#augh. pain

[xamaxenta]

Hhhhhngghhhh I feel u about the not wanting to go to work thing I also got someone looking over my shoulder critiquing my shit that they dont even know anything about😭 solidarity✊

😔 right? idk why cant people mind their own damn business i wish we didnt have solidarity tho that sounds rough

Especially l if this area of the company doesnt involve you

And you’re not my boss

But then MY BOSS rolls over to you so its ???? My boss is essentially fueling that their opinion is correct bc of it so its a vicious cycle and we’ve all said hey boss can u tell them to mind their business so we can get on with it but theyre chicken sooooo

Fuck us ig???

[doomednarrative]

AUGHH EMU BEING SO EMOTIONAL OVER KIRIYA'S DEATH HE JUST JUMPS STRAIGHT TO RECKLESSNESS

[sabh0]

Quick redraw of that one manga panel as a coping mechanism from the lack of new skk content

[repressedgaymer]

“If John Lennon could come back for a day, how would you spend it with him?” “In bed.”

[pixlokita]

Huh

[spectrecowboy]

the triad of all time actually!

[sweetvox]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE BEST OSHA-COMPLIANT DOG-ENGINEERING SCIENTIST !! !!

[chronicpaingirlie]

hi fellow disabled people . this shit sucks huh

[2leggedshark]

They keep being mean to pearl escentmoon..

[cranberrykissel]

can't believe they really made an entire show season about Edwin getting too many bitches but not his longtime friend-husband-partner. gay superhell literally

[sage-nebula]

Something I've been thinking about over the past week is that Rachel's expectation over whose death would fuck Jake up the hardest vs. whose death actually fucked Jake up the hardest wasn't right, and how that says so much about their characters and how it also hurts really badly.

Now, don't get me wrong: I'm not saying that Jake wasn't affected by losing Tom, because he very obviously was. Tom was his entire reason for joining the war in the first place and part of him held onto hope until the end that Tom could still be saved. And I'm also not saying that Rachel didn't think Jake didn't care about her at all, because that's not true either. She knows Jake does, but that he's doing what he has to do.

But when you think back to the conversation they have when Jake gives her the assignment, and he tells her that he won't have a way out for her, Rachel's concern for him isn't how her death would affect him, but Tom's. "It won't just be the yeerk. It'll be Tom." And while she acknowledges that of course Jake doesn't want her to die in her opening narration in book #54 and is making this call because he has to, at the same time there isn't a sense that Rachel thinks her death is going to be the one to hit him hardest here. It's Tom's, she's sure of it. Emotionally, Jake could afford to lose her, but Tom? That one gives her pause.

But one year after the war . . . again, Jake does still mourn Tom, obviously. He carries the guilt and grief of everything. But one of the strongest images of #54 that has always stuck with me is Jake sitting at Rachel's grave for several hours at a time, after hours, with regularity. It sticks out to me because you know Tom must have had a grave or memorial as well, I'm sure Jake's parents would've had one set up, but in all of Marco's stalking he doesn't see Jake sit and visit with it. Jake doesn't visit Tom. He visits Rachel.

And it just, to me, speaks to a complete subversion of Rachel's expectations, which were predicated on her own perception of how the rest of the team saw her. They "loved [her] in their way" but she was also a monster, blood thirsty, the garbage disposal, the one to do the dirty work. And she was as fine with that as she wasn't. (It was the biggest point of inner conflict for her—the war between her fear and her need to appear brave, her need to protect her friends from the gruesome vs her revulsion at what her actions said and made her out to be, etc.) Jake cared, sure, but also he saw her as a blood knight who might as well die in battle because that was her role, that was what SHE did, better her than anyone else on the team. Jake knew that, it would help him recover from his correct choice, far more than he could ever recover from losing Tom, who—unlike Rachel—was wholly innocent.

But Jake didn't recover. Because yes, he loved Tom and Tom was a wholly innocent victim from day one. And Rachel was overtly aggressive, and reckless, and part of her scared him, as much for her as anything else. But also, he talked to and fought and bled beside her for three traumatizing, agonizing years. They saw the best and worst of each other. Jake left her in charge when he had to leave on that trip. They talked about leadership after, about hard choices, understood each other on a level that would lead to that final choice in the last battle. Rachel couldn't see it because she couldn't see her value in the team as anything other than the brute and garbage disposal, but she WAS more than that, to Jake. She meant so much more to him than that, and it hurts so bad that she didn't realize it.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

a slightly scribbly Eddie for @akemima's promptlist, day one - cool outfit! well, i don't know if its Cool, but it sure is an outfit!

[thelilylav]

My hands hurt man…. hope u guys like it tho!!! Officially captioned!

[fob4ever]

pete, 2007

[stars-and-branches]

What if I wasn't in pain. What if there was peace and love on the planet earth

[kermit-coded]

whatever you do, don't think about charles in hell finding one of the edwins that the demon tore apart. don't think about him holding his hand as it dies, because in hell, ghosts can die. don't think about him feeling like a failure once again because he couldn't stop it. don't think about him covered in his best friend's blood and holding the hand of a corpse. don't think about the fact that at least he could be there for edwin like edwin was for him when he died. don't think about it.