#autistic physical burnout

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

As an Autistic Person, I am Constantly Wondering am I Experiencing Autistic Burnout or am I Physically Ill?

Neurodivergent_lou

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

How do I recover from severe burnout with an overwhelmingly messy recovery space

How do I clean my overwhelmingly messy recovery space properly if I am severely burnt out

How do I recover from severe burnout if I’m constantly using all of my energy doing the bare minimum

How do I recover from severe burnout

How do I recover

[sciderman]

I swear I have read your big post regarding Peter Parker's neurodivergence and why it is best to avoid labelling him, but he definitely has a weird brain

Can't find it and feel kinda sad about it cuz I deeply related to it

i know exactly which post you're talking about and i can't find it either! i've raked through my archive, and it's just - nowhere to be seen. i think tumblr eated it (it happens.)

really, tumblr's search functionality is so so useless, i don't know what to tell you. there are plenty of keywords i can search to find it that post, but the search functionality actually just does not work!

undiagnosed audhd-addled peter parker, my darling, my light, my life, my everything.

i think peter parker's such an interesting creature to write, because a lot of people will point to a certain behaviour about him and say "this is an autistic thing, right?" but a lot of those behaviours are actually, in my head, tied to certain traumas in peter's life too.

people say "oh, the food thing, peter's a picky eater because he's autistic" and yes, absolutely. but also it's tied to his trauma with his parents.

peter gets overstimulated, and yes, it's an autism thing, but also he was bitten by a radioactive spider and his senses are dialled to 11.

it's a similar case i've found for myself, too – where a lot of friends i have kind of diagnose me because i have autistic traits, but actually - i'm hesitant to claim the label or pursue diagnosis because, actually, i know where these certain behaviours come from, and they come from certain traumas. there are events i can pinpoint in my life and say "yep. that's where this behaviour comes from."

so - i think there's a lot of overlap between trauma and autistic traits. the brain is very complex! i think the reason for that overlap is maybe as simple as the fact that people with autism and people with trauma are both doing the same thing - developing behaviours to protect themselves or soothe themselves. so - i think it's nice to be able to see a character like peter parker, who may or may not be autistic, but recognise behaviours in him and see yourself in him.

people who go undiagnosed for whatever reason - people who are really good at masking - so good, in fact, that they have no idea they might be on the spectrum - everyone and anyone at all can look at peter parker and recognise themselves. because i think we discredit the thought that every single brain does the same thing! develops certain behaviours in order to survive. every brain has that same software - we've just all been faced with different hardships that we need to overcome, and that's were all the differences come in.

autism is a spectrum, i guess - everyone falls into it to some degree. and i think events in your life probably push you along on it. but i don't know, i didn't study brain science. probably what i'm saying is very stupid and uninformed. of course there's brain chemistry involved. but i know people in my life living with autism and certain events in their life have exacerbated certain behaviours or made coping with it a lot more difficult. so maybe trauma is a catalyst.

[ink-asunder]

Someone could make a really cool post about how autism burnout is affected by chronic illness. And by someone, I mean me.

Just consider it. Autism burnout occurs when an autistic person is overworked by the demand of living--as opposed to occupational burnout, or "alot of things keep happening all at once" burnout. And the demand of living is so much higher when you're chronically ill, disabled, and/or in chronic pain.

Self care now has a barrier of being in physical pain. Keeping your livingspace clean so it's not sensory hell is impossible when you can't even bend down. Being in constant physical pain just wears on the body, mind, and emotions in general, meaning even a "sensory good day" still merits the demand for noise cancelling headphones and sunglasses indoors.

Appointments are sensory hell. Offices are always brightly lit, cold, the chairs are uncomfy, and you have to be there and sit still and mask for so fucking long. Not to mention all the physical touch you have to endure. Oh, and the DEMAND AVOIDANCE of it all. I could kill god over giving his most autistic soldiers a chronic illness, because having a chronic condition is just Demands Central, babey.

And keep in mind this is still my life post-accomodation. I wear headphones and sunglasses, I use a shower chair and cane, I block out recovery days after appointments to help recharge. But there's just So Fucking Much that happens as a baseline to being chronically ill that just doesn't happen irl for everybody. Accommodation doesn't stop the meltdowns. It doesn't fix things.

[messy-does-cosmology]

Taking lots of inspiration from my younger self in trying to recover from autistic burnout, and absolutely loving my new stationary from Present&Correct!!! Just what I needed to get back into bullet journalling after a year and a half.

I have almost finished setting up my new office in the spare room! I think it's looking good.

Can you guess where my Honeymoon is this month?

Currently listening to: Rises the Moon by Liana Flores

[eldritchbean-shapeshifter]

had some stressful dreams last night. woke up feeling SUPER dysphoric. nothing happened at work but i still feel exhausted for some reason.

and now i'm sitting in my room procrastinating taking a shower. it's past midnight. but i don't wanna think about how wrong my body feels and showering makes me all too aware of it.

oh the joys of being alive.

[orangepunkwitch-blog]

Sharing this here in case any Lokean followers haven't seen this yet.

Everything Ocean Keltoi has explained, I already knew, but it's nice to hear him not only say it, but have all the points together in one video.

And as someone who, while a newbie Pagan, encountered and started working with Loki first, I never EVER got the whole anti-Loki stance some Heathens have (despite never interacting with them; I've only ever heard of them or saw comment threads and the like online).

The first I've ever heard of Loki was when I was a kid and heard his name mentioned in The Mask. A god that creates such a mask because he thought that was funny? I loved that concept as a kid (and my weird-ass logic made me think I wasn't allowed to convert since I was baptized in the Serbian Orthodox church; my parents never made it seem okay to explore other beliefs... ever). When I became a fully developed adult and my brother passed away in 2011, I became agnostic, until I once expressed to a friend that I wished one could still worship old gods again, because the Norse gods sounded so much nicer than the biblical god. That's when she told me that that's a thing, and I discovered what paganism was. And then I made it a point that, while I will open myself to any of the gods who listened (and even said to them it's okay if they don't want to interact with me, since I'm so used to no god ever listening to me), I still hoped Loki would be the one to answer, because I'd prefer a god with a sense of humor who doesn't judge a mortal for simply being human. The rest is history.

I've had 2 instances where I've asked him for help, as I was desperate and didn't know what else to do and couldn't figure things out for myself. Both times he helped, it sort of put me almost in a state of madness because of HOW he helped (he's helped me with some small stuff too but sometimes the big stuff is.. a LOT). The first one was we were not able to afford rent anymore, as rent kept going up while my muž and I lived in Pittsburgh, so I asked for help, thinking he'd either help with our financial situation (namely I was hoping for a decent-paying job similar to what my muž made) so we could afford to rent elsewhere or that a place would become available that had significantly lower rent. You know, something like that. Instead, he gave us bedbugs. Because he KNEW that our only option was to move in with my parents and I didn't want to resort to that, so he forced my hand. His reasoning roughly being, "It's either the bedbugs or a fire in the building, and I REALLY don't wanna be that guy, so you got bedbugs."

The second time, without going into detail, he induced a non-threatening medical "emergency" (as in, give me a spook bad enough to warrant my first trip in an ambulance) to get the ball rolling to lead me to getting the surgery I needed for my endometriosis. His reasoning being, "You finally have health insurance and there are vaccines available. You have no excuse now. Not even this pandemic."

I'm doing much better now and it's thanks to Loki. He basically was the kick in my ass needed to make the only decision that would actually work out for me, even if I didn't think it would.

Despite making my practice something along the lines of "Serbian Polytheism Pagan Edition," Loki is still in my practice, and helped me learn an awful lot regarding non-xtian beliefs and beings, including and especially the Trickster archetype.

Any Heathen that bans Loki, avoids him, etc. either have a lot of xtian baggage that they still need to work through, or they're the type of people that don't like being held accountable for their actions and kept in check. Xtianity (as it is commonly practiced and forced onto people by power-hungry assholes) has really affected how many look at non-xtian beliefs, because everything has to be compared to xtianity (even some atheists are guilty of this because everything is xtianity to them).

Lately, I haven't had a whole lot of interactions with Loki I feel could be worth-sharing because I'm not having a whole lot of interactions with him in general the past few years (except for everything regarding me getting my surgery) and that's because the gods are giving me space to learn and grow and figure some stuff out on my own. I do chat with them from time to time via divination, but in terms of actions, they're letting me do my thing for a bit.

[theartistichuman]

[cannibalspicnic]

what my autistic burnout feels like

digital art made in procreate

posted again with plain black background bc i like it better

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Autistic Burnout vs Occupational Burnout

Autistic Qualia

[themusicsystem1412]

Hey this is a stretch

But is there anyone who can give us advice on how to advocate our needs while facing the worst autistic burnout we’ve ever had in our lives? While in an environment that’s unwelcoming and ableist and not necessarily going to change because one of the people is arguably abusive (or maybe we’re sensitive)

We can’t keep pretending but these same people are forcing us to mask and be an “adult” for our own benefit but also detriment

We can’t safely unmask at the place we’re staying and they know we -at least- have adhd and ptsd (we talk about our trauma)

Our grandpa is well meaning but his wife is an unbearable dick and somehow they’re both in the medical field and hold extremely outdated and wrong beliefs, so simply stating “I have autism” isn’t going to cut it

What should we do, I know this isn’t a forever arrangement but we’ve already tried to Kermit sewer slide over the wife treating us in a similar but arguably worse way than our past abuser…

[nintala]

so... mental health stuff

brain fuzzy, Im thinking things out

Im realizing lately my mental time delay/time blidness and dissociation is causing me to feel like weeks are only a few days which is also why its been getting harder for me to schedule- Im feeling like I need to constantly make up for literal "lost time".

Even when I notice and understand what day it is, I quickly become lost in time again.

It takes me a few hours after waking to remember what I did the previous day, thats been an issue for most of my life.

It's hard to estimate tasks and I often feel like Im moving in slow motion.

I know I need to seriously rest, its just also hard to step away from so many things fully I dont have the energy for. like my rutines and interests are softly here it's what still gives me a structure, but to step away from working on art projects inorder to rest breaks a lot of my structures.

I feel SO uncomfortable that I have to change things up ... I feel so _prickly_ to describe it, skin crawling lil jabs and then can't sit still. AAAUGH

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

And maybe it only gets worse

But so what?

I have this time that I am given

And the joy that will come from it

The friends I will make

The people I will meet

Maybe it only gets worse

But worse is not an end

Only a process

There is worth in a painful life

Worth in a quiet one

Worth in a limited one

Maybe it never gets better

Maybe it’s all downhill

So what?

There’s still the distance between you and the ground

And ways to slow down

And rest to be had

Even if it only gets worse

It is worth it

[emptyspaxes]

Overload...

One of the best things about college to me is just showing up early to get a good seat away from people and pick where I sit. I love being able to sit away from the flickering bright white lights that loom over the students, yet being able to sit away from windows and distractions that might interfere with my studies. With all these great things soon comes misery though...the seat I pick always ends up having someone trying to sit near me so I have to set my backpack on the chair next to me and sit in the corner if possible. I fear people might think I'm rude, but the noises of others clicking away on computers, talking to their neighbors, smells, and any small noises or motions they make just tend to bother my sensory issues. I have severe sensory issues due to my autism and sensory processing disorder so I go into a meltdown almost every time I show up to class. I love school and learning as it's my special interest and always has been. The ability for me to expand my knowledge in any way possible makes me happy and want to flap my hands around. I just wish people were more considerate and I didn't have to wear headphones just to exist in normal environments. School is great, yet extremely hard and I always miss classes sometimes. I tried online school, but it's hard for me to focus and stay attentive in class. I'd rather sleep through it instead which is a huge issue. I don't know, I just feel as if I need to let out some of my issues and get them off my chest in order to sit through this next class. Sorry if I come off as rude, I don't mean to. I just am struggling so much lately to just exist. I want to curl up in a ball and hide away from society until people acknowledge that those with disabilities can and will be in professional settings too so we need to make things to accommodate them.

[bunnyb34r]

Dishes finally done after 3 days 👍

Finally sent in promo images for craft show (god I hope I'm not too late) after a full week 👍

[hyah-lian]

Surgery went well and recovery is going OK. I get stitches out in like 3 days. I just haven't been online much because the sudden shift from night to day and from 10 hours+ of physical activity to nearly zero has been a trip and a half

I have done so much socializing and outings. Walking so many places. Going to stores and malls just cause they're open and nearly empty at 10 am on a Wednesday etc. Friends borrowing me for a few hours to sit at watch them play cards and board games and letting me be rowdy and loud. I can do some things with my hands but lately it's a lot of pacing because of the ridiculous amount of bandaging stopping me from doin some stuff and the adhd hyperactivity gremlins being in full force

Sleeping without a weighted blanket is so hard! Mine is 15 or 20 lbs and that is way more than the 3lbs I am allowed to lift!

I am so bored! But fine motor stuff like typing or crafting or drawing is still very weird and makes my forearms sore from disuse at this point

Anyway a cheeky update. I've begged my mom to take me on a drive because I can't pace anymore and I don't want to strain my wrists on phone or pc reading or playing very lazy games (I asked before I did it and my surgeon said it's ok in moderation!)