#at least now i know which specific time period to avoid!!!!!

[lionb00bfan]

Hi! Can I ask for a Shishigumi x s/o with their period/cramps that make them cry or exhausted because of hormones (my state right Now) and the lions take care of them. If you're not comfortable doing it no problem! Btw love your work, I come back regularly to reread some. Have a nice day!

Taking care of an S/O with painful periods 

Real asf, I literally almost got sent to the hospital twice cuz it hurt so bad (prob need to get it checked) 

Hope you feel better diva!!

Ibuki

He’s taking you to the doctor. Immediately. He may not be an expert on periods, but seeing you in this much pain is too drastic to ignore. If you refuse, expect him to at least have a serious talk about seeking medical help. “This isn’t something you should suffer through alone.”

He’s extremely patient with mood swings. If you snap at him, he won’t take it personally—just quietly waits until you feel better.

If you can’t sleep from the pain, he’ll sit next to you, letting you rest your head against his chest. The steady rhythm of his breathing is comforting.

If you’re feeling lightheaded, he’ll physically carry you—no arguments, no negotiations. You’re getting off your feet.

If you crave a specific food, he’ll make it happen, no matter how inconvenient.

Free

"It can’t be that bad." He says that—until he finds you crying, exhausted, bleeding out, maybe even throwing up from the pain. Oh. He instantly feels awful and apologizes a lot, muttering “I didn’t know, I swear—let me help” while scrambling to clean you up. 

He’s not great at emotional comfort, so he awkwardly pats your head or throws a blanket over you like, “There. Better?”

Once he realizes how serious it is, he won’t leave your side—but he plays it off like he’s just hanging out

You’re not lifting a damn finger. If you try to get up for anything, he’s already getting it for you.

If you need meds/snacks, he’ll run to the store, grab what you need, and overbuy everything just in case.

Dolph

He’s the type to research everything after seeing you in pain. He’ll deep-dive into medical websites and even ask female colleagues for advice.

The next time your cycle comes around, he’s prepared. Knows what painkillers to get, what foods help, and what to avoid (he learned the hard way not to give you coffee).

He’ll track your cycle so he can anticipate when you might need extra care.

If you wake up in pain, he instinctively wakes up too. He’ll sit up, rub your back, and wait until you settle down before going back to sleep.

Will rearrange his entire schedule if needed to take care of you. If he had a meeting? Rescheduled. A job? He made Agata go. He acts like it’s no big deal, but it’s obvious he’s making sure you’re a priority when you’re in pain

Agata

He’s holding you immediately after grabbing all the essentials—painkillers, heating pad, snacks, water. Hates seeing you cry. Tries his best to rub your back and tummy, whispering reassurances even if he knows it doesn’t help much.

Embarrassed to ask the cashiers or lady friends for help, so he asks Dolph and Sabu instead.

If you need him to hold you, he doesn’t hesitate—even if his arms go numb from staying in the same position

"I hate seeing you like this." His voice is soft. He genuinely wishes he could take the pain for you.

Puts on soft music or plays with your hair while you rest. He’s normally a little shy about being affectionate, but when you’re feeling awful, he’s fully dedicated to making you as comfortable as possible

Miguel

Makes teas specifically to ease the pain—ginger, chamomile, red raspberry leaf. Starts preparing them before your cycle, testing which ones work best for you. 

If you’re too weak to get up, he’ll carefully carry you to bed

If you can’t eat because of nausea, he’ll find or make the mildest food possible to make sure you get something in your stomach

He’s calm and patient, never rushing you or acting inconvenienced.

Those strong arms on him are used to massage your tummy, he’ll find a video and replicate it on you. 

Sabu

You’ll casually find a blanket draped over you, a hot water bottle on standby, and a fresh glass of water within arm’s reach—none of which you saw him prepare.

Knows gua sha/skin coining therapy and will do it after the worst of the pain is gone to help you relax.

Plays it cool, but you’ll catch him watching over you from the corner of his eye.

Will make sure you eat, even if it means just handing you a piece of bread with a firm look.

If you need meds in the middle of the night, he’ll go out and get them, no hesitation

Jinma

Has zero shame buying whatever you need—pads, pain meds, snacks. "I need the extra-long overnight kind? The hell’s that mean?" He’s asking the cashier. He doesn’t care.

Carries all your supplies like a damn soldier. If you’re out of painkillers or pads while you’re out together, he’ll pull them out of his jacket like he was prepared for war. 

Searches the Black Market for hard-to-find remedies. Talks to every female contact he knows for advice, determined to be useful.

Tries to make stupid jokes to make you smile

Will physically carry you to bed if you collapse from exhaustion

Dope

He’s the kind of guy who will physically fight your cramps if he could. Since he can’t, he settles for distracting you. 

Talks to you about everything—the gang’s latest antics, funny stories, anything to keep your mind off the pain. If you fall asleep on him mid-conversation, he’ll very gently adjust you so you’re comfortable.

If you wince in pain, he gets visibly pissed off at your uterus

Insists on being your human pillow. If lying on his lap or chest makes you even slightly more comfortable, you better believe he’s not moving for hours.

Brings you dumb gifts just to see you smile—things like a plushie, a hot pack with a goofy design, or a stress toy that looks like a tiny punching bag. 

Hino

Has zero clue what to do but is freaking out internally. The best thing he does? Stays close without making a big fuss. 

Doesn’t know what to do, so he follows Miguel and Agata’s lead.

He won’t crowd you, but if you need him. Has a surprising amount of blankets and pillows (no one knows why).

Owns a heating pad—one of the few guys who does.

Refuses to leave your side. He’s not sure how to help, but if being there makes it even a little better, he’ll stay

[querelle-de-brest]

this book is fucking boring and i can't wait to be done (500 pages left i can get it done in a week tops) ive never despised a book more in my life. mr alexandre dumas PLEASE understand that nobody gives a fuck and go back to writing about homosexual cunts and drug-induced orgies. PLEASE i am begging you.

[phagodyke]

ughhhh

[ambrosiagourmet]

I want to talk about why I think this is the one of the most important Falin panels:

So, Falin is really nice, right? It's one of the first things we really learn about her. She's kind even to the monsters of the dungeon - choosing to ward the party rather than fight spirits and cause them needless harm.

In the above early flashback in chapter 11, we see Marcille fawning over Falin's kindness, calling her an angel. Namari calls her soft-hearted. We see Falin choose not to fight even when a zombie attacks - instead she resolves the confrontation with a hug. After the flashback, the first thing Senshi says is that Falin "sounds like quite the person," which Marcille strongly affirms.

At this point in the story, all we have seen of Falin are these impressions; she is a healer, an angel, a caretaker with an infinite well of kindness towards everyone she meets - both friend and foe.

And honestly, that remains most of what we have to go by to understand her. The only times we get to see Falin on the page, alive and just herself, are in the opening and closing pages of the story and in the brief period of time after she is resurrected.

Nonetheless, we do have some more details to work with. For one, there is the scene that The Panel is from - a short memory in chapter 75, when Marcille flashes back to while she's dying. In that scene, Falin prepares to teleport them all out, and says that she's sorry "if there is a person at [their] destination." And that's when we get The Panel.

If you teleport someone or something into another person, the person teleported into is likely to be, at minimum, severely injured. They could die.

We can see a lovely little horrifying example of exactly why in one of the Daydream Hour doodles:

So, hmm. That's not... that's not SUPER nice. Certainly not displaying the same "kindness to all, friend and foe included" we saw represented earlier. On a basic level, this adds some nuance to Falin's kindness. We see it break a little, when pushed to the limit. We see her chose to protect the people she loves above all else.

Which makes sense! As Laios says when the Winged Lion accuses him of similarly being motivated more by his friends' safety than everyone else in the dungeon, "...most people, aside from virtuous do-gooders, would feel the same way."

So, we can take The Panel as simply showing a moment of weakness for Falin. A time when she was pushed to her limits, and that "most people" selfish side of her shone through.

However... I think there's a little more going on with Falin than just her being an angel 99% of the time, except just that once. I love The Panel because I think it helps us understand that Falin isn't just motivated by kindness - she also has a desire to avoid seeing people in pain.

Isn't that the same thing?

No, no it very much is not.

Let's look at a short comic from the Falin section of the Adventurer's Bible, because I think it illustrates this point perfectly. The group is complaining about how much Marcille's healing hurts, and comparing it to Falin's, which "doesn't hurt a bit." Marcille retorts with the following:

Now, the punchline of this comic is that, despite Marcille's sentimental assertion that she's "thinking of [them]" by letting her healing magic hurt, they all still prefer to be healed by Falin.

But hey, this wouldn't be the first time that Dungeon Meshi hides a very real character beat or insight in a gag, so let's think about this somewhat seriously.

If Marcille is right (and she knows a fair bit about magic, so we can assume that she has at least somewhat of a point), then what Falin is doing isn't kind. I suppose if someone specifically requested to not feel the pain, it could be kind, but that's not really what happened here. She is the one who felt badly about the others being in pain, and she is the one who decided, without telling them or giving them a choice in the matter, to take away that pain.

Both Marcille and Falin are healing the party, but Marcille is doing it in a way that accomplishes the task in the most straight forward way, without any additional interference. Falin is going out of her way to perform the healing in a way she is more comfortable with. A way that avoids pain.

Going back the The Panel, I don't think its a coincidence that the only time we see Falin (well, non-chimera Falin) willing to do something that could hurt someone is when any potential pain will be far away from her. If she got someone hurt or killed by teleporting the party to the surface? Not only would it be far out of her sight, but she'd be dead before she had to deal with any consequences of that action.

Falin is not a confrontational person. She doesn't push when Marcille won't tell her the truth about the resurrection, and she comforts Laios about her own death - both of those things happening in the only full chapter she is alive and conscious in the whole story.

We also know that she considered accepting Shuro's proposal, despite not having any special feelings towards him, and that Falin never explained to Marcille that she wanted them to share a meal together. When she brought Marcille various foods at the academy, she just accepted Marcille's confused rejection and gave up.

And lastly, we know that she is still in contact with her parents, despite the neglect and abuse she suffered at their hands. Although the way someone chooses to handle contact with abusive or bad family is a complicated topic, which I don't want to overly simplify, I do I think this fact gets at the heart of how she handles conflict.

So many people that Falin loves have hurt her. There are understandable hurts, like Laios leaving the village, or Marcille not understanding the food. And there are bigger, far less justifiable hurts - like her parents neglecting her throughout her childhood, and sending her away to be alone at the magic academy.

It doesn't seem like Falin has ever confronted any of it directly.

And the unhealthy aspects of this kind of avoidance of pain and confrontation is one of the things that the story of Dungeon Meshi is all about. We see Laios grapple with it before he goes to kill Falin, and we see Marcille acknowledge it at the end of the story, when she tells Laios that she has come to terms with Falin's death:

Eating is a part of life. Consuming other living things is a part of life. It isn't really possible to avoid that pain - you can only hide from the truth of it. You have to be selfish everyday. You have to eat - to choose to live. To choose to take up space.

And this is something Falin embraces, too. She comes back to life, after all.

We see her choose to come back to life.

And how does she make that choice? She eats. She consumes, and then she is asked a question by the manifestation of hunger itself:

Do you want to eat more?

There is a double meaning in the Winged Lion's final words on the next page.

When I first read this, I took it as him saying: life is cruel. You will suffer. You will feel more pain.

But perhaps, especially for Falin, this also means: you are choosing a path where you must cause pain. Where you must consume. Where you must take, and must be selfish. Because eating is the special privilege of the living, and it is their burden, too. In order to stay alive, she will need to keep eating.

And she chooses that. Chooses to be selfish. It's why her resurrection scene is so important, and it's why The Panel is so important. Because Falin coming back isn't the ultimate reward for all of the party's hard work.

It's her choice. Just like it was her choice that started everything in the first place. But this time, she doesn't choose to accept causing pain for the sake of Marcille and Laios. She does it for her own sake.

[melodic-haze]

h-hey 👯‍♀️😕😜🎀

Since you said in your other post that you wanted to write for either Miko or Ei, I HAD AN IDEA!!

What if Miko and fellow kitsune!Reader who start their breeding months (in january obviously) and have Ei volunteering herself to them not knowing that they can’t obviously be sated in just one day 🙄 (r.i.p her cunny)

☆ — DEMO TRACK: switch!Miko x sub!Ei x dom!Reader

☆ — TYPE: NSFW

☆ — CONTENT WARNINGS: Reader and Miko can shift what they want (specifically their genitals 😄), knotting and breeding (not really)

☆ — NOTES: You. YOUUUUUU. Are such a genius ily anon ty for this 🙏🙏🙏

Ohhhh this bitch REALLY fucked around and found out LOL I almost feel bad.......almost

Have to hand it to Ei though, she DID try to research before proposing the idea in the first place. Especially since this is set in the first year since she got out the PoE........but studying it obv won't be the same as the real thing LOL

You and Miko have fared relatively okay on your own—the two of you have ABSOLUTELY mated before to ease each other's heat but it always felt like something was missing. You both made sure to take procedures to make sure neither of you ever concieved a child after the process with the excuse of the two of you being way too busy to care for one but like. The actual main reason was that if you were to have a child, you both wanted to have the third piece of the puzzle there with you

Now that the third member of your polycule's back, your heats are STRONGER THAN EVER bc wtf she's acc here??? Ughfhghfhh neeeeeed......like do you get me I hope you do

It wasn't as if it was a normal discussion to have out in public (you both always talked about it indoors until neither of you needed to really talk ab it anymore from all the time spent w each other) but it was a nice picnic between the three of you; Ei's head was on Miko's thighs as she ate up yet ANOTHER skewer of tricolour dango while you were leaning on the latter's side when she brought it up

Ei cleared her throat with a slight tinge of nervousness, "Could I perhaps, ah.. assist the both of you in your mating period?"

You choked on the dango that you were about to swallow as you see Miko startle the slightest bit, nearly dropping her novel in the process.

When you managed to regain your composure (or at least a modicum of it), you could only rush out a simple "'scuse me?" as Miko placed her book down to the side with a raised brow.

Miko combed her fingers through Ei's hair as she questioned, "What brought this on, dear?"

"Well..." The Archon licked her lips as she slowly got her words out, "I've.. left you two for over five hundred years. And while I'm glad that you both had each other for company whenever the season hits, I cannot deny that.. well, I feel bad, I suppose."

"You feel bad," the shrine priestess mocked, which.. really, wasn't all that undeserved, despite the fact that she was mocking the nation's leader.

"For a lack of a better word, yes." She sits up and turns to the both of you, putting the now-empty skewer aside, "Now that I have returned from my admittedly self-imposed isolation, it would be remiss of me to.. avoid my duties as your lover."

"I don't mean to be rude, Your Excellency," you teased, "but do you even know what you're saying? You've been in the Plane of Euthymia for so long; I worry for your safety."

You hear the pink fox envoy let out a quiet snort of amusement for your slight condescension (all in good faith, of course) as Ei sighed, "I think you forget that I am not a fragile mortal who needs to be coddled—I can withstand brutal wars and come out victorious."

"Besides," she adds, "I have done a fair amount of research to refresh my knowledge. I assure you both that I can take whatever it is you give me."

Miko mused, "I thought you knew better than to rely on textbook information rather than actual experiment, Ei."

"You're trying much too hard to dissuade me from my offer."

"We both deserve to rib into you for at least a couple hundred years."

"Especially considering how we've been left to fend for ourselves..."

"I.. suppose I do deserve that. And I want to make amends for it all, starting with this. So.. will you let me help? Please?" She looked at the both of you with such sincerity despite the subject matter.

...

The fact that Raiden Ei herself was begging the two of you though...

The both of you jumped her sides with sharing grins, your ears flicking in sync as you let out your own laughs.

"You should hope that you don't regret that, Ei.."

"..Because we are rather.. insatiable."

Then comes the actual thing and ohhhhh girlie was NOT prepared

When I said your heats get worse bc of how Ei's back, I fucking MEAN IT. It's the fact that that familiar sweet smell isn't just a not-quite-forgotten memory for you two anymore that it's just driving you both abslutely NUTS

When she gets to you two she gets POUNCED ON and there is. Basically no break for her at all and foreplay is basically foreGONE atp tbh

Eat her cunt like a bitch STARVED it's like both you and Miko are competing and assisting each other at the same time like who can eat her out better, who can make her squirt, etc etc

SO MANY BITE MARKS ON HER HOLY SHIT like okay yes on you and Miko as well but both of you want to mark Ei EXTREMELY for all the time you've lost with her. The both of you wanna show both Ei and perhaps the entirety of Inazuma that archon is YOURS at the end of the day......at least, if the loud noises didn't give them enough of a hint 🤷‍♀️

You're so right anon rip Ei's cunny indeed bc both you and Miko ABUSE the living HELL out of it❗️❗️❗️ You do often have to personally pry Miko off when she's overstaying in the spot you're supposed to share 🫶🫶🫶🫶 just tell her she's being a VERY bad girl rn and she'll fold. Usually she wouldn't but the haze (lol) in her mind is sooo fucking thick she can't think straight and she can't think of the witty remarks she would've otherwise made :((( poor baby the only thing she wants to do is breed and get bred :(((((((

I need to spitroast her with Miko so very badly I'm ngl to you I neeeed I NEEEEED I need to see Ei being impaled on both ends, both sides basically slobbering

It'd be very messy and would 100% take so long before you finish but when you do, it's with your fellow kitsune's own pussy practically filled to the brim and Leaking as she's laid out and finally passed out as your hips are locked in on your Archon's own; you cumming inside of you for like the nth time and stuffing her full w a mix of both your and Miko's cum and essentially plugging it with an inflamed bulb :3

Whether Ei has a system that allows her to get pregnant or not, gen who knows.......but one thing's def for sure. Or like three things acc: one, you two are VERY clearly excited that your shared lover is finally back; two, turns out she absolutely LOVES being used and bred by her two partners; and three?

It was an unusually hard thing to do, waking up. Despite having an artifical body and being an archon that has faced true horrors and extreme exhaustion, she found herself absolutely spent from the marathon.. copulation.

Ei had hoped that her exhaustion meant that the two of you were much more tired than she was, even despite your inhumanity, and yet...

Her eyes couldn't help but flutter open as a sudden gasp left her lips—she sees you push into her roughly with a lust-addled look on your face. You were already inside her when she fell asleep, considering the animalistic knot that held the both of you together, but even when it had shrunk to a more.. manageable level, you still hadn't taken it out.

Then Ei looks slightly to the right and there she sees her pink-haired familiar, heavily breathing as she grinded her wet, hot pussy onto her thighs with such loud, obscene moans.

(If the Archon listened close enough, which she did, she would've noticed the slight growl to the sounds she made—such a sound was at its most clearest when she ducked down to press another bite mark on porcelain skin.)

She couldn't even utter a word to remark that she had just woken up, didn't even have the room to do anything to stop you before you started pounding away at her like your life depended on it.

..And she could. Really, she could. She wasn't the feared Raiden Shogun for nothing.

She could stop you if she wanted to.

If she wanted to.

But when she feels the residual fluids within her gush out as you essentially resculpt her insides over and over and over, when she feels the desperate whines that Miko lets out as she cums and covers her thigh in slick, well.

She finds that she doesn't really want to.

(And really, not only was it her fault for volunteering, but this is her responsibility as your lover.)

(She knew that, and she wasn't going to start shirking her responsibilities again.)

(Even if it costs her her mobility for a while. But it's fine, she can just do a lot of maintenance after.)

[mindfulstudyquest]

❥﹒♡﹒☕﹒ 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲-𝗺𝗮𝗻𝗮𝗴𝗲𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗴𝗶𝗲𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗺𝗮𝘆 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄

𝟭. set SMART goals ( 📒 )

make sure your goals are specific, measurable, actionable, realistic and time-bound. this will help you maintain focus and track your progress over time. how many times has it been you and your unrealistic to-do list against the world? well, it seems that a mile-long to-do list is not a good ally at all. remember that you are a person and not a machine, and that just dedicating four hours to deep work and concentration is A LOT. be kind to yourself and don't overload yourself with more work than you can humanly do.

𝟮. daily planning ( 🧸 )

mea culpa because i'm the first one who doesn't plan their day. to-do lists generally stress me out and make me feel overwhelmed as if i don't manage to complete all the tasks an asteroid will end up hitting the earth. but i recognize that it is a good starting point. sometimes i have too many things to do and i end up doing nothing in total confusion, but having at least a general list to follow gives me more motivation. moreover do we want to talk about the dopamine released when you tick an empty box? marvelous. maybe don't write down tasks that are too onerous and demanding, break them into several smaller tasks, also try to write simple activities such as "drink a glass of water" every now and then. having these low-commitment activities will help you stay motivated while completing more important tasks.

𝟯. reverse-engineering method ( 🪴 )

start with the end goal and work backwards to plan the actions needed to achieve it. this helps you maintain clarity on the steps to take and focus on the most relevant actions. the best thing to do is plan based on the time available and do your best to stick to your daily goal.

𝟰. timer roulette ( ⏳ )

choose a task from your to-do list and set a random timer between 15 and 45 minutes. work on that task with all your concentration until the timer goes off. this helps you fight procastination and keep your mind fresh.

𝟱. mind mapping time ( 📍 )

before starting a study session, take a few minutes to create a mental map of the subject you need to cover. this helps you see connections between concepts and organize information more effectively.

𝟲. task batching ( 🫒 )

group similar tasks together and tackle them in batches. for example, reply to all emails in one session rather than doing so at scattered times throughout the day. this helps you reduce transition time between tasks and maintain focus. contrary to popular belief, human beings are not truly multitasking (only a few possess this great ability) and when we do multiple things together we do nothing but shift our attention from one task to another, greatly reducing the quality of our performance. if possible, try to avoid these switches that are harmful to your focus and concentration.

𝟳. the pomodoro method ( 🍅 )

okay, y'all probably already know this one because it became so popular in the last year but if you don't, the pomodoro method is a time management technique developed by francesco cirillo in the late 80s. it is based on the idea of working for short periods of time, usually 25 minutes, followed by a short 5 minute break. after four rounds of work, a longer break is taken, usually 15-30 minutes. this technique helps improve concentration and productivity, as it breaks down work into manageable tasks and offers regular breaks to rest and regenerate energy. i personally prefer the 50/10 ratio while i'm studying but you decide which time ratio is better for you, i find it really useful and it helps me a lot while i'm studying for my exams.

[organic-bloodbath]

Knife Princess – Part 7

Chishiya x Reader

Summary: You and Chishiya take the same subway on your way back home, and you make the journey more torturous for him than it had to be.

Warnings: idk mention to a smut scene? No actual smut tho, just Y/N teasing the life out of Chishiya.

A/N: I'm sorry but i had to write one more chapter torturing the crap out of Chishiya.

Chapters

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You had slept the night very poorly, the headache keeping you up, along with your thoughts and the weird flashes you had gotten last night. You still hadn't figured an explanation to them.

Right now you were sitting at a hospital's waiting area, about to have an appointment to check on your stitches and to possibly have them removed soon. The stitches on your shoulder had started to get a little infected as well. You weren't going to start doing any self-care at home, that was for sure. In the past almost every time you tried to do something at home on your wounds, just because you wanted to avoid a hospital visit at all cost, you only made it worse.

You looked at the clock on the wall, which seemed to be a minute or two late. There was still another 10 minutes before the appointment so you decided to go and find a bathroom.

You had no idea which way was the closest bathroom, so when you noticed one doctor standing in the hallway, back towards you, you gathered all your courage to approach them.

"Um, excuse me," you said carefully. "Could you tell me where-"

As the doctor turned around to face you and make eye contact, you instantly recognized him, making your heart stop for a second.

"Oh, you, um, you work here," you chuckled nervously.

"I do, yes," he confirmed, lifting his eyebrows. He was holding a folder in his hand. "Who's stalking who now?"

"This is a hospital," you stated and crossed your arms against your chest.

"Mhm, and you decided to choose exactly the one where i work." He smiled. "Well, what brought you here?"

"I was just going to ask where the bathroom was," you said, suddenly feeling awkward for not trying to search one on your own.

"Over there, go straight ahead and turn left," he explained, pointing the correct direction for you.

"Thanks," you said quietly and quickly walked past him towards the bathroom.

"Are you okay?" he asked before you managed to go too far. He wasn't meant to ask you that but the words slipped between his lips faster than he realised it. You looked over your shoulder, furrowing your brows.

"Um, yeah i'm okay." You gave him a little smile, then leaving him alone.

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The doctor could remove the stitches on your leg, but would leave the ones on your stomach for at least a few more days, as well as giving you a prescription for something that would treat the slight infection on your shoulder.

You visited the pharmacy to get the medicine, as well as more painkillers in case you started getting migraines again.

You grabbed a coffee from a cafe you had never been at before, sitting by a large window to enjoy your latte. You continued browsing for apartments on your phone, trying to find a decent one you could rent. You would have wanted to buy your own house so badly but you didn't have the money for that or a specific place you'd like to settle in for a longer period of time right now.

You had found a few options you liked and would like to go and check them out in person, but you weren't sure yet. You didn't know how much Niragi had put effort on searching for an apartment – it wouldn't come as a surprise if he planned to just kick Jae-sung's roommate out and stay living with him.

There was no way in hell you'd let him live under your roof though, you were going to find an apartment only for yourself, and Niragi just had to deal with his living situation on his own.

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A few hours later on your way back home, you were standing in a metro, holding the pole to keep you balanced since there was nowhere to sit - all seats taken by now.

Next stop, a large crowd stepped inside, only few people getting out. Then, a familiar face was coming towards you. Not that there was much space to go anywhere else anymore than near you.

"You're following me again," you stated.

"This is the train i always take back home from work," Chishiya pointed out. "I think it's you who's following me."

"I was here first though."

"You've clearly figured out my daily schedule and tried to be smart to hop in on an earlier station," Chishiya argued, a smug smile on his face as if he knew he was right and was satisfied with the fact too.

"I'm not that obsessed with you," you scoffed.

"That obsessed? So you're a little obsessed, hm?" Chishiya smirked.

"Don't think too much of yourself."

"I didn't hear a 'no'."

"I'm not obsessed," you insisted and rolled your eyes.

"Mhm," he hummed with a little hint of smile.

Even more passengers entered the train, even though it was already so full that you were standing only a few inches away from Chishiya, not able to move from your spot in any direction. People around you pushed you tighter against other, squeezing you against Chishiya as well. You accidentally stepped on his foot as your back was pressed against his chest. You had to lean against him harder because you didn't want to be glued to the man's sweaty back in front of you, just a few inches away.

You were about to lose your balance but Chishiya's hand found its way to rest on your hip. Not that you'd even be able to fall, you would only crash on the person right next to you and get an annoyed stare in return. You didn't realize his touch at first but when you did, your cheeks started warming up, and you were glad that you weren't facing Chishiya right now.

Chishiya was more aware of one thing than you were – the fact how hard your ass was pressing against his crotch. He smelled your shampoo and perfume very clearly as well. He had to take a deep breath in to calm himself down.

His hot breath was sending chills down your spine, and you had to swallow the lump in your throat. You had pulled your hair on a ponytail so he had a direct contact on your bare neck.

When the train stopped at the next station and people moved a little to get off and others get in, you shifted on your place a little, changing weight onto your another leg. You didn't get more space to move around though. Chishiya took another deep breath, your ass rubbing against his crotch very uncomfortably.

"Y/N," Chishiya mumbled into your ear. "Can you, can you please just stay still."

It wasn't a question. You glanced at him over your shoulder, furrowing your brows.

"Why?" you asked. His face was closer than you first thought, only an inch or two between the tip of your noses when you stretched your neck towards him. Chishiya's face was burning red and he was avoiding eye contact with you. You were still oblivious what was so wrong. "What is it?"

Chishiya cleared his throat. "If you can't take a step away, um, just, don't move, okay?"

You shifted on your spot again, now on purpose to see what he meant, hearing a low grunt in his throat. He was biting his lip and tried to step away but there was simply now room, since his back was pressed against another guy's back as well.

Your eyes widened when you realised what Chishiya meant. A giggle escaped your lips.

"This is not funny, i'm serious, Y/N," Chishiya stated.

"Oh, of course not," you said, trying to hold your laugh but weren't successful with that. You intentionally rubbed yourself against him one more time, pressing a little harder now.

Chishiya grabbed your shoulders in his hands, leaning his face to whisper into your ear. "Stop that."

"Or what?" you smirked, lowering your voice so nobody else would hear your words. "I'm causing a boner to you, hm?"

"Y/N," Chishiya gritted between his teeth. "I'm not playing around right now."

"Fine, fine." You just rolled your eyes.

Then, you turned around so that your bodies were facing each other.

"Better, hm?" you asked.

"You know that this is even worse," Chishiya disagreed, not amused at all in this situation. His face was red, and you had never seen him as serious as he was being now.

"Mhm?" you hummed. "Can't really do much about it before people start getting off the train."

The man behind you pushed you forward a little bit, making you squeeze against Chishiya with even more force. Chishiya could feel your breasts pressing against his chest through the thin fabric of your shirt. He tried his hardest not to think about your body being against his, but your strong perfume made his body even more aware of your presence.

You felt something against your thigh.

"Chishiya," you said slowly, trying to keep your face serious but you knew it started cracking fast. "Is that what i think it is?"

"Don't make fun of me, i can't help it," Chishiya stated with a look that could actually kill - you were going to be so dead when you'd get outside.

You put your hands on his shoulders, rubbing the back of his neck a little.

"Y/N," Chishiya whispered, looking directly into your eyes. "Stop it."

"Or what?" you bit your lip.

"We're literally surrounded by other people right now," he mumbled. "This is not the time and place for this."

"So, there will be a time and place later?" You raised your eyebrows with a grin.

If you continue this, there might be, Chishiya thought in his head but wouldn't say it outloud.

"Doubt it," Chishiya mumbled, but you could see that his face said otherwise.

Finally, you got enough room to take a step back. Both of you let out a deep breath. Chishiya forcefully grabbed your bag, making you to look at him with a puzzled and confused expression on your face, but you were quick to connect the dots when he let the bag hang in front of him, making you slam your hand against your mouth to muffle the giggles coming between your lips.

"Can you focus, our stop is next," Chishiya ordered.

When your stop came, you tried to walk past the people blocking the way but they wouldn't move.

"Hey, asshead," you spat and hit the tall man on his shoulder. "Move a little, will you?"

He just shot you a pissed off look, not moving a muscle.

Chishiya grabbed you by your elbow, starting to guide you out other way, but a few other passengers blocked you again.

Then, the doors closed right in front of you, keeping you inside the train as it started to continue its way towards the next station.

"Oh for fuck's sake," you complained, hitting the door with your fist as if that would make it open when the train was already moving.

"Remind me that i will never, ever again step into either an elevator or subway with you," Chishiya warned seriously. "Actually, anything which doesn't have an instant way outside even if things go wrong."

"Is my company that bad?" you pouted.

"I didn't say that," Chishiya sighed. "And don't tell me that i implied it."

"Mhm," you hummed, smiling.

You and Chishiya got off at the next station which wasn't too far away.

"So," you started. "Wanna walk back or want to wait for the next one?"

"We'll walk," Chishiya decided without any hesitation, instantly heading towards the stairs without taking another glance at you.

"Aw, don't be mad," you pouted.

He didn't answer, not looking at you either the entire way you were walking up the stairs.

"Chishiya-" you started when there was only a few steps left.

When you had walked to the top of the stairs, Chishiya pushed you against the nearest wall, putting his hands on both sides of your body on the wall, trapping you there on your spot. You were surprised and taken aback for this reaction and action of his.

"Mad, hm?" Chishiya murmured, raising his eyebrows. "You enjoyed teasing me like that?"

"Actually, i kind of did," you giggled. "You going to punish me or something?"

He narrowed his eyes. "You'd be into that, wouldn't you?"

"Not at all," you denied, shaking your head but he knew you were lying by the smile on your lips. You tried to look as serious as you could but failed at the attempt miserably. "I'd hate it. Despise it. Wouldn't be into it at all. Come on, i deserve it for the suffering i caused you."

"You're impossible."

"I've been told that," you smiled. "I know that you like it. I physically felt that."

I think we should continue this somewhere... dryer?

"You want to continue this elsewhere, huh?" you smirked.

"I didn't say that," he protested.

"You just did," you stated. "And your body is telling me something else than what you're saying."

Chishiya put his hand on your waist, making you flinch of the sudden touch you hadn't been expecting. He trailed his finger along your collarbone first, slowly moving his hand under your chin. He tightened his grip on your waist, bringing his hand just above your waistline. He looked deep into your eyes and pulled you closer against his body until your waist was against his. He slid his hand under your shirt, his cool touch on your bare skin sending shivers down your spine. Whatever he was going to do to you, you wouldn't stop him.

He leaned his face closer towards you and for a mere second you thought he was going to kiss you but instead he brought his face to your ear.

"Two can play this game," he whispered into your ear.

And then, he simply let go of you and walked away. You just stood there for a moment, absolutely dumbfounded, until ran after him to catch up with him.

"Hey, what the fuck was that?" you yelled at him.

"What was?" Chishiya said calmly, imitating you, as if he had no idea what you could have possibly meant.

You shot him an angry glare. "Oh don't play dumb with me," you spat.

"I'm not playing anything," he responded with the same calm tone.

You rolled your eyes. Sure it was fun teasing him, but when he did it to you, it became annoying as hell.

When you arrived outside, it was raining. Neither of you had an umbrella with you, so if you walked home in that weather, you'd be soaked.

"Still wanna walk?" you asked.

"I'm not getting back to the train with you," he protested.

"Come on, the next one won't be as full," you whined.

"Hm, you take the train then, i won't stop you."

"But what if i get robbed when i'm on my own?" you speculated and put your hand on Chishiya's shoulder, making him look at you. "There's always a danger lurking behind a corner to a young, beautiful and unprotected woman, such as I."

"You're a big girl, i think you can handle it," Chishiya replied, managing to pull a comforting smile on his face. "Now, you going to come or not?"

"Fine, i think i wanna tease you a little longer," you insisted and walked by his side. You didn't mind getting wet by the rain, to be honest, it was rather refreshing.

"Hm, lucky me," he mumbled and started leading you towards the correct direction.

"You should feel lucky indeed," you agreed.

He didn't look at you, trying to ignore your presence next to him.

"So, had fun at work today?" you asked, trying to make some conversation to keep you far away from an awkward silence. "Saved many lives?"

"It was alright."

"What kind of doctor are you really?"

"I'm treating children with heart diseases," Chishiya explained, which managed to surprise you. Somehow he hadn't seemed the type to primarily work with children but the thought warmed your heart a little.

"Yeah? So, you'll never be my doctor then?" you sighed, acting a little upset. "There's no chance that you'll treat me if i end up being taken to the hospital?"

He glanced at you with a hint of smile. "We have many good doctors to take care of you if that happens."

"I guess." You let out a deep, dramatically disappointed sigh, but right after a flirtatious smile spread on your lips. "But i wouldn't mind to be examined by you."

"Yeah?" Chishiya asked, glancing at you with a slight smirk but then changing the subject away from himself. "What do you do then?"

"Hm. Guess." You narrowed your eyes, eager to know what he would think about to be your profession.

Chishiya looked at you for a while, examining your face and entire figure.

"Nothing science related at least," he pondered.

"What, i don't look smart enough to you?" you scoffed, crossing your arms against your chest.

"Hey, i'm not commenting on your intelligence level, don't go all defensive and offended right now," he protested. You just rolled your eyes, letting him continue. "Hm, it has to be something creative."

"Oh so i give that stereotypical artist vibe to you?" you asked.

"A little bit maybe. Not like a depressed painter type though," Chishiya pointed out. "But I'd say... an animator."

"That's a surprisingly good guess," you admitted. "I do graphic designing."

He asked a little about what kind of projects you did, and you were slightly taken aback for his interest in that topic, even though it didn't expand in an insanely long conversation.

When you finally arrived back home, your clothes were soaking wet, as you had thought, and so was your hair. You felt your shirt glued on your skin, its fabric really thin.

"So, i-" Chishiya started, but couldn't finish his sentence when he looked at you.

"What?"

His gaze was on your chest, but then he turned to look away from you, shaking his head. You weren't sure because he wasn't fully facing you anymore but his cheeks turned slightly pink.

But when you looked down at your chest, you realized what he had become so embarrassed about. You were wearing a white shirt, but the water had made it a lot more transparent now, showing your red bra through more clearly.

You instantly wrapped your arms around your breasts, embarrassed and cheeks probably turning red too.

This is why you hated white shirts but this one had seemed like it wouldn't show off your bra too bad. Except when it got wet, apparently, which you hadn't tested before this moment.

Chishiya cleared his throat, refusing to look at you. A smirk spread on your face.

"Chishiya," you started, rolling his name in your mouth slowly. "Have you never seen a girl in her bra, hm?" You took a step closer to him, your hands on your hips. "You can look, i don't mind," you said when you had gotten over your own initial embarrassment.

Chishiya glanced at your chest one more time, though not on purpose, his eyes automatically moved down there. He kept his gaze in your eyes now, about to say something but couldn't form the correct words.

"How long did you plan to keep teasing me?" he asked with narrowed eyes.

"Hey, i didn't make it rain outside on purpose," you defended yourself. "Mother nature is one of the things i have no control over."

You'll have to take them off and find out, your voice continued right after.

"I'm not taking them off," Chishiya sighed.

"Aren't we moving a little fast here." You let out a short laugh. "I wasn't saying anything about taking anything off but now i'm intrigued," you said and played with his blond hair. "We'd have to be in a more private area though if you wanted to start stripping me."

Want to have a round two in my room tonight?

"Y/N, we haven't even had a round one," Chishiya stated. He was trying to keep his face calm and emotionless, but he felt his cheeks warming up, again. Yet, continued his own voice in his mind this time. Chishiya wanted nothing more right now than to lean in and kiss you, but he didn't manage to make himself do that. What really was holding him back? You weren't exactly being subtle on what you were thinking and hinting at him.

"Round in what?" you asked, furrowing your brows. "Have i made you that flustered that you're not making sense anymore?"

"It's starting to get into that point, yes," he admitted.

Then, your little moment was interrupted when two men walked down the stairs towards you. You got so startled you automatically took a step away from Chishiya, almost stumbling on your own feet.

It was Jae-sung and his friend from the night you were playing cards together. He had introduced himself to you once, but you had already forgotten his name. They both turned their heads towards you. The other man moved his gaze on your chest, making you instantly cover your breasts with your arms. Jae-sung, on the other hand, was looking at Chishiya.

"Well, hello there. It's been a while since i've seen you," Jae-sung greeted. "What have you been up to?"

"Just, work, i suppose," Chishiya answered, not in a mood to start having a wider small-talk with his neighbor.

Jae-sung glanced at both of you, raising his left eyebrow. "You two know each other?"

"No, not really," you hurried to say. "We, um, just met."

You had no idea how much he had seen of your interaction with Chishiya. Did he see you when you had already pulled away from Chishiya or when you still had your hands on his shoulders? Or heard of your conversation. You weren't suddenly sure how loud you had been talking when you thought you had been alone.

"Mhm," Jae-sung hummed, looking amused. "Well, we have to go now. It was good to see you again, Chishiya. You should hang out with us some day. You can play cards, right?"

"I'll think about it," Chishiya vaguely responded and gave him a polite smile. In his mind was a thought that he wouldn't join them and not even think about it.

Jae-sung and his friend walked past you, but then he stopped right next to you, whispering a few words into your ear. "If you're planning to spend the night in his room, i'll cover for you if Niragi asks anything where you are."

Your eyes widened and when you locked eyes with Jae-sung, he only winked at you with a smug smirk. You didn't know if Chishiya had heard his words but looking at the unbothered expression on his face you assumed he had not.

The two of you started to finally walk upstairs, six painful floors to go – the elevator had now an "out of order" sign attached to it. You were so tired of walking and only wanted to change into your warm pyjamas and go to bed, wrapping yourself in a thick blanket. Neither of you spoke anything as you walked side by side.

"Goodnight, Y/N," Chishiya wished when you had reached your doorstep.

"You're such a gentleman, walking me all the way to my door and all," you smiled, hand on your chest.

"Your door is literally on the way towards my apartment," he pointed out.

"Why do you have to constantly ruin the mood?" you whined.

"Goodnight, Y/N," Chishiya repeated, now putting more weight in his words and turned away from you, starting to walk towards the next staircase.

"Goodnight, Chishiya," you yelled after him before he'd disappear out of sight completely.

When you entered the apartment, Niragi came out of the toilet, located just a few metres from the front door, when you were taking your shoes off. He turned his gaze towards you.

"What the hell are you walking outside looking like that?" Niragi asked loudly, looking at your chest.

"It's not my fault it started raining," you defended yourself and rolled your eyes. "And mind your own damn business."

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You weren't able to fall asleep, tossing and turning in your bed, even though you were tired and more than ready to sleep. All you could think about was the intimate moments with Chishiya earlier and how much you loved to have his hands on your body.

You grabbed a book from the bedside table and started reading it for a while, hoping it would make you feel more tired and help you fall asleep, getting your mind clean of all the thoughts about Chishiya.

After some time, it helped.

Right now, Chishiya had you pinned on the bed under him, holding your hands above your head and planting kisses around your neck and collarbones.

He peppered kisses all around your body as he slowly crawled back, until his head was located between your legs.

"Oh, fuck," you gasped. He moved his hand away for a moment but you quickly stopped him by grabbing his hair. "Wait, can you- can you do that again?"

"Do what again?" Chishiya smirked. "This?"

You opened your eyes again, waking up from the short dream and finding yourself all alone in your own bed, Chishiya nowhere in sight.

Oh hell no, you thought. You were not going to start having sex dreams about your damn neighbor. Hot neighbor, your mind corrected you. It didn't take more than one moment of him touching your body to start fantasizing about him like this.

You stared at the ceiling above you. It had felt so real, like you had actually felt his real touch on your bare skin and it was still lingering there, sending sparks all around your body.

He was cute. Handsome. Interesting. You wouldn't deny that you had some sort of attraction towards him but you had been sure that it was all just teasing and joking around. In the beginning, at least.

This didn't feel like just a joke.

You wanted to go upstairs and knock on his door, not caring that it was one o'clock at night, and make him explain why he made you feel this way and see these flashes on him too. Obviously he couldn't know the answer and would think you were just even more obsessed with him. It was a dream after all – but the previous night playing with the cards? That hadn't been a dream.

You took a pillow in your hands, tightly burying your face on it and letting out a frustrated scream.

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Lying on his own bed one floor above you, Chishiya kept thinking about the moments with you, not able to get you out of his mind.

He could still smell your perfume while pinning you against the wall, face close to your neck. He could still smell your shampoo while having his nose almost buried in your hair, standing right behind you.

You were driving him insane. He was going crazy already on his own without your effort, but you teasing him like that made it thousand times worse. He wanted to tell you to back off and leave him alone – but he didn't actually want that. He liked having you close, keeping you so close to him. He wanted more of you but he was afraid to take that step.

Why? He wasn't sure.

Just do it, the voice in his head said. Just kiss her and then move on with your life.

He hadn't been able to stop thinking about your face in his dream the other night. You kissing him, so gently cupping his face in your hands.

He wanted to go downstairs and knock on your door. To wake you up, grab your hand and lead you into his room. Press you against a wall again and savor every part of you.

But there was something else inside him too when he looked at you. Something what stopped him from just taking you all to himself right there and then. This warm feeling in his heart which wasn't only sexual. You were beautiful, but it wasn't only that.

He couldn't grasp what it was about you. What piece was missing. Something was missing, something he didn't remember and he wanted nothing more than solve this mystery about you. If he didn't have this feeling in his heart, you'd already be laying in his bed.

One more time and he'd break under your touch. One more dream was probably going to be enough.

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A/N: You have no idea how hard it was for me not to make this a smut chapter i was dying.

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Suppose Jackie survived, what would be the dynamic between Shauna and Jacki after the fight?

i think the ultimate tragedy of jackie and shauna is actually this fight could have been what saved them if jackie had lived. their shared 'i dont know where you end and i begin' dream implies that imo. the alternative was always that they never talk and the resentment and need for control grows until Shauna eventually runs away and it forces them to grow apart. in a way, the plane crash offered them the only possible opportunity to save their relationship because what was ruining them was their inability to communicate and given the circumstances (literally trapped in the woods together and forced into each others space constantly) they couldn't hide anymore.

lets say theoretically they find food and survive without cannibalising anyone (because without the very specific circumstances around jackie's death I don't think the descent begins at all so they never even consider the hunt). i dont think they would have had it in themselves to be true rivals, at least jackie wouldnt. its not like she loved jeff, the worst aspect for her was shaunas betrayal because she trusted her. at most they have some sulky silent feud for several months that pisses everyone else off - and that would mostly be because jackies just following shaunas lead on it. jackie wouldnt want to apologise first (rightfully) and shauna would likely be avoiding her entirely so they inevitably end up at a stalemate. but then assuming the whole situation doesnt just make jackie off herself (not unlikely tbh) i just dont see a future where shaunas distressed and in pain giving birth and jackie is apathetic to it, even if she didn't love Shauna deeply shes not cold hearted enough for that. shauna almost dying would have put everything in perspective the way jackie Actually dying did, for both of them. and then following that jackie would also probably be, based on her approach to the wilderness, the only one not acting like a weirdo about the baby. she'd end up being the only one whose actually able to help shauna grieve properly.

then following the ice breaking comes all the conversations they should have had and never did, because now jackie knows about shaunas resentment and theres no hiding anymore. they'd probably actually fall out again for a few short periods in the process lmao, purely because jackie would just poke and prod until she got answers to every single question she'd thought up but not been able to ask for several months, which would piss shauna off. and also jackie just wouldnt like some of the answers Shauna gave. so yeah it wouldnt be all sunshine and rainbows and maybe they throw some shit, but they do talk and its probably pretty cathartic. Imo theres likely still a toxic codependency that grows in a new way because in the face of the others reliance on the wilderness, shauna and jackie are even more of a unit.

I like to think jackie would have bridged the gap between nat and shauna too as the 3 non-believers, just because i could see jackie growing closer to nat more than anyone whilst ostracised. especially if it was nat who brought her in that night. think they would have put the travis thing behind them relatively quick. nats too nice for her own good and i think she'd identify in jackies isolation. also just logically i could see jackie being so desperate to escape the cabin she'd wheedle her way into the hunting outings somehow. but thats more just a headcanon.

so yeah i just cant believe they ever would have become enemies. we saw that if shauna had come out and apologised that same night, jackie would have accepted it and come inside. so no, theres no way the fight ruins them forever. thats what makes the timing of jackies death so cruel and tragic tbh, their friendship would have healed given time but now its just this permanently open wound bleeding all over shaunas life.

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Anonymous asked: also, thats pretty distinctly not vriskas handwriting (page 2196). the hell is terezi even talking about?

Terezi, for god's sake.

@manorinthewoods asked: I'd like to note that Pyralspite's eyes are either an eighth the brightness of Alternia's sun, or Pyralspite has the ability to psychically burn out people's eyes just by wanting to. Probably the former. ~LOSS (30/8/24)

I should have guessed that Vriska's cruel and unusual punishment for Terezi was yet another case of Mindfang Roleplay.

I think it's likely that Pyralspite does have some sort of ocular ability. After all, Terezi's lusus had a vision-based power, and she's probably Pyralspite's direct descendant.

@gogogoat495 asked: Say, what do you think of the reuse/mix of animation and music from Dave: Ascend to Seer: Ascend? Is it a simple callback or are there deeper parallels between the characters and story beats?

Well, they are both lead-ups to a climactic fight between 'siblings'. Other than that, though, I'm not really sure. Dave and Terezi have always got on very well, but I can't really see any direct parallels in their personal arcs.

@manorinthewoods asked: Mindfang's classism is ridiculous. This woman straight up said 'one of such middling 8lood' about someone literally one step below her on the ladder. If she were Tavros, she would be oppressing Aradia so hard. ~LOSS (29/8/24)

In Terezi's own words, she's 'a little too teal' to be considered a true highblood. I think there's a hard line of separation here, where anyone below Vriska's caste is considered a midblood at best.

In other words: to be a blueblood, you really need to be a blue-blood.

@manorinthewoods asked: Nepeta, whose handle is arsenicCatnip, uses arsenic's atomic number as a significant element of her quirk. This implies that arsenic has the same atomic number in Alternia as on Earth, which in turn means that, at the very least, the two universes likely share a periodic table. Odd, given how one has widespread psychic abilities and the other doesn't. ~LOSS (29/8/24)

I think it makes sense that Earth inherited some of its scientific concepts from Alternia. It wouldn't be the first thing we inherited!

@heliotropopause asked: TG: maybe if you kill her at least we can finally stop obsessing over her Hah! homestuck's been over for over for almost eight years now, and people are still doing vriscourse to this day. There is no escape, i'm afraid.

'Vriscourse' is kind of killing me. I'm kind of disappointed that this is my first time hearing the term, because I'd probably have been using it this whole time.

@probablyapineapple asked: im not completely caught up on reading this liveblog yet (currently up to s67) but i think youre on track to understanding these characters better than literally anyone

Well, thank you! I have, admittedly, posted some rather hot takes in the past, though. If I recall correctly, my Act 5 shipping chart was my most controversial post to date.

@bladekindeyewear asked: Back during these times in the comic, there were broad theoryposting camps advocating for both narrower and broader interpretations of Aspect domains/powers. I know you're avoiding as much outside influence as you can, but I'm wondering if maybe after the end of this Act, you could accept some community Theorydiving from around this time that could unlock more tools for you to understand hidden evidence for Aspect Stuff you might have missed? […]

I'm definitely considering something like that. Specifically, I'd love to take a look at some of the comic's early theories - ones that had already been disproven by this point in the comic. That'll allow me to get into the headspace of Homestuck's earliest theorists, without influencing my own as-yet-unproved theories.

@manorinthewoods asked: Perhaps an older Legislacerator's job is less actually trying to pursue justice, and more going through cargo cult-esque rhythms of justice, taking its trappings and trying to bring it about while having no understanding of what they're actually doing and what the meaning of their actions is. Maybe, like the Subjugglators, they're an entire social class/blood color based around a single cult? ~LOSS (28/8/24)

I think Dave was pretty on the mark when he described early legislacerators as bounty hunters. Maybe they assumed something marginally closer to an attorney's role in Alternia's modern age - but in Redglare's era, the ideal legislacerator was a violent thrill-seeker, more concerned with bloody combat than courtroom paperwork.

@violetsquare111 asked: I do wonder how big, exactly, is the multiverse in Homestuck. I guess that's a bit of a weird question if there are "infinite universes"… but infinite potential doesn't mean infinite already-existing universes, does it? For some reason I always thought of the amount of Sburb sessions/universes being fairly small, in the grand scheme of things. Less than a million, maybe. I really don't know where I got that from, and there's probably some throwaway line in the comic contradicting it, but if applicable then it's another possible explanation for how Perfect Jack would be one-of-a-kind.

It's not impossible. That would imply that the overwhelming majority of sessions are doomed to fail - but, honestly, they might be! After all, neither of the sessions we've seen so far have been unambiguously successful.

@iris-in-the-dark-world asked: i had a dream that you went from page 3703 to page 7053 in one day

You dreamt of Sally on Adderall.

@spiddermen asked: hihi i just caught up with your liveblog and im so happy to have a chance to reread hs along with you, the first time i read it was when i was like… twelve? so nine years ago? and pretty much all of it went over my head. but now im finally getting to appreciate this masterpiece and your observations are making a lot of stuff click for me as well. so its cool to finally get to understand how freaking good this story is and i cant wait to see you react to some of the crazy later stuff also i hope this doesnt trip the spoiler sensor but some of the answers to the questions you're asking are only answered in sequel material so i do really hope you'll read those, they're ignored by a lot of the fans but they're honestly really really good and i feel like you're the kind of person who would get the intended experience out of them. and psycholonials as well! everyone ignores it but it practically is homestuck (2) to me

Thank you! And yeah, we've talked a bit about this before. Cat and I had a discussion about the subject back in Act 3, and I'm well aware that this comic isn't going to answer all of my questions. Honestly, it would be pretty surprising if it did - I've been digging really deep into aspects of the comic that are clearly just meant to be background details.

As for whether I'll be dipping into Hussie's other projects, or Homestuck's non-canon material - I'm certainly going to check them out, but only time will tell whether they get the full liveblogging treatment. That said, if it addresses questions of mine that Homestuck itself doesn't elaborate on, consider my interests piqued.

@manorinthewoods submitted: I sorta skimmed Homestuck, and missed out on basically all of the Flashes going through, so I totally missed the fact that WQ wrote a romantic fanfic about herself, which is really funny. It does have a serious aspect, though - it implies something about her relationship with WK, no? I suspect they may be friendly with one another, but fate gives their relationship a bit of tragedy - as well as a bit of 'we are simultaneously both forced to be in a romantic relationship and also only being co-rulers'. Is WQ<3WK a thing? Doesn't have to be. I suspect it may be something like WQ<>WK […]

Plus, Carapacians are clones, so it's not like the Royals need to make any heirs. Really, they only need to be co-workers - but the idea that they might have a moirail-adjacent relationship is very cute.

Anonymous asked: Grimdark Rose: "Vengeance and rage are all I live for now, seeing my dead mother makes me feel nothing, I will-" John: Exists Rose: "OMG bestie hiiiiii" ~DJ

First Vriska, now Rose. It seems like John's the perfect calming influence for any out-of-control Light Player.

Anonymous asked: Not sure if you noticed, the tapestries about the kids' quests are all referencing the [S] pages with misattributed quotes associated with each kid (pages 82, 307, 444, and 2988). The quotes are, respectively, from Maxims by Francois de La Rochefoucauld, The Waste Land by T.S. Eliot, Drop It Like It's Hot by Snoop Dogg, and possibly an original piece by Hussie ending with a line from Hamlet. I don't think any of them mean anything.

The quotes might not be Hussie originals, but they definitely seem to evoke the kids' respective Quests. Dave's quote is a bit of an exception, though...

Anonymous asked: "They wait for he who would drop it while it's hot whilst the pimp's in the crib." I mean, you laugh NOW, but knowing Andrew and this comic, can you honestly say this won't end up having an incredibly important and literal meaning? @walkerbehindyou asked: Is there a quest more suited for Dave than to show up at his denizen’s (certainly the pimp of LOHAC) palace in the past and drop straight fire?

...but perhaps that means it's foreshadowing something we haven't seen yet. If Dave ends up making a Choice, I wouldn't put it past him to rap an answer to his Denizen.

@iris-in-the-dark-world asked: the soundtrack of the grimdark rose segment really gets to me. i'd highly recommend the first few songs of that album

Black Rose/Green Sun was a great song. It evoked a very different feeling than anything we've heard before, and really highlighted how alien Rose has become, now that she's been fully submerged in darkness.

@manorinthewoods asked: Ooh, here's an idea - when you do the Sahlee-and-Sally Let's Play, set it in an alternate Sburb that's based on all of your incorrect theories. Every Land has a God Tier Moon orbiting it, for instance. Would be really cool - your theoretical Sburb has a lot of super fun stuff in it. ~LOSS (12/8/24)

Oh, I like that idea. It means I can finally bring back the anti-Skaia, which is probably my favourite since-disproven theory.

Anonymous asked: I never realised that the pillow that Rose uses then is the one from her mum - well spotted :,(

A mother will do whatever is best for her children.

And a daughter will remember what was best about her mother.

Anonymous asked: So. Do you think that a Horrorterror-Boosted Rose has any chance against a First Guardian Prototyped Jack Noir? We've seen that if left alone Jack can destroy Entire Worlds and his teleporting is Nigh Instant, plus who knows how far he can go in a single teleport! […]

Dark Rose is arguably a God-Tier level threat, but we've just seen Jack one-shot a God Tier. I don't think she has a hope - there's only so many bullet-time stabbings she can take!

Anonymous asked: its really interesting to see you say that rose saying she felt mom was a sister and a mother at once made u feel like there must have been camraderie. for me, it reinforced the idea that moms parenting forced rose to act like a peer to mom when it came to her alcoholism? in the sense that moms alcoholism took her out of commission, and made it so that rose had to take care of herself in a lot of ways that a parent would, putting them on similar levels. So its interesting to see a different interpretation!

It's not impossible. To me, Rose's monologue reads as if she's trying to express her admiration of her mother. This is the first time she's admitted to having positive feelings for her guardian, and I think she's regretting that she never voiced these feelings to the woman herself, before it was too late.

That's just one reading of her words, though. I think her monologue here is meant to be ambiguous, just like the Lalonde mother-daughter relationship always was.

@manorinthewoods asked: Ooh, you're thinking of a Carapacian player, huh? That would be interesting - imagine if they go in with, like, complete knowledge of how Sburb works, so they prototype something super strong in order to buff the Ring that they then steal and equip. ~LOSS (12/8/24)

That would be interesting. Carapacians are the only species where the game can't fully compensate for the power of your race by buffing Underlings, since buffing the Underlings would also buff the Ring I'm abusing!

@skelekingfeddy asked: re: troll romance: i generally lean towards xenopsychology, mixed in with a secret 4th thing (humans can also feel troll romance), with a little dose of propaganda, and also an undercurrent of parody (because Hussie. everything has an undercurrent of parody (e.g. pretty much all the trolls are based on internet stereotypes). i COMPLETELY disagree with the notion that the quadrants are made up unhealthy bullshit. i think theres a genuine evolutionary biological origin for the quadrants if matespritship is all about Companionship, then kismesissitude is all about Competition, Rivalry, a drive to push yourself and make yourself better. both are generally healthy and beneficial in their own ways. the evolutionary basis for moirallegiance and auspisticism is the need for pacification, a better half, to prop up matespritships and kismesissitudes and keep them from being interfered with (as described in-comic). each quadrant is the result of a genuine primal, biological urge

I don't necessarily think the quadrants are fabricated, but I do think that the version of them that exists on Alternia are unhealthy more often than not, particularly when it comes to black romance. Monogamous auspisticism requires an overwhelming amount of emotional labor, all the kismesissitudes we've seen have been toxic at best, and there has to be a better way to do this.

Anonymous asked: My brother's been going through your liveblog recently and it's been fun getting to re-experience it through him, especially being reminded of all the theories you have that are shockingly accurate in very inaccurate ways. The two that come to mind are your theory that Jade was engineered in a lab (which, she kinda was, but that's not unique to her) and that John's version of Sburb is bugged (the meteors, it turns out, were a part of the game as it's meant to be played, but this whole 'tumour' thing sure isn't). Also, while I'm here, going to recommend checking out Temporal Shenanigans by Rachel Rose Mitchell, which is a gorgeous fansong about Aradia that shouldn't have any spoilsies at this point. I would also rec PhemieC's music with the caveat that many of their songs are spoilery - while most of the troll-specific ones should be alright, I'd definitely say to get someone else to go through them first to be certain. Hope you're doing well!! And I look forward to seeing more of your liveblog if and when you return to it! -Megido

Oh yeah, I was talking about how Jade was made in a lab! I'd totally forgotten about that theory.

You know, her Dreambot is actually interesting in retrospect. The bed that controls it looks suspiciously like a Quest Bed, which makes me wonder just how much Grandpa knew about Sburb's lore, and what exactly he was trying to do here.

Anonymous asked: I find it a bit funny (in good way) how aspects of your troll and human sona are kinda opposites, like life and death type of thing, sweet

Really, it's mostly just me hedging on my own Aspect. Plus, having two 'sonas lets me explore twice as much Sburb lore, allowing me to come up with two weapons, Lands, Title powers, and the like.

Within the hypothetical context of the fic, I've been thinking a lot about why there'd be two Sallys. Like, was one 'sona partially cloned from the other? If so, who was the original? Technically, the Alternian version would have existed 'first', but the existence of time travel ensures that that doesn't mean much.

@manorinthewoods asked: Rather appropriate that Rose's weapon is her Thorns. ~LOSS (10/8/24)

Ayyy!

@ipunchvampires asked: "You should understand [Rose has] been corrupted by various entities with some rather questionable motives," says Entity with Rather Questionable Motives corrupting her. Kind of the perfect Doc Scratch line, honestly.

Doc Scratch is an awful person, but he's still a funny fuck.

@heliotropopause asked: wait. is that *Guybrush Threepwood* in the boat there??? @elkian asked: At the risk of being the 88th person to say something, the troll in the dinghy is a Guybrush Threepwood cameo (using the more cartoony style from Curse Of Monkey Island etc.). Man's truly unfortunate, or maybe he's lucky for not being a focal character? XD Anonymous asked: that 'one random motherfucker on a little dinghy' is in fact, guybrush threepwood from the monkey island series, thrown in as an easter egg by one of the artists who made assets for the flash @sanctferum asked: the troll on the dinghy is Troll Gybrush Threepwood. the guest artist for that scene confirmed this on the now-defunct MSPA forums IIRC

Ahahaha. Mystery solved, I guess!

I've been wanting to play Monkey Island for some time - and now I need to, so that I can understand the true backstory of of GY'BRSH TRPWUD.

Anonymous asked: I love this section, because I think it really shows something about Dave (and Rose). Because Dave just says whatever pops into his head, when he's getting command prompts, he just repeats them uncritically. (That also supports that when he said he didn't love his Bro, it was his honest reaction) @ben-guy asked: David "Zero Filter" Strider was absolutely not ready to have thoughts beamed directly into his head by an exile lmao @krixwell asked: It's so funny to me how when thoughts are incepted into Dave's subconscious mind, they just come falling right back out his mouth at the first opportunity. Filter, what filter? Those sunglasses don't hide shit.

Reminds me of his stress-rambles from early on in the comic. The reason he wears those shades is, I think, because he is a naturally expressive person - he just doesn't want to be.

[lari-the-dragon]

I'm seriously thinking about joining the RTV AU as well, but I know very well that my persona will be a punching bag most of the time lol-

...

Anyway, she would be a shapeshifter with extra powers, but they are temporarily limited, being useful during a certain period time but with a great cost afterward. For example, she can stay invisible, but only for up to 1 hour, if she exceeds this time, her magic will deplete very quickly, leading her to a state of 'hibernation' that can last from 1 to 3 days, in certain cases even an entire week, like when she stays in a strong form for too long...So she rathers stop immediately after this happens, causing her to reveal/show herself.

She can't transform into people, only certain specific animals, and even so, she doesn’t copy them 100%, having differences here and there that make her stand out in the animal or being she transformed into...Her strongest forms is a eldritch horror thing and a dragon (ANOTHER DRAGON PERSON?!?!?)

"Is there a way to know when she’s running low on magic?"

Actually, yes. She uses a necklace with a purple crystal that she carries everywhere and refuses to take off at all costs (for some reason). If this crystal appears pale in color, it means her magic is depleted, and in the few minutes she still has left awake, she will look for a hidden place far from everyone to hibernate.

"How wasn't she brainwashed like the others?"

That’s a great question, but maybe it’s related to the necklace that she always wears and also to the fact that she is not a TV fan....And also because she lives in the middle of a freaking forest isolated from everything and everyone.

"What happened during the brainwashing period?"

At first, she was confused because no one was online anymore or replying to her messages. Then she got even more confused when everything she saw on social media was a TV headed guy called RTV, she had never seen him in her life until now...She thought it was just a huge event about some famous person, and everyone was crazy about him, so she didn’t care much at first...But during her occasional trips to the city, she noticed that everyone was acting...Strange? She didn’t know how, but it seemed like everyone started to hate SMG4? She didn’t know much about the guy, but from what she’d heard, he was just a meme guardian of the place who was adored by everyone, at least up until now-

After a long while, she finally putted two and two together, and realized the gravity of the situation, avoiding going out of her house more and more because of that, rarely leaving to get food, but even that was becoming dangerous, forcing her to hunt animals in emergencies. Well, that wasn’t too hard since she could transform, but even so, she felt bad about doing it, so most of the time she was eating fruits back then.

A few weeks later, some people came very close to her house’s area, and fearing the worst, she transformed into something scary to scare them away. Some tried to persist, but she just yeeted them away, not wanting to seriously hurt anyone...But obviously, rumors of a monster in the forest arose, which caught the attention of a certain someone...Some guards entered her zone, and she did the same as last time. But then she thinked that he might know her location, so she migrated to a cave far from her house...Staying there and developing a mindset that anyone who saw her...Would have to be killed...This was the only way for her to stay out of RTV’s direct sights and survive this apocalypse, even though the idea of killing people who weren’t even at fault for anything was, well, terrifying and uneasy. After all, it wasn’t their fault that they no longer had control over their own minds and were being puppeteered by a lunatic with a TV head! She had no idea why no one had taken him down yet- he didn’t seem strong- at least she thought she could take him on easily...Big mistake thinking that...Big mistake.

Days staying alone make her get quite anxious and empty from not having contact with people throughout this process and wondered if any of her friends, or anyone in general, still had their minds in the right place. But her fear of finding out that something might have been done to them or that they had been controlled drove her a bit insane and paranoid about anyone.

One day, however, some explorers (I guess RTV have people to look at anything out of order) entered her cave, and she immediately turned invisible as they ventured further inside...But remember her time limitation? Yeah- she was a bit too close to them when she suddenly became visible again...And remembering her mindset...They're no longer among us. She left their bodies hanging on some stalagmites as some kind of warning to others who might enter...And so, her collection of people began to grow a bit more and more to the point where, besides talking to the dead, she started to develop habits of roaring, growling, and hissing every time someone new entered the cave...She wasn't a monster before, but thanks to RTV and her paranoid, she began to immerse herself in her new role as one.

But not so many days later, two people entered...RTV's guards specifically...She was already preparing to pounce at them when she noticed it was Swag and Chris...She hesitated and backed off, recognizing them as the guards she really loved seeing, before all this chaos started. Unfortunately, they saw the bodies of the other people and ran off to report it to their boss...She had a horrible feeling in her gut that sparing them would have been her downfall. She could flee and migrate again...But she wanted to face RTV head-on, take him down once and for all, avenge everyone he brainwashed...Another mistake...And one she would remember forever.

It didn’t take long for 'The Man itself' to show up and investigate himself, after all, he doubted that anyone could have caused him so much trouble and also managed to stay hidden for so long. When he saw the scene, he found it...interesting...Maybe he could use it as a horror story? Or as a tale of how he heroically defeated and saved everyone from the beast hiding here to boost his popularity? Well, speaking of the beast, she emerged from the shadows and tried to attack RTV, of course, not before being shot a few times by the guards right behind him. But she assumed that getting rid of him would also get rid of the others, so she focused solely on RTV, who didn’t take long to put her in her place.

So he noticed her necklace and immediately removed it, forcing her back to normal, and thus he realized that it was thanks to this small object that he could now force her to take the form he wanted, not her. He could kill her I mean, get her out this place for an indefinite period, or use her to instill fear or gain greater respect from others by showing that he had brought the monster to its knees...The idea was appealing, and that’s exactly what he did.

After removing the bullets and applying some bandages here and there, RTV left her confined in a room where she spent most of her time sleeping to recover her energy and regenerate some of the damage she had suffered. Since the crystal was responsible for controlling her powers as she wanted, but now being in RTV's possession, she could no longer transform at will- only during her insane outbursts when she clawed and tried to break the place to escape. This led to her constantly being muzzled and chained to prevent her outbursts...

"Does she eat?"

Yes, of course...The difference is that feeding her can be quite challenging since they had to remove her muzzle, and she wasn’t much of a fan of anyone there, causing some scratches and even bites in the process...Although she avoided seriously hurting anyone out of fear that RTV might do something to control her... Swag and Chris were sometimes sent there... And since she was a fan of them, she seemed to be calmer and would sometimes talk to them...She usually responds to yes or no questions by nodding or shaking her head and rarely speaking if necessary...The most random question she heard was from Swag (obviously) asking, 'Are you gay?' Her first reaction was to look at him somewhat perplexed before starting to make a sound that seemed like laughter and shaking her head negatively...She adored the two of them, what a shame they’re not in control of themselves.

"What was she used for?"

Every time RTV had problems with some type of rebellion, he (accompanied by a few guards for security measures) would release her and force her to take on a terrifying form to show the rebels that if he could bring a monster like her to heel, they would be no trouble for him. And occasionally, when there were still people disobeying him, he made her kill them and recorded the scene with his head to replay it as if it were a horror show...

And one day, she came across the resistance, and RTV wanted to eliminate them using her. Despite her killing most of the others with some complaints and direct provocations toward RTV, seeing a group that perhaps had a 0.0000001% chance of putting an end to him made her snap. Instead of getting rid of them, she had the brilliant idea of attacking RTV again. Of course, the resistance took advantage of the commotion to flee, and Lari...Took a stab from her precious crystal in the chest, immediately collapsing 'dead,' but not before punching RTV’s screen as revenge...

Well, little needed to say that RTV was furious about this and also for having lost track of the resistance, ordering Swag and Chris to dispose of her body. And so they did, throwing her into the sea...But she was alive, having pretending to be dead the whole time...Managing to reach the surface with difficulty and nearly passing out in the process, but not before seeing a familiar hand extended to her...SMG4, and Beeg on his shoulder, apparently they followed the two goofballs there in hopes of finding a new ally...And it seems they’ve found one now.

"What's her relationship with the resistance?"

She is extremely loyal to SMG4 and Beeg, willing to kill for them. Now Mickey...We don't talk about Mickey...She doesn't like him, especially due to the poor choices he's made with his movie studio in the last years, she thinks he deserved to go bankrupt.

SMG4 considers her an ally and maybe even a friend? She considers him a friend/savior.

Beeg finds her tolerable and an ally, and she considers him a friend/savior.

Mickey tolerates and hates her, but the feeling is mutual this time.

If something bad is happening, her focus is on protecting SMG4 and Beeg. As for Mickey? He can fend for himself! He's a rat! He can escape by crawling into a sewer or something like that.

Also, thanks to being literally impaled by the crystal that gave her powers, she is now able to change her form and transform whenever she wants. However, she still limits it because she doesn't want to hibernate and put others in danger, so she avoids using it as much as possible. The damage she suffers is now doubled, and her regeneration has become severely weakened because of it. If she's shot or takes a strong hit exactly where RTV impaled the crystal, she'll die... Mickey seems quite tempted to do just that.

(Fun facts: She is not the same as the one in the tour, since this one revealed her face, and started using the mask after the whole incident with RTV, she keeps the mask on top of her head, only putting it on when she's on the run...In short, two different people.)

(RTV doesn't know she still alive, since she uses her mask whenever he or anyone else is near.)

(Despite everything she had done, she still blindly believe she is not the one to blame...Which is kinda true...But it wasn't RTV who killed all those people...Was it?)

DONE!-

@4thwallbreakerdraws2 please do tell me if there's anything i need to clarify or change! I had no idea if this concept was good enough for the AU, and i was afraid in doing a comic and messing things up badly- so there it is! PLEASE JUDGE ME!-

[falloutnewnobody]

lost this post twice because tumblr mobile ui hates me but yeah daniil dankovsky ed headcanons because i saw something that made me think of it earlier and now i cant stop thinking about it. (also the highest honor i can bestow on my blorbos is my specific brand of bulimia so yeah)

obligatory eating disorder and suicide mention trigger warning. i try to avoid triggering shit but this is also an eating disorder hc post. there's gonna be descriptions of thought processes and mentions of behaviors.

daniil dankovsky strikes me as a classic case of "undiagnosed autistic, perfectionist, mentally ill tween/teen who feels like they have no control over their life and develops AN (anorexia nervosa) as a means to cope," (i can also see him having a lot of health mortality anxiety in the vein of "if i dont eat perfect i'm going to die before i can cure death,") His parents forced him into treatment because he was like. yk. dying and shit. which was traumatizing as hell because treatment, especially forced treatment on an autistic person is like that 70% of the time.

Then he just kinda spends the next few decades caught up in the "liminal space of wanting to relapse in full again but doesnt have the resources or mental ability to -> relapse -> quasi recovery -> liminal space cycle," his first relapse was AN -> BN (bulimia nervosa) and he's been on and off that bulimia grind a la The Liminal Space Cycle ever since.

I give him bulimia not just to project but also because i like the idea of him kicking himself for having a "lesser" ed. (a common ed thought is the heierarchy of eds, where some are considered "better," than others)

He's extremely high functioning, excpecially during his liminal space and quasi recovery periods in large part due to his abuse of substances to combat some of the more glaring side effects and medical knowledge making him the king of harm reduction. Even when he gets bad, he's scarily good at hiding his ed (gloves to hide russel's sign. multilayered clothing, smoking to hide the smell. i have more specific examples but dont want to give tips yk) until it reaches critical mass and he's lost the ability to do his work, which along with external support from colleuges and people who look up to him, kicks him into quasi recovery.

i think he was knee deep into a relapse when he went on his steppe vacation due to the stress of probably losing Thanatica (and also autistic burnout, a bunch of other mental health and substance abuse issues hitting critical mass after so long of not really adressing them them). He did binge then purge once during the twelve days (in a "if i eat a large quantity of my meager rations now i wont binge and purge them later -> oh shit oh fuck whoever couldve forseen this kinda way). and simoltaneuosly freaked the fuck out and felt a little reassured because that was all the food he could afford and this his chances of starving to death shot up dramatically.

In all of the endings (termite, utopian, and humble) he hits rock bottom and grabs a jackhammer. like, he's still lost the thenatica and was massively traumatized by *gestures vaugley at the events of pathologic classic hd and the pathologic 3 demo.

like i know we dont really get a good picture as to what happens to him post-canon (though we know he returns to the capitol for at least some time according to the patho 3 demo) but i honestly think he gets pathologic-5150'd (realistically by serafima or someone from the town who came to the capitol as a witness for the sand plauge disaster) and spends some time in residential treatment, something he's initially against because he thinks himself too capable with too many responsibilites but comes around to it, realizing that he definetly wouldve killed himself if not for it.

I think he returns to the town, or in the case of the utopian ending, the new town on the other side of the river, mostly because there's nothing left for him in the capitol and his fractured psyche needs something different. i like to think he fully recovers someday and develops a half-decent support network but with him you never know.

[marshallpupfan]

Well...

I learned some PAW Patrol news today that, I must admit, has left me rather disappointed. Don't worry, this isn't a rant or anything. I just wanted to talk a bit about it.

If you were to ask me who my favorite PAW Patrol character is, my answer is obviously Marshall. As for my second-favorite? It's not one of the other main pups or any of the part timers. That's not to say none of them are on my favorites list though, as Chase, Rocky and Everest are in my top ten, just to name a few.

No, my second-favorite PAW Patrol character is... Claw!

Seriously, I just love this doberman. In fact, I became a fan before even getting to see him in action in the cartoon. The moment he first popped up in a leaked Rescue Knights image, I quickly fell in love with his design, especially his awesome-looking armor. That, and he was flying around on a huge dragon, which... come on, that's cool. And when I finally got my chance to watch him in an episode? In my opinion, he did not disappoint. For me, he's not only one of the most memorable aspects of Rescue Knights, but of season 8, period.

Naturally, once the subseries came to an end, I kept hoping that, someday, we'd return to it and see him again. Or, if anything, he'd pull a Sid and Arrby and appear in some regular episodes. Sadly, two and a half seasons have gone by since then, and both he and Rescue Knights have been a no show. Despite that, I held on to the hope that he'd eventually pop up in the cartoon again.

Regrettably, I might have to let go of that hope.

(Source)

Some of you might doubt this information, but Tybsy has provided many accurate leaks and insider info in the past, and he continues to do so. I've learned to trust his words.

It seems that, for some reason, the writers have been told to avoid pitching ideas for episodes based around Rescue Knights. Worse yet, they were told to do the same with Dino Rescue. Not only does this mean there's a slim chance of seeing Claw again, but possibly even Rex, too... another pup who I'd love to see more in the cartoon.

Now, there's a possible reason for them to do this with Rex and Dino Rescue. Given that a few sites have already started listing the third film with the name "The Dino Movie", it's possible it will indeed be quite similar, at least in some way, to Dino Rescue. It may even involve Rex! Currently, we still don't know for sure, but there have been some hints here and there that suggest he might be involved.

EDIT - I forgot there was another leak some time ago involving some file that relates to the third movie, and the metadata specifically mentioned Rex. There's a very, very good chance he'll be in the movie!

And although Tyby jokes, it is possible, however unlikely, that they do want to avoid creating continuity errors with what we've already seen with Dino Rescue. Just look at the errors we got with The Mighty Movie and the season 10 Mighty Pups episodes, most of which still confuse viewers to this day. If I were running things, I'd absolutely tell the team to make sure that DOES NOT happen again...

Rescue Knights, on the other hand? I see no logical reason to avoid it. I have my doubts that Claw or his dragon will appear in a theatrical film, especially before certain other characters (not impossible, but I wouldn't bet money on it), and I'm going to assume we'll never see him in Rubble & Crew or the two Youtube spinoffs, so... what gives? To make matters worse, now that the main TV series has switched to a new style, they'll have to modify or remake Claw's model to match the new designs, and I can't see that being a high priority. Again, not impossible... but it certainly doesn't help his odds.

My hope of seeing Claw again isn't 100% dead or anything, but I can't help but feel pessimistic about his chances. To think, all this time, it never happened because Rescue Knights has been restricted from appearing in future episodes. That's so disappointing, you know? I can only hope that they do indeed have something special planned someday for Claw, or they'll finally lift that restriction on his subseries... but truth be told, I'm not going to get my hopes up.

Well, here's to you, Claw. Even if we don't see you again, you'll always remain my favorite (ex) knight of Barkingburg! Still, here's hoping that we do get to see you again... someday.

[akkpipitphattana]

aw, man. i actually don't like conflict or negativity, and i hate that some ppl seem determined to pit the couples against each other in the first place, but i've seen/read two things in particular today that have got my hackles up (the poll being one) so i'm gonna say it: i don't think i've seen a single post that enthuses about kb at the expense of fs (maybe one anon but that's bout it), whereas the number of times scrolling through the tag i've seen ppl feel the need to crow about how much more invested they are in fs, how fs are carrying the show, etc. - yes, we all vibe with different characters/dynamics and that's fine - vibe away! nay, enthuse away! but, shocker, you can actually do that without invoking your lack of interest in kb (which, frankly, is your loss!). and, since i'm being blunt, there are, imo, two fairly obvious main reasons for the scale of the disparity (so beyond general variation in taste), and neither are particularly flattering for those in question, so i'm not gonna say them out loud! and that's because i recognise some things you can just keep to yourself, and that way everyone gets to have a good time! sorry to be bitchy, but when stuff like that is in the general tag it's hard to avoid, and even though i know i should just brush it off (cos everyone's entitled to their wrong opinions!), it gets me down nonetheless.

yeah, i'll never understand the need to pit them against each other for one reason or the other tbh. like you said, everyone has their own feelings and opinions and sometimes you're just gonna be drawn to one couple over the other, or one character over the other! i know i personally enjoy both fadelstyle and kantbison, and i adore all of our main four characters in their own ways. it's funny cause in the first few episodes, i was sort of flipping back and forth in terms of who i was more invested in, which was honestly a shock to me because while i have enjoyed joongdunk in the past, their shows and characters haven't compelled me in the same ways that firstkhao's have, so i went into thk figuring that they would be the ones to hold my attention the most. and while that did end up being the case, fadel and style have ALSO become beloved to me in their own ways and there was even a period in the beginning of the show where i was MORE invested in them! but kb have definitely captured my attention the most and again, it does just come down to personal taste - i find the layers of their story to be personally more compelling, and i find kant's character specifically to be incredibly fascinating because of the absolute lack of agency he really has in anything he does up until now.

but again, it's all a matter of personal taste. i recognize not everyone is going to view these characters the same way i do or have the same attachment, and that's okay! and it's very odd to me the way that a lot of people who prefer fs will choose to hate on kb or flaunt which one they prefer more. like if you post about the things you love, we'll get the message either way without you needing to bring down the other pair and make others feel bad for enjoying them. i don't think anyone before now has really questioned which couple i prefer, but the only time i ever actually acknowledged that (outside of this ask) was to say that i was SAD fs didn't interest me more because i do genuinely enjoy them as characters, but kb take up so much of my brain that i just can't focus on them as much.

and it's not to say if you wanna be a hater, you can't be a hater, like that's fine. but at the same time idk. people that DO like those things don't wanna see that when they're just trying to enjoy the tag of their fave show, yknow? but that's also why i at least prefer to keep to my dash instead of going into tags, cause i prefer keeping it to those i trust to keep it tasteful than those that will go into main tags and shout their hate for things from the rooftops sjdfsdkj

[inanimateinsanitywiki]

please please talk about the osc dark ages. i avoided it for awhile i think. i need to know just how shitty and poorly-made object shows were back then. looks at you with my big wet eyes.

when i talk about the "dark ages" of the osc, i'm specifically talking about a time period spanning from the mid-to-late 2010s.

the "dark ages" are marked by a sudden drop in activity from most popular object shows, and the prominence of cringe culture in that era. around this time, a lot of popular object show creators were at an age where they were now full-time college students, leaving them with very little time to work on their shows. inanimate insanity was releasing about one episode per year at this point, and bfdi was completely inactive. i don't know much about what the huangs were doing during this time, but i do know that for ii, things were MESSY behind the scenes. i followed adam's deviantart journals pretty actively around this time, and he often talked about his struggles with his decision to study animation professionally, and how he was unsure of the show's future. there was actually a time where he briefly stepped down of the director of the show, but it thankfully didn't last long. (fun fact! baseball's monologue in s2e10 about his inability to lead his alliance was ad-libbed by adam, and was a reflection of how he felt about his ability to direct the show and its team at the time.) the inanimate insanity kickstarter was launched towards the tail-end of this time period, and it's extremely likely the show wouldn't have continued at all had it not been funded.

the other major contributor was the rise of "cringe culture". we're talking about a time where youtubers like filthy frank and leafyishere absolutely DOMINATED youtube. the internet was not an environment that appreciated any kind of joyous whimsy and unabashed love of your interests. many osc creators and alumni were in their late teens, which is already an age where you become mildly to severely irony-poisoned, but the culture of the time only made it worse. object shows were seen as Dumb and Lame, even by the people who had spent years of their life working on them. multiple "joke" object shows released, the most famous of which being object redundancy (i actually can't find the year this one released, as its only kept alive via reuploads now, none of which have a date), and my goat, object show 87. if you want to get a feel for the community around this time, os87 is the poster child for it. it's full of edgy and offensive jokes (i mentioned this already, but there's a character who's name is straight up a slur, or at least a very offensive term), outdated references (keemstar is a contestant.), and an almost unrelenting hatred for popular object show tropes. object show 87 is a show that HATES the fact that it's an object show. it's honestly fascinating to me, and i've considered making a video essay on it. and it wasn't even a show made by some randos, object show 87 was made by SAM THORNBURY and XANYLEAVES. these weren't some random assholes with a hateboner for the genre, these were some of the most prolific creators and animators in the community.

it was an absolutely miserable time to be an object show fan. the stream of new episodes and shows had dried up, and what DID come out was just a bunch of edgy teenagers going "haha object shows are so doopid. i am going to say a slur now". it was not a good time to have object show autism.

[raven-at-the-writing-desk]

an observation

YOU KNOW WHAT 😭 Rollo’s even more neurotic than I initially thought he was, and now I’m realizing it may be a coping mechanism for his trauma… If you think about, there’s a clear pattern in his behaviors: they all amount to maintaining a strict and methodical routine:

Keeping things clean, to the point where he rises before sunlight every day and climbs up the stairs to clean and ring the Bell of Salvation. This must be something he has been doing for a LONG time, which is how he got those very noticeable dark circles under his eyes.

On the subject of keeping things clean, there is an instance of Rollo letting his facade slip and getting mad when a goat (an animal, which he considers unhygienic) comes close to him and tries chewing on his robes. This indicates (at least to me) that he can react negatively when his ideas of cleanliness are not adhered to. The outbursts are not always loud or violent; other instances of disgust are indicated by him holding his handkerchief over his nose.

Rollo specifically cites that he likes the Bell of Salvation and wishes that more things were like it. It rings when it should and it is silent when it should be, and “nothing is […] more appropriate and certain.”

Eats the exact same lunch 24/7, 365 days of the year (2 croissants, 16 grapes, and 1 cafe au lait). I presume he must have similar restricted menus for his other meals as well.

Rollo extols the virtues of a strict routine, which helps him abstain from “unnecessary desires” and recommends that others do the same.

Buys the same plain white paper and envelope set all the time, even when the vendor offers him a better deal.

Man absolutely LOSES IT when a goat tries to eat his stationary; this implies that he may have struggles coping with changes to what he is normally used to, or just general disruptions to his routine.

He seems bothered by the idea of abandoning a task he has set his mind to, even if the task annoys him (like tending to all the gargoyles).

Rollo is very strict in general about keeping to a schedule.

This one is more open to interpretation, but he chooses to communicate via letters instead of via social media or e-mail, even though he clearly lives in a time period where he could easily access electronics. This implies to me a fixation on the past and older ways of doing things rather than adapting to what’s new and modern (though Rollo also says this is a method to avoid careless wording).

He openly states he likes to keep things orderly and consistent.

Routines are familiar. Routines are safe. There is a comfort to be found in that sense of sameness. Maybe Rollo feels content retreating to order because it’s preferable to leaving himself vulnerable to chance, to the wiles of the world that may have no mercy on him just like it had no mercy for his brother… Something he couldn’t predict or plan for, something he was totally powerless to stop�� 😭 But meanwhile, there’s a certainty in the ability to control his activities, a comfort to relying on the same events to play out every day…

Those are just some musings I had! 🤡 I’ve been stewing in the new Rollo content and obsessively reviewing it the last several hours, squeezing what juices I can from it…

[drdemonprince]

Autistic friend anon here — thank you so much for your answer and the substack post. I was kind of stuck in the “rejection” feeling of “wait but if being autistic isn’t a bad thing then why are you so upset at the idea that YOU might be autistic”. I took it really personally and wasn’t really thinking about how much it sucks when someone acts like they know you better than you do. I’ll have to keep working through that.

I also often get stuck in the idea that “well if someone had just TOLD ME I was queer/trans/autistic then I could have figured it out sooner and life would be better” or whatever. But after many years of being out as queer/trans, I think that isn’t actually true and even if it is, I don’t interact with other possibly queer/trans people by “diagnosing” them with queerness/transness any more. In my head it seemed like autism was different for some reason, but of course it is not.

Anyway, your answer was really thoughtful and diplomatic, while also being very clear about what is bad behavior on my part. It is genuinely going to be a big benefit in my life.

Hey, nice to hear from you again!

I totally feel you. When I told a friend years ago that I thought she might be a BPDer, I was incensed that she ended up not taking that comment well. I meant it in an affirming, pro-Mad-Pride kinda way! I was a BPDer too! if she thought it was bad to be BPD, what did that mean she thought about me?

But I was looking at it the wrong way. I had just hurled a still very stigmatized label in her direction as a response to her complaining about real relational struggles in her life, which felt diminishing and presumptive. Telling various people in my life that I'm pretty sure they're Autistic can have a similar effect, even if they're on board Autism acceptance as an idea.

I used to fixate on the time I lost not realizing I was trans or queer or whatever the fuck I am yet. I had a vision of an older me materializing before me at age 16, specifically on the corn-lined roads I used to bike up and down furiously, and imagined telling myself the Truth of who I was and what I had to do to be happy. I believed that if i had known I was trans younger I would have avoided a lot of upsetting relationships, eating disordered periods, and general angst.

Now. I am pretty damn sure that is not true. It turns out that being trans was not a solution to all my problems, it was just another problem that I had. In the sense that it's a challenge to navigate on this bitch of an earth. if i hadn't chosen to be trans i would have chosen some other shit to do that also would have been a major pain in the ass i'm sure. that too would have been an interesting back story.

I dont think I was ever going to be outgoing and unneurotic and breezily well adjusted. That's not my lot in life. Feeling a little uncomfortable in my body and around other people is as definitional a part of me as my wit or my weird laugh. I can kinda love that about myself now, or at least accept it. nothing and nobody actually could have saved me. its just not that simple. but it's been a pretty interesting life.

i think we tend to impose our self-narratives onto other people when we are not happy or we are harboring deep regrets about having gotten something wrong or missed something in the past. but we cant spare our friends those journeys. they should get to have them. it's interesting and enriching to get things wrong, be in denial, cope in elaborate stupid ways, soul search, change our minds, miss something, find something, never know what's true.