#autism stuff i guess

[roaringup]

Actual crowdsourcing question time. I have tremendous difficulty drinking enough water or anything throughout the day and I want to fix this. I put up a few notes today and made a LOT of alarms but I’m also finding I’m having the same problem as I do with other things I’m bad at doing regularly, like shaving, which is that it hurts.

I know it sounds bizarre to say it hurts to drink, but when I don’t feel like I “need” to, the sensation of doing it is really intensely unpleasant and overwhelming in a way that I just can’t describe as anything but pain. Doing it in an automatic way without thinking about it solves this issue, but I don’t do it automatically often enough, so clearly I need to do it consciously. Being dehydrated is making me fall down too much, amongst other things.

What might be helpful here? Do I just sort of automate it into myself with a lot of external cues and deal with the pain while I habituate myself?

I have this problem overall in a lot of ways/situations—I can be very sedentary because moving around hurts, or not eat because eating hurts. The worst part is that if I do too many things that hurt my brain shuts down and I panic and can’t think clearly any longer at all.

[kenapiece-main]

Can you believe I'm having to make this meme even after successfully finishing up taxes and applying to job

[swordsonnet]

i'm sorry but i don't think we should call this the "autism website" when there's still posts with tons of notes mocking people who:

struggle with social skills / have anxiety around social settings

are unemployed / unable to work certain jobs

have intense or "age-inappropriate" interests

haven't had certain life experiences that are deemed universal/essential

struggle with personal hygiene

don't have any friends or dating experience

don't go outside much or at all

take things literally / don't get sarcasm/jokes

have unusual ways of speaking

generally aren't "normal"

[queerdraws]

Fanart for a snippet of my most favorite heartbreaking moment from swordsmans's fic bone-breaker ospreys mate for life (rated E)

[nuka-rockit]

[alcoholicweiwuxian]

bestiessssss <3

click for better quality; tumblr eats lines

[jasperthejester]

me: finally accepting theres a good chance im autistic and starting to work up the courage to ask my parents to see if i could get a diagnoses but being scared to

my mom: do you ever think you have adhd? if you want to do a screening for add next time your at the doctors you can

me:

[saturnniidae]

Thinking about how the dragons canonically help with fishing by kind of herding them to the nets but like imagine what that'd mean for whaling and hunting.

Like during that rob/dob era adjustment period, everyone's excited about the increase in food due to the raids ending and dragons now assisting them, but imagine one day one of them (Hookfang) just. Brings back a whole whale to try and one-up the other dragons.

But of course, they can't have that so then the others start doing it as well (some even getting confused and bringing back sharks instead). Too often, actually. Berk's store houses are, for the first time in recent history, almost overflowing with cured meats and the like. They're set for the winter, and its left to poor Hiccup to try and reign it in so the local whale, shark and seabird populations aren't completely devastated.

[amoebeau]

DEAD OR ALIVE

[not-poignant]

so earlier this year a psychologist i'd never met before gave me an autism assessment, diagnosed me with level 2 autism (talking at length about how the levels are mostly just useful for accessing government support) and then strongly advised me to access a national disability insurance scheme (known as NDIS) in australia.

she sent me a 20 page document, detailing all the ways i needed support, and i kind of sat back and cried a little, because something she said really stuck with me, which was basically: 'pia, you would always have been diagnosed with ASD at any age, you were never 'atypical' in presentation, people knew before you were verbal and then went out of their way to make sure you never had the chance to get diagnosed, in case it reflected poorly on them, due to their own stigma.'

it's true. my dad was diagnosed with autism and hid it from me. from all of us. he was the most strongly opposed to any behaviour in me that was not neurotypical, or his version of it, which frankly was still pretty fucking autistic. i lived with his abuse until he left us.

but i look back and think, i should've had an education assistant in school and at university. i should've had people around me helping me all along, if i wanted as much access to equality as most neurotypical people have. and now in early october, i'll be meeting with a support service and we'll start talking about the support staff i'll likely need for the rest of my life.

a lifetime of chronic illness and constant burnout (both from illness and from autistic burnout) was recontextualised. a lot of things about the way i live my life made sense.

but it's scary to have these sorts of meetings when you've spent your entire life being threatened with severe consequences if you behave certain ways, or ask for help.

i write the stories i write for rather obvious reasons, basically, and life has been unafraid of making 2024 a rather challenging year.

not just for me, i know, but for many of us.

i'm wishing you all some comfort and kindness, and hoping i can find a bit more myself, in the next few months.

shit's been hard lol

[roaringup]

Reading people’s remarks about how people who still mask in public are unusually strong or brave or resilient (i.e., overcoming judgment and implicit pressure from others) makes me feel strange. I don’t feel like I am doing some difficult job holding my head up while being judged. In particular I just do not care at all whether people silently think I’m being weird in public, or whether they think I look ugly or uncool.

I’ve been wearing the Blox duckbill N95s a lot because they’re cheap and they fit my face and they’re easier to tolerate on a sensory level. They are bright white and a comical “unflattering” shape. I am out and about in them. So what. I’m a person moving through the world obtaining experiences and goods I want or need, not a decoration introduced into others’ environments for their aesthetic pleasure. I am not actively looking for new sex partners, and usually not for sexual admiration or attention, either. People potentially having weird thoughts about me does not change my material experience for the worse except to the extent that they treat me differently, because I’m not a telepath and can’t hear thoughts. These are not empowered statements reflecting enlightened ideas; they’re just facts.

Hashtag autism stuff I guess: I may be going through life oblivious to subtle nonverbal signs of disapproval that I perhaps would find painful if I were aware of them.

Non-silent judgment or harassment is unpleasant—but I also don’t often get harassed about masking, which I’m sure is a function of my geographical area, general presentation, whiteness, and maleness. I can count the number of weird incidents on one hand. I am grateful for that.

[moe-broey]

I've only read the first volume of Dungeon Meshi but I'm convinced Laios and Marcille are both autistic but two EXTREMELY different flavors of autism, so much so it enables autistic PVP (one sided, Laios is unaware, possibly due to the autism)

[elodieunderglass]

I wish I had something intelligent to say but I really like His Delicious Materials. I’m waiting eagerly for the next chapter. Thank you for some truly excellent writing!

(In reference to the Dungeon Meshi Daemon-AU fanfic)

You are very very welcome, and don’t worry about saying anything in particular, it’s nice just to have readers for the weirdest fusion in the whole ao3 tag

[dougielombax]

Curiously, there seems to be a LOT of overlap between TERF bigotry and ableism.

Not just physical ableism but also ableism towards those who are neurodivergent.

Viewing us as lesser, stupid, akin to children. And other such ghastly things.

I’ve noticed this a lot lately.

[ssssstudent]

so i was scrolling through the SCP Anomalous Items wiki, as you normally do, and i found:

NERD SOLIDARITY

[lexamushexamus]

I do get that headcanoning autistic characters as aro/ace and aro/ace characters as autistic can create a false perception that they’re inherent to each other, but literally everyone I’ve heard making this argument is either being really aphobic or really ableist about it.

They say that saying an autist is aspec means it proves the idea that autists are incapable of emotion, or that saying an aspec is autistic proves aspecs are just weird and mentally ill.

It’s really funny how aspecs and autists share a lot of the same problems. We don’t feel quite the same way as others, we express our love differently, people think we’re gross and unhuman. We’re not. We should be teaming up to face bigots together, not doing their job for them by turning on each other.

Also most aspecs i’ve met are autistic and most autists i’ve met identify as aro or ace so it’s not like the link doesn’t exist lol.