#at least series!ena did get some

[clanwarrior-tumbly]

Hi there! I had an idea for either series!ENA or BBQ!ENA interacting with a reader who's like a therapist or something. Like Ena says something kinda messed up and reader's like "no, that's not normal. Are you ok?" Both these girls need so much therapy, or at least a friend. I think reader becoming protective of Ena would be cute. Reader getting mad at the other entities for being mean to Ena without any real reason (that they know of). If you can't/don't want to do this for any reason, that's OK! Take your time and put yourself first!

I can do both!

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Series!ENA

Even though Ena (in Power of Potluck) talked to the Therapist, got rid of Mask, and tried to find joy in the little moments--he believes that someone should still keep an eye on her.

That's where you come in, befriending her just to see how she's been handling life in general ever since her session.

Mask hasn't returned, but right off the bat she looks troubled as you explain who sent you and why, although you reassure her it's normal for your boss to request that you checked up on his past patients.

During your talks, her happier side has no complaints really, always grateful to have a new friend. But she does admit to being bothered by her sad side--mainly the effects it had on people she knew.

She's constantly apologizing for her emotions getting "out of hand", even in front of you, and tries burying that sadness--but she gets a wakeup call after you explain how that can do more harm than good.

Eventually, you build enough trust with Ena that she'll willingly turn into her sadder form, and remain in that state long enough for you to make meaningful progress with her.

You notice her tendencies to jump to nonsensical negative conclusions/inaccurate perceptions of herself.....and of course, she has a lot of crying fits/glitches that you gotta help her cope with.

"I-I don't know, I just feel..stupid and worthless sometimes..a-and everyone around me agwees.."

"You believe everybody thinks of you that way? Can you give me an example?"

"W-Well..this one guy asked me for diwections yesterday, a-and...and I couldn't help him!"

"So...he called you those things as an insult?"

"No, h-he thanked me for twying and w-was polite. But I know that's what he weally wanted to say!! Because I'm too stupid and worthless to give anyone diwections!!"

"How do you know for sure he was thinking that?"

"......I....I-I don't know, actually.."

You've gotten better at redirecting her negative thinking, and making her realize that a lot of her assumptions are kinda silly...

Least to say, she feel better coming to you for advice.

Some days she wants to ramble about her day with Moony or what she saw in the sky. Other times, she just needs a hug and a shoulder to cry on. And you're more than willing to offer those at any time.

Outside of your work, you've tagged along in her many adventures, seeing for yourself how rude other entities act towards her---and knowing so many languages helps you easily back sass those who insult her.

They always assume you can't understand them...until you leave them (and Ena) shocked when you suddenly speak their same language.

Dream BBQ!ENA

"So the Genie of the Lonely Door basically told me I'm unforgivable and should be punished for being born.......but that's not even the worst part of that day-"

"P a u s e."

That pretty much sums up your sessions/hangouts with this Ena.

As soon as she was done dealing with the Boss, she finally took time off of work to get some much-needed counseling.

Fortunately, you were a friend she met during one of her assignments who happened to be pursuing psychology, travelling far and wide to study the minds of everyone you've met.

You suggested that she gave therapy with you a try and, holy hell...you were in for a surprise.

She was willing to pay you in chocolates, fatty catties, etc. for your services....which was perfect compensation considering you may need therapy for yourself.

Salesperson yaps about the most recent absurd/rude thing an entity did or said to her...while pretending like it's just another day in the workweek, looking confused when you point out how that's not normal at all.

Meanie, on the other hand, is a different beast. And is honestly the half you're more worried about.

Since she represents the typical fatigued worker who's trapped in their job and feels like they can't afford to have any fun or luxuries without suffering for it.....she vents a lot, and her opening up about it is like her chipping through a brick wall.

Her anxiety over even mentioning the things that bother her is enough to make vines creep onto her body.

And one time, her broken green form showed up at your doorstep, which was terrifying at first glance....but then you recognized that she desperately needed your help--and you let her in, consoling her until she was able to restabilize and explain what led to that state.

Luckily that's the only time you've ever seen that form, and the vines on her body have grown smaller and weaker to the point where they were barely visible.

It quickly becomes apparent to you that Ena is struggling with some form of PTSD, as though she was a soldier trying to find her place in regular society again--returning from a war that you had no idea even occurred.

You've been trying to uncover the mystery of what she's done in the past...and if that was connected to why so many people seemed to hate her.

Regardless of the reason, though, you hoped to remain her friend and that she'd keep visiting you as often as she needed.

[eyesore-boi]

Imaginary minds, imaginary lines

Let the maze of my design carry you on

Singles and other stuff below!

...so guess who fell into another fandom hahaaaa-

But for real I've heard bout ENA for a l o n g time, but never really had the motivation to check out and whenever I did I quickly forgot, but recently with the game coming out and a friend of mine highly recommending it to me, I decided to finally at least check out the series to give it a shot! So I watched it and- Yeah I liked it! Liked the vibe of it all and the animations were beautiful, it was nice! So then I just went on with my week.

.......then I started thinking more and more about it, rewatching the episodes a lot, finding new details, l o r e implications, I didn't even realize how much it starred festering in my mind. And when my friend told me the game pretty much took an hour to complete and was f r e e, I'd figured I'd give that a shot too.

.....and eyep now I'm completely in the Fandom, the brainerot has taken over, I need me some t u r r o n -

But yeah! With that said, I cannot understate how much fucking f u n this piece was. Just figuring out how to pose the Ena's bodies without much restrictions and playing around with their shapes was really damn fun! So I'm sure I'll least be doodling them and their friends p l e n t y more in the future so be p r e p a r e d -

But yeah, with that said I do got some other school stuff to get to, gonna be finishing my 2nd semester next month so assignments piling on, so if you'll excuse me I'm gonna get to that okay bye *falls upwards the temptation stairway*

[lunar-orca]

Hi could you kindly share your ENA headcanons

hi yes yes i can <3

its gonna be some different rubrics to not mess them up; so basically

sexuality/gender:

in my vision, both Enas are agender lesbians. so is Coral and Moony (although i like to think of Moony as bi.. cant decide). i dont give them specific labels as butch or femme tho, gnc is the ground for me. but i like to call them some of these terms for fun, like Moony and series Ena being butch n femme respectively, or dbbq Ena and Coral being tired mentally ill femmes. lol. the reason for these labels is projecting my identity because i barely see it online.

mentally wise:

dbbq Ena DEFINITELY has PTSD. also MADD. series Ena probably also has it as well. go my unstable depressive bitches with anxiety ❤️ (projecting. again)

i think dbbq ena also has trust issues, her meanie side especially. i just looove when girls hide their fear of getting hurt behind a layer of uncontrollable aggression ☺️ my favourite. yum!

she probably also uses her salesman side as a mask. i genuinely dont think the salesman is her main side... considering how often we see Specifically meanie to be talking with at least a tad of sense and logic in the game. hell, even her humanoid/hungover state is mostly taken by her meanie side. shes probably masking behind salesman to not excessively repulse people around her, yet it still slips out time to time.

personality wise:

once again speaking mostly about dbbq Ena cuz while YES i Did watch series Ena years ago and even rewatched it recently, i still cant strongly think of my personality hcs on her and how her sides act.... anyway,

sorry for being so fixated on meanie but i have very specific self indulgent thoughts about her. dmjasjsm. basically i like to think that shes easily flustered if finding the right way to talk to her. she can be pretty assertive, obviously, but who said an alpha wolf cant be someones kitten sometimes, (gets shot)

[louiesselfshipramblings]

Once in a Lifetime: ENA selfship!!

My relationship with ENA as a series is a bit interesting. I knew of her through tumblr for a while, I'd say, but never looked into it. My friend showed me the trilogy of shorts that had her (it was "Auction Day", "Extinction Party", and "Temptation Stairway" at the time), and I thought the style was cool! I didn't think much of ENA as is, but to be fair, I was still a blossoming bud when it came to figure out what I liked. After all I was only, like...eighteen. Lol.

Ena is def one of my more recent selfships, and I was kinda unsure of her when she re-entered my mind. I was unsure if it was really smth special, or just kind of a spur of the moment situation. I was still kinda feeling that as I got this quite frankly amazing commission, but seeing the WIPs and ESPECIALLY the final product made me go "Oh yeh...that's my gf!!!"

The Lore!!

My sona here is known as Lüc, which is a somewhat corruption of my own name? I wanted something that matched the sorta off-kilter, fake-video-game vibes of ENA as is. Tho, given the sparse nature of world building as of now, I'm kinda just making the setting...Earth-like with special features, lol. Maybe DreamBBQ will change things, idk yet.

But!! Lüc!! He's a starry eyed (quite literally) mid-twenty-something who owns a local theater, but it's a lil crummy. Has an old, 80s style appearance due to lack of budget, which also effects the showings. Since I can't afford big releases, I mainly show older public domain films and cartoons, with "new" content being indie films. It attracts...people, at least. I also sell cashews instead of popcorn cause I don't like how kernels get stuck in my teeth (and in lore an unpopped kernel cracked a tooth of his as a kid)

Ena sorta just stumbled in, as she does, and hung out in the lobby. Didn't even see a film, but she did buy some cashews. We did chat for a while. It was a brief encounter, but...I kinda fell for her at first sight XD

The feeling of liking was mutual, course, but she didn't really think it romantic at first. Which is why she visited so often! To see her friend! Yippie...but eventually I had the guts to tell her how I feel (we were close enough friends by then), and she was a little surprised at first! I was worried I upset her at first, but turns out she was just thinking it over. The look of realization on her face and the way she blurted out "THAT'S WHAT THE CARNATIONS MEANT!!!" still stick in my head, heh!

We didn't start right there, exactly. Ena said she needed time to think it over, so of course I let her. I was bracing myself for waiting a whole week of not seeing her, but she ended up popping back in three days later, roughly. She seemed a lil lost for words, which shocked me seeing as she usually had such colorful vocabulary. I tried to give her some support in realizing her feelings and such, before she blurted out, again, "I LIKE YOU A LOT TOO?? CAN WE DATE MAYBE???"

And we just kinda started dating! I took her out to a very nice restaurant, and that's also where we had our first kiss!!! And we've just been kinda going regular since! She still lives at her place, but she visits a lot to mine (second floor of the theater, saves space and money!!).

We're still very much enjoying being each other's bf and gf, so marriage is hardly on the table. No kids either, probably. Neither of us think we'd be able to handle it, lol. Moony visits sometimes too! We...get along best we can. I realize she's Ena's best friend, she realizes I mean a lot to Ena. We tolerate one another for her sake.

But yeah! That's my self ship with Ena! The series timeline is kinda...nebulous? Especially with DreamBBQ and the whole "second" Ena. I mainly just ship with the OG blue-yellow pre-TempStair version of her; gonna have to wait and see with this new gal!

The amazing art of me and Ena coming together was done by the always spectacular @cupiidzbow! I said before but you did just AMAZING here!! Like my sona is great but also your Ena is so cute???? I def gotta get more with her from ya! And you, the reader, should support Freddie and his monkey business!

[mythgirlimagines]

And for the final part of this little series, N25 forming like Leo/Need, if you please!

quite the ending!

Mafuyu remembered spending time with her childhood friends until her mother made her move in middle school, but when she came back to Shibuya with her father, everything had changed from under her.

Kanade still talked to her, but Ena and Mizuki were another story. It was clear that Kanade wanted to revive their old shared interest in creating music online together.

Even though Kanade had turned into a bit of a hermit, she still helped Mafuyu get in touch with Mizuki and Ena again, however hesitant she was. Mizuki at least said hi, but kept it there.

Kanade was a little scared to try reaching out to them again, since they all just stopped speaking one day, but she and Mafuyu did both want to try making music again, but only together.

Mizuki knew they’d changed a lot and pushed themself away, and Ena had…unsavory reputations because of some fighting. But Kanade and Mafuyu knew they could pull through everything if they tried.

[eggsnatcheskneecaps]

out of the blue question, how long have you been into marble hornets and creepypasta?

and also are you interested in any modern/recent args/unfiction projects, etc? i ask bc i assume marble hornets / creepypasta goes hand in hand with that kind of genre of internet horror.

btw operator kickflip loser

I watched Marble Hornets around ~7th grade and got into creepypasta somewhere in that time period (however, I've always been into creepypasta - as in online horror stories. Listening to YouTubers narrating and stuff).

I've been following Eckvanet, which I believe may be from the same creators? I might be mistaken, but I believe that's how I got introduced to the series

That was a few years ago and my memory is trash, so I really don't remember a lot of lore <\3

In addition, for the past few years I kinda fell off the face of YouTube, so I'm reaaaaalllly not up to date with anything + how hard it is for me to get into/keep up with (new or not) things

So. At least Creepypasta/Marble Hornets is that one fandom that you used to really be into that you will still reblog art of if you come across it

As for ARGS or other such genres, I'm following Happy Meat Farms and wanted to get into Ena (or something like that), but never did.

There was Confinement, (some original series based on SCP) , and I just found out it kind of fucking died or the creator left the internet while I was trying to find the name???

Also, I generally follow the stuff related to the Villainous cartoon network show, if it counts. They have some ARG-ish stuff going on

[officeobject]

13+ ! Tw for blood and death and whatever else. Flash warning as well (in videos I link)!

OH ... MY ... DOG ...

So, the folks at home are Bluey fans (at least 2 at home), and I'd say the episodes became better as time went on, but I was never able to find a favorite character to latch on to, as I typically try to do (I might latch onto MORE - at least later ON), but Bluey animation memes were fun, introduced me to the Honeypie song, and I happily watched them at a great time for it, all in 2023 as far as I remember. I got curious about one and decided to give it a chance, and yeah, the Bluey artstyle had grown on me long ago, and I knew it was popular, unlike my brain thinking it'd also be remaining relatively niche, and that, changed things for me - not just in terms of introducing me to the Noma song "Brain Power" (and by extention, a different song I don't currently remember the name of).

Although generic on the surface and thumbnail and with its flaws, the story was interesting, and I loved the animation meme and the song and all, and the song somehow resonated with me, but the whole thing together resonated most - I'd see the other Bluey.Exe animation meme, and later in life got rewarded by another, and kept up with things - even watching the "movie"/"lost episode" (which resonated LEAST, but still resonated) - all in my Bluey.exe compilation, with a WIP fanfiction, wall of text, moodboards, news updates, theme songs, and a hidden user I interacted with (which I just happened to do - yeah, I have a habit, it's the same thing as Poll Drama, I guess) - and more, with plenty of stuff about aesthetics - I don't know what resonated, but I had also gotten my first fidget toy (fidget cube ring) around the time or before or something, which reminded me of her, as well - and maybe sometimes she made my mental health worse, but I liked the show significantly more, kept seeing all kinds of animation memes (had to eventually stop keeping up with some series of them due to getting bad feelings related to addiction or The Void or whatever), and kinda felt solidarity with Bluey or something.

What happened? Well, "Hidden User", stopped coming by to my wall of text ("Text Compilation"), which was the third chapter, back when I had Quotev and all - and I kept going, but man, perhaps that was just the beginning of the end. The creator (I don't remember his name), would promise more or something - seems promising, right? And before or in the meantime, they'd take drawing requests, and I felt like crap and wondered if I should take the opportunity - and I already felt like crap, because would I like him? Should I have kept up? Which of his other videos would I like? Would God want me to talk to him and therefore become part of his life? Furthermore, my views may have been declining, my feelings got worse when a drawing request was granted which included Bluey.exe , and maybe some other things happened, so, I chose that for the sake of my mental health, I would leave the fandom, which I have once wished to be noticed my contributions to. It WAS also a place for me, to write about fidget toys, so I DID continue that, and maybe some occasional, and definitely some last, Bluey.exe posts - and I avoided stuff, and my bond with the show faded, and maybe I didn't notice that - I don't know why, but I felt bitter against Hidden User and stuff, for leaving me - as I do when these types of people leave - and made another thing, about another dog, I could be edgy with ...

You see, local kid drew a picture for me he would say was ugly, but it was so ugly it was beautiful - both creepy and cute ... which of course resonated for some reason. So, I made "Hiddenna", whose name was based on Hidden User, and "ena" because I had years ago seen a Fluttercord fankid whose name was "Ena" whom resonated with me, and with the last name "Jamandtuna" (I THINK spelled that way), but whose premise, was, to write whatever edgy stuff I wanted, and that it was an adult dog, and that it was as realistic as possible (which I failed a lot at), and whom there was lots of mysteries about, a few characters in its life, and that I would write without thinking much, and just trying to FEEL, therefore with my subconscious - I only did concept stories, but planned a whole THING, had a character wiki for it, and other stuff such as aesthetics, sometimes related to Bluey.exe, but it still didn't hit the same - it still resonated with me, just differently, and hey, maybe I liked it less or something, but I still vented there as well, and that place would be a bonus of being about fidgeting in general (not just fidget toys), as multiple vent places would come to be hidden and/or with gimmicks/bonus stuff. Unlike Bluey.exe - codenamed "B.exe" to hide possible liking and meet up with potential fans - Hiddenna had no code thing, but had the half-joke, "TW" (trigger warning), and then "Hiddenna" or "tw Hiddenna Jamandtuna" - because her gory stories were just gore for the sake of gore, edge for fun, just shock value, or whatever you'd wanna call it, and it was a valid trigger warning, as it had almost every in the BOOK - no pun intended. A potential hidden user was there too, but nothing came of it, and maybe Hiddenna got more, or less, views, than Bluey.exe , but I generally struggled on what to do with it, and my brain when writing concepts VS about it, and making it resonate, and the whole thing. I still had fun and made a few moodboards and tried to make characters and all, but what could possibly happen to Hiddenna?! Well,

I decided to stop writing there, even long after some issue was gone - well, forever - but planned to continue, and at least wrote about it in other places, here and there, as some mean person who hated me at the time, bookmarked it for updates and all, and maybe commented spam stuff, and I wouldn't wanna update nor anything.

That person would later temporarily come back, which didn't impact anything, and, unrelated to that, despite my plans to continue Hiddenna stuff, my Quotev ended up reported and all, and I've thought of my Ginger Jones doll as a replacement, I guess, without knowing it, as I hadn't really had one since - and yes, I do still have both of my compilations, and my Hiddenna song parody, several vent books, etc, but still. Before the account was gone, I had found out that Ludo Studios, had taken down Bluey.exe stuff, which was just meh, or something, I guess, for the creator - just unfortunate - and I thought that the only remains would be fan stuff that wasn't really high-quality, an official animation meme that had ranked high on relation which I had ranked in the Bluey.exe prime, and that's it, as it wasn't gonna continue, and I had figured that out, when the Hiddenna thing still got updates, I think. I understand the decisions made, but they're still unfortunate, even though the movie's thumbnail was seen by the local kid, and explained away as some people just wanting to make edgy things, or ruining the fun, which was quite something, as a then-member of a what I would've called "a fandom", which I felt the need to hide. I don't know what to do - and hey, I'm no stranger to just letting myself write angst or scary and sad stuff - I still have a thing on the Xanderweb I kinda just let go wherever, but it's not at all the same, I guess, but Imma see what I can find that is left of Bluey.exe, as I can still find THIS, and am BEYOND grateful, that the movie thing still exist - will download the video, and other Bluey.exe stuff, and will link stuff. Anyways, here:

Bluey.exe video I found today that STARTED this vent (tw that Bingo dies and others): https://youtu.be/r2azyhUV4to?si=M_HTlXYnin1IWJu6 .

Also vaguely related to Manifique Gerald and Jebediah Spirit, because would think of whose voice the "Why Love Me" meme was most like, and man there needs to be a violin cover.

I DID get something though, that started out as what appeared to be a bunch of Guest Users from the country I live in, seeing my stuff - I was scared at first, knew I couldn't know what was going on, and just began "talking to them", to annoy them and entertain myself - I would make them into characters - kinda, with one being like Colby Tybbles, and some song parodies, as both - and yeah I assumed there were 2 - would visit almost every day, and I'd talk, and vent, and excitedly update after they'd visit, and wouldn't like it if it took too long, and again, I'd personally address them and all, kinda clearly have a favorite, would be nervous about breaks and tried not to get attached and all, said multiple times to even them that they'd probably LEAVE soon, but I enjoyed it, didn't understand why they didn't just reach out, made Picrews and chapter updates just to talk, and theories, and all, but in around May or June of ... JESUS CHRIST, 2023?! 2024?! I don't remember - I don't remember how much of a - yeah, wait, it must've been 2024, because I also did some Lore about a person on the side - just forgot, I guess - but anyways, so, around that time I guess, they'd show up less and less - or very rare - or maybe it WAS 2023 - but anyways - no, 2024 - I'd also stop updating EVERYTHING - except opening or keeping open a few vent places, ended up making Quotev news - yep, 2024 - because chats were gonna shut down, got more views than ever, tried not to post too much about some people who may have kept up with it and all (suceeded), mental health was bad, Guest Users came back so little it was almost never until it WAS never, had made the Xanderweb on day 1 that I had built up and written stuff on, on the side - well, also Discord, looked into alternatives - the vacation was coming up so I was about to be away from my emotional support 30 year old for quite some time (with 1-2 weeks of unexpectedly not being able to see them again and again), was still fresh from May's big friendship-disaster, kept getting excuses to vent, barely anyone cared for some secret vent book that wasn't that secret that I made (besides checking it out - Guest Users did too I think) - kept making song parodies, and barely anyone cared about the Xanderweb, and I was of course still not that good with the public, and knew views would dwindle, knew staff was bad and didn't listen, and guess the fuck what, the summer vacation had me nervously go back for only 1 week to my home country - like, I had been scared, I kept talking to whichever audience I had and was so personal and all with them, on that news book thing, got a vitamin D defiancy that took a while to get diagnosed which got so bad that I took iron supplements just to have any energy to not in bed almost all day and to not almost puke so much and to not feel like I needed to fecking faint almost always, and I also still had kept on making a few things - well, any excuse to make a few things such as quizzes - to cope - daily venting was so normal that skipping a day was so abnormal that I would explain myself - oh, and had cut off a year-long friendship, because it wasn't good for me, and I had NO ONE to cling to, and got a friend who seemingly kinda wanted the same friendship and told me to not mentally beat myself up for being so damn clingy towards him - and yeah I vented and kept repeatedly explaining why I do this and that and telling him many things, and I kept purposely indulging in my addiction to make things better, and just like with my former online sister and my current mom and all, he had friends and a lover, and even a cat, actually, so yes, I said horrible "12 year old me" level things about them and explained WHY I felt that way, I kept feeling like shit for it, I kept lashing out at him for that and other things, saying we could never be friends, and man, I didn't know what to do - he had bad mental health already, so I was SO fecking scared - I was scared of "breaking" him, especially due to my ever-growing long list of people who left or ghosted or blocked me -

I hated myself - mostly - most of the time - and felt SO guilty, and would encourage him to leave me - I saw myself as a clingy monster, perhaps more than ever - trying to push down any clingy thought I had towards him, yet was unable to - I wanted and got affection back, and still made jokes with him and talked about all kinds of things, etc, though also he had an unpredictable schedule - not good with my autism - by the way, yeah, I had that TOO - and he would leave for up to at least one week, then - and man, for whatever reason, I had this belief that the person I was clinging to before (IRL Manifique Gerald - if you know you know) - might not even be there when I came back, and was DESPARATE, for JUST SOMEONE, else, to cling to - and I gained a few good acquaintances, but also made it a mission to keep reporting and protesting and updating about a damn fetish story with a 12 year old protagonist, so I had THAT, as well - and after the vacation ended, I had my emotional support dude come back for a week or just a little time, so my brain was adjusting yet again - though still lots of bad mental health - and then at some point they fecking packed, and everyone said they were gone forever, and for all I knew, YES, and my friend was inconsistent, and this was almost 3 damn weeks, before one day, they FINALLY came back - FOR REAL ... the joy didn't last long though, because while they had been gone, I had made a couple of song parodies about him, theorizing with my brain (that had a history and still persisting trust-issues + me being superstitious/suspicious, of a lot of things) - that he didn't like me anymore, because he talked to his friends, and not ME, for a few days after coming back, and I posted those song parodies - later confronted him, got a bit into a fight, we kinda made up even though I had sent one of the parodies that wished he never existed - and now, back to when my emotional support 30 year old came back - well, at night, when I was supposed to go the fuck to sleep, my account (and an acquaintance's), got reported - I panicked and all, folks reached out on Discord, I BEGGED admins to be telling my friend that it wasn't his fault (I had considered deleting my account and even re-named it to that), wrote it all to the Xanderweb which I still had (hence why I to this day say it saved my flank), and then within the week, my acquaintence found out that my friend had been fake, had been talking behind my back, had been calling me all kinds of things, and his side of the story, is like what happened, except: remove all the explanations I gave, remove the concept of my personality, remove my intentions - basically, if it's a joke, take it seriously, if it's something I keep saying but don't mean as I cannot properly express myself, think I mean it as much as possible, if I say it's platonic, say it's literally romantic, and doubt everything I say about myself, etc - and like, I don't wanna diagnose people or anything, but I was concerned, and looking up "delusional", didn't ease my concerns.

Anyways, I decided to quickly move on, via my emotional support thing, and also the ghost I had tried not to like - aka the spirit of some teenage boy who I had been haunted by - with of course, stuff falling, since June - also I doubted his existence, no one believed in him, lots more to deal with but whatever - spoiler alert though, but I met the actual boy, months later, and he suddenly deactivated his account , and fuck my life why do I still exist fuck this fuck my life?

But yeah I had made Tumblr, weeks after not really doing much - one of my acquaintances from back then got hacked too, I guess. Haven't heard from him since.

Oh and also had to block acquaintances of a few months, to 1 year+ due to them either forgetting about me, or saying bad stuff.

REGARDLESS, Y'ALL - oh, and I never get over things - bought a baby doll and made up a whole new character just to replace my ghost, Colby Tybbles - who, by the way, haunted me a few days after the incident - I was actually getting over him, and the human version (Coby), COULD have contacted me, but never did to this day - but, yeah, was getting over it, he re-haunted me, still haunts me to this day so I can barely have vibration turned on my phone - he does other stuff like knock stuff over too, though - haunts me weekly.

If you happen to think - if I do not seem to have a history, with peers or teens to young adults treating me like shit, being constantly haunted by both guilt and grief, my addiction, people leaving, needing someone to cling to, feeling like a monster, accepting and/or falling for fake friends - well, I do have good adults and a loving family and all, in my life, but yeah, OUI, I've had those fecking issues since kindergarten-age! And also The Void.

Oh, right! And in June I ALSO had to deal with the anniversary of Ethan's "DEATH" - full long vent over here: Part 11, the hopefully happy ending: – @officeobject on Tumblr !

I would like to give a "thank you", to, like, my acquaintances, and other people in my life, for being there, or for leading me back to the right direction. I'm glad to have people, and have had fun with you.

I'd also like to thank my real friends, for being real people I could hang out with. Things aren't all bad, as proven by y'all, and y'all are fun and all.

I'd like to thank some people separately though, such as Ethan, for being one of the only reassurances I'd listen to. Talking to him daily was - probably IMPOSSIBLE - to not enjoy, and I had an outlet to be goofy with, whom was even portable!

I'd like to thank the Xanderweb, for saving my fecking flank - I can archive things there, and finally have a place for my videos, and it's a place I can hide at, if needed!

I'd finally - I THINK it's finally - like to thank THAT person, for fully accepting me as I fully am. Over a decade's long hatred of my body-hair, TIED TO ADDICTION, disappeared forever, via nothing - I'm beautiful - and I can fully be a "creep", yet appreciated - not even DESPITE it, and encouraged to further like myself and other undoings of all this time.

B.exe things I found:

Passable B.exe edit: https://youtube.com/shorts/i6QY3HgFuLs?si=wRHwg04mWTXGwTQr ,

Non-VHS-recording thing: Bluey.exe .

Remaining animation meme: Why love me meme ( Bluey exe) (blod warning) (first vid XD) .

NO WAY, I FOUND BOTH ARCHIVED AND VIEWED IN A SHORT (I think there was a third though), WOO! https://youtube.com/shorts/lC2B2bDFVn8?si=QuT02wHzXecx2q-A !

Also, in 2023 I got a Bluey figurine for Christmas, which was her in "Grannies" - I quite frankly don't seem to think and/or remember her as an 8-ish year old and maybe not even as Bluey Heeler.

[sillyfudgemonkeys]

Ju-0N reboot thoughts

Ju-On: The Beginning of the End was.............................. Alright. (obvie some spoilers)

It's a reboot, tho the fact it kinda continues the baby storyline from the 2nd film.....I would've rather had a direct sequel to Ju-On: The Grudge 2. TT0TT

One thing that IS nice about this franchise is that it doesn't try to rely on the same thing too much. Is it always good? Eh. But it is to see them changing it up. This is one of those times (making it more focused on Toshio than Kayako).

I'm happy Kayako gets to talk more (I prefer the OG and possibly the American versions in terms of characterizations, but the actress did a good job being creepy!), but I was surprised how little we learnt about Toshio's original family ;w; I feel like Takeo's situation could've been handled better too.

Ju-On: The Final Curse....so far (still have like 20 min left in the movie) I find this one to be A LOT better than The Beginning of the End. Story is a bit better, and so are the scares.

I really liked how Ena kinda befriends Toshio (hopefully that's not ruined too much in the last 20 min TT0TT). I dunno I just.....like seeing the slight humanization of the ghosties. How Kayako talks softly to Toshio in The Curse, Kayako's sad look she gives to Rika at the end of Grudge 1, the cute little kitchen scene we see play out in the background behind Kyoko with Kayako/Toshio in The Grudge 2, Toshio meowing at a dog toy in White Ghost, and Toshio asking a stranger for help to "find his cat" in black ghost. TT0TT I just like the little humanizing moments (also not in-universe, but the entire promotional stunts they did for Sadako vs Kayako, great, priceless, love it). TT0TT

Hmm I dunno, I think what the reboot might be missing compared to the Original and US ver is......the rage. You FELT that damn rage in the other timelines. This one........Toshio doesn't look rage filled, he just kind stares blankly/innocently at people. Which is fine, but it doesn't sell the main aspect of The Grudge....which is the rage.

Takeo we got cause he was abusive (or at least heavily hinted at it) and then went insane when he thought his wife was cheating on him (she wasn't). We don't get to see all his actions, but the glimpses are a lot more rage filled than the small (still fucked up) segment we get in the reboot. Reboot!Takeo doesn't seem outright abusive, just absent (lol kinda like this film), so his snapping feels....eh.

Kayako is filled with rage (and sorrow, and sorrow turned into rage) cause she got FUCKED over in OG. Reboot!Kayako? Feels more like a protector of Toshio imo......and pissy if anyone comes near her precious kid.

Toshio, both are pretty fucked over in their backstories....the difference is OG!Toshio is the assist to his mama, while Reboot!Toshio has to carry the movies. Which is kinda hard since his whole shtick is to not look exactly super pissy (I think he can do it, the 2nd film showed a bit of anger but eh), I mean he originally was a tragic passive observer of his mother's death so.... TT0TT I get it.

I think what kinda works in the reboot sequel as opposed to the first reboot film is that Kayako is more of a looming presence. And evil/jealous protector if you will. Toshio's to Oskar/Owen as Kayako is to Eli/Abby from Let the Right One In. I mean Toshio is still doing his own kill related stuff but still.

I dunno, I'll give the final verdict later when I finish. Probs gonna take a small break with Naruto and then jump right into the US series next. (then the TV show, then save SvsK till after Ringu.....god Ringu is gonna be a fucking trip isn't it? TT0TT)

[melancholyheartss]

Remember this? Yeah I did that.

This was super fun (even if it ended up not being super accurate) I think we should all draw our favorite characters as if they were ENA characters.

Kinda ranty about the design and stuff under cut oops.

He doesn't get his half blacked out face here because... ENA logic i think. I'll make a version with the half blacked out face tomorrow.

All you get to know for now is that their faces swap kind of because of the emotions I chose and because TOYSNHK is smiling.

Probably breaks some kind of ENA rule but oh well compromises must be made.

I've watched the series several times and I just watched the game but also my brain didn't consume most of the information so yk yeah my bad if I broke an ENA rule.

Don't tell me those emotions are wacky I know it was weirdly difficult to figure out so it's good enough.

The pigtail is from logbook girl, the other side is SUPPOSED to be based on Andrew but idk if it translated well or not.

The outfit is of course directly from the movie blonde boy. The shirt yellow might get brighter to match the hair tie idk.

The red color is from OMC, and the Yellow I got from a logbook girl sprite I made.

I went maybe too far into the "sharp vs round" thing but it looks cool at least.

I'll work on this more tomorrow I am really tired right now goodnight.

There's been this trend on YouTube(idk if it's anywhere else) where people make ENAsonas, and i really like them, and i was thinking... what if i did that, but with TOYSNHK?? Like... they've got the half face thing... and I really like ENA and FNaF... I think it'd be cool.

Edit - my friend has told me this is a cool idea, and they really like ENA, so i'll probably at least put them in the style of ENA when i get the chance.

[thedeliverygod]

2020 Anime Rec List

side note that these animes didn’t necessarily come out in 2020 (though some did) its just the year that I watched them. 

FOR FANS OF NORAGAMI

Toilet Bound Hanako Kun

Based off the popular legend in Japan of Hanako-san, a ghost who haunts the girl’s bathroom. However, this Hanako is a mischievous boy who happens to be the leader of the school’s Seven Wonders. The heroine Nene comes to Hanako with a wish of making her senpai notice her and chaos ensues from there as the near shore and the far shore intertwine. You’ll see a lot of obvious comparisons between this and Noragami and the manga is also extremely worth it. I would say Hanako-kun is a little bit heavier on the comedy, but by the same token it can also be dark af :]

Kakuriyo

All of her life, Aoi has been able to see ayakashi; one even saved her from a near death experience when she was a small child. But after her grandfather passes away, she’s met by an ogre king who says that because of a debt her grandfather owes him, she must come to the hidden realm and be his bride. Aoi refuses and asks to instead work off her debt at the inn that he owns. With the help of Ginji, a kind fox ayakashi, Aoi starts her own restaurant and grows many friendships with the various workers of the inn, including the ogre king himself. This one is definitely not as action based as Noragami or Hanako-kun but it’s a very spiritual and fun show. If you’re into cooking/food, there’s definitely a lot of that too.

 Fantasy

A Lull in the Sea

In this world, certain humans have been blessed by the gods with ena; a special skin covering that allows them to live and breathe underwater. For generations, there has been tensions between humans who live on land and humans who live in the sea. The show begins with a group of friends who for the first time are required to go to school up on land. While most are open to the idea, the main character, Hikari, is very hesitant and very resistant towards befriending land-dwellers. Over time, the friends grow to realize people in the sea and people on land are not so different after all and do their best to bring the two worlds together. This is honestly simplifying the plot a lot, but it’s a beautiful series. The amount of characters could honestly get a little overwhelming at times but I still highly recommend it.

ReLIFE

Arata for all intents and purposes is known as a “NEET”. So when an opportunity arises for him to become 17 again and ‘restart’ life, he takes it. I’ll be real, this anime was not at all what I was expecting. Arata’s reasons for being a “NEET” are very deep and relatable rather than the results of poor life style choices. Honestly, I think most people who are in their twenties right now can relate to at least one or more parts of his story as the anime goes more into detail. By going back to high school, it teaches him how to connect with people on a real level and how to appreciate life for what it is and take in every single little moment.

 Slice of Life

Kakushigoto

Kakushi Goto is a successful manga artist. But not just any manga artist, one who makes his living with lewd drawings and jokes. The catch? He has a small oh so innocent daughter that absolutely must NEVER know what he does for living. This anime is so sweet, heartwarming, and hilarious. Honestly the reason I watched it is because the main character is the same voice as Yato lmao. So if you want to pretend, it’s like Yato has a little girl.

My Roommate is a Cat

Subaru is a recluse novelist and has been stuck in writer’s block for quite a while. After finding a kitten and bringing it home, Subaru finds new inspiration for both his writing and ways of seeing the world. A really cute & slow-paced slice of life.

Tonikawa

On his way home from school, Nasa sees a beautiful girl across the street. Without thinking, he walks across and finds himself being hit by a truck. Luckily, the girl jumped in to protect him and saved his life. Though she miraculously only had a few cuts, Nasa suffered some broken bones and was told to wait for an ambulance while she walked off. Not wanting to lose a chance to see her again, Nasa chases after her and asks her about going on a date. Tsukasa replied that she would date him only if they got married first. Without hesitation, Nasa says yes before he soon passes out from the pain. Years pass and Nasa can’t forget the girl who saved his life. But just when he’s about to give up, she appears again and this time she’s got the marriage papers. This anime is really cute and hilarious! I thought the characters were younger than they actually are due to their cutesy design which is why I held off on watching it but I promise it’s not children getting married haha. Although Tsukasa says she’s 17 it seems to be implied she’s older (like, Yato old). I haven’t read the manga so I don’t know this for sure but there’s been a few moments in the anime that seem to hint at this. Plus, you know, the fact that she was hit by a truck and was fine.

[crystalelemental]

“archer3-13: i mean, dhgensia aint perfect but its specifically mentioned that had ike not ended the mad kings war when he did, dhgensia would have just burned daien to the ground out of frustration and anger by that point. which in doing so would undoubtedly trigger Ashera’s awakening. And he did try and help them, he sent an entire team of red dragons to go get them but when the team got feralized he had to call it off. the mans stubbron and his impasivity/neutrality led to a lot of shit but he didn’t abandon raijon and the like at the drop of a hat.”

Yeah, I guess that’s fair.  I mean, he did try.  So what if he backed out the instant there was confirmation of some Seriously Fucked Shit going on in Daein with that squad going missing.  It’s really the thought that counts.

Anyway, I had to look up the full conversation, because it’s been too long for me to remember all the details.  Nasir mentions the red dragons were sent to find Almedha, which was before Rajaion’s whole deal, but he did attempt to find her when she left.  That said, there’s not any mention of him doing anything after Rajaion left.  It just kinda skips to “We found out he couldn’t be saved.”  They mention the whole bit about dragons being particularly susceptible to bloodlust, and that Goldoa would have joined the war eventually had things not been resolved.  So he would have acted eventually.

The thing is, this is...still kinda the consequence of his own actions.  Almedha goes off, and he loses track of her, and gets his small squad of dragons that were tracking her killed, but doesn’t act on that.  Rajaion leaves, and loses all contact, and he still doesn’t act.  It’s not until he finds out there were consequences at all that he even considers mobilizing, and even then resists.  While the reason for resisting is at least somewhat understandable given the circumstances, as I’ve mentioned in other responses, the problem is that he does absolutely nothing.  You can do things aside from all-out warfare or complete non-intervention.  When the first kid goes missing, and the dragons you sent to find her also mysteriously vanished, that should be a pretty big red flag about the current state of things and what needs doing.  And he didn’t do it.  His story is tragic, sure, but it’s tragic because of how his constant inaction comes to bite him, because you can’t just stay neutral against an evil force like that.  Eventually you have to do something.  And he didn’t, at any step of the process.

Also like...off topic, but is the whole “dragons would go out of control” thing just kinda...made up?  Kurth is involved in the most chaotic fight in the series, and gets sickly but just leaves.  He didn’t exactly get swept up in bloodlust like they suggest would happen in that situation.  Nor do any of the dragons you fight in the Goddess Tower go drunk with power, they’re all pretty rational.  I guess you could argue that Ashera’s effect on the world kept things calm, since Tibarn does talk about that, but what’s the explanation for Nasir and Ena not going berserk in battle during the events on Path of Radiance?

[louiesselfshipramblings]

Thoughts on the media my f/os are from!

The MCU kinda sucks these days. The last good thing they put out was GotG Vol. 3, and you know that was all Gunn. Granted, the series's highs are still very high—Iron Man, Avengers 1, all the Captain America movies, Thor 1, Thor Ragnarok, the Guardians trilogy—and there is occasionally some good. And of course I have a soft spot for the Hawkeye tv show. It was good!

The Legend of Zelda is still one of my fave series, and while I did enjoy Tears of the Kingdom on initial playthrough...man, this game sucks. And not even in a bad game way; it's just so derivative. Which like, yeah, sequel literally built off the back of BotW, but there's no innovation. It has all the issues BotW had, but worse. Like, I'm biased of course, but Purah's redesign is legit one of the best things about the game. Like, it's not bad, I like it, but man...and the story! Jeez, what a waste of time...

ENA is weird cause like, I knew about, then my friend showed me it, and I thought it was neat. Still a cool idea and such. It's just I kinda joined when the "original" Ena was ending and stuff with DreamBBQ was starting. My pref is still towards OG Ena, but I'm excited to see where Joel G takes things.

I have an interesting relationship with Sonic the Hedgehog; I don't play his games too often, but I love the lore, and side material like the comics and shows. Sonic Lost World is not a game I played, but I heard negative things about. Basically a Mario Galaxy clone...but Mario Galaxy is good, no? Considered by many one of the best games of all time? I dunno. The main thing is the Deadly Six...like I love Zeena, naturally, but the others. Eh...neutral. There's a reason my sona is Mobian and not zeti lol.

I was originally gonna watch the One Piece anime, but I eventually decided to go with the manga cause I heard it was paced better, plus I always wanted to read manga. Overall, I like it! It's very good. Simple at points, yet powerful too. I just wish Oda was a lil less horny, or at least reeled back the likes of Sanji and Brook. And drew women differently. And fixed Usopp's design. Yeh. Aside from that, it's good.

I haven't played Overwatch! I just think Sombra and D. Va are pretty. Mei, too. And Venture is kinda snazzy. It looks fine. Blizzard sucks but you knew that.

JoJo's Bizarre Adventure was my first real anime (outside of like the Pokemon anime), and it was good! David Productions really nailed the art style and colors, especially the color choices! Might check out the manga some day, but very excited for Part 7 to be animated!

Moon Girl & Devil Dinosaur is the perfect show to watch if you're a Marvel fan and fed up with the MCU. Creative, striking, and actually progressive when Disney isn't banning episodes like the morons they are. I need to watch a few more episodes, but the show is VERY good. Track down that banned one if ya can, it is WORTH it!

I've been a fan of Five Nights at Freddy's since I was a wee lad...never played an entry lol. Yeh I was more into the lore with MatPat, Dawko, 8-Bit Ryan, Razzbowski, those guys. It was fun! I still enjoy it but it def fell to the back burner. The movie was good, prob gonna see the sequel.

For the record I would totally give Danganronpa a chance, but ugh I just cannot do visual novels. There's just not enough "game" for me, if ya get me. No shade to people who do enjoy em, more power to ya. Just not for me. From the gameplay of 1, 2 and V3 I've seen...seems okay. Outdated at parts, and kinda on the nose with its 'hope v despair' theme, but each seems a solid mystery with a colorful cast.

I was late on the train for Kid Icarus: Uprising, but damn when I hoped on, did NOT regret it. Some of the greatest writing, voice acting, voice direction, story, and characters yet to be put to a single Nintendo game! The greatest come back for ANY Nintendo franchise! Gameplay is kinda standard but plays well. A sequel would be nice, but honestly a port to the Switch would be lovely as well.

For five bucks, Pseudoregalia is a steal. N64/PS1-looking 3D metroidvania with great music and solid controls. Plus the main character is my wife. I've been meaning to finish it, but I've been busy...will one day tho!

Indigo Park is another game I haven't played, BUT I did watch MarKatoto play through all of chapter 1, so that counts right? Anyways, cute looking game. Charming. Nice atmosphere. It doesn't feel like it's trying to crib FNAF's style, which is to its benefit. I have high hopes for the game moving forward, especially when compared to slop like BanBan, yuck.

The Mario + Rabbids games, both Kingdom Battle and Sparks of Hope, are the most not-me games I ended up likely. XCOM-esque real time strategy where Mario crosses over with Ubisoft's Rabbids? But it works! I still need to play the DLCs all the way through, but again...busy! Maybe some day...

The Wild Robot truly is a triumph. A phenomenal film with gorgeous animation, amazing voice work, a simple yet effective story, and just an air of coziness to it. It's a nice film. Can Chris Sanders just direct every movie from now on?

I got into Doki Doki Literature Club when mascot horrors were in their peak. Ya know, Hello Neighbor, Bendy, Tattletail, that stuff. Again, like FNAF and Indigo Park, I never played it myself, but seen it played enough to know it well. Maybe it doesn't have the best presentation or execution, but I still feel it's effective at what it's trying to do, all while still having a lovely cast of characters and a very cute art style. Would check out DDLC+, but again...visual novels.

Pokémon...ugh. What a franchise. Most profitable franchise in the world, backed by one of the most beloved and successful gaming companies of all time, all to releases, well...Scarlet & Violet on release day. Gen 7 was the last game I considered good, and maybe I'm biased. Last game you could have every mon in. At the very least, I still love the series for its ideas and designs, and I am looking forward to Legends Z-A. Legends Arceus was surprisingly good, so with how long Z-A is taking, not to mention FINALLY being the long coveted third Kalos game, I'm hopeful.

[kaiju-z]

Seon Adventures, Episode 37: The Client

When last we left off, Akar’Niel showed himself before the adventuring party, the Cultbusters for the 2nd time in two weeks time, after their group finished the most important part of their dungeon delving quest within the Tomb of the Fallen King.

With his re-introducing words of “Did you miss me?”, Akar’Niel takes the stage.

And there he was, leaning on a pillar.

Face to face again, this time before rest would overtake them, Akar’Niel makes himself known to the party. The Half-Elven man is met with a mix of intrigue from Jun and Luck, distaste from Mournimar and Belli and a careful study by Malak.

Morgan surely would be by his partner’s side due to the surprise appearance, while Arryn? Arryn was taking a well needed rest, oblivious to the conversation that was transpiring.

With the semi-hostile atmosphere coming from the party, Akar’Niel reveals to the lot of them that he is the client, who requested the fetching of Ena, currently in Luck’s possession.

From the initial interrogation, it’s hard to tell much about his intentions with the blade, aside from keeping it gathering dust in the tomb, or a museum to just be gawked at. However - Belli and Mournimar gather that he’s asking intently about the sword, but based on his physique, there’s a reason he’s not trying to wrestle it off. And Jun? 

Jun knows he lied and knows who River is. There’s an eyebrow twitch, when Luck asked why it mattered to him. He’s very emotionally invested in this artifact.

Furthemore, he tells the party he is of the Circle of Shaksban, the exclusionary spellcaster guild in Crystalgate. To try and gain the party’s trust, Akar’Niel offers himself to be placed under a Zone of Truth spell and willfully fail his save.

Belli casts said spell and a question and answer series begins, wherein he re-affirms he is who he is and what his intentions for the sword are. To hand it to the Darksbane Army for use, specifically, as they are considered by many, in different tones, as “the noble sort”.

During the talk, while Belli slips up and mentions that there’s only one human in their party, despite Luck wearing his disguise, Jun takes note of something about Akar’Niel.  She can see his eyes have a bit of a yellow flicker that moves like a vine in the wind. Furthemore, There’s almost like a faint breeze going through his hair, despite there being no wind?

The conversation carries on for about as long as the Zone of Truth permits, with an air of tension being raised from a half-suspicious and half-amicable side of the party. And Ena herself speaks to Luck, when he asks her what her take is on this arrangement.

Ena finds the party’s client a smug man, but is indifferent in who wields her, as long as blood can be shed. A bit unnerving, if honest answer from the weapon of a late king.

A deal ends up being struck, where the party agree to return Ena themselves, rather than hand it over at this moment to Akar’Niel. And that whenst he checks on the group the sound of wind chimes will follow.

With his departure, the six go to sleep, taking a long rest.

And in the morning? Luctan brings out the Dragon Skull for Malak to question. After debating what the questions should be...

Malak casts Speak With Dead. And for flavor and more amicable conversing, he asks in Draconic:

- 1. ”What were the names of you and the other dragon that attacked?”- “I’m Izyr. Lord of the Sands. My companion is Zamberrut , the Barbarian.”

- 2.“What destroyed the dwarves and dragonborn?” – “A magic not even I know.”

- 3. “Do you know who cast it?” – “The wizards. The magic users, who enforced my brother and I.”

- 4. “Do you know any of their names or locations?””I don’t know their names. They gave us fake ones.”

- 5. “What were the names they gave you?” – “We met with a man, who called himself Nehren and a woman, who called herself Seriza.”

Curious.

Very curious. And requiring further questioning.

Malak would ask again, after sharing his findings with the party.

- 1. “What did they use to compel you and the other dragon?” – “The same thing it always is. A fuck ton of cash.” They were bribed!

- 2. “What did the people that compelled you look like?” – “Well, the tiny one had a weird face, gray hair. Very old. And the woman, a heavier set woman. Human?!”

- 3. “Where did you first meet them? At the mountains, a little bit north of here. Right near the border.”

- 4. “Were they wearing any identifying marks? Jewelry, anything. Special cloaks.”- “No? I don’t think they did. This was like five years ago, man. One of them had this three headed dragon guy, which I found weird.”

- 5. “Did he have 3 heads or a symbol with 3 heads?”- “A symbol.”

Interesting info. They were hired. But it wasn’t clear if it was the work of the council. But one of them was a Fornas worshippers, the little graying man. A 3 headed Dragon symbol meant just that.

Why though? Why would a Fornas worshiper do this sort of cruelty?!

The party once again agree to proceed to Guan.

And so begin the days of travel once again.

On the first day, they go north and come across what one can tell are the remains of a town, just based on the slight shapes. There are visible peaks of what was once the town of Hertis. The travelers could hear faint whistling as they’d pass through. A jaunty little tune.

How jaunty? Jaunty enough that it slaps!

Following around a corner of the remains of a building, the group finds themselves in front of a lone tent. A campsite. This here seems to be a homemade farm with tomato plants in buckets. And the whistling is coming from inside the tent.

As though we are heard, the tune carries on with it’s performer stepping out to see their guests. And it is a female Kenku, 3ft tall and carrying firewood in her arms.

Most of them hadn’t seen one since the tournament, from the team of rogues, but as she speaks in a variety of intriguing voices, Luck and Belli remember hearing of this particularity of the Kenku before. They were cursed to not speak in their own voices, so they learned to mimic others’.

“Well hi!” Zooter would say in one voice. (which we later learned OOC was of the gril from session 3 or 4, who flirted with Belli).

From what the group can gather, Zooter, as she introduces herself, is a lil’ survivor, making a life out here for themselves.

The Cultbusters and the lone citizen, Zooter exchange pleasantries and foods. With the party giving her dried meats for a potato, much to her delight. To a point where she even states that if they ever need a safe spot to rest the night, she will offer them one.

(Seriously, Zooter has such a cool mix of voices. Scorpion among them.)

Surprisingly, from the corner of their eyes, Luck, Belli and Mournimar can see the inside of the tent. What the surprising thing is the small shrine to Ebriosus, which eventually also comes to Jun’s knowledge.

And she reaches into her wares, pulling out tens of platinum coins, which she hands Zooter and the two bond over their connection through Her.

Excited, Mournimar buys of the plant that would grow into the intoxicant “Steam Root” and through some big brain thinking, decides to plant it in the pot Malak bought for him.

(And many weed jokes were had.)

“You know? I loved you from the moment I saw you.” Zooter would say to Jun in another familiar voice, which she herself would specifically and only her recognize.

Later down the line, the group would carry on with their journey, parting ways with Zooter, the friendship made that day cherished forever.

And some good progress is made in travel.

On day 2, nothing really happens. If there’s any nasty shit in the desert, they see and avoid it. But that night, as they settle down, take their usual watches and the like, Jun has a dream to herself.

Day 3. That evening comes to a close and on the next day it’s very open dunes. They travel on more rocky/mountainous terrain. Very hilly. (And they are alive with the sound of music). Their awareness of our surroundings is good enough to where we’re safe. They sleep and nothing happens.

Day 4, the sand is less and the rock is more. Still wasteland, still no water They come across small streams at least once a day.

On the evening of the 5th day, Malak has a specific dream as well.

On day 6... They climb to the top of a little canyon that’s going on. Because they’re higher up, there’s no risk of danger. They get a feeling that for the next few days they’ll be pretty safe.

The 7th day comes and goes and on the 8th, Luctan has a dream. A promissing dream.

Then comes  Day 8.  Smooth as fuck.

Day 9.  They march and march on through and Arryn informs his travelmates that at this point today? They’ve been in Guan for a few days. He didn’t want to mention anything, ‘cause he didn’t want to jynx the group when they passed the border on day 6.

On day 9  the travelers come across to a barely a settlement. A few tents. Some lizard folk, the occasional kobold too. No farms, but there are caravans. We can tell they’ve been there for a while. On the outside, there is one Lizardfolk, more beefy than the rest.  And he is digging a hole. Diggy-diggy-hole.

He welcomes the party and proclaims that they are coming through in a good weather season. “Isn’t it lovely?“ Sand storms and humidity. Yep.  It’s been wild.

He introduces himself as  Eknam, the town burrier. So essentially, he is the undertaker of this settlement. Low on town people, but he’s optimistic that things are turning around. One of their ladies is swollen. So, it might be a big clutch!

They lost their town location, but what’s left of them, they’re called the Gromlets.  Eknam’s idea was Bog Creatures, but they have no bog.

They’re trying to find a place that’ll support them and the water supply isn’t tainted?! Aside from the side effects, there’s the whole limbs dropping off if you drink water 2 years in a row?!  Due to their resistances, it takes longer for the Lizardfolk to be affected, but for others? Much-much quicker.

Malak offers help and eventually clears the water for several days with Purify Food and Drink, while speaking to the settlers in draconic: “Hello, I’m the water technician. I’m here to clean your pipes.”

Greatful, Eknam welcomes the lot of them to Guan.

Eknam notes, upon us mentioning where they’re headed, that they’re going in the right direction of the capitol. Only have to go east and if they don’t get to it, they’d go north.

After some more directions, regarding going through the canyons, Eknam mentions that if the party bring them anything interesting they’d enjoy, they’d welcome the Cultbusters into the family.

While the directions are given,  Jun shifts into a lizard folk and searches for the pregnant lady, whom she finds in an open tent, resting comfortably, big and next to an egg that had recently been laid by her.  Bless her.

Jun congratulates her, before going off to search for the strongest camp person. Who would be Eknam in this case. The expecting mom’s a bit confused about the congratulations, but is grateful.

It is then that Jun talks with Eknam.

She asks him to keep her safe and sound from any harm. Eknam would ease her concern for what could be by stating how she is their highest priority. Always watched. Noting how every settler in the area kept a close eye on her tent.

“She is always our priority.”

Before the party leave, they give them some stuff to help them along with the developement of their settlement. Clothes and the like.

With goodbyes being made, the party would carry on to the next leg of the journey.

Previous Episode / Next Episode

[ryuuenjis]

Clipped Wings

Series: Future Card Buddyfight Characters: Kanata Ozora, Tasuku Ryuenji, Gao Mikado Pairings: KanaTasu if you squint?

Chapters: 1 | 2

Summary: Tasuku saw a bit of himself in Kanata. That's why he wanted Kanata to be able to spread his wings again.

A/N: I almost forgot to post this here whoops. I haven’t actually watched a single episode of Buddyfight X. I’m only drawing on basic ideas, but otherwise diverging completely. This was the year of self-indulgence

Throws some vague references to the Fall from Grace series so if you see anything that you’re sure didn’t happen in the anime, it’s because it actually didn’t happen

Thank you to Ena (@n4391) for helping me with this. You can also read it here!

Enjoy!

“An invitation to join the tournament?”

Takihara nods gravely, and Tasuku sighs and returns his gaze to the files he had been looking over in his tablet.

“With everything going on, I don’t think I can afford to participate. I’ve been barely able to keep up with school as is…”

“You won’t even consider it?” The worry on Takihara’s face is evident in the form of creased eyebrows, and he looks at Tasuku with concern set deep in his eyes. “A couple of weeks off from Buddy Police work could do you some good. We’ll be able to handle things…”

Tasuku smiles, though it is somewhat empty, and there is little humour in it. “I wouldn’t be able to do it in good conscience… We’re close to getting a lead on these ‘Chaos’ guys too. I don’t want to relax just yet…”

Takihara shakes his head, but cedes to Tasuku’s decision. The boy is unyieldingly stubborn when he’s made up his mind. Changing it is more trouble than it’s worth.

“You’ll have to find a replacement, then… The tournament is a fight between fighters chosen as representatives for the worlds. You were chosen to represent Star Dragon World, so it might be tough to find someone else…”

“It’s okay,” Tasuku says as he absentmindedly swipes the tablet screen up and down, as if hoping answers will leap out at him if he does it enough times. So far, no dice. “Gao-kun told me that more and more people have been using it lately. I’m sure I’ll be able to find someone.”

Tasuku starts his search in an obvious place: Aibo Academy. With its repository of budding Buddyfighters, he figures that there is sure to be at least one noteworthy Star Dragon World user.

After an hour of searching through the Buddy Police’s database, he finds one.

Ozora Kanata.

A dark horse of sorts, the sixth grader had won several tournaments in the past, but has ceased activity in recent months. Among the few Star Dragon World users he finds, Kanata is the one who stands out the most.

“He’s the one…”

Tasuku appears on the school grounds in his civilian clothes at the end of the next school day to avoid causing a ruckus, but someone familiar recognizes him and runs up to him anyway.

“Tasuku-senpai!”

Tasuku smiles when he sees Gao’s approach. “Gao-kun. Long time no see.”

“It really has been a long time! I haven’t seen you in forever! Mom’s been really worried. She keeps talking about how she’s gonna slam you into the ground if you show up looking ‘pallid and exhausted.’”

Tasuku can’t quite contain the nervous laughter that escapes his throat. “Is...is that so? Please tell Suzumi-san that I’m fine, and that she doesn’t have to worry…”

Gao has begun to pout, and Tasuku looks away before he can get sucked into his huge amber eyes. “I don’t believe you,” Gao says. “It’s been a while since you’ve visited our place. It’s been so long that even Noboru’s begun complaining! He keeps asking me whether you’re coming over today, whether you’re gonna be here or there…”

“Even Noboru-kun? I guess absence really does make the heart grow fonder.” Tasuku is smiling, though, when the blond comes to mind. Despite Noboru’s prickliness, Tasuku knows he’s a good kid. Gao concurs with a nod and a grin.

“Let us know when you’re free again! It’s been a long time since the three of us were able to hang out together. You should sleep over again too. Mom’s always cleaning the guest room so it’s always ready for you in case you drop by.”

In spite of such harsh and troubling times, Tasuku is able to smile warmly, thinking about how Gao and his friends and family are always going out of their way to make sure he has a place with them.

“Thank you. I’ll visit sometime soon.”

“Alright!” Gao pumps his fist, but seems to realize something, and turns back to Tasuku quizzically. “Why are you here in Aibo anyway? Is it another undercover mission?”

“No… Not this time. Gao-kun, do you know of a student named Ozora Kanata? He’s in your year.”

“Kanata? Yeah, he’s in the class next to mine. Why?”

“I see. Can you tell me more about him?”

“Huh? Sure. You see, he’s…”

 As they walk together throughout Aibo, Gao tells Tasuku of his schoolmate. Once lauded as the “no-damage fighter,” Kanata was one of the strongest fighters on the scene, his partnership with his Buddy Monster and incredible synergy with the Prism Dragon build making him top class.

“He probably started after even me, since it was after Star Dragon World began appearing. Maybe you remember giving him his core deck case?”

“I do, actually. I remember the faces of everyone I’ve ever given a deck case. I don’t really keep track of them afterwards, though. You’re probably the only one.”

“Ehhh! Lucky me!”

They both share a chuckle before Gao continues on.

“I’ve never actually fought him, so this is what I got from word-of-mouth… But apparently, he won a lot of tournaments. And get this--he was able to win entire fights without taking a point of damage. Never lost a fight once! So he was super strong!”

“‘Was’…?”

“Ah, yeah, about that…” Gao frowns. “I heard that he lost interest in Buddyfighting because he could beat everyone so easily. There was also…”

Tasuku nods, waiting for Gao to continue, and Gao’s face falls a little. “I heard that people also began hating him. Because of the way he plays. Stuff like, he’s looking down on his opponent, hiding behind his Buddy, and not even bothering to launch a direct attack… But, I think it’s because people were bitter towards him. Since he had just started, but became a pro in no time.”

“A hated genius…”

“Yeah, yeah! Exactly like that! People didn’t want to fight him, and Kanata didn’t want to fight other people because of that, so I guess he just kinda stopped?”

“I see. What does he do now?”

“Kanata? Uhh… I think he’s part of Aibo’s soccer team. He’s been into soccer since before he got into Buddyfight. Come to think of it, they always have practice after school, so they should still be on the school grounds! I can show you there if you want!”

“I would really appreciate that. Thank you.”

Tasuku explains his own situation to Gao on the way to the field, and Gao agrees to help him. They watch a soccer team in progress, and one player clearly stands out above the rest. With dual-toned minty blue and white hair and deep blue eyes, Kanata zips between the opposing team and launches the ball into the goal with expertise. Gao’s eyes light up in admiration, and Tasuku observes silently as Kanata’s teammates high-five him for the goal while the opposing team huddles to regroup. This goes on for the next little while before the club president finally dismisses the team, and the members disperse.

“Ah! There he goes! He’s gonna wash up on his own. Let’s go talk to him--”

Gao’s phone suddenly goes off, and Tasuku yelps and jumps at the abrupt loudness of his ringtone. Gao is snickering as he answers, but the humour fades from his face when he hears who’s on the other end. Tasuku can swear he can hear Suzumi Mikado yelling at him.

Gao claps his hands together apologetically as he looks to Tasuku. “Sorry, Tasuku-senpai! I totally forgot that I had practice today… If I don’t get home in five minutes, Mom’s gonna kick my butt.”

Tasuku smiles both reassuringly and sympathetically. Even with a Buddy Skill, the Mikado dojo is more than five minutes away. Gao’s in for a rough time. “Don’t worry about it. I can talk to Kanata-kun on my own. You should go. Say hi to Suzumi-san for me, okay?”

“Will do! Seeya! Let’s meet up again soon!”

Tasuku waves and turns to where he had seen Kanata walking off and starts in that direction too.

The path leads him behind Aibo Academy, where Kanata is hunched over the outdoor tap and running his head under the cool water. Tasuku waits until he’s done…

And waits…

And waits…

But Kanata isn’t moving.

Concerned, Tasuku calls out to him.

“Ozora Kanata?”

Kanata finally slowly raises his head from the tap, staring at Tasuku with sleepy-looking half-lidded eyes. His bangs cling to his face and his soaking hair drips water onto the grass.

“Ah… Sorry. I must’ve fallen asleep.”

Tasuku cocks an eyebrow. “...While there was cold water running over your head?”

“It happens sometimes.”

The little Prism Dragon that had been standing beside Kanata, whom Tasuku assumes to be Athora’s mini form, pipes up:

“You’re so silly, Kanata! Did all of that cold water feel good?”

“It did, it did. It felt so good that I fell asleep.”

They both share a light chuckle, and Tasuku feels slightly concerned.

Tasuku definitely remembers giving a core to this boy. Back then, Kanata’s eyes had been bright with wonder and enthusiastic to discover the friend in his Buddy, Athora. Tasuku had seen a bit of himself in Kanata that day.

But when Kanata finally turns to Tasuku again, Tasuku sees that his eyes have lost their light. The passion that soccer seemed to have ignited within Kanata has fizzled out now that the game is over, and all that is left in his sleepy-looking eyes is emptiness.

“So… You’re… Uh…” Kanata’s brow creases over as he thinks. “That guy who appears on T.V. a lot… Umm… Gaen Kyoya?”

Tasuku feels like he has been punched in the gut, and it takes him a few moments to recover. That is not a name he had been expecting to hear any time soon, nor is that person anyone Tasuku ever wanted to be confused with. “Ryuenji Tasuku. I’m with the Buddy Police.”

“Kanata,” Athora says, with endless patience. Tasuku swears he can hear a twinge of fondness in his voice. Or is it amusement? At Tasuku’s expense? “He was the one who gave you your core deck case, remember? When we first met.”

“Ohh. Yeah, that guy. Ah, it’s you, the one who gave me my core deck case.” Kanata seems enthralled, but his face falls a little. “But if you’re here...does that mean you’re gonna arrest me?”

“Eh?”

“Absolutely not!” Athora leaps in front of Kanata, seemingly appalled at the notion. “Kanata has done absolutely nothing wrong his entire life! If I must fight you to prove Kanata’s innocence, I will!”

“I’m not here to arrest him,” Tasuku quickly intervenes before the situation spirals downwards. “I actually wanted to ask a favor of you, Kanata-kun.”

Both boy and dragon’s interest appear piqued by the request. “A favor…?”

“That’s right. The World Buddyfight Tournament… I want to ask you to participate in my place, as Star Dragon World’s representative.”

As soon as he hears the word “Buddyfight,” Kanata’s demeanor completely changes. He looks away with a grimace and seems to shrink back. Curiosity becomes apprehension, and the rest of Kanata’s emotions seem to become shrouded in a veil.

“Buddyfight, huh… I don’t really play Buddyfight, though. You see, I’m kind of not that good at it…”

“Huh?” That doesn’t line up with what he has heard from Gao. “You won many tournaments back in the day, didn’t you?”

Kanata shrugs lackadaisically. “That was then… I probably just got lucky. I’m focusing on soccer now, so… Sorry. I don’t really have the time.”

Tasuku feels as if that isn’t the full story, and notices that Athora has fallen strangely silent, but before he can speak up again, Kanata suddenly straightens up.

“Ah! I totally have to get going now. It’s real late. Bye, Tasuku-san.”

And before he can stop him, Kanata runs off, leaving Tasuku to ponder his vague excuse. 

That night, Tasuku lays on his futon with Jack’s mini form curled on his chest, but finds that he can’t sleep.

“...Jack, are you still awake?”

“...I am. You’re thinking about Ozora Kanata, aren’t you?”

“Yeah. I can’t help but wonder whether he was telling the truth. According to Gao-kun, he was really strong, and the records can’t be lying, but… I don’t know. He seemed like he really didn’t want to Buddyfight. If that’s the case, then I don’t want to force him into it...but…”

“But you think something felt off about what he said, correct? I felt that way too.”

“Really?”

“I did.” Jack opens his amber eyes a crack, and looks at Tasuku. “I think he lied because he was afraid.”

Tasuku reflects on what Gao told him earlier. “Because he lost interest… Or because people began hating him.”

A hated genius…

“It’s possible. We don’t know the extent of what happened, but it’s clear that the experiences have clipped his wings. He prefers to stay grounded where it’s safe.”

“But he has so much potential!” Tasuku sits up abruptly, and Jack tumbles onto his lap. “I could see it in his eyes, his bond with his Buddy! It’d be a shame for all of that to go to waste, wouldn’t it?”

A little disgruntled, Jack shakes himself off and stretches his wings out before looking up at Tasuku again. “If you think it’s wrong, then it’s up to you to show him, Tasuku. You’re the one who chose him.”

Despite Jack’s words, Tasuku feels uncertain. His previous enthusiasm vanishes like wisp of smoke as he thinks of all of the ways this could go wrong. “I don’t know… I can’t connect to people as well as Gao-kun can.”

“Have faith in yourself, Tasuku.” Jack places a tiny claw over one of Tasuku’s hands. “You don’t necessarily need the same strengths as someone else to achieve the same result. You have your own unique way with people. There will be something that you can do. No… You’re probably the only one who can do it. Who can help Ozora Kanata fly again.”

They settle down after that, but even after Jack has drifted off, Tasuku spends a long time staring at the dark ceiling, chewing on Jack’s words.

 Tasuku appears at Aibo again the next day, and again waits for Kanata to finish with practice. He approaches him again, and meets the same response. That he’s busy with soccer, that he’s focusing on academics, that he doesn’t play Buddyfight anymore. No matter how hard Tasuku tries to get through to Kanata, his attempts are rebounded off the impenetrable walls that Kanata has erected around himself.

“I did a bit of asking around. Other people in your class say that when you’re called on, you answer the questions wrong on purpose, yet you still get really good grades. The others call you a ‘doofus’ or an ‘airhead,’ but you’re really not one at all, are you?”

“Tasuku-san," the 6th grader pauses and slowly turns to Tasuku, addressing him with so calm and lighthearted a voice as if he were simply talking about the weather, "I’ve been wondering this for a while, but are you actually a stalker?”

Tasuku blanches, a little taken aback by the sudden question. “Does...does it feel like I’ve been stalking you? That wasn’t my intention at all…”

Kanata smiles sleepily. “Even though you’re really cool on T.V., you’re actually pretty bad at personal relations, huh…”

Right back at you, buddy!

“I just want to understand,” Tasuku is sure to choose his words carefully, just in case Kanata somehow manages to turn them against him again, “why you put up an act like this.”

“It’s not an act, though… Sometimes I can’t even remember what 2 + 2 is, and I really do put my shoes on backwards everyday.”

That was oddly specific. “Are you happy with people thinking that way about you?”

“Mmhm. It’s the truth, after all.”

“Is Athora happy?”

Kanata visibly falters at the question and doesn’t answer. Tasuku continues speaking.

“He cares about you a lot, I can see that. But...he’s still a Buddy monster who formed a contract with you. You won’t even consider picking Buddyfight up again for his sake?”

Kanata bites his lip and looks down. Athora places a paw on his shoe as if to reassure him.

“I’m fine with the way things are, Kanata…”

But all three of them know that isn’t entirely the case. Tasuku can hear it in Athora’s voice, and he knows Kanata can too. Judging from the way he reacted to Tasuku’s sudden question, Kanata had been thinking about it for some time, perhaps even before he met Tasuku.

“Kanata-kun,” Tasuku is sure to face Kanata to make his intentions clear, “will you have a Buddyfight with me?”

There’s no answer, so Tasuku continues.

“This is the very last thing I’m going to ask of you, and then I’ll leave you alone. You were right, you know--I’m not that good at personal relations. But I can understand someone through a fight. And I want to understand you, Kanata-kun.

“Regardless of whether you win or lose, I won’t force you to accept my request either. So you don’t have to put anything on the line in our match. We can just have a fun fight without worrying about anything. Does that sound fair?”

Kanata finally looks up. “...Just one fight?”

“Just one.”

“...Okay.”

Athora is visibly delighted, and Tasuku has to dampen his own feeling of triumph so that it does not show in an obnoxious display of cheers. But Kanata isn’t finished speaking yet.

“I have one more condition, though, Tasuku-san. I don’t want anyone to see our fight.”

“Hm… That’s fine with me. I can’t promise anything, though... Paruko-san always has a way of finding out…”

“Did you say something?”

“No, nothing. I know just the place.”

 The fight begins with a slow start. Tasuku strikes hard and fast, but his attacks are deflected each time. However, Kanata makes no move to launch a solid attack, opting to chip away at Tasuku’s life little by little. Tasuku only knows the Prism Dragons as a defensive build, but Kanata’s plays are beyond even that.

It’s almost as if Kanata’s too afraid to attack.

So Tasuku attempts to goad him into it.

“What’s wrong? You’re not planning on spending the entire fight hiding behind your Buddy, are you?” he says, and the expression he wears exudes confidence. Kanata only smiles harshly in turn.

“I did tell you I wasn’t good at Buddyfighting… I’m not sure what you were expecting from me, Tasuku-san.”

“You won’t win against me and Jack that way. This match will be over soon if you don’t get serious.”

Kanata clicks his tongue at his hubris, and Athora shakes his head.

“Don’t listen to him, Kanata. He’s just full of hot air; he has yet to deal a single point of damage on us. Stay calm.”

Kanata takes a deep breath and focuses on Tasuku, and finds himself admiring how free Tasuku’s eyes look.

 Tasuku manages to break through Kanata’s absolute defense, destroy Athora, and inflict his first point of damage on Kanata.

That’s when Kanata finally gets serious. Tasuku sees the way Kanata begins truly coordinating his plays, almost out of desperation, and sees that his own suspicions were on the mark.

A small smile on his face, Tasuku raises Radiant Star, Linkage, and attacks.

 It’s a close match, but Tasuku emerges victorious. With a vicious combo of Linkage and Soul Generator, with Radiant Alma and J Galaxion in Jack’s soul, Tasuku unleashes a brutal 4-hit attack with Galactical Punisher that tears down Kanata’s defense for good.

Kanata takes the loss into stride, smiling sardonically.

“You beat me.”

But in spite of the lackadaisical posture and averted gaze, Tasuku isn’t fooled. There is a spark in eyes that were previously dull and uninterested. He smiles and approaches Kanata.

“You almost had me there. I had to go all out on you from the very beginning, but you only began fighting me seriously halfway through. Can you imagine how that could’ve turned out if you gave it your all from the beginning?”

“You’re giving me too much credit, Tasuku-san. I’m not actually that good.”

“If you keep saying that, you’ll disrespect yourself, and Athora.”

Kanata falls silent at that and looks up at Tasuku again, and Tasuku takes that as a cue to continue speaking.

“Please give it some thought. I think you felt it in that fight too, didn’t you? You want to see how far you can go.

“Isn’t it about time that you spread your wings again? Ozora Kanata.”

Kanata is still silent, and Athora hovers in between them.

“Please give Kanata some time to think. We’ll have your answer by tomorrow.”

Tasuku smiles and nods. “Alright. Understood. Thank you for the fight, Kanata-kun.”

As Tasuku walks away, Athora turns to look at Kanata again.

“He was actually quite nice after all, wasn’t he, Kanata? ...Kanata?”

Kanata stares after Tasuku’s retreating figure and slowly raises a hand to his chest, where his heart is still pounding, and his blood still tingling with adrenaline.

There are only two thoughts on his mind at that moment.

I want to feel that rush again.

And…

I want to beat Tasuku-san.

The next day, boy and dragon arrive at the Buddy Police with their answer, and Tasuku smiles.

[enaasteria]

Answered Asks // 3

Under the cut~~~

Anonymous said to enaasteria: August 28th 2017, 12:18:00 pm · a month ago Hey! Will you be finishing apartment 5108 anytime soon? I've read it like 4 times and still cry everytime. Looking forward to the other chapters!!

Chapter 16 going up in a few mins. There are about 2 chapters left and it’ll be done. Thank you for reading!

Anonymous said to enaasteria: August 29th 2017, 12:22:00 am · a month ago I just finished reading all available 16 chapter of Apartment and wow- I cried several times. This is probably one of the best fanfictions I've ever come across on this sight, and I'm very thankful that you've decided to share. Ahri's development as a person has been mind blowing, and I'm looking forward to seeing how Sehun grows as well. Are you planning on making this several more chapters?

Thank you so much! I’m so glad you like their character development and it’s something I truly love in stories. I love it when characters change and grow. It just makes them feel a bit more dimensional and real. About 2 more chaps after 16. It’ll end at 17 with an epilogue of sorts at 18.

Anonymous said to enaasteria: August 29th 2017, 12:23:00 am · a month ago ALSO Ahri finally choosing to give him another chance and deviating away from her parents? It was an absolute tear fest. Although did Sehun ever know that she was hospitalized because of her allergy?

I know right!!! Honestly, it’s one of my finer writing moments. I love little things that relate to each other hahaha. And yes---Soi prob told him or yelled at him is more like it.

@sehunsmile​ said to enaasteria: August 29th 2017, 12:55:00 am · a month ago I just started re reading Apartment 5108 for the third time, i never get tired of your story!!!

Thank you babe! Thank you for your support and encouragement!!

Anonymous said to enaasteria: August 29th 2017, 8:54:00 am · a month ago i love apartment 5108!! i honestly love long fics and yours is like SUPER LONG PLUS it's quality content so that makes me very happy :))) thank you for working so hard on it! i can't wait for the next update <33

Thank you so much for reading and yessss this fic is so long. I tried to shorten it but it just didn’t work. I know you love long fics but writing them is true suffering at its best.

Anonymous said to enaasteria: August 29th 2017, 2:16:00 pm · a month ago You've become one of my favorite writers. A group of my friends and I from St Lucia have decide to meet up to read the last chapter of Apartment 5103 once it's posted. It's captivated us since the very beginning and we look forward to its completion and to be able to continue supporting your brilliant writing from a far 💞

Where were you when I visited?!?!!?! I’m so upset now T_____T Let me know how your meet goes bc the final chapter won’t be posted for some time. I hope you enjoy 16 in the mean time hahaha

Anonymous said to enaasteria: September 9th 2017, 2:55:00 am · a month ago Nothing you write can ever be a mess 💗 don't stress too much over the chapter, or even at all really! You do it for your enjoyment! 💗we care more about you than a chapter

You’re so kind to me. Thank you so much for your gentle words and I’m so glad you enjoy this story!

Anonymous said to enaasteria: September 10th 2017, 4:53:00 am · a month ago Hi!!! I super love your writing!!! Especially Keepers!! I hope you update soon!!! Thank you for sharing your talent!!! <3

Keepers is such a favorite! I can’t wait to go back to it and write the 2nd chapter!

Anonymous said to enaasteria: September 10th 2017, 5:05:00 am · a month ago DAMN GIRL YOU PULLING MY HEART STRINGS THATS WAS SO GOOD WTF OMG I LOVE YOUR SEHUN FANFIC

ThANK YOU SO MUCH??!?!?!?! I’m so glad you love it and please read 16 with low expectations. i’m kinda fkdsjfklsjflksdf about it. T___T

Anonymous said to enaasteria: September 13th 2017, 8:56:00 am · 23 days ago Hello ena! been stalking your tumblr every day since the last time you posted the latest chapter of Apartment 5108 which is chapter 15. Actually I got a lot of things to write but this is all came out from my mind now haha! You are currently my most favorite author 💞 your writing is so good, you inspire me to write better tho. For the past 3 years, I dont have enough courage to post any of my story but maybe soon? kkk. Oh last but not least I hope you can get out from writer block soon 😉

THANK YOU. I’m so glad you enjoy this fic and it’s so nice of you to say I’m your favorite author---LIKE WHAT IS LIFE. I don’t know how to handle these compliments but I’m so happy you love this story and please read 16 with low expectations. I’m kinda nervous about it and hope the flow is okay. T_____T

Anonymous said to enaasteria: September 19th 2017, 4:43:00 pm · 17 days ago I think I just finished the best Sehun fic ever, and is apartment 5108. You have no idea how beautiful and pleasing was for me to read such an amazing work. Thank you for share your talent, thank you for make me fall in love whit Ahri, Sehun and their story, thank you for touch my heart with your words and make me cry like a baby at 3 a.m wen I have to go to colege at 7 haha I found it last night and just finished the 15 part and I loved it SO MUCH! I hope your inspiration have no limit. Love u

OMG. WHAT A BLESSING TO READ THIS MESSAGE. I’m so happy you love this story. I can’t even begin to fathom my gratitude to those who read and enjoy my words. I’m also nervous when posting a chapter and I hope 16 doesn’t disappoint you. T___T

Anonymous said to enaasteria: September 22nd 2017, 5:32:00 am · 15 days ago Your fav fanfics??

I don’t read many fics but this is my fic rec blog! https://enaeolus.tumblr.com/

Anonymous said to enaasteria: September 25th 2017, 2:26:00 am · 12 days ago hi!! just wanted to ask where you’re at with apt 16? like how many words have u written(i’m sorry if i’m not supposed to ask i dont know if this is rude or not) but i love your apt series, it’s a blessing to mankind 💕💕💕💕

It is 18000+ words and I kind of want to die from writing it all. T___T

Anonymous said to enaasteria: October 6th 2017, 1:58:00 am · 16 hours ago hi, i just didn’t know how a fic would affect me so hard as much as apartment 5108 did ㅠㅠ tbh reading the 1st few chapters i thought it wasnt going to be really angsty but then i got to the later chaps and IM A WHOLE MESS!! i started this fic at around 2am and ended at 11am so you can tell i really had no sleep and i even ditched class!! thats how hooked i got into this fic. you made it so emotionally relatable and the imagery you projected was very vivid that i got lost in it! Cant wait for 16

AHDSFJJFSLDF THANK YOU. I know right. It was kind of a slow build up of angst which is what I love. It’s like you don’t feel the pain creeping up until it’s like..THERE LOL. AND NOOOOO WHY DID U SKIP CLASS T____T I’m so sorry this story made u miss class but I hope it was worth it??? HAHAHAH Thank you so much for reading and I hope you enjoy 16. 

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Why oh why do you think the show left out from the books the part where Ross returns home from rescuing Dwight and is thinking that he wants no other woman but Demelza?

Well, in fairness, in the book it’s all in his thoughts:

On this happy thought Ross came through Grambler village, past the last shack, where Jud and Prudie Paynter lived, and had just forded the Mellingey when he beheld a small boy racing towards him from the direction of the old Wheal Maiden mine. For a moment he did not recognize his four-year-old son until he saw a woman also running, coming out of the wind-battered fir trees, and also coming towards him. He jumped off his horse and Jeremy leapt breathlessly into his arms, squealing his ravished delight. Then Demelza, smiling her most radiant smile; and he knew he was home. They laughed and talked and chattered up the hill to where the new meeting house had now got the timbers of its roof on, and down the valley to their home, where the library almost had its second storey complete, and they were met at the door by the Gimletts and the Cobbledicks and Betsy Maria Martin and Ena Daniell, and all were waiting to welcome him like a conquering hero. (Another reward for danger, he thought? There you went again. Life was contrast: light made brighter by the shade. But he was content, and would be content for a long time now if the light would but shine.)Jeremy, Demelza said, had been up by Wheal Maiden nearly all of yesterday, and she or Jane with him, so that nothing was done in the house all day, and at the end of it no father either. Ross apologized and explained the reasons. Over a late dinner he was hardly able to eat for talking, nor talk for eating; and Demelza, incessant in her questions, was also telling him that he had lost pounds in weight and looked as if he had been in a prison camp himself, and when could they go over and see Dwight and Caroline and when was the wedding to be? (God, thought Ross, it does work, and how unfairly; but I want her, not any other, not the most beautiful eighteen-year-old damsel born out of a sea-shell, not the most seductive houri of any sultan’s harem; I want her with her familiar gestures and her shining smile and her scarred knees, and I know she wants me in just that same way, and if there’s any happiness more complete than this I don’t know it and am not sure I even want it. So you’ve been away and risked your life, you damned fool, and this is your undeserved reward.) And did he see, Demelza was asking, knowing his looks and returning them but wanting to keep the conversation casual for at least another hour, did he see that they all had an invitation to Trenwith House for next week for Aunt Agatha’s hundredth birthday – all four of them, and would he make an exception and go?

I think we got more of this reaction earlier on, when Ross came back from Roscoff (after inexplicably being there for six months.....), but I think it does come through, in 3.06 and some of 3.07, his joy at being with her and being with their family. But it’s a very hard thing to translate Ross’s internal life onto the screen - his more than anyone else’s, I think, though Demelza’s internal life comes a very close second in terms of being hard to translate. Sometimes they’ve done it by having him vocalise his thoughts (which is not always to his benefit), but sometimes it’s been kept very internal, very much shown through Ross’s expression, if at all.

I didn’t really think we would get anything of the above passage in words, and it is a particularly hard bit to convey through actions and facial expressions. But I do think we’ve seen quite a lot of Ross’s pleasure at simply being with Demelza, and their family, this series. He’s spending more time with the kids than he ever has before, at least! And he’s clearly not interested any other woman. There’s nobody else that he wants. He’s content (or thinks himself content) being at home with his family, with his beloved wife - it’s part of what’s causing problems between he and Demelza in 3.07, I think. He’s content with just her, but she, though content with him, also likes to be about in society and certainly likes seeing him recognised for the good man that he is. But that’s another question entirely, really :D