#autism(proper grammar)

[dirk-like-from-homestuck]

Here's the header image, btw.

[bl0ckbr41nz]

i hate when my life and all my experiences are too complex to simplify into something easily digestible to another living being. i want people to get me without having to write them a novel. i wish i could just fucking brain beam information into people's heads still. i know i used to be able to do that shit when i wasn't in this pink flesh prison. give me my brain beam back. i need it to adequately communicate.

[vittoriaisfuckingpathetic]

i don’t like to be critical of other people’s writing, like that’s not who i am or who i want to be BUT i was just reading a fic that was a) all lowercase b) used a lot of text speak (‘u/ur’ instead of ‘you/your’, slang like ‘cuz’ etc) and i just couldn’t finish it. like i think it’s totally fine if that author has a particular writing style! it’s good to see people writing and expressing their creativity and i’m never going to fault someone for that. but i just do not like it aesthetically and i hope it doesn’t become a trend.

(p.s. i realize i’m also typing in all-lowercase despite literally just complaining about it, but the difference is that i just have an issue with it in a literary setting)

[dirk-like-from-homestuck]

im hardly ever in your mentions and im too tired to take the test like 5 times so here i guess thas kinda funny considering who tagged me.

uhhhhh. @scorchedup @memebots-holehell

go for it idk.

1. Take this quiz

2. Take this picrew

3. Tag some people

Thank you for tagging @chrisoels

Tagging if you like to: @figuringthengsout , @ka1imba , @kayrielwrites , @msblueberrybi

[pumpkinspicedmochi]

Being fully verbal/writing in "proper english" doesn't make you "better" or more worth listening to , people seem to refuse to realize this

Apparently this need to be said buttt just because you have "perfect grammar" , pronunciation or whatever ..doesn't make you somehow better than other people. This type of thinking make me legit scared to type if I feel like it won't be perfect or if I will leave out words (when its more comfortable for me or if I'm just overwhelmed and leave out the words to be easier for me) . This kind of like people who think your mouth words mean less because you don't speck the way they do, makes me rather not type or talk because I don't want to deal with that sort of response even sound other autistic people..not everyone is fully verbal like you and not everyone can type like you can and seen a lot of people who have struggles typing , whether they use aac to type or it just feels more natural , low spoons etc . Stop pointing out that someone is "illiterate " or "can't spell" or "has bad grammar" personally I'm none of those things (although my grammar not perfect , and even if I was any of those things..doesn't mean my thoughts don't matter either way) its just pretty sure its connected to my autism and my opinion deserve to be heard even with imperfect speech and typing . Don't always type this way but when I do it should still be heard and my stuttering , repeating words and obvious struggling specking should not make you then disregard what I'm saying and I should not have to feel scared/nervous to talk or type in way that is more comfortable/ in the way my brain actually thinks, stop stop stop using the way people talk/type as an insult or a way to pick on them/a way to disregard their thoughts. You're not "better" because you speak or type "proper" english. I see this type of thinking legit everywhere like just saw it in a discord server but it everywhere.

this also go to my mom since she has taught me that stuttering people or people who don't speak "correctly" don't sound smart and etc and so shouldn't be talking/explaining things/making speeches and it has really negatively affected me.

[birdofmay]

Talking about a discourse that doesn't even exist on Tumblr

On Tumblr, us higher support needs nonverbal/nonspeaking people often had 2 possible scenarios to deal with:

1. People ignore us and our opinion because our writing isn't "proper" English, and they make fun of us or comment on our writing style.

2. People think we're faking because our writing is good.

I couldn't care less about scenario number 2. And luckily I'm not affected by scenario number 1.

But what happens now is that somebody tries to discuss a Twitter discourse that simply doesn't exist here on Tumblr: Nonverbal/nonspeaking people with severe or profound autism and/or severe or profound intellectual disability who use FC to run their blogs.

This isn't happening.

Nobody on here (except maybe 1 person, but even there I'm not sure) has profound autism. Severe yes, there are some. But we don't use FC to run our blogs. Nobody on here (except maybe 1 person) has a profound ID. Severe yeah, maybe. But most people with ID are mild or moderate. And none of them use FC to run their blog.

So what happens now is scenario number 3:

3. People (or rather 1 online troll) think that what we write is facilitated and not our own words.

Especially those of us who have severe autism and/or ID. This is worse than scenario number 1 or 2. Especially because there's no way to disprove it. The better our grammar, the higher the probability that somebody else wrote our posts; at least to this online troll.

So whenever you encounter someone who says that what we write is facilitated and/or written by someone else: Don't believe them. Yes, sometimes people write something for us, but we can always check if we agree with what's been written.

I've heard of the FC problem where caregivers wrote something for the nonverbal/nonspeaking person, and it always was about how great FC was, etc. I think this was on Twitter and on individual blogs somewhere on the internet. But this isn't happening on Tumblr. Nobody with severe autism and/or severe or profound ID uses FC to run their blog on Tumblr.

It's basically "Yelling into the void".

Edit:

Since this post reached people who aren't aware of what was going on lately:

FC is short for Facilitated Communication. It's a method for people who can't speak and struggle greatly with other communication methods, such as writing, signing, or using an AAC device.

There's nothing wrong with people helping someone to run their blog; I, too, sometimes need help to run my blog. There's also nothing wrong with people writing posts or messages for someone. This post was only to inform others that nobody on Tumblr uses FC full time to run their blog. Because this is what this troll believes. She basically complains about something that's not the case.

[tocautiouslygo]

Some of the ways narcissistic personality disorder manifests for me day-to-day:

(Some of these may have overlap with other mental illnesses and autism! I can't fully separate out all the different things that are going on in my brain)

Being reluctant to let anyone help me because I don't think they'll do the thing as well as I could

Donating to mutual aid so I can feel good about myself for helping people

Daydreaming about exactly how I'd go about helping everyone if I had a lot of money (and about how the people who would be helped would want to thank their mysterious benefactor but I'd keep my identity a secret because I would be doing this because it's the right thing not for the attention and...)

Expecting to succeed at things the first time, and feeling ashamed when I don't

Feeling ashamed of feeling ashamed

Feeling ashamed of feeling ashamed of feeling ashamed

Still ruminating on being ghosted, over a year after it happened, because I can’t accept that I’m not fully in control of how other people treat me

Seeking out terrible discourse takes when I'm feeling bad about myself, so I can reassure myself that at least I'm better than those people

Feeling baffled when people tell/show me they think of me when I'm not around

Not giving up on things I want to succeed at because I'm convinced I'm so close to getting there

Feeling jealous whenever anyone pays attention to anything that isn't me, or needs to do something (including sleeping or eating) instead of talking to me

Feeling guilty for being jealous and trying to suppress the feeling. Succeeding to the point where I didn't realise I felt jealousy at all until I went looking for it

Working on my mental health so I can tell the people in my life about my progress

Planning out how conversations are going to go in my head and feeling rejected if something different happens, even if it's objectively fine

Frequently seeking reassurance that my friends still like me

Feeling bad if I don't get attention but feeling scared of being "found out" as inadequate in some way if I do, especially if the attention of a large group is on me

Writing awareness posts in the hopes it'll get me notifications/positive comments

Some of the ways it used to manifest for me [under the cut for mentions of self harm and problematic stuff on my part]:

Digging my nails into my skin and insulting myself as punishment for failure

If there was something I wanted to talk about but was scared to bring up, attempting to manipulate the conversation so the other person would bring it up

Feeling superior to others because (among many other things) I: used proper grammar, was Not Like Other Girls™, had niche interests

Holding myself at a distance in friendships/relationships because I was too scared of fucking things up

Being self deprecating so people would contradict me [I might still do this? I'm not sure]

[dirk-like-from-homestuck]

oh, we're doing audience participation?

Here, this is also important.

Never been a day where fandom has been normal about dirk strider. Does anyone else remember back when people had a reactionary hatred to dirk strider, and there was legitimately people saying hes a cold hearted abusive douche and if you liked him you were a bad person. We all have to accept dirk is just some teenager sometimes. There are so many branches of dirkology that are becoming too disconnected to the canon dirk root. Take some time and remind yourself he is just a nerd today.

[dirk-like-from-homestuck]

whiteboard doodles lol

there were way more but ill rb this with em later i simply cannot reach the art atm

[neoflames]

Kiara please talk to me about GriDoc those two are just. like. you know how it is.

i am so ill about them. they are just the cuties. they either hate each other & love each other or just love each other. my guys.

btw listen to livin’ la vida loca if you want a GriDoc anthem, that song works so well. change a few lyrics, make a joke or two, bang!

i also formatted this ask so that the only things capitalized are your name and GriDoc because those are the only things that deserve proper grammar. in my current state of deranged GriDoc creature i do not deserve le capitalization.

Autism numero uno ‼️‼️‼️

Anyways yeah they’re very cool. They’re also just funny to me like

‘Hey I covered up your entire base’

‘What the fuck man’

‘Can we kiss :>’

‘Sure’

[real-fire-emblem-takes]

i wrote this in my notes cuz i wanted it to have proper grammar then never sent it. whoops.

FE disability takes but it's only my favs from the GBA games because I'm biased:

Lugh and Raigh are he/him and she/her autism respectively.

Chad needs lexapro. So does Lucius.

Canas is the most undiagnosed autistic dad I've ever seen.

Nino has BPD and autism just like her sons. :)

Jaffar has SzPD. He also prolly has autism but he straight up does not know nor does he care.

L’archel’s got NPD and autism. (good for her.)

*Points at Cormag* this bad boy can fit so much PTSD in it.

Innes doesn't have NPD, everyone just thinks he does when in reality he just has BPD and a really bad inferiority complex. Also depression. He's just a fucked up little guy.

Lute is autistic. Obviously.

I have more but I'm too lazy to write them all down. :)

-🦴

no need to worry! those are allowed :)

[silly-sampo]

yippee!

SELLING REAL FRUIT! NOT CLICKBAIT!

[raw-law]

Light i diagnose you with autism. Trust me Im a professional.

Light:

Sorry, but I don't trust someone who refuses to write with proper grammar. I've found that it's been rather helpful for me.

L:

it's okay i'll diagnose him for you. i'll even make him his own 'tism creature', special for him and his grammarly sponsored needs.

[superstar-ethereal]

my intro post! ☆〜（ゝ。∂）

꒰ notes .ᐟ kinda chaotic・last updated 11/5/24(m/d/y)・format subject to change ꒱

basic info!

i go by many names, but mainly star on here

i use any pronouns with a preference for they/it/fizz/charm

no dni; i prefer to maintain my garden via the block button

i speak english fluently, and i'm currently learning japanese :D

interests!

my main fandoms are danganronpa, genshin, vocaloid, project sekai, death note, and mcr

i'm Incredibly Sane And Normal about kokichi ouma

i'm a reality shifter, and have been for almost 2 years!

↑respect my beliefs and i'll respect yours. don't respect them, and you're getting blocked

↑↑i'm also a manifestor but i couldn't figure out where to put that

my main hobbies are reading(fanfiction), writing, making kandi/perler stuff, dancing, singing, and playing video games

↑favorite games outside of the ones mentioned in the fandom list are project diva, minecraft, osu!, slime rancher, the sims 4, animal crossing: new horizons, and stardew valley

i float around the alternative community a lot, but i'm mainly 2020 alt (if you couldn't tell from my everything)

i have a strange level of knowledge about (and/or just enjoy researching) early malware, 2000s-2010s internet history/drama, old torture/execution methods, and bonnie and clyde

extra notes!

my other blogs are @windblume-star(for fanfic and rambing about characters when i'm too embarrassed to do it here), and @just-a-spam-sideblog(for spam-reblogging things so it doesn't cloud up my main one)

all attempts to teach me complex grammar have failed so i punctuate based on vibes and vibes alone

due some combination of audhd and having been in quarantine since 2020(4 years and counting. augh.), my social battery is horrible when it comes to 1 on 1 conversation, so if i take a long time to respond to something i promise it's not because i don't like you :')

i've been making an effort to make my blog a little more accessible recently, but i'm able-bodied in many ways, so i might not always do it right ^^;

↑i'm totally open to correction though!! don't be afraid to shoot me a dm or an ask (or anything else, i'm not picky) if i'm doing something wrong

↑↑and while we're on the topic, let me know if you want me to tag a trigger or make an accommodation! i'll try my best to provide :3

tags!

#☆||starry reblogs -- for reblogs

#☆||starry talks -- for original posts by me

#☆||starry answers -- for responding to my asks

#☆||starry gets tagged -- for posts other people tagged me in

#☆||fanfiction -- old tag for fanfic i reblog. don't really use it anymore, though, since i have a whole seperate blog for that (tagged somewhere in the extra notes part)

(all of these are self-explanatory, but my main fandom tags are #danganronpa, #genshin impact, #vocaloid, #project sekai, #death note, and #mcr)

#general humor -- for (mostly) non-fandom things i find funny

#positivity -- for nice little messages :3

#important -- self-explanatory, for important posts

#serious talk -- for posts that are less fun and silly

#fundraiser -- for posts or asks containing people requesting financial help

#lgbtq+ -- for all posts regarding the queer community

#lgbtq+ history -- for the things that led us to where we are today, good or bad

#queer rights -- what it says on the tin. posts about discrimination, lack of access to proper medical care, new laws or acts(or warnings about possible future ones e.g. kosa), etc.

#conversation -- for back-and-forth reblog chains between me and other people

#personal collection -- a curated little trinket box of all my favorite stuff on here

#adhd -- for all posts regarding attention deficit hyperactivity disorder

#autism -- for all posts regarding--you guessed it--autism

#routine reblogs -- for tumblr holiday posts i keep up with (mainly just out of touch thursday)

#shiftblr -- for all posts regarding reality shifting and the community around it

#reblog bait -- for anything from 'reblog if you support acting cringe on the internet' to 'not reblogging is a moral failure'

#silly reblog bait -- specifically for things like 'reblog if you support acting cringe on the internet'

#unofficial pinned posts -- for things i'd pin if it was possible to pin more than one post at a time

#image description missing -- for posts containing photos that don't include an image description. (heads up: not all posts before october 27th 2024 are properly tagged! i'll add it whenever i go through my blog, but i have no convenient way of retagging everything.)

[pumpkinspicedmochi]

Jus because someone struggles with speaking or typing doesn't mean they aren't worth listening to..

Something I noticed is that a lot of places on the internet is not for disabled people, like on Reddit some communities on there want your grammar and words to be completely correct and perfect otherwise they delete your post , which has happen to me before including being insulted for it. I notice this more probably since I seem to be going through autism regression (?) but its like..they assume everyone they say that to is abled bodied anddd not disabled in anyway that effects their speaking and typing , it has legit made me no feel comfortable posting or talking on the internet because of the weird obsession with 'proper' , 'correct' English. Like I talk on Reddit but i'm super nervous that some gonna say something or not let me post because my English isn't perfect and have it called "badly written post" , "terrible grammar" , "not worth people seeing/reading" ..like ok..my bad that i'm semi verbal , disabled and it affects how I type and text ??..(specifically at the moment mean higher support needs autistic people but could go for others too , jus can't talk on experiences I don't have)

Another weird thing is people making fun of blurry or bad quality pictures..when your hands are shaky ..there is nothing I can really do about it..sorry my hands are shaky??

"this is a scam because the picture is so blurry"

well I was having tremors when I took the picture..disabled people exist ya know?

[virtualimouto]

you know lolicons are pedophillic right? why should an adult be attracted to someone who genuinely looks and acts like a child?

adults who LOOK young DO deserve love and aren't innately endorsing this!! however you are playing into it heavily. i've followed you for a bit and i've watched the way you talk slowly devolve into childlike mush when i know at the beginning you were posting in fully correct spelling and grammar

why the sudden change? why call yourself a loli instead of age regressing (which has no sexual associations)? i've been watching you toe the line between calling yourself a loli and actually loli pedo shit and it looks like you're finally falling into enabling pedophilia

i know you likely won't right now but one day i want you to start really thinking hard about why someone would be attracted to things that remind them of children and be sexually into someone who looks like a child because of that fact.

Tbh I considered not replying bc this just hurt me

I call myself a Loli bc of trauma.. since u said u follow me since long ago then u probably read the post where I sadly spoke about my trauma with pedo rings and pedophilia and being called a Loli and treated in sexual manner over it .. I've always looked younger than I am which caused everyone to treat me like a weird monster that'd never get proper love, I am more childish due to autism, I never developed properly, knowing someone that genuinely loves me finds me attractive regardless of it is.. nice

At the beginning of this blog.. my pinned was a way more intense cutesy way of speaking, most of my posts were me losing my mind, crying, having breakdown aftwr breakdown bc I was without the one person I loved, I tried to push the way I was when happy away to hopefully hopefully not be as dependant and childlike as I was.. bc I didn't know how I'd survive alone whilst being the way I am

My grammar is the same it's always been, I misspell more bc I'm too tired to check every post meticulously to maek sure it's properly worded

I am 19, I am not condoning pedophilia.. I'm an adult, I behave the way I do, I look the way I do, dress the way I do, but I am an adult, and I deserve to feel loved by my partner regardless of my traits, and if you tell me "but he shouldn't love you for them" then ur a bit silly because I am me, I can't change the way I am..

I don't endorse pedophilia, just today I had a very long talk w Bfie about how much we hate the fact that lolicon artists' work always ends up being in MAP and pedophilic circles, about how we think Loli hentai is weird as hell and censorship should be allowed..

I don't speak in mush, I don't know what of my speech to u looks like mush, but I'd just like to tell u that I have no idea what you were trying to achieve w this, all u managed to achieve was make me have a breakdown

I have so much trauma of people giving me shit over how I am, who I am, what I am, I tried for ages to be more Grown Up to avoid the backlash and the disgusted looks and the comments and the insults on the way I am, I spent years crying myself to sleep bc I felt useless for being who I am, bc I thought I was just the byproduct of childhood trauma, bc I'd never be a normal grown up adult due to the fact that I was forced to freeze my mind at such a young age..

I don't know rly what u wanted to achieve, maybe u wanted an apology, maybe u wanted me to say Yeah ur right I'm a pedophile, maybe u wanted me to say Yeah my boyfriend is a pedophile bc he finds me attractive, but that's not what you'll get.. I did nothing wrong, I don't sexualize kids, all I do is be in a relationship, and be myself in that relationship

Don't like my blog? Leave it.. I don't post for other people, I post my thoughts for myself, I don't even post about my childish interests or stuff ever bc I worry it'd creep people out, I keep that for between me and Bfie, my blog doesn't reblog sexual ddlg, it doesn't reblog cgl, it doesn't reblog fauxcest, all I do is talk about loving my partner and occasionally drawing myself

I never once have ever posted anything that might endorse someone to go out and molest a child

And as someone who was victim of pedos, when I was a very young kid, shame on you for thinking I condone that