiko with her bigger eyes and cat mouth like Hifumi, Terus mom with the same design as his, Kyoka with her… sideways eyes… I mean she’s a plant hybrid so ig that’s possible…

Heck, even Sato, Kiriko and Ikue have this! While not obvious at first glance, these 3 actually have more squished eyes, and they’re more upwards than the rest. Things like these is what makes these designs surprisingly stand out from the rest in my eyes, these tiny adjustments like moving up the eyes a bit, or elongating their nose, or thickening their eyebrows, make their designs stand out much more than you think.

[problamticsideanna]

[kincalloutsandotherstuff]

You kin Ayaka Haneyama?

Well, since she's a minor character with minimal screen time I'm assuming you're either joking or it's based off of hcs.

You also suppress your emotions, particularly your anger. You find her realistic and wish there was more information about her. You're likely not as ruthless as her, but still have those tendencies when push comes to shove due to your thirst for validation, I'm going to assume you're the second choice a lot of the time(maybe a compared child?)

Can I also kin assign you Alice Angel from BATIM?

[danggirlronpa]

Was looking through the ol' THH artbook scans, and I don't know that I've seen this particular concept art before. So if anyone ever wanted to see the concepts for Sayaka's bandmates, here they are!

[danganronpa-shipping-galore]

Danganronpa Ship: Ayaka/Sayaka 🤎💙

Imagine...

Ayaka is insecure about her looks and feels unimportant in her pop idol group, but Sayaka actually believes the complete opposite.

[dr-sapphic-tourney]

SHSL Sapphics 1-1-4

[nite-puff]

you’ve asked US.. but what are your thoughts on each of the captives??

OOOOOOHHH. yippeeee. i’ve spent so much time talking about certain captives to my friends in private. might as well talk about them here too!!

let’s get the ones that show up out of the way:

komaru: girly!!!!!! love you teenage girl protagonists that act like teenage girls. gotta be one of my favorite genders. i do have to refresh myself on udg to really get a better grasp on her nuances and growth throughout the game. but from what i do understand. she’s so nice. top three protag!!

yuta: wish we got more time with him fr!!!!! i do wish they kinda tried to make him more different from aoi. because they’re both kinda just hyper sports kids (at first glance. ofc aoi becomes more than that. maybe yuta would too if he stuck around more). it’d be nice to see what separates them. can’t believe he’s the only character death in udg. like wtf (taichi doesn’t count). he was still a nice presence when we had him. fly high, king.

taichi: fun fact. i actually don’t have many opinions on taichi. i know there are people who very much do. but idk. he didn’t really stand out to me. and that’s a me thing. not saying he’s a bad character or anything. i do think he’s funny when juxtaposed with hiroko and takaaki. loving husband and father who’s still happily married and the two most divorced individuals on earth.

hiroko: HIROKO!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE HER! I COULD TALK ABOUT HER FOR HOURS. i came to the realization recently that she’s probably my favorite female character in all of dr. she’s in my top 5 favorite dr characters for sure. she’s who mondo wishes he was. she’s so kind and loving but also cool and badass. there’s so much about her that i want to know. which sucks because the writers don’t really want to develop her beyond “hiro’s hot mom” other than the fact that she’s an ex-biker turned nurse. which is. really cool!! i love her and want to know more please!!!! ultra despair hagakure 2: hiroko edition please!!!!! rando headcanon: she has a tattoo sleeve from her biker days. there’s a prevailing fish motif in it, to go with her jacket design.

okay. now the other guys.

takaaki: i mean. cmon, it’s takaaki. of course i have thoughts on him. i tried to abstain from voting in the poll, but then accidentally voted (i’ll say who when i get to them). but if i voted on purpose, i would’ve voted for him. he’s just…. man. a friend translated his beta design sheet recently and found out that they went into his design with the intention of making him look like the saddest old man ever. and yeah. they succeeded. i feel like a lot of people want takaaki in a game because it feels like what we already know about him implies a lot of nuance and character growth. he’s the only captive we know of that has a weapon on him (other than protag komaru). and he seems very serious, but is capable of having the same sense of justice and emotional highs as kiyotaka?? and they even point out how unlucky the guy was/is in the main game. like there’s a lot already going on there. what’s it like to be the son of a disgraced businessman/prime minister?? how does it feel to be the father of an aspiring prime minister (who fucking DIED. at the hands of someone trying to make money off his death)?? man…

takemichi: my rotten soldier. my sweet cheese. my good time boy. imagine your one job being to protect your best friend and lead your gang in his absence, but you indirectly fail at both of those and lose everything in one fell swoop. yeah, it wasn’t takemichi’s fault. but imagine if he still internalized the fuck out of that. if you can’t tell by the fact that he’s literally my pfp. i also have a lot of thoughts about takemichi. it’s almost like mondo and kiyotaka are the two characters that ive been hyperfixated on for the past 4-5 years. i feel like they were setting up the “cute but deadly” trope with him, what with them hyper focusing on his short stature and boyish looks but also his positions as head of the elite guard and mondo’s bodyguard. and i like that trope when it comes to him. he’s mondo’s cool best friend, and they both know that. i also can’t help but imagine his dynamics with other characters. his dynamic with takaaki is a given. mondo and kiyotaka were a standout duo. so it’s only natural that people like to think about what the dynamic between their respective closest persons would be like as well, especially with the whole “cop and delinquent” thing. i also love to imagine what his dynamic with hiroko was gonna be like. it’s clear that she’s automatically endeared to him. like she automatically gives him a nickname, something she doesn’t do to any other captive save for protag komaru. (i love “michi” as his fanon nickname, but “ruru” will always have my heart). also they’re both past and present delinquents. they’d obviously bond over that. just let me see them have one conversation please!!

kanon: uuuhhhhhhhhhhhh… i know that she’s the victim of an author who just wanted to write a fetish novel. and she could’ve been a way better character had someone else handled her. but man. i can’t get passed how she was written in udh. it also kind of breaks how we’re supposed to view the respective student-captive relationship. like every student thinks fondly of their respective “closest person.” and then there’s leon. who’s made very uncomfortable by his. sucks for him ig. by that logic, i can’t get behind the idea that her portrayal in udh was what was always intended to be her character. like that can’t possibly be the case right?? like they must’ve had another idea before handing her off to a writer who wanted to write a fetish novel. then again, udg’s writing in general tends to get weird. so who knows atp. also who knows if udh even happened. it feels like they retconned it in the dr3 anime by having hiro there and never mentioning the events of the light novel.

ayaka: she’s the one i accidentally voted for. and i mean. i wasn’t that hung up on it. cuz ayaka’s neat. people brought up some really good arguments for why she would’ve been included in the main game, very notably bringing up how she could’ve paralleled kotoko when it comes to how it’s like to be a young girl in the entertainment business. also obligatory “komaru was a fan of her girl group, so that interaction would’ve been fun to see.” there’s definitely something you can say about her being the least popular out of her girl group, but also being the only one left alive after everything. like imagine that being the one time you stood out among your peers?? it’s also fun to imagine what her friendship with sayaka looked like. there must’ve been something unique to their dynamic if she was the one chosen as a captive and not the three other girls. wonder what it was… only negative thing i have to say is that i wish they gave her a different name. just don’t have it be one letter away from “sayaka” please.

grand bois chéri: cat :3. that’s it really. nothing much going on there. there was no way he would’ve effected the plot if he was kept in, yet he was scrapped anyway. so there can’t possibly be much there.

aloysius: as we move down the list, i start to have less to say about these characters. yeah, i don’t have much on aloysius. i do think his potential dynamic with byakuya is interesting, considering the two have a better relationship than byakuya has with his family (which, i know why that is, but it’s still fun to think about). there’s something to be said about him being close to the elites of the world, but still only as a servant to them. like there could’ve been something cool there. does byakuya still only think of him as a servant, despite him apparently being the closest person to the heir?? much to think about. (side note: i just figured out how to pronounce his name not to long ago. it’s aloysius as in. o’hare.) (also obligatory “alfred reference”)

fujiko: i think she’s very silly!!!! she has a really cute design, and for that reason alone, i wish we could’ve seen more of her. i think her interactions with komaru could’ve been really nice because, again, komaru is a fan of her work. and i feel like the whole writing debate hifumi and toko had in thh would’ve been rehashed for a conversation between fujiko and toko. i can’t trust that the dr writers would’ve done something worthwhile with her, and i think that’s what’s really holding me back from discovering her full potential, writing-wise. tho i know there are fujiko fans who have really good arguments for what she could have going for her. and for that reason, i think she would’ve been neat to see. also the design. the design is really cute.

fuhito: another character i don’t have many thoughts on. i haven’t read the kirigiri novels, but i know they get into some lore on him. i don’t know how big his presence is in them but still, maybe that’s why im less privy to wanting to see more of him. still when it comes to thh grandpas, there’s definitely worse.

kenshiro: i feel like he’d definitely give off a more hiroko vibe if he was in the game. like a calmer presence to offset all the chaos. would also love to find out how he’s managed to survive during all that. it’d get turned into a lesson about hope and persevering despite it all. i feel like he and takemichi would get along. i can see them having a very danganronpa-like conversation where they promise to spar after everything goes back to normal and kenshiro gets better. death flags are raised. i always pictured him as stoic but very kind, very much like sakura. idk where im going with this. he’s not my personal pick for “character i want to know more of” but i wouldn’t be against finding out new information. he’s just neat.

kameko: bug. idk. once again, not much more to say.

and those are my thoughts. i’m, of course, biased to the characters who are close to the characters i have a hyperfixation on. but i think they all have potential to be cool characters (save for like. the animals). some didn’t live up to that potential, while others didn’t get that chance in the first place. but it’s cool that fans are interested anyways. tbh i really love the fans that are really into the captives. they’re insanely creative when it comes to crafting their ideas about these characters that the writers have most likely completely forgot. but it’s fun to imagine things anyway. anyways, someone go bother kodaka and ask about what the hell is up with these guys.

(this is also an invitation for people to talk to me about the captives more. please. my inbox is open.)

[s0va-idalin]

Some sketches of "Sova, why?"

...Maybe I'll end them too.

[dealerlover]

i made these based on the original few-month-old drafts i had for danganronpa: mitarai and it made me realize how fucking insane it was.

it is still very much insane (this IS danganronpa after all) but the original story was so so so much more crazy. dont worry i didnt water it down too much, i just made it make more sense

not trying to spoil anything... but some characters featured did change, and theres a lot i plan to include that arent pictured here ;)

[brainfilehasstoppedworking]

Did this while on call with a friend

Still kinda torn between "EVERYONE SHUT THE FUCK UP" and "*loud fake sexual noises*" for Takaaki

[ayakahaneyamafr]

I got bored lmao, anyway ayaka peak