#attracted to. bc idfc

[snekdood]

terfs have single-handedly made me lose whatever inherent respect i’ve had for cis women.

now i just look at them like this

waiting to see if they show their ass for being a dumbass terf

[mixing-bowl-of-stories]

What are the relationships like with between the Crux? What about the Crux with their families?

Alrighty, this’ll be long so bear with me, this took me a while because I had to write sm

Anyways these are from the perspective of everyone a few months after the group is established.

Pandora:

-> Noah, “I don’t mind the murder but I do mind your declining mental stability. I worry about you, a lot, I want you to be okay.”

-> Ambrose, “Big brother :)”

-> Constance, “Big sister :) (despite us being the same age)”

-> Nico, “I’m always here if you wanna learn the basics of necromancy, you are my buddy :)”

-> Nathaniel, “why are you so mean to me? :(“

-> Natasha, “Very overprotective, feels like home in a way…”

-> Lilith, “How do you have any sexual attraction to anyone and everyone like how does that work?”

-> Karissa, “I like your singing voice!”

-> Josiah, “you are in a similar situation that I am and I appreciate you not hating me bc of the misconceptions surrounding Maveth.”

-> Barbara, “Crux mum”

-> Owen, “Crux dad”

-> Chance, “I like your accent funny man >:)”

-> Amelia, “Fellow noble *nods in understanding*”

Noah:

-> Pandora, “Why do you care so much about me…? Worry about yourself some more will ya…?”

-> Ambrose, “Quiet, but I speak enough for the both of us. You’re a good listener”

-> Constance, “Stop nagging me.”

-> Nico, “Coward… but maybe that’s okay sometimes.”

-> Nathaniel, “*glares in mutual “I’m a huge dick to everyone but don’t want to admit it” energy*”

-> Natasha, “I don’t really know you.”

-> Lilith, “I see, so you’re trying to seduce everyone because you have issues. Understandable, I’ll leave you to it”

-> Josiah, “ugh, holy people…”

-> Karissa, “Banger tunes my fella”

-> Owen, “Idfc if he’s not my real dad he’s still my dad in my eyes.”

-> Barbara, “The cooler mom”

-> Chance, “I like your gun >:)”

-> Amelia, “…thanks for giving me the sleeping tonic”

Ambrose:

-> Pandora, “You need help. And badly.”

-> Noah, “I like our conversations, but there’s still a lot you won’t tell me.”

-> Constance, “Please be careful…”

-> Nico, “Don’t be afraid to yell at someone, sometimes that’s the only way you can defend yourself.”

-> Nathaniel, “Address your daddy issues, thanks”

-> Natasha, “You seem to be in the shadow of a role you never wanted to be in to begin with. I… I get that.”

-> Lilith, “Are you good? Like emotionally?”

-> Josiah, “I hope you don’t view me as something horrible because of my connections to Avantee”

-> Karissa, “You tell some pretty awesome stories, I hope you find your parents. Mine? Yeah no I don’t care about my parents.”

-> Owen, “I’m so sorry for all you have to deal with in this group.”

-> Barbara, “I respect someone who is willing to murder people who hurt them while still maintaining their confidence and dignity”

-> Chance, “I don’t know how to feel”

-> Amelia, “thanks for the medicine.”

Constance:

-> Pandora, “You’re not okay, even if you like to act and think that you are.”

-> Noah, “You aren’t okay either, address your shit please.”

-> Ambrose, “I am being careful! Stop hovering! >:T”

-> Nico, “I like your staff. Looks cool.”

-> Nathaniel, “you may be a dick to everyone but I think I know why, I’m always here if you wanna chat.”

-> Natasha, “I want to shake your hand in mutual understanding about being forced into the role of our parents.”

-> Lilith, “hm. That’s someone who is using their good looks and charm to cover up the fact that they’re lonely”

-> Josiah, “Don’t even think about mentioning Avantee or Vin’nyla.”

-> Karissa, “Adopted little sister.”

-> Owen, “I’ll help to make things less painful as much as I can.”

-> Barbara, “why couldn’t you have been my mom damn it?”

-> Chance, “idk how to feel.”

-> Amelia, “ohhh, can you teach me some alchemy?”

Nico:

-> Pandora, “Hey you’re like me, maybe we can like, help each other out?”

-> Noah, “why are you so obsessed with electricity and fire…? Also please stay away from me, you scare me.”

-> Ambrose, “scary…”

-> Constance, “Very protective but still kinda scary”

-> Nathaniel, “You don’t have to be like mom…”

-> Natasha, “You don’t have to be like dad…”

-> Lilith, “please stop flirting with everyone. Even if it does sometimes get us out of bad situations”

-> Josiah, “You’re pretty cool, you know a lot about the gods.”

-> Karissa, “I like your stories, reminds me of mom to be honest.”

-> Owen, “ah… why are so many of you scary?”

-> Barbara, “not a huge fan of your gun… or Pandora, Noah’s, or Chance’s guns for that matter.”

-> Chance, “You feel safe to be around, which is weird because you’re kinda loud”.

-> Amelia, “you’re like, the only person who actually gets me besides Karissa and Pandora”

Nathaniel

-> Pandora, “Great. Another person willing to do the gods’ bidding. For both your and my sake, I hope the god of death changes his mind.”

-> Noah, “*glares in mutual “I’m a huge dick to everyone but don’t want to admit it” energy*”

-> Ambrose, “Get off my ass will you?! Demonic ass…”

-> Constance, “What is it with the demons in this group and wanting to boss me around?”

-> Nico, “Make up your mind.”

-> Natasha, “Stop sucking up to dad.”

-> Lilith, “Gross.”

-> Karissa, “Another demon, great.”

-> Owen, “Finally, someone who actually listens”

-> Barbara, “You listen but I’m not sure I like you.”

-> Chance, “Get away from me cyborg.”

-> Amelia, “Thanks for patching me up I guess.”

Natasha:

-> Pandora, “The next champion of death? Maybe you could help me?”

-> Noah, “Reckless fool.”

-> Ambrose, “A friend and ally”

-> Constance, “Also a friend and ally”

-> Nico, “Pick a side, please.”

-> Nathaniel, “Stop trying to force me to be like mom when you already so badly want to be like her.”

-> Lilith, “Could you teach me how to flirt/get into a relationship. I have someone I might like…”

-> Josiah, “You know a lot about the gods, maybe you could help me too?”

-> Karissa, “Your music sounds great, have you heard of soul singing?”

-> Owen, “That’s one hell of a hammer. Keep it away from me please.”

-> Barbara, “You’re pretty cool, still kinda scary though.”

-> Chance, “how are you not dead.”

-> Amelia, “Oh I guess that’s how he’s not dead”

Lilith

-> Pandora, “You feel… no sexual attraction??? How is that possible??”

-> Noah, “You’re murdering your abusers. Okay, I’ll leave you to it my dude.”

-> Ambrose, “Shit he knows doesn’t he?”

-> Constance, “Shit she knows doesn’t she?”

-> Nathaniel, “dude literally stop being an ass to everyone.”

-> Nico, “I could help you with your confidence if you’d like!”

-> Natasha, “oh I could totally teach you how to pick up a partner uwu”

-> Josiah, “Hey dude, you alright? You haven’t been right since Asterope reached out…”

-> Karissa, “You hide behind your bubbly persona when you’re really hurting…”

-> Owen, “Pour me another shot old man! >:D”

-> Barbara, “Badass woman, love it.”

-> Chance, “ayyy! Fellow alcoholic!”

-> Amelia, “Doctor lady. You’ve seen shit haven’t you?”

Josiah

-> Pandora, “You’re in a similar situation that I’m in, but you seem to be less equipped than I am. Maybe I could help?”

-> Noah, “You are a very scary man. I don’t take kindly to how much you engage in murder, but your reason is honorable at least.”

-> Ambrose, “Maybe tieflings aren’t as bad as I thought…”

-> Constance, “You fight for what’s right, I was wrong about you.”

-> Nathaniel, “You need to look in yourself and address why you feel so angry.”

-> Natasha, “I know what it’s like to be in someone else’s shadow…”

-> Nico, “You’re conflicted, but that’s alright. You’re not supposed to have everything figured out.”

-> Lilith, “I’m fine…”

-> Karissa, “You’re getting better at using fire in combative ways!”

-> Owen, “You are a criminal…”

-> Barbara, “You are also a criminal…”

-> Chance, “I think you’ve had divine intervention. No normal person would’ve survived your injuries”

-> Amelia, “I’m sorry that people of my beliefs have tried to kill you, your distrust of me is founded and I respect it.”

Karissa:

-> Pandora, “You’re super cute! Love your hair :)”

-> Noah, “I’m glad you like my music!”

-> Ambrose, “big brother”

-> Constance, “big sister”

-> Nico, “I could play you a song if you’d like, just to ease the nerves”

-> Nathaniel, “Wow, rude.”

-> Natasha, “Maybe I could take your mind off of the situation for a little bit?”

-> Lilith, “Got any new songs? I was thinking we could sing about each of the members of The Crux once we know them better!”

-> Josiah, “thanks for keeping Lilith and I grounded Josie”

-> Owen, “yikes, scary…”

-> Barbara, “scary but in like, a mom way.”

-> Chance, “You seem like you have plenty of stories to tell, tell me them all! I want to sing about them!”

-> Amelia, “Thanks for the fire resistance but I’m a tiefling lol.”

Chance:

-> Pandora, “Champion huh? Ain’t you a special snowflake.”

-> Noah, “I respect what you’re doin’ kid, I’m all for it.”

-> Ambrose, “It’s the quiet ones that getcha”

-> Constance, “Yeah yeah stop badgering me…”

-> Nico, “My guy, you need to toughen up a little bit like your brother”

-> Nathaniel, “Okay maybe not that tough”

-> Natasha, “Go your own way kid, don’t stick in the shadow of your daddy”

-> Lilith, “Now that’s a way of life I can get behind”

-> Josiah, “A religious man, I respect that.”

-> Karissa, “You mind tellin’ me what your life used to be like, sounds interestin’ :)”

-> Owen, “That’s a whole ass criminal right there”

-> Barbara, “Glad to see you’ve improved Barb.”

-> Amelia, “For a “witch” you’re a pretty nice person”

Barbara:

-> Pandora, “Another rich kid… at least you don’t seem to be as bad as the others.”

-> Noah, “Hon I appreciate what you’re doing but uh, ya all right?”

-> Ambrose, “You and your sister are alright.”

-> Constance, “callin’ me out for bein’ an ass. I respect that.”

-> Nico, “hon you need to grow a thicker skin, I’m not expecting you to be perfect at first though.”

-> Nathaniel, “Well aren’t you a bundle of issues? I’m here when you wanna talk little boy.”

-> Natasha, “Another follower of the god of death? Seems we might get along.”

-> Lilith, “Be careful who you trust sugar.”

-> Josiah, “I hope the paladin thing works out for you.”

-> Karissa, “Running away and joining a group you never intended to be a part of… sounds familiar.”

-> Owen, “Lord, please take care of yourself. I’ll uh… I’ll kick your ass if you leave me with all these kids by myself.”

-> Chance, “Good to see you, Sheriff”

-> Amelia, “Glad we got to you before those townsfolk did.”

Owen:

-> Pandora, “You’re one of Diana and Alexander’s kids, aren’t you?”

-> Noah, “Sorry about your mom, kid.”

-> Ambrose, “I hope your brother sees the wrong in what he’s doing…”

-> Constance, “I hope you learn to detach yourself from your parents”

-> Nico, “Try not to be scared of everything kid, there’s too much good in the world to be scared of everything.”

-> Nathaniel, “…”

-> Natasha, “See yourself for who you are and not what you think you should be.”

-> Lilith, “You can have alcohol so long as you clean up after yourself.”

-> Josiah, “You and your sis are polar opposites”

-> Karissa, “Try to be a little more cautious, there’s still some shitty people out there.”

-> Barbara, “Yeah yeah, I’m trying…”

-> Chance, “Good on you for surviving, I can help you with your prosthetics if you’d like, got a few of my own actually…”

-> Amelia, “Thanks for helping with the pain, I appreciate it more than you know.”

Amelia:

-> Pandora, “I wish I could fix your situation… I wish I had something to fix your undead-ness”

-> Noah, “You aren’t human, are you?”

-> Ambrose, “I have just the thing to help you with your muscle pains!”

-> Constance, “I have something to help you in you and your brother’s fight against your literal demons”

-> Nico, “Ohhh! That’s a creative way to build a prosthetic :0”

-> Nathaniel, “You’re so reckless and yet so careful”

-> Natasha, “I have a mana potion if you need it for practice”

-> Lilith, “You’re not getting a health tonic after this, you get drunk too much, and I need those tonics for something else.”

-> Josiah, “I may have something that could help with the visions if you’d like…?”

-> Karissa, “A fire protectant potion just for you!”

-> Owen, “I wonder if the health and regeneration tonics are helping him…”

-> Barbara, “You’re pretty healthy! Good job!”

-> Chance, “stop being so careless you jerk >:T”

[residentevil-4]

i truly dgaf about ace discourse because its 2024 and im a grown adult, you can call your dog queer idfc, but i saw a comment today where someone said "my cishet roommate asked why ace people are in the lgbt community but not them, ugh!" and its like... well... is the line truly just that your cishet roommate does not identify as asexual? bc if they were the exact same but literally just didnt feel sexual attraction what's the difference there

[genderstarbucks]

homosexual in the way where i can only be attracted to ppl just as genderfucked as me bisexual in the way I can be attracted to absolutely genderfucked people of various varieties aromantic in the way where i can never tell when i feel that attraction does that make sense?? (bi-gay arospec dumbass)

(also idfc if it doesn't make sense fuck it we ball i just felt like explaining it randomly)

NO BC ME TOO DUDE

I know exactly what you're talking about

[floodnetworks]

word im afraid of top surgery bc im afraid itll take away like my ~sexuality~ to others or smth. :/

its so worth it idfc about other people i can lay face down on the floor and it doesnt hurt my booba and i can be shirtless in public etc. but ik what u mean obvs i feel the same way but i just dont live my life to be an object of sexuality for other people. i dont have sex with anyone anyways and also dont want to be with someone whos deciding factor in being attracted to me is my chest ykwim?

[umbreeonic]

i was having a good day until i remembered that post claiming that wonder woman was Actually a lesbian because her creators couldn't make her a lesbian so gave her only "het" relationships while calling her bisexual to get some hypothetical Representation Award

[twiiilxght]

idfc how good someone looks in a pic that they post, u don’t like/interact with their pics if u are literally only doing so bc you’re attracted to them, if you are in a relationship!!!!

[yourfavaromlm]

*smacks hands repeatedly on table*

ok SO

i have a squish and i am so FUCKING in love with them it kills me

i want to hold their hand and go on long walks and splash each other in a pool and cuddle watching a movie and look at the stars and just

AGH

i am very queer

and ive been avoiding even acknowledging i get squishes and its been easier bc theyre rare for me but im,,, i love them and i need somewhere to talk about it!!!

so ill be like,,, reblogging shit about platonic attraction too bc my aro ass is so sleepy and full of love

if that bothers you and its not what youre Here For, then just slap the unfollow button, idfc, just dont like,, harass me or anything im a sensitive bastard

anyway

aspec exclusionists do not fucking touch this post or i will throw something at you

[jewishbarbies]

All evens feom every section for Cass and Loki 😘

sdfghj thank youuu!! 💚💜

PRE-RELATIONSHIP:

2. What was their first impression of each other?

Cass’s first impression of Loki was pretty positive, he was attractive and polite and kinda magnetic. Loki’s impression of her was fairly neutral, there were times when he was impressed and times when he wasn’t, but it leaned positive.

4. Who felt romantic feelings first?

definitely Cass!

6. If you had told one of them that the other would be their soulmate, what would they think?

lmaO Loki would’ve laughed in your face and probably murdered you. Cass wouldn’t have believed you but would be secretly hoping you were right.

GENERAL:

2. Did they have an official first date? If so, what was it like?

kinda of? none of their meetings were ever called a date out loud, but the first time that qualified was a walk through Central Park at sunset followed by dinner in at Cass’s apartment.

4. Were they each other’s first anything (kiss, relationship, etc.)?

I wanna say Cass is probably Loki’s first serious relationship, though I can’t say for sure. He’s probably kissed somebody before. Cass wasn’t new to anything, though.

6. What’s their relationship with each other’s families?

Thor absolutely adores Cass like a little sister before things are super solid between her and Loki, and Frigga does like her - despite the brief time they knew each other. Odin is...Odin. None of Cass’s family, biological or otherwise, really like Loki or want them to be in a relationship. Clint is ready to throw hands 24/7.

8. Who gets jealous easier?

definitely Loki.

LOVE:

2. What are their primary love languages?

I think bc of her upbringing, Cass’s is words of affirmation. Loki’s is possibly physical touch.

4. What are their favorite things to do together?

reading! at the same time, to each other - doesn’t matter.

6. Who’s more protective?

OOF imma have to say Cass on this one, which you wouldn’t think of just looking at them, but Cass is very protective over people she loves in the right situations.

8. What are some songs that apply to their relationship, in-universe or otherwise?

idfc - blackbear, bad romance - lady gaga, tears of gold - faouzia, the heart wants what it wants - selena gomez, start of time - gabrielle aplin

DOMESTIC LIFE:

2. What’s the wedding like? Who attends?

kinda lowkey/casual, nothing insanely fancy. they try to mix the cultural traditions. Thor, Sif, and Valkyrie are definitely there. So are Clint, Laura, and the kids.

4. Do they have any pets?

nope!

6. Who kills the bugs in the house?

Loki - he teases Cass about it a lot bc it’s funny that she’s so upset/afraid of a bug the size of her fingernail.

8. Who’s more likely to convince the other to come back to sleep in the morning?

definitely Cass, she’s a sleeper and a cuddlebug!

SHIP QUESTIONS

[whorror-jpeg]

Billy Fucking Hargrove

Pairing: Billy Hargrove x Reader

Summary: the emotional adventures you find yourself in while helping Billy Hargrove is a ride or die.

Prompts: 7- “You’re really cute and it’s ruining my life because I think about kissing you all the time” 5- A: “what are you doing?” B: “Avoiding.” A: “avoiding what?” B:”everything”

Song: idfc- Blackbear

Request: @starrywriting asks “Can I get number 7 with Billy Hargrove? :)”

Requests Are: Open

Warning(s): cursing, fluff, slight angst, derogatory LGBT names, fluff, Tommy H. (I fucking hate him and his face), dyslexia (also, I’m aware that dyslexia didn’t get it’s name til 87’, but shush I’m trying here), use of the word retard, did I mention fluff?, a bit slower burn, some bullying, LOTS of friendly teasing.

Word count: 2.1k (holy shit)

Author’s note: This turned into something I wasn’t expecting it to be, but I love it. I LOVE ME SOME FUNNY BILLY EVEN THO HE DOESN’T TRY TO BE FUNNY. I did add in the 5th prompt bc,,,,, i needed more inspiration,,,, and it looks really funny. ALSO THANK YOU FOR MY FIRST REQUEST AND UPWARD OF 100 NOTES ON “Billy Hargrove:Lady Killer” NSIDNOWENFO I CAN’T SAY WHAT IT MEANS TO ME

(Y/N) (Y/L/N). You were the captain of Hawkins High’s baseball team, known for your “don’t piss me off”, “I don’t take bullshit” attitude. No one really talked to you, but truth be told, you were lonely. Sure you had Steve, but that was all you had, really. Everyone on your team was either scared of you or sucked up to you. You just wanted to be treated like a normal fucking person.

Unfortunately, there was a new breed of awful human being: Billy Fucking Hargrove, newly crowned King of Hawkins who had just put you on his radar. Yeah he was cute, but his ego matched his attractive qualities and well, if you had learned anything from algebra one last year, you knew a positive multiplied by a negative was alway a negative. Always. Yet, this didn’t stop him from invading your dreams-day or night.

When Steve came to you spouting the information that Billy was ‘King’, you thumped his forehead and told him to get over himself. He was still your best friend and you weren’t gonna put up with his self-pitying bullshit.

Last class was a pain in the ass; you had algebra two and BFH (your awful code name for Billy with Steve) sat directly next to you. He didn’t talk much the first weeks-just stared at you and screwed with the teacher to make people laugh. But when Tommy H. transferred in, they were loud and obnoxious. Today was no exception. The teacher excused himself quickly to use the restroom. In the time it took him to do whatever he needed to, Tommy had thrown a paper at you- which you ignored, and Billy asked why you had a stick up your ass.

And then Tommy decided to take it upon himself to answer for you.

“Can’t blame her, she’s a fucking dyke, Hargrove.”

You chuckled sardonically, “At least vaginas don’t look like mutant elephant trunks. Last I heard yours was still a baby.” you looked at him, “Not a single hair, if I remember Stacy Stevens correctly. When’d you sleep with her? Last week?”

Tommy blushed angrily, stuttering and trying to come up with a come back, when the teacher came back in.

You left the class quickly, practiced for your game coming up next Friday, and went home to shower.

Yet you somehow always came back to the high school.

It was nearing sundown when you got to the baseball field of the high school. You usually snuck in to think about things; the fence was an easy climb and, although security said they stayed until midnight, no one really did. You played some loud music on your walkman, dancing a bit while you practiced batting with the dozens of unused baseballs.

You felt someone tap your shoulder, and, like most people, screamed and turned quickly.

“Billy?!”

You ripped your headphones off, “I should kick you in the nads, meathead! The hell you doing?”

He was laughing, a baritone sound that wasn’t his normal doggish bark. You glared at him, pausing your walkman and setting it on the bench you were next to.

“I should be asking you that.” he replied breathily, still laughing.

“I’m avoiding.” you said, hitting another ball, gaining a whistle from Billy when it went far.

He was like a dog, you could almost see little puppy ears perk in interest, “avoiding what?”

You glared at him, "Everything." and with that, he was quiet as you hit another ball after tossing it up in the air.

“I was out for a walk, saw you here.”.

You turned and backhanded his chest, “so you were stalking me!”

His face quickly got defensive, “No! I-”

You smirked, “Admit it, Hargrove.”

He sighed, lowering his head a bit, “Steve told me you’d be here. I wanted to ask for help on the algebra homework.”

You stared at him incredulously.

“You get straight A’s in that class, the highest grade I’ve gotten in there was a D-after corrections.”

You stifled a laugh, “The great Billy Hargrove is asking the class dyke if he can have algebra help.”

He gave an upset huff and sat on the bench, playing with your walkman. You stared at him for a brief moment, his face was lowered but you could tell he was genuinely upset by your response.

Putting down your bat, you wiped the sweat off your forehead and rested your other hand on your hip.

You sighed, “You really need help?”

He looked up through his lashes, nodding.

“Fine. My house tomorrow at 3. Bring me a pop.”

And at 3 sharp, he was there, and not with just one can of soda, an entire case of them. You smiled and led him to the kitchen, putting on a record and sitting down at the table.

“Alright, Hargrove, give me your old test.”

He hummed, handing you the crumpled paper. As you went through his awful handwriting, you noticed he did have most of it right, only if some of the numbers were switched or flipped. His sixes were nines, some of his digits were in the wrong spot.

You grabbed your calculator, seeing what his actual score should’ve been on the short answer test.

“Billy, you should’ve gotten an 87%,” you shook your head, confused. Billy looked up, equally confused and surprised, “your numbers are right, for the most part, they’re just… out of place.”

He rolled his eyes when you looked at him.

“No, seriously Billy! You’re actually smart, I mean, for a dumbass. Have you gotten tested for anything?” he opened his mouth but you cut him off right before he could say anything, “besides STD’s.”

He glared, muttering a ‘no’.

“You should, I read somewhere that some guy identified a learning disability- Dyslexia. This could be why you have shit grades, Billy.”

His face grew angry and defensive, “I’m not a retard.”

You laughed, “okay, firstly, stop acting like one, secondly, no Billy, your brain just confuses things, you’re really smart, actually. But if you don’t get help for it you’re not gonna pass.”

He huffed and sat back.

“Listen, if you’re so against therapy, I’ll ask my dad on how to maybe practice more. He’s a child psychologist, he can-”

“I’m not a child!”

“YOU’RE BEING A FUCKIN’ BABY THOUGH STOP INTERRUPTING ME.”

Billy’s eyes widened and brows furrowed.

“As I was saying before you interrupted me; he can tell me how therapy would work with you and I can help.”

You smiled. Billy sat, staring at you, expressionless, before thanking you.

For the next few weeks, you and Billy had tutor sessions everyday in your kitchen for a few hours, at the times he’d fall asleep, you’d wake him up a bit and guide the sleepy boy to your guest room, usually reserved for Steve. People like Tommy H. and Carol had stopped bugging you, not that you minded. Billy started showing up to all of your practices and games, congratulating you and ruffling your hair after you’d take it out of your updo.

Progress was increasing with him, to say the least.

On Monday, you’d waited at Billy’s car, as he’d been held back by your algebra two teacher. Everyone had generally left, so it was easy to see the mullet wearing man-child run to you, a paper in one hand, both arms spread eagle as he ran, a huge grin plastered on his face. You laughed, shaking your head and eyebrows furrowed.

He pushed his test to your face, a big A+ in red  marker with a small “good job!” circled boldly.

Your whole face brightened, “Holy shit, Billy! Dude, let’s go celebrate!”

He jumped around, screaming happy obscenities in the air out of excitement, before getting in his car.

He pulled up to an outdoor movie screening, as you told him to pick where to go. Evil Dead was screening and he’d been itching to see it. He’d gotten food and drinks, and already started munching on the popcorn, rather than wait for the movie to play, even though there were only 5 minutes left. You were invested in your walkman when he playfully poked your face.

“Touch me with your buttery popcorn fingers again and I’ll punch you in the nads.”

He laughed, knowing your threat was empty. And offered you some popcorn as you put your walkman’s headphones in your lap.

Billy wiped his hands on a napkin he’d gotten and picked up your walkman, asking what was on it rhetorically, before opening it up and looking at the tape.

“Happy Birthday Mix, Volume 8? What’s that mean?”

You smiled,  “Oh, it’s something Steve started when we were ten. If we couldn’t afford birthday presents then we’d make each other little mixtapes of songs we liked.”

He chuckled, “Hearing you say it like that makes me think you aren’t gay.”

You looked at him, bemused, “Wait, you don’t actually think I’m gay, do you?”

“You’re.... Not?”

You snorted, laughing hysterically, “No, Jesus Christ! That’s a rumor, Hargrove!”

“But you didn’t say anything when Tomm-”

“I hate Tommy, with a passion, but it gave me a reason to bring up his dick size.”

“But you’re such a…”

“Tomboy? Yeah, that’s what happens when your best friend since you were four is a jock, Hargrove. Ya know, you really are dumb sometimes.” you shook your head while smiling, paying attention to the beginning scene. Billy went to say something else, but instead chewed on the Twizzler you’d shoved in his mouth to keep him quiet.

Eventually, the movie ended. And saying Billy loved every second of it was a huge understatement. He wouldn’t shut up about it on the way back to your house. He walked you to your front porch, all smiles. You really hadn’t seen him smile so much in one day, and it was honestly the sweetest smile you’ve seen. He really did have a nice personality when he wasn’t being his school self.

“I had a nice time tonight, Billy. But if you talk that much again in a movie I’m gonna scramble your mullet and feed it to you.”

He laughed, looking up.

“You just had the best night tonight, didn’t you?” your comment was rhetorical, and as such was  ignored while you turned your house key.

You turned back to him, he was already looking back at you, a half smile plastered to his face.

“What?” you pointed your eyes.

“Nothing. I just wanted to say thank you, (Y/N).”

Your face slowly grew hot from holding back a smile, his own growing while you pursed your lips.

“Ya know, Hargrove, you’re really cute, and it’s ruining my life because I think about kissing you all the time.” you glared, pouting. He calmed down a bit, getting closer to you and cupping your jaw, trying to not laugh at you, who was still glaring at him.

“I’m being serious, asshole!”

“Yeah, yeah, yeah.” He mocked, leaning in to kiss you. You immediately melted, putting your hands on his ribcage. You smirked, feeling his heartbeat.

Pulling back you pushed his forehead with your finger, “I make you nervous or something, Hargrove?”

He scoffed, “Or something. Go inside.”

You stuck your tongue out, “you’re taking me on a date Friday.”

“Uh huh. Goodnight, (Y/N).”

He smiled softly, watching you go inside, you muttering a “goodnight, assface” back before closing the door.

You shook your head, smiling.

“Billy Fucking Hargrove.”

[avara-avara]

Tag

rules: you must answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people I was tagged by @highladyofnorta  And @fck-tamlin 

I tag: @highkeynessian @highqueenlucy @acomaflove @feyre-archerons-scrapbook @aroyalbluedragon @i-put-the-sass-in-assassin @electricons @gisabarrow @queenmareena @rhysand-vs-rowan @mareburrowxcal .

the last … 1. drink: smoothie 2. phone call: mom (lol) 3. text message: bff 4. song you listened to: idfc by blackbear 5. time you cried: i think it was a couple days ago 6. dated someone twice: not really. 7. kissed someone and regretted it: no 8. been cheated on: no 9. lost someone special: yeah 10. been depressed: yes 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: no favorite colors 12. to wear - green 13. PURPLE 14. Blue in the last year have you … 15. made new friends: yes 16. fallen out of love: no 17. laughed until you cried: yessss 18. found out someone was talking about you: yeah 19. met someone who changed you: yes 20. found out who your friends are: yes 21. kissed someone on your facebook list: no general 22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them
23. do you have any pets: two German shaped/newfoundlands. 
24. do you want to change your name: No. I like it. 25. what did you do for your last birthday: picnic at the beach with my family 26. what time did you wake up: 10:30 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping 28. name something you can’t wait for: to have money. 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: last week 31. what are you listening to right now: Heavy in Your Arms by Florence +the Machine 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: yes 33. something that is getting on your nerves: lights on in the daytime. 34. most visited website: Tumblr 35. hair colour: mousy brown 36. long or short hair: shoulder length 37. do you have a crush on someone: not really 38. what do you like about yourself: my ability to tune things out. 39. piercings: ears 40. blood type: idk 😐 41. nickname: A or E 42. relationship status: singe af 43. zodiac: LEO 44. pronouns: she/her 45. favourite tv show: Gossip Girl 46. tattoos: none 47. right or left handed: right handed 48. surgery: nope 49. piercing: ears (this is two questions?) 50. Sports: Swimming, Snowboarding,Wake-boarding 51. vacation: Cancun Mexico 52. pair of trainers: converse 53. eating: coconut macaroons 54. drinking: blueberry smoothie 55. i’m about to: rub aloe on my back bc I’m soooo sunburnt 56. waiting for: tower of dawn to come out. 57. want: Rq4 58. get married: we’ll see 59. career: architect 60. hugs or kisses: kisses 61. lips or eyes: eyes 62. shorter or taller: taller wtf 63. older or younger: older. 64. nice arms or nice stomach: nice stomach 65. hook up or relationship: relationship 66. troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant af 67. kissed a stranger: no 68. drank hard liquor: I’m a minor 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: yeah 70. turned someone down: Yeah 71. sex on the first date: no 72. broken someone’s heart: yeah 73. had your heart broken: yeah 74. been arrested: nope 75. cried when someone died: uhhh yeah 76. fallen for a friend: nah

do you believe in … 77. yourself: yes. 78. miracles: yes 79. love at first sight: Attraction but not love 80. santa claus: no 81. kiss on the first date: yeah 82. angels: Yes.

other 83. current best friend’s name: madison 84. eye colour: brown 85. favourite movie: miss congeniality

[stelashe]

You only like that celeb bc he's hot

Me:

[archivednimueries]

RULES

DISCLAIMER

Theme code belongs to AGIRLINGREY. The graphics and sprucing belong to me, myself and I. All icons that make an appearance on this blog are also mine unless otherwise stated. Credit is always given where credit is due. Obviously, I am not Sarah Gadon nor do I own any of the rights to the character that is Nimue or her source material. 

I AM NOT A FAN OF MARION ZIMMER BRADLEY AND DO NOT CONDONE HER ACTIONS IN HER PRIVATE LIFE. THIS BLOG CAN AND WILL - MORE OFTEN THAN NOT - PROVE TO BE CANON - DIVERGENT. This is an INDEPENDENT & SELECTIVE roleplay account for the character this is NIMUE from a series of books called THE MISTS OF AVALON. Inspiration is also drawn from ARTHURIAN LEGEND and various fictional influences.

THE BASICS

The mun's name is MICHELLE and she is over the age of TWENTY with more than ten years of experience in a roleplaying capacity. I don't particularly care about pronouns one way or another and I don't have any debilitating triggers. That being said, I will respect your choice of pronouns and attempt to tag all triggers that may end up on the blog accordingly. Keep in mind that I am just a mere mortal and I'm prone to mistakes. If I mess up with either of these, just tell me politely and I'll fix it. I HAVE A ZERO-TOLERANCE POLICY FOR DRAMA. If I see that you're prone to it, if it floods my dash, or you bring it to my own personal metaphorical doorstep, I will unfollow you. I DO NOT CONDONE CALL-OUT CULTURE. If this is something that you participate in and I see it on my dash, I will likely unfollow you. DO NOT GOD-MOD OR ATTEMPT TO CONTROL MY CHARACTER WITHOUT PERMISSION. I will not reply. THIS BLOG WILL HAVE COMPLICATED RELIGIOUS IMAGERY, DESCRIPTION AND NEGATIVE OPINIONS CONTRARY TO MAJORITY THOUGHT. These may or may not also reflect the views of the mun. If this is a tense subject area for you, I suggest not following.

SELECTIVITY AND SHIPPING

I do reserve the right to roleplay with whomever I choose. I sometimes play favorites and do have main characters that Nim interacts with. I do not always follow back, and depending on my mood, I may not always reply to a starter if handed one without solicitation. That being said, if you're willing to plot with me and share ideas, there will always be a place for you on my dash and I'm likely to reply to things from you in a more prompt and timely manner. 

Nimue, as played by me, is PANSEXUAL & DEMIROMANTIC but ships are always determined by CHEMISTRY. I am very picky about ships and would appreciate it if you would discuss any intentions with me or respect any decision I might make not to ship with your character. This does not mean that your character cannot flirt with mine or find them attractive or whatever. I do not consider these things forced shipping. 

While this blog does function under all the tenants of a MULTI-VERSE and MULTI-SHIP existence, I do consider my ship with FATEWEARY to be the main relationship on this blog. Any and all interactions taking place within a verse (historical, modern, or otherwise) where Nimue is in a relationship will default to Sage's Mordred being her chosen paramour. 

Any open starters I make will usually be tagged as 'mutuals only' or 'free for all' - if I've placed the generic indie tags on a starter, there is a good chance that it is open to everyone. ALL MEMES ARE ALWAYS OPEN TO FOLLOWERS, MUTUAL OR NOT

FORMATTING

Alright, listen, I personally don't care how you format your posts. Just know that if you use a regular sized font, I'm likely to make it small in my reply. But I legitimately do not care if you want to make your posts big or small, if you want to use icons or gifs, or if you want to make it fancy at all. Personally, I will usually at least always make the font small or double small and use icons, but half the time I can't be arsed to go any fancier. I will if the mood hits me, or if I'm mirroring someone else's look bc I have a 'flow' issue, but otherwise idfc.

[i-mean-ok-tho]

ok

i know literally nobody follows me but i love talking abt myself bc im a narcissist so heres a ton of random facts about me:

-my name is tori but call me whatever u feel like ig idfc

-im 15 my bday is november 16

-im wearing an mcr sweatshirt rn

-sweatpants ARE a look and nobody can tell me otherwise

-i lowkey don't like any of my friends except for like 2 i really only talk to my minecraft friends lmao

-i promise i'm usually not this rude i'm on my period rn so i'm hella moody

-uh i have plenty of obsessions just school through my blog and you'll probably pick up on my interests

-i'm currently crushing on like 4 ppl and one of them is much older than me which is kinda awkward but i have 0 chance with him so its ok

-my favorite band is 5 seconds of summer

-one time i bought a nirvana beanie at hot topic & i decided to wear it. afterwards i went to get a pretzel and the cashier dude started talking abt a kurt cobain documentary and i was so lost but pretended i was listening like boi i just wanted my mf pretzel

-danganronpa, undertale, and minecraft r my top 3 fav video games

-my top songs areeee:

pictures of girls by wallows

ophelia by the lumineers

hypnotic by zella day

fuck up by gabriel black

i literally have a spotify playlist with just those songs so i can listen to them on repeat

-when i transfer schools i'm gonna take german bc i'm very intrigued with german culture and i'd love to visit and possibly move to germany one day

-i'd also like to learn spanish, french, german (duh), and dutch idk rly abt spanish and french, those r at the bottom of my list tbh i like french bc its a beautiful language, my favorite word is in french and Spanish is a pretty easy language to learn for English speakers so maybe i guess

-i just added unpredictable by 5sos to that spotify playlist bc I just realized i dont have any 5sos songs on it and that's Not Okay

-i'm bi but more attracted towards guys/nonbinary people/masculinity in general tbh

-oh hypnotic is playing rn

-i'm a cat person dogs are ok but like i dont like them esp small dogs

-my favorite book series is percy jackson

-my phone is breaking rn

-also iphones are better than samsungs not sorry

-my phone's at 4%

-my username is cringey but guess what i dont cAre

-i made a huge mistake and that was getting a pixie cut. im currently growing it out and its taught me a valuable lesson. im not patient nor will i ever be (and to never cut my hair again)

-i lost my airpod case and my airpods are dying

-nvm i found it

-it was under my blanket

-i'm a small brained idiot

-i think my dnd alignment thing was chaotic neutral but i forgot so that's fun

-im a whole ass 🤡

-i made a video of myself and one of my friends and posted it on my ig which is toriiiii.42069 i think something like that

-i plan on running away to florida when i get a car and moving in w my bsf/sister which is definitely a bad idea bc i have to drive ACROSS the country and I'm not good at preparing for things so we can only imagine how that'll turn out but it's ok bc i need to gtfo of my town and away from my parents

-my brother flipped his car over twice in the same month

-i own a hydroflask but not i'm not a vsco girl i could give less of a fuck abt plastic straws killing turtles it's bc its a thermos and easy to carry ty and good day

-i have fairylights all over my room so thats fun

-i want to go to victoria canada again bc its so nice there I would highkey move there its wonderful

-uuuhh i love danny devito hes a blessing

-speaking of him my favorite movie is the lorax

-i think i have a cut in my tongue so thats cool

-i can't ride a bike but my friend is teaching me this weekend so thats cool too

-i like art but i cant do it well

-speaking of art i really want to go to an art school when i graduate

-i'm addicted to tiktok its a problem

-i'm gonna end this here it's too long already

[shatteredmind420-blog]

Just some stuff abt me (i stole the questions, sorryyy)

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?my ex 

2. Are you outgoing or shy?shy 

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?my best friend

4. Are you easy to get along with?yes

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?no

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?apparently damaged ppl

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?hell no

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?my best friend lol

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?depends on who it is 

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? best friend 

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?i havent texted someone in a long time lol so idk

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? sorry by buckcherry, idfc by black bear, nicotine by p!atd, phycho, i wanna love you 

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?yesssss

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?yes

15. What good thing happened this summer? i was in a relationship

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?yeah

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?yep

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?nooo

19. Do you like bubble baths?yep

20. Do you like your neighbors?idk ive never met them 

21. What are you bad habits?nail biting, binge eating, smoking 

22. Where would you like to travel?yeah

23. Do you have trust issues?yeah

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?sleeping

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?all of it 

26. What do you do when you wake up?use the bathroom

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?darker yes

28. Who are you most comfortable around?my bestfriend 

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?no

30. Do you ever want to get married?yessss

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?no

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? ruby rose and hailey steinfeld

33. Spell your name with your chin.lkjdewq

34. Do you play sports? What sports? nope 

35. Would you rather live without TV or music? tv

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?yess

37. What do you say during awkward silences? idk 

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?ruby rose. that tells you everything 

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? rue 21, thrift stores, spencers. 

40. What do you want to do after high school? idk yet 

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?yes

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? im thinking 

43. Do you smile at strangers?yes, its impolite not to 

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?outer space 

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?my need to pee

46. What are you paranoid about?everything 

47. Have you ever been high?yessssss

48. Have you ever been drunk?hell yeah 

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?no

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? its been a while so idk but probably black

51. Ever wished you were someone else?all the time 

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? my weight 

53. Favourite makeup brand?whatever works 

54. Favourite store?spencers 

55. Favourite blog?i dont think  i have one 

56. Favourite colour?purple 

57. Favourite food?soup

58. Last thing you ate?fries 

59. First thing you ate this morning?fries 

60. Ever won a competition? For what? poster contest 

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?yes, suspended for head lice in the 3rd grade bc my dad had to work and i didnt know how to get rid of it 

62. Been arrested? For what?nope

63. Ever been in love?hell yes

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? i went in to kiss her cheek and it just happened 

65. Are you hungry right now?always 

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?i dont have any yet sadly 

67. Facebook or Twitter?facebook

68. Twitter or Tumblr?tumblr

69. Are you watching tv right now?no

70. Names of your bestfriends? john tanner and emily bailey and heather walker 

71. Craving something? What? soup

72. What colour are your towels?uh blue 

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?2

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?no

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?none

75. Favourite animal? birds 

76. What colour is your underwear?yellow 

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?depends on the day 

78. Favourite ice cream flavour? anything with brownie chunks and without peanuts 

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?blue 

80. What colour pants?blue jeans 

81. Favourite tv show?oh god, uhhhhh, probably degrassi 

82. Favourite movie? fried green tomatoes 

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?never seen it 

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?21 jump street for damn sure 

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?none 

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?dory 

87. First person you talked to today?mother 

88. Last person you talked to today?brother 

89. Name a person you hate?my step mom

90. Name a person you love?my friends 

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?hell yeah 

92. In a fight with someone?no

93. How many sweatpants do you have?2

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?1

95. Last movie you watched? brain on fire 

96. Favourite actress?ruby rose 

97. Favourite actor? will smith

98. Do you tan a lot?no

99. Have any pets?yes 

100. How are you feeling?anxious 

101. Do you type fast?hell no 

102. Do you regret anything from your past?yep

103. Can you spell well?yes

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?yes

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?yes

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?in like middle school

107. Have you ever been on a horse?yes

108. What should you be doing?reading

109. Is something irritating you right now?yes, my stomache 

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?yessssss

111. Do you have trust issues?yes

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?my mom

113. What was your childhood nickname?same as it is now, kym

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?yes

115. Do you play the Wii?used to

116. Are you listening to music right now?yes,its “whatever it takes”

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?yes

118. Do you like Chinese food?depends 

119. Favourite book?shattered silence by melissa moore 

120. Are you afraid of the dark?kinda 

121. Are you mean?no

122. Is cheating ever okay?no

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?no

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?yes

125. Do you believe in true love?yes

126. Are you currently bored?yes

127. What makes you happy?my friends 

128. Would you change your name?yesss

129. What your zodiac sign?virgo

130. Do you like subway?oh yeah 

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?look at him crazy bc hes probably joking 

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?my mom

133. Favourite lyrics right now? youre worse than nicotine 

134. Can you count to one million?yeah

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?idk

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?closed 

137. How tall are you?5′2

138. Curly or Straight hair?curly all the way 

139. Brunette or Blonde?brunette

140. Summer or Winter?winter 

141. Night or Day?night 

142. Favourite month?september 

143. Are you a vegetarian?no

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?milk

145. Tea or Coffee?coffee

146. Was today a good day?somewhat considering its my birthday 

147. Mars or Snickers?snickers 

148. What’s your favourite quote? ill have to get back to u on that

149. Do you believe in ghosts?yes

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?” i’m dangerous?’’ clary echoead in astonishment. “i saw you

[aitreri]

I know it’s not very wise of me after just one relationship but looking back at it, looking back at relations with boys they (thought) were in love with me, and mostly looking at my dad now and hearing my mum out, I have a huge urge not to have any boyfriend/man/not to mention husband in my life. I just don’t find it attractive anymore. Nothing special. And I like naturalism (like in literature and art) but when I’m imagine that I may end up like my mother with man who sneezes so loud that whole neighborhood can hear it, snores so loud you can’t hear the movie, asks every single thing “what?” bc doesn’t hear weel anymore (but he’s still 55yo so I don’t think he’s that old yet...). No romantic things.

Not to mention that my boyfriend wasn’t romantic... no surprises nor stupid one flower for these 3 years we were together.

I know living together, like a family, so many years it becomes plain but I just don’t want it. I don’t care if “it’s natural, the life goes that way, you have to accept it”, like hell I will... Maybe others stand for it bc they’ve lost hope for something better and don’t wish for more anymore, bc everyone was telling “them things just turns that way, you can’t change it”.

IDFC, I’m not gonna live that kind of life. And even if I end up alone, I really don’t care. I would rather be alone that ending up like this.

I’m single now. Maybe it’s only 2moths but past these 2 months I felt so happy like never past this 3years of being in relationship. Maybe this relationship was the wrong one. I don’t know the answer.

You may think “you’re happy now but you’ll be lonely in the future” - maybe. But I believe - no - I’M SURE I’m the one who has control over my life so it’s not going to happen. If someone special etc. appears and we end up happy together - than good, but if I end up alone - I won’t ever feel lonely. Just watch me ;)