#at this point idek if i wanna be friends w her

[wombtowaste]

friend w trust fund complaining shes always broke and mad ppl want her to budget meanwhile i am 1 paycheck away from getting evicted

[imwetforyourmom]

STOP, im so confused rn. Ok so i had a crush for 2 years now, i met him on karate classes and then found out we went to the same school. We became friends, not too close but he always made sure to at least wave at me whenever he saw me, if he couldn't hug me; he's literally the sweetest and one of the kindest boys I've met. This year I had to change schools so i was rlly depressed at the beginning of the year bc I couldn't see my friends anymore, including him. On the bright side, we got closer and he started giving me rlly mixed signals, which made me like him even more, but sadly we stopped talking much for a couple of months and then he started posting some girl and now they're dating or talking idk, the problem here is that I'm REALLY upset bc he used to hug me from behind, always was sweet to me, he sent me these tiktoks that were meant for a boyfriend to send tonher girlfriend, love tiktoks and even told me on valentines day "fuck february 14th, I love you everyday" LIKE WHAT, and it doesn't end there, he would always draw hearts on snaps, or say "I love you" "I miss you sm" and stuff like that. EVEN TODAY, he said ily w a heart on a snap; that might be nothing but it hurts like a bitch bc I really like him, I thought I moved on but after some months of no talking he comes up with "ily♡" AND NOW IDEK HOW I FEEL, i js wanna cry and forget abt it, I still want to be friends but idk, I've never told him how I felt and idk if its right since he has a girl. A lot more happened but i tried summing it all up here, idk what to do oml

dude idk what to do either. that sounds like the 2000s rom coms, that’d be epic if thus was your love story tho. but back to the point, screw him, if hes gonna pick a girl he has to choose one and he already chose her. if he actually did ‘love’ you he wouldnt have even batted an eye at that girl, you deserve sooo much better bby

[iloveslllycatss]

ok guys i have a situation.

BASICALLY.

like 2 years ago, there was this dude i had a hallway crush on, and we didn’t talk to each other at ALL. we’d just see each other in a club we were in. and so on valentine’s day, my STUPID ASS had my FRIEND text him like “do u wanna date runa cus she’s too pussy to ask u herself” and he said “no sorry idek her like that and im not looking for a relationship.” and it was all okay…. UNTIL AFTER like 8 months (those 8 months was me having a failed talking stage w someone else.) i saw him again and i started liking him again, it was now the beginning of the new school year (this is last year). and i AGAIN, had a crush on him. also this dude was one of my childhood friends close friends so keep this in mind. so now that it’s a new school year, we had pe together, and over a little bit of time we talked to each other and became friends, to the point where he’d chase me around the gym and shit. me being delusional as FUCK, i thought this made me have a chance, but i was still too pussy. so i texted him on snap anonymously and started talking to him— until he found out it was me….. (my childhood friend told him). then, we just started to talk normally. until i get my phone taken for 11 months. while my phone was taken i was also pulled out of school for the rest of the year to do online school. in that period i still always thought about him and stuff, so on my laptop, i texted him anonymously AGAIN after like 9 months of the last time passed by. (he was also a VERY dry texter so it was mostly me trying to get him to talk to me in all caps and he did a couple times) .. (idk if this makes sense). so we talked but then he found out ONCE AGAIN that it was me. then after like a week of us not texting, i find out from a friend that in the time i wasn’t at school when someone asked him about me he’d tell other people that i was “hella obsessed w me and low key annoying” and then i blocked him. he’s still blocked to this day but when the current school year started and i saw him again… i caught feelings… AGAIN. he’s still blocked and idk what to do but i’m fr like attached to him even tho we aren’t even that close, also one of my friends likes him and she’s friends w him so idk but i’m fr like idk how to get him out of my head or nothing because unless he fr breaks my heart i’m not gonna get over him 😭

WHAT SHOULD I DO GUYS PLEASE HELP ITS BEEN 3 YEARS.

[amporella]

hi! this is mpreg anon from a few months back lol. i just wanted to say i finally got to reading the fic and im sooo!!!!! sobbing and crying, a puddle of love on the floor! you were right. i Know now why you talked about it often.

i really love holly's stankyle. theres something about them that feels very.. desperate? like they know they belong together and sometimes not even physical touch can satiate that need/want?? idk! but agh! i love them sm. holly is also really good at capturing the overall weirdness of south park and thats why she can come up with aus/ideas that are weird or silly and make them work. i also really appreciate that she went for kinks/tropes that not many people give style.

something else i really loved about this fic was that it felt very like.. omg a dream come true in a way? sometimes i just wanna read a fic where stan and kyle do fuck all all day, just real type of normal maybe even domestic shit and its just them. and this fic came pretty close to that? they are so wrapped up in each other and have so much love to give and g OD i thought the baby was gonna come in and ruin that or like i was gonna get annoyed w the baby but no!!! 😭 i was so neutral about elway in the beginning and was actually loving how kyle was thinking/approaching the whole thing. idek when that started changing?? before they talk about the name elway though. and when she was finally born and the days kyle spent fighting to get her?!! and then he gets her and its the three of them and its like.. yeah.. okay, she's perfect. she really is a miracle stan and kyle created and theres no way she could ever come between them bc stan and kyle's love is endless, its forever and ever, they can share that love with their child 🤧

as for creek, hmm. i think craig and tweek just arent characters i've seen holly write for and like? so even though they are/were together i just didnt rly care for them u_u. im really glad i started finally reading fic where theyre not together in style fics though. it still hurts a bit lmao but ive been enjoying some stories i had passed on before and stuff and yeah, ty for giving me that little push >w<!!!

sorry this ask is so long! i didnt want to bother you every time i finished a chapter lol. i was also going through some stuff and this fic was the only thing keeping me sane. and actually i have just the epilogue left but im so sad its gonna be over after that so i've been delaying it :(! but yeah, aahhhh herbert garrison's night school for unwed fathers enjoyer 🫡 TY! 💙💚

YOU HAVE NOOOO IDEA HOW HAPPY I AM THAT YOU READ THE FIC AND SENT ME THIS AMAZING ASK??? I saw this in my inbox and immediately went to my friends and like BRAGGED ABOUT GETTING THIS? I'm going to respond to every part so bear with me but in the meantime THANK YOU!!!

I think you are so so right about them being desperate... it is key for stanky that regardless of how close they get physically, it's like it'll never be enough? Like they are soulmates in every sense of the word, and can never actually satiate their pull... SIGH!!!! IT'S TRUE!!! And holly's ability to nail absurdity is absolutely one of her strongest suits, and something that definitely contributed to how iconic she is. South Park is an absurd show, and holly meets it with such absurdity that Stan and Kyle can stay perfectly in character, because so many of her plots are something that could legitimately BE a South Park episode involving the characters when they're older. Like, Craig and Clyde fucking in the Marsh shed and Craig telling Sheila Kyle needs a psych eval? A+, can and will happen at some point. It's so ridiculous yet somehow believable, and the mpreg fic is literally the BEST example of it. It's a concept that's frankly a huge turnoff for a lot of people (understandably), but she puts it in such a light that she makes it appealing for a ton of people. It's one of those fics that i would recommend even to the most vehement mpreg hater, because there IS something about it that differentiates it from typical fics like that.

AND DESCRIBING IT AS A DREAM COME TRUE IS SO CORRECT? Everything you said in that third paragraph specifically was so fucking real. The fic starts off as such an absolute disaster situation, and despite the multiple disasters along the way, you can absolutely tell that it was like fate in a way? Holly does an incredible job of balancing the understandable stress with the joy and all the happy moments, as well as acknowledging the fact that in the end, Elway seriously did enrich both of their lives. I LOVE THAT YOU POINTED OUT HOW YOU WERE WORRIED ABOUT THE BABY COMING BETWEEN THEM... because it's true!!! It's such a real concern, but she is so good about wrapping it up; the scenes after Kyle gets Elway feel like a dream sequence in how floaty and happy everyone is, and while reading it I was like (as someone who does not want kids), huh. Maybe I need to have a baby? LOLL but seriously you are so right. It IS endless and now they have even more love to go around because of Elway... whatever. WHATEVER!! I'm not even crying. I'm NORMAL!!!!

I totally get your feelings about creek!! I ended up feeling kind of similarly. I'm happy you started expanding your horizons!!! There's nothing wrong with sticking with exclusively creek fic, obv, but there are some real gems out there if you're able to push some of the icks to the side. And maybe you'll even figure out a new ship you like? I remember that I was afraid to read Other People's Tupperware at first because Tweek is literally dead, and Craig hooks up with Kenny? But then I decided to read it (and felt neutral about it!) and it was valuable to me. And then when I read it a few years later, I really loved it. It got me thinking that first time!!! I'M HAPPY I COULD HELP GIVE YOU THAT PUSH!!!

Talking about holly (or any other fic) to me will NEVER bother me so pls feel free to do so!!!! I HOPE YOU ENJOY THE EPILOGUE!! It is sweet and so delightful. AND PLEASE LET ME KNOW IF I CAN EVER GIVE YOU ANY OTHER SUGGESTIONS!!

Thank you SOO much for this ask!! It seriously made my day.

[live-love-laugh-lesbian]

hiii!! me again akjsdhkjashd

ELECTRIC SAXOPHONES ARE A THING?!?? WHATTTTT THATS SOO COOL OMG AKSJDHJSDH

omg i think i am 'people' (the type of person who has patience for the latter : visual novel and not the former : working w children askjdhakjsh) i think i just dont have the capability to be able to handle children i cant even handle myself asjdhajsldh

wait thats so cool that your mum works with kids as well! its relatable for me to bc i do computer science and my sister did and her bff does and my bff does its crazy akjsdhkasjh its like a domino affect from person to person lmaooo

oh yeahh i totally get the thing w poorly trained dogs i mainly talk about those tiny harmless ones ir if they are big those sweet chill oness!! ur uncles' dog sounds adorablee!! and so do your cats omg! and thank you <3 i know not alll cats are like that and if i see a cat i will try to pet it ajlsdhalsjhd unless its scared of me ofc

omg i know you mentioned before that your hobbies are sewing and stuff and that you were sewing a trouser but like i didnt know you MADE trousers!! thats soo coolll youre basically a fashion designer!! and lilac trousers i would sooo wear those omg SEQUINED HEARTS AHHHHHHHHH this sounds soo cute

im a sagittarius! one of my best friends is a scorpio!! so whenever i see her now ill think of you!!!! asdaslkdjasld so real w atla lmaooo and also so real w swimming asdjhjasdh

oh yeah i love art too! and spending time w your sister sounds so cute and fun!! and then a date w your gf sounds soo adorable this sounds like such a comfy classic cozy day! i would spend my day probably by playing guitar, art and for the majority sleeping or going on my phone ajksdhkd if its a rainy day id go for a nice hot chocolate and a brownie coated in whipped cream bc who doesnt love whipped cream asdhsaj stardew valleyyy!! my childhoodd!! i like playing games but its mainly like yansim (i swear im not crazy askdjaslkdj i just find it too addictingggg) AKLSHDJKASHD competitive i sooo get that i get really competitive in games as well lmaoo to the point its unhealthy ahhhh

they sound like awesome compliments! for me any compliment is my fav ajksdhkjs i love compliments on my singing, intelligence and this is lowkey weird but my hair ajkshdjsd my hair never looks good for some reason so if someone says it does one day then i will be beaming and happy for the rest of the day ahhh i also love compliments in my art and my coding! and yes professional compliments ESPECIALLY from children are the best validation ever akjshdjksadh

my question for you: what's something about the modern-day world that bothers you, and what’s something about it that brings you joy?

byee! have a lovely dayy!

-swiftie spring exchange anon idek askldhalsjd

Hello again! Apologies if my answer is short, I am ill and very tired but I wanna reply.

Computer science is so cool!! What sort of stuff do you do with that? Programming or uhhh...here's where I show my lack of computer science knowledge...anyways I'm curious XD (Saw you said coding later!! That's so cool!!!)

I getcha XD My other uncle has dogs too! Ex racing greyhounds, he likes to give them a happy retirement. They can be chaotic but I can't blame them too much, they were trained to chase small things after all! As a kid I accidentally stepped on one of their tails...I felt so guilty!! But the dog was chill and I gave him a treat to say sorry XD

I've been making a lot of trousers recently cause I realised I owned like...2. Except then I get more and more ideas and have to narrow them down XD The current pair are...sort of almost done. Made, fabric hearts sewn on, the sequins will go around the edges of them, but it's gonna take a while. Wearing them anyways in the mean time XD

Your day sounds good too!! Brownies my beloved...I have such a sweet tooth it's unreal XD And nah I've played Yansim too. Not for a while, but no judgement! And look if one isn't playing to WIN then what's the point in playing XD (I say that, in games like Stardew Valley I'm more relaxed, but that's not pvp soooo)

Sounds like good compliments!! I used to get compliments on my hair back when it was longer (I was like 18 at the time). It was so long it was inconvenient, I had to move it to sit down lol. And now it's super short XD Complete 180. I'm sure your hair is lovely however!!

Modern day world...tbh how often you need to call people. Like some places don't have emails anymore?? Or require calls anyways?? don't do phone calls really and I HATE the trend of "phone or nothing".

Does government stuff count too? If so like. Governments. They're run so poorly I swear to god. I don't think that's new to the modern world however XD What about you?

Adding to that topic: what's something you hope to see in the next five years? :)

[shortnsnips]

heres my ranking of eternal sunshine first listen!! i went in with low expectations because i can't stand yes, and? but it honestly ate so bad and this was so hard to do btw 😭

1. true story (THIS HURT TO PUT IT ABOVE ETERNAL DUNSJINE BUT ITS SO GOOD LIKE ear candy idk its literally even more so that girl)

2. eternal sunshine (transition brownie points, OH! IDEK WHAT PART THIS IS BUT IT ALL ATE omg the chorus is so good yea this is THAT girl i dont like the bridge as much but i will say the rest of the song is COLD)

3. supernatural (THE CHORUS IS SO CUTIEEEE yea this song is so cute the production quite literally gives supernatural idk! THE KEY CHANGE WAS SO COOL)

4. we can't be friends (I LOVE BUBBLEGUM POP this one is actually so good i almost put it 1 but i had to calm myself down i also like this one conceptually)

5. ordinary things (the way she says ordinary takes me OUT but this one was cute i like how the backing sounds like old timey record its cute! also the nonna feature is so cute actually she slayed for that AND THEN THE TRANSITION TO THE BEGINNING transition brownie points)

6. imperfect for you (i LOVE this song but that one part in the chorus w the funky melody turned me off of it a little bit im ngl but everything else about this song is actually like shakung crying falling to my kneess /pos)

7. bye (i like the chorus and prechorus also shes so real for this one OH THE BRIDGE KEY CHANGE ATE i also like how it kinda sounds like i wanna say 90s/00s bubblegum pop i EAT THAT UP)

8. i wish i hated you (☹️😢😞🫠 GIRL DID SHE SNIFFLE AND HER VOICE BREAK HELLO ARIANA WHO GAVE YOU THE RIGHT)

9. the boy is mine (it felt like there was a weird like tempo change but this song was still cute im just not as in love w it as the others)

10. i don't wanna break up again (i like it conceptually and i like the verses but idk if i like the chorus as MUCH like the lyrics eat but i dont vibe w the melody)

12. intro (very pretty 9th track update im sad i ranked this first bc it was so cute and somehow its so low now LOL)

13. saturn returns interlude (i think its cute but theres not much there other than that BUT THE TRANSITION IT PROVIDED ATE)

14. yes, and? (😬)

i love the songs that are super like 90s/00s bubblegum pop and i wish more artists would revisit that sort of sound! even true story gives me that sort of 90s/early 00s vibes its just too good but she basically delivered another skipless album! (if you ignore yes, and?)

[leonskennedyismother]

If I sound familiar please do not read whats gonna follow. If you think you know me irl GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE. 🤍

If u think this situation is something that you are a part of or heard me talk about, please do not read and send me a private msg on ig w a ss of this cuz I don’t want u to read this. ESPECIALLY if ure involved. Thx!

So essentially: I went to see the Barbie movie… but ending up not seeing it 🧍🏻‍♀️ Lemme explain!

So me and my friend J ahead of time. So we went around the mall and did her makeup at Sephora (which was fun). Later S met us and we headed to a place to eat. We started eating and ordered a drink. After eating we went to a bar and in that bar, and we started drinking. So I typically drink a lot over a long period so I dont get too fucked up. But this time I drank like twice of what I usually drink. Me and S drank a lot and started joking and stuff. And then after a while me and J go to the bathroom together and she’s like “omg its like we’re dating” (she has a boyfriend but she’s bi). So I like joke with her and after peeing we like stare in the mirror andI put my head on her shoulder from the back-ish. And she says “omg stop doing that I might catch feels” and I like joke cuz wtv? Right? WRONG. Anyways we go back to the table and continue joking with S.

At this point lets fast forward, we’re 4 drinks deep (4 shots and 2 drinks which is 4 for me wtv) and her bf called. And me and S r like hang up cuz they’ve been talking for like 10 mins and I jokingly take her phone and say “Ok M, we’ll see you later bye” and close, which is like in a fun I’m drunk way. Like everyone laughs it off and it’s fine but like I felt like including it bc he’s a nice dude and I genuinely don’t hate him but I did hang up but like everyone laughed so I’m overthinking it I hope.

Anyways fast forward to us getting into the cinema, J and S kiss (S is str8 btw). And so J is like let’s kiss too, and I’m like “ok” but also “k????” but I was drunk so we peck or wtv and then I kiss S but again AS A DRUNK PECK BETWEEN FRIENDS.

We then get to our seats which fine cool and me and J start flirting. Like borderline not platonic flirting. And at some point we start peck again. And then kiss. And then kiss once more. And like continue flirting and stuff. Which is like fine bc it’s platonic ig, and her bf literally said “Nice” over text. (Also she showed me the convo but said don’t read it, and I didn’t bc my drunk brain said ‘It’s not about me’ when in reality it’s probably about me) But like after she started saying stuff like “Dont hold S’ hand. You’re cheating” and “Ok but you said I’m not your type.” Which I did say, bc she’s not and she’s in a relationship how tf am I cheating??? Also after the kisses she said “You can practice on me” cuz I said “It’s been a while since I didn’t kiss anybody” (I put the Bi in Bitchless)

Anyways we go to the bathroom together and she’s like “want me to go w you I dont want you falling” and I’m like wobbly but Im fine. And like when we return we lay on the floor or idek but I know at some point I pulled her and kinda slammed her into the wall in a hot *drunk* way. Which like idek why I did that pls it’s cringe. And then she kept giving me signals to kiss her during the movie but I was like “You do it.” Cuz I didn’t wanna kiss her but also I wanted to flirt. So Im confused and I’m pretty sure she’s in love with me but also I told her “I don’t wanna fuck you” and she said “I dont want it either” which I was like “ouch.” And she was like “Bruh!!” And I mean my ego

Anyways the next day she texted me in the early early morning *8am cuz I had a shift then* asking me if I’m okay and if I got to work safe. Which she never does. And I’m like “is she in love with me? I mean I don’t think so??”

PLEASE I DONT WANNA BREAK UP A COUPLE AND IM PRETTY SURE IM NOT BUT I FEEL GUILTY OMG. *this happened 2 days ago btw!*

Also Pretty sure I’m the only one who’s being dramatic about the whole thing and J is like not even caring! 🧍🏻‍♀️✨

[baekhvuns]

Ofc they're having a cb when I'm not there, I have up at this point lol

Stop the avocado abuse 💔

Stalkers won't stop like, they know it's bad and they dgaf. Even some blacklisted fansites can still go to airports cause who's gonna stop them? It's awful

I was bored and looked into Men of the Harem the novel, but do I wanna spoil myself. My friend said it has more details and the relationship between Latil and Tasir is 😳😊 so I might check it out. There are like 287373 chapters and shit gets spicy 😭

I can't fully enjoy this WC because of the whole Qatar thing so I'm mostly observing from the distance. Everything I needed from football this year aka Madrid winning CL happened so now I'm chill! And Arsenal is literally FIRST in the Premier League table?!??! I used to like Mbappe more, but I still have a soft spot for many French players 💀 I'm a bit sad Spain lost, but oh well. I hate penalties, so nerve wrecking

One thing SM is good at are the promo picturesand packaging. My journey with Itzy started with Wannabe, cause I didn't care for their debut and Icy, but I'm a Not Shy and Loco defender. MITM is hmmm not the best, but I still like it to a certain extent. People speculate Jinni was kicked out cause she spoke about training, having a comeback soon and the next day GOODBYE 🤔Also Loona's comeback, uhmmmmm. I know many Orbits are boycotting it

Hawgsyhasyshhss I will never forget waking up one day in Straya, opening the blinds and spotting two roos boxing each other, we made eye contact then they continued. I was like "understandable, have a nice day". Omfg that's the same person I forgot I told you about her, tbh lots of my friends live in AUs 😅

Ooooh a few weddings, and then mine in SK, remember! There's a saying that goes "Paris is in France, but France isn't in Paris" so sidhjshdjsnhsjs I also recommend other French cities if you ever have time

Seonghwa platinum is perfect even my friend who used to hate blonde hair agrees! People just want ot8 black hair, but it's so boooooring, most of them have/had black hair all the time! As a blonde Hwa lover I'm in danger, what if he dyes it now... hopefully a different colour than black, it'd be a shame not to take advantage of his bleached scalp. But I want him to stay a blondie a little longer 😭 most importantly NO SCISSORS. I need Hongjoong to do something crazy with his hair tho

Alright so best of both worlds, dark academia, but make it cottagecore as well.

(Thumb Seonghwa is not real he can't hurt us...)

Right. I do hope Eden and his team switch things up and give Jongho less high notes etc, but he's still a good producer. Some Atinys think he's the devil, like? Log off and stare at a wall, think about your lives for a second

If I worked at that diner and saw this bitch and thoughts on the 👃?

Please NT football teams need Season's Greetings lolol

They said "no more lies" but no Love Shot, no Move...

*gently holds*

I was asleep idek what's going on, but I'm too out of it to analyse the lore this time. Also this comeback feels a bit unnecessary ngl ksugswgyshshshshs and I still haven't gone through the whole Paradigm album 🙉 - DV 💖

hi hello!!

Ofc they're having a cb when I'm not there, I have up at this point lol // Stop the avocado abuse 💔

LMFAOOOO 😭😭 ITS ABSOLUTE BS !!! but if ur going kr in like later maybe they’ll be there w a new comeback 😭😭😭 i do not personally understand the hype around avocado being tasti actually <//3

Stalkers won't stop like, they know it's bad and they dgaf. Even some blacklisted fansites can still go to airports cause who's gonna stop them? It's awful

atp bodyguards need to be shown faces in their training for the group they guard so they can stop the specific fans and plus isn’t rona still in kr like its spiking so i don’t understand why they’d all risk and crowed around them,, we need the guards to be the swat or csi stuff atp 🤚🏼

I was bored and looked into Men of the Harem the novel, but do I wanna spoil myself. My friend said it has more details and the relationship between Latil and Tasir is 😳😊 so I might check it out. There are like 287373 chapters and shit gets spicy 😭

THERES A WHOLE NOVEL??? WHAT. latil and tasir’s relationship, 👀 WHAT DO U MEAN WHAT DO U MEAN IT GETS SPICY 😭😭 DOES MY GUY SONNAUGHT GET AT LEAST 1 MINUTE OF LATIL’S ATTENTION 😭😭

I can't fully enjoy this WC because of the whole Qatar thing so I'm mostly observing from the distance. Everything I needed from football this year aka Madrid winning CL happened so now I'm chill! And Arsenal is literally FIRST in the Premier League table?!??! I used to like Mbappe more, but I still have a soft spot for many French players 💀 I'm a bit sad Spain lost, but oh well. I hate penalties, so nerve wrecking

right!! im keeping up primarily bc its their last wc 😭😭 madrid was really on a roll with the league HDWKDHWK THE ARSENAL V MAN UNITED IS THE ONE IM WAITING FOR,,, no bc mbappe let the fame get to his mind tho i can’t deny that he’s a good player, but the ego is 📈📈 i was surprised england lost mate, in front of beckham like that??? VIOLATION!! penalties truly, never been so on the edge of my seat 🤚🏼 the massive amount of pressure these guy’s have is 🫡 + hope the teams who didn’t make it get the chance at copa, and the next wc bc theres gonna be sooo many teams

One thing SM is good at are the promo picturesand packaging. My journey with Itzy started with Wannabe, cause I didn't care for their debut and Icy, but I'm a Not Shy and Loco defender. MITM is hmmm not the best, but I still like it to a certain extent. People speculate Jinni was kicked out cause she spoke about training, having a comeback soon and the next day GOODBYE 🤔Also Loona's comeback, uhmmmmm. I know many Orbits are boycotting it

YOU ARE CORRECT THO I ALMOST SAID WHAT PROMO UNTIL I SAW THE PICTURES,, sm rly is very creative with packaging and shoot’s ,, loco was AMAZING! the choreo and the kpop oomf, want that itzy era back so fast but lesserafim dominating ,, mafia in the morning was alright the ring dang dang got me 🧍🏻‍♀️ BRUH??? no bc it’s so sus, jyp being this sensitive? then they should’ve kicked out so many ppl if they talked about comebacks 😭😭 YEAAH THE COLOUR CODED LYRIC CHANNELS WILL THRIVE DURING LOONA’S CB bc all the views

Hawgsyhasyshhss I will never forget waking up one day in Straya, opening the blinds and spotting two roos boxing each other, we made eye contact then they continued. I was like "understandable, have a nice day". Omfg that's the same person I forgot I told you about her, tbh lots of my friends live in AUs 😅

LMFAOOOO DBWKHDWKDKW NO WAY 😭😭😭 WHAT A SIGHT STOP u were witnessing a very intense boxing match, who won? the left one or the right? THE WAY THAT FRIEND OF URS SCORED !!!!! lived an au, works a dream job 🤌🏼 gods favourite, im gonna ask one ques, has any of ur friends lived an etl or is it reserved for u?

Ooooh a few weddings, and then mine in SK, remember! There's a saying that goes "Paris is in France, but France isn't in Paris" so sidhjshdjsnhsjs I also recommend other French cities if you ever have time

U BET I WILL TAKE A FLIGHT STRAIGHT FROM THERE,, i do wanna see the eiffel tower but i primarily want to visit the south of france bc it is just so stunning and id cry if i don’t ever see it really, if i can’t live the french girl aesthetic what is the point in life 😵‍💫😵‍💫

Seonghwa platinum is perfect even my friend who used to hate blonde hair agrees! People just want ot8 black hair, but it's so boooooring, most of them have/had black hair all the time! As a blonde Hwa lover I'm in danger, what if he dyes it now... hopefully a different colour than black, it'd be a shame not to take advantage of his bleached scalp. But I want him to stay a blondie a little longer 😭 most importantly NO SCISSORS. I need Hongjoong to do something crazy with his hair tho

EXACTLY EXACTLY !!!!! that seonghwa really attracted so many ppl & turned them into shinestar’s im never forgetting him bc he started my era w him 😭😭 WHAT IF HE DYES IT BLUE 😭😭 IM GONNA SCREAM STOP DONT ASK UR THAT FRIEND FOR PHOTOS ITLL ALSO PISS ME OFF 😭😭🤚🏼 ateez all long haired cb when !! wHEN!! this siren era better bring out the long hairs idc idc we need a hwa + mingi long hair

Alright so best of both worlds, dark academia, but make it cottagecore as well. /// (Thumb Seonghwa is not real he can't hurt us...)

will 🫡 note that 🫡 COTTAGE CORE FLORIST HWA VDMABSKW

DBWMDJKW I LOST IT FOR A FEW MINUTES, TEARS IN EYES FACE RED TYPE OF LAUGH TOO 😭😭

Right. I do hope Eden and his team switch things up and give Jongho less high notes etc, but he's still a good producer. Some Atinys think he's the devil, like? Log off and stare at a wall, think about your lives for a second

omg ur right, jongho in a low register or better yet a song without extreme high notes, give us baby making r&b ateez!!! he really is talented and tbh ppl complaining like they can do it any better! he’s a professional, he’s got a team and the members, they know what they’re doing 😭😭 no literally touch some grass, go make friends but don’t log in

If I worked at that diner and saw this bitch and thoughts on the 👃? /// Please NT football teams need Season's Greetings lolol

DBWMDHKWHDKW BESTIE THAT IS A 90’S AU AND HES THE BB! IM FBWKDJWKDNAM nO COMMENTS. NONE.

and if u see this one.

LMFAOOOO I WOULD ACTUALLY BUY IT, THEY DO THEMES EVERY YEAR STOP THEY’D HE UNSTOPPABLE 😭😭😭 psg doing high schoool theme iM GONNA SCREAM, barca doing news reporters themes 😭😭

They said "no more lies" but no Love Shot, no Move... // *gently holds*

all men do is lie. where is the eve cover, the mmmh, the move, the criminal. where.

gently hold who? him? 🤨

I was asleep idek what's going on, but I'm too out of it to analyse the lore this time. Also this comeback feels a bit unnecessary ngl ksugswgyshshshshs and I still haven't gone through the whole Paradigm album 🙉 - DV 💖

spent 30 mins watching water flow asmr 😭😭 i tbh haven’t listened to paradigm either ive only heard snips and idk what to feel about it </3

ALSO WHAT IS HAPPENING DBWJDHW

🧍🏻‍♀️🧍🏻‍♀️

everything is fine.

[helreigns]

god i’m tired.

[biobliterator]

drew a super super SUPER old oc fr shits n giggles

[kermitmentality]

another stupid little rant bc im a stupid little person

tw sh, suicide ig, ed ig

we just went to mass ._. and its usually 1 hour long but it was 2 and a half

so i was already pissed and anxious to l e a v e

but then i had i think four m o m e n t s where i started crying (not v noticeable tho) bc of how just done i am with going to church

like i am at the breaking point

i started self harming by digging my nails into my skin :/ which my parents may have seen… my sister saw and i told her it was a rash bc its all just swollen but ya

at points i would feel like people were watching me or taking pics of me and id start crying again

i just want to like stop existing. i dont wanna kms but i wanna just unalive idek

idk i just wish i could be religiously free

come out and be supported by my family for my sexuality

dress how i want, act how i want

not be forced into going to places, banquets, events, forced to act like i am devoted to a god i have never even believed in

be friends with who i want to, do what i want with my body

just have my own beliefs

i d k i j u s t w a n t t o d i e a n d c o m e b a c k a s a p e a c e f u l l i t t l e m u s h r o o m o r f r o g o r f a i r y

if u could read that- gj

idk what this is im sorry for wasting ur time if u actually read this, have an amazing day <33

[tryingmyves]

Lovefool

Ask:  Huge congrats on 60 followers!!!! 🤩🤩 I wanna request 14 with Kaminari (preferably romantic) pretty please 🥰 - @melodyinyourmind​ 

asldkjaslkfh okay bestie idek WHY but i was like so stressed to write this for you??? i just love you a lot and really hope you like this - it ended up sweeter than a candy apple, oops. the prompt is italicized

PAIRING: Kaminari x Y/N (female)

c/w: swearing

a/n: Kaminari asks you to prom! super fluffy, quirkless!au, is it still considered a high school au if the characters are in high school canonically?

Send me a request! ► 60 Followers event

The summation of your academic career is on the horizon after twelve years of schooling. Graduation is only three weeks away at this point, and while you will have finals to deal with soon, you can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. All things considered, your high school experience hasn’t been too terrible, it was certainly superior to your middle school experience. But you were ready to finally be out in the world on your own, in the real world, where there are things more important than how popular you are. You’ve always been more of a background character, never the person picked first in gym class or for group projects. You have a few close friends, but mostly you are just another nameless face in the sea of students at UA High. Not everyone could be Shoto Todoroki or Katsuki Bakugo, and most days your social status isn’t even an afterthought to you. However, on rare occasions you’re inundated with insecurities. Your mind drifts, struggling to comprehend what a day in the life of Momo Yaoyorozu must be like. To be beautiful, loved, and adored; an ideal debutante surrounded in perfumed hearts and perfection. A part of you yearns for even just a taste of that kind of existence, but it seemed that you were better suited to a more monotonous reality. To be honest, you were planning to phone in the last few weeks of your senior year but your friend Mina had other plans.  

“What the hell do you mean you’re not going to prom?!” your pink-haired friend all but shouts as the two of you walk to her car, hoping to get out of the parking lot before it was overrun with hundreds of students leaving school for the day. 

“What I just said, I’m not going to prom,” you answer, “I don’t have a date and it just seems kind of pointless right? It’s just a dance after all.” 

“It’s not just a dance, Y/N. It’s our senior prom! It’s like the high school experience!” She lectures. “Besides, we don’t need dates for prom. We just need to look hot as fuck and dance our asses off!”

You shrug, “Yeah, I think if the last four years have taught us anything it’s that we don’t really qualify as ‘hot as fuck.’”

“Uh - speak for yourself. I’m fine as hell. And I’m not friends with ugly people, so that means you're hot too.” Mina counters, unlocking the doors to her gold Camry and throwing her backpack in the backseat.

You just laugh, shaking your head at her as you get into the passenger seat. 

“I’m serious, Y/N,” she continues, sliding behind the steering wheel, “We’re going to prom. So let’s try this again - hey, Y/N, do you want to go prom dress shopping this weekend?” She looks at you with raised eyebrows and a tight smile. You know that there’s no getting out of this.

“Yeah, yeah.” you sigh, rolling your eyes at your best friend “let’s go shopping this weekend.”

“Fuck yes bestie!!” Mina beams,  finally turning her keys in the ignition. The cough of her car’s engine is quickly drowned out by Ashnikko and she whips out of the parking lot, rolling down the windows of the car to let her music blare. You don’t bother to continue a conversation on the ride. You would have to yell to be heard over the vibrations of the subwoofer in the trunk. Instead, you join in with your best friend, scream-singing the chorus to Deal With It while the bass rattles the car. Your jam session only lasts about 20 minutes before Mina drops you off at your house and tells you she’s picking you up at 11 AM tomorrow. It’s not a question, but an order. You’ve been friends with Mina Ashido long enough to know that if you weren’t ready to go tomorrow morning, she’d pull you out of bed herself and drag you to the mall in your pajamas. Mina has a wild side, she’s eternally looking for a party or an adventure, and when she finds it, she’s guaranteed to bring you along with her - whether you want to go or not. But you were thankful for her chaotic personality, it forced you to engage in the world around you instead of just watching it pass by. And even though you won’t admit it, you typically have fun on Mina’s escapades - prom will be probably the same.

But before you can think about shopping or prom, you’ve got to get through your shift at the theater tonight. You head inside to exchange your school bag for your uniform and phone charger before you walk to the bus station. Working at the theater isn’t too bad - you get free popcorn and see all the latest movies for free. After the initial rush of patrons purchasing tickets and snacks, you pretty much just get to slack off and mess around with your coworkers for a few hours. You listen to music and check the schedule for tonight on the bus. You find that you’re on concessions tonight with Hakagure and Kaminari. It wouldn’t be a terrible shift, you think, Hakagure is pretty quiet, but Kaminari is regularly doing something stupid, and more often than not it’s entertaining too.

You get to work, change into your uniform, and then head to the concessions area. Hagakure is already setting things up for the impending rush. You return her hello and set to work, helping restock cups and lids and facing the candy in the glass cases. 

“Looks like I’m spending my Friday night with two hotties,” Kaminari says, striding over to the counter, “that’s pretty standard for me, ya know?”

Kaminari is flirtatious, the man is a walking encyclopedia of pick-up lines. He winks in your direction, Hagakure doesn’t respond, too busy fumbling with the empty nacho trays in her hands. “I don’t think it counts if they have to pay us to be here,” you quip.

He gives an exaggerated pout at your response. “Come on, Y/N. You know you love me! Let me take you out and prove it to you.”

“Pfft, whatever,” you laugh, Kaminari was constantly using lines like that. He’s probably asked you out at least six times since you started working with him at the theater. It’s just his personality, he was invariably hitting on someone. Anyone who knew Kaminari knew not to take his advances seriously, he just likes to masquerade as a ladies man. You think that he certainly looks the part with his golden eyes and bright smile; his blonde hair always perfectly in place, completed by his signature black streak. You try not to ruminate on Kaminari or his attractiveness, turning your attention back to the batch of popcorn you had started. Sure, maybe you had a crush on him, but you do your best to ignore it, convincing yourself you’re reading into his cheesy come-ons too much. However, you’ve failed to notice that recently Kaminari only seems to flirt with you, and more frequently than usual. 

He hides it well, but your rejection saddens him. He blames himself for his flippant reputation. His incessant flirting makes you think he’s joking, when in reality the way you laugh at his stupid jokes makes his heart flutter. He wants you to know that he means it when he says he was just thinking about you and that he truly does want to take you on a date. To be honest, Kaminari has been thinking about tonight all week and he’s nervous. Desperate to finally make his feelings towards you clear, he consulted Mina about his plans. 

[LAST WEEK]

“Oh my god, Denki, you’re such a moron! Just tell her how you feel, dumbass.” Mina couldn’t even believe what she was hearing. Kaminari had just confessed how much he likes you to your best friend, begging for her advice on what to do.

“I’ve tried! She always thinks I’m joking,” he whines, “no one ever takes me seriously.”

Mina rolls her eyes so hard they nearly get stuck in the back of her head, “Yeah, I wonder why.”

“I have an idea but I’ll need your help,” his eyes are pleading, “and I need you to tell me if it’s stupid…”

“Well…” Mina starts, “It’s your idea so it probably is. Spill it, whatcha got?” She sits down next to Kaminari now, interested in his plan.

“We’re both on the schedule for next Friday at work, right? Well, after a movies over we have to go in and clean out the theater before the next show.” he rubs the back of his neck with a hand, hoping Mina will approve of his plan. “I thought that I could make, like, a short video to play on the projector, like an end credit scene, and uh…. Use it to ask Y/N to prom.” He says the last part quietly, embarrassed by his own idea.

He looks up and Mina’s mouth is agape, and Kaminari swears she somehow managed to vocalize the equivalent of a key smash. “Oh my god, I take it back!!! You’re not a moron, Denki that is fucking adorable. Yes, yes, yes! I will help just tell me what you need.”

With your best friend’s approval, Kaminari sets to work. His pickup lines are corny, but what he and Mina create in preparation for his plan makes them look tame. Mina was mostly responsible for holding the camera, as Kaminari already had an elaborate script planned for his confession. He decided to go old-school and make the whole video black and white in post. Thankfully, Mina was great at surprises so you didn’t notice anything out of the ordinary for the week she was helping him and Kaminari had gotten approval from your manager to use the projector in theater six for his proposal. He and Mina finished filming on Wednesday night and Kaminari spent several hours editing on Thursday, but by the time his shift with you rolled around he was ready. He just had to make it a few more hours without blowing the surprise. 

Less than 30 minutes before the big reveal he almost let it slip. Hagakure is talking to you about the dress she bought for prom and asks if you’re excited for the big dance. 

“Oh, I’m not going to prom,” you respond.

Kaminari whips around at your statement, worrying his whole plan is about to fall apart. He opens his mouth to say something but you continue, “Er - I mean, I wasn’t going to. But Mina’s kind of forced me into it. We’re supposed to go dress shopping tomorrow.”

Kaminari let’s out a sigh of relief, and quickly turns back around. Luckily, you didn’t notice his odd behavior as you chatted with your other coworker. The pair of you continue your small talk until a steady flow of people start spilling from the theater, announcing the end of the movie. 

“Well, guess that’s our que,” Hagakure says, moving to depart from behind the counter. 

“Uh - why don’t you stay at the counter, Hagakure?!” Kaminari says in a bit of a panic, “You always sweep out the theater, let Y/N and I handle it tonight.” He doesn’t even wait for her response, already ushering you towards theater six. 

“Woah, what’s the rush Denki?” you ask, walking a bit faster than normal to keep up. 

“Huh? Oh - no rush. There’s no rush,” he chuckles, “just uh, ready to clean up, I guess.” He mentally cursed himself, Mina was right. He was acting like a moron. But you didn’t say anything further, you just stopped to grab a broom and a dust pan before heading into the theater. 

“Why don’t you take the bottom section, Y/N and I’ll go up top?” Kaminari offers. 

You shrug, “Sounds good to me.” You weave between the rows of seats, sweeping forgotten popcorn into piles in the dim lights of the theater. You're about to bend over to pick up a discarded soda cup when the sound of film catches your attention. 

You look to the screen and see a grainy film leader counting down from 6, each second accompanied  by a beep. The countdown ends and the screen shifts, now displaying Kaminari standing in front of a bathroom mirror, the whole scene in black and white. He looks like he’s rehearsing something to himself, but there’s no words, instead a light, jazzy tune serves as the audio to this unexpected show. Your eyes are fixed to the screen, you’re both confused and intrigued. The monochrome Kaminari nods to himself in the mirror, seemingly pleased with whatever he’s rehearsed. He gives himself an exaggerated thumbs up before spraying himself with some cologne. He turns from the mirror and exits the bathroom with a spring in his step, the camera backing away from him as he makes his way down the hall. He comes to a stair banister and spins in place before hopping onto the rail; sliding to the bottom of the steps. The camera continues to follow him as he grabs a bouquet of roses from the table in the entryway. He gives the camera a dazzling smile before striding out the front door, closing it behind him, as the music and screen fade to black. 

You turn around, looking for Kaminari to explain, unsure of what to make of the unexpected short. When you turn you find him standing directly behind you, bouquet of yellow roses in hand, and a nervous smile on his face. 

“Kaminari, wha-“ 

He cuts you off, “Y/N, will you go to prom with me?” He holds the roses forward to you.

You can hardly form words, was this actually happening right now? “S-seriously?” is all you can manage. 

Kaminari nods, “I’ve liked you for a while, Y/N. But I’m always joking around so you don’t take me seriously when I ask you out or flirt with you… I am such a fool for you. And I would seriously love to take you to prom.” You can see his face is red, even in the dim theater lighting, and you can feel your own face flushing at his words. You fling your arms around his neck, launching forward to hug him. 

“Yes, I’ll go to prom with you, Denki!” you say happily. You couldn’t believe it. Denki Kaminari asked you to prom, with a Charlie Chaplin-esque short film and a bouquet of roses. You thought this sort of thing was reserved for daydreams and romcoms.

His free arm wraps itself around your waist, settling on your lower back, the other still holding the flowers he got you. He’s smiling from ear to ear, beaming at your answer. He plants a quick kiss on your cheek, “I can’t wait to see what dress you find tomorrow,” he says into your ear. 

[4yo-yo4]

yesterday was such a good day

sorry this is gonna be reeeeallly long lol

I was w Bee in the morning and my brother was throwing around a ball with his friend and Bee said “Caroline, watch out!!!” Lol bc they were gonna hit me and i was like huh? but the ball went past me and she said “How do you not have fast reflexes by now? I have a son- you have a brother and you dont have fast reflexes? Come ooonnnn” Lolll

there was one point where they would’ve actually hit me but i dodged it and she said “That was better!”

and then they started throwing it over her head 💀 she ducked down after the other kid caught the ball and i thought to myself “where those fast reflexes at?”

also before all that she was talking to me about how her grade (1st) is singing at mass saturday and she joked “Do I have to go tomorrow if I’m already going to mass today? I dont wanna… is that bad? sorry🤣🤣”

she went to mass yesterday (friday) w the school bc we all go to mass as a school on friday morning

but usually the younger grades don’t go, they just livestream it bc of covid and i didn’t know they were coming yesterday

Even after she said that I still didn’t know because I was so lost in thought thinking about how beautiful she is and how she was talking to me and how much i love her laugh

so i was so surprised when I saw her and i was like omggggg she’s hereeeee AAAA

that’s when our whole convo actually registered in my head 💀

and she was glancing at me during mass 😏 Lol

I had forgotten my chromebook at home yesterday, so i asked my dad to bring it and he said he would

i went to lunch and still didn’t have it so i was like wtv he prob forgot about it its fine

I saw Bee on the way to lunch and she said hi 🥰

later I was sitting at a table eating & waiting for my friends when I saw her come back out of the corner of my eye and i was like 😮‍💨 act cool act cool just be normal

and i noticed she was walking towards me so i turned around and SHE HAD MY CHROMEBOOK

she handed it to me and she said

( she was talking very fast and she seemed kinda nervous it was so adorable)

hi i had your chromebook.. i probably should’ve just brought it with me when i came to do lunch duty in the first place but i forgot it sorry bye

awe 😭❤️

and then at the end of the day i ran into her as she was leaving and she was taking one of her students outside with her for his parents to pick him up and she said to him “Do you know who that is? 😁🤩 That’s Mrs. ********’s daughter! Caroline this is Carlos.” (my mom is his teacher)

~~~~~~~~~~

i went to church today again

(tooootally to see her class and not her)

i wasn’t even sure if she would be there but I still got all pretty and went

I didnt see her come in

she walked past me and i was like 😍😍😍

she was with her husband of course (Chris😜🤑☠️)

when little kids go up to sing and do little dances at masses, their teachers sit on the floor in front of them against the pews so they’re kinda hidden and they do the hand motions to the songs to help the little ones remember

my mom didn’t really know them, so she had asked me to sit and help the kids too

and when I was walking up to sit, Bee was behind me and she said “oh my god I’m sitting with Caroline- Where are you sitting?” and she touched the back of my arm 🥺 it felt so nice

she sounded like me talking excitedly to my friends whenever I see her lolll

and she sat with me and we did it and it was so adorable

the kids love her so much its the sweetest thing

and her face is so cute when she says hi to them and they give her hugs omg she looks so happy

my heart hurts every time i think about it

like rn

i get literal pains im so in love with her

im so scared for next year bc im going to a different school and most likely never will see her again

but i hate thinking about that

im not the church kinda person but im gonna go every single weekend just to see her

gosh i never knew i was capable of loving so much

bruh idek what to do with all of this emotion

[satelliteaccident]

yikes, m8: the century that was 2021

if i had to pick one word to describe my 2021, it'd have to be "disorienting". what a fucking paddling that was, and not in the "aw yiss" kind of way.

let's see... what the blistering hell-potato happened here?

january: i was working full-time, and applied for j-school, and saw an immigration lawyer, and tried to get my employer to sponsor me because the state sponsorships were fucked because pandemic. i wanna say we were still working from home at this point? yeah, we were, because i was home when after 18 months of pissfarting around, bosspeeps were finally like "hmm yeah nah we're happy with you but sponsorship sounds Too Hard, we're cool tho rite?" insert renewed suicidal ideation here. *exhausted pompoms* Kiddo started last year of primary school! holy shit!! lupin started Job 2.0: The Same Job, But With Even More Awesome/Hours (they're a gardener/librarian at a primary school and honestly who could be cooler than that?? not me).

february: i think we were working from the office again? i wrapped up at Workplace two weeks before starting at Uni. offered to do casual work for them but they weren't into it. ah well. had Kerfuffle getting uni documentation squared away but we got there. Kiddo and mr six went fishing. it was super cute. we still have a whole-ass dead snapper in the freezer from that?? LESS CUTE.

march: Uni started and proved both FUCKING HIGH INTENSITY JFC and also really cool. Workplace was like "uh so we know you offered to do casual work after you left and we weren't into that buuuuut it turns out we kind of don't actually have enough people, how do you feel about casual work". i'm a broke-ass immigrant, how the fuck you think i feel?! great! i feel great! sign me up!! i think maybe we had more lockdown? honestly hard to keep track at this point. [eta nope that was feb we had lockdown. sigh.]

april: we went on holiday to Relatively Nearby Holiday Destination. we stayed in a cool airbnb. i did a lot of homework while we were there because j-school is bananahammers. lupin and i went to a farm and hung out with animals, most of whom were chill and some of whom were stupid cute.

may: school?? idek

june: like may but colder so the cats were cuddlier. more lockdown. got the first appointment i could to go back on ritalin -- late november. YEAAAHHHHH

july: i got nothing

augtember: l o c k d o w n, walks at Nearby Park and duck watching with Kiddo, lots and lots of remote learning for me and Kiddo, remote work for mr six, lots of hangouts with our lil triad + our platonic bff. got into DE and DE tumblrness around then i think? definitely the year's most dopamine-rich, creatively and interpersonally rewarding highlight. thanks team. <3

november: got back on ritalin. did the best job i have ever done on lupin's hair, omg, what a goddamn Peak Moment. also the sum total of years-long pandemic and immigration fuckeries finally pushed me all the way to "ABSOLUTELY FUCK THIS, I AM NOT WAITING FOR A 'BETTER TIME' ANY MORE" re: gender stuff; in a rare stroke of unmitigated win, a clinic literally up the street re-opened its wait list after nearly a year, AND i got an appointment the next week.

december: Kiddo finished primary school whoaaaaaa. applied for a third masters program aha aha ahahahahakillme. started job searching. have some work lined up for early next year but no sponsorship yet. set up consult for top surgery! started on T! holy shit!

so... yeah. A Lot. grateful my family is safe and healthy; grateful for partners who are joys even in lockdown; grateful Kiddo is on track to go to secondary school (she has Issues and it's awesome to see her making choices and getting supports that let her thrive); grateful for friends and DE times; grateful to have created stuff for school and for funsies. absolutely fucken shattered to be facing "go back to school AGAIN or be forced to leave the country and your partners and child" on a march deadline. it's not great. the dream would be for the state or an employer to go "ooh hang on we wanna sponsor you" in the meantime, buuuuuut it hasn't happened so far, so. add in the dizzy joy of finally getting gender-affirming care after 20 years of trying to just Get By and it's. yeah. disorienting.

but not bad. i'm gonna grab the good with both hands and pull myself through to the next thing, and the next, and i'm gonna figure it out as i go, dammit. thanks for coming this far with me, and hopefully, there will be better things to say about 2022.

[luvreyn]

My Manhwa List (2020) Part 6

sHi! How arth thou? I’m back to give you another list of recommendation! 

Beware of the Villainess

Description:

Sit back and take in this romantic tale of an angelic heroine and her devoted suitors as they vie for the depths of her love... or not. This story’s about to go through some edits! After an accident, a modern-day college student awakens as the story’s villainess, Melissa Foddebrat. She’s far from anyone’s favorite, but she IS the daughter of the duke. Determined to live it up, this new Melissa is doing things her way — antiquated society, be damned! All idiots, prepare to step aside or perish!

WHY YOU SHOULD READ:

- plot = 4.5/5

- art = 4.5/5

- C O M E D I C  G O L D 

- their meme-able face are so funny lmao

- ml is so cute & soft & deserves everything in the world

- mc is such a bad-ass like?? she’s so cool & she doesnt deserve to be treated less by that stupid prince ok

- she is beauty, she is grace, she is the queen!

- all i do is fangirl over the mc basically

- isekai

- i love her dynamic with her bro cause honestly same that’s how my sibs and are act sometimes lmao

- her maid is so cool 

- a bad-ass with a heart

- ml has this past and secret and i’m living for it

- a gem basically

- overall verdict, a highly recommended manhwa that will make you all sort of emotions. one of the best manhwas released this 2020 ok i said what i said

I Became the Villain's Mother

Description:

Summoned into her favorite novel as the infamous Duchess Roselia Chade, Haena is bathed in riches, power, and a family of her own. Life couldn’t be better, save for the small detail that her beloved stepson, Einspanner Chade, is also the evil mastermind destined to kill her. At this point in the story Ein is still just an adorable child yet to reach his cruel awakening, and so Roselia is determined to stop him from becoming a ruthless killer. But with the duke getting in her way and trying to poison his own son, safely raising a child that was primed for villainy may prove harder than she originally thought. The survival of both mother and child depends on whether Roselia can successfully rewrite their tragic ending!

WHY YOU SHOULD READ:

- plot = 5/5 ok i’m loving it already despite the few chaps released

- art = 3/5

- IM LOVING THE TWIST

- this is an all out war between father & son ok

- ain is so cute like??

- i s e k a i 

- ain is such a bad ass cute little devil

- i know i know i’m collecting so many isekai-ish manhwas bcoz why not

- i love the mc so much shes so adorable and her previous job is awesome (i know you dont care but i wanted to be a daycare teacher too when i was a kid so yay)  

- she’s such an awesome mom like?? 

- the dad... the dad is idk but he’s a terrible dad for me (right now)

- ^ why is this like a discouragement comment like idek what i’m thinking yet i’m not gonna delete it 

- i love that this is mostly a son-mom manhwa bcoz it’s such a breath of fresh air and not to mention almost all dad-daughters manhwa are hurting me

- i’m here for the mom and son interactions basically

- overall verdict, a highly recommended manhwas for our souls! 

Marked By King Bs

Description:

High school is hard enough without a target on your back, but that’s exactly the situation Annie finds herself in when she crosses a group of the most popular kids in school. Marked by the king bee himself, the notorious Ashton Griffin, Annie becomes his newest fixation--and he is determined to make her life miserable. Now at his beck and call, Annie must stay on Ashton’s good side to maintain her peaceful life and avoid becoming a social pariah. As she navigates her way through alienating social cliques, persistent old crushes, and the hot upstairs neighbor who never puts a shirt on, Annie will soon learn that there’s more to being popular than meets the eye. She just wanted to live a normal life, but maybe there’s no escaping these king bees. An official comic adaptation based on the hit dating-sim game. I AM TARGETED BY THEM!!!

WHY YOU SHOULD READ:

- plot = 3/5 

- ngl but i can already feel the slight cliche-ness of this story and yet i’m still here forgive me this is a guilty pleasure manhwa

- art = 4/5

- i love the mc (yes, that quickly)

- dark haired boyo is mine ok??

- kinda funny

- i miss the school life setting so hihihi

- verdict, a cute and good read!

Pixel of Life

Description:

After finding out her boyfriend has been cheating with her boss, Hana loses her menial desk job of 5 years. Countless rejections later, she finally lands an interview at a small art gallery. Hana jumps at the chance to leave the drama of the past few months behind. But her high school friend (and worst enemy) Jiyeon is the gallery owner? Their most peculiar romance is about to begin… or not?!

WHY YOU SHOULD READ:

- o m g

- plot =4/5 this deserves more read tbh

- art = 4/5

- i’m starting to relate to mc since i started working cause #adultingsucks

- one of my dream jobs huhuhu

- i so love the twist 

- the s i b l i n g s

- i wanna know what happens next!!!

- s u s p e n s e 

- mix with mystery and spinkle with secrets and viola i present to you: the pixel of life

- verdict, a super good read!

The Antagonist’s Pet

Description:

Blessed with the face of an angel, young Sasha Tartt knows a life-altering secret: in this romance novel where she’s just a side character, she’s the only one who knows the true ending! When the antagonist of the story takes a particular liking to her, she must make a decision: help the clever and beautiful Rebecca find a happy ending, or side with the sweet-natured protagonist to ensure her own survival? On top of that, Sasha has to juggle the affections of her bespectacled love interest and tame a dragon boy! Can Sasha learn new tricks to win the hearts of these main characters? Based on the hit novel.

WHY YOU SHOULD READ:

- plot = 4/5 so few chaps yet so good

- art = 3/5

- i so love that she acts dumb when she’s not cause i love scheming characters

- W O M E N  E M P O W E R M E N T

- who run the world? girls! 

- i love that she loves the villain cause girl same

- idec whether there’s an ml or not cause we stay for their future bond

- she is beauty, she is grace, she’s the villainess pet

- ^ it sounds better in my head

- verdict, a refreshing manhwa that will leave you wanting for moreee!

[cno-inbminor]

adsentio

a/n: for some reason, i got the idea of prince!akaashi stuck in my head. mildly inspired by the swan princess. 

wc: ~2.1k 

genre: arranged marriage!au, royalty!au, emerging feelings. fluff mainly? idek, it’s word vomit

royalty!au: adsentio (pt. 1) | bonus letters (pt. 1.5) | the masque (pt. 2)

-

Prince Akaashi likes to believe he’s a smart cookie, even if he’s only seven. Then again, his parents aren’t exactly the most subtle people on the planet, and he believes it’s quite obvious as to what they’re planning. In fact, not only is he aware, but the whole castle is as well. Hell, even 90% of the citizens in the kingdom are fully aware of what’s to be expected. He strongly dislikes it, and he wishes it didn’t loom over him every summer.

Ever since the summer of the year he turned five, Princess (y/n) of the West Kingdom would show up for two months to make his life miserable. To be fair, it wasn’t exactly your fault, as you were very much forced into this arrangement as he was, but it was easier to blame you. He’d rather just play fight with Bokuto all summer rather than try to include a girl. It’s not because you’re capable of kicking his butt.

That is absolutely not the case here.

His mother, the queen, is scrambling to get all the preparations done in time for (y/n)’s arrival. Akaashi almost rolls his eyes when he spots her rearranging a bouquet of roses in the dining hall. Unfortunately, she spots him from the corner of her eye and beckons him over with a frantic hand. Never one to deny a parent, he quickly jogs over to her.

“Oh darling, would you be a doll and check in on your father? He needs to be dressed properly for the West Kingdom’s arrival. Tell him to wear that cyan blue shirt of his, it’s much more flattering.”

“Do we need to be so overboard like this again? They’ve already been here twice, it’s not like they don’t know us.”

“For reasons you don’t know, they’re extra special to us. Aren’t you excited to see (y/n) again? You two got along so well last summer!”

Akaashi wrinkles his nose in distaste. “It feels like I just saw her yesterday. Bokuto and I just wanna play by ourselves.”

“Nonsense, dear. Now go check on your father, please,” His mother implores before scurrying off to another bouquet of flowers.

It’s so obvious, he thinks to himself as he jogs towards his parents’ chambers. Did they really need this alliance with the West Kingdom? Would they be that much more powerful together? “In due time, you’ll understand,” his parents always said. Akaashi was starting to become tired of hearing those words.

Why is it so hard to just tell him now as to why they want him to marry Princess (y/n)?

-

“You know why I’m here, right?” (Y/n) asks him one evening. They’re sixteen now – Akaashi counts that this is your twelfth time at the castle. You call the castle your second home, as he once heard you tell your assigned handmaiden, the same lady who attends to you every summer. Somehow, the statement strikes a chord within him – his initial childish annoyance at your presence had long disappeared and been replaced with something akin to defeat. There was very little chance that they could run from this, but in the late nights, Akaashi found himself believing that if there were someone to be betrothed to, (y/n) wasn’t so bad.

“What do you mean?” He replies, slowly turning a page in his book. You both found that one way to quickly pass the time was to raid the royal library. At first, it was custom to read your respective books at opposite ends of the castle. Yet as time passed, you found yourselves meeting closer and closer towards the middle. If desired, the servants could find you two either together in the library, in an empty ballroom by the massive windows, or on the balcony in the summer sun. Most times, Bokuto, Akaashi’s most loyal friend, was with you as well. Reading wasn’t necessarily one of his top hobbies, but he’d rather be with friends than alone wondering around the castle.

This time, the two of you have taken refuge by a fireplace, a terrible thunderstorm casting a chill over the building. Bokuto is conveniently off doing his own thing.

“The reason why I’m here every summer.”

Akaashi casts his best exasperated look towards you, but it goes unnoticed as you refuse to look away from your book. “I’ve known since I was six.”

You sigh and gently shut your novel closed, one finger stuck between the pages to keep your place. With the grace of an angel (Akaashi thinks), you pick yourself up from the lounge chair and drift over to the couch he’s sitting on. Because he’s sitting upright towards the end closest to the fire, there’s more than enough space for you to sit and stretch your legs across the cushions. In fact, you do just that, settling for leaning your back against Akaashi’s strong side profile, his arm supporting most of your weight. Without meaning to, Akaashi finds himself adjusting his sitting position for your comfort. He feels your body tremble slightly and a small wave of concern washes over him.

“Should I ask one of the servants to bring a blanket for you?”

“That won’t be necessary. But thank you for your concern, your highness.”

“You don’t have to address me as so.”

“My apologies, it’s a force of habit.”

“Hmm.”

Akaashi has long given up on reading the words before him. Your question repeats in his head like a broken record.

“Doesn’t it frustrate you?” You whisper, interrupting his thoughts. “Doesn’t it anger you that since my birth, you’ve been forced into a game that you have no choice but to play?”

Akaashi hesitates. This topic has never been broached before, and he’s not sure how to address it.

“I’ll admit it was more frustrating in the beginning. Nobody enjoys being told what to do, especially when you’re little. But I learned to just accept it. In fact, to call it a game would assume that there is a losing side. From what I’ve studied, both of our kingdoms would benefit from this merger. What’s the loss?”

“Our freedom and choice,” you bite out, yet refusing to look at him. You’ve also given up on reading, yet you don’t want to arouse suspicion that this conversation is happening. If a servant were to hear, rumors would fly around the castle like a plague. “I think it’s only human that I want to experience love the way ordinary people do. We don’t even get a say.”

“What about both of our parents? They were arranged yet they love each other.”

“Simple, they got lucky.”

“Then would you rather run away and find another man to fall in love with?”

“More than that, I just want to experience life beyond the castle walls. My position is different from yours.”

“How so?”

You purse your lips, pausing. “Your Highness, what do you think would happen to you if I were to disappear, or god forbid, die?”

Akaashi’s eyes widen in bewilderment. “Why would you ask that?”

“You just need to answer my question.”

“Well,” he ponders. “I…believe I’d be somewhat sad. We would mourn the loss, surely.”

For the first time this summer, he hears a genuine chuckle from you. “I’m honored by your sentiment, your highness. I’m asking more of what you think would politically happen to you.”

Akaashi’s cheeks flush with embarrassment. “I guess…politically I’d be okay. Mother would be devastated, but I guess they’d find me another match. The merger with your kingdom would’ve been our strongest move, but it could still happen since we’re already on such good speaking terms. Supposedly there are other princesses waiting for a chance, and a merger could result from that as well.”

“What a humble braggart you are, your highness,” you tease.

“That’s not what I meant—”

“I know. But in all seriousness,” you switch to a more solemn tone. “The point is, you’d be okay. As you so nicely put it, you have women lining up to be with you.”

“Aren’t men lining up to be with you as well?”

“It’s not the same, Your Highness. As a princess, I’m brought up to constantly prove my worth to others. More importantly, I’m raised to prove my worth as a wife and a queen. We’re left to care for the children we must bear, we must keep our noses a reasonable distance away from kingdom business. If this engagement were to break, many outsiders would automatically assume that I was deemed unworthy of you, that I must’ve wrapped myself in some horrible scandal.”

Akaashi hums and stares into the fire. “I suppose that it’s rather unfortunate. I wish I had realized that sooner.”

“Your self-awareness speaks volumes. I usually wouldn’t admit this to you, but I know you’ll be a great king when it’s your time. Your people already love you, and they will only continue to love you more.”

“That’s very kind of you, Princess.”

“I only speak honestly. There’s no need to sugarcoat my words around you.”

Somehow, Akaashi finds that very comforting. Perhaps as someone in his position, he would consider honesty and wisdom to be valuable. Just because he’s destined to be king someday, doesn’t mean he would always make the right decisions. He would appreciate having you by his side in his decision-making.

“If this happens,” Akaashi finds himself speaking, also not one for beating around the bush. “I can promise now that I’ll try to change that. Even if we end up never loving each other, I’ll do my best to ensure that you never feel confined to such a role. As my w-wife,” he stumbles over the word. “I would want your input. You have a good head on you, and I’m sure you have valuable wisdom that I will need in due time.”

“Somehow, that’s the most romantic thing a man has ever said to me,” you say. He can hear the smile in your voice, his own small one forming on his face. When you move off the couch, his body immediately misses the warmth of your body pressed against his. After you’re done dusting yourself off, you begin to curtsy. He knows that this means you’re retiring for the night, but he’d rather you not leave right now.

“Wait,” he calls out, reaching for the hand not holding your book. You stay silent as Akaashi delicately holds your hand, then breaking out into a slight blush when he lays a soft kiss on the back of your hand, eyes never breaking contact with yours. He’s never been more princely to you than this moment – though his mother had made him do this on every first day you arrive at the castle, it never held so much meaning. This was of his own doing, his own volition, and that spoke volumes to you. He was trying to make this work in his own special way.

You don’t miss the way his thumb ghosts over your knuckles before releasing your hand, although the movement seems hesitant and troubled. “Good night, Princess,” he bids quietly, eyes looking back at the ignored book in his lap. Your heart beats with adrenaline, the chemical fueling you to step closer to him and bend down to place a kiss on his cheek. Akaashi does his best to not look surprised, but he knows that he has failed when he hears the sound of your gentle laugh.

“Good night, Keiji.”

The prince concludes right then and there that he has never heard anything more beautiful.

-

When you return to your chambers the next night, it’s hard to miss the most beautiful glass vase you’ve seen that’s sitting on your dresser. Inside stands a half-bloomed peony, a flower you recognize from the castle gardens. The petals have a tender shade of a light blush pink – if the flower-arranging lessons taught you anything, they stood for romance, compassion, and bashfulness. A neatly folded cardstock with your name stands demurely by the vase. The handwriting is strikingly familiar, and you can’t help but smile at the words neatly written inside.

To my future queen.

As you bring the flower to your nose and inhale the sweet scent, you begin to think that perhaps, you and Akaashi might just be lucky enough for love.

 -

feel free to send requests for this au!