creepy-can

[tangledinink]

OH MY GOD IS HE MISSING HALF HIS PLASTRON?!?!!! AGANGKUSGKUAVKUSUKVAI MY BABYYY

lmao yeah they've had this discussion a few times now. it's slowwllyy starting to sink in for don now.

[ swanatello ]

[olrinarts]

Snip for today's chapter in constancy must transpose

originally had another three panels but they looked, and i cannot stress this enough, like trash

[starzzmissthesun]

Sick and tired of the Regulus "always cool faced and calm, emotionless, doesn't care about anything" black agenda. He's a teenage boy!!!! He makes stupid jokes, he comes up with bad ideas, he's annoying, he laughs, he has late night conversations with his friends that they say are "deep", he hates on books he's never read for no reason, he loves, he's not some stone cold person 24/7!!! Even the angstiest people have fun and can care/feel deeply. I see so many people write him/make him out to be an Ebony Dark'ness Dementia Raven Way!!! Or like those MCs in gacha mini movies😭😭like help‼️‼️‼️Like I don't stand behind him being super soft and emotional to every one around him, I'm just saying, especially (and maybe only) around the people he's truly close with, he's still a teen boy. He's still a person.

[ziziheart]

jesstra doodle cuz i cant sleep

and then i coloured it because i still couldn't sleep

[tenderglow]

I got the coolest pins the other day.

[ddeck]

i see way too much discourse on why prequels went down the way they did and i have a suggestion. can we blame palpatine? can we please blame palpatine?

[dennythemenace]

You cannot convince me that Allison and Klaus were not smoking together as teenagers

[quitschekaetzchendebugging]

Taking a break from the toh au. Have some dnd art instead.

Myo belongs to @einesnachts

[regencyfae]

sometimes i’m really worried about my future

but then I go outside and the sun shines and I smell the flowers or the rain in the air and I hear people around me talking

and then I think, it can’t be that bad, because however bad I might fuck up, I will always have the sun and flowers and the squirrel that lives in the tree outside of my window

[diteach]

Ah, yes, plumbers and sellers calling me for information and then immediately calling my boss not because I'm inexperienced (and in that case they would be right, as I've begun working here like two months ago) but because I'm a young woman who couldn't possibly be giving them an accurate answer

[lydiablackblade]

Kind reminder to self:

Gurl, you don't have to earn your place in the fandom. You don't have to create beautiful art, write devastating fan fiction, you don't have to make mind-blowing metas, gifs, video edits, witty posts, comment every fic on AO3, repost, like, upvote to be allowed here.

You are allowed to just be here. I know your anxiety whispers you're never enough, but you are. You don't have to contribute. You are still welcome. Just exist.

[tiredspacedragon]

I have just had something of a realization.

I think one of the biggest impediments I personally face when it comes to my own stunted social development is the way I react to boredom. Or even just free time, really. Because whenever I have nothing in particular I need to be doing, my thought process is: "What can I do to occupy/entertain myself?" And not just: "What do I want to be doing right now?" So like, yes, I have hobbies, and I enjoy them. Sometimes they're exactly what I want to be doing and I couldn't be happier than I am playing a game, or maintaining a personal database that's way too big for its own good, or what have you.

But when they're not, I look at what my available options are, not what I would be doing ideally. Which really screws me up when it comes to figuring out my own social wants and needs. Like I don't consider hanging out with friends because I'm not physically near enough to any to suggest dropping by and spending time together. And even when I do get to hang out with people, I never have an answer to the question "So what do you want to do?" because I legitimately almost never think about it.

And I don't really know why, to be perfectly honest. I guess it's a strategy I've unconsciously adopted to avoid disappointment? Like no, you can't really do that right now, so focus on what you can. Asking for that would inconvenience people, you can make do without. You can't afford that, so don't think too much about wanting it. I'm awful at making Christmas lists or giving suggestions for what to get me for my birthday, and this is probably exactly why. I literally have no idea what I actually want from life because I've already convinced myself I can't have it and should make do with what's available to me right now. I...think I've trained myself to take up as little space as possible, to ask for as little as possible, in some kind of misguided effort to avoid being a burden on the people around me, and I didn't even notice.

So uh. That has to stop. Because it's resulted in a lack of drive, an ever-present fog of anxiety, and the brutal frustration that comes with those. And it's hurting me. It's cost me relationships with people I treasure and I don't want to be like this anymore.

Apologies for giving myself therapy on the dash, but uh. Yeah. This turned into a little more than I intended. But yeah, in case anyone else is stuck in a similar rut, this is your reminder that you are allowed to want things. You are allowed to have needs and desires that are not easily fulfilled and may even be a bit of a burden to your friends and family sometimes. In fact, trying to minimize yourself will make you more of a burden, because even if you don't see it, they will see that you are hurting yourself, and that will hurt them because they care about you. So the next time you find yourself just making do, or making yourself less, or not really knowing yourself, take a minute and think about what you want. Don't be realistic, don't be considerate, just be honest with yourself and think about what would be really nice. Then, when you can, tell people about it. Maybe they can help you find out what it would take to get it. I promise it'll be a lot better for you, and for them, than hiding yourself away. I'm going to try to follow this advice too. Here's hoping it brings some clarity, at the very least.

[wanderingmind867]

I feel like I don't do much online now. I never leave my dashboard, really. I never seem to find the time to do stuff online. And that's probably not a good thing. It's probably just a sign that I'm getting lazier and lazier in my time online. and i hate it.

I wrote that yesterday, but never posted it. So now i need to try and elaborate more on all of it. So let me explain how lazy I feel: I feel like I never leave my dashboard, I never scroll through blogs or tags, I never do anything besides occasionally reading comics, using ai bots, or staying sedentary and just sticking to my dashboard. And none of those options are super great, especially not when I know I used to actually read more stuff on blogs. I used to read and look up headcanons online often (before my old tablet died and i got this account). I used to read fanfiction occasionally (more often than i do now, at least). There's a lot of stuff i feel like i don't do as much anymore, and that really bugs me.

[hilema]

The pre-symptoms of migraine can include fatigue and mood changes (among other things) but also the post-symptoms can include fatigue and mood changes, in addition to brain fog, melancholy, being overly energised, low vitality or high vitality or changing between these two 🙃

[lingeringscars]

First you protect the people you love, then you talk about the greater good

[just-a-little-radish]

Damn just watched the latest John Oliver, where he pretty blatantly voiced his support for male-bodied people in women’s sports. I really wish there was more nuance on the left. You can (and should) trash Ron DeSantis w/ out harping on absolutely everything he believes bc I guarantee you they have at least one belief in common. Everyone is bound to have some view you agree with even if it’s just something obvious like puppies deserve good homes, but it seems like the general left is trying to alienate as many people as possible by instead of having their own beliefs and convictions, they dumb their politics down to literally whatever they think is the opposite of what the right beliefs which only works to a certain point. Liberal does not mean anti-conservative or vice versa. It’s easy to be anti what’s obviously evil, you’re not radical for that. Get your own convictions for fucks sake.