#aw here it goes

[sunkissedfawn]

[twink-with-an-agenda]

the way they constantly haunt me. sick and twisted

[iri-vail]

?/∞ of my favorite untamed moments: wei wuxian's "aw shit here we go" moment after jiang cheng's dramatic entrance

[cloudysarts]

this show would be good if literally everything about it was different

[angelmachines]

to be clear i think the funniest direction to take ritsu and terus relationship is that they arent besties Or haters i think they try really really hard to be nice to each other (not because they dislike each other, just to make a good impression) for mob + their works sake but they see through each other immediately, and, because they both hate losing, it just devolves into passive aggressive middle school pettiness where they both keep doing really nice things for each other in a battle to see which one of them will cave first, all while inwardly seething and setting up more and more challenges to prove theyre the Better more Genuine friend in between like. warrior cats roleplay or whatever these two get up to. except that it backfires and they realize they do kind of sincerely really like each other as people. but also they still one up each other constantly for fun

[saints-who-never-existed]

Y'know, I really do think just about every mention of God in this show is something of a double-edged sword and ought to be interrogated as such.

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I've written before about "More than God loves them.", for example.

How, at a surface level, we might take it to mean "Gee Captain, you sure do love your men a lot!" But it carries less weight within a story where we're shown that God doesn't appear to love them all that much and may even be actively against them.

To love your men more than God loves them just doesn't mean as much when God doesn't love them in the first place.

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And now I'm thinking we ought to interrogate "And remember - God lies in all realms!" in a similar way.

It's meant to be a comfort - "Don't be afraid, Mr Collins, God will be with you even as you venture into a brand-new, dangerous place!". But, again, we're presented with with very little evidence that God loves or cares about or offers any protection to them so perhaps the question ought to be asked - Why would you even want a god like that to be with you in all realms?

How can it really be a good thing to have God with you when he's inflicting such pain on you? And what means of relief have you when he's always there, with you in all realms, inescapable?

[kyouka-supremacy]

Again the sickness speaking but here's something that has been going through my mind since forever:

I feel like a good way to mitigate a lot of discontent with the doa arc ending and in general the whole Dazai-being-flawless issue bsd has going on is by comparing bsd to Sherlock Holmes by Arthur Conan Doyle. Please bear with me for two minutes.

When Sherlock Holmes was being published, people were intrigued and enamoured by Holmes' brilliant and charming, crimes-solving figure. People read the stories for the pure joy of being left gaping at his superhuman wits again and again; they didn't want to see him fail, they wanted to be shocked and amazed by his genius. When Holmes died and then came back, nobody lamented it being unrealistic, because realism was not what people were reading the books for! They were reading to be impressed, to cheer for the hero and then take satisfaction in seeing him turn out victorious. That's the author-reader deal that was made there: to impress and to enjoy being impressed.

As of recently I feel like we've been asking from bsd something it never promised us in the first place. Maybe it's just not that kind of series! Maybe it's more about surprising the reader with how the hero is going to make it and less about highlighting his flaws and insecurities. And like, that's okay! That's why Dazai getting away with it isn't it him getting away with it “again”, it's just how bsd is; in a way, it's what makes bsd bsd.

I think it really clicked with me like it never did before when I watched the last episode of season 5; because the arc ending felt so shocking and unpredictable, very deus-ex-machina trope, a little underwhelming in its lowering the stakes that were there the whole time, and yet so extremely on brand with bsd, I didn't even have it in me to be disappointed. It was so similar to the Guild's arc ending and even more to the Cannibalism arc ending, and maybe it really is just a pattern, maybe it really is what bsd aspires to be, and that's okay too.

Also, I can't stretch this enough: if it's not your cup of tea, that's fine. I can't say it's mine either. But I feel like criticizing bsd now for how it's always been falls quite short, because it really feels like demanding from it what it never promised to deliver in the first place. That's just as far as my current perception of the series goes, though, so feel free to disagree with me on this.

[abrahamvanhelsings]

the hitch in van helsing's words when he says "i beseech you" im going to cry for real this time. it's not even simply that he knows how important it is that he gets arthur to trust him, that he's conscious of their duty to all living souls and lucy herself to do this to her and how difficult this will be physically and emotionally. it's that arthur now distrusts him, cries at him in anger - arthur, the man who looks like his lost son and whom he loves because of it. the man whose love and respect he may now never get back after suggesting mutilating lucy's corpse. he isn't just desperate for all the men in that room to trust him so they can give lucy peace and keep the living safe. that's the sacrifice of his father's heart splitting in two right there. wtf alan burgon.

[greywoe]

[...] and then something touched him and he whirled, shouting... ...flailing for the dagger he kept by his bedside and managing only to knock it to the floor. Wex danced away from him. Reek stood behind the mute, his face lit from below by the candle he carried. "What?" Theon cried. Mercy. "What do you want? Why are you in my bedchamber? Why?"

(when the nightmare continues even after waking up)

[orcelito]

You know, sometimes I think about being 16 years old in the car with my dad talking about how I wanted to move out of Indiana when I got older bc gay marriage was illegal here, & then him replying that it was probably only a matter of time before gay marriage was legalized anyways

And then two years later, it was.

It's only been 9 years since then. I think a lot of younger people, especially early 20s or younger, forget how recent this was. I identified as a lesbian back then. I lived three years knowing I was gay before gay marriage was legalized. It was only 3 years, but it was 3 years during my teens, which are some of the longest years of your life. There's something about being 16 and struggling with school stress and friend drama and On Top Of It All living with the reality that you wouldn't be able to marry the person you love if you stayed in your home.

But change did come, just as my dad said it would.

This wasn't very long ago. There are still so many bigots in this country. But we've also made a lot of progress overall. We might end up with steps in the wrong direction, but the fight is not over. The fight for gay equality didn't end with marriage legalization. Hell, even the fight for gender equality isn't over yet, given all the problems that remain today and the fact that women aren't even equal to men in the eyes of the constitution (look up the Equal Rights Amendment if you haven't heard of it. It still has not been adopted.)

We're still fighting. This was not as long ago as young people like to think. But even with setbacks, we've taken steps forward. Stay strong, organize, join protests, and Keep Fighting. In our lifetimes, we will see more change for the better. I promise you.

[yeyinde]

Would you ever consider becoming a published author? I love your fanfics but seeing you recommend dark romance novels does make me wonder what a dark romance book from yeyinde would be like

published author kinda scares me ngl lmao but maybe. i enjoy writing fanfic, dgmw, but i have a lot of ideas i want to try that don't really fit into the fandoms i write for. the more i read and write and experiment, the more i want to take on and do. and there's only so many situations i can put these particular characters into, so. thinking about it.

and also, Vi Khi Nao, Shiloh Sloane, Tanya Tagaq, and Agustina Bazterrica have def had an impact on me when it comes to writing, so!! who knows. maybe i'll get around to writing something of my own eventually—if only so i can slide into their dms with my kindle unlimited author hallpass to chat them up and figure out how their brains work.

[uncanny-tranny]

I was told by someone that I couldn’t call myself a transsexual because I had to go off T for health reasons and I haven’t had any gender affirming surgeries yet since I’m poor and disabled. Is this true? What are like, the requirements to be a transsexual? /gen

The requirements to be transsexual: to identify as transsexual

This might seem too... straightforward, but genuinely, medical transition is so complex and individual that it's worthless to make it so ridged. There are so many reasons you have to stop some aspect(s) of transition, even if you didn't want to! That doesn't mean you never transitioned or that it's "lesser" now that you stopped.

Genuinely, from the bottom of my heart, I, for one, couldn't care less if you call yourself a transsexual. To my mind, it is as political as it is an identity. Being a transsexual isn't just about your identity but also your place in this world. "Transsexual menace" isn't just a cutesy little slogan but a political battle cry. It can be an attitude about changing sex, about the lucid and plastic nature of people, and so much more.

The word transsexual was made and popularized, honestly, with the idea that we are separate from others. I think we can take this back and make it ours. We can start by actually making it our own, not the cis world's own.

[harvestmoth]

okay last one. au where nothing goes wrong at all ever (a lie) and melia venam gay moment

[jojea]

WHAT IF I CRY—

[aurosoul]

turned 30 yesterday and thought about how incredible it is to be publicly trans in a very prominent tech field, and how amazing the outpouring of support has been. feeling good about life and happy to still be here :)

[xenomorphicdna]

@aluminum-angels i made an entire doodle page just to prove a point

Their relationships do not fail, they get along just fine and they love each other very much

Peace and love among my rw ocs