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daemon-in-my-head · 5 months ago

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Idk I'll be honest, I never once considered Durge evil or a monster in the sense of they're a horrible person or smth. This also has nothing to do with woobiefying them or smth. Just bear with me for a minute.

Killing someone is undoubtedly evil, and being crafted out of a divine beings flesh is monstrous one way or another, but hm, idk. I don't rly think they're vile or as vicious as people make them out to be. They're quite sadistic yes, but actually not rly. Cuz like, let's be real here. What choice did they ever really have? What other things have they known? We're they ever even allowed to feel guilty or grief for their own person? Not rly. Durge never had those options.

Kill or be killed, that is if you're lucky. If not your body will simply be ripped from you and whatever is left of your mind is forced to watch from the prison within your own head. Loosing control as whatever left of you gets absolutely abused and violated again and again and again with you being just so fucking helpless but fully aware of what's happening and how wrong it really is.

Idk. Not saying it's the right thing to do, but with those prospects, I'd be a good kid and do the same as them, kill, obey, and do whatever else shit is required to preserve at least a bit of sanity, a bit of freedom, a bit of the person that once was. Dying would've been an 'acceptable' option, but the absolute hell that Bhaal would unleash? The hell Bhaal has undoubtedly threatened before, either veiled through Scel or with those wonderful dreams he bestows? Sorry, but that's martyrdom even saints would struggle to choose voluntarily if they had any other option.

So in the end Death wasn't an option. Not when the person who controls you can just *snap* and stop you from dying because they can control everything about you and in turn may force you to serve his goals differently. You saw what Bhaal can do to Orin, despite her being so far removed from Bhaal theres hardly any essence left, and you probably know the scrapped 3rd ending and the current 3rd ending. There was simply never a choice to make. Not if we're being realistic.

I pity Durge rather than anything else. Created as a tool wholly unable to defy its master, forced to put up with whatever abuse because it is the only way to retain some sort of control and personhood. Wholly incapable of rebelling because their attempts would force them to endure ever more vile cruelties.

And all of that for no other reason than simply existing.

They're not a ruthless villain. Not a sadistic mastermind. They're simply a tragedy.

#bg3 #bg3 spoilers #bg3 durge #durge #dark urge #dunno man theyre not evil to me #like even my most vile bastard #at the end of the day i pity him #cute lil serial killers who rly never had a choice

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qualityrain · 23 days ago

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#p5r #persona 5 protagonist #akechi goro #IM FREEEE IM FREEE IM FREEEEE #IT ONLY TOOK 24 HOURS AND THEN SOME AND 2 MONTHS OF SANITY!!!!!!#im never drawing anything like this again ill be going bsck to 3/4 bust up 0 backgrounds.#persona 5 #shuake #ANYWAY. listened to a lot of picture you by chapp3ll roan while drawing this…#and like the correlation isnt there but i think abt all the mutual things….joker bringing rival up twice and akechi being shocked #my art #doodle #doodles #and the way at the end akc thinks that joker wished him back because of pity 😔#do you picture me like i picture you am i in the frame of your point of view…#joker being the only person akc trusts and relies on but is it the same….is it all just pity…..#ANYWAYYYYYYY my sanity! gone! i have to go study for my test now and alllll my hw and honey im home day art

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xamaxenta · 8 months ago

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lovewings

#marcoace #my art #marco the phoenix #portgas d ace #ace one piece #marco one piece #one piece #one piece fanart #the concept was Ace stealing him across the grandline hence the shitty map bg lmao #which my gf was laughing at like 😔 ok i thought it was a neat idea but now im just ah..#the light source is really shit btw im sorry #theres stuff i know i shouldve done differently #but i just autopiloted into a safe zone #the safe zone im fighting to get out of bc i hate the end result #anyway enjoy enough pity party from me #this was supposed to be for valentines day but i was late #how to stop feeling disappointed when u finish something id love to know

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1singulargrape · 2 months ago

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Idk where the story of the frog turning into a prince after getting a kiss comes from but yk... This with Yuuji and Blobkuna

#imagine if you will Yuuji finding a small and frankly ugly thing crawling on the ground #clearly lost and helpless but somehow more than capable of insulting him #Yuuji doesn't want to leave it alone outside. so after some back and forth he convice the thing (Sukuna as he demands to be called)#to 'come to his house' with him #(Yuuji picks him up and puts him in his pocket but he had to make it seems the other had a choice in the matter. prideful bastard)#anyways they spend a few days together get to know each other yadda yadda and Yuuji who was just feeling some pity #for what he assumed was a small critter he would just keep with him and release somewhere safer #realized that oh! that's a grown ass man cursed into looking like this!#so Yuuji promises to take care of him as best as he can and look for a cure for the curse #smoosh #😱 the small asshole was actually a (hot) 2 meters+ four armed [etc] man?!#and since Yuuji already promised to stay with him they start living together #and then they lived happily ever after :D the end #...yeah i realized pretty early on i should have added it to the main post #i might tomorrow idk #sukuita #ryomen sukuna #itadori yuji #my post

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fisherrprince · 11 months ago

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oh so alisaie’s exaggerated bully behavior is 80% fanon. saying this she casually picks up a large rock

#say one thing wrong to me and you will have a wonderful few days with the rock #if angry silly girls have 100 fans etc if they have 0 fans i have died #sorry i saw a YouTube meme i vehemently disliked on principle and got mad at the only child behavior-#kipspeak #she is just short tempered and uses anger to mask other more ‘shameful’ emotions!!! alphy did the same thing with just deciding not #to express them. which is still not good and I think why he breaks and ends up teary so often now #this shortness does not translate to actually being mean to people. she only uses being mean as a shield for herself and being snarky #Is just fun for her. it’s fun for Me. you have to inconsequentually tease people or they’ll never learn to laugh at themselves #the twins and thancred 🫵 do this thing where they have big emotions but they don’t want anyone to SEE they have big weird emotions #so alphy pretends he doesn’t have them under a veneer of dignity and alisaie pretends the emotions are Something Else. thancred is #just so emotionally constipated he has trouble expressing anything. he’s got enough baggage for a flatbed #anyways. alisaie is such a compassionate and kind girl and she learned how to make snarky jokes and went ham. and she hates appearing sad o #weak or vulnerable so she blocks it off with an unapproachable emotion so no one pities her and they maybe get on with the plot #it is in fact also great at getting ppl to move away from the sad or embarrassing topic. even if the tradeoff is being more offputting #she would never (grabs youtube meme) she would never seriously bully her brother. this is sibling ribbing only. Cain instinct #just leave her be she is learning how to snark humor and she loves it she loves being sharp. alphy has wit he just keeps it close #my brother didn’t learn how to tell or receive a joke until he was 14 he took everything so seriously. he can do it now though and he’s #HILARIOUS. Don’t tell him I said that. my man knows exactly where the funny points are even if he hasn’t learned when to stop yet #too many tags. Whatever. jokey snark alisaie who sometimes compliments is happy alisaie grouchy snappy angry alisaie is way too stressed #very easy way to tell between the two. even alphy can tell between the two I believe! He tends to rib back in protest if they’re having fun #and try to stop her if they’re not having fun. case in point ‘what is that supposed to mean?!’ vs ‘alisaie ryne was only trying to help.’#I know they’re twins but that’s such an intensely older sibling thing to do that it reels me #LONG TAGS AND THREE EDITS TO ADD ON SHORT I resent this stereotype taken too far into ooc behavior. it happened with nya #It will happen again and as a postscript let me regale you with Things U Can Notice About Character Motivation and Actions—#I’m not done let me s #she and raha are friends now I decree. ‘haha you like me’ SPUTTERING PROTEST FROM BOTH

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spacejammie-eimmajecaps · 6 months ago

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Had a doctor tell me quite sincerely this morning that my "life seems miserable" because of my health problems and it immediately made me think of the damn bitch you live like this meme

#like i cant stop thinking about it #he wasnt even the doctor i was there to see #the nurse called him in because my heart rate was high and it scared her #but like thats just a normal flare day for me #so anyway this guy i dont even know comes barging into the room to listen to my heart and ask about my symptoms etc #and then he says that its not sustainable to live like this and how i must be miserable #and im just like lol okay like tell me something i dont know #oh and when i told him i usually get through flares by staying in bed for a day or two #his response was to say how that would make going on vacation hard because i might end up having to be bedridden for part of it #and like #first of all #im too broke for vacations lol #second of all #i can barely leave the house bc of my health so what vacations would i even be attempting #idk like he did seem genuinely concerned #but i was honestly not in the mood to hear all that #like i was (and still am) feeling extremely unwell #i just wanted to go home #did not need or want the pity of some random doctor

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challengerblue · 2 years ago

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Thorold, I should throw you to the wolves. But I won’t. I’ll tell them that Father MacPhail is staying here to analyse what we’ve found. And I’ll take the troops to pursue Asriel, and then you will leave.

#his dark materials #hdmedit #*#masriel #asriel x marisa #this moment is such an interesting addition i come back to it a lot sdfds #like her temper's all over the place but thorold got such a pass?#even after she interrogates him and gets no response #which would usually make her lash out #she throttled that one woman like the day before #is she assuming that asriel didn't tell him anything & pitying him?#but even that's a rare thing for her lol. thorold must have been a real dear to her back in the day #and the 'he's never treated any of us well' she's still sooo hung up about it all #still blaming him for the breakdown of their relationship #meanwhile thorold is just 😶😶😶#and the deep inhale at the end when she puts all her emotions back in a box #my brain's just vibrating about them still idk

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maia-radfemdu · 1 year ago

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dear women I am taking L's unheard of. bothered unmoisturized anxious not in my lane unfocused decaying. in my rejected unloved failing exams era.

#asked him if at the end of it he did wanna meet up again #and he said he's going to a very last minute festival and then straight back to Germany #lol at least now it's clear that what I've always known deep down has been true he's just been nice #out of politeness or pity or both #failed two of my exams one was very difficult the other I didn't elaborate enough so she couldn't give me enough points #I didn't pay attention whilst reading the questions #I had some bank account issues #my day has been terrible #i hope I'll never like anyone ever again #i removed the necklace he gave me lol I'm so dramatic about it #I just can't help feeling like shit #personal

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roseworth · 1 year ago

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Stupid Respawn theory because...it's stupid

But..hormones.

Like, they intentionally made the test tube baby cause Slade to have some weird hormonal reaction to his clone and become fatherly to it as a defensive mechanism for the test tube child. Just something DC uses to explain or retcon Slade's oc behavior.

Like a weird alien horror movie I've watched that would cause other species to care for their offspring before it grows old enough to care for itself and eats its care taker

Like I said, stupid. Disregard if you like

this isn't stupid at all i love it ! everything surrounding respawn is so insane so the explanation that his existence caused some chemical reaction is fantastic <3 respawn literally being genetically engineered to make slade want to take him in

actually im taking it a step further because i also dont like the fact that ra's just. made a secret talia slade clone baby then tortured him for 15 years. so im saying that respawn was just kinda created. he was some kind of frankenstein thing crafted to look enough like slade and damian that the story would be believable then sort of,,, had memories programmed into his head of ra's to give him a backstory that would make slade (and rose for that matter) want to take him in and help him. and i cant even be proven wrong because ra's has never seen respawn so he cant confirm that he knows him and now theyre both dead :) im right about everything always

#ive connected the dots (made shit up)#alright heres how it goes #someone (idk who. doesnt matter. one of slides enemies) wanted to spy on him #and said 'i know exactly what to do' and made a kid #then they were halfway through making the kid when someone else was like 'hey so slade kinda pushes away every single one of his kids'#but this person already had the kid made. all the eggs were in the fake kid basket.#so they had to figure something out #and they were like 'ok. all i need to do is implant an exaggeratedly sad backstory to make slade pity him #then genetically engineer some kind of hormonal reaction to make sure slade actually takes him in'#so they do that. then the kid takes a detour at lazarus island so theyre kinda pissed off but whatever #but finally the kid finds slade. they can do what they wanted. then the kid dies like 2 days later #all that work for nothing #the end #dc hire me ill retcon everything about respawn so fucking good

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a-very-fond-farewell · 9 months ago

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pumpkin gnocchi with sausage-based ragú spoke to me in a dream so I think I should really write tonight

#sneaky niki #lamb loose liveblogging #theme of the day: HDS’s philosophical regression #walk with me here for a bit #he ended the series full of himself. enough to read nietzsche #but then I decided I didn’t like the natural progression of things #so he will read philosophers that have come before nietzsche one after the other #in order: schopenhauer. kierkegaard. kant. rousseau.#I’m keeping away from idealism and the likes bc they don’t talk at large about the question around evil or happiness #even kant only briefly touches on that at large but I think HDS would be pompous enough to think himself worthy of kant #all of these people had their flaws btw so this is not me putting any of them on a pedestal #I’m just wearing my HDS goggles right now #but yea I wouldn’t call this story a redemption arc bc I don’t think any of these characters can be redeemed #but evolution also has its regressions and I think HDS needs to take some steps back and remember humanity is not all to toss in the garbage #himself included. he used to be kind. I wanted to explore that sense of regret and guilt and grief starting from his final form in the show #HDS does very heinous shit in this fic to the people around him #he did it in the show and he is doing it again #and his actions will make us pity SDY (incredible! ik!)#also HDS is making new friends (*cough* found family whomst *cough*) and that will remind him of what he had lost along the way #will he be deserving of connection? is a honeymoon phase enough to restore his husmanity? feeling empathy again is worthy of forgiveness?#these are the topics of this writing session #wish me luck :*#niki out!

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poisoned-pearls · 1 year ago

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shout out to my irl who when I give him my fanfics to like. Pre read (not beta, but like. Idk test audience) he immediately starts making jokes abt things I write

#Writing #i showed him a scene I had edited separately and added stuff too and he just went “locker room makeout scene”#Which is hilarious considering 1. There are only like three small kisses #2. They are not IN the lockeroom (they’re in the weird locker room hallway that’s before the locker room but after the school hallway.)#3. There is another scene that is much more closer to a makeout scene in that fic #It’s the Jamiazu fic currently beating me over the head with its word count #11000 words and I’m not super close to the ending #I thought It’d be 10k MAX #I also showed him the first scene in the fic #To which his first response was “they have school work on the last day of school?!???”#Like he immediately had so much pity on them

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descendantofthesparrow · 2 years ago

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upcoming Walter x reader fic sneak peek

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The master stepped further into the room, his face finally out of the blinding sunlight, revealing his diamond-cut jaw, crystal blue eyes, and soft-looking black hair. You swallowed a bit, noticing some of the other girls doing the same, he truly matched the stories of his beauty.

You leaned towards your lady's maid, whispering in her ear; “He’s so pretty” she giggled, her nose scrunching slightly as the master's eyes flickered over to you, the corner of his lip quirking a bit; a dimple making itself known for a split moment. You felt yourself flush, knowing he had heard your every word thanks to his supernatural hearing.

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featuring chronically ill! Alexander! Reader

#still deciding whehter or not to make it angst ending or not #whether #yes i know how to spell #anyways #im doing my best to research chronic illness n how it effects a person #and how characters with chronic are treated and how those with chronic illness respond to it #and i don wanna give (y/n) a end all cure all from the vampire stuff #so i do plan to still ahve her be chronically ill after marrying walter but #idk less so???#that sounds weird #idk but-yeah it doesnt cure her of her chronic illness #its a chronic illness #it doesnt have a cure #but basically the vampirisim basically becomes a really good medicine for her #she still has flasshes and bad days where she cant walk and sometimes doesnt have the energy to get out of bed #flare ups not flashes #anyways girly wasnt gonna live past 25ish cuz its the middle ages n medical shit aint good back then #but walter choses her and gives her the life her parents never thought she would see #she asks him if it was out of pity and he says only slightly #if i were to chose anyone i want it to be someone who truly deserved to live a longer life #i just so happened ot fall for you in the process of getting to know you #blah blah blah romantic stuff #if i have any followers who have a chronic illness that wanna give me pointers/or tips to write this (y/n) and how the relationship between #her n walter should be like #please do pop in my ask box or my dms~#i will happily take notes #i wanna write her right #she basically has asthma #a thing that affects her legs and prevents her from standing or walking for long periods of time #and a general lowered immune system

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convoloutedinjoke · 1 year ago

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I think the thing that doesn't jive for me with J/H most of the time is that theres a lot of stuff where its made out like jean is ooooghghg Suffering because harry doesn't Care for him as much as he Cares for Harry and it rings really false to me. Harry would... care a lot? He would care very very much and in his own broken way try his best to express it? Maybe it wouldn't always come out right (see: the video game disco Elysium) but he wouldn't Not Care As Much. He would care. He would care so much it would be a major source of tension in whatever they'd call that whole situation, because (points at jean) unable to reciprocate even if he wanted to, which most of the time I doubt he does.

#ive been the black hole of self-pitying misery before man. you aren't actually the support beam of any relationship in that state.#though it sure as fuck can feel like it from the inside #idk maybe this is 100% projection on my part but whenever someone takes jeans whining at face value I want to empathy blast them #so they can see the kind of shit my equally unwell and problems having friends were putting up with when I was still Like That #he isn't the most saddest guy with the worst troubles he just doesn't respect his own pain enough to not compare it #like it is a defence mechanism and it Sort Of helps you for a while Sometimes #but at the end of the day it also closes you off to the kinds of relationships that will save your life #caveat to this also that “care a lot” doesn't equal “would be good at having a normal and nice relationship”#sometimes the more you care the worse it gets yk?#(Points at dora dreams)#Sighs. SECOND caveat that “can’t or doesn’t want to reciprocate” isn’t “is evil and terrible”#loving an addict is hard #Choosing to close off a little is reasonable especially if you are already in your own hole #though as I said at the start. That precludes some intimacy #anyway damn ! Damn (digs a hole with my paws and buried him)

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uhzuku · 2 years ago

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how do you keep getting all of the event five stars so often have you even lost like wth

ig the pity system is being nice to me?? idk man i’ve won my last 5 50/50s and am just like